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Welcome back , guys , to the Butterfly Season podcast
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where we celebrate the beauty and the transformation . I
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am your host , aisha Marshall , and we are going
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to get into all things the
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Butterfly Season Transformation Journal and
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I just want you guys to pause
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here . If you have not listened to the past three episodes
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, I want to encourage you to go back , because there's
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a lot of meat still
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left on those bones for you to kind of go after
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. We have laid the land for what the journal
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is about . What does it take you from ? And
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two , we've talked about issue spotting
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, we've talked about emotions and now we're
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going to get into unmet need , and I'm afraid
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that if you start here , you might be missing
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out on a lot of hard
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work that will facilitate your own transformation
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. So go back to those episodes , if you haven't , and
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come back here when you're done . So go back to those episodes if you haven't
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, and come back here when you're done . Welcome to the Butterfly
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Season podcast , where we find the
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beauty in the cocoon season . You
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know the season we have to go through
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before we live life fully in our butterfly season
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. My name is Ayesha Marshall and
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I know a thing or two about cocoon
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season . Here's the thing On paper
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. I had everything I ever wanted Great
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life , thriving business , forbes , 30 under 30 , on the cover of magazines
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. And at the peak of it all , something didn't feel right
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. So I chose to literally
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burn it all to the ground my
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Cocoon Season . I thought
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burning it to the ground would solve all of my problems
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. Turns out that was just the beginning . Cocoon
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season is where our wings are formed in
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the chaos , challenging it , overcoming it
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, re-imagining what life may look
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like . And one of the biggest lessons was
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the growing doesn't stop . Through
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the stories of others , experts in different modalities
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, get ready for the metamorphosis , because
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once you're strong enough to burst out of the cocoon
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, imagine how beautiful your wings
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will be . To
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this point , guys , we've talked about issue spotting and patterns
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and for some of us who know that we have some
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maybe issues that are events
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that we're not quite happy with , we kind of walk
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through how we issue spot some recurring
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patterns in those places . We've talked about it being
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like in types of people or in
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the way you felt or in the way that you've
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acted in those situations
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, even down to
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different , you know , financial situations
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, you name it . So we've kind of issue spotted that
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because when we get to the actual
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issue , the pattern that keeps
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happening . We can tap into
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the feelings that we felt at that time . How
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did we feel ? And then we went through the emotion
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wheel , this big , huge wheel that
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shows like the parent feeling and then the parent's
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parent feeling , right Like your parents
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feeling , and then your grandparents feelings and then your
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feelings . It's like stacked on each other . We
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went through all of that to identify now
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the unmet need . So up
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until this point we have not identified the unmet
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need and the reason why we've
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stacked these things on top of each other is
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because the unmet need is like our
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roots . It is the
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under the table conversation
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that helps us figure out what
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didn't we get at that time . Because
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when we can understand what didn't we get at that
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time like around the villain origin story
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of what , the initial event that happened that
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has created this pattern that we keep reinforcing
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that initial event
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shows us the coping mechanism
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that we employed to make
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ourselves meet that need
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. So we've talked about you
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know this through line story when I was in high school
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and I made the cheer team and I couldn't afford it and
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the unmet need at the
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time was safety . I
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felt unsafe , but I
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didn't have the verbiage to say , mom
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, when you said I couldn't be on the cheer team , I felt unsafe
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, I felt mortified , which is a parent
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feeling of horror which goes into fear , is a parent feeling
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of horror which goes into fear
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. So if I know that fear
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is the parent feeling , fear
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can point me to the unmet need . Now I'm going to go through a list . This is not comprehensive
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, but I'm going to go through a list of unmet needs that fall
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under parent feelings . So we were talking
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about fear , right ? So if any of
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your emotions led to fear
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as a parent feeling , some of the
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unmet needs that could fall under this
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list would be safety , security
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, stability , predictability
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, and so if
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that didn't happen to you , you might
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be craving that and then you implore
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, typically , a coping mechanism that
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you've seen and be implored around
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you to meet that need . So
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an example I felt unsafe
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and I felt unsafe until my mom said
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that I could be on the team , and
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she said I could be on the team because she put it on
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a credit card . So a credit card equals safety
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for me . That was the pattern
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that I created and so anytime
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I'm looking for safety , I outsource
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my safety to debt , debt , debt
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, debt and more debt . Now
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, if your parent
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feeling is anger , some of the unmet
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needs could be respect , autonomy
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, fairness
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, being heard . Maybe the situation
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you , your villain origin story
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was a time where you weren't being heard , and
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so anger is the parent
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feeling and anger might be how it manifests
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in your life . For sadness it could be connection
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, belonging , love and support . Now , this
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list isn't comprehensive , but I just want to paint a picture for you to kind of
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understand what need went unmet , because if we can identify
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the unmet need , then
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we can explore what
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the coping mechanism is . So if
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you haven't already started to see that , I'm laying a
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map for you . We went to the issue
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or the pattern , depending
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upon where you're at in your own journey . Then
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we went to the feeling and we identified
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, like the true feeling , like with the magnifying
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glass , we went through the feeling wheel and identified the
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true true feeling and worked
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our way up to the parent feeling and
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then from the parent feeling we've gone to
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what is the unmet need ? That
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is so important , because the unmet
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need now unlocks the door to
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show you what coping mechanism
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do I activate every
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single time I feel
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fear or unsafety
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or anything that's
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attacking , like if . If I feel , you know , mortified
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by something , or if I feel like my perception
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is being attacked
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, my strategy
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was oh , debt . So
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I can now see oh my gosh
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, every time I feel this feeling , I do
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this thing . This gives you
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the tools to proactively address it
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before you do it Right now , and
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where we've kind of met each other is why
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does this keep happening to me ? Why does this keep
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happening to me ? Why do I meet these people ? Why do I do these
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things ? Now we're at a point
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in our journey where we're like okay , every time
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I feel fear , I do
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do this thing , and now I've
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noticed that over time , the continuous
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repetition of that thing
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is actually creating the very thing that
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I don't want . So I know we've unpacked
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a lot right . We've talked about where
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we're at to this point , and I want to share with you
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how I found my unmet need
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. We've been talking about this like cheerleading
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story for a while , but in relation
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to I don't know if you guys remember I want to say it
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was like two episodes ago or one episode ago
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, where I was talking about how I had so much resistance
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around having children and I couldn't figure out why
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, because I knew that it didn't feel
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like I didn't want children . I knew that that
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wasn't the thing , but there was resistance
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around taking the next steps to do it . There
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was resistance around like
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what life would be like when I did do
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it . I didn't feel like my goals would be
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able to support this thing . I had a lot of excuses
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and , when
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it comes down to it , the initial
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villain origin story was and as a reminder
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, it was that , you know , when my
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mom was a single mom , so it was just the two of us all
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of the time and I felt like
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the treatment that I would get , the reverence
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that I would get when it was just the two of us
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, changed when a
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boyfriend would come around . And it's not that there was
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a bunch of boyfriends in and out , it was just that when
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there was a partner , a long-term partner
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, in the situation , I felt loveless
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. I remember like I always had these feelings
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. I remember when my mom met
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my stepdad and it was the first time that we were
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going to their family for Christmas . I
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was in the car I'm an adult , I
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am college and
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I was crying in the car . I was so
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upset I didn't mean nobody saw that I was crying
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, but I was definitely so
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angry because I felt like
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my mom and I would always do Christmas
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together , and now we have to go to this other family who even
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? Are they Right , like I just felt like
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it's just reinforcing this idea that
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when three people are present , I am loved
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less . All I wanted to do was go to my
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own family's house , and I could have done that , but I just
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sat through the suffering of feeling
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like I'm loved less in this car going
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to this extended family's house . And
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the reason why I share that story with
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you is because , if we go back to that original moment
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when I felt , like you know , when my mom
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had a boyfriend , I had to now sit in the back seat
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how the audacity I
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was six . I have to sit in the backseat with another
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adult present in the car , like I
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made that mean that I felt like I was loved less
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. And so I've been operating on that same programming
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or I've been using that same exact
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map throughout my adult years , and
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it's not serving me . Yeah , it
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might've been serving me to protect myself
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from being hurt back then , or
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that was the only thing I knew how
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to do to meet the need of love
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and belonging at the time is let
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me just keep it with two people , only
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two people . I feel safe with two people
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. Don't bring a third person , because then I feel unsafe
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. That was just something that I the only thing
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that I knew how to do at the time to meet
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the need of safety , of love
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, belonging , right . And
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so it's by exploring that
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resistance around
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the children , this issue that keeps coming up
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over and over . What are the feelings ? When
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did I first feel this way ? Oh , when
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I was a little girl . I felt like I always had
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to like share my mom and
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I didn't like doing that . And so now
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, when it comes to sharing my partner , I
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don't want to do that either . And when
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you realize that I was just doing that because I
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felt that I was loveless , how can I give myself
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the love that I feel like I need and
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am longing for and want , so
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that I can be a great mom
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and be happy by bringing a third
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party , really a child , great
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mom , and be happy by bringing a third party , really a child from love , into this situation and not
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feel like it's at odds with my relationship , and so
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that helps free me from this old
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map that I had been using to keep me
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safe . That is now expired and
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it's not in alignment with the
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butterfly season that I want to live
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in as a mom , as a parent
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and as a wife with a child . So
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I hope you can kind of see the
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through line to like why , understanding
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the pattern , the issues
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, the repeating issues , the feelings , the parent
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feelings , the unmet need , and how all
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of this together has created these like roots
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, and you've been operating off of this old
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stale ass framework and
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it's creating the chaos in your life
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, the very thing that you don't want . So
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I would encourage you
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learn from my
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mistakes , learn from your patterns
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, learn from my patterns . We don't have to repeat the thing
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. We can live life by design . We
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just need the tool to do it , and the Butterfly Season
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Journal is to do just that . So I
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you can free yourself from yourself . Can
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I just say thank you so much for being
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here . It means the world to me that we're growing
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together . So if there's someone that you thought
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of while listening , please share it with them too , and
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when you share it , let them know that they're not on this
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journey alone , but also , if you just
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love this episode , take a screenshot
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, share it on Instagram and tag me at Aisha
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so I can thank you for hanging with me on this journey . Oh
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, and one more thing Don't
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forget to rate and write a review with your favorite takeaway , so this podcast can be
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shared with more people . And before I go
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, I want to thank you again for being
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here .
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