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Hello and welcome . This is Couples Counseling
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for Parents a show about couple
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relationships , how they work , why
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they don't , what you can do to fix
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what's broken . Here are our parents
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our dad , dr Stephen Mitchell
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, and our mom , erin Mitchell . Hello
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and thanks for joining us today on Couples Counseling for Parents
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. I'm Dr Stephen Mitchell .
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I'm Erin Mitchell and we're
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excited to be here with you . I think this is
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a really important podcast . So yeah
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, I don't know that I would have said excited
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. I think it feels really important .
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Well , maybe that's what I feel too . I feel
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so , let me tell you . Let me tell
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you what I've been thinking about everybody
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, because I've been thinking about this podcast
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and what we're going to talk about today , and
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some of it is well , not some of it . All of it is because of some interactions we've
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been having with our community . And
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I think , I don't know , a week or two
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ago , aaron
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had posted something about kind
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of living life without involved
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grandparents . You know , maybe due to they're
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not , they don't live close , or
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maybe it's not the healthiest relationship , or
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you know a myriad of other reasons . And
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then also , aaron is going to
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be starting this group called mothering without
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a mother , and just talking
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about what it is like
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, I mean , the name is pretty self-explanatory
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. I was about to explain the name , but it sounds
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pretty clear , right ?
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Yes , but I think I am starting
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a group for Mothers Without
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Mothers , and that is for
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any reason . I think you mentioned some of those
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like living far away , you
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don't have your mother in the day-to-day interactions
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, estrangement
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, bad , bad relationship , passed away . Um , there are a lot of reasons um that
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people end up in this situation and um , it's not great , it's
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hard , it's taxing , it's it's
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taxing on um , like on myself
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, um , but also it's a
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lot to navigate um for
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the whole family I think one of the things
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we're going to talk about is like the impact
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that it has on our kids and that impact
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that impact has on us , and
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then also the the strain and the tax
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that it can , it can have on a couple where
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like . We are our only resource
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. We are like , like , and
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that's not bad , it's just , it
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is a reality .
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Yeah , yeah , and kind of in
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light , so thinking about that . Also , if
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you do want to know about that group , just subscribe
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to our newsletter . We are going to be
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sending out information each week
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about the group to remind
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people that it's happening before
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it launches .
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You can also just email and we
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can add you that way .
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But yeah , yeah , yeah , sure , anyway . But
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so all these things have had
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me thinking about . And then also , I guess
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, if I'm honest , like some of the things
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that we have been kind
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of dealing with as a couple just being
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parents and running a business and
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you know we don't have any family here where we live I'm kind of dealing with as a couple just
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being parents and running a business , and
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you know we don't have any family here
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where we live . You know , our parents I
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mean , both of your parents are no longer living . My
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dad's not living , not
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super close with my mom . So
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just some of these realities , and I think it just made me think about how lonely couples feel
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sometimes in this stage of their life as parents and as partners . There's
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just this overwhelming sense of
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like it's
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just me , it's just
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us , and
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it's just me , it's just us , and I think that that loneliness can really
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weigh heavily on a couple . I feel like it's weighed heavily on
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us at times , like without
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like awareness , and
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then what begins to happen
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is you're fighting
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, there's conflict , there's resentment
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. You're
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fighting , there's conflict , there's resentment . There's sort of just
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a flavor of like disappointment and like lack
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of contentment in
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your relationship and in your life
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and I think some of it does stem
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to this feeling of just like I feel
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really alone and I don't feel
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like I have help . And I think when
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a partner feels like that , then they
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look to their partner , you
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know . So Steven feels that way . He
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looks to Aaron and says
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help me not feel alone . But Aaron
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feels alone already and she's looking to
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Steven saying an intensification of that feeling of loneliness
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. Yes , I
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want to take a nap . I
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feel really sad talking about that
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.
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I think that there is great sadness , and I think that's part
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of it , because I think that that's a little bit of
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the complicated nature
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of this topic , because , um
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, our lives are rich and good
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sure yeah and I think a lot
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of the couples we talk to would say the same like we have so
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much , to be thankful for and you
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know , like I , I did a post a
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long time ago made about , like our , I'm
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feeling our house is filling up with people , but
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I've never felt so alone um
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like because like and it's and
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, and you
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know , like it's , just , it's a , it's one of those paradoxes
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where to say that some
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like you're in a lonely season of life doesn't mean it's
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only lonely or that , like
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I , don't enjoy our interactions
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right , right .
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I'm not happy with my absolutely kids
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or relationship because that's the
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segue here .
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is that like ? So , yes , you mentioned the grandparents
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, um , and like our connection to our families
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, but there are a lot of , um
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, sort of thematic reasons . Couples in
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this season of their life feel
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this way . I including , but not
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limited to people , have moved
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. We live in a city that
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is very transient , so
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your neighbors are here one day , or
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maybe one day , maybe a couple of years or
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something , and then there's a new job in a
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new city and they're gone and we've
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been that neighbor quite a few times We've
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moved a lot for your school
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and fellowships and jobs
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and research and it's
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moved us a lot and it's hard to feel
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rooted , even
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if it's not to family . It's hard to feel rooted
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, even to your own community and friends when
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people are moving a lot
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.
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And something I've been thinking about , just even personally
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too . I think that this stage of life , for
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adults , it's just hard to have friends
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. You work , you have
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kids , you're busy
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and and it's
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like . So when , like like , if I look
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at my life and I'm like you
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know , it's not all that free time . Yeah , there's
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not a lot of free time . It's not not like I'm
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sitting there planning
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a bunch of get-togethers with
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friends , outside of doing
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things as a couple or doing things
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with the kids' sports teams
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or those kinds of things Sorry
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go ahead . But I'm just saying I think people
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also feel like I don't
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know how to make friends right now . I don't
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know , I don't know when I would
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, I don't know when I would spend time doing
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that kind of stuff .
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And that is an important part of life
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and relationship too , and sure , I
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think a lot of times , um , friendships
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have seasons and I think
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that that's a really complicated thing
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to recognize also . So you
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, I've had best friends . I have a group
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of friends I've had since preschool . I have
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a group of friends I've had since my freshman
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year of high school . I have , um , like different
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groups of friends , but we
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had kids first , I mean we had kids
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last out of your group of friends and kids first
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out of my group of friends um and
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that absolutely immediately and
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instantly puts you in different sort
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of friend groups
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like where you're just doing different things
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at different times , and that's
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not bad , but it's hard . So
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then your new friend group becomes the
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friends who have kids your age .
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Right .
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But they might be a new friend group . So like
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, maybe you don't say all the things that are going
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on . Yeah , we talk about our kids
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and we talk about what we're doing as parents
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, but do I really share how
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much disconnection ?
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me and you feel no Like oh no , we aren't
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that . How deep do we go here ? Yes , exactly . I'm
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also just thinking you mentioned
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some periods of your life where you
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had friends . I'm also just thinking , like
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you mentioned some periods of your life where you had friends and
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I was just like I didn't really make friends
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till college . That
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kind of makes me feel like maybe I wasn't so good at making
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friends Because I wouldn't say like I just was having a little
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moment of self-reflection . It was
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like , hmm , that feels sad even
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, I guess , in terms of how I am
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and my personality and how
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I can or can't make friends .
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I think that's another really important thing
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to consider as a couple . So
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I lived in the same
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house from seven until
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my mom passed away and that house was gone . And
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before I was seven I lived in away and that house was gone Um , and
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before I was seven I lived in the
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house on the same street . We
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, we literally moved . I forget how many houses done . I
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knew at one point it was 10 or so um
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up the street and it was devastating
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. Yeah , like my community was very much my community
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. So having that change in my adult
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life like that has not been the case for us .
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Right in
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my adult life like that has not been the case for
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us . Right , I've moved so much right um , but that was your life yeah
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, I moved a good bit .
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Yes , um , which isn't . There's not like a good
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or a bad . There's , there's um , but
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it is a different experience . So we come to these
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things , we even approach when we've talked about this a thousand
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times . It is very important to me that our kids
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feel rooted , and it is really
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difficult for me to imagine how to do that
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without aunts , uncles , cousins
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right the first grade teacher who lives .
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I know where exactly they live and
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um your first grade teacher
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that you grew up with , you mean yeah well
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yeah , he actually didn't , but sure , yeah
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, I know exactly where she lives um , but like
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yes , I'm saying you want
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our kids to be that connected or like
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oh , that's Mrs Johnson's house
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.
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And you know that kind of Mrs Lowry yeah .
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Miss Lowry , yes , but like that
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kind of sense of rootedness and connectedness
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is , it
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can contribute to your feeling of loneliness
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, even as a parent at
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this stage of life , because you're like I don't feel like
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we have that .
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And I think that we end up wanting to . Yes
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, I think it can contribute , but I also think it can feel
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like oh , but the only rubric
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I have is what I knew yeah , yeah
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, yeah , so like oh .
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So what do I do ? What do we do ? How do ?
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we do this ? How do we navigate this ? And
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um , and I think a lot of people
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are happy . I was so happy
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moving around when it was just the two of us yeah
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we loved it . We lived in seattle , we lived
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in bozeman , montana . We lived like we , we
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moved and felt like , honestly , like
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it was this epic adventure . Um
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I we have so many pictures of like the
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first night . We would sleep in a little tiny apartment , like
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having dinner , like we just saw one recently
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um where , where Steven made like this makeshift dinner out
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of like some folding chairs and like some
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sort of table .
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It wasn't a real table , but he like made a table
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out of it . It's one of our many moves , yeah , and like this
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is like our first dinner there and we
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have a lot of those and that felt sweet and good to
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me , until we had a kid and I was like so
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this person you thought I was ?
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that was fine , but I am a different person now
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.
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And so I think that
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a lot of couples deal
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with this feeling of loneliness and
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I think two couples can feel
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bad . They
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can feel like
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is something wrong ? Did we do something wrong ?
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You shouldn't feel lonely , but can also feel personal right
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.
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Say more .
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Like if I'm lonely , or
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frankly , like if you're , if you were saying you're really
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lonely , like well , I'm
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right here .
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Oh , yeah , like I should be , yeah , yeah
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, like , why are you lonely if I'm here ? We've got our family , you know , yes , and so , honestly , that's really
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interesting because I think that that's a dynamic or even a conversation that happens so like
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one that we've had , where , you know , aaron , you're like we need this rootedness
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, we need , you know I need to .
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I wanted to go home , I wanted to live by my mom .
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There was no other possible
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scenario and I was always like but we've got each
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other and you know we can home , can be here
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, like what we create and all
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that kind of stuff which was the story you grew up , right
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? Right and um , you
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know , to some extent .
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Yeah , yeah , I wouldn't .
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Yeah , it wasn't always yeah
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home was interesting for me , um
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, but but at least my siblings
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, you know , were who I was close with and
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what felt like home . And so I think
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, even in that there's just
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this disconnect or this feeling of like
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that we walk away
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feeling lonely , where you're like why can't
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you see how important
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this is and see
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this aspect of my life and who I am
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? And then I
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think , like why can't we just be enough
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? and you right
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bloom where we're planted , you know do that kind of thing
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and so I think you get into these conversations
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, but I but I think it's but
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go ahead .
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I think I think we all , all , oh
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my , I think all of us at
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certain times feel misunderstood
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in our loneliness and I think to be perfectly
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. it's because we don't actually understand
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our loneliness , because who among
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us is sitting around reflecting on
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you know , like you know , the thing
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we say all the time is you
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have to actually know what you're trying
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to communicate before you start talking . But
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mostly we don't . We
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start talking first and try to figure it out as we
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go . That's not a great communication
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skill but it is often , especially
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for parents , you know , like I
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don't , like I'm going to get to that when I get to that , and
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that is not today , um , but it doesn't change our feelings .
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We just don't necessarily understand what they're about , right , and I think that
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that's really important , that that
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I think first of all , like that
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couples can acknowledge that
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we do feel lonely and that doesn't mean
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you've done anything wrong , it doesn't mean that there's
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anything wrong with you . I do think
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that that is an aspect of this developmental
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stage in a couple's life that
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they can feel lonely , and it doesn't
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mean every couple out there does . But
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there is a subset of
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couples that do , and that's normal and that's okay
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, a subset of couples that do , and that's normal and that's okay
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. But you do then have to recognize
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, like , okay , what is that ? How does that loneliness
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impact our relationship
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? And then what can
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we do about it ? Because it is impacting
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your relationship
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and I think that , to your point is
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, you individually have to understand
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like , well , what does loneliness mean
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?
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So I think , for me personally
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and I don't know if I'm
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answering your question , but I think I
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mislabeled my loneliness for
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the first four years
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of our kids' lives , of our
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oldest kids , I guess um of
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us becoming parents , rather as
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me , disliking your job like
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the problem is your work yeah
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, yeah , like you are too invested at your
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job . And if you weren't working ? so
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much , and if you weren't so committed to
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um advancing to
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be fair for our family , sure
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, sure , sure all the while and I think
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this is almost universal that
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when you become parents , you want
15:47
more time as a family and you suddenly need
15:49
exponentially more money . Right
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, right which typically for most people means
15:53
you have to figure out new work
15:55
, more work , different work so
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these things . They are competing
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. They don't usually
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work well together , and so I think
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I was very lonely um
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because that we moved very
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shortly after we had our kids to for
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a fellowship like for this career
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advancement . It was going to be better yeah and
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it was hard and I said , oh
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, I'm lonely because of
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that thing right you are doing
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and that is taking you away
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from me . There's truth in that , but that
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wasn't the whole truth of it
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.
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It was a really good and easy
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excuse . But
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that's what I mean . Does that answer your question ? Yeah
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, yeah , yeah , but I was even thinking , yes
16:37
, that does . But I also think
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, just on a deeper level . I think for me
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, one of the things that
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I have to , so
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, one of the things I've realized in our relationship , is
16:48
, I
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generally think I'm a pretty good dad
16:53
and as a husband , is that I can , I can tend or trend towards
17:07
being stressed
17:10
and overwhelmed , which makes me disengaged
17:12
and moody
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, and that I
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can get kind of and
17:20
that can be like an energy suck
17:22
, like a black hole of like , just
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like sucking the energy out
17:27
of our family system . And
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I think how I
17:32
have experienced that is I'm like it's
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situational , right , it's like , oh , it's like
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I need a different job , or oh , we just need some more money
17:38
, or oh , it's where we live , or oh , we just
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need , you know , I
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need Aaron to , you know , just act this way , or I need the kids
17:45
to do this , or I just need the house to be cleaner
17:47
, you know , or whatever it is Like , and
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I've kind of like gone through like
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with that attitude and spirit . But
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I think , as time has gone on , what
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I realized is I'm just really
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lonely , and , and
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I'm just really lonely . And I'm lonely not
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because I'm dissatisfied in my relationship
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with you or in my relationship with
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the kids , or even in my job or even what
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I'm doing . I'm lonely
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because I've had that
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feeling ever
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since I was little and
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I've never really known what to do with it
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. And the reason I've had that feeling of
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loneliness is because of just my experience
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, my experience growing
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up . You know , I didn't have the
18:32
best , I didn't have a good relationships
18:34
with my parents . My parents were angry
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a lot and they fought a lot and they
18:40
were scary and I
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you know my dad was kind
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of this big scary dude who had a temper
18:47
and you know my mom was
18:49
had a temper and was scary
18:52
and it felt
18:54
like I couldn't , I
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couldn't go be close with them
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because it was frightening
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to be close with them . And so
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as a little kid I remember oftentimes
19:06
just a feeling of
19:08
like like feeling
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like absolutely alone and
19:13
unsure of what to do . Thankfully
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I was had two
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siblings and we had good relationships
19:20
, but I think they felt pretty lonely too
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. You know , we did the best we could as kids
19:25
to kind of make that environment
19:27
feel better , but
19:34
I think what it did is like inside of me , like in my , like in my spirit . It caused me
19:36
to feel like there's no one
19:38
here for me ever
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and I and I'm not trying
19:43
to be dramatic I had felt that way
19:45
as long as I can remember
19:48
and I think that I
19:50
go through life and as
19:52
I go through life , I have that
19:55
feeling of is there anyone
19:57
here for me ? When you run into
19:59
these big scary things of
20:01
trying to live life , of trying to be an adult
20:03
, of having kids , of having
20:06
a relationship , of running
20:09
a business , of trying to survive
20:11
, like all of these things where you , where
20:14
, if you had like kind of
20:16
something inside of yourself
20:18
that helped you feel like
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you weren't alone or that you belonged
20:23
somewhere or that you were connected
20:25
somewhere , like things would
20:27
feel different . And I think that , at
20:30
least for me , like what I've realized
20:32
about the loneliness is it is located
20:34
in that , oh sure , and
20:37
that directly impacts
20:39
how I bring
20:41
myself to our relationship and how I bring
20:44
myself to being a dad . And
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I think that oftentimes I
20:49
find
20:52
that in the couples
20:54
that we talk with , I find that to be true
20:56
for a lot of people and yet
20:58
they're not really aware that they're
21:00
dealing with that kind
21:03
of absence and
21:06
that that absence from before
21:09
intimately connects their present
21:11
. So I think that that's another level
21:13
of like you're kind of . That's how you
21:16
experience loneliness . It's your job . I
21:18
think I've experienced it more in that internal
21:20
like wow , like
21:23
I'm dealing
21:25
with a really powerful feeling
21:27
that I've had my whole life . But
21:29
I'm calling it something else and
21:31
I'm and I'm and
21:34
I'm uh , and I'm
21:36
kind of trying to fix it like
21:38
by you know , uh
21:41
, fixing you or fixing the kids or
21:43
doing a lot yeah .
21:44
Yeah , I think , I think , yes
21:47
, I mean , I think that's a really powerful story I
21:49
can like , I can feel
21:51
that . I think I think that's very
21:53
relatable . I imagine a lot of people listening have
21:56
a version of that . I don't think it's
21:58
the same . I think a lot of people had
22:00
very physically present parents , but I think a lot of people had very
22:02
um physically present parents , but I think a lot of us
22:04
experienced a nurture gap um
22:07
I think uh just sort of
22:09
like because of the way parenting styles
22:11
were at that time . I yeah , not
22:13
everybody um , but I think
22:16
yes so like I think some people will be like oh
22:18
, but my parents were there . But then when you really
22:20
think about it , like , well , I
22:22
think they wanted to be you know
22:24
like they they meant to be , they thought they
22:26
were , but . But just because we had
22:28
parents who had positive intentions , it doesn't mean
22:30
they were everything we needed , um
22:32
or that .
22:33
Yeah , and a parent can't be everything you need
22:35
, but but , but I do
22:37
think what that , that idea of the nurture guys
22:39
? Really I think that's a good way of saying it
22:41
.
22:41
Steven loves something I say every single podcast .
22:43
That's going to be the new takeaway . Well
22:47
, that's I .
22:47
Just I saw your face when I said it , like , oh
22:49
, that's going to be .
22:51
Yeah , so I think that that
22:53
is is really true
22:55
and that's a societal thing , a generational
22:57
thing , as you're saying . An understanding of parenting
23:00
, like you know , what we understand
23:02
about neuroscience and attachment and like
23:04
what brings healthy relationships
23:06
, is a lot different now than what we knew then , although
23:09
you know some of it is common
23:11
sense as well .
23:12
Well , some people knew it . Then my mom was very yeah
23:15
. But yeah , my point is
23:17
like I think it is relatable , even
23:19
if it's not like oh yeah , my parents
23:21
were scary , but like I
23:24
didn't always feel like I could come to them
23:26
If I had a big problem .
23:27
I can't remember being told I was loved by my
23:29
parents or I can't . You know , we didn't really hug much
23:32
, or there wasn't much affection or there wasn't much encouragement
23:34
, like that doesn't mean
23:36
your home was terrible , right , but it is an
23:39
absence right , it is something that can
23:41
leave you feeling that
23:43
message of there's no one here to
23:45
help me . I have to help myself , it's
23:48
all up to me , I'm
23:50
the only one I can rely on , I'm the only
23:52
one I can trust . I think that when there's messages
23:55
and stories like that that run through our
23:57
hearts and our minds , that
24:00
is an indication of that gap .
24:02
And then you think about us . I'm just going
24:04
to continue to give us an example . So you have
24:06
a me who wanted desperately
24:09
for , like , some sort
24:11
of a repeat family
24:13
experience . I
24:16
definitely wanted a different family makeup but
24:19
, yeah , like I expected that
24:21
my kids would be friends with
24:23
their friends . Like I am preschool
24:25
through , for you know , 40
24:28
.
24:28
And I expected my kids wouldn't have friends till
24:30
college . I don't think you
24:32
ever thought about it , but then okay
24:34
.
24:34
So someone like me , mary , someone like Steven , where , like
24:36
the you , what you really
24:39
wanted was to achieve and
24:41
to like . That is what made you feel safe and secure
24:43
.
24:43
I think and like the next achievement , next
24:45
achievement next achievement , not very relational , If you
24:47
know , it's just very I think it's
24:49
very relational . Well
24:51
, the the intention is like then
24:53
I'll be safe , Sure , sure , I won't be alone
24:56
.
24:57
So I think that and
25:07
it doesn't .
25:07
Maybe maybe the way I said it wasn't kind , but like I think that I didn't think it was unkind
25:09
, I just think it's that that achieving was much more like the accomplishing
25:12
of things is what helped me feel better , and so
25:14
that's very , a very task oriented
25:16
, task focused way of doing things , not really a relational way of connecting
25:18
way of doing things , not really a relational
25:20
way of connecting .
25:22
So I think I'm saying the same thing . No-transcript
25:33
, so
25:35
I think I did , but I feel like , I
25:38
just feel like to externally
25:40
be trying to achieve . So internally
25:42
, you feel like you can be
25:44
safe and secure is very relational
25:47
. It doesn't look relational
25:49
on paper If you write , I am task
25:51
focused like yeah that
25:53
doesn't look good .
25:54
You can tell I've done a lot of healing around this right
25:57
.
25:58
That's kind of why I'm looking at you like what are we talking about
26:00
? We've talked about this a million times .
26:01
I get it now , but like the .
26:02
How did someone come to be a task-oriented
26:05
person ? Because it's going to do
26:07
something internally to soothe or
26:09
help feel safe or protect or whatever
26:12
. But I'm just saying like
26:14
. So I'm like home forever
26:16
. We're going to live on the same street
26:18
and we're going to buy our first house when we
26:20
whatever . I don't know , and then we
26:22
live there forever . Right , and you're
26:24
like I'm going to achieve and
26:28
that requires to go to PhD school here , that requires an internship there , that requires
26:30
a fellowship here , I need to do research here and
26:32
that . And honestly , it was fine until
26:35
I said I had kids
26:37
, until we had kids . And then I said , like that
26:40
started to create panic in me , and
26:43
so I think a lot of couples
26:45
get to this Like wait a minute , though we had
26:47
agreed , like you knew
26:50
what was happening . And
26:53
I'm like well , yeah , I was happy to move then .
26:54
But yeah , so
27:02
in a way , I think what we we're a good question to ask yourself if you
27:04
are um in a parenting partner relationship and
27:06
you like I
27:09
think just in a relationship , yeah , yeah are
27:11
you aware of a feeling
27:14
of loneliness , if
27:16
you are ? A second question to
27:18
ask is how have you gone
27:20
about trying ?
27:23
to fix it .
27:24
You don't like those questions .
27:25
I love those questions , but I think like 1A
27:27
1A
27:29
go ahead .
27:30
1a .
27:30
How would someone know if they felt lonely ? Because
27:33
I think so many of us did not
27:35
learn to identify our emotions . So
27:37
, like what would loneliness maybe
27:39
look like ?
27:40
Yeah , so I think it
27:43
could look a lot of ways .
27:46
Agreed Already .
27:47
I think , like you know , a restlessness
27:49
, a discontentment , a
27:53
kind of angst
27:55
, a sort of this feeling of
27:57
like nothing's enough
27:59
. I got to get more a
28:02
feeling of emptiness , a
28:04
feeling of kind
28:07
of anxiety or constant
28:10
striving , a feeling of being
28:13
so externally focused
28:15
and so helpful to everyone else
28:18
and so concerned
28:20
with how everyone else is doing that you run
28:22
yourself into the ground and
28:24
you have no awareness of yourself
28:26
, like all kinds of things
28:28
.
28:28
I think to that point . Um
28:30
, I think a lot of lonely people are
28:32
out there making sure no
28:35
one else feels lonely .
28:36
So I think um yeah , or
28:38
like what like for me , to be quite honest , like
28:40
the way like just really withdrawn
28:42
, really like internal um
28:45
, not looking to connect
28:47
, I think both . Like both of these things
28:49
.
28:50
Yes , I think some I think some of us are like oh
28:52
, we all like eeyore seemed
28:54
lonely .
28:55
Yeah , yeah , yeah , yeah , yeah but .
28:56
Eeyore , whatever , that's
28:58
a tale for a different day . But , I don't
29:00
think lonely looks . I don't
29:02
think we all know what it looks like , and so I think it's
29:04
like we're expecting it to look one thing . Well , I don't look
29:06
like that , so I'm not lonely .
29:08
I've got plenty of friends , I do
29:10
a lot of stuff , I'm very social
29:12
, I'm very extro , but none of that
29:14
has anything to do with in
29:17
yourself ?
29:17
do you feel known ?
29:21
Do you feel cared for ? Do you
29:24
feel solid within
29:26
yourself ? Do
29:28
you feel a sense of well-being
29:31
within
29:34
yourself , or do you feel like a
29:36
sense of emptiness and
29:38
a need to strive for something that's
29:40
not there ? That's what , all of those
29:42
things . I don't think it has to be either , or I like
29:44
the first part of that better .
29:45
I think this because the second part doesn't resonate
29:47
for me , but the first part certainly
29:50
does , so I think- .
29:51
Of the first part being Like
29:53
the .
29:55
Do you feel all the things
29:57
you just listed ? The first , but like
29:59
the striving , striving isn't I don't that
30:01
I mean , which doesn't mean it isn't true for
30:03
me , but that I'm not like oh yeah .
30:05
So I just don't think it has to be right , it's not
30:07
neither , or this is also like a maybe
30:09
, do you feel ?
30:10
known . Do you feel like those things I'm like
30:12
, ah , those are great guiding questions
30:14
um so that first
30:16
question of like do do I feel lonely ?
30:18
The one A of it is like what we just did
30:20
, like how would I maybe
30:22
know if I do or don't ? We just threw out some
30:24
ideas . And then I think there's the second
30:26
question of like and how have I gone about trying
30:28
to fix it ? How have
30:30
I gone about asking my partner to
30:33
fix it ?
30:34
And fix doesn't have to be a bad
30:36
word .
30:36
I don't mean it negatively , yeah .
30:38
But we're talking the difference
30:40
of engagement actually
30:43
having the opportunity to be known , to be
30:45
understood in this place , to connect or
30:47
like band-aids , or
30:49
feeling like my partner demands
30:52
this of me , Right ?
30:53
I think that's a band-aid For me .
30:55
It was like oh , if you get a different job . Finally
30:57
, when you finish your phd , if , oh
30:59
, if .
31:00
If there's always a like oh , I won't feel
31:02
lonely when right , yes
31:04
, like if there's whatever the fill in the blank
31:06
is , and you might have different answers to that .
31:08
For sure , each of you I I think I've
31:11
had 700 different answers in our 16
31:13
years like yeah , yeah yeah , I think that
31:15
, I think is a good indication , like , wait a minute
31:18
, because because our level , my
31:20
, my contentment , my , my
31:22
sense of self cannot be dependent upon Stephen
31:24
finishing a PhD , which doesn't mean qualitatively
31:27
our life wasn't immediately improved
31:29
because , to be clear , it was
31:31
so much better when that was over . It's a long
31:33
five years , oh my goodness
31:35
.
31:36
So asking yourself those questions
31:38
, and then I think part
31:40
of it is being able
31:42
, you know , after you have some answers
31:44
.
31:45
That internal part that we were talking about , those are you questions
31:48
that you ask yourself .
31:49
Then I think there's an external part of
31:51
like moving towards your partner and
31:54
asking them those same questions
31:56
and saying like are you aware of any of this for
31:58
yourself ? And
32:00
starting that conversation of
32:03
is our relationship being
32:05
impacted by a sense of
32:07
loneliness that we haven't
32:09
really been aware of ? Or
32:12
you are , or
32:15
we are right ? And then kind of having that conversation and
32:17
if the answer is like yes , maybe you
32:20
know , then I think , in terms of
32:22
being clear
32:24
with one another , then you can say like well
32:26
, is there anything that
32:28
we could do to
32:31
help that feel different
32:33
. And I think that primarily
32:36
like one of the things you can do
32:38
is to seek connection
32:40
. To seek connection with one another , but
32:42
to seek connection with others
32:44
around you , but
32:47
doing it in a
32:50
more purposeful way , from
32:52
a place of understanding yourself
32:54
and your partner and what you both
32:56
need . I mean . I think go
32:59
ahead .
33:00
I just like that . I like the part because I do
33:02
think for anything
33:04
to ever feel different , like really
33:07
feel different it has
33:09
to be known and understood and connected
33:11
on right .
33:12
Like you have to understand yourself .
33:14
You have to before you can hope
33:16
your partner will , and
33:19
then you have to before you can hope your partner will right um , and then and
33:21
then you move to action .
33:22
Right , I just I was just really resonating right like yes , I think because
33:24
I think already the connection .
33:25
I think there's relief in naming um
33:28
and I . It's not a thought , that's true , there's
33:30
a relief in like oh , this is what this is
33:32
it doesn't mean it changes anything , but there is a relief
33:34
in that , and then that's where you can
33:37
start trying to find action .
33:39
Yeah , like like there's even been , you know
33:41
, times where Aaron and I have talked about we're like
33:43
you know what we do , want to feel more
33:45
connected and then
33:47
where you can be like okay , like who
33:50
in our life ? You know who in our
33:52
life are people that we want
33:54
to be connected with , and you know
33:56
there's people here where we live in Denver . But
33:59
also , like I remember one of the specific
34:01
things we said is we are relative
34:03
. We are pretty close with my , with my
34:05
siblings and their kids
34:07
and their partners , and so
34:09
one of the things we've said is like we
34:11
want to be more connected to them
34:14
and
34:16
we have specifically
34:18
made efforts and plans
34:20
to be like this is how we're going to do that , this
34:22
is how we will see them . Our energies
34:25
, our efforts , our money goes
34:27
towards those kinds of
34:29
things Because we
34:31
have , you know , we've had that conversation
34:33
about like we want to be
34:36
connected . We don't feel connected . How can we be
34:38
? And so that's what I mean by from
34:40
that place of understanding you
34:42
and your partner can actually do
34:44
something that addresses your
34:46
loneliness together in
34:49
a purposeful and intentional way moving
34:53
forward .
34:55
I think it only furthers your point , but I think this is
34:57
something and you
34:59
may not always both feel
35:02
this at the same time so I
35:04
really wanted our kids to get to
35:06
live and grow up with cousins . I did
35:08
and
35:12
it was honestly life-giving for me . When
35:18
we were at my dad's house we basically lived at his sister's my aunt's house and
35:20
her two daughters made that time Okay For me , when it really wouldn't
35:22
have been without them life giving
35:25
for me . And so for me to imagine
35:27
my kids not like my
35:29
kids , having cousins they loved and
35:31
them not being around them . Just , I
35:34
couldn't . And and one thing
35:36
that , um , and that Steven didn't really
35:38
grow up close to his cousins , and not that he didn't want our kids
35:40
to be close to his cousins , but like um , no
35:42
, they can't .
35:43
No , no , no , but like that was , that just wasn't a value
35:45
, that wasn't um well , I would
35:47
say it was a value . I think it didn't like cause
35:49
you to lose sleep right like oh yeah , this is how it
35:51
happens , we'll see them and we go like aaron , we
35:54
go no like
35:56
I need to know that you are willing , like
35:58
I need the commitment from you that , like , we
36:00
will spend money . Yeah .
36:03
Even when money is scarce , we will find
36:05
a way to go and be
36:07
with them Right Every year . We will see all
36:09
cousins every year .
36:10
Yeah , at least Hopefully , sometimes . More , yeah , more
36:12
yeah , as much as possible , you know
36:14
bare minimum , and that is a way
36:16
that Steven could move towards me in
36:19
something that felt very specific
36:21
to something I wanted . Well
36:24
, and it's been such an enriching part of our life
36:26
and our kids' lives . Yeah , and in no way
36:28
do I mean to say that , like Steven , didn't value that yeah
36:30
, I did yeah .
36:32
Until we are able to say like these are the things
36:34
I really want . Like this
36:36
would make me feel more connected . This thing
36:39
would make me feel more rooted to hear
36:41
your partner say back I will prioritize
36:43
that .
36:44
Like .
36:44
I don't understand it , but I don't have to understand it
36:46
to get that it's a value for you . Okay
36:48
, like , how do we map this out ? Like , let's
36:51
work on this and maybe , you know , maybe
36:53
that can't be a goal this year , maybe we can't say
36:55
yes , we will spend a
36:57
thousand dollars on plane tickets . Like
36:59
we can't do that , but I hear you and we will save
37:01
and plan and we will do that . Right
37:04
, so I'm just saying so there
37:06
can be verbal validation and practical
37:09
action .
37:10
So the questions being am
37:12
I feeling lonely ? How
37:15
would I know that ? He gave some examples . How
37:21
am I trying to fix that loneliness ? Or how am I trying to ask my partner
37:23
to fix that loneliness ? Asking
37:26
yourself those questions , then asking your partner
37:28
those questions and then together
37:31
making a plan of action
37:33
for well , what can we do that
37:36
could address this loneliness
37:39
in a way that helps us both
37:41
feel supported and
37:44
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37:48
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38:04
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38:06
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