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Welcome to a special episode of the Asper
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Cycling Coach podcast presented by trainer road today.
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We are joined by Haley Smith She's from
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she's a professional mountain biker and gravel racer
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really an off-road cyclist I guess is how
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we'd phrase it these days from Ontario, Canada
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And Haley is riding for the newly formed Trek
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bikes driftless team Which also has like, you know
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friend of the podcast Russell Finsterwald on it really
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exciting good to see a new team formed there
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If you don't know who Haley is gonna run through
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a quick intro and then we'll get things going here
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Last year Haley placed third in the lifetime
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Grand Prix She is an Olympian as
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she raced for Canada at the Tokyo
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Olympics in the XCO discipline she's
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also been to the Commonwealth Games and
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received a World Cup bronze medal as
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well and Represented Canada
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many different times at international competitions, which
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is a really exciting thing Haley's
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also a mental health advocate and has
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openly shared a journey about managing orthorexia
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and anxiety as a professional endurance athlete
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And she's a kidney kinesiology, which is
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I'm probably said that wrong. I apologize
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on the Haley I can never say that one, right? Graduate
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and also you're currently pursuing your master's
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degree in sports psychology at Cleans University
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focusing on healthy childhood development Within
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the sporting environment. It's really cool to have you on.
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Yeah, right. I know Yeah,
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it's really cool to have you on Haley. Thanks for
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coming on. Appreciate it. Yeah. Thanks
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for having me I was thrilled to be asked.
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It's I listened to this podcast a lot. So
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it's exciting That's cool. And you're being
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from Canada. You mentioned that you listen to us
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while you're on the trainer very often, right? Yes,
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I do Generous Haley
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orthorexia some people might not know that term.
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Can you explain it? Yeah,
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so orthorexia is actually a relatively
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new category of
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eating disorder I'll
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have to give you a little bit of a backstory, but when I
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was 13 I went
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through A pretty rough time
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and I was diagnosed with anorexia Undefined
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as opposed to anorexia nervosa
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because I exhibited a lot of the symptoms of anorexia
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but it didn't quite fit the bill. And
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since that time when I was diagnosed, which was 12
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years ago now, somewhere between 12
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and 15 years ago, orthorexia has
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since been recognized by the powers
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that be and has been added to
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the diagnostic and statistical manual that lists
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and explains all of the various
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mental disorders out
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there. And basically what
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orthorexia is is an
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obsession with healthiness, with
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like healthification. So it's
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characterized by similar
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habits to anorexia such as extreme
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food restriction, but
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it's coupled with other habits
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like extreme over-exercising
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and something that we might get into which is
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the healthification of food or the vilification
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of certain foods and a refusal
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to eat certain foods that
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are deemed to be
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unhealthy for whatever reason.
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How does one know if they're... So I've
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definitely been in the situation where I'm training
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and I really want to focus on the
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outcome. And I am so preoccupied
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on everything I eat, the planning, I'm weighing
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stuff. And it's
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stressful. It's some part and it's
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fun, but it's fun to get it right. But I
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could probably also... I don't know if I'm
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doing damage or not. How would one know if
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they fall in that category or not? I mean, it gets
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to talk to somebody, but I bet there's a lot of
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people here go, I weigh my food sometimes, I keep track
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of my carbs or something like that. Should
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I be concerned about this? First
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of all, I will preface this with
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I don't... I never have
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and I don't weigh any of my food.
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I don't count calories. I don't even count
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my macros. I pay literally no
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attention to the actual numerical side
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of eating and that's because I have obviously
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a huge... The
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Curb. It abides by the risk factor for me to do
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the things, so it's just not on the table for me.
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But the distinction is usually.
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If. We look at eating disorders in a
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broad sense. There can be disordered eating and
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there can be an eating disorder. And disordered
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eating would be habits that are like. A
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As an outsider you might look
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at and be like I'm not
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sure that that's in old, totally
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healthy or good for that person
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but the person can still be
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functional. An eating disorder is a
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at like a presentation of these
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habits in a chronic and or
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am. Like. Long term way.
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it seriously impacts quality of
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life and ability to function
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so. You won't he?
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I'm. An. Eating Disorder or something
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that needs to be diagnosed is it said.
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It's a an illness. It is diagnosed. By
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a mental health or a professional aura.
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Ah is a sin. Or someone like
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that. But I would say
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that if you're. If you're
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wondering if it's. If
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you're wondering if you have this,
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if you are experiencing this than
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that. Maybe a red flag to
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me because I'm that indicates that
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it is on some level impacting.
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Your enjoyment or your quality of
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life or something to that effect.
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Of really good advice. Yeah yeah, that's
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great contacts around the two terms that
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see my kids and often times we
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might use them interchangeably In unintentionally not
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mean to confuse them right, but just
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in conversation the you're having with somebody.
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It's common sense to hear disordered eating
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or eating disorders and perhaps he's that
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way said they square find that is
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awesome and and. Is one more thing
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to add their to it. So it does.
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With disordered eating it's often something that is
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someone points out to. You can recognize that
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as habits that you can change but with
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an eating disorder it's it's. It's
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so deep, it's so ingrained,
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it's so damn it. so
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difficult. To lead at night and.
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setting changing it aside, it is
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incredibly difficult to even acknowledge
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that you have an issue. Denial is
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actually one of the diagnostic
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criteria for many eating disorders.
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Anyways, I digress. Which makes
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it so hard to get help, right? Because you think there's no issue.
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Exactly. Yeah, I like being this way. This is perfect.
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Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. A
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great insight. Thank you, Hailey. Hailey,
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it's funny because when I asked you to
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come on, I looked
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back through the questions thereafter once you accepted
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and I found a handful of questions that
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I thought would be great to be able
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to discuss with you considering your specific expertise.
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But also, one of them asked specifically if
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we would ever have you on the podcast.
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So I'm really glad that we are having
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you on. It comes from Alyssa. And Alyssa
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says, would you ever consider having Hailey Smith
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on the podcast? Like her. Yes.
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Like her. Like here, I've grown up racing
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XCO and that's cross-country Olympics. So typically those
6:58
90 minute races that are done on shorter
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laps courses. But
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Alyssa says, but I think I might be
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getting burned out and I want to try
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something different. If you do, can you ask
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her how training for gravel is different and
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what she misses about cross-country Olympic? This
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is funny because I remember the first time
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I actually found out who you were, Hailey,
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I was racing, I think at Benelli or
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Fontana. It was one of the Southern
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California races. I remember seeing you
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there and I can't remember if you race for
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Rocky Mountain or something like that. What
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about Norco? Norco. That
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was it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
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You're racing for Norco. And I remember the talk was like
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these really fast Canadian riders and Hailey Smith is here. And
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cross-country Olympic was like who you, it was like
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your identity in terms of your racing identity. But
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you went to Tokyo, you've done all that.
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You've done all these things. Was it hard
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to just pull up and change completely over
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to gravel? Well, yes. And
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I would say that it was, you can tell it was
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hard because I didn't do it cold
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turkey. I didn't commit to it
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fully. After
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Tokyo, I was completely burned out.
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I actually woke up the morning of
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the mountain bike race in Tokyo knowing in
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my gut that it was the last bike race I would ever
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do in my life. I
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went through a brief period, a two-week period where I was
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convinced after the Olympics that I was going to become a
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triathlete. And then I
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went for like four runs and I was like, oh, maybe
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not. Wait till you swim. I
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tried swimming too. And anyways,
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that's another, a whole other
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tangent. But it
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was, it was such a huge part of my
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identity and it is still to some degree. Tokyo
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was in 2021 and in 2022, I still did quite a bit of XCO. I
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was kind of dipping my toes in gravel
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and this marathon mountain bike stuff. And
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then the same, the same story last year actually. So in 2023,
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I think I had 25 races, 25 race weekends,
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and at least a third of those were
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XCO. So
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this year, 2024 is actually going to be
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the first year that I will not do
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any XCO at all,
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which is a huge change for me. But
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in retrospect, that is a decision I should have
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had the courage to make fully heading into
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2022 because trying to do both is
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quite difficult. And especially
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if you have a schedule with
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a lot of volume in it, a lot of races, it
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is a very different type of fitness and
9:37
different type of racing. And it's really difficult
9:39
to be good at both within the
9:41
same year, I would say. Yeah.
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And thinking about it from your perspective, like me
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listening to this, I go to a race and
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I'm hoping to just like do well. But
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you're racing at the pointy end. You need to be
9:54
competitive at the front of the race. So
9:56
when, and that's the case, it's really difficult to
9:58
just like show up with. mediocre fitness and
10:00
that serves both equally you have to you
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have to switch it up and really focus
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things what do you miss about cross-country Olympic
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racing and Yeah,
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I guess we'll start with that. Yeah, I
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miss the the energy
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the intensity it doesn't relent
10:16
and Certainly gravel has
10:18
elements of that and marathon mountain bike does
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as well, but you
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can't keep that level of Going
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for 12 hours, it's just not possible. So
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I miss that I miss
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that intensity of a short track race or
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a cross-country race I mean, they're basically short
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tracks now in how short they are
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in the World Cup But yeah,
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I'd have to say it's just the intensity.
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Yeah, how's the pain different between
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the two? Like what's more painful? Do you think
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another sharp sharper pain, but what is more painful
10:49
overall? I've
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had this debate with a few people including
10:53
myself. I've debated this with myself on many
10:55
solo bike rides, but I'd
10:58
say that they're They're
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equally painful if you're going for the win If
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you're really Really contesting
11:08
that front end of the race
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in in gravel or in
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marathon mountain bike You
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certainly have Large
11:17
periods of time where you're in
11:19
the absolute red zone My
11:22
strongest race from last year was the BWR
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Canada stop on Vancouver Island and
11:28
I think I spent something like
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an hour in VO two
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and an hour in anaerobic like
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They're just obviously spread out over a very long period of
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time so long answer I think
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that they can both be equally painful
11:45
but To just you
11:48
can't just finish an XCO race because you'll
11:50
get pulled but you can you know Yeah,
11:54
do 80% of your potential at a gravel race
11:56
and still finish. So there's There's
11:59
more. And were there, there's
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a greater spectrum of the effort that
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it's possible to give forth and still
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be. I'm. Not. Like achieving
12:07
a goal is that makes sense. Yeah.
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Has your pre race nutrition
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changed between. Axxeo. Are
12:15
like the days leading up vs. gravel. It
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hasn't changed and now see
12:20
at am I really struggle
12:22
with. Am.
12:25
I this is something that I still
12:27
really struggle with. It's it's a difficult
12:30
for me to eat a lot, am
12:32
a mentally emotionally it's a difficult thing
12:34
for me and Nfc. oh that's less
12:37
of an issue obviously that you know.
12:39
the races early ninety minutes and. With
12:42
unbound for example, as you have not.
12:45
In. A loaded up a. Little bit, you're
12:47
not going to get through it.
12:49
So my nutrition should have changed
12:51
more than it has. But like
12:53
I said earlier, it in this
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chat I: i don't measure macro.
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they don't count them am I
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it? So I don't A It's
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just not something that I have
13:04
the emotional capacity to. Be
13:06
super analytical about because
13:08
I will go. I
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am. Very tight a with it
13:12
and it's not conducive to health for
13:14
me am. That
13:17
being said, I probably I definitely
13:19
eat more Now I have. To eat
13:21
more in order to survive what I'm doing. And
13:23
but I couldn't share numbers with you or anything
13:25
like that because I don't know them. Produces
13:28
the idea that it's. Ok,
13:30
I'm a to be gone or he says you
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should be more adding so many people listening habits.
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same thing I've done of the day before. You're
13:37
like Bermuda, you might some weight by somebody in
13:39
a pound or two and you know that's like
13:41
three thousand dollars of equipment right there. And why
13:43
would I want to start the race? Three thousand
13:45
dollars in the whole ah by the you know
13:47
drink some water and and you know this is
13:49
carpenter and glycogen and there's always like be When
13:51
I'm with focus on on lifting weights I go
13:54
book and my three days in a life touch
13:56
my stomach. I'm like I'm running like a great
13:58
that you know and it's it's. It's this
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cycle that you can get into where you've
14:02
never fully commit and
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then it's hard. You're
14:07
neither making the body comp changes you want to
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or really fueling your training. And I think we've always just said,
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fuel your training and the body comp will come. But
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it's hard. I think we'll
14:17
see all go in the comments and stuff, but message
14:19
right down below if you've had this, because
14:21
this experience ever before and it might not
14:23
be orthorexia, but these are disordered eating kind
14:25
of things that we do where we feel
14:27
guilty for eating. And we know we need
14:30
to eat more for a 200 mile
14:32
gravel race. Like that's pretty sure
14:34
you can use as much as you can. It's hard though too.
14:36
And too, even if you know, uh, I'm
14:39
for Leadville, even if you know that you need to eat a lot, it's
14:41
still hard, right? Just
14:43
physically hard to eat all that food. I
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think also we don't have a
14:49
full understanding of how this all
14:51
works. And it's not, it's
14:53
not as simple as calories in must
14:56
equal calories out because like
14:58
our bodies as athletes are, they're very
15:01
good at prioritizing how we
15:03
use fuel and how we process
15:05
it. And we're not really primed
15:07
to just convert intake into
15:10
fat right away. Like we are very
15:12
good at storing it as glycogen and,
15:15
um, and also
15:17
just balancing. Like, you know, when you're
15:19
full, you know, when you've like your
15:21
body knows what, when is enough, I
15:23
guess. And anyways, I'm talking in circles,
15:26
but it's just, it's not as simple
15:28
as I ate more today. I
15:30
will gain weight. That's not actually how it works in
15:32
practice. And these,
15:35
the hole that you get into in these
15:37
races would take you, it would take you
15:39
a lot to, um, to
15:42
balance it back out. And there's a
15:44
huge hangover. Like the, the, the hangover
15:46
from unbound is like easily a week
15:49
where your metabolism is just absolutely revved.
15:52
Um, anyways, I have fallen prey to
15:54
this too. And my husband will tell you
15:56
the day before a race,
15:58
especially if I'm particularly nervous. which
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means that I'm in a vulnerable state, I
16:02
will be like, I don't want
16:04
to eat too much, but I know I need to
16:06
eat more or whatever. And it's
16:09
a tough thing. It is a challenging
16:11
thing. But one thing I'll tell you
16:14
is that I have
16:16
not weighed myself since 2021. I
16:18
literally don't know what I weigh. I
16:21
don't count any of the calories or macros
16:23
that I take in. And somehow
16:26
it works out and I perform okay.
16:28
So I don't think we need to focus
16:30
on it as much as we tell ourselves we
16:32
do. That's a great, great point.
16:34
I think we're going to talk about with power
16:36
meters too. For some people, they're not healthy and
16:39
you can chase those numbers. And we just saw
16:41
we're doing this red light green light products
16:44
to try to predict when someone's
16:46
going to be overly fatigued and to
16:48
prevent that from happening. And we have
16:51
people submitting times they burned out and why
16:54
that happened. We put it in chat,
16:57
chbT, I put in jackpot to see what are the
16:59
top reasons people burn out. We got to publish this
17:01
thing because there's like 15. It's amazing of all the
17:03
ways that we mess things up. We've talked about every
17:05
single one, but we're gonna put in one video. But
17:09
being obsessed with power numbers were too high. My
17:11
their ego, my FTP is too high. So some
17:13
of these threshold is now VO two
17:16
max, you know, 105% of you to max and
17:18
you chase that number and you get focused on
17:20
it when you know the feeling is wrong. That
17:22
I think that's it's like Michael Scott in the
17:24
office when it's like turn right and he's like,
17:26
Dwight, we have to turn right. And he turned
17:28
up to a lake and it crashed.
17:31
The machine tells us to do this. It was train road
17:33
to if you're feeling bad on a day, please rest like
17:35
skip that day. Even if we told you to do a
17:37
hard workout, you need to listen to your body. And
17:42
know yourself to I think Haley, what you're saying is,
17:44
you know yourself so well that some things aren't going
17:46
to be good for you to see all the time.
17:48
And it wouldn't be good to check your weight, you might check
17:50
it three, four times a day. And then impacts your eating and
17:53
I know people have done I know I've done that too. I
17:55
haven't weighed myself. And I haven't been for like a year
17:57
without weigh myself. John, you've had this issue too before Oh
18:00
yeah, totally. Does it go step and wait? Yeah,
18:02
in fact, it was Pete's
18:05
idea. Originally he said that he wanted
18:07
to make a scale that's a blind scale, that you
18:09
step on it and then you never see it, but
18:11
it just logs something in the background. And
18:14
then if you really needed to, you could see
18:16
it, but just having that display in front of
18:18
you can be so damaging. If
18:25
I easily walk into micromanaging every aspect
18:27
of my body and start to think
18:29
that I can do that, which in
18:31
reality I can't, and it
18:33
can spiral me pretty quickly, something you mentioned,
18:35
Ailey, that I really like is that you
18:37
said that you don't do this enough. And
18:41
that shows that you're like okay with the current state
18:43
that you're in, and you know
18:45
that over time this is all I can
18:47
room for improvement, but it's okay that you're
18:49
not there right now. A lot of the
18:51
time on this podcast or from many other
18:53
people in this world, you'll hear us talking
18:55
about different situations and different suggestions, and you
18:57
may not be living
19:00
up to whatever the standard is, but
19:02
that is okay. And I think
19:04
that was really cool and powerful for me to
19:07
hear a pro athlete at the top of your
19:09
game say, you know what, I can
19:11
do better on this and that's okay. That was
19:13
just really powerful, so I'm quite grateful that you
19:15
had the courage to say that. So thank you.
19:18
This is a really hard thing with these longer
19:20
events that I feel like a lot of people
19:22
don't understand. These days,
19:25
there's so many big races like
19:27
Leadville, like Unbound, everything else. And
19:29
when you do this in order to,
19:31
it's different. You
19:33
do have to feel differently, and you do have to do
19:35
a lot of these different things. And you can't just roll
19:38
into it expecting it to be the same thing as when
19:40
you go out and you do a weeknight criterium or something
19:42
else like that. It's a
19:44
very different game, and it requires even professionals
19:46
to change up a whole lot like this.
19:48
Plus what Hailey said, eating when you're nervous is
19:50
so hard. And
19:53
then those big races like Leadville, scared
19:55
out your mind right before, just performing, but
19:57
then for me, it's like crashing. Probably
20:00
not for you too. But it just
20:02
adds a whole, it's crazy how much
20:04
the mental side impacts,
20:07
but we really focus on so many, I mean, saying
20:09
this with PowerBeaner company, Power
20:11
Tree, we focus on the power, right? Some of the
20:13
things that we can control, that we can really see
20:16
and touch. But
20:18
then the mental side, maybe we could spend more time
20:20
on that, and then I would actually have a better outcome,
20:22
more enjoyable life, which is the
20:25
important part. I bet you, this
20:27
is crazy. Does a lot of people
20:29
link winning to enjoyment? Like I won't enjoy until
20:32
I win. But if
20:34
you could choose a cycling career where you just loved it the
20:36
whole time, or a cycling career where you hated it
20:38
the whole time, you'd probably
20:40
choose the one you loved, no matter what the outcome was. Yeah.
20:43
You know what I mean? As long as you could pay the
20:45
bills, but the one that you hated, but
20:48
you got paid a million dollars a year, I
20:50
bet you would, when you're 67, you're gonna be like,
20:52
yeah, I wasted my life. Yeah, I
20:54
hate that, right? You'd wanna redo it
20:56
and have that wonderful career. And that's why you guys
20:58
do gravel. Just kidding. Yeah.
21:00
Yeah. Yeah. Oh,
21:03
dear. Yeah, I think, I mean,
21:05
to get back to Alyssa's question a little bit,
21:07
I think that
21:09
is one of the things why gravel is
21:12
exciting is because it is different, it's so
21:14
different from XCO. And there
21:16
are some aspects of the training that
21:18
are remarkably similar. I
21:21
would say that the biggest thing with gravel
21:23
and endurance mountain biking is the respect that's
21:25
needed for how long it takes to recover
21:27
from these events. And I'm
21:29
at a level of like fitness and
21:32
training age or athlete age now where
21:34
I can recover from an XCO in
21:36
like a day or two days and
21:38
be okay. But to
21:40
recover from these long events
21:42
takes a week. And
21:45
that means that you also need
21:47
to have maybe a higher
21:49
priority of rest leading into these
21:51
events as well, just
21:54
to make sure that you're not carrying chronic fatigue,
21:57
which has been my issue the last couple of
21:59
years is I've struggled. struggle to balance the
22:01
extra rest that is required to
22:03
support this calendar,
22:05
these style of events. So the biggest change,
22:08
I suppose, in how you train is I
22:10
need to be more diligent about my recovery.
22:13
And I do also do a few more
22:15
hours per year, and I would say that
22:17
I do more threshold
22:19
now. But other than that, it's
22:21
a relatively similar training process as
22:24
it was for XCO. Haley,
22:26
what has changed in your recovery for gravel? You
22:29
mentioned you had to do something differently. And also,
22:31
when you had the chronic fatigue, what symptoms were
22:33
coming up that made you think or like now
22:35
looking back, what are the warning signs that you
22:38
saw? So
22:41
what's different about recovery is that
22:43
I just have to prioritize it
22:45
more. I have to actually, I
22:47
have to rest. And
22:49
there are lots of different types of recovery, active
22:52
recovery activities. But the biggest one for me is
22:54
actually just resting. So
22:58
when I'm not on the bike, I have
23:01
to be very zen. I
23:03
have to make sure that my sympathetic
23:05
system is down regulated. I have to
23:08
be diligent about my mindfulness
23:10
practice so that I'm up regulating
23:13
the parasympathetic system. Yeah,
23:17
I think it's just trying to breathe
23:19
more and have more space when I'm
23:21
not on the bike.
23:26
I'm noticing that that impacts
23:28
all things, improves
23:30
my sleep, improves my adaptation,
23:32
all that kind of stuff. And
23:37
I forget what the second part of your question is. On
23:39
chronic fatigue. Yeah, go ahead. Before you
23:41
go into the chronic fatigue, because you're
23:44
a student currently, you
23:47
also as an athlete have the responsibilities
23:49
that are inherent with a professional athlete
23:51
these days that pertain to social media
23:53
and everything else. When
23:56
you talk about getting more space, down
23:59
regulating. that sympathetic side
24:01
of things and up regulating the parasympathetic side
24:03
of things. How do you
24:06
balance all of that? Because that might be relevant
24:08
for people listening to this that are students, are
24:10
parents, are career professionals, and one way or another
24:12
are athletes. Do you find
24:14
that those things stand at odds with your ability to recover?
24:16
And if so, how do you balance it? So
24:19
yes and no. I think
24:22
you have to be very mentally disciplined
24:24
with when you're on the bike, that's what
24:27
you're doing. Your mental energy
24:29
is just to turning
24:31
the pedals, doing the workout. And
24:33
similarly, you have to be
24:35
off the bike when you're off the bike mentally.
24:39
I'm lucky that my school is mostly
24:41
reading and writing about things that I'm
24:43
interested in. So it's almost,
24:45
in a way, leisure time. There
24:48
are certainly days and weeks where it's quite
24:50
stressful. And
24:52
I think in those periods of time, I
24:54
have to respect that load is load. And
24:57
I've made the choice to be a student and to
24:59
pursue graduate studies. And
25:04
so it is a priority for me. And
25:06
that means that sometimes my training load has
25:08
to come down a bit to balance the
25:10
school and the life load. And that's just
25:12
the way it is. I'm still performing. I'm
25:14
still achieving and chasing the goals that I
25:16
want to achieve on the bike. So, so
25:19
far, it's not harming things as long as
25:21
I respect that balance. But
25:24
to bring it back to the food thing, I
25:28
am learning that if
25:31
I'm adequately fueled, all of this
25:33
is easier. I sleep
25:35
better. My moods are
25:37
way better. I have
25:40
way less anxiety. Like, anxiety for
25:42
me is definitely related to low
25:44
energy availability. So
25:47
I guess for me, the foundation actually is
25:50
adequate and supportive nutrition, which
25:52
allows me to have adequate and supportive
25:54
sleep, which just makes all of
25:56
this easier, balancing
25:59
the stress. and keeping the stress
26:01
low way easier. So
26:05
when you look back, Hailey, and you saw, well, you're
26:08
chronically fatigued, what were the
26:10
warning signs that, you know,
26:12
maybe you could have changed things earlier that you knew that
26:14
you were getting fatigued now looking in hindsight? So
26:18
a drop in power, a drop in
26:20
peak power and ability to really hit
26:23
it in those anaerobic zones and
26:25
to do so repeatedly. That's
26:27
a big one. So
26:31
higher irritability and just
26:34
like lower ability to cope with
26:36
small stressors. So for example, this
26:38
morning I was rushing to get
26:40
out the door because I'm trying to beat this big
26:42
storm that's coming to California and get my solid
26:44
workout in. I had
26:46
a VO2 workout today. So get that in before the
26:49
storm hit. And as I was walking out the door,
26:51
I felt, I heard a rattle in my rear wheel
26:53
and I was like, Oh no. And I had broken
26:55
a spoke and there was a nipple loose in the
26:57
wheel. And anyways, long story short,
26:59
I had to fix that all in a very rushed
27:01
way before I got out to do VO2 intervals, which
27:03
are kind of stressful. And
27:05
if I were in
27:08
a period where I was carrying too much
27:10
fatigue or I was under fueled or under
27:12
rested, I would not have been able to
27:14
deal with that. I would have been angry
27:16
and irritated and like really frazzled. And
27:18
instead I was kind of just able to deal with
27:20
it. So I guess that anecdote just to say that
27:23
resilience and mood trends are a
27:25
huge, uh, red flag for me
27:27
or, or can canary in the
27:29
coal mine, if you will. Um,
27:32
and then sleep, my sleep definitely
27:34
suffers and I do use a, like
27:36
a, a wearable tracker
27:39
that will, you know, show me deep sleep and
27:41
run sleep and sleep latency. And the
27:44
latency for me is the biggest one. So when I'm
27:46
carrying too much fatigue, it's pretty difficult for me to
27:48
fall asleep and it takes a long time for me
27:51
to enter a deep sleep stage. But
27:53
in the last like six months, since I
27:55
would say that I've been coming
27:57
out of this fatigue hole, those metrics. tricks
27:59
are greatly improved. So that's, I think, something
28:02
for me to watch as well. Have
28:05
you guys ever noticed that when you try
28:07
to lose weight, that your
28:09
partner just becomes a jerk? Like crazy. At
28:12
the same time? Everything around you.
28:15
I know, everyone's annoying. Like, it's just crazy how
28:17
that happens. I'm
28:20
morbid, but I spent so much of my life.
28:22
Like, the only way for me to get through
28:25
this stuff is to laugh about it, because there
28:27
are some things in life that are so serious,
28:29
you just have to laugh. I spent so much
28:31
of my life, my entire adolescence, most of my
28:33
adult life thus far in
28:35
a state of semi-starvation. And
28:38
I was so
28:40
angry all the time. So
28:42
angry. And it's only
28:44
recently that I have learned that there's actually
28:46
stuff that I like, and I like to
28:49
have fun, and I actually can have fun.
28:53
And it's just such a freeing thing to
28:55
know that all
28:57
I took was just eating a little bit
28:59
more, and life was a whole lot better.
29:03
Yeah, there's that. What's that acronym where if you
29:05
get distressing emotions, you say like, it's HALT, right?
29:08
Are you tired, hungry? What
29:11
are the other ones? Ellen A.
29:14
But angry, I forget what it is. But it's probably
29:16
not that. But it's something that you should check, because
29:18
so many times, like you said, things that wouldn't regularly
29:21
bother you, the way that
29:23
somebody's eating, right? Suddenly
29:25
becomes really annoying, because you're one of
29:28
those things, which is, like,
29:30
to your point, if you're chronically fatigued, that's going to
29:32
come up way more often. One
29:35
other thing I forgot to mention as well that's
29:38
applicable for the women
29:41
is just your cycle. And my
29:43
cycle's still not back online perfectly.
29:48
After I kind of hit a low point at
29:50
Tokyo with a descent into reds or in the
29:52
lead up to Tokyo. Anyways,
29:55
having a regular cycle
29:57
is an indication are
30:00
good and if your cycle is
30:02
not there or if it's really,
30:04
really irregular, that can be a
30:06
sign of chronic fatigue, low energy
30:08
availability, like a hormonal imbalance
30:11
from overtraining. It can be, it's a
30:14
really easy thing for us to notice. It
30:16
may be a bit difficult for men when
30:18
they don't have a menstrual cycle, but it's
30:21
a really useful tool for assessing where you're
30:23
at. Yeah. John,
30:26
just real quick, I looked it up. My
30:29
adult is hungry, angry, lonely, or tired. And
30:32
John, you just did an epic trip where you ran
30:34
out of food and that worked out. Do
30:38
you notice any, I don't know if you want to talk a
30:40
little bit about it, but John almost died. Yeah,
30:43
it was crazy. Sorry. And
30:45
now you're sick. Yeah, I know. It's a rough week.
30:50
Do you notice mood stuff too at the same time? Oh,
30:53
100%. And I
30:55
think that this is, you've
30:57
said load is load, Haley, and
30:59
that's a really important thing to
31:02
not overlook because basically
31:04
like when we're talking about, when you
31:06
say load is load, you're talking about
31:08
all the different stressors in your life
31:10
all contribute to the same pot, so
31:12
to speak. And they're all different
31:14
forms of stress, but when they enter the pot,
31:16
it's stress. It is what it is. And
31:18
your body kind of has a certain
31:21
ability to tolerate that. And
31:23
one of the main, I guess, supports
31:25
for that tolerance is nourishment. And
31:27
if that nourishment is dropped down, you simply
31:30
can't handle as much load. So
31:32
this is a lesson that I think
31:35
I'll never learn. I
31:38
feel like I learn it and then I go
31:40
through, six months later, I find myself
31:42
in a situation where I think that
31:44
for some reason, I cannot nourish myself
31:46
adequately or I can tolerate insane
31:48
amounts of stress and still do the same
31:50
amount of training. And that's just not
31:52
how it goes. And it's funny, Haley,
31:54
you mentioned that you've listened to the podcast. You've probably
31:57
heard us a lot of the time. always talk. The
32:00
people to consider a lower volume training
32:02
options and said a really high ones
32:04
and the reason that we do that
32:06
is because of just like you said
32:08
load is load Like I don't know
32:10
what work and life will give me
32:12
in six months and so I need
32:14
to be open to be to adjust
32:16
my training volume appropriately so then that
32:18
way when I get to a difficult
32:20
time for you they can adjust itself
32:22
to super thin and I guess we're
32:24
talking about was bringing back to the
32:26
question for Melissa on talking about going
32:29
from a ninety minute. Race has a really
32:31
long ones That means you have more load.
32:34
I. Just is what it is. Like he
32:36
said he have to recover more and yet
32:38
you're going to have more tossed into that
32:40
pot. So it's super important that people have
32:43
that consideration and something you probably especially like
32:45
a teenager you really don't have to take
32:47
into consideration. To. The same degree when
32:49
you're doing something like axial, it isn't as
32:51
tough. I'm super get
32:53
inside their. Thinks. It's they
32:56
theory that I'm. Let's.
32:58
Get into. I want to go into the
33:00
next question here. This is from Chris. Thrill
33:02
your months Chris as they for the many
33:04
hours of keep me company a Longworth shovel
33:06
you've taught me a ton of se like
33:09
you're all part of my weekly grew ride
33:11
through and feels good Dress Thanks good here
33:13
that's Cook the Chris says Africa Jonathan mentioned
33:15
his struggles with air in this week's or
33:17
of were in this last week's episode. I
33:19
thought I'd reach out on how to help
33:21
my twelve year old son Carter stay motivated
33:23
and but not burn out. Over the past
33:26
six months, Carter's really started to enjoy mountain
33:28
biking. He rode bikes occasionally like any
33:30
kid would and he occasionally go out
33:32
with me. but recently he has gotten
33:34
into it with his friends and the
33:36
are really getting into Access. He has
33:38
seen me train for years and now
33:40
he wants to do interval workouts. I
33:42
feel like I should just encourage him
33:44
to ride but he really wants to
33:46
do workouts so what's suggestions you have
33:48
so how to not kill his enthusiasm
33:50
but still keep it fun. This is
33:52
like year intersection period as as messy
33:54
as is, like what you're studying right
33:56
now so I'm so. excited when i read
33:58
this question as i I've been training
34:01
for this. This is PK-ly
34:04
time. Can I
34:06
just dive in or did you want to add? Yes.
34:08
I'm going to have my ears attuned because
34:10
this is relevant for me. A
34:13
lot of the research in the lab that I am
34:15
in is on specialization
34:17
versus sampling and the age
34:19
at which it's optimal for
34:21
those things to occur. What
34:23
do those things mean? Yes.
34:26
Specializing in a specific one
34:29
sport. Choosing to invest
34:31
in one sport to the exclusion of others and
34:33
go down the road of not
34:36
necessarily elite performance but an
34:39
investment in a single sport. Whereas sampling
34:41
is a phase of life
34:43
where you're doing many different sports. You might
34:45
be serious about some but you're trying things
34:47
out and just
34:50
staying diversified, I suppose.
34:52
Right around 12
34:56
to 14 is when you see
34:59
kids start to specialize and have
35:01
it be okay. That being said,
35:06
there's a lot of nuance in there with
35:09
what is optimal. It's sports specific
35:12
and it's also kid dependent on
35:14
what is going to be optimal
35:16
for the kid. I
35:18
came up with three based on my
35:20
education and personal
35:22
experience. I came
35:24
up with three ideas
35:27
for you because first
35:29
of all, the fact that
35:31
it's coming from Chris's son
35:33
is key. If
35:35
the drive and the motivation is coming from the
35:37
kid, you pretty much can't go wrong.
35:39
It's when the drive and the motivation is
35:41
being forced on the kid by either parent
35:43
or coach or something
35:46
that you run into issues.
35:48
I give this advice with
35:50
the foundational understanding that this
35:52
is coming from Chris's son
35:54
Carter and that's just a huge
35:57
positive. So my three... pieces
36:00
of advice first would be to minimize the
36:02
data. I don't think a
36:04
12-year-old needs a power meter. I don't think a
36:06
12-year-old needs really any data at all. It should all
36:08
just be like... What about networks? Yeah,
36:12
exactly. That
36:14
is a whole other thing as well. Anyways,
36:19
yeah, I don't think there needs to be any data
36:21
at all, except if you want a stopwatch.
36:25
I think that that's a pretty key
36:27
aspect of keeping the motivation high and
36:30
the fun high. The
36:32
second would be to keep any intervals
36:34
game-oriented. Sorry,
36:37
do you want to add something in there, J Strava
36:48
technically? I'm not sure what the age cutoff is.
36:50
I don't know. But I
36:52
do know that just riding around local junior and
36:54
our D.Va organizations and stuff, I hear kids talk
36:56
about Strava all the time. So they might just
36:58
be talking about a cultural thing that they don't
37:01
take a part of, or they might be doing
37:03
it. But Strava is an
37:05
interesting one here because if
37:08
the kids are tracking them, that
37:10
opens up this weird and pretty
37:13
risky world for them to compare themselves
37:15
to. Would Strava fall into that what you're
37:17
talking about of trying to discourage them from
37:19
doing that? I
37:22
know some kids under the age of 13
37:24
that use Strava as probably
37:26
maybe their parents' name. Their
37:31
parents have set up the account. I don't
37:33
know if I'm going to be scared right now. I
37:39
do think that it sets the stage
37:41
for some negative comparison or
37:43
some toxic competition a little bit.
37:47
I'm going to go off on one tangent here. So
37:50
my thesis topic, the original research
37:52
that I'm in the process of writing
37:54
up that I will use to qualify
37:57
for my master's degree, is on
37:59
parent-child co-partition. participation in mountain biking.
38:01
So looking at this very specific thing that
38:03
seems to happen in mountain biking where parents
38:05
and kids are kind of cold like
38:09
teammates almost or the
38:11
most common at
38:13
least in Canada where we don't have NICA, it's like
38:17
kids start with their parents and they ride with their parents
38:19
and it's a really unique
38:21
and positive thing where the parents are
38:23
able to provide a benchmark for their
38:26
kids that's not loaded
38:28
with social comparison. So let's
38:31
picture 12 year old Hailey goes
38:33
out riding with her dad I can use
38:35
my dad as kind of like a stable
38:37
benchmark to assess my progress against and
38:40
it's totally voluntary it's like self-motivated, but
38:42
it doesn't come with that. Am I
38:44
better than Susie who
38:46
I line up with every weekend to race
38:48
against so that's just
38:50
a tangent. I guess that's it's not related
38:52
to one of my tips, but as
38:55
a dad in this scenario like
38:58
you do have an active role that you can
39:00
play to make sure that it's fun
39:02
and positive for your son, I guess. So
39:05
yes, the first one minimize the data
39:07
probably does include Strava, but I was
39:09
more thinking about power numbers I just
39:11
don't I see no purpose for them.
39:13
And I think that could be an
39:16
area that would lead
39:19
to problems for someone so young. Second
39:23
tip keep it game oriented so
39:26
devise interval sets where it's like
39:30
there's a loop it's like kind of like you're
39:32
racing against yourself you can have that stopwatch if
39:34
you want and you can try to get self
39:38
like assess against yourself and beat your own
39:40
personal best. Other
39:42
ways you can make it game oriented are to have like have
39:47
technical elements into it in it, which actually leads me to
39:49
my third point which would be to in
39:51
largely keep the intervals off-road.
39:56
For someone so young you're going to gain more by doing like
40:00
a mixed surface or a fully trail
40:02
interval where you have to integrate the
40:04
technical skills required of mountain biking. There's
40:08
a whole lot of things with mountain
40:10
biking intervals like the torque that's involved,
40:12
the ability to ride technical under extremely
40:14
fatigued conditions, a whole bunch of stuff.
40:17
But I think that keeping those off-road makes
40:20
those intervals feel like a game
40:23
and they're just a little bit more
40:25
engaging and less about only
40:27
physical suffering. I think the
40:30
desire for physical suffering is a very
40:32
type two type of fun and we
40:35
develop that as we get older but
40:38
kids are not necessarily going to
40:40
love that in the long run.
40:42
So yeah, I guess
40:44
those are my tips. Just keep the data at
40:46
a minimum, try to make it a game in
40:48
any way possible and
40:51
just mix up the intervals so that they're mostly off-road.
40:53
I have so many
40:55
questions. We could talk about this for hours and it
40:57
would be like my own personal podcast. I probably wouldn't
40:59
publish to the world. One
41:03
of the ways, you mentioned keeping intervals fun.
41:06
A really fun way that I've seen that
41:08
done is relays with kids too. They
41:11
have relay teams because if
41:13
you think about it, you set a relay up and
41:15
the kid's going to do a hard effort and boom,
41:17
interval done. Then you reset and redo
41:19
the relay game again and keep
41:21
it really fun. I remember seeing our local,
41:24
at one point I remember them handing off a CO2 but
41:26
then at other times it's like a teddy bear that doesn't
41:28
quite fit in your jersey pocket. So you have to smash
41:31
it in there and it makes it really fun for the
41:33
kids to do that way.
41:35
Or they'd stuff it down their jersey and they
41:37
have a teddy bear flapping around and they're turning
41:39
into this and it's kind of silly. But
41:42
that's a really fun way that I've seen
41:45
to make this happen. I have this question
41:47
though because my son, you mentioned
41:49
riding with your kids and that
41:51
benchmark thing. My son,
41:54
he's only seven and he's so discouraged
41:56
when he rides with me because he's
41:58
like, are you? I'm not as fast as
42:00
my dad. Of
42:03
course, us standing back as adults, we look at that, we're
42:05
like, well, that's so silly. You're seven
42:07
years old. You haven't had those years of training, that sort of
42:09
thing. Is there
42:11
a way that parents can help so
42:13
that when they are riding together, that
42:15
that point of comparison doesn't serve as
42:17
a discouragement to them, but instead it's
42:19
something that's more encouraging? Yeah. I
42:22
think, again, from personal experience
42:24
and from my studies, I
42:26
would say that there's a
42:29
couple things. One, when kids
42:31
are pretty young and they're
42:33
co-participating, most of the successful
42:35
dyads that I have spoken to, the
42:38
parent follows the
42:40
kid. Whenever they're
42:42
trail riding, it's the child that leads and
42:44
sets the pace and chooses the trails.
42:48
That just minimizes the competitiveness or
42:50
the comparison there because they can't actually
42:53
see you riding something better than they
42:55
might be able to ride it. Then
42:59
the second aspect of it would be just
43:04
trying to highlight any
43:06
improvement or direct focus
43:09
where you hope that it will go for
43:12
your kids. If
43:15
they do ride a rock feature better than they ever
43:17
have before, just making sure you point it out.
43:20
Pointing out these successes and helping them work
43:22
on that confidence muscle. You
43:26
can tell a kid till you're blue in the face
43:28
to just focus on yourself, but they're not going to
43:30
have us in. I
43:32
think, yeah, just trying to
43:35
draw attention to their
43:37
own successes and build the
43:40
habit of
43:42
being able to recognize your own improvement
43:44
because we're really bad. As a general
43:46
rule, people are really bad at recognizing
43:48
things they've improved on. Anyway,
43:52
so yeah, I guess that would
43:54
be my answer. Can
43:56
we apply any of this to
43:58
our adult social circles? We're
44:00
talking about the parent-child context here,
44:03
but what about just riding with
44:05
friends? Looking at this, is there
44:07
anything we can do to be a better friend to
44:10
a person that we're riding with or to help them?
44:12
Or how should we view this relationship when we're racing
44:14
and training with people that are faster than us? I'd
44:17
say it's the exact same. When
44:21
a parent and a child are out riding
44:23
together, you can't
44:25
shed all the elements of parenthood that
44:28
are required, like responsibility and making sure
44:30
your child is safe. But
44:32
ultimately, you are a peer when you're out
44:34
there. How you would encourage
44:36
your child to continue to enjoy mountain
44:38
biking or cycling and continue to look
44:41
for improvement or work towards improvement is
44:44
exactly how you would
44:46
do that for a friend, I would think. Yeah.
44:50
I guess if I imagine the rides where
44:52
I go with someone who is less skilled
44:55
or a beginner cyclist, I typically will let
44:57
them lead. I will
45:00
provide a little bit of feedback or tips,
45:03
but mostly just allow them to figure it
45:05
out organically and highlight and praise when they've
45:08
made those little breakthroughs on their own. Yeah.
45:11
What about helping them understand
45:13
when it's too much? Because
45:15
I've seen this sometimes with kids that at 12
45:17
years old, maybe Carter's like this that just wants
45:20
to pick it up and go. Is
45:22
there something like how do you establish the bump
45:24
or how do you put up bumpers in the
45:26
bowling alley for the kids to understand when they're
45:28
doing too much? On
45:33
the spot on this one, I think that
45:36
it is a lot easier to focus
45:39
on positive additions as
45:41
it is to focus
45:43
on limitations
45:45
or like
45:48
borders is the wrong word. Like
45:51
limits, I guess. I think it's a lot
45:53
easier to think about what things you can
45:55
add to make the experience more positive as
45:58
opposed to what rules you can make. need
46:00
to implement in order to make
46:02
it to limit the experience. So
46:08
if Carter's only 12 years old,
46:10
probably still encouraging other sport involvement,
46:13
encouraging him to make sure that he's still
46:15
hanging out with his friends and doing those
46:17
things. And before you know it,
46:19
if you've encouraged these other elements of his life
46:22
to grow, then it's hard
46:24
to overdo it because you're encouraging
46:27
balance in time
46:29
dispersal, if that makes sense. It's
46:34
a lot harder to just say, you can only ride
46:36
this much or you can only do these many intervals
46:38
because maybe that's all Carter is
46:40
focused on to the exclusion
46:42
of everything else. So yeah,
46:44
I think just expanding the
46:47
attention as opposed to limiting
46:49
the singular focus, anything
46:51
he's allowed to do in that. Cool,
46:54
great advice. Awesome. Thanks,
46:56
Haley. Okay, this next one is from
46:59
the day you're preferred to remain anonymous. So I
47:01
won't read off the name. Say, hey podcast crew,
47:03
I'm a new listener to the podcast. I'm making
47:06
my way back to previous episodes, particularly those that
47:08
focus on mental health. I'm struggling
47:10
with motivation for another season of racing.
47:12
I love training. And for me, tracking
47:15
my performance with numbers is highly motivating.
47:17
After my performance is going up or down, I just
47:20
like having a clear idea of where I am. And
47:23
having been a competitive cyclist for more than 25
47:25
years through previous phases of
47:27
life that were busy or easy. I've learned
47:29
to not beat myself up when my performance
47:31
drops due to life circumstances. But
47:34
I'm having a surprisingly difficult time getting
47:36
motivated for next year due to the
47:38
weight of external expectations. Last
47:41
year I had an incredible training year, resulting
47:43
in the best performances I've had in 10
47:45
years. As a result, I was on the
47:47
state championships podium in six disciplines. Holy cow.
47:51
Winning four of them. What
47:53
a year, right? In the
47:55
span of six months, I went from being just
47:57
a fast guy to being the fast guy. Now
48:00
thinking of doing all these races I've
48:02
done for years suddenly feels exasperating I
48:04
feel like I'll have failed if I
48:06
don't match or beat last year, even
48:09
though my training is going very well I know
48:11
that sometimes life has ups and downs. So my
48:13
actual performance may not match my fitness Have
48:16
any of you had a situation like this? And
48:18
how do you get excited to race again without
48:20
the weight of previous success holding you
48:22
down? And I I'm really
48:24
obviously interested in Haley
48:26
and your info on this but Nate
48:29
I feel like you just don't succeed
48:38
I'm like I write Nate you publicly
48:40
you made your journey from cat five
48:43
to cat to public like You
48:45
recorded all your races you shared everything that
48:47
you learned along the way So
48:50
you kind of did this too. So we'll get to
48:52
Nate's opinions on this too Because I don't know if
48:54
you you feel this but I certainly have experienced this
48:57
Haley How have you managed
48:59
it? Oh When
49:01
I read this I was like, yes, of course
49:03
like I identify with this like a
49:05
million percent I this
49:09
is something that I went through in the lead-up to
49:11
Tokyo, so I obviously
49:14
there was a pandemic in there, but I basically
49:16
qualified for the Olympics in May of 2019 when
49:19
I got on my first World Cup podium and That
49:23
was probably the worst thing that Could
49:25
have happened because I spent the
49:27
next it ended up being like 27
49:32
months because of the pandemic in there, but I spent the
49:34
next 27 months Trying
49:36
not to fail like trying not to
49:39
Trying to hold on to something that I felt
49:41
like I already had as opposed to chasing something
49:44
that I hadn't yet experienced and
49:47
it was incredibly draining and Demotivating
49:50
and just like exactly what this
49:52
person described it just it's there's
49:54
no joy there. There's no There's
49:57
no joy and you do need some joy or
50:00
some like motivation derived from
50:02
that in order to continue
50:04
to improve or to just be invested in what
50:06
you're doing. Um, anyways,
50:09
I will skate over most of my
50:11
sob story, but after the Olympics, I
50:14
got the rings tattooed right on my
50:16
back. Um, like
50:18
right where I, right where I felt
50:20
the weight of them. Um, it,
50:24
yeah, over the similar, I mean,
50:26
I'm trying to drop, I believe these are
50:28
parallel, so I'm just kind of explained or
50:30
sharing my own experience, but the,
50:33
the weight of success and the
50:35
weight, the weight of the need
50:37
to hold on to success, that's
50:39
probably more accurate can
50:42
be debilitating and absolutely
50:45
crushing. And that
50:47
is what the Olympics kind of became
50:49
for me. And so when I
50:51
got this tattoo, it was a choice. It
50:54
was a choice that I was going to
50:56
view that journey as something that
50:58
gave me wings, which is where my wings
51:00
would have sprouted from where I got my
51:02
tattoo as opposed to being this like
51:05
really heavyweight. And so that's
51:07
my, my first thing I think is that it's, you
51:10
kind of have to choose the paradigm
51:12
that you view it in and
51:14
it's a conscious choice and you have to kind of make
51:16
it every day and some days it won't feel like that.
51:18
That's, that is one, one
51:21
of the ways that I approach it. Um,
51:24
my second thing would actually be a question for
51:26
this person and it would be, why are you
51:28
racing? Do you know why you're
51:30
racing? What is, what's the
51:32
purpose of it for you? Is it to just
51:35
win because you've won before or is
51:37
there some, something that
51:39
you're chasing? Because once you know what
51:41
you're chasing it, the motivation kind of
51:43
takes care of itself. And
51:46
that's a difficult question or a difficult conversation that
51:48
I think you have to have with yourself to
51:50
understand your why. But that's
51:52
really where all the fuel comes
51:54
from. I think it's
51:57
the biggest thing. You
52:00
don't know why if you don't have
52:02
that curiosity left, which was a big
52:04
thing for me with my transition from
52:06
XCO to marathon and gravel. There just
52:08
wasn't room for curiosity there anymore. It was
52:10
just heavy. It's okay to
52:12
change it up. So I mean,
52:15
you're national champion across, or
52:18
state champion across six disciplines. So we
52:20
might have not, we might not have
52:22
the ability to go to, but I mean, it is
52:25
okay to look
52:28
for something where you do have curiosity.
52:31
And I think that's, it's really freeing when you
52:33
can be an athlete in an environment where
52:38
it's just about what if, what might happen?
52:40
And that's such a, that's what motivates me
52:42
is like, I don't know if it's possible.
52:44
Let's see. And so I think
52:46
it's okay to recognize that maybe you might
52:48
need a change and that's
52:50
not a failure at all. You
52:53
just, it's possible that you might have
52:55
exhausted what was available for you in
52:57
that area. That's
53:02
a cool perspective on that. Thank you, Haley,
53:04
for sharing that. Nate, how would you feel
53:06
about this? Like you aren't, you
53:08
aren't training. Let's just say that you like,
53:11
we're going to go back into racing and everything else.
53:15
Would you feel weight of expectation or how would you
53:17
manage this? Would you feel frustrated that you're not where
53:19
you were? No, I
53:21
mean, my FTP right now is probably 180. Like
53:25
it is low and I'm like,
53:27
like 210 pounds. It's
53:29
pure muscle, of course. But
53:32
it is, I am, it would
53:35
be fun. I think for me, the fun part would be I
53:37
would go back pretty fast. So I
53:39
never see that kind of rate of, you
53:41
know, of, of increase that you would doing
53:43
that. And that would be fun. But
53:47
I, I don't really have, people don't really have expectations
53:49
on me for cycling. And even when I was winning
53:51
stuff, I remember my first cat three race, John was
53:53
there, one listener was giving me tips on how not
53:55
to get dropped on the crit. And then I won
53:57
the crit on my first race. So that's
53:59
like everyone. And then it was like, oh, but wait until
54:01
this, wait until this. And then I got
54:04
upgraded cat two and then I, um, I had big crashes
54:06
and I, on mountain biking and I, I stopped. I didn't
54:08
get to do a season, but you know,
54:10
everyone was like, well, wait until you get to the one, two, uh, masters.
54:13
And I, I, I
54:16
really wanted to win those. Um, but I only got to
54:18
do a couple, so it didn't happen. Um,
54:20
and I knew I wasn't going to do anything with P one,
54:22
two. Those people are insane. Okay. Yeah. I
54:24
mean, there's no chance. So there was no expectations on that
54:26
either. Um, so I guess
54:28
two for me level was, um, yeah,
54:31
I think it was the opposite. People thought they didn't believe
54:33
in me. So I was like, okay. I'll
54:36
just, that was like a motivation for you to
54:38
disprove them. I don't know about motivation, but it
54:40
truly didn't put any pressure on me. Right. Cause
54:42
if I didn't do well, everyone's like, Nate,
54:45
you're a nice guy. Like it's hard. Yeah. And I'm like, cool.
54:47
Everyone's nice about it. Right. No one's a jerk. Uh,
54:49
which was very nice. Um, yeah. Can
54:53
I, uh, I want to share a personal experience
54:55
of this one. Um, so pretty early
54:57
on in my mountain biking career, I got a podium
54:59
at national championships and I say career, I don't have
55:01
a career, but then early on in mountain bike racing,
55:04
I, I got a podium at
55:06
national championships. This is the next year afterward.
55:08
I completely felt what's being talked about here
55:10
in terms of like, I,
55:13
what do I do now, like I have to win and that's
55:15
like the only thing that I can do. And
55:17
it was really discouraging. So I can,
55:19
and I following the advice
55:21
of Haley here, uh, I, I absolutely went the
55:24
same route of finding out why I liked to
55:26
race and it took me a while to figure
55:28
that out. That meant I didn't race, uh,
55:30
nationals that next year. I didn't have the motivation
55:32
to go do it. And part of me was
55:34
worried about the stress of going back and, and,
55:37
and competing with the same level of
55:39
expectation. And I wasn't up to managing that in the,
55:41
in that environment. And I needed to kind of step
55:43
back. Um, but I found like a
55:45
different why for why I really loved to race mountain
55:47
bikes. And since then, um, it's,
55:50
I don't feel any burden to live up
55:52
to past results, um, or expectations and
55:54
it's nice, but I'll share this for
55:57
me is are not sure what your name is. You were super
55:59
rude one time. I remember
56:01
on the forum you said, you
56:03
were sharing feedback about the podcast. You said, I don't
56:05
listen anymore because none of them race. And
56:08
I remember that was like after I had
56:10
gone through the effort to record a podcast
56:12
about me racing a stage race every single
56:14
day of that stage race and sharing it.
56:17
I was like, and I raced a bunch and
56:19
I'd share all these things. And I remember somebody
56:22
said, they literally just did like six podcasts in
56:24
a row showing like that racing. And
56:26
I remember them saying like, yeah, but none of
56:28
it's impressive. And
56:32
Nate has mentioned this before and I have too, like
56:34
when you race and then it's out in front of
56:36
a lot of people, Haley experiences this
56:38
at a totally different scale. That
56:41
adds a lot. And I think that
56:43
from an outsider in perspective, if
56:46
you know somebody that has achieved like a
56:48
lot of success and maybe it was a
56:50
bit unexpected, maybe like in this case or
56:52
not unexpected, but unprecedented for this person, think
56:55
about the ways that we're saying things that
56:58
might add even more pressure and expectation onto
57:00
those people. We can probably phrase things
57:02
differently and it would really help. It
57:06
means that we don't have to, when somebody performs really
57:08
well, we don't have to ask them what's next. We
57:11
don't have to go into a situation when they perform really well
57:13
and say, where do you go from here or how
57:15
are you going to do this again? We don't have
57:17
to do those things. Those questions are probably already in
57:19
their heads. And when
57:21
we say it, we like validate those really
57:24
invalid questions that are going on. Just
57:27
from an outside in perspective, we can probably think
57:29
about how we're being considerate toward people that
57:31
have situations like this. And professional athletes, they
57:34
have to be public on social media and a
57:36
lot of people just share whatever their opinions are.
57:38
It's a good opportunity for us to think about
57:41
what they're going through before we just jump in
57:43
like that. You
57:45
just triggered one very quick thing that I
57:48
wanted to share. You brought up
57:50
this memory, but I have
57:52
always struggled with performance anxiety or I
57:54
guess personal expectations. And one thing that
57:56
my coach would always ask me when
57:58
he. could tell that I was
58:01
getting really stressed out about like the workouts because I
58:03
need to be perfect so that I can race well.
58:05
Um, he'd be like, Haley, who was, who was
58:07
third at world champs and elite men last year? And
58:10
I'd be like, I
58:12
don't know. And he's like, yeah, no
58:15
one cares. Like you are the
58:17
only one that cares. Like as much
58:19
as you think you might have expectations,
58:22
it doesn't factor into anyone else's life.
58:24
Really. So you got to figure out why you're
58:26
doing it for you and do it because you
58:28
enjoy it. Um, cause no one else
58:30
is, no one else is thinking about it.
58:33
That's great. Yeah. That's
58:35
great. Yeah. Great example. Um, well,
58:37
cool. Nate, I know that you're low on
58:39
time. Hey, uh, Haley, we're also taking up
58:42
the allotted time that we had with you.
58:44
Um, uh, we have one more
58:46
question that we'll just get to the next time we have
58:48
you on Haley, if you're willing to do that, it'd be
58:50
awesome. If you enjoyed having Haley on this podcast, let us
58:52
know. There are YouTube comments down below. You can tell us
58:55
on Spotify as well. If you're listening there, uh, you
58:58
can go follow Haley. Haley Hunter Smith, uh,
59:00
it's middle name, not last name, as we
59:02
discussed before we started recording, uh,
59:04
you can go follow Haley and I would
59:06
encourage you to do that. Haley. Um, I
59:08
appreciate how open you are on sharing your
59:10
journey through sport and all the things you
59:12
learned to that intersection of your studies in
59:14
sport. It's super great. Thanks for doing it.
59:16
I appreciate it. Yeah. Thanks
59:18
for having me on. Sorry. I was a little long
59:20
winded on the answer, but I appreciate it. If
59:24
we cover one question, that's great. That's all
59:26
that matters because it's quality here. Yeah. No,
59:28
not at all. No, it's informative. Yeah. Great.
59:31
Yeah, absolutely. All right, everybody. We'll talk to
59:33
you next week. Thanks a bunch, Haley. Take
59:35
care. Bye bye.
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