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hey everyone today word
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sign something a little different with a
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full on interview as someone
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i really admire writer
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podcast her and media critic sarah
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marshall there are is the cohost
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and creator of to excellent podcast
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you're wrong about which focuses
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on clarifying our collective memory
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and how we define ourselves by popular
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narrative and myth and you are
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good which looks at how particular
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movies influence our feelings
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and world few fair and i
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talk about our fear of strangers why
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having a flattering had sought is
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crucial if you are ever abducted by
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a serial killer the allure of
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reality tv the connection
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between satanic panic into and
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on magical thinking and the idea
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of having soulmate acknowledging
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personal change and a lot more
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unqualified dot
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ladies and gentlemen you're listening to
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on closest videos
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honest
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you are a brilliant podcaster
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and writer and i
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can't thank you enough for joining me so
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you have to podcast for our listeners
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who don't know the first one called you're
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wrong about gives contacts
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to sort simplistic
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societal mythical
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narrative i love this societal
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mythical i grew up in a household
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that really like joseph campbell
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whose work has since been questioned
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complicated
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and really important and fruitful ways but
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who at the time was like the it's scholar
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who informed turns lucas when he was
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making star wars and kind of going around
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and exploring mythology and
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that's what we do with tabloids
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from the the 90s, the first episode
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that that i listen to and what got me me hooked was
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your examination
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of the mcdonalds coffee
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lawsuit
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so oh cool which one, absolutely
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fascinating and your range
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from the a the of like ted
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bundy been romanticized
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which , into sort of the larger
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thematic idea that i think you're
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interested in with satanic panic
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panic your last one was ronald
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reagan and the welfare queen idea
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they're all fascinating and i'm really grateful
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for the work and contacts you provide
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but provide did want to ask you with
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void guess have been called slap heard
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round the us and will
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smith be viewed as smith be magic
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gosh i mean
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really torn on this i wish i had
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a better answer because i feel like on
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the one hand so much easier
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to the won't happen the and to access
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the primary maybe an away that
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it was them and lot of the stories that
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i spent lot of time thing the and talking about
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anything one of the ingredients
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for a big media event
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is like a televised
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moment or moment somehow caught
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the film that people can then see
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and discuss but what happens
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with that is that people see different things
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so even if you think go back and consult
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the footage over and over and do instant
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replay and slow and everything you can sell
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come in with all of your preexisting
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ideas about will smith or about
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black man which lot of america's gonna
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do
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no i kept thinking what other celebrity
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would cause it's sort of complicated
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emotions and me because my
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immediate reaction was like
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that it's romantic but it
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felt like i immediately thought about ted cruz
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says and and thought if
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this were any other celebrity i
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mean my gut reaction
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would be what a
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fucking asshole via in don't
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know any of these people so i think
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you can remove are
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you know hero worship of will
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meant will think this celebrity
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perspective how the
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public views celebrity has become
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really complicated with social media
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man can you tell us about
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the premise of your podcast you
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are good it might be more
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of vibe than than we talk
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the feeling podcast about movies
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and it's funny because it started off being hauled
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why our dads are first episode
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was about jaws which is i think
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one of the deadliest movies there is
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a once in brackets for this and the winner with
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field of dreams which i don't think as definitive
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bilic it has to be up there oh my god
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this is for rates is like baseball
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goes score and see
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other issue said i've been called wire dad's
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because i found it it with my friend alex
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seed who we have
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been friends since we met on tumbler and
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twenty ten and one
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of the things we instantly bonnet
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is that we both for up with cranky old
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dad's a who we were like the
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last of many kids for
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and we kind of were unpacking
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our dad baggage and then invited people
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to they didn't have to impact
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our baggage to be on the show because that
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would make it , that scary
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but we've tried to talk about movies were
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dad's were some in of a theme
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and then after by the
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year we were like apparently
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sufficiently therapist by bad
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and we changed the premise to just
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having people under talk about movies that
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were important to them that helps them it blame
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their feelings or their worldview
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basically having conversations connecting
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over movies and the way that i think movies
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are important partly for their ability to let
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us do
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forgive me if i didn't see it but i don't think
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i did i would really love
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and episode about love actually yeah
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we haven't done one the at that movie
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made me so angry and
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then later the prepared for that
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emotion i sided then of
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course of a crying and i was hating myself
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for getting sucked right for what they wanted
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me to get sucked into pets i
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would really love this year for the
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dissection because i'm not quite sure i put my finger
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on why that created such knee
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jerk reaction and me early
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concluded that maybe it was the thin
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enough storylines isn't that
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you just had too much going on
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so you couldn't really associate
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fully with
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i don't know the female protagonists
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yeah such protagonists blur of similar couples
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and also lot of com
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you don't know each other for most of the movie
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the lot of sleepless in seattle and yeah
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anyway that's just the my wish list sarah will
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you elaborate little
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bit on the idea of dad's and
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hollywood and sort of the conclusions
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you guys have drawn yeah it was really
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and
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thing to go into movies licking for
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positives mail or
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masculine identified characters
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who offered nurture and
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who were kind of like pauses the dad
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figures and talking about different forms
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of dad base trauma
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that we can see being explored and movies
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they thing wake one of the criticisms
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that people rightfully have of
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hollywood is that most of the movies
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that seem to come out of it or about
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feelings of white man and
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i think that was true there that
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we need movies about the feelings of every
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that he that lake boy if the white
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men are making movies about their feelings
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and how their dads never loved them over
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and over again that's really big clue
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this kind of useful and helpful
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mean one example that comes
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to mind that we talked about terminator two
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judgment day and how specifically there's
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this voiceover and were sarah connor is
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saying sunshine connor with
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the terminator who has if
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know upgraded to be nice
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now and to protect him he
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basically says i'm paraphrasing the she's
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like and world crappy guys in crappy
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step dad's the terminator really was
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stop
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amber point just very deeply true
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is that's how any single mom might feel
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and lake wow what revealing
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film
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are you still writing said janet panic
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it's in process that in that
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way where when there's pandemic
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and you forget how to write any blame the
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pandemic
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probably apparently true it
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still feels like all the research that
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i do about anything else anything still see
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through the lens of how does this connect
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the say tannic pen how is this flake
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or unlike the say panic panic this
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a panic panic at this point would
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say that it never really ended but the
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have periods of dormancy like stephen
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king's it but we first
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began to see in the early eighties
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when after the publication
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of
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a book called miss our members and
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wix a canadian women
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underwent repressed memory
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recovery therapy the reason
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it was being practice and very free
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wheeling and confident way
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by a lot of their this of time including
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her therapist and later husband lawrence
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past the with michelle remembers
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huge bestseller the pretty
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is thirty bestseller it wasn't
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a jaws level best seller
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and i think below that there's like books
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that really big at the time and
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that no one is really talking about ten years
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later i'm laughing this case
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it's in clinical capacity i mean the
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issue with michelle remembers really was ironically
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it was published by the editor
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who cultivated jaws and worked with the
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author and really
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craft the book to be according
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to him optimal a successful so
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knew he would crafting best seller in he was trying
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to lunch a publishing the
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company and so needed miss our members
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to be bestseller and you can certainly feel
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that bestseller rising hand working
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there but the problem was that it was used as
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the training guide for
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social workers and law
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enforcement and the united states
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and that was states problem because the therapy
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that michelle therapy therapist use
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basically involves therapist going
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to very suggestive say they
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never use the term hypnosis for that same
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space and time exclusive that could have been
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happening and it certainly wasn't
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a lot of other repressed memory therapy of
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the time and put together
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basically a narrative where they figured
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out using like she said the sessions
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that she had been given to a
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satanic cult by her mother when she was
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child and had been we're
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heard by them over a long period
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of time than just than basic
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sort of mathematical time frames and
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she wasn't missing school none
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of the events she describes could have happened basin
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the timeframe that existed or the
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things the describe happening to her body
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and it seems really like these were kind
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of dream visions that explained maybe her
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psychological pain and
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her relationship with her mother so this was
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published was unanswered embark non fiction
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they aren't as routine matter fact
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checked and the united states but
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it was treated as one hundred percent
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certifiable fact so again
12:08
social worker is a law enforcement trained
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with it and then started questioning
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very anxious run and very leading
12:14
fashions based on their training with
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this burke and on the assumption that there was
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actually a ton of st haneke colts
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all over north america and they were making
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and they're busy to torture young
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children for some reason it
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feel
12:27
like there's such correlation the queue and
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on here in exactly it feels like
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you and i'm just
12:32
this would kiss and when took
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a little nap and you know the context
12:37
this is so vast that one the same series
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that women in this the it are returning
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to the workplace after having children
12:44
in way that is very threatening to
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a lot of men a lot of christians
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and fundamentalists ideologies
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and conservative political factions
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in the country at the time so
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it just kind of culture the make sense
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i'm not saying anyone blocks to conspiracy
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to terrify when the and not
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working i just think that when
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we're already afraid of a woman working
13:07
the idea that satan as involves may
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be kind of makes sense to people
13:11
that the say the of it day cares
13:13
where the say panic panic was born this is the first
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place where this is supposed the be happening in the
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idea was that aldi seekers
13:19
had been infiltrated by powerful satan
13:22
as who apparently wanted to do backbreaking
13:24
work and be paid almost nothing for it as
13:26
part of their agendas satanists and all
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this had the effect of making
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it psychologically harder for women
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to work the first case it mcmartin
13:34
pretty who were young children
13:37
were questions vary leading li
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based on a extremely vague
13:41
and they shall come plane from a mother who later
13:43
turned the to have lot of mental
13:45
health issues that were affecting her ability
13:48
to make reasonable assumptions
13:50
about what was going on with her son and his
13:52
daycare after that case
13:54
popped up north publicized the way why
13:56
because started showing up all over the country
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society are been looking for
15:22
the conspiracy to degree where feel
15:25
but it's mythological nothing rational
15:27
and me taking she went on for
15:29
example the idea
15:32
of puzzle solving on the harmful
15:34
level the idea that we have this desire
15:37
to mistrust and it's and little
15:39
bit sad bit is
15:41
and mean one of the other says we did i'm you're wrong
15:43
about that i feel like people bring
15:46
up more than others and that means
15:48
that lot me to have
15:49
read real story about is the episode
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about kitty genovese who
15:53
the like and had at the women who was
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stabbed to death thirty seven of
15:58
her neighbors all watched and
16:00
did nothing and the real
16:02
serious and much more complicated you know
16:04
it has to do with the fact that a that nine one
16:06
one didn't exist yet was created
16:08
partly in response to the specific
16:10
crime the that the police new
16:12
york where so corrupt abusive
16:14
that often the you tried to call
16:17
them as some of her neighbors said they wouldn't
16:19
respond or they would
16:21
scare you enough that you
16:23
wouldn't want her proceed with the matter
16:25
even try talking to them to this happen
16:27
in the middle of the night there weren't street lamps
16:29
in the area and a lot
16:31
of people saw a little bit something
16:33
or heard something but almost nobody got
16:35
a full view of anything one
16:38
of the moments that people dead
16:40
see half and in front of a bar and
16:42
so the assumption that people made with that because
16:44
a man was attacking a woman outside of a bar
16:47
it was domestic altercation
16:49
and therefore not the police's business
16:52
for her neighbors business so
16:54
there's tragedy and that but again that's
16:56
not like people the neatly awful it's
16:58
like we are socializing people
17:00
to ignore a women being
17:02
assaulted because we have culture
17:05
with us the right of the man she's
17:07
in relationship with and that's on
17:09
us that that means that we can be better
17:11
and i think said yeah the queue and on meth
17:13
dismiss these myths were like we
17:15
are doomed the be awful to each
17:17
other i think her maybe more
17:19
seductive and times as
17:22
general this there i don't know but this
17:24
is the time when they're most destructive to
17:26
and the
17:27
people find like the direct
17:29
correlation between religion
17:31
and i'm talking specifically about this it even
17:33
the idea that one sense of morality
17:36
is directly linked to
17:38
religion and therefore su
17:41
my brother police whatever you cannot
17:43
be a fundamentally moral person
17:45
yeah i mean i think with st hack panic
17:48
and with que
17:49
okay think as they say tannic panics large
17:51
adult son i think there's often an element
17:53
of projects and and mean something you
17:55
see and the same haneke panic is christian
17:58
churches making allegations
18:01
about a large hierarchy that
18:03
is sheltering and hiding
18:05
and perpetuating abuse what
18:07
we know is that that can happen inside of any
18:09
religious hierarchy and that that happens
18:11
inside of christian hierarchy is
18:13
an evangelical and fundamentalists hierarchies
18:16
and america and and one of the best ways
18:18
to abuse someone and
18:20
who abuse their faces to tell them
18:22
that their part something good and
18:24
that the trauma they're experiencing
18:27
is going to be worth it because they
18:29
are bringing jesus to people or
18:31
something and i think the say haneke panic
18:34
maybe allows that to hide in plain
18:36
sight because it tells us people
18:38
whose lives are taken over by cold are
18:41
seduced by being told they're gonna be really
18:43
evil and they're gonna do evil evil
18:45
things so that can't be happening
18:48
to me because i'm being told i'm doing
18:50
good things so very oh geez
18:52
that link
18:53
sue your thoughts on true crime
18:56
and the best nice and
18:58
from my naive and uneducated
19:01
perspective with seems to be a fascination
19:03
with women are totally husband
19:05
and boyfriends are always that what is up with this
19:08
i have my own vague idea
19:11
but i'd love to hear yours maybe
19:13
should tell ya also that i'm having like
19:16
and out of body experience right now
19:18
of and good way and a great way rose
19:20
like hadn't gotten into any emma say
19:22
programs except in my home town
19:24
and was like oh i was supposed
19:26
to leave portland at some point mm
19:29
i became very emotionally attached to
19:31
the house funny yes
19:33
and i decided that the moral of the house funny
19:35
was grow are you
19:36
clinton oh my god
19:39
i love that
19:42
and then i went to school in
19:45
my home town which i was hoping the leave and
19:47
be a different person but i was like final be
19:49
the same person and then i did all this
19:51
work for the past however many years it's been
19:53
and now here we are and you're telling me about
19:55
my irvin i'm i know i was
19:57
inspired to do my earth by the husband
20:00
for yeah we
20:03
a year my ,
20:06
just got into colleges she
20:08
worked her ass off she's really smart
20:11
but she did have some early rejections
20:13
him rejections as an actor
20:15
you say that all the time
20:17
and the idea of comparison and and can
20:19
really mess out if you examine it you
20:21
are both you grow up and portland's a where
20:23
you going to school there yeah i grew
20:25
up right outside portland and
20:28
went away to college for to while where
20:30
did you go to school i went school bed and for
20:32
awhile so i did a little bit of acting
20:34
there then haven't done that sense that i was fully
20:36
it really opened me up and some kind of crucial
20:39
way i went away to college initially
20:41
college initially to my i wasn't
20:43
grown up enough to be i think in an unstructured
20:46
environment full of harder
20:48
and so i came and lived with my
20:50
parents for the restive college and
20:53
went to portland state where
20:55
i then did grad school and
20:57
hot for while it is like was
20:59
one of those characters on glee or
21:01
something or they graduate and then there is he
21:03
church as they don't know what else to do with them
21:06
as thinking about you know just getting myself
21:08
a hard time for that randomly that randomly i
21:10
think yesterday the like you know what
21:12
what if what you read the wanted
21:14
weirdly enough with lake time
21:16
to have a life where are you
21:19
didn't have to be social because he didn't really
21:21
know how to do that yet and you can
21:23
read everything you wanted and
21:25
every movie wanted and
21:27
do that instead of having the college
21:29
experience harry had
21:32
for the for two years and then it was
21:34
too much have lay in snow drunk
21:36
after too many parties he has can't do that
21:38
too many times so
21:42
i think for mean both writing and
21:44
reading have been kind of my for were
21:47
you trying to explore people
21:49
are into train understand what it feels
21:51
like to be them and so i think it
21:53
all comes back to that and
21:55
so it's true crime i mean this has been assassination
21:58
that i've had i'm sure since at least
22:00
tween them because i was washing lot of
22:02
cable at time and it was the
22:04
late nineties and so there was
22:06
just time crime programming i
22:08
and i remember the i think lot
22:10
of him pearls all thirty reading
22:13
and rule you have like your goosebumps
22:15
kids and your and the all kids probably
22:18
and i mean something i thought for long time
22:20
is that it's one of the ways the
22:22
women try and figure out the unspoken
22:25
line that dictate their safety and
22:27
america and who they are allowed to
22:29
be and still be heard
22:31
about and looked for and
22:34
the came up for me last night because i watching
22:37
the inventor the documentary about their
22:39
nose elizabeth holmes and was like i wonder
22:41
if the story was as you that was because
22:43
there is so much footage of her
22:45
there's so much good footage
22:48
of , clowns this company like some
22:50
been around and their balance houses
22:52
and i remember as remember
22:55
i was like if i'm abducted
22:57
are murdered i don't even know if
22:59
people are gonna be that invested in it because
23:01
there are no good pictures may i was like
23:03
truly concerned about the fact that
23:05
i found myself to be very and photogenic
23:08
and was like he just need least one good
23:10
headshot to have like a highly publicized
23:13
disappearance he just do and
23:15
i'm not gonna cut it anymore than a
23:17
student so there you go only
23:19
getting into college great
23:23
the the
23:24
idea though it's little bit you fold
23:26
one do we find comfort
23:29
in this fear that's
23:31
been and still deny as them
23:33
young girl i'm a very early
23:36
age i have a nine year old boy
23:38
one i know sadly
23:41
i would have instilled more fear
23:43
if i had a nine year old girl you know
23:45
yeah and why did my mom feel the need to tell me
23:47
the story of to
23:48
genevieve when i was twelve as if i was
23:50
like on the verge of moving to new york
23:52
the my mom gave me book called
23:54
the gift of fear and which the
23:56
basic idea is you need to trust your gut
23:59
the bird it's walking towards you makes
24:01
you you're an easy at all cracked district it
24:04
was both good and bad for me also
24:07
i think entwined in
24:09
full of the comfort that we
24:11
get knowing that are fear could
24:13
be actualized and cabinet
24:15
confirmed over and over and over again is
24:18
just an interesting human quality
24:21
i think the other i fear is
24:23
remember the case of gabby petite
24:25
own yeah it's veto like
24:28
that was obviously a huge
24:30
news story and a tragedy
24:32
just what become emblematic
24:35
and think there's also the idea
24:38
of like man for life season so perfect
24:41
without struggle which is why i think
24:43
both racism and and the
24:45
equation between wealth and
24:47
status as i think in our examination
24:49
of com for from randomness
24:53
what think the random stories are
24:56
the ones that tend to get lumped
24:58
into like the idea ted bundy yeah
25:00
like things just can't be ransom yeah
25:03
and so i've written about had been the and i feel
25:05
a key
25:06
certainly is treated and our culture still
25:08
as the earth serial killer his
25:10
lawyer paulino thing called him to
25:12
serial killers what kleenex is
25:15
to tissues his the brand name
25:17
that fans and for all others but
25:19
i remember this also is part my
25:21
personal mythology because my mom gave
25:23
me the stranger beside me when was fifteen
25:25
or sixteen and i
25:27
knew her to have extreme
25:29
free floating anxiety about something
25:31
terrible happening to me at any moment
25:34
which i think a lot of moms do not
25:36
all but quite number and
25:38
it's scary world and i
25:40
think that there's so much going on just
25:43
try and name some layers i feel
25:45
know you reboot facebook posts that go viral
25:48
that i think are kind of and the gift of fear
25:50
world view where it's like i saw
25:52
a black man with a bluetooth headset
25:54
at walmart he was in the same
25:56
i'll as me three different i'll say he was going
25:59
traffic me
26:01
now would not going traffic you and that
26:03
kind story i feel like as way for
26:05
white women sometimes of the key
26:07
is karen if you well to reassure
26:09
themselves that they're the only potential
26:11
victims and any store or
26:14
scenario that they're in so that's
26:16
and their a man i think there's
26:18
the fact that women in america live
26:20
in
26:20
world where the harm us and comes from
26:23
inside the house from the man
26:25
you live whether that you married and
26:27
so projecting the harm onto some
26:29
random during her and the night make the comforting
26:32
to ignore the scariest us
26:34
closer to you because the scarier
26:36
thing as far away and the
26:38
scary man you're with protect you against
26:40
theoretical scary man with a think one of
26:42
ways that the her he helps
26:45
protect itself and then there is also
26:47
the fact that they're your thirty scary
26:49
men out there sometimes that's the thing to
26:51
like feel like i've done a lot
26:53
of critical examining of true crime
26:55
and thinking about it and kind of all
26:57
the complicated things that it's doing in the ways
26:59
that it's problematic and all that very important
27:01
me and could talk about it all day long but also
27:03
i don't want discount the fact that sometimes
27:06
the scary they and the night does
27:08
come for you like just because
27:10
you're a woman and that's true too
27:13
and like that's just scary truth
27:15
to grow up knowing and your fear that can
27:17
be exaggerated bit like it's not entirely
27:19
ill
27:19
i know you're right when you
27:21
were growing up but we're formative
27:24
movies and television says
27:26
man
27:28
and an in the first five things i can think of
27:30
this is fun i really loved rocco
27:32
modern lies and nickelodeon
27:34
and feeling that had kind of an absurdist
27:36
quality to quality kids the hall
27:39
was very big for me as me as what
27:41
else i loved beauty and the beast
27:44
and feel like that you know helps trained
27:46
me and lot of other kids to love musicals
27:48
clarissa explains it all
27:50
the lot of nickelodeon stuff in here oh
27:53
and bill nye the site the guy with a huge
27:55
one
27:56
definitely did you ever go
27:58
through an angry state yeah
28:01
i think probably isn't name
28:02
grade i was my most which seems
28:05
like a com and choice of timing
28:07
i was just like the most prickly very
28:09
insecure spikes everywhere i think
28:11
it is an age
28:13
were like adults starting to reveal
28:15
themselves years starting
28:17
to like figure out the clues that you've been missing
28:20
yeah about just sort of the general
28:23
narratives that tell our children you
28:25
starting to get guys driving
28:27
by you and like turning around
28:29
like you newly formed body
28:32
yeah i channeled that and
28:34
she'll gender you know
28:36
i was very mad i was
28:38
born a girl for long time and
28:41
that was where i was like yeah injustice
28:44
yeah the
28:44
tough one to swallow i think my
28:46
main problem is that i just felt like i
28:48
was never gonna be able to find
28:50
friends and so i obviously
28:52
created mythology or i was smarter
28:54
then everyone else though
28:57
unfortunately identify in that way
28:59
with lot of guys who went on to sound very
29:01
dangerous start ups and stuff like
29:03
that really
29:05
yeah and then i think that the antidote
29:07
turned out to get speed friends you know
29:10
like finding friends and feel
29:12
like the antidote to a lot these problems
29:14
and teenager had his time and
29:16
to say loving friendship something
29:18
to hold onto that shows you kind of how
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you can feel in a relationship and their
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i will go to attorney parties
31:41
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31:43
was seventeen but i also looked like i was
31:45
fourteen fabian like it
31:47
was a real dingy hauser
31:49
the drive to see
31:51
ways and and would tell
31:53
guys that i was sick
31:57
it was like my whole inside
31:59
com for me in view that
32:01
had promising young woman
32:04
yeah i don't know why i wanted people
32:06
to prove me i mean it seems
32:08
like one of the ways that you can actually
32:11
in real time
32:12
the a person show you who they
32:14
are and a guy show you who
32:16
they are
32:17
college is kind of miserable time for me in
32:19
a big i went to school that was a little too big
32:22
it was little too close him that
32:24
i remember late sophomore year i was
32:26
in a smaller class action remember what
32:28
that was but the sorority girls invited
32:30
me to lunch that was going to be the following
32:33
week a was really price
32:35
and was really flattered i
32:37
was really excited and then when
32:39
then daytime whenever they didn't say
32:41
anything none of girls that in i can
32:43
even dressed little bit differently
32:45
because normally i wore really
32:49
, blackpool sense
32:51
kind of smelly vintage clothes and
32:53
i would stomp around the campus
32:56
campus remember not knowing
32:58
what to do do i go up to them and ask mister
33:00
lunch is still on sight of kept quiet
33:02
because it was clear that
33:04
something had shifted since and they
33:06
changed their mind and mind was not to
33:09
be at the lead city of brass
33:11
yeah god that's brass yeah story
33:13
i feel like i want any more awareness
33:15
the
33:15
idea that you don't have to have a great time at college
33:18
either because feel it college is supposed
33:20
to be part of the way supposed to earn
33:22
how my shit absurdly costs is
33:24
that if you were miserable and
33:26
high school you're gonna have great time in college
33:28
and flake or could have like an ugly time
33:30
college you know that's possible to
33:32
and it's fine cause i think if you have this
33:34
expectation that everything's
33:36
gonna click and as the point oh
33:39
is the same
33:40
with hollywood if you have
33:42
gotten a little bit of career or if you have
33:45
a hit movie there's this feeling of like
33:47
oh okay have insurance
33:49
that very stalls in
33:52
an odd way that's of comforts me the
33:54
idea that there's no finish line
33:56
yeah focus on the goal has to be
33:58
the work which which his name because i feel
34:00
like
34:01
no one of the things i wanna do in the
34:03
future as more a live event type
34:05
stuff and to try and do the
34:07
library of you're wrong about because his
34:10
the experiences that i have been will the have
34:12
in the past few years have
34:14
just been that lake when say
34:16
something off the cars and then like here
34:18
alas come back here a from
34:20
and friends
34:21
you it'll be whole different experience
34:23
a yeah and that's
34:25
goal you know like not sort of hitting
34:27
certain benchmark but just like oh i'm
34:29
going to do that today hopefully if things go
34:31
well
34:32
yeah no it's to watching the
34:34
relief on my step
34:36
daughter's face and sense of being
34:38
after she got accepted really did
34:40
make me reflect the idea of getting
34:42
into college has been incredibly
34:45
stressful for her since he was like
34:47
twelve yeah and to go to
34:49
her school and to listen to it's the
34:51
only then everyone teachers
34:54
coach everyone is talking about
34:56
is like was foolish get into a i think
34:58
it occurred to me like they don't know
35:00
that a kind of doesn't matter
35:02
that the bigger questions are
35:04
going be much harder to
35:06
grapple with which is like what my passionate
35:09
about how do i make a living
35:11
main in the ingenuity
35:13
that ingenuity that
35:14
yeah maybe because we need more
35:17
ceremonies and right the passing in our
35:19
culture colleagues just really
35:21
when i was growing up the i probably started thinking about
35:23
when i was twelve and felt like this extremely
35:25
important component in
35:27
like who you are going to be for the rest
35:30
of your life it's complicated right
35:32
because every door that
35:34
you open changes things we all
35:36
learn that from that movie where gwyneth paltrow
35:38
does doesn't get together with john hannah
35:41
i don't remember that movie what sliding
35:43
doors i indoors it should be titled
35:45
long hair sort
35:46
yeah they
35:51
, that yeah but i feel
35:53
like maybe feel like way to think about it
35:55
is like what i want to that he
35:57
what does school have to offer me
35:59
and what do i want
36:02
next four years of my life to be like
36:04
or the next winter of my life because i could change
36:06
my mind you know
36:08
i went to two very different schools i
36:10
got different things out both of them
36:12
they weren't really it right for me
36:14
in different ways and then ultimately
36:16
that time ended and then
36:19
you know you do other stuff
36:21
i mean my god of colleague is gonna be so expensive
36:23
we should be thinking about it in terms of what
36:25
offers the students great
36:28
exactly so fire
36:30
at will you tell us about her
36:32
break yeah i immediately went
36:34
to organize it into two
36:36
main kinds of heartbreak the one where
36:38
your feelings are returned
36:41
and you're having the heartbreak of unreturned feelings
36:43
the heartbreak of
36:46
we both gave this are all birds
36:48
here we are in it's not gonna work and
36:50
we have to walk away and
36:53
it's funny i feel like the
36:55
my feel things are unreturned heartbreak
36:57
feels more acute and the moment
37:00
it feels like heartbreak classic
37:03
but what's harder and
37:05
what ultimately i like has
37:07
a different times become something good
37:09
overall is say giving at
37:11
all and walking away heard break because that
37:14
at times has salt lake you
37:16
experience relationship at some
37:18
point maybe you outgrow it maybe
37:20
a both outgrow it maybe if
37:22
you're being pulled apart and then stepping
37:24
outside of it feels like a lobster
37:27
popping out of a shell which
37:29
i encourage everyone to search for video
37:31
of he has it's very fun to watch the
37:34
you feel the sense of like however
37:37
much pain there as feel like that
37:39
was pain that you hunter said he had
37:41
to experience in order to keep they
37:43
they will be like morning i saw the death
37:46
and of frustration i think of
37:49
inexplicable interoperability can
37:51
i can see how there's something profound
37:54
about that experience of
37:56
both party members trying to make
37:58
bad thing work
38:00
and also i think maybe there's something very
38:02
complicated it about the fact that some
38:05
relationships or maybe not
38:07
meant because that implies that somebody is in
38:09
charge of all this but some relationships i
38:11
think and last decades
38:13
and some can last a few years and some
38:15
i think just have an actual shelf life
38:17
of the new human for a year
38:20
and i think there's something painful
38:22
about acknowledging the fact that we're
38:24
always changing that we're saying
38:26
goodbye to versions of ourselves
38:28
and as we hangs in a relationship
38:31
that made sense recently no longer
38:33
do this is something part about
38:35
accepting the kings noxious
38:38
in your relationships putting yourself how
38:41
old were you when you first sell
38:43
like you were in i'm a
38:45
team
38:46
third grade think
38:48
and and diary just with
38:51
different versions of i love range of on
38:53
we had that but it was like theory
38:55
serious about language i guess i
38:57
was like all now i will now i
39:00
knew it had something to do with the thing that have encourage
39:02
hands were like you know the mouths
39:04
go together for the kiss and then they it's kind
39:06
this jigsaw fact i was like if
39:08
that's not happening but it's not at hundred percent
39:12
when you were an eight team
39:14
you college and was
39:16
it was long relationship or whether or whether
39:18
it was it was a first love
39:21
in a my feelings are not return capacity
39:24
and thus so interesting
39:26
to me too i feel like there's this passage
39:29
and heart burn that i really love
39:31
that's about the idea that your therapist
39:33
will tell you that you chose the wrong person
39:35
because you understand you were tragically best
39:38
and to not work out
39:39
and there a bottle is like that's
39:41
not agreed observation here tragically
39:43
destined to not work out with everybody say
39:46
yes
39:50
you know we talk show alive our listeners
39:53
and i think i said something not something
39:55
long ago that i didn't exactly
39:57
mean and mentor sort of more complicated
39:59
idea but it came out maybe it's little bit
40:01
cruel which with was really questioning
40:04
what we think of when the we
40:06
say soulmate mom
40:09
the kind of goes back to the
40:11
idea of seeking comfort
40:13
in like lack of coincidence something prayed
40:16
and that the me out i gotta say
40:18
because i know that when i'm like
40:20
most infatuated with somebody i do ton
40:22
of magical thing when you know really
40:25
summed up i think by bridget fonda character
40:27
and singles where she like was up a paper
40:29
towel and she throws in the trash issues like
40:31
if i make this basket that means i should call
40:33
him and then he messes and she's like
40:35
with no basket call him com
40:38
the point that thing that think lot of brains
40:40
the you and then i often
40:42
feel like the way my brain shin
40:44
and stage of infatuation is like
40:47
not even even the same neighborhood
40:49
but the same wider enters que and i'm
40:51
thinking you know where it's just like
40:53
that's funny someone
40:56
searing this thing you
40:58
know it's all gonna come together
41:00
which i feel it's weirdly as one of big themes
41:02
and sex the city is like the push and pull
41:04
between like our our lives
41:07
all happening the way they are for a reason
41:09
or is this just bunch of stuff like that
41:11
sums up lot that show
41:14
you can't get a podcast about it but i
41:16
haven't listened to it yet we you tell us about
41:18
the thoughts on and just
41:20
like that yeah oh my god
41:22
love the okay
41:23
yeah so he did that to bonus episodes
41:26
that are free to everybody on patriotic
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page for you are good i'm
41:30
anxious like that which i think was just
41:32
like what american needed like
41:34
what did we have to the you in january
41:36
of twenty twenty to accept complain about
41:38
shady as you know nothing but
41:42
i'm very pro and i think that
41:44
there's to me as something
41:46
that makes me really happy about these characters
41:48
who i grew up watching
41:50
and feel very attached to like
41:53
awkwardly stumbling into
41:55
the present day then i think
41:57
it's also like i have friends who are
41:59
in their mid to late fifties
42:01
and are like very hip and cool and
42:04
very savvy or than i am about lot
42:06
of social issues and stuff it's
42:08
funny to me that there are like i'm fifty
42:10
five i don't know what i'm doing and
42:12
it's like fifty five is the new thirty five
42:14
carrier so thirty five so
42:18
yeah i love we get to continue
42:20
our relationship with characters and their there
42:22
are many moments where it's like watching
42:25
a horror movie where you have to watch you between
42:27
your fingers were it's just like so crazy
42:29
but love bad i love to
42:31
feel the thing and twenty twenty two
42:34
what i say do
42:37
you watch any reality television
42:39
oh i watch married at first sight
42:41
but i'm not up to date on it unfortunately
42:44
be i think they so is incredible
42:46
you like that so you have to watch
42:49
before the ninety days ninety day
42:51
fiance him is really good
42:54
there's , lot of simplistic judgment
42:56
path and it's very much controlled by
42:58
the producers which i love it i also
43:00
watched the bachelor which i find just
43:02
fascinating would reveal
43:04
my own full of guilty pleasure aspect
43:07
by saying that it's really nice to escape
43:09
the realm that i participate in rain
43:12
participate just haven't quite put my finger on
43:14
why that realm
43:16
is so popular why i
43:18
enjoy it so much and
43:20
how certain shows have truly
43:23
brilliant producer minute the nation
43:25
and editing find it yeah
43:27
i was thinking it's funny how
43:29
we've only had reality tv in the form
43:31
of game shows right cause we would
43:34
have like what
43:34
my line or something in the fifties and that was
43:37
also gets an excuse to watch people talk
43:39
to each other and we've always had
43:41
talk shows and these they were like
43:43
we understand that people left to interact
43:45
with no guidance at all is often pretty
43:47
boring and so we the always
43:50
known and she the that like the two ways you can
43:52
make t v early give them a script make
43:54
them play bunch of games yeah
43:58
so like so like never watched that's
44:00
where the bachelorette because my understanding
44:02
is that the episodes are all like four hours long
44:04
and i guess i'm tired than
44:06
a wants to you tube break down
44:09
various seasons and v shows
44:11
cause i love to consume media about media
44:14
and it seems like there's a lot of debate over like the purity
44:16
of people than ten as well where it's like
44:18
yours for the wrong reasons yeah
44:20
and it's last season they have
44:23
the fantasy suite mans
44:25
the guy the bachelor clayton
44:27
clinton sex bachelor names clayton
44:30
was such a bachelor they're
44:32
interchangeable mostly he's so
44:34
clayton she sleeps with two
44:36
of them that becomes the whole big story
44:39
that fine idea
44:41
behind clinton was that he is
44:43
like is was intimate with both of you i
44:45
would think she would want have sex with all of
44:47
the p
44:47
when gonna may be married honestly
44:49
whenever a nominal
44:52
gave me hope has tell me
44:54
they
44:54
never told that story before
44:57
of homers most of those people
44:59
had slept with way of
45:01
court right they
45:02
know they get all played scrabble previously
45:05
they've
45:05
never been confronted about it they've never
45:07
had to tell their story and sure
45:10
that there were moments where yeah you know
45:12
the girls were like eight as you fuck him
45:14
yeah that's him and a like were mad
45:16
at you would ever been brushed under the rug it's
45:18
not name so was like oh
45:20
be like through clayton under the
45:22
bus a cast
45:24
him and i was thinking oh
45:27
they've really gone backwards and
45:29
then he threw him into the but still i was
45:31
getting total check out of it
45:35
what fascinating show i feel like i often
45:37
think about the evening gowns i
45:39
know they were all kinds different clothes and
45:41
they do different activities that i feel like
45:43
it's so funny to think about having
45:46
to spend hours and hours chilling in an
45:48
evening gown you know like mingling
45:50
in adolescent need books magazines
45:53
your
45:53
found her point your attic juri yeah
45:55
and you have to go in for what they call girl
45:57
said if you're wondering
46:00
why are all these pills the sitting on
46:02
the sofa as just talking about the other
46:04
well run a day for her work for
46:07
billie get in there and six
46:09
about your costar the reality
46:12
is endlessly fascinates me
46:14
how they walk the line
46:16
when the other countries they
46:18
are not nearly as popular as so
46:21
it's like in what american way as
46:23
is pumped into our bloodstream arena
46:26
food for brings her crime back and
46:28
evidently that lake it's such a running
46:30
joke at this point right that like the husband
46:32
didn't like you're watching an episode of any
46:34
other true frame show and in first five
46:36
minutes felix has been dead at mike you're probably
46:39
gonna be right and so
46:41
yeah like we live in kind read
46:43
kind of toggle between like husband
46:45
that it on oxygen which should be
46:47
the name of show you have oxygen why beat
46:49
around the bush and , bachelor
46:52
where it's like bullies marry me
46:54
out of work twenty six year old
46:56
virgin and
46:59
the
46:59
there going around of also have bothered
47:01
me he truly had to do like an apology
47:03
tour essentially to america it
47:06
was not a great time
47:08
for a gala i
47:10
feel like he gave us something
47:11
the talk about that seems like a
47:13
gift in this moment yeah
47:15
it gives me hope i get
47:17
truly know if he were see anything
47:19
check out before the ninety days okay
47:22
i feel like there's so many reality tv
47:24
food groups now because if
47:26
you are
47:26
different kind of reality show i
47:28
feel icky would want to have the actual
47:30
person's home because an actual
47:33
person's home as interesting yeah
47:35
the feeling yeah like the whole thing feels
47:37
so stage where think
47:39
everyone's very symmetrically attractive
47:42
and wearing evening gowns and also
47:44
the thing is like never talking about anything of substance
47:46
what if all they talked about was politics
47:48
and everybody was fighting the entire
47:50
time that would be great that
47:53
way to be added the day feel like the core truth
47:55
of it all is that we loved her why other
47:57
people have a friend to always something
48:00
the great babies wanna see other babies
48:02
which we recognize about babies that we don't
48:04
i think maybe recognize as much better
48:06
as adults but i think that's very sweet
48:09
and throughout history and you know theater
48:11
has been incredibly serious
48:14
and the same need within
48:17
a
48:17
the rain their i can't thank
48:19
you enough is there any saying that you
48:22
would like to talk about in terms
48:24
of says that you're working on are excited
48:26
about here i'm excited
48:28
for everything that's happening at you're wrong
48:30
about i think we've got some really
48:32
fun episodes coming up and are
48:34
trying to sort of find new angles
48:37
to look at the heard of america we have some
48:39
the heard on the adventures
48:42
of ronald reagan planned which i've
48:44
seen people express both excitement
48:46
and read about that dreaded good way
48:48
which is like my god we're gonna like truly
48:50
pier into the dark heard reagan himself
48:52
and we are and it's gonna be
48:54
a fun adventure and so everyone
48:56
can do about the summer slow
48:59
yeah oh my god
49:02
the oj simpson series
49:04
just blew my mind and can
49:06
i think you're just brilliant
49:08
i cannot thank you enough is
49:11
is really really lovely taxi it's so
49:13
lovely to talk to your this is such
49:15
wonderful open hearted conversation
49:17
with you and i feel like you have influenced me
49:19
and it's always been hard to have career
49:21
as a woman where you express something authentic
49:24
that yourself and also get paid for it
49:26
made you feel like your role model and now i have
49:28
seen seals
49:31
imagine what you
49:33
do in terms of podcast it
49:35
must take an incredible amounts
49:37
of research and hard work and every
49:40
episode assassinating and
49:42
so i just love listening to
49:44
podcasts think you think so
49:46
much sarah fi sarah
50:00
i
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