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because before we jump i in, want to give little backstory to

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this, episode are leaving this year as speaking at

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a conference in ohio, at a church that i love

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and this guy came up to me

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shirt some of his the soy with me you're

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gonna hear his store here in this episode, but

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he shared some of of story of redemption dude

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was just gone through a ton stuff

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this infidelity marriage

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collapsing, sickness miscarriage

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it like so just a ton of and

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he came up to me with tears, just like how the the gospel

0:28

was really impacting him that day

0:30

and was like just he was been the lord

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was drawing him near to him and

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we ended up like cocaine and crazy

0:36

gather and i was just so moved

0:38

by his story and specifically

0:41

the way that god was just chasing

0:43

after him and so anyway he reached

0:45

out to me and said hey man would you be interested

0:47

i started a podcast with my wife talking about

0:49

our story of redemption would you be interested

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in being a guest on my show and i said sure that be great so

0:54

i was a guest on his show this week

0:56

where he and his wife are interviewing me about that

0:58

tired but in the middle of that interview

1:01

like they started to share some of their story

1:03

and we were talking back and forth about like the gospel

1:06

what marriage looks like and it just became

1:08

i literally have never done this before but it just

1:10

it was so powerful in in the

1:12

middle of the i was like getting choked up i

1:14

was the one been interviewed for

1:17

dead tired stuff and yet it turned into a completely

1:19

like just took this direction that was just if

1:21

you know me know i don't try to like over spear slice

1:23

things slice don't want to make things weird when they don't need

1:25

to be the managers really since

1:27

the holy spirit was in the conversation and

1:29

so i asked them asked i do would you guys mind

1:32

if mind use this conversation since for

1:35

the data podcast because i think the

1:37

dad's hard as would love to hear this

1:39

in he was just it was so powerful that i'm like you

1:41

guys have to hear this and so they agreed

1:43

to that anyway this is

1:45

a podcast on the data show but is actually

1:47

me been interviewed on another part yes it's

1:49

going to feel little bit weird in that way

1:52

but other than that kind of weird

1:54

little hiccup the content was

1:56

just really really powerful i think the spirit

1:58

move this is a wonderful episode listen

2:00

to with your spouse though

2:02

i would listen to it the maybe tax

2:04

your spouse and say he will you listen to this to maybe

2:07

we can talk about it together but anyway and hopefully

2:09

that makes sense and hope you guys encouraged

2:12

by as much as i was encouraged by the com say i

2:14

love you guys said

2:21

because we have a against

2:23

with us to join says and this who's

2:25

invasion

2:26

awesome enhancer necessary

2:28

jared loads welcome

2:30

karen

2:32

hey you to be with you guys in the midst of the gas

2:34

thank you so much

2:35

good funny is that the first

2:38

i miss or podcast interview

2:40

was a house is worth a watch that we

2:42

are spots the do it and that's when i almost

2:44

lost my vision

2:46

oh yeah that was nuts

2:49

that was gonna have said see how i read

2:51

islam a chaotic life and vienna

2:53

muslims who are so thank you scan

2:56

the first time we're supposed has aired on as a guest

2:58

we share this incident were scared that bleeds in his

3:00

the oil or one room acid what

3:03

any and i'm parents t

3:05

, fact for resign he might lose his i

3:07

bet we had jared on and an hour and

3:10

he's like for go and we're gonna do

3:12

it i'm looking at him like this

3:15

man this insane

3:17

who are running behind my zoom a

3:19

jacket and be sick what's wrong with

3:21

your fifty like

3:25

bro , we can reschedule think

3:27

are you sure sure

3:30

do go a dancer ethical right behind

3:33

her

3:34

i literally turn the wheel

3:36

the freeway and went dead straight

3:38

losing railway with of literally right below like

3:40

we were at the light determining relied

3:42

bro just go to the doctor seuss like

3:44

star

3:46

for you i was saves and now it

3:48

back to have you and here

3:51

it is a author he

3:53

is a speaker and he is

3:56

an amazing dad who is

3:58

hundred yeah

3:59

the

4:01

here the show had guess dad tired

4:03

and why don't you give a little that a background

4:05

about you a little bit what you do what your your

4:07

mission

4:08

it truly is super

4:10

fun be with you guys and i know feals

4:12

galaxy you, by everyone listening can relate to

4:15

we all live chaotic life so it feels

4:17

really relatable so for having me

4:19

on in the midst of all bit yeah, i'm trying

4:22

my best to figure out what it means to be a jesus

4:24

first and foremost witches the

4:26

day to day journey and i would say like the

4:28

more i can rest in my identity

4:31

as identity as of god the

4:33

and seem to go better that doesn't mean like

4:35

life gets easier but the peace in

4:37

my soul grows bigger so

4:40

that's on treasury out everyday is what does it mean

4:42

for mean first it as be as son of god or

4:44

my husband's my wife who's been so

4:46

patient gracious with the i'm sure talk about that

4:49

nine this episode but

4:51

with a married coming up on thirteen years now yet for

4:53

tits then years old all the way down

4:55

to a one year old to i can literally

4:58

your screen in the background i love it or

5:00

hum yeah i write

5:02

books in post podcast and

5:04

do conferences and run a mystery for dad's

5:06

is trying to help walk alongside a dad

5:08

as we stumble our way to spiritual leadership's

5:10

that's how i spend my whole time

5:12

and him yet so that's why

5:15

i kind of i really found out about

5:17

you at the church we were going to the time you

5:19

were guest speaker for one of our midst our first

5:21

mans conference actually it was

5:23

i'm just ironic the timing for

5:25

me that was literally

5:27

months coming out of telling her

5:30

the full disclosure of the infidelity

5:33

and the affair and he

5:36

was in such a broken place hands

5:38

it's you came in and just

5:41

were just a different began

5:43

of i hope and refreshing

5:46

a word and message that i needed i

5:48

remember vividly remember vividly

5:51

forget we i was in the front table right

5:53

by that stage and i will

5:55

continuously wet not just cry

5:57

like a was a weeping of me

6:00

in that com friends and i just was

6:02

so thing for night i said thank you do that

6:04

time and i just prayed over what

6:07

we're going on and ideas we moved on

6:09

and then we started back maybe cool

6:11

have jared i can behave for me i know you

6:13

probably don't know but like it was just or i actually

6:15

went back and told her about make man is do

6:17

came it's is is he's talking

6:19

all about this stuff and i'm like just like was

6:21

dying and i'm like they this guy had is

6:24

really was what i needed in that moment

6:26

and it was the first real experience of me

6:28

like really just continuously

6:30

, go as i had no work and all

6:32

these things are going bad and so and

6:34

then he came back for a second year and

6:37

i was like i have to go meet him and like

6:39

go tell him thank you that's

6:42

how we can imagine and start

6:44

of this the friendship

6:46

there was a special moment for me honestly like

6:48

i remember a secret quite a bit

6:50

so sometimes things get fuzzy and have a really

6:53

really terrible memory like last night i watched

6:55

a movie that i've seen twice with

6:57

my brother in law he had never seen it and

7:00

i literally didn't remember a single thing in

7:02

the movie like of ,

7:04

my memory as but that moment

7:06

seriously stuck out to me like to me

7:08

went home until july but also home to my wife

7:10

like just everything that i was trying to teach

7:13

done hundreds of guys ever in that room the

7:15

human body like the gospel

7:17

wrecking your life in god been so gracious

7:20

t and in the midst of the pain like

7:22

you were embodying everything i was trying to cheat so

7:24

it the attic this is really cool for me

7:26

to be hanging out because it's stuck out to meet

7:28

you man

7:30

they saw your podcast is just amazing

7:32

it's and fire and if you guys are was

7:34

the main you have to check our journey back

7:36

as how long you been doing that now for

7:39

excuse me in or wow the

7:42

item in almost seven six and have years

7:45

dude so like i i've been listen to

7:47

it since i you you came that conference

7:49

and i just have taken so many tidbits away from

7:51

it and you know your guests have always

7:53

been impactful and me

7:55

just tell just a little bit about like when you

7:57

are i know

7:59

the

7:59

they're like we're trying to be a son

8:02

and try to follow what that is

8:04

and with a men's ministry

8:06

like what are you always going into

8:08

with these things with these conferences on your podcast

8:11

like what's your biggest things your china the

8:13

spread their

8:15

it it will the critics

8:17

he'd send you in houston guys i don't make

8:19

nasa keep the ,

8:21

black woman to your room i know know

8:24

, didn't do that

8:26

yet so i

8:29

think to give them contests in some background like i

8:31

was a pastor for twelve years in like the

8:33

church world as teaching and to decipher

8:35

sebastian some but to be leading the

8:37

dad's industry right now and ministry for

8:39

men is super not at all what

8:42

i planned on doing layla nice

8:44

i was twenty churches i'm i'm going on story

8:46

it's long and boring nobody cares but

8:48

there was a time where i went through the season

8:50

whereas twenty churches and i plan to with a friend

8:52

and and went terribly the

8:54

who i thought was a good friend ended up hurting me really

8:56

really deeply and that started

8:59

this the house distributed the

9:01

season of life was like spinning out of control

9:03

i was i completely lost

9:05

my identity this guy had said some the

9:07

hardest things anyone's ever said to me know like hard

9:10

like good challenging like the meanest

9:12

that caught me as deep as you can cut

9:14

somebody multiple times and

9:17

so it really mess with my identity and

9:20

i was going to the season where i was point

9:22

away from layla and as point away for we're

9:24

two kids at the time as point where from my kids are just

9:26

i sucked as a husband dad i was really

9:29

mad at the church i was like i'm

9:31

never gonna be in church ministry dan i'm

9:33

giving all of this up and i'll

9:35

do my own think it was so bad as we legitimately

9:37

our going to get a divorce like if way the were sitting

9:39

right here which i thought it probably good

9:41

for her to be here but she's in pajamas and services

9:43

you take me for displaying bring your own and

9:45

run around in adam schiff she

9:48

still gets emotional like thinking about that

9:50

about that of our lives because was so hard for her

9:53

for us in the middle of that season

9:56

we're fighting which was super regular for us

9:58

we're fighting all the time like daily in

10:00

a remember we're staying in our bedroom one day and

10:02

were like she said something that

10:05

it was kind of sharp and i'm like are like here

10:07

we go again it's gonna be a five year when you can be good

10:09

steal it like it's is like a body

10:11

change that would you feel in your body and

10:13

so i got your whereabouts in the face as he said

10:15

something to me and then i am my immaturity

10:18

they sent him back to her on purpose

10:20

to hurt her like i was trying to hurt her

10:24

the i remember what i said but i was been her

10:26

phone on purpose she got

10:28

tears in her eyes and i remember thinking to myself

10:30

like oh i'm winning that's how dumb i was

10:32

you know i'm , this fight

10:34

because my wife is really really strong ssl

10:37

and less emotional and make some answers

10:39

less less when i saw that she

10:42

was like getting emotional i'm like oh i'm winning

10:44

the winning and she looked at me she's a dirt

10:46

i just want you to know i've been waking up

10:48

i set my alarm it to in the morning every morning

10:50

and i wake up and i go into living room and i've been

10:52

praying for you and i've been begging

10:54

god to capture hartigan and

10:57

i was like

10:58

i had a it would you do yeah you can like

11:01

stomp out flame a door

11:04

nude cause you wait like would you do when your

11:06

wife's as you them waking up in the mill next and

11:08

praying for you that was the start of god

11:10

really softening my heart and

11:12

the bible says that it's guys kindness

11:15

that lead us to repentance when it is is crazy

11:17

man like that is a rash

11:19

it's not his like just enough so bad

11:21

why did you do is is kind it

11:24

was the kindness of god through my wife to the kindness

11:26

of my wife this to the drama heart back to his

11:29

and in the midst of that i happened

11:31

to start talking about like i feel like i suggest

11:33

has been adapted i don't want to bail my

11:36

son was three that's when my dad build on me when

11:38

i was seen as i can i can do to my some of my dad

11:40

did me that's how that hard sort of i wasn't

11:42

trying to start any ministry had no and

11:45

i'm sure you guys a story is the same use

11:47

like what do we do we're on a podcast thank you

11:49

but our marriage most on america's gonna be by

11:51

gone like a soap but it that's god's

11:53

reputation right like that's what god does he

11:55

takes broken as nice as a let me show off

11:58

i was the say that like oh how bad

12:00

this is the guy can fix it you know

12:02

he didn't do a show off story for

12:04

him and worse show off stuart i'm a short

12:07

surfer got like and so messed up as a dude

12:09

i had no dad growing up my marriage was

12:11

failing i feel like a soft as a has been

12:13

dad and gothic okay let me show off and

12:15

so up all that center there was a really long

12:17

winded answered you know as zach

12:19

last the i just

12:21

the gospel man the u s what am i trying to get

12:23

to the guys boiled all down

12:26

it would be this my wife should

12:28

have bailed on me she had every right

12:30

to say and i know this is your guess a story

12:32

he had every right to say i'm gone

12:34

like know there's plenty of fish in the see

12:37

you're not make me happy you've done wrong i'm out

12:39

of here this is the same thing

12:41

that god could say to us when you've done

12:43

me wrong you've turned your back on me

12:46

you've hurt me you've done what you shouldn't

12:48

have done i'm leaving there's plenty of

12:50

other humans in this like i have a lot of other children

12:52

but god didn't god kept pursuing you

12:55

and so the fact that we have spouses that you'd say

12:57

i'm going to keep sticking around even when you

12:59

don't deserve it is a picture of the gospel

13:02

and every person can relate to that story

13:04

on some level all of us have turned her back on

13:06

god and god does should have

13:08

said amount but he didn't to

13:10

give guys in for me and my world

13:12

is guys could really understand that message that's

13:15

you to build on you and you done it is stuck around

13:17

in not only that he's chasing you down is taking

13:19

that message is making a new they'll be better

13:21

husbands fathers disciples so that's like the

13:24

message in a nutshell

13:26

really big you enjoy the law is

13:28

that right not sound as a nutshell

13:30

uneasy spoken about a regular

13:32

basis because what , just

13:34

said i've literally said maybe

13:36

was the reflection of what price

13:38

was of grace and mercy on me

13:40

i my life i don't

13:42

deserve anything that

13:44

i have received but yeah i still

13:47

have been given a just like god it does the same

13:49

for us and i'm so thankful for

13:51

that because just in my you're saying your

13:53

story there was this

13:56

like a with a spiraling out of

13:58

control i reflect back and honestly

14:00

remember those decisions i'd

14:02

enjoy i'd keep making them and justifying

14:04

them and you know there was rational

14:07

behind it and it's this was all these lies

14:09

from the enemy and and i kept taking action

14:11

imam and there was like just

14:13

as consent dying like

14:16

my flesh was just consuming every

14:18

part of me and he spoke about

14:20

something i like repentance and i think that word has

14:22

been so near and dear to my heart and

14:24

i just finished the book is a big guns is

14:26

a bible new year but jeremiah and

14:28

it it's amazing like that entire book

14:30

of the their color repentance it's

14:32

and listening to how the lord

14:34

spoke to jeremiah and like these

14:36

evil in one hear what he had to say in

14:39

continuously going to them as a like

14:41

you need to repent you need to repent i

14:43

, ivory my bowels like over one hundred time

14:46

the word repentance is using that and that book

14:48

book that book was like really like i'm just

14:50

thankful for repentance honestly without

14:53

, it honestly be here

14:55

yeah sorry to interrupt you i think we've seen his goal

14:57

that donnelly difference between a christian

14:59

non christian is repentance not

15:02

that we don't synonym for i

15:05

sin everyday like i'm going on sale today

15:07

rain the difference between me

15:09

and somebody who doesn't believe in jesus is i feel the

15:11

weight of my sin i've no i've gone outside of

15:13

guys design and now i say i don't

15:15

want to do that the want to live under the

15:17

rule and reign of somebody else other than me i

15:19

suck at being god there's another god

15:22

who can rule my life better it's

15:24

i repent i turn away i

15:26

mean that's the key marker of a christian is

15:28

repentance if we don't have it then you're like away

15:31

only do that to that that's the thing that's the thing

15:33

that separates us as we feel the weight of arson and

15:36

we want to turn away from and i

15:38

he can the other side of that of

15:40

repentance and then the grace and mercy

15:43

that times in a i never want to put

15:45

myself in a place that that was

15:47

me it was not me it was very

15:49

what i was able to show sky

15:51

outside of our slashed said as not human

15:54

media and the world would never

15:56

in a million years

15:57

how me to do it he then and

15:59

there

15:59

the reason i was able to do that was because

16:02

he had rescued meme many years before

16:05

and i knew what it felt

16:07

like

16:08

the repaint to a my lifetime

16:10

and so the can that

16:13

that once i did that

16:14

thirteen or so year

16:15

the guy had this idea of what the

16:17

great condition was in the mission field

16:20

and i have all these grandiose ideas

16:22

as going and mission trips and adapting

16:24

and tennis stepping into all those

16:26

kind of areas that are big

16:28

for sin ways to go and

16:30

never in my life that i think that he would

16:32

tell me to go and be a disciple in my home

16:35

as you say i knew i'd serve and i would lead

16:38

in my kids and in that area

16:40

but i was actually mad at him

16:42

when all this came out because i

16:44

said as has committed my life to you

16:46

or his wanted to serve you and

16:49

i have wanted to do x y and z for

16:51

you and every time it seems

16:53

like i go to do that must home

16:55

needs me there's a catastrophe here not

16:57

even late at night at can you think of

16:59

a comparison of like

17:00

the wasn't just me like they were other things in our

17:03

house between like cygnus cancer

17:05

a child man and brink of running over

17:07

it was living a lot of things

17:09

the team again she kept bringing

17:11

me home and i was mad about that

17:13

not because they don't want to serve in my home

17:15

or be a mama a wise i

17:18

just had his other idea of what it

17:20

meant to be a disciple and

17:22

so when i finally somebody had

17:24

said needs and even click until someone

17:26

said to me after all

17:28

of us came out with him that's all

17:31

his his drink if the case

17:33

and his ability to his

17:35

heart transformation all the things came at your

17:38

expense

17:39

the everybody else

17:40

the

17:41

like i don't think it in and i was on

17:44

it brought me to tears going sink you zine

17:47

you allowed me the be

17:49

a part of that i could

17:51

have missed it all he

17:53

asked me to step in do this mission

17:56

field that i never saw

17:59

the even exists ten and what

18:01

you said present the gospel to

18:03

my husband and you know as

18:06

as

18:06

doing that

18:08

in other towns the weird i knew how

18:10

to give him grace and see him differently because

18:12

of what was done for me but i

18:14

was able to

18:16

when him and i was like no no wait a second know

18:18

i've this is not at my expense i

18:20

am grateful to be allowed

18:22

to step into this space and see have a

18:24

word work where where off

18:27

i hit my i didn't have the apart the he's they've got

18:29

an is only the need

18:30

the any be the used that

18:33

you'd me and i stepped into that hard separate

18:36

i guess i could have chosen to sell

18:37

these but he's still gave me this

18:39

ability to go mandy

18:41

remember when he credited for yeah

18:44

and here's where had cousins i've been able to

18:46

look back angle my

18:48

entire walk so far

18:50

my where my where me called me

18:52

was right where i've been this entire

18:55

time so

18:57

i want to make sure when people hear it when

18:59

a sketch says me and he showed me this grace

19:01

and mercy and kindness say he

19:03

spoke of jesus doing that i will

19:05

never in my mind's eye was it like

19:08

oh can me i'm showing the kindness

19:11

hits he says that i was almost pushing

19:14

, on a going what in the world and

19:16

ready to go out for you why am i so here

19:18

in the heat into a flyers another waved

19:21

his crossing as down and

19:23

now i see what he was too

19:25

so that's why most perfect

19:27

of her and i think that that

19:30

everyone's i think said everyone

19:32

who's listening if you listen his bike as in car

19:34

your mon you're loaner whatever you're doing right now washing

19:36

dishes whatever you need a pause

19:39

and reflect on what manager said because

19:41

that is the power of the gospel in a

19:43

deeper more practical way that you probably read

19:45

in one hundred bucks a hundred messages the

19:48

key and all of what you just said

19:50

is that god was gracious enough to

19:53

zoom out for you and say there's a bigger

19:55

picture happening i'm restoring

19:58

things back to the way they were to

20:00

be i'm gonna use

20:02

you to be part of it even when it hurts

20:04

that only makes

20:06

sense in light of eternity because

20:09

if all were thinking about as my joy for

20:11

today then you should have left

20:14

i want you are right now want to become to where i know and we have

20:16

the right now gotcha sacrifice

20:19

some of your quote unquote happiness for today

20:22

because there's a bigger kingdom picture you're great

20:24

grandkids will be will have

20:27

the fruit that story

20:29

that's an eternal perspective he's was playing

20:31

the long game and i say that for your listeners because

20:34

guys playing the long game in their story then

20:36

it might need some paint today your

20:39

great great grandkids make it the fruit

20:41

of it because god is plain belonging i

20:44

grew up egging god give me

20:46

a down please

20:48

give me death remember so

20:50

specifically thinking of times like this

20:53

point as born the driveway and imagining

20:55

my dad was sitting there with me i'm

20:57

coaching mean he wasn't my dad was gone he

20:59

was he bailed there's nowhere to be found

21:02

in brisbane river in my bed crying

21:04

god pleased to someone adapt and

21:07

i saw got an answer that prayer now

21:10

speak to tens of thousands of deaths

21:12

the god and there was a smaller were gutted the

21:15

pain was they like out there was a reason

21:17

for that paying because i had

21:19

a bigger perspective i'm playing the longest

21:21

ear there's a bigger story happen around to i just

21:23

don't want your listeners to miss that gospel

21:26

centered perspective that

21:28

you may be going to something day that is why

21:30

got fleas you're begging got fleas

21:33

please and it's not a god is not hearing

21:35

you but he wants good for you

21:38

and he wants good for the like he's redeeming all

21:40

of many and your story weather makes sense

21:42

or not is part of a way bigger picture

21:45

and he's thinking about you and he loves you and hasn't

21:47

forgotten about you but he he wants

21:49

your good but you're good is probably gonna look different

21:51

than what you think you're good as and it's gonna be way

21:53

bigger than you sickness it's i didn't want

21:55

your listeners to miss that is really really

21:58

powerful appreciation

21:59

i hate crime

22:02

that your home and linus i

22:04

don't know manager and up with year lows i now

22:07

i don't

22:07

it's a whole is really powerful

22:10

a this is mildly because it's

22:12

a season with i had no intention

22:14

of that being our story and

22:17

, never want a elevate myself about

22:19

what he did and i

22:22

really looked at like another

22:24

thing that really sucks

22:25

i moved me too

22:28

look at our situation differently was i would

22:30

jesus sit on the cross i

22:32

haven't not an obligation when abigail wrong

22:34

word yeah i said

22:37

at least pause seat

22:39

i'm willing to test is there room

22:41

to forgive hamish be

22:44

worked out right and that was the whole purpose

22:46

of the cross and onto the say emperor in turn

22:48

away and walk away because of the class

22:50

you should be able to go

22:51

can i

22:53

that am i able to deal with

22:55

that the gospel how can what you did

22:57

was you were reflecting

22:59

on your own wickedness and god's

23:02

grace on you and then

23:04

you had to pause and think i've been given

23:06

so much as the scriptures say how

23:08

can i not give it away and you know we

23:10

think of they're always in terms of money does were given

23:13

so much as she gets things you've been given so much

23:15

grace probably not hoard

23:17

it like a i know what it's like to receive

23:19

and as you probably give it and you were really and that

23:21

dichotomy this person doesn't deserve it but

23:23

oh crap neither did i yeah

23:25

and that is the gospel that's the whole gospel

23:28

my wife said

23:29

should we dared yes everyone told the like

23:32

leave jared

23:33

how can i leave when constant so gracious to me

23:35

like a half the pour a brace and that's just that

23:38

heaven and earth colliding minutes

23:40

is everything in your flesh the same a

23:42

bail via and happiness is colliding

23:44

with your flesh say know there's a different

23:47

kingdom does a different way yeah i says

23:49

so beautiful i really really proceed as soon

23:51

so i'm i'm inspired by that again or for

23:53

his statement you know that when that

23:55

when about

23:56

being a parent i did and also layer

23:58

was looking at my oh during right

23:59

the

24:00

you know i hadn't decision to make and i

24:02

wrestled heavily with the decision because

24:04

scripture says i haven't outlets

24:07

let's call it rape and so i would

24:09

very mad at the lord has since the it's

24:11

why couldn't you just make it more clear it's

24:13

not it's amanda leave his you have a

24:16

you know the reason sleep as very mean reads

24:18

another were was looking at my kids in going

24:21

what will their allies but you know that

24:23

i just walk away this plane and i

24:25

once you

24:27

here with you something i think i pulled it up

24:29

in a first conference that you

24:32

spoke out with sky he came home with

24:34

the little the saying that

24:36

the say with your kids are you had

24:39

i don't know what the initial introduction of

24:41

it was at the

24:42

for you you are sharing about

24:45

what i have such a bad memory this will be news to me

24:47

that he was this is getting him into so

24:50

you are shared with the men

24:52

about

24:53

like connecting with your family and

24:55

something you guys would do every night there's

24:58

this little devotion

25:00

and he got the been addiction

25:02

addiction yes or the benediction yeah and

25:04

so on

25:05

in he sent it to me he told right it's

25:07

me and the cartels like say that again and

25:10

then then send it to me and

25:12

i went online and i made kansas

25:14

prince of them hang them up and

25:16

one of their room

25:17

in every night together to do we do

25:19

a diverse and together every night

25:22

we have the kids have said

25:24

they had him record it

25:25

yeah says like a bomb and go

25:28

mean can i can i help a second there

25:30

i hope we can hear it

25:32

i think

25:32

the last i literally the team another only

25:35

cast insidious

25:36

it makes me if i can get to play

26:07

could

26:12

you be and to lend to make a meal most sees

26:14

since

26:15

that is you can the said it's all in our

26:17

in our voice and so i don't all

26:19

three say it's together that's a little you know months

26:22

but the east he turns every night say

26:24

it ends leave

26:25

they jump up to do it and my i did you it's how

26:27

you buy bag that wanted to surprise you look

26:29

back that's an insanely

26:31

bad conference makes you

26:34

shook me into a place of like the

26:37

middle that i needed to go to to

26:40

relief this grass

26:42

but i had my life and life was that

26:45

the last the last talked about like you

26:47

know what keener you survey in

26:50

our last conference in a league that was another but

26:52

it was the side to side density of i thought i needed

26:54

to be or whatever and it was like there's no other

26:56

denny that matters but in jesus christ

26:58

and everything as he's been saying

27:01

to you here and to our listeners in

27:03

how he really was

27:05

spiritual leader for a decade in our house

27:09

when got smacked me was that i

27:12

oh all right because as

27:14

a man i'm supposed to be that

27:16

you know and i didn't i wasn't delivering

27:19

at all

27:21

then you talk about your wife like they're identical

27:23

your wife amanda like they are the

27:25

non emotion or like see

27:28

discerns like no other and it was

27:30

because her foundation and christ is

27:32

so deeply rooted in was so

27:35

not and ,

27:38

when we talk about like this

27:40

generational bonded with talk about talk

27:42

lot like the lot like of

27:44

what is after us like i'm

27:46

so thankful the god revealed to me

27:48

that he was proud of me i felt like he

27:50

told me he was proud of me for breaking

27:53

the generational baggage that

27:55

i've been was carrying into my marriage

27:57

and essentially could move onto my children and there

27:59

was an opera me to take a stand for

28:01

christ and ,

28:03

changed the trajectory of my family and the legacy

28:05

beyond that because like oh

28:08

i know i think the psalms that the with her father's like

28:10

prayers that the prayers are eternal

28:12

there forever

28:14

the prayers we we pray now far can't

28:16

enter enter wise and our kids

28:18

spouses are forever i'm

28:21

just thankful that god gave

28:23

her the ability to be in that place

28:25

that's used and speaking about because

28:27

ultimately now i feel

28:29

like since i've com into for repentance

28:32

then i've laid my identity increase fully

28:35

fully not not on a sense post

28:38

like he in be

28:41

and i have been become the spiritual

28:43

leader in my home so that's like

28:45

you like i've had the desire

28:48

for men that are just broke

28:51

in defeated feel

28:53

like you're not good enough because whether

28:56

we want to believe it or not that is a lot of the

28:58

message that is inside of men they

29:00

might not say

29:02

there's a sense of it there's

29:04

an insecurity

29:05

the i'm not a good enough i'm not this

29:08

and the reality is that we have to kill

29:10

those things the impostor these that

29:12

the devil and he wants the communal i was like

29:15

i had a lot of things i had a duty

29:17

to kill that voice and

29:19

i appreciate that you've spoken about that

29:21

and each those things like identities been a big

29:23

thing in your time when you when

29:25

you were at the conference's saw unless

29:27

an island has say about what the kids are learning with

29:30

the said it now for over a year

29:32

and they fail it's and that were in something

29:35

it happens in their life okay well

29:37

neither brother said this about me as

29:39

a junior member not would

29:41

i mean a thing about me and

29:44

they will instantly go out okay you're

29:46

right and nothing susan and that's not

29:48

true and so i've used that

29:51

an addiction with them in our day

29:53

realize i thank you for

29:55

providing that's as

29:56

the for i was it again

29:59

and full disclosure

29:59

the gap for my friend jeff betty who suffer from

30:02

some other that is that would be tied down yet

30:04

a sunbeam have a young the on a single

30:06

you'd psychedelic have added that day yeah

30:09

but i get an i use it all the time to like

30:11

the and see it works so many times as keep

30:13

bringing them back to identity is that you're not

30:16

or they'll come back from school in this person said as will

30:18

you not what are the people say about your your your beloved

30:20

of got or they have this and i don't have it what

30:22

you know what you have your what jesus as

30:24

about unit used as like constantly there's

30:26

not a rush like god is with you he

30:29

loves you got shit shares love at the world

30:31

so that made me emotional here new

30:33

to do that so pupils his sense of

30:35

love to do it at night and i will make

30:37

sure to post that on are so know

30:39

it's i'll put it on her instagram to so that

30:41

is on the other parent wants to implicate that

30:43

into their nightly or daily

30:46

routine whatever that looks like it is powerful

30:48

the powerful words they're truth to that

30:50

they're talking on their little hearts and will come out

30:52

in the hardest of times and

30:54

so we will pass it on

30:55

sorry listeners we have it in our kitchen

30:58

we say before dinner and i let my kids will

31:00

say in unison now in i

31:02

just close my eyes and let them speak that

31:04

truth over mean him because i'd

31:06

be like when i was talking about my dad bailing

31:08

what i found for me as a man and

31:10

scott you might be able to relate to this in a know lotta guys

31:12

to relate to this is i didn't have

31:14

somebody in my life specifically

31:16

a dad was telling me this is

31:18

who you are this issue gods made

31:21

you to be so when

31:23

i was bullied or with own made fun of me or

31:25

i didn't make a sports team or went whatever the

31:27

thing was i and then my identity

31:29

is no question or maybe i'm not good enough this

31:31

teacher said this this coach said this disguise

31:34

of this and i'm like really questioning

31:36

maybe i'm not going of and then what happens is

31:39

that you know starts at eight nine ten eleven

31:41

you grow up speaking it now you're full grown men

31:44

who were never told their identity and

31:46

so then they find it and other things and

31:49

ninety ninety nine nine percent

31:51

of times are finding it and things that one more

31:53

never satisfied the me a woman a

31:55

job a bank account toys whatever

31:57

the thing is they climb the career water

32:00

and it's like all maybe this is telling me i'm good enough

32:02

but all of that traces back to not

32:05

having a secure identity and cries and that's what we're

32:07

trying to do as parents is like my son

32:10

got made fun of we just moved in this neighborhood

32:12

and i think my son's the cool kids and

32:15

they would like golf they get will ever gets in

32:17

of that he would go play at the park and some kids

32:19

were making fun of him and so he came home

32:21

and he told me like to all these kids are making fun of him and

32:24

unlike surprised at how matter of fact

32:26

he's telling me this like this not emotional about

32:28

it all my i checked in with him like for

32:30

three days my tutor you can second guess

32:32

i'm like that are you the uk can

32:35

i remember for remember that would have wrecked me

32:37

better what i did i went to bed

32:39

and i was like i think he's just super

32:41

secure at home like he feels really

32:43

say dad loves me mom

32:45

loves me i know god loves me where

32:48

the little boy sony whatever like i don't care

32:50

while and i was just like phrase god

32:53

like his identity has been shaped and

32:55

the gospels which is what we're trying to do is decide

32:57

the new i guess what happens is the riverside

32:59

of this of that which i think as majority is

33:02

you have a bunch of do too still

33:04

don't know the identity him and are just grasping

33:07

at things in the world to try to say in my good enough

33:09

to have what it takes and my likeable

33:12

the dangerous

33:13

in one thing i'll enter you want to share your

33:15

power that sure that he said he'd go into

33:17

early animals story much when it comes

33:19

to children three things that this

33:21

is my unprofessional i'm like the wisdom

33:24

i guess he said say what i've noticed

33:27

is that children need safety secure the instructor

33:30

if they had that at home then

33:32

of there's not much the outside world can

33:34

do to turn that down with you provide those

33:36

three things in a child's life

33:38

from a young age then what

33:41

just happened with your son gonna

33:43

happen right you know one a not have them

33:45

experience or things in the world but it will

33:48

allow them to the wait a second that's not

33:50

what my safety at home says

33:52

he now and i have since yeah im

33:54

alums very secure their as feel secure

33:56

their rights and so because of that

33:59

our kids can

33:59

then themselves or

34:01

brush it off their shoulder i don't know who say it's

34:03

almost like the protection

34:06

of like they can still hear it by the doesn't

34:08

affect them what you're saying

34:10

like even as even as a grown man i would someone

34:13

with season the mean i would just fumble inside

34:15

business or that games in a pagan

34:17

a for me to recover

34:19

in common you say your dad less

34:21

had three scared that

34:23

was always presence bad the

34:25

opposite so we're dealing a so are a year old

34:27

son he the oldest of our levels and

34:30

in a he's kansas perfectionist

34:32

mentality where we

34:34

said you should his test came on friday

34:37

and friday had to do but he's a terrible he

34:40

got one wrong and three papers

34:42

and i was like nobody honey

34:44

now in so think when think talked to him

34:46

about it obviously we

34:48

will speak truth in that light town who

34:50

is and how you know the work is done and

34:52

with have a word season but scouts

34:54

story would be you

34:57

fell down

34:59

you would be pushed more down yeah would

35:01

that be and i hear way of saying it yeah

35:03

me and listen i love my piano respect

35:05

them because i was his eye on i bother him but there

35:07

was definitely a constant battle for

35:10

feeling loved

35:12

in unconditionally it

35:14

was a very conditional

35:17

like loving manhattan them

35:19

where i saw a guy had to earn it

35:21

all the time i've carried

35:24

out through my life i mean i i look back

35:26

and what happened with us and like there's so many roads

35:28

that lead like he said like he did the the lead

35:30

right back to that and

35:33

then what happens is as you get older

35:35

it starts a manifests in to bigger

35:37

uglier thanks there and

35:40

that's exactly what happened for me

35:43

and i found security

35:45

and purpose and like

35:48

ability whatever in

35:50

people like and mean giving me attention

35:53

so i started to see that then

35:55

i realized that i liked it more women would

35:57

pay attention to me

35:59

then i start

35:59

you say that more you know so

36:02

then like this i guess you get caught like

36:04

the sexual addiction team and mike i

36:06

really started to last hard

36:09

and even became even became

36:11

almost you know no one would ever know

36:14

that if i can hide those secrets

36:17

but yeah i've i've gone through counseling

36:19

and my mentor your that i've

36:21

been i met with for a year and half

36:23

every week there's a lot

36:25

of digging i had to do i

36:28

guess you know you guys are listening out there man

36:30

organ man women but for men specifically

36:33

not an easy journey if you're damn about great

36:35

like it's , like i can sit

36:37

here and i can listen and then stories and where they're

36:40

at and like i can see it so clearly

36:42

i'm sure you can to and

36:44

it's like it's can i want to just be like say

36:46

can be like what are you waiting for her

36:48

like all you need to do is lay

36:50

it down in turn to christ

36:53

that's it and i know it sound so easy but

36:55

it's so hard because like

36:57

there are things that we are gonna be told

36:59

to do the lord is gonna have us keep

37:02

releasing things letting go of things

37:04

and that posture and like romans twelve to

37:07

talks about renewing our mind the transformation

37:09

of our heart like that didn't happen until i submitted

37:12

unrepentant then i jumped

37:14

into the word and my mind became

37:16

renewal because i was reading scripture and

37:18

god was revealing to meet what

37:20

the spirit what him inside of me wanted

37:22

me to be doing and so the conviction

37:24

of me to change was like that was transforming

37:27

holy spirit and our that was the transformation

37:30

happened and it's like i just pray

37:32

because men need to hear this

37:34

you know

37:35

i mean jesus the cowboys he said

37:37

it one was the road is narrow

37:40

very few people will choose to take it and now

37:42

and then he said make the call is to com

37:44

and die are you sure you want to do that and dine

37:46

socks on who's never me to begin

37:48

to choose to die i think

37:50

what years am interested the emphasize

37:52

what we talked about earlier that see repentance with you

37:55

and i talked about this at the conference or member yes

37:57

honey and will be talked about house guests

38:00

in yeah i remember that moment

38:02

really powerful man but i remember we talked about like

38:05

we just talked about how can you really understand

38:07

the gospel without like city map spot

38:10

where you have to repair and you have to experience

38:12

the guinness a jesus i'm jesus i'm

38:15

curious about that i'd say i think it's an ingredient

38:17

in most people's christian one

38:20

they're trying to miss but it's like east

38:22

you know like if you don't put it and like it's never gonna

38:24

rise you know it's like are you may that bread

38:26

and adjust the still really flat and

38:28

it's just a little thing that you say god

38:30

i'll just keep that we're now and it did it's the

38:32

key ingredient and so bits

38:35

ingredients are like a christian walk with jesus

38:37

and peaceful healthy

38:39

life is repentance if

38:42

you're trying to like leave your christian journey and

38:44

leave that ingredient how it's gonna be really

38:46

fly

38:47

a good analogy owes me that a pile of i love

38:49

him as a damn that was injured man know

38:53

by and i see what see what though

38:55

like and i remember that because that was we

38:57

were both kind of almost toiling like inside

39:00

with that like how do you

39:02

live it out

39:03

if you haven't experienced that like

39:06

you have to make a decision

39:07

the robotic it's robotic se i

39:10

see christian yeah all the time just a

39:12

just robots they're just they're doing the checklist

39:14

but it's different like many what you said i've

39:17

experienced the grace of jesus as not

39:19

robotic that's like that's coming from away

39:21

different spot and i just don't know how you

39:23

really live out the christian faith without just

39:25

like

39:26

i mean amazing grace is only amazing

39:28

because we realize how much we need it amazing

39:31

race isn't that amazing the for like them pretty

39:33

good person haven't really done are or

39:35

you never acknowledged like holy crap i

39:37

am wicked and i really

39:39

need the grace of jesus

39:41

until you get their amazing grace just doesn't feel

39:43

that amazing

39:44

there is so sure that name

39:46

they're afraid we watched as are dead or

39:48

no one to

39:49

the other daily fantasy the thirty

39:51

two so hard at any in the one guy said

39:53

it's you're right it's not easy but it's simple

39:57

gun for a simple he

39:59

and when his

39:59

who makes this com links trying

40:02

to navigate understand is that

40:04

the gates of surely simple

40:06

but i will speak in were is

40:08

a sad knowing what we sent

40:10

them and thankful for our journey my

40:12

playbook would have not less anything like this

40:14

a would have been pain free i would have never

40:17

been able experience the way of experience him

40:19

and less we've walk through these trials but

40:21

i look at my babies and i'm like

40:24

them to didn't like the minimum

40:27

they'll never know you a his fate dumb

40:29

kids it's if they don't exp

40:30

yeah i know mean in is higher in

40:32

part of these like halloween protect

40:34

them from were all these hardships

40:37

i just want than the love you without knowing that but

40:39

that's need them to know what we

40:41

know and how we eat out how he's gonna

40:43

be in an intimate relationship with them you know

40:45

there's this battle watching them

40:47

as like i hope

40:48

it sucks you is that i did

40:50

you know the world i was born a sleepless

40:52

night and i'm like we have such

40:55

a limited amount of time to prepare in

40:57

society to a cruel world

40:59

as that's is gonna rip them apart

41:01

and just knowing you're sending your babies

41:03

out for that right is just so

41:06

i was like had the so heavy heart of last

41:08

night honestly and the best we

41:10

can do is like give them the to i'm

41:12

not what i do on know what i have a know what other

41:15

people say that me on the beloved of got like some

41:17

kind of foundation that just not san

41:19

the again for parents listening

41:22

then we are filling our kids schedules up

41:24

with a lot of sand things more

41:27

sports more extra stuff get better

41:29

grades on this like the world

41:31

is gonna try to rip them apart and grades

41:33

aren't going to save them my daughter's ballet nine

41:36

ceva mai some been better soccer's not going to say

41:38

them may they need the foundation of the

41:40

gospel it's their only hope in a world that's gonna

41:42

come out them sword it's

41:44

terrifying it's surface as bad idea

41:46

if i said i wasn't a known as opposed to see

41:48

or i know all the things that i do

41:51

like them only ah how

41:53

can i keep you in that little save box

41:55

it's just a note that reality that

41:57

the same time same time our dirty you know like you

41:59

know

41:59

a journey who had to go to where you had

42:02

to go to get to

42:03

the who are and

42:05

it dot kids and middle of a more than

42:07

you do that is omar only homes

42:09

as soon as they later

42:10

we say that to every mama i

42:12

talked to it's goes the hardships like

42:14

that government those davies more than you do it's

42:17

hard even imagine or fallon

42:19

that he does image best for them and eight a

42:21

know

42:22

one day as any good twenty

42:24

oh no here are no that's moon

42:27

hit we we are grim

42:28

wow thats not

42:30

experience any third

42:32

says her life

42:34

growing up we just so different you know

42:36

her story her know money is completely different then

42:38

like structured safe

42:41

secure home like me had home

42:43

anyway

42:44

i think the other brokerage because

42:47

i good the the word that you said and i was on

42:49

her is is a preparation and that's all we can do

42:51

is continue to prepare them and

42:53

, by doing the things that you you big

42:55

the benedict sins and talking them have a conversation

42:57

of them and and consular reminding them

42:59

that like there is a greater gift

43:02

of eternity ahead of us and

43:05

the i'm sitting here are my man we

43:07

are so caught up in this world

43:09

that we are on right now like

43:12

do we truly we have no

43:14

concept of what the away eternal haven't is

43:16

a guy i think was just so far removed

43:18

from us that we can't see was it's impossible

43:21

the even truly get a grass around it and

43:23

that's what i think makes it hard for people even

43:26

christians does to be like

43:28

i'm not dead

43:29

i'm only dying for myself here for

43:31

the lord butler attorney of ahead

43:33

of me this is just as the state of think

43:36

the case in between salvation with

43:38

christ and an actual

43:40

death on this world but after that i am i

43:42

am any time you with the lord

43:44

the to be

43:46

the new be

43:47

the lot of people don't i know i'm thinking of one

43:49

friend in particular who leave share this kenneth

43:51

testimony story with and he likes

43:53

his life but the idea of losing

43:55

your life in kenya everything that you do

43:57

is terrifying know like

43:59

dream iowa his i don't want to not be

44:01

the only things you know but it's intel

44:04

you walk through something inexperienced said

44:06

in a way that only the lord can do for you can understand

44:08

how it could be better he had a

44:10

better life that white united

44:12

even create here regardless

44:14

of money and toys and things like dance

44:17

and so thank god it's

44:19

not up to us to save comeback

44:22

he'll make

44:23

that is in our job right think

44:25

i because i wouldn't only sale at a because

44:28

yeah i would be like salads my sake you say

44:30

that it is destino for

44:33

and thankful that the lord has that zoomed

44:35

out with you and is able to look at us as

44:37

individuals and know what's best

44:39

and how he can speak to us like he

44:42

knew before scott and i were even going to

44:44

get married he had a calling for

44:46

scots life and this is going to be the journey

44:48

for him to get there okay now

44:51

and i'm going to bring in me undies the

44:53

and he's going to have to she went their own hearts

44:55

are rightly he had this whole picture

44:57

it and it was our choice to choose to

45:00

step into that or not

45:01

you don't want to

45:03

i don't want to make it seem like somebody was like putting

45:05

locking us around we still a choice but

45:08

, dies he individualize

45:10

at our entire life it's

45:12

written before we are born in all

45:14

he noticed having this faith and trust

45:16

in him to know like whatever

45:19

i think is good each better you

45:22

know he always very different than what i thought

45:24

hundred percent yeah even what you

45:26

just said there i like really genuinely

45:29

i'm not a smart enough guy to know the answers theologically

45:32

but even that i wrestle with like

45:34

in here in people's stories because unlike i

45:36

mean i don't wanna open whole can of worms because we're at

45:38

a time here but i'm just like my god

45:41

i don't even know how much of a choice we did have like

45:43

adjustable is a sometimes it seems like non

45:45

just going to use you to shop my glory and

45:47

and maybe i need to save like

45:50

your great great grandkids cause they're

45:52

going to do something crazy for my kingdom

45:54

and so you just have to go through this like i yeah

45:56

you don't have a choice are gonna go through this and then i'm going to save

45:58

you and like using you're gonna make a choice but

46:01

you're not like i'm just i'm saving you because i need

46:03

to say daily yes three

46:05

hundred years from now family gets that says

46:07

that the think season and i don't know who became a

46:09

shit really three hundred years you know so it's

46:12

best of trips me out because i'm it anyway

46:14

got just does what he's gonna do and sometimes

46:16

we just like sometimes look at my own life and i'm like

46:18

life don't think like was even smart enough now

46:21

to like make some of these decisions you

46:23

know i'm like you said you

46:24

i don't think layla would be like whoa i was just thinking

46:26

i want to present the gospel to my husband

46:29

labels are going to kill you you're an idiot since

46:31

i stopped being said so stupid and

46:33

yet god was gracious enough which the bible talks

46:35

about like

46:36

even your ability to

46:39

rip hand or to draw near to got was my

46:41

grace like the guess i was gracious

46:43

enough to you to let you turn back

46:45

to me you know that like i don't even know anyway

46:49

this isn't so encouraging to me you guys thank you

46:51

for have a mean i am i saw i know

46:53

as like coming on as a guess but you blessed

46:55

me my so's been told he settled

46:58

is no the i was asleep in one hour

47:00

ago like my sitting there you've got an

47:02

ugly and jumped into a d been here i

47:04

saw the i they were perfect and literally

47:07

dad died videos as yep

47:10

they've gone down yours and i'll as

47:13

i'll got the coffee we present the

47:15

on and for your ministry with you sarah

47:17

how people can find you are what to look

47:19

for

47:19

he support you and your minister

47:22

yeah just a tire dot com a this

47:24

kind of the hub for everything that we do and then

47:26

i'm we got book i read some books

47:28

for dads and for men i'm always

47:30

encouraged by read the amazon reviews of the wives

47:33

the say i've never see my husband read

47:35

a book or finish a book in his life and the fact

47:37

that he read this and finished it blows me away that

47:39

those are my favorite view so i wrote it for men

47:41

who are like not really reader not really

47:43

like and i got time to did and so

47:46

i think that the written in a way that

47:48

we're hoping just a normal do the china

47:50

stumbles way forward in ,

47:52

as powerful because that's the mentality of

47:54

most do do less

47:56

to less her say well

48:00

the to billie like a close and prayer now islam

48:02

as and i guess they would be honored

48:04

to have you closes out

48:06

then there would be a major i

48:08

thank god i'm i'm

48:10

so encouraged mainly because

48:12

in this conversation i felt like you

48:14

were the dominant personality that

48:17

you know we have our stories and people

48:19

might be listening to our stories but really

48:22

listening to your story i'm

48:24

just blown away constantly

48:27

that in all the little things

48:29

that were doing that feel so significant

48:31

god you're doing or way bigger thing

48:34

and today we're trying to make money to pay the bills

48:36

and get the kids off to do the saying we've got

48:39

the job stuff and how stuff and schedules

48:41

but in when we zoom out like yours

48:44

doing this crazy story of

48:46

redemption lord i know

48:48

that you're good father and you care about be

48:51

all the little things that we care about but lord i know

48:53

even more the care about our souls

48:56

the care about the redemption of our souls it's i'm just thinking

48:58

of the the people who are listening right now

49:01

who have ten things on their to do list

49:03

that are stressing amount and yet

49:05

lord you are pursuing their soul god

49:07

you want their soul to be shield for

49:10

now and for eternity guide your kingdom

49:12

come your will be done on earth the

49:15

day as it is in heaven and so

49:17

or for the person as listening as just feels overwhelmed

49:19

gotta pray that you would give them a glimpse

49:22

of what you're doing the to give their saw

49:24

some peace like man even in the midst

49:26

of all this chaos you've been

49:28

good to us and you're and you're us

49:30

and you love me and you want good for me

49:33

even in the pain you want good for

49:35

me dad would you just give him a glimpse of that the

49:37

keep their saw going to give them a few more

49:39

laps around the track of life to keep

49:41

running with confidence that they serve

49:44

god who has not forgotten about them we're

49:46

concerned with their good and for your

49:48

glory got that even in the midst of

49:50

our paint are you doing something huge

49:53

for our kids are great grandkids

49:55

are great great great great grandkids god your

49:57

story the massive

49:59

got thank you that you let us be

50:01

part of it even when we don't

50:03

wanna be wanna part of it and certain ways thank

50:06

you flatness be part of it that we

50:08

get to be used by

50:10

you the god of the universe

50:13

for the redemption of the whole world it's

50:15

an honor lord thank you for loving us the

50:17

new name reprint i met and and

50:20

thank you and the main