0:00

We gotta set the story straight because we have

0:03

to people. I don't know what's up. That's I don't

0:05

know. People think we're like rival enemy.

0:07

And yes, I made we made thirteen thousand dollars

0:09

for the entire season. I was like ballin, y'all,

0:11

Yeah, we're falling.

0:13

How would that be? Like do you ever sit there and think about

0:16

like, yeah, when I be who I am with? My mom

0:18

was not here, Like would she support my career?

0:25

Hello, my beautiful people, and welcome to

0:27

another episode of Cheeky's and Chill,

0:30

your absolute favorite podcast one

0:32

world.

0:33

And today is going to be an amazing episode.

0:35

So get ready and you're gonna want

0:37

to sit down for this one because we're gonna set

0:39

the story straight today. Okay, I have

0:41

a special guest, some one that I'm known for a very long

0:43

time. She is a self proclaimed

0:46

queen of Spanish media entrepreneur.

0:48

She is also a podcast host and

0:51

a brand.

0:52

New mama and a mama. See that her name

0:54

is Roxy?

0:56

I like that.

1:00

Be it? Yeah, honestly

1:02

I okay, So we got to said

1:04

the story straight because we have to people.

1:06

I don't know what's up. That's I don't know. People think we're

1:08

like rival enemy. Yeah, was it the it was the.

1:10

Last episode of Chicks and Roxy or what. Yeah,

1:13

that's what it was. Okay, that's what it was. People

1:15

think I left you hanging. People think

1:17

I did thirty because

1:19

I had to go handle some business when I was

1:21

on traditional radio and it just,

1:24

you know, production just kind of did

1:26

what it did, and it was like what, Yeah,

1:29

we really kind of didn't have a lot of sake so in that

1:31

show, like we thought we did, but we kind of did it.

1:33

Yes, you know, we were both new to the reality

1:36

show. I was definitely not an executive producer.

1:38

Then.

1:38

I was just a girl that was coming out of her

1:40

mama's house. Still lived in my mama's house. Yeah,

1:42

and it was like girls. So so basically,

1:44

for those of you that don't know, I started my career

1:46

off in reality. So it was Cheese and Roxy

1:49

presented by Jenny rivera Chicks and Roxy, okay,

1:52

and Roxy was very well known Roxy.

1:55

She you were a radio I

1:57

started by radio career fresh out of high school.

1:59

Yeah, and then I onto a station back in

2:01

the day's called Latino ninety six three and two thousand

2:03

and five, interviewed your

2:05

mom's a few times, got a pretty

2:07

buzz with her one time, like on air, she

2:10

would never not come to the studio with the bottle of thing.

2:12

That's not all of them. Yeah yeah, yeah.

2:14

Then when they presented this opportunity to work with

2:16

Jenny's daughter, which was you, we

2:19

literally I think. I don't think a lot of people understand

2:21

that we kind of were getting to know each other on

2:23

the show as we were. People

2:25

thought, and we're going to be straight up because so

2:27

many years ago, people thought we were friends

2:29

before we had met before.

2:31

Yes, for the show though, They're.

2:33

Like, let's get to latinas they're

2:35

doing their things so that they can inspire other latinas.

2:37

I was like, I want to be behind the

2:39

cameras. I'm too shy, Like I was not.

2:42

Nowhere near like I

2:44

felt ready, you know what I mean, And you were

2:47

You were more marinated more like you knew what you

2:49

were doing. And that's why I was like, I

2:51

want out, first of all, set the story straight, set the

2:53

record straight, and then also let people know

2:56

how and where everything started

2:58

with me, because it had a lot to do with you girl. A

3:01

lot of people don't know that because I was very

3:03

shy, I was there. You were super behind the scene,

3:06

you were your mother's net. Like

3:08

without you, I don't know

3:10

if your mom would have been able to build the empire

3:12

that she built, you know, and like, yeah, she was

3:14

the senior of the performer, but as

3:17

you know, as I know that, it takes the team to

3:19

become absolutely who you are and

3:22

to build the empire, and so yeah,

3:24

I got to see you be that for your mom.

3:26

So many times, and it was like wow,

3:29

you know, like what'd your mom be who

3:31

she was without you? I know a lot of times

3:33

that she wouldn't be able to do what she did if it wasn't for

3:35

me. And I'm not changing my own born, but I

3:40

actually saw you do it that I don't know, you

3:42

were.

3:43

So so bad in the scenes. But if

3:45

people wonder, like why she gets

3:47

to be successful in her own businesses out because

3:50

you kind of formulated all that for your mom, her

3:53

gene.

3:53

Line, her skincare line, all the way,

3:57

well.

3:57

Because I remember you doing it all these

3:59

Yeah, all the things that were coming up

4:02

for her and were oh my god, so much,

4:04

so much war would have came right unless

4:06

if that strategy would not happened. But I don't

4:08

know if people really give you the credit to

4:11

how essential.

4:12

You were in your mom's life.

4:13

And I was very happy in being there, being

4:15

behind, you know, the cameras and

4:18

be behind the seats.

4:19

I loved it.

4:19

I loved being her right hand, her right arm, and

4:22

I love being with my siblings. So when this opportunity

4:25

came and my mom's manager at the time, we

4:27

were not going to necessarily name right now because.

4:30

You know, a lot of things happened there.

4:31

But he brought up this opportunity

4:33

for both house we knew him, and then we met and we

4:35

did this, and I was not ready when we started

4:37

okay filming, I was like, okay, Roxy's cool. Cool,

4:40

Like we had a friendship in front of cameras,

4:42

and then it really developed into a real friendship. Yeah,

4:45

but a lot of things happened, and of course producers

4:47

had a lot to do with it, so a lot of things

4:49

were.

4:50

Reality but cut in a way that made.

4:52

It seem worse than it really was. Because

4:54

let me tell you, guys, let's keep it real, let's

4:56

keep it a butt. Yeah, we got paid.

4:59

Thirty ten thousand dollars you guys for the

5:01

entire entire out of the show. And

5:03

I'm gonna tell you why.

5:04

I remember that because people were like, almost

5:06

god, it made a lot of but no, her bread and butter was

5:09

radio. Yeah, and that's why she was like, Okay,

5:11

I gotta be there, But I told you guys, I have this gig,

5:13

so I'm not.

5:14

She didn't keep she didn't leave me. Hang me. What

5:16

happens was she had a prior commitment. Yeah,

5:18

I had to do a live broadcast in the Dominican

5:20

Republic. I had told him.

5:22

I said, hey, I could do this show, but

5:24

you have to remember that my radio gig

5:27

is my my main priority here. But

5:29

of course I could, you know, work around

5:31

it and fit in a reality

5:33

show tapeing, you know, but work

5:36

with me.

5:36

Oh yeah, we're gonna work with you.

5:38

And then it just seemed like as the show was developing,

5:41

it was like, no, we need to shoot on this dand and I was

5:43

like, I told you I had a live appearance this day.

5:45

I told you how to be on air this day.

5:46

I told you how it's true, this is true, And it

5:48

just seemed like I was being put like obstacle

5:51

after obstacle. And so that last episode,

5:53

which I know y'all remember, we

5:55

were supposed to be at a club and I don't know what

5:57

we were celebrating, but we were.

5:59

We were filming at a club in Hollywood,

6:01

yes, And it made

6:03

it seem like you were waiting for me

6:05

and waiting for me, and I never showed

6:07

up because I wasn't even in town.

6:10

I was the figure got mad at her and everything was

6:12

like, wait, that's not yeah, and she.

6:14

Gets knew where I was at fet like I

6:16

hated her or I left her out, would

6:18

never like I am not that person, but

6:21

I am a person that has integrity when it comes to my

6:23

work.

6:24

And I communicated that to production shit and

6:26

they when they had it still shot that episode without

6:29

me. Yeah.

6:29

And I knew too, by the way, Yeah, I know

6:31

all of this too because I think, oh, Jenny

6:33

was ight at her and that's not the truth, is Jen, I'm

6:36

mad. I've never super cool and

6:38

I knew. But again, I was young. I

6:41

didn't have a backbone. I was scared.

6:43

I was like, okay, well, this is my first time. That is

6:45

what I got to do. Is there telling me what to do? And that's just the

6:47

truth of it. Like, yeah, now if I can go back and

6:49

be like, well wait a second, that's now, you can't do that

6:51

to me. Now, I'm like, yeah, you know, I vocal,

6:53

and I gotta say, like, to see your

6:55

evolution fifteen years

6:57

ago to now, it's so beautiful

7:00

see it because you really didn't have a backbone. I did

7:02

it like you really even though

7:04

you were like the backbone of the whole operation.

7:07

You never sim it. Yeah, they

7:09

are like you were more you did what you were told.

7:11

Now you're just like I was seeking people's

7:13

approval. I didn't want to disappoint anyone.

7:15

I didn't want to ruffle any feathers.

7:17

I first so long in my life, I carried

7:20

myself that way until I woke up one day I was like,

7:22

hold the fuck up.

7:23

On the phone.

7:24

I can't do this, especially when my mom passed.

7:26

After my mom passed, I was like I got to put all my big girl pantings

7:28

like I think. That's when I was like,

7:31

wait a second, Like things have to change because my

7:33

mom was like protector. She has a person that protected

7:35

me and I always just need on her. So it was kind of

7:37

like God saying, girl, you need to step it up

7:39

now. But back then, I'll say

7:41

it straight up, No, I didn't have a backbone. I was

7:43

just doing what the producer told me, and it was a reality

7:46

show. But let me tell you, guys that

7:48

there were a lot of things that we had to re enact or

7:50

that we had to say. It's just the truth. That's how it worked.

7:52

I mean, I'm sorry to disappoint you guys, but reality

7:54

shows are not what these seems

7:56

to be, Okay, And that's all

7:58

reality yeah shows. And I'm grateful,

8:01

trust me, I'm grateful because that opened up the

8:03

doors for me. And yes, I made we made

8:05

thirteen thousand.

8:06

Dollars for the entire season. I was like balling,

8:08

y'all. Yeah, we were falling.

8:09

And I remember, I'm telling you, I remember the amount

8:11

because I bought a boyfriend

8:13

of mine that needed a car back there, the six thousand

8:16

dollars car. And then I bought myself, yes,

8:19

a temper repeated temperpeedic right, yeah,

8:21

temper pedic mattress.

8:22

I sure did. And that that's where all my moneyway,

8:25

I'll never forget.

8:26

And I was like, because I wanted to forget temper Peeda four

8:28

thousand dollars freaking I don't know

8:30

what I was saying, but anyways, people like, oh it we became

8:33

rich and famous, Like no, it was a great opportunity.

8:35

He really was what he was and I loved

8:38

working with you and I had I had a great

8:40

time and I learned a lot and we had we experienced

8:42

a lot because of the show, so that I'm grateful for. But

8:45

yeah, going on red carpet, I remember us going

8:47

to red carpet and I would hide, I would ride behind

8:49

Rocks.

8:49

I was like no, She's like you

8:51

you better stop, and she said you better answer that question.

8:53

She'd pushed me. She's like, you're answering it and I'm

8:55

like, oh, because the thing is this. It was Jennity

8:58

that represents is a roxy right, Jenny's

9:00

daughter.

9:01

So the media, we already know

9:03

how they are when it comes to the Rivetta family.

9:05

They're nosy, they prow they so

9:07

we were both the stars of the show, but they wanted to

9:09

like ask you, like how was it your mom

9:11

and how is it? So when we would be

9:13

on red carpets, yes, they would talk to both of us,

9:16

but they wanted to go to you first, which is understandable.

9:19

But then she wouldn't talk. So I was like the

9:21

voice for both of us, and I'm like, you know, this is

9:24

just learn how to and then

9:26

you would just you hated it.

9:27

That wasn't your thing because your mom was

9:29

always the one that would She was always a mouth

9:32

piece.

9:32

And then it just got to a point where I was like, they want to

9:34

talk to you, like I'm just gonna be quiet, and

9:36

you just got it.

9:37

And then you just kind of you just realized

9:40

like, Okay, I was pushing you in my own

9:42

kind strong way because like,

9:45

yeah, when I met her people, I'm a

9:47

I'm a I'm a tough mentor because

9:50

I feel like that's just the way you learn.

9:54

Then then you like that's how you learn

9:56

sink or swim. You're the do it or you don't, you know,

9:59

And that's how you started learning. You started

10:01

learning your voice, and you ran

10:03

the show behind the scenes. Do you remember the concert that we went

10:05

to your mom when your mom had a concert in Vegas

10:08

and we all you probably don't let her

10:10

about her line. So we

10:12

were filming a show. Your mom had a concert in Vegas,

10:15

and you were doing everything. You

10:18

were making sure like the merchant money had

10:20

been collected, and you were making sure your mom boughted aid.

10:22

That night you were feeding Johnny.

10:24

He was like in the green room a sleep. I

10:26

think he was like eight years old. And

10:29

then that night we were planning on going to the club

10:31

in Hollywood, I mean in Hollywood in a Vegas

10:34

and we had set it up and then I

10:36

was in the room waiting for you and You're

10:38

like, rock So I'm not going to be able to go, man, Like, I have

10:40

to take care. I think your mom was a little tipsy coming

10:43

off of the stage.

10:44

And Jennie would get tipsy at the concert if

10:47

you ever saw her at concert, see and enjoyed

10:49

her thanking. And but yeah,

10:51

you were just you were the one that

10:53

was putting out fires all the time,

10:56

you know, So that's why. But it sounds like me,

10:58

yeah, that's why. When I when when

11:00

all this happened, and I would hear the

11:02

stuff you were getting accused.

11:03

Of, I was like, I know, I

11:06

was like an older sister that wanted to come to your

11:08

defense, but there was so much going on

11:10

that I couldn't. I didn't want to talk

11:13

to you at that point. It's just how do you how

11:15

do you even approach someone.

11:16

That their mom passes? Yea, what do you? You

11:18

know what I mean? So it was a crazy time. It was a

11:20

crazy time. A

11:25

lot of it is a blur.

11:26

A lot of twenty thirteen, twenty fourteen is a blur,

11:28

and I have SI left the memory because I'm just like, now,

11:30

my wait a side, kid, Like a lot of traumatic things

11:33

I just kind of put to the side. I'm like, okay, order for

11:35

me to make it through this life through

11:38

the next. I don't know how many years I got to just put

11:40

that to the side, you know what I mean. But I mean

11:42

that's crazy because that's the thing was.

11:44

It was, I don't know, like we

11:46

went to dinner the other night and I told her, I said rock

11:48

like, thank you so much. Like I just I felt like we

11:50

never stopped talking and it wasn't that we stopped talking for

11:52

any particular reason. It's just life

11:55

happened. Yeah, And I think also I

11:57

wouldn't even be upset with you if you were upset with like,

11:59

dude, you guys left me hanging like in reality, you

12:01

guys left me hanging.

12:02

You guys made less me looking bad

12:04

on the reality show.

12:05

And maybe I again that it have the

12:07

voice to defend you or to say, wait, guys,

12:09

it wasn't like that, which I don't

12:11

really care to people think of me. Yeah, that's what I love

12:13

about y'all can pay me in whatever whatever

12:15

you want to think of me in your head. I'm really

12:18

not in the business of its splaning myself.

12:20

What happened happened or let.

12:22

Me tell you what happened to see me and Jeanne like you

12:25

could think what you want, because I think people

12:27

sometimes because they're your follower

12:30

or your family.

12:32

To an explanation like get into it and speak

12:34

on my tholo. And it's just like, and I learned

12:36

that that I don't have to If I

12:38

want to tell you about certain things, great, but I don't

12:41

have to, yeah, you know.

12:42

And it took me a while to learn that as well, because at first

12:44

I was like, no, well with everything that happened. But before

12:46

we get into everything that happened, I do want

12:48

to say that I'm grateful,

12:51

you know what I mean, And I don't want to get emotional,

12:53

but I'm grateful for you. I'm grateful that you

12:55

taught me the ropes, that you were patient with me, that

12:58

you you're like this is how you do, and

13:00

you taught me and you were never you

13:03

always celebrating, you celebrate women.

13:05

It's not just this is what I'm saying

13:07

and what I portray on social media like she really

13:09

walks the talk.

13:10

Yeah, and I never felt that

13:13

you were jealous or that you felt like, oh,

13:15

that's Jenny's daughter. They're giving your a priority.

13:17

Like you were just like, I'm I am who I am. I feel

13:19

good And if I had questions.

13:20

You were there. Yeah. You never like I don't

13:22

know.

13:23

And that's something that I was, like, I need people to

13:25

know that you play a huge part in

13:27

who I am today because I learned

13:29

a lot from you.

13:30

I learned a lot from you.

13:31

So I wanted to like put that out there, you guys, because

13:33

I'm grateful and I can't say that I learned

13:35

it.

13:35

All myself or no. I have people like roxy.

13:38

Of course, people like my mom. Yeah, but I

13:40

just I felt they need to say that. You know.

13:42

So your your

13:45

mom was so special too, man,

13:47

like you want to work with her and work with you.

13:50

But I remember on our way

13:52

to the premiere that was

13:54

at like the place in Hollywood. Oh yes,

13:56

yes, our show was premiering, and it was like we were

13:59

Yeah, your mom would get when your mom would get into storytelling,

14:02

she was like, you know, rocks there.

14:03

I remember this one in.

14:04

The house you're performing in Mexico and she

14:06

would just tell me these stories and she

14:08

was she was another that another person

14:10

that literally was one of one.

14:12

And you're just like so.

14:14

Honored and faithful that that I

14:16

worked with her and that I got to share space

14:18

with her and stories and really see

14:21

like she was.

14:21

A diva, you know, she was at her own

14:23

way. But like certain people I

14:25

feel can get away with being das

14:28

because they're that dope. Yeah you're like,

14:31

you know what, look out yet get out gaa.

14:33

And and to know that she spreakled that in

14:35

you and that yeah, you might've been behind

14:38

the scenes most of the time, but

14:40

yeah, you're not anymore.

14:42

And honestly, sometimes I think about it.

14:44

I'm like, I wonder if Chekis would be who she

14:46

was if her mom was still here, you know, like she

14:48

protected you a lot.

14:49

From the business she did, and it's just

14:51

like, you know.

14:52

How would that be, Like do you ever sit there and think about,

14:54

like, yeah, when I be who I am with my

14:56

mom was not here, Like would she support my career

14:59

because we don't, you don't know, you

15:01

know what, I'm gonna keep it real, I don't

15:03

think so I feel like it's all God's

15:05

divine plan it is. You know, do

15:08

I wish my mother was here? Absolutely, I

15:10

wish she was here to see everything that I'm doing. But

15:12

also I do feel that my mom protected

15:15

me so much that even if I wanted

15:17

to sing or whatever, because she's like.

15:18

Okay, I'll support you if you want to sing, but that's not the career

15:20

I want for you. If you want to maybe

15:22

be an actress, but a singer. This shit is hard. This

15:24

ship is very hard for.

15:25

Women, and I don't want you to go through that,

15:28

you know. And I think she would have just

15:31

been like, I don't

15:33

know. I think about it, and I think

15:35

about it too, you know what I mean. I don't know, what

15:37

do you think?

15:39

I don't I don't know.

15:42

I don't know if she would have supported

15:44

your seeing career. I don't know if you would have been like, okay,

15:47

like am I cool? My daughter weigh in line. Grammy's

15:49

like, is she gonna, like, am I gonna support

15:51

that dream? Or is she gonna, you know, way become

15:53

my competition?

15:54

You know?

15:55

You just yeah, because the thing is, and

15:57

this goes for a lot of women that

16:00

their mom had them at a young age. My mom

16:02

and my sister, we talk about this all the time of

16:04

the podcast. My mom had my sister

16:06

at seventeen, your mom had

16:09

you at fifteen. Yes, So that

16:11

relationship.

16:11

When a mom has their first born.

16:14

At such a young age, it's rocky.

16:16

And it's not just it's not just Jenny

16:19

and Cheez y'all, it's my sister and my mom.

16:21

It's a lot of women that may be watching

16:24

this podcast that are like, uh, yeah, that's me,

16:26

and you know, I pray that.

16:29

Y'all healed that relationship.

16:30

Unfortunately, that wasn't the case in with

16:32

you and your mom because she got you were you

16:34

know, but my sister, my mom

16:37

had definitely healed and talked it out.

16:38

But that age gap, it's like you're

16:41

you're growing up with your mom. You're growing up.

16:43

That's tough, my mom.

16:44

What I always say, it didn't come with the manual, like I don't

16:46

know what to do with you. And we were so close, we were sisters,

16:48

we were everything to one another. So it's

16:51

like for a long time, I mean, I

16:53

did find myself career resentment towards my

16:55

mom. But when you know she left, you

16:57

know, of course, because of how everything is left, I

16:59

was like I want.

17:02

Yeah, I'm just like, what am I? Yeah?

17:03

And thank goodness, you know, I look back and I'm

17:05

like, damn, we've made it this far and

17:08

just I mean, and I'm not talking about success. I'm talking about

17:10

just emotionally, how we were able to

17:13

get here, you know, all of my siblings and I

17:15

and I don't know.

17:16

I mean, but the way the.

17:17

Way the media reigned like rained down

17:19

on you, the hatred and the

17:22

theist I mean, if you are not raised

17:24

by a strong woman like your mom and God

17:27

by your side, and that could have destroyed anybody

17:29

as the way people came down on you.

17:31

And I want to deceible

17:33

comments on social media. I'm not sometimes

17:36

I'm on your social media and looking at your comments

17:38

and not I'm like that big sister that wants to come

17:40

to the rescue hear you, and like sometimes

17:42

hop or not. Sometimes maybe in

17:45

my head I typed some people that is.

17:46

Illading because that all goes, you know, because

17:48

that all get.

17:49

People coming after me, which is okay, y'all can come

17:51

after me. I block everybody anyways, yeah

17:54

bye.

17:56

But the way people were.

17:57

Come at for you, I'm just like, Wow, if

17:59

y'all only knew how boyle of

18:01

the daughter you were to your mom and.

18:03

I don't know because their own conclusions.

18:06

There was this real were going around that I slept with

18:08

my stepdad with my golf's husband, which is absolutely

18:10

not true, and it just

18:13

it was crazy, you guys, Thank goodness, that is

18:15

freaking in twenty twelve.

18:16

Yeah, we left it there. But at the end of the day,

18:18

it's a part of.

18:19

My guess, my story, Yes, you

18:21

know it is. Whether I want to admit

18:23

it, whether it sounds cute or not. I mean, the truth is, it's

18:26

part of my story. And how you

18:29

know, I had to just the adversity and all the

18:31

freaking hate. I really thought, I swear to

18:33

you, Roxy, I thought that I was

18:35

gonna go to the just the grocery store, and so I was just gonna

18:37

come and stepp, I swear to you.

18:39

There were some I was like, you were that feutiful.

18:41

Yeah, they're gonna come and steppy because these

18:43

people are probably believing what is being said.

18:45

That's why I went out of my way. I did interviews,

18:47

I wrote books. I was like, I'm not going to allow the

18:50

beautiful relationship that my mom and I had to

18:53

be.

18:54

Destroyed in that way with such a

18:57

horrible life, you know what I mean.

18:58

I'm not saying that I'm perfect at this, no, no,

19:00

but that's one thing I never, oh never

19:03

got done.

19:04

I was, first of all, I too scared of my mother, you know what

19:06

I mean?

19:06

And not only yeah, like I respect women, I really

19:08

like there's I was so happy for my mom, Like I just don't

19:11

now I'm starting to see certain things

19:14

and maybe one day I'll talk about that. I'm like, Okay,

19:16

this person was definitely behind it.

19:18

You know.

19:18

And it's like they you know, like that

19:20

would definitely be me in my head, Like who mats

19:23

that nasty seed in like mom's

19:25

head?

19:26

Yeah.

19:26

And sometimes it's people that you expect that

19:28

would stir the pot and you're just

19:30

like expect what wow that

19:32

you think?

19:33

Love you?

19:33

It's are supposed to keep the family together, and in

19:35

reality, they're planting little seeds just

19:38

so that they can have the position you had. A

19:40

lot of people were jealous of what

19:42

my mom and I had. It was my mom

19:44

and I like this for everything. Well you remember

19:46

that that that cover you guys? It was it a cover for

19:50

it was like.

19:50

Your mom and you like bosses and

19:52

yes, oh my god, I have that I have my glam

19:54

room.

19:55

But that was one of the first things that was in twenty

19:57

eleven, and people wanted that position

20:00

in person, wanted that position that

20:02

MM and I had.

20:03

So it's like, you know what, at the end of the day, I know

20:05

that God is gonna, little by little put everything

20:07

in its place, and I'm not worried about it. And yeah,

20:09

her chooses to believe that.

20:11

Honestly, I'm at a point where before I was like, I

20:13

want to show you guys, I'm not this person.

20:15

I'm like, I was cool, this sick.

20:18

Sorry, I know who I am.

20:19

Think what you want to think, Like, I know who

20:22

I am, and God would have brought me, brought me this

20:24

far. And my mom because I know she's you know, my mom's

20:26

moving huzzles and doing her thing up there

20:29

if.

20:29

If that was true, you know what I mean?

20:31

I love I love seeing how in control

20:34

of your life you aren't out and how certain

20:36

these are like the private.

20:38

Yeah, you're not out there explaining yourself. You're

20:40

allowing people.

20:41

Like you see it, you sense it, you feel

20:43

it more importantly, And I

20:45

love that because you're not out there explaining yourself

20:47

to everybody. It's and you know what, you.

20:50

You radiate the happiness. I love

20:52

that you're happy in your relationship. Like

20:54

you keep that private, you know, like

20:56

one day you just need to pop up, Pop up Mary.

20:59

Nobody needs to know your ceremony that only

21:01

the real ones pull up. Mind

21:08

you, I do feel there are certain things that I share because

21:10

I feel like that's part of my mission and the world

21:13

is through the things that I've been through. I want to help people

21:15

grow and stuff like that. But there are certain things that

21:18

now I'm like, I want to keep to myself. I'm I'm

21:20

a human being too. I don't necessarily have to

21:22

share everything with everyone. And I felt like I

21:24

was obligated, like and it was. It was an obligation because

21:26

I'm an artists, because I'm on TV, because

21:29

I have a podcast, I have to share everything. There's

21:31

certain things that I'm like, no, I'm gonna keep this to myself and

21:33

it's later on I want to talk about it. Okay, there's

21:35

nothing wrong with that. Everyone is entitled to their

21:38

privacy and so nice.

21:39

Even if I am, you know, a

21:41

public figure, which there are ladies.

21:43

I swear to you and I don't know if this happened to you, but

21:46

they'll come up to me and you know I'm

21:48

eating.

21:48

I'm in the middle of me. Literally.

21:50

No.

21:51

First of all, that is so rude whenever

21:53

you see a celebrity eating it, especially if it see

21:55

baccol to

21:58

serve me and ask me for picture and they get so

22:01

excited that they will. And see I've never said

22:03

no. I don't one time I.

22:04

Said no to a picture and I said eating, I'm

22:06

gonna say no. Yeah, I know because

22:09

I see all the road. That's my moment.

22:11

My mom was like, come on, and but

22:13

they'll tell me straight up and

22:18

I'm just saying I

22:25

ste like who does

22:27

that? Yeah?

22:28

Yeah?

22:28

And before I was like, okay, well now I'm like okay, well

22:31

see woman deta. You know. Now I'll

22:33

say it. I'm polite about it.

22:34

But but you know what now like no, no, I'm

22:36

also I'm a human being too, And so

22:39

there's something beautiful about being mysterious.

22:42

There's something beautiful about it. There's where

22:45

like like, not everybody knows everything. That's

22:47

what I look about the media. Actually, my partner he's not

22:50

all like that social media.

22:52

He posts once and I tell him,

22:54

baby, you gotta post more for your like photography,

22:56

and he's always busy. But I'm

22:58

like, you'd be a lot busy here. He's like, I'm

23:01

good with as busy as I am. I was like, well, post on

23:03

your work all people to see how talented you are. But he's

23:05

chill, and I love.

23:08

Tell us selfies. I can't. Oh,

23:11

I can't. Man that post selfies that they park

23:13

at their lips. Listen.

23:14

I don't know about that, girl, I don't

23:17

know business man that's about his business

23:19

that they posting on social media.

23:21

I love a man that isn't half social. Me too, because

23:23

I'm sure that your fans and

23:26

news channels they all but look at his pain

23:29

and oh yeah, and they'll send

23:31

him little things there. People are mean. People are

23:33

mean.

23:33

They'll send him like oh, she used to call her exdus

23:35

or shes or and before I used to bother him.

23:38

Now and he's like, oh he knows, he knows. Yeah,

23:40

yeah, that's what he's like. You know, But

23:42

he's chill, he's true. I like that. Yeah

23:44

like that. I love that. And being a mama,

23:47

girl, I love being a mom.

23:48

Let me say, my daughter is a

23:50

manifestation of my dreams. I prayed

23:53

about her. I visualized, girl,

23:55

Remember what we used to do vision board.

23:56

Yeah. I was like, oh, he's a vision

23:58

board man. Remember we were absolutely at

24:01

the.

24:01

House making vision boards and like

24:03

me, I think we did an entire episode on vision.

24:06

You wanted to do conferences. Yeah.

24:10

So when I tell

24:12

you that the way my daughter looks, I

24:15

brought my daughter, y'all, so she felt

24:18

so good. I swear to you it's

24:20

that I'm not even that, it's

24:23

that PIFC. Literally, she's so beautiful.

24:25

Her head is like perfectly wound round,

24:27

she's smells delicious.

24:29

Her little hand she's talking, she's just like

24:31

once, she's just so cute, not like saying

24:33

words, but she's like.

24:34

She's babbled, she's babbling.

24:36

Yeah, and listen, I'm so happy that I had a baby

24:38

for you because now whenever you wanted

24:40

to say be your coach and like,

24:42

hell, you know what. My mom was actually telling

24:45

me that that she had a dream the other day

24:48

that I should help women that

24:50

feel helpless because this is the the

24:53

doctors. Okay, a lot of women at pcos

24:55

and suffer from like infertility, and it's it's

24:57

not as easy as it was getting pregnant, they d

25:00

as it was back in the absolutely women back then balas.

25:03

Right, women these days they struggle. Yeah, so

25:06

they're doing like I,

25:08

yes, and and a surrogate a

25:11

different things.

25:11

Right, So my mom goes, I feel

25:14

that you should give because I prepared my body chees

25:16

to get pregnant two years prior to getting pregnant.

25:19

I legit prepared my body. It's like laying

25:21

the foundation to like a house. I knew

25:23

there were certain things that I had to do. I

25:25

had to I had cysts on my ovaries,

25:28

got rid of those naturally with herbs, and

25:30

then I started seeing up for herbologists.

25:33

I started getting Yony scenes.

25:34

Remember I was slunging you the other day a Yoni

25:36

scenes. If you don't know bout Yoni scenes, listen, you

25:39

need to start getting Yoni and steam all

25:41

in the vagina. Okay, goshold me

25:44

about this.

25:44

I was I need girl and and like it regulates

25:46

your p H and if immediately eats

25:49

you up, now he's gonna.

25:49

Eat you up even Okay, it's

25:52

not going to be able to rest chapters.

25:54

Okay, so like sex hotng

25:57

with that. This is how we were all created.

25:59

Hell yeah, but so yeah,

26:01

then I started taking a fertility tea. I'm all

26:03

about like I met a

26:06

She pot my uterus back in a place. So when I tell

26:08

you, my daughter is a manifestation in my dreams,

26:11

she is.

26:12

I prayed for her. The

26:14

way she looks now is I'm like, this

26:16

is how I knew she was gonna look like this. It's

26:19

crazy. I believe in that she's

26:21

beautiful.

26:22

And so I will say

26:24

sometimes I say I wish I would I had kids younger, right

26:27

like in my twenties, in my early thirties.

26:29

But I'm thankful that I

26:31

had her when I had her because I'm patient.

26:34

Yes, like I think a lot of times

26:36

when young moms have kids at a young age, to

26:38

the suspend, I'm like, ah, And I'm.

26:40

Like, I'm not in your rush to I try. I've

26:42

traveled a lot and I'm gonna still travel. Yeah, we're

26:44

going to assall lot next month with her. Nice. I

26:46

think I had a daughter to leave her behind. Yeah,

26:48

everyone's like that, Yeah, because I don't can

26:50

see I didn't have a daughter to leave

26:52

her with. The mandis yeah, I know, God, Yeah,

26:55

you're in a different place.

26:56

You're in a different place, you're more patient, you

26:58

know the knowledge that I'm going to be You would

27:00

have printed this little girl, and I'm

27:02

like, I get to be your coach.

27:04

I get to be your biggest in

27:07

this little life. Everyone's like, you didn't,

27:09

you didn't. But she had a boy. I'm like, nope, how can

27:11

I teach a boy how to be amazing?

27:13

Yeah?

27:13

I see, No, you're a total And

27:16

when I have another one, I want another's

27:18

gonna be Oh my god. I can already see you're you're a great

27:20

mom. I can already see. Like it's just

27:22

I don't know.

27:23

I see you on social media, like everything

27:25

you speak and again, you don't

27:28

just say ship like you you're about it, about

27:30

You're about it and in every way. So

27:32

I needs to imagine. I said,

27:37

I'm so honored that she picked me and that I

27:39

and that I picked her. But they say children

27:41

pick their parents, yes, you know, Like so

27:43

that's like that's just like your stuff.

27:46

And I'm like, my guys movies, I will. I

27:48

know they're all on milk ste

27:53

that's that's admirable.

27:54

And breastfeed her, so like its breastfeeding

27:57

just it checks you. You can't dream too much.

27:58

Alcohol, you shouldn't be you know, alcohol.

28:01

She don't really smoke cannabis.

28:02

Everybody else. I'm a cannabis enthusiast. You know

28:04

that I was gonna asked the other

28:06

day, I can't because that bread speed. But you know the

28:10

prymney, you know what I mean? Like our parents

28:12

were hippies and they were doing it too. It This

28:14

is my thing I all get into.

28:16

The whole endo cannabinoids is that

28:18

you don't want me to get started with that, But everybody

28:21

has an endoc cannabinoids in their body,

28:23

and in reality, it.

28:23

Helps your immune system when you consume the flower

28:26

the right way, the right way like c

28:28

med. The cantabinoids are actually

28:31

super beneficial for the body. But people

28:33

don't.

28:34

They only want to see the cannabis

28:36

that get too high. Right, And there's different and

28:38

it's not just that it's we need

28:41

a.

28:41

Whole episode on that, because a lot,

28:43

especially.

28:44

In our community's educated,

28:48

especially the older generation, that cannabis

28:51

is is way better than drinking a Thailand.

28:53

Let me tell you, guys.

28:53

I always say, oh my god, people goes down,

28:56

Oh my god that I spoke with right now, I'm gonna clean

28:58

that a very deep cleansed. But when

29:00

they found out that I smoked cannabis, it was just like,

29:02

oh my god, how could you go like, wait a second, No, I

29:04

have more babies, Yes you do.

29:06

I want one more. I just want

29:08

you know what, I can't imagine my life. I can't imagine

29:11

my life without my siblings. Yeah,

29:13

can you know? So I'm like I

29:16

because and when you put it that way, yeah,

29:18

no, And a lot of women

29:20

these days.

29:20

Are like one and done, and I'm like, I get it because

29:23

you know it, it ain't easy. It's

29:25

definitely worth it. But I cannot

29:28

imagine my life without my sister and my brother because

29:30

we're tight, you know what I mean. They're so fateful

29:32

that we're tight. And I love that your mom instilled

29:34

that in you too. Is that No, Like

29:37

your siblings are forever people and

29:39

you know what I mean. So I love that you're close

29:42

to your siblings.

29:42

So when I see my closest or my siblings,

29:44

I'm like, yeah.

29:48

I want to get on it.

29:49

I know, I know, girl it okay? Would

29:52

you you don't mind if it's a boy or girl. At this point, it's

29:54

like whatever, I mean, I feel like God's

29:56

gonna give me what's meant for me. But I definitely

29:59

want another.

29:59

Little Oh my God, yes, because like

30:02

we're so really yeah, like sure,

30:04

dressing them up.

30:05

And I mean I could teach a woman how

30:07

to be great? Can I teach you?

30:10

No?

30:10

Yeah? You know that? Yeah?

30:12

See and see I have

30:14

always in my life watered a boy, and

30:16

I think I always like, I want to be I want to have

30:19

a boy.

30:19

But I've learned through therapy

30:21

and through healing that the reason I waited

30:23

so long to have kids was

30:26

because, of course I'm taking care

30:28

of my siblings, but also it is that I have been

30:30

a mockery. Yeah, I've been. I went out

30:33

all of it, especially with Johnny

30:35

and Jenica. Oh yeah, those are your freaking

30:38

mother a parent conferences.

30:41

I did it all. I did the homework. I it

30:43

was I did it all.

30:44

I mean, so john was more mine,

30:46

I feel than even my mom did. Sometimes you know,

30:49

I should, It's understandable. But

30:51

also I think I waited and I didn't

30:53

want to grow because I was afraid of my

30:56

mom and I had such a beautiful relationship, but it was

30:59

it was hard, you know that I was like, oh

31:01

what, I don't what if I have a girl, and then we

31:03

repeat things that I don't know. I thought so many negative

31:06

things and in reality, I'm like, wait a second, but if I

31:08

do have a little girl, and I can mend

31:11

and help that relationship. But hew that relationship

31:13

because times didn't allow.

31:15

It, you know. So now I'm like, God, whatever

31:17

you want me to have, I'm gonna accept it. Yes.

31:19

Yeah, but I could see you having a little girl

31:22

and doing things completely different with your

31:24

little girl.

31:25

Because you know better. I'm older. You

31:28

know what boundaries are.

31:29

Now, I'm so patty that you know how to

31:31

set boundaries and based with certain people. Yeah,

31:34

but boundaries are superper important and

31:36

you understand that. So like, when you know how to

31:38

do it another way, you're gonna do it a different

31:41

way so that we you know, Because believe

31:43

it or not, girl, there's a lot of broken

31:45

people raising broken humans.

31:48

They're emotionally broken. And I

31:50

love that about you that you encourage

31:52

therapy. Every human

31:54

watching this needs to go to thera down. I

31:57

have a love the therapist since I was nineteen. My

31:59

parents got divorced fifteen and it affected

32:01

me. So when when

32:03

you talk about therapy, when anybody talks about

32:05

therapy.

32:06

I'm like, is that local?

32:09

At this point you need

32:11

to address all the issues and listen,

32:14

we all got issues, yeah, all of us, all of us.

32:16

It doesn't have to be Oh I was, you know, because

32:18

I was sexually abused, like it could be anything

32:21

and everything, and a lot of people, especially man in

32:23

our culture, where people think, well, see

32:25

what you know, if I go to counseling, it's

32:27

because something's wrong with me, and no, it's that we all

32:29

need to bounce ideas, let

32:32

our feelings out with someone that's not

32:34

gonna that we're gonna feel good to criticize it or

32:37

we're shy.

32:37

It's someone that's just completely separated

32:39

from your family. Yeah.

32:40

Yeah, I love that you encourage your followers of

32:43

therapy because I do. Do do it,

32:45

but your pride to the side and deal

32:47

with it because otherwise that haunts you for the

32:49

rest of your life and your neighbor.

32:51

You're never able to have all of your relationships

32:53

a.

32:53

Quality, that relationship with your siblings, with

32:56

your parents because you're just holy hot to

32:58

old shit.

32:59

Yes, and it's like they get to

33:01

see mm hm, oh my god exactly.

33:03

I always tell you guys that you.

33:04

Guys have to release we have to release the baggage

33:07

and not there's there's no way that we're gonna be able

33:09

to be our best selves if we're carrying

33:11

old ship literally old shit.

33:13

Well, Ron, thank you so much. She

33:17

thinks it's so it's so intimate in

33:19

here. I love it. You think have done a good job.

33:21

I wanted something very warm, and I wanted something

33:23

like apple Hillo. That's gonna give you, like you know, nice

33:26

point, You're gonna give you a little hugs. So I'm

33:28

glad to do that here. I'm grateful that you're

33:30

here.

33:30

And I gotta go on your podcast. So tell us about your podcast.

33:33

So where can people find you? Yeah? So our podcast

33:35

mine and my sisters called straight Up Sisters.

33:37

The podcast, it's my older

33:39

sister and me and so the older

33:41

sister and baby is the.

33:43

Dynamic is real.

33:45

Susie is six years older

33:48

than me, and she thinks she's always right right

33:50

because she's got mer life experiences.

33:52

We have a lot of opposing views on different

33:54

things, but it's all love

33:57

at the end of the day. Like I'm not like I hate

33:59

you. I mean we we get into disagreements

34:01

on the podcast. I'm like, no, like that. What

34:03

makes a strong relationship? Yeah, and so

34:05

that's what it is.

34:06

It's the older sister and a baby sister having

34:08

a conversation on a set every day

34:11

and we talk our shit.

34:12

We talk our shit but a lot of two

34:14

and Susie is right, you know what I mean. I'm like, damn

34:17

yeah, she's like seventy thirty

34:20

percent of the time.

34:20

Right.

34:20

Do you ever tell your siblings that no, I don't, but I

34:23

should. Shit be good. I

34:25

told you so. Yeah, because a lot, you know, you guys

34:27

have more life experience. You get the baby. Yeah

34:29

yeah, like you good guy, Jennica, because she's

34:32

the baby, right. So it's it's fun.

34:34

We have such a good time and we're on all digital platforms

34:36

straight up. Sisters of the podcast, Susie,

34:38

I love you. I missed you girl.

34:39

I know she loves you too. She was so happy that I was coming

34:42

to day. She's like, tell her she's just gonna be on the podcast

34:44

and she's like, you know what, I know, I'm

34:46

gonna.

34:46

I'm gonna go there with her because she's the oldest,

34:49

and you know, I'm gonna. I'm gonna ask herself that maybe

34:51

people are free to ask her.

34:52

And I'm like, and I'm sure she'll have to make sure.

34:54

I will. Yeah will, So Susie, bring it on, baby

34:56

girl and her mom two said to my mom that she made.

34:58

She gave me my first call on. Yeah, most

35:01

she did. Did your mom gave me my first colonate

35:03

way back in the day? Girl? Really is

35:06

okay? Can you tell that people like kalonics are not painful?

35:08

Colonies are not people. They're a little uncomfortably it could

35:10

be a little comfortable, but they're not painful.

35:12

They're that painful and they're great for you.

35:15

So it was because of her mom that I started like getting

35:17

into it. So thanks, you know, shout out to your mom.

35:20

Yeah, do you want to share your socials?

35:22

Yeah? My social is at roxyes

35:24

World.

35:24

So the cool thing about Roxy's World and

35:26

the way I spell my name is it's our a Q capital

35:29

C. Yes, so nobody else

35:31

has that name on.

35:33

I love that. One of a kind,

35:35

one of one. Yeah.

35:37

So it's the rocky r a Q capital seed

35:39

roxyes World up everything and every weege

35:41

Snapchat.

35:42

You got sapchat please? Yeah? I

35:44

love Snapchat. Yeah, I love it. You're

35:46

really good at it. You're really good. Like I'm like, I

35:48

sit there and I watch it.

35:49

I'm like I buy the stuff that she posts to I say

35:51

stree shots and I'm like, oh, girl, I gotta remember her

35:53

by this, so yeah, I follow her.

35:55

So bros As that's a greed

35:57

backbone. Now, thank you, thank god. It's

36:00

like you had no the choice. I had no the choice.

36:02

I had to put on my big girl panties. I was like, all right, cool,

36:04

my mama, here, I gotta I gotta be the one to protect

36:06

my siblings.

36:06

And I so yeah, you do

36:09

good?

36:09

You do?

36:10

You so good at that brette. That's what older sisters

36:12

do. Y'all got our bats forever.

36:15

Thank you so much, Thank you, Roxy

36:18

Lovett. I

36:21

know, thank you. Never again, don't never let

36:23

go my gardes.

36:26

I know. Thank you guys so much.

36:28

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