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Hello and welcome to Dopey, the podcast
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on drugs, addiction and dumb shit. You
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hear my fucking chair? Oh,
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the creaky, the creaky chair is such a
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fucking piece of shit that even when I
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want it to creak, it doesn't creak that's
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how, and when I don't want it to
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creak, it creaks. I saw an office chair
0:35
in the street the other day and I
0:38
considered, I considered bringing it home.
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I don't want to buy a new office
0:43
chair because you have to put it together. And
0:45
putting together an office chair is not
0:47
as simple as it sounds. And I
0:49
put this one together, which is probably
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why it creaks. And this
0:53
is not a real Dopey Tuesday
0:55
episode. This is a Dopey teaser
0:57
episode. And the idea is that
1:00
I will put the first few minutes
1:02
of this week's Dopey Tuesday. Actually,
1:04
I'm going to put I've selected
1:07
a section of this
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week's Dopey Tuesday to tease you
1:11
with. It is strung out
1:13
author and elite equestrian Aaron Carr. And
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in the in the bit I I've
1:18
selected, we discuss the
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Netflix series, Baby Reindeer.
1:24
So everybody loves baby reindeer. So
1:26
we discuss baby reindeer a little
1:28
bit on this Dopey Tuesday, but
1:30
we also discuss some other stuff. There's
1:33
a lot of great stuff on Dopey Patreon. If
1:35
you are a Dopey listener, if you are
1:37
a member, a self-diagnosed
1:39
member of the Dopey Nation,
1:42
and you are not a Dopey
1:44
patron, you need to check check
1:46
check your motives, man. Check
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them out. Like we need your support.
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Five bucks a month gets you
1:53
extra episodes, tons of videos, kind
1:55
of good stuff, stickers, all sorts
1:58
of shit. Ten bucks. get you
2:00
more, I don't know, 15 bucks
2:02
gets you socks. Join the
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Dopey Patreon at www.patreon.com slash
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Dopey podcast. And here is me
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and Aaron in the teaser.
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If you want the rest, you know where you
2:16
have to go. Also, spoiler alert, if you haven't
2:18
seen baby reindeer. Give me the, oh, here. Yeah.
2:21
So I have a copy of the play.
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Was it a play for it?
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It was a one man show. Yeah. Play. And
2:27
that's the guy. That's the guy. So he's in
2:29
the Netflix. So it was adapted into a Netflix
2:31
series and this powerful and engaging play
2:34
portrays a man brought to
2:36
the edge by the actions of
2:38
a chance encounter, which takes a toll
2:40
on all aspects of his life.
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In doing so, it asks important
2:45
questions about victims, the justice system,
2:48
and how one moment, which
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is the moment though? Oh, what's
2:52
the moment when he gives her the tea can
2:56
change everything. Edinburgh
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comedy award winner Richard Gad
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has a chilling story to
3:02
tell about obsession, delusion, and
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the terrifying ramifications of a
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fleeting meeting. This
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edition was published to coincide with the
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premiere of baby reindeer at the Edinburgh
3:13
festival fringe in summer 2019
3:16
before transferring to Bush
3:19
theater in London. Fantastic.
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So if you haven't seen it, it's about
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that. It's about a
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guy that's performer, like wannabe standup comedian or
3:28
aspiring standup comedian who has a stalker and
3:30
about like after like the first three episodes,
3:32
like you feel you might feel like, I
3:34
don't know if you felt this way. I
3:37
felt sort of frustrated with him because it
3:39
was like, like I got it.
3:41
Like he, she was giving him like affirmation in
3:43
a weird way, but he was also kind of
3:45
frustrating. And then episode four, you're
3:47
introduced to, I watched episode, me
3:50
and Linda watched episode one and
3:52
I got bored in the middle of it.
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And I started like going on my phone because I'm addicted
3:56
to my phone and Linda's like, fuck you. If you're going
3:58
to go on your phone. I'm gonna watch
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it myself and I have work to
4:03
do anyway, so she went and watched
4:05
episode two and Then
4:08
three and then I go back to her. I
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said, I'm sorry Let me watch
4:12
episode three with you and she's well you
4:15
missed episode two and I was like I'll
4:17
figure it out And so I started watching
4:19
episode three and into episode four and I
4:21
was like for holy shit I
4:23
was like this is I was like I gotta I gotta get out
4:25
of here And then Linda was
4:27
like Linda only watches stuff about cults
4:31
trauma Drugs, right
4:34
like abuse and yeah show had
4:36
it all all of it one
4:38
of the best depictions I was telling Dave
4:40
before we started recording my opinion one of
4:42
the best depictions of Drug
4:44
use why it's the way because
4:47
you know how like like they'll capture something Where
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you're doing like he was taking like GHB and
4:53
like did you take a lot of juice? No, you
4:55
take any no I've never made it made me look
4:57
delicious to me, but it reminded me a little bit
4:59
of ketamine. I Would love
5:02
to take GHB. Um, would you you would never
5:04
take you now? No I
5:08
wouldn't I'm not taking GHB, but that's how
5:10
fucked up I am right that I'm watching
5:12
this show where this guy is like totally
5:14
sexually Traumatized and and I'm like, oh that
5:17
looks Alex Drug
5:19
I would enjoy but it also I think what
5:22
was so good about it is that I Think
5:25
that many women can understand like
5:27
getting into a situation and then
5:29
like you don't know how
5:32
to fucking get out of it and you haven't
5:34
given your consent, but like You
5:36
just don't know how to get yourself out of the situation
5:38
and then you feel like oh Shit,
5:41
I you know like it wasn't that bad
5:44
or like oh, maybe it didn't happen like
5:46
that and start questioning yourself and He
5:49
did such a beautiful job of then showing
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how that trauma Permeated
5:54
every part of his life and his
5:56
relationship and then why his like behavior
5:58
seems so annoying and weird, but it's
6:01
all come from trauma. And then even the
6:03
way he like fucks up his relationship
6:05
with Terry. And when
6:07
he says later on,
6:09
the translating, and
6:12
he, you know, he's struggling with his sexuality
6:14
and his own feelings of like shame
6:16
about what are people going to think and all of this.
6:18
And it's, it's just handled so
6:21
well, because I don't
6:23
know, he just did a really good job
6:25
of handling all of these things that could
6:27
potentially be very stigmatizing with
6:29
a lot of care. And he said something
6:32
in a conversation about him fucking up his
6:34
relationship with Terry, where he said, I
6:37
loved her, I did love her, but not as
6:39
much as I hated myself. So of course, like
6:41
every, no, no, no, what he said was,
6:43
I loved her so much, but
6:46
I hated myself more. But what I
6:48
love more than anything was hating myself.
6:51
He was addicted to the self
6:54
flagellation, which was so, which that
6:56
was stated so well. So well,
6:58
I thought I related to so much because
7:00
that was like a huge
7:03
part of like, I hated myself so
7:05
much that it was impossible for me to
7:08
ever really love somebody in a
7:10
relationship until I had Atticus because
7:12
it, I
7:15
didn't know who I was without that self
7:17
hatred. I find that
7:19
I hang out in
7:21
my little world in a place of
7:23
that a lot of the time of
7:25
self loathing. Yeah. Like, and I, and
7:28
I take comfort in it in a
7:30
way that isn't shouldn't be comfortable, isn't
7:32
good for me. It's a, it's
7:34
a rut in my head and I go
7:36
there, but I found he's,
7:39
he's basically, and again, if you want
7:41
to see the show and you haven't
7:43
seen it, I personally never
7:45
mind spoilers. If you don't want to be
7:47
spoiled and fast forward. Yeah. He
7:50
winds up meeting, it's
7:52
obvious to the stalker that
7:55
he had been hurt
7:57
in a relationship. So we find out.
8:00
out that he met a man
8:02
who was a famous TV writer,
8:04
producer, and wants to take him
8:07
under his wing and winds up
8:09
feeding him every drug under
8:11
the sun and raping him. How
8:14
is it grooming? It's raping. No,
8:16
no, no. He's grooming him before
8:19
he rapes him. So consider yourself
8:21
teased. The Dopey
8:23
Patreon Tuesday, Dopey Tuesday
8:25
is up. It
8:27
is all about baby
8:30
reindeer, a scintillating ask
8:32
Aaron about interpersonal relationships
8:34
within the Dopey Nation
8:37
and so much more. I feel
8:40
guilty making the teaser so
8:42
short. So I'm going to play a
8:44
voicemail from one of my favorite dopes.
8:47
His name is Paolo,
8:49
but we call him Lou. And
8:52
his voicemail is, it's
8:55
honestly one of the most powerful things I might
8:58
have ever heard on the show. And
9:01
it starts innocently enough as a sock
9:03
review, but it ends up in a
9:05
deeply emotional note. I
9:07
don't know what else to call it. It's very
9:09
beautiful. And this is Paolo,
9:12
aka Lou, our Brazilian who's
9:15
trapped in Germany. Hey,
9:17
Dave. It's Lou here,
9:19
the Brazilian guy lost in Germany. First,
9:22
you sent me socks. I
9:25
got them socks. I love them. So
9:27
thank you. Second, I'm
9:29
sending this as a
9:31
voicemail and as text because to
9:33
be honest, I don't know what
9:36
you prefer. I mean, not for
9:38
airtime, like for receiving. You're one
9:40
of those people that say that you read a book when
9:42
you listen to it. So I don't know whatever floats your
9:44
boat. But
9:46
yeah, about socks. Here amazing
9:49
international shipping sucks.
9:52
Sending socks to Germany was a total
9:54
mistake. It's how much it was for
9:57
you. And I'm sorry if
9:59
it's any. Comfort on top of that
10:01
I also paid so yeah
10:03
German customs text that it's a bureaucrats
10:05
trying to profit from your generosity Is
10:09
it German MC? Semitism who
10:11
knows? Anyway
10:15
Point being I just mean that you
10:18
could benefit from finding an alternative
10:20
way for shipping Is
10:22
so if there's any dopey out there involved
10:24
in international sale Sounds
10:26
so shady We could
10:29
have some kind of logistic system with dope sold
10:31
linked in a big network And a dopey mules
10:33
all over the place not in the book but
10:35
for reals there I don't know if there's better
10:38
ways in the past. I used services that
10:40
provide a Address in
10:42
the US that you can send stuff to
10:44
and they send it abroad like
10:46
ship it to dot-com I think So
10:51
yeah, I'm not you probably can people can probably
10:53
Google it, but yeah sure shipping Not
10:56
a good deal I'm I
10:59
I cannot not I can I
11:02
wouldn't send a dopey story at the moment
11:04
because I'm trying to handle my sobriety and
11:07
it's Yeah
11:10
hard, but I wanted to
11:12
say that I'm listening to dopey. I was
11:14
listening to the OP 469 It
11:19
was a great sequence with Hank Azaria
11:21
and Cormac before and then John book
11:23
ad now And he's the biggest sweetheart
11:25
and he talks of newcomers and how
11:27
clear it is that? How
11:30
much they hate themselves and how much that's what got
11:32
them there? And it just like it
11:34
made me notice how dopey became
11:38
instrumental in my life in My
11:41
therapeutic pursuits my spiritual path
11:43
whatever you call it. The
11:45
dopey is a cost-free
11:48
a Way for me
11:50
to find kind of healing along my journey
11:53
Find recovery whatever that means
11:57
Somebody I think on reddit said that they
11:59
were celebrating 16 hours sober
12:02
and of weed and even if they wouldn't stick
12:04
and you were like that's surprising but
12:07
I totally get it that having
12:09
like periods of self-imposed detox
12:11
help a lot it helped me in
12:14
the past it just keeps it kept
12:16
kept my tolerance low did you get
12:18
my use low sound simple
12:20
on paper it's not easy say
12:23
if this gets ended
12:26
up playing on air
12:29
I would just advocate for anybody to just
12:31
figure out what they're taking and how that
12:33
affects them just to understand
12:35
and then be aware it's hard to
12:38
figure out if you're using something
12:40
for being healthy for you or
12:42
if it's kind of unhealthy it's
12:45
a thin line including
12:48
prescribed stuff so it's good to have a bit
12:50
of a detox every now and then see
12:53
if you can survive with or without it
12:55
or see how it happens but
12:59
also what I why I
13:01
am writing or stumbling my
13:04
way across words
13:06
is that the way that I
13:08
handle my own shit with
13:10
or without substances is sometimes
13:13
writing and I just
13:15
noticed that a journal entry of mine of
13:19
today related to my relationship with substance
13:21
and it sounded a bit like a
13:23
manifesto like a bad beat poetry or
13:25
something and I don't
13:28
know I'm I don't I'm not an
13:31
artist but we drink from the same
13:33
waters of all the artists that created
13:35
everything that ever inspired us so
13:38
maybe something comes good every now
13:40
and then across ourselves
13:44
so yeah I would try to read it out aloud let's
13:48
see here's nothing I
13:54
do feel powerless Over
13:56
my desire to use, Over
13:58
my desire. Something
14:01
else may be satisfaction with
14:03
the now my deny your
14:06
with either my misery are
14:08
the fact that my misery
14:10
not all daddy's. I
14:13
do feel limited by my
14:16
used by my stayed, by
14:18
my condition and a baked
14:20
I was the rewarded. My
14:23
addictions were first of mind
14:25
work, homework, professional work I
14:28
became good at work. While
14:30
being bad and everything else, a
14:32
man whose to help work for
14:35
that you couldn't care less than
14:37
your friends they don't know.
14:39
Uma, it's not this. so yeah
14:42
it's seats you easier to
14:44
help yourself and I know I
14:46
know it's another burden on honored
14:48
task another box on the to
14:51
the less than I am anymore.
14:53
but it is precisely what
14:55
you can do. I'm talking
14:57
about the bugs just ahead of you with
15:00
the one you can see clearly. And
15:02
I know maybe you can see more
15:04
me be a sewer line that go
15:06
so far as you would there and
15:08
I don't care. We've looked down with
15:10
humility and maybe a bit of shame
15:12
but don't cling to. Let let's ignore
15:14
the fog. Some. Of
15:16
us are not ready to look up
15:18
and that's okay. A
15:21
lot. We keep our
15:23
eyes down as one box to
15:25
us want it just once. The
15:28
have just one break and another
15:30
and another. Not.
15:33
All walls are built to Greg
15:35
Eight. Some. Are built
15:37
to protect. To. Of is
15:40
of support or a plate
15:42
of from days and and
15:44
hasten. Ironically it though be
15:46
a thing. Ironically
15:49
not for it's is drugs and
15:51
addiction and them shit I'm friends
15:53
with all of it. The irony
15:55
is that a podcast. Is
15:58
that hearing of drugs with the. The
16:00
and dumb shit made me feel
16:02
to listen to without meat ever
16:05
saying oh quartered. I
16:10
thank you day for for
16:12
that can save ones like.
16:17
Me: no Se toward all birds,
16:19
citizen or whatever so high I
16:21
miss your cruise. Stay
16:24
strong. Nope in a son. Greetings.
16:29
And salutary should still be nation. Ah,
16:41
When they take a walk, world
16:44
kinda waited. You mean it? Like
16:47
isn't any much anything on the
16:49
walk around my neighborhood. That
16:52
he. Did
16:56
so bad. So tightly knit,
16:58
eat, so quiet and reserved
17:00
and will ever. Have
17:05
you ever want. To
17:08
see how the mere to enter either take
17:10
it one of the people tend to be
17:13
of I wouldn't be he. He
17:16
agreed to. Get mad
17:18
at me. And
17:21
desirable. I am. Smaller.
17:30
New Air I. Was
17:36
getting smaller and smaller. Moon
17:41
were wise and. Wonderful
17:46
day to pay any mind when
17:48
the city time. At
17:51
the high road from I'm a hard line has
17:53
been in lama every very very hard to find
17:56
the not one that was so. Happy.
18:00
go they should be on the road
18:02
to the top level notifications It�s
18:13
just theender I need So
18:19
I can't see anything I
18:24
think all over the world Stay
18:31
tuned, Dopey Nation, hopping toodles for
18:33
Chris And
18:36
shoutout to Scott Wick, the rap god by the way I
18:39
mean, everyone else
18:41
is great too but just you know
18:43
Just the rap god, so yeah
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