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If you are suffering today,
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first, welcome to the human race. Our
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guest says to be human is to suffer.
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So the outcome of a program on suffering
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you would think would be less
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suffering, right? Ten steps
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to overcoming your struggle. Your
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anxiety. How to avoid the suffering
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you had yesterday, or how
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to at least turn down the volume on the suffering
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so that it becomes more manageable.
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Sadly, our guest today is not going to offer
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you that. He would probably be
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much more popular if he did
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offer that. Because we
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all want less suffering. We want an easier
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life. Isn't that what we signed up for? And
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I wonder if in my own life and in the lives
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of fellow believers that I've walked this
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trail with, if we don't promise something
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about the Christian life that
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frustrates us and those
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we ask to join us, we believe
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something about God and what he offers that
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isn't actually true. We
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don't want to suffer and we don't
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understand why God allows it or
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even puts it in our paths, and we
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want it over with and done. So our guest
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today does not promise that by
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listening to him in this hour you will
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suffer less. But.
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But if you, however,
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and a friend of mine used to say, there's
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always a. However in life. However,
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if you listen closely and carefully and
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enter into his thesis,
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he does promise you will suffer
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differently. And
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I don't know if that helps you or makes
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you. It makes you want to
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throw the radio, turn the radio off.
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I hope you'll keep it on, because
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that's what we're going to talk about today at
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programs recorded. What you just heard
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is how I opened the program last,
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uh, toward the end of August last year,
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and a conversation with Kurt Thompson.
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doctor Kurt Thompson is a psychiatrist,
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speaker, author of books on shame,
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desire and The Anatomy of the soul.
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He's board certified by the American
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Board of Psychiatry and Neurology.
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He graduated from Wright State University
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School of Medicine, completed his psychiatric
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residency at Temple University Hospital,
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has written a number of books. The one we're going to talk about
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today is the Deepest Place.
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It's got a gorgeous cover, suffering
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and the formation of
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Hope. Doctor Thompson side
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in here. How are you doing today?
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I'm doing well. I'm, uh,
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grateful to be on the show with you today and
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looking forward to having a chance to talk about
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the what's going on in the book.
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Um, psychiatrists are supposed to fix
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things. You're supposed to to give
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us something. You're supposed to tell us something to take
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the pain away, and you're not going to fix our suffering.
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That doesn't make me real happy.
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Yeah, I mean, I anymore, I
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feel like it's not just a matter of like, am
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I going to disappoint someone today? It's a matter of like,
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how many am I going to disappoint? So
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people can, you know, for the most
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part, probably line
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up, uh, in this regard because
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I think we, you know, we live, Chris, in
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a world in which we
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are being trained and we are we have
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been trained to believe
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that, uh, first of all, that we shouldn't
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suffer and that if we are
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suffering, this is not I mean, this is not new, right? This
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is job. Uh, if
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we are suffering, there must be something wrong
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in the world. And we
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also, though, have almost an
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infinite array of
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options that are disposal that will help distract
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us from our suffering. Uh,
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you know, beginning with the little supercomputer that I
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carry around with me in my pocket. And
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I think what's what's significant in the work
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that that I, that I'm doing is that,
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um, you know, the Christian story,
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uh, is the one story in the world,
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the only story in the world in
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which suffering is honored.
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In which we say that
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God actually is in the business,
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not of disdaining suffering, not
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of blaming us for our suffering,
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but of being with us in our suffering,
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and in so doing, transforming
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not just us, but our notion of suffering
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at the same time, which I think is really
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good news. It's difficult news,
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but it is good news because suffering
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is as true is
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as common. It's going to be as human, as having
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a pulse and
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suffering in many respects, we might say like, why do
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we suffer? Why does suffering exist? In some respects,
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I would say that suffering is the mirror
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image, the painful
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mirror image of
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God's intended vision for
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who we were to have become in Genesis
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one and two. And
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instead, given
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the choices that we've made over time,
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we find that our suffering,
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or as we like to say in in the business
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of psychiatry, suffering is
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our response to pain
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over time. The
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way we respond to our pain
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over time is shaped by
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so many more things than the
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gospel, and as such, I
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find that my responses to suffering are ones in
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which I simply typically just want it
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to go away, or find some way
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to blame someone else for
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it. Just so long as I don't
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have to endure it.
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It's okay. It's okay for Jobe to go through
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this, or for anybody in the Old Testament
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or even the new. But it's like, for me. No.
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And and you, the whole book
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is basically the first few chapters of Romans
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chapter five. You look at Paul
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from the very moment of his conversion,
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what God says to Ananias
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about going over, you know, and, and
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and see this fellow Saul, you know, and,
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and and Ananias calls a timeout
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and said, you must not be paying attention. You
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know, this is the guy who's doing all this, wreaking
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all this havoc, and God says, I
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will. He's a chosen vessel. I will show
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him how much he must suffer
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for my sake. And
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for those who say, well, suffering ought not be
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a part of the Christian life. There's
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God saying it about one of his
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chosen vessels. Right.
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Mhm. Yeah. Well I think
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again it, it speaks to
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the, it speaks to the reality
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that in the world of the biblical
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narrative, in Paul's world,
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in Ananias world, in the world of the disciples,
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in the world of job. Uh,
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suffering was assumed. It
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was assumed that suffering was part of life.
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Now there are different ways in which I mean, the ancients,
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they would say, well, if you're suffering, it's because the
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gods are angry with you. It's because
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there's something about you. This is in
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John chapter nine, when Jesus and the
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disciples come upon a man born blind,
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and the first question out of their mouth
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was, who sinned such that
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this man is born blind? There was
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no sense in which his blindness
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could possibly be a doorway.
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Into beauty and goodness. Suffering
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only was a sign of God's
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condemnation. And Jesus answers
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them and says, actually, this
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man was born blind such that the works of
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God might be revealed in him. When
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God talks to Ananias about how much Paul
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will suffer, that suffering is taking place
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in a context in
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which Paul first has
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an encounter with Jesus
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on the Damascus Road, in which Jesus has a
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conversation with him. And
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we hear that conversation. Paul,
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Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?
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We hear it. We, you know, depending
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upon our own ways of hearing, you
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know, thinking about how this story unfolds, it's easy
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for us to imagine that Jesus, in fact,
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is like, upset with Paul. Why are
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you persecuting me? But
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what if the voice that Paul was hearing
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was a voice of compassion? What
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if it was the voice of Jesus basically
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getting underneath Paul's story and saying
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all the work that you're doing? Persecuting
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me. My friend come home
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to what's really going on here? And
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Paul having the experience of being loved
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by God through the person of Jesus
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in a way that he never had been. Is
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part of what Paul experiences that
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enables him to write the words that he
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writes in the first three verses, the first
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two verses of Romans chapter five,
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this notion that this faith
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and this justification that are really
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an expression of trust and secure
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attachment with God, lead to this
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experience of glory. Glory,
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not just that in which
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we say, God is a wonderful God. God is a
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beautiful God. God is a powerful God, all
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of which is true. But it
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is also true that God is
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a God. Who
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directs his delight at
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us. We are the objects
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of his delight. And
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our brokenness makes it really difficult
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for us to be aware of
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this. But we we
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recognize that in the text of Romans five
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one through five, that by the time we get to
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Paul's words about how suffering leads
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to perseverance and so forth, that
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suffering is predicated with this notion
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of God's glory, that we
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hope in the glory of God.
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We sit in this notion that
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we are the objects of his utter
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delight. And
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that's what we are based. Again, this is
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what we are paying attention to. In the context
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of a community in which we
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hear the voice of Jesus and the other members
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of the body of Jesus, we see the sightline
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of Jesus gaze in the body of
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the of Jesus. And in that
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context, our experience
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of suffering is transformed because
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it begins with our utter awareness
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of our being, God's delight.
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As you can tell, we are in deep weeds,
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friend. We are in really
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deep weeds with Doctor Kurt Thompson today
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because this is exactly where
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we all live and we struggle. And I
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was thinking before the program, we had a
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phone call from a listener whose
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daughter went missing in June.
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Sheena and Valerie had called,
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and I looked up just before we started
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here to see if there's any more news. And and
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there's no more other than the different
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authorities that have gotten involved. You
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talk about suffering, the
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suffering of a mom who doesn't know
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where's my daughter, what
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has happened to her? And she
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is sitting in the middle of that, you
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know, that's a real issue.
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Or if you're dealing with a debilitating
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illness today, as you listen, if you're going
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through marital discord
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or a child has abandoned
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you and said, I don't care what you think
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about me, I don't believe in God. And
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you turn their back on you and your all
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of that suffering. I want you to filter through the
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conversation today with Doctor Kurt Thompson.
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The deepest place is our featured resource,
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Chris Fabry live. Org.
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What do you do with the suffering in your life,
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the suffering that you're experiencing right now?
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Doctor Kurt Thompson has written,
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he's the author of The Soul of Shame. So
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we're gonna get to shame here today. But
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he's written just an amazing book
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titled The Deepest Place Suffering
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and the formation of Hope. We've been talking
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about this topic over the last few
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months, but I want you to hear his
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take on on suffering,
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on Doctor Thompson's take on it,
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because I think what
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I have done and what I've seen others do,
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is try to minimize the suffering
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by comparing
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it with other people. Well, I don't have as
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bad as you know. And and somebody
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who has had this deep loss.
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Well, my loss is not as big as that. And so
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I take comfort in the fact that somebody else has
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it worse than I do. Or
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so the comparison or the minimizing,
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the the drowning out the
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squelching. I used to Doctor Thompson
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when I was a kid, I had a CB radio.
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And when you get on the channel, the frequency
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that you're on, you hear
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this just rabid noise,
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this radio noise that's there until
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you turn up the squelch and
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you turn up the squelch and all of that
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goes away so that you only hear
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what people are saying. The the
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threshold of the noise floor
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is still there, but you've squelched it out.
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And we and we do that with
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we can now, like you said, with your phone,
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with social media, with
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pornography or with
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of some substance, alcohol,
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etc. but
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it's a way to try to get
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that out of our lives. And I
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think what you are encouraging us to
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do, kicking and screaming,
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you're encouraging us to be
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to be all here in
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the middle of the mess is
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am I getting that right.
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Mhm mhm.
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You're right. And Chris in some respects this
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really goes back to the
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first two pages of the Bible
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when we recognize that,
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uh, you know, in the 18th verse of the
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second chapter where God says it's not
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good for the human to be alone, it's
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not good for you to be alone. This this
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is a primal statement
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that carries throughout
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the history of the world, because so
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much of what our
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suffering is about has
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to do with our experience of isolation,
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has to do with the sense that I
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am alone in my pain.
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It's not just that I experience pain,
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it's that I experience pain in
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isolation, by myself, in the privacy
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of my own head. And then I begin to
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tell all kinds of stories about myself
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and about my pain, including, for instance,
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what you suggest this notion that, well, my
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pain is not as bad as my neighbor's pain, and so therefore
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it doesn't mean anything. And
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so we we find all kinds of ways
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to disconnect from our pain,
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rather than allowing
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others to be with us in our
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pain. When we talk about the notion
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of atonement, that
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word atonement, which not just means
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paying the price for a sin, but it also
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means the capacity of
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God to be fully with us, because it comes from
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the Old English word at one
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ment. This
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notion that Jesus
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and the Holy Trinity are fully
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at one with us,
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but it is difficult for us
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to allow ourselves
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to be loved. We look around in our world and we see that
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it's, you know, it doesn't take much
15:47
to see that we're not very good at loving each other.
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But we are even less capable.
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Surprisingly enough, we are
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even less capable of allowing ourselves
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to be loved. As odd as that might
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sound, given all of our pop music, all
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of our literature, all of our movies, all
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of my longing to be loved. The reality
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is that the moment that it
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gets close to me, the moment that Jesus
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actually gets close to me, it
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becomes, at some level even more
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terrifying than my brokenness.
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Because he's about to walk
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into rooms, through doors,
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into spaces where my pain,
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my suffering is, along
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with the shame that contains it
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and wraps it up, and
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that I have practiced being afraid
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of. I've been practicing being
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afraid of God. I'm not just afraid like I practiced
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being afraid. And that
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leaves me in isolation.
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And so the first we
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talked about there are different parts of how the mind works.
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That is part of our suffering. One of it has
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to do with our capacity to tell time.
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I can just imagine that I'm going to be in pain
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for a long time down the road. These are
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things that, for instance, we don't believe
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that a dog or an elk is imagining.
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In the same way that I also have
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this sense of the story
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that I tell about it, which includes
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there's nothing I can do about my pain because
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I am alone with it,
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and so evil will want to
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hijack my
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way of telling time and
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my isolation and the story
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that I tell about both. I'm going to be alone
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with my pain indefinitely
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as a way for me to continue to
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suffer. But the moment someone else
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steps into that suffering and
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says. Tell
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me where you are. Tell me where you are.
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Now I am looking
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at someone's gaze, who is loving me
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in the very moment that I'm suffering.
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And the suffering itself in
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that moment, is transformed. Take,
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for example, the woman with the bleeding problem
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in Mark chapter five. She has
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a plan for her healing, and
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the plan is like commando healing. We're
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going to get in, get the job done, get out. Nobody's
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going to notice until
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Jesus stops her,
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stops the crowd. And
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that's when things get difficult for her
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because she didn't plan
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on him coming for as
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much of her suffering as he's coming,
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for. She only thought that
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her big problem was her bleeding. And as it turns
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out, her shame, her social
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isolation, her not being a
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daughter anymore, her not being married,
18:28
her not having children, all of
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those huge shaming,
18:33
social debilitating realities.
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She's not even imagining that there is
18:37
any antidote for that suffering. But
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Jesus turns and says, stop. And
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then he looks for who did that. And
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the text reads, in fear and
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trembling she comes to him.
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This whole notion that to allow
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ourselves to truly be open
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to Jesus, if we're honest
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about it, it means he's going to name
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the things that we give to him with
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fear and trembling. The beautiful thing about
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this, Chris, is that as
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we practice allowing ourselves
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to be seen fully,
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vulnerably in the context
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of the body of Jesus, which of course, many of our listeners
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might say, look, I've tried the body of Jesus
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that just like that just creates more
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trouble. I'd like to find a way to
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not be suffering, and I just don't want other
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people to be involved. And
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we would say there is no
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other option. That
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our suffering is intended to be
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met with the voice
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and the touch and the sight line
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of Jesus. And that's what the body of Christ
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is intended to be about.
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There's a beautiful story that you tell
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of Chaney, who
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went through just
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some horror in her childhood,
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and she has been doing that. She
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has been alone with her suffering for a long
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time. Tell that story here
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briefly.
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Well, uh. She
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indeed had a series of
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events that happened to her in her
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older childhood years that
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brought her to a place where she was,
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uh, really effective at life.
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Uh, really effective at all the things
20:21
that we easily, um, have benchmarks
20:23
for and have metrics for, in terms of what
20:25
she was doing for a living and how she was doing it, so
20:28
forth and so on. Um, but
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her body was paying a price for
20:32
that, and she came to see me for these
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symptoms that she was having. And
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what became clear pretty quickly
20:39
was that she had an entire story
20:42
locked away in a vault.
20:45
Uh, that she was having to burn energy
20:47
containing all of
20:49
that suffering regarding all those things
20:51
that had happened to her and
20:53
all she wanted when she came in to see me, she
20:55
just wanted a solution for her presenting medical problem.
20:58
That's all she wanted. She had
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no idea of
21:02
the vast ocean of suffering
21:05
that was behind her brain's wall,
21:07
that was starting to eke its
21:09
way out through some of the symptoms that
21:11
she was having. And
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what we began to do was to
21:16
little by little by little, uh,
21:18
invite her to have
21:20
a conversation and put words
21:22
to those parts
21:24
of her story that were so overwhelming,
21:27
so shaming for her.
21:30
But eventually we invited her to
21:32
take this same work, not
21:34
just with me individually, but into
21:36
a group that we call a confessional community. It's a group
21:38
of about 6 or 8 people that we
21:40
are helping to facilitate, in which she's
21:42
now having to tell this story
21:45
initially to people who are total strangers,
21:48
but that she is trusting, are going to be willing
21:50
to listen to her. And what's so
21:52
striking about this is that the very beginning
21:54
of her telling her story,
21:57
she's terrified of what people are going to think.
22:01
Until she starts to see
22:03
their responses literally
22:05
in their faces, hear their
22:07
voices of compassion across the room.
22:10
And for the first time ever,
22:12
Cheney has an experience in a room
22:14
full of people not just with one dude, not just
22:16
with me. Who right, who's paid
22:18
right. This is a thing that you know well, you're my psychiatrist.
22:21
You're you're paid to be nice to me. You're
22:23
paid to have these all kinds of things. And
22:26
these are people who are just like Cheney.
22:29
She's not paying them to be compassionate.
22:32
And this is the first time she has
22:35
a group of people, a wall
22:37
of people, a body of believers
22:40
who are literally
22:42
using the physics of
22:44
relationship. Multiple
22:46
brains in the room, multiple minds in the room,
22:48
the body of Jesus that
22:51
began to encounter
22:53
her in such a way that
22:55
she sensed in her very body things that
22:57
she had never sensed before. This felt
23:00
sense of being seen and soothed,
23:02
made to feel safe and secure
23:04
in that room, revealing her
23:06
story, and this led to
23:08
tears. And
23:10
of course, many of us, you know, we're
23:13
we're embarrassed about our tears because our
23:15
tears remind us of parts of our
23:17
lives that are embarrassing when
23:19
we've wept in ways that
23:21
have not been seen or made to feel secure
23:23
or soothed. And
23:26
her tears first began
23:28
as tears of embarrassment. But when
23:30
those folks in the room stayed with her,
23:34
she began to notice her own transformation
23:36
of relief that they weren't leaving the
23:38
room. Nobody was being critical. Nobody was making
23:40
fun of her. They continued to welcome her
23:42
story into the room. And this,
23:45
Chris, I would say, is exactly what the work
23:47
of the gospel is about. This is what Jesus
23:49
was doing with the woman with the bleeding problem.
23:52
He didn't. It wasn't enough for him.
23:55
That her bleeding was stopped. That
23:58
wasn't her biggest problem. He
24:00
was inviting her entire story
24:03
out into the open for him
24:05
to come and find it and call
24:08
her daughter. For
24:10
the first time, I'm sure, in over 12
24:12
years. And this
24:14
is what the work of the body of Jesus
24:17
intends to do with all of our suffering.
24:19
And, you know, like I like to remind people, look,
24:22
healing is
24:24
a disruptive technology
24:26
in the Bible. We
24:28
look at these healing stories of Jesus and we think, oh,
24:30
this is fabulous, right? The
24:32
woman, her bleeding problem was stopped. The
24:34
man born blind in John nine, he
24:36
can see, you know, the
24:39
guy who he heals in John seven.
24:41
The you know, the lame guy
24:43
like this is awesome. Except when you
24:45
actually start to think about it, you now
24:47
have a blind guy in John nine
24:50
who gets his sight back, and at
24:52
the end of the chapter, he's thrown out of his community.
24:55
Not only that, he has made
24:57
a living. He has made a living begging by
24:59
the side of the road. Now he
25:01
can see he's got no job. He's
25:03
got no skill set. The
25:06
woman who's caught in adultery
25:08
in John eight. Where
25:10
are your accusers? There are
25:12
none. Neither do I accuse you. Go and sin no
25:15
more. Jesus is heroic. The problem
25:17
is, how is she now going to feed her kids?
25:19
Yes, and that is the perfect
25:21
place to push pause on this segment
25:23
with Doctor Kurt Thompson. Our guest
25:26
on Chris Fabry live or featured resource
25:28
is his book The Deepest Place
25:31
Suffering in the formation of Hope.
25:33
You can go to the website to find out more. Chris
25:35
Fabry live.org.
25:38
Our program today is recorded, but I'm guessing
25:40
this best broadcast is
25:42
a dose of hope for you and perhaps
25:44
something you're going through right now.
25:47
Thanks for joining us at the Radio Backyard
25:49
Fence. Again. Go to the website Chris Fabry
25:51
live.org. More straight
25:53
ahead on Moody Radio. I
26:06
want to tell you a little bit about Cornette today.
26:08
If you go to the website Chris Fabry Live. Org,
26:11
we have a green Carnet button there.
26:13
Chris Fabry live. Org.
26:16
They call themselves Pro Abundant
26:19
Life. And let me illustrate it by the
26:21
story that we just heard, this story about Cheney.
26:24
Cheney. Her name has been changed
26:26
in the book, but she was
26:28
at a boarding school. She
26:30
was bullied by the older girls,
26:33
and then later on, she was taken
26:35
advantage of sexually by an older
26:37
boy that she had turned to
26:40
to kind of give her emotional support.
26:42
And then she became pregnant.
26:45
And then she had an abortion. And
26:48
it was in that community
26:51
of people who were looking at her,
26:53
who were accepting the
26:55
really hard parts of her
26:58
story that she didn't even want to tell anybody.
27:01
That the life began
27:03
to come back into Cheney's eyes
27:05
and in her life, and really
27:08
begin to live the
27:10
forgiven life. The same
27:12
thing happens with Cornette. Now they're
27:14
all about saving babies. It's something since
27:16
2008, it's something like more than a
27:18
million babies that have been saved because
27:20
of all of the work that Canada has done.
27:23
But they're not just about the babies,
27:25
they're about the moms, the
27:27
the the unexpected pregnancy
27:30
that the woman has there, about the unexpected
27:32
pregnancy that the guy finds out
27:35
and who maybe pushes
27:37
her toward an abortion.
27:40
And then years down the road
27:43
they feel the weight of this. It
27:45
is for all of the people involved
27:47
as well as others around
27:50
them. I'm just telling you. Clarinet
27:52
is one of the ministries that I'm
27:54
slowly getting my eyes open to. If you
27:57
click that green clarinet button,
27:59
you'll find out more. Some really encouraging
28:01
things, especially if abortion is one
28:03
of the big issues for you in life.
28:06
But you say, I don't know what to do. Click
28:09
hairnet today Chris Fabry live.
28:11
Org. Doctor
28:13
Kurt Thompson, psychiatrist, speaker,
28:16
author. He's written the book
28:18
that was kind of a breakout book,
28:20
The Soul of Shame. His
28:22
latest is The Deepest Place.
28:24
So I want to go from Cheney's
28:26
story, though, to
28:29
your own story, and
28:31
you wait for 100 pages to
28:33
kind of peel back the onion on your own
28:35
life. And before
28:37
we even go into that, tell me, when you were a
28:39
kid, when you were a kid growing up, what did you want
28:42
to do? Did you want to be a psychiatrist?
28:44
Neurologist?
28:47
Wow, Chris, you know, uh, no,
28:50
I didn't even know that psychiatry was
28:52
a thing. Um, I
28:54
went off to medical school. Not really
28:56
sure that that was what I wanted to do,
28:58
and wasn't even considering psychiatry.
29:01
And when I started my
29:03
psychiatric rotation, by the time I got
29:05
there, I was I was really quite uncertain
29:08
about what I was going to do
29:10
and felt, in fact, a little bit lost.
29:12
Here. I was, you know, two and a half years
29:14
into medical school, not really sure that I even
29:17
wanted to be there and not really sure that I,
29:19
uh, was, was cut out to do this. And as
29:21
I have said about, uh, many
29:24
moments in my life that Jesus has been
29:26
coming to find me in
29:28
very, uh, significant, powerful
29:31
ways and in particular moments.
29:33
And one of the moments in which I believe Jesus came
29:35
to find me, uh, and to get
29:37
my attention was when I started my psychiatric
29:39
rotation in medical school, and
29:42
it felt like lots of
29:44
tumblers fell in the lock for me,
29:46
this longing to understand
29:48
how we operate as human beings meshed
29:51
with my love for
29:53
science and the way the body works.
29:56
And this then, uh,
29:58
was, you know, something that was, uh,
30:01
I've just grown to love. And I feel
30:03
humbled that I'm able to do this kind of work. But
30:05
it was not what I was thinking about when I
30:07
was a kid. I think for the most part, I
30:09
was just kind of wondering, like, what would life
30:11
be? But without a lot of guidance in,
30:14
in the beginning parts of my life.
30:16
Did you feel alone when you were a kid?
30:20
Well, you know, it's interesting, Chris, I there's
30:23
a sense in which looking back on it,
30:25
I don't know that at the
30:27
that, uh, that I was consciously
30:29
aware of how alone I actually
30:32
was. Uh, I
30:34
was not a kid who was depressed. I was not, I was
30:36
I was a kid who generally, I think most people would have
30:38
you would have asked me like, do you enjoy your life? When
30:40
I was ten or when I was 14, I would have
30:42
said, yes, I enjoy my life
30:45
now. It's also equally true that there
30:47
were parts of my life that,
30:50
uh, from which I was pretty cut off,
30:52
things that I felt like. So, for instance,
30:54
I grew up in a house where, uh, both
30:56
of my parents had they were they
30:59
were God fearing Jesus lovers
31:01
who were imperfect. And
31:03
there were many things about my family life that were wonderful.
31:06
And then there were things that were a bit
31:08
maddening. But I'm
31:10
only only later in my life did I become
31:12
aware of what some of those maddening things
31:14
actually were. For instance, I grew up in a
31:16
house where my mom was, uh,
31:18
pretty anxious, and my
31:20
dad was, uh, though deeply
31:23
affectionate, could also be pretty stern. So
31:25
I grew up, uh, learning to be
31:28
afraid of anger. And
31:31
learning to be worried about anxiety
31:34
if you know if you will. And
31:36
and so then you end up having and so the
31:38
the parts of my own story
31:40
where I would feel angry or
31:42
feel anxious were not
31:44
really ever parts that I could talk about. So
31:47
these were parts of me that
31:49
got isolated and cut off,
31:51
which meant, you know, there were all kinds of
31:53
things that should have been happening in
31:55
my life. Uh, one of the
31:58
one of the, um, well known conversations
32:00
when I was about 15 years of age. And my, uh,
32:02
mom came to me one day
32:04
and said, you know, your dad has asked
32:06
me, why is it that you will talk
32:09
to me about certain things and you won't talk to him?
32:12
And I kind of paused. Yeah, right.
32:14
Exactly, exactly. I mean, like, I'm
32:16
like, I'm only 15 years old. And I look at her
32:18
and say, do you hear what you're asking me?
32:23
And what was so striking was.
32:25
She said.
32:25
You've just made me a psychiatrist.
32:27
Right?
32:28
Yeah, right.
32:30
Exactly. My training started very at a very young
32:32
age, at a very young age. And
32:34
after that, what was so interesting is nothing
32:36
ever came of that. Like
32:38
nobody ever came back around and had a further conversation
32:41
about this. And so I
32:43
learned that again, without
32:45
consciously knowing this, I, I learned
32:47
that there were lots of things like, what do you do about
32:49
women and sex? And what do you do about
32:51
your longing to be, you know, a person
32:53
of, of, of significance
32:55
in the world and what you're going to do for a living and where you're going to go
32:58
to call all these kinds of things were things that I was
33:00
pretty much processing on my own. And
33:03
again, because you don't know anything
33:05
different. You don't
33:07
necessarily know that you
33:09
are alone until
33:12
you discover that you're not.
33:14
When you encounter Jesus
33:16
and then you start looking behind you,
33:18
and you start to see all kinds
33:21
of trails that you've left
33:23
in your family of origin. In
33:26
which things happened that shouldn't have
33:28
and in which things, in my case, in a lot of respects,
33:30
in which things didn't happen that should have.
33:34
And when that takes place, you discover,
33:36
man, I have by
33:38
myself when it comes to
33:40
feelings of sadness and
33:42
grief. I mean, I lost my dad when I was 17.
33:45
I've lost three brothers, three older brothers
33:47
to cancer. I mean, you
33:49
just come to learn that like, no, this
33:51
is a thing that you're just going to have to take care of on your own
33:54
because nobody is coming for
33:56
you. With the exception
33:58
of Jesus. The
34:01
challenge, of course, is, you know, as far as the brain
34:03
is concerned, uh, the brain
34:05
pays a lot of attention to the things
34:07
that we pay a lot of attention to.
34:10
And if I am practicing living in my
34:12
mind as if I am alone most
34:15
of the time, the fact
34:17
that Jesus and I have encounters
34:19
every now and then. Doesn't
34:22
really give my brain the option to countermand
34:24
that. If most of the work that it's
34:26
doing is the work of persuading
34:29
it, that it's by itself. So this is kind of like the way Cheney
34:31
was. Cheney learned, she practiced
34:34
learning that she was by
34:36
herself with her pain. She
34:39
practiced this and she needed to in order
34:41
to survive. It's
34:44
only when she started
34:46
to encounter someone, first with
34:48
me, and then with this confessional community in which
34:50
people were genuinely coming for
34:52
parts of her heart that she
34:55
had isolated from
34:57
herself and from everybody else, that
34:59
literally her brain and her soul
35:02
started to wake up to things.
35:04
But of course, what's challenging about
35:06
this is that our
35:08
deepest longings for connection.
35:12
Those intimacy longings
35:14
that we have for relationship. Remember, it's
35:16
not good for the man to be alone. That
35:18
longing is often the very
35:21
place where our wounds have also
35:23
taken place. Cheneys
35:25
deepest wounds took place in the context of
35:27
intimate relationships with her boyfriend, with her
35:29
friends at school, in which she was bullied. Like these, these
35:31
close proximal relationships. And
35:33
so we come to learn that as
35:35
much as I long for
35:37
intimacy, it's also dangerous.
35:42
And so I, I practice
35:44
surviving. And in some
35:46
respects, that's what I had to do.
35:48
And to this day, Chris. I
35:50
mean, I and I like we come
35:52
up with all kinds of coping strategies for these
35:54
things that are troubling. So I've come to discover
35:57
I'm I am I am now 60 years
35:59
old, and I have come only recently
36:01
to discover, for instance, just
36:04
how often and everywhere
36:06
I use envy. As
36:09
a way for me to cope with
36:11
the parts of me that I still feel like,
36:14
that I still feel inadequate, like I, and
36:16
like the person who gets invited to speak
36:18
at places that I don't get to speak to, the person who gets
36:20
a bigger advance on their book than I get. The
36:22
person who's more, you know, the most interesting
36:25
person in the room. If I'm not more interesting, like
36:27
the thing, I'm not the smartest guy and like, all
36:29
the like, it's just everywhere. And
36:33
all of this. To be
36:35
envious is a way for me to cope
36:37
with the parts of me with
36:39
which I suffer in isolation.
36:43
But if I'm willing to practice vulnerably
36:45
opening the opening those spaces. This
36:47
is what when Paul writes in First Corinthians
36:49
chapter eight, verses two and three, there are
36:51
those who know, who do not know,
36:54
those who think they know, who do not know as they ought,
36:56
but the one who loves God. The person who
36:58
loves God is known
37:01
by God. Notice it's not the person
37:03
who loves. God knows God is
37:05
known by God. They have the experience
37:08
of being deeply seen, soothed,
37:11
safe, secure in all the places that
37:13
they hate the most, and
37:16
have the experience of being loved in that space.
37:18
And this is where suffering
37:20
meets its match in
37:23
Jesus. Jesus
37:25
comes and says to us, I see
37:27
your suffering and I am not leaving
37:29
the room. And
37:32
I want to say, well, you have no idea how long this
37:34
has been. You have no idea
37:36
how horrible this has been. And
37:38
he might say, I might
37:40
know more than you know. I just know I'm not leaving the room.
37:43
I know that I'm going to continue to be with you
37:45
in the presence of this, and we eventually
37:48
discover. That
37:50
the worst part about our suffering
37:52
is not the pain that we experience.
37:55
But our deep sense that we are
37:58
alone with it. Yes.
38:01
You have so many great
38:03
quotes throughout, you know, from
38:05
from believers throughout the centuries. I want
38:07
to come back. But one
38:09
of the main questions that I had for
38:11
you that I wanted to deal with today is
38:14
that penchant that we have
38:16
for making sense of our own
38:19
suffering, of figuring
38:21
out why something bad happened
38:23
in our life? Well, this happened because of this,
38:25
and God did this, and, and
38:28
and we fed all the puzzle pieces together.
38:30
And so when we come back, I want you to answer
38:33
that question. I got a quote for you. This
38:35
is really, really good stuff today
38:37
with Doctor Kurt Thompson. The deepest
38:40
place is our featured resource. You'll
38:42
find it at Chris Fabri Livorno.
38:44
Org. I
38:56
think what we're talking about today. It's
38:58
a it's a it's weird to think of it this way, but
39:00
when Jesus said that I came to
39:02
give them life and life
39:05
abundant, that that's
39:07
part of what we're talking about with our suffering.
39:10
Doctor Kurt Thompson has written the deepest
39:12
place, suffering and the
39:14
formation of hope. We're just kind
39:16
of scratching the surface. As a matter of fact, there's so
39:18
many great quotes in here. And Mark in
39:21
Illinois wanted to add
39:23
one. Mark a right ahead. Why did you call
39:25
today?
39:26
Yeah. This is a George
39:29
McDonald quotation, and
39:31
it begins. C.S. Lewis is the problem
39:33
of pain. And for those who know the
39:35
quotation, I'm going to alter one word just
39:38
to make it more understandable to the modern mind.
39:41
The Son of Man suffered
39:43
unto death, not so that
39:45
we would not suffer, but
39:47
so that our suffering would be
39:49
more like his.
39:52
And Lewis later
39:54
says in the book, God
39:56
whispers in our pleasures,
39:59
speaks in our suffering, and shouts
40:01
in our pain. Pain is
40:03
God's megaphone to arouse
40:05
a deaf world. And I would follow on with
40:08
two points. Number one, it's interesting
40:10
that Lewis represents pain
40:12
as one of the ways that God
40:15
amplifies his voice,
40:17
and the other is that I would
40:19
contend that if if
40:21
God shouts in our pains,
40:23
he sings in our
40:26
ecstasies is.
40:29
That's a really good mark. I'm glad you
40:31
called. So, Kurt, what do you say to that?
40:34
Well, you know, uh, Chris, I
40:36
think, uh, what.
40:37
Mark's.
40:38
Getting at, I think, is, uh,
40:40
what our common experience
40:42
is that, um,
40:45
we like to say in our, in the work that we do with patients
40:48
is that, you know, when people, uh,
40:50
come to the office, uh, they
40:53
come and they mostly want to
40:55
be relieved of their symptoms. But
40:57
that's very different than coming wanting to be.
40:59
Well. And
41:02
we often we, we say
41:04
that like people begin to make the changes
41:06
that they need to make once they have
41:08
suffered enough. And
41:11
if someone is not making the changes
41:13
that they claim that they want to make or that they need
41:15
to make, it's because at some level they haven't suffered
41:18
enough. It doesn't mean that they haven't suffered, but
41:20
it means that they haven't suffered. You
41:22
know enough of through. Through
41:24
a threshold of suffering that really is
41:26
evoking the kind of change what? The kind of suffering
41:29
that we talk about when in recovery,
41:31
in the recovery from, uh, from
41:34
addictions, when we reach, you know, that rock
41:36
bottom place. And so this notion
41:38
that God has built into
41:40
the, uh, into the fabric
41:42
of creation. A
41:45
response, a painful stimulus, a painful
41:47
response. When we are
41:49
living in a way that is apart
41:52
from the way we were made to live, you know, really just
41:54
makes a lot of sense. The real question, of course,
41:56
is when that pain comes,
41:58
whether God is talking to us or God
42:00
is shouting at us through his megaphone.
42:03
The real question is how we are going to respond,
42:05
because I have all kinds of ways. When
42:07
someone shouts at me through a megaphone,
42:10
I may like, it, may get my attention, or
42:12
it may have me running away. And
42:14
the question is whether or not I'm going to respond
42:16
by coming toward God. And that
42:18
has everything to do again with what we're doing
42:21
in response to the body of Jesus. That
42:23
can be Jesus for us in those moments
42:25
of suffering.
42:27
The question that I posed
42:29
before the break I
42:31
make, I can deal with my suffering.
42:34
If I can make sense of it,
42:36
I can deal. You know, as I look at the cross,
42:38
I can if if I'm giving
42:40
my life for the sins of the world,
42:42
that is okay. Well, I can understand that.
42:45
And Jesus had that. I don't have
42:47
that. I don't understand what's going
42:49
on here and the cause and effect. And
42:51
is it my fault? Is this something that God's
42:53
is the enemy doing it? You know, all those questions.
42:56
But I think a lot of times we comfort
42:58
ourselves by thinking, oh,
43:00
I may have made sense of my
43:02
suffering because this happened and this happened
43:04
and this happened, and even
43:07
that we're not promised to understand
43:10
in totality as humans. Right?
43:13
Well, not only were we not promised that,
43:15
Chris, but it actually doesn't even follow
43:17
the rules of the way the neurological
43:20
system of the brain and central nervous system work.
43:23
Um, as we like to say,
43:26
first of all, is that the human body?
43:28
First we sense things,
43:31
and only then do we make sense
43:33
of what we sense. And
43:36
so when we feel
43:38
whatever it is that we feel, especially if we are
43:40
suffering, we're having sensations, right?
43:42
This is the physical or an emotional,
43:45
uh, perception of distress over
43:47
time. If I'm having that experience
43:49
and someone gives me information
43:52
or even explains to me why
43:54
I'm having the pain, the fact that someone says, Kurt,
43:56
here's the reason why your femur is fractured.
43:59
The explanation in no way, shape
44:01
or form reduces my suffering of my fractured
44:03
femur by knowing about
44:05
it isn't what it needs. What
44:07
I need is surgery when my
44:09
son doesn't come back from Iraq.
44:13
There's no explanation. That's
44:16
going to be enough. What
44:19
we need is presence.
44:22
When we look at John 11.
44:25
I mean, it's a classic example of
44:27
Jesus encountering two
44:29
sisters after their brother has died
44:32
who are in their suffering.
44:35
And Martha first has
44:37
this encounter that becomes this theological
44:39
conversation with Jesus. And Martha doesn't
44:41
stick around long enough in her own grief.
44:45
Jesus is trying to get to that.
44:47
It's not until Mary comes and
44:49
simply after saying, if you
44:52
had only been here, she just returns
44:54
to her weeping. There's
44:56
no asking for an explanation. There's
44:58
simply grief. In
45:01
which Jesus joins her. And
45:03
then he moves.
45:05
That is really good. I
45:08
don't think I've thought a bit about it
45:10
that way in the moving into.
45:13
And that's what God wants. And
45:15
here we are at the end of the program. We've and I
45:17
said we only scratched the surface here.
45:19
But this is.
45:21
This is freeing. It
45:23
really is not making
45:25
sense of the
45:27
the suffering. It is allowing
45:30
God to do in us
45:32
and through us what he wants,
45:34
which is glory.
45:36
And you, you develop that in the book.
45:38
Uh, Doctor Thompson, thank you for
45:41
the conversation today, for the hope
45:43
that is is here for the abundant
45:45
life that is here. Keep
45:47
doing what you're doing and come back and see us again,
45:49
okay?
45:50
We'd love to. Chris. Thanks so much.
45:52
Doctor Kurt Thompson, our guest today
45:55
on this best broadcast.
45:56
Of Chris Fabry Live, our featured
45:58
resource at the website. The deepest
46:01
Place suffering
46:03
and the formation of Hope. It's
46:05
one of the best reads of the last
46:07
year for me, but
46:10
this message is difficult to embrace.
46:13
I'd rather talk about the happiest place.
46:16
I'd rather go to the path of least suffering
46:18
and pain. But for some
46:20
reason God allows this in our lives.
46:23
And as you've already heard in this hour,
46:25
the place of growth, the place
46:27
of transformation comes in the hard
46:30
spots. And if you're going
46:32
through one right now, God bless your friend. I think
46:34
this will encourage you even more as
46:36
you get into it. The deepest place.
46:39
Go to the website Chris Fabry live org
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46:46
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46:50
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