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From the creators of the hit satire Mega
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Hello and welcome to the blank podcast the
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podcast where we talk to well-known guests
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about their their lives, their careers, and navigating
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those difficult moments on the way. I'm Jars
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Pelle-Phillips, and with me on this
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bank holiday Monday, is when we're recording,
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Jim Daley. We've really set
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ourselves now. We've dated
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the pods within the first 20 seconds. If
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this pod doesn't go out immediately, people feel like,
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what is up with these guys? This
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one might be later in the week. This is an Easter-y,
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Easter-y, relaxed Easter-y episode.
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So just whenever. Yeah. We're
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just cool and breezy. Easter's a bit like, it's
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not quite as extreme as the Christmas time,
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you know, when you don't, literally don't know
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what day of the week it is. Yeah. But
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Easter's a bit like that. Well,
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we've still got a four-day weekend. Yeah. Which
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we're now coming towards the end of. So that basically feels like a week
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off for people. And I know a lot of people,
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a lot of my friends that do full-time work, and obviously I don't,
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are quite
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strategic with their days off. So a lot of people will take
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another day off this week. Or maybe a few, two
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or three days off. Or maybe end
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of last week. And then it feels like you've got a decent old chunk
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off. So people might be in that
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kind of, yeah, that post-Christmas
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new year window where you don't know
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what's going on. So we're just gonna, you know, we're
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just gonna be cool and breezy with this episode and it'll go
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out when it goes out. Yeah, absolutely. Well,
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bank holidays are a bit weird, aren't they? I think anyway.
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They feel like not
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quite as bad as Christmas day, but it's that bit where like
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no one seems to be around and
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shops are kind of... You say that by
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being the dad of a toddler. Bank
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holiday means that this week there's no nursery
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available. So I'm having
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to see who's around. We are booking in Playdates
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galore this week. Last
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week I was in sole custody of
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the youngest. And now we've got
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both kids and we've got to try and find time
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to fill them. So if anyone's out there, fancy the Playdate,
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get in contact. We'll go
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to the park. But I do,
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the thing that always gets me back on holidays and this
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is like pre-wardings.
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This is very stupid. It can maybe sound very stupid.
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But I always have a moment, nearly
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every time, where I think, I've
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got to pop to the bank, or I've got to pop to
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the post office. And then I remember,
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they're all closed, because it's literally
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called bank holiday. But for some reason, it
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always pops around around those times, but I
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think, I don't know, maybe it's being freelancer that you just
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don't know. The concept
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of days off don't exist, but I really need
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to go to the post office literally this weekend and I've
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timed it terribly. That is bad timing. Have you got something
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desperate to go out?
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Mm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
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Nevermind. That's the sort of little mini-tragedy there.
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It'll go tomorrow. It'll go tomorrow. It'll
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be fine. Again, like this episode,
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it's not life and death. Exactly. It just happens when
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it happens. That person will get this item,
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you know, when they can. When they get it. Yeah. Yeah,
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exactly. And if they start moaning, you just say, what was bank holiday?
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You shouldn't have bought it. Bank holiday. Yeah. It's
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your home for relying on me to
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try and get something posted inside. You bought it knowing
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that it was gonna be delivered over the bank holiday. You
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bought it from me. Yeah. Which of course
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knowing that it's gonna be delayed massively.
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I'm massively assuming this is probably a vintage
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negotiation. No
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comment because other
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selling websites are available and they've not sponsored
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this episode. It does seem to be a big thing at the moment
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though. That one
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more than the other one that people have traditionally
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used. Which is also
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very good. Yeah. Should I say the name? I
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should do it. No, we shouldn't say anything. No. I'm
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actually, while I'm here recording in the cabin, I'm gonna go look through
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my
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boxes,
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multiple boxes of football shirts because I've decided
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to try and sell a few because
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I've grown out of, I put one on the other day and I've like
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two sizes too small for me. So they're
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gonna start going out on. So if people like
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football shirts, follow me on social media
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and I'll start sending links. Yeah. I
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need to make a bit of money as well. So, you know, the old.
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double whammy of being too fat and too poor. I've
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been selling, I had to sell a guitar the other day. Yeah,
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because I needed to replace some equipment.
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So, you know, it's a one in, one out kind of
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negotiation. Yeah, exactly, like a nightclub. Yeah.
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Yeah. I'm going to be like that now with football shirts,
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I think, because I did
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find another really lovely vintage palace
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shirt on one of the websites every day. But
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now my theory is one in, one out. And I'm
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going to try and limit myself to my football shirts to
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a certain number. Oh, OK. You
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can't go over that. Some nightclubs. Yeah. I think
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that would be sensible. I think I'm
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thinking like, I think,
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I'm probably at nearest triple
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figures. I think 50
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would be a sensible amount of football shirts. So
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I'm going to get really quite a few, actually. Bit
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of a spring clear out. So you're over capacity at
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the moment. People are crammed in. Massively like.
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Yeah, it's dangerous isn't it? Yeah, it is. Yeah, yeah. You
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need to start. I've got to think of the safety of my football shirts.
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I've got to let the nice ones breathe. Because
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again, you know, there's some in there that
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are lovely. And there's some in there that
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are a bit rougher. Yeah. You
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know, you don't want you want you want. Sounds
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so elitist through this stupid analogy.
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I want to let the nicer ones breathe.
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Yeah. Where's this going? I
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don't know. Anyway, follow me for football shirts. Yeah,
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if you want to. Yeah, you want some premium football shirts.
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Try and find Jim on on selling
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websites.
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I'll
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put the links on social media and stuff. So follow me on my
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socials. If you happen to be a
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football shirt collector, which
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I've become unintentionally. Anyway, we should
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probably talk about this week's guest. That thing
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is this is a podcast. You
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got to do not sort of sort
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of talking about selling our wares. What
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an amazing guest. Absolutely thrilled
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to have Marine
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Bagan, who is a broadcaster
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and an
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influencer, I guess, to a certain extent. But
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certainly she has
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spent a lot of her time in working in education.
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And we talk a lot about.
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that and her time working in schools and
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yeah the impact it's had on her life and the
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impact she's had on other people's lives. Yeah
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massively absolutely. I've
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perhaps had sort of an education
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icon I don't know if you know if that's a thing but
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it feels like she is. It is now yeah
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we've created it and yeah clearly
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really passionate about that
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that sector and has
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taken that into her broadcasting work
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and done some fantastic programs and
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is now working on her own YouTube series
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which is called glow up your grades which
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as you say is you know is literally helping
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kids with their GCSEs so
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yeah which is absolutely fantastic and
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as you said really really helping people but also just a lovely
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lovely person like really really easy to talk
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to was loads of fun so yeah
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and again with our recent episodes
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we've been we've been sort of focusing
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I think more sort of niche areas and this is
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but I think the pod really benefits
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from that being able to bury down into one area and
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this is definitely one we haven't gone to before so
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yeah marine what a fantastic guest. Yeah
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really fantastic and
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you can tell her passion straight away when she's
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talking about these things you know you you know when
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you we have guests on who kind of light up when they're
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talking about these things and obviously something
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that you know that
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we can talk about the political side of stuff
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but you know the education system is such
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a big part of you know our cultural
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and societal landscape
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and you know whether whatever
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sort of side of the political fence you
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see it we all want the best for our children
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in you know with regards to their education
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and you know we
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they're all there are lots of different ways of doing things
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and perhaps we might all you know you and I
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might agree that the current state of affairs isn't
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maybe the the ideal one at the
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end of the day you know at
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the end days the kids are important and and
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Marines doing amazing work and has
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continued to do amazing work with helping
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and supporting young people.
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Yeah and at one point she says she
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was a bit of a rant and then apologizes, oh I'm
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sorry for going on a rant but we're both like now it's exactly
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what this pod is about. And
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that passion comes through, it really really does
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and that's exactly what we're trying to create with this
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pod is a safe space for people to talk passionately
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about subjects that they care about and see exactly what happens.
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So really really interesting and
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then talks you know a lot about moving into the
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broadcasting space and talking
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about the highs and the lows of that, the frustrations,
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the winds and so that's
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also so yeah two areas covered here really and
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before we've had education come
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up before in passing with people talking
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about their own experiences of school and
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stuff but this is the first time I've had I think a real expert on
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the subject and I think that's why we're able to give it a bit more
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time to sort of bury down into it so
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yeah an interesting and an informative
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episode. Yeah absolutely absolutely I think we should dive
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in.
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Yeah let's do it this is the fantastic
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Megharine Begg on the Blank Podcast.
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Well Megharine thank you so much
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for being on the podcast.
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Did I say it wrong that time? You made us sound
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a little bit French this time actually. I did didn't
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it I'm so sorry. I really
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went for it. But I
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enjoyed it. Thank
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you for being kind. Thank you
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for coming on the podcast. I kind of wanted to start with your
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journey into education really because
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I'm the husband of a teacher who
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works in a secondary school she's a design
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technology teacher and I obviously
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hear a lot about the pros and cons of being
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in the education system in this country.
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Was that something you always saw yourself going
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into?
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No I
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always thought I was going to be a doctor okay
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because I'm Pakistani and it was
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kind of assigned at birth. And
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for my A levels, I did chemistry, biology,
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math, English, literature. But
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I had a bit of a rebel phase when I was in college. So
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I kind of was bunking
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off school a little bit and
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I didn't revise and work as hard as I should have.
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And I ended up missing my offer and missed my medicine
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offer. So I thought, God, what do I do now? All
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my life, I knew I was going to be a doctor. What on
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earth do I do? So I went through clearing. It
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was a particular low point. And
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I thought, well, there's a there's
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a spot to do English and I really love English.
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So I'll go and do English. And then while
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I was at uni, I to make some extra money
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in my second and third year, I started
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working at a tutoring center on Saturdays. My
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sister's a teacher, my brother's a teacher. So
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it was kind of like I would go and help
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out in school plays or do extra little classes
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with the kids there in their schools. And
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it just yeah, at the end of my third year, the penny dropped and
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I thought, I really like this and I'm really good at this
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and I don't know what else I'll do. So
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let me do a PGCE. I'll be a teacher.
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And I ended up doing that throughout
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my 20s. It was the best decision.
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You know, it's weird, isn't it? Like things go wrong,
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like you fail your A levels and
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you think it's like the worst thing in the world
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at the time.
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But I really do believe that all the dots
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eventually add up. And so had
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I not failed my A levels, I wouldn't have become
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a teacher and becoming a teacher was the best
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thing to ever happen to me.
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I completely agree. And
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actually my journey was really similar
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because I failed my A levels as well. So
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I was going to say, what did you both do in
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your A levels? And what were your grades from
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someone who didn't do A levels?
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Chemistry, biology, maths
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and English. Oh, God, they sound all really
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hard. I caught three
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Bs and a C. That's good. So
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what about you, Jim? Oh, my God. I can't miles away
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from that. I
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didn't know that was like a thing. I
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didn't know either. I did ceramics. I did PE. I
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did communication studies. Literally
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is the other end of the spectrum,
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isn't it? I did general studies, which was complete dos, and
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I did French. And I got an A in communication studies. I
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failed ceramics
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in my first year. I
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failed French. I think I
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got an E in French. I got a C
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in general studies.
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And I failed PE. Because
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I thought PE was just playing football. It turns out it's a lot
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of biology. And I did not do well at that at all. And that
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was the only exam in my entire life where I've got
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into the hall, opened up the paper,
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and thought, oh, I can't
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do that one. Oh, I can't do that one. I can't do that
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one. Oh, shit, that's the whole paper. I
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just sat there for two hours and started
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because I couldn't answer any questions. It was horrifying.
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I thought A levels are difficult, though. It's
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like it's such a huge jump
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from GCSEs. And you're suddenly more independent
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and school's not spoon feeding you. And it's
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yeah, I think a lot of people, it
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is a shock. You kind of think with GCSEs,
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you can almost, if you're bright enough, you can sometimes
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just coast through and you'll answer something
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because in the last 15, 16 years of your
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life, you would have learnt some of that information. But
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it just doesn't work like that with A levels.
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No, you're right. The jump up is huge. Because
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I got an A at GCSE French and was
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like, oh, my God, I'm basically French. And then
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did A level. And the jump up
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was insane. I was like in class with
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literally French people. And I just I really
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struggled. And again, going to a college where they're
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like, hey, you can go to class if you want to, if you don't want to. I was
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like, OK, I don't want to. So I just didn't go
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to any classes and then didn't
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had to retake,
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had to basically in my gap year, had to retake French
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second year. I did media studies in a year, basically
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had to like fill in the gaps for university
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and learn in that year that actually
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I did want to go and do. journalism
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at university, having gone into my levels thinking
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I'm really arty, I'm just ceramic, something like that. And
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so again like you like suddenly found through
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the
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failure essentially, this
16:10
other path opened up and it was communication
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studies at Oxford School where
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I did my AS&A 2
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and my teacher, so I've turned this into the Jim Daly show
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haven't I, my teacher Mrs.
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Ruffell,
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I'll never forget her, she was brilliant also because on
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the bottom of her papers
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it must have had her first,
16:30
her initial G, Ruffell
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and then the A at the end for some reason, so always a Graffella
16:34
which always sounds to me like a sort of Julia Donaldson book,
16:36
I always thought was brilliant.
16:39
The Graffella. But
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yeah she,
16:42
there's always someone somewhere that inspires you, just
16:44
sends you on a different path and I'm
16:46
up doing journalism and now obviously not doing that,
16:48
I'm doing madness really but sorry
16:51
to, sorry to hijack that.
16:53
No I really love that. Your story is so familiar
16:55
to me. Yeah no it sounds, I mean it
16:58
sounds very very similar but also
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I think what you said about the fact
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that one teacher can unlock something, like
17:04
I think often we think we like
17:06
a subject but it's
17:08
not that you like a subject, it's the fact that the teacher
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has the ability to
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turn something into your favourite subject or to turn
17:15
something into your least favourite subject and I
17:17
really do feel like
17:19
people kind of underestimate that
17:22
and the fact that you might hate maths
17:24
in primary school and secondary school becomes your favourite
17:26
subject, why is that? It's not because maths change,
17:28
it's because you had a teacher who
17:31
inspired you, you had a teacher who was
17:33
able to make that subject come to life for
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you.
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Oh it's so true, we, my son's,
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he's just about to do his GCSEs so we were at his
17:41
parents' evening last night and he's decided for A
17:43
levels he wants to do computer science,
17:46
B tech IT and
17:48
then like photography on creative subjects
17:51
and when we were with the computer science
17:53
teacher he was like, the
17:56
B tech do you really need to be
17:58
doing that as well as computer science? probably
18:00
a bit of a crossover and then when we went to his biology
18:02
teacher he got a good grade in his marks. She
18:04
was like, you're doing, you are going to be doing
18:07
biology aren't you? At 8.11 he
18:09
was like, no, no, no, no, biology. She said,
18:12
oh that's such a shame and it just planted
18:14
that little seed and it was clear
18:16
that he had a good rapport with this particular teacher
18:18
and then he was thinking, you could just see the cogs turning
18:20
like thinking, oh maybe I should do biology actually,
18:23
I'm quite good at it and and she's really nice
18:26
and and it was that little thing just like actually
18:28
seeing his mind turning to
18:30
doing something different and I thought that's really great
18:33
you know and obviously she'd sewn that seed as well.
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And that is and I think also as teachers
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you have like, I
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don't think people always realize like the power
18:43
you hold the teacher with like the words you say to children
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because and I say this in my book that you
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you can say one thing and it will build
18:50
a student for life like they will
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remember that one thing that you told them that
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they're good at or that one thing that's nice that's
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good about them and they will carry that and
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that will build them but you can equally say
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one thing and it will break them and crush
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them and make them think they're rubbish and sometimes
19:06
you you're human you say things as like a throwaway
19:08
comment you might just say something as a joke which is something
19:11
that is so minor to you and 20
19:13
years later a student gets in touch and it
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happened to my sister, 20 years later a student
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got in touch and
19:18
was like,
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oh you said this to me when I was in year 8
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and it shaped what I like did
19:23
for the rest of my life and that's pretty
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I mean frightening it's terrifying
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but it's also yeah it's it's
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amazing I still remember my year 11
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parents evening
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I remember so clearly I didn't particularly
19:37
I wasn't particularly close with any of my teachers
19:39
my sister taught me everything I know but
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I remember on
19:45
my last parents evening and
19:48
parents evening for us was like a family
19:50
affair it was mum, dad, brother,
19:52
sister because everyone would come it's like
19:54
we Asians take over a hospital when
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they say only one visitor are allowed everyone
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is there
19:59
pulling extra chairs and we all sat down
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and she said,
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I know I'm gonna see
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Marine's name in shining lights one day. And
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I never forgot it. I never, ever
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forgot it. And she probably has like,
20:13
doesn't remember who I am, but I still
20:15
remember that one moment it stuck with me forever.
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That's amazing. Words are so powerful,
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especially to young minds.
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Like they are like sponges and also
20:26
they're vulnerable and they're feeling,
20:28
we don't remember what it is to be 14, 15, 16. You
20:32
feel so weird about yourself all the time. And
20:35
that's why, you know, kids are really into music
20:37
because music talks to them for certain words. And
20:40
it feels like that song is written only for them. And so
20:42
I think
20:43
you're absolutely right. Like I remember
20:45
primary school. I can't
20:47
remember my teacher's name, but I remember writing a poem about my
20:49
hamster, which I thought was
20:51
like, okay. And my teacher was like,
20:53
this is so good. I'm gonna enter this
20:56
into a competition. Didn't
20:58
do well, but like
20:59
that confidence there, you know, 33 years
21:04
later, I'm still writing. Like
21:06
that obviously planted a seed. And I just think it's a
21:09
real, almost
21:11
like a power. But as you say, it has to be dealt
21:14
with carefully. I guess you
21:16
can really toe either side of the line. And
21:18
even now, like, so I still volunteer
21:21
in schools and tuition centers and the GCSE
21:23
cohort, this year's GCSE cohort
21:26
are the ones who spent two of the most important
21:28
years of their education learning
21:30
online.
21:31
So there I think like GCSE
21:33
is always stressful, but it's particularly difficult
21:36
this year. And
21:39
I sometimes mark kids essays
21:42
and I have, you do kind of, you
21:44
don't always mark accurately, particularly like in English,
21:46
you don't have to subject to the right or wrong, right?
21:49
So you can give a slightly higher
21:51
grade and get away with it. And
21:53
I do try sometimes. And if I
21:55
know someone needs a bit of a, just
21:57
a confidence boost, I'll give them like a grade higher. This
21:59
is amazing.
21:59
I can't believe you've done this. Because
22:02
that will give them the boost they need. And sometimes they go
22:04
back to school and they're like, my teacher checked that essay and
22:06
she said it was rubbish. She said it was a five.
22:09
And I'm like, why would you do that? Why
22:11
would you not just let them believe, not
22:14
all the time, but let them believe that that essay was
22:16
incredible. Because that will, a
22:18
small thing like that makes them believe
22:21
that, wow, I did it once. I can probably do it again.
22:23
And they work harder the next time. You
22:26
have got to be quite manipulative as a teacher. Yeah,
22:29
and emotionally intelligent and all those kinds of things.
22:31
You've got to really, yeah,
22:33
every word you do, every action.
22:36
And that can be really tough if
22:38
you're having a tough day yourself, which obviously sometimes
22:40
you go to work and you've had a rubbish morning or
22:43
you're getting divorced or you know,
22:45
you missed your bus
22:48
in the morning. And when you enter that
22:50
classroom, you've got to
22:52
head to toe,
22:55
be watching every single
22:57
move, every single word that comes out your mouth because
23:00
you are conducting, you are conducting
23:02
a
23:03
class with everything that you
23:05
do. Yeah, Charles, I was gonna use a football
23:07
analogy. Shall I do it? Oh, it's quite early,
23:09
yeah, 12 minutes in, first one. Every
23:11
episode. They're like football managers.
23:14
You got to know which kids need an arm around
23:16
their shoulder, which kids may react to a bit more
23:18
sort of
23:19
discipline. But
23:22
actually the point, I was gonna
23:24
say the football thing, and then you were talking and I realised
23:28
there's a really important part, and actually this is really prescient
23:30
with what's going on at the moment with a lot of the unions
23:33
and strikes, that teachers are people.
23:35
And I think sometimes people forget that and think
23:37
that they are almost like robots who are just there
23:40
to sort of
23:41
dash out information. They're
23:43
not, they are people as well. And they have the
23:45
same emotions that the kids have, that the parents have. And
23:48
I think at the moment it feels a little bit
23:51
like, I was gonna say
23:53
people, politicians, that maybe people
23:55
influenced by politicians. I've kind of forgotten
23:57
that in the way they talk about teachers at the moment.
24:00
Yeah, 100%. And I think... I
24:05
feel like what I'm about to say,
24:07
some people might
24:08
not like it, but I'm going to say it because I
24:11
do believe it. And
24:15
I've been a teacher for my entire adult life,
24:18
so I
24:19
know what that job entails. And I feel
24:21
like a lot of the time they are just seen as
24:23
free babysitters. It's because
24:25
they're free in this country, as in you can send
24:27
your child, the majority of us tend to send
24:29
our children to school for free. So it's
24:31
not something that is valued.
24:34
And I
24:35
remember... So my brother, who
24:37
is also a teacher, he's technically
24:40
disabled and he has
24:42
no immune system. And
24:44
I remember during... In the midst of COVID-19,
24:47
in the middle of the pandemic, it
24:49
was during the lockdown and there were all these talks
24:51
where
24:52
people didn't want to look after their children anymore. Because
24:55
they had their child at home and they actually had to
24:57
attempt to teach their child
24:59
even online learning and do their homework
25:02
with them and have them. They hated it
25:04
and they were like, send them back to school, open up
25:06
the schools. And there was all this talk of
25:08
maybe teachers should swab...
25:10
be the ones to swab students'
25:13
throats as they're coming into school in the morning.
25:15
And it's
25:17
like watching Wilfred Owen going back into
25:19
a trenches and you know what's going to happen. In
25:21
my house, it was such a terrifying
25:24
time because it
25:25
was like if my brother has to go back to school
25:28
and be swabbing possibly infected throats and
25:30
be locked in a classroom with 32 children and
25:33
that's
25:34
going to be really, really dangerous. But
25:36
no one cares at that point because it's like just give them to teachers.
25:38
That's their job. They don't do anything anyway. They get holidays.
25:40
So you don't want to look after your one child to
25:43
just chuck 32 of them and give them to a teacher.
25:46
And they are human beings. Teachers are human
25:48
beings. They have their own families. They have their
25:50
own worries and fears and hopes and dreams
25:52
and they have bad days and good days and they're
25:55
also going through the pandemic. But everyone
25:57
forgot that because everyone free-mixed that Christmas
25:59
and then thought...
25:59
oh don't fancy having my child at home anymore,
26:02
send them to school. And the way teachers
26:04
are treated in this country is absolutely
26:06
appalling. It's absolutely appalling.
26:09
In my, in this, I get really emotional, I'm
26:11
so sorry. No you
26:12
don't. I agree
26:14
with everything. When in my
26:16
old school, this sort of pre-pandemic, so imagine
26:18
how much worse it is now. So we used
26:21
to have a sort of almost
26:23
a police station on site, we used to have our own
26:25
two police officers just to make sure that like
26:28
everything was okay with our students.
26:30
And then the budget cuts were happening because my 10 years in
26:33
teaching correlated with a decade of austerity in Britain.
26:35
So then we didn't have our own police officers anymore
26:38
and we had to share them with like three other schools
26:40
so we'd have a police officer twice
26:43
a week. So then it became
26:45
the duty of regular teachers to
26:47
patrol the high road and the bus stops
26:50
after school just
26:52
in case a fight broke out or just in case
26:55
there was any sort of incident. When you become
26:57
a teacher, when I qualified, I thought
26:59
I'm going to be teaching English. I thought
27:01
I'm going to be teaching
27:04
students, helping them pass their exams and make them love
27:06
literature, hopefully a bit of Shakespeare.
27:08
I never signed up to be
27:10
putting my own life at risk and
27:13
be seeing if there's any potential knife crime
27:15
going on on the high road and taking
27:17
that responsibility. Teachers are
27:19
not just, I mean we always
27:21
talk about workload and I can talk about that all
27:24
day long. It's like the most amount of overtime
27:26
you will ever imagine and it's not accounted
27:28
for, it's not paid for.
27:30
But on top of that you hold so many
27:33
different roles and responsibilities
27:35
and people are clueless. Absolutely
27:37
everyone has an opinion on teachers in schools
27:40
and everyone wants to talk about teaching strikes
27:42
and they have no idea the emotional
27:45
toll and the physical and
27:48
it's one of the hardest
27:50
jobs in the world and that's why
27:52
so many of me that's why there's a problem with teacher retention, that's
27:54
why everyone leaves and goes to different countries or leaves a profession
27:56
altogether. But people don't realize that's
27:59
my teacher brand for you.
27:59
No, no, it speaks to
28:02
me. It really speaks to me because obviously my
28:04
wife's a teacher and I know we can
28:06
obviously share notes on lots of things there. I mean, like
28:08
the other day she came home and she goes, I didn't,
28:11
you know, when I became a teacher, I didn't think I was
28:13
going to become a social worker and a security
28:15
guard and all those other things like you say, that
28:18
entails being a modern day teacher
28:20
in this country. Plus, like you say, the
28:22
workload is unbelievable.
28:24
I mean, you know, she works four
28:26
days a week, most
28:29
she's doing 60 plus hours. Where
28:32
did my 20s go? Where did my 20s
28:34
go? Every single, everywhere
28:37
I went, if my friends were getting married, if we
28:39
had family come over, I would carry
28:41
my box of market. I kid you not my
28:44
box of marking with me and it wouldn't always get
28:46
done. But you have this eternal guilt
28:48
because you will never catch up. But you're like, I really
28:50
should be marking. You carry that everywhere. And
28:52
you're always waiting for the next half term. So you can catch up
28:54
waiting for the next half term. And before I knew
28:57
it,
28:57
I turned 30 with no kids of my own. I worked
29:00
in a department of kind of 30 women in
29:02
the in our English faculty. We
29:04
had about 30 women and not
29:07
either none of them were married or they were divorced
29:09
or they didn't have children. Because
29:12
when do you do that? When do you have time to
29:14
take
29:14
some time for your own personal
29:17
life? You don't. I had
29:20
something else I was going to share. Oh, yeah, I was gonna say again. And
29:22
I said I talk about this. I talk about
29:24
both these incidents in
29:27
my book and something very similar happened the other
29:29
day. And I cried and I cried and I cried. And my
29:31
sister was like, you should write another book. And
29:33
when
29:34
I was teaching, and this is imagine
29:36
you're just like
29:38
a young woman in a 20s still trying to kind of find
29:40
your own feet in your own like place
29:42
in the world. And I remember
29:44
this one time, cut a long story
29:46
short, but one of my students, we
29:49
got called for an emergency meeting at
29:51
sort of 1015 in the morning.
29:53
And I
29:54
found out one of my students had been who
29:56
was on reports for his punctuality was
29:59
running for the bus.
29:59
in the morning and he got hit by a bus and he
30:02
died. 15 minutes
30:03
later
30:05
I had to go and stand in front of the class
30:09
and teach like nothing had happened.
30:12
A few years after that one of
30:15
my favourite students
30:17
who I knew the family so deeply and
30:19
I worked with,
30:21
I taught his older brother, I taught
30:23
his younger sister, I knew mum so well,
30:26
he ended up getting excluded and a couple
30:28
of years after that I
30:29
was sent a news article and
30:31
he had been given a life sentence
30:34
for murder and you think what
30:36
on earth happened
30:38
in that time that a child
30:40
gets a top set student gets
30:42
excluded? What happens? What could I
30:44
have done differently?
30:46
Those things you're getting like those punches
30:48
are happening all the time and
30:51
you've still got to go and perform, you've
30:53
still got to go and all those things we were
30:55
talking about earlier about watching every word
30:57
that comes out of your mouth make sure you are on top form because
30:59
you are the escapism that the kids are walking into
31:01
to get away from whatever challenges and issues
31:04
they're facing outside. It's
31:06
a lot,
31:07
it is a lot, it is draining, it is
31:09
exhausting, it is, it's
31:11
a lot. I'm
31:14
so sorry to hear that, that is
31:17
really sad, really really sad both
31:19
those stories and you know
31:23
you're both right about the multiple roles that teachers
31:25
take on that I think I was going
31:27
to use the phrase that people take the piss
31:29
out of a bit I think or certainly I think maybe the government
31:31
do and don't really appreciate the
31:34
multiple, multiple roles that
31:36
that teachers do and
31:38
I was going to ask a question which
31:40
was in fact there's two prongs
31:42
for the question actually because first one was do
31:45
we think that government
31:49
people, parents maybe have this that
31:52
view on teachers because look they're doing something they love
31:55
and when you do something you love you have to end
31:57
up going beyond it's like
31:59
being an actor.
31:59
you have to be badly paid because you're doing
32:02
what you love. And so that's just the way it is. And
32:04
I wonder if people think of that as teachers in
32:07
the same way because their hearts in it.
32:09
So we can push them a bit further. We can get them to do
32:11
more, but also,
32:14
and I'm sure the answer to this is no, but
32:16
is there much mental health support for teachers?
32:19
Could just even just those two stories alone that you've mentioned
32:22
is enough to really, really,
32:25
I mean, tear someone down, but
32:27
there must be multiple stories like that that
32:29
teachers go through in their careers. But I'm imagining,
32:32
I'm gonna say, the mental health support probably isn't that great?
32:34
Mental health support doesn't exist because
32:36
everyone's go-to is that
32:38
you get enough holidays and you
32:41
just read from a textbook anyway. My ex
32:43
used to say to me
32:45
when I was training to be a teacher and I
32:48
felt like I'd been hit by a brick and I was like,
32:50
couldn't keep my eyes open past 7 p.m. And
32:53
he's like, all you do is read from a textbook anyway, why are
32:55
you so tired all the time? So I think
32:59
going actually to your first question of why
33:01
do you think people take the piss out of teachers
33:03
is because it's probably partly because you think,
33:05
oh, but you're doing it for the children, so you should, but I
33:08
think more so is because people just have no
33:10
idea. When you look from the outside and
33:12
also how teaching used to be perhaps back in the
33:14
day when I was at school, maybe there
33:17
was a lot more kind of, I remember like
33:19
in maths, we did do a lot of, here's a textbook
33:22
to enter like this page and just work through
33:24
it answers at the back. Sometimes there was, but
33:28
it doesn't work like that anymore because we've
33:30
got, I mean, we've got obviously bigger class sizes,
33:33
we've got fewer resources, we've got all of that stuff happening,
33:35
but also teaching has changed, I think,
33:37
and developed as a profession and we
33:39
plan lessons differently now. And I mean,
33:42
don't get me started on off-dead inspections, all that kind of
33:44
stuff. I think people just have no idea. You
33:47
can explain it all day long and it just sounds
33:49
like teachers moaning again. And until
33:52
you actually go and try and teach
33:54
yourself, you know, just the idea of standing
33:56
in front of 30 teenagers.
33:59
like just do that, forget
34:02
the workload, forget the emotional stuff,
34:04
forget all of that. Try standing
34:06
in front of 30 teenagers
34:09
a few times in one day and that
34:12
will give you the smallest taster
34:14
that you need to see how difficult this job is. It is
34:16
not an easy task, it is not
34:18
for the weak hearted to be able to stand
34:21
in front of 30 teenagers and let
34:23
alone try and make them learn
34:25
something. I think they can take
34:27
the piss with teachers because they
34:29
actually have no idea what it's like and they
34:32
will never ever know and a lot of the people in power
34:34
have never even stepped foot inside a state school.
34:37
When you haven't stepped foot inside a state school and
34:40
when you have gone yourself to private schools
34:42
where classes were of 10 and below,
34:45
when you yourself were, I'm gonna
34:48
sound, let me stop.
34:50
You have absolutely no
34:53
idea, you cannot even
34:55
fathom, you cannot imagine, you cannot empathise
34:58
what it's like to go to or be teaching
35:01
at
35:01
and for example in a London state
35:04
comprehensive. Yeah. And
35:06
the people who make decisions, the people who make decisions
35:08
about what happens in schools and what happens with teachers
35:11
are people who have never stepped foot into a state school
35:13
themselves.
35:13
It's beyond me why, and this
35:16
is all governments but this particular one, don't
35:19
have people
35:20
who have had experience in those industries
35:23
doing those, why have we not got people
35:26
who are in charge of the NHS, who have had experience
35:28
of working in the NHS? I mean, it's
35:31
potty, it's absolutely potty that that's not
35:33
a thing.
35:34
I just don't, I can't, I
35:37
can't. It makes
35:39
absolutely, it
35:41
makes absolutely no sense but because
35:44
when you are doing a
35:47
job simply to get the money and
35:50
the power and the status that comes with that job
35:52
rather than actually for the people,
35:54
then why would you care? Give
35:57
it to your mate,
35:58
give it to people within that circle. give
36:00
it to them, why would you actually give a job,
36:02
an NHS job to someone who actually knows about
36:04
the NHS, why would you make an education secretary
36:06
someone who actually knows about education's property works
36:08
in that sector, why would you do that? You don't need to. When
36:10
you don't invest in schools and education, which
36:12
is the bare minimum we should be doing as
36:15
such a developed
36:17
advanced country,
36:20
if you don't
36:21
invest in schools and education and young people,
36:24
they are going to grow up in a few years and be adults
36:26
and you've got a whole society filled with adults
36:29
who were not given proper support in any
36:31
sense, not for their mental health, not in their education
36:34
and you have an increase in poverty,
36:36
you have an increase in crime and that eventually filters
36:38
out into the world you're living in. And that's what we're seeing happening
36:40
slowly.
36:41
Completely agree. We've seen the effects
36:43
of 12 years of Tory government
36:45
essentially.
36:48
Should we move on? Yeah. Because I actually feel like I
36:50
feel like we could generally talk about this all day. And
36:53
I'm sure we've got a lot of people listening that would
36:56
echo these views. And, you
36:59
know, if you haven't already gathered from the first 27 minutes of
37:01
this podcast, we support all teachers, especially
37:04
teachers striking. We support them in
37:06
every way.
37:08
How did the presenting come about? Because actually, as
37:10
you were talking, I was wondering if actually being
37:12
a teacher and some of the stories you've been talking
37:14
about there and you are connecting to people, you're dealing
37:16
with people, you're having to deal with
37:19
people from different backgrounds on
37:22
various different levels that actually
37:24
are probably really good skills for going into
37:26
presenting. Yeah, I
37:29
it happened completely by chance. It was never
37:31
part of the plan. I was really happy as a teacher.
37:33
I've been promoted in my first five years. It
37:35
was like
37:36
I was really I loved
37:38
it. I was exhausted. I was unwelled.
37:41
But I loved it. And then one
37:44
morning and I'll tell
37:46
you the longer version of the story, actually. So
37:48
I had
37:49
another teacher in
37:51
the classroom next to me and she was was
37:54
she training at the time? She might have been training at the time.
37:56
But she came in
37:58
and she was another young.
38:00
South Asian woman and she
38:02
was crying her eyes out at seven in the
38:04
morning and I thought what on earth has happened? I thought
38:06
someone had died like the way she was crying and
38:08
I sat with her, sat with her, sat with her for like
38:11
half an hour and I said what's the matter? And
38:13
finally she revealed, she said,
38:15
my cousin's getting married and
38:18
I said, so why are you crying? And she said, because
38:20
I'm not married and I'm crying.
38:22
And I think we must have been about
38:25
yeah, 27 at the time maybe.
38:28
And that morning I don't know what
38:30
possessed me. I don't know what made me do
38:32
it. You don't usually even have time to like go for
38:35
a wee, but I had a free
38:37
period that morning and I went to the English office
38:39
and I wrote, they say I used to be a blogger,
38:41
but I didn't even know what blogging was. I didn't
38:43
have any social media at the time. I just
38:46
wrote something, wrote an article
38:49
called why I'm not married.
38:51
It was nothing profound. It was simply my experience
38:54
of
38:55
my views on marriage as a young British
38:57
Muslim Pakistani woman who
39:00
is like heading towards her thirties. And
39:03
that evening I put it up on the internet for my friends to see
39:05
it. Cause I thought this is God, I haven't written in ages and this is
39:07
a really good piece of writing.
39:09
Went to sleep and the next morning
39:12
people in
39:13
Kazakhstan and Uganda were reading it
39:15
and it was everywhere. And the
39:17
BBC had left a comment on it and said, can
39:19
you please get in touch with me and talk to you about a new show
39:22
that we are that's in development.
39:24
And I got really excited. And
39:27
I called them and they
39:31
pitched the idea of Muslims like us to
39:33
me.
39:34
And it
39:36
sounded like a Muslim big brother. You're going to
39:38
go and live in a house, which is fine if that's
39:40
what people want to do, but it's not what I want to do. So
39:42
I said, I'm sorry. I don't want to do it. I declined. And
39:46
they were really persistent, which I'm really
39:48
grateful for now, but they wouldn't
39:50
let go. Mabinaz, I was, I
39:52
think the exact producer at the time. And he was like, let
39:54
me come to your house. I'm going to speak to your family
39:57
and you about anything that you are actually.
39:59
about and
40:01
I said all right fine so he came
40:03
to my house a few times this went on for about three months
40:06
and on the third visit he really got on with
40:08
my dad and the third visit when he left
40:10
my dad said what are you worried about why do you keep
40:12
saying no to this and I said
40:14
look I know I'm Muslim I know
40:16
how Muslims are presented in the
40:19
media they are going
40:21
to put me in a house with
40:23
people
40:24
who are
40:26
who view Islam in a very different
40:28
way and practice Islam in a very different way to me
40:30
they're all gonna shout at me and tell me you can't be Muslim
40:33
because you got your nails done and
40:35
that's not fun what would I want to do that
40:38
and my dad said I'll never forget he said I didn't
40:40
raise you to be weak I didn't raise you to be
40:42
stupid and he was like you only
40:45
get a lot of opportunities only come around
40:48
once and you need to grab it and I feel like you
40:50
could do something really great if you get yourself
40:52
a platform
40:53
he said if you want to help children and
40:56
young people and make a difference
40:58
do it on a bigger scale this is your chance and that
41:00
day I phoned Mabine and I said I'll do it
41:03
and so I Hannah Montana did
41:05
it for nearly a year I my head
41:08
teacher was incredible and gave
41:10
me some time off to go and film with some psychos
41:13
it won a BAFTA I was doing a BAFTA
41:15
speech one night and staring
41:18
into Benedict Cumberbatch's eyes and the next
41:20
morning the next morning
41:23
I was doing a year 11 GCSE masterclass
41:25
at seven o'clock
41:27
and then it got to a point because you know I wasn't
41:29
born into money so it wasn't like you
41:32
know go and give this a shot and if it doesn't work out it's
41:34
fine I couldn't quit my job until I knew I was on
41:36
to something here but
41:38
post BAFTA speech obviously I was like
41:41
you need to get an agent you do this and people were giving
41:43
me and Muslims were very in fashion in the media
41:46
at that point a Channel 4 was doing a little Muslim
41:48
show everyone wanted to talk about
41:50
being Muslim so it was
41:52
the right time really and that
41:54
September I resigned because I thought I have to
41:57
I
41:57
have to pick one I can't continue doing
42:00
both. And I started presenting
42:02
and I remember when I led my first documentary,
42:04
they were like, are you nervous? Are you scared,
42:06
Marine?
42:07
And I said, I teach teenagers for a
42:09
living. Nothing. Nothing can scare
42:11
me. It's weird. I look back at myself
42:14
then, like four years ago, whatever it was.
42:16
And
42:17
I was so sure
42:19
of myself. I was so
42:22
confident in my ability and who
42:24
I was and what I stood for and what
42:26
I wanted to do. I was, and
42:28
teaching had built me to be, to
42:31
be like that. When you're guiding children,
42:33
like under your wing, there's this super mom
42:35
every day of your life.
42:37
Nothing can scare you. And I remember when
42:39
I started my telly journey, I really was,
42:41
I felt like piece
42:43
of piss. I could do this. Yeah.
42:47
Then it all went downhill. I was going to
42:49
say, that sounds like you're leading up to say, but
42:52
now things are different. Yeah. I think,
42:54
um, I was going to be really dramatic
42:57
and say, I think the industry's broken me a little
42:59
bit. I wouldn't say I'm broken, but I
43:01
definitely think
43:03
it's thoroughly unpleasant. And
43:05
I think
43:06
I am glad that I made the
43:09
move because I think had I turned,
43:11
was I like, if I was 33 and
43:13
I was still teaching every day and still wasn't
43:15
married, didn't have children, was just going
43:18
in every day and teaching, teaching, teaching, exhausted, no
43:20
time to
43:21
brush my hair.
43:23
Maybe I'd feel like, God, I never experienced
43:25
anything else. Maybe I could have done more. Maybe
43:27
I could have done something different. So I'm really glad
43:29
I've, I've made the move. Um,
43:33
and I've had really, really wonderful opportunities
43:35
on the way, which hopefully will carry on happening.
43:37
And I'll keep working hard and trying to make that happen.
43:40
But I think this is an industry
43:42
that's built on
43:45
insecurity and it's built on
43:47
parading people for 10 minutes and
43:49
saying, you're the best thing ever. And then saying,
43:51
times have changed, get to the back of the queue and we'll come
43:53
back to you when we're ready again. Um,
43:55
I don't think
43:58
it's always based on kind of.
43:59
merit and hard work and talent.
44:02
It's
44:03
whoever has the most views on
44:05
YouTube for doing something outrageous or whoever's
44:08
been on Love Island or whoever's, it could be a million
44:10
different things that you're not actually in control
44:12
of. At least in teaching, if I planned a really good lesson,
44:15
obviously depending on the kids move that
44:17
day, but
44:19
if I work really hard, I can get a promotion.
44:22
If I, it's stable and it's secure,
44:26
but TV's not like that. This media industry
44:28
isn't like that. I can work
44:30
day and night, but if the commissioners don't
44:32
fancy me at that particular point in time, I'm
44:35
not gonna have work.
44:37
And I find that quite
44:39
difficult. And
44:41
then, I don't know,
44:43
I was kind of living the high life and then
44:46
COVID happened. So that was the first kind of, oh
44:48
my God, like TV has stopped.
44:51
My four projects that were in development have all
44:53
been indefinitely postponed and canceled. What do I do?
44:56
So that was my first wobble and I was only two
44:58
years in or something. But
45:00
I made it work and I was kind of, I feel like again,
45:02
if that hadn't happened, I
45:05
didn't have that kind of low point in TV, I would have never
45:07
done my radio pull podcast, Secret Life of Teachers,
45:09
which then led onto my book. And writing
45:11
is my life. Like I was reading before
45:13
I could do anything else. So that
45:16
was amazing. But then my father
45:18
got really sick about
45:20
a year ago. He got COVID, I
45:23
don't know if you're aware already, he got COVID
45:25
and essentially
45:27
ended up on a ventilator and the doctor said he's got six
45:29
hours left to live. He was in a Red List country
45:31
at the time.
45:34
And it was 48 hours before my book launch,
45:37
which I thought in my head was like my big
45:39
comeback. And I thought, I'm gonna be back on telly, I'm gonna
45:41
be doing all these promotion things and I'll
45:43
be back in everyone's eye again. And it's gonna,
45:46
off the back of my book, I'll get back onto doing
45:48
my documentaries. And it was all kind of planned
45:50
and done.
45:52
And I had to fly out to Red List Pakistan.
45:54
And I didn't even know if he'd be alive by the time
45:56
I got there.
45:58
And I think that was a really, I don't know.
45:59
know, a really a
46:01
strange time but also a kind of
46:03
groundbreaking time for me because it really made
46:05
me reflect on everything.
46:08
It'd been so fast, you know, like I'm teaching,
46:10
my 20s have flown, but I'm teaching every day, every day, every day
46:13
and then I start presenting while I'm teaching
46:15
and then I leave teaching just as I'm presenting
46:17
full time and it was I'm writing a book
46:19
in 12 weeks and
46:21
suddenly I just I'm there. My dad's
46:24
about to die. No one
46:26
gives a fuck because
46:28
all the friends that you've made in this
46:31
industry are not friends, they are just people
46:33
looking for the next talent really.
46:35
They don't really care and
46:37
I remember
46:40
I thought if
46:43
I come back I'm gonna have to
46:45
do the quarantine hotel which
46:47
is how many thousands of pounds and A I can't
46:49
afford that and B I'd really
46:51
like to get back and promote my book and not spend
46:53
like two weeks or whatever in a quarantine hotel and
46:57
I really think that made me reevaluate
47:00
everything and then meanwhile obviously,
47:02
sorry I'm talking loads, stop me whenever you need
47:05
to, at the same time
47:07
there are no, well
47:09
there are hardly any like
47:12
less than a handful of brown women
47:14
on telly on mainstream TV
47:16
so at
47:18
the same time
47:20
where I knew exactly who I was and what I
47:22
stood for and I was really inspiring as a teacher
47:25
but suddenly I was talking about faith,
47:27
something Muslims like us, Islam, lost
47:29
boys about Asian men and
47:31
I just got like the backlash that
47:34
you get because there are all eyes are on you when
47:36
there aren't many of you doing what you're
47:38
doing then the whole community looks
47:41
at you to see whether you represent them. You
47:43
can't talk about your own story, you've got to represent all
47:45
of them and if you say anything vaguely
47:48
like
47:48
that may come across as criticism or questioning,
47:51
it's like you had an opportunity to show us in a good light
47:53
and you you're a sellout and
47:56
so all of that kind of also
47:59
makes you because the next
47:59
time you do a show, you're like, God, I've got to be even more careful
48:02
of
48:03
every word that's coming out of my mouth. Like
48:05
I really,
48:06
so where my first show, I was just me.
48:08
I was like, actually, me gets
48:10
a lot of hate. Maybe I need to like rephrase
48:12
this. Maybe I need to hold back. I remember
48:15
we were filming the show in, um, out of London
48:17
and these,
48:18
um, five
48:22
young men in a car, um,
48:24
identified me as the girl from the BBC
48:28
and they essentially attacked us in
48:30
the middle of filming and we had to
48:32
get
48:33
in a car and run away. They tried to run us
48:35
over with their car and Snapchat all of it. And
48:38
all of those kinds of things are happening. So it's bad
48:40
enough when you're like on the street as a young woman and you're filming
48:42
and people are shouting out sort of sexual noises
48:45
and stuff at you. But then top that
48:47
up with like,
48:49
every time a show comes out, you're either being told
48:51
to go back to where you come from. I was
48:53
born and brought up here. Where are you telling me to go back
48:55
to?
48:57
Or you've got the other half of the people saying you're a sellout
48:59
and why do you work for the BBC? And you're doing
49:01
like, it's impossible. And
49:04
that bit got easier because you end up
49:06
not giving a shit anymore. And you're like, actually,
49:08
I'm going to revert back to just being me. And that's
49:11
got to be enough. But all
49:13
of those things, if you
49:15
put them on top of each other, it's
49:18
tough. Yeah. And especially if you're
49:20
in an industry, then when you do reach out for
49:22
help, no one's answering that call.
49:25
And you're totally right
49:28
about that industry. And I wonder if actually
49:32
nothing's forever. No career
49:35
of anything is forever you. And
49:38
the fact that you came to it later, I think maybe, does
49:40
it give you more perspective? I often
49:42
wonder, I often think, thank
49:45
goodness, I
49:47
had
49:48
a proper career and I was a
49:50
big grown woman before I joined this industry
49:52
because it gives me it means
49:54
I'm that little bit wiser, stronger, able
49:56
to reflect and able to move on from things
49:59
when I know they aren't serving. me in a positive way and all
50:01
that kind of stuff which comes from a
50:03
being older, b having a really strong support
50:05
network of like family and close friends and things
50:07
like that but not everyone has that. I think
50:09
about people who go into this industry when they are so
50:12
that they're young and they are naive and they are
50:14
impressionable and they are not as yeah
50:17
just not as built and they may not have
50:19
that support system and I just yeah
50:21
it must be absolutely awful. I've
50:24
ruined the whole mood of the podcast haven't I? Not
50:26
at all no no no this is really important
50:29
to hear because a lot of people
50:31
won't be aware yeah yeah
50:34
of what this you know because it looks all sparkly and lovely
50:36
from the outside. Yeah no it's definitely not
50:38
sparkly and like I say I don't
50:40
there are I don't want to seem ungrateful for the opportunity
50:43
I did have because I've done really like
50:45
I was able to take my parents to hudged a
50:47
pilgrimage with the money that I made in my
50:49
first year
50:50
that was amazing
50:52
and I wouldn't have been
50:54
able to do that had I not
50:56
changed from teaching because with teaching you can't even
50:59
pay your rent. I
51:01
was you know kayaking with Adrian
51:03
trials and I flew a little helicopter
51:05
by myself and I like things
51:07
like that you just think wow I feel
51:10
like I've experienced so much more of life
51:12
than I would have and but
51:14
you know life happens life happens and
51:16
it inevitably changes you and it's just weird when I
51:18
look back at that first show I watch Muslims like
51:20
us and I'm like I'm so not that girl anymore
51:23
like
51:24
life has happened it's not just it's not
51:26
just TV it's also my father's illness
51:28
is also just life has happened um
51:31
but being in TV has not made it any easier.
51:34
I
51:34
think to be honest talking honestly I think is isn't
51:37
is always the way to go anyway to be honest um
51:40
but
51:40
I'm a bit sick of just not being able to say anything
51:43
you know yeah yeah you can't say anything
51:45
because you're gonna end up getting yourself blacklisted you're
51:47
gonna offend people you're gonna it's
51:49
a bit it's the truth why do we talk about the
51:51
truth it's you know I'm not saying
51:54
everyone's evil and I'm not saying anyone owes
51:56
me work and I'm not saying
51:57
I'm just talking about my experience and that
51:59
is
51:59
the truth of like
52:01
how it has been for me and probably for countless
52:03
others why can't we talk about that? Well
52:06
I think it's the it's the support thing that is
52:08
the most sort of disheartening as well
52:10
that you not there's like literally no support
52:12
there for you
52:13
you know. I also think yeah but the race element
52:15
is just awful. Of course of course
52:17
that is awful as well. No but also when I was
52:19
like
52:20
when I was when I first started
52:23
in TV I had another
52:26
British Muslim Pakistani woman who then became
52:28
my mentor taught me how to get an
52:30
agent, taught me
52:32
commissioned the first few of my shows,
52:34
championed me but then when she
52:36
left
52:37
like I shouldn't have to wait for the next brown person
52:40
to come and champion me again.
52:42
Like we talk about diversity pots and
52:44
we talk about all of this kind of stuff but
52:46
no not really why are we waiting for the next
52:48
Muslim story for me to be able to cover? Like
52:51
it's not
52:53
or if I pick something I really
52:55
want to talk about and it's like well you
52:57
know you don't really have a personal link to that
52:59
enough. I was told I don't have a personal like what
53:02
is marine's personal link to this when I wanted
53:04
to do something in schools?
53:08
But when Louis Theroux talks about
53:10
anorexia has he suffered with
53:12
it himself or when Stacey Dooley goes
53:14
and talks about whatever she doesn't have to the
53:17
double standards and the absolute like poor
53:19
way we treat diversity in this industry is
53:22
shameful. I
53:24
do think a lot of organisations are
53:28
perhaps lying to themselves that that feels
53:30
strong maybe it's true actually about how
53:32
good they are at diversity or for
53:34
example when it was International Women's Day the other day there's
53:36
a fantastic account on Twitter it's
53:38
a bot of some sort and it retweets every organisation
53:41
that says
53:42
Happy International Women's Day and says the
53:45
the parity in this institution
53:47
is 50%
53:49
love for women etc and it basically
53:51
calls out everything and nearly all of them are
53:54
love for women and they're all going out they're going hands
53:56
to have the International Women's Day and I think it's probably
53:58
the same with diversity I think a lot
53:59
of organisations. I don't know whether
54:02
they think they're doing well and they're not or they're lying
54:04
to themselves or they're lying to everyone else but it's
54:06
nearly always a bit of a smokescreen.
54:08
Yeah 100% I think they um
54:11
there's only room for one type of diversity
54:13
at a time so
54:15
you
54:16
just gotta wait your turn.
54:19
Yeah it's um do
54:21
you feel sort of feel like you get sort of pigeonholed
54:24
then? I was completely
54:26
pigeonholed in my first year
54:29
um everything I was getting was like as
54:31
a Muslim woman, as a Muslim woman you
54:34
know doing something about Lucas Aid, as
54:36
a Muslim woman, Maureen loves Lucas Aid it was ridiculous.
54:41
And then I kind of made a real conscious effort to
54:43
break out of that um so then I
54:45
started doing a lot of I was given lots of fish out
54:47
of water, Maureen's from London she's never seen trees
54:49
before we're gonna send her to talk about trees
54:52
and we're gonna send her to the countryside and make
54:54
her see salmon and I was like wow animals
54:56
and I thought God why have I
54:59
like why have I dumbed myself down
55:01
so it's fun for a bit it's funny for
55:03
a bit but I'm a teacher
55:06
I really can't be playing this wow
55:09
salmon like I can't be playing
55:11
that forever so then we kind of reevaluated
55:14
everything again I said I really want to talk about
55:16
other things that I ended up doing um a
55:18
year of the wealth gap so we looked
55:20
at Inside Chelsea which is a really
55:23
lovely doc actually I'm really proud of that one um looking
55:25
at the wealth gap in London um in
55:28
a borough in London and then I did like
55:30
the truth about cosmetic treatments because we're looking more
55:32
at body image and things so it
55:35
was starting to go in the right
55:37
direction because also don't forget
55:39
like I didn't know anything about TV so
55:41
I was very much learning the craft
55:44
when people were saying do a box pop it's like what's a box pop
55:47
um
55:48
box pops are horrible here's the first I
55:50
really enjoy them first the first couple
55:52
of years I was very much just sort of learning and
55:54
sort of realizing that actually
55:56
I can write a bit of my own calm and I can
55:59
So just when I was saying,
56:02
well, now I should start thinking about what I want
56:04
my body of work to look like, what do I actually,
56:07
you know, what do I actually want to do rather than
56:09
ideas that are just coming to me, Covid
56:11
happened. Yeah, bad
56:15
timing.
56:15
I have to admit you're definitely, you're
56:17
definitely made for what you're doing then because
56:19
I used to hate doing Fox Fox when I was
56:21
a local reporter. I used to hate
56:24
them.
56:24
Why? I don't
56:26
know. Talk to the public now. Yeah,
56:28
maybe different now. I don't know. But like then
56:30
I just hate approaching people and like accosting
56:33
them. And but it was always really dumb questions
56:35
like, what do you think about the potholes on Main
56:37
Street? No one cares
56:40
about.
56:41
But I love that. I think normal people
56:43
are.
56:46
It's like I love teenagers
56:48
because there's no they're no mind games. It's
56:50
like if they like you, I say this
56:52
line in my book and I say if they like you, they'll get
56:54
your best teacher mug. If they hate you, they'll throw a chair
56:57
at you. There's no mind games. There's no reading
56:59
between the lines. And I think similar with box pops,
57:01
like
57:02
rather than
57:03
talking to people about I don't
57:06
know, I was at an event recently and they
57:08
were talking about rhubarb. It's rhubarb
57:10
back in fashion. I didn't realize rhubarb. I was like,
57:12
what are you talking about? Box
57:15
pops, you get the regular person walking down, go
57:17
about their daily business, affected by the cost of living crisis,
57:19
have a chat with them. Like I much prefer
57:22
that. It's
57:23
a bit more, bit more real. So
57:27
I don't have two things I wanted to ask
57:29
for earlier. Firstly, Hannah Montana-ing it. Love
57:32
that. Never heard that before. Love that as
57:34
a phrase. Definitely going to be starting to use that. Yeah, that's
57:36
great.
57:36
When you were still teaching, but you were
57:39
getting the the BAFTA and that stuff
57:41
was starting to roll on. Did that give
57:43
you more credit with
57:46
the kids at school? Surely that must have brought
57:48
you some credit. Do you know a lot of our kids
57:50
didn't watch TV. So
57:53
they kind of knew, they
57:55
kind of knew because someone had heard or
57:57
something like that.
58:00
So yeah, some of them knew and it was kind of cool because
58:02
our teacher are you famous but
58:05
But it wasn't that big a deal because no one
58:07
watches documentaries of like as in no
58:09
one in my school at that point watch documentaries and
58:12
So it wasn't yeah Sometimes they say oh
58:14
miss I was like my mum was
58:16
going through the TV and then you were on it and
58:18
it was quite Cool, but I am
58:20
I was a really cool teacher. I didn't
58:22
need TV to give me that extra kind of credit
58:25
I already had that
58:27
The right answer It's
58:29
funny actually like going to the Parents
58:32
evening last night all the teachers are brilliant
58:34
obviously, but you can sort of pick out the cool
58:37
ones. Oh, yeah, they're cool No,
58:41
no just like a vibe just like an energy about
58:45
And sometimes it's not it's not everyone
58:47
thinks oh is it like it's cuz you're young it's
58:49
cuz you're Actually, it's not there
58:51
are a lot of young attractive teachers who kids hate
58:55
It might be exciting for the first day where everyone has a
58:57
little giggle because you've got a fit teacher But it wears
58:59
off very quickly Sometimes
59:02
it's like super old teachers who
59:04
just they just got
59:06
I think kids can really tell when
59:08
a teacher really cares about them I think
59:10
they've got a real they can sniff it out. They
59:12
can tell when you are just trying to be
59:14
an ass and when
59:16
you're just trying to be a dictator and you're just trying
59:18
to and they can tell when you're saying something for their Own
59:21
benefit because you really care about them. Yeah,
59:23
and kids kids Every
59:25
kid wants to hear that surely even kids that come
59:27
in to me with a bit bullshit or whatever and and they're
59:29
giving off A vibe of don't give a fuck about anything
59:32
every kid wants to be Appreciated
59:35
what we all do as humans listen to validated
59:38
Scene and I think teachers that can do
59:40
that. I mean my god that is that's a that's a real
59:42
skill Yeah, the ones who the kids who
59:45
seem like they don't give it give her anything
59:50
Are the ones who probably need love the most Most
59:53
of the time it's the ones who don't
59:55
turn up to parents evening who need
59:57
that parents evening the most It's the one like
1:00:00
Yeah. Going on to your, obviously your later
1:00:02
projects, like the podcast and writing, it
1:00:04
feels like you may be getting a bit more autonomy
1:00:06
on your creative career, doing those kind of things.
1:00:09
Has that been enjoyable, gotten of doing
1:00:11
your own stuff?
1:00:12
Yes, it's been enjoyable and it's been
1:00:15
intentional.
1:00:21
It feels really great to be able
1:00:23
to do things that are in my own words and my own
1:00:25
voice because often
1:00:27
in TV,
1:00:29
you are the face of something, but
1:00:31
then everything you shoot for six months gets condensed
1:00:33
into 60 minutes and then someone else
1:00:35
writes your comm and someone else edits and someone else, and
1:00:38
by the time it's gone through all those layers, you watch it
1:00:40
and you're like, even you don't know what you're about to watch.
1:00:43
And you are just the face of it. Whereas writing
1:00:46
my book, I had the most wonderful, wonderful
1:00:49
editor
1:00:50
and we had
1:00:52
a bit of a bidding war
1:00:54
for my book, but the reason
1:00:57
why I went with her is because she
1:01:00
gave me just full and complete ownership and she
1:01:02
was like literally, she
1:01:04
would make some changes and suggestions, but she'd
1:01:06
be like, you can ignore all of them if you want
1:01:08
to, because this is your story, these are your words.
1:01:12
And that was the most beautiful, that's
1:01:14
why that book is so close
1:01:17
to my heart because that is my baby, that is my
1:01:19
words, that is my life. It's part memoir. It's
1:01:21
literally
1:01:22
my story. You can't
1:01:25
take it out of context really as in
1:01:28
I can't blame anyone else. Everything I say in that I stand
1:01:30
by 100% because it's genuinely how
1:01:32
I feel. It's no one else's kind
1:01:35
of input. And equally with
1:01:37
Secret Life of Teachers, the podcast
1:01:39
literally was like that time
1:01:41
when I was explaining that we were like, our teacher's going to go back
1:01:44
to school, my brother and sister, they're going to have to go back
1:01:46
into COVID land and what's
1:01:48
going to happen. And everyone schools were
1:01:50
in the headlines. Everyone was talking about the government
1:01:52
was introducing, we might have bubbles and we're
1:01:54
going to make a put a one way system
1:01:57
into schools because all the kids are going to
1:01:59
follow the one way system.
1:01:59
system and all this kind of nonsense
1:02:02
and
1:02:04
I was lying in bed as I usually do
1:02:06
at 2 a.m. and I can't sleep in my mind as an overdrive
1:02:09
and I thought I want to do a podcast where I
1:02:11
get teachers
1:02:12
to sit down and
1:02:14
have a chat and I want people to hear these
1:02:16
chats. I wanted to hear the chats that we have at the dining
1:02:18
table because with a family that's
1:02:21
deeply rooted in education when
1:02:23
we have our friends come in, my best friend's a teacher,
1:02:25
when we have everyone come over
1:02:27
I want people to hear those real conversations,
1:02:30
not the headlines, not the government's plans and
1:02:32
I wrote out a one-pager about exactly
1:02:34
what I want that podcast to look like,
1:02:37
sent to the BBC the next morning, same day got the green
1:02:39
light and yeah
1:02:42
it was wonderful because it was literally
1:02:45
majority my family friends
1:02:47
but also we like got other teachers
1:02:49
from other walks of life and
1:02:52
it was a bit annoying we couldn't do it in person so it was
1:02:54
kind of it was on zoom which delays
1:02:57
everything a little bit but it was
1:02:59
yeah it was great
1:03:01
I love the fact that I'm
1:03:03
finally kind of merging my two worlds together
1:03:05
so
1:03:05
even with my new project with Glow Up Your Grade
1:03:08
I am mixing my presenting
1:03:11
with my teaching and
1:03:12
I'm able to do something which feels a bit more
1:03:14
rewarding and like it's got a bit
1:03:16
of soul and heart in it it feels like it's making
1:03:18
a difference but I'm not going back into a school
1:03:21
I don't feel like I'm moving backwards so
1:03:24
I feel like I'm definitely in some sort of liminal
1:03:26
stage and I feel like I'm definitely on some sort
1:03:28
of journey where
1:03:31
dots are slowly
1:03:33
adding up and leading towards something
1:03:35
but I'm at that point where I don't actually know what that something is
1:03:38
right now is it going to be writing more books straight
1:03:40
away is it going to be doing more of this kind
1:03:42
of
1:03:43
Glow Up Your Grade teaching resources
1:03:45
and resources for young people for mental health
1:03:47
well-being that kind of stuff is it going
1:03:49
to be something completely different I don't really
1:03:52
know at this point in time I'm not going to carry on TV
1:03:54
for a bit and see if I can totally like
1:03:56
smash it and buy a big
1:03:58
house I don't know Well,
1:04:02
you are smashing it. And I think it's those
1:04:04
kind of, I
1:04:07
know that very well from being a freelancer, that
1:04:09
this sort of combo of emotion of like excitement
1:04:12
and maybe anxiety of like, Oh, what could happen?
1:04:14
What could not, you know, you
1:04:17
have to sort of ride the wave of those emotions really,
1:04:19
when you're sort of freelance, and especially in this
1:04:21
industry. Yeah, but you are smashing it. Thank
1:04:24
you. It's
1:04:24
a constant hustle,
1:04:27
isn't it? It's a constant grind. It's
1:04:30
obviously it's the freelance life of like,
1:04:32
if you don't work, you don't get paid, so you got to find work.
1:04:34
But it's also this constant like,
1:04:36
2am wake up, I'm gonna write a book. I'm
1:04:39
gonna start a podcast.
1:04:41
And it's that constant, it's again,
1:04:44
it's a lot, but it is, it's becoming more exciting.
1:04:47
And I feel like
1:04:49
after a long time, I feel strangely at
1:04:51
peace with the journey again. And I kind
1:04:53
of feel like
1:04:55
it's got to work out at some point, all
1:04:57
of this grinding and hustling, all of this
1:04:59
hard work, all of this being
1:05:01
put through shit sometimes, all
1:05:04
of this having the best intentions and
1:05:06
always wanting to
1:05:08
always having a greater purpose of
1:05:10
wanting to help people, which has always been in
1:05:12
me, it's got to all
1:05:15
add up at some point. So I feel
1:05:17
less anxious and less stressed
1:05:19
for the last few months. And I feel a bit more like,
1:05:22
I'm gonna make something happen, just need to figure out what that
1:05:24
something is.
1:05:26
I'm sure you will. I'm sure you will. It will
1:05:28
probably become apparent without you even
1:05:30
realising it. Well, I
1:05:32
was gonna say, but I mean, I think that's a good
1:05:34
way to approach things. But also, think about
1:05:37
how many kids will have watched glow up your grades.
1:05:40
And maybe it helps them with an exam or someone
1:05:42
reads a book, someone listens to the podcast, it changes the
1:05:44
way they think. It's already
1:05:46
working out. It's already making a difference, just by
1:05:48
those things.
1:05:49
I think with glow up
1:05:51
your grades, it was something that I wanted to do for
1:05:53
so long,
1:05:54
because there's one me and as much as I volunteer
1:05:57
in places, because I was an examiner for like most
1:05:59
of my teaching career. career as well. So if there's one
1:06:01
thing I know, if there's one thing I know I'm bloody
1:06:03
good at is teaching. I can make kids pass.
1:06:06
I can make them like English. I can make them pass.
1:06:09
And
1:06:10
I wanted to do that on a bigger scale. And I wanted to create
1:06:12
these kind of videos to if kids can't
1:06:14
afford a
1:06:15
private tutor, I wouldn't have been
1:06:17
able to when I was younger, they should have
1:06:19
their own teacher, a teacher who's going to take them
1:06:22
through and also generation has brought up on
1:06:25
social media. I want it to feel young
1:06:28
and I want it to feel engaging and I want it to be on
1:06:30
it. They can watch it on their device and all
1:06:32
of that kind of stuff.
1:06:34
I find
1:06:36
I don't know how sometimes,
1:06:39
see this podcast is really great for me. Sometimes reflection
1:06:42
is a great thing and maybe I don't do it enough. I
1:06:44
wanted it for so long. And then suddenly
1:06:47
I just thought
1:06:49
a few months ago I was volunteering
1:06:51
at this Saturday school.
1:06:53
And the kids were like, I said,
1:06:55
Oh, well, let's talk about this poem. What's it about? And
1:06:58
they had no idea. And I was like, it's literally a couple
1:07:00
of months before GCSEs. How do you not know even
1:07:02
what this poem is about? And they went, Miss, we did
1:07:04
that in year 10 when we were learning online, we
1:07:06
actually don't know what this poem is about. And I thought,
1:07:09
Oh my God, that's it. I'm doing these videos. I'm
1:07:11
making it happen. But how do you do it? I don't
1:07:13
know how to use the camera. I don't know how to edit. So
1:07:15
I started applying for funding. And I was
1:07:17
like applying to all these long fought hate forms,
1:07:19
filling out all these long forms, trying to get funding,
1:07:22
getting rejected. Sorry, we're focusing on primary education.
1:07:24
Sorry, we're doing blah, blah, blah. This
1:07:26
is a nightmare. What's going to happen? And I thought, you know
1:07:28
what, I'm going to use the last of my savings. I'm going to make
1:07:30
these videos. And I contacted my agent and I said,
1:07:32
do you know anyone who can operate a camera
1:07:35
and can help me make these videos
1:07:38
so that I can put them out there before these GCSEs
1:07:40
and the kids can learn what these poems are about? He
1:07:42
said, yes, I know this guy. He'll
1:07:44
do it. And I think it was like three or 4,000 pounds. And
1:07:46
I thought it's going to have to be an investment.
1:07:49
I'm just going to have to do it because I really, I need
1:07:51
to do this. It was one of those, again, it was like post
1:07:53
dad's illness. It was like, I have to do something which
1:07:56
feels like it's
1:07:57
I'm doing something again.
1:07:59
And I was literally about to
1:08:02
sign the contract and say, yep, we're
1:08:04
doing this. I'm paying you this money. We're making the videos.
1:08:06
And just by chance, this guy
1:08:09
I know said, speak to this company. They
1:08:11
might be able to help you. I jumped on 10 minutes
1:08:13
later to resume to that, uh, on
1:08:15
a zoom with that company.
1:08:17
And the same day they gave it, they said, yep,
1:08:19
we want to do this. We'll invest however many,
1:08:21
however much money more than I could have ever
1:08:24
afforded. And glow up your grades
1:08:26
happened.
1:08:27
And now I get messages every
1:08:29
single day. I'm going to put some up actually
1:08:31
on my socials tonight. I get messages every
1:08:34
single day of
1:08:35
students who are making
1:08:38
pages and pages of notes using those
1:08:40
videos and parents
1:08:42
and teachers who are using,
1:08:44
like, who are saying that their children
1:08:47
didn't know X, Y and Z, but they've just spent the whole
1:08:49
day watching these videos and look at these notes that they've made.
1:08:52
And it is the best bloody feeling ever. And you
1:08:54
know what? I did that. I bloody
1:08:56
did that. I did that one day and I thought I'm going to do this.
1:08:59
And I have so made that happen. If there are, if
1:09:01
there's one child who will end up passing
1:09:04
and being able to move on to higher education from those
1:09:06
videos, that's a bloody good job.
1:09:08
There's a little catchphrase on
1:09:10
this podcast, which we use quite a lot of time. It's give
1:09:12
yourself the wins. And I think, you know, that's a big
1:09:14
win. You can give yourself.
1:09:15
That's a big win. There
1:09:17
have been some good wins. You know what? I
1:09:19
feel like I often talk about all the bad points,
1:09:22
um,
1:09:23
yeah, but they
1:09:26
have been good.
1:09:28
Yeah, they have been wins. I,
1:09:30
I was brought up on a council estate. We didn't
1:09:32
even have like a stable home.
1:09:34
We moved house all the time. I went to
1:09:37
how many different schools? There was no
1:09:39
foot in the door. There was no network
1:09:42
that would help me. There was nothing. I ended up on
1:09:44
mainstream BBC one and BBC two. That was off
1:09:47
my own bloody back. Like
1:09:49
give credit, but and I don't think I get
1:09:51
enough credit for the fact that I was leading major as a
1:09:53
Brown, 20
1:09:54
something year old
1:09:57
woman working class.
1:09:59
say no context, no anything. That
1:10:02
was a pretty incredible achievement
1:10:05
in itself.
1:10:06
And the fact that now
1:10:08
I've got my book.
1:10:09
I've got a book. You can go and buy my book.
1:10:11
My story, whether no one, like if
1:10:13
no one ever buys it ever again, but it's out there,
1:10:15
like in a hundred years time,
1:10:18
someone will be able to find out
1:10:20
about my life from that book. That's pretty
1:10:22
amazing.
1:10:24
Yeah. And it's really nice hearing you
1:10:26
say that. It's really, really nice hearing you vocalise
1:10:29
that and say it out loud because you are an inspiration
1:10:31
and what I love and just listening to you in the
1:10:34
last, well actually the whole book, I was a certain last 10, 15
1:10:36
minutes is you lead with your heart.
1:10:38
You clearly lead with your heart and you do things that are important
1:10:40
to you. And I think that really reflects back in
1:10:42
the things you do. And it's lovely to hear. And I've
1:10:44
literally got a tab open now to buy your book as well,
1:10:46
which is what I was doing while you were talking there. So yeah,
1:10:49
you are fantastic.
1:10:50
Thank you. I appreciate it. I think
1:10:53
I come from a really, really, really great family. I've
1:10:56
got
1:10:57
my family has brought
1:10:59
my parents have brought me up
1:11:01
and my older brothers, I'm the baby. My brother's 12 years
1:11:03
older than me. My sister's eight is older than me.
1:11:06
And they always said, you
1:11:08
don't chase money. You don't chase fame
1:11:10
because all of those things, A, don't
1:11:12
get you respect and B, that
1:11:14
you can lose them at any time.
1:11:17
So they always taught us A,
1:11:19
to really value education
1:11:21
and B, to everything you do, you
1:11:24
do it to help people
1:11:27
basically. And that is the, and
1:11:30
you know what? Like sometimes I think maybe
1:11:32
if my parents did X, Y
1:11:34
and Z, we'd be living in a really nice house right
1:11:36
now. Maybe if, but actually know what
1:11:38
they have always stood by and their children therefore
1:11:41
have always stood by is that you've got to serve
1:11:43
others
1:11:44
and you, you serve
1:11:46
God through serving others. And
1:11:49
if that, that's a, what's the saying? Is it that's
1:11:51
the hill I'm willing to die on? Is that the saying?
1:11:54
Yeah. I'm happy to stand by that. If there's
1:11:56
nothing else, but I can say, do you know what? I might
1:11:58
not have been.
1:12:00
I don't know, in Hollywood, by the end
1:12:02
of it, but I know everything
1:12:05
I have done, I have done with
1:12:07
the purpose of like serving
1:12:12
the community, serving the students that I teach, serving my
1:12:14
parents, like I've done
1:12:16
it with the best of intentions and I can say that wholeheartedly.
1:12:19
That's lovely, yes, really lovely. Thank you,
1:12:22
I really, really, really enjoyed it. That
1:12:24
felt so lovely, didn't it? That felt like such a lovely
1:12:27
chat. Yeah.
1:12:28
I really enjoyed
1:12:31
it.
1:12:47
Maureen Begg on the Blank Podcast
1:12:50
there. What a fantastic person.
1:12:52
Really, really interesting insight into her
1:12:54
experiences in education and then moving
1:12:57
into broadcasting as well. Someone
1:13:00
with passion for both sectors there, both
1:13:02
industries, which really shines through and
1:13:04
I'm very excited to see what
1:13:06
she does next. So really
1:13:09
appreciate her coming on, just a fantastic individual
1:13:11
and doing a lot of great work helping
1:13:14
a lot of people. So yeah, brilliant.
1:13:17
Thank you for coming
1:13:17
on, Maureen. Yeah, goodness me. I'd love
1:13:20
to have her to be my English teacher
1:13:22
at secondary school because I would have definitely got
1:13:25
a lot more out of it, I think. I
1:13:27
remember having very kind of passive,
1:13:30
I guess, the most kind way of putting it,
1:13:32
teachers who weren't necessarily as engaged
1:13:36
with the pupils at my old school.
1:13:38
But I think it's just really lovely
1:13:40
to see. And obviously I've got a child that's
1:13:43
going through GCSEs at the moment and
1:13:45
a wife who's a teacher. So this is
1:13:47
something that I'm very kind of keyed
1:13:49
into at the moment, particularly our education
1:13:51
system. I think the flaws with our education
1:13:53
system, the things that we could be changing for the better. And
1:13:58
that's another big debate, obviously.
1:13:59
you see sort of
1:14:02
education systems around the world that I feel
1:14:04
personally would we
1:14:05
would benefit from in this country particularly like Scandinavian
1:14:08
models where you know we start
1:14:10
a bit late the children start a bit later and they
1:14:14
they could encompass the arts a lot more I
1:14:16
think we we don't do that enough in this country and
1:14:20
we've got a huge creative
1:14:22
industry that brings in lots of money
1:14:25
so I think you know that actually focusing
1:14:27
on those things a bit more than the academic stuff
1:14:29
because not every child is academic
1:14:32
I think that's something but that's another debate but
1:14:35
it's great to hear
1:14:35
from Aireen
1:14:38
and like how she sees how
1:14:40
things could change a little bit and how the thing she's
1:14:43
passionate about and yes
1:14:45
she's just a really really engaging person
1:14:47
and yeah Glarp Your Grades is fantastic
1:14:49
if you've got if any ones listening and their
1:14:51
children are going through GCSEs at the moment
1:14:53
and need a little bit extra support
1:14:56
particularly around for example my
1:14:58
son's in his English is a lot of focus on poetry
1:15:01
and Maireen does a lot of stuff
1:15:03
on poetry and engaging with poetry which
1:15:05
is you know not always something
1:15:07
that 15 year olds are that into
1:15:10
so yeah loads of great stuff with the
1:15:12
Glarp Your Grades which you can find on YouTube
1:15:14
but yeah just check out her
1:15:17
social channels and you can you know
1:15:20
lots of lots of really interesting links
1:15:23
to to various different things in the education system
1:15:25
which I think would be really beneficial for a lot of people and
1:15:28
also do get her book as
1:15:30
well which I actually ordered a copy
1:15:32
of went straight to I'm
1:15:35
not sure where I got it from I tried not to get it from the
1:15:37
big place yeah
1:15:40
hidden lessons I've got a quick dip
1:15:42
into it already but I'm gonna sit down and my
1:15:44
wife who does drama teaching as well on
1:15:46
the side was like oh that looks good so
1:15:49
I think we're both gonna dip into
1:15:49
it and check it out so do we'll put a link in the show notes
1:15:52
below so people can buy a copy of that if they like the sound
1:15:54
of it hidden lessons to
1:15:56
go and growing up on the front line of teaching
1:15:59
that's the full title
1:15:59
Do go and buy that as well and
1:16:02
support Marine in all the work that she does.
1:16:04
Yeah, fantastic, fantastic episode.
1:16:06
Very pleased to have had her on and
1:16:09
yeah, it's nice when you kind of meet these
1:16:11
people for the first time as well and just have a chimp
1:16:13
wag with them and then you find you on
1:16:15
the same page with a lot of stuff. Oh,
1:16:18
same page, very good. Yeah,
1:16:20
I know. Good stuff.
1:16:22
Another great episode in the can. Looking
1:16:24
forward to next week's episode. We're
1:16:28
doing well at the moment, aren't we? We've
1:16:30
got some goodons. Oh, well
1:16:32
we always try to get the good
1:16:34
ones on. Yeah, I think we do. Yeah,
1:16:37
I think we do. So
1:16:39
what's next week? It's
1:16:41
the week after Easter.
1:16:43
Nothing special, is it? Anyway, I was just going
1:16:46
to say, I hope you have a good week, but I think post
1:16:48
Easter, everyone's probably going to be a bit... Do
1:16:51
you know what? It's probably one of those weeks, but like post Christmas,
1:16:53
where everyone's a bit like, sort of back
1:16:55
to whatever. Whatever you're doing this
1:16:58
week, listeners, and you, Giles, do something
1:17:00
for yourself. Find a little thing for yourself,
1:17:02
be it go for a run or read
1:17:04
a book or cinema or whatever. I think it's going to be one of
1:17:06
those weeks that I think you need to
1:17:09
treat yourself, I think.
1:17:10
Well, likewise, Jim. And I think, yeah, we've probably
1:17:12
all been eating
1:17:16
and consuming a lot of chocolate. So
1:17:19
yes, I'll definitely be getting back on the exercise
1:17:21
bike this week. Yeah, exactly.
1:17:24
Do whatever makes you feel good this week
1:17:26
and give you the win,
1:17:27
as we say on the podcast. Exactly, gives you the win. Right,
1:17:30
have a good week, mate. I will see you next week. Indeed.
1:17:34
And remember, don't.
1:17:36
Don't get cancelled. That's the one.
1:17:54
Thank you.
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