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Welcome to the Blossomy Podcast , a
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place for vulnerable conversations
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surrounding body image , nutrition
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, mental health and the complex relationships
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we have with our bodies and food . We'll
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be diving deep into these themes and
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featuring special guests to offer
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expert insights , advice and
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listening to their own stories , because
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, let's face it , we all eat , think
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and have a body , but we rarely
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discuss dilemmas that may arise so
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openly . Thank
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you so much for joining me , maddie
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Bento , and I hope by the end
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of this episode you'll be feeling empowered
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, inspired and oh so
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blossomy .
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Hello and thank you so much for joining us
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today . Today I've got
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the lovely Sarah on . Now
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, sarah , do you mind telling the listeners just
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a little bit about yourself ?
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Yeah , sure , thank you so much . My name is Sarah , I'm
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31 . I'm a real estate agent in Toowoomba . I'm one of
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four . I have a twin brother . I'm
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the youngest by 10 minutes , born
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and bred in Toowoomba . Passion
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for helping people like I should say as well .
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Yeah , that's so amazing
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and wow
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a real estate industry . It's such
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a vibrant and exciting
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industry , particularly at the moment . I'm
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sure you get to have lots
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of really cool experiences and meet
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so many lovely people and also
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get to have that amazing experience
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where you're connecting
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with someone on their investment or their first
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home and having sharing those beautiful
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moments with people .
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Absolutely yeah . It makes
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my job , you know , all the more
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worth it being
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able to help people get into homes and
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, obviously , dealing with people's
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biggest assets in their life as well . So
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, yeah , it can be a very rational roller coaster
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, but it can be very rewarding at
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the same time . I'm just , you know , blessed that I'm able
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to , you know , work a
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job with
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people .
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Really , yeah , yeah , and
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although you're a
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real estate agent , that's actually not why I've
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put you on the show today . You've
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got an event coming up which is very , very
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exciting . Do you want
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to tell us a little bit more ?
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about it . Absolutely
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so . This Saturday , the 7th
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of October , I
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have co-founded an event called it's Cool
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to Talk Grief . It's
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at George Banks in support of the Toowoomba
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Hospice and I guess
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my why . Around
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this event I
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had a fray and thought one
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morning I guess a lot of people have
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crazy thoughts at that time and this was one of
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them my
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mother passed away from cancer two
3:14
years to the day , on
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Saturday , the 7th of October , and
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the grief that I
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experienced , or my journey
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of grief like it's different with everyone
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, but I felt
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the need that it needed to be normalised more
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and I felt the need that we need
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to talk about it more Because
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in my experience , it
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was very eye-opening
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the approach from others and what
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I could put out as well . I feel as though
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everyone struggles through
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grief , no matter if it's a
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death . It can be other things as well but
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I felt the need that we really need to start speaking
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about this publicly and making it
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aware to people that haven't experienced , or help
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people through their journey of grief , that they
4:03
are experiencing .
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Yeah , and that's a huge
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thing to take on and you're right , though
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, it's so needed because we
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often have a tendency
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as a society to shy away from things
4:17
and
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hard stuff . We don't like hard stuff . We want
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to put it in a box and not talk about it
4:23
. And did you find
4:25
in your experience with grief
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that people
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kind of didn't either people avoided
4:33
you or they didn't want to talk to you about
4:35
certain things , or they got a bit like
4:37
funny around ?
4:39
Yeah , what's your experience ? Yeah
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, for sure . I guess you'd
4:44
say a mixture of both . I
4:46
had , obviously , my family and friends , who
4:49
were always there for me , but
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then there was another kind of site to it where
4:54
people really didn't know what to say . They
4:58
like I
5:00
got sick of people saying I'm so sorry for
5:02
you , I'm so sorry for you . I'm like
5:04
, yeah , I'm sorry for me too . What are we going to do
5:06
about it ? I
5:08
got sick of people kind of giving me that approach , and
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that's totally fine because
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we don't know what to say sometimes . But
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I felt as though that
5:19
was the most frequently
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frequently
5:23
said thing to me was I'm
5:25
so sorry for your loss , condolences , and
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that's beautiful as well . But we
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can I'm sure we can find a different approach
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. Yeah , or we
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create with our approach , you know
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and don't get
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me wrong like that was amazing being said to
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me and I really appreciate it
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. But there's only so many lasagnas you can
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freeze too . Yeah
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, I feel as though
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everyone gives lasagnas
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. Yeah
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, you say you're all lasagna now
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and that's just a funny thing to look at . Let's
6:02
just like lighten up , like we
6:04
can do other things with mints everyone
6:06
. But
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that's kind of how I felt and
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everyone's journey is different , but
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we just need to normalize it a bit .
6:21
Definitely , and I think you
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know I particularly
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because I work a lot with women and
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I work with a lot of mums we
6:32
, I often talk with mums
6:34
about the grief of either
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miscarriage or infertility and
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that's a really tough topic
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, like it's a different grief , but it's grief
6:45
the same way , in that
6:47
they often talk about how there's that
6:50
people don't want
6:52
to have certain conversations with them , like
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, or they don't want to mention certain things
6:56
. And I've
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even found that
7:03
with myself , with
7:06
, if I'm honest , my , my husband's
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dad passed away and I go to say some
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things sometimes and then I'm like
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, oh , I shouldn't say that to
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him because his dad's not here . Have
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you noticed that people have that
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moment too ? And it's a little bit like do
7:22
you just kind of laugh at it ? How do you kind
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of approach it ?
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Yeah , yeah , I have , I have kind of experienced
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that and
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what I've got to done is , like
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you can sense , when someone's a bit awkward with you
7:38
about , like , the whole grief subject , so
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I just turned it back to them and said , you
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know , when my mum was in hospice
7:47
in palliative care , I used
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to go in every day to see her
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and I said to mum , like
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how about I share something with you
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that you don't know about me and vice versa
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. And then I would say
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to this person can you be good
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with me about grief and my mum
8:04
? Passing ? I used
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to say things to mum like every
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day that something I didn't
8:11
know about , like her , and vice versa
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. So I'm going to tell you now like something
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about my mum that you didn't know and
8:17
like we kind of , kind of like it makes
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it , we loosen up the tension of how
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awkward it is that you're about to talk to me about grief
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. You don't really know how to handle it . Well
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, let's just turn the situation over
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and then they'll be like oh
8:31
like , and be a bit relieved
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. Yeah , I
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think the approach sometimes just
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just you know , tell the person
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exactly how you feel and say you
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know , I don't know really how to approach this . Can
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you kind of let me know how you feel
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and people
8:49
will tell you yeah .
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Do you ? Is
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there anything that you
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shouldn't say in your experience ? Is
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there anything that you found that
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you're like I can't
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believe ? You just said that , or
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that's a good question , actually
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, and
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not that you want to , you know , put
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anyone in it or anything , but yeah
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, yeah , yeah .
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Sometimes oh
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, great
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question , sorry
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, buddy , no , you're right
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. I
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guess when someone has said
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you know she's
9:37
in a better place now , or she's no
9:39
longer in pain , it's like , well , now
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I'm in pain . Yeah , it's
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like like that's a beautiful thing
9:46
to say , but at
9:49
the time of when you lose someone , the last thing
9:51
you want to hear be like , oh , she's in a better place . It's like
9:53
, well , actually , no , I would go here . I
9:56
guess that kind of thing is a bit weird . However
10:00
, you know , I've
10:02
probably said that to someone saying like , oh
10:04
, it's that you
10:07
know they're no longer suffering . That's
10:09
the worst part . And unfortunately
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, you know , when someone is going down the journey
10:13
of palliative care and you know , knowing that they're
10:15
going to die and knowing you know that they're
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going to die , you've seen the pain
10:20
and suffering . So
10:22
this last thing that's on your mind , you
10:27
know when you're grieving because , like
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, that's almost trauma too
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.
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Yeah , and you're not remembering . You
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know , in your situation you're not remembering
10:37
your mum . In that situation You're
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remembering all the wonderful things of your mum and
10:42
absolutely . Like
10:45
there's a , as you said , there's a trauma
10:47
, but there's a grief there as well that
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you didn't . There was so much time
10:52
. That wasn't the
10:55
way that you could have enjoyed that time
10:57
with your mum .
10:58
Yeah , yeah , absolutely
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.
11:01
And yeah , as well meaning
11:04
as it may be , that
11:06
it could nearly act
11:08
as like a guilt thing as
11:10
well , I don't know I'm
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.
11:13
I hope I'm not putting words in your mouth here , but you
11:16
know I just want my mum
11:18
here and yeah and
11:21
it brings it back to it's cool
11:23
to talk grief like let's talk about
11:25
it . And
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that's that's why we're doing this event , because you
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know , people don't know what to say and let's
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just guide them through that , because a lot of people
11:36
haven't haven't experienced grief , so
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they don't know what to say .
11:40
Yeah , and so
11:42
best thing that you can say is I
11:44
don't know what to say to you , but
11:47
I'm here and I
11:49
want to support them of you . And
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worst thing to say is , I guess , still the lining
11:55
the situation , because you
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know I'm
12:03
all for positivity and but
12:05
you have to be on the right mind frame to do that
12:07
as well .
12:09
Oh , absolutely . And within
12:11
like grief , like
12:16
you start to get bored about
12:18
people asking you how you are and
12:23
like it comes to
12:25
a point where you want
12:27
to start , you know , kind of building
12:31
some foundations to get through
12:33
the grieving process . Like
12:35
, of course , any celebration , any
12:37
anniversary , that's always , that's always going to be very
12:39
difficult . But
12:42
I believe , obviously sticking together
12:44
as a family and you know , I've had
12:46
, I've been very blessed to have beautiful , you
12:48
know , brothers , sister
12:50
, cousins , aunties
12:52
, uncles , there for me and that's really important
12:55
to have a really close family connection
12:58
but , yeah
13:00
, you get bored about , bored with people asking
13:02
, like , how is someone you know , how
13:05
are you going ? I
13:08
guess we just need to normalize it a bit
13:10
more .
13:11
Yeah , yeah and
13:14
yeah , at some point life does
13:17
move on and it has to get
13:19
normal again , so
13:21
to speak , and it's like it's totally okay
13:23
as well . As you said , it's cool to talk grief
13:26
in that it's totally
13:28
okay for someone if they're
13:31
normal , isn't moving
13:33
on as quickly as someone else , but it's also
13:35
totally okay for someone to
13:37
be like no , I'm ready to
13:40
do all the things
13:42
that I was doing before .
13:45
Yeah , and I guess it's really important
13:47
, like anyone that's that's going through grief as well
13:50
. You know there's so
13:52
many different options for
13:54
like help out there
13:56
and it is really
13:58
important , I feel , in my experience
14:01
, to talk to
14:03
a professional that's not
14:05
in your family , that's not
14:07
like that has gone through it . It's really
14:10
like I found that really important to me to
14:12
talk to a professional
14:14
about
14:17
my grieving process as an outsider
14:20
. They're looking in . I found that really
14:22
important and that helped me a lot in my
14:24
journey .
14:26
That's really and
14:28
that's good to know and really good advice
14:30
. Actually , do you
14:33
, if you don't remember , me asking is that something that
14:36
, like hospice
14:38
, helps families with
14:40
, I guess , after
14:43
a loved one passes away , or
14:45
what sort of services
14:47
is that ? Did you just go to your GP
14:49
or ?
14:51
Yeah , I kind of I
14:53
took the approach of . I
14:56
guess I'm a very I wouldn't say very
14:59
, but more of a spiritual kind
15:01
of energy based person
15:04
. So I went down the road of kinesiology
15:07
. Just
15:10
just sitting with a , with a therapist and
15:12
a chair kind of isn't my jam , but
15:15
to other people may see . But I
15:17
feel like I'm
15:20
much more of a , you know
15:23
, energy based person , like I'm
15:25
in real estate . It's all about energy
15:27
. So kinesiology
15:30
was was where I found
15:32
the right fit for
15:34
emotional stability
15:37
and energy as well . But
15:40
there is , there is support
15:42
at the Tool for Hospice if you're wanting to
15:44
go down that route . My dad
15:46
actually has gone through some
15:49
programs there and he and he
15:51
enjoyed them . Yeah
15:53
, well , enjoy it . That's probably the real one . I've
15:55
got a lot out of them , yeah .
15:57
Yeah , well , that's
16:00
great to know that that is available
16:02
as well . Yeah , did
16:04
you notice
16:07
? When you
16:09
know ? You said that you're one of four , so
16:12
I'm sure that you all had different
16:15
experiences and ways through
16:17
the grief . Was that like
16:20
? Was that really difficult
16:22
? And particularly like , with your dad as well
16:24
? You know he's lost , I
16:27
know you've lost your mom , but he's lost his
16:29
partner . Like how does , how
16:32
did you find family dynamic cope with
16:34
the grief ?
16:37
So my brother's in Brisbane , my sister
16:39
is here , so I
16:42
guess being a part like
16:44
was a bit difficult because we couldn't really , you know , bounce
16:48
off each other . In a way Like
16:52
my dad and my sister , we're
16:55
pretty , we're very close , well , our whole family's
16:57
very close , but we could see them every day
16:59
. Yeah , it
17:02
was . It was pretty hard . I
17:06
guess the hardest part is like
17:09
seeing how they are so sad , like
17:11
seeing like my dad , like you
17:14
know , losing his wife after I'm gonna
17:17
get the year on here , 35
17:19
plus years of marriage , I think I think it's 36
17:21
. I've been in trouble for that , but yeah
17:25
, it was hard , it was hard
17:27
. My
17:31
eldest brother has two kids
17:33
and like losing , you
17:35
know , like
17:38
we call her Nana , me , my mum they
17:41
have one at the time but bringing
17:43
the kids into the family aspect , I
17:46
think it's very hard because obviously
17:48
she's not here anymore and my mum was very
17:50
family-orientated and
17:52
loved kids . That's
17:55
probably going to be the hardest ongoing grief
17:57
. Yeah , yeah
17:59
, but we're very
18:01
close-knit family so we
18:05
do support each other a lot . Yeah
18:07
, I think that's wonderful . I'm not sure
18:09
if that answers the question .
18:11
No , no , it does , and
18:13
I think it shows
18:16
that grief is ever-changing as well
18:18
. As you just said , you know
18:20
, we might be having
18:23
a wonderful time at an event
18:25
and really enjoying everyone's company , and
18:28
then someone may
18:31
have a moment of like oh actually
18:34
, this is sucky versus
18:36
. And then you may see someone else being
18:39
sad and thinking , oh yeah , actually
18:41
this is . We should all be
18:43
here together . I wish we were all here together
18:46
celebrating this moment .
18:48
Yeah , yeah , yeah
18:50
.
18:51
In if you don't mind going
18:53
into your grief journey a little bit . What
18:56
do you think has been one of the really difficult
18:59
parts of your grief journey
19:02
, and then what's not
19:05
one of the best parts , but , as you
19:07
said before , I guess one of the things
19:10
that you have learned the most or
19:12
grown the most from .
19:15
Sure , I think
19:17
the hardest part of the grief
19:19
journey and I'm sure I'm not the only one that
19:22
would experience this Like
19:26
when the funeral's over , when
19:29
everything
19:31
goes back to normal , normal . You
19:34
go back to work , everyone goes
19:37
back to normal life . You
19:40
have this sense and feeling
19:42
of like who am I now ? Like
19:45
, is this , it Is this ? Like this
19:48
is just normal , like you just go back and
19:51
continue living your life Like
19:54
it was , like I almost lost
19:56
my own
19:58
self , felt this weird
20:01
sense of unknowing
20:03
and that was
20:05
really hard to kind of process
20:08
that and not bottle it up
20:10
either . I went
20:12
down in the direction of work , work
20:14
, work , work , work , work , work , work . I
20:17
was trying to build my real estate career
20:19
, but if
20:21
I could give anyone any advice is
20:23
take some time off , because
20:26
I did not , and
20:29
that you know I burnt out because
20:32
I didn't take . But I think the hardest
20:34
part is when everything goes back to normal and
20:36
you have this sense of
20:38
like who am I now without this person
20:40
here ? Like , what do
20:42
I do ? How do I keep going
20:44
? Like it was hard , it was
20:46
so hard as far
20:49
as like just getting up , getting ready
20:51
, go to work , like , get the job and like
20:53
energy , energy , energy . Like I was just
20:55
flat for so long
20:57
until I
21:00
realized , all right , we
21:02
need to process this . Yeah
21:05
.
21:09
That sounds really tough . It's like
21:11
, actually it just it
21:13
sounds really shitty and it feels like
21:17
that . It's one of
21:19
those things that everyone has to go through , Like
21:21
, as you said , you know if
21:24
you could go back , you
21:27
know hindsight's , 2020
21:30
, right .
21:32
Oh , absolutely yeah and um
21:34
, yeah again
21:36
with the event , like that's why we want to , you know
21:38
, normalize it , because you know , unfortunately
21:40
people don't see the other side . And
21:43
we want to make sure , you know , people care
21:46
, people care for themselves , really lean into
21:48
what they're feeling and kind of dissect
21:51
it and be able to move throughout
21:53
. And I guess the answer
21:55
to your second question
21:57
, when I moved
21:59
through that and this is
22:01
going to sound so unusual , but
22:04
I feel as though
22:06
as a person
22:09
, I'm so much stronger
22:11
and I'm a different person
22:15
because I went through a good process and
22:17
I feel like somehow
22:20
I am somewhat
22:23
blessed from this experience
22:25
. I'm heartbreaking from this experience . All
22:27
the emotions rolled into one , but
22:30
I know I can get
22:32
through anything because that
22:34
was the hardest thing possibly in my life that
22:36
I had to experience . But on the backside
22:38
of that , I look at life so much differently
22:42
now and I just feel so
22:44
, so much stronger and
22:46
lucky that
22:49
I had a mum that
22:51
was beautiful and
22:53
caring and amazing and she
22:55
obviously brought
22:57
us up to be like this . I
23:00
remember saying to her and I'll
23:02
share this to you that
23:06
when she was in the hospital I said you know , I
23:08
know I'm a firm believer that everything
23:10
happens for a reason , but I don't
23:12
understand why this is happening to you . And she said to
23:14
me because you're strong and
23:16
you can handle it . And I'll tell you what
23:18
. She was right .
23:25
Yeah , what a I
23:31
don't know . That's just got me right in the feels
23:33
. That's such an incredible
23:37
thing for your mum to stay
23:39
to you
23:42
and yeah
23:44
, yeah , that's
23:47
just that's really got
23:49
me in the feels . I don't , actually I'm not prepared
23:51
to give you my next question . Why ? Because
23:53
I'm that was thank
23:56
you for sharing that , because that was really beautiful
23:58
, speaking
24:01
of your wonderful event
24:03
that you've got this weekend . Yeah , you've
24:06
got some other speakers lined up as well , so
24:08
you're speaking and you've got
24:10
some other speakers as well .
24:12
Yeah . So I've got Emma Wagner . We'll
24:14
be speaking as well . She
24:17
has gone through a
24:20
grief journey herself her
24:22
mother , a car accident in
24:25
a loss of a baby . We've
24:28
got Holly Baxter also speaking
24:30
. 10 years ago she
24:32
lost her firstborn , which is so
24:35
sad . And then we've got Asha
24:37
Honeystead , who's a psychologist . She'll
24:40
bring a professional
24:42
side to the grieving process
24:45
. We've got the Fibonacci band
24:47
playing as well . They're amazing and
24:50
, yeah , it should be an awesome
24:53
day .
24:57
What an amazing way to tackle
24:59
such a hard topic , and
25:02
I love that you've got people
25:06
sharing their stories . But then you've got the professional
25:08
aspect as well , because , like
25:11
, don't get me wrong , I think that professionals
25:14
are great and they can impart so much wisdom
25:16
, but there's also something so
25:19
wonderful about a person who looks
25:22
and sounds like you and
25:24
can share a story
25:27
that you think , oh my goodness , that
25:29
could have been me , I want
25:33
to make everyone aware that grief
25:35
isn't just about a death .
25:38
It can be grieving like a divorce , like
25:40
any sort of relationship , friendship
25:42
, loss of a pet , moving
25:44
house , moving jobs . There's
25:47
a whole other branch
25:50
of grief , if you will . Yeah
25:54
, so we want to just
25:56
normalise it , basically
25:58
, and really
26:00
make this event
26:02
also
26:05
what I'm trying to find here An
26:07
enjoyable event as well as a very
26:10
forwarded event as well .
26:13
I think you've got all the incredible
26:16
makings of that to happen and
26:18
, yeah , that it
26:20
all sounds really incredible . I
26:24
wish you all the best for it . Is there
26:26
anything else that you'd like to
26:28
, I guess , impart to
26:31
anyone about
26:34
how to cope with grief , or
26:36
any resources that you'd like to share
26:38
? I'll make sure that I also
26:41
put the event details in the show notes so
26:43
anyone who's looking for that can
26:45
find it . But yeah , is there anything else that you'd
26:47
like to share ?
26:49
Yeah , sure , I'm a very like musically
26:51
inclined person as well . I feel
26:53
like music helped me a lot through my grief
26:56
. Exercise
26:58
does help , and eating
27:00
and having a healthy lifestyle
27:03
is very important
27:05
. Alcohol does not help .
27:11
Yeah , it's funny . Before
27:14
we popped on to the podcast , I was just
27:16
writing a piece about
27:18
alcohol . I was
27:20
like , oh just
27:22
, it's so much fun or in
27:24
so many ways , but at the same time it
27:27
just it can also be so much
27:29
not fun , so not
27:31
fun .
27:33
Everything in moderation .
27:35
Yeah , yeah
27:37
, thank you so much for chatting with me today
27:39
and thank you for sharing your
27:41
story and about the event and
27:44
, yeah , I'm really so grateful
27:46
.
27:48
Thank you so much for having me on . I really appreciate
27:50
it , and
27:52
if you want to still grab a ticket for the event
27:54
, just go to the Facebook page . It's cool to talk
27:57
grief . There'll be a link there . $110
27:59
or proceeds go to the ToonPosperous .
28:03
Awesome and what an amazing organization
28:06
that we've got in ToonBah and
28:08
yeah .
28:11
Thank you so much .
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