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Welcome to the Crazy Love

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Podcast When God. Shines his

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light into our hearts. We finally

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realize how self centered we can.

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Be in this classic message.

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francis cheats, calls, Us to

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take our eyes off of ourselves. Worship

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God and stand amazed.

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At the wonder of his light entering

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the world. Through the birth

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of Jesus. And

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I. Know about you but I was just

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so looking forward to him tonight I

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just to just to praise. Just.

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To worship him. I. Got our

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thinking you know what? we haven't opened our

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presence at our house yet and I got

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my wife pretty cool gif this year and

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so I'm excited about tomorrow morning. You know

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for her to open the gift I have.

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you know he ever do that you know

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where some some years it's just like whatever

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another shirt but this year was like I

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really thought this through and took some that.

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I went back to stores like a few

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times and are got some really cool that

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I know she's going to like and so

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I look for tomorrow morning. Like here it

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is honey. And she's is can

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be all over me. she's just create blown

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away like it's going to be great and.

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I. Was think hang. You

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know, Then. Anticipation I

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have for tomorrow. Is.

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That what you felt tonight. Where

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you actually came with something for

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God. It.

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You know those times when you've really thought

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something through your com caught I just want

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to eight or just some one and another

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human being where you go? Me and I've

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been looking forward to giving you this I've

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been thinking about have been saving up really

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hear it is I do. You come here

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with that type of mentality. Think

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as I did tonight housing can't. I can't

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wait. I can't wait to just you know

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I'm praising you right now, but I can

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we just night because I just poured out

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and tell you how amazing you've been. this

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year. You know, I just want to

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tell you how amazed I am right

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now that you actually left the glory

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of all of that. I'm gonna join

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with my brothers and sisters and tonight

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we're gonna come in here present. I'm

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just gonna give you everything. Like that

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type of anticipation. You know,

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John and I were in this room about a

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week ago and we were just

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hearing the steps just praying for this.

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And we were praying. This was my prayers.

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I'm walking around this room just going, God,

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what do you want? What do you want?

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Like what do you want us to do

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this night on Christmas Eve? What

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would you like to happen in this room?

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And John

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and I were just praying, God, what do you want? What do

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you want to do? We want

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to just surrender whatever. You've

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got to understand that's not

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normal church prayer. That's

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not the way pastors normally

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pray. That's not the way I've

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always prayed because I used to think,

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what do you guys want? You

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know, as the pastor say, okay, what are the

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people gonna want when they come in? What

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are they gonna want? Let's give them what they want

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because we want them to come back. But

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you gotta understand like that's not what we were

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thinking. It's not

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that we don't care about you, but just

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not that much. You know,

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seriously. And it's actually the most

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loving thing we can do for

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you is to teach you to

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get over yourself a little

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bit and go, you

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know what? Don't give me what I

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want. I don't come here so that

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you give me what I want. I

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come here because I want to please

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him. There's someone that's literally watching right

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now. It's like, what does he desire?

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He desires for all of us, the

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whole church to bring their gifts every

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time we gather and you know, God,

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I've got something for the body. I've

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got something for everyone. I've got a

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I want to bless everyone with this. I

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want to tell people how good you've been to

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me and to come in the room

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and say, God, what is

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it that you want? And

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the passage that came to mind as we

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were praying that other day, it's

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not really a Christmas passage, but it

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was Luke 7. Luke

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7 was such a beautiful

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picture to me because there's a Jesus

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in the house of

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these Pharisees, these religious leaders, and it was

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one of the Pharisees asked him to eat

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with him, and he went into the Pharisee's

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house and reclined at the table. And

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behold, a woman of the city who

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was a sinner, when

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she learned that he was reclining at

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table in

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the Pharisee's house, brought

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an alabaster flask of ointment

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and standing behind him at his feet, weeping,

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she began to wet his feet with her

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tears and wipe them with

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the hair of her head and

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kiss his feet and anointed

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them with the ointment. And

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when the Pharisees who had invited him saw this, he

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said to himself, if this man were a

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prophet, he would have known who and what

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sort of woman this is who

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was touching him, for she's a sinner. And

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Jesus answering said to him, Simon, I

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have something to say to you. And

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he answered, say a teacher. A

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certain money lender had two debtors, one

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owed 500 denarii and the other 50. When

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they could not pay, he canceled the debt of both. Now

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which of them will love him more? Simon

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answered, the one I

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suppose for whom he canceled the larger debt. And

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he said to him, you have judged rightly. Then

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turning toward the woman, he said to Simon,

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you see this woman? I

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entered your house. You gave me

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no water for my feet. because

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I know what I've done in my life

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and I know how badly I need your

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forgiveness. Man, when we sing

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joy to the world I'm going joy to the

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world. God, I don't know

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what I would do without you. Man,

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I was by nature an object of

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wrath. I've

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done some things, I've hurt some people.

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This mind has thought some thoughts that

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are so wicked. And so

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Jesus, if you're in this room I just want to

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fall on my face and worship

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you and I don't care who's watching. I

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brought you a gift of worship, you

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know, and as I'm praying going, God,

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what would you want? He

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wants all of us coming

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here tonight like that woman. That's

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what he would love. You don't

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care who's sitting next to you. You

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don't care who else is in the room and

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what they think of you and

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how they view you. You're just

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so overwhelmed by him. You're still so blown

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away that you just want to fall on

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his face and worship him, you

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know. You think about those

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wise men that sought him

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out. You see, we have an

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opportunity as I was thinking about

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what John and I were praying about last week. It

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hit me a couple nights ago. I woke up like four

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in the morning and

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with this thought like we

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have an opportunity like right now. Our

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generation, we could

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be the ones starting

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now to put an end to

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this whole consumer

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mindset of church,

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okay, that we come to

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a Christmas Eve service or we come to

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a Sunday service or we come to any

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type of gathering and we critique

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and we walk away going, yeah,

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the sermon was all right. Yeah,

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the music was a little loud. Yeah,

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I don't really like that one song. Well,

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when did all that start? Seriously,

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when people would walk out of a room and go,

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yeah, I didn't like worship today, and

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think that's an okay thing to say. Like,

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can we just kill that? Can

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we be the generation that says, you know

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what? Who messed this thing

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up? I don't know when it started

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where we just started saying, hey, what do you guys

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want? What would you like? Oh, we didn't like it?

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We'll fix it next week. And

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go back to, I came, I

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don't care who's in the room, I came to

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pour out everything to Jesus. I

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didn't come here to receive from you or someone

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on this stage or to critique the person

10:47

on this stage. I came to

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adore Him. You know,

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I can't picture those angels in heaven

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and say, you know, day and night

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they just stare at Him and they

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never stop saying, holy, holy, holy. I

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can't picture those angels walking away going,

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man, worship wasn't that good today. You

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know? And

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our whole prayer, right, that we learned was, thy

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will be done on earth as it

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is in heaven. See,

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in heaven, God's not up there saying, okay, how

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can I entertain you during a worship service?

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In heaven, everyone's focusing on the throne and

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go, man, it's just amazing to be

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in your presence. What

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if we were the generation that actually

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got excited just to worship Him again

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and actually showed up with a gift

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and said, God, I came just

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excited with this gift of

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thanksgiving, this gift of worship, this gift

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of encouragement to other people. What

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if we came tonight just saying,

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Jesus, it's so amazing that

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I get to come here and adore you. Because

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I thought about what does He want? I

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think that's what He wants is Christmas. Having

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a party once every day. That.

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Let's kill this whole consumer mindset

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because maybe you came. Honestly, just

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just think it through when you

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came tonight. Were.

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You thinking about giving or receiving?

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The onset outlet for the I

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know was receiving a pretty good

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now. I mean

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honestly like it's weird how

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we start showing up. Expecting

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something for us, Someone

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else is part. And.

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It's a weirdest thing, but

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it's become normal in the

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church. And I'm

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just praying mantis be the year when

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we kill That. May. With

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a mean we're all about starting new

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trends here in San Cisco. What is

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what about the trend of worship and

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coming to worship rather than consume when

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they have been? Amazing Thing. When

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I'm a cook is a truth is is

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when you come with that mentality it's you

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leave more filled. That's. Why

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Jesus says it's more, Bless it. Didn't

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give them to receive. And

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yet we com to these gatherings every

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week hoping to receive, receive receive. I

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wonder if it's going to do it

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for me and what if you came

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to the fear of like I bet

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you that woman who was since a

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Caesar's want a porous see must have

13:23

left that room the most fulfilled person

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in the room when she says your

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sins are forgiven. She. Pie

13:30

just went home was even more

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excited. I can't believe Jesus just

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accepted me A paid service for

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Dave Miss that made her life.

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To. That's what happens when you com and

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you death. As

13:47

praying about tonight and com

13:49

learn why why it says

13:51

day. Or seven

13:53

hours ago something happened. that armor or

13:55

put it on the screen. Seven

13:59

hours ago. There

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is. My

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first grandchild. Okay, And.

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I'm. Sitting there. The.

14:18

Or thought it was my kid

14:20

half of i looked so since

14:23

in young thank you are but

14:25

service. Man. I'm

14:29

thinking it was not long

14:31

ago. The.

14:33

She was born. I feel like

14:35

I can remember like everything. Like.

14:38

It just feels. Like yesterday and

14:40

I'm and so the saw them

14:43

go to god I can't even

14:45

imagine like how quickly life is

14:48

go as far as I'm going

14:50

life is so fast I remember

14:52

being towards you can figure out

14:55

bring up baby right now this

14:57

is impossible. This. Is

14:59

impossible. Me: I know what I'm talking

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about. Like Isis is an edited hit

15:04

me like Com: I'm nearing the end.

15:06

You know it is like I'm I

15:08

would take three. Like a state where

15:11

you've eaten like three. Four Five cents

15:13

is a few pieces. Loved: Are grown

15:15

man I've consumed a lie. Just got

15:18

a couple bites more to enjoy. I'm

15:20

that is why I'm thinking about life

15:22

right now. Me: Grandpa: that's crazy that

15:25

is so bass. And then the second

15:27

thing I thought was. God

15:29

how could you be so good like

15:31

a houses across years is parked across

15:34

the street during ready for it's in

15:36

I just pray and as cry and

15:38

going cause my life is impossible itself

15:40

Makes you know here's my daughter Rachel

15:43

who's married like to one of my

15:45

favorite people on earth my son in

15:47

law where the the elder in our

15:49

third one of our passes. I just

15:52

love him to death and and now

15:54

we've got this little baby girl Little

15:56

Lily you have you granddaughter and is

15:58

like. Worry thing

16:00

that has works so well. You

16:02

know with all of my children

16:05

how much I love them an

16:07

hour? Grant him to go Can't

16:09

this is this is an impossible

16:11

like isn't impossible I've I've just

16:13

across Rico got is impossible I

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remember one I was like I

16:17

remember what I said to you

16:19

are I'm are all those war

16:21

a both ways and all Mirabelle

16:23

thoughts when I knew better gods

16:25

and then you give me this

16:27

and this is how can you

16:29

be so. Good. But.

16:33

Then the last slot they came

16:35

to me and this was just

16:37

so This was the one the

16:39

just took me over the top

16:41

was not how fast, not how

16:43

good. I just thought

16:45

about that baby. And.

16:49

I thought about scripture. How

16:55

the word Be Team

16:57

Flash. And. Well

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for a while among us. I

17:02

can you go to the next. I'd give your close up

17:04

so you can. Expect

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or. Even

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as we are worshipping right now and

17:20

John and I were praying even before

17:22

service today. I

17:25

was thinking about. The

17:29

Bible says there's a god

17:31

up there who dwells in

17:34

unapproachable light. Lightning.

17:36

Thunder Fire coming from.

17:39

His throne. He

17:41

spoke. He spoke.

17:45

And. Universes appeared. And

17:51

then as says that that God it

17:53

says and in and John one one

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in the beginning was the word. That

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was all There was. The

18:00

beginning was the word. The

18:02

world was with God In

18:04

the word was God. He

18:06

was with God in the

18:08

beginning and is as through

18:10

him all things were made

18:12

Without him Nothing was made

18:15

that has been made so

18:17

so So There's God Almighty

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and have been all breeds,

18:21

all the stars, all the

18:23

sun, everything you see you

18:25

made his voice as mind

18:27

everything. Law seizures spoke at

18:29

into. Existence. Is one

18:32

be as as as

18:34

that being. The

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team. Are

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you kidding me Right now? Oblivion

18:47

soon as that. He m

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So all of that our

18:52

that created every say. Boom!

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Him and his little infant for. And

19:00

I'm sitting there my. Oh.

19:05

How could there be that

19:07

much. Power. How

19:10

did you do that? How

19:13

you make yourself nothing. And

19:17

take the form of a man. Can.

19:19

Turn that off. I

19:22

just. Think.

19:28

He that god we were celebrating. You

19:32

know that's where you're staying

19:34

or resurrected team has rendered

19:36

you defeat as you know

19:38

we're screw that all that

19:40

power and health.raise them from

19:42

the dead and exalted him

19:44

far above all rule or

19:46

and authority. And yet somehow.

19:50

He became flesh. And

19:53

dwelt as for little while. On.

19:55

The Earth. To

19:57

do. How

19:59

did. Do that. How

20:03

did all of that power become

20:05

this little and fan? And

20:09

just cause me to thank. God.

20:15

I'm sorry for ever doubting your power. Few

20:19

can do that or can't you

20:21

do. I

20:24

start thinking in his room. In

20:30

I saw some people that were on. A

20:35

physical disability. Said

20:39

God. Forgive

20:41

me for disbelieving because according

20:44

to my faith, I believe.

20:48

That you took all of that power? An

20:51

empty yourself and became an infant. So

20:58

if I believe that. Then,

21:02

why would I doubt that you could feel. And

21:06

make any sense. And

21:10

has got excited again going guy!

21:12

So you can do anything you

21:14

want. You.

21:18

Walk the streets here San Cisco

21:20

the first year to I was

21:22

here. just walk around the tenderloin

21:24

just trying to talk to people.

21:26

haven't get out as a mess

21:28

there and you know and drugs

21:30

for years and everything else and

21:32

it got discouraging. Yale Just one

21:34

you think like someone's gonna turn

21:36

your life foam. They go right

21:39

back to everything else and even

21:41

get to this point where you

21:43

start to feel like hopeless. you

21:45

know what I mean. And summer

21:47

I've loved. ones where you just feel

21:49

like ah man i feel like i guess

21:51

you know and then you to certainly can

21:53

man i i try to explain things over

21:55

and over the best i can anyone like

21:58

amazing things will happen Because

24:00

you come in you're like God's amazing.

24:02

I Just want to

24:04

do anything for him. I

24:06

love him. I'm insanely in love with

24:09

him I'm obsessed with him. I don't

24:11

get enough of him. I wake up

24:13

in the morning. I'm like, oh, I

24:16

can't believe I'm talking to you I

24:18

can't believe you listen to me I

24:20

can't believe I pray and I actually

24:22

get to see the answers to that

24:24

and you come and you worship and

24:26

yet There's so many people that you

24:28

love and you're like They

24:31

don't get it No

24:33

matter what happens in the

24:35

last passage I want to read is is

24:37

that passage from John that I was quoting from

24:40

earlier, you know where it says that in the

24:42

beginning Was the word

24:44

and the word was with God the word was

24:46

God Then in verse 14,

24:48

it says the word became flesh But

24:51

a few verses before that it says

24:53

this the true light Which

24:56

gives light to everyone was

24:58

coming into the world He

25:01

this is Jesus He was

25:04

in the world and the world

25:06

was made through him yet The

25:09

world did not know him he

25:12

came to his own and

25:14

his own people did not receive

25:16

him But

25:19

to all who did receive him who believed

25:22

in his name He gave the right to become

25:24

children of God Who

25:28

were born not of blood nor of the will of the flesh

25:30

nor of the will of man But

25:33

of God He

25:37

says so this is what happened the light Jesus

25:39

came into the world But

25:43

the world that he made didn't know him Didn't

25:46

know him and

25:48

earlier in that passage the world

25:51

actually preferred darkness It's

25:54

like the light was coming to the world But there's

25:57

some people in the world the Bible says that

26:00

actually prefer darkness. They

26:03

don't want light to come in and

26:06

expose what

26:08

they've been doing. And

26:11

I was talking to some of my friends in the

26:13

TL that live in SROs, they go, gosh, I

26:16

just want all my windows blacked out,

26:18

my doors just closed, I just don't

26:21

want anyone to see me. I

26:24

want to be in the darkness. And

26:26

that's exactly what the Bible says, that the

26:28

light came to the world, but the people

26:30

are like, I don't want to be exposed.

26:33

Turn that light off. Because when you

26:35

turn the light off, suddenly I'm seeing

26:37

all these things in my life. When

26:39

the Bible started showing me the stuff

26:42

that I was doing, it's uncomfortable. You

26:44

go, man, I'm arrogant. Man,

26:46

I wake up and I think about me. Like

26:49

that's not the way I was created.

26:52

You know, I even came to church thinking about me.

26:54

What am I going to get out of this? Even

26:57

when I come to gather to

26:59

worship him, I'm still about me.

27:03

Like I want you to please me tonight. I want

27:05

you to give me a message. You didn't have enough

27:07

jokes. You didn't have enough this, you know, you could

27:09

have done a show on a video. The music could

27:12

have been this, this, we're still about this is like

27:15

the whole point. He says all things were

27:17

created by him and for him. I

27:20

was made for him. We

27:22

were made for the creator. When

27:24

the light, the true light

27:27

comes in, it exposes man. I'm selfish.

27:30

I just think about me. God

27:32

changed me, fix me, heal

27:34

me. My

27:37

prayer is, John and I were praying

27:39

this tonight, that maybe the

27:41

lights would go on for some of you. You

27:45

know, I texted him a picture of me at the

27:47

hospital today, you know, a picture of

27:49

my granddaughter, you know, he was

27:52

just, he's this man.

27:54

First thing I thought about, he goes, I just

27:56

pictured that baby, You

27:58

know, that was in darkness. In

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the womb. And she sunlight

28:02

for the first time. For

28:06

the first time she has exposed to

28:08

light. And I

28:11

thought I go man, it's crazy because I

28:13

was gonna teach how to John One I

28:15

wasn't planning on about. the whole thing was

28:17

that there comes a time when we need

28:20

to be born again. That's what he's talking

28:22

about. It's like suddenly the lights go on.

28:25

And you realize god, I'm not as good

28:27

as I thought I was. To

28:30

see That's what the light shows you. Is

28:32

like oh man I was pretty good as

28:35

ours comparing myself to my friends. Can

28:37

help her. Husband's pretty good because I

28:40

would you know, reads. Stories.

28:42

About Hitler and I'd feel

28:45

good about myself. You know,

28:47

you know I. I

28:50

will get into politics but anyways if

28:52

you know you start feeling like pretty

28:55

good because you compare yourself to other

28:57

people. But suddenly

28:59

the like goes on when he says you

29:01

know my God. I

29:05

need to be forgiven. The.

29:07

Bible says that all of us.

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Have sinned. All

29:13

of us. All

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of us. I don't care

29:17

if you've never miss a

29:19

church service. You memorize the

29:21

whole bible you've sent. Okay,

29:25

And. We all have secrets in this room. And

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No One wants those secrets put up

29:30

on that H D screen right there.

29:33

Are your thoughts everything for us to

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watch tonight. We've.

29:38

Got some gross secrets? That's

29:44

why I came into this. Is

29:47

not for those who think they're so

29:49

good that they deserve heaven. But.

29:52

It's like that woman we just studied, right?

29:55

And the chapter seven who just came in

29:57

bawling her eyes out. Lying

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at his feet, Wiping.

30:02

His feet with her hair. Centuries

30:04

as I've screwed up. As

30:08

there. any way you'll forgive me. And

30:12

Jesus using her as an

30:14

example but are positive example

30:16

she gets. She

30:18

didn't in here. Thinking she

30:21

was right chess. She came

30:23

in here. Realizing who she

30:25

was. And

30:27

Jesus forgave her. My.

30:30

Prayers that tonight. You

30:33

came to worship Jesus. For

30:35

some of you she just came and

30:38

you just want to pour out your

30:40

heart not worrying what anyone thinks or

30:42

anything else. In my prayers that the

30:44

tonight's a release for you. That

30:46

you get over yourself and you stop

30:49

worrying about way everyone else is looking

30:51

at you and you be like that

30:53

woman. Who just came to the

30:55

feet of Jesus Bolland arise out and wiping

30:57

his feet with her hair. But.

31:00

Others, others, you. That.

31:03

Maybe you go manner. I never

31:05

got it. I never

31:07

understood the story of Jesus. Guess

31:09

you're telling me that all of

31:12

those dark sands? That's why Jesus

31:14

came as he came to the

31:16

other by Jesus running com to

31:18

be served by to serve and

31:20

a key of my life as

31:22

a ransom for many. Jesus.

31:25

Came down to actually pay

31:27

for those crimes that were

31:29

so ashamed of. And

31:31

for those who get it and don't

31:33

come, you're saying normal good person. I

31:35

don't need Jesus in one time. Are

31:39

for the rest of us. We

31:41

get it. We

31:43

need forgiveness. And

31:45

God so loved the world.

31:49

And he gave has one and

31:51

only son. That

31:53

whoever believes in him will not perish.

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on to. Thank

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you for listening to the Crazy Low

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