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The following podcast is a dear media
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production. Welcome
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to the Absolutely Not Podcast, where we do
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the most and the least at the same
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damn time. I'm your host, Heather
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McMahon. Hello
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ladies and gentlemen, and welcome to another
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episode of the Absolutely Not Podcast. I'm
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your host, Heather McMahon. Hope
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you all are doing fantastic. Hope you're having a great week.
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I'm very excited to get into our
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interview today. You know, it's rare
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when I have guests because everyone's insufferable to me,
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but I am so thrilled to
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have an incredible comedian, actress,
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just all around bad ass in the studio
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today. In fact, I was so excited when
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I did this interview that I never recorded
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an intro. So here I am recording an
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intro for the iconic Angela Johnson Reyes. She's
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an actress, a comedian, and I am
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so glad that our paths crossed in
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the comedy world. I've
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been a fan of hers for years and she's a
1:04
new mom. She is a bad bitch,
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just taken over the world in comedy one
1:08
step at a time. And she's got some
1:10
great advice for anybody in business, any women
1:12
in business, and honestly, just breaks down what
1:14
it's like to make it in the biz. You
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know, I always love picking brains and people who
1:19
are far wiser than I am. So
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this is an absolutely yes episode. I am
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thrilled and honored to have. The incredible Angela
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Johnson Reyes, please welcome to the podcast.
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Y'all, I'm here with Angela. Angela, I love
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you. Okay. I really do. I've
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been a fan of yours forever. And then we met
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a couple of years ago at the Netflix as a
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joke festival, like two years ago and I was the
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rookie. I didn't know anybody in the room. And when
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I saw that you were on the roster, I freaked
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the fuck out. No way. You don't
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understand. I've been a fan of yours since Mad TV. I
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adore you. Like, you don't understand. I am such a
1:52
fan and I'm not trying to like, you know, make
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it weird. You are creepy right now. But you were
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so kind to you were so kind when I met
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you and. I
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just love supporting. Grade people in the days
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and so I wouldn't worry about off camera. We're
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just talking about. You. Know the specials of
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at all about our audiences yeah and I as I
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said is your. Audience: Predominately more female.
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And you said yes, yeah, what you're seeing,
2:13
more guys come here says yeah. I'm very
2:15
excited about it because it used to be
2:17
either you know the woman made her husband
2:19
come with her yes or the gay guys
2:21
and that's it. That's all. who would be
2:23
at my show and it was just all
2:25
women to see a woman which I love
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and then now I'm seeing more and more
2:29
men like this. Last weekend I did Comedy
2:31
Club in Oxnard. And that was like
2:34
a lot of men in the audience. Yeah
2:36
and then sometimes I'll get a little nervous
2:38
because I'm like are they not gonna have
2:40
fights? are getting my head like I like
2:42
and enjoy it Or there's gonna be like.
2:44
Below. Whatever it. but then you see them
2:46
and there's like cracking up and having a good
2:48
time as vanilla they are using it in my
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mind about that you were that Okay I know
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that I build the audience with women as we
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obviously speed some a women's point of view. yeah
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that's when under arrest and then I used to
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do that too and I get it and it
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will be so annoying to win and a good
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dm from I'm like I dragged my husband here
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like will do drag them yeah yeah you know
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remain in a mean if you drag race you're
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just being a girl brand and then the guys
3:11
coming they have a great time and I he
3:13
has like idea that these guys are. Like all
3:15
of whom are comedian and then I actually was
3:17
at a show. Do you meet? greet afterwards and
3:19
there is three guys have laughed as the meet
3:21
and greets and are that oh my god where
3:23
you're wise and they're like no we didn't get
3:25
the Vip tickets were years of bands that only
3:28
no. Way in Love. But
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I hear you and it's so great. Like I mean
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obviously you been. In his business for a long time. You.
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Have. Six specials and your Bel
3:36
Air! I have oil knocked out
3:38
to and I thought it was gonna kill
3:40
me. Yes have longevity. I mean. I
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really would love some expert advice
3:45
on a had longevity of with
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with old this and just keep
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writing and performing un keep. Writing.
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To your audience. Yeah. You
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know, I think that's where
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I it. There. Is a
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point where I started to try to prove myself
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to other comedians. Yeah and I was getting known
4:02
as this girl who does the nail salon joke
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right and like that was your baby down the
4:07
Us so match and I was aware of the
4:09
i had more material than that nail salon job.
4:11
I knew that but then it was like we're
4:13
on the series of my oh she just says
4:16
that nail salon job whatever whatever and this is
4:18
like within like the first like five years of
4:20
my career and then I got to this point
4:22
was like. All. Show them I
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don't need that joke right? And so
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I started doing my show and purposely
4:29
not including that joke and I remember
4:31
the first time I did it it
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was in San Francisco at Clubs Comedy
4:35
Club yes and I got a message
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on Facebook afterwards and this one girl.
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She's. Really kind about it but she
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was like hey ah my mom and
4:43
I were at your show. We drove
4:46
all the way in from whatever city
4:48
and we were so disappointed that you
4:50
didn't do that nail salon job like
4:52
that. Something that her and I bonded
4:54
over and it's like the biggest there
4:56
and we were just so disappointed that
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you didn't do it and I remember
5:00
those words hitting me so hard in
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a minute was like a wake up
5:04
call for me and I was like
5:07
how dumb like I perform for the
5:09
Sands for the. People who love me
5:11
and love my show and love my
5:13
comedy. It's not for these idiots who
5:15
don't spend a dollar on my tenure.
5:17
If you don't care, About me
5:19
Then I like the post when I'd
5:21
ousted they are support me right They
5:23
do want to judge me because they
5:25
wish they were sitting in this spot
5:27
a mess. A: Why am I now
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writing to cater towards them to prove
5:31
myself to them right after that was
5:33
like oh forget that and now I
5:36
I do This joke. For my
5:38
audience of a little the foods you
5:40
want to do the whole phone eighteen
5:42
he to those are the corner. the villain
5:44
this is that you on climate is like
5:46
my thinking like i love variety with me
5:48
for this long i l a lot of
5:50
you know of me because of this joke
5:53
and here it is this is for you
5:55
and and allow that i felt that way
5:57
a little bit too like especially if you
5:59
know I mean, women in comedy period, we have to kind
6:01
of come out the gate and like, you know, not
6:04
taking over an answer. But I felt because I
6:06
kind of doubled down and proved people didn't realize
6:08
that I'd come from stand up. When I popped
6:10
off on the internet, probably the same way you did with YouTube
6:12
with the Nail Joke, a lot of people are like, oh,
6:15
she's from Instagram. She's from Instagram. I'm like, no, no, no,
6:17
but I, my start was in stand up. And
6:19
then I just moved it to that platform. It's like these
6:21
people on TikTok now, there's plenty of comedians who are getting
6:23
platforms and they're like pissed about it. I'm like, no, but
6:25
they came from stand up. They just use that as the
6:27
platform. And so I felt like I
6:29
had to really prove to myself, especially other people in
6:31
our biz, like, no, I have, I come from stand
6:33
up. That is my love. I just decided to do
6:35
characters on Instagram because I thought
6:37
I was going to be on SNL. I'm
6:39
doubling down, you know? And now I, that's
6:42
kind of how I've focused on writing words. Like,
6:44
I'm just going to focus on what brings me joy and
6:46
what makes me giggle. And then the
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audience is going to feel that because it's genuine.
6:50
Absolutely. So you started out, when did you get
6:52
booked on Med TV? 2007
6:54
was the year that changed my life. And
7:00
I had just started doing stand up, right? And
7:02
even when I did stand up, I didn't want to
7:04
be a comedian. I wanted to be
7:07
an actress. Like I moved to Hollywood and I was
7:09
like, I'm going to be this dramatic actress. I'm going
7:11
to play a rape victim on Law and Order of
7:13
the U. Always. That's what I thought I was going
7:15
to do. And then I was going to this church
7:17
and on Tuesday nights, they would do creative arts night
7:19
and they would have like a dance class and acting
7:21
class. Because they knew a lot of people at the
7:23
church go or in the entertainment industry. They offered
7:25
all these classes and I was in Scientology, is
7:28
it? No, no. I mean,
7:30
yeah. Because you know, there's a couple of
7:32
people in there. Okay, good. The Church of
7:34
the Lord. It's the Church of the Lord, Jesus
7:36
Christ. We love it. Yes. Amen. Yes.
7:40
Saved in the blood right here. Yeah. So I was in the
7:42
acting class and I would, they would play improv games and I
7:44
was funny in the improv games. And there
7:46
was a woman teaching a joke writing stand up comedy class and she's
7:48
like, do you want to come and take my class? I
7:50
was like, I don't know. I'm free. And she's
7:53
like, yeah. And I was like, sure. Yeah. I
7:55
had no desire to be a comedian at all. And I was like,
7:57
sure, I guess. And then I was like, you know what? I
8:00
do this like nail salon character that I think I
8:02
can make that into a joke. And
8:04
she was like, oh, nail salon jokes are so hacky. Just your
8:06
clear of nail salon jokes. You don't want to do that. And
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I'm like, no, but I got to, I'm really good at this one.
8:11
I don't know if anybody does it like me though.
8:13
So I think I'm gonna still do it anyway. And
8:16
I took this free class at a church and
8:18
then our graduation from the class, we had to
8:21
perform at like a real comedy club and it
8:23
was at the Queen Mary in Long Beach and
8:25
everybody had to bring like 15 people. And
8:29
that was my first time performing and I never
8:31
wanted to be a comedian. And one of my
8:33
first jokes I wrote was a nail salon bit.
8:35
That is amazing. So how did
8:37
you get on mad TV from that? Right? That's
8:40
what your question was. At this
8:42
Christian comedy class, did it have
8:44
to be like super clean? Yeah.
8:47
Okay. Okay. All
8:49
right. I love that. But I was already
8:52
clean anyways. Like at the time I was super religious,
8:54
didn't say no cuss words. Like it was not, I
8:56
didn't have to try to be clean. So it was
8:58
fine for me. So anyway, that
9:01
was in 2006. And
9:04
around that time I had been doing stand up
9:06
for four months. I get a call. Hey, do
9:08
you want to come perform at the ice house?
9:10
There's this company. They're going to record it. And
9:12
this is before YouTube. They're like, they're recording it
9:14
and it's for flip phones. People can download a
9:17
comedy clip for a dollar 99 on Verizon flip
9:19
phones. So if you come, they'll pay you 25
9:21
bucks. And I was like,
9:23
hell yeah. You're like balling. 25 bucks. I'll
9:26
be there in 10. Top ramen. I started making
9:28
all my grocery lists already from that. I was
9:30
like, let's go. And
9:32
so I get there. I do my set. They
9:34
gave my 25 bucks. That was it. And
9:37
then next thing you know, YouTube comes out. They're
9:39
like, well, nobody's going to pay a dollar 99 for
9:41
comedy clips and they can watch it for free on YouTube. We'll
9:44
just upload it to this thing called YouTube. Right? So
9:46
that's how that that's happening on the background. I don't even know that
9:48
that's happening. Right. I just now it's January
9:51
2007. Now I start getting like
9:53
phone calls from people that are like, Hey,
9:55
I got an email from a
9:57
coworker and it was a video of. you
10:00
and I was like girl what video
10:02
we should talk about and then I bet yeah you're
10:04
doing like this nail salon joke and I was like
10:06
yeah that was just loose people's emails that's what I'm
10:08
saying and I was like it makes you panic a
10:11
little bit you're like no I know that I put
10:13
this out there but you're also like what is yeah
10:15
yeah and I was like what that's weird I started
10:17
getting these kind of phone calls from people and this
10:19
is when if somebody sent you an email with a
10:22
video you for sure watched it yeah you never thought
10:24
twice about clicking yeah exactly and there was no commercials
10:26
there's no ads it was just like oh a video
10:28
in my email head yeah so it was around that
10:30
time so then now it's
10:32
January this brand new thing called YouTube
10:35
comes out this is when my space
10:37
is popular so all the sudden this
10:39
video goes out and there's like 4
10:41
million views on this video in like
10:43
one month and then my myspace page
10:45
starts blowing myspace I just
10:47
got so triggered by the myspace yes
10:49
yes well so all the time I
10:52
get like just thousands of messages from
10:54
people and I don't know how to
10:56
be famous I don't know how to
10:59
be a celebrity I don't know etiquette
11:01
I don't know anything so I'm replying
11:03
to every single person every person and
11:06
then I'm like oh then I'm like let me just copy
11:08
and paste thank you for the support thank you for
11:10
this part I'm like just copy copy paste copy paste and
11:12
then I started getting repeat fans are like is this a
11:15
robot cuz you already said this to me I'm like
11:17
oh my god I'm so sorry I don't know how to
11:19
be famous like I'm just trying to reply everybody's overwhelming
11:21
I don't know what I'm doing like that kind of thing
11:23
and then I started getting messages
11:25
from like network executives assistants yeah because
11:27
nobody knew how to get a hold
11:29
of me I have an agent at
11:31
the time yeah so they're sending their
11:33
assistant to my space to message me and
11:36
it's like hey I'm the assistant to so-and-so
11:38
at CBS at Fox at wherever they want
11:40
to meet with you they saw your nail
11:42
slum video whatever whatever and I'm like oh
11:45
my gosh this is crazy I had
11:47
to go buy a calendar at Staples like I like
11:49
all of a sudden I had a lot of it
11:51
you know to me yeah and this
11:53
is at the time when I had no job
11:55
I had no agent I was on an employment my
11:58
unemployment checks had run out yeah it was like
12:00
the end the end and like the only
12:02
reason why I was still in Hollywood is
12:04
because my sister who is my biggest cheerleader
12:06
was sending me money to pay my
12:08
rent she would send me gift certificates to the grocery
12:10
store so I could eat. Shout out to every sister.
12:13
Yeah, yeah. My sister did the same. Don't give up.
12:15
I remember when I was out here and I was
12:17
like I she would just send me Chipotle gift cards
12:19
and I lived off Chipotle for a year. Yeah, yeah.
12:22
I love that. So I stayed I stayed
12:24
and then I remember I started getting all
12:26
these these meetings and then I remember
12:28
being on the phone with my sister and I was
12:30
like okay this is either like a little phase that
12:32
I'm going through or this is the beginning of the
12:34
rest of my life. Wow. And that's exactly what it
12:36
was. So it was January 2007 and then by February
12:39
I got a new
12:41
agent and new manager and then by
12:43
March I was auditioning for Mad TV
12:45
and then by May I
12:47
had booked the show and
12:49
I was now touring the country as
12:51
a headlining comedian and
12:54
so by the end of the year I was
12:56
you know on Mad TV touring the country and
12:58
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You will thank me later. What
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do you know about DV? Just because I always
16:21
wanted to be in sketch comedy and that's my
16:23
true love. But I remember just being like, she's
16:25
a star. And I'm not saying that to blow smoke up
16:27
your ass. I always thought you were a star. I've always
16:29
thought you're so incredibly talented. I love all of your
16:31
specials. I am such a fan and I
16:33
love hearing people's origin story. I know I'm sure you
16:36
probably told it a thousand times, but thank you for
16:38
sharing with us today because I just try to explain
16:40
to people. I always try to explain to my audience,
16:42
like people think everything's an overnight sensation, but it's like
16:44
it took you not even realizing that you wanted to
16:46
do stand up. You were doing it, but not even
16:48
realizing that that was the career you're going to go
16:50
down. And the church improv group
16:52
was like, this is your journey. Shout out
16:54
to the Lord. We love the Lord. Shout
16:56
out to the Lord. Did
16:58
you find, okay, so once you got
17:00
on Mad TV, you continued to tour
17:03
and then you just kept down that path. Did
17:05
you get there TV shows, post that? Like, did
17:08
you try? Yeah. Yeah. We're
17:10
all doing that right now, right? You didn't do the sitcom route,
17:12
did you though? Tried. Yeah. I
17:15
definitely, I went through a season where every pilot
17:17
season I was booking something. Like it was just,
17:19
I knew I was going to book, I was,
17:21
I was testing for at least three things. I
17:24
was booking something. And then all of a
17:26
sudden it went like real
17:28
silent. And
17:30
then I was not booking anything. And then
17:32
if I even got the call that like, Hey, they
17:34
want to test you. I'm like, Oh, thank God. Finally.
17:37
And then it was like, that's where it would end,
17:39
like at a test. And then it
17:41
got to a point where I would book it
17:43
and then they're like, okay, the show got picked
17:45
up, but you didn't. They're recasting your part. And
17:47
it's like, cool, cool, cool, cool. That's what no
17:49
one understands there. Even when you think that you're
17:51
there, I like, I feel like,
17:53
you know, I've been trying to see the show picked up forever. I
17:56
won't feel like it's actually happening till we've got three
17:58
seasons under our belt. Oh yeah. Because
18:01
you just don't know. Oh yeah. You can go shoot the
18:03
pilot, you sign the contract and you're like, yeah, we actually
18:05
decided to go in a completely different direction. We're
18:07
like a petite Asian woman. Yeah, yeah. You're
18:09
like, okay. Yeah. Didn't see
18:11
that coming. Exactly. I'm usually
18:13
the, in case we go in another direction,
18:16
girl, like here's somebody else. But yeah, I
18:18
remember one time I went to Dave Chappelle's
18:20
show in New York and we
18:22
had the same agent at the time. And
18:25
so I was backstage with my husband and I'm chatting
18:27
with him in his green room and he goes, Hey,
18:29
I hear you just got a development deal. This is
18:31
a long, long time ago. He's like, I heard you
18:33
just got a development deal. And I was like, I
18:35
did. And he's like, congratulations. I'm like, thank you. And
18:38
he's like, just keep in mind, I had 11 development
18:41
deals before I got the Chappelle's
18:43
show and it was such
18:45
a humbling, but like, I'm
18:48
so grateful that he wasn't
18:50
trying to like knock me off a high horse.
18:52
He was just like trying to like help me
18:54
by like, Hey, perspective, keep this
18:56
in mind. If this doesn't go,
18:58
that's all right. You keep going. If this doesn't
19:00
go, you keep going. Don't worry. I
19:02
did it 11 times. 11 times. I,
19:05
that's why whenever like, you know, you get anything
19:07
that pops off and the Hollywood reporter, you know,
19:09
they want to put a little blur about, I'm
19:11
almost like, don't until we actually have that we've
19:13
got episodes. Yeah. Because again, you
19:15
had the development deal. I mean, it's, it's, they're
19:17
all hell. Yeah. I remember I had
19:19
a development deal one time with Kevin Hart and America Freire
19:21
as my producers. And you're like, how is this not going
19:23
to get picked up? And I'm like, who's going to say
19:25
no to them? Like sure. They
19:27
can say no to me, but then I got to find
19:30
out of them and we sold the show to
19:32
NBC. They
19:34
bought our script, but then they didn't move
19:36
forward with shooting it as a pilot. That's where I'm
19:38
at. Yeah. That's
19:41
listen, I've been to the, because I'm going to
19:43
find out the matter of weeks, whether or not they're going
19:45
to shoot this pilot. And I am just, call me
19:47
whether it's the answer. No, I am absolutely continue. I'm
19:50
so sorry. And I've had that
19:52
happen many times. And so here's,
19:54
they're like, okay, they're going to buy it. And I'm
19:56
like, okay, they're definitely not going to say no to these
19:58
two. Yeah. And they're like,
20:00
yeah, they're not moving forward. I was so
20:02
mad because I had the most perfect picture
20:04
to post. It
20:08
was for, yeah, it's like me, Kevin Hart,
20:10
our producing team, we did a table read.
20:12
I was just like, this is the way
20:14
I'm going to post that outfit on that
20:16
day. And they said, no.
20:20
And then you already had the caption saved. You're like, I
20:22
did it. My dreams, follower dreams,
20:24
don't give up you guys. Never
20:26
give up. You guys, God is so good. He is
20:28
always still good. But either way, like, and then
20:30
the next caption has to be, so guys,
20:32
like you crying at Earth Cafe. When
20:35
God closes one door, he opens a window.
20:41
Just pick up the show. Please pick
20:43
up the show. I
20:45
feel like, though, you have a good head on your shoulders
20:47
because I think in comedy, obviously
20:49
you have to work a different we
20:51
take a different route than everybody else. It's funny. I
20:53
don't know if you've ever experienced this, like being on
20:56
set. I'm very I mean, I like to say I'm
20:58
easy to work with. Give me 10 years and I might
21:00
be a monster of a
21:02
diva. But like I get things
21:04
myself. I'm you know, I go to craft
21:06
services myself. I do all the things. And
21:08
it's so funny because P.A. is always like,
21:10
no, no, we'll get it. I'm like, no,
21:12
no, please. Like I'm easy. And they're like,
21:14
oh, it's because you're a stand up. I've
21:16
been doing it a lot because we know
21:18
how to do it ourselves. We're schlepping through
21:20
airports by we're, you know, we're running to
21:22
comedy clubs. Like I think a meeting just
21:24
because we come from a different background is
21:26
completely different than dealing with like just actors.
21:28
Yeah. Well, it's funny because I would
21:31
say I'll definitely do a little bit of both.
21:33
I love to be walking down the craft service
21:35
line. What do I have to pick? I want
21:37
a little bit of this, a little bit of
21:39
that. And then there's times I'm like, oh, we'll
21:41
just go get it for you. And I'm like,
21:43
I think. Sure.
21:45
They're like, what do you want? I'm like, what do you have? Right.
21:47
And then it's just like, yeah. And then they bring me all these
21:49
treats and I'm like, oh, I wouldn't have picked this. But thank you.
21:52
You know, I do remember one time
21:54
I brought my dad to set of a movie that I
21:57
was doing and I was like so
21:59
proud to like bring. him to set because
22:01
my dad is like the
22:03
toughest critic for me. My mom
22:05
is that way for me. Oh my god. He
22:07
was on Superstore and my dad came over
22:09
to see it to watch it and at
22:11
the end he's like that's the only part
22:13
they gave you? Yeah. Oh
22:15
yeah. He goes they didn't give you no funny
22:18
parts. And I'm like that's kind
22:20
of the vibe of the show. It's not like what
22:22
a- What's the news? Yeah. And so he's like- He's
22:24
like that's all you got? Yeah they gave me no
22:26
funny parts. I'm like okay dad. I'm like I'm going
22:28
to do this movie and my dad comes to set and I'm
22:31
already there so he was driving to come meet me and he's
22:33
going to leave right? And so I
22:35
remember the PA, we're like giving him a tour
22:37
and we're like okay this is the craft service
22:39
area and I'm explaining to him like there's all
22:41
these snacks you know for the whole crew and
22:43
everybody when you're hungry because you're here all day
22:45
whatever and he's just like a kid in a
22:47
candy store like all this stuff
22:49
and you know growing up poor he's just
22:51
like what? You know my dad's like super
22:53
frugal. Frugal like picks up coupons he
22:55
finds on the floor. If you find a coupon he
22:57
may use it. So I'm
22:59
with my dad on set and then all of a
23:02
sudden I'm like okay got to go back to work
23:04
and he's going to leave and I'm like right the
23:06
PA will walk you back to your car and he's
23:08
like okay cool I get home and
23:10
I open the refrigerator. Why
23:12
is it stuffed with food from the
23:15
craft service? Like 25 uncrustables. Why?
23:19
Is there a full-on sandwich that was
23:21
made with all their bread and deli
23:23
meat and they had a full-on sandwich? Not even
23:25
eaten but it's in there because
23:28
my dad made the PA stop by craft service
23:30
so he could stock up. Of course he did.
23:32
And take some home. He was weighing down the golf
23:34
cart that the PA had to drive him back to his
23:36
car. My mom's like I take my mom on the road
23:39
sometimes and people get very upset that I don't take her
23:41
to all of my shows because she's kind of like a
23:43
focal point in my life but people don't realize I'm like
23:45
you understand my mom grew up with nothing as well but
23:47
now that she's been accustomed to like a nice life she
23:50
expects to be wind and dine driven around
23:52
in a white limo. You know hoards everything
23:55
from the rider and I'm just like I'll
23:57
walk off stage like where we going to dinner? I'm like
23:59
mom it's 11. You couldn't have, you know, like
24:01
you couldn't have put in an order. Yeah, yeah.
24:04
I just, it's overwhelming some days with my mom and
24:06
everyone's like, bring her on. I'm like, no, it's
24:08
a full-time job watching this toddler. He's going
24:10
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24:12
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when you're on the road, what's your like
27:51
process? Do you write on the road? And
27:54
then who goes with you? What's it
27:56
like? Because I know you tour just as much as I
27:58
do. And also your
28:00
new mom and I want to get into that. But what's your
28:02
process on the road? I have
28:04
a handful of comedians that I work with, that
28:06
I feel comfortable with. I like to bring people
28:09
on the road who are like family, because if
28:11
I'm gonna be away from my family, I want
28:13
it to feel like family on the road. And
28:16
so I've been working with the same comics for years. That's
28:19
great. Mal Hall is like my main guy. I've known him
28:21
longer than I've known my husband. I've been married for my
28:23
husband almost 13 years, and I've been working with
28:25
Mal longer than that. Ron Hortman, probably
28:28
at least 10 years and
28:30
Ron Hortman, Kristen Seville, I work with her
28:32
sometimes. I just started, I rarely introduce like
28:34
a new one to the crew because I
28:37
just stick with my guys. I
28:39
just started working with a new guy named Neri Signs
28:41
out of Miami. And I like
28:43
to work with people who are a fun
28:45
hang, because we're spending so much
28:47
time together, and somebody who I can write
28:50
with. Somebody who can watch my set.
28:53
And when I come off stage in
28:55
between shows, they're like, okay, what if you try it
28:57
like this? Okay, what if instead of
28:59
this say this? And somebody that
29:01
I can riff with in between shows, and then
29:03
the next day we go to the coffee shop
29:06
that's like closest to the hotel, and then we
29:08
sit there, we go through our notebooks, and then
29:10
we talk about our material, and then we go
29:12
back and try it again the next night. I
29:15
like to work with people like that. And
29:18
so yeah, so then I just started this
29:20
year, last weekend was my first weekend
29:22
for the year, and this is my
29:24
year to write my new hour because
29:26
I just released it last year. So
29:28
now I'm writing my new material. And
29:30
it is an adjustment going from. So
29:32
daunting. In your performance mode. Especially
29:35
when you have an hour that you super love, and
29:37
you're like, I'm loving this material, I'm having so much
29:39
fun with it, and then you have to start taking
29:42
it out and adding in the new stuff. That's so
29:44
hard, I'm like, oh, I love this joke, okay, whatever,
29:46
and getting back into writing mode.
29:49
Getting back into being observant and
29:51
making notes. Because I personally am
29:53
not always on. I'm
29:56
not always, that's gonna be funny, writing it
29:58
down. I love to turn it on. that
30:00
brain off and just enjoy my life. Good
30:02
for you. And that's healthy. That's a healthy
30:04
balance. Yeah, it is healthy. But then I
30:06
have a hard time checking back into work.
30:08
I'm like, I feel you on that. I kind
30:10
of do like it's like a perfect storm or a
30:12
little bit like an episode of Homeland like two weeks before
30:14
I'm about to go on the road. I like take a
30:16
bunch of Adderall and I like lock myself in the basement
30:19
and it's like, you know, my husband comes down and like,
30:21
make sure I'm showered. I'm like, I got ideas, you
30:23
know, and it's a little like all over the
30:25
wall in my office. But then it's
30:27
like, then it clicks. I mean, you have to get up on
30:29
the stage. Give me your husband. Actually, in a gay bar in
30:31
New York City. Stop. Yeah. No,
30:34
I sure did. I sure did. You know,
30:36
and there's a lot of gay men who hate me because
30:38
of it. No, he was out with his two gay cousins
30:40
and I was with my best friend Christina who works with me
30:42
now and they were like, Oh, Jeff, we want you to meet
30:44
Heather. She's at the bar and it just happened to be this
30:47
gay bar in Hell's Kitchen where I lived. And he walked
30:49
in the bar and I said, that's who I'm going to
30:51
meet. I said, sorry, that's who I'm going to
30:53
marry. Yeah. Literally, I just said it out loud.
30:55
My girlfriend Christina was like, Jeff? And I'm like, you know him? She's like,
30:57
yeah, I grew up with him. And I said, I'm going to meet her.
30:59
I told her to come meet us. And that was it.
31:01
How do you meet your husband? He's a Christian rapper. He
31:03
was. He was. Okay.
31:06
Now he's doing real estate. Yeah. I
31:08
love it. I've been following all the ventures online. We're getting
31:10
the real estate game because you know, everybody could get canceled tomorrow. So
31:12
you guys have a back to follow back plan. Exactly. That
31:15
was my husband. He was like, listen, we have to have a
31:17
way of making income that does not rely on people liking us. Yes.
31:20
Oh, that's a good idea. Yeah. And
31:22
also like eventually, you know, and I'm sure we would
31:25
being a new mom, it's like being on the road
31:27
is so physically taxing. And you're
31:29
like, I think like COVID probably taught us a
31:31
lot. Like obviously it's the boom now where everybody's
31:33
out and it's great, but it's like you got
31:35
to have something to also that like makes money
31:37
while you sleep. Right. So how did you
31:39
guys meet? They're mutual friends. I
31:42
had a roommate. She was getting married. I went
31:44
to her wedding and
31:46
her husband's best friend was
31:48
there and I thought he was
31:50
hot. And I was like, who's this guy? Somebody
31:52
needs to introduce me. But then nobody introduced me.
31:55
And I was like, I'm not going to introduce myself. And so
31:57
then I went home and I cyber stalked him on the internet.
32:00
I love that soft cyber stock. Yeah, yeah I went
32:02
to her Facebook page and then I clicked on her
32:04
new husband and then I went through everything one of
32:06
his friends Until I found that afro that I seen
32:09
at the wedding. I'm like boom. There it is. Got
32:11
him Yeah, and then I like looked at everything about
32:13
him. I found out he was in a band like
32:15
he's touring Woo-woo this and
32:17
that and I was like, oh well
32:19
man snoozy lose You should have met me and
32:22
then closed the computer and then I never looked
32:24
him up ever again. I didn't message him I
32:26
didn't tell my friend. Hey hook me up with
32:28
that guy. I didn't do nothing I just stopped
32:30
him and I was like, you should have met
32:33
me you missed out. Sorry, sir Bye,
32:35
and then I went on with my life for
32:37
two years Yeah
32:41
And then left and then I didn't even plan with me I just did
32:43
my Your brain this wasn't
32:46
you didn't reach him to say like oh
32:48
you should have met me bye and then
32:50
like block That
32:52
was all self-confidence. I love that all just
32:54
me talking hyping myself up being like well,
32:56
he snooze he lose When
32:59
I was my life two years later I get a
33:01
text message from my friend that got married that day
33:03
She was like, hey, I hadn't even talked
33:05
her in a long time at this point and she was like, is
33:07
this still Angela's son? I'm like, yeah And she's
33:09
like I want to hook you up with somebody and I was
33:11
like kind of annoyed because I just got out of like a
33:13
Stupid relationship and I was like dumb like who do you hook
33:15
me up with? She's like, well, I don't
33:17
know if he's your type but look him up on Facebook. His
33:20
name is Manuel Reyes I knew like
33:22
girl You don't know my research came loading
33:24
back. Let me go to my file cabinet
33:26
and get out the receipts the timelines. Yeah
33:28
Yeah, I was and I played it course
33:30
like I'll look I'll check. Yeah, I guess
33:33
and groggy knew I was like, okay Let's
33:35
do this and I keep saying Facebook Everybody's
33:37
listening because I'm showing you the time frame
33:39
that we were in when Facebook was the
33:41
only thing that we had because that's how
33:44
We were doing remember a poke when you
33:46
got a poke from alert on Facebook now
33:48
It's like actually I think would be considered
33:50
a salt You on Facebook you were like,
33:52
oh, oh I got it. Okay.
33:55
All right Tyler. Thank you. Okay. Yes.
33:58
I love this Long
34:00
into the relationship did he know about
34:02
you doing the cyber stalking? I think
34:05
I didn't tell him until We
34:07
might have been married. Yeah, yes smart smart
34:10
Ladies who are watching you have them and then
34:12
once they're legally bound to you and especially if
34:14
you get knocked up when you're legally Bound to
34:16
you, then you let them know what a psychopath
34:18
you are. Yeah. Yeah, I waited till I had
34:20
him on a lock And yeah, I told him
34:23
the truth. I didn't even tell my friend. I
34:25
didn't tell her for I tell anybody for a
34:27
long time but yeah,
34:29
we moved very quickly we
34:31
met in when was it August and We
34:35
were like officially boyfriend girlfriend by October
34:37
on October 4th was our boyfriend
34:39
girlfriend And I remember it because
34:41
we used to go Tim for Idiot
34:46
I love it. I love it so much
34:49
Idiot so much and
34:51
then we were engaged by Christmas Eve and
34:54
then we got married the following June and I
34:57
hadn't even known him a full year before I married him
34:59
see I think that works out I mean, I know the
35:01
moment I went on my first day with my husband. I
35:03
was like, this is it Yeah, and it was just easy.
35:05
I try to explain to people they're like, oh, what's good
35:07
like relationship advice? I'm like if
35:09
it's easy, I think it's
35:11
like yeah when when I see my friends is
35:13
like dramatic. They keep going back I'm like, no
35:15
if it's the right one is supposed to be
35:18
easy in the beginning because it's only gonna get
35:20
harder from there Yeah, it's hard in the beginning.
35:22
It's we're not set up for success. Yeah. Yeah.
35:24
I love that you moved fast And
35:27
how is he with and obviously I know he's
35:29
so supportive but I'm just like did it ever take
35:31
an adjustment period? But he's a performer because he's
35:33
a musician ever take a Like
35:36
adjustment period for him to like see
35:39
you in in stand-up light or was he
35:41
ever are there everything's like you you don't
35:43
talk about on stage this was
35:45
like how we were such
35:47
the perfect couple because He
35:51
had always said he wanted
35:53
to be a cheerleader to his
35:55
wife I love that he wanted to be
35:57
like uplifting her. He never wanted
36:00
wanted somebody to be like his arm
36:02
candy at home. He always
36:04
wanted to like boost her up.
36:07
And so when he met me, he didn't know who I
36:09
was. He wasn't, he'd never seen
36:11
the Nails on video, but he did say
36:13
that all his girlfriends around him, they were
36:15
all quoting Bonkwee-Kwee and he didn't know. Iconic
36:18
Bonkwee-Kwee forever. He didn't know it was me.
36:20
He thought it just his friends were funny
36:22
and they made up this funny like, you
36:24
know, things that they said. And then
36:26
he found out that they were quoting me. And
36:28
so I think that kind of impressed him a
36:30
little bit. He was like, oh, wait, people
36:33
know of her. I don't know who she is.
36:36
And I remember we went, we met up. So
36:38
he flew into town because he was living in
36:40
Florida at the time. So he flew in to
36:42
come and meet me here in LA and we
36:44
went to lunch with our mutual friends. And
36:47
he was so impressed that I drove up in my
36:49
little sporty Lexus that I had. And
36:51
we'll Lexus, we love it. We stand. And
36:56
he was like, okay, this girl's like doing
36:58
her own thing. And I feel
37:00
like it was something like different for him.
37:02
Like he didn't have to like, he didn't have to take
37:04
care of me. I didn't need him. You
37:07
know, it was just like, hey, here
37:09
we are. Is this going to work
37:11
or not? And we have a different telling
37:14
of the story because he says I
37:16
was cold to him. I
37:18
was like mean. And I
37:20
say that he's just used to girls fawning all
37:23
over him. He's been so good looking and I
37:25
wasn't doing that. And I
37:27
was very like, what's our first FaceTime call. I
37:29
had no makeup on. Yeah, my hair was up
37:31
in like a messy bun. I was in my
37:33
hotel room and I'm packing up my suitcase to
37:35
go to the next city. And I was
37:38
like, what's up? Yeah, what's
37:40
good? Hi, I keep coming on and off screen
37:42
because I'm packing and I'm like, uh-huh. And where
37:44
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37:46
multitasking him and he's like, who is this
37:48
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39:29
recently became a mom. Yeah. And
39:31
I really want to talk to you about this because I'm
39:33
in this weird position in my life. I'm turning 37 in March. So
39:36
young. So
39:38
young but I've gone through a
39:40
wide assortment of different fertility stuff and I
39:42
know that the clock is ticking. I got
39:44
to get on it. But it's so scary
39:46
and I don't think, I was talking
39:49
to Whitney about this a little bit. She
39:51
had so much success before she had a baby. And
39:53
you have too but I'm at this point where
39:55
I'm like, it's like we're coming over the mountain. Like
39:58
all this stuff we built. And I'm I want to be
40:00
a mom and I know that I got to get on it. And I
40:02
mean, my mom had me a 40 and that's probably why I
40:04
turned into a stand-up comedian. But I
40:07
don't want to have two old eggs, you know. But I
40:09
also know I'm going to probably have to do IVF again
40:11
and all this stuff. So it's just, how's it been, you
40:13
know, being a mom, being back on the road? Because I
40:15
know you just had your beautiful baby girl and now you're...
40:17
So this is your first time. This isn't your first time
40:19
away from her on the road. Is it? No,
40:22
we started last September. Okay. But
40:25
really quick, I just want to touch on something. For all
40:27
your listeners who are listening who may not know this because
40:29
you've done IVF and I'm sure you've talked
40:31
about it with them. But I don't know
40:33
if people understand how hard
40:35
IVF is and then for
40:38
you to go on the road
40:42
and tour and make people laugh and show
40:44
up and give them your energy when you
40:46
just got the call that's like, hey, this
40:49
embryo is not viable. You only got one.
40:51
You only got this. That was me. I
40:54
was on the road driving from one city to the next city getting
40:56
the call from my daughter. I was like, oh, I'm a doctor. Hey,
40:58
none of you. I'm real. It's a
41:00
revival. Yeah. because
41:03
you love what you do. And you
41:05
know, everybody paid their harder money to come and
41:07
see you, but then you're also like dealing with
41:09
this and you have your hormones that you've been
41:11
injecting and you have all this going on. So
41:14
just for all your listeners who are listening, so
41:16
they have a better understanding of what you go
41:18
through, how much you show up for them. Just
41:20
for you. Yeah. For
41:22
you, queen. Right back at you. Because so how many...
41:24
If you don't mind me, I talk about it a
41:26
lot. About and especially on stage, I found
41:28
the only way to talk about it was to talk
41:30
about it on stage was just because I went
41:33
into egg freezing IVF because
41:35
I was trying to do... I was lucky that
41:37
I did it during COVID. I
41:39
was like, well, then if I have a little downtime, we're going to do
41:41
it now. But I had to do three rounds to get one embryo. You
41:44
know what I mean? And I know that if I got to
41:46
do it again, I mean, it's... We're already... I
41:48
got to roll up my sleeves and get dirty with it.
41:50
You were doing it while touring. God, I don't
41:53
know how you physically did that. It was hard. Traveling
41:55
with the needles, traveling with the drugs. So
41:57
it was hard and stressful.
42:00
And I had booked this job and
42:03
I had to cancel some tour dates because
42:05
I booked this and we were gonna be filming and Then
42:08
come to find out after I canceled those tour
42:10
dates Then I got fired from the job and
42:13
all this while I'm doing like the shots
42:16
and so are you hormonal? So you're losing
42:18
your damn mind and it's just a stress
42:20
is not helping right body create, you know
42:22
I mean, yeah, so I actually went through
42:25
it twice and I
42:27
got minimal eggs. Yeah both
42:29
times and I ended up with
42:33
For embryos only three of them made
42:35
it through the testing and then at the
42:37
end of that none of them were viable
42:40
So they're like, okay, you're gonna have to do it
42:42
again. I was like, oh my gosh, this
42:44
is so hard I don't know if I could do it again then
42:46
could never and I was is that it? Yeah
42:52
So I'm like, all right this I
42:54
have one month off in November this
42:56
is a 2020
42:59
when I have a be 23 says 2022 and this
43:01
is how we as as road comics is that we
43:03
think I'm like Okay, I've got the month of August
43:05
off. Yeah, I don't have to be in Vegas. All
43:07
right. Okay. All right We get we get inject ourselves. We
43:10
have a two week window where we don't have to be
43:12
on an airplane. Yeah, Ernest Sky Club Yeah, so this is
43:14
what I can do it. All right. I'm juicing myself up
43:17
Sorry Exactly. And so I'm like,
43:19
all right I will do it in November because that's
43:21
my one month that I have off and I was
43:23
touring I had just come out with my book. It
43:25
was like a whole thing and So
43:27
I'm like, all right since I'm not gonna be
43:30
doing anything with you know IVF this
43:32
summer I'm gonna take the time to
43:35
work on Myself
43:37
and get snatched for my taping in
43:39
October. I have a tape in October
43:41
1st in Nashville. Yeah I am just
43:43
gonna work out. I'm gonna eat healthy.
43:45
I stopped drinking alcohol I
43:47
stopped eating after like 8 p.m. Cuz
43:49
you know in the comedy club. Yeah,
43:52
I'm like, give me those chicken tendies
43:54
when I come off Hey, I midnight
43:56
tendy Brock's me to sleep I
44:00
need a tindy platter with some shitty
44:03
club fries and a ranch that
44:05
has been sitting in the back of a pantry That
44:07
is what I need and then creamy and then I'm
44:09
out Okay,
44:12
I told myself I said I'm not gonna do
44:14
none of that. Yeah, and I'm gonna eat healthy
44:16
and no alcohol I'm gonna get snatched. I'm gonna
44:18
work out in all these holiday in yeah, and
44:20
I have like three free weights and I'm
44:23
like, I'm gonna work it out and by the
44:25
time October 1st comes I'm gonna get snatched right? Okay, so
44:27
I'm spending this time working
44:30
on my body making my body
44:32
healthy for my taping Yeah brain
44:34
thinking you're making it for your
44:36
taping. Mm-hmm. Really. I had no
44:38
idea I was preparing my body
44:40
to get pregnant because I
44:42
ended up getting pregnant Naturally the week
44:44
before my tape got us good. God is good.
44:47
I feel a spirit coming through me way. Yes You
44:50
got pregnant the week before your taping.
44:52
Yeah. Now. Did you feel
44:54
pregnant during your taping? You weren't sick right? Yeah,
44:59
yeah, yeah. Oh my gosh. God.
45:01
It's so good. I love you I had no
45:03
idea I was pregnant and then the like week
45:05
after my taping or like a few days later
45:08
then I went to DC with
45:10
this whole Latina group we went to
45:12
the White House and then we had like a safter party
45:14
and I was yeah Yeah, thanks again And then I went
45:16
to go visit my cousin who lived in DC and then
45:18
we did a whole tequila tasting and his bar Like I
45:20
was living up. I spent all summer Let's
45:24
while out and
45:29
then That next weekend.
45:31
I didn't start my period and I
45:33
was like, that's weird cuz I've been
45:35
like on time All right And
45:38
so I'm like, okay next day and I still don't start
45:40
a period and then next day So now we go on
45:42
the road and I went to
45:44
I was in Atlanta Oh and I'm there and
45:46
I have a brother who lives right outside of
45:48
Atlanta. We'll talk about Okay, I know that side
45:50
of Atlanta. Let's talk. Yeah, so I I'm at
45:52
Atlanta and I'm doing my show
45:54
and I remember being like You're having
45:56
a straight away period yet and then a couple of thoughts
45:58
like what are you pregnant? Yeah way wild,
46:00
can you imagine? And then
46:03
the next city, then we're in like Ohio, I
46:05
think it was. And then by the time we're
46:07
at the end of this weekend, I hope you
46:09
didn't find out you're pregnant in Ohio. No. Plenty
46:12
of people find out they're pregnant in
46:14
Ohio and don't want to be pregnant
46:16
in Ohio. Shout out to Ohio. This
46:18
is my favorite city. But regardless, that's
46:20
a dark place to find out you're
46:23
pregnant. No, I didn't
46:25
find out, but it
46:27
was my fifth day of not getting my
46:29
period. So I was like, you're sweating a
46:31
little something is up. I'm Googling
46:33
like, if you're not pregnant, why else would
46:36
you not start your period? And like, and
46:38
then it's like perimenopause. And I'm like, Oh,
46:40
please. And they always, when
46:42
you're going through IVF, they're always telling me, they're like, okay,
46:44
well, yeah, you may be perimenopausal. Like it may just not
46:47
happen for you. And so you're always that's only in the
46:49
back of your mind. Right. So when people tell you what
46:51
if you're pregnant, you should probably take a pregnancy test. You're
46:53
like, no, I probably just quit my period. And I'm like,
46:55
my kids for children are just completely out
46:57
the window. Yeah. Okay. So it's
47:00
our last show. And I had
47:02
previously asked for some shamps, like just
47:04
bring me some tobacco. And we're
47:06
going to take it back. We had this fly Airbnb
47:08
that we were at was so nice.
47:11
And I was like, let's just bring some recycle. Let's just have
47:13
some drinks and enjoy our night. And so now
47:15
I'm in my brain going, wait, should I
47:18
not have this drink? Right? What if I'm
47:20
pregnant? And so I was like,
47:22
I'll just like drink half of it. So people don't
47:24
be like, why are you drinking? You're the one who
47:26
requested this. Right. So I'm like, I'll just like drink
47:28
half and like, I'll sip it slowly. And I knew
47:30
the next day, I was landing back
47:32
home. And I had a pregnancy
47:34
test in my drawer. And I'm gonna take this test when I
47:37
get home. And I remember Danielle, my road
47:39
manager, she dropped me off. And I remember she was taking
47:41
so long to leave the house that day. And I was
47:43
like, I wasn't telling anybody
47:49
as soon as she leaves, I
47:51
go and I'm videotaping everything because I wanted to document
47:53
all my emotions, whether it was yes or no, whatever.
47:55
So I put my camera and it's me and my
47:57
dog. And I'm just like talking to the camera. and
48:00
talking to my dog. Just like, what if
48:02
I'm pregnant? Like talking to Bonzo. Like what
48:04
if this is? And I'm like, no, this
48:06
is dumb, stupid, whatever. And then so I
48:08
pee on the little stick and then I'm waiting and
48:11
then I'm like, oh, and I have to catch flight
48:13
the next morning. It was like a 24 hour turnaround.
48:15
That's all we live. We live for a 24 hour
48:17
turnaround. Yeah, so I'm like
48:19
trying to like repack my suitcase while I'm
48:21
taking a pregnancy test at 41. Then
48:24
I come over to my little test and I'm like, okay,
48:26
talking to my phone. I'm like, all right, I'm gonna look
48:28
at it. Whether it is, yes or no. And
48:30
I remember look at it and my
48:32
heart like dropping and
48:35
I'm like shaking. I'm like, what?
48:38
And then I'm looking at the instructions to make sure. I'm like,
48:40
hold on, wait a minute, wait. They do make
48:42
it very confusing. If it isn't the digital one that just
48:44
says pregnant, you're like, even if it says not pregnant, you
48:46
still keep pregnant and you're like, what does this mean? Yeah.
48:49
Like it's very confusing, okay? And I actually had
48:51
one of those and I forgot that I had
48:54
it. So I go digging through my drawer and
48:56
I'm like, let me try this one that is
48:58
not gonna be confusing. And it said pregnant. And
49:00
I was like, you've got to be kidding.
49:03
It was the only person I could tell is my dog. And
49:06
was it just really like this? It was clearly like so
49:08
meant to be, because I've gotten a false positive before where
49:10
it's like half of the line. And they usually say it's
49:13
almost impossible to get false positives. You'll get a false negative
49:15
but we're gonna get a false positive. But I went for
49:17
like a 24 hour span where I was like, oh
49:19
my God, I'm pregnant, I can't believe this. And then it was,
49:21
I don't know. I don't know
49:23
if maybe, you know. Too many chicken titties. Too many
49:25
chicken titties, you know. There's enough
49:27
hormones in the chicken to give you a
49:29
false positive. But yeah,
49:32
you have to get the digital one where it's just like,
49:34
you're pregnant. Bitch, it needs you to say bitch, you got
49:36
a baby. Yeah, exactly. Oh
49:41
my gosh, and you know, obviously with age, and I feel like
49:43
other people don't wanna talk about it, but it's like, no, when
49:45
you're in that window, everything's geriatric
49:47
pregnancy above like 32. And
49:50
so you were 41 when you got pregnant. Were you 42
49:52
when you had your daughter? Was I 41 or 40?
49:55
I was 41 when I gave birth, so
49:57
I don't remember. Okay, but either way, you're
49:59
like. You know, I mean essentially you
50:01
could say honestly like, you know an older
50:04
mom and what? Yeah, I mean was
50:06
this just like the wildest experience too?
50:09
Yeah, and especially because I had said I didn't
50:11
want kids. I See
50:13
somebody like I know this about you that you didn't
50:15
want kids and you were kind of like staunchly like
50:18
I'm not That's not my journey. That's not my journey
50:20
and that's fine. And so what made you gonna change your mind? 2020
50:23
Oh, were you just like horny and
50:25
like let's go No,
50:28
I was fearful is what well,
50:30
so here's the thing that happened. My career has
50:32
always been my baby It's been
50:34
the thing that I've held dearest to me that
50:36
I've worked so hard for that was always in
50:38
the forefront of my mind It was what I
50:41
dreamed about at night. I never dreamed about being
50:43
a mom. I dreamed about being honest to you
50:45
Like that is what I wanted You
50:48
will never unless you're an actor you'll never
50:50
understand just this year just the need to
50:53
be honest to you Yeah, yeah, listen Mariska.
50:55
We're right here right here. We are watching
50:57
this Benson. We love you Even
51:00
if we're like just give us like the two
51:02
party girls that are coming out of the bar
51:04
that find the dead body in The beginning but
51:06
we don't remember anything from the club. It's so
51:08
loud. They never they never see anything Okay,
51:10
I'll let you know right now. I see everything.
51:12
Okay, we're comedians are the most observant people on
51:14
the planet I'll be like yeah, the body was
51:17
here. The knife is there Okay
51:21
So you're of course having this like existential
51:24
moment where like your career has always been
51:26
it and I'm in that position now and
51:28
when Especially in comedy when it takes so
51:30
long to get your footing It's like well,
51:32
of course you're not gonna take yourself out of the game
51:34
Yeah Cuz what people don't understand too is I fans all
51:36
the time like a baby look good on you a baby
51:38
look good on you Like one you understand like fertility issues
51:41
and two People don't realize
51:43
like okay, if you get pregnant have a baby
51:45
it actually takes you out for like I don't
51:47
want to say a year but especially if it'd
51:49
be on camera or if you're on the road
51:51
like just You know, you want to be with
51:53
your baby you want to be home or your
51:55
body, you know You can't book rolls unless they're
51:57
for pregnant people if you're showing. Okay, so yeah,
51:59
COVID may Do you have this aha
52:01
moment? Yes, so it was when everything
52:03
went away. Nobody's touring. Nobody's auditioning nothing's
52:06
being filmed anything and I
52:09
used to like watch TV and movies
52:11
and be like I could have played
52:13
that why didn't I get that? I used to
52:15
like watch it like that. Oh, when is it my turn? I
52:17
can't wait for my turn like I would watch it like that
52:19
And then I started watching it and not
52:22
caring about that and I didn't need it
52:25
I this was the first time
52:27
that I was like if I never book
52:29
another roll Whatever
52:31
if I don't go back on the road This
52:34
is I enjoy my house This is my first
52:36
time enjoying the fruits of my labor right I'm
52:38
typically touring touring touring. I never go swimming in
52:40
my pool I never even put furniture on my
52:42
balcony to look at the beautiful view that I
52:44
had Mm-hmm, and I finally in 2020 put some
52:47
furniture on my balcony and I sat there and
52:49
I was like wow This is nice when you
52:51
actually stop and be present
52:53
and be present in in your
52:55
space around the garden Okay,
52:58
now when I lost her mind, okay? Yeah, it
53:00
was a whole thing I was like I like
53:02
being home and I'm like if I
53:04
never hit the road like I did then I'm
53:06
okay with it And this was the first time
53:08
I had ever Said
53:11
to myself that my career that I thought was the
53:13
most fulfilling thing in the world to me It was
53:15
actually not so fulfilling because here I was saying I
53:17
don't really need it anymore Whatever
53:19
yeah, you know and it was in
53:21
that moment that I was like oh shoot Should
53:24
I have had kids because I remember
53:26
all of my friends telling me that
53:28
kids are the most fulfilling thing It's
53:31
more fulfilling than this that and whatever and
53:33
I'd be like okay. Yeah, and
53:35
you do your trapped with your kids Exactly
53:38
and so I was like oh my gosh did
53:40
I mess up well I don't even know
53:43
if I have any eggs left So let me at least
53:45
start looking into this and seeing if I do and I'm
53:47
like 38 at the time and so I was like Okay,
53:50
I'm gonna start. I'm gonna go to the doctor and
53:52
at least like get tested however that happens draw blood
53:54
whatever and My friend had
53:56
done IVF before so she sent me to her doctor to
53:58
at least just like Check out the situation.
54:01
Yeah, and she was like, okay, you do have
54:03
some eggs But you don't have a lot so
54:05
if you want to do anything about it, you've
54:07
got to move quickly So
54:09
same with me they were like we're gonna eat I
54:11
mean I was on testosterone for like three months like
54:13
juicing up Wow WWE Rob Because
54:15
I said it like girl you got nothing.
54:18
It's tumbleweeds down there and you gonna have
54:20
to get on the illegal stuff About
54:24
Mexico I
54:27
feel yeah, that's where I get my goods. Yeah
54:30
So I did I did that and they're like you
54:32
gotta move quickly and in still I was like I'm
54:34
just gonna be saving my eggs. Like I still wasn't
54:36
convinced. I wanted kids. I was like, alright
54:38
Let's just save my eggs just in case. Yeah,
54:41
right then Every
54:43
appointment that I went to after that when it
54:45
was more bad news and more bad news like
54:47
okay It was six eggs. Just kidding. It's actually
54:49
four. Okay, actually this one
54:51
didn't whatever Okay, and
54:53
it was like bad news after bad news and
54:56
it was starting to sound more like hey, this
54:58
might not be For you
55:01
and when they were telling me that then that's
55:03
when I was like, oh no, I want it
55:05
so I had the exact conversation
55:07
with my doctor and After
55:10
I'd done two rounds of it and she was
55:12
like my eggs just weren't developing in order for them
55:14
to extract them And she said I
55:16
know it can feel like a death I
55:19
I learned just popped up in the
55:21
chair. They go who died? I'm so
55:23
confused She was like I don't
55:25
think this is for you and I remember I
55:27
sat in my car in the doctor's office
55:30
in the parking garage and I wet and I
55:32
was just like no I am gonna be a mom I
55:34
got to figure it out the timing may not be now But
55:36
I'm gonna figure this out and then I went back
55:38
and was able to do one more round and they
55:40
went into it and For those people who are listening
55:43
who don't understand like you go to do a retrieval
55:45
and they told me they're like we only see one
55:47
Egg the likelihood of getting one egg out of it
55:49
them doing the genetic testing it being viable making it
55:51
to the petri dish The whole thing is like point
55:53
one percent and I just said well, let me just
55:56
try it I'm gonna just try it and then they
55:58
went in they were able to find three So
56:00
then when they sent it off to the lab one
56:02
of those ended up being viable. So my statistic my chances were
56:04
So I have a baby girl I know I have a daughter
56:07
which is wild that they can tell you that I have a
56:09
daughter on ice So I'm like, I know I have one but
56:11
I feel like I'm gonna have to do it again You know
56:13
to get more but having that conversation when they say this
56:15
may not be for you is so
56:17
wild That was the wildest
56:19
feeling I'd ever felt and I was like, no, of course. I
56:21
want to be a mom So I hear you
56:24
on that that was it and I was like no
56:26
That's what I want and then it became a conversation
56:28
with my husband because we were both on the same
56:30
page We didn't want kids right and all that he
56:32
he paints a picture like this He's like imagine we're
56:35
both driving on the freeway and we're like zooming fast
56:37
in life And then all of a sudden you just
56:39
took an exit and went yeah, and he kept going
56:41
and was like wait What we're having kid now
56:43
We want kids because it became something that
56:46
was so like no we have
56:48
to and then he was more like the finances
56:50
about It's it's very expensive as you know, right?
56:52
He's like, okay Well, you know, how many
56:54
times are we gonna do this? Like what's our budget? We have
56:56
to like set a limit So and I was like no,
56:59
right, right we go until I'm tired
57:03
We we didn't see eye-to-eye in the beginning
57:06
and so then that felt lonely and then
57:08
you have all hormones and everything and Then
57:11
eventually he did get on board and
57:13
of course we love we're in love with our daughter
57:15
now But that was a journey that was a real
57:17
journey for us to go through What a
57:20
wild experience to thank you are on one path
57:22
and then all of a sudden you're like no
57:24
and and like when you get That urge you're
57:26
just like this is it. Yeah, you've got to
57:28
go full steam. That is so beautiful. I mean You
57:31
know and it's wild too because I when I talked to
57:33
other like real like big career moms are
57:35
always like yeah You're gonna figure it out. I
57:37
met this wonderful woman in the Sky Club in Atlanta
57:40
and She she
57:42
was a fan. She'd come to a show. She's bigwig at
57:44
this fortune 500 company and We
57:47
were both taking a red-eye. We're on the same flight
57:49
to London. We got delayed So we start chit-chatting having
57:51
a drink. She was like, yeah, I do crazy business
57:53
over in the UK I was like I'm flying over
57:55
there to like shoot a show or whatever and she
57:58
was like, yeah I have my daughter's second mother birthday
58:00
party today and I'm like whoa whoa whoa I was
58:02
like how do you balance all this and she's like
58:04
Heather you're a comedian you've been bone-chilling tired on the
58:06
road she's like you're gonna be the motherhood would be
58:09
easy she's like you know what it's like to be
58:11
spread thin she's like you just figure it out women
58:13
figure it out she's like don't let that stop you
58:15
and I had this woman who I'd seen who I
58:17
met and she was so successful in her career and
58:19
I'm like here she is catching her red eye you
58:22
know to go kick ass and take names on
58:24
a Monday afternoon she's still throwing a party for a
58:26
kid she's like you just figure it out and
58:28
I was like when she told me she's like I
58:30
know you can do it I was like I know
58:32
we've had seven margaritas in the sky club but
58:34
I can't do it and I was like that
58:36
I gotta get on it so now how does it
58:39
feel to be back on the road good hard
58:41
all of the above it's more
58:43
I've always had like anxiety mental
58:45
health issues you know and I
58:48
think there's another layer
58:50
to it that is like
58:52
I want to be present with my daughter
58:55
but then I have to like turn that
58:57
brain off to turn off write a joke
58:59
brain right and go perform and so this
59:01
last week we started in September and I
59:03
was doing like fly away just theaters like
59:05
I would fly for 24 hours and fly
59:08
right back and so I just stay one
59:10
night away and then now I did
59:12
eight shows at this comedy club
59:14
just back to back to back and
59:16
it was hard leaving
59:19
her and turning the mom brain
59:21
off to turn comedy brain on
59:24
like I had anxiety all day
59:26
yeah until I walked up on
59:28
stage once I'm on stage mm-hmm
59:30
forget it right everything goes away I'm
59:32
in my zone it's like oh yeah
59:34
I remember how to do this oh
59:36
yeah I'm funny yeah you know what
59:38
I mean you start like
59:42
improvising with audience a little bit you're like oh
59:44
yeah I can say stuff that's
59:46
you know what I mean like oh yeah this brings
59:48
me so much joy usually it's the dread
59:50
going up do it where you're like I always tell myself
59:52
like right before I'm about to walk out for a big show
59:54
I go why why am I doing this who
59:57
signs up to do this this is insane
59:59
I am it's sociopath and then literally as I
1:00:01
walk out my glitter I'm like this is the
1:00:03
best moment of my life every time Doesn't
1:00:05
matter if I'm where I am. I'm like,
1:00:07
yeah, it's the greatest feeling in the world. Yeah.
1:00:09
Yeah Yeah, so it's been hard transitioning and going
1:00:12
back and forth and eventually I'll
1:00:14
learn a balance. Yeah of it I don't have
1:00:16
it right now. I still am I was trying
1:00:18
to explain it to my husband that I'm like
1:00:22
It's really hard because I'm thinking about What
1:00:25
I'm doing right now what I just did
1:00:27
with her was that the right move what
1:00:29
I'm about to do with her Five steps
1:00:31
from now. I have to
1:00:33
pack her suitcase in two days and
1:00:35
I'm always thinking about everything my daughter
1:00:37
But if I don't then I'm afraid I'm gonna
1:00:39
forget to feed her, you know, like I'm mental load
1:00:42
I saw a bunch of tiktoks on it and I've
1:00:44
been talking to my husband about like how we
1:00:46
balance the mental load He's like, okay. So you
1:00:48
found a couple ticktocks if I hear mental load one
1:00:50
more time But I was like, this is the
1:00:52
best way I've ever heard it described for women.
1:00:54
It's the mental load It's the thinking for people
1:00:56
outside of yourself then having to also think for
1:00:58
yourself It's constantly like what is the next thing
1:01:00
on your plate? Because if you don't have a
1:01:02
million balls in the air, you know, one of
1:01:04
them is gonna drop and it's just constantly like
1:01:06
I That's why I explained to my husband We
1:01:08
like I to sit down at Christmas like I
1:01:10
need you to understand the mental load that I
1:01:12
feel I'm out there on the road I am
1:01:14
trying to entertain and give a hundred percent 120
1:01:16
percent to my audience and my people But I'm
1:01:18
also then worried about what's happening at home worried
1:01:21
about you Am I a good wife and
1:01:23
by doing this and I don't want to say
1:01:25
that guys have it easy But they don't think
1:01:27
and carry the weight of how we feel at
1:01:29
home with them It's like how guys can fall
1:01:32
asleep in like three seconds, you know me Jeff
1:01:34
puts on a breeze ride strip He's he's out.
1:01:36
I'm up doomsday prepping on yeah, I'm writing jokes.
1:01:38
I'm sweating in the bed. My hormones are crazy
1:01:40
Yeah, so I've got to like change the sheets.
1:01:43
I mean it's like unbelievable Yeah, it's
1:01:45
just the way we have more on
1:01:47
our brains to carry Absolutely, and I'll
1:01:50
my husband be like, oh, how'd you sleep?
1:01:52
I'm like I think I'll bet to like one or two.
1:01:54
He's like why I'm like cuz I was researching I
1:01:56
was researching how to large I'll
1:01:58
yeah, keep the lights Yes, I
1:02:00
was researching so then I can tell you what to
1:02:02
do. Yeah, yeah. I
1:02:05
suffer with anxiety too and I never really
1:02:07
had it until things really started to pop
1:02:09
off in my career because then I started to feel
1:02:11
the pressure for myself. And I
1:02:13
mean like I would have a panic attack before
1:02:15
a show and I was like, I
1:02:18
never experienced this before. I wasn't
1:02:20
nervous to perform. Performing is the one place like you
1:02:22
said where you feel in the zone, in the pocket
1:02:24
comfortable but it was almost like I felt like the
1:02:26
weight of the world on my shoulders. And then I had to
1:02:28
like finally have a moment with myself where I'm like, this
1:02:31
is comedy. Nothing matters. Yeah, yeah,
1:02:33
yeah. How do you do with anxiety on the road?
1:02:36
I have my tools. Yeah. Yeah, what are you
1:02:38
doing with your toolbox? Because I'm an action steps
1:02:40
kind of person. I love to hear this. So
1:02:42
first is gratitude. And
1:02:44
when I was struggling real bad with my
1:02:46
anxiety, it was something I would make my
1:02:48
whole green room do. Whoever
1:02:51
was there. I love that. My
1:02:53
road manager, my opener, whoever was in the
1:02:55
room, we would go around the room and everybody would
1:02:57
say five things that they're grateful for. Beautiful. Because
1:03:00
when you say it out loud, you hear
1:03:02
yourself say the thing that you're
1:03:04
grateful for. So it's like you're
1:03:06
raising your vibration and then you're hearing it. So you say
1:03:08
it, you speak it into existence and then it comes back
1:03:10
in. It's like a big circle. And
1:03:13
so you're like raising your vibration with gratitude. It's
1:03:15
gorgeous. So we would go around the room. We'd
1:03:17
say five things that we're grateful for. That's one
1:03:19
thing. My breathing techniques.
1:03:22
I had a doctor teach me this
1:03:24
one time where it's just you plug
1:03:26
one nostril, inhale, and then exhale
1:03:29
and then go back and do that. It's
1:03:32
kind of like choking yourself out a little
1:03:35
bit. You just plug one nostril and you
1:03:37
just you realize you're more anxious about figuring
1:03:39
out how to breathe than you are about
1:03:41
the panic attack. It's about relocating
1:03:43
your anxiety. Exactly. Yeah. Yeah.
1:03:47
Yeah. Yeah. It works
1:03:49
for me every time. Uh-huh. Yeah. I
1:03:52
feel like I'm at a longer pressure and I'm
1:03:54
constantly doing this a lot. I got into the
1:03:57
tapping. Like literally I'll just start tapping doing the
1:03:59
around my feet. Everyone's
1:04:01
like, what are you doing? I'm like, guys, I
1:04:03
feel anxiety coming on. And I just started tapping all
1:04:05
these different points on my face. But it just, it
1:04:07
kind of like, I don't know, it like recirculates the
1:04:10
nervous system. Yeah. And then this
1:04:12
one's a weird one, but it's helpful. I
1:04:14
put on Law and Order SVU in the background. Oh,
1:04:16
yeah. And there's
1:04:19
just something about that noise,
1:04:21
that white noise of Law and Order SVU
1:04:24
that I just chill out.
1:04:26
I love that. Like it reminds me of
1:04:28
a lazy Sunday. It reminds me of a
1:04:30
whatever. Like, no, you're not in the green
1:04:32
room getting ready and like super anxious. It's
1:04:34
like you're home doing laundry with SVU in
1:04:37
the background. Like, I don't know what it
1:04:39
is. But when I put on... Hearing party
1:04:41
girls being like, we saw nothing. Minds
1:04:44
up. People are always like, what do
1:04:46
you do before a show? I'm like, it is
1:04:48
so fucking grandma. I listen to a very specific
1:04:50
playlist called Cocktail Jazz on Spotify. And it makes
1:04:52
me feel like I'm at the
1:04:54
Carlisle Hotel in New York at the Ben Mlements Bar.
1:04:57
Like you said, not about to do a show. I'm
1:04:59
relaxing. It's my night off. I'm with
1:05:01
my husband. I'm having a nice burger and a dirty
1:05:03
martini. That is what I listen to. I don't... And
1:05:06
then like 20 minutes before the show, if I'm feeling good and I'm doing my
1:05:08
makeup, I'll put on like my high playlist. But it's
1:05:10
like, that's... Your SVU is my cocktail
1:05:13
jazz. Yeah. And then my
1:05:15
one last tip. This is for like
1:05:17
when I have anxiety leading up to
1:05:19
something. Whether it's going on the road,
1:05:22
you're filming something, you have a big
1:05:24
meeting or whatever it is. I'm
1:05:27
going on the road on the 26th of the month.
1:05:32
By the first, I'm already anxious
1:05:34
about it. I'm already thinking about it. I
1:05:36
started doing this thing where I would
1:05:38
tell myself, I'm going to
1:05:40
allow you to feel anxious, just
1:05:43
not yet. I'm going to allow you,
1:05:45
if you're leaving on the 26th, by the 23rd, I'm going
1:05:47
to let you
1:05:50
start feeling anxious. So don't worry. I'm
1:05:52
not going to rob this feeling from you. Anxiety, I'm going
1:05:54
to let you come. I'm going to let you do whatever
1:05:56
you do and work through my body. I'm going to let
1:05:58
you do it, but not yet. And
1:06:00
I would bring it into check because I
1:06:02
would otherwise I have anxiety the whole month
1:06:05
So once I told myself like oh, no, there's a time in
1:06:07
a place and I'm gonna get it It's almost
1:06:09
like telling a kid like okay. I'm gonna
1:06:11
give this to you, but after you Right
1:06:15
clean your room after you blah blah blah No
1:06:17
I'm gonna give you that time to get anxious
1:06:19
and go through the motions and do whatever you
1:06:21
got to do Just not yet. I
1:06:24
like that helped me. It's like
1:06:26
bargaining. You're bargaining with yourself Yeah, lie self-talk
1:06:28
lie. So thought a lot of self-talk that
1:06:30
for me It was so like when I
1:06:32
would get anxious It was wild because I
1:06:36
always felt like I've been pretty level-headed and for
1:06:38
it to be a physical mine was such a
1:06:40
physical anxiety I'd be like why am I able
1:06:42
to think clear but my I feel like my
1:06:45
heart is racing I feel like I'm gonna be
1:06:47
sick. My throat is closing, you know, and then I'm over
1:06:49
here in the corner in front of me just Clogging
1:06:52
up my nose and my husband's like well, you're about
1:06:54
to black out like mine was always
1:06:56
such a physical manifestation for me Like right before a
1:06:58
show I do like a really nice physical warm-up. I
1:07:01
am in these glitter suits I am doing jumping
1:07:03
jacks backstage Like I actually have to like move
1:07:05
the energy through my body and then
1:07:07
I get super tired Like I will you know, I'll
1:07:10
be in the wing at a show and the security
1:07:12
guards like are you do you want to do this? I'm like,
1:07:14
no, no, this is what I do I look so
1:07:16
sleepy and tired and yummy right before I am about
1:07:18
to go out and perform for people And
1:07:20
then all of a sudden it's like my body just shuts down
1:07:22
and like right now it's go time Yeah,
1:07:25
I used to put a pillow and a blanket
1:07:27
on my writer Yeah Because I would get tired
1:07:29
So I'm like I just need to lay down
1:07:31
and then I said realizing it was like
1:07:33
like a nervous tick like an anxiety Tick and
1:07:36
I was like, oh I'm not actually tired. It's
1:07:38
just when I get anxiety The
1:07:41
sleepies come right and I would be I would
1:07:43
get cold So I was like always put a
1:07:45
blanket there because I wasn't doing jimmy jacks in
1:07:47
the room So I would always put like a
1:07:49
blanket in a row that was in the beginning
1:07:51
of my career when I was super anxious and
1:07:53
nervous About things but um, yeah, I get that
1:07:55
getting sleepy We
1:08:00
got a surprise a surprise. I feel
1:08:03
nervous. Hold on. I have weird feeling I
1:08:05
know what it is. Yeah Okay.
1:08:08
Hello girls. Can you hear me? Oh Hi,
1:08:13
hello, it's Emily I'm live listening to you
1:08:15
both right now from Bob you love us
1:08:17
Oh Emily we love you I
1:08:20
had to call in cuz I know there's no
1:08:22
voicemails, but I have to give a absolutely yes
1:08:24
and a not but I'll be nice
1:08:26
Okay, great. Okay, so the absolute yes
1:08:28
is obviously to both of you Letting
1:08:31
me be on your team as I think
1:08:33
the youngest member of both Young
1:08:36
and useful we hate you Emily. Yeah It's
1:08:40
a great thing is you know for you
1:08:42
Millennials can be hard But I want to
1:08:44
give a shout out to you to specifically
1:08:47
have gone out of your way to Give
1:08:49
me a presence on your team in this industry.
1:08:52
It can be really Oh You
1:08:55
know to find a voice or get an opinion out
1:08:57
there and you both Empower me and
1:08:59
always like no I want to hear Emily's take Emily
1:09:03
honestly the only one I trust
1:09:10
My absolutely not in
1:09:13
regards to both of your Instagram. Hey you Both
1:09:16
of you struggle with two things which
1:09:18
are one the font Hey
1:09:21
Heather you like your 3d
1:09:23
like black gray white slanted. Oh,
1:09:25
yeah Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
1:09:28
so it pops so my other
1:09:30
elder Millennials can read it Emily
1:09:34
Okay, it's giving 3d
1:09:37
and Angela, you know that you like
1:09:39
the comic fans you address that yeah,
1:09:41
I like it's legible It's legible. We're
1:09:43
surviving Emily Yeah,
1:09:46
well, okay. Okay. Now my second thing
1:09:48
is why do you both when
1:09:50
you have a picture that you're gonna upload feel
1:09:52
like you Need to like shrink it a little
1:09:54
maybe give it a little twist do
1:10:00
that sometimes. What do you mean? Oh I
1:10:02
have evidence both of like in your stories
1:10:04
you swipe up and you put the picture
1:10:06
but then you like squeeze it to make
1:10:08
it smaller and like type something on the
1:10:10
side maybe. Or you like let it spill
1:10:12
the whole screen. Oh yeah because I'll tell
1:10:15
you why because sometimes if I'm wearing like
1:10:17
a colorful outfit and then you try and
1:10:19
put the thought over it you can't read
1:10:21
it. Yeah and sometimes in the background you
1:10:24
can see that there's a messy house and
1:10:26
I don't want you to see it so
1:10:28
I zoomed in please. You
1:10:30
know what Emily we love you
1:10:32
but I just feel like you're also coming for
1:10:34
us right now and we're very upset about it.
1:10:38
You know I had to start off nice I
1:10:40
gave you my absolutely yes I praised you for
1:10:42
being amazing team leaders but I did have to
1:10:44
give you a little you
1:10:46
know a little tip of maybe let's fill the screen
1:10:49
let's go for that you know straight
1:10:51
no background font. Listen I appreciate it
1:10:53
I appreciate all your wisdom yeah we
1:10:55
do all your opinion that you give
1:10:57
it I really I do rely on
1:10:59
your opinion a lot I'm so grateful
1:11:01
for you and my favorite is when
1:11:04
like I'm gonna post something I'll be like Emily what
1:11:06
do you think my caption should be and then she'll
1:11:08
talk about this like beautiful caption I'd be like nah
1:11:10
let's just say this. Literally
1:11:13
my response is always chicken tinnies in the in
1:11:15
the club and she's like this is so embarrassing
1:11:17
I was like but my audience knows I mean
1:11:19
chicken tinnies in the club. Yes
1:11:22
yes. Oh well Emily listen we love
1:11:24
you I'm so glad
1:11:26
that you're on the team too I'm so glad
1:11:28
that you brought us together and
1:11:31
you know what cheers to bad
1:11:33
bitches getting stuff done. Yes. Heck
1:11:35
yes okay I love you both. Love you. Bye
1:11:37
honey. I love her and I say I hate
1:11:39
you to her like 10 times a day. I
1:11:41
do too she's fired she absolutely Emily have you
1:11:44
heard this your first absolutely fired
1:11:46
just drug me on my own podcast.
1:11:48
Let me tell you I can't tell
1:11:50
you how
1:11:52
many times I text her you're fired like regularly
1:11:54
I text her that she's like are you gonna
1:11:56
fire me again and I'm like yes you're a
1:11:58
fire. Yeah, she's
1:12:00
so funny like I tell her at least once a
1:12:02
day. I'm like oh my god she'll send me a
1:12:05
photo and it was very hard for me
1:12:07
to like relinquish control because I Instagram
1:12:09
is where I thrive, but now I like feel archaic
1:12:11
on the tick-tock Yeah, like well, how do I get
1:12:13
this in the algorithm? Yeah, and she's like well, just
1:12:15
let me do it But every day I was we
1:12:18
were going through Emmys photos today No, it's so nice
1:12:20
to be able to like Emily you you find it
1:12:22
and post it cuz I that's an again the mental
1:12:24
loads Too much. Yeah, and every day I text I
1:12:26
go Emily you're not gonna understand this but I'm I'm
1:12:28
you know I'm in my late 30s. I was like
1:12:30
I gotta get this neck done. She's like no, it
1:12:32
looks fine I'm like no, no Emily we got to get the neck
1:12:34
done and today she didn't argue with me. She's like, yeah, okay I
1:12:40
love her though. She keeps me young and youthful. Yeah
1:12:43
She sent me an entire PowerPoint presentation on
1:12:45
the things that I needed to buy to
1:12:48
to stay cool Wow,
1:12:50
you did not so she's fired. Well, I
1:12:53
did ask for it, but you're already cool right now
1:12:55
Like you're cool. You've already got the matching sweats and
1:12:57
the clothes. It was like you're you know, I mean
1:13:00
you already Thank you. I thought
1:13:02
I was cool until I met Emily Yeah,
1:13:04
and then she'll knock you down real quick
1:13:06
and she'd be like, hmm. Oh my god
1:13:08
First of all, I speak gift really well,
1:13:10
like if we're gonna text each other Well,
1:13:12
first of all, we need to be gift friends Yeah,
1:13:14
because she told me when she told me that we
1:13:16
couldn't give yeah, I just started doubling down on the
1:13:19
gas. Yeah I was so mad. I was well
1:13:21
at first I tried to abide by it I
1:13:23
was like I was like it was like biting
1:13:25
my tongue. I really wanted to send this gift.
1:13:27
I'm like, nah Emily's in the chat Yeah, I
1:13:29
like I want to be cool I want to
1:13:31
abide by the cool rules and then I was
1:13:33
like, you know what rebellion Let's just and now
1:13:35
it's just gifts all day when she started sending
1:13:37
me links to like iTunes links
1:13:39
to songs I'm how to feel
1:13:42
she's like, no, we don't sing gifts. We
1:13:44
send links to songs. So that's too much
1:13:46
work No, no, no, no, I want to
1:13:48
be able to see Larry David like going
1:13:50
like really? Yeah, that's how that's the response
1:13:53
Yeah, I think that Williams Larry David like
1:13:55
just kind of confused that that lady who's
1:13:57
confused with like, you know All the numbers and letters around her
1:13:59
head I send that one all the time. I
1:14:01
send all the random screenshots from TikToks that you've never
1:14:04
actually seen the TikTok You just know the guy's face
1:14:06
like yeah this yeah, you know
1:14:08
what we get I always say this stay
1:14:11
in your lane I know what I'm good at you
1:14:13
know what you're good at yeah, she can help us stay
1:14:15
cool online But you know what I'm gonna stay in
1:14:17
my life. Bye. I'm a gift card. Angela
1:14:19
I love and adore you I'm not gonna keep you any longer, but
1:14:21
I just want to say it's so
1:14:23
nice to meet other really phenomenal Obviously
1:14:25
you're so talented We're really kind and
1:14:28
wonderful people in the days and I am so
1:14:30
rooting for you And I adore you and I really think
1:14:32
we should pitch something together and get in some 10-year
1:14:34
development deal But like long enough for us to have
1:14:36
a couple more kids or whatever we want to do
1:14:38
And then we like shoot this when we're
1:14:41
50 you know my gosh yes And yes,
1:14:43
and also lawn order SVU the two girls
1:14:45
walking out of the club who find the
1:14:47
dead body Right here. We're
1:14:49
ready Tell everybody where they can find you
1:14:51
and anything you want to promote your new
1:14:53
tour dates and everything yes So you can
1:14:55
find my tour dates on my website Angela
1:14:57
calm That's a nj e l a h
1:14:59
calm my new special is called say I
1:15:01
won't it's on YouTube right now self-reduce self-lineness
1:15:05
You can check it on YouTube, and then
1:15:07
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