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Do spirituality and music mix?
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Is music even permissible in Islam?
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What does it mean to be a man that supports
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women? Buckle up on this episode's
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ride following a musician on a journey
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around the world through his creative
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process, while learning how to love and
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leaning into inspiration moved
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by his soul's relationship with God. I
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know - we cover a lot of ground!
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As mentioned on the last episode of Body and
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Wine, Raz is a musician based in The
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Six producing stadium hip hop from the
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heart. His first single "My World"
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from EP set to release this
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month, October, 2019, featured Isam B and reached
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over 100,000 views on YouTube
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and over 65,000 plays on Spotify.
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With some sprinkling of Raz's music. Let's
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you and I - Charlie Gray - explore with
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Raz: today on Body and Wine.... Today's
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podcast was recorded overlooking
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sky high , the traditional territory of many
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nations including the Mississaugas of
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the Credit, the Anishinaabe, the Chippewa
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the Haudenosaunee and the Wyandot peoples
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and is now home to many diverse nations
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in the Inuit and Metis peoples. We also acknowledge
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that Toronto is covered by Treaty 13 with
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the Mississauga's of the Credit. It is here that Raz
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and I dive right into the casual topic
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of masculinity and Islam....
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First thing that comes to mind when I think about sexuality, because
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it's just top of mind I guess, is there's ways
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to be a man and
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the Muslim . There's responsibilities you have
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.Like, I just got married three years ago and
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well first of all, what's the one thing I don't think a lot of people
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know, which I only gathered when I was
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getting ready to get married... was
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that the woman actually chooses the men for the
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head of their household. The man doesn't
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choose the woman. So that's why right
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before the ceremony is done, the woman is taken
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into a room with witnesses who are
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not related to the male and they and
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the scholar and the imam. And then they,
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the man has to ask her if you're being coerced into doing
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this at all. And if she says yes, or even indicates
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to him that there's any corrosion
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or resistance, he's not allowed
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to carry the wedding. And these are the type of things that I never
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knew. I remember getting ready to get married. I
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didn't know what the whole process was and then I learned
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that, Oh, she could walk into that room and be
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like, "No."
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Yeah, that there is systemic power
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there .
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Yeah. In theory that's good . And it's actually maybe
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not completely, but it's in favor of
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the woman. And then on top of that, we have certain things
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we'd have to do, like pray five times a day.
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We give charity , um , on a regular
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basis. But also there's like a zakat. It's
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a mandatory yearly
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donation. We'd go to hajji. You're supposed
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to, if you can, you go to hajj. And
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interestingly enough, the wife
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could actually say, "Hey, you're
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the head of my household. Okay
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pay my zakat," and she can say "I'm not working." Yeah,
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"You make money and bring it home."
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"Pay my Zakat." And the only thing she, Oh yeah, the
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only thing she has to do for herself is pray five
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times a day cause nobody can do that for you. And I think
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the other thing is go to Hij .
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That's so fascinating.
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That's what I learned at somebody else's wedding. I was like, wait
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a minute, I have a lot
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more responsibility than
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I thought I did. And it made
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me become more of a man,
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or try to become more of a man. Especially
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when I was sitting there and we were like sitting
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in front of the contract and then it hit
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me. I was like, what I'm saying
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is I'm taking responsibility for
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her, for caring for her, for her
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livelihood. Yeah. And regardless
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of if she - like my wife's in residency,
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she will definitely be making more money than
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I am! But regardless
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of aspects of salary
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and success to the material
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sense, I c an't imagine being a father
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and handing off your daughter to a random guy.
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Cause there's, for the most part, there's
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no way he's going to actually know who I am and
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then it hit me. I was like, I a m responsible for somebody
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for the first time in my life. A nd y es, she's responsible
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and she's, she's successful and she's right. But
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at the end of the day, like it's not like it's an unequal
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thing, but just it's this, it's just like
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she could your role in the p artners. Exactly. And
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then she can say, yeah, go work, go figure
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it out. Y eah. Religiously. And I
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have to be like, a ll r ight, so how do
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you think that plays out in reality
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in terms of t he religiously she has that power?
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Do you think that happens still a lot
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of the t imes? I totally think it depends on the time
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and the place. F or one, I don't think it's something that
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is practiced all that much,
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but also one that might not even be fully
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understood. I only say that because o f the small sample
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of people that were at that, at that wedding,
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a lot of us afterwards we're l ike, a nd w
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e're, we actively look for this knowledge. So
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it was interesting to be like - Whoa, I didn't know about
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this. But the cool thing was
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t hat it made sense. It also has to do with the person
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completely either way in the religion it's preached
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that... So the man has that responsibility
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and then God says to the women, like, the best of you,
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pretty much in a nutshell, I'm not quoting it, focus
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on their spirituality and their devotion
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to God. Pretty much they a sk for less.
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So there is this balance
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constantly in I slam, which I'm sure you've heard
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about living in Egypt, but
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u m, t here's supposed to be this balance of
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o kay, you technically have all of these rights,
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the best of you are
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kind and generous
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and patient... Like not taking
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it. As they understood. So just because you have
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that right, doesn't necessarily mean it could be that
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you do and it's better for the both of you.
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Yeah. Well, and I wonder too if at least...
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I've definitely seen this in Christianity where
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sometimes just in terms of in reference
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to you're not entirely knowing
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about that kind of religious power
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in a way that she has is because in
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certain systems, culture
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and interpretation gets mistaken for
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religious law. So people might not even
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ever, some people yeah, might get married and not even
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know that they have that power because they
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haven't been taught it because just the culture is so
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gone one way and forgotten or
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chosen not to to see that knowledge.
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So it's... Do you know what I mean?
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Like the other part of it. I think that's it to some extent. It's
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not practiced necessarily here just
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because we live in a different era and a different
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place where for
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instance, I'm learning now being married
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and my wife has two sisters, majority
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of her friends are female. I'm
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learning what it actually means to
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support women's rights. I
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always knew that I was ignorant to an extent because I'm not
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female and there's just things I want to understand
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and I would always say like, well, that's not
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fair. I don't care if it's male or female. Yeah.
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It doesn't bother me. That's just not fair.
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But when I started to understand
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and be around mature, intelligent
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women who talk about these things, articulate
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it to say , I really don't understand.
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And when I think about that in Toronto
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or in North America in 2019
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naturally with that type of conversation happening,
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I don't think those things would be practiced as much
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as widely. But like you said, some
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cultures even maybe in
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definitely in North America and Canada.
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Yeah , older generations. Even
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in our, in our generation, there's
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that mixed between or that confusion
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between the actual practice
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and the root of what you're supposed to be
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practicing in the religion and then the cultural
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sex that come into play. And then obviously
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if you go to some of those countries where there's
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not a huge melting pot of cultures, that's
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still extremely strong. L ike it's
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still, yeah. It's
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interesting to me that I know that
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in Canada it's very progressive
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in the sense of seeking knowledge
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and understanding. At least I can
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speak for the Muslim community. Understanding the religion for the
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most part, but I almost
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r ealized that we live in a bubble because we assume that
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that same mentality for
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the young people trying to understand
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the religion, right, is the same in
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Palestine and i s the same in India and in Australia
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a nd, right. So it's interesting like some of the issues
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that may not be the hot topic
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right now in Canada
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and w e're like, Oh yeah, w e've moved past that. Yeah.
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You're in a very small 1% world
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that actually knows that are trying
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to d ecide o r i n, and that's not even to
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say w e're better, it's just that it's
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j ust fascinating that like you'd go back and t hey're having the same conversation
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even if it's like a couple of years apart. Exact same conversation.
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Yeah. And even within Palestine you might have that
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bubble that is similar to here, but
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then like five kilometers outside the city,
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we're in a really conservative town. It's a totally different
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conversation. Also it's been cool
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doing this project because I found myself
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talking to a lot of different people who are still
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religious in their own way or like very
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spiritually grounded in their own way, but are kind
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of going through this reclaiming or relearning
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process, which is just fascinating. And
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it seems to be, yeah, it's different the world
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and it's kind of fun. [.
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Yeah... right now I'm like, this is so fascinating. Yeah
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. Like it's like firing off in my head.
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Cool.
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I guess one more point on what I've learned about women in
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Islam and my like... Whatever
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they come to learn about responsibility
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and such like, are you familiar with Hadiths?
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Yeah . So, but you could you maybe explain
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for the listeners?
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The Hadith's, are teachings or lessons
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or sayings and from the life
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of the prophet Mohammad. And
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then the Qur'an is the word of God,
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that word of God relaid to the prophet
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Muhammad . And then the message
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that , which is why he's the messenger who's relaying that information.
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But then the way he lived his life, we
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get the Hadith's more for every day life. The
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way to lead Islamic lifestyle
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comes from the Hadiths. The
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prophet was sent them. It's interesting
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cause there's had an authentication process that has to happen
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to prove the validity of
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what somebody said the prophet had
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said. Because you can't just
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say, Oh he said that he said this. Yeah.
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And then because you have influence. We were
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like, cool, we're following that now. Right. Cause
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it's taken very seriously. So in those
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Hadith's about how we live our life and how the prophet lived
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from his wife. The first
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Muslim who was his first
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wife. So
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it's like, it always blows my mind
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that she was considered to
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be a strong enough voice in a way. And
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when as regarded at these are
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, was what I do a lot on how it was
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very wealthy. Like she chose, she
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was like, she had prophet Mohammed , so it's all
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one was working for her. So she would've had some power
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and she was very influential and
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she was the first Muslim. And I think about that.
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And then there's, in the Qu'ran it says heaven
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is at the feet of your mother. If you're dying,
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let's say you're in the hospital on a death bed,
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the first thing the man does is call your mom
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to ask her if she forgives you for it in any way.
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Anything that you've done or wrong or in any way.
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And if she doesn't say yes,
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you don't go to heaven!
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So you better keep things good with your mom!
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Exactly. And it's like somebody asked the,
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so all of a sudden I'm like, how
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you should I love the people in my life? And
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he said like your mother, your mother,
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your mother and your father.
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Wow.
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And is it's so when I think about all those things
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and then you put them together in context with
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getting married and understanding the rights
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that the woman has and like it's really
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changing my perception
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of masculinity. Like what does it actually mean
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to be responsible and
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a strong man if you don't understand
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any of the rights that your woman hands right
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over you.
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And it's a shift in how you see your power
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as opposed to I have power over and
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more rights than or whatever.
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It's like we have power together, but we have
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different responsibilities and that always comes down
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to however the partners decide
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to work that should meet those things
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and figure it out. Like there's no reason, in my
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opinion, why I can't be a stay at home dad,
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but there's still responsibilities. That's a discussion
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to be had between, there's nothing that says you can't. Yeah,
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it's just my perception change . And when I
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think about all those things like wait a minute the
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most, if you want to call it prolific
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and authenticated scholar is a woman
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obviously because she's living with The Profit,
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saw everything he did and was awake every time he woke up
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and who was there when he cried and
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was there when he was like put down
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and was there when he struggled , saw him and
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all the moments naturally she's gonna
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essentially to change my perspective of how I think
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of a , I guess a masculinity in the religion.
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I spent a lot of time with like my grandmother. I
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just realized this the other day when
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like I'm always looking at and reading about like the whole
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#metoo movement and just women's rights
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and I wouldn't say I'm like studying it, but
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I'm definitely aware and still
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think about it, but I really don't dive into
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it . I would think I'm very much thinking about how I
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function as a human being in the world
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in relation to those things, but she's been
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in the music industry. It's like,
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what would I do if I saw that a body of
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work and you need to understand, but just for myself,
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and I realized that
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biggest influences of my life have all
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been female. My grandmother, cause
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I was like the closest with my grandmother. I
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think a lot more like my mom. I could see
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now that we're older, my brothers are both older than me. I
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would say we're all mixed. Like obviously
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my mom and dad. But I would say I leaned closer
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to my mom and my brothers lived closer to my dad.
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I spent a lot of time analyzing
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my household and being like
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the quieter one. I think that had a lot
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to do with it because like my brothers
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were, my oldest brother's like eight years older than me. The
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ones like three years, I think older than me . Like
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if they were going through an issue or the teenagers
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or whatever, I would just, just wasn't a teenager yet.
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So you were observing?
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Yeah. Now my mom's still had like control over
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me. Right. I was a child. And so
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I really got to
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see like my mom's perspective and
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she would say things to me like, don't ever do that
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or make sure you don't become somebody that's like that.
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So do you see how that affects this and this
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and she's very, she kind of helped you be in
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tune with other people . And I think about
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it, she was very much like, do you see how that
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makes other people feel this way? And she
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actually was the first person that made me analyze a song
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as early as I can remember. Wow . So there was
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a line in a song. I hope you still feel
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small when you stand beside the ocean.
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What's that from?
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It's um , I hope
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you dance. We
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w ould like d riving the car on t he way to school in the morning.
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And we used to go to an Islamic school. So I was in Mississauga a
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nd we were in Brampton, I was in grade 2. And
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I still remember her saying like when you get home from
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school today, tell me what you think that means.
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I like your mom.
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Yeah. And it's so interesting cause like by no means
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was she this way through my teen years but I was really
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young. I start remembering these things. Um,
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yeah cause I think of
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that interaction and having like I
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guess an outside perspective to an extent of my
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family life and for us it's three boys
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and my dad and my mom. I think it really changed
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the way I think and perceive
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just the life. But a lot of that
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mentality came from women in my life and
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now even my wife ever, I realized that she
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was a huge influence in my life obviously.
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But even like psychologically
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and it just seems to keep being women.
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I find I have the better conversations with women. I
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have more insightful conversations.
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And why do you think that is? In terms of what?
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I don't know what other men are maybe going through?
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Yeah. In my
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opinion. I think it's a lot of the whole,
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how does that make you feel? And I don't
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think the guys around me or the guy, like when I grew
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up that tapping into your feelings
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was a , not even just tapping into them, cause
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obviously everybody's feeling things and they have feelings.
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But I think it was um, more so
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articulating, being able to say,
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I'm upset... or I didn't like that
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or I feel sad about
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that and I don't know
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what happened. But along the way I became,
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when I realized that most guys
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around me didn't speak that way or didn't know
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how. I think it was really, it didn't know how to articulate
15:50
to get into that conversation.
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I realized that I could and
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that it made me different in my
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circles to be able to just talk
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and say whatever I'm feeling. And to some
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extent I think all the sports and that
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performance side of my life was,
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it made me more resilient to people
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saying something, playing at a high level, you're pushed to
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a really, you're pushed to your limits a lot
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and then you realize that it really doesn't matter
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what other people say or do and it's how you perform.
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And that informs the rest of my life now.
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Cool. So I think with all that combined, I started saying,
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you know what, I'm going to talk about a lot of strength of character
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and like this is what makes the difference. I can articulate
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that and it allows me to write the way I write.
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And you haven't been afraid of putting that emotion in there?
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No. And I don't know . I don't know why I'm able to
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say it. I just realized that I could
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and now it's translated into, I make
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vulnerable music. I
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have a song out now called "Chkchkbang." It's very specific,
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a little, not aggressive, but it's intense and
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it's specific. And this specific perspective
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I had on with like the black lives matter, and just
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oppression of the black community in general,
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the African American community. I had a very specific
16:53
thing to say about it. Obviously that's going to have a specific tone
16:55
and I said that. But if I'm, for the most part, if I'm
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talking about like, Oh, this relationship I
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had or the way this person made
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me feel and that's going to be the song,
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okay . I find myself thinking
17:06
constantly like it doesn't make me want to cry,
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then it's not good enough. And it's interesting because
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I think at an early age I, for whatever
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reason to realize that it was like I would find
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myself in my bedroom just like crying
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and I didn't know why. I was like, I'm just crying. And then
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as I got older, I obviously didn't tell anybody that.
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You're probably the first person I told that. But like I
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just, I was like, I cried and I was like, I'm not
17:26
making myself cry. I'm not sitting there being like, yeah
17:28
, you should cry. But you're obviously experienced picking up
17:30
something in the world that is recognizing the
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feeling and it , but it's cool that you haven't identified
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that as a negative where it's like some people would think,
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because I know a lot of people around me and with
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majority I would say they would think males would
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be like, I shouldn't be crying.
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Like a sensitivity is seen as a bad
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thing.
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Exactly.
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As opposed to being like in tune or aware
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or whatever.
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Yeah. And as I got older I realized like, no, I'm
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just in to , I figured out , I started figuring out why
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I cried. No, cause that is innately There's
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something to cry about - it's okay, why aren't
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you crying? Yeah. T ook m e i nto like my twenties
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t o b e l ike, Oh it's a good, y
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ou just have no emotion.
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Right. Or you just shut it down, shut
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it down. You don't know how to feel.
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That to me is more sad and upsetting
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than me crying. But that's like,
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I don't, I couldn't tell you why I got in that direction.
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I've sure me, I guess a blessing that I went in that direction
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and totally, and I actually don't care if
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somebody says anything about it, so let me do
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it.
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Totally. Not everybody can do this, and it helps
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create culture where that's more and more possible.
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I think that was a great point because a big part of my
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music is culture. I have a culture
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I'm trying to set for myself
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first. That reflects the people around
18:38
me and the culture becomes
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a big part of it. Like if I'm not saying
18:43
what I'm feeling, how can I build that culture
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and be like that for myself.
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Yeah. If you want that for other people, but you can't do it
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yourself,
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Then yeah, and I think a big part of it became
18:52
why music is a big thing for me spiritually
18:55
and I guess in terms of sexuality
18:57
as a male in that side of
19:00
sexuality is it's my way
19:02
of constantly telling myself like, Oh, if you want
19:04
that to be that way or you think it should be that way,
19:06
do it yourself.
19:07
Yeah . Figure it out on your own first.
19:08
You can't expect other people to be critical.
19:11
Don't like your music. You expect people
19:13
to talk about their emotions. If you don't
19:15
talk about it...
20:01
cool. And so did your wife?
20:03
How did you guys meet?
20:04
Yes when I came back from Germany actually
20:06
I saw her at a Williams
20:08
cause I was doing like all this music stuff.
20:10
Wait, sorry. You were in Germany doing
20:12
it ?
20:12
I was on tour.
20:13
When was that?
20:15
Years ago . The summer
20:17
of 2013 cool
20:18
So I Went
20:22
to Western for kinesiology. Loved
20:24
it. And then I started, I was writing for a long
20:26
time and I started actually rapping
20:29
randomly in this like resident
20:31
Dawn, like their RAs dorm room. They
20:34
were just like messing around and he's like, Oh do
20:36
you have to get on the mic? And actually like wrote
20:38
and I did it and then he went and like
20:40
played it for a bunch of people in the residence and
20:43
people were like, Oh you're the guy that song
20:45
are you talking about it ? But like I just didn't even
20:47
know. Yeah. Did forgot about it and then
20:49
got a lot of good feedback and realized that I actually enjoyed
20:52
the process of it. Which now I realize
20:54
is the more important thing is understanding the process
20:56
and loving the process. Yeah . Um,
20:59
yeah cause that's what will give you a career. Yeah . I
21:01
think rather than loving the outcome.
21:04
So I started recording more. That's when I went, I found a Mic
21:06
and I was at the same time applying, I was
21:08
trying to get into med school. So my summers were just like
21:10
MCAT courses, extra courses the
21:13
week before I wrote my MCAT like the exam to actually
21:15
see that you need to even apply to get into that school.
21:18
Yeah . It was literally the Sunday, I think
21:20
before and after . Right on the Saturday.
21:22
Wow. After a whole summer of courses
21:24
and whatever, somebody asks me like why I want it to
21:27
be a doctor. At that point into second
21:29
year university, I had realized
21:31
that I wanted to take music seriously, but it still wasn't
21:33
at the forefront of what I was doing, but I was taking it seriously,
21:36
let's do it and all my spare time I was, I was making music
21:38
and writing and then I , somebody asked me why I want it to be
21:41
a doctor and I was like, cool
21:43
, I do not have an answer for you. And then
21:45
it hit me where I was like, I'm going to go sit through this
21:47
six hour exam. Never mind if
21:49
I get them to the best and if I don't,
21:52
putting myself through this for another year to try
21:54
to get in because that was probably the , the
21:56
more what's more likely , um
21:58
, in Canada at least it takes like a couple tries.
22:01
Yeah. As much as I did really well,
22:03
I wasn't like a shoe -in. And then I was laying on
22:05
top of that. You want to be an orthopedic surgeon that's going to
22:07
take you, I think the residency is like nine
22:09
years or something, let alone just having spare time
22:11
for music. Exactly. Energy. And
22:14
then it hit me. I was like, yo , why am I doing this?
22:16
Wow. And then I told my parents and they were supportive
22:18
but still kind of obviously upset because
22:21
I had high ambition. That's when like everything
22:23
shifted and I started becoming a creative
22:25
I think as opposed to just writing. And I started
22:27
in my creative process and from
22:30
there getting to Germany,
22:32
how I got there was that summer.
22:35
Okay. You're still in university?
22:36
Yeah. So I'm going into third year, summer before fourth year , somebody
22:39
asked me, there was the a exchange trip for the
22:41
kinesiology students to Australia. And
22:43
one of my friends who I've met, maybe like at one month before
22:45
Rachel was like, Hey, I'm applying
22:48
and you should apply. And then another friend of mine was
22:50
like, Hey, I might apply. Why don't you go? So
22:52
Rachel just told me she's going and this other friend that I knew
22:54
a little bit better, it was like, you should go. And my immediate
22:56
response, I'll still remember this , I'm standing in the gym at Western.
22:59
And immediately I go, no, I gotta be
23:01
here. I have courses in the summer. And she was like,
23:03
no, you don't, but you're so,
23:05
so like instinctively.
23:08
That's what my summer was. And I was like, Oh, we're
23:10
gonna write to actually do it in the. My
23:13
new friend Rachel was like, the deadline
23:16
closed in February and this is like April at this allowed
23:18
before exams. Oh , that sucks. Yeah. But Hey,
23:20
I have a whole summer and we figure what I'm going to do. Rachel was
23:22
like, you should go hand it in. I'm like, I'm two months,
23:25
three months late . When he said I walked into the office
23:27
and they're like, actually yeah, there's somebody pending
23:29
so we'll take your allocation. When I handed in
23:31
my application, she came in to say
23:33
no,, I
23:35
said hi to her or whatever and she left and I handed in my
23:37
application but I didn't like three days and
23:39
I ended up going Australia for the first semester
23:42
of fourth year there I met this guy,
23:44
Germany leads in Europe events. Sebastian , um
23:46
, have been done book fools and
23:49
we did with like this guitarist
23:51
from Mexico and a singer from New
23:53
Jersey, like these random cool mashup mash
23:55
up of people. We did like random shows on campus.
23:57
Where were you in Australia?
23:59
We're in Melbourne.Yeah, and
24:01
we did a few shows and then he says,
24:03
Hey, we're going on tour next summer, you should come!
24:05
And this is right when school in
24:08
Australia Finished in October roughly. We didn't have to
24:10
be back until January. So right before we were all about
24:12
to go in different directions. Just travel. He's
24:14
like, you should come. We'll talk when we all get
24:17
back at the end of December. And I was like, all right , cool.
24:19
Whatever. Sure. Yeah . And we ran , I went
24:21
to Thailand, Cambodia, Tasmania,
24:23
and then we get back and we're all getting
24:25
ready to just go home now. Traveled, got back to Melbourne
24:27
, packed all our stuff and he's like, so I told my
24:30
band that you are coming so could you be here by July 3rd or
24:32
something? And I was like, Oh, you're serious. I
24:34
was like, wait a minute, I'm not doing anything this summer - I'm
24:36
graduating. I was like, I want to take music
24:38
seriously. In that time I had started writing for
24:41
a some who's on the song that I just released "My World."
24:43
So he's part of a band outlandish
24:45
for a long time who was like really
24:48
well known. The tour ended
24:50
on the North sea on the North coast of Germany,
24:52
which w as like an hour South of Copenhagen where Isam B was.
24:55
And his band Outlandish was on
24:57
tour, but they were back for four days. And
24:59
those four days. The first day was the day we
25:01
finished the tour, s o we did like two or three
25:03
Germany. I was staying with the guitarist a nd t he b and in
25:05
like his attic, in Cologne,
25:08
G ermany, and then they dropped me off at a random train
25:10
station and I like, and I met y ou s
25:12
ome and I literally got there to just shake his hand. But I was on
25:14
a, actually when I went to Germany, I went on a one way ticket.
25:17
So I said, I'm going to go, I'm going to make music and what happens. I'm
25:19
g etting this lined up t o, well I'm doing a tour. It's going to
25:21
end an hour South of Copenhagen. This
25:23
guy who I'd been writing for in the industry who
25:26
w as super successful and I have never
25:28
met him face to face. He actually told me, he's
25:30
like, you should go home. So I got h im. I 'm like, Hey, I'm
25:32
here. I g ot t o find a place to live
25:34
and I just want to make music work. And then the
25:37
next day i t's like, I think y ou should go home.
25:37
Why do you think did he say that?
25:39
His interpretation
25:44
was he's never seen an artist genuinely
25:46
grow like an audience and a fan
25:48
base and themselves outside of their
25:50
own community. At first and at the time I was
25:52
like, you don't know what you're talking about - we have Youtube and whatever
25:54
and then it hit me. I literally woke up at like
25:56
5:00 AM one day and I was just like, I need to go home....
25:58
["My World" Raz feat. Isam B - clip plays] And
27:00
then I came back early. It was like November,
27:03
2013 yeah. When I came back is when I met Heba
27:05
so I was just focused on music. Yeah , I'm back,
27:07
but all I'm doing is music and then I can
27:09
get a job is lady that I
27:11
was in the , I was just like constantly working on stuff
27:14
and then I ran into her. We got married like it probably
27:17
was like a year after.
27:19
That's really cool. Following on your Instagram
27:21
and stuff that you've been pretty vocal about
27:23
your beliefs in and around your career, which has been
27:25
kind of interesting to watch. What is your relationship
27:28
between your faith and your music? How does one
27:30
influence the other or express itself
27:32
or is it really that related? Like how do you see that relationship?
27:35
When I started writing music and
27:37
I started focusing, I realized that the people
27:39
that I looked up to, like Lauryn Hill and Talib Kweli, and Lupe,
27:42
they either were spiritual or
27:44
they followed a specific religion or they'd studied like
27:46
Islam and Christianity and Judaism and
27:48
what they were saying in their music. I was like, that's what I want to say,
27:51
cause no matter what Lauryn Hill said, it was like ultimate
27:53
truths. It's like a capital T truth. So
27:55
whether you were Muslim or Christian or Catholic
27:58
or Buddhist, she's stirring something in you for sure...
28:00
She says something and you have to, you have to
28:02
agree. You're like, Oh yeah, you have to feel
28:04
it. I wasn't getting that from, if you
28:06
wanna call it the Muslim industry music. So
28:08
I was like, where are they getting these truths from? Like
28:11
how are they saying these things and it hitting home for
28:13
me when I have no relation to Lauryn Hill, We
28:15
didn't grow up in the same place. We're not even
28:17
the same gender or whatever. I
28:20
realized that is she tapping into, yeah . Then
28:22
I learned that she had studied the Bible in
28:24
the Quran and like was very spiritual
28:27
in that sense... Just learning. And then I was like, wait
28:29
a minute, I have the Quran and that's
28:31
when my writing really took a turn and I started actually writing
28:33
stuff that I really liked. And so from the get-go,
28:35
that's how the, I guess the spirituality came
28:38
into my music. It hit home for me. My
28:40
grandfather really drove it into my head that like Islam
28:42
and being Muslim is a way of life. It's not just religion,
28:44
it's all check boxes is a way of life. So
28:47
it's interesting cause like when I started
28:49
writing raps and music
28:51
was what I actually realized that I was practicing
28:54
my religion more because now it was, it was of
28:56
like holding me up to a standard for my, within
28:58
myself. Wow. Like what are you talking about? You
29:00
want to have to think about all of these things. It was like eight years
29:02
from now, 10 years from now when I'm dead,
29:05
I can't take any of that stuff back. What do I want
29:07
to have said? What ? What I grew into and what
29:09
I realized was I for a long
29:12
time didn't say anything.
29:14
For the most part, my music was not layered
29:16
with anything that was directly
29:19
related to Islam in the sense of
29:21
like saying the prophet's name or saying
29:24
some prayers in Arabic on it or whatever.
29:26
Yeah. But yeah, I realized that
29:28
I really wanted to showcase the lifestyle
29:31
and the understanding
29:33
of my religion for wherever I was at that point
29:35
in my life. Yeah. I just sing everyday
29:38
things saying in ways that everybody can relate
29:40
to cause for me to be honest, part of it is
29:43
if you're already Muslim, you're going to understand
29:45
what I'm saying in relation to the
29:47
daily or the hadiths or the practice or the
29:49
struggles we go through. And to be honest,
29:51
for as a Muslim, I'm not, I'm trying to get people
29:54
who aren't Muslim to get some
29:56
insight into what we go through or what
29:58
our lifestyle is like or why we
30:00
do the things we do. Especially in
30:02
nowadays where everybody's a terrorist
30:05
or minorities in various
30:07
areas, whether you are black or Muslim or
30:10
just ethnic in any way.
30:12
Everybody has a struggle and it's exaggerated.
30:14
Now, not exaggerated Is the wrong word is blown
30:17
out of proportion now where people
30:19
don't even do any research before they
30:21
act or talk about somebody
30:23
from a different population or community.
30:26
So I was like, you know what? I'm going to say it in the
30:28
way that I know like my everyday vernacular
30:30
and how I switched just being yourself anyway. Exactly.
30:33
And underlying all of my music
30:35
is that is the fact that all of it comes from
30:37
my everyday life. Living as a Muslim, what I'm
30:39
going up and down with, if I'm like not praying,
30:41
if I'm just thinking if I'm real.
30:44
Yeah. I was like, you know what? This is what it
30:46
is. I want it to be real
30:48
to me and genuine to me and as authentic
30:51
to me as possible.
30:52
Which kind of cool, cause I think it kind of goes back to
30:54
something we talked a little bit about earlier
30:56
in terms of this reclaiming of religion.
30:59
If people who just want to listen to Muslim
31:01
music, want to listen to music, most of the music that
31:03
exists already and if people don't want to,
31:05
well then that definitely exists. But there's
31:07
so many people trying to figure out, okay , well I am like
31:10
religious or have this part of me, but it's
31:12
not like then I only fit in this box of what
31:14
some being Muslim means must exist in
31:16
this.
31:17
Exactly. I don't agree with everything Drake is saying.
31:19
Right, but sounds
31:22
a lot better than what's coming out in the Muslim community
31:24
and everybody likes what Drake's doing and it's fun.
31:27
And then , in the Muslim community, you're like, I fit
31:29
better there, I guess because I do
31:32
want to, or I am practicing my religion,
31:34
so maybe I shouldn't be listening to some of
31:36
the stuff that Drake is saying, but
31:38
I don't like that music. That's exactly
31:41
what that , you're right . That's exactly where I sat and
31:43
I just realize...
31:45
Yeah like why does it have to be black and white?
31:46
Exactly. Like , actually this is the first
31:48
time I'm going to say this in a way it's a
31:50
thought. I like this a thought I've had.
31:53
There's definitely um , a difference of opinion
31:55
on even just music being permissible
31:58
in Islam. I'm not sure if you knew about...
32:00
Well I only know about that in the
32:02
extreme context of Saudi Arabia cause I have a lot
32:04
of students from Saudi. And so in terms of
32:06
just the heightened way that I guess some Arab
32:08
law presents itself, there would be a lot of
32:10
cities where like playing public music isn't allowed.
32:12
So that's the only context I would really have heard.
32:15
Yeah .
32:15
And that's something that I think about all the
32:17
time. I do a lot of research for myself.
32:19
I speak to a lot of world leading scholars and whenever
32:21
I can, and I try to figure out my thing and
32:23
I for myself think that is permissible
32:26
to a certain extent. So if I'm swearing
32:28
and talking about drugs and alcohol and sex and all
32:30
these things that are genuinely not permissible
32:33
in the religion, naturally it's not reasonable for me to
32:35
be saying those things . If I'm making music that's just like
32:37
clapping or so people can drink and party
32:39
in a club, that's not something that
32:41
I even do. Nevermind, like that's
32:43
permissible as a Muslim. And what I realized
32:46
recently in the last maybe year was
32:48
the debate within the Muslim community
32:50
is like it's either mystical or it's not,
32:52
and what I realized is when you actually do
32:55
it, there's, I feel like not
32:57
enough people have done it or dove
32:59
deep enough into it to realize
33:02
that it's a job. I
33:04
think people take it as it's either spiritual
33:06
or it's not. So the people in the Muslim community
33:08
who make music like let's call them Muslim
33:10
industry and music. Yeah . They're like,
33:12
Oh, it brings us closer to God. People listen
33:14
to it and they want to practice their religion more, which is
33:17
fair. If that's happening, that's happened. Totally. I'm
33:19
not there. I can't say that that's not happening. But then
33:21
on the other side, the debate is, no,
33:23
it's wrong because of this, this and this. Their interpretation
33:25
of that and that's it. It's like spiritual or it's
33:28
not. And what I realized trying
33:30
to fit in in the middle was for
33:32
me, music isn't spiritual at all. That
33:34
hit me. I was like, wait a minute, what are we
33:36
even debating about? And I stopped having
33:38
the debate. I stopped having it cause I was like
33:40
the one thing from the Quran , the one verse
33:42
that always brings me, it always
33:44
brings me calmness and brings me back to
33:47
my purpose is God tells
33:49
us that the state of mankind will never
33:51
change until mankind changes
33:53
the state of its own heart.
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34:21
So I was like, why am I debating with you and debating
34:23
with you? I have to figure out what I'm doing to make any type
34:26
of difference in my own life or anybody else's
34:28
life and I just realized this isn't about spirituality. I
34:31
think that's an old debate when it comes to music and the arts
34:33
because it's not just music - visual artists, it's
34:36
actors, it's anything. I do still
34:38
agree that there's a line that you can't cross
34:40
if you're a practicing Muslim and
34:42
you're trying to be better as a Muslim, but
34:45
there is a middle ground that is,
34:47
this isn't spiritual for me. This is a tool
34:49
that I use to get out what I need to say to
34:52
be creative. I think my creativity
34:54
is probably tied to my spirituality. It makes
34:56
me like for you personally it might be exactly
34:58
like an outlet, but the music
35:01
itself is not spiritual for me as a Muslim,
35:03
God tells us exactly how to get closer to
35:05
him. We pray you do those five pillars of the
35:07
religion, so it's not like your music is taking away from
35:09
me doing that. Like if you left, for example, like working
35:12
at a clothing store or something, it wouldn't be
35:14
like, okay, maybe you could talk about ethics around
35:16
it and where the clothes came from or something like that. But it's not
35:19
like that . Fundamentally nobody does. They just go
35:21
and they work and then it might come down to the point where
35:23
the company like Nike or something gets so
35:25
big, it's so obvious that people start quitting.
35:27
But really nobody goes to an engineering position
35:29
and thinks about where that engineering is going. Nobody
35:31
really thinks of if you're a software engineer and the way he thinks
35:33
about you might to some extent, but not any
35:35
questions you've become an or that
35:38
can be your personal journey. Like why am I want to do that? Exactly.
35:40
But not someone having that outside opinion. Exactly.
35:43
But to even start making music is , is an
35:45
issue. Um, I think it's less
35:47
now, but when I started eight,
35:49
nine years ago, I was still very much an issue.
35:52
But then I hit this phase in my life
35:54
where I was like, I was being pulled into both directions
35:56
and then I realized, wait a minute, I don't actually
35:58
agree with any of these directions. My direction
36:00
is if God told me,
36:02
and I'm still on a journey to understand if it's, I wouldn't
36:05
say it's permissible, but if it's going to be
36:07
what I do for my entire life. Because
36:09
for me the first step was I started
36:11
referencing the Qu'ran and my religion and trying to learn it
36:13
so I can write better than it flipped on me
36:15
and I started like, Oh, it's actually has answers
36:18
to a lot of the issues in my life cause I mean keep reading
36:20
about it and I really started following.
36:22
I try to follow more and more. I realized
36:24
that that was like step one for me, getting
36:26
closer to God, which is my ultimate goal
36:28
in life. So who am I to
36:30
say that step two and three and four it can be the same thing.
36:33
Like that's going to be as a Muslim. I'm like, that's going to be whatever
36:35
God wants it to be. Right now
36:37
there's a tool that I have to use,
36:39
but I don't feel a connection to a higher
36:42
thing. When I was into music.
36:43
What about when you sing, do
36:45
you feel anything?
36:46
I think it was easy before
36:49
as a Muslim to pick one of those sides.
36:51
Oh yeah. I feel very spiritual when I do it,
36:53
but I realized that it might be an issue
36:56
or a matter of articulation. So
36:58
when I'm on stage and I'm rapping or
37:00
I'm singing or I'm performing, it's
37:03
exhilarating and it's empowering
37:05
and more so for me it's inspiring. Cause
37:08
I can see the effect that my words
37:10
are having on people and people come up to me afterwards. For
37:12
me, my lyrics are everything. So people come up to me after the
37:14
show, almost every show, which I never
37:16
thought would happen. They're like, Oh, what did you
37:18
say? Like on this lines and this, this and this.
37:21
There's a line of having a song that's actually coming out in a
37:23
few weeks. Cool. Right? Say you poured a couple
37:25
shots. Now I'm the only one that's sober. And
37:28
this young kid heard it when I performed it
37:30
last year and came up to me . He's like, what did you say
37:32
about pouring shots ? And I knew this kid was Muslim
37:34
and he might've been struggling with something alcohol
37:36
or whatever. It was so interesting cause I
37:38
was like wow. Yeah , it tells me every time I have
37:40
to be very careful what , what? And then I explained it to him . But
37:43
the fact to me is inspiring. But I would
37:45
not say for myself it's spiritual.
37:47
But I think in the past people were like, yeah, get
37:50
in a , get a lift from it. Wow . And that's automatically
37:52
related to spirituality because you're getting the lift . But
37:54
the reality is if you're talking about mostly
37:56
being Muslim and being closer to God
37:59
or being uplifted, there's very specific ways to do that.
38:01
It's very simple. The biggest thing for
38:03
a Muslim is their intention. That's what you're judged on.
38:07
Cause if your intention changes, that's the issue. I'm
38:09
realizing it's a very lonely place
38:12
in the midst of ministry. There are people doing it though, like Isam
38:14
B which is why he's a mentor of mine. Cat
38:16
Stevens. So Yusuf Islam , a
38:19
mentor Isam's too. Very
38:21
profound. Like he actually stopped making music all
38:23
together when he converted and then came
38:25
back to it and wrote a book on it and Isam sent
38:27
me the book and said every young Muslim artist
38:30
needs to read this.
38:31
Yeah. And what's the book called? Do you remember.
38:33
Why I still carry my guitar. There's another
38:35
verse from Quran that's actually, don't
38:37
quote me, it might be head teeth, but He who knows himself moves
38:40
closer to God.
38:41
So you're checking yourself a bit.
38:42
Exactly. It constantly pushes me to check myself.
38:44
And then when I read that book I just realized that
38:47
he might be the only expert on the topic. Cause
38:49
those scholars have really, and that's not obviously
38:51
they're the spiritual or the religious experts
38:54
on why it might be permissible or why
38:56
it's not. But when you're talking about doing
38:58
it as a career, he was writing with
39:00
Paul McCartney and Ringo
39:03
Starr when he converted them , dropped everything
39:06
sold all his guitars to auction, didn't make
39:08
any money off it, cut out his publishing from
39:10
these music and make money off of it. Because
39:12
that's the other thing. As a Muslim, it's like if you're
39:14
getting your money in a way that's impermissible, then that's
39:17
not good. That's what you feed your kids
39:19
with like a lot of responsibility. You get from God.
39:21
It's not yours. It's something you used to do,
39:23
things, things you're doing are, yeah. If you want to save
39:25
quote unquote tainted as a Muslim, that's not right. So if you
39:27
cut it all the, all the money, everything
39:30
is wild. And then he wrote a book about why he came
39:32
back to making music and I was like, you've
39:34
been through it and understand
39:36
the nuances. It's very easy for people to stand on the outside
39:39
and talk about it. And now I go through it and
39:41
I'm realizing how my spirituality is tied to it.
39:43
And the first thing that hit me was it's not spiritual
39:45
for me. ["Myself" Raz - audio clip plays] But
40:49
yeah, it's been an interesting journey of connecting
40:52
my art with my spirituality
40:54
because at least in the Muslim community
40:57
it's kind of like a mess.
40:59
I'm curious, you'd also mentioned just a little
41:01
bit of the image that some people have about
41:03
Muslims in the world and that being also a bit
41:05
of a mess sometimes. Have
41:08
you found that in the music industry in terms
41:10
of how people perceive you? Has that been more
41:12
positive? Has it been kind of struggle
41:14
in that?
41:15
That's a fantastic question. When I first started
41:18
and I realized that, so
41:20
9/11. For instance, right around
41:22
the time w here I really was starting
41:24
to f inish music a nd r ight, ready
41:27
to put it out, I was always in a lot of
41:29
like social activism and community
41:32
work. And for me,
41:34
because I'm sure this will have some people
41:37
upset, I r ealized that all of the
41:39
picketing and debating and
41:42
arguing, to be honest, that we were doing to try
41:44
to prove that we as Muslims weren't
41:46
terrorists, wasn't doing anything. In my
41:48
opinion, n othing was moving. I actually,
41:50
John Mayer says this in, u h, in
41:52
one of his songs, I believe, on Continuum.
41:55
Okay. He, the whole song is about if
41:57
we fight for on based
41:59
on our beliefs, we're never g oing t o have any changes.
42:02
Everybody has different beliefs. Everybody thinks that what
42:04
they believe is right. And one of the lines it says is that
42:06
when have you seen someone actually c
42:08
hanged their mind from the words on a sign? And
42:11
then it hit me. I was like, damn.
42:13
C ause i t's exactly what I went through. I was like, I
42:16
got to the point where I was like this for me. I didn't
42:18
see a movement in t his picketing. Like we can
42:20
yell and scream and do whatever we want, but to be honest,
42:22
they're telling us that were
42:24
aggressive and we, if we see
42:26
somebody that's not Muslim, we're supposed to kill them. But
42:28
everything's based on this aggression and this i s i n this murder
42:31
and this idea of war and
42:33
conflict k ill whoever's not like
42:35
you. So what do you think w ill b eing changed?
42:37
So what happened to me
42:40
was I realized what would bring change
42:42
was the same verse from the Qu'ran - mankind
42:44
will never change y ou unless they change the state of their own hearts .
42:46
L et's start with you - start with what are you
42:48
doing make a difference? In Islam, everything's based
42:51
i n family. So you're strong i n your family
42:54
c ore a nd every way, not just spiritually, every
42:56
way. Then we have a better
42:59
chance. So when I think about that, I was like, what
43:01
am I doing in my life? I'm
43:03
worried about what's going on the other side of the world, which
43:05
is completely fair and we should,
43:07
but it's that s aying of think
43:09
globally, act locally...
43:11
The change starts at home.
43:12
How can you change anything? So that's what really hit home
43:14
for me. And when I realized that I started thinking
43:17
about everyday conversations and rhetoric.
43:19
So when I came back from Germany it was on Christmas
43:22
day. So cause I was like cheaper
43:25
ticket's it's going to be
43:27
awesome. Yeah, I'm just there. I'm sleeping across four seats.
43:30
There was another girl there around my age and I was
43:32
like, yo , you don't celebrate Christmas either? And
43:34
she , she was Jewish. She was like, no. Yeah. So we
43:36
started talking and she actually asked to be on the plane
43:38
at one point.... So aren't... Muslims
43:41
suppose to kill people
43:42
that aren't... and she kinda like
43:44
tailed off. Whoa . And I just kind of laughed and
43:47
I was like, was...
43:48
She was , she was genuinely asking me?
43:50
She's like, aren't they supposed to like she didn't say
43:52
kill, but she was like, I'm supposed to like, like wah
43:54
, like, yeah. And she kind of like tailed
43:57
off. And then I was like, well, you've leave it on, you've been
43:59
on this plane for about six hours, so I think you're okay. And
44:01
then I said, I'm not like waiting till I was
44:03
, when I told her was , I'm like, I don't know if you know this . Well , since
44:05
we're actually with Judaism,
44:08
we're the closest ties than
44:10
any other religious community. Like we
44:12
halal meat. We can eat kosher,
44:15
I can go to your house and eat all the meat you as long
44:17
as not pork. And that's a
44:19
strong thing to, that's a strong - our
44:22
burial process is very similar. It was interesting
44:24
to hear that because I started thinking of the conversations
44:27
that people have and I said, what
44:29
if, to be honest, if I was around the people I
44:31
had previously been around picketing and debating and
44:33
arguing and just saying, no, we're not that
44:35
way. We're not terrorists. If I was still
44:37
that person, and she asked me that
44:39
and I got upset, what does she leave that conversation
44:42
with? Yes . And once she goes home and
44:44
she's from the U S and somebody randomly
44:46
goes, Oh, these Muslims are crazy.
44:48
Very common line. I would say. Not
44:51
everybody's saying these Muslims kill people, but I'm sure people
44:53
are like, I don't know about these Muslims. Yeah, I don't know about
44:55
these, these Muslims . And like they, I don't
44:57
know about that. And then she, the only
44:59
thing she can do is refer to a personal experience
45:02
and she knows that I'm Muslim. And what if when she asked me that,
45:04
I flipped out. It's not a
45:06
far jump to be like, yeah, would he hit somebody
45:09
that said something more aggressive at a temper tantrums,
45:11
looking at whatever. So when I, and that's when I went quiet
45:13
about being Muslim in the industry in general. So
45:15
I am getting to your point, yeah . When I go into
45:17
the studio, I made a , um , after
45:19
that flight I made it a conscious effort to
45:21
not say that I'm Muslim, to
45:23
not say initially just not walk up and
45:25
be like, yeah, I do mean this. I'm Muslim. People can
45:27
discover it as they get to know like if I'm living that
45:29
life and I live up to those standards, I
45:32
want people to respect me cause they're not the
45:34
most part. But there are people, especially
45:36
back around 9/11, and even now
45:38
who, if they hear that their perception changes immediately.
45:40
So I was like, I want to change
45:43
the route of things. I think the route is
45:45
how am I changing conversations.
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46:08
So the producer I work with, Spencer
46:09
at Taboo Music, he is
46:12
unbelievable. He's got awesome tattoos. One
46:20
of my closest friends now, he is
46:22
one of the most grateful and like humble people I've ever
46:25
met, which are two of the characteristics
46:27
that Muslims are supposed to fight to become. It's people
46:29
like him who now we have conversations
46:31
after two years of working together about Islam and he
46:34
asks me conversations. But when I walked to the studio,
46:36
I'll be honest, I was like this dude is tatted
46:38
and he's a white drummer. He's in
46:40
the music industry. I was like, I'm going to careful what
46:42
I say cause I don't know him yet and
46:44
what health is . Now I'm actually seeing it come to fruition
46:47
like a home a , which is really interesting. Who , because
46:49
that decision I made to not say anything
46:52
but do what I do and do it at a
46:54
high level, then nobody can question
46:56
that and be polite and be kind and be
46:58
patient and just be myself
47:01
as much as I can and try to be
47:03
a good person. Even if I'm not
47:06
at the time. And then when they find
47:08
out you're Muslim, it's very
47:10
hard for them to go back to the judgment they had.
47:12
They heard just from the media because now
47:15
I can definitely say that if someone stands
47:17
in front of Spencer and
47:19
says, Oh, those Muslims are crazy. Yeah
47:21
. He'll be like I don't know about that... Because
47:24
his reference is me. And from what he's told
47:26
me, he has a good reflection of Muslims, which makes
47:28
super happy,
47:30
He didn't go into it with like the stereotype
47:32
in mind that I pitted you against him necessarily,
47:34
in the first place.
47:35
But one of my friends who just really close
47:37
to me told me later on now we're
47:39
like best friends. But he's told me when we first
47:41
started talking that he found
47:43
out I was a Muslim and was like apprehensive and
47:46
so these experiences, so it's a shame that that's still
47:48
a reality and he's not an ignorant person.
47:50
So he was like, this doesn't line
47:52
up. But that's what he was apprehensive and then went , this
47:54
doesn't line up. And then so he asked questions.
47:57
Cool . But not everybody's like that. And that's what made me realize
47:59
that it's all conversations.
48:01
It's individual interactions and relationship
48:04
building. And to me now, this year
48:06
I've seen more , more progress than I saw
48:08
picketing that I saw debating
48:11
because some random person that you know
48:13
on your end of your network comes up and says,
48:15
I think Muslims are crazy. Are these Muslims are dangerous
48:17
or we need to get them out of here, whatever.
48:19
And then there's three things that
48:22
the person hearing that that you were Spencer could do.
48:24
You can either agree, you
48:26
could stay quiet and disagree
48:28
or you could outwardly say, I
48:31
dunno cause I know quite a few Muslims or I know
48:33
if I can at least get a few people who are
48:35
close to me who aren't Muslim or advocating
48:37
for like advocate or just stay quiet
48:40
and go.. I don't know about that guy.
48:42
Yeah, that just said that. Yeah, because that
48:44
tells me more about his understanding cause my understanding
48:47
of Muslims is very different. So that tells me more about his
48:49
ignorance. And that to me is progress because
48:51
now that when they walk around, their perception
48:54
of me is very different. But I can't
48:56
control the conversation so I know they're going
48:58
to talk about it . They're going to reference me and reference the other
49:00
Muslims they interact with as the entire Muslim
49:02
community. That's what the media does. They pick two people,
49:05
they picked two instances and they send , that's the community.
49:07
Yeah. So for me it was like how do we flip that? We're
49:09
fighting media. Totally. You're fighting the best,
49:11
most huge. Yeah. So for me I was like,
49:13
just do it the same thing. It's like the perception,
49:16
just don't expect it to happen overnight . So when
49:18
I go into the studios and stuff,
49:20
work ethic first, but I've been
49:22
back , I've become better at saying like if something, if someone
49:25
brings like alcohol into the, into the studio.
49:27
At first I used to say, Hey, we're working
49:29
and now I say, Hey, I don't drink
49:32
and want in the studio cause we're also working
49:34
because drugs and alcohol are a very common thing. People get
49:36
high before they record, right, to get loosened up, etcetera,
49:38
etcetera. But I'm realizing that if you put
49:41
that work ethic first and show them
49:43
that Muslims are me as a Muslim is as hardworking
49:45
and I try my best and be respectful, etcetera. They
49:48
do respect you . Yeah. Now right behind Spencer
49:50
and the studio, I was actually building respect. Yeah,
49:53
exactly. I pull out my prayer mat. I'm like, I'm just gonna pray
49:55
real quick. Then we can get started and he's like cool. Turns
49:57
down the music. So now this year I realized that
49:59
it's working cause I, that's cool. That's really cool. For
50:01
a long time. I didn't want to push my music
50:03
in Muslim community because I didn't
50:06
really want it to be typecasted. If
50:08
you say yes, I was like a Muslim rapper and
50:10
then where others wouldn't necessarily listen to it cause they're like,
50:12
Oh well I'm just a Muslim. So exactly. It's not gonna
50:14
make any sense. Yeah. But now I'm realizing
50:17
that I've, that all had to do with my writing and
50:19
how I presented my , my marketing and my brand. So
50:21
if I don't write that way then you hear what I'm making.
50:23
You probably don't even think I'm like
50:26
a Brown kid who'sparents are from the Caribbean.
50:28
Yeah andI grew up in Brampton and that,
50:30
that's starting to become real to me cause like I could hear myself
50:32
back now and separate myself and be like,
50:35
no, this doesn't sound like , yeah
50:37
, Muslim industry song . So now I'm
50:39
kind of leaning back. I'm actually, I'm
50:41
want to share it with a Muslim and now I'm understanding
50:43
that the audience that's going to understand everything
50:45
I'm saying like 50%
50:48
of what I'm saying is going to be Muslims .
50:49
And like you said in a lot of ways you build your foundation
50:52
and then you can go there with people that know you.
50:54
Exactly. And now I'm comfortable with it going in
50:56
different directions because I know that what I'm
50:58
making, it's more universal than one community.
51:00
Okay. Let's go over to the masculinity thing.
51:02
Yeah. I'm so curious what you have to say about
51:04
how have you formed your masculinity and what
51:06
now informs that and is there anything
51:09
that you kind of want to say about it to other people
51:11
about either your own journey or...
51:12
I will say that for me to
51:14
be a good Muslim, like The Prophet, he
51:17
said he was sent, we
51:19
have a full religion, Our religion's
51:22
like over a billion people in it. The
51:24
Islamic empire is one of the most innovative
51:26
progressive ever from like eye
51:28
surgery to arithmetic.
51:30
It's built itself out and we have things we're
51:32
supposed to do pray, supposed to go to Hajji, you're supposed to give to charity. You
51:34
do these things and it always blows
51:37
my mind that the prophet said that
51:39
he was sent to humanity
51:42
to guide good character
51:45
cause like he wasn't sent to prescribe prayer.
51:47
That wasn't the sole purpose. So if your character
51:50
is strong, right, that has nothing to do
51:52
with praying five times a day necessarily
51:54
when you're talking about humanity, like if you're doing all of the praying
51:57
and stuff like that, but your character isn't, it doesn't get
51:59
anything. Then he like he's
52:01
the one that we follow for how to live our lives,
52:03
which means so much more to me cause that's what
52:05
you're talking about. Like humility and respect
52:08
and great gratitude and gratefulness. And
52:10
for me in my everyday life I
52:12
don't think about it as like, Oh I'm Muslim. So I
52:14
do this this and this, I think about it as I'm human
52:16
and as a Muslim this is how you're supposed to be human.
52:18
And so being kind to my mother is
52:20
not just because I'm Muslim , it's because Islam
52:23
tells me that that's going to be a good human.
52:28
Yeah. Masculinity-wise, my
52:30
music, which is I think it's a very simple
52:33
place to start. I realized that I
52:35
couldn't rap on like straight hip hop instrumentals
52:37
on like guitar and piano and it's because
52:40
you can go different places with it and it can evoke different
52:42
emotions. Nowadays and hip hop
52:44
you can totally do that, but it tends to start with a lot
52:46
of drums and a repeated beat that
52:48
you can like hold onto and just flow with
52:51
a lot of rock music or folk music or
52:53
acoustic music in my opinion, more
52:55
about what emotion you're evoking
52:58
and how your words line up with that chord progression
53:00
from the piano can hit a certain sound that makes people
53:02
feel sad or you can hit a certain sound for
53:05
it that makes you feel happy to go
53:07
with that. Exactly. So if I want to go somewhere
53:09
emotional with my lyrics, my message, then
53:11
I fit better on these types of instruments
53:13
or these types of sound . And with that came
53:15
the realization that the stuff I
53:17
talk about is not necessarily like
53:20
quote unquote masculine because
53:22
I have no problem talking about
53:24
crying. I'm talking about like a social norm
53:26
masculine. So like crying or
53:29
going from one song where I'm like super confident
53:31
when another song where I'm like breaking down and
53:34
if the lyrics , so make me feel that for myself
53:36
when I write it then from either not good enough. So
53:38
a lot of my stuff is emotionally based and I realized
53:40
that you had growing up a lot of the males
53:43
around me and the guys around me, I have
53:45
enough of a sample size I think to say
53:47
that emotion is not at the forefront of
53:49
what understanding emotions
53:52
first . Yeah . It's not at the forefront of what guy might
53:54
think about, at least in my circles in Canada
53:57
in 2019
53:58
And was that true for you when you were younger or have
54:00
you always been a little bit more then like hyper
54:03
emotional?
54:04
Like I take stuff like now I'm only learning
54:06
like working and being married and just like becoming
54:09
more of an adult, like a grown person
54:11
that there's some things I do too much of.
54:13
Like I overthink things. I let
54:16
things get to me that other people do
54:18
or even that I do because
54:21
I realized that they're rooted in someone's character,
54:24
like someone disrespected me or
54:26
I disrespected someone and didn't realize
54:29
or I did realize I did it on purpose.
54:31
And I get super emotional about that for like
54:34
days at a time. I'm sure a lot of people do, but I just
54:36
realized that when I look at my sample size around me
54:39
that like my brothers don't necessarily
54:41
think that with eight it's easy for them to brush
54:43
it off. And then when I married with, and
54:46
my wife has two other sisters and my mom has
54:48
three girls, they take that situation
54:50
and that emotion in a every very different direction.
54:53
And I'm like in between.
54:55
Interesting.
54:56
Very. And then I just realized that like I did a
54:58
masculinity... Sex masculinity
55:00
and something in sport in my
55:02
third year.
55:04
Cool.
55:04
And it was interesting because it was, I l ove sport,
55:06
but really i t's, i t's social norms
55:08
that y ou t alking about. And then I realized,
55:11
I m ean like this in between kind of
55:13
worlds. So it comes out i n my music. That's where I'm
55:15
probably the most honest and raw.
55:18
Is that because you just, yeah,
55:20
like there's not a lot of men who would have been
55:22
emotional around you giving you like an example
55:25
of kind of how to live that way or they just didn't actually
55:28
or...
55:29
I haven't deepen to think about that. But now that I, if I
55:31
think about it like a surface level probably,
55:34
I think I was more, and then I'll just come
55:36
back to that verse from the Quran. The state of mankind
55:38
will never change if it until it changes to their own hearts. I
55:41
think take that in the context of there's Wars
55:43
going on. There's literally genocide
55:45
going on right now and like central Africa,
55:48
unbelievable things happening in Sudan and all
55:50
over the world and then you think about changing
55:53
state of your own heart and shit and then you think, okay, the
55:55
state of mankind would change. The war will stop.
55:58
I stopped thinking that way cause I was like, I mean
56:00
the Wars , he goes die . It takes you focusing on
56:02
yourself and millions of people doing
56:04
that for years. If
56:06
you're talking about trying to directly stop a war,
56:10
people's bad intentions and like oppression.
56:12
So I don't think about it in that large of a context.
56:14
As much as those things upset me and I want to do something about
56:16
it, I always think, okay, how is my music going to help me have
56:19
people and I really want, I think through my music,
56:21
I'm trying to go like that culture in a where
56:24
all of these things we just covered. Everything we've talked about
56:26
is understood and spoken about
56:29
because I think there's a community there. They're just not
56:31
centralized or they're in pockets.
56:33
There's like people to get here , people doing it here. Yeah, so I'm
56:35
hoping my music as some sort of bridge. Cool to
56:37
do that and set that culture.
56:39
Yeah, it sounds like it's working.
56:40
Hopefully... I got more music to put out so
56:42
it's so exciting.
56:43
Yeah, definitely a journey.
56:45
Well, yeah, thanks so much for doing
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what you're doing, this is so great... one o the
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better like conversations in podcasts that I've done.
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There's some things in there that I haven't been able to like I've not
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a chance to say yet. Please.
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Thank you.
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Having a lot of really great perspectives and it , I think we
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covered a lot of cool things too.
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It's awesome.
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Thank you. It's great.
57:03
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57:09
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57:31
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57:33
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Gray is spelled with an a. Okay,
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that's it. Catch you later, folks. Love
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