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Episode from the podcastSober is Dope!

Sober To The Cor with Cordelia May (Surviving Addiction, Anxiety, Shame, and Sexual Assault)

Released Tuesday, 20th July 2021
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Happy Birthday Cordelia 07-20-2021 
Cordelia May is a 30 something woman who's been in recovery for almost two years from alcohol and drugs. Cordelia wanted to create a safe space to share her sobriety journey, thoughts, and hope with anyone who needs it. Whether you're in recovery, sober, sober curious, teetotaler, etc, you are welcome here! Instagram @sobertothecor 
Check out Cordelia's Blog: ( https://sobertothecordelia.blogspot.com/ )
Getting sober saved my life, and it can save yours too.
TW: Alcohol and drug use, sexual assault, mentions of suicidal thoughts, and death.
"I knew that it was the end for me, I had to get sober. It was a terrifying thought that I would never have a beer on the patio, champagne on Christmas, or baileys in my coffee on a long weekend ever again, but it was the only way I would get better.
I did it on my own for 7 months. I'm lucky enough to have an amazing support system. I was managing just fine until I ended a 5-year relationship with my best friend, moved back home to my dad's house, and then found out I was getting transferred from the store I had worked at for a decade. This was a lot. Anxious people have a hard enough time dealing with positive change, let alone some heavy negative shit! One night I was coming home from work, and life just seemed to be too much for me. I wanted to be numb, to forget what was going on just for a night. A thought crossed my mind, "If I got to the bar down the street and drink, no one would know. I could just sit there and pound a few beers...maybe hit up one of my old dealers and get a half g..." This little daydream stopped me in my tracks...I felt like I had lost control of my sobriety. Instead of walking to that bar, I pulled out my phone and messaged a friend who I knew was in a 12 step program and asked if I could come to a meeting with them.
I knew nothing about the program and had no idea what to expect. The amount of love and community I felt in that first meeting was amazing, I hadn't realized how isolated I had felt the past 7 months. I worked the program and it did change my life. The steps are some serious self-reflection work and opened my eyes to issues I didn't realize I had. It's allowed me to be comfortable in my own skin and let go of my past. Being alone with my thoughts was my literal nightmare for the first twenty-nine years of my life, and now? Ya girl meditates on the regular, AND I LOVE IT. As much as it's helped me, 12 Step programs aren't for everyone. Programs aren't the only way one can recover from addiction. Everyone's sober journey is as unique and special as the person on them. Getting sober encouraged me to finally deal with my mental health. I got a proper diagnosis of Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depression, and am now on medication that has helped me cope with it." - Cordelia May


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