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is Death, Sex, and Money. A
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show from WNYC about the things we
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think about a lot and
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need to talk about more. I'm
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Anna Sale. Michelle
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Ndegeyecello has been a working musician
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since she was a teenager. She's
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55 now and just put out her
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11th solo album, her first in five
1:17
years. It started as
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a kind of personal pandemic project, and
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now she's sharing it with the world.
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When we talked, she was just back from a
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quick European tour. Yeah, Romania,
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Berlin, London. I've lost.
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Yeah, but those are the standouts
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for Switzerland. Yes, standouts for
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me. Yeah.
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Oh, that sounds like a whirlwind jaunt.
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Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah.
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This is the song. an invitation from her
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latest album, which is called The
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Omnicord Real Book. Michelle's
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music is jazz, funk,
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sometimes folky, ethereal, always
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with a groove. She
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mostly spent her time between Brooklyn and outside
2:14
the city in Hudson, New York, but
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most of her recording happens in New York City,
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even though she finds the place pretty overwhelming.
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This band don't work for me. I'm
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really not listening to the rhythm of New York, to
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be honest, yeah, it's hard for me. The
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noise, I have
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very sensitive auditory systems,
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so that's hard for me. I
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try to adjust
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my humanity to fit within
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this rhythm and system. I just try
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to create something for
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myself. And
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is it that you notice
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things that other people can tune out, or
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how would you describe how it works? Oh,
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I like the way you put that. It's the
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inability to tune out. I'm
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just taking in all that
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I hear, and then it
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just becomes a cacophony, and
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I sometimes
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struggle to discern and focus. That's
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why I really enjoy silence. Michelle
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grew up in
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the Washington, D.C. area in the 70s and 80s, surrounded
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by music, and she
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found the bass by chance. My
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father was a jazz musician, and my
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brother was a budding musician. He
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played guitar, and his friend left a bass over. And
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prior to that, I tried the clarinet. I
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tried playing in more traditional music. I
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liked more traditional ensembles. My
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father even tried to find me an
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instructor. But
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when his friend left the bass over, and I
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could see that... I could play with my brother
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and at that time Chic was a very popular
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band which is made of a bass and guitarist
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and a band called GQ that I loved
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and the go-go scene. It was just
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I knew this instrument would allow me
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to play with other people and make
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things. It's interesting to me that
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it was by chance that you picked up the
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bass because
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I think of bass
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players as... The
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bass player is usually in the
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back, not the center of attention, but
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they're the ones setting
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the tone and setting the groove for
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the entire room, but maybe
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in a way that you don't always notice. There's
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a quiet forcefulness, I feel like, to
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bassist. Do
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you think that's right? Yeah,
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I hear that generalization about
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us. I mean, we're
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all different. Right. I
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mean, Thundercat does not want to
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be sitting in the back.
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We're all different. I
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do think of the bass though as
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the bridge between the
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magic of harmony and
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the power and heartbeat and
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life of rhythm, the drummer.
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I think without the
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bass player, the
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other two things are
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just abstractions and they're show-offy
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in a way, where
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the bass player is content in
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solidifying what's already there.
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Yeah, I love... I'm not show-offy,
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but without me, you're two separate. abstractions.
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Just in one second, asshole. That's what I'm
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really wanted to say. I was trying to
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be like, ooh, how do I say it?
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Like I'm very like, I'm confident. And
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I will tell you, when I was first listening
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to Michelle as a kid when she burst on the scene
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in the 90s, I loved
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the way she made her presence known. This
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just makes me want to holler from her 1996 album, Peace
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Beyond Passion. You've
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talked about teaching yourself how
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to play music and
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in part doing that by listening to Prince Records.
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Yeah. Can
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you help me picture this? Like where
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would you do this and which songs
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do you remember? Oh
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wow. At
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that time, I lived in Maryland,
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the suburb outside of southeast Washington.
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And it was like our first
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house that had like a rec
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room. And so in
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that room, my father, he
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collected stereo equipment. And so there's
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this great stereo. And I had
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an amp and a bass. And I
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would just sit and play the records
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over and try to emulate the bassline.
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Meaning I taught myself
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to play by ear,
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by listening instead of
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reading music. Yeah.
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And I remember going to a party and
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it was his first record and I heard
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it and it just was the moment I
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knew that's what I was going to
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do with my life. Wow. I
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just wanted to be able to play
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and organize music in a way
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that was palpable.
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You could dance to it, it felt
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good, it was interesting and my mind
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was blown. It
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was a palpable
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experience hearing the layering of the
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vocals. It was like choir music
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almost. I don't know
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if I would play that first tune, it's called
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For You on his first record. Ooh,
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yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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It just really influenced my
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psyche. It showed me
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the power of the human voice and
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harmony and just really
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spoke to me in a deep way. I
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think I was learning, yeah, the
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power of that particular
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modality, you know,
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sexuality and rhythm, dance,
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cultivating a space of
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enchantment, which music does.
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He enchanted me, he
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taught me. And
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teenage, Michelle? She dug
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in. This song is from her first
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album in 1993, picking you from an old cold
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water. Remember that
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in his day when everyone was laughing,
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and he was just around for the
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struggle. And I brought
9:23
the song together, and he was like,
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The song is a complicated piece of
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pasta, and it was nice and faded.
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The scene wasn't handy, it was just tasty,
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it was so sweet. The
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music scene in D.C. became her scene.
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I played like five nights a week. I played
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in go-go bands and cover bands,
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the pep rally band. I had a teacher
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that changed my life. Her
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name was Mary Cole, and she taught
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at Oxen Hill High School, and she also taught
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my brother, and she... We
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had a band called Malaika and
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it was the training ground for me
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to be the
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musician, the band leader that
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I tried to be in
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my beginnings. I owe
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it all to her guidance. That's
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cool. Is she still living? Yes.
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I got an email from her the other
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day. She's quite old, so I
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know. As long as the emails
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keep coming. But we have a really... She
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was there for my brother and I,
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my family. I grew up in a
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very tumultuous household and it was Mary
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Cole who just came to
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my rescue, always
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instilling in me curiosity
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about music. I
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remember her having the record for
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the concert for apartheid. That
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being my first seeing
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and hearing music
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from that continent and
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that diaspora. She
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always expressed upon me, read.
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Just try to force yourself to enjoy
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fiction and other sort of literature. Just
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keep your mind going. There
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was always people wanting to saw in me
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in a hope that I would go to college.
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Yeah, I thank her so much for giving
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me skills because I'm very
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much an autodidactic. I did
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not really excel in school.
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It was a very difficult environment for me.
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With her, she gave me skills
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that I used till this day. She
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must be very proud of you. Oh,
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I hope so. Yeah, she's
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come to see me play. Like
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my mother, like my
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mother would not... not come
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see me play. I think she came once
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and stayed for like five
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minutes. But Mary Cole has always
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been just extremely
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supportive to
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all my endeavors. This
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is another great song
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for her debut album
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called If That's Her Voice Out. For
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Michelle, after
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high school, the responsibilities of
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adulthood came quickly. I
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had a baby at 20. By
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21, I moved
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to New York. Michelle fell
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into the scene there and made new
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artists and musician friends in New York,
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people with industry connections. Her
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demo cassette got passed around and she quickly
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signed a record deal. It
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literally just lined up like that because
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I had a child and
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I think I tried to see
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what it would be like to be with the other
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my child's, you know, other.
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I don't
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even know what to call that person because we
13:35
have absolutely nothing between us. This
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is the other parent of your child? Yeah.
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And so I knew, I just knew
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like whatever was going to happen for
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my life and my son is
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on me. And so
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I'm sure it comes across as swagger, but
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I think it's more like a mountain climber. I
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just have the I
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often tell people I'm a mediocre
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musician, but I'm
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an idea person and I
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listen and I think that's what's gotten
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me so far. I
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just have the will to the
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will and the curiosity and
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a compulsion to make music. Are
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you saying that part of what was
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propelling you in that early
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time in New York was feeling
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like you needed to earn to take care
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of your kid? Oh yeah. I mean,
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I grew up with a depressed parent.
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My mother was severely depressed and
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my father was like an amazing
14:48
man in the sense of
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shiny. Very
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compelling and
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very talented and enchanting.
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That word's been coming up for me. But
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there was another side too that was
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just chaos, utter chaos. So
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what, yeah, between the depression
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and having to depend on my father
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or having the
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thought of having to depend on a man
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just really, I think, ignited in
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me. Yeah,
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just like I had to create my
15:31
own world. And
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I think the mechanism
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for surviving a lot
15:38
of the experiences of childhood was
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to go within myself,
15:42
within my imagination and
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create. It is my solace.
15:48
It is the one thing that I
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count on. And
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I know that it is a gift from the
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creator because it just has been
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something that I just... I
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don't question it. It's the only thing I don't
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question. Coming
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up, Michel on the strange
16:21
experience of being a famous musician, only
16:24
some of the time. When I have the
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bass and I'm on stage, people
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see me as one thing. But
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in my neighborhood in Carroll Gardens, most people
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think I'm the nanny. Or,
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you know, we were
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somewhere and I would get on the elevator
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and people would, you know, get off. So,
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it's like I'm
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just at a place in my life
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where the only thing I have control
16:51
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16:53
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16:57
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Anna Sale. If you don't
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yet know Michelle and Degay-Cello's music well,
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I'm pretty sure you've heard this. Wild
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Nights, her and John
18:22
Mellencamp's cover of the Van
18:25
Morrison song. It's
18:37
her biggest hit. It peaked at number three on the
18:39
Billboard Top 100 in 1994. And
18:43
for Michelle, this was a wild time
18:45
of the world opening up in a
18:47
lot of ways. She was connecting with
18:50
Muslim teachers and converted to Islam. There
18:52
was romance. She was on MTV. It
18:55
all felt great at first.
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I didn't listen well, and I think that's why,
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you know, I'm
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trying to find my record contract because
19:05
I literally signed, you know, my life
19:08
away because I was just
19:10
happy. I was content
19:12
that you wanted to hear my music. And
19:14
I think for a decade
19:17
of making music, that's where
19:19
the contentment came from. So
19:22
whatever I have to do to do that,
19:24
okay. I
19:27
was not very business savvy. I
19:30
was not very socially savvy because
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luckily I'm naive in a
19:36
sense, or I'm
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not a master of the social cues.
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I'm like a bull in a china shop. I've
19:45
had to like, just like learn some,
19:48
a few things. And I'm glad I
19:50
have. And I'm glad now I can
19:52
see there's a way that dominant culture
19:54
works. There is a way that the
19:57
music business works. I don't, I'm no
19:59
longer railing. against it, I just
20:01
see it for what it is. Uh-huh. Was
20:04
there something that happened after that decade
20:07
where you
20:10
realized that it was not just enough to
20:12
be given the opportunity to make Isaac? Oh,
20:16
yes, yes. 9-11
20:21
was a real changing experience
20:24
for me. I
20:27
flew the day before on the same plane
20:31
to do a fashion week show. It
20:34
was a surreal experience. I
20:38
just remember I got to the hotel
20:40
on the 10th, the evening of
20:42
the 10th, and
20:45
then I got to this hotel,
20:48
and it was one of the fanciest hotels
20:50
I had ever spent in my
20:52
life. And
20:54
I remember on the back of the door, you
20:57
could see the price of the room, and it
20:59
was some exorbitant amount that my mind just was
21:02
just blown, and it was like
21:04
just an evening of extravagance.
21:08
And so I'm there, and then I wake
21:10
up the next morning, and there's no water,
21:12
there's nothing, there's chaos. And
21:17
I remember hearing people say things
21:20
that were mind-blowing to me, like,
21:23
what do you mean? Are you going to
21:25
have the show? Or can't you just send
21:27
a helicopter and pick me up? Like
21:29
it taught me about wealth,
21:31
and it just was
21:33
like a surreal experience. And then I ran to
21:35
the middle of Times Square, because
21:38
the hotel was on Sixth Avenue, and I
21:41
watched the first tower fall, like
21:43
in real time, like not on
21:45
a screen. Yeah, you witnessed
21:47
it. And it was just like we're all
21:50
in Times Square as if it's
21:54
New Year's Eve. And I
21:56
made one call to the person who I loved,
21:58
and I believe loved me. at that time and
22:00
I got through, I just marked
22:02
that as the beginning my life changed.
22:06
Just it was like the beginning where
22:10
I'm stuck here. I'm
22:13
literally stuck in the city. Where
22:16
am I going to go? What is
22:18
going to happen? All
22:20
seems so meaningless. And
22:23
as a musician or as
22:26
someone who's sensitive to that,
22:28
it's just that, yeah, the feeling and
22:30
to watch people's worlds
22:33
change and perceptions of the
22:36
world change. That's when
22:38
I think that's a big
22:40
marker for me. Plus I had a recording
22:42
that was going to come out and I was in
22:45
the hijab and then they were like, you
22:47
cannot put that out. It
22:51
was just like a moment for me
22:54
where you just see like this
22:56
is entertainment and I don't
22:58
think I want to be an entertainer.
23:01
I want to be a musician. I
23:03
want to be a really good musician
23:05
and songwriter. I want to be
23:07
a really good person. I
23:10
know the power of music. It's
23:12
like you're given a sword and you're
23:14
just out there willy nilly waving it
23:16
around. I
23:19
hope that doesn't sound arrogant, but yeah,
23:21
I just know the power. I'm learning
23:23
the power of the sound waves
23:26
and the
23:28
power of the word and the
23:31
human voice, its
23:33
effect on your
23:35
molecular structure and
23:38
its ability to bring
23:41
about a memory. Like there's nothing more
23:43
powerful than a love song. Like
23:45
I'm a cry right now. Like there is
23:47
music that I can hear
23:49
and it
23:51
just transports you like
23:54
a time machine to that
23:56
moment. You
24:00
can be more than you
24:02
gotta die like a man followed by We
24:05
all want someone to pay But
24:10
when you come, when you come to stay We
24:13
live a life day after day And
24:17
it hurts Remember
24:23
thought that all came crashing
24:25
down A long
24:28
worth change There
24:32
was a period of time
24:34
where I just didn't do
24:36
anything I just stopped How
24:40
long was that period of not doing anything? Oh
24:43
like five, six years until the accountant was
24:45
like tu have nothing you
24:50
have made it to
24:52
zero Nothing's
24:55
happening I'm like, it
24:58
was, yeah And
25:00
that period of rest, was that in your 30s? That
25:03
period of stepping away completely So
25:05
you know I had a bad reputation I
25:08
was just like a loose cannon So
25:10
I just stopped And then I
25:12
think my partner now just
25:15
for, I just I
25:19
praise her I'm
25:21
grateful just to have the
25:23
patience to aid
25:25
me in my endeavors and clarity
25:27
and it's learning to take responsibility
25:29
for my actions I am not
25:31
special just because they give
25:33
you free beer at the bar because they like
25:36
your songs means nothing And
25:38
you know I just try
25:40
to care for the people who are
25:42
kind enough to like not blow smoke
25:44
up my arse and
25:47
treat me like a human being Do
26:05
you feel like you still... both
26:07
of your parents are gone. Do
26:10
you feel like you're still in
26:12
relationship with them? Is that how
26:15
you experience it? Oh,
26:17
not anymore. I mean,
26:19
yeah, I think this new recording
26:22
is me letting that go. It's
26:25
like, I mean, I have their ashes on
26:27
my altar. I'm with them every day. This
26:29
is for the last few
26:31
years, physically more
26:33
than I was. I mean, I left my house as
26:36
soon as I could. But
26:40
the relationship I have now is
26:43
one of knowledge and
26:45
educating myself about being human because
26:47
I have to really humble myself
26:49
and understand it. My
26:51
parents are people of color who were
26:54
born before civil rights in
26:57
the South. And
26:59
have had an experience that I
27:01
can't fathom. And
27:04
I don't know what they were equipped with. And
27:06
I think reading The Fire Next Time changed that
27:08
for me. My mother had
27:10
a fourth grade education. I
27:12
taught my mother how to read. My
27:16
father was a frustrated musician who joined
27:18
the military. And in the Baldwin
27:20
book, I never forget, it's like, he
27:23
talks about how men go to the
27:25
military and they're ruined. They ruined their
27:27
humanity. And
27:29
I think, yeah, my father came back very
27:32
disillusioned, also an alcoholic to
27:34
deal with the pain. It's
27:40
not the center of my being, but
27:43
I'm no longer rolling through my life
27:45
thinking that systematic
27:52
racism did
27:54
not have an effect on my family and
27:57
how I grew up and the perception
27:59
I have now. of myself. In
28:12
Michelle's life now, she's raising her younger
28:14
13-year-old son with her partner Allison. They've
28:16
been married since 2005. Michelle's
28:20
older son Solomon is 34. I
28:23
thank my son Solomon every day. Every
28:26
day of my life he made me a better person. There's
28:30
so many things I wish I could have done differently.
28:34
But having a child at 20 and
28:36
with no preparation, if I
28:39
could do it all again, I think I would.
28:41
Just in the terms of, would
28:43
I be exposing him
28:46
to certain situations,
28:49
not going on tour a lot and
28:52
having to leave him with
28:54
people I loved. I know he was safe, but
28:56
I know that was hard. Also
28:58
moving around a lot and not allowing him
29:01
to create certain sort of relationships in high
29:03
school. They're
29:05
not regrets, they're just something I see as like, oh,
29:07
I see how this works with the child. But
29:10
I think it's made him, he's
29:13
a fantastic traveler. He's
29:18
the ambassador of love and a good
29:20
time. He's modular. He
29:23
can go anywhere. He's culturally
29:25
fluent. So
29:28
I hope he appreciates that. And
29:33
then with my youngest, because
29:35
he is not from
29:37
my body, he's from
29:39
my to people
29:42
I love so dearly. He
29:46
may not come from my body, but he is
29:48
my creation. The
29:51
love I have for him is a love that is,
29:55
I feel like I see him for him.
29:57
I don't attach it to my ego.
30:00
Like, I have to see him for him and
30:03
him only. Unlike
30:06
with my son, which with
30:08
my first son out of my body,
30:11
I think there was a lot of like, okay,
30:13
this happened in my family and I can't let
30:15
you be like that. Like there was a lot
30:18
of like projection. And
30:21
there is a lot of osmosis. I
30:24
do see aspects of my personality. But
30:29
as a parent, I make this joke,
30:31
I read it in a New York
30:33
Times article where some people
30:35
are furniture makers. I'm more of a
30:37
gardener and I don't know what seeds
30:39
I've planted, but I tried to just
30:41
cultivate it and water it and give
30:43
it enough sun, prune it. I'm
30:48
not angry at it when it pricks me
30:50
with its storms. You
30:52
know, I just try to be
30:56
there, which I'm learning with
30:59
all human interactions. I
31:01
just want to be there for you. And
31:05
in my absence that you know
31:07
that I care, even sleep. I've
31:13
been saying things I
31:15
don't believe. I've
31:18
been doing things that just
31:20
hate me. I've
31:26
been knowing that the sky could end
31:28
in your spot. Keep
31:31
on living the
31:33
same day. I've
31:39
lived a
31:44
path that I'd rather
31:46
pretend to
31:50
be. I
31:53
have like a very, it's kind of
31:55
an embarrassing question and it's a personal
31:58
question. Hear me. I'm,
32:01
you know, as somebody like you
32:03
make art and
32:05
you have made, you
32:07
have made art that you've been
32:09
proud of and you also have
32:12
made, you've like continually tried to
32:14
make art and like evolving
32:16
in different ways. And
32:18
you've talked about like trying to get
32:20
to that beginner's mind. And
32:23
when I think of that, I think
32:26
there's a particular creative challenge for
32:28
people who have found
32:32
some success, made
32:34
something that was beautiful, shared it with
32:36
people and then they have
32:38
to try to do it again. It
32:41
can be really scary, especially if you're trying to do
32:43
it in a new way. Like
32:47
when you think about trying to make
32:50
music in a way that's not
32:52
derivative of past ways you
32:54
have found external
32:57
validation or success. What do you focus on?
33:00
How do you get to that place?
33:06
I don't really think about that, Anna, to
33:08
be honest. Everything you
33:10
just said is just like, who thinks like
33:12
that? I do. It's so embarrassing.
33:16
Or like, yeah, I can't, I'm going
33:19
to rest on my laurels. Yeah. Yeah.
33:23
No, it's not resting on laurels.
33:25
It's being afraid of losing ground
33:27
after building something you're proud of.
33:30
You know, that's sort of the feeling that
33:32
I have. But it sounds like
33:34
it doesn't resonate, that question. I
33:37
don't know. How do you? Yeah,
33:39
I'm like, yeah,
33:43
like my mind doesn't even, I can't
33:45
even frame my thought to
33:48
that. I just am like, I try,
33:50
I mean, there's
33:53
no encore. I
33:55
just, so I just, I, um. Bear
34:02
with me. I think
34:06
authenticity is unsustainable. I just want
34:08
to say that first. What's
34:12
that mean? I just try to
34:14
be like really in the moment with
34:17
the music. I mean, there's nothing
34:19
new under the sun. It
34:23
really isn't. And I just
34:28
come to every conversation that I'm
34:31
having with myself in the music
34:34
with the intention of
34:36
just being
34:39
present in any work I do.
34:43
It's not like I'm trying to stay authentic
34:45
because I think that's unsustainable too. That's
34:47
like a character you put on. But
34:51
honestly, I think I thrive on
34:55
naivete, a
34:57
loss of brain cells. And
35:03
I truly am a person.
35:05
I walk in faith. I
35:08
really believe even what I hear
35:11
is a transmission. I just wait for
35:13
the transmission. And some
35:15
of them I have to set aside. But
35:17
I always make music. I draw,
35:20
I paint, I try
35:22
to... I
35:24
am driven by
35:28
self-expression because I feel so
35:30
trapped in this material
35:34
experience. Her
35:44
latest album is called The Omnichord
35:46
Real Book. We used lots of
35:48
songs from it in this episode
35:51
and it's nominated for the best alternative jazz
35:53
album Grammy award this year. You
35:56
can see all the music of hers were used
35:58
in our episode transcripts... Stacks
36:03
and Money is a listener supported production
36:05
of WNYC Studios in New York.
36:07
This episode was produced by Andrew
36:09
Dunn with help from Afie Yellow
36:11
Duke. The rest of our team
36:13
is Liliana Maria Percy Ruiz, Zoe
36:15
Azulay and Lindsay Foster Thomas. Our
36:18
intern is Ellie McKay, whom we are
36:20
saying goodbye to this week. Thank you,
36:22
Ellie, and best of luck in all
36:24
that's next. The Reverend John
36:26
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sustaining members. Thank you. As
37:06
Michelle and I ended our conversation, I
37:08
asked her whether she had artists role models
37:11
now in this stage of life, and
37:13
she told me if she doesn't really, and
37:15
she's on the lookout. I am
37:18
desperate, actually, to find mentorship at
37:20
my age. I
37:22
don't have a lot of elder women in my life, so
37:25
the things that are happening to my body
37:27
are really interesting, and I wish I had
37:29
people to talk to about it. I
37:32
think I noticed this morning that Shaka Khan
37:34
had commented on an Instagram post of yours,
37:37
so maybe you should send her a DM.
37:40
Oh, no, yeah, I love her. Oh,
37:42
my God. Are you... Oh, my
37:44
God. How
37:47
else should I make a brunch date? Oh,
37:49
that would be awesome. Oh, my God.
37:52
Wow. I'm Anna
37:54
Sale, and this is Death, Sex
37:56
and Money from WNYC. Thank
38:00
you.
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