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Hello everyone, and welcome to my podcast,

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Cheeky's and Chill Podcast.

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If this is your first time listening or

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watching, thank you so much. Welcome to the

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fam talking about family. I

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have two of my closest

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friends with me, my circles, very

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teeny tiny, and I have

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two of them here with me, and we're going

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to talk about our friendship, talk about

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more about me from their perspective, and

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let's get it started, okay,

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guys. So the friends I have today

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are Brianna Houser Gonzalez

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right here. She's super shy.

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Just give her a little bit alcohol, she'll loosen up. And

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over here, my amiga Lae.

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We call her what.

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Do we call you that?

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Right here? J Almost

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no, but almost no anyway, Yeah, that's the

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conversation she

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has it on her on her on her id.

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It's not the passport.

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Yeah, almost no, almost almost

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no.

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Okay, guys, So this these are my friends.

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And again, I have a very small

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friend like circle and I and

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I like it that way. I feel like a lot of acquaintances,

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a lot of not a lot of friends

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exactly like. And I've learned

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throughout the years that it's better that way, and

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I'm happy with the friends that I have, and sure

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I feel blessed. I've known Brianna.

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How long have I known?

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No, I think it's like sixteen

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years?

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Sixteen years, Oh my gosh.

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So I met her when we were

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recording Cheeks and Roxy. Oh

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my god. That was in two thousand and nine, twenty

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ten. So yeah, that's when I met you. And now

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she's a mommy four I'm gonna

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say four, say that I

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know a example boy, I know,

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oh my god. And her husband is the

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home eme and so yeah, that's Brianna and

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Judy over here. I've known for how long I'm.

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Yeah, since twenty twelve.

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Twenty twelve. And the way I met

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her was through.

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You emailed me, yes, yes that you wanted

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to close.

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Yes. Her boutique is called Victoria's

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Boutique. You guys. She was one of

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the first to start the online

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boutique movement. And we started

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talking like that.

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Yeah, pretty much. I never thought it would

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be coming to a friendship. Yeah, but yeah,

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yeah, amazing.

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Yeah. So that's what Judy is. She

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owns her own business and it's grown,

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and that's how I met

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her. And then Brianna here, Brianna is

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tell him what you do, because

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I think it's got me. Yeah, I honestly I love

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it. I love watching your tiktoks. By the way, I'm

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a.

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Mom of three. I stay home

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with my kids, which is very exhausting.

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I know, a lot of work, very exhausting.

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I never thought that. I never thought that that would be me.

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I don't know. I think it's it's a

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amazing and I think it's very what's

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the word. It's twenty four

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seven, it's twenty four to seven, And I think that people

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don't give women that stay home like

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amazekasa, like stay at home moms,

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like the respect that

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you guys deserve, or not the respect, but the praise.

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That's the word. Because it's a lot.

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It's it's a lot like but it's

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for the better good because I think you being there with

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your children makes the biggest difference. Thank goodness,

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your husband goes out and works and you guys have everything

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you need. But it's like also that big

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part of being able to be there with your children

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and guide them and help them with their homework.

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It's it's I think it's awesome. So

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I think it's a blessings. It is. Yeah,

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yeah, and I.

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Wouldn't have it any other way. I mean it's hard

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and exhausting and everything,

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but I wouldn't. I wouldn't want anyone else to do

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the things that I do for them, Like I want

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to do those things.

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Have you thought about like once they get older?

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Do you want to now?

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Yeh?

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Like oh because Markie now yeah,

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he's youngest.

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Yeah, so I was like, oh, I'm useless, nobody

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needs me anymore. But no,

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that's yeah, now that he's in school, he

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just started, and I'm like, okay, like what

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am I going to do? Like so that's that's

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kind of where where I'm at.

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Yeah, And I mean, well,

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first of all, you guys, before before we

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continue this conversation, I haven't had

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a drink in ninety days. Okay,

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yesterday was the end of my ninety

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day cleansed detox fasting that

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I was doing. So I'm gonna have my first shot with my

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friends, my first shot

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here we go.

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I for sure thought it was going to be like before,

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Oh, we're so.

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Honored here, I know, And

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I'm gonna have my first shot here on camera with you guys,

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So cheers. Okay.

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Also, I learned a new one. Hold on a second, I'm

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not above you. I'm not under

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you. I learned this one from what show? Was

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it? Love is Blind? Okay, So yeah,

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I'm not above you, I'm not under you, but I'm

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right here with you.

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Cheers, equal number number

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of sallios.

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Okay, cool?

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Oh you know me? That

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is my first shot in ninety days. You guys, how

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does that feel? It feels

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nice.

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I'm so proud of you.

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But it's not just alcohol, right, it was no meat, no

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meat of meat, no meat,

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no coffee, no cannabis.

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I didn't know if I could say that.

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Yeah, you can say it. No cannabis. It's it's medicinal.

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Yeah, yeah, you know what I mean. It's a lot better. And I tell people

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that want to come for me and say, oh my god, you smoke

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cannabis or you take edibles, It's like, yeah,

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it's worse than drinking a freaking taking

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a child and all, but it is.

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That's true.

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I just like that. You're just honest.

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I have to be.

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I love that. I love that, like that's

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yeah. I hate when people like, oh no, I don't

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I'm perfect. I don't think I don't.

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Like no, no, we know you. Yeah you

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know? Yeah, well talking about that because

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you guys have both known me. Like I met

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you in twenty twelve. I was barely

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starting my like my career. I

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mean, I had started in two thousand and nine, and that's kind

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of where like I was like, Okay, I'm starting this

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path. But then I met you in twenty twelve.

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So much has happened, you

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guys. So much has happened since

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then, So talking

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about that, and be honest, I have a bunch

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of questions here and we're just gonna let the conversation flow.

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But this is why I wanted my friends to come on

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the podcast, so we can talk about like

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who I am as a friend, my

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pet peeves, my flaws because we

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all have them, and for you guys to get

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to know me from my

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friend's point of view, so

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exactly my friend's perspective. So I'm

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a drink a little bit, So you guys tell me

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talk about annesty. Do you guys feel that I'm the same person

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because you guys have seen me on stage? No, okay,

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tell me what do you feel.

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I'm not the same person as

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before, but not that you were ever a bad person.

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But I feel like we've witnessed so

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much growth and I think it's a beautiful thing. Like

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we've all kind of grown together. But to see you like grow

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not only like as a person, you know,

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but as like you know, your

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career, like artists, like you're your

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performance, all those crazy

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I feel like it's amazing because you've

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grown to be like just a

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better version of yourself.

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She grew a big one.

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I grew big one. She did.

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I was like and more mature, you know what I mean.

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I think it's it's cool to see that transition.

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And it's like when we first met, it was like we could

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go anywhere, and like it was just we could

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go anyway and nobody stopped

7:26

her or anything. And now it's like we were nikonos,

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like and there's lady that like screamed

7:32

from across the street and she was

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like cheeky's.

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And I was just like, She's like what you didn't

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think.

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They were gonna got the heck? Like we're

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like on the other side of the world. Like so

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the fact that, like, I mean, when we first met, it

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was like that wasn't that

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wasn't the case, right, We can do anything and go anywhere

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and act a fool and nobody knew yes, And

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now it's like oh my god, like everywhere,

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Like I'm just.

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Like damn, Like is that weird for you guys?

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No?

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For men?

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Honest, No, I'm used to it now.

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Like back then, I was like, oh shoot, like more people are

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like knowing. It's like it's not like just

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about her mom, Like it's her that they want, you know,

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And I'm like, damn, Like she's

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an artist, like and I tend

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to forget that sometimes to me.

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Know you on a personal level, yeah, Like we

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have that privilege, you know, in honor

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to know you, like like like yeah,

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so like when we actually go see her like perform,

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it's like I'm like, oh, damn, our best friend, yea.

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Does it feel weird or not anymore? Like to see

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me like because we have dinners, we have very

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very private conversations.

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It's a different version of you. But it's

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like we were like it's like.

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Yeah, but do you guys feel like for

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instance, because there are probably people

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that watch or listen to me and say, oh, like

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I wonder if she's who she says

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she is on social media or is she pretending

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she putting up a front.

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That's the probably the biggest question I get.

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Yeah, Okay, that is true.

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People ask me all the time like, oh, like you

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know, for whatever occasion,

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like is it hard to buy her a gift?

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Is it?

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Like? Oh, I could never hang out with her, she wouldn't want

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to hang out with me. And I'm like it

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couldn't be the opposite, Like it couldn't be

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more different, like like no, like

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like like what do you buy her? And I'm like, you guys,

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slippers and some panamas? It sucks And

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I'm like a candle, like

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a candle.

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And even when it.

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Comes to eating, you're not like all about like the Nanci

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stuff.

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We're chilling, dude.

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Yeah.

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That was one of the biggest things that we loved about

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like one another, is that we go in.

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We love to eat, yeah

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too much, you know, we love it.

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And that's how kind of like our friendship started. We started

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doing a lot of like dinner dates.

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A lot of dinner Yeah for sure.

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It was I mean, yeah, because I met

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you after my mom passed, right, yes, yay, and

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I didn't meet her. Yeah, yeah, you didn't get to

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my mom would have loved you for sure, right, yeah, like

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my mom would have loved you.

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Yeah.

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She She's asked me from like do you think your mom

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would like, like our friendship, and

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I'm like, oh yeah, she would. She would know that's

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a real one, you know what I mean.

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She knew, she knew she

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should. My mom knew.

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She was always almost always

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ninety eight percent of the time right

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about everyone. She's like, all

10:12

right, I give this guy, but I give this guy ninety

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days. She was right all the time. She's like, give

10:17

ninety days, he gonna last. I'm like, Mom, but I really

10:20

like him. I know my

10:22

daughter. She would tell me, I know my daughter. She's

10:24

like this friend, they're using you. But okay, you'll

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see on yourself. My mom would always she was always right. Yeah,

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she was all the time. Let's drink to her. Salu

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to Jenny Refaire, So Lou, you

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guys am feeling a little happy, right, that's

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good? Okay, shot

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or Kim

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copy you guys. I haven't had a drink in ninety

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days. So here we go. This is real. This is

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what is happening right now.

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It is real.

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Don't fill it up. You have to, Kim, look at

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Kim feeling. It's okay, that's good. Give that some

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one to Judy. Judy got a big old one, had

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a big one.

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Sure, when we went to your I

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piic thing, I was throwing up on myself

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and she was like.

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No, Miami, ki okay. Actually,

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out of out of us three who drinks,

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who can hold their alcohol the most? And

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then probably me?

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Then then Brianna's

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two shots because

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you don't.

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We love Briann because usually she's very shy, but

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you give her some alcohol.

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I'm not shy with you too, like I'm not.

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No, no, but I think like, like you know, you're

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more reserved, which I love. You

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know, you don't like.

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Talk about myself like I'm always like you've

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gotten better, She's gotten better, and we like that,

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like about you,

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like tell us

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everybody else.

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She'll say, I'm so nosy,

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I want to know about this, tell me this and tell me yeah.

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And then Judy will start a story and I'm like, no, no, no, wait, wait,

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start from the beginning. Hold on, you left this out

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wait hold on.

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Because Judy is also very reserved. She I

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am very very private, very private,

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which I love that. I love that you guys are very

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private, but I love I

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love that you're not though. I love

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that.

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I love that and people. That's why, like some

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of my other friends that you've been around

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and stuff. They're like, she's so open, like she says, oh,

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she'll say anything, and I

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love that, Like I just I don't like when

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people are like, oh, I

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don't oh no, my life is perfect. I'm

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perfect and you're very

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like, oh no, like like an open

12:23

book all the time. I like that.

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Thank you so much. Thank you.

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Yeah.

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I feel like I'm here to change the world. You guys,

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like, I really feel that you've known that and

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she wants to change. No,

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but I'm serious, And what would you always

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say? Be like oh my god, I'm like, this is such

12:38

a beautiful day, and she's like, you know, I've

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always been like that, Like I've I

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feel like I've been very consistent with

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who I am. I said I wanted to write a book, I

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said I wanted to do this. I feel like I've been very

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consistent with who

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I am, what I'm meant to do. And I

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feel like you guys can be like testing

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test that you know what I mean. It's not pretending

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I'm not. This isn't something I pulled out of my ass.

13:02

Like people I want.

13:04

You're very dedicated to everything that you do, every

13:06

project that you do, every Yeah, and like your family

13:09

and like your close friends, like you're.

13:10

Just you know, and I love the heck out

13:13

of you guys. Yeah, it doesn't matter how

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I love you guys, Like it doesn't matter how busy

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I am. Like for me, it's like I

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I think about my friend and I'm thinking about but I'm like, you know, I've

13:21

been thinking about her for two days, you know what I mean. But we talk

13:23

almost every day, both of you.

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We have ours even if we don't

13:27

like talk. It's like, hey, it's Monday, beautiful.

13:30

I love that.

13:31

But now it's beautiful now

13:33

that you're in like a good relationship,

13:36

Like I don't worry.

13:37

Like I'm like, okay, that's what. Yeah.

13:42

For him, yeah, we love a millia. Oh

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my god, you guys.

13:52

Yeah, he's just so chill.

13:53

He's so real.

13:54

He's so chill.

13:56

He's peaceful. So I'm like, okay, like es

13:58

and like his vibe is just before I.

14:01

Have to check on her, like make sure she's okay,

14:03

you know, make sure I'm now I'm like, oh, I know she's good.

14:05

Choked out somewhere, that's the truth. Be

14:08

like she's gonna get choked out. She's not calling me.

14:09

But one time I don't know she lost her phone or

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something. This is like five years

14:14

ago, no more than five years ago. I remember she lost

14:16

her phone so all the messages were coming up green.

14:18

And I was like, oh my god.

14:19

I was like, Rob, something's wrong, like and

14:21

he's like, maybe she just you know, her phone

14:23

died.

14:23

I'm like, no, I feel it.

14:25

Something's wrong, Like I have to get a hold of her, like I

14:27

was worried. Now I'm like, oh, her phone's probably

14:29

dead. She's fine, Like yeah, he's peace,

14:32

He's peace.

14:32

Nice pea. Yeah, it makes me happy. I'm so happy

14:34

that you guys love him because I

14:37

love you guys so much and your opinion is

14:39

so important to me that when

14:41

you guys met him and you guys are both like, oh

14:43

my god, this is this is this is a guy

14:46

that like loves you and you know what I mean.

14:48

Obviously, the relationship isn't perfect. We've gone through

14:50

a lot of things that even a lot of people that I'm maybe

14:52

not even willing to like bring up or

14:55

maybe he just shit that has happened. And

14:57

you guys gave me like amazing advice. And that's

14:59

how I know. These These are my roal dogs. These are

15:01

my right or dies, because good friends are going to

15:03

tell you hey, I don't know about that, or

15:06

give you good advice, not try to

15:08

steer you in the wrong way. And at

15:11

the.

15:11

Last time, I was like, you know what, I don't know about this, but if

15:13

we're gonna fall, we're gonna fall together. Yeah, it's gonna

15:15

be fine. We'll figure it out. What are you talking

15:17

about?

15:19

What are you talking about? You

15:21

know, like what like six

15:23

years ago or so, my

15:25

first marriage. Yeah, I'm hot. I

15:28

was like, it's okay, though, we're here fine. I

15:30

know.

15:31

She's like, it's okay, okay, We're gonna be fine. Because yeah,

15:35

she was like that's what she would do.

15:36

We actually, you

15:39

guys weren't and just said, well, I don't I don't

15:41

know, but you know what, we love.

15:43

We're gonna figure it out. We're gonna figure it out. It'll be fine.

15:45

And we did. We did, and we figured it out,

15:48

you know, and here we are and here we

15:50

are we learned.

15:52

Yeah, we sure did, so.

16:00

You guys. Brianna said already

16:03

that she has, you know, three beautiful boys.

16:05

She has a great husband, Rob, Rob Gonzalez.

16:07

I love you, dude, that's my homie. We're

16:10

both cancers. We get each other. He's

16:12

like, I love your husband.

16:14

I got to meet him a little bit more.

16:16

He's yeah, when you guys were at He's

16:20

not shy, he's just he's very observant.

16:23

Yes, he observes. He's quiet, he's respectful.

16:26

He allows everyone, which I love. And

16:28

that's one thing that I love about immedia and him,

16:30

Like they embrace people for who

16:32

they are. He's not. He doesn't judge you.

16:34

No, I worry sometimes I'm like, fuck

16:37

because I'm a'm anina to one of the babies

16:39

that I'm like, I think, I'm like, I'm acting,

16:41

I'm wild and I'm crazy right now, It's like, oh my

16:43

god, he already knows. But he

16:45

accepts me for who I am, and he sends me stuff

16:47

and he sends me like we're on the same

16:50

wavelength for sure.

16:52

One hundred.

16:53

That's another important thing about a friendship, like

16:55

not be judgmental.

16:57

Exactly, and that is that

16:59

is what he. That is he and not a

17:01

lot.

17:01

Of friends will be like if we're gonna fall, we're gonna fall together

17:03

like it's fine or figured out, Like I

17:06

don't know. I just feel like some friends

17:08

in the past, maybe some that

17:10

are here now, not not not her, but

17:14

you know, not.

17:17

It's not it's not like that, you know.

17:19

It's not like you know, because

17:21

when we met her friends at the time,

17:23

they were very mean to me. Are you be honest?

17:25

No, yeah, honest, they were very

17:27

mean. They were very mean. They were and

17:30

but they weren't very accepting of her because she was

17:32

a new one, and you.

17:33

Know, and I was just like, these are friends,

17:35

like they're mean, Like why

17:37

are they your friends? Like I was so conduced.

17:40

I was so confused, like so

17:42

confused. Julie was the only one that was nice

17:44

to me.

17:44

Oh my Julie on the podcast

17:47

I love you, Julie, let

17:49

me real quick before you keep going. I have other

17:52

friends because we can only have two guests

17:54

at the time, you guys, here on on you know, she

17:56

didn't show you, guys. It's not that my other

17:58

friends aren't important, because I love them all. But these

18:00

are the two that are just a little bit more like whatever. We've

18:02

been chilling, like yeah, chilling. Anyways,

18:05

I have other friends that are not here but that I

18:07

love. Anyways, gone just because I don't want

18:09

anybody to get hurt. Yeah, but

18:10

we.

18:12

Like we have spent time together too with all of them. Yeah,

18:15

so it's great.

18:16

She was only the only one that was nice.

18:18

Julie was Julie's very I called your

18:20

piece. She's just peace and

18:22

love and she's not She's not about drama.

18:24

She's about her family, Like you

18:26

know what I mean? Like that that's what I want now, Like

18:29

I want those vibes around me. Like it's like, if

18:31

you're bringing me drama, if like

18:33

even you're not willing to split the bill with me, like

18:35

we gotta like I'm no longer

18:37

doing that shit, you know what I mean.

18:40

I'm no longer paying like

18:42

everything. Once in a while, I'll pay for you guys, cause

18:44

I freaking feel it in my heart. But most of the time we're like.

18:46

Let's get it. That's I feel like the biggest thing.

18:48

If she doesn't feel it, she's not gonna do it. I'm not

18:50

exactly And I feel like it's taken a lot

18:53

to get there, because like there was friends at the time

18:55

that I was like.

18:56

Why are we pad I wasn't part of that

18:59

friend, No, you were.

19:00

I was like, you came after me after but I think,

19:02

yeah, right, but I was yeah, I was like.

19:05

I mean, can't they just pay for themselves. I

19:07

got I mean, like adults here

19:09

like and she was just like she was just I.

19:11

Mean we were young too, like we were here. It

19:13

has to do a lot when we were younger and and

19:16

you know what I mean, Like I'm

19:18

grateful for those friends, for that group

19:20

of friends because they helped me

19:22

through like a very tough time. Yes, you know, and

19:24

they were there for that season of my life.

19:26

And now I've grown and i have matured and

19:28

I've learned the type of friends that I want, and

19:31

it has to be reciprocated. It has to be both

19:33

ways. If it's not, then I'm like, I don't

19:35

want to get to the point where I'm bankrupt and I'm giving

19:37

so much of myself and not receiving

19:40

enough where I'm unhappy. Now. I

19:42

feel like, but you are like super

19:44

generous. If she had fifty sense, she would

19:47

give away forty nine and she.

19:48

Herself got it.

19:50

We always have.

19:52

Yeah, I'm like, no, she would

19:54

like she'd be like, Okay, if you need a sure, I'll take

19:56

this one off. It's okay, it's fine, I'll figure

19:58

it out.

19:59

Like I love it being.

20:00

That's that's my loveling, that's my love language.

20:03

And I mean I want to talk about my because

20:05

I have a god daughter to Victoria.

20:07

Yes, Victoria, we'll have an

20:09

eighteen year old son and a sixteen year

20:11

old now, so.

20:13

You wouldn't be able to tell because it's hot as hell. Hell

20:15

yeah right.

20:16

Gold hashtag Yeah, I'm going to be forty

20:18

three.

20:18

Do you want more kids? I'm

20:21

just asking this for the podcast,

20:26

of course you canay, Okay, no,

20:28

no, absolutely not no, okay no,

20:30

no, great like they are so amazing.

20:33

I'm proud. I am proud, like it has cost

20:35

me a lot because I've done it all.

20:37

My Yeah, you've done and you've been mom

20:39

and dad honestly without mom and dad.

20:41

I mean I am yeah.

20:43

So yeah, I'm good.

20:45

I'm good.

20:46

No, but you believe in love. I do.

20:48

I do want to fall in love. I do want

20:51

a partner in the future.

20:52

Yeah, not because you need one, you want.

20:53

One because I want one. Yes, You're a freaking

20:56

great catch. And I'm not even just saying that.

20:58

I always tell you this all.

20:59

You know what.

20:59

I accept that now I am a good catch.

21:01

Hell, yes, i am not tell that camera

21:04

I am.

21:04

I am.

21:05

It's not just applications.

21:07

Whoever wants to apply yes, managers

21:10

right here.

21:10

Managers will screen through

21:12

the applications, screen you.

21:14

We are not putting up on fucking narcissism.

21:16

No, absolutely not. We know those red flag

21:19

no broke boys, no, no, no,

21:21

Come with what you will. If you are a

21:24

gardener, be the best gardener.

21:27

You are a man that works with

21:29

you know, waste management. Great, but do

21:31

your thing and love my friend the

21:34

right way and your kids and her kids and

21:36

her kids. Ooh, her kids.

21:37

Are you looking for like a step down?

21:39

You're not looking for someone to come save you, because

21:41

you you got it down.

21:42

I've done it.

21:43

I'm okay, You're good.

21:44

You know what I bring to the table.

21:46

Yeah, there you go.

21:47

Everyone, round of applause. And

21:49

that is what I'm talking about, ladies.

21:52

When I get some questions on dear and

21:54

I'm like, give yourself your place. It

21:57

didn't just happen one day where I was like, oh my god,

21:59

I know who I am, I know my value, I know what I bring

22:01

to the table. I had to kiss a lot of frogs,

22:04

not a lot, just like three or something

22:06

like that to get to like where

22:08

I am now, you know, but

22:10

toads

22:14

some to frogs

22:17

and toads. Yeah, I have, but it

22:19

takes some time. I was like, have you looked

22:21

in the mirror, like it's look.

22:23

At him and look at you.

22:24

I was like, oh no, I don't know. I

22:28

was like, she, no, I can she straight

22:30

up?

22:31

Sometimes it was like beauty and the Beast. I was like, come on, no,

22:36

why.

22:37

You are

22:39

true?

22:39

It's true. But I learned. I

22:41

learned, Like I mean, I'm like, that's what

22:43

I told you. The other day when when she did

22:45

she I told him, I told him what you said. I

22:48

was like, both of you together, that's perfect.

22:49

You you said his body's looking

22:52

great.

22:52

Yeah.

22:52

I was like, both of you.

22:53

And she's

22:56

like, you should tell him.

22:56

I'm like, okay, I'll tell him. Yeah, when tell

22:59

him, because he's he's finally

23:02

we're good. We're both on our.

23:04

Life work, like

23:08

the hiking and all that stuff that you guys do.

23:09

So yeah, like the bikes and stuff.

23:12

Yeah, we're having first piece.

23:14

Yeah, but it took me a while. To my point, oh my

23:16

god, guys. But to my point, though, is

23:19

it takes us a while, and it takes us some time

23:21

to get to the point where we're like, I

23:24

know who I am, I know what I bring to the table.

23:26

I need to love myself enough to say no

23:28

to the situation. No, you're not going to keep abusing

23:30

me. No, you're not going to keep gas lighting

23:33

me. No, no, no, because

23:35

I'm gonna say yes to myself. So

23:37

that is where Miami guy is because you have been

23:39

a.

23:39

Part of that, yeah, of like my whole transition

23:41

of my growth and spiritual everything.

23:44

And I know that that. And we're not in

23:46

a rush, We're not like desperate. It's I

23:48

know that that man is gonna come for you, a

23:50

great man that you deserve, because I'm

23:52

not just talking out of my ass, like you're an amazing woman

23:55

that deserves the world. And I

23:58

know we're gonna have that. We're gonna all go on triple

24:00

dates. Ye yes. Why do you

24:02

guys think that we drew ourselves

24:04

to each other? You know? Because

24:08

now I'm like, these are women that I want for

24:10

the rest of my life, like the friends that I have right

24:12

now. I'm like, I want you guys for the rest

24:14

of my life. And I love because the

24:16

group of friends that I have. In reality, I brought

24:18

you guys together like they met because

24:20

of me, and I love that you guys

24:23

talk, you guys get along. But there's

24:25

something that drew us together. What do you guys think that

24:27

was?

24:27

I mean, for me, it was like we grew up to like

24:29

we were like kids when

24:31

we met, and like it's been like so many

24:33

things that have happened. I mean, death, divorce,

24:37

marriage, babies, I

24:39

mean, like so many things have happened. So it's like

24:41

very I'm gonna cry.

24:43

It's okay, I know, because that's.

24:45

It's like a lot. It's a lot of things that and

24:47

so I feel like like we we grew

24:50

together. It wasn't like she grew I

24:52

did it.

24:52

It was like we grew together together.

24:54

Yeah.

24:55

Well, when I first met Brianna, you guys,

24:58

hopefully it's okay for me to say this, but

25:00

as far as like your dad, yeah, oh yeah, yeah,

25:03

well her dad passed away. Yeah,

25:05

what year was it? Two thousand and two, two

25:07

thousand and two. I met her in two thousand and

25:09

nine, you guys. And she would tell me my

25:12

mom passed away in twenty twelve, right, So

25:14

she would tell me, and she would cry a lot,

25:16

Like we would go to dinner and something would come

25:18

up or Valentine's Day because he passed away on Valentine's

25:20

Day, and I

25:22

didn't understand. I would sit across from her and I

25:25

was like, I don't understand, Like I know, my dad's not here.

25:27

I don't talk to my dad, but like I

25:29

had my mom and I was like, oh

25:31

my god, Like I couldn't really And that's

25:33

like I couldn't sympathize because I'm very empathetic,

25:35

Like I I'm an EmPATH.

25:37

Like, so I felt Jen and Johnny's dad

25:39

had just passed, had.

25:40

Just passed away. Yeah, So it's like we would

25:42

cry and stuff. Yeah, and she would cry. I'm

25:44

sorry she would cry.

25:45

And she was like that's like Johnny and Johnna, I don't know what to

25:48

tell.

25:48

Them, like yeah, no, Yeah. And

25:50

then fast forward to a

25:53

few years later later,

25:55

my mom passed away and I was and we were to Gosh,

25:57

and we were together. We were together.

26:00

She was in Vegas with me, you guys when I found out my mom

26:02

passed away.

26:03

Yeah, And I just remember it was.

26:04

One of the ones that I speak about in the book. Yeah.

26:06

I just remember the phone ringing and ringing and ringing,

26:09

and I'm like, who's calling?

26:10

Like what, Like it was like ten am

26:12

in Vegas and she was in the.

26:13

Shower and I remember like the phone

26:16

was ringing and ringing and ringing, and it was like, we have to get

26:18

home. We have to get home, like I don't know what's going on,

26:20

something's wrong. And it was just like how

26:22

we got from Vegas to

26:25

Long Beach Lakewood, Lakewood

26:28

in like three

26:30

hours on the door and she didn't want anybody

26:32

to drive, and I was.

26:33

I wanted to be in control.

26:34

I don't think you should drive, like just let one of them. And she was

26:36

just like no, I got it. I'm gonna drive and

26:38

I'm in that little Prius. We just

26:40

flew like flew to Lakewood.

26:43

Thank God. Yeah, I don't suggest anyone

26:45

to do that. Yeah, wear your seatboat.

26:46

But God was protecting us, like yeah,

26:49

a thousand percent.

26:50

And that's when I knew because you were there with me the first

26:52

few days where I was like I was going to

26:54

lose my thing.

26:55

I was like I can't leave her, like I can have to stay here like

26:57

I can.

26:57

And that's when I understood, this is why God put her in life.

27:00

This is why God put her in my life.

27:02

And I just remember like sitting there all bed

27:04

at your grandma's house and I was just like holding her face and

27:06

she was like something I've got, this is bad.

27:08

Han. I was just like I

27:10

just held her face. I was like it's okay, Like it's okay, I

27:12

figure this out. Yeah, We're going to figure this out. And it

27:15

was just traumatic.

27:17

It was traumatic. It was horrible.

27:18

Yeah.

27:19

So yeah, and that's why

27:21

I was like, Okay, God knows why he put her in my life. And

27:24

then with Judy, I feel like she

27:26

and I don't know if I've ever told her this. I

27:29

don't know if I ever told you this, don't,

27:31

don't, don't.

27:33

But you remind me a lot of my mom.

27:35

Have I told you that?

27:36

You have said that, Okay,

27:39

And I think that's why you said that she

27:41

would love me if I would have.

27:42

Met You remind me a lot of my mom

27:45

a lot. So I could say yeah

27:48

because I yeah, because I met you

27:50

right after my mom pass like a little

27:52

bit, right right after my mom passed. And

27:55

I think it's you resemble so much

27:58

and I feel like, in a way, I'm

28:01

like able to understand

28:03

my mom more through you with

28:07

everything that you like deal

28:09

with and like I'm just it's certain

28:11

things that I'm like, damn, I wish I could help her more,

28:14

you know, she's because she's so like.

28:16

But no, you're amazing, like as far as like

28:18

you're the only person that probably knows like

28:21

my life in and out, like with everything.

28:23

Because I'm your best friend.

28:28

Dude, I'm jealous. You know. It's so cute.

28:30

It's so cute. I love it. I love

28:32

it. So

28:38

now we're gonna get into the craziness of this episode.

28:41

Oh my god, that's

28:44

just warm up. Okay, so let's let's

28:46

talk about this, you guys. I'm gonna ask my friends some questions

28:49

that my producers wrote. I didn't even write this. I'm even gonna

28:51

lie. This is my cue cards. My

28:53

producers wrote this. I'm gonna ask my friends

28:55

and see what they say. I swear to you,

28:58

I don't ever. I hope there's good a lot of views because

29:00

I want friends to understand each other

29:02

because this is real. This is real, real,

29:05

It's gonna my mom. Did I ask you guys any

29:07

questions before? Did I send

29:09

anything our.

29:10

We told her that we wanted it to be like smart,

29:14

Yes, you're not it.

29:15

We love it raw. We love it raw.

29:18

So here we go with that makes it okay,

29:23

I'm ready.

29:25

Okay, we go. Okay,

29:28

would I prefer to have a night in or

29:30

go out on a Saturday night in. Oh

29:33

out, wait, really me?

29:37

You what you need?

29:39

I'm sorry, you

29:42

know what we need one of those

29:44

other night

29:47

in. I'd

29:50

be like, you want to go out?

29:50

I'm watching The Walking Dead?

29:53

Let's go out?

29:55

Yeah?

29:56

Why? Why the Walking Dead? Because Johnny, my little boy

29:59

walking TV with Johnny, I have to stay home.

30:01

And I'm like, okay, but yeah, hers

30:04

night in for okay? Yeah right.

30:06

I thought we were all right, let's

30:09

do I'm gonna ask each of you, okay, because this is

30:11

a their I have a lot of them. I have a

30:13

lot of them. It's crazy, dude.

30:15

Okay, Brianno, what's my biggest pet?

30:17

Peeve?

30:18

There's a lot when the hands

30:20

and the toes don't match.

30:22

Okay,

30:26

when you're wearing multiple labels all at once,

30:28

Oh my god, when you're if you're wearing Adidas

30:31

and Nike, that's like a big no no. Yeah,

30:35

that's a big no no. If

30:37

you have chip nails, that's a big

30:39

no. I don't like get your nails and I do not

30:42

like that.

30:43

Okay, said three.

30:45

I said three.

30:46

I don't know what you guys, I don't know. I have a Yeah,

30:51

they're absolutely, definitely have Absolutely,

30:53

I do have.

30:54

I think that's why, like we're friends.

30:56

We're friends because yeah, because you

30:58

have for sure. Okay, So say

31:00

one of your pet peeves and I'll tell you if I if

31:02

it agrees with me.

31:04

Oh, teeth, good teeth have to be like

31:07

for a boy, I mean not in general.

31:09

Just in general.

31:10

Okay, yeah, okay, I

31:12

don't know what they're going.

31:13

Right, No, no, no, it's fine, Okay, let's do this.

31:16

How long does it take me to get ready? For

31:20

me to get ready?

31:21

Like you're fast?

31:21

Okay, I don't think it's just.

31:27

Like when we were on our trip, she was fast.

31:30

Well, I guess it depends, right, the situation. Yeah,

31:32

yeah, like I think it depends obviously. If

31:34

it's a night hour or something, yeah, it's yeah.

31:37

But if it's just like thirty minutes, minutes,

31:40

an hour, I would say an hour, an hour,

31:42

an hour, yeah, I would say an hour, yeah about

31:44

Honestly, if I get myself ready, about an hour to

31:46

my own hair.

31:47

Make up is right, like an hour an

31:49

hour?

31:50

Okay, what's my favorite

31:52

movie? H amiya? Fuck?

31:57

I don't think I even I don't even know that the that's

32:00

a cute one.

32:00

I love the Notebook. I love

32:03

the Notebook. I don't even think I know that.

32:05

No, I love seven Pounds with

32:07

Will Smith.

32:08

Okay, I wouldn't even want to.

32:09

I don't care. He's gone canceled. And

32:12

I think he's a great and amazing freaking actor.

32:14

I don't care what anyone says. I

32:16

have my own opinion about that. That's a whole other podcast.

32:19

I think that, respectfully, he's

32:21

a very handsome man, respectfully,

32:23

okay. And I think he's a great actor. Okay.

32:26

And I love all his movies except

32:28

one.

32:28

I think that's probably one of the things we haven't really

32:30

done, is like movies, we need to know

32:33

we have? Well, yeah, said

32:37

she, when I know that I love We

32:39

watched was it documentary? When I spent the

32:41

night at your house after Christmas? You

32:44

had left already, but it was like, we really don't watch

32:47

like TV. Yeah, no, we don't, sep

32:49

whenever you go visiting.

32:49

I do. I'm the first of all asleep, absolutely,

32:52

And she talks in her sleep, and I do talk. She

32:55

talks, I do. I like have a lots of things

32:57

to say. I have my in my sleep.

32:59

Yeah, you're absolutely right. Yeah,

33:02

that's a good one. Am

33:05

I usually earlier late?

33:08

That was always l all the time. She's

33:10

always late. I don't mean, but she says it's

33:12

not her fault because she was born late.

33:13

Exactly. It's in

33:16

my dna.

33:16

Yea, I love it.

33:17

She's so better though, I feel like, yeah better. I

33:19

really want intentionally, I want to be better.

33:21

I don't like to be late. It's you, guys.

33:23

He a twenty sixth birthday party at

33:25

the Hall in Glendale. She was six hours late or something.

33:29

You guys. We had to eat in and everything,

33:31

and she shows She looked real cute though, but she showed up

33:33

very.

33:34

And I got a huge fight with my ex in that time

33:36

because I was showing tits. But it's like, it's my thirtieth

33:38

birthday and I was light, not by choice. And

33:40

that's the thing, Like I don't want to be late. Like this

33:43

is what I mean when I say, yeah, it just

33:45

happens when I say that I was born this way.

33:47

I was two weeks late and I had

33:49

to be induced. You guys, I only

33:51

moved one time, and my mom's tummy and

33:53

she says, dude, I thought you were dead because

33:55

I was like, I only moved one time in eight like

33:58

and I was like eight months in my mom's stomach and

34:00

she and they had to induce me because I was chilling.

34:02

Dude, I was chilling. I was having

34:04

a great time mom's tummy. So

34:07

I was two weeks late. What do you guys? I

34:09

want to be better. I want to be better though. Okay,

34:13

here we go. What's the fondest memory

34:15

you have of us, Brianna go first.

34:17

Let's see, probably when my first son

34:19

was born. She was there with me when he was born,

34:22

and she came in and she was crying.

34:24

She was like you I was there.

34:27

Yeah, that was probably the best memory I have.

34:29

You were so pretty and your hair was done in her makeup

34:32

and.

34:32

Stuff because she was like, you're not even like you

34:34

look fine.

34:35

I made sure I was there. Yeah, she was there.

34:37

I think Omi came with you.

34:39

Yeah she did. Yeah, and

34:41

she was crying, and yeah.

34:43

I think that was my best.

34:45

Memory for me. I love

34:47

Charlie. Yeah, Charlie's her oldest

34:49

son. He's amazing.

34:50

And she was there with me, and I was scared.

34:52

I never had a surgery before and

34:55

so I was she was super scared. Yeah,

34:57

I was super afraid. And yeah,

34:59

I remember coming now and I was holding him and.

35:01

She said, you had a baby.

35:03

Yeah, I remember, that's

35:05

yeah.

35:06

What about you?

35:07

I mean, I don't know.

35:08

There's so many. I don't know, Like

35:10

I appreciate a lot of memories

35:12

that I have.

35:13

With you, Like can I tell you one? Yeah,

35:16

And I'll never forget this. The time when we went

35:18

to the mountains and

35:20

shot no, no, no, that was great

35:22

too. But when we went to the mountains

35:24

and shot your dad's guns because he has like a hundred

35:27

actually.

35:29

Already I was going to confess to you what che

35:40

Yes he told me last year.

35:41

But I mean, obviously we have time and we could

35:43

go shoot your dad and he has

35:46

a big coction.

35:46

He has a big collection, has a big collection. They're

35:48

all registered. And then we play

35:53

out of my big

35:56

time.

35:56

A Wanta asked for a song. But can

35:59

you know, Okay,

36:03

I know I love it.

36:03

You know I love it. What's

36:06

your biggest fear?

36:10

Oh my god, My biggest

36:12

fear is

36:16

I think knowing that I can't like be with my kids

36:18

forever, so I can't always take care of them like

36:20

that I'm eventually like not going to be here to take care of

36:22

them.

36:23

Oh fuck, dude.

36:24

That's true. That's my name. That is true.

36:27

Oh you had that on a TikTok the other day.

36:30

Yes, yeah, I did.

36:31

Hit me. I did because I was looking at my how cute.

36:33

And then it came to that part where it was like,

36:36

that's my biggest fear. Oh my god, I will

36:38

always be here for them, you know.

36:40

Yeah, yeah, I think it's like being

36:42

a mom thing. So I would say that's I

36:45

think the older I'm getting is my health, Like

36:47

I want to be healthy. I'm more conscious about

36:50

like things that I antake, and

36:52

you've actually been a big part.

36:53

Of that too, like you know, get us.

36:57

So I would say, like my health

36:59

and I just want to be healthy for my kids.

37:01

So I would say death. Other than

37:03

that, like yeah, you

37:05

know, I would just say death

37:08

is my biggest fear.

37:09

What's your biggest fear?

37:10

Damn? You

37:12

know what?

37:14

Well, I don't feel like she's not afraid of I.

37:15

Don't even want to verbalize it because I

37:18

honestly I'm not afraid of a lot of things. But what I

37:20

mean, it's a real thing because.

37:22

I want I'm not ready, like I

37:24

maybe want to finish a couple more years of my kids.

37:26

And then you gotta just

37:29

yeah, God give me a little bit more years,

37:31

you know.

37:31

Yeah, because if people have asked

37:33

me on the podcast, are you afraid of dying? And

37:35

I'm like, I'm not. No, but I don't have kids,

37:38

you know what I mean, She's not afraid of any Okay, I'm

37:40

not.

37:41

But if

37:43

we didn't have children, I think that would

37:45

be I feel like your mom. I would want to say your

37:48

mom was like she wasn't afraid of freaking anything. Like

37:50

I'd be like, oh my god, and you're like that, like

37:52

Brihanna, don't be afraid.

37:54

Like we're not going to be afraid.

37:55

Like, I'm not afraid of anything, right, I'm not scared

37:57

of I'm not scared of a lot of things. I

38:00

think it's just having

38:02

to live my life without one of my siblings,

38:04

you know what I mean? And and God forbid, Like

38:06

it's like I have children and have to live my life without

38:08

one of my kids. I think that's those are your kids? Those

38:10

are yeah, those are the worst. Actually, yes,

38:12

it's one of the worst pains, you know what I mean.

38:14

I had a dream last night that you had a baby, really

38:16

a girl.

38:17

Boy, I don't know, And

38:19

I think I told you.

38:21

I think I had a dream that she told

38:23

me that she was pregnant, and I remember I

38:25

was crying, like, oh my god, like yeah,

38:28

I get what you're saying. Like I feel like it's

38:30

going to be like that baby's going to

38:32

be like in the little bable, like only

38:35

organic, and I'm going to protect

38:37

the baby because she's amazing.

38:40

Like yeah, like I'm scared.

38:42

I'm scared to have a baby. Yeah, but

38:45

I feel like it's gonna been through a lot.

38:46

I don't know, man, I love so hard, you

38:48

know what I mean?

38:49

She does.

38:50

I love so hard that I'm like, yeah,

38:53

the.

38:53

Way he loves his dog, I can't even imagine if I'm

38:57

like, oh my god, imagine a child. He

38:59

loves so hard.

39:02

But I'm like he has the dog food delivered

39:05

to the door. I'm like, dude,

39:07

like what but he loves our dog.

39:09

Write you so much. I'm just like immediately, like I told

39:12

him, I was like, look, dude, we got to get the ship

39:14

straight. We're gonna have kids,

39:16

but I'm still the princess. Yeah,

39:18

let me prepare.

39:19

That's why I feel like it's going to be a boy because,

39:21

like you, I would love to be a boy.

39:23

Mom.

39:24

I know, I know, but if I'm a girl, mom,

39:26

I feel like that is what God needs, don't

39:28

so that I can heal with

39:30

my mom.

39:31

Yeah, that we talked about.

39:33

Because it was a very complicated relationship.

39:35

It was it was very complicated. But I

39:37

feel like we have some unfinished business to do.

39:40

Yeah, we have some unfinished business.

39:42

And I feel like I'm going to be able

39:44

to heal that. And I want I am here

39:46

to break generational curses and

39:49

traumas that in order

39:51

for me to do that, I need to have a girl. As

39:53

much as I think I want a boy and

39:55

I think I need a boy, I feel like it's

39:58

going to be a girl. I don't see a boy.

40:00

I mean, I don't see a girl.

40:01

I've always wanted a boy. I feel like I'm a boy mom.

40:03

I don't see a girl.

40:04

But I feel like if it is a girl, because

40:07

a baby. Yeah, okay,

40:09

okay, question okay, I

40:11

mean yeah. Do I like gold or silver?

40:14

Jerico? Oh?

40:16

Silver?

40:18

I mean I love gold?

40:21

Yeah, I do both. That's why

40:24

right now?

40:24

And then I literally just saw the Mickey Mouse.

40:27

Here's the thing. I just bought

40:29

myself a watch that has a two tone

40:31

because I love to so I love to tone.

40:34

Yes, I don't like to feel limited. I

40:36

don't like to feel like in a box. I like to

40:38

do both. But if you were to ask me, do

40:40

I like gold or silver? I would go for gold

40:42

first first, it's okay, look, that's

40:45

fine, Okay, hold on, fuck

40:47

strike oh ship,

40:50

here's one, Brianna, Let's see if this is real. So

40:53

this is the last question for the podcast, you guys,

40:55

because this is a very long one. But I've had a great time

40:57

with you and I'm so grateful when you guys came up.

41:00

Anyone's wondering what a dinner would

41:02

be like, this is what it would be.

41:03

It would be this conversations.

41:05

But I don't think you want to know that.

41:06

Part, the sexual part, the sexual

41:08

part. Okay,

41:12

all right, is there anything be

41:15

honest? One hundred and freaking ten percent.

41:18

Is there anything that

41:20

you would change in our friendship? Go Brianna.

41:24

It would be like she's so busy

41:26

like I'm at which I mean, of

41:29

course, right, but that would

41:31

be the thing, like if we would spend more

41:33

time to.

41:34

I have to agree with you one hundred percent.

41:35

Yeah, that would be whatever anytime that we.

41:37

Get to spend together. And I even told you before

41:39

even coming on here. I'm like, our outings

41:41

that I look forward to is like being with my friends, because

41:44

one of the things that I don't think you realize

41:47

is that it's very healing from

41:49

my healing process is being around

41:51

my friends. My two friends, you know, friendship

41:54

that there's never been drama between,

41:57

a judgment between or judgment.

41:59

For me, it's like and you

42:01

have.

42:01

A like friendship

42:03

that there's never been drama. There's no reason for drama,

42:06

Like it's just been so pure and so beautiful.

42:09

So I would take time. But then I also respect

42:11

that you are a busy woman, and

42:14

anytime that we do have together I

42:16

am so grateful for.

42:17

Yeah, and it doesn't hurt my feelings, Like I'll be like, hey, I

42:19

want you to come to this. If you're busy like that, I.

42:22

Get it for sure, But you give

42:24

me stuff like in advance.

42:25

Yeah I do. I'm like, oh, she's the first tie to tell.

42:27

But then again, it's like you have a like this whole

42:29

year, Like we're not even going on vacation for your birthday this

42:32

year now, which is I mean I didn't I

42:34

didn't get to go last year. But that's another

42:36

privilege.

42:36

That we have had Chuck

42:38

cheese che I

42:40

want to see the mouse and

42:43

I want no more. I don't want any kids. It's just

42:45

me and the no party, no happy birthday.

42:47

You see.

42:48

She loves the simplest things.

42:50

Actually, yeah, guys,

42:52

so simplest.

42:54

But anytime that we do have with you is

42:56

like not too long.

42:58

Ago, I had a question like that I needed

43:00

to ask her and I knew she was like I'm about

43:02

to go on stage at the Billboard Awards. What's up? And I'm

43:04

like, oh, never mind you

43:08

and she's like no, what what what do you need? Like

43:10

never makes me feel like I'm bothering her.

43:13

That such an important you know, And I'm like, you're abouts

43:16

like you just text me later like

43:18

and she's like no, no, no, tell me what do you need?

43:20

And I'm like I told her whatever it was. And

43:22

she's like, Okay, it's all taken care of, like blah blah

43:24

blah. And I'm just like, oh my.

43:25

God, it's okay.

43:26

I'll talk about you go on stage

43:28

and I'm just like, oh my god, Like that's

43:30

why, that's that's you guys are even.

43:33

Like before you're getting ready to like she's

43:35

like in Miami like doing these awards and like

43:37

you'll text and like how are you? And I'm like dream

43:39

makeup and I'm like.

43:40

I'm like you're worring about me and You're like, no, exactly

43:43

what And that's you. Yeah, Yeah,

43:45

we love you for that. Yeah, I love you and

43:48

and we're going to spend more time together. You guys.

43:50

This year is going to be work, work, work, work, work.

43:52

And I know that a baby, transition

43:55

work, It's just a lot, a lot of a

43:58

lot of things.

43:58

And then a baby.

43:59

I'm ready to go into that next phase of my life.

44:02

And I'm so excited, exactly

44:06

absolutely, and I'm so happy and so

44:09

grateful for each each of you

44:11

and even my friends that aren't aren't here, that we

44:14

love to that we love and then have created and

44:16

we are get this like safety, safe

44:19

haven that we have. Thank

44:21

you, and I think we should take this last shot

44:26

everyone. Thank you for watching Cheeky's and Chill.

44:28

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44:32

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44:35

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