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Welcome to the Electrician New Podcast

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. This is Drake , this is Dustin . We're

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going to talk about burnout . What causes burnout

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, how to figure out that you're burnt out , what

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to do if you're burnt out Burnout , yeah

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.

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So we both are in a kind of similar

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lot in life . You have

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multiple huge

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things in your life that you are

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in control of and that

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most of it , you can't rely on somebody else to be

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in control of . You can have other people

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help you with small bits and pieces

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. But we're both entrepreneurial and

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we both have a lot of ideas and we both have

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an insane work ethic . So

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we oftentimes find ourselves like

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knee-deep and way too much going

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on at the same time , because we'll have an idea

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and like nope , let's just handle it right now , let's just do it . And

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after years and

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years and years of doing that , we're

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both at this point right now where it's like

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slight depression maybe .

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Yeah , I wouldn't even go ahead and say slight .

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There's a pushing throughness that we're just

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making .

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There's that droned drain where

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my body is doing

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all the things and

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I'm just taking a backseat and making

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sure that I'm doing all the things . But when

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you do stuff basically in autopilot

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, you're not excelling in them . You're

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doing the bare minimum that is

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required to keep them going , which

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a lot of things can be

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done at autopilot level . But

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you're not going to grow that way .

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Yeah , and the things you're doing are going

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to be they're not going to be very great because

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you're not putting your all in anymore .

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And eventually a decline will happen in

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businesses and stuff like that . I've

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noticed it's not the actual

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doing of any of the jobs that

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I'm doing , it's the

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inability to do them

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that drives my mind insane

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. So when you need to do something but you can't

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, I don't have time where it's like

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okay , I need to get this thing done

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, I need to get this thing done , I need to get

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you know . You have a list of things that you need to get done and

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you're like all right , today I'm going to get three

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of these things done and

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then one thing gets done because

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there was a problem or something else happened

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from something else and you got pulled in a different direction

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. That is the type of thing that burns

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me out . And I think that's what burns

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most people out is the

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stress of having to get

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stuff done that you cannot get done . There's

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not enough hours in the day . Sure

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, if you have like one big thing

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that you're doing and you're just doing

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that day in , day out , sure that can

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burn you out in a different way . But

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there's difference between like being

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dragged out and burnt out , and then

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there's difference between like yearly

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burnout and daily burnout .

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Yeah , yeah , like

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your daily burnout stacks up over a long

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enough period of time to be just general

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malaise that

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you feel so disconnected from everything

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. I think , like with me , I

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prioritize electricity

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in my life . I would say that's pretty fair . You

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know , my life has either worked for me if they're a friend

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, or I've done work for them

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, or they um , the

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friends that I have are now like other people

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in the trade . Everything in my

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life that I think about , dream about , do all

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day long , every day , from the time I wake up to the time I

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go to sleep , is directly related to electrician

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. You in some capacity , relationships

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like I end up pulling everybody

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in my life , I pull into my thing , and

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if I , if you're not directly as part of my thing

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, we probably won't hang out often because this is all

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I'm doing as my thing . Even you and I

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, like , we don't hang out often but we work

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together , so we see each other every day but like

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it affects everything and

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because of that you don't really get a break

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from that very often . And

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so part of the things that one of the things I wanted

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to talk about was , in general , not

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taking a break to relax , like

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you and I both have talked about this . Neither

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one of us feels comfortable sitting on the couch doing nothing

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. Relaxing is not relaxing . No

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, I hate it . I feel like I'm being lazy

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, I feel like I'm wasting time . I

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could be doing something constructive . If I'm

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just going to be sitting here for three hours , I

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don't want to watch a football game . It's just a waste of three

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hours of time where I could be like writing

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my textbook , or I could be like doing articles

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or making videos .

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The justification of that is that is true

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. You could , in quotes

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, do nothing for three hours , or you could progress

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in one of your things .

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And I always want to be progressing and you

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do too .

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I do too . Yeah , I don't

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want to watch a movie , but the reason

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why I'm sitting on the couch watching a movie

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is because I'm actually overwhelmed

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with everything else I need to do . That

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part of me that allows me to watch

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a movie isn't allowing me . It's

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forcing me to not do the things

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that I should be doing , just getting

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overwhelmed and stressed . And

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the whole version of like depression that

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that creates is

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the need to

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retract from life . That

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feeling of I just wanna go in bed and fall

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asleep . It's like no , I'm not tired . I

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actually don't wanna do that . It's gonna feed

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into it even more and it becomes

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cyclical and it's awful . But

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sometimes you can't pull yourself out

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of that loop and all that does

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is create your list to

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get longer and thicker . So

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that drive to just want

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to sit on the couch to hopefully everything

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will just disappear is

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rough .

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Yeah , dude , do you ever notice times where you're

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an irrational version of yourself

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because you haven't realized

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how stressed out and overwhelmed you are

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and that the way you're talking to

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people , you're not even thinking about how

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your mood is with those people

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? There will be times where I'll just like I'll

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burst some fucking absurd thing that doesn't

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even matter , that I normally would get mad

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about , but I'll

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be like the bananas are

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on the left . You know it's like

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what ? Whoa ? Yeah , there's

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37 things before that that were

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pissing me off , that I've just been hunkering

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down and putting on my shoulders and moving

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through and pushing through , and finally

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, the thing that sets me off is so

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asinine and absurd

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.

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And I think the psychology of that is

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your brain is okay to let

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go of the banana thing , right

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. And so you have all this energy that's

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put up with all these things

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that if you say out loud A , it becomes

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a reality . B it might

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not be appropriate because it's

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things that just need to be fixed . It's

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real , it's all the real stuff that you're holding

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in . So finally you get this one

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thing that's annoying about bananas

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and you're just like this is the one thing I can fix

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right now by seeking out Right right . And

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it's okay , you know , to

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it and reason , but

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it's definitely required

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to like check yourself . Sometimes

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you know if you find yourself Often really

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If you're screaming

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about forks and bananas

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and paint color , assess

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your situation .

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I think like holding everything in is a common attribute

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of people that have a lot of things going

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on in their life , people that are like pushing and pushing

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and there's a grind to it .

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Yeah , the talking aspect is actually

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interesting . I find this

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a lot . When somebody asks me

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how I'm doing and they're really asking

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, you know they're not just walking by me , hey , how you doing , you

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know you don't stop them and be like , actually , let's talk

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about this . They're like , no , I just want a good guy

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, I just want to say something to you , move

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forward . But when somebody is just like

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how are you ? I want to

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go into it and be like I'm

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not doing great , everything

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around me is doing great , my life is

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fantastic .

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I have all these awesome things .

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Yeah , I have successful businesses . My

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kids are doing great , my wife is doing

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great , the house is doing great , everything is doing great

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, so I have nothing to complain

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about . So let me complain to you About

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all of it and then . So if I do

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complain about it , I find

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myself thinking what

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am I doing ? What ?

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are you having to complain about ?

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Why do I have to complain about that

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? Holding in is wicked

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destructive and then like complaining

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about it is also destructive

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.

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Yeah , there is a certain level in my mind too

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of like I don't think people actually

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give a shit and want to hear that you're

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not doing well , Most of the people my

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mom , my family , my friends , everybody

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wants to know that I'm flourishing and I'm happy

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and blossoming and everything . The Instagram thing

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yeah , the here's the shiny version

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that everybody sees , but nobody

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cares if I'm not doing

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okay . No , because they have their own stuff , they're going through

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Right , and so I've realized

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that my perspective on who

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I am in my life is like I'm a boss , I'm

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a leader . There's certain people that

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rely on my stability , so there's certain things

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I just can't say to certain people . There's

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like being the head

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of a household , being a father and

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like there's just certain things that I have

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that I have learned over time

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. I just need to keep this in

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and push , because the

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better thing is that everybody feels

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comfortable and stable and happy and

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I know that I can push through without needing

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to have those things in my life . And

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as long as everybody else is cool , then they'll

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all perceive everything is great and everything

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will be great . I can actually

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put a hell of a lot of weight on my shoulders without

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breaking . That's another thing I've learned about myself

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. I don't break often and

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when I get to a certain point where things

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are too heavy , that's where I'll start

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to like you won't hear from

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me at all . I become really

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avoidant . But I double down on

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work and , like

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the other day , I took two hours and played Diablo

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4 . I was doing math for 16

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straight hours , man , and

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the overwhelm of

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okay , I am not

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only going to school for electrical engineering . I

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got this company . I got all of these things that

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we're trying to do writing books , writing articles , being

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on podcasts , going to like speak

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at things . There's like all of these things

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that I'm doing and if I

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don't pull out of it and give myself

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a mental break from

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like some kind of differentness , that doesn't

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require a lot of thought , for me , video

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games are , like it's become such a great

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source of just dumping myself into

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something and not having to think , and

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so when I'm able to come back to working

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, it's I have a fresh mind . I'm good

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to go .

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It's good to find your thing that you can

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release , even if it's for an hour every

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other day or whatever . You need the

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thing that I was talking about before , when you're just sitting

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and doing something for hours and hours and hours on

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end to avoid that's not healthy . But if you're

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like purposely being like I'm

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taking a break right now , I feel like

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we should do that a little more often and

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I feel like I also feel guilty , though

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I want you , I do too .

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So , like if I decide you know what I'm home today

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. Today's a homework day . I'm by myself . I

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will work from 5.30 in

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the morning till 2

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. That's a full eight hour day , so

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by 2 , I'm sitting here like , okay

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, I got another like 12 hours in me , you know

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, but if I decided to take a break

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and do something and go out , ride my motorcycle

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, go for it like whatever . I would feel

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like what ? If somebody knew

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that . I wasn't working right now , how

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would they ? You know , stupid .

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I found writing articles

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for Deskant . Music is my

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fun . I find that's where I land

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If I have too much to do . I

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just start writing an article for Deskant Music

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, which is great . I have

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a huge library of them now because

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I find myself often avoiding

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the not often , but often

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enough , where I write articles , but

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look at that , though that's still not a break .

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Still you doing work , but it's just you doing

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work that you enjoy for two hours

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. I'm the same way man . Like I will

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, if I have a break , I'm gonna sit and put

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on a lecture about like differential

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equations and calculus and biology and chemistry

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, because I wanna feel like , okay , I'm chilling

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for an hour , but I'm actually learning

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, I'm progressing through my chill . I'm

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about to go to Cabo and be

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on a vacation with my family and I've already told

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my mom I feel so like terrible

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about this . I already told my mom I'm like dude , I'm

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in classes , I have to be in class

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remotely and I have tons of homework

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. I have this textbook that I'm working on . My entire

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team needs it .

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You're gonna basically be doing your life just

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in Cabo .

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I'm gonna be on the beach with a computer in front of me and

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it feels bad to like say

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that because I don't get to see them very often

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different states and all that , but

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it's the reality of my life . Like I can't

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and don't want to stop Right

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.

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Yeah , I think we both put ourselves in this situation

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that if we do stop for

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a week , things would crumble . Everything

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falls apart . Yeah , I definitely

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have to .

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That's a great like . Pause on that for a second

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. We put ourselves in that situation , yeah

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, so the acknowledgement of like this

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is not something that's happening to me , this

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is something I'm doing to myself is huge

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.

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It is huge and I feel like it's

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necessary in my life . When somebody

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asks me if I'm happy , my

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happiness comes from , and this

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is true if the

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people around me are happy , if my

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wife and my kids are happy , I'm

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happy .

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Yeah , I don't need . I don't need like

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joyousness in my life .

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Yeah , I mean , I get joy off of seeing

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them flourish . Right , I get joy off of

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seeing the things I create flourish .

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Yeah , if they're stable , it makes me feel

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like I'm providing the stability , yep , so

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I'm good with that . When I feel like they're not

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stable , I feel like it's my fault

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. Yeah , and that's probably not at all

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true .

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Well it's , it's not not

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true . For example , one

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of my sons was last year was doing pretty

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poorly in school and

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it was because I was so busy . I didn't Everything

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. Everything changed in the schooling since

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COVID , yeah , and everything is just

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slightly different . And then , on top of it

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, I wasn't as attentive as I should

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have been . Granted , he needs

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to do his own stuff and make his

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way through , but he's still just a kid and he needs

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to . He needs to learn how to learn

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and he needs to learn how to work . He needs to figure out

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how all that works . So I dug

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harder into it and now he's in all A's

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, you know . So if I do

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lean away from things

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, they Crumble yeah

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and the whole point of him

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is to teach him how to be . This

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is what you need to do . It's a lot of work to do at school

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, like no , sit there , let's do this , it's work

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. Yeah you know this is how you do it . So

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now he knows , and he you know I

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can let him go a little bit more . Right

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now I'm seeing I've actually

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took a step back from like Hounding

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him and letting him do it . He's , he's

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riding that , he is right now . So there's

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, it's non-stop .

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Mm-hmm , and once that one's

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good , there's another thing you got to start putting your attention on .

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Yeah , not even when that's good at the same time

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. To make sure for other things

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or other things and it's , and it's okay

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because this is the lifestyle

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we chose and other people have

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chosen this type of lifestyle , but

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the acknowledgement of Giving

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yourself breaks is something

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I think you and me are coming to terms

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with , recent we have to yeah

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, we have to tell everybody in our lives To

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fuck off .

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Yeah , you know , not in such a way , but

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we need to , like , make them Know

15:47

that this is a really important thing , or

15:49

else , like things are gonna start not working

15:52

.

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Yeah , yeah , it's interesting . Certain

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things started to happen . I'm writing a

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book on top of all of this . I

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definitely put it aside a little bit over the

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last couple of months just because of everything

16:03

else kind of took precedence . There's

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no like Requirement for

16:08

this book to be done , it's just a thing . It's just

16:10

a thing once I start promoting

16:12

it and Getting a book agent and

16:14

start doing the thing to sell it , that's

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going to be priority .

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Yeah , right now , I just got to get it done .

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I don't know about five , six months ago , when I

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started writing the book , I wanted

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to go to a hotel , to the

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location where the book is , the

16:30

setting of the book , and Type

16:32

it out , and I realized I

16:34

didn't want to do that . I

16:36

wanted to get away .

16:38

Yeah , it wasn't necessarily about you having to go to

16:41

like Oklahoma and sit in a hotel , but

16:43

the idea of not having anybody

16:46

have anything to ask of you for an

16:48

extended period of time . Yeah , I

16:50

still think it's what you need .

16:51

Yeah , it was interesting . Having that realization

16:54

, though Was good

16:56

enough . For a while it was like , okay

16:58

, that wasn't about the book

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, and so it's it's , it's Acknowledging

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it's that thing you're saying , like how

17:05

you're acting is like exactly

17:07

why you're feeling . The

17:09

things you're feeling , or you know . They go

17:12

back and forth . So if you realize

17:14

you're acting strange , assess

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yourself .

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Yeah and change something and change something that's

17:20

a really important thing . Like I've realized lately

17:23

that , like I have

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dogs . I have two pitbulls to

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Belgian Malinois and my

17:29

girlfriend has one of the pitbulls

17:32

, so I already had two dogs but now we have three dogs

17:34

and we live in an apartment downtown in a huge building

17:36

and these dogs need to run

17:38

. You know , and it

17:40

was a really quick circumstance in which I got

17:42

the place that I got and so I just had to have

17:45

a living situation that would have allowed dogs . That's

17:47

the only places I could find . But

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I'm realizing my dogs are

17:51

really Changed

17:53

, you know , like they don't get

17:56

to go out as much . So it's

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been a realization that , like

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not only does my Belgian

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Malinois need to run fast

18:04

, often 90 minutes a day needs like

18:06

exercise and be played with and

18:09

needs her intellect challenged , but

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in going out and like walking

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for like five miles with her

18:15

and bringing a ball and throwing it , like finding

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a long patch of grass , it

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makes me happy you to just be playing

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with her and to like be in nature

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. I find this every time I go to Colorado . It's

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the place I want to quit my entire life and just

18:29

move to Colorado and live in the mountains . I would be so damn

18:31

happy , but it makes me realize the reason

18:33

that is is because I'm not living here and now , I'm

18:35

not in the now . I am in

18:38

73 things in front of my face

18:40

at all times and everything consumes

18:43

my thoughts so much because my attention style

18:45

is I focus in on one thing to

18:48

an extreme degree and nothing else

18:50

matters , and so when I have problems

18:52

that are multiple , or I have multiple

18:54

things that need to be handled , I feel overwhelmed

18:57

so I can't focus on anything . That's not a problem in

18:59

my life , and so the dogs really haven't been a problem

19:01

in my life , but I'm realizing now that I haven't been

19:03

attentive to the fact that they do need

19:05

more . Now that when I go

19:07

out and I do these things , I get back and

19:09

I feel great because not

19:11

only did I get to play for a little while granted , it wasn't

19:13

with an animal , but like it was fun but

19:15

I got to exercise , I got to breathe , I was outside

19:18

, so it was like damn , I need to . Just the

19:20

amount of energy I have that sustains the rest

19:22

of the day when the first thing I go to in the morning

19:25

is just go play with my dog . Like

19:27

I come back , I'm in a great mood . I'm like do you want

19:29

to do everything and accomplish everything ? My mind's

19:31

working , it's clicking faster . So

19:34

the realization to me is like my

19:36

thing that I need is

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just more movement in my life

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, more exercise , more getting out , more being

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outside in nature . That one

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simple thing is like an iota of

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joy and happiness , and it's the kind of break

19:49

that I need , because when I'm out in the woods I

19:51

don't feel like I need to do any work . That's

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my relax .

19:55

When I'm on a couch .

19:56

I feel like I should be on the damn couch . I need to

19:58

do work . So I think , for every person that

20:00

feels burnt out , you just got to find your thing that

20:02

doesn't make you think about work . It could be

20:04

skydiving , boxing , it could be like art

20:07

, whatever it is , but the thing that makes you disappear

20:09

into it without having to feel like you need

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to also work is the thing that

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maybe you should try doing it off . It doesn't make you feel

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guilty .

20:18

It's funny . This whole thing is very

20:20

adjacent to depression . A

20:23

lot of people will rely on food

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for depression , which feeds into their

20:27

depression . A lot of people will

20:30

rely on alcohol or cigarettes

20:32

, which feeds more into the

20:34

depression . It becomes cyclical To

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find that thing like walking in the woods

20:38

which is healthy

20:40

for both mind and

20:43

body . If that's something you like

20:45

to do , then do that

20:47

, because afterwards you're not going to be like well

20:49

, now I walked in the woods

20:51

, I might as well keep walking in the woods .

20:55

No , I feel like I just took a shower .

20:58

I feel clean . It's like , well , I just ate

21:00

a bunch of brownies , I might as well eat some

21:02

more brownies . It becomes

21:04

like what does it matter anyway ? Landing

21:07

there is never okay , but

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it happens to a lot

21:12

of us .

21:13

Once you land there , it becomes a comfortable place

21:15

to stay . It becomes really hard

21:17

to leave .

21:18

The other voice in your head , the

21:20

depression voice of justifying

21:23

that it doesn't matter , is awful

21:25

and evil . Try

21:27

not to listen to that voice , because

21:30

it's real

21:33

.

21:33

Burnout will bring you there for sure

21:35

, I think in general we could probably wrap

21:37

this up , but understand

21:40

if you're going through some kind of craziness and

21:42

you feel overwhelmed and overworked and things

21:44

just aren't landing in

21:47

a finalized place . There

21:50

are millions of us going through the same thing

21:52

.

21:52

That you are most of us . You are not alone .

21:54

Yeah , even if you're not a super gun

21:56

, hoe , crush it do stuff kind

21:58

of . Personally , we are . Everybody

22:00

goes through this kind of thing . I

22:02

think that having some perspective , being a

22:04

little kind to yourself , backing up and being like I

22:07

think I just need to figure out a little bit

22:09

different behavior to put myself through

22:12

and just try something different

22:14

. It's really easy to get into a sinkhole

22:16

of your own thoughts because your own thoughts never

22:18

change unless you put new thoughts in there

22:21

. A lot of times that doesn't happen until you come across new information

22:24

.

22:25

On top of all of it , it's super hard to

22:27

be good at something right away . If

22:29

you've been stagnant . And then you start walking

22:31

in the woods . Even though it's beautiful , it's tiring

22:34

and you get back and you're like oh . I feel awful

22:36

. You have to stick with it to get good

22:38

at it . Like anything music

22:40

, sports , electricity whatever you do

22:42

takes a while before you

22:45

enjoy it , because people typically only

22:47

enjoy the things they're good at . You

22:51

have to climb out of the hole and

22:53

stick with the climb and

22:56

the deeper the more

22:58

you get to climb before you get out of it .

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Yeah , that's true With me

23:02

. The one thing that irritates me about

23:04

myself Right

23:06

now is my weight . Yeah , oh , same here

23:08

, and I've never had that problem in my life Like

23:10

I've . I weigh 200 pounds and I've

23:12

, like most of the videos where people see me and

23:14

I'm like I look good , look fit , healthy , most

23:17

of the stuff , when I don't have a beard , everybody

23:20

went crazy because they're like whoa , where'd the beard go

23:22

? Like you look at a rat ? Uh

23:24

, I was in the gym all the time . I was happy , I was healthy

23:26

, I was like killing it and

23:28

, uh , I'm still killing it , but I'm killing

23:30

myself to kill everything else . Yeah , and

23:33

because of that , like I'm

23:35

, everything that I do is heavier and

23:37

requires more breathing and I just

23:39

feel ashamed . You know I feel ashamed that I

23:41

let myself go to support everything

23:44

else around me , but I see that that's a continued

23:46

pattern in my life . Yeah , um , and

23:48

once I start to like look at myself

23:50

, I realize something else for somebody else might fall

23:53

off . So it's like this constant going back and forth

23:55

about what what it takes

23:57

a lot of Everything

24:00

to lose weight .

24:02

Yeah , it takes a lifestyle change , which

24:04

is very difficult , and it's another thing

24:06

to add to your plate . Yeah , where it's just

24:08

like I don't want to work out , I

24:10

should .

24:11

Yeah , I don't want to well for me

24:14

it's not even that , like I , I have no problem

24:16

shifting my behavior and doing a different thing . My

24:19

thing becomes the guilt of Well

24:21

, if I go and do this right now , I'm gonna

24:23

miss 30 minutes of being able to finish what I'm

24:26

working on , which , ultimately , is still

24:28

not going to be finished for another 17 weeks . But you

24:30

know at least , like . So mine is just an assessing

24:32

of , like , what do I need to do right

24:35

now so that , like , maybe later I can

24:37

worry about feeling better ? Yeah , and

24:39

that's the reason why I just haven't been

24:41

doing things . But in going

24:43

outside and being with my dog , and like she's

24:46

happier she's so damn happy now

24:48

and like I can just tell there's a huge shift

24:50

in her . So it was the realization that , like , okay

24:52

, there's some of this . I just need Electrician

24:55

, you and the world at large that relies

24:57

on it , and y'all as employees , like

24:59

it can be put on hold for me To go

25:01

live my life for an hour .

25:02

Yeah , it's okay , and that goes for you

25:05

too . Yeah , everyone out there listening .

25:07

Yeah , man , the world like sometimes . You just

25:09

got to give a little finger to the world and put

25:11

everybody else on hold and put you first

25:13

and uh . In

25:16

moderation , you know , don't do that , uh

25:18

, because at a certain point then Um

25:20

don't do that at a stop sign , screw

25:25

it , I'm going . Yeah

25:27

, and I don't mean put a middle finger up to other people . I

25:29

just mean that sometimes you need to prioritize yourself

25:31

, and no matter what anyone thinks

25:34

about it . It doesn't matter because

25:36

it's it's you , and you

25:38

got to make sure that you're okay , because in all

25:40

reality , when I'm not doing okay , everything

25:42

else around me is not doing okay too . I think

25:44

that it is . I feel like I'm juggling all

25:47

well , but in all reality , things are falling through the

25:49

crack left and right , and so the

25:51

better that I am , the better that everything

25:53

else is going to be . And that's a harsh realization

25:55

when you realize that In all reality

25:58

, where you're at and everything you feel and think it's all

26:00

your fault . Yeah , sure

26:02

, there are things that are extraneous situations . People

26:04

go through things at the cost of other human beings , but

26:06

largely your feelings inside of

26:08

yourself are your responsibility and

26:10

the way to change them is to change your

26:13

situation . So it is up to you and

26:15

it is your fault that you are in the

26:17

place that you're at and you have . Um

26:20

, in most situations , I think , exactly

26:22

again , not every situation there are extraneous

26:25

things , but in most situations it's

26:27

on you , boba , and Simply

26:29

changing something and and trying to taste

26:31

some new things could , uh , really really

26:33

seriously change everything else in your life . Yep

26:35

, anyways , let's cut this one short

26:38

. Love you , crazy people . See you in the next one . Bye

26:40

.