0:00

Hi. Friends this week. The title

0:02

is exactly what we're talking about

0:04

when feeling numb. Starts. To

0:06

hurt and when the numbness starts to become

0:08

painful. This is something I'm going through right

0:11

now. Saw last week I talked about nothing

0:13

in life resonating. Now want to talk about

0:15

the numbness and I'm going to talk about

0:17

something that I've realized over the past week

0:19

has ah no I'm on. Like a little

0:21

like Leo Tor I flew to New York

0:23

I'd booked a one way it on just

0:25

like bouncer are different hotels and just figure

0:27

in life out figure myself out. Recently I

0:29

kind of realized what causes the numbness to

0:31

turn to pain. And when I

0:34

say the numbness of life what

0:36

I mean is all spark an

0:38

enjoyment. Kind. Of go

0:41

away nothing feels. Good.

0:43

Nothing exciting, it's just a very. Numb.

0:46

Like. There is no anything and we

0:48

all know that like a typical reaction

0:50

that your body and your brain have

0:52

when you're under too much stress of

0:54

you feel too many things that are

0:56

overwhelming to like everything going on in

0:58

you. Your body will now. When. There's

1:01

too much going on and while you're

1:03

going to certain things, it does help

1:05

A feels better sometimes to feel nothing

1:08

in the extreme pain that your and

1:10

but living with that numbness when it

1:12

hasn't kicked off is a bitch because

1:15

the way I feel sometimes is like

1:17

the numbness is here. So any happy

1:19

positive emotion is like up. You.

1:22

Can't feel it. And also with the

1:24

numbness, it saves you from going down

1:26

like there's no bad feelings. It's just

1:28

numb. It takes the excitement out. a

1:31

life. It takes the joy out a

1:33

life you don't want to do anything

1:35

you don't care about. Nothing things are

1:37

used to. Love ya love anymore. They

1:40

don't bring you enjoyment, you don't give

1:42

a flying fuck about anything, and. Like.

1:45

I said that can save you

1:47

at certain times but what I've

1:49

been going through his the numbness

1:52

and feeling numb has started to

1:54

hurt. So where I talk about

1:56

the baseline of numbness it's like

1:59

I don't. The only positive emotions

2:01

but it kind of like the

2:03

floor fell out and I can

2:05

access the bad. I can access

2:07

the pain, but I cannot experience

2:09

anything above the number. so it's

2:11

numb or pain and that. Is

2:14

a bitch because there's no like

2:16

a rebound. There's no happy moment.

2:18

There's no like up. It's just

2:20

up enough to be numb and

2:23

neutral. Or down there, no Up.

2:25

And living with that and navigating

2:28

that has been very very hard

2:30

and very very difficult. And it's

2:32

one of the hardest things I've

2:34

like kind of faced because you

2:36

have to live your life when

2:38

things are numb. see early Based

2:40

off of willpower, there is no

2:42

more excitement, drive, motivation. it's are

2:44

you just have to great through

2:46

shit or you stop moving like

2:48

there's no helping hand. It seems

2:50

like it seems that you just

2:52

have to exhaust yourself and like

2:54

any little ounce. Of energy

2:56

you have is spent on just surviving

2:58

and getting through Sir and getting what

3:00

you need to be done done like

3:02

whether it's work or just taking care

3:05

of yourself feel like such a task

3:07

and a lot of people experience this

3:09

and I find the want to open

3:11

up and talk about it because I

3:13

deal with it too. I'm currently dealing

3:15

with it and have been dealing with

3:17

it for a few months now, but

3:19

something I learned literally last night is

3:21

it's not the numbness. That.

3:24

Hurts know, can't hurt Nom.

3:26

know. It's not the numbness

3:28

that hurts, it's the loneliness

3:30

that comes from the numbness

3:32

that hurts. And as a

3:34

big cycle I was trapped

3:36

in and I'm literally twenty

3:38

four hours into breaking it

3:40

and like moving forward. But

3:43

the cycle that I noticed

3:45

with. The. numbness turning

3:47

to isolation and that being what

3:49

hurts is when you're fucking numb

3:52

any one asking for things or

3:54

asking for anything from you is

3:56

a burden and it sucks to

3:59

admit that But everything

4:01

and everyone in your life becomes

4:04

a fucking burden. Anyone needing anything

4:06

from you is the

4:08

most draining and like gut-wrenching

4:10

thing. Like I had days

4:12

where I was like, can please

4:15

nobody ask me for shit.

4:17

Like I need everyone to

4:19

just not need me. I don't have

4:21

even enough energy or effort to take

4:23

care of myself and make sure I'm

4:25

okay. Much less take care

4:27

of everybody else. And I felt like

4:30

everyone around me was like chipping away at

4:32

me without realizing it. But the way it

4:34

felt for me, it was like every

4:37

single person who needed anything, whether it was like

4:39

a text back or like a phone call, was

4:41

like chipping away at me. Like I said earlier,

4:44

it's like just to do your basic things to

4:46

take care of yourself and do what needs to

4:48

be done for you in your life like work

4:50

or whatever, just surviving. You have

4:53

limited capacity and energy to put toward

4:55

yourself. And it's so fucking draining and

4:57

exhausting as it is. But then other

5:00

people needing absolutely anything, needing any of

5:02

your focus or attention or like needing

5:04

a favor or needing something. It's like

5:06

it just chips away at you and

5:08

you feel like pieces of you are

5:10

just getting like ripped off. And the

5:12

best words I've found in a song

5:14

recently, it's Golden Age by Ethel Kane.

5:16

She literally talks about, I'm getting the

5:18

chills, she talks about in the song.

5:20

She's like, I feel like

5:22

I'm holding out like a dog. They've just

5:25

yet to put down. That's

5:27

exactly how I've been feeling for a while

5:29

now, like a little too fucking long. And

5:31

there was also a couple other lyrics like,

5:35

I'm so beautiful and it's wasted on

5:37

me because you feel defective, you feel

5:39

like because you have everything that

5:41

you have and your life might be going good

5:43

or going great or you have more than others.

5:45

Like it's just wasted on you because of how

5:47

you feel. And I very much resonated with that.

5:50

And the whole, I got everything I ever wanted,

5:52

but it was never enough. That's

5:54

my song right now. So

5:56

the other thing that pushed me in this spiral Of

5:59

the isolation. It's an aspect with the

6:01

numbness is I felt like every single

6:03

thing and every single person was such

6:06

a goddamn burden and I knew how

6:08

I felt when people ask me for

6:10

things So the last mother fucking thing

6:13

I was gonna do is burden them

6:15

with the what I'm feeling and going

6:17

through or asking for anything like I

6:20

feel the weight of what I experience

6:22

and feel and go through and sometimes

6:24

it feels like too much for me

6:27

to even handle so. You.

6:29

Get kind of trapped in this mindset that you

6:31

think that everybody feels the same way that you

6:33

do or they're going through the same thing that

6:35

you are and your brain will kind of convince

6:37

you. everyone has drained as you and everyone's going

6:40

to see you as a burden if you ask

6:42

for anything so you feel the weight of which

6:44

are going through. You don't want to put that

6:46

on anybody else because you feel the resentment you

6:49

have when people ask from you. you don't even

6:51

have enough to give to you and then people.

6:54

Would. Just want and you feel like you're

6:56

deteriorating in front of everyone's eyes and no

6:58

one can see it and asks, don't stop

7:01

And that's when I talked about just wishing

7:03

everybody would leave you the fuck alone. You

7:05

don't want to put nothing on them and

7:07

damn certain want them to put nothing on

7:09

you. So the immediate thing to do is

7:11

just or it. I'm going to isolate and

7:14

deal with my shit and this will suck

7:16

up your relationship to letting love and and

7:18

this is what I realized recently and it's

7:20

like part of his whole cycle. This numbness

7:22

feeling will literally fuck up. You're feeling loved.

7:25

And letting love and because of a sense

7:27

of obligation that comes when you let someone

7:29

love you or care about you, When you

7:31

feel like you have nothing left and you

7:34

to give and you feel like. Pieces.

7:36

of you were just being taken nonstop and

7:38

you can barely keep your head above water

7:40

for you to let anyone do something for

7:42

you or care about you or show you

7:44

love there's the subconscious obligation a lot of

7:46

people have and it's a some than i

7:49

realized i feel obligated to take care of

7:51

you when i care about you or when

7:53

you care about me so what do you

7:55

do in this situation where you got nothing

7:57

left to give and you feel nothing but

7:59

obligated And it's not like a

8:01

bitter obligation. It's like you just want to

8:04

care about people that care about you. You want

8:07

to love them, but you just have

8:09

nothing left in you to be able to

8:12

care. Like the numbness, you wish you could

8:14

care. You want to care. You see why

8:16

you could care, but you just don't have

8:18

anything left. There is no care. And

8:23

that's when you stop letting love in, because

8:25

you feel guilty for letting it in because

8:27

you have nothing to give. And

8:30

this is when the numbness turns to

8:32

pain. I can literally look back and

8:34

see when this all started

8:36

taking place without me even realizing. Like I

8:38

was just subconsciously going through all this shit.

8:40

And this is how I was adapting to

8:43

it and like maneuvering it. But the loneliness

8:45

and feeling like you have nothing to give and

8:47

also not letting love in or letting anything in

8:51

is what's painful. It's the loneliness that's painful. It's

8:53

not the numbness. So when I talk about you

8:55

feel numb so long that it starts to hurt

8:57

that you're numb, it's because of

9:00

what you do when you feel numb and

9:02

how it makes you feel like you have nothing

9:04

to give. And you don't feel comfortable taking anything

9:07

you can get. That's a bitch. It's

9:09

a real bitch. And I'm so happy

9:11

I realized this because this is one of the

9:13

things that was like making

9:15

me revisit feelings

9:17

of not waking up

9:20

and being relieved. But

9:22

this cycle does get worse because

9:25

when you feel stuck in a weak

9:27

version of yourself, you

9:30

then start to question, why

9:32

would people even care about this version of me? Why

9:35

would anyone even care? Why

9:37

would anyone even love me? Why would anyone

9:40

give a fuck? Like it's

9:42

not that you have to give things to

9:44

people and everything's an obligation and like transaction.

9:47

But this is just something that will start happening

9:49

in your head. You'll start to question because

9:52

you only are seeing the weak part

9:54

of you that is just drained and

9:56

so easily like thrown off

9:59

and can barely. like do

10:01

shit. It's like when you've been a strong

10:03

person and you've like seen that strong side

10:05

of you, you see why that version is

10:07

lovable. You see why that side of you

10:09

is like worthy of everything and a contribution

10:12

to people. Then when you meet this weak

10:14

side of you, you're going

10:16

to start to question because you haven't sat with

10:18

this side. You haven't learned this side of you.

10:20

You haven't learned the side of you with the

10:22

numbness and the one that can't get the fuck

10:24

up and do shit and just wants to push

10:26

everything and everyone away and just has no enjoyment

10:28

and no love and no anything for life. Like

10:30

this part of you, you haven't met and

10:33

this part of you, you're going to wonder and you're

10:35

going to see all the limiting beliefs you have around

10:38

your relationship to love and what it is

10:40

and feeling cared about and

10:42

caring about people. But when you're feeling

10:44

weak and you start questioning your

10:47

worth and who

10:49

you are, it just further plummets it.

10:51

It just makes everything worse. But hiding

10:53

this weak side of yourself or the

10:55

side of yourself you feel is weak

10:58

and the side that you haven't spent time getting

11:00

to know yet is going to feel safe. So

11:02

that's going to encourage you to push people away

11:05

again. You're questioning why you deserve love, why you're

11:07

lovable, isolating makes

11:09

you not have to question it, makes you not have to

11:11

worry about it and you feel justified in it because you're

11:14

like, for me not to keep up with these relationships and

11:16

these connections in my life, why the fuck

11:18

would I? Like I'm damaging

11:20

to other people. I'm hurtful to other people

11:22

by being how I am and feeling how

11:24

I feel because you know how much of

11:26

a burden it feels when other people come

11:28

to you when you don't have the bandwidth

11:30

to hold space for them or to be

11:33

there for them or care about them and be

11:35

how you usually would be. But this is where

11:37

I hit a point of like, what the fuck

11:39

do I do? One, how do

11:41

I continue forward with fucking anything?

11:43

And two, what the fuck do

11:45

I do with this? Because isolating

11:47

no longer feels good. Cause

11:49

like I said, that's the source of the pain. And when

11:52

I hit this point of saying, what the fuck do I

11:54

do? I realized I've

11:56

been resisting everything going on

11:58

living with this feeling of.

12:01

numbness and just trying to live my

12:03

life as normal. That's not realistic. And all

12:05

that did was make things worse. So this

12:07

is the process that I'm about to put

12:09

myself through. And it's

12:11

going to be another period of letting

12:13

go of a version of myself because

12:16

I have to accept the numbness is there.

12:18

It's not going anywhere. I've tried to numb

12:20

out the numbness. I've tried to get rid

12:22

of it. Ain't no get rid of and

12:24

resisting it is not going to work. It's

12:26

not doable. So the

12:28

first thing I have to do is sit down and face. This

12:31

is my new life. This is

12:34

something I now I'm going to have to deal with.

12:37

It's like if somebody gets in an accident and their

12:39

arm gets cut off, you're going to

12:41

have to change the entire way you've been living.

12:43

And if you just keep trying to live like

12:45

normal, how you did before, it's not

12:47

going to work. You have to adapt and

12:50

change your life to how you change. And

12:52

the first thing I have to do, and

12:54

I'm talking about this because I realized this process and

12:57

I sat down and like listed it all out except

12:59

for I'm going to take a couple hours ago. So

13:01

I'm going to talk about the process I'm going to

13:03

do. And then I'll catch you up next week about

13:05

how it goes. I have to turn toward the

13:08

numbness because this is visiting

13:10

me and I'm experiencing

13:12

it for a reason. So

13:14

the way I'm going to turn toward the

13:16

numbness is stop trying to run from it.

13:19

Stop trying to bullshit it. Stop just trying

13:21

to force through life and look at the

13:23

numbness and try to understand what

13:25

does it need from me? But the other things

13:27

I'm going to go into is with

13:29

this numbness, it's kind of like part of myself.

13:31

I'm looking at it like it's

13:33

a visitor of like a numb state. And I

13:35

also take on the perspective of it's a part

13:37

of me that I now

13:40

have to address, see is

13:42

real, understand, give attention

13:44

to and then go forward with

13:46

that part. Like it's about to change the

13:48

way I live and maneuver life. But the

13:50

next step is figuring out how

13:52

does my life need to look for me

13:54

to continue forward in any way. Like for

13:57

me to continue forward, what is life need

13:59

to look like? How does things need to change what

14:01

I need to set up what I need to do different and

14:03

with that is looking at What do I

14:05

want to do with a little bit of energy that I

14:08

have with the amount that I know I can do What

14:11

am I gonna do with that energy with that time

14:13

with that focus? What am I gonna start doing with

14:15

it? I have to look at it like it's more like

14:18

a valuable thing because

14:20

there's less of it and like I have to

14:22

be a lot more strategic of what is worth

14:25

my Focus and time and

14:27

energy because bitch it ain't a lot and

14:29

something already coming up is that I need to

14:31

be a fucking asshole And I just start being

14:33

really mean not really

14:36

mean but I need to start being

14:38

mean and Being

14:40

a lot more considerate of myself even

14:42

at the expense of others like there

14:45

is no more Pieces of me

14:47

that can get pulled off There is no more

14:49

room for consideration of others at the expense of

14:51

myself So that's one thing that just popped in

14:53

my head and the other thing is meeting

14:55

this version of me Like the

14:57

version of me that I've known

14:59

and been for so long it's like I'm meeting

15:02

the next version of me, but it's like a

15:05

Version of me with multiple parts and a

15:07

part I didn't See

15:10

or know before so I got

15:12

to spend time getting to know this part of me Seeing

15:15

how he's okay seeing what he likes seeing

15:17

what he doesn't like seeing what he needs

15:19

seeing what he needs from me I got

15:22

a look at how does this version of

15:24

me? Need relationships

15:26

to be with people. How

15:28

does this version of me need to be

15:30

loved? How does this version of me love

15:33

others? how does this version of

15:35

me have a relationship to People

15:37

just being in my life and what does

15:39

he need from them to be there and

15:42

the biggest thing is figuring out what

15:45

boundaries this new me has I

15:48

Already know I'm gonna become a motherfucker. I already

15:50

know It's time for me to just

15:52

be mean I can feel it. I'm just like I'm

15:55

excited I'm afraid I'm feeling a

15:57

little boost right now, but this is the process. I'm

15:59

about to go through with discovering myself,

16:02

meeting this new part of me, meeting

16:04

this new version of me, and

16:06

then kind of reconstructing who I

16:08

am, how I think, the way I live, and

16:10

what the fuck I do, and what

16:13

I lend my energy to. And then the

16:15

next part of that, because I said isolation,

16:17

is the cause of the pain with the

16:19

numbness, is I have to

16:21

let this next version of me start to

16:24

meet people. I need this other side of

16:26

me to meet the

16:28

people in my life and see

16:30

what the fuck happens. He needs to be cared about, he

16:32

needs to be loved, but I am gonna address this all

16:35

with myself first. I have to understand him first, how

16:37

my life needs to go. And I feel

16:39

like this is a gift, weirdly, that the numbness

16:42

is visiting because it's making me

16:44

very aware of what I want

16:46

life to look like and feel like and how

16:48

I need to be living with this new thing

16:51

I have about me. But that is

16:53

the process I'm gonna put myself through

16:56

and spend the next few days diving

16:58

into, learning, and exploring. It's like meeting

17:00

this whole new version of me, also

17:02

limiting beliefs and the guilt and the

17:05

shame and the judgments

17:07

I have over being

17:09

a certain way or being weak or feeling

17:11

weak. Like I'm gonna have to address a

17:13

lot of shit. So that'll be

17:15

fine. Now we're gonna take a second

17:17

to talk about the sponsors of today's podcast. The

17:20

first one is ShipStation. So if you have a

17:22

business or you do anything with shipping, they're

17:25

gonna make things a lot easier. So with orders

17:27

you get, ShipStation has a dashboard where you can

17:29

manage all your orders at once. They have automations

17:31

that allow you to print shipping labels at the

17:33

click of a button and it's able to be

17:35

integrated no matter where you sell. So if you

17:37

sell on Amazon, Walmart, Shopify, there's a bunch of

17:39

other places they can integrate with too. Those are

17:41

some of the main ones. But shipping a lot

17:43

of times is like the make or break of

17:46

a sale because I've been online plenty of times

17:48

and I'm like shopping for something and if shipping

17:50

takes too long or if it's too expensive, I'm

17:52

just over it and I'll just leave things in

17:54

the cart. Bye. But ShipStation

17:56

has industry leading discounted rates from

17:58

USPS, UPS, DHL and Global

18:00

Post with discounts of up to 89% off

18:03

USPS and UPS rates. So

18:06

if you need to buy one label or

18:08

a thousand labels a day, they'll help you

18:10

get the best rate but they can also

18:12

help you manage however many orders you need.

18:14

So as your business grows or things get

18:16

better, make a lot more sales, it's easy

18:18

to stay in one spot and the dashboard

18:20

is really straightforward, easy to use and can

18:22

handle the grill of whatever you

18:24

get to, which is a perk. So

18:27

if you're interested, you can use promo

18:29

code AWARE at shipstation.com and sign up

18:31

for a free 60-day free trial. That's

18:33

shipstation.com, promo code AWARE. And our

18:36

next sponsor is Lume. And Lume is

18:38

a game-changing whole body deodorant designed by an OBGYN

18:40

that you can put all over your body. So

18:42

your feet, your private parts, wherever you want to

18:44

put deodorant, wherever you want to smell better, you

18:46

can use it. When you use their full body

18:49

deodorant on anywhere you get odor, Lume is clinically

18:51

proven to block odor all day long because it

18:53

has a one-of-a-kind pH optimized formula

18:55

and they have over 275,000 five-star reviews. It's

19:00

also baking soda free and paraben free and

19:02

pH balanced. I already talked about that so

19:04

you can use it down there. And we

19:06

got a little special offer. So new customers

19:08

get $5 off Lume's starter pack with code

19:11

AWARE at lumedeodorant.com. And

19:16

their starter pack comes with a solid stick

19:18

deodorant, a cream tube deodorant, and two free

19:20

products of your choice like a mini body

19:23

wash and deodorant wipes and free

19:25

shipping. So if you're interested in trying it

19:27

out, go to lume.com and use promo code

19:29

AWARE. Now, back to the podcast.

19:32

But one of the biggest things I learned about the

19:34

numbness that is helping me live with it now and

19:36

kind of use it as a tool is I was

19:38

talking to my friend Teffy. If

19:40

you don't know Teffy, I fucking love her. Look

19:42

her up on Instagram and TikTok. It's just HelloTeffy.

19:44

I'm pretty sure. Look her up and Teffy, you'll

19:46

find her. T-E-F-F-Y. I asked

19:49

her because she's someone that I look to for

19:51

guidance a lot because she speaks in

19:53

a way that makes me like, like

19:56

she gags me sometimes with her perspective. She's very

19:58

fucking smart. And I looked. her a

20:00

lot for guidance because she's a couple years older than me

20:03

and she feels a lot of

20:05

the things that I feel and she's talked

20:07

about them. But I literally text her, like

20:09

I finally just cracked and was like,

20:12

Leo, reach out to people. And I reached

20:14

out to her and I asked her about the

20:16

numbness because I'm like, I know she fucking feels

20:18

it too. Like no way. She's

20:21

not feeling the same shit I'm feeling, especially with the

20:23

social media crap because they're both on social media. Like

20:25

it just expedites the process of the numbness sitting

20:28

in. But I asked her, I was like, does

20:30

the numbness ever go away? And

20:32

if not, how the fuck do you deal

20:34

with it? That's all my text said. And

20:36

she knew exactly what I meant. And what

20:38

she said was the

20:41

numbness doesn't go away, but you start to

20:43

learn to use it as a compass and

20:46

you let it guide you to people who

20:49

make you not feel numb. That

20:51

really struck a fucking chord, like using the

20:53

numbness as a guide. And since she told

20:55

me that it's made me feel a lot

20:57

better and we talked way deeper about everything

20:59

going on, but with using the numbness as

21:02

a compass, things that don't

21:04

feel numb are very obvious when

21:06

everything is numb. There

21:08

are things that still don't make you numb. There

21:10

are still things that bring you excitement. And

21:13

if you haven't found them, it's

21:16

not it. It trusts me.

21:18

I was banging my head against the wall for a

21:20

while, but letting the numbness

21:23

guide you to people who make

21:25

you not feel numb is the

21:27

best fucking advice I've ever gotten in my life.

21:30

But I've also flipped it and looked at it like anything

21:32

else in life that makes me feel less numb

21:34

is what I'm meant to be doing and where

21:37

I need to be spending my time and the

21:39

energy that I feel like I have. Your sense

21:41

of direction in life gets

21:43

very easy to find. Anything

21:45

that brings you any slight little like

21:48

boost, lift up anything, any

21:50

kind of stimulation is

21:52

like where I've been going and I've been

21:55

lining up with more and more shit that

21:58

makes me feel less numb and makes

22:00

me feel like I'm cracking past that

22:02

threshold of like feeling nothing. Like I'm

22:04

finding little excitements again. I'm finding things

22:06

that are like bringing a little life

22:08

back to me. I just love that

22:10

perspective of letting the numbness be a

22:12

compass. Letting it guide you. Because I did talk about

22:14

in my last podcast episode, this version of my life

22:16

is just going to be one of shit I feel

22:18

guided to. And the numbness

22:20

is like a very good guide. It's

22:23

just a bitch when more things make you feel

22:25

numb than not. Like

22:27

I said, my podcast now until I fucking

22:29

feel like it is just going to be me

22:31

talking about this journey. So if you like this

22:34

and you like how this is going and you

22:36

like this episode, leave this video a thumbs up

22:38

and definitely leave me a comment on YouTube. If

22:40

you're listening to the audio version of this on

22:42

Apple podcast and Spotify, leave me a five stars

22:44

rating. Duh. But also please go to the YouTube

22:46

version and leave a comment because there's like over

22:49

a thousand something comments on my last

22:51

episode. And I love

22:53

that everybody is like getting to connect

22:56

in the comments because me

22:58

talking about what I'm feeling and going through

23:00

made all of you feel less alone. And

23:02

then you started finding each other and it's

23:04

like so calming and reassuring

23:06

and comforting for me to be able to go through

23:08

and read the comments. So I'm asking you to be

23:10

there for me right now. Leave me a comment what

23:12

you think. I'm also having

23:15

to learn how to be a needy fuck. I'm

23:17

needy as hell. And I'm no longer

23:19

hiding that. I'm a goddamn Pisces. What do

23:21

you expect? I'm fucking needy. If

23:24

you want to keep up with me on a more day

23:26

to day basis, I've been posting a lot on Snapchat. I

23:28

love Snapchat. They pay me good. So I'd be posting there

23:30

like every single day. I post like 20

23:32

to 40 times a day on there. So go add me.

23:34

It's Leo's Kepi and I'll also leave my other social media

23:36

in the description, Instagram, TikTok, all that shit. That's all I

23:38

got for this episode. So everybody be safe. Take

23:41

care of yourself. I fucking love you

23:43

guys and I'll talk to you guys next Sunday.