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I'm looking at a shelf of books above
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me and you don't say
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I'm not going to carry on reading
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a book, there's too many books on
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that shelf. I'm not going into the
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library because I'll never read them all so what's the
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point in not reading one? Hello and welcome
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to Arches, this is honest,
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generous and humorous conversations that will
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feed your creative soul and get
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you thinking with me, Alice Sheridan
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and me Louise Fletcher. Today
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I think we've got quite an
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interesting subject to get stuck into
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which is the whole idea of
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keeping up with things.
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Probably everyone listening has
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got something they can't keep up with. Right
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exactly, on four rather so we
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thought we'd have a chat
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about that, prompted by actually
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a comment partly that
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Sally-Ann Ashley made in last
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week's episode in conversation with
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you and
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I had also seen a very interesting
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reel which I will share with you
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which I shared on Instagram and that's
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going to kick us off but since
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we last spoke or this week what have you been
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up to? Well not
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as much as I would like, do you
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ever have those days or in my case
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weeks where the only way
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I can describe it is like
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I wandering around in a circle
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not quite sure what to do?
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There's lots of things that need
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doing, it's like oh I
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don't feel like that okay well maybe I could paint
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I don't feel like that well maybe and
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so Monday I took myself off to look at
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antiques because I just thought otherwise I'm
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wasting the whole day so I did
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that. Tuesday I had a
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friend staying with me so I spent
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the afternoon just with him and
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then Wednesday again aimless in fact I even
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fell asleep in the middle of the day
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which I never do and
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I just um I'm
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doing little bits in between and I'm
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working on a series of paintings and
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I've done a bit of in my
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membership of redesigning but I just say
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it's an aimless week and
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it ties nicely into the
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topic you suggested because there's
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a lot of guilt and self-judgment for me
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that comes with yeah but
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you didn't do anything with that day, like
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that day was wasted. Right.
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So yeah so today I woke up
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deciding right I've got this podcast to
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do, I've got a meeting, team meeting
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later and then I'm just
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going to let myself be aimless if I feel
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aimless until I don't
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so then when I saw your suggestion of a
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topic I thought that's quite a good tie-in
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really. It's interesting because
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when you're talking about what you've done it sounds to me
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like living a life. Does
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it? Yeah well for doing
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things you know you're choosing to do
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things. Okay they're not work related, they're
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not art related but you
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know if you have a life which doesn't
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ever have like meeting up with friends or
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just going out brat you're not opening yourself
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up to things are you? So
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I mean I do think yeah that
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sort of judgment that when we're not
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working does come into it a little
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bit but yeah I'm with you on
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the do you ever have the days
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where you don't feel like you're going
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anywhere? It's a little bit like we
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used to have a wind-up toy when
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the kids were little that was like
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it was a little bit like an Escher
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print you know with the never-ending staircase but
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it had little penguins on but because the
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staircase was so you'd wind it up and
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the penguins would kind of drop down the
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staircase but the staircase went round and round
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in circles so they'd never get
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to the bottom. Right and it
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was a little bit and hearing
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you talk my week has been a little bit like
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that I've had I've got things I've got to do
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and every time I think okay
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good I've done that. then
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something else goes... whoops! She says... waving
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her arms around and knocking the microphone over. Every
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time I get to the bottom of something,
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something else comes in with a, oh, you've
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forgotten about that, or, oh, here's another thing
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to deal with. And I'm like, just when
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I clear the slate, I don't think there's
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ever any such thing, though, is there, as a
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clear slate? Probably not.
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Because if there was, we'd sit there and look around
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and go, oh, what do
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I do now? Everything's... there's
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not really any point to live in it, but that
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is there, if you had the completely clean slate. No,
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and life is living and
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doing things and changing it. It's just
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a question of where you
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focus, isn't it? But, so this week
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for me, it feels like it's been
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kind of life and mini stuff. I
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mean, I know it takes time, and I'd
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set aside an hour to update
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my daughter's phone contract, which then
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ended up three
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hours and two
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systems, and the credit card company and
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EE not being able to talk to
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each other. And honestly, by
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the end of it, I was like, I'm ready to go
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lie down somewhere in a cool dark room,
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because I allowed a certain amount of
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time. But it took, honestly, it
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felt like it took all day yesterday, even
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though it was three hours, because I went to the gym,
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I had to do something else. I got there at 11,
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by the time I was done at home, it was three
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o'clock. Yeah. That was it.
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You know, whoop, there's a
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day gone. So, yeah,
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not enough painting this week, which
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is starting to become a little
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bit of a stress, and it's
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just making me think about how
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I need to reconfigure
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my week a little bit to
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get some more of it upfront.
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I think I have an idea that
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I will get some of these other things out
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of the way in inverted commas. that
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it might be better to get other things
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done first and then painting time is clear
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and I think I need to start trying
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to do it in reverse at
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the time when that's important. Because
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yeah interesting so that's like
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sometimes I get students who
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say I can't um like
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start painting till I've done
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the dishwasher book the laundry and cleaned
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the house and then I know everything's and
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then I it's a bit like
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that isn't it and actually maybe
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it's I can't clean the house
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do the dishwasher until I've done
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my painting time. It
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is a little bit like that and I
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think it depends what your list of jobs
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is I mean and I remember when the
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kids were small really really doing that thinking
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okay if I do all the domestic stuff
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first domestic stuff you know that stuff that
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can definitely wait and fill in around the
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edges but some of the things that I've
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been doing have been more like uh like
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government admin HMRC
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you know that kind of stuff. They'll
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wait they're very understanding. If you can
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even get hold of them but those
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are the kind of things that I
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think for me that if I don't
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do them they live in that kind
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of slightly sick pit in the middle
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of your chest and
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that's not a space that I can
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create from. Yeah so I think
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it's just a question of timing when those when
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those things clash it's a bit it's a bit
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uncomfortable. So yeah
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I tried in the past saying right you say
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Monday I'll be admin day and then this day
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and this time I'll be painting days but then
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sometimes the things I need to do don't fit
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into a Monday or they have to be there
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another day and then on the painting day I
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don't feel like painting because that
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my creativity actually was Monday when I
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made myself sit there so it's
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really tricky really difficult. Yeah
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I don't know anybody who's got it sorted though you know.
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No I mean unless
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you have a servant unless
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you have a servant or a person. assistant
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to do all the other stuff for you which would
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be nice but I don't know anybody who's got that
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so. No I think there'd
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have to be quite a lot of people isn't it
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I think we're all wearing quite a lot of jobs
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so I think and perhaps that's
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what part of this conversation is going
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to be about it's about recognising that
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and giving ourselves the
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grace when it happens to accept
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that a little bit you
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know how do we come to that point of okay
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this is where it is right
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now and I'm not
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necessarily getting everything done the
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way that I want to or in the priority I want
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to and it's
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just about recognising how we
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deal with that how we respond to
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that because that's the only thing that
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we can do like we can't necessarily
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preempt or juggle all of these things that
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come in or say oh I
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don't want to ever deal with HMRC or
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mobile phone contracts like you
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know and those things life
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admin things have got
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more and more with more and more
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technology so you didn't have to
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deal with the phone contracts we didn't used to have
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phones that's the new thing yeah doing
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anything with the bank now is like
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a rigmarole because there are no banks anymore
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you just do it all on the phone
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or online and then you need
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codes and I don't know
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how older people are managing
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anymore I don't know how they're
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managing to navigate life because it's
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so complicated yeah
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well I do you know they ask us so
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yeah exactly I was going to
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say I know because I am
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with such a technical model
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yeah anyway so okay all right well
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so we haven't had a great week
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creatively then which is kind of bugging
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me because I'm I feel like I'm
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at sort of an interesting stage in
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the work and if I'm honest a
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little bit of me has been thinking have I
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been doing some of this admin stuff
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because the work is on that
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sort of precipice tipping point
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or feeling like I've got to do something
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new and different and that's a little bit
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scary. There's
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probably a little bit of that that's true,
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probably just a little bit. But
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you know that comes into it too doesn't it? Okay
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so let's get into this subject then and
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like I say it was prompted by something that
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Sally Ann said last week. So
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if you're listening to this live there are lots
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of people doing 100 day project at the moment
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and she said something about she's doing
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the 100 day project but she's not
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keeping up with it. Oh
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yes, yes. So
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I just wanted to talk about this
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idea of keeping
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up with things and
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I suppose again it's this sense
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of obligation that we layer on
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ourselves at a point where is
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it when things become tricky because a lot
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of these things where
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this oh I can't keep up I'm not
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keeping up are
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often things that we have elected to do in the
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first place. Yeah
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because when we were just saying about needing
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a servant, I was joking about needing
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a servant, it made me think of like
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the ladies in Downton Abbey and how they
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had servants do everything and so they basically
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all they had to do was get changed
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and then go have another conversation with someone
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or sit in a room or go for a
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walk or they had nothing to do because
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everybody did everything for them. We're
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the opposite where we've taken on more
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and more and more and more things
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because we can and then
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we can't possibly, I know that for
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myself, I can't possibly keep
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up to a high standard with everything I've taken
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on and that's why I don't do things like
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the 100 day project because I just know
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I can. couldn't keep up and
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then I would feel bad about myself because I
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hadn't kept up. So I
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always admire people who are doing those things and
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I said to Sally-Ann I didn't even realise you
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hadn't kept up because I see you posting all
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the time and think wow you're doing
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amazing. I couldn't
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manage to squeeze that in so it
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looks impressive to me. So yeah we're
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choosing all these things. So
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could we choose, we're
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not choosing HMRC, we're not
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choosing the bank issues but we're choosing
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a lot of the things that we put
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onto ourselves. And
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part of it is, it is this
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question of priorities isn't it because what
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we're choosing when you choose to do
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something like the 100 day project or
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a creative course or
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anything else that's sort
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of ongoing in nature I
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suppose is what we're talking about.
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But a lot of the things where people
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say I'm not keeping up. There
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are things that they have chosen that
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are, they don't come in the HMRC
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category, they come in that I'm choosing
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to do it because it's something that
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I want that's creative that fills another
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part of me. So the problem is
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that that's the bit that's getting neglected
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and that part
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is so easy for us to drop
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and I think it's because there
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isn't so much an immediate, it's
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not just immediate feedback is it,
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but there isn't so much an
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immediate benefit
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from some of those things. So we
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feel that if we drop it, if
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we don't do it anymore, it's
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not actually going to do us that much
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harm but I think it does over
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the long term. Not
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only because you start to think of yourself differently,
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you start to think of yourself as somebody that
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is I committed to that and then I didn't
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keep up. Yes,
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and we hear that a lot. I'm sure you
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hear that a lot from people. Oh well,
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you know me. I always start things and
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then never finish them. Oh, that's just the
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way I am. I'm very scattered. So
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I see that. There's also the
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sense of you might
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drop those things because let's take
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an example. Say you look after grandchildren
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and take in that level where
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it's optional. Because if you've got children
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it's not optional. But grandchildren and your
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daughter rings and says, can you have the kids on
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such a day because I want to get my hair done? And
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you say yes because you feel an
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obligation because they are your grandchildren. That's
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your daughter. And
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then you say, well, what do the 100 day project
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that afternoon? No, because I've got the kids. So that's
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what I'm doing. There's a
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choice there which comes from this
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constant sense of obligation to look
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after other people or do the right thing
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even. It might not be something like
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that. It might be, can you walk
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my dog or can you drive me somewhere?
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A neighbour asks, can you drive me somewhere?
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Something. Other people, we feel
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like that is worthwhile because
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I'm helping someone or
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I'm doing something productive. Whereas
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the 100 day project, that's just
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for fun. And I
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don't have to do that. I can't
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justify to someone saying, well, I can't
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do that because it's my studio afternoon
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and it feels selfish. That's
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what I'm trying to say. And I think
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our first or second episode was, is
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it selfish to make art? And
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it's a constant battle that people have, I
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think. I'm
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wondering if it goes a bit deeper than that
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though, because it's
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more about in that moment. And I
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think if you make those
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choices in that moment and you're making it
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kind of joyously and
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generously, that's fine. That's
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a right decision that's
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right for you. I think the danger
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comes when not
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doing those things builds
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a little bit of resentment and
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when we carry on going
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for the short-term option
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of not feeling uncomfortable by
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saying no to somebody the risk
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of letting somebody down or someone
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being disappointed in you or or
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It's often like a short-term comfort
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thing versus the long-term
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benefit Yes,
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and I think it's to do with what you
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said that Hardly sometimes
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it's to do with I
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know how to drive the neighbor to the
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hospital or take my
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grandkids But I don't know
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how to do that thing. I'm experimenting in
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the studio. So this is a cop-out
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really We don't yeah, we
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don't tell ourselves. It's a cop-out But you make such
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a good point that it's like that.
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Yeah, but if I go in there and I'm confronted
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with things I don't know what to do. I don't
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know how to do them Whereas
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I know how to do this thing here
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in the house. I'm just going to do this thing Which
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is a tough thing to be called out on Yeah,
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see you and I've done I
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often forget this but in the last few years we've done
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quite a lot of Personal development
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work. I hate those words, but it's the only
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thing I can think to say where I See,
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I'm sure we've got blind spots, but we see
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a lot of our own cop-outs and we see
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where we're not taking responsibility and
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we Hold ourselves up
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to all these standards if you haven't done
17:39
that yet and Someone
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says to you. Well, that's just
17:44
a cop-out. You just make an excuse. What's the
17:46
secondary gain from what you're doing? You
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think what you're talking about? No, I'm doing
17:51
this for really genuine reasons takes quite
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a bit of practice To
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stop and reflect and realize oh, yeah,
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there's a reason I'm doing this And
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it's because it's easier. I'm not saying that's always
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why we do it, but I do
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think for me a lot of the time, if
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I'm not, like at the moment I've got paintings
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that are almost finished, but I'm not sure how
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to finish them. That's
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a whole conundrum if I go in there. Yeah,
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it's tiring. I'll
18:20
just do my books instead, which I hate doing, but
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at least I know how to fill in an Excel
18:24
spreadsheet, and it's quite straightforward. Yeah,
18:28
and this is where the somehow
18:31
being able to drop
18:33
the self judgment has to come
18:35
into it. And getting
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back to the original point of people
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feeling like they're, you know, they're not
18:42
keeping up with things like the biggest.
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And it happens sometimes it must happen for you
18:49
in your membership too because you know you've got
18:51
a lot of content in there, and there
18:54
are a lot of different areas as well
18:56
like different focuses. Yeah,
18:58
different elements. And so
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sometimes people say, Oh, I'm
19:02
leaving because I
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can't keep up. And
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I always think that's really interesting and
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it might be being said to spare
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your feelings or my feelings or
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something else. But
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neither of us has created something that
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is designed to be kept up with.
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Yeah, yes, unlike a course
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where you take a course,
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and I still try and make
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it so you don't have to keep up with mine but you've
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got so much amount of time you've got maybe 10 weeks
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you work your way through it, everyone goes through it
19:35
together. Yeah, I can see it there
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where you feel like, Oh no, everyone else on
19:39
week seven and I'm still on week five. But
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in a membership, like I
19:44
was unlike ones I belong to,
19:47
you're meant to dip in and out and take
19:49
what you want from it and
19:51
leave the stuff that's not relevant for you. But
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people look at the whole and
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what I'm wondering I just wrote
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down. And then is it an
20:02
innate human desire for
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achievement? Like
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how we love to check off a to-do list and
20:11
we like putting the crosses through things. I've done that,
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I've done that. And you said it's hard when
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you can't finish a loop because someone comes
20:17
back. Is it that
20:19
feeling of a loop's never closed because
20:22
phew, I just got to the end of that class
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and then she did another one. And now I've got
20:27
to start again. I mean,
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there's a new month and another
20:31
thing to watch indeed. Is it
20:33
an need to say, I'm done,
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I've caught up. Is there some
20:38
human thing that we'll never
20:40
overcome that is just programmed into all
20:42
of us? Because I battle
20:44
with this and I know you do. Yeah, because
20:46
we have that sort of ongoing, I mean, it's
20:48
a balance, isn't it, of having that ongoing drive
20:51
to, and I
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think we do all have this, to want
20:56
to make progress, to do more. Nobody wants
20:58
to feel they're stuck or static or in
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the same place. So the
21:02
kind of learning and the ongoing nature of
21:05
things is good, but again, I'm looking at
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a shelf of books above me and
21:11
you don't say I'm not going to
21:13
carry on reading a book because I'll
21:15
never, there's too many books on that
21:17
shelf. I'm not
21:20
going into the library because I'll never read
21:22
them all. So what's the point in not
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reading one? Yes, how can we make it
21:26
feel more like a library in a membership
21:28
is a constant challenge for me? Because
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that's what it is. You can pull that book down
21:32
and choose that one. And I
21:34
think if we go right back to like the
21:36
100 day project that we spoke about, we had
21:39
a great episode on here before, and I think
21:41
part of that is breaking it down into smaller
21:43
pieces. So rather than thinking of the whole 100
21:45
days, we had
21:47
conversations about maybe break it
21:49
into three projects of 30 days.
21:52
So you're giving yourself that
21:54
experience, the sense of completion.
21:57
And I think why it bothers me when people say
21:59
things. like I'm not keeping up is
22:02
because of this idea
22:04
of changing how you think about
22:06
yourself. Like when
22:09
you even when you say that as
22:11
a I want to give that as
22:14
a reason, I would much rather somebody
22:16
said to me taking
22:18
it back to the membership, I'm cancelling
22:20
the membership because what
22:23
we talk about in there isn't a priority for me right
22:25
now if that's what
22:27
they've decided because that's reconfirming a
22:29
belief that feels right and
22:31
true and helps them on the path for what
22:33
they want out of their life at that point
22:35
in time rather
22:37
than I'm doing it because I can't
22:40
keep up which is quite a
22:42
negative self-judgment thing and that's never what I want
22:44
people to think. Yes
22:46
and you know as you say that
22:48
when they walk away in that situation
22:51
they're feeling a little bit worse about
22:53
themselves than when they started because they
22:55
signed up with great hope that this
22:57
is going to be the answer for
22:59
me and it's those people
23:02
who then go and sign up for the next thing
23:05
often and the next thing because
23:07
maybe this will be the thing
23:10
and every time they say they can't
23:12
keep up they think a little bit worse
23:14
about themselves than the time before and that
23:16
is why I hate that feeling I think
23:18
oh I've just made someone feel
23:20
worse than they did when they joined and
23:23
I didn't want that I wanted to be opposite. So
23:26
really what we're talking here is not
23:28
about how do you keep up because
23:31
it's not even should you keep up because
23:33
we've acknowledged that A you can't like
23:36
can't there's no we can't keep up there's
23:38
never getting to the end of it but
23:40
it's about the wording that we choose
23:43
when we're talking about these things in
23:46
a way that is self-supportive for
23:49
your own decisions and I'll give you another example
23:51
sorry you're all going to be fed up with
23:53
me but I'm really proud of myself so I'm
23:55
going to keep talking about it. This
23:59
and you've heard me saying on here. How often
24:01
have you heard me say on here I'm
24:03
not a morning person, don't like doing exercise.
24:06
I'm still doing it, I'm enjoying
24:08
it and the outcome... When
24:11
you're going to the gym. Yeah and
24:15
the outcome that I thought I wanted
24:17
from it is shifting
24:20
as I go because
24:22
I'm learning more
24:24
about what works for me, how
24:26
I feel, how it
24:28
impacts other areas of my life and I'm
24:31
really enjoying that. Now I'm not promising that
24:33
I will stick to this level
24:35
of commitment all the way through but
24:37
what's really interesting is that even as
24:39
a side helping of
24:44
doing this and I don't know what shifted,
24:46
something shifted at the start of the year
24:48
or at the end of last year in
24:51
terms of this being a
24:53
priority for me and I
24:56
don't know if it's after we did quite
24:58
a lot of like looking at different elements
25:00
of your life on the retreat. I don't
25:02
know if it was part of that in
25:04
the mid-January because this started two weeks after
25:06
that all of these
25:08
issues with my mum but something just
25:11
shifted from previous times where I felt
25:13
I've kind of done something a little
25:15
bit half-heartedly but never really stuck with
25:17
it. Now I'm
25:19
finding ways to support myself
25:22
to stay with it and
25:24
seeing the benefit and what's happening
25:26
alongside is I'm changing
25:28
the way I see myself. I'm not I'm
25:31
not changing my, I don't suddenly want to
25:33
kind of you know go and
25:35
be bodybuilder
25:41
or run a marathon or do
25:43
anything like that but my sense
25:45
of being able to commit something
25:48
to myself and follow through is
25:52
changing. It's just changing.
25:54
Without me almost having to do any
25:56
work that feels really good. person
26:00
who always says as well as I don't like
26:02
exercising and I don't like morning and she always
26:04
say I don't like sticking to doing the same
26:06
thing. Yeah. You don't like
26:08
to do a routine and yet you are
26:10
sticking to committing. I
26:13
did smile a bit when he said I'm not promising
26:15
I'm doing it forever because that's Alice like oh I'm
26:17
just giving myself a little leeway. You're giving myself a
26:19
let out. Yeah but you are
26:21
sticking to it and so
26:24
it's not true and here we
26:26
go in in a circle but it's
26:29
not true that you are not a
26:31
person who can't stick to things on
26:33
a regular basis because we're on episode
26:35
244 of this and
26:38
now you're going to the gym regularly. So
26:41
it's not true but it's something that
26:43
you've said about yourself for a
26:45
long time. Yeah. And
26:47
now this will be shifting it a little bit
26:49
more and each thing you do that shifts it
26:52
I suppose changes the way you see that in
26:55
yourself and that brings us back to if
26:57
you give up on everything also
27:01
anybody who's struggled with their weight
27:03
knows the feeling of losing out
27:05
giving up on the diet and
27:08
how that makes you feel like I've
27:10
come to feel very very strongly that
27:12
diets do not work and actually that
27:14
they hurt because they when they
27:17
do not work you feel worse about
27:20
yourself just what we're saying than the last
27:22
time and each time they do not work
27:24
you get more defeated and because
27:27
they don't work scientifically now we
27:29
know they don't work so it's
27:33
our actual Wednesday diet
27:35
so don't mean changing your diet to be
27:37
healthier I mean going on a diet with
27:39
a plan and a way of following
27:41
doesn't work and so
27:44
anytime we can what we're saying
27:46
then is anytime we can find
27:48
successes in something that
27:50
we started doing it builds
27:53
on itself and anytime we find failure
27:57
so Sally Anne didn't say it as if she was
27:59
a failure but if she had said
28:01
oh I'm doing the 100-day project but
28:04
I'm such a failure as always because
28:06
I've not kept up and that's just
28:08
me that's just how I always am
28:10
I should have known I shouldn't have
28:12
started which is not what she said
28:14
but if she said that
28:16
that would be so defeating versus
28:19
I'm doing the 100-day project and I've done
28:21
20 out of 25 days
28:23
so far and I'm so proud of myself
28:26
yes or even you
28:28
know I'm doing the 100-day project I've had a bit
28:31
I've had a bit and I will still continue with
28:33
it in my own it might take me longer to
28:35
finish and I think longer
28:38
to finish or even or even just
28:41
redefining what finish what finish
28:43
is you know and
28:46
and go back to your reasons for why
28:48
you're doing it in the first place I'm
28:50
just exploring it's just a framework for for
28:53
exploring something new part
28:56
of creativity and I know that the
28:58
reason that I'm sticking to this this
29:00
time partly is because I really kind
29:03
of realized through an exercise that we
29:05
did at the beginning of the year
29:07
that like having that flexibility was super
29:10
important to me so I
29:12
have made sure that actually I'm picking each
29:14
week what I want to do I've got
29:16
some things that I'm liking but I'm giving
29:18
myself an option to take a
29:20
day off or to do this instead of
29:22
that or you know or to
29:25
we had a fabulous family meal on Sunday
29:27
and then spent 10 hours in the pub
29:30
which I haven't done since I was about
29:32
25 and it wasn't good we met for
29:34
lunch at 12 and then we had a
29:36
very nice
29:40
lunch then we went off with my brother and
29:42
his friend and we didn't leave until they checked
29:44
us out of the pub at santa clod wow
29:46
it was really really good fun it does not
29:48
fit under the I'm eating and
29:50
drinking happily and watching what I'm doing at
29:53
my gym but I wouldn't have changed
29:55
it it was great you
29:58
know so it's just I
30:00
think it is the words we choose, isn't it?
30:02
How important they are. Anyway,
30:05
I also just want to share with you
30:07
this reel I found, because I think it
30:09
does sort of tie in with
30:12
this sense of having to keep on
30:14
top of things, or
30:16
having to feel
30:19
like we're always
30:22
further on, or we need to be
30:24
further on than we are. OK,
30:26
so this is the reel. So
30:41
that was Jenny Savile in a talk, and I'll
30:43
put a link to the reel in the show
30:45
notes if you want to go and watch it.
30:49
But this idea of staying
30:51
ignored so
30:54
that you are giving yourself
30:56
the space to develop in
30:58
your art without other people's
31:00
eyes watching you, I
31:02
think it goes back to the same thing, which
31:06
is bringing in the judgment,
31:08
staying out of the space where
31:10
we bring in judgment. In
31:14
that case, the judgment of other people.
31:16
Yeah. But also, I suppose,
31:18
our own judgment, because if you were not
31:20
ignored, you're always constantly thinking, well, what
31:22
will they think of this? So you're
31:24
judging yourself, whereas if you have
31:27
decided I'm going to be
31:29
ignored, I'm not going to be
31:32
putting my work out there for a set amount
31:34
of time, then you don't have
31:36
to have the same self judgment. And I
31:38
said to you once I wished I'd done
31:40
that. Not
31:42
that I'm saying the art world isn't ignoring me because they
31:44
are. But what I'm saying is
31:46
at the beginning, I wish I
31:49
hadn't shared things as quickly on
31:51
social media and started to build
31:53
up a presence. I
31:56
don't know if I do wish that sort of
31:58
things came out of it, but I do think
32:00
there's a. there might have been a benefit to
32:02
just being not joining open
32:04
studios, not doing anything for
32:07
a few years until you've got
32:09
better. But then I wonder how
32:11
do you know if you're not
32:13
putting yourself out there? So that's kind
32:15
of a different subject that how do you know but that
32:18
sense, so it's judgment. How
32:21
do you then lift up
32:23
the sense of self-judgment on whatever
32:25
you're doing? How do you
32:28
practically do that? Again I
32:30
think it's a question of picking your
32:32
words carefully because
32:35
it's I think the
32:37
self-reflection and some kind
32:40
of criteria and the
32:42
ability to look at what you're
32:44
doing objectively is really important to
32:46
grow and to learn. But it's
32:50
a judgment element that comes with that
32:52
when we're feeling I'm not doing x
32:55
quick enough or I'm not doing it
32:57
fast enough or I'm not doing it.
33:01
It's that comparison thing like compared to what
33:03
and it just for
33:06
me I think the growth thing and this
33:09
is connected with the keeping
33:11
up thing. The
33:13
growth thing is to do with what
33:15
we see other people doing and then
33:17
we get a set of criteria that
33:20
we feel we have to do things
33:22
by in order for what we're doing
33:24
to feel valid or to be recognized.
33:27
And I think when we can actually be secure
33:30
in our own space
33:33
of growth, our own intentions for
33:35
what we want, it
33:38
brings such a relief and such a
33:40
freedom to not have
33:42
to live up to those expectations. You
33:45
can still have expectations for yourself but I
33:47
just think we have to really take care
33:50
that those are coming from
33:52
ourself not from everybody
33:55
else and to be really
33:57
true About what's important to you.
34:00
I'm I'm It's not about getting a perfect
34:02
all the time that we can all make
34:05
excuses though. I couldn't do this because I
34:07
was going to the mobile phone shop today.
34:09
Whatever it to, that's true And also I
34:11
could have. Made a different
34:13
choice. It's.
34:16
Interesting. You know because my friend
34:18
that was staying, he's a novelist
34:20
to spin on the podcast and
34:22
he was worth kings. His name's
34:24
Jonathan. Call J again pollens his.
34:26
Books come out and. He was working
34:28
fulltime and writing in the morning
34:30
for stating. Only sit on
34:33
the weekends. know he's retired
34:35
now is, but all the.
34:37
Time in the world to Radek and
34:39
we were just talking about he said
34:41
you know I'm really back filled with
34:44
this last day of the last novo
34:46
like when he retired we were associated
34:48
with to at the time he was
34:50
telling me was to ugly a been
34:52
and is also learning that he imagined
34:54
he would sit down at Nine finisher
34:56
five have a lunch break. It's.
34:59
Not working like that and he's
35:01
not doing at the moment. We're
35:03
working as fast as the was
35:05
when he was squeezing and. Among.
35:08
Of the things and as just thinking
35:10
well we're talking while it is so
35:12
relevant place idea. Of keeping up to
35:14
see with keeping up better when he
35:16
had more things to do. And
35:19
it's a don't. Know whether exactly sit same
35:21
but. He's struggling with some
35:23
self judgment now and that's what we were
35:25
talking about about. Begin easy on yourself and
35:28
and let myself get into any routine and
35:30
learning what was a few and and all.
35:32
Of that. Because.
35:34
Being creative isn't like.
35:37
Was king and when the bang to
35:39
be taken. Off if you've got all
35:41
the choice which a lot of us
35:43
have, some people are retired. Some people,
35:45
some people listen to this. I like
35:47
John and they're painting in the cracks
35:49
and they get more done probably than
35:51
some of the people he got all
35:53
day or just owed is certainly just
35:55
as much. And I think that also
35:57
worth mentioning is how often we wish.
36:00
we go like, oh, I wish I didn't
36:02
have XYZ to do, then I would do
36:04
more. And the reality is that
36:06
that's not always true. It's like ask a bit,
36:08
you know, if you want something doing ask a
36:10
busy person, isn't it? I mean,
36:13
I know for me, there is definitely a there
36:15
is at the moment,
36:17
definitely a limit anyway, as to how much
36:19
creatively I can do in a day, even
36:21
when I do have a full studio day,
36:23
I get to a certain point and I
36:25
start to get tired and
36:27
make decisions that don't necessarily that
36:29
don't necessarily help. I
36:32
can actually be still standing there
36:34
painting, just
36:37
ugliness, pointless ugliness, I can be
36:39
standing there and doing that knowing
36:41
what I'm doing and carrying
36:43
on doing it. Because, well,
36:45
I'm supposed to get painting done today. And
36:47
also I quite like the feeling of actually
36:49
putting paint on a brush and putting it
36:51
on. But I can see I'm
36:54
making everything worse. And sometimes I have to
36:56
force myself to go step
36:58
away from the paints, because this
37:01
is a disaster. And all
37:03
I'm going to do is send the whole thing back
37:05
the next day and start again, because I've made such
37:07
a mess. So and
37:10
I know I've had messages from people when I
37:12
said that I would say, Oh, yeah, I do
37:14
the same thing. So I know that's not just
37:16
me, but that again comes back to the feeling
37:18
of that I've got to keep up because I
37:20
said I was going to get these, you know,
37:22
I was going to paint today. And now here
37:24
I am. So let me just force it. And
37:27
you can't do that. I just think
37:29
what you said, when you message me,
37:31
it all comes back down to this
37:33
sense of self judgment, we
37:35
can choose how we want to frame
37:38
what we're achieving in the
37:40
negative or in the positive. And
37:43
I have a natural tendency to lean
37:45
towards the negative when it's myself, not
37:47
all the people, but myself. And
37:50
I sometimes there are other people who really frame
37:52
it for me and say, Oh, you could look
37:54
at it this way. And I think, Oh, yeah,
37:57
it doesn't have to be as bad as I'm
37:59
saying. And I would
38:01
love it if everybody
38:04
listening could give themselves a little
38:06
bit of a break about where
38:08
they are with things. Yeah,
38:11
what I said was,
38:13
yeah, this is about pace
38:15
setting and giving
38:17
ourselves the approval to just
38:19
restart rather than carrying
38:22
around the guilt if we're
38:24
doing that not keeping up thing. But
38:26
the first part of that is noticing
38:29
what we're saying
38:31
out loud to other people and what we're
38:33
saying to ourselves and framing it as an
38:35
excuse rather than owning it.
38:39
Own what decisions you're making. And
38:41
I wonder if sometimes it's
38:45
an easy opt-out we
38:48
give ourselves, all of us,
38:50
we all do it, rather
38:52
than either just taking
38:55
the time to accept our own
38:57
pace or our capacity
38:59
right now, which then sometimes
39:02
would lead into making changes
39:04
that we either need to
39:06
or might want to make. Because
39:09
sometimes those are harder than just
39:11
sticking with the excuse, aren't they? Oh,
39:14
yeah. Is the excuse too harsh
39:16
as a way of describing this? When
39:19
I say excuse, I mean that we
39:21
give ourselves, we do it, we
39:24
make an excuse even to ourselves
39:26
to make us feel more comfortable
39:28
about what's happening.
39:30
Yes, we did the excuse for ourselves. Someone
39:34
wrote to me and said they
39:36
couldn't continue with my membership because they
39:38
were going through this thing. And
39:41
this thing they were going through was exactly what
39:43
I'm going through while I'm running the
39:45
membership. And I thought, I
39:49
didn't say to this person, that's not
39:51
true. But they thought, well, that's interesting
39:53
because I can do it. So
39:57
it's everybody's got different capacities. But
39:59
yes. Where are we telling
40:01
ourselves? And we do it
40:03
all the time. I I've done it for years in
40:05
Ohio. The things. I get with that.
40:07
that's not possible for me, sorry, that's just not
40:10
possible And then it's all sit down and I
40:12
don't have to shop. I. Yeah.
40:15
T V When you say it's not possible. And.
40:19
It's an actually into saw when you say
40:21
possible is will not thing I feel less
40:23
drive it hardly I can't keep up with
40:25
malice his membership so it's off my list
40:27
and asked think about and uma. Fabulous.
40:30
Really did he get the bad? except
40:32
you didn't get what you wanted and
40:34
say you're still and you feel a
40:36
little bit was the base of. Okay
40:39
then so where are areas at
40:42
the moment? So we started off
40:44
at the beginning of have this
40:46
conversation with both of us saying
40:48
that we. Haven't. Done
40:50
enough. Studio Time
40:52
this week. Oh.
40:54
As much as we wanted we
40:57
you because your. You
40:59
been living a life me as
41:01
I've been doing admin soften the
41:03
other work staff and both of
41:06
which are true both of which
41:08
are also excuses but also neither
41:10
of which a permanent situations. I
41:12
wondered that that's really important part
41:14
of this as well as to
41:17
just bringing the recognition of whatever
41:19
stage your ah it's only ever.
41:22
Like. A moment in time. And next
41:24
week. Or next month Or six months
41:26
time. Will
41:28
be different and I think
41:31
holding. Clothes, City
41:33
you. I was
41:35
going to say holding closer to you. A
41:38
sense of where you want to be in
41:40
six months. Is. Important to
41:42
remember and I do think that's
41:44
true. But. I don't think we can live
41:46
our lives in the future. We have to live our life.
41:49
Now. And. This week.
41:51
So maybe the time scale in that sense
41:53
has to be shorter than that? But.
41:56
I do think you may a really important
41:58
point to someone reminded me of. The
42:00
other day, What's division? What is the
42:02
is trying to achieve because I'd lost
42:04
track? Come from think. And
42:07
keeping that in mind that do think
42:09
it's important a slight when we want
42:11
we can you don't one of the
42:13
the game. Reminding yourself
42:16
why you really want to be
42:18
regular at the gym and then
42:20
when you really reminded myself he
42:22
can decide well you have I
42:24
feel like going to they are
42:26
not knowing that that is the
42:28
objective in the end of I
42:30
do think keeping that in mind
42:32
so I took this course. All
42:34
right join the hundred day project
42:36
because I wanted. X.
42:40
So. Am I gonna let missing free
42:42
days? I'll begin behind one month. You'll stop
42:44
me. I still want X. I think
42:46
that's a good point that we
42:48
can discuss. just keep him that
42:50
go who are ideal in mind.
42:52
But. Not easily as the way
42:55
to flagellate yourself because you're not
42:57
there yet? Yes, exactly. Yeah.
43:00
I'm an outlet mall and I took
43:02
i had a cost I signed up
43:04
for. it wasn't It wasn't a massive
43:06
thing towards the end of last year
43:08
and I didn't keep up. Keep up
43:10
with that in inverted commas. And.
43:14
For sure moment I thought, well that was
43:16
silly, wasn't that that was silly During that
43:18
it was a waste of money and a
43:20
little best of me was even a bit
43:22
cross about that. Because.
43:25
I felt that the
43:27
delivery of it wasn't
43:29
respectful. Which. Is odd? just.
43:32
Wasn't respectful of the people's time
43:34
he turned up live. Because.
43:38
The person who delivered it
43:40
was so conscious of getting
43:42
sound bite videos that he
43:44
could reuse the other times.
43:47
In. Short chunks that actually he didn't
43:50
pay any attention to people who
43:52
were there live and asking questions.
43:54
Live on the cool. right?
43:57
And I thought that was disrespectful. Yeah,
44:00
which is. And.
44:02
It made me not want to show for it live. Who.
44:06
And there was also a bit
44:08
of disconnect between. like how they
44:11
present themselves as ethical and blah
44:13
blah blah blah blah And so
44:15
it was. It was really interesting
44:17
for me to go a cable.
44:19
Why do you no longer want
44:21
to continue with this And. What
44:24
have you actually learned from it
44:26
that you will take forward? and
44:28
if I've done that, Is
44:30
fine. I don't continue the that. I've
44:32
learned something about how I like
44:35
to consume and deliver and be
44:37
in a space with people and
44:39
be. Responsive. To them.
44:42
Which. Was. Probably. Just as helpful
44:44
as finishing because. He. Is
44:46
now I have no sense of guilt. the
44:49
I didn't finish it. Yeah says just all
44:51
about what we tell ourselves. Again, we. Always
44:54
it comes back to what we tell ourselves.
44:56
Everything in our lives it is a story
44:59
him with a get to decide. How
45:01
we tell it's. Not.
45:04
Easy there is it. Not at all.
45:07
As. Say that as the same like some sham
45:09
and he's. Got a all worked out.
45:12
I tell myself negative stories all
45:14
the time, but I am beginning
45:16
to realize they are still stories.
45:18
The how do you catch yourself
45:20
then. Sometimes I don't
45:22
hopes and then I wallow in some
45:25
at M. I can't
45:27
I think just by being more aware
45:29
I use do with we said to
45:31
suffer by these to just as thought
45:33
and my thoughts of the truth and
45:35
then I just followed my thoughts they
45:37
were. Either, never question
45:39
myself. And then when I
45:41
realized. That with the just.
45:43
Thoughts on that we can question them and
45:46
also we don't see everything the way it
45:48
is. We. Can see our
45:50
perspective. Then I'm getting better
45:53
at catch him myself and
45:55
saying. Oh, I see what
45:57
I'm doing here. Why am I doing?
46:00
The way that soft. And hard to figure
46:03
out for yourself. Maybe you need some help
46:05
with that. Sometimes you can figure as and
46:07
seven seek out what. Why am I giving
46:09
up on this thing you know? Oh why
46:12
am I know able to stay the goal
46:14
clearly? Oh why am I not doing the
46:16
thing? A one. That
46:18
can be had sworn to tangle cause
46:21
sometimes quite complicated why we have these
46:23
stories. But. At least
46:25
I can bear cats that they are.
46:27
stories. Yeah, we've killed
46:29
that. The way we know that is. There
46:31
were seven billion or whatever other people on
46:34
the planet and then an oval. Believe
46:36
in what I believe. Most
46:38
fundamental beliefs: something completely different. Some
46:40
of them believed that snorting cocaine
46:42
is the answer, and I know
46:45
that's not the answer. Some of
46:47
them believe that. He
46:49
know binge eating at night. As the are
46:51
concerned, that's not my answer. Some of them
46:53
believed that working twenty four hours a day
46:55
advance and that's not my answer. So. I
46:58
know that these are all. Constructs,
47:00
We've made. A
47:02
system Rambling You own constructs. It's quite
47:05
challenging. Some terms. And
47:07
whole a therapist out. Yeah says
47:09
I think it is challenging is hard work
47:11
and and nothing from thing that makes it
47:14
worthwhile is the. Release.
47:16
That com. And I think
47:18
we've all been in these kinds of
47:20
situations to or maybe there's something personally
47:22
going on or is difficult to say
47:24
something but when you have the conversation
47:27
the you actually say was really. Really?
47:30
Bothering you? What the real meaning
47:32
underneath it as a why something's
47:35
really upset you. It
47:37
feel. It feels
47:40
such a relief. And
47:42
you know what more more just comes
47:44
down to this idea? Of
47:46
creating situations where you can
47:49
experience. If you want something
47:51
to change you have to
47:53
create. Situations.
47:56
They give yourself the opportunity to
47:58
experience something different. Otherwise,
48:00
you just stay in the same
48:03
place over and over and over
48:05
again and. Like. I give one
48:07
other examples Are we talking about this?
48:10
Two day event that were doing and
48:12
or a again a lot of these
48:14
things a real I understand that you
48:16
know people are you know they've got
48:18
work time on that they can't com
48:20
that somebody said oh I can't come
48:22
because I need more notice that our
48:24
at that point we were like six
48:26
seven weeks out from it had not
48:28
till the first of May they were
48:30
there is a cuts off the when
48:32
we've got to that the venue no
48:34
final numbers but this same. Day I
48:37
was in a conversation with somebody
48:39
else. Having a conversation
48:41
about a one to one retreat somebody had
48:43
messaged her and said you're not doing a
48:45
retreat next week I and she's I know
48:47
I'm not I'm guessing the to travel on
48:49
getting ready to travel and guy way I
48:51
caught anything the next week and she said
48:53
and then we buy thought of asset a
48:55
little bit and she said well what is
48:57
it that you one and she said wilson
48:59
time and just to do this and talk
49:01
through some ideas and she likes well I
49:03
can clear if you know three days in
49:05
my diary next week if you wanna come
49:07
over and will do something. For. You
49:09
so with two days notice. Some.
49:12
Years route Flew. From the States
49:14
or something. We're just really interesting
49:16
how that two. Very.
49:19
Different responses to or said the
49:21
sweet a thing. And
49:24
I'm not saying that the reasons that
49:26
people aren't coming on real. But.
49:29
It is just this awareness of what we're
49:31
saying. Is that ready? True.
49:34
Yeah. Is that really true? That
49:36
if I went to a T M P's
49:38
on Need To Cheap and on podcast are
49:41
dead. Name is Byron Katie. And
49:43
she just always us. That? Is
49:45
that really true? A My Absolutely
49:47
sure. That's. True. And then she
49:50
practiced. She gets it's practice we
49:52
framing. It needed the way round.
49:55
And Eight City. So interesting to see what
49:57
happens when she was with people and. That
50:00
question in these beliefs. But
50:04
if it does bring. A
50:06
real relief I think when you
50:09
do it So always saying this
50:11
is hard work and and you
50:13
know you say what's changed for
50:15
you is what has changed his.
50:18
You put yourself deliberately into relationships
50:20
with people who have helped to
50:22
works through this were time and
50:24
time again you've come back. During
50:27
a little bit more digging and doing a
50:29
been retired and would you would you go
50:31
back to the person you are. Yeah.
50:34
Oh. God Mero! Mero.
50:38
Because. That because when you may
50:40
still have the limitations, you make possible
50:42
things that you would never want to
50:45
give up on. My. And go
50:47
back. And if I think back
50:49
to her things worse than the
50:51
things I believed manifested. Themselves. In
50:54
actual limits. That.
50:56
I couldn't get past that. It
50:58
does work. That if he believes
51:00
I'm saying the new act in
51:02
a way that. Much
51:04
that belief. That
51:07
says how he is. So you the
51:09
is t believe I just don't have
51:11
time to go on the day with
51:13
three days. Same thing you mean that
51:15
belief in your daily life by Philly
51:18
know each item with those things are
51:20
enough interest? Do. And. When
51:22
you take away. The believe if all
51:24
the sudden that's like this open. Oh.
51:27
right? Well, what what else would be possible?
51:29
And now I don't believe that anymore. So
51:32
I would never never and I'm sure you
51:34
blood and either go back to. You.
51:37
Do some time think our lungs is going
51:39
to go on full length of the. Suppose.
51:41
I'll just go on until the day
51:43
I die realizing something else I. Had
51:46
a realize that far, but. Yeah,
51:48
but it's just it's so much better
51:50
than that if I even this is
51:52
even if I look at this week.
51:54
Am I frustrated that I haven't had
51:56
much time in the suit as I
51:58
wanted? Yes. Is it also. There
52:00
are other important things that I needed
52:02
to spend time on and I really
52:04
didn't need to spend time on? Yes!
52:06
Is it also true that I could
52:09
have gone to the studio instead of
52:11
watching. Episodes One
52:13
and to a Gentleman on Netflix.
52:16
Yeah yeah. Yeah,
52:18
I'm is it. also
52:20
true that. I
52:23
actually wanted and needed
52:25
to. Help. And
52:28
I regained when they could do it is it was
52:30
in my name is blue and mobile phone contract. Am
52:34
I glad it's done? If.
52:37
You. Know it and I think knowing all
52:39
of those things and just checking in with
52:41
them either then. It. Doesn't
52:43
make me feel. it makes me feel.
52:47
Not. Better that I haven't been in
52:49
the studio but it makes me feel
52:52
more of knowledge sharing so the I
52:54
then don't feel guilty for not being
52:56
the studio sassy. Yeah that I'm not
52:58
carrying that with me into the next
53:00
time the I go in turn up
53:02
for it. I'm doing
53:04
each thing that I'm choosing. With.
53:07
An understanding of where it fits in the big picture.
53:11
And that is the. But if I could wrap
53:13
up with this, I heard from someone which was.
53:15
When you say I can't do that, they
53:18
don't have time. Instead say
53:20
I can't do that because. I'm
53:22
choosing something else. Yeah, Like
53:25
were always teasing. Something else
53:27
and it might be. The choice is
53:29
extremely valid as yet is he said,
53:31
and that therefore. oh okay that flak
53:33
out though it but beyond list about
53:35
what you choosing and if it's flick
53:37
into instagram a watch in. Ten.
53:39
Episodes of Some Housewife Staying
53:42
On You know, whatever. Be
53:44
honest about. What Theis? Yeah. Do.
53:47
It and enjoy it. If
53:49
if it or not it's
53:52
cause. I really feel like this is one of
53:54
those ones. always sort of go round and round in
53:56
circles, but. You. Know maybe because there
53:58
isn't as it is Again, this is
54:00
straightforward. Okay, do x y that one,
54:02
two three and everything will be sorted.
54:04
You know it's not like that. Know.
54:07
And their be the little things in things
54:09
that we said that resonate for different people.
54:12
Yeah. But. We're still
54:14
justice. Rubbish. It. With
54:17
it so easy, even men are
54:19
just as rubbish. How that monthly
54:21
is that? Yeah. Very judgmental. I
54:23
that site for us this week. We
54:25
will be back next time with maybe
54:28
something a little bit more practical. But.
54:30
Maybe not a under. The
54:32
paper the specs listening, but
54:34
by.
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