In the last chapter of the season, there was still another discovery to be examined. The surprise realization a new affirmation brings, uncovers an even deeper layer of healing and understanding. While reading a new book, a chapter unlocks the

Chapter Fifteen, Bread Crumbs | Part Two

Nov 1st, 2020 32m 50s

In part two of Bread Crumbs, I continue the discovery of becoming the witness of life unfolding, instead of the victim. I was coming in to the realization that the universe wasn’t setting me up to fail but was in fact leading me to where I want

Chapter Fourteen, Bread Crumbs | Part One

Nov 1st, 2020 30m 2s

In part one of the last chapter in season one, I explore the journey of stepping further into realization and how things that weren't serving my new purpose began to fall away. I discuss my discovery of the states of consciousness that my medit

Chapter Thirteen, Alchemy

Oct 25th, 2020 37m 32s

With my self-exploration kicking into high gear, I found myself struggling to find a balance between this new discovery of my inner world and my practiced behaviors and memorized emotions. The affirmations and visualizations I was doing were el

Chapter Twelve, Plus One

Oct 18th, 2020 37m 13s

In this chapter I examine justification by looking at my state of consciousness during a relationship and after relocating back to Los Angeles from New York. I left New York feeling focused and energized but I got caught up in a life that wasn'

Chapter Eleven, Messy

Oct 11th, 2020 35m 56s

Why can it be so difficult for us to be on our own? To walk through the world without a partner. We grow up believing that we are incomplete without a special someone in our lives, to love us and give our lives meaning. We will sacrifice our ow

Chapter Ten, Hollow

Oct 4th, 2020 35m 42s

The anger and resentment I experienced due to a career I couldn't get off the ground, inspired a creative manifestation that brought with it some of the things I had been seeking all my life, recognition and praise. However I still hadn't addre

Chapter Nine, Hustling

Sep 27th, 2020 36m 57s

Looking back at my life it's easy to see the value of failure. It's so easy to see how life was unfolding purposely for me to learn and to be guided toward what I was wanting. When I was in the trenches of my thirties I was filled with so much

Chapter Eight, Don't Ask Don't Tell

Sep 20th, 2020 31m 9s

There's no easy way to dive into the story about your love battling cancer. As you can imagine my inner world continued its descent. I tried to balance my relationship, the cancer, my new job as a bartender and my non-existent acting career wit

Chapter Seven, Vanity Fair

Sep 13th, 2020 38m 23s

Examining my shadow has been the most rewarding work I've ever done. Bringing all the dark aspects of myself into the light requires a lot of trust. It requires me to be non-judgemental of myself. I can't heal what I'm judging. There's tremendo

Chapter Six, All That Glitters

Sep 6th, 2020 36m 15s

As my relationship with Red Speedo deepened and my Broadway career was booming, I slipped further into my identification with my external world, completely ignoring and repressing my emotions surrounding my HIV status or my uncertain future. Wi

Chapter Five, Red Speedo

Aug 30th, 2020 39m 52s

Red Speedo was the beginning of a beautiful time in my life. But it came with a price. In this extremely exposed and vulnerable episode, I face a dark moment in my life that would set into motion a series of events that would change me forever,

Chapter Four, Damaged Goods

Aug 23rd, 2020 37m 46s

Receiving my HIV diagnosis was one of the most challenging moments of my life. Little did I know that the hard stuff was only just beginning. Processing this in the mind would prove to be my toughest obstacle. Nothing can prepare you for the st

Chapter Three, A State of Lack

Aug 16th, 2020 34m 59s

As I began operating in the world on my own, I carried with me all these ideas of who I was based on my history, my upbringing, who and what the world had taught me I was. Unknowingly emitting a signal of lack and desperation to succeed to prov

Chapter Two, Perfection

Aug 9th, 2020 39m 33s

Learning to re-know myself beyond my own programmed ideas of perfection, has been a struggle my entire life. Being the only person of color in a very large all white high school, wearing thick glasses and having too many teeth to fit perfectly

Chapter One, The Portal

Aug 2nd, 2020 31m 5s

Even though I felt energetically prepared for the mindset required to process and navigate the quarantine of 2020, I wasn't prepared for the ramifications, a seemingly insignificant decision to watch some old footage of my younger self, would h

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