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Misspelling with Tory spelling an
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iHeartRadio podcast.
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It's May, you guys, it's
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a huge month for me. Well
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it was a huge month. It's still a huge
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month. So anyway, let me jump
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right in. I would always
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tell Dean that he didn't plan
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on this, but when
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we got together and decided
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to get married May seventh,
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we eloped, planned a whole wedding by ourselves
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on a private highland in Fiji. Oh
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it was so good. You
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know. We didn't think long term. We
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were just like in the moment. So
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then all of a sudden we got pregnant. You know. I
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had a baby a year later ish,
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so Mother's Day became a thing, and then
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my birthday. So I would always
1:02
be like, hey, buddy, sorry, you're screwed.
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You got three Tory
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days to deal with, essentially
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in May, and then there's
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May Day and synco to my own things like that. But
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so anyway, this never really
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was something I thought about,
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because it's just, you know, wheels in motion, you go
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along. We were married eighteen years
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until no joke. Two days
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ago one of my best friends, Bill
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Gunkle. Bill said to
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me, oh, he's an organizer.
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He likes a good cleanup of his calendar. He
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said, oh, I just realized I'm
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able to remove May seventh, your
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wedding anniversary from my calendar,
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and that that kind of hit
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me and I was like, oh, wow, yeah,
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I mean, obviously I felled for divorce.
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Obviously we're getting a divorce, but
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I hadn't thought about that, and I was
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like, wow, that maya like May
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seventh is just going to be another
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day from now on. And
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that made me kind of think about a lot of
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things. And I
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was that girl that took
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a lot of pride in anniversaries
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like our wedding anniversary was
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you know me, I'm if you
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don't know me, welcome to me. I'm
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a di wire. I'm a crafter to the
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core. All my kids came out of
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you to row crafting because I
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made them. And
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yeah, so I would always
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make something for Dean on our
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wedding anniversary because you
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know, I mean, obviously, you know, anyone
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can buy someone something allegedly,
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but if you can, that's very nice.
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But I feel like I always say homemade
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equals love and it you
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know, whether that's in the past, the present, or the
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future. I still maintain that and
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I'm more of a traditional girl. Yeah, I
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know, shot right, with a
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lot of modern values. So
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I'm kind of like fifty to fifty no
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pun intended, like I'm half fifty's housewife
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and half like futuristic like barbaralla,
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and I would always go to there's
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a traditional list so you can like google this
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traditional wedding anniversary presence
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and then a modern one, which I don't know when
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that all separated, Like when
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did someone say, hey, we're going to throw in like
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a new wedding anniversary. This
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is the modern one, Like what's wrong
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with the traditional one? Like well, if
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a name broke, well I fix it. But anyway, it
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gave me options, So that was always good because
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some years I was like, ooh, I can
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craft something with that, and some years I was like,
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not so great on the traditional, let me check the modern.
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But every year I
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would make him something and super
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proud, and I'm talking like one
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year it was leather, so I made him like
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a leather cuff and
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had it stamped in like our anniversary
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ran the back and just like a
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really cool thing. One year.
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I know this because I just found
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it in storage recently, you
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know my storage woes. That's
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a good one and so storage wars my storage
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woes. Rthan add that to the
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list for something to make in the future. Cool.
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I found a bench that
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I made him and
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no joke. I well,
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my friend Chris came over and helped me. I have to give
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a credit where credit is due. But I
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went to the lumberyard.
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And I don't know why I had to say it like that, because woman
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can go to the lumberyard too and be like, I'm
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at the lumberyard. But I went to the
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lumberyard and got
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really cool pieces of wood.
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Sorry, and
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made the bench. Took a stencil
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and wrote on it,
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I want to grow old with you or something. Look, I'm
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conveniently like blocking it out because it hurts,
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but it doesn't
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hurt. I done inside, but it
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fine. I have feelings.
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Anyone jump out?
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How big was the bench? Like?
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Could one person sit on it or multiple?
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Or it was
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supposed to be a bench for two. And
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the inspiration behind it
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was, you know, you see those cute old couple
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sitting on a bench and
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oh my god, I'm tearing up. I do have
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feelings. Look at that chickxus.
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The intention was that all
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these beautiful babies we had created
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together they would go on
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to have families of their own. And
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I am always and will remain
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always excited to grow
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our family because you know what, at the end
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of the day, he and
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I and our kids were a family
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unit. He's the father.
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You know, whether we're married and together
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or not, you know, we're all
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in this together. And
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excited to be a grandmother and a great
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grandmother and yeah,
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and watching our family grow and
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grow and grow. I mean, we got five kids,
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so I better have a lot of fun.
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A big bench.
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No, the benching for them.
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M the bench isn't
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for them. The bench was
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for he and I to sit on it
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together. Like those photos you see of like old
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couples still holding hands. We
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used to send pictures to each other with
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like old couples you would see and like still
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holding hands, and it's like wow, And
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we did. We always held hands. That was like a
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thing, except except in
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like the last year or two. I guess, I
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guess. Yeah, that was one of the one of the signs
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there were fifty million. But yeah,
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like you would see those couples in their eighties,
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like still walking down the street holding
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hands. I mean they
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just otherwise would fall down. They had to support each
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other. They couldn't walk straight without each
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other. But nonetheless,
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I bought into the love story and
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I was like, oh my gosh, that's so cute.
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Like we'd see, you know, pictures
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of couples like at the beach and just like
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doing things and just
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still, you know, in it.
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So you made the bench? Was that
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like with hammer and nails or
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was it glued together.
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Or I screwed it in? I
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had nails. It was stable
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as fuck, like that
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impressive. We'll till it wasn't
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it broke?
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What other things did you make besides
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the match for your anniversaries?
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Oh my god, I made there's
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a specific name for it, when
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you make a tray that you put your like jewelry or
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men put their their watch. I
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made him a Valet tray. And
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I got a tray and I went round
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this took a while, and found
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pennies from the
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year he was born nineteen
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sixty six, the year I was born nineteen
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seventy three, and the year we were
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married two thousand and six. And
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I got those pennies and I glued them
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and mod podge the shit
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out of that. Oh god, I'm a good mod
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podger. I
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had to get back into that.
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That was my strong suit. And
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I made this tray that
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was just very functional, like
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it was all blacked and shit.
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He appreciated all the gifts I made him,
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but yeah, that was a good one. Leather
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cuff. If you tell me one
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of the traditional ones, I can tell you what I made.
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Him, paper metal,
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gold, silver.
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No, I'm blanket, I've got nothing.
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Oh m.
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The brass cockering was really good that year.
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That's really I hammered it. Oh
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my god, I'm
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so talented. Welded it
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well. Wow, going
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back to the bench, it says grow
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old with me dot dot dot.
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Yeah. On the legs were our
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wedding date, and then on the
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other leg was are the current date.
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And we put it in each house. We moved a lot,
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a lot because
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I was always chasing the dream. Like you
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know, it wasn't us,
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it wasn't the relationship. It was the
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house. Oh that reminds
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me of a horror film.
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It's not the house, it's your son.
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Ooh, insidious one.
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Fuck yeah, I nailed it, still got it,
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thank you. So that
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resonated like every horror film.
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It wasn't the house, it was never the
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house. So I kept moving and kept
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moving, and let's
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start where it all began. When
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we got married. We
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were filming my series So Notorious,
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and Diana and I got together while
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we were filming that, and anyway,
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the set designer helped me create
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this amazing like
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iron stand with a
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cute plaque that said McDermott
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Baby Farm established
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two thousand and six. The day
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we got married, I
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was a farm. I was like, pull
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pushing them out. Mine's the
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push, ripping that zipper
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open, taking them out. So
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we put that and moved that so many
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times until I mean it was weathered
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and cracked and just the
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demise of that. Yeah.
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But the bench, the bench survived till
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it fell to pieces. It got rained
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on. I didn't think of that that the rain
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would wear on it. It rusted, it
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broke, you guys. That's
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I guess what the heart of it is
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is that it broke. And when it broke,
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I put too much emotional
11:28
symbolism and placement on.
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As Dean has told me in adamant
11:33
objects. At some
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point it just was getting wobbly,
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it was getting shaky, and I
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was like the bench and we'd moved in. He's
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like, oh, the bench is a little wobbly. I was like,
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oh, we got to fix it. We got
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to fix it, and we never
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fixed it, so eventually it broke. Oh
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I kept it though, I kept the wood pieces,
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of course I did, saying I'm going to put
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it back together, and
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then sat in the garage in pieces
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for a few years,
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like my marriage basically,
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and then I found in storage.
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So and what did
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you do with it?
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Uh? Duh? I took a picture of it
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to show to you, guys. I don't know.
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No, I mean, did you do you still have it?
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Did you throw the pieces away? Is
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it sitting in that last storage lockery still
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at.
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I have no storagelockers, so I'm done that
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you've.
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Had one left?
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Nope?
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Congratulations, thank you?
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Oh my god, my heart just sink. I'm panic now.
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I don't know where it is. I
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feel like you, guys, I need
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to burn it. No,
12:53
no, don't burn it. Can you not do
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that?
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I don't know. I think the metaphor
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is better now without burning it.
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Oh, it's metatorical.
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Here's what I think you should do if you can find it,
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is take a little piece of that wood
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and put it in like a box picture frame,
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and just as a keepsake, you know, a piece
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a piece of the bench.
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I don't think you need to burn
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it. You know, you guys are on
13:23
good terms.
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No, no, no, I didn't mean, uh, I don't
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know why I'm gonna cry. I didn't mean
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burn it like bad for him.
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I mean burning it as a symbolism
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of letting go right past
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and moving on at the future is
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not what you do.
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I think you can totally do that.
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What matters is if the symbolism
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means something to you, right, It's
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like, if that to you means
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moving on, letting it go, then
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it will would probably be a good thing for.
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You to do. Well, I'm not going
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to grow old with him.
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So well you you know what you kind
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of are just not as a
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married couple. You know, you're still you're
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still tied by five amazing
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children. So it's
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just a different kind of growing
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up.
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I don't like regular ties. Can we double not it?
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You will find somebody, Oh my god,
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you.
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Guys every week this is not going
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to be about me, like, oh no,
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poor me, I'm alone and single. Oh, or
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it can be. I mean, I don't
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know. Can
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we go back to it for a second, Yeah, can
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we look up what would have been? Just
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tell me what it would have been. I'll tell you what I'd make.
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Hit year would this have been?
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This would be eighteen? Correct,
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eighteen. I always say we were married
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eighteen years, but technically I'm not divorced
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yet, so it's not final. So
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true, I wasn't lying. Parcelain
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porcelain. Oh
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good teeth.
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Here you go, buddy, I'm gonna make a necklace
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out of them. How woud his
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girlfriend feel about that? If
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you ever loved me, you won't wear
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my porcelain teeth around
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your neck? Five of
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them for the five beautiful kids
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we made. How can you say no to that? Sorry,
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Lily, you know I love you. Okay, we
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had a vow renewal at
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four years in. I mean, granted
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it was we
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did it on our reality show Torri
15:41
and Dean Home Sweet Hollywood. But
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that's crazy now.
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I call it the bowel removal.
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By the way, unpacking. Speaking
15:53
of unpacking from storage,
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my daughter Stella brings
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in a box. This just
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happened yesterday and she
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goes, of
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course, she's sassy, God, she's
16:11
so clever, and she goes,
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I unpacked this box, and I was like, oh,
16:17
this is not coming into the house. So
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she led with that, which crushed my
16:23
soul. I was like, that's an antique.
16:26
What do you mean. I got that at a flea market.
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That's very chic. And anyway,
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I digress, and she goes and then
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I opened it. You guys, the
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thing she found in this box, I
16:38
can't make this shit up. First
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of all, oh my god, it was
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like a paperback flip through
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book of nine oh two one oh, like a small
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one from the nineties.
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Uh.
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It was an intact fully wrapped
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bubblegum pack of our cards and
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bubblegum, which she
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asked if they could like do some like
17:02
challenge and eat it, and I was like nope.
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And I was like, I have to get new teeth. I don't
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want you guys to as well. That's that's
17:09
gonna be hard. Two of them.
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Wonder how much I could sell those for.
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That's definitely a collector's I.
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Know, like
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a polaroid photo from a
17:22
photo shoot. Nino two and o still
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intact a bag of
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teeth.
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No, we have made a bag of teeth,
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real teeth, a bag of
17:35
teeth.
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So it's like, oh sentimental
17:39
Nino two and o oh, look at that picture.
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Oh my god, you look so great anyhow,
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and then the bag of teeth and
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she was like, mom, what are these?
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And I was like, oh, those are my wisdom
17:54
teeth and she goes, that's disgusting.
17:57
Can I throw these away? I was like absolutely
18:00
not. And she goes, what are you gonna
18:02
do with them? When'd you get your
18:05
wisdom teeth out? And I was like, uh
18:07
sixteen. She goes, that's disgusting.
18:10
Yeah, root and all all four
18:12
perfectly intact. Might
18:14
I add, oh, correction,
18:17
those I will send to Dean because
18:20
mine are all shaved to nubs because I'm getting
18:22
finnars owed to my creepy past.
18:25
Okay, I'm gonna go on. This
18:28
is my twenties from my first
18:30
TV movie I did in Canada.
18:34
This is when like they had smoke shops,
18:36
but like La, it wasn't a thing. And
18:39
I got like the coolest Oh
18:41
my god, it's a cube and it's
18:43
metal and it's like a one hit. Back
18:46
then we'd say pot. Now it's like weed
18:49
and it was a cube and I was like, Aha,
18:52
I'm gonna come back to LA and invent
18:54
this because no one has it in the States.
18:58
Another thing I put on my checklist
19:00
of inventions. But she
19:02
was like mom, and I was like, whoa,
19:05
it was the nineties, Like yeah,
19:09
mom had like a little bit of a stoner phase,
19:11
Like sorry, there was that,
19:14
and what else. There was
19:17
a couple more creepy things that I was just
19:19
like, yeah, oh, I
19:22
know what. It was a G string.
19:24
It was clean. I did a smell test. It
19:27
was clean. You guys. I went, it's a little musty. It's been
19:29
there for years. But I
19:31
was like, oh my god, this is back
19:33
when it was super cool, Like this
19:36
is so old school but vs.
19:38
Victoria's Secret PS.
19:40
When I was young, Victoria's Secret was
19:43
super popular and then for
19:45
decades it was like
19:47
like you couldn't wear it. It was like not cool,
19:50
and now it's totally cool with the kids
19:53
again. So my initials
19:55
on brand, but it had
19:57
a BS on it, and I was like, oh, that's okay
20:00
you and I saved it, and so I was in there.
20:02
But anyway, collectively like
20:04
nine two one zero, like old school bubblegum
20:08
teeth that had been ripped out,
20:11
basically a weed pen from the
20:13
nineties and
20:15
an old pair of underwear
20:19
creeped out. My kid, not gonna lie,
20:22
not surprised, and
20:24
she wanted to dispose
20:26
of all this and I was like, nope, nope, we want
20:28
to take a picture of this content.
20:32
I don't know what I'll do with it all, but anyway,
20:43
anyway, yes, and
20:45
then there's Mother's Day. This is my first
20:48
single girl Mother's
20:50
Day? What does that mean? Like,
20:52
I don't even know what that means? And
20:56
Stella, bless her heart, she was like, Mom,
20:58
what do you want to do for Mother's And I was like,
21:01
whatever you guys want. She's like, no, Mom,
21:03
seriously, every year you always say whatever
21:06
we want, Like what do you want?
21:10
Take everybody out of the picture? What
21:14
do you like to do for fun? And
21:17
I had no answer, you guys? And that was
21:22
that was startling because I couldn't
21:24
remember what I used to like to
21:26
do for me. I
21:29
couldn't even think of it. I was like and
21:32
I kept saying, we wi we
21:34
like sushi,
21:37
and she's like, Mom, you she
21:40
was like, do you want to
21:42
go get a massage? And I was like no, no, no,
21:44
no, it's about you guys. She's like, no,
21:46
Mom, it's not like you
21:48
do this every year like
21:50
you plan and it's about everybody
21:52
else, Like what do you want?
21:56
And I couldn't remember
21:59
what I like to do because it's been so
22:02
long that I've thought about doing something
22:04
for me. Ruth Anne, you
22:07
knew me before I
22:09
was married and had kids. Do you remember what
22:11
I used to like to do?
22:13
You really did get a lot of joy out of
22:15
all of your DIY things
22:17
that you made and cooking.
22:21
I can remember you having.
22:23
Did you say cooking fun baking and
22:25
cooking?
22:26
Did you say hooking?
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No, I say cooking.
22:29
Oh my god, you guys, I think I've gone
22:31
deaf. I've had
22:33
kids screaming in my ear for
22:35
a long time.
22:36
Yeah, I remember you having a really good time
22:39
hooking some boulevard
22:41
about three o'clock in the morning. Those
22:44
were good times.
22:46
What do you mean, no, no
22:49
cooking? I used to hook rugs.
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Oh sorry,
22:54
I'm not as crafty as you are. No.
22:56
Jen taught me that, Like I can do a lot
22:59
of DIY. Jenny taught
23:01
me. We would sit in her house and she taught
23:03
me how to hook a rug. We went to she took
23:05
me to Michael's for the first time. But
23:10
yeah, I remember I was so big
23:12
and dicopoge mm
23:14
hm. Would you loved it?
23:16
And it was nice because it was stuff you did with your kids.
23:20
So stop bringing them into
23:22
this.
23:22
Why they's supposed
23:25
to be sort of for both of you. It's
23:27
the kids celebrating their mom.
23:29
No, okay, interesting,
23:32
there's two schools of thought.
23:34
There's some moms that literally
23:37
are like, you know what, I'm in this
23:39
twenty four to seven every day.
23:41
It's always about you, guys. So
23:44
this is my one day and
23:47
I want the day off. Lorraine, what
23:49
type of mom? They're both like, it's
23:52
fair, both types of moms like
23:54
do you want to do what the kids want to do and
23:56
spend the day with them, or do you want,
23:58
like, I'd love to have some peace and quiet
24:00
and do something for me.
24:03
I want to be this spaw mom, but I
24:05
I'll never be this spaw mom because of my guilt
24:08
that I have no idea why I have. But yes,
24:11
every day for them, even when it's Mother's
24:13
Day.
24:13
Unfortunately fair and
24:16
my sentiment is exactly I
24:20
want to be that spa mom, which
24:22
you guys, you know what. The
24:25
spot doesn't work for me. I just everyone's
24:28
like, go get a massage. Speaking
24:30
of guilt, I
24:33
can't get a massage because I'm
24:35
so worried the entire
24:38
time like, oh,
24:40
they're working on me, they're doing something
24:43
for me. What about them? So
24:45
I engage and ask about their lives
24:47
and then you guys know, like, it's not even about
24:50
me. I'm just this human like energy
24:52
wise. People end
24:56
up just like about
25:00
that sounded dirty about
25:02
their lives, and I embrace
25:05
it and I end up giving them
25:07
advice and being like, oh my gosh.
25:09
And then what happened? And I've
25:11
had one missus
25:14
say oh my god, I've been
25:16
doing this for so long, and she as she's crying,
25:19
and she goes, that's a part. She
25:21
brought up something very emotional that she had
25:24
repressed, and she said, I'm so sorry.
25:26
I have to take a moment. I am embarrassed
25:29
telling you this. And I
25:31
promptly sat up and hugged
25:34
her and said don't oh my god, don't worry. It's safe
25:36
with me, and like, but I'm that
25:38
human that I'm just
25:40
like, oh my gosh, it's so quiet. And
25:43
then I've had friends
25:45
be like no, no, no, you can't do that. So when
25:47
you start a massage, you don't
25:50
you say thank you. You're gracious, and you're
25:52
like, Okay, I've had a hard week. I'm just
25:54
going to be quiet, and I'm like, okay, well I can't say
25:56
that and don't engage.
26:00
You know, you're paying them, you're here, like they're
26:02
here and they want to do
26:04
this, and don't
26:07
engage. So then when I don't
26:09
engage and don't talk to them, I
26:11
sit in my head for like an hour being
26:13
like, oh my god, is she okay?
26:17
Or and I don't like men touching
26:19
me during a paid massage,
26:22
so I yeah,
26:24
I'm just like, oh god, I feel so bad.
26:27
And then I start to like go weird places like oh
26:30
my god, I feel so bad, like at least
26:32
it's me, Like imagine like men
26:35
she has to deal with and they're hairy
26:38
and gross and like that type
26:40
of human. Like yeah,
26:43
I go all kinds of crazy places. But
26:45
I sit there for an hour, just like tense,
26:48
and then afterwards like are you relaxed,
26:51
And I'm like absolutely,
26:55
but I'm not anyway, Spa
26:57
da mom.
26:59
Anybody gives you a guest certificate for
27:01
a massage, feel free to pass it my way.
27:04
I can relax during a massage,
27:07
really yeah. I not feel the urge
27:09
to talk or think about the massage
27:11
therapist.
27:13
Okay, wait, have you
27:16
my friend? And I just had this combo
27:18
the other day about happy endings. Oh
27:21
god, oh too much for
27:23
this podcast. Sorry my bad.
27:26
No one ever. We
27:31
were talking about happy endings and it
27:33
was like, wow, this is
27:36
a male and I were talking
27:38
about this, so I was curious,
27:41
how do men feel about it? And
27:44
he was saying like not
27:46
as jam like could never even
27:49
would not be okay with it. But you
27:51
know, clearly, you know, there's
27:54
a lot of my male friends are like, oh,
27:57
yeah, that's a thing. And
27:59
I'm like, oh, that's
28:01
so weird. And then he posts
28:03
the question to me, does this
28:05
ever happen these happy ending places
28:09
with a woman? Like do they
28:11
ever give happy endings to a female
28:14
or is it just males? And I was
28:16
like, I don't know, I don't know.
28:18
Definitely not at Burke Williams.
28:20
Burke Williams. Oh you
28:22
go to fancy places now.
28:24
Burke Williams was like, in the nineties.
28:26
You pretended to work out
28:28
at Crunch? Cool, right, yep?
28:32
No. I remember that I had
28:35
a boyfriend then and he loved
28:38
Burke Williams. So we would like go
28:40
to Crunch and he'd work out and I'd like
28:42
pretend to.
28:43
Do the zoom book class or whatever
28:46
boot camp, and
28:49
it would be so embarrassing because
28:51
they have like glass like glass
28:54
so like everybody.
28:56
Can see correct. And
28:59
at Crunch in La it's on Sunset
29:01
Boulevard and
29:03
they would always I'm not even kidding,
29:06
it would be like thirty people in there,
29:09
and they'd have on their headset and
29:11
they'd be calling to you to encourage you.
29:14
They'd always call me out and I'd
29:16
be like, what is happening.
29:19
They'd be like Toy, and I'd be like, first
29:22
of all, you know, I hate my name said like toy,
29:25
but then like I don't know. It
29:27
was yeah, it was late nineties.
29:31
Out to say you've got
29:33
the steps.
29:33
For on or duh,
29:35
yeah, you know I don't work out. I don't do
29:37
that shit. And I was probably gossip
29:40
being and like talking to my friend. I've been that way since
29:42
like high school anyway, chatty
29:46
Kathy. But
29:49
yeah, I'd be like it'd be like Toy.
29:51
I'm like, uh huh it
29:54
was like and they'd
29:56
be like okay, oh Toy, No,
30:00
I'll be over in a second. I'd be like so
30:02
shamed. I literally one time
30:05
it was this boot camp class and
30:07
the instructor had called me out three times
30:10
and I literally waited
30:12
till she was like helping somebody else
30:15
in the corner, and I slipped
30:17
out and slip out a fucking
30:20
ran I was like. And
30:23
then from the back she was like, you finally
30:26
got it right. I
30:29
was like, bye, But
30:32
I liked the little holes in the wall, like
30:34
the little places that are like in
30:36
a strip.
30:37
Mall where you will get
30:39
a happy ending.
30:41
No, I don't want a happy ending, like if
30:43
I feel guilt with them, just like massaging
30:45
my arm and leg. Imagine
30:48
the guilt I would feel if they were like
30:50
trying to like stroke my
30:52
lady parts. Do you stroke lady parts? If
30:54
they were too oh
30:58
my god, jggle
31:00
it just a little bit, not
31:03
a little bit, a lot and you gotta go fast.
31:05
But whole other story,
31:08
Yeah, I would never be comfortable. But
31:10
on rare occasion they
31:13
would go near your like butt
31:15
and like almost too close
31:18
to the thighs. Have you ever had
31:20
that happen? And I'm like Rosen,
31:23
I was like oooh, But then You're like,
31:25
I don't want to make them feel bad. Perhaps this
31:27
they're getting knots out of muscles,
31:30
and so I don't want to freeze up. So
31:32
I'd be like Relax, relax, They're
31:34
doing nothing wrong. This is part
31:36
of the job. Okay, but
31:39
I was like, whoa kind of close?
31:41
That's kind of close anyway.
31:44
I am curious if a
31:46
female has ever gotten happy
31:49
ending.
31:50
All right, this Mother's Day and
31:52
then your birthday?
31:54
Oh god, okay,
31:56
so there's Mother's Day.
32:00
Ella, of course, leader
32:02
of the pack. She was
32:04
like, mom, what do you want to do? I had
32:06
nothing. I couldn't remember what I like,
32:09
which leads me back to what
32:11
do I like to do? I must have
32:14
had hobbies before kids, Like in
32:16
my twenties, what did I like to do
32:19
besides shop and drink? What did I
32:21
like to do? And rescue dogs?
32:23
What did I like to do?
32:25
I was going to say rescue dogs?
32:27
I remember you making jewelry. I
32:29
can think it always goes back to you being like super
32:31
crafty and having an amazing
32:34
artistic imagination and plugging
32:36
into that that made you really happy.
32:39
Someone's like, you should get
32:41
into pickleball. I
32:44
love to eat pickles. Pickles are a huge We
32:46
do pickle tastings in my house, like every
32:49
two weeks, I'm not kidding, a new kind of pickle comes
32:51
out. We're on it, and all
32:53
my kids fall a suit. So if anyone wants
32:56
to send me anything, I would like
32:58
pickles.
32:58
That's a great idea.
33:02
I should aim higher and caviar.
33:06
Okay, anyway, what am I gonna
33:08
do? Here's what I told her. I said, we
33:11
used to love but it's still a wee thing. But it's
33:13
something I wanted to do. We haven't been in a while because
33:15
our lives have been chaos. I
33:18
wanted to go down to Little Tokyo
33:20
and walk around, and
33:23
that's where I have often gotten
33:25
a lot of my inspiration. And
33:27
I love the fashion district. And
33:31
you know what, I love revolving sushi
33:33
down there. It's called Cora. It's
33:36
just so fun. Anyway,
33:38
so do that.
33:39
That sounds like a great thing to do for Mother's Day.
33:42
So I love Oh you guys, I
33:44
love dim sum.
33:45
Oh well well there you
33:48
just come up with some great ideas.
33:50
Great great mother's day.
33:53
This podcast multi purpose.
33:56
Okay, my birthday quickly,
33:58
let's talk about my birthday. You
34:00
guys, you know I love green, and green
34:03
is the color. I'm a Taurus. I'm
34:06
Tori. I'm a Taurus. I
34:08
love sushi. Oh
34:12
we just see exactly.
34:14
I don't know what I love I'll find out
34:16
I'm learning about myself. Who knew
34:19
me? Anyway? Yeah,
34:22
so emerald is my birthstone,
34:24
which is not the reason I like green.
34:26
I just love green like Green's
34:29
always been my jam. Obviously
34:32
I wear a lot of
34:34
green. So anyway,
34:37
So what do you want to do for your birthday this year?
34:39
Having it be your first birthday
34:42
as a single woman? Okay,
34:44
so the last two years, this is a
34:47
fact, I have been
34:49
sick on my birthday. I had
34:51
bronchitis on my forty ninth
34:53
birthday. Literally stayed in bed. They
34:56
brought the cake into me. I was like, one
34:58
eye open, which one works
35:00
better with my botox? None? Okay?
35:05
They brought the cake in. I
35:08
was like so sick. Okay,
35:12
got it? Missed my birthday. My
35:14
fiftieth birthday, ruth An was
35:16
there. My mother threw
35:19
a lovely she knows caviars
35:21
like Big Sam.
35:24
Sorry when you grew up like I did, like I
35:26
was born eating caviar silver
35:29
spoon. Oh, but we got member, we
35:32
got pearlized spoons. I
35:34
still have it me too, one
35:36
of my purses. Remember
35:39
to take that out before I sell it, the
35:41
purse, not the spoon. Mom. I would never do that. I
35:44
love that. But yeah,
35:47
so they had one in Paris. They
35:49
opened up a caviar restaurant bar here
35:51
and lovely twenty person
35:53
beautiful table all
35:56
my besties and you guys.
35:58
Ironically was
36:01
this massive, big
36:04
potato you guys, I'll
36:06
send you a picture, you guys, topped
36:10
with the most heaping spoonful
36:13
of caviar you've ever seen. My
36:16
other one of my other friends jokes,
36:20
he was like, oh my god, I don't even
36:22
eat caviar or potatoes,
36:25
but when I'm being served a thousand dollars potato,
36:28
I'm going deep. WHOA.
36:30
I don't know where I was going with that one. Do
36:33
you remember that?
36:34
I do?
36:35
And Hansen's my mom, Aw,
36:37
this was so cute. So Hansen's
36:40
has been like my family since
36:42
I was born. My mom always every
36:44
birthday Hanson's cake. She
36:47
got individualized Hanson's
36:49
cakes for everybody to take
36:51
home as the party gets Hey, ruth
36:53
Anne, what happened to your Hanson's cake?
36:55
My Hanson's cake ran into
36:57
a few things somehow, I'm not quite
36:59
sure or how it ended up on my glasses.
37:03
In my purse.
37:04
Well, it ran into a few things, including your
37:07
fingers and hands. I heard all about this on the ride
37:09
home. I don't today just make
37:11
you blush.
37:12
I don't think so, just hot.
37:17
Hot flash
37:19
anyway. Yeah, but my
37:22
point was it was
37:24
just my big birthday. Wearing green. Of course
37:26
looked amazing, but
37:29
I was sick. It was right after we
37:31
had the mold poisoning and I
37:33
was so sick. I
37:36
was on antibiotics. I may
37:39
I drank through it, but I literally
37:43
I was so sick during that birthday. So fingers
37:45
crossed and put it out there my fifty
37:48
first birthday, I'm going to be
37:50
well and I'm going to have
37:52
a bomb ass birthday. What
37:55
are we doing? Nothing
37:57
planned? I know Everyone's
37:59
like, what do you want to do? And I'm like, I'm
38:02
me, I don't know. I hate surprises.
38:04
You guys all know that. You
38:06
know what. That's old me. I
38:08
don't hate surprises. Surprise me away.
38:11
Oh god, I don't know, but
38:13
that's that's me. I'm
38:15
more focused. And Memorial Day week and I'm
38:17
like, three day weekend, what do I do for the kids.
38:20
Oh, it's pool season.
38:21
Like, I don't know, We'll
38:24
come up with something really fun for your birthday.
38:27
Kids can be so manipulative,
38:30
as you know. I always started
38:32
to see the way that for my kids. I
38:34
was like, Hey, so maybe my birthday
38:38
or you know, one night that week, I'm gonna go out
38:40
with friends and I'll have like a friend night
38:42
and like go and do adult things
38:44
and you know, go have drinks
38:47
and go, you know, like ad night out. And
38:50
Stella was like, you're not going to spend your birthday
38:52
with us? And I was like oh oh,
38:56
And I was like I tried to like justify
38:58
it as moms do you think? And You're
39:00
like, well, it's a school
39:02
night, so why don't I go out that night
39:05
and have like my fun night out with my friends?
39:07
And then I was like, baby, it's all
39:09
fun with you guys. And then that weekend
39:12
we'll have a weekend where we're all together.
39:15
And she's like, okay, if that's
39:17
what you want, I was like, oh, that's
39:20
what I want. Like crap,
39:23
this sucks, Like what are we supposed to
39:25
do? Like, okay on my birthday? You
39:28
know, this is
39:30
my next chapter, Like I'm
39:32
like doing me. Now, what
39:35
am I supposed to do? Like go out with my five kids
39:37
at six o'clock early bird special
39:40
Chili's cool. You guys will
39:42
all be on the swipe the pad like, oh,
39:44
plant versus zombies, Like, no one will
39:46
look at me. I'll sit there sipping
39:48
on my sake soke
39:51
wishful thinking Chili's
39:53
ough. Great, I'll have to have the
39:55
Sharennkes. They don't even have a pinot Grisia.
39:58
Fuck my life anyway.
40:00
I have the perfect solution.
40:04
Yes, go to one of those
40:06
places in those minimals
40:08
and get yourself a happy ending for
40:11
your birthday.
40:11
Ew no, thank you, No,
40:15
I don't want that. How do you
40:18
guys feel? Sorry, I'm my tangent.
40:21
How do you guys feel about the new terminology
40:23
body count?
40:25
I don't know what that is? Wait,
40:28
what's that?
40:32
I heard this from the teens. Ps.
40:35
All my teens are super like not
40:38
into this, Like they're very like
40:40
Donna Martin's good
40:43
for them happy. But
40:47
there's a thing that the
40:50
teens that aren't virgins
40:53
say like, oh yeah, my body count.
40:55
Literally I heard body count. It was like
40:57
serial killer. I was like, how many bodies have
40:59
you been? I don't know how many people had you killed? What
41:01
the hell? And
41:03
Stella was like, no, mom, you know what
41:06
that means? Like you're
41:08
so uncool, like everyone says it.
41:10
It's how many people you've slept
41:12
with, it's your body count,
41:14
oh dow. Yeah, we used
41:16
to just keep a list,
41:19
like on paper.
41:20
I don't even want what we
41:22
did.
41:23
I don't know whatever happened to that list,
41:25
which is a little frightening.
41:27
So I was that girl that
41:29
was like a numbers girl, and I
41:31
was like, I lose my virginity
41:34
till I was over eighteen. And
41:37
it's like getting my earspurs, like I'm not you
41:40
know, didn't do it till I was eighteen, not going
41:42
to do it till I'm forty. So I
41:45
cried, you guys, I bawled
41:47
my eyes out when I went over
41:49
one hand, and I'm talking about the number
41:51
five when I had slept with
41:53
more than five people. I cried
41:56
so hard and was like internally
41:59
beating myself up like I am
42:01
a whore, Oh my god. And
42:03
I wasn't young. It was spread out
42:05
through the years, like well into my way
42:08
into my twenties five, and
42:10
I was like, oh my god, I
42:12
have had another hand. And
42:14
I was so sad. Now
42:18
granted, you know men,
42:21
you know, it's like another notch for my belt.
42:23
Wait, what do they say? Now? I'm sure that's not cool
42:25
anymore. Like whatever, like
42:28
men can sleep. They want to like up the number
42:30
like hundreds, you know, and you're like ooh.
42:33
Like girls, I feel like we
42:36
are just like oh no, we want the number low.
42:39
But I hear that's not the new generation
42:41
then, you know, because women are empowered.
42:44
They're like, well you know that's and
42:47
they're like proud of their body count. I'm
42:49
like, uh uh, I can't invest
42:51
in that, Like why was I talking about
42:53
this anyway? I don't want a
42:55
happy ending? What else? What else
42:57
can I do for my birthday? I do you
43:00
guys?
43:00
You know what?
43:00
You know what the truth is. I do want a happy ending,
43:02
and it doesn't involve sex. It doesn't involve
43:05
anything physical. I
43:07
want my happy ending. I'm
43:09
not like, here's the thing about
43:11
me. I feel like I never am
43:13
jaded and there's always that like light
43:16
inside of me. Yeah, Jenny
43:18
calls me Paulianna. She's like, Okay, this
43:20
positivity, but it's a fact,
43:23
like I can find hope in anything
43:26
and I never get discouraged. And I call
43:28
it. You know a lot of people, I feel like people
43:30
put your fire out. And
43:33
Dean said something that actually resonated
43:36
in an article. He said
43:38
he saw my light dim
43:40
that final fight we had before we split
43:43
up and separate it, and I
43:45
was like, I had to think about that one. I was like, wow, he
43:49
did. Yeah, it flickered, it dimmed
43:51
a little, but it's
43:53
not going out like It's like, I
43:57
feel like my flame is burning brighter
44:00
than ever inside, and so
44:03
yeah, I do deserve that happy
44:06
ending. I'm getting there and
44:08
I'm hopeful and I'm
44:11
going to make it happen. Light
44:13
it up, bitch,
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