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Hello guys , welcome back to Faith in Between

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. Today . I am so excited to

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be here and I just want to

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start our conversation with just

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a few announcements , because I've been missing

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for a little while . First of all , I was sick

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with the flu . Me and my entire

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family got the flu two

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weeks ago and then it lasted two weeks so

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the week before we got it and it just lasted for

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two weeks and I have just been exhausted

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and sick and it was just

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horrible , so I didn't do anything for the

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podcast . But I'm finally feeling better and

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just so much things is happening and today

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is the day that I do

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my podcast and so I'm

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here . I'm super excited for it and

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I'm just happy that I'm able to come back

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on and talk stories with you guys again . Before

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we get started , these some announcements

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. I know I announced in my last episode

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that I will be coming out with a podcast

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build podcast episode

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builder workbook , and that is

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still in the works . I am currently

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using the workbook

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right now and so I'm still trying it

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out . I'm still making some adjustments

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to the sections and what I believe

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will be fitting for just a really good

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, straightforward , simple podcast

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builder workbook for you folks

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to use if you think it's starting a podcast

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and my offer to help

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other people start podcasts still stand

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If you guys want to email

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me we learn in Kumohone at gmailcom

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, always happy to help anyone

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who wants to do podcasting , because

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I'm just such a

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advocate for podcasting

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and what we do here , so

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I love it so much . I

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am starting a few new businesses

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that I'm very excited about . That everybody

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can partake in . It's super

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exciting . Besides my Le Po'o business

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, which I'm still doing , I have

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a few orders coming up in October

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and then , but

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besides the Le Po'o , I also

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have my Amway artistry business

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that I'm going to start with my sister , and I'm super excited

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for that . I don't know what Amway is . It's

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a company that has been around for a really long

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time . It is an MLM organization

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and so not a lot of people are fit for that

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, but if you are and you want to hear

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more about it , just email me or

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shoot me an IDM on Instagram or

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Facebook and I'll be happy to talk stories more with

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you about it . But specifically the artistry

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, which is the makeup , because I love makeup , as

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we all know this , and so I'm going

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to help my sister drive her makeup

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part of her business , and I'm

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going to start my own business to

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go hand in hand with her business , so it's

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going to be great . I love it so much . I'm excited

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. And then my last and newest

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endeavor that I'm diving into is

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digital products slash journaling

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or any kind of planner

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or journal or devotional

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. I'm currently

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learning how to sell these things on

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Etsy and on Amazon . So

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I'm super excited because I

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love to do all of this stuff like journaling

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and Canva . I love using all

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of these tools and I love journaling and doing things

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like that on a daily basis . And when God

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spoke to me about making

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my own business and making

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it this , I was a little afraid , which

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is so funny because that's really

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what our episode is about today , and

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I'm just so ready

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to speak and talk to you guys about

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this crazy revelation

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that God had brought to me . And so

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, with that being said , I

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do have a journal that had

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recently been published last night on

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Amazon . I put it out

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about a week ago and it

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needed to go through . They had to

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check in and make sure that it was appropriate

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and that all the measurements were right . I

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just got the email last night that

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they had published my journal

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and it is up on Amazon and I will

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put the link in the description box below

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if you guys want to check it out and go ahead

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and get it . This one was just a starter one

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, just to kind of dabble and see how the process

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works , but I definitely did

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put it work into it . I didn't just throw something

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up there that was , you know , slapped it together . I

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really did take time in the design

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and put thought into what

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I really wanted to put in this journal , because it

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was still my very first journal and

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, if you guys know me , I absolutely love journaling

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. Journaling has been my thing since I was a

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little girl . I love to write

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, I love to just put my thoughts down

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on paper . I have a million notebooks

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and journals that my husband

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can attest to that he's just kind

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of swibbing in

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and he kind of gets a little frustrated

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with me , but I always

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fill up my journals , even if it's just

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with thoughts or even if it's with random shopping

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list . I use my journals for

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everything . I am a writer , I love to

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write , and so this is why

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I just God just kind of brought

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me to this space and it

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was a journey to get here , to get

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where I want it to be in my businesses

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and how I really wanted to stand

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on my own in a business space . And

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I'm excited because God has put this desire in

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my heart and I finally I did

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it . I have a journal . It's called just write

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it journal , a personal journal , and

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it's just a personal journal for you to write your thoughts

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in . This is what I wanted , because that's what I

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love to do , and so I

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just like said it's up on Amazon , it is $10

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. It is a hundred pages long , or a

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hundred writing pages long , 103

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with my introduction and all those other pages

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, but a hundred pages for you to write

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and just to write and just to to

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feel free to

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go ahead and and write

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down all your thoughts and this . I'm

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just so excited that

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I even got to do something

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, this or that I even did do something like this

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. And so you know , as far

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as pre-show chatter goals , that is like

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my main topic for today . So

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the podcast journal I mean the podcast

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episode workbook

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, builder workbook is coming out . I just have a

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lot of things to tweak and I really want

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to push out something that is so is really good for you

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guys . But this journal because

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it's just a writing journal I could

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put all my time

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and all my effort into it and still have

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a good product , even though it's not such like

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really tedious thing it's

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. It's very straightforward , it's just a journal that

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you can write in , that you can use to write your thoughts in or

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even your podcast episodes , if you want to do that , for

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now , until I come out with my podcast

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episode builder . So that

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is , that is what's

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new and what's happening , but

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I want to make sure that we give all

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the time that we can to this episode

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and so , without further ado , let's jump

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right into today's episode

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. Okay

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, everybody , hello and welcome

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back to Faith . In Between , my name is Ui-Lanee

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Kumu-Hone , as always , and

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I am just so excited to be back

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on the podcast and ready to speak

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with you guys and pour into you

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guys just this message that God has been putting

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on my heart for the last week . And

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so , like I mentioned in the beginning , I got me

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and my family all got sick , we got the flu , and

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in this time , a lot of things had

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happened between me and my husband of

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all things , and just so much

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things had stirred and really moved

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and I

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finally got to a place

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of freedom , I mean not just in

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my marriage but in my internal

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heart and the things that I was

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so angry about and holding

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on to and upset about for years and

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years , because me and my husband have been together

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for 13

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years this year and

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I mean you know that there's so

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much things that we compile

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throughout the years and I love my husband

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so , so much and

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so he loves me , but between the both

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of us of course there's things that come up

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, things that we kind of settle

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on or compromise on with one another

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that sometimes we don't

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ever forgive each other really or we don't ever

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express that hurt just for

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the mere fact that

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we A don't want to fight about it , or , two , we

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don't want to disrupt the kids or disturb them

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or that kind of thing , you know . And so

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it was just a lot of that going on and I'm not going to

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get into a lot of detail about it Maybe

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in another episode I'll talk more about it and

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kind of help struggling couples

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that are kind of in that same spot . But right now that's

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not what God was really talking to me on . It was the

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point between when it

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started and when it ended . And that ending point

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is where everything for

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me had just really opened

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up . And I started , after

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I got all of that out from what

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I was feeling between me and my husband and in

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our marriage . After that was forgiven

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, after I could finally forgive and release

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all of those things , really , truly , truly

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, god started

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looking , pointing me inwardly and he

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was like , okay , so this is now , after

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you've emptied yourself of all of that . Now what

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do you have left ? And

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I got a little bit afraid . I got fearful

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because what I had left wasn't much

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, it wasn't much of myself

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, it wasn't a lot of fear was

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left because , if I'm being

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honest , I've come

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a long way from high school . I've

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come a long way from high school . That

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fearless 16

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, 17 year old girl that was

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in high school has really gotten

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lost in my 30 year old

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self now and , like

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I said , just like my marriage , it comes with years

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of compiling of

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, you know , events that happened

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, disappointment that had occurred and things

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that just compile in our hearts , that

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put places this fear in our hearts

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. Sometimes we know about it and sometimes we don't

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. I had a really small

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knowledge of it Like I knew

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. I knew that there was some fear in me

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, but for the bigger part

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I didn't know how much

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and how great this fear

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was in my heart . And so God really

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was like let's

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talk about this . And

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he's had me on a journey of

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really sitting

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with him , and I mean really , really

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sitting with him . So in my morning now I

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take my kids to school , I

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do my yard and then I come into my

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home and I make me

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a drink any drink , a tea or a

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juice or whatever water . I sit down

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at my table with my Bible , my

11:06

journal , a pen and

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my phone , because my phone has my Bible app and

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I start there . I start at my Bible app

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. It gives me a very good starting point because sometimes

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, a lot of times , I just don't know where to start

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. I just kind of was like Lord , I don't know what , you know

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really , where you want me to start right now . And so I

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start in my Bible app because it has scripture

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and teachings already in

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there for me to really start

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with and then leap off

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of . And so and I can

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I just say that I've been leaping off of these , these

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Bible app

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devotionals , daily

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and it's been such a nice , just

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flow between me and Christ , and so

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I do that now

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I do that and then after that I come

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to work , work in my office , in

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and I cannot even explain

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to you guys how much deeply

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seated fear I had

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in my business

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space . And this is what this podcast

12:05

episode about is about . It's about the

12:07

space of business and how I

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feared it , but I was being called

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to it , but I didn't know how to navigate

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that and my fears really

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kept me at a standstill

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at as far as how I

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was going to move forward in my businesses

12:23

, because I had so like God was just placing

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all these desires in my hearts to

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in my hearts . I only have one heart . I'm

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so sorry God is putting so much

12:32

desire in my heart about

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business , and I mean being my own business

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leader , my

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own boss when it comes

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to what I do , how I do it

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, how I run my business and who

12:46

I involve in my space . Because

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my ultimate goal , just like my

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past coach

12:54

had said , it's a business

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tree . That's my ultimate goal . It's

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a business ministry . It's not

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just a business . What I'm building

13:03

has nothing to just do with me

13:05

. Everything that I want to build is

13:07

because I want to have a

13:09

greater purpose to help other

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women and other women

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like me Maybe not necessarily

13:16

the same age as me , maybe not necessarily the same

13:18

background as me but help

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them achieve the things that they want to achieve

13:23

through Christ and

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how that's possible . And

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so when

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I started doing my podcast , I had to start

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doing my podcast episodes somewhere or another . And

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I just like brain dumping . This

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is part of my workbook and I just have a page

13:38

or two or three or four brain dumping where

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you just write out everything

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and anything that's on your mind , because

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sometimes the best way to get

13:46

where God needs you to be is you have to empty yourself

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. You have to empty out the thoughts , the

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emotions , the feelings . I got my emotions

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sides out because these things

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are happening with me and my husband . I got the emotional

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part of me . I got to release that with

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my husband . We got to talk and we

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got to discuss and that's how I release

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that emotional side . There was a lot

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of tears , but it was really good

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, really good for my son

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, really good for my , my , my being . Now

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I have to get my thoughts out , so

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I just bring them to everything and I

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can bring them and bring them . And eventually

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God started bringing me more

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narrow and more narrow and more narrow to

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this thought of

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my fears , and

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specifically my fears in

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business , and why business is

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because that's where God is calling

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me to and I've been so

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reluctant to just stay

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away from it . I

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was giving myself

14:44

all the reasons and all the excuses

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as to why , and I literally just

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dug myself into this pit of like I

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can't do it , I won't be able to do it , and

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and so as God started narrowing

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it down , he started . I

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started asking him these questions

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that just come , you know , coming

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up , and the first thought

15:05

, or the first main

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thing that he brought to me

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was the

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fear of starting new things that I

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won't finish or that I will fail

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at . So right we ? I think this

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is like the root of all of our failure when

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it comes to doing things

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in a work or business setting

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, because we are like

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I don't want to fail

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, right , I just don't want to fail

15:31

. And starting new things is scary

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because we don't know what that

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new thing entails . And with

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, like , this whole journaling process , like how

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to create a journal , how to create digital products , it's

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scary because I still need

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to figure out and do the legwork

15:47

right To this thing that

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I want to do , and I'm like , no , I'm going to fail on it . I'm going to fail

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. And what's going to happen , you know

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? And so God

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brought me to Philippians four , verse

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six , which is one of my favorite scriptures

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. It was one of my scriptures that got me through high

16:02

school and got me through my twenties

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and it says do not be anxious

16:06

about anything , but in everything , by prayer

16:09

and supplication , with Thanksgiving

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, let your requests be known , be

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made known to God . And

16:15

this is the starting point

16:17

of this fear , right

16:20

, because what God is

16:22

essentially telling us is

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, yes , he knows we're fearful

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, but do not be

16:29

anxious about those things

16:31

, right , but in everything

16:33

, by prayer and supplication

16:35

, with Thanksgiving , let

16:38

your requests be known to God . And I didn't understand

16:41

exactly what the scripture was telling

16:43

me up until this point , right

16:46

, and what I was feeling internally

16:48

was that I was like Lord , because

16:52

me and him are going back and forth and I'm like Lord

16:54

. I always have a lot of dreams and aspirations

16:56

, but they , but I never

16:58

do any of them because , like

17:01

, it never gets to the point of

17:03

me actually doing it

17:05

because I get so

17:07

afraid and so scared that

17:09

I don't do it at all . It

17:12

literally stops me from

17:14

doing what I want to do . And

17:16

he brought up my podcast

17:19

of all things , because my

17:21

podcast was the first thing that I did

17:23

, that I wasn't sure about right

17:26

and that I wasn't sure that I was even good at and

17:29

that there was a lot of work that

17:31

I actually needed to be done . And

17:34

I did it for a long period of time . And

17:37

so when I'm going through this with God

17:39

, he's like put your podcast

17:41

. But then I think about my podcast and I'm

17:43

like , yeah , but I've also been so

17:46

stuck in that too , like I've lost

17:48

the desire to want to do it . I mentioned this

17:50

in my last couple of episodes . Like the desire

17:53

for me to want to podcast had kind

17:55

of dwindled and I was getting afraid

17:57

because I was like Lord , why am I dwindling

18:00

away from this thing that I love

18:02

so much ? I love podcasting . I still

18:05

listen to podcasts

18:07

on and on , and I know I forgot

18:09

to mention my favorite podcast

18:12

that I listened to at the end of the last one . So

18:14

I'm going to try and squeeze it into this one if I can

18:16

, if not the beginning of the next one

18:18

. I promise I would definitely do it . But

18:20

and so he brings my podcast

18:23

and I just tell him like

18:25

okay , but right , like I feel

18:27

stuck in this cycle , like I want to get things

18:29

done before for

18:31

the life of me , I can't figure out why

18:34

I just never get them done . Like

18:36

I walk past my office room every

18:38

single day and I just dread , like there's

18:40

just dreading feeling that

18:42

comes over me and I don't know how to

18:45

to really push

18:47

past that so that I can

18:50

do my podcast . And

18:53

right now it's my podcast , because where

18:56

God has me with everything else is just on

18:58

a whole different level . My podcast is that thing

19:00

that had survived from me

19:02

, you know , trying to push through all

19:04

of that , and it survived it . And I'm so happy

19:06

that I'm here doing this podcast episode because I

19:09

know that what I'm talking about today

19:11

God really had set me free from

19:13

and that's our end goal here . That's

19:15

what I want to eventually get

19:17

to for all of us is the space

19:19

where we are set free from

19:22

our fear of these

19:24

things that we want to pursue

19:26

in our life , right , and so

19:28

God had told me this and he

19:30

said a huge part of why

19:33

you're afraid is

19:35

rejection of other people . Right

19:38

, and I still face rejection , even

19:40

in my podcast . But then again

19:42

, the Holy Spirit stopped me and

19:44

it was , like you know , he

19:46

was reminding me that the podcast

19:48

is not for the people who

19:50

are scoffing at it

19:52

or who are bored by it or who

19:55

are any of the negative things right , because

19:57

it's probably not for them

19:59

. Who God speaks

20:02

life into through my podcast

20:05

is exactly who he needs

20:07

to . Even if that's only the 10 people that

20:09

I see listening , or the 20 people or

20:12

the one person , it doesn't matter

20:14

. The whole point of why I started

20:16

my podcast was to reach the

20:18

people that God wanted me to reach

20:20

, not the people that I wanted to reach , but

20:22

but but essentially it kind of

20:24

turned into that and it always does right , because

20:26

we have , we get excited , we have our

20:29

own desires , and so it turns into

20:31

this thing that we want it to be

20:33

, even though we don't necessarily

20:35

purposefully do it , but we

20:37

do it . It ends up shifting

20:40

into this thing of like well

20:42

, now I want all of this great

20:45

stuff and I still want that for my podcast

20:47

. It's just I wanted a different way

20:49

now , because God has showed me a

20:51

different way to want that and

20:53

the desire for that has

20:55

come back because I've discovered

20:58

this different way of doing

21:00

, or wanting to do my podcast , or

21:02

having to to just

21:04

do my life . I want to say that just

21:06

to do my whole life is so different now and

21:09

it's just who God

21:11

got me on a high and I'm so excited

21:13

and so that was the first thing . Right , it was this

21:15

. But , lord , I have so much stuff

21:17

and I still I go back and I retrace

21:19

my steps and I'm like but everything that I want

21:22

to do , I never finish it , or

21:24

I started a little bit and then I drop off

21:26

, or I lose a desire for early

21:28

on , and this is like a cycle

21:30

, a constant , constant cycle that

21:32

is in my life . And so , as

21:35

we're going back and forth God , I am like

21:38

I'm questioning God and I'm like God

21:40

. You know the

21:42

things that you're calling me to . So . So essentially

21:45

, I was questioning God and what I

21:47

believe he's calling me to do because

21:49

of my fear and my

21:51

lack of self motivations in certain areas

21:53

, and that one particular area

21:56

is business , and

21:58

I'm like Lord

22:00

, like I , I'm so afraid

22:02

of it and I don't have the self motivation

22:05

to do it . Why would

22:07

you be calling me to it ? I'm questioning

22:09

my calling on my podcast . I'm questioning

22:12

my calling on where God

22:14

wants me with my sister's business and I'm

22:16

questioning my calling on

22:19

this whole endeavor with the journals and the digital

22:21

products , even though I love it so

22:23

much and they pull , even

22:25

though they pull my , my people of this state

22:28

, even though I love it so much

22:30

. There's so much fear

22:32

rooted in that that it just

22:34

caused me to want to just

22:36

not do it at all . And so God brought

22:38

me to Psalms 34 , 4 through

22:40

5 , and it says I pray

22:43

to the Lord , and he answered me . He

22:45

freed me from all my fears

22:47

. Those who look to him for help will

22:49

be radiant with joy . No

22:52

shadow of shame will darken

22:54

their faces . And I

22:58

like when God brought this

23:00

to me because he brought the scripture to me in

23:02

the Bible app and I was just like wow

23:05

, lord , like wow , that's so great

23:07

, because this

23:09

was now after I had

23:13

Everything had happened with my husband and

23:15

I had really gotten on my knees and

23:17

I just prayed . I just asked

23:20

God , because this was even before the

23:22

brain dump . This was in

23:24

that process . I was still in that process when

23:26

he brought me this scripture and

23:28

he was essentially telling me in that moment like

23:30

we , I Hear

23:32

you and and you've done

23:34

the hard work that you have been

23:36

stuck in this past time in your

23:39

marriage and with your husband , there was

23:41

a lot of . What it would show

23:43

me is a lot of the things that was spilling over into

23:45

my other life had a lot to do with

23:47

my marriage and my husband and my relationship

23:50

, and it's so crazy

23:52

how that all Shown

23:54

itself after the fact and I just

23:56

was like I didn't . I didn't think

23:59

that anything that me and my husband had

24:01

going on was creating

24:03

this lack of

24:05

Desire in my other things

24:07

, and I want to say it's because God

24:09

wanted me to focus on my

24:12

marriage . He didn't want me to focus

24:14

on my businesses . When something like all

24:16

of this turmoil was going on in my marriage

24:18

, he couldn't have it . He can't have it

24:20

because if he's calling me or if he's

24:22

calling you to do something in

24:24

his kingdom , he can't

24:26

have us focusing on it and neglecting

24:29

the things that he has already

24:31

given to us , that he's already set forth

24:33

in our life . Right , my marriage

24:35

is something that he already gave to

24:37

me that is rooted . My home is

24:39

something that he already gave to me , that I

24:42

am rooted in , and he cannot have my children

24:44

and he cannot have me neglecting those

24:46

things to focus on this calling

24:48

of mine that he wants me to , but

24:50

he wants me to In alignment

24:52

, in attunement with him . It's

24:55

not about I can do it . I'm gonna go

24:57

do it . This is what I'm calling to do . I'm gonna

24:59

just go do it . I have to make sure that

25:01

everything in my life is

25:03

still within

25:06

the glory of

25:08

God . I have to , and if something

25:10

isn't glorifying God , if something isn't in

25:12

alignment with God , then a lot

25:14

of that stuff is gonna back it up . And I didn't realize

25:17

that that a lot of that was backing it

25:19

up . And so I

25:21

was sitting with God and I was having an honest conversation

25:24

with him and I was telling him that I

25:26

want more out of my life

25:28

as an entrepreneur , as a business

25:31

woman in my own business . I

25:33

want more . And he

25:35

just answered me immediately

25:37

, guys , like immediately he answered me and he was

25:39

like Are

25:43

you ready ? That's what he said . He

25:46

said are you ready to do the work that is associated

25:49

with starting all of the new

25:51

things that you want it and

25:53

that you want to endeavor on . And

25:56

I got scared . And I got really , really

25:59

scared and I was like I

26:02

don't know , I don't think . So I start doubting

26:04

myself , I start doubting my

26:06

calling , I start saying , yeah , you know what , maybe

26:08

not , it's probably not for

26:10

the best , I'm probably not even supposed to be doing it

26:12

, but because the

26:15

part of doing something

26:18

that I don't know what's gonna happen

26:20

, I don't know if all my work is

26:22

gonna go to waste , I don't know if all of my work

26:24

is actually going to couldn't gonna

26:26

produce anything . And so

26:29

because of that , I was like , yeah , you know what , maybe

26:31

not . And I just started back pedaling , like

26:34

back Pedaling away from

26:36

this thought because , right , I'm , I'm

26:38

essentially calling God on , asking

26:40

him like you know , like how come I

26:43

like do all of this , I want to do all this great stuff ? How

26:45

come you not gonna help me out ? You know , all this stuff was just

26:47

coming out of my heart . And then God

26:49

really gave me a rebuttal

26:51

and was like , okay

26:53

, but are you ready to do the work

26:55

? Because you still got to do the work , because

26:58

I'm not gonna . You're not just gonna sit on your o'colle

27:00

, which is your butt or your yeah

27:03

, you're , you're

27:05

gonna sit on your , your but and I'm

27:07

gonna just give this all to you , because where

27:10

is the glory

27:12

of God in that ? When

27:14

God just gives us the things that we

27:16

are striving for or not striving

27:18

striving is a bad word when

27:21

God just gives us the things that we are desiring

27:23

, especially in something in

27:25

business , where is the

27:27

glory to God ? The glory

27:29

to God needs to be in the journey

27:32

of your business

27:34

or the thing that you want to do and

27:36

it's so bizarre

27:38

to think about Wow

27:41

, I actually need to do

27:43

the work . Because that's where the glory for

27:45

God comes . Yes

27:48

, everybody can pray and everybody can ask

27:50

for these . These miracles happen and and

27:52

I'm for the miracles

27:55

that do happen I am so Astonished

27:58

and grateful for those miracles

28:00

. For those people , it's such an amazing

28:02

thing to watch . But in things

28:04

in something like this , where

28:06

you , you

28:09

have a lot of work to do

28:11

to get to where you want to be in

28:14

your financial life or in your business

28:16

space , god cannot just

28:18

give that to you . Especially if it's a business

28:21

tree , a business ministry

28:23

. God cannot just give it to you , because

28:25

when is the glory

28:27

to God ? The glory to God comes

28:30

when you do the work and

28:32

you connect with other people and you you

28:35

, you produce these

28:37

things that other people need and

28:39

that you serve those people with what you're

28:41

doing . That's how you bring glory

28:44

to God and soul . I , some

28:47

of the things that I was thinking about

28:49

while I was doing this was faith in

28:51

business . Right , business tree Can

28:54

your faith coexist with your business ? Why

28:57

is it so hard for me to do business and

29:00

faith together ? Right , I

29:02

feel like God calling me to do

29:04

business in faith . That's what I feel like he's calling me to

29:06

do . So why is this so hard ? Right ? And

29:08

then again , the podcast is

29:11

my first faith-based business

29:13

. Even though I don't make a profit out of anything

29:15

that I do on here . It is my

29:18

very first faith-based

29:20

business because I believe

29:22

that God is going to take my podcast to

29:24

a whole another level when he's ready , when

29:26

it is time . That's when it

29:29

won't happen , but I gotta still do the work . I gotta

29:31

bring the glory to God before he

29:33

can bring me glory , because it's

29:35

not . There's no way that that can go the other

29:37

way , because God , he

29:39

delights in seeing

29:42

us bring glory to his name and

29:44

I delight in

29:46

that . And that didn't I

29:49

tell you guys right now . That came a week ago when

29:51

I had this whole issue and then I

29:53

prayed and then we , all of this stuff

29:55

I had , I got broken free

29:57

from all of that stuff , right

29:59

. And

30:02

so when I'm like asking all these questions and doing

30:04

all these things , god gave me this scripture

30:07

that I always say , which is

30:09

another one of my anchor scriptures Proverbs

30:11

3 , 5 , 2 , 6 , and I say this so much

30:13

, trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean

30:15

not on your own understanding . In all your ways

30:17

, submit to him and he will make your path

30:19

straight . This is a scripture that is

30:21

imprinted on my heart because

30:24

God , in these moments when I'm starting to question

30:26

the things that is going on , god always brings

30:28

me back to the scripture and he says but we

30:30

trust in the Lord with all

30:32

of your heart . Lean not on your

30:34

own understanding . In all your ways

30:37

, submit to me and

30:39

he will make your path straight . So

30:41

essentially , he's saying but

30:43

are you relying

30:45

on me ? Are you trusting in me for

30:47

the things that you want to pursue , like your business

30:50

? And I have to answer him no , because

30:52

I'm not , because when I start something

30:54

, I always do it on my own strength

30:56

. I get excited and we all do it , it's

30:58

in human nature and I just forget

31:01

to stop and

31:03

truly , truly ask God . I always say this

31:05

in my podcast episodes we got to ask God

31:07

, we got to ask God , sit and ask God , sit with God for a

31:09

little while . But , guys , I'm going to be straight up

31:11

with you guys the time , the amount of times

31:13

that I actually do that . That's why I'm here

31:15

on my podcast , because I want you guys to know

31:18

that these podcast episodes are not

31:20

a one-and-done thing for me . I don't bring them

31:22

out because I'm like a pro at it or that

31:24

I've mastered that skill

31:26

and so I feel like I can talk on it . No

31:29

, it's so opposite than that . It's

31:31

the fact that I still struggle on

31:33

it and the fact that I still don't do

31:35

these things , even though I'm over here talking to

31:37

you guys about it . This is what

31:39

sharing in our burdens and our

31:42

accountability comes from . I

31:44

want to let you guys know

31:46

that even someone who is as who's

31:48

, as spirit filled as I am , I

31:52

fall short all the time , all the time

31:55

. It's not even funny , because

31:57

where God has me in my podcast

31:59

is not to preach at you or

32:01

to talk at you or to teach

32:04

you because I'm better than at

32:06

it , than you are , or I've mastered

32:08

it . No , it's because we're on the same

32:10

level and we share the same struggle and

32:13

we come from the same point

32:15

of I want to do better but

32:17

, dang , I just can't figure

32:20

it out . That's where my podcast episodes

32:22

come from , and if you didn't know that by now , if you really

32:25

, I apologize if I

32:27

come off as this raw

32:29

, raw girl that got it all together

32:31

in my life because I'm

32:33

so opposite of that . Yes , there are

32:35

certain personal things that I will not share

32:38

, like my marriage . I'm

32:40

not there yet . I don't have the

32:43

right words for that situation

32:45

right now to share , even though I really want

32:47

to . God has been working with me on

32:49

it and also I still have my husband

32:52

to think about . I don't want to just be

32:54

spewing our business out to the world

32:56

and my husband isn't comfortable with it , right

32:58

, because he's not . And so there's so much other

33:00

reasons why I don't do certain topics

33:03

or why I don't talk certain things , but for

33:05

these things that I can really really

33:07

talk on , god just fills me with Holy

33:09

Spirit and I just go Like Holy

33:11

Spirit just overtakes me and I just go . All this episode

33:14

is Holy Spirit led . Yes , I have my

33:16

notes . I have my episode builder workbook

33:18

sheets in front of me , which I'm so grateful for

33:20

that Holy Spirit has brought me to , but no

33:23

, I'm not perfect in it . No , I do not

33:25

read my Bible every day , well , not

33:27

every day . Before this

33:29

encounter with Christ , so

33:31

far , every single day , I've read my Bible

33:34

, and I'm so happy that I do

33:36

, and I want you to get to a

33:38

space of that too , because

33:40

, you guys , when

33:42

in that scripture where it says

33:44

there will be troubles

33:46

in the world , but I give you peace , and

33:48

this peace that I give to you is not like the world's

33:50

peace , but the peace that only I can give

33:52

to you God is telling us in that scripture

33:54

. I cannot even explain

33:56

to you guys how much

33:58

I understand that scripture now . I

34:01

understand that scripture so much

34:04

now , after that encounter with him

34:06

, and it's , this

34:08

is , and it has everything to do with my businesses

34:11

and it has everything to do with my family and my

34:13

prayer life and my relationship with God

34:15

. It has everything to do with all of that . All

34:17

of that is inclusive , and so the

34:20

last thing here that I really came to

34:23

think about was I

34:25

can't and won't be able to do any

34:28

of this on my own . It has to be

34:30

all God or nothing . This

34:32

is what God spoke to me

34:34

in the moments of me doing

34:37

my , my brain dump . He said

34:39

. He said you

34:41

can't and you won't be able

34:43

to do it on your own , because

34:46

without God , if it's not all

34:48

God , then it's nothing . And

34:50

and he kept bringing me back to these moments

34:52

of like I could just picture myself

34:55

starting what God wanted me to start

34:57

and then immediately , like not even

34:59

giving him like a year or two , like immediately

35:02

I just take the reins out of that , out

35:04

of his hands , and I just start running with them

35:06

. I got it . I got it . I don't know what I'm

35:08

gonna do . Midway like my podcast

35:10

, midway through that , I have no clue what

35:13

the heck I'm doing . I don't know what the

35:15

direction of my podcast was anymore . I didn't

35:17

know where the desire for it was anymore

35:19

. All I knew was

35:21

that I was struggling and I was losing

35:24

stamina and I was scared and

35:27

God really was like what

35:29

? Like the

35:31

amount of understanding I have

35:33

of this concept now is

35:37

so deeply and I mean

35:39

deeply seated in my heart

35:41

. God , literally after

35:44

everything that had happened . He literally

35:47

put this understanding in my heart

35:49

that for real , we

35:51

like for real . You say it all the time

35:54

, you preach it to other people

35:56

that if you don't seek God first

35:58

, then it'll never happen . That

36:01

if you don't put God first

36:03

, then all this stuff won't happen . Tell

36:06

me why I did

36:09

that . I never seek

36:11

God on the things that I really , really

36:14

want to do . And so when I

36:16

started this podcast episode , I started thinking

36:18

about the journaling , started thinking about

36:20

the digital media market

36:22

. When I started thinking about Amway

36:25

artistry , again Leipo'o

36:27

, again I started thinking about all these businesses

36:29

that I wanted to do , to be a business

36:31

tree woman , god

36:34

was like but are

36:36

you gonna seek me first

36:38

? Are you going to ask me

36:40

first because

36:42

it's not gonna work ? Like

36:44

? He straight up was like yeah , it's not

36:46

gonna work , but if you

36:49

do it and you do it my

36:51

way and you do it the way that I'm calling

36:53

you to do it , that I'm asking you to do it , I

36:56

promise you this way , he said

36:58

, I promise you this

37:00

will work . Whatever you

37:02

want to pursue , you will be successful

37:05

in . And I was just like

37:07

but I'm so afraid . And he was like , yeah

37:09

, you're afraid because you're thinking

37:12

about your own strength . And so

37:14

he brought me to Matthew 5 , verse

37:16

3 , and this was my

37:19

scripture yesterday on my Bible app , because

37:21

we're starting the beatitudes and this

37:23

is the be the very first beatitude

37:25

. And just so happening , it was just

37:27

this . I was just finishing up writing

37:30

this script before I was

37:32

going to come and actually write this script

37:34

out . That was the script , this

37:37

was the scripture that he gave me , matthew 5 , verse

37:39

3 , and it says God blesses those who

37:41

are poor in spirit and realize

37:43

their need for him , for the

37:45

kingdom of heaven is theirs

37:48

. And the

37:50

teaching in this beatitude

37:52

is that when

37:55

we are poor in spirit , right

37:58

. The Bible app the

38:00

definition of the Bible app that they said

38:02

is it says

38:04

that it's know

38:06

that they can't , but

38:08

trust that God can Right

38:11

. So when you are poor in spirit , when

38:13

you know that you can't

38:15

but you trust that

38:18

God can and you

38:20

realize your need for Him , the

38:22

kingdom of heaven is yours

38:24

and God . This is literally

38:27

where God had me . God was like

38:29

are you poor

38:31

in spirit ? He was asking me and I was like yeah

38:34

, I'm poor in spirit , lord . I

38:36

know I can't do it . I can't . This is exactly what

38:38

he was saying . I was poor in spirit

38:40

. I knew I couldn't

38:42

do it . Already I was done trying

38:45

to think that I could do it . But

38:47

I was like but , lord , I have to trust in

38:49

you that you can do it . And

38:51

God was like that is what I'm asking you to do Trust

38:54

in me that I can do the things

38:56

that you cannot do

38:58

. And so I

39:01

have a quote from

39:03

the reading of the Bible

39:05

app after this . It was a part of the devotional

39:08

that they had and I just really loved

39:10

how it summed it all up , and so it says

39:12

, quote so if you're feeling

39:14

weak , weary or worn out , it's

39:16

OK . If you feel like you have nothing to offer

39:19

Jesus . Jesus actually

39:21

says that you are blessed

39:23

. When you have a need , he

39:25

can meet it . When you're not enough

39:28

, he already is . And when you

39:30

feel poor in spirit , you

39:32

are in perfect . You are in a perfect

39:34

position to be saved and filled

39:36

by God . End quote . And

39:39

that was from the U version Bible app devotional

39:41

. And I love that so

39:43

much because that was exactly

39:45

where I was at when I

39:47

was done with my husband , when we had settled

39:50

everything that was going on , after

39:52

everything that we had talked about . I

39:54

felt empty

39:56

, poor in spirit . I could

39:59

not do anything else . I didn't

40:01

have the drive , I didn't have the desire , I didn't have the

40:03

want or the need to do any of it . And

40:05

then the scripture comes up , this teaching

40:07

and the scripture comes up and he is like good

40:10

. He told me good , we . I'm

40:12

happy that you are poor in spirit

40:15

and that you're finally realizing that

40:17

you need me to

40:19

do all these things that you've been trying to

40:21

do on your own all this time that has been

40:23

failing , your marriage included , your

40:26

children included , your home

40:28

included , your podcast , your

40:30

businesses , all included . I'm

40:33

happy that you're finally poor in spirit

40:35

to the point where you now realize

40:37

that you cannot do it without

40:39

me . And that's what God

40:42

needed me to see . And

40:45

he said , in the most graceful

40:47

way I am here

40:49

for you , even , even

40:51

through all of that stuff . I am here

40:53

for you , I will do it

40:55

for you , but let me do

40:58

it . And so I

41:00

have a quote from my journal

41:02

entry that day and I said the

41:04

reason I've I've

41:07

been fearful is because I'm trying to

41:09

do it in my own strength and I'm measuring

41:11

my success based on what I

41:13

can do and my past experiences . But

41:15

God showed me that if I let him do

41:17

it and rely on him and let him do the things

41:19

I'm so afraid to do , then

41:21

it won't scare me , but

41:23

he has to be a part of it in a

41:25

big way . That is why

41:28

I fail at all the things I tried to do

41:30

in the past because I did it without God

41:32

. I always did it on my own understanding

41:34

and strength , and it's so hard

41:36

to do something when you're not the one in control

41:38

of it . It's harder than it seems when

41:41

letting God take control of the situation , because

41:43

you still have a physical , you still have

41:45

to physically do things , but you're

41:47

not doing it on your own knowledge

41:49

or power or strength . You're

41:51

doing it based on God's power and

41:53

what he is asking you to do , which is

41:55

why we need to ask him first

41:58

. We need to sit in prayer before

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we do anything . End quote

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. That was my journal entry

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. The craziest

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thing was , before I got into doing my podcast

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or any of my other businesses for the past week

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, I stopped , I sat

42:14

and I prayed and I just prayed

42:16

. I didn't pray extravagant prayers

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, but I just was like Lord . This is

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what is blocking my mind today . This

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is what is clouding

42:24

my heart , even though it wasn't anything to do with my businesses

42:27

. It was all these other things

42:29

that are going on in my life . But I sat with

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him and I talked to him and

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I gave it to him and I surrendered it all

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to him and after that time I

42:38

was able to come into my room with a

42:41

free spirit and Holy Spirit

42:43

was flowing through me . I got guys

42:45

. I have gotten so much done in these last

42:47

three days because today is Wednesday . In

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the last three days I have gotten so

42:51

much done for my businesses Then

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I've ever gotten done in my entire

42:56

time of starting all these businesses

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. It's the most craziest , bizarre

43:01

thing , but because God is

43:03

now the forefront , I

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know that he was supposed to be all this time and

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I know I may have . You know , we

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all deal with things , we all have issues , we all have

43:12

these tendencies that we all have to . You

43:14

know , try our best to . You know , cover

43:17

it up when people are around or whatever we want

43:19

to do . But it's that

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God was like that's all done . All

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of that is done . Even if that's what it really was , even

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if you feel guilty or whatever you

43:29

feel about it . It's done , I

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forgive you , forgive yourself

43:33

and let's move on . And this is all

43:35

that God has told me . He has took my hand and

43:37

he has said we let's go

43:39

, and we are just going , and I want

43:42

that same freedom for

43:44

you guys . So my final thoughts

43:46

on this whole issue , this

43:48

whole teaching , is that

43:50

I believe that Matthew five three hits this

43:52

right on the nose , and I'm so grateful to

43:54

Christ for bringing me such revelation

43:56

, because I've been struggling with this for

43:59

months and then , when

44:01

thinking about starting up another business , I kept

44:03

questioning God . That is this , you

44:05

know , is that not what I should be doing ? But

44:08

that was mostly because I didn't want to

44:10

, because I was afraid to , of

44:13

course , afraid to fail . But

44:15

here God answered me and he told me that

44:18

if I continue to do it in my own strength

44:20

, I will always fail . It

44:22

was time to get in prayer and connection

44:24

with him so that I could start being successful

44:26

in the things that he has called me to

44:28

that I never was successful

44:30

in before and it brings

44:32

me joy . Right , it

44:35

says in Psalms 34 , 34

44:38

, five , four through five . Right

44:40

, I prayed to the Lord and he answered

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me . He freed me from all my fears . Those

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who looked to him for help will be radiant

44:46

with joy , no shadow of shame

44:48

, with dark in their faces . That is my

44:51

exact feeling after coming

44:53

out on the other side of this encounter with Christ

44:55

, and I want that same thing for

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you today . If

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there is something , anything that you

45:02

that you feel like is

45:04

blocking is , is just

45:06

in your heart , in your mind , take it to God

45:09

, and I mean or or or

45:11

. Go and release it right . For

45:13

me , it was my husband . I had to had

45:16

to talk to him about all of these things . I had to let

45:18

that out and trust me , it got ugly before

45:20

it got better , just like anything else , but

45:23

it freed me from

45:25

a lot of things and it opened up a lot

45:27

of gates for me . And I don't know if that looks

45:30

like a person or a

45:32

past event , or I don't know what that looks

45:34

like for you , but whatever that is , go back with

45:36

Christ , forgive it , forgive

45:38

that person , forgive yourself and move on

45:41

, cause that's what the essential thing is Break

45:43

those fears apart , because you've

45:46

just seen a cycle . That's what it was right . You've

45:48

just stuck in a cycle and I finally

45:50

broke that cycle after having the encounter

45:53

with Christ , and I want you to break that

45:55

cycle too . So , whatever

45:57

that is , look for it and

45:59

break that cycle . Go with God and break

46:01

. I don't know what it's going to look like for you . It might look

46:03

totally different than what I just explained to

46:05

you , that happened to me , but it has

46:08

to be something , and I know that it is , and

46:10

you will feel so much better , so

46:12

much more free . I cannot even explain to you guys

46:14

. You guys , you just hear it in my voice and

46:17

so right , I'm

46:19

still unsure of right

46:21

, what exactly my future looks like ahead

46:24

of me , but it and it still scares me a lot . But

46:26

I'm not allowing my fear

46:28

of my own abilities to stop me from doing

46:30

what God is calling me to do . I've made a choice

46:33

to do the work that it will take to do the

46:35

things I want to do . Because now I understand

46:37

that , as long as I know and realize

46:39

and act in the reality that I am capable

46:41

of doing any of this stuff on

46:43

my own , and that without

46:45

God I can do , without

46:48

God I can do nothing , I know that it's

46:50

all I need for God to do extraordinary

46:53

things in my life and in yours is

46:56

to know that without

46:58

God , you can't do nothing . Nothing

47:00

will get done without Christ , nothing

47:02

. Let Him do it

47:04

. This episode is running a little long

47:06

, so I promise the beginning of my next episode

47:09

I will talk about my favorite podcast episodes . I

47:11

will make a note of it so that way you guys will know

47:13

what is my favorite podcast . That I did too . But

47:16

other than that , guys keep it looking out

47:18

for my workbook coming out

47:20

soon . I also want to let you folks know

47:23

via Instagram or Facebook or podcast

47:25

or on the podcast . I'll make the announcement and

47:28

I'll also be posting about my digital

47:30

products that are going to be available for purchase and

47:32

my journals that are going to be on Amazon and

47:34

Etsy , and I'll be doing things

47:36

like party invitations , cards etc . As

47:39

well as planners , journals , prayer

47:41

books , business things , all

47:43

that kind of stationary stuff . So be a little

47:46

tough for all of that , and I will definitely get you

47:48

more details on everything

47:50

. So mahalo , so much for joining

47:52

me today . I'm so grateful that

47:54

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47:56

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48:29

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48:31

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48:34

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