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Hi everyone, and welcome to a special bonus
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episode of Dua Lipa at your service. You
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can hear we're not in a studio. I'm at
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the Hay Festival of Literature and Arts here
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in Hay on Wye in Wales. This
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is a massive event in a tiny town
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which was once described as the Woodstock of
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the mind. The weather's amazing,
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the people are having a good time, the energy
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is just bustling. It's just been so
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much fun and I'm so happy to be here. And
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being here, I can see why there's so
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much creative energy here.
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The guests, everyone from Margot Atwood
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to Nick Cave are first rate.
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It's my first time here and I have to say it's
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not like any festival I've ever been to before.
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So what am I doing here? Fair
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question. I'm actually just about
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to go on stage for my first ever live
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podcast recording with the author Douglas Stewart,
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whose incredible novel Shuggy Bane
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is the first ever book of the month for our brand
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new Service 95 book club.
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Go to service95.com and our socials
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for more information about book club, including
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some really special contributions from Douglas
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himself on his writing process
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and the inspiration behind the book.
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A bit about Douglas before I go on stage with him here
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at Hay. He's a Scottish writer who pivoted
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from a very successful career in fashion design
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to become one of the most talked about authors
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with the release of Shuggy Bane and its beloved
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follow up Young Mungo.
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Douglas grew up in a working class
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household in Glasgow with a single mum who
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struggled with addiction, themes which are
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explored in an honest and compassionate way. Shuggy
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Bane was his debut novel, a 10 year
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labour of love that was awarded the Booker Prize when
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it was released in 2020 and made its way
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to countless best book of the year lists around
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the world. For me, Shuggy
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Bane is one of those books that finds pockets
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of love and hope between the darkness.
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particularly in the relationship between
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young Shuggie and his mother Agnes. I've
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loved living with this novel and all the characters
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in it since I've read it and I've always wanted to meet the
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man behind it and ask him all about it. So
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I'm going to grab my notes and get ready to
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go on stage to interview Douglas Stewart at
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Hay Festival in front of a live
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audience. No pressure. All
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right. Hi, Hay Festival.
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Thank
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you to everybody here joining us. I've
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been a little bit nervous and very excited to do
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this and I just want to say a massive,
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massive thank you to you, Douglas,
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so much for joining me today and
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for being such a wonderful partner
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in helping me launch the Service 95 Book Club. Your
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support and everything you've done has been so amazing
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and I just couldn't be happier to have Shuggie
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Bain as our first book
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for Book Club. You've
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just been so generous and gracious
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with all your time and all the
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exclusive content that you've done for
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us, which everyone can find on service95.com
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and also on our socials. So
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yes, thank you so much. And
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I'd like to start by talking a little
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bit about why I love Shuggie
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Bain so much and why it means
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so much to me. It's obviously
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a tough read and
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I do have a bit
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of a track record for liking quite
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emotionally traumatic books. It explores
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themes of alcohol abuse, toxic
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masculinity, queer identity. And
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I guess for me, the true anchor and the
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thing that I was connected to the most was this
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unconditional love between Agnes, Shuggie's
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mother,
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and Shuggie. And I
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think there's just such a
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beautiful through-line story
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through everything that happens through all the darkness
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it really kind of shines through.
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a reviewer said about you, he
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shows us a lot of monstrous behavior,
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but not a single monster only damage.
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And we'll come back to that, I'm sure. But
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first I actually really wanted to start by setting
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the scene of where you were when you first
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started work on this book.
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You grew up on a housing estate
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similar to the one in the book.
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But since leaving for New York in your early
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20s, you've really
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lived a life of contrast. You
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had a very enviable and I imagine
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pretty glamorous career in the fashion industry.
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You were working as a senior designer for
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Calvin Klein and Banana Republic. And
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I guess you were doing that by day and then by night,
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you were writing a story of deprivation in 1980s Glasgow. What
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drew you back to that? Oh,
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insanity, I think, first of all, yeah.
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But actually before I answer that, let me please
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just say thank you to you, Dua,
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for just being such a champion of books
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and of readers and of writers. Your
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passion for books is so infectious
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and I think all writers are so grateful
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for what you do to bring more readers to our work.
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So thank you and thank you for creating this space
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for us. Thank you. Thank you. Thank
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you. Thanks so much. Thank you. Yeah,
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you know, I grew up in Glasgow, as you said, and I grew
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up on a couple of different housing
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estates and I was so
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proud to be working class as a kid, but I
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was taught from the very early age to be ashamed
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of being poor and of the addiction that
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was at home with my family, also because
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I was gay in a very patriarchal
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place. And so there was just so much
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silence in my life. There was not a
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time between the ages of four and
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maybe 26 where I felt
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like I could reveal my whole entire self.
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And so there was just so much silence there, even in
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the community that knew me best of all. But by
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the time I go to college and I study textiles,
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which becomes fashion, which takes me to New
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York, I found my entire self erased.
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Everybody that ever met me thought I just had this really glamorous
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life and that maybe I came from a background
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of privilege or Or
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that I was in the place that I was supposed to be and it'd always
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been such a fight for me to be there And
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so it was actually the height of my fashion career
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that I sat down to write Shaggy Bane But
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I think I wrote it as a manifesto for myself Just
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to to be very clear even to my husband
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even to very good friends of mine Who
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had never had any other way
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to tell them that I'd grown up and I'd lost my mother
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to addiction when I was a kid or what it was like
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to be bullied or what it was like not to have food in the
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house and all these other things and And
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I wanted to capture it as a way to
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make sense of myself because I felt like a man Into
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very broken parts and not a
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whole person and and at the same time my family in
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Glasgow Couldn't really understand my life in New
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York because it was so far away from their
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daily life And so I felt like
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I was forever crossing borders And
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and I didn't want to feel like I was hiding
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parts of myself anymore
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You've spoken about you
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know the writing process for Shaggy Bane, and
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I think if I remember correctly it took you 10
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years to write it
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and The manuscript originally ran
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to 1,800 pages. Yeah
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single
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spaced and
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There was also about 20 drafts. Yeah
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of the book. I mean it probably went into the high 20s What
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was it about this book that needed?
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10 years like how did
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you manage to maintain confidence? Over
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such a long period of time that you you you
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know you felt that you were actually gonna end up with something
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that really Worked
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yeah, you know I didn't have confidence I
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lost confidence many times But
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the book wouldn't let me give up on it because
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it was so integral to me as a person and
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in fact You know there were many times
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where I would write something that was quite difficult And I had
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to put the book away for a couple of months
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What would happen is it would burn out of me this sort
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of very honest or true scene or or? Something
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that a character would do would come out of me very quickly
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and I thought I can't face that again. And
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I would put it away. And so it ebbed
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and flowed over the 10 years. But I
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was also a kid that grew up in
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a neighborhood that, you know, nobody around
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me would ever imagine that I would ever go
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into books or to literature. There weren't any books
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at home, which is why you and your
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influence is so important to me. You know, we didn't grow
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up reading. And I think young working class
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men still have a tough time coming
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to books in that way. And so
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I didn't have confidence. And I was learning as I
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went on and I was teaching myself how to write
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and I was failing, but failing in private.
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But I had this hugely creative job where
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I felt very fulfilled, but I was so unhappy
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because I wasn't doing what my soul wanted to be
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doing. And it took a long time even just
8:44
to give myself permission. You know, Allie
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Smith said to me recently, she made
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it very clear to me. She said, I kept saying I was looking
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for permission from other people, you know, would
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other writers think I was a writer? Would the establishment
8:55
let me in? He said, no, you were looking for permission
8:57
from yourself. And I said, yeah, my God,
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she saw me in a second. And but
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the first draft of the book was 1800 pages. And
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when I I had no one to read it and I gave it to my
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husband and I said, please, will you
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read this for me?
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And he just went, oh, my God, no. And
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he went, but OK. Yeah, OK, I will.
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And he took it into the other room and it was these two
9:18
huge legal binders, do I? And
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I was like in the other room and I was listening to every sigh
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and every little bit of laughter and I thought, oh, he likes it. He
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likes it. And I went
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in after three hours and I said, are you finished? And he
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said, no, I'm not finished. And
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it took him eight months to read this. It was like
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it was like war and peace. And anytime
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he was doing any of the full time job, anytime
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he was doing anything that wasn't reading my manuscript,
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I'd be like, don't you have something you should
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be doing? But he gave
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it back to me after all that, after
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I badgered him. And for the first, you
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know, 200 pages, he paid such
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attention to the line level, to the character development.
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And then about page 300, he just gave up the will
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to live. And he just started to redact
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it. And then when he gave me. me back the
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thing I'd asked him to do, I didn't speak to him for
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seven weeks. I was so offended
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by it. And so I don't recommend doing
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that again.
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How did you know when the right
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time was to let go of Sugi
10:12
Bane and put it out into the world? When was that
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turning point for you? Yeah, it
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stopped being a sort of creative joy for
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me. It was a sale that really pulled me
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through my life for 10 years. I couldn't wait to
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get through the work week or to get to the
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weekend or have a couple of days off at Christmas and
10:28
just do nothing else but write. And then
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after a while I realized I emotionally
10:33
and creatively wasn't moving on. And
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one thing that people don't know is that
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I finished Sugi Bane and then I went
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right into writing Young Mungo. Both
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of these things before I was published, before I ever thought
10:45
anyone would ever read the books. And so
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the night that I won the book or the very first thing that
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journalists say to you is, congratulations,
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but how about that really difficult next book?
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You know, they're almost dying for you to fail
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as soon as you've succeeded. And
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I was like, well, too bad for you because I've already written my
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next book. You know, get it up.
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And so I was
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just writing the whole time. And really by the
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time
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I came to be published, I've been writing for
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about 14 years.
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Yeah, it's really interesting. Like when I think about
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it differently, obviously,
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for me in music terms, when I think about writing
11:21
an album, for me, it takes me about
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two or three years to kind of really get
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it. But I have to write myself into
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it. So I have to write a lot of bad
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songs to get to the good ones and get to a place.
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But
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when I think about you writing for 10
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years, I almost like imagine in my
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head this like crime investigation board
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of like all the different characters
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and, you know, the stories and
11:43
the backstory and where they were before that
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and how, you know, how they progress into the character
11:48
that they've become. And I really
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feel like we can't go any further without talking about the
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real hero of the story, which is Shuggie's
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mum, Agnes.
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And when we meet Agnes
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while she's still a woman of immense
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pride and enormous capacity for love and laughter.
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She's already quite far along the
12:06
path of self-destruction through
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drink. And we received a rather
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wonderful question for you from the Service 95 book
12:13
club member, Maggie, who
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asked, would you do a prequel of Shuggie
12:18
Bain by diving into Agnes'
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backstory before her motherhood era?
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With that in mind, I wonder if you could give us like
12:25
an insight into Agnes'
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life before the drink? Yeah, that's
12:31
an amazing question. I've never actually been asked that before.
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So thank you, Maggie, for that. Yeah,
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you know, I think part of why I wrote the book was
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as a love story to my own
12:40
mother. My mother is not Agnes Bain, but
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I lost my mother to addiction. And I
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always saw my mother, this woman that was so capable,
12:47
so loving, so generous, but was very
12:50
trapped by the circumstances
12:52
she found herself in, both because she was
12:54
an uneducated working class woman that
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had never been taught to put herself
12:59
first before her husband or her kids. And
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so when all that starts to peel away and to fall apart,
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she really had nowhere to turn. There was no hope
13:07
within her. And when the city started
13:09
to come apart, when unemployment, when my father
13:12
ran out and left her one day, you know,
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she kind of started to disintegrate inside herself.
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But what I understood from an early age
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was that that was not the whole of this woman.
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This woman was the most wonderful iceberg.
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And I only ever knew one facet of her. And
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you're right. She was this wonderful young
13:29
woman who had so much hope and so
13:30
much
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just had such a bright future and was well
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loved. And I tried to show
13:37
that in the novel, but
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I don't know that I could go back and show more of that.
13:41
I don't know if after 12 years I have more
13:43
in it to give. But
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one thing I do sometimes regret is I
13:48
didn't call the book Agnes Bain, because I think
13:50
truly it is about the mother at the heart of it.
13:52
Was there any Agnes, young
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Agnes in the earlier drafts? There was.
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There was lots of young Agnes and
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part of
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the part of the joy of writing the book was
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was finding out stories through my own
14:04
family and through, you know, friends of the family
14:06
to to allow me to understand this
14:08
woman because when your mother dies at 16, you
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don't get to know her as an adult, as peers,
14:13
as friends, whatever you'd like to say, your relationship
14:16
is always as a child and a mother. And actually,
14:19
one of the wonderful things about addiction was that
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it does tend to sort of break the walls
14:23
down. It's a very leveler.
14:26
It means someone who's suffering with addiction
14:28
treats you in a very direct way and tells you things actually
14:31
that perhaps mothers wouldn't ordinarily
14:33
tell children. And
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so I did get to know some things. But yeah,
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I mean, one of the interesting things
14:40
was is it's not my family, but you
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know, there are siblings in it and I also have siblings.
14:45
And my siblings, what is fascinating
14:48
is when a parent has three children, she
14:50
will allow that she will have three very different
14:52
children. But oftentimes we can have three different
14:54
mothers. And my siblings had really
14:56
happy childhoods. You know, my
14:59
grandparents were alive. There was four wages
15:01
in the house. They went to Italy once a year, Spain
15:03
another time. They were they
15:05
had really bright, positive childhoods.
15:08
And then I just intersected in a very
15:10
different part of my mother's life. She was in
15:12
her 40s when she had me. The city
15:15
was at 28% mass unemployment.
15:17
She'd already come to the end of a romantic life, I
15:19
think she felt. And so I just had a very different childhood.
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So maybe my sister should write the story
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of the story. Yeah, it's
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really interesting. I recently
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joined a reading group at the
15:31
Downview Women's Prison in Sutton as
15:33
a guest of the book's unlocked program,
15:36
which is in partnership between the Book Prize Foundation
15:39
and the National Literacy Trust. And
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it gives people in prisons access to
15:43
high quality literature. And it was an
15:45
incredible experience. We discussed Chuggy Bane,
15:49
which they had actually previously chosen as the
15:51
LGBTQ Book of the Month. And
15:53
I promised the women that I would bring
15:56
in some of their
15:56
questions for you today. Amazing. And
15:58
one of the women drew
15:59
attention to a really remarkable scene
16:02
in the book where Agnes is about
16:04
to confront her slightly snitty
16:06
neighbor Colleen and tell her
16:08
that she had slept with her husband Jamesy in
16:11
return for her taking sugar fishing, which is a
16:13
promise that he actually never keeps What
16:16
follows is extraordinary And
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I have a question for you, but but first I wonder
16:22
if you would read some of that text for
16:24
us Yeah, I absolutely will I've
16:26
actually never read this before so forgive me
16:28
if I stumble a little bit, but also there's
16:31
some There's some raw language
16:33
in it. So clutch your children clutch your pearls
16:37
clutch the hem of your skirt like Colleen's
16:39
about to do if that's we'd
16:41
like to do but yes Agnes and
16:43
Colleen are Elementally opposed
16:46
to each other their neighbors. They're absolutely identical
16:49
socioeconomically and Generationally
16:52
but Agnes has such ears and graces that
16:54
Colleen
16:54
the minute she sees her hates her
16:56
and so there's deep animosity Between these women
16:58
but in that animosity there is also
17:00
deep compassion
17:04
Agnes stumbled back to the curb clumsy
17:06
with drink Jamesy swear up deliberately
17:08
and narrowly miss clipping her with the back tire The
17:11
road filled with the usual cloud of suit Agnes
17:14
was blinking on the opposite curb But Colleen hadn't
17:16
the peace of mind to see her in her thin
17:18
face was a wildness and an emptiness alive and
17:20
dead at the same Time
17:22
she fell with a crack to the tarmac and lay
17:24
loose-legged and blank faced in the dust Agnes
17:27
looked up and down the street like a person who wanted
17:30
to stick the boot in or a person who wanted
17:32
to run Away from a car crash. She was
17:34
unsure which
17:35
There was a faint breeze fluttering all the curtains,
17:37
but no one came to help No cousins no other pit
17:39
women and silhouetted at the Mac of any
17:42
window stood the four remaining children Lined
17:45
up and descending Heights like little Russian dolls
17:48
all with the same sad beautiful face
17:50
One day Agnes would give them all a deep hot
17:53
bath to really stick it into Colleen
17:55
From the gutter there was the loud rip rip noise
17:58
of hair being pulled from a brush
17:59
a sticky tugging sound like an old
18:02
gummy linoleum being torn up. Agnes
18:04
stepped closer to the flailing woman. The
18:06
belly full of flat lager, the dust the tangle
18:08
of limbs made it hard for her to understand
18:11
what she was seeing. At
18:12
first she thought Colleen was ripping her football
18:14
top into shreds, but as she stepped closer
18:17
Agnes could see the clumps of matted hair the woman
18:19
was ripping free in each claw. Rip
18:22
rip.
18:22
It came out in wild handfuls. Agnes
18:25
flitted around the fallen woman. Before she knew
18:27
it she was kneeling in the dirt using her ringed fingers
18:29
to tame the furious talons. She
18:32
wrapped herself tightly around Colleen. Here
18:34
what's all this then?
18:36
She said in a voice so kind that it shocked even
18:38
her.
18:39
Colleen went limp in her arms and Agnes
18:41
gently lowered the woman's claws into her lap.
18:43
She prized open the fists which were still clutching
18:46
the ripped out hair and began pulling the
18:48
thick strands from between the thin fingers as
18:51
if she were cleaning an old comb.
18:53
Colleen's hollows eyes stared into the dirt for a
18:55
long time before she spoke.
18:57
I should have known. I should have left well alone
18:59
instead of getting on at him while he was down.
19:02
All I said was I didn't want any more mouse to feed.
19:05
Since that mine shut he was coming at
19:07
me night and day like a teenager on the boil. He
19:09
was never any use at that pulling out nonsense.
19:12
Agnes was staring at the bald patches on
19:15
Colleen's head. There was dust on the blood
19:17
prick scabs.
19:18
Five wanes is enough for any woman.
19:21
Colleen snorted. He would have had a hundred
19:23
if he could but I just thought fuck you Mac if
19:25
any and despite them I shut the shop. Colleen
19:28
started to cry again. The tears came
19:30
along thick streams almost as if
19:32
she had a leak. They poured down her nose
19:35
dripping off her chin and she turned her eyes
19:37
towards Agnes and looked at her then as if for
19:39
the first time. That must have
19:41
been when he started fucking around. Agnes
19:44
was conflicted. She would have told any
19:46
other woman that it would get better in time even
19:49
though she knew it would sit on her chest for the rest of her
19:51
life but she offered no such salve
19:53
to Colleen. It occurred to her then that there
19:55
were equals now and she couldn't be ashamed
19:57
at how her insides lifted at the
19:59
thins.
19:59
women's bad news. Minor's
20:02
women were pacing in the street, cousins
20:05
and the wife's of cousins circling nervously
20:08
as if Colleen had turned into an animal they
20:10
were unsure of how to approach.
20:13
She walked up to me as nice as you like with these sunglasses,
20:16
big fancy ones and two shades of brown. She
20:18
said her name was Elaine, asked if she could have a word
20:20
in private. I thought she was from the catalogue,
20:23
thought she was trying to sell me some shite for the Wayne's Christmas.
20:26
Colleen let out a groan. She uncurled
20:28
her fingers and took the hem of her skirt with a
20:30
single tug. She split the thin fabric in two from
20:33
hem to belly then
20:34
she fell listlessly back onto the pavement.
20:37
For the love of God
20:38
Agnes grabbed at the shredded fabric. Colleen
20:41
had no underwear on. The frizzy hair
20:43
of her cunt was shocking against the sallow
20:45
smoothness of her belly. We've got to get
20:47
you in the house up up. Agnes tried
20:49
to lift her but she was too uncoordinated with
20:51
a drink. They toppled over into the stewer
20:54
and Agnes tore the skin off her knees. She
20:56
tried to drag Colleen inside but the wasted
20:58
woman nothing but a pile of bones slackened
21:01
all her muscles and slid back into the dirt like
21:03
an unruly child. Agnes stood
21:05
over her sweating and spitting. You
21:07
can't lie here like that.
21:08
With
21:09
her eyes closed Colleen moved her hand
21:11
across the dirty pavement like she was caressing
21:14
fine sheets. The words came out
21:16
slower and thicker now. I
21:18
don't care.
21:19
Let Jamesy McAvenny hear
21:21
that his wife died on the road
21:24
with her old cunt out. There
21:26
was nervous laughter for some children on bikes.
21:29
Agnes gave Colleen a hard shake. She
21:31
found she enjoyed it so she did it again.
21:33
Madam have you no pride?
21:35
Colleen's eyes opened wide and then closed.
21:38
Her breath grew lighter.
21:40
Here what's getting into you? What have you taken?
21:44
But the soft pile of bones did not answer.
21:46
The fences were hung full of women squawking like
21:49
big noisy crows. The news had spread
21:51
fast. Colleen's cousins were screaming
21:53
blue murder and Jamesy's sisters were throwing
21:55
their fists in defense of his good name.
21:58
Jamesy's mother, 80 if she was a
21:59
the day was spitting and swinging a balding
22:02
mop like it was a scythe.
22:04
Not knowing what else to do, Agnes drew
22:06
off her tights and then her own knickers. She
22:08
did it with a brass neck, stumbling half cut
22:10
right there in the street. She struggled to put
22:13
them on Colleen, and it was like dressing a life-size
22:15
dolly whose limbs instead of being stiff
22:17
and rigid were limp and heavy with slow
22:19
blood.
22:21
Colleen wasn't talking anymore.
22:23
Agnes sank to the dust beside her.
22:25
She regarded her expensive white underwear,
22:28
luminous with good bleach. They hung
22:30
on the thinner woman like a lacy nappy, and
22:32
they wear, Agnes thought, more kindness
22:34
than she deserved.
22:36
Thank you. Thank you so
22:45
much. Thank you so much, Douglas. Thank you. That's
22:48
a really powerful scene, and I wonder
22:50
if you can dig in a bit on what this scene
22:52
symbolizes for you about the relationship
22:54
between the two women and also about the status
22:57
in society
22:58
of women in this novel. That's right.
23:01
Yeah. You know, Shuggie comes in quite a long
23:03
literary tradition of looking at minor strikes
23:06
and mass unemployment, but I'd found
23:08
all the books that I loved had always focused on the
23:10
heterosexual male experience because it was
23:12
our dads and our brothers whose job defined
23:15
what it was we did, what kind of family were, and they were
23:17
the ones put out of work. I
23:19
was the son of a single mother, so I was living right
23:21
in the center of that, but my entire
23:23
world was feminine. It was my mother. We didn't
23:25
have a dad at home, and it also meant I
23:28
was part of a network of other mothers, other single
23:30
mothers, other women struggling with drink.
23:33
So I knew when I was writing Shuggie Bay and I wanted
23:35
to write the same sort of landscape from
23:37
a very feminine perspective. You
23:40
know, there is some cruelty towards Agnes
23:42
from men in the book, but that's almost part of
23:44
the time. What I wanted to
23:47
show was how sometimes even
23:49
in communities where we can get into the cliche
23:51
that working class communities have so much solidarity
23:54
and we're all in it together, that solidarity
23:56
comes at the cost of conforming.
24:00
fitting in of being a good mother, of being a decent
24:02
woman, of going to chapel, of, you
24:04
know, always putting your kids first. And
24:07
if you were a woman that had
24:09
pride in yourself or had notions above
24:11
your station, or you thought the Scottish
24:13
word is gallus, then you could be,
24:16
you know, isolated and thought
24:19
of as terrible. And also,
24:21
to be honest, the reputation of women was the most
24:23
valuable currency there because
24:25
I knew it certainly as a young boy. The moment someone
24:28
said your mother was like this or your mother's that
24:30
kind of woman, it was terrible. It
24:32
was world ending and crushing. And
24:35
so Shuggie and Agnes are both in isolation.
24:37
Shuggie can't fit in with the boys because
24:39
he's too effeminate. And I wanted Agnes
24:41
not to be able to fit in with the women because
24:44
actually she has big ideas and big notions
24:46
and she doesn't talk in a regular Glaswegian
24:48
accent because she thinks of herself as slightly
24:51
better and the women can't bear it.
24:53
There's nothing wrong with
24:55
the Glaswegian accent, by the way. I
24:58
wish my English was thicker. The Glaswegian
25:01
dialect that actually goes through the whole book
25:03
is really amazing. I feel like while I was reading
25:06
it, I kept finding myself
25:07
speaking in a Glaswegian accent in
25:09
my head. And if I was reading alone in my room, then
25:11
I would just like quietly say it out loud.
25:13
Yeah. Are you going to give us that now? Quietly
25:16
say it out loud and I would see if I could get it. But
25:18
it's good. It's good for practicing a Glaswegian accent
25:21
for sure. I
25:23
have another question from Downview,
25:25
which is an observation
25:27
really from one of the women in the reading group who
25:30
found a lot of resonance between Agnes' experience
25:32
of alcoholics, anonymous, and that
25:34
of her own mother's.
25:36
And there's a period of hope in the novel when
25:38
Agnes maintains sobriety for a year. And
25:40
Shuggie says to his friend, Leanne, my
25:42
mommy had a good year once. It was lovely. During
25:45
this time, Agnes finds a community within
25:47
AA only to see it fall away when she relapses.
25:51
And in fact, the same thing happens with Eugene,
25:54
Agnes' boyfriend. And I wonder if
25:56
these scenes were informed by your own experience
25:59
growing up.
25:59
And what have you observed by
26:02
the way that we treat people with addiction?
26:03
Yeah, that's a brilliant question.
26:06
You know, the funny thing about addiction for me
26:08
is because it was a crisis in community, there
26:10
was so many people that were suffering. And I
26:13
was lonely because of my queerness and
26:15
other things, but I was never lonely within addiction.
26:18
We always had support of people around
26:20
us in a way because other mothers, other fathers
26:22
were suffering. And then both Alateen
26:25
and Al-Anon gave us a lot
26:27
of fellowship. And so in a
26:29
really strange way, we were never, I was never
26:31
quite alone in it. I think maybe had I been a middle
26:34
class family on a street that was flourishing, then
26:36
the addiction would have felt very, very lonely in that
26:38
way. But like I said, this is a community
26:41
as well that can't tell the difference sometimes between
26:43
a good time and a bad time. It's a very thin
26:45
line. But
26:48
my own experience with it
26:50
as a kid was just the terror
26:52
and the anxiety you would have when your parent
26:54
suffered with addiction. You know, it's
26:58
it was part of my life from when I was about three or four years
27:00
old. I was very aware. And in the time
27:02
we didn't have any language like mental health
27:05
or someone suffering or having other issues, it was
27:07
just they drank too much and
27:09
they were a terror. And I knew
27:11
from about the age of four that I was never
27:13
the most important person in the room, that
27:15
everything that affected my mother, this woman, would
27:18
set up everything for the day,
27:20
whether we had a good day or a bad day. And what
27:22
that does to a kid is it means you're always
27:25
compensating. You're always trying to give that person
27:27
what you perceive they lack. So you're trying
27:29
to be funny or you're quieter, you're neater
27:31
or you're better at school or you don't eat too
27:33
much or you know, you eat everything in front
27:35
of you, whatever you think it is. And
27:38
the anxiety in that is overwhelming because
27:41
you're always trying to manage an adult's behavior
27:43
even before you know really quite what you're doing.
27:46
But the thing about alcoholism for me as a
27:48
kid was the terror of it, because
27:50
also when people drink, you don't quite know what kind
27:52
of drunk they're going to be. Sometimes it can be a huge
27:55
amount of fun. You know, when I would go to school in
27:57
the morning, I'd come back for lunch and
27:58
the house would be full of women. And they were
28:00
having a wild party. And you'd be like,
28:02
it's half a living. And they were having
28:04
a blast. And so as a kid, you just never knew
28:07
if it was going to be really sad or really funny or
28:09
really desperate.
28:10
Yeah. There's something also really
28:12
interesting about Alcoholics Anonymous and
28:14
the whole idea of a
28:17
person finds a community with an AA, and then it
28:19
falls away once a person
28:22
relapses. And I guess that's also
28:24
because it's a peer-led community group. And although
28:26
it's really an amazing program, it's also
28:29
only really there for people that actually want
28:31
the help. And so I think
28:33
a lot of people can see similarities,
28:36
at least this woman at Downview saw
28:38
a lot of similarities between Agnes and her
28:40
mother and people walking away when
28:43
there was substance abuse. And I think sometimes
28:45
for some people, it's almost easier to
28:47
let go
28:49
or not be there, because it's harder
28:53
to be there in a way. I don't know. It's quite
28:55
an. Like
28:59
a double-edged sword almost.
29:00
That's right. And that's the structure of the book,
29:02
Dua. I started the story with Agnes
29:05
surrounded by people that loved her. She's
29:07
in that flat, and all of her childhood friends are
29:09
there. And she's the belle of the ball. She's the most loved
29:11
woman. And by the end of the novel, everyone
29:13
peels away, because other people's addiction
29:16
is really hard for us to cope with. And
29:19
it's hard to witness. It's
29:21
hard when you cannot help someone you love very
29:23
deeply get better. And
29:26
everybody really reaches a point where they have to save
29:28
themselves. And that's the central question,
29:30
I think, for Shuggy. How
29:33
far will he go to save his mother before he has to save
29:35
himself?
29:35
Yeah. I'd
29:38
be very remiss of
29:40
us to not talk about the men in
29:42
Shuggy Bank. Do we have to? Yes, we
29:44
have to. We have to. And I think we
29:47
should start with Shuggy's own father, Shug. Does
29:50
he have any redeemable qualities? No. Do
29:53
you have any sympathy for him? No.
29:58
Yeah. It's a-
30:00
You know, when you think about that time, 1980s
30:02
Glasgow, the time of deindustrialization,
30:05
like everything that was happening, it must have been
30:07
quite difficult for the men, of
30:10
course, too. And then
30:12
I think about everything that Agnes went through. And
30:14
I keep, you know, questions that
30:16
go around in my head is Agnes
30:18
maybe a hard woman to love,
30:21
or does she become so as a result of the pain
30:24
that has happened
30:26
in her marriage?
30:27
Yeah, I think it's the chicken and the egg.
30:29
And I didn't want to answer that, because
30:31
I felt like they both
30:33
happen at the same time. And who knows where
30:36
it begins. In the very first draft of the novel,
30:38
I'd set the character up that something shawg
30:40
abandons Agnes. And I'd set that up as a break
30:42
line, where when he walks out, she turns
30:44
to drink. But as I did more research,
30:47
and as I spoke to people who really suffered with addiction,
30:49
I realized that things are never as clean cut
30:51
as that it can be a slow ebbing
30:53
out of hope, or you can feel very lost over
30:56
a long period of time. And also, you can be in
30:58
denial for many years. And
31:00
people can see it before you can see it yourself. But,
31:03
you know, I didn't have an awful lot
31:06
of sympathy for shawg at the beginning of the book.
31:08
And he's addicted in a way to his addiction
31:10
is he takes an awful lot of his own self
31:13
worth from how women adore him. And
31:15
he's a man who's losing all of his looks. And he probably
31:18
isn't naturally very charming anyway. But
31:20
he has a limited power over women. And
31:22
he treats them appallingly for that. And I
31:25
couldn't find a point of sympathy for that.
31:27
But I knew I had to write about it, because it was such an
31:29
ugly and true thing. But
31:32
as I was writing the novel, part of the reason
31:34
why it took 10 years is because I had to mature.
31:36
I was only 30 when I began, and I was 40
31:38
when I finished. And, and
31:40
that feels ancient now. But like, I
31:42
was trying to come to a point
31:44
where I had empathy for everybody in the
31:47
book so that the pain wasn't
31:49
shawgy and agnuses, but trying to trace
31:51
it through all the characters to see how they were
31:53
also hurting. And when I got there, I
31:55
found I could write the novel with less judgment.
31:57
I could just write it as it had to be written.
32:00
It's interesting to kind of have a non-biased opinion,
32:02
even though maybe some things have connections
32:05
to your personal life, even though the book's
32:07
not directly linked to things
32:10
that have happened to you. At
32:12
Service95, we asked you for your recommended
32:15
reading list, and you've very generously
32:18
provided us with two, one
32:20
for gay classics and one for working class
32:23
classics. And you explained that there
32:25
are very few writers who straddle both
32:28
genres.
32:29
And as an adult gay male
32:32
writer from a working class background, did
32:34
you feel a sense of responsibility to
32:36
fill that gap, and how important
32:38
is it to you to tell these stories?
32:41
Yeah, I think there's always the burden of the underrepresented.
32:45
And because we don't hear enough stories like that, sometimes
32:47
when you have one, it's meant to speak for everyone.
32:50
And of course it can't, right? No book can really do
32:52
that. We're all living such nuanced
32:55
lives with different experiences. But
32:58
like I said, I didn't read books until I was
33:00
about 17 or 18, because they were actually quite dangerous.
33:03
They felt, first of all, like they belonged to
33:06
a society that was down south and middle class.
33:08
But then they also seemed really feminine, and
33:11
I was a bit worried that I'd be out to if I said,
33:13
I love books, the boys around me would be like,
33:15
yeah, faggot. They'd
33:17
be really terrible about it. And so I kind
33:20
of stayed away, and I only really started to
33:23
read them when I was 17 or 18. And
33:25
then I go on this huge discovery to get
33:28
beyond the classics and figure out
33:30
working class voices and then queer voices. And
33:33
I found often that queer voices were also
33:35
incredibly upper class or middle class.
33:38
And they were writing about issues about mobility
33:41
or about communities
33:44
that still had the ability to go and
33:46
find a tribe in capital cities or to be
33:48
in a boarding school or to be in the army
33:50
or to up and leave whatever situation
33:53
they were in. And as a working class
33:55
person, I didn't have any of that ability. The
33:57
only universe I knew was the streets that
33:59
I lived on. really the only part
34:01
of the world that I saw Dua. And so
34:03
if there was any problems with that, I still had to confront
34:06
it because that was the only place I knew. And
34:08
I wanted to write with both Shuggie and Mungo, a
34:10
queer person who was coming to terms
34:13
with their queerness in a community
34:16
that's the only community they know.
34:17
It's really interesting to hear you
34:19
say about books being dangerous.
34:23
I mean, especially now with everything that's
34:25
happening, there's lots of bands on books that
34:27
have been happening, lots of writers being
34:30
censored. I think it's really
34:32
interesting. I was having a conversation actually with Min
34:34
Jin Lee on my podcast
34:36
before, on the last season. And
34:39
she was saying how books are dangerous because the words
34:41
that we say can actually do something, can actually
34:43
change the world. And
34:45
I think that's also incredibly powerful as
34:47
well. So I'm glad
34:50
that you've come to a place to
34:52
write this incredible story and really
34:55
give a lot of nuance and tell a different story
34:57
as well in your own story, in your own way. Yeah,
35:00
Shuggie might have taken you 10 years
35:02
to write.
35:04
But I guess in the three years since publication,
35:07
like you said, you wrote another bestselling
35:09
novel, Young Mungo, which
35:12
is just equally wonderful. I absolutely,
35:15
absolutely loved that. And there are gonna be
35:17
TV adaptations for both
35:19
novels. We hope. Well, I
35:21
think that's looking good, which
35:24
I know that you're currently writing the scripts for. How
35:27
does writing for TV differ? Like
35:29
I wonder what you gain and you lose in the process
35:31
of doing that. Yeah, it's
35:33
been so wildly different. And at
35:36
first when they approached me to do it, I said no, because
35:38
I felt like I'd given so much of my life to these characters
35:41
in these books. But then I grew up
35:43
without books, but we loved stories.
35:45
We loved telly. You know, we were
35:48
curious and we were compassionate and
35:51
we turned to these sort of film and cinema
35:53
and that was how we connected with one another. And
35:56
so I felt like I had a responsibility to tell
35:58
these stories on screen and to make sure. They
36:00
were told in a way, even if I fail and
36:02
the fear of failure is always with you, but even
36:04
if I fail, at least I've done it myself,
36:07
you know, I failed myself.
36:09
And so it's been such
36:12
a journey because the story, the novel has to change
36:14
entirely because the medium changes.
36:16
You can't, you know, take the viewer
36:18
anywhere you want to go. You have to really build
36:20
the world and show the world. And there's
36:23
the line that says, if you show a gun, someone has to use
36:25
a gun. And that's very anti novelistic
36:27
because we just love color. We just love to tell you
36:29
things for the sake of, you know, telling you things.
36:32
And so it's been great. And the team at
36:34
age 24 have really helped me to hone
36:36
my skill and given me a lot of feedback
36:38
and, and a lot of space as well to tell the
36:40
story as it, as it should be told. But
36:43
I'm hoping one day we can cast you in one of these adaptations.
36:46
Oh gosh,
36:46
I gotta brush up on my Glaswegian accent.
36:48
Well that's what you're doing. Yeah. Douglas,
36:52
thank you so much.
36:59
Well, I am still
37:01
buzzing after that chat and I hope you all
37:03
enjoyed the conversation as much as I did. That
37:06
was amazing and scary and exciting
37:08
all at once. And I kind of want to
37:11
do it again sometime. But thank
37:13
you so much to Douglas for joining me and
37:15
for all he's done to make the launch of the Service 95 book
37:17
club so special. Shuggy
37:19
Bane is one of those books that stuck with me since first
37:22
reading it. I'm so thrilled it was our
37:24
first book of the month. Keep checking
37:26
service95.com throughout the rest of the month
37:28
for more Shuggy
37:29
Bane content and stay tuned for our next
37:31
title as there's so much more to come from
37:33
the Service 95 book club.
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