A few months ago I took a trip to California and ended up in a hospital with paranoid psychosis. For three days I worried that someone was going to kill me, I didn't sleep, I was so scared that if I did I would not wake up. After 72 hours and a few doses of antipsychotic medication I managed to calm down enough to get myself out of the hospital. I was scared that they would not let me leave, I was still very paranoid and didn't know what was real or not. As I tried to get home to Vermont I felt that I was being followed and watched. I changed my flights multiple times because I thought someone was going to get me. Eventually I made it home. But since that experience I have never fully dealt with it. I have been avoiding and repressing it. I have been using opiates to facilitate that repression. I know I have to face the fear of that experience. That is what I am trying to do now. In this podcast my brother and I talk about how this process is going. - Rory