These are my notes and reflections on "Understanding Trauma", session 1 of Returning to Wholeness: A Guide to Understanding and Integrating Trauma, a 12-Lesson online course with Gabor Mate.

Desire Inventory 20 June 2021

Jun 21st, 2021 3m 8s

Desire inventory is a practice where one starts a timer for a certain amount of time (10 minutes for example). Once the timer is started one writes one's desires one at a time. I prefer to write it in this format "I desire [INSERT] because I wa

Part 5 - my reading of An Immanent Metaphysics by Forrest Landry

Jan 5th, 2021 35m 23s

Part 5 of a series where I read the book "An Immanent Metaphysics" written by Forrest Landry and share with you my thoughts and reflections as I read and link it to whatever else I'm reading, thinking, or experiencing in my life at that moment

Part 4 Reading "An Immanent Metaphysics"

Jan 4th, 2021 25m 31s

Part 4 of a series where I read the book "An Immanent Metaphysics" written by Forrest Landry and share with you my thoughts and reflections as I read and link it to whatever else I'm reading, thinking, or experiencing in my life at that moment

Desires Journal #1

Nov 28th, 2020 4m 25s

Reading an entry from my desires journal dated 2 January 2016.

Gratitudes ♡ The Immanent

Nov 24th, 2020 2m 46s

ľm grateful for the immanentperceiver perceiving the perceived as isungarnished by story, meaning, purposeinnate & cognateprecedes cognitive & conativepain is not sufferingwhen the steak makes me salivatenot the sizzle of hot media's bli

Gratitudes ♡ The Unfolding

Nov 23rd, 2020 3m 58s

I'm grateful for the unfoldingrealities happen in the rightnessof their timeslayers of becoming slowly exposedat each revealingstriptease of beingtruth is to uncoverrecoverwhat's beneath surfacesbubbling of what lies underneathsurfaci

Gratitudes ♡ Touch

Nov 21st, 2020 2m 26s

I'm grateful for toucha felt sense of human warmthpalms, forearms, elbowsglide through my aromatic oiled bodyletting go with each out-breathopening inviting in the otherto come in feel their way throughthe body electricpush through soft

Gratitudes ♡ Double Binds

Nov 20th, 2020 2m 51s

I'm grateful for double bindsintractable, unsolvable, irreduciblethe poverty of context deprecatesslip knot of Athens' pesky gnatnibbles at the adjacent possibledialogue is prologueto knowingwho am Iwho you are us twous them, the bigge

Gratitudes ♡ The Liminal

Nov 19th, 2020 1m 23s

I'm grateful for the liminalnot quite there yet but on the wayterse intersticesundisciplined disciplinecrayons crossing linesIitany of fearfeel to steerstir the potspot stripes in savannahkeep walking though I don't wannain nook of cr

Gratitudes ♡ Focus

Nov 19th, 2020 1m 44s

I'm grateful for focusto notice one's noticingwatch the watcherspritz the spritzerone zeroed inbinary thinkingwhere's the linking?scratch the inklingcatch the winkingmetanoia of metamodernaderivé of the derivativetournament of detour

Gratitudes ♡ Discernment

Nov 17th, 2020 2m 19s

I'm grateful for discernmentto pick one from the manythe magpie who sings knowswhich to peck on from multitudeshiding in the rich soilgrass, pebbles, sticks, dried leavespetals, cap, gills, annulus, stalkthe rooster knows when to crowle

Gratitudes ♡ Silent Soliloquy

Nov 16th, 2020 4m 32s

I'm grateful for silent soliloquymind traverse used, disowned, alternative futuresthat which aligns with survivalchange that is social, glacial, at times inimical what uses have we for thesecosmos honours not our tenureto be in flow with

Gratitudes ♡ The Rational

Nov 16th, 2020 2m 40s

I'm grateful for the rationalthat which enhances survivalneocortex makes their case, grovelsto basal ganglia who colandersoverwhelmed by immediacycan blind to orders up from secondaryto bind with practiceallows one to see, know, be, beyo

Gratitudes ♡ The Irreducible

Nov 16th, 2020 3m 10s

I'm grateful for the irreduciblecrucible of parts congenially congealedthere is much more in the concatenated wholeinformation, the entropy of communicationMaxwell's demon cannot know it allwhere in a flower can beauty be?dissected spirac

Gratitudes ♡ Human Alchemy

Nov 16th, 2020 2m 56s

I'm grateful for human alchemyenraptured epistemologiesstochastic, probabilistic, onticyoung & wild reasoned childnow through a looking glassrecursive reflectionsknowing in partthe fullness of perfection pullsforked at each branching of

Gratitudes ♡ Boundaries

Nov 12th, 2020 3m 9s

I'm grateful for boundarieswalking the tightropeof satisfaction & wanting moremastery & frustrationdynamic demarcationsof yes's and no'sa perennial perhapscurious tonguesavouring umami of unknownsbittersweet defeatssalty surrendersou

Gratitudes ♡ Dissolution

Nov 11th, 2020 1m 58s

I'm grateful for dissolutiondisillusion deconstructionto fray tapestry at the edgesunravel untangle rip to shredsa pretext, a contextfor a reweaving, a rebirthwillful warp & wooffind in the rubbleof sacked templescornerstones, key piec

Gratitudes ♡ The Gestalt

Nov 10th, 2020 2m 40s

I'm grateful for the gestalttotal from particularsknowing at onceinstinctualphotons array beams of lightimpressive images emergefrom pointillist markssome Higgs Bosons, a few quarksto keep you off trackwhat do you see?an old hagor a

Gratitudes ♡ Post-traumatic Growth

Nov 9th, 2020 2m 15s

I'm grateful for post-traumatic growtha tree grows around its woundsshattered teacups mendedin fullness of zen attendedbound back togetherwith gold, it comes gildedangels released from rockonly with Hephaestic hammeringviolent chisellin

Gratitudes ♡ Co-dependence

Nov 8th, 2020 2m 42s

I'm grateful for co-dependencebetwixt organisms & with one anothergestalt baroque of filigreedfunctions that furthermore is differentroses grow thornsfrustrate ruminants gagginga chew on their bush bodiesthat they may grow & blossomrel

Gratitudes ♡ The Distributed

Nov 7th, 2020 2m 14s

I'm grateful for the distributedweight, counterweightpunto, contra puntoimpact hits it ripples throughwidely in space/time's fabricno, not simply equala miserly measure of manrather congruentnature's embarrassment of richessymmetry of

Gratitudes ♡ The Human Body

Nov 6th, 2020 2m 17s

I'm grateful for the human bodysinewy sinusoidal waveformof immanent incarnationupright, always on pointlosing balancevulnerable ventral exposedclothed by ingenuityhabiting harnessed habitatsAnthropos conquers scenecorrupted by cunning

Gratitudes ♡ Silence

Nov 5th, 2020 3m 28s

l am grateful for the silencein meditationa ceasing of persistent meallows the avatarto come down, interpenetrateat a pointwhere doing meets beinga crossroad where the finitecomingles with the infiniteripening of fruitin complete surr