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So you know this
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romance rom-com movie
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bracket? Yes. That we
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don't need to get into you choosing violence
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around that. I
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have so much more ready to go. Just
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set that aside. I
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think, do you notice about my daughter that
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she became like very obsessed with Ouija boards
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this year? No. Do
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you know? I do, so. I don't actually
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know why somebody out there is gonna be
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able to tell me why, but like she's
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consuming some kind of media. I
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think it must be a graphic novel. Because
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like mostly I know what TV she's watching. She's
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consuming some kind of media that's like, has
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introduced her to the concept of the Ouija board.
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Which I had one when I was little.
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And then I was like, she kept asking me for
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one. And I was like, I
0:54
have one in my, like there's one in my
0:57
mom's house somewhere and I couldn't find it. And
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so I bought her Ouija board, which
1:02
is sitting in her room and who
1:04
knows what happens with that thing. Who
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knows what spirits she is calling upon
1:08
from the Milton Bradley corporation. For telling future.
1:14
I don't think it's Milton Bradley, but it does feel,
1:16
it feels right. That it's some sort
1:18
of board game company. Anyway, Pandora
1:20
Ravenel. So then,
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oh yeah, exactly.
1:26
Nice job. Always back to romance, always.
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That's where we are. Okay,
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so, oh, I'm also turning my microphone up because Eric
1:34
told me that I was not
1:36
loud enough. Which is not a thing
1:39
anybody has ever told me ever
1:41
in my life since
1:43
kindergarten report cards. So
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anyway, so the romcom
1:47
movie bracket reminded me of
1:55
the movie only you. Have you?
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No, I do not remember this. Okay,
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so let me paint you a
2:03
picture. Baby
2:05
Marisa Tomei and
2:07
baby Robert Downey Jr. fall in
2:11
love in Rome in 1994. That
2:15
sounds nice.
2:17
With the Ouija board. So nice. Well,
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no, the way
2:23
that it works is it's such a cute setup.
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Okay, so anytime anybody in the world... All right.
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I have so many things. I have so
2:31
many thoughts. You want to introduce us first or
2:33
we're gonna... Welcome everyone to Fade
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Me. I'm
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Sarah McLean. I read romances. I write
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them and I'm going to talk to you about
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them. This one right now. I'm
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Jennifer Prokof, a romance reader and editor.
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I am afraid of Ouija boards. I've
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never actually played with one. Oh,
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like you believe that you might just
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summon a spirit. I think I saw
2:55
some scary... Yeah, I
2:57
saw some scary Ouija board. Okay,
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well this movie will cleanse that
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for me. It will cleanse the
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scary and it will really...
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I was freaking
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delighted. Anyway, the
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point is this is a movie from my youth. I
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was in high school and this movie came
3:15
out and totally obsessed with it. Sure. I
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mean, like, because Robert Downey Jr.
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and Marisa Tomei. Who wouldn't be, right? Adorable.
3:23
So, this is so cute. And
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what I wanted to say before then you said I
3:28
shouldn't introduce us, fated mates and all, is
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if you are a writer out there
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and you are struggling with the concept
3:35
of what we mean when we say
3:37
high concept, this
3:40
is what I'm about to explain to you
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is high concept. Okay. The
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movie begins. She is 11
3:47
years old. She is playing Ouija board with
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her brother and she
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asks the Ouija board spirit to
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tell her the name of her
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destiny, like of her fated mate. So...
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The We Do board produces a name
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Dame and Bradley. And
4:04
I will say anybody for anyone
4:07
out there who only you printed
4:09
on and imprinted on. Yelp.
4:12
In those early days literally feel
4:14
like we're just dame and Bradley
4:16
Girlies like just floating through the
4:18
world. Same and Bradley eggs. So
4:21
anyway, cut to. Fourteen
4:24
years later, She. Is
4:26
an English teacher. At
4:28
a high school teaching about
4:31
destiny. Like. See that
4:33
sets of romantic poetry? She's like. Bullies
4:36
and of me. but. She.
4:39
Has just or she accepts
4:41
a. Proposal. From her boyfriend who
4:43
is like a very decent. Podiatrist
4:45
but not named David Bradley Up
4:47
named Dame and Bradley and literally
4:50
like here we are under no
4:52
ten minutes into the movie and
4:54
she's like really, Feeling like? I
4:56
don't know. You. Know yes, he's the
4:58
right choice is clear that she's not like.
5:01
Over the Moon Dame and Bradley a
5:03
my with him season. The.
5:06
Phone on the wall ring.
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She. Picked up the phone and
5:11
she says and and it's
5:13
a there's the connection. Is sad
5:16
and the guy on the other end
5:18
of the line says I got the
5:20
invitation to your wedding. From. My
5:22
friend, your a future husband. I'm
5:24
sorry I can't be there because
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I'm gonna be. In. Europe
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I'm in Europe and she says i can't hear
5:30
you what's your. Name and he says
5:32
dame and body heat and. She's.
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Like oh, I
5:38
know that would ruin it because you
5:40
guys the idea is so strong, like
5:42
their home planet. Like said run away
5:44
and actually like you know this woman
5:47
is gonna change her whole life now
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because. Some. Man named Game and
5:51
Bradley calls her fourteen years after a we
5:53
do board told or facility with her death
5:55
Smith. Said. She
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goes to. Italy and she
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finds Robert Downey Jr. Who
6:03
says he's Damon Bradley and it
6:05
goes on from there and it's very adorable
6:08
and I high until last night
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I Said
6:13
to my daughter like there's
6:15
a movie about Ouija board. I think we should
6:17
watch it and we watched it and
6:19
she was Riveted Amazing
6:23
and it and here's what I will
6:26
say all these years later what 30 years
6:28
later God I mean first of all, they
6:30
look like actual babies But
6:35
30 years later this movie actually does
6:37
hold up and so I think
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I've talked to her I talked on one of the
6:42
episodes or on our banter plus episode for the patreon
6:45
About how like this bracket makes me
6:47
sad in a lot of ways because it's like all the
6:50
classic Romcoms like don't
6:52
haven't been watched. So, you know
6:56
Although I did see somebody on Twitter sort
6:58
of saying like well It goes
7:00
in the reverse to like it feels like there are a ton
7:02
of people who haven't watched any of the new ones New ones
7:04
and they just vote right for one area that's alley or whatever,
7:06
right? But
7:10
if you haven't seen only you It's
7:13
really charming. Is it streaming somewhere to gift
7:15
a but no Eric was like Why do
7:17
you keep picking these movies that aren't on
7:19
streamers and it is true because the other
7:22
movie I recently made Victoria
7:24
watch Was pitch perfect
7:27
one of the pitch perfect and that wasn't on Or
7:30
maybe it wasn't I can't remember it. Anyway
7:32
point is you paid your five only year
7:34
only you is top-notch And then Eric so
7:36
that was last night and this morning Eric left
7:39
He's like away with you know men and
7:43
the and He
7:46
and My daughter was
7:49
like, what are we gonna do? Cuz it's pouring down rain
7:51
It's Saturday and I was like,
7:53
well, we should watch something She's like,
7:55
is there another movie that we can watch that would be like
7:57
yeah like that one on And
8:01
I was like, you know what movie I want
8:03
to show you? And I showed her The Sisterhood
8:05
of the Traveling Pants. Perfect. Which
8:08
is perfect, you guys. If you are
8:10
out there and you have a young
8:12
girl, like a, I would say like
8:14
8 to 14 in your
8:16
life. And
8:19
they have not seen Sisterhood of the
8:21
Traveling Pants. It's so cute
8:23
and actually really, really well done.
8:28
Like better than I remembered. And of
8:30
course, she like a little bit broke
8:32
my heart because America Ferrara is
8:35
a teenager in this movie. And
8:38
she was like, why do I recognize that girl? I
8:40
was like, that's Barbie's friend.
8:43
That's the mom from Barbie. Anyway,
8:48
all very exciting. So that's my
8:50
update. Jen, you should watch
8:53
Only You and anybody with
8:57
a tween should watch Sisterhood
8:59
of the Traveling Pants. I watched the
9:01
first episode of a TV show on
9:04
your recommendation, Sarah. I watched Ripper
9:06
Street. Yeah. And yeah,
9:09
it was great. I totally like was super
9:11
into it. And basically, this
9:13
is because I made fun of
9:16
the man in Macbain. Yeah,
9:18
but you see now that. Yeah,
9:20
I still like downside. I don't
9:22
feel that I'm wrong about the.
9:24
I know, Jen, but I don't
9:26
know what your problem is. Unwashed.
9:28
I need a ride to my
9:30
job at the fast
9:33
food restaurant vibe. That man gives off
9:35
in everything. Every single people
9:37
are like, look at them. And I'm like,
9:39
he needs a ride to his job after
9:41
school. Anyway, you're just not attracted to English
9:43
men. It's true. Well, I had a full
9:46
of this video. A lot of things were
9:48
happening. Anyway, so you were like,
9:50
watch him. He's older and heavier.
9:54
And I was like, yes, that's what I like. And it
9:56
was great. It was. I really liked it. And then it
9:58
was funny because is that the episode where he says
10:00
you and me alone. No, he's
10:02
busy. There's no ladies there.
10:04
Yeah, there's no women. But
10:07
it's like coming up. It's like a second.
10:09
Okay. Okay. With his wife. Is
10:11
it with his wife? He says it to his wife.
10:14
Their marriage is falling apart. It's the whole thing. But
10:17
uh, okay. Yeah. Anyway, anyway,
10:19
rip. I'm so glad and you
10:21
know what? I mean, the first episode of the show
10:23
is never a horror. Well, and it's
10:26
funny because two nights later, I was like, Oh, maybe
10:28
I'll try and watch another one. And everybody, I, you
10:30
need to understand that like my internal
10:32
clock for watching TV is still
10:34
set in the, you watch one a week. So
10:37
I just was like, you know what? I wasn't ready to watch
10:39
another one two days later. I was like, I gotta wait till
10:41
next week to maybe watch another one. Yeah, it's fine.
10:44
I get it. So it was great. So I totally
10:46
enjoyed it. Well,
10:48
listen, we've just delivered three
10:50
excellent suggestions to
10:53
people who are out there just thinking about
10:55
what to watch. Thinking about what to watch. Well,
10:57
come watch us in Brooklyn on March
10:59
23rd. We're going to be doing faded makes life. I'm
11:02
very excited about it. It will be
11:04
with Kate Claiborne and Nikki Payne and
11:06
Lauren Billings of Christina Lauren and a
11:08
lot of people that you hang
11:11
out with on the internet, if you're in a discord or
11:13
Twitter or Instagram, and you can
11:15
order books
11:18
in it. Now this part is really important.
11:20
Everybody, if you are coming, you
11:23
can preorder books from the ripped
11:25
bodice and they will like bring them, which is
11:27
great. But most importantly,
11:29
if you would like Kate Claiborne's
11:31
new book, the other side of
11:33
disappearing, you can get it three
11:35
days early at faded made five, but there's a cut off. And
11:39
that cutoff is March 14th, I
11:41
believe. So you really need to
11:43
make sure that you preorder that one in
11:46
particular and then you can shop the night of
11:48
or preorder and also shop the night of. Pay
11:53
attention to your email, everyone who is coming,
11:56
because you're going to get an email from us
11:58
with information on meetups ahead of time. and
12:00
after the show and also
12:03
links for all of those pre-orders that Jen just
12:05
talked about. And
12:08
recommendations. Somebody did this like very fun
12:10
recommendation thread. Was that in the discourse?
12:13
Oh yeah, about bars near the William
12:15
Vale and what they would
12:17
be like if they were romance novels. I
12:20
mean, it was perfect. Correct, no notes. Yeah,
12:25
well one other thing too is
12:27
like if you are interested in stickers
12:30
and other merchandise from Kelly, she has a
12:32
pre-order. She'll just like give you stuff there
12:34
including avatar buttons which are really
12:36
honestly very helpful. If people only know you
12:38
from like how you look, your little
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circle. You can have
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that tiny circle on you and you'll be surprised
12:45
at how great it is. You're like, oh I
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know you. So that's also happening. But
12:50
I am actually mostly getting just really excited
12:52
now that it's March. I'm just like, I
12:54
cannot wait for Feta Beach Vanna. I know. I cannot
12:56
wait for Feta Beach Vanna. Exactly. It's
12:59
gonna be so fun. It's a posh hotel,
13:01
a posh room at a posh hotel. It's
13:03
gonna be fancy and
13:06
we're really excited. So, Feta
13:09
means what? It's always a good time. Yes.
13:12
Alright, so this week, I
13:15
can't believe that it's taken us this long. Yeah.
13:18
We're doing it. Here we are. We're doing it. Enemies
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to lovers. Enemies to love. Enemies
13:23
to lovers. And
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I have to tell you, I
13:28
struggled a bit to find... You've
13:31
never read a book? I've never read a book. Ever.
13:35
And then I look at lists of enemies to
13:37
lovers, of which there are many. Oh
13:39
no. And I've never read a book. You can't do that.
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You can't take the... You can't do those lists. They're wrong.
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No, they are often wrong for sure. Okay. We have a
13:46
lot to talk about. I have, look, I have a
13:48
grid. I made a grid. Alright.
13:51
I'm going to get messy and talk to me about it. No,
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it's not an X, Y axis. It's not as
13:55
good as usual. But
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I do think... But I think that's a...
14:00
piece of it, right? Like, I think there
14:02
is an enemy slovers. I think
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it's deeply misunderstood as
14:07
a concept. I think
14:10
a lot of people who are
14:12
more, who
14:14
are newer to the genre, perhaps
14:16
like don't understand how much enemies
14:19
we, many of us are really talking
14:22
about when we're talking about enemy slovers.
14:24
Like, I want it to hurt at the
14:27
beginning. So
14:29
I think one of the things that is really
14:32
often the case instead is people are
14:34
really like describing rivals slovers. Oh yeah,
14:37
that's the bottom left quadrant of my chart.
14:39
Why don't you talk about your chart then first and
14:41
then we'll... So you have a plan.
14:43
So I have a structure, a super structure. I
14:45
have four quadrants. Okay. I
14:48
think we're going to talk about possibly the top
14:50
two. And then
14:53
the bottom two, I think, are not relevant
14:55
to this episode. All right, tell me what they are.
14:58
So the top two are enemies to
15:00
lovers straight up. So I straight up
15:02
enemies, straight up lovers. And
15:05
then friends to enemies to lovers,
15:07
which I think is like a
15:09
segmented sort of different thing
15:11
because it often includes like, it
15:14
includes like, it's more angsty in a lot of
15:16
ways, I think. Okay. Because like
15:18
there was a time when you did... Like this
15:20
person. No slash like slash love. Okay.
15:23
So caveat, lovers to
15:25
enemies to lovers also acceptable there.
15:29
Okay. But then
15:31
I think on the bottom, in the bottom two,
15:33
I have rivals to lovers
15:35
because I don't actually think most rivals
15:37
to lovers count as enemies to lovers.
15:40
Yeah, I would agree. Yeah.
15:42
Like I would think, I think a lot of people
15:44
talk about the hating game. Like it's like a terrific
15:47
enemies to lovers book. And the hating game is a
15:49
terrific book, Jen. And I have done, we've done a
15:51
deep dive on it. I have no, I love the
15:53
hating game, but it is not
15:55
enemies to lovers, point of order. It is
15:58
rivals to lovers and those who... actually
16:00
do enjoy each other's company the
16:02
second they start to engage with
16:04
each other personally. Look at you.
16:07
Shot across the bell. Okay, I like it. I
16:09
think it's Rival's Lovers, which is a
16:11
different episode. Possibly
16:14
next week. Who knows what we'll get? Who knows what
16:16
we'll do? Okay.
16:18
But it's interesting because as I was going
16:20
through like the blank to
16:22
lovers list in my head, I started
16:25
splitting them, which is why I have a grid. Got it. Because
16:28
I was like, Oh no, that's right. That's not that way. Okay.
16:31
And then the bottom right corner is empty for me because
16:33
it's friends to lovers and who cares? Not
16:36
your face. Not not your face.
16:38
No, friends lovers is not for Sarah. And that
16:40
is because Emily Emily Emily
16:43
to lovers. And
16:45
that's because enemies lovers is
16:47
so much for Sarah. Yeah, right. I'm
16:50
like, why am I even here reading about these
16:52
very nice people being very nice to each other?
16:55
Sure. Totally. I got
16:57
you. I mean, I'm sorry out
16:59
there. I know some of you love friends to
17:01
lovers so much and I don't get it. So
17:03
like, tell me, hit me up
17:05
on Instagram and tell me why is it
17:08
when we had Priscilla Oliver son. I
17:10
think we did friends to lovers with the guests because both we
17:12
were both like, okay. Sarah's
17:15
like, I've never read a single friends
17:17
to lovers book. I've read one
17:19
that I really liked and that was it. So
17:23
Josh and Hazel's guide to not dating
17:25
everyone. There you go. Here's
17:31
where I choose violence a little bit
17:33
everybody because I was
17:35
really violent. I mean, no, I'm saying
17:37
I am choosing violence again. I've made
17:39
fun of violence if it's true. Oh,
17:42
okay. Well, here comes my. I
17:46
was really like, okay, so remember everybody I've
17:48
never read a book. And
17:51
so I was like, okay, well, let me remind
17:54
myself of these enemies to lovers books. I've certainly
17:56
read. That is an enemy. What is the lover?
17:59
Who knows? And then I was like, why are all these books old? And
18:03
then I realized that enemies to lovers has
18:05
fallen out of favor because people are afraid
18:07
of conflict. They don't want it
18:09
anymore, right? And you can't have enemies to lovers
18:11
if you can't, if you don't
18:13
want to read about conflict. No, I wanted to
18:15
hurt. Yeah. At the beginning.
18:18
Yeah. And so I think one
18:20
of the reasons- I wanted to hurt at the end. Yeah. That's
18:22
a different kind of hurt. Yeah. I
18:24
think one of the reasons that it is harder to find
18:26
like more recent great examples is
18:28
because it is people
18:31
are, I don't know, reading softer
18:33
books, right? For a variety of
18:35
reasons. Well, yes. I mean, friends
18:37
to lovers is on the
18:39
rise or at least having a day. Yeah.
18:42
So, I mean, I have a couple that I
18:44
think will be really good and I'm excited to
18:46
talk about. But I just
18:48
really was thinking like, why are these kind of
18:51
out of favor right now, right? Like fake dating
18:53
is about the only is, you
18:55
know, kind of, I don't
18:57
know, like a big wave that has drowned
18:59
all the enemies to lovers at the up the
19:01
shore. Okay. Well,
19:03
now here's where I like layer on
19:05
the violence. Okay. I do have
19:07
a what on the back of my card. It says what
19:09
makes enemies lovers work? There you
19:12
go. Okay. So
19:14
the first thing that's on the list is stakes. Yes.
19:18
Right. So this is where you say conflict.
19:21
And I think that
19:23
stakes are essential to making enemies
19:25
lovers work. The only way this
19:28
idea functions is
19:31
if these two people dislike
19:34
each other intensely for a
19:37
real reason. Yes. Right.
19:40
So if essentially if love
19:44
happens between these characters, something
19:47
else has to fail. Yeah.
19:51
So we so we
19:53
see this like all the
19:55
time. It's like it's
19:57
very classic in like familial. usually
20:00
there's often a family dynamic here,
20:02
like my father and your father
20:04
are mortal enemies and
20:06
therefore we are enemies, right? Or
20:11
there's a revenge piece,
20:13
like one perceives, in
20:16
some cases, one is perceived
20:18
to have wronged the other, in
20:20
some cases they actually did wrong
20:23
the other. I
20:26
say take the finger and go straight to
20:28
the, they actually did, but like,
20:31
A Heart of Blood and Ashes, right? Is
20:35
a very strong, Animese to Lover's
20:37
book, because he
20:39
believes that she murdered
20:42
his parent. Yes! It
20:45
is a perceived wrong, but
20:47
it doesn't, but like, and
20:49
the, I
20:52
mean like, this is also an example of a
20:54
book where miscommunication or like
20:56
a misunderstanding is deployed
20:59
perfectly. Yes. But
21:02
the stakes here are so
21:04
high because, one,
21:06
he believes that he is exacting
21:08
revenge by kidnapping her and like
21:10
taking her away, you know? But
21:14
also, he, if they love, if
21:16
they fall in love, what
21:20
breaks is his loyalty, perceived loyalty
21:22
to his family. It costs
21:25
him something. He cannot love her
21:27
and be the son his parents deserved, in
21:33
his mind. Yeah. You
21:36
know what I think about a lot with that book? It's like
21:38
this, that's
21:41
a book that's perfect, right? This
21:43
book is perfect, but there's this
21:45
thing where he keeps threatening to
21:48
like cut out her tongue. I think about it once
21:50
a week, at least that tongue thing. Explain.
21:53
Everybody also, you should run and read this book
21:55
and then go and listen to the deep dive
21:57
that we did. Yeah. But now Jen, go.
22:00
Well, he just keeps threatening to cut
22:02
out her tongue because he's like, you're lying. Right?
22:05
Like he's like, I don't, I don't, I'm not
22:07
interested. Like stop talking to me. Like just, she
22:10
is, she did not kill his
22:12
parents. In fact, she loved
22:14
his mother. Like his mother was like
22:16
her was, yes, somebody who was incredibly
22:18
important to her. But every
22:20
time he brings up or
22:23
every time she brings up his parents,
22:25
he says, if you
22:28
say anymore, I'm going to cut out your tongue. So
22:31
she's never allowed. She's never allowed to speak.
22:33
Oh God, it's so good. He doesn't want
22:35
to hear her. Like it's your patriarchy, right?
22:37
And it's so good. And it's like the
22:40
other thing I just have so much respect
22:42
for is it's like, and
22:44
because it's in a world where that kind
22:46
of violence is acceptable, right? You kind of
22:48
like take a, like it takes a minute
22:50
for your brain to realize like it's both
22:52
like a real threat and
22:54
a metaphor, right? Like you will not speak
22:56
their names. I will not hear what you
22:58
have to say about them. And then because
23:00
of that, he's like trapped in his own
23:02
hell because he can't listen. Right.
23:05
It's so good. And that's the part I
23:07
think like, Oh God, that book is perfect.
23:09
I mean, in every way, perfect, freaking
23:11
perfect. Literally in every way. I mean,
23:14
whatever, but, but the point is
23:17
like it's stakes, right? And
23:19
what I mean by that is like we, the
23:22
reader have to understand.
23:25
What the stakes are. So
23:27
I mean,
23:29
yes, I totally agree with you. I made this list.
23:31
Most of these books are old. Um,
23:35
like, and by old, I mean like 30 years
23:37
old, like 30 or 40. Yeah.
23:39
Right. They're old. Right. Like the
23:41
first book that always comes
23:43
to mind when I think about any means to
23:45
lovers is a kingdom of
23:48
dreams. Mm-hmm. Where
23:50
like, again, another book we read, we did
23:52
a deep dive on. It holds up it's
23:55
by Judith McNaught. These
23:58
two are, uh, It's
24:00
warring clans, like warring families
24:03
in medieval England. And
24:07
there is a sense of just
24:09
like at any moment, one
24:12
family could kill the other. And
24:15
when they, and she fights
24:17
him every step of the way
24:19
because she's been trained by her
24:22
family to believe that familial loyalty
24:24
is the most important characteristic that
24:26
a person can have, even
24:29
when your family is acting,
24:31
is a bad actor, right?
24:36
Horrible things happen in this book and
24:38
they fall for each other anyway. And
24:41
at the end, literally, the stakes
24:44
are he is going to die
24:47
if she doesn't admit that like,
24:52
if she doesn't turn her back on this like
24:54
feud. So
24:57
good. These are, I mean, now granted,
24:59
right, this is a medieval, so the stakes are
25:02
able to be in
25:04
Heart of Blood and Ashes is a fantasy. So
25:06
it's like the stakes are able to be that
25:08
high. Right.
25:10
Like Cressly's
25:13
vivisection. Yeah. Mr.
25:15
Vivisection. Right. Right. Dreams
25:18
of a Dark Warrior. Thank you. Like he
25:20
literally vivisect her. Yeah. Which
25:23
like it's but she's an immortal. So like she's
25:25
not going to die. Right. But
25:28
like that's pretty awful. And they
25:30
have to like the stakes are so
25:32
high. Like, how are they
25:35
ever going to get together? I
25:39
mean, that's the fundamental question of an enemy
25:41
is to lovers. And that's why I think
25:44
I think part of the
25:46
challenge, Jen, and this could be
25:48
me choosing violence. I don't know. This
25:52
wasn't the violence I thought I was going to choose today, though. But
25:55
with the rise of contemporary and the fall
25:57
of everything else. Yeah. We
26:00
are not seeing it because contemporary can't
26:02
play these games the way historical,
26:06
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26:09
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26:53
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26:56
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28:32
here's where I feel like this is
28:34
where like mafia romance can come in.
28:36
And now what's interesting to me is
28:38
I'm sure people are like this is
28:40
where dark romance comes into you but
28:42
for me it doesn't
28:44
because mafia is sort of
28:46
the place where I think you can get like here's
28:49
because here's why you need you
28:52
need parody. They have
28:54
to be enemies. Yes, they can't be
28:56
like you can't have a huge
29:00
massive power imbalance in enemies to
29:02
lovers. Otherwise, it's like the equivalent
29:04
of like you know somebody's
29:07
got their hand outstretched on the other
29:09
person's head who's just swinging and can't
29:11
touch them like a little kid right.
29:13
And so and you know dark romance
29:16
very rarely has equals
29:18
like that right. So
29:20
I was well also it feels like
29:23
it has to be proactive enemy-ing.
29:25
Yes, right. Like yeah right.
29:28
I think the challenge and people
29:30
are gonna be upset. Dark romance films are gonna be
29:32
upset I think with what this is with what I'm
29:34
about to say and I don't mean it to
29:36
be upsetting but often
29:38
in dark romance or at least in the dark
29:40
romance that I have read which is granted not
29:42
as much as many of you. The
29:46
heroines are simply not proactive.
29:49
They are kidnapped
29:51
or dragged through the mock or like
29:54
thrown into a situation where
29:56
like they are The cat they
29:58
are captive or they are. Blog
30:00
being. Controlled or they are imprisoned.
30:02
Or they are. whatever. But.
30:05
It's. A passive voice, right? They
30:07
are blanks, right? Say, like I
30:09
said of. You
30:11
know, They. Get themselves in prison
30:13
because they've been reason you know
30:15
they had they been, they broke
30:17
into the heroes. House to kill
30:20
him. Yeah, one of my
30:22
favorite scenes in the Adventurers is like lot of
30:24
it's like Black Widow and she's like it looks
30:26
like she's. Getting the crappy it out of her right? And
30:28
like some comes in to save her and
30:30
she was like I was almost or my
30:32
interrogate send them to see normal. Still A
30:34
told me everything and some is like playing
30:37
the guy the whole entire time and guess
30:39
you know I again like I'm sure and
30:41
you know please tell us. I'm sure you
30:43
can think of a few dark moments where
30:45
that is that true. But yeah you need
30:47
you need to start off with people being
30:49
equals or they're being parity or. In
30:51
that just not really would dark moments
30:53
traffic. so there are equal skin and
30:55
muggy? yeah. right? Like. In
30:58
order for it to be true enemy
31:01
slivers, you have to feel like either
31:03
one of them could lose. Yes, and
31:05
it would be real bad. Ill so
31:08
in Mafia Targets which is by our
31:10
friend Mila Finale: I'm Joanna Soups Wanna
31:12
join a ships and. I
31:14
guess her only financially up one
31:17
of what y no headway on
31:19
that this is a gay romance
31:22
between an assassin. Alessio.
31:24
And I'm coolio who is like
31:27
the son of south so was
31:29
like so. I'm in
31:31
other. Herb. Per
31:33
Derek craven her Sebastian sentence and
31:35
rattling just like that our house
31:37
character from the first books in
31:40
this Kings in Italy series. Anyway,
31:42
Coolio has. I'm kind
31:44
of appears the first couple books.
31:46
He is ah ya a very
31:48
young I mean like eighteen or
31:50
nineteen and any closeted a on
31:52
that as like sort of a
31:55
condition of the ending of. book
31:57
to he is gonna like escape
31:59
hello like just like leave
32:01
it because you know for
32:04
various reasons one of which is like
32:06
would they ever accept a gay mafioso
32:08
and like the you know the the
32:10
mafia and like there's all these
32:12
really rigid rules around everything around
32:14
you know having families and
32:16
wives and all that stuff and so there's
32:18
just no way for him to be part of
32:21
this world so he leaves and this
32:23
is a really big deal like right like
32:25
it's really him turning away
32:27
from like a life he kind of understands and
32:29
loves in order to like you know kind of
32:31
be out there and so
32:33
he is at the beginning of the book
32:36
like I don't know like living in some
32:38
little you know province
32:42
in Scotland or something I
32:44
mean like he's he is
32:46
and and he is kind
32:48
of struggling because like this
32:50
entire world that he thought he knew right
32:52
he has renounced
32:55
he's renounced his birthright in
32:58
order to essentially be free and
33:00
Alessio has been hired to kill
33:02
him and
33:06
because he's an assassin right
33:09
and so what we get
33:11
is like this real like clash
33:14
of the Titans kind of feeling right
33:16
like you have like this mafia prince
33:18
on one side and this
33:21
you know completely cold-blooded
33:23
assassin on the other
33:26
and what they end up so
33:28
you know he finds them in Scotland and
33:30
then they end up falling in love and
33:33
then it's kind of a well
33:35
how can we
33:37
how can we live in you know
33:39
we can't leave this world there's no leaving this
33:41
world right you tried and it's not gonna work
33:45
and so how can we then
33:47
it's like conquer it right so
33:49
that the enemies part really is
33:51
like that he's gonna kill him
33:54
and it's not like what I guess I I like
33:57
about it is it's not necessarily
33:59
personal which in
34:01
some ways I think makes it even more
34:05
like pressing, right? Like it isn't something I
34:07
can just like lay down my dislike for
34:09
you. I have a job to do. And
34:11
if I don't do it, then what's going
34:13
to happen to me, right? And it's
34:15
great. You know, Mila
34:17
has a really good handle
34:20
on how to thread that
34:22
enemies to lovers needle. You
34:24
know, certainly in some of
34:27
the books, she leans harder
34:29
into like kidnapped
34:32
daughter of my rival, right? That's
34:34
the first one, Mafia Virgin.
34:37
No, Mafia Mistress? Mafia
34:39
Mistress. That's right. Right.
34:42
And but in Mafia
34:44
Madman, which is, I
34:46
don't know, either right before or right after
34:48
the one you were just talking about, there
34:51
that also that has some of that dark romance,
34:53
like he kidnaps her, he's like the villain of
34:55
the play, like he's been the villain for multiple
34:57
books. But she
35:00
pairs him with a
35:03
heroine who is not
35:05
taking any of his shit, despite the
35:07
fact that she has been like thrown
35:09
into his yacht cage. Right.
35:12
So I think
35:16
you're right. I think it does
35:18
ride and he kidnaps her because
35:21
she is the sister-in-law of his
35:23
rival whom he wants to punish. Yeah.
35:26
So there is a sort of deep enemy piece
35:28
here. The stakes here, though, are
35:30
as soon as they start to fall
35:32
for each other, like the one
35:35
what happens to the rivalry and two,
35:39
you know, like how is she go
35:41
again? It's that familial loyalty. Right. Right.
35:43
I keep now that you know, when
35:45
when Sophie Jordan said to me, like
35:47
all mafia books are just medieval. Yeah.
35:50
You were like, it rewired my brain.
35:52
Absolutely. Like now I just can't I
35:54
can't unsee it anymore. And so like
35:57
the family rivalry in mafia books. So
36:00
it's warring clans, right? So it just,
36:04
it literally was the book that I put
36:06
down next after A Kingdom of Dreams. And
36:08
I think it's just because like, my brain
36:10
went medieval, mafia. And then I
36:13
want to talk about how
36:15
it can be done without like, like
36:18
high stakes, drama, like
36:20
somebody might die. And
36:23
I do think that there is something to
36:25
be said for historicals, for being able to
36:27
deliver that too, because
36:29
in historicals, there is such
36:31
a powerful reputation holds
36:34
such powerful weight in
36:36
historical. And I
36:38
think like, that's not to say reputation
36:40
can't hold weight in other, in contemporaries
36:42
too, but like reputation
36:45
is the realm of the historical.
36:49
And so I want to talk
36:51
about Courtney Milan's Unlocked, which is
36:53
a novella. And a lot
36:58
of people love Courtney in general. And
37:01
I just think like this book, this
37:03
novella proves that like, this is, I think
37:05
the place where Courtney shines the
37:07
best in this sort
37:10
of small bite. If
37:14
you've never read Courtney, do this one. So
37:17
Unlocked is essentially
37:19
like a bully historical. These
37:22
two characters long ago, when
37:25
the heroine came out in society, the
37:28
hero and a group of his friends
37:30
like basically destroyed her reputation for kicks.
37:33
And like made her feel
37:35
really bad about herself. Like made the
37:38
whole, made her the laughing stock of
37:40
like society. And I think
37:42
the other thing that historical is able to do
37:45
with this, with reputation that, you
37:47
know, contemporary maybe is less able to do
37:49
is the society
37:51
that is built in historical is
37:53
so tiny that
37:55
it feels like, you know, one misstep
37:58
and that's it you're ruining. forever,
38:00
you're unmarriageable, you're
38:04
a woman so you won't ever be able to
38:06
own property or have, your
38:10
literal life is ruined. And
38:13
so he goes
38:15
away and she gets older and he
38:18
comes back and she's like on the shelf,
38:21
she's the spinster on the shelf and
38:23
he comes back kind of
38:25
ready to make amends
38:28
and she won't have it. I
38:30
love that. Don't forgive them? No,
38:34
I mean it's terrible and what
38:36
he did was terrible and Courtney
38:39
really threads an interesting needle here because
38:41
she doesn't, she does not forgive
38:44
him for what he's done but
38:47
she really considers
38:49
the weight of
38:52
societal expectation in this tiny little
38:54
novella in a way that I
38:56
think a lot of historicals dance
38:58
around but Courtney
39:01
doesn't, she's not
39:03
afraid of like really digging deep and looking at
39:05
that. And so if
39:07
you're, we don't talk a ton about Courtney on the
39:09
podcast but you should
39:11
start there with Unlocked. Yeah, I
39:14
have a recommendation that I think is sort
39:16
of similar like you're talking about reputation but
39:18
I'm gonna like preface this by saying like
39:22
you cannot just like pick up this book and read it.
39:24
Like it is really reliant on having
39:27
read the Kate Daniels series. So the book
39:29
is Iron and Magic by Alona Andrews
39:31
and in the Kate Daniels series,
39:34
the big bad guy is named
39:36
Roland and
39:40
which is not a fear that strikes you
39:42
know fear and pardon me but whatever, will if you
39:44
read these books. But then like many
39:47
books in his,
39:49
okay so Roland's like warlord which you
39:51
know I love this right. His like kind
39:54
of first in command, I love a warlord,
39:57
is this guy named Hugh D'Ambre and
39:59
he is awful, the entire,
40:01
like he will do anything to
40:03
try and fuck with Kate. He
40:05
tries to break up Kate and current.
40:08
He is just like constantly terrible.
40:10
He's always conniving and
40:12
you know just terrible. And so
40:15
in, it's late, late in the
40:17
series, seven or eight books into the series,
40:20
he essentially gets fired by Roland
40:22
and just like disappears. And
40:24
in this book, so this is like a
40:27
spinoff, he ends up,
40:29
his men are called the Iron Dogs, like
40:35
his warriors. And people
40:37
essentially are killing them off and you can't
40:39
quite figure out why. And so he ends
40:41
up like teaming up with this woman named
40:44
Olara who is
40:46
trying to keep her people safe. And essentially
40:48
they strike this like real devil's bargain and
40:50
they cannot stand each other. He
40:53
can help her essentially like fortify
40:55
her literal castle with
40:58
his men. And
41:00
in return, she can like sort of like put
41:02
them all up and give them a safe place for
41:05
them to sort of like recover, right? And
41:07
this is like one of those things where
41:09
you're like, there is no way that you
41:11
are going to make me like Hugh D'Ambre.
41:16
Bonk, bonk. Right? Da,
41:18
da, da. And so,
41:21
and like I said, I think this would be
41:23
a really difficult book to read, Cold. It
41:27
is, they do not trust
41:29
each other at all. And
41:31
there's this one really great part where
41:34
like they actually I think have to get married, you
41:37
know, I mean, and they're like both like, okay, fine, I guess we
41:39
have to do this to save our people. Where
41:42
you know, like the first wave of attackers comes
41:45
at them and you know, like they're fighting or
41:47
something. And he realizes
41:49
that she hasn't told him about like some
41:51
razor wire that she has possession of and
41:53
he's like, why don't you tell me about
41:55
that? And she's like, what the fuck
41:57
are you talking about? And he's like, what? When
42:00
I told you I didn't know everything
42:02
we had like eight minutes to places
42:04
like a really dramatic series about like
42:06
a story that like these two people
42:08
who hate each other and but like
42:10
are forced. It's really like the only
42:12
way to work together and I any
42:14
I know. Like I said you can
42:16
read a cold. But it is I
42:18
ate Really like is one I think of
42:20
off them when I think of true people
42:22
who are truly like I cannot fucking send
42:25
you. Let's go. Yeah. So
42:28
I think. Whole.
42:32
Thing I want to as. I.
42:35
Have a couple of contemporary so my left eye
42:37
to eye to. And
42:39
I. I'm. I'm trying
42:41
to sort of think I've I've been thinking lot about
42:44
like how they are. Similar.
42:46
Like what? What it is about a
42:48
contemporary that really works for me when
42:50
it's enemies the lover. So I think
42:52
there are two versions of this that
42:54
work. I think the first is we
42:56
are thrown together. By.
42:59
Friends. And or family and
43:01
like we just. Don't.
43:04
Like each other, Right
43:06
path and I think that
43:08
is very. That. Is a
43:11
terrific. Like A
43:13
is a very very good set
43:15
up in the hands of the
43:17
right author. Like I think that
43:20
it can quickly not have any
43:22
T V out cause of aforementioned
43:24
conversation about steaks. I'm
43:27
I'm I'm just gonna name's Hack two
43:30
bucks The do that because we've done
43:32
deep dives on both of them. The
43:34
first says her best worst Mr got
43:37
apparently know which we have both said
43:39
multiple times we believe is like a
43:41
perfect hot here A plus enemies lovers
43:44
know. I'm.
43:46
It. Is. At her best
43:49
friend was supposed to
43:51
marry him and in
43:53
said. She'd take sauce
43:55
and then he blames.
43:58
The hero blame the heroin. for
44:00
his bride, like essentially leaving his
44:02
fiance leaving. And they
44:05
fucking hate each other. And she's
44:07
basically like, I have hated you.
44:09
I didn't think she should marry
44:11
you. You're terrible. And he's like,
44:13
you're terrible. I hate
44:15
you more. And then they
44:17
like and so part of the stakes
44:20
there is like their own false
44:22
view of themselves and each other. The
44:27
other one is asking for trouble
44:29
by Tessabilly, which is still, I
44:31
think my favorite Tessabilly book where
44:34
they are each of
44:36
their, again, their best friends. So
44:38
the hero's best friend and the
44:40
heroine's best friend get married in an earlier book
44:42
in the series. And these
44:45
two hate each other. And
44:47
but they have to, they're sort of forced
44:49
into having to deal with each other because they're
44:52
planning, you know, there's a wedding happening.
44:54
So they are, they have
44:56
to be together for the best party and
44:58
the best, like the engagement party and the
45:00
wedding and they can't stand
45:02
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46:36
My other ones are all
46:38
workplaces because I feel like that's
46:40
the other place that you can get
46:42
like sort of really strong. Oh,
46:45
interesting. Like feelings. Like feeling not
46:47
none of them are workplaces. Interesting.
46:49
Okay. So you go. Why
46:52
don't you go? Well, I want to name
46:54
check the worst sky.
46:56
They are not rival. No,
46:59
they, you know what it is? I
47:01
was thinking so hate, hate working with each
47:03
other. You know what it is? It was
47:05
like usually when I think about it and
47:08
these three books have this in common. They
47:11
work together, but they
47:13
disagree intensely about the,
47:16
like how to do the work. Does
47:19
that make sense? So they are
47:21
an indirect competition, but they are
47:23
like in
47:25
like essentially like they have a different
47:28
worldview and because they work
47:30
together, this is like illuminated for them.
47:33
Right. So one is the worst guy
47:35
by Kate Canterbury, which I think is
47:37
like a real fan favorite. Lots of
47:39
people love this book and they are
47:41
both essentially
47:43
re like reconstructive
47:46
plastic surgeons. Like
47:49
you that kind of work. And
47:52
what happens is she
47:54
is like
47:57
basically thinks he's like a hatchet man. he
48:00
doesn't care as much about what
48:02
things are going to look like after the
48:04
surgery is done. Whereas
48:07
he thinks that she is like, doesn't
48:10
understand that sometimes it's like life or
48:12
death and who cares if there's like
48:14
a scar, right? And so he
48:16
thinks she's just sort of this like prima
48:18
donna. And she just thinks
48:20
that he is utterly ridiculous
48:22
in the way that he operates.
48:24
And basically these two... I mean,
48:28
and this part was a little hard for me to
48:30
believe, but they have some sort of
48:32
scuffle at work that is like so
48:34
elevated that they get ordered into like
48:37
conflict resolution. And
48:41
then they have to like sort of figure
48:43
out like, okay, maybe I can see their
48:45
point of view in a different way, right?
48:47
A very similar
48:50
setup to that is, but
48:53
one that I actually thought the like,
48:57
it has a really hot opening, like I literally read
48:59
it and I was like, I've never read anything like
49:01
this before. It's called Fighting for
49:04
Control by JJ Arias. And
49:07
in this book, it's Lola and Carmen
49:09
and they both work for... Lola
49:12
is an agent and Carmen is
49:15
a lawyer and they both work for like a
49:18
PR, like an, I don't know,
49:20
like Dominion is the name of the agency. It's like a...
49:22
I don't think
49:24
she's a sports agent, but like whatever details
49:27
don't really matter because wait till I tell you about the beginning of
49:29
this book, I was a GOG. Like I
49:31
was like, oh, they mean it. JJ
49:33
Arias is not playing. So Lola,
49:35
the book opens with Lola trying to get to
49:38
work and she has like, she's looking down at
49:40
a cup of coffee with the word like Natalia
49:42
on it. You find out later, it's her boss.
49:45
And she is, there's
49:48
like, she's on a Miami street and there's
49:50
the bus and then the
49:53
parking garage she's trying to get to
49:55
where her office is. And so
49:58
there's the bus and her
50:00
car and then she sees up
50:02
ahead Carmen's SUV. Carmen's
50:05
SUV and she's just like, God damn it Carmen's
50:08
gonna beat me into the garage and be the first
50:10
one in the office and like you're not really quite
50:12
sure why this is so important but the
50:14
light turn screen and
50:16
Lola like floors it and
50:19
then like tries to cut across all
50:21
these lanes of traffic, cuts
50:24
off Carmen who is essentially trying
50:26
to also make it into the
50:28
garage and then the two of
50:30
them literally get into an accident
50:32
because Lola is driving so recklessly
50:34
and something about this like triggers
50:36
Carmen to do the same thing.
50:38
They almost hit the guy in
50:40
the garage who's like just
50:42
trying to put the garbage away. They have this and
50:44
then like they like you know like Lola stops
50:47
out of her car and Carmen starts out
50:49
of her car and you're like what is
50:51
going on? It's like it is sky-high and
50:53
you know Carmen's like you know that you
50:55
know this was your fault and Lola's like
50:57
you're the one eating my ass because like
50:59
you know Carmen hit her and then like
51:01
they both kind of freeze and you realize
51:03
these two have been in bed together. And
51:06
you don't know why and you don't know how but
51:09
you know that they've done it and they
51:11
fucking hate each other still and instantaneous. That's
51:14
like what's gonna happen and they
51:16
like the worst guy get offered that
51:18
they have like essentially they get told
51:20
you have to go to you know
51:22
conflict management and both
51:24
of them are like that's ridiculous nobody can force me to
51:27
do it but then the people who can force them to do it
51:29
force them to do it. And the
51:31
thing about Lola in particular is like
51:33
you were just like what like Carmen
51:35
is always trying to like stay cool
51:37
and so calm and Lola is just
51:39
a firecracker and you're
51:41
like why is she so angry all the time?
51:44
And it really takes like a long time for
51:46
you to figure out like why she's so aggressively
51:48
like in your face but I literally
51:51
was like literal, a literal
51:53
bang it starts with this car
51:55
crash right? Perfect. Yeah that's great. I'm
51:57
gonna get that right now. more.
52:00
Can I talk about it? Okay, yeah,
52:03
this one. I have a lot more. Okay, I have
52:05
a feeling you're gonna have others that you want to
52:07
talk about when I bring up two more things. Oh, I'm
52:09
sure. But these are like the workplace ones. This
52:12
one, listen, we mentioned this because
52:14
our, it was an
52:16
ad last week by Kayla Woofberg for
52:19
this book called Late Night Love. And
52:22
I was like, oh, it's NME still lovers. I
52:24
should look at it. Like, right, like it's new.
52:26
It literally just came out. And if you'll remember
52:28
everybody, she wants
52:31
to be on, okay, so like we're reading
52:33
the ad, she wants to be the weekend
52:35
update writer for a TV show that's called
52:37
like Late Night in New York. And
52:40
so what happens is I'm reading
52:42
the book and this is all in the
52:44
first chapter or two. There's
52:47
two guys on the like weekend update desk,
52:49
Alex and Chris. And
52:51
she is like, everybody hates Alex. His dad
52:54
is some big wig. We all know that
52:56
he has just, just has this job because
52:58
of his relationship to the,
53:00
you know what I mean? He's a Nepo
53:02
baby. He's a Nepo baby. And everyone hates
53:04
him. He is a jerk and he has
53:06
an asshole and fine, right? But the person
53:08
she really hates though is Chris because
53:11
she's like, but everybody loves Chris, haha,
53:13
not like that TV show. But
53:15
she's like, but why? Because he
53:17
is constantly enabling Alex. And
53:20
it's really like heartfelt. Like you're like, oh
53:22
yeah, that is a good point. Like it's,
53:24
everyone hates the guy everyone hates, but like
53:27
she hates the guy who enables the guy
53:29
everyone hates, right? And so
53:31
I don't want to spoil it because
53:33
the joke that she like slips into
53:35
the cue cards is really good. And
53:38
Alex, remember, this is live TV when
53:40
it says and like loses his mind,
53:42
like loses his mind and is shouting
53:45
like, who fucking did this on live
53:47
TV? And then like does some
53:49
other stuff. And essentially the producer
53:51
is literally like, you're fired
53:54
to Alex right now. But then here are the
53:56
stakes. She's like,
53:58
I'm making you incredible. Chris, not just
54:00
head writers of The Women's Name is Emily.
54:02
You and Chris are now not
54:05
just head writers of the weekend
54:07
update but of the show because our
54:09
ratings are in the tank and that laugh she
54:11
got was the biggest laugh not that just we
54:14
got tonight but we got all season. And
54:17
if we do not like turn this
54:19
ship around, they're gonna cancel the
54:21
show. And I was
54:23
like, there you go. So they have to
54:26
work together even though they hate each other. And
54:28
I was like, and there you go. Like it's
54:30
stakes, right? Perfect. Boom.
54:34
It was great. It's great. All
54:36
right. So I have two things. I
54:38
want to talk about shame. And
54:40
I think this is one of those things. It
54:43
is really tricky. This is a tricky
54:45
line for writers because
54:47
I think when
54:50
you and I came to romance a million years
54:52
ago, shame,
54:54
particularly the heroine
54:57
feeling shame was
55:00
like a very big piece
55:03
of this plot line. But
55:05
I think old school romance
55:08
does this very well in terms
55:10
of like making really
55:12
breaking the heroine on page or
55:14
at least like attempting to break
55:16
the heroine on page until
55:19
the hero sees the truth. Like
55:22
just how bad it is. So
55:25
there's a book that's in my head that I cannot, I
55:28
do not remember the name of and I do not remember
55:30
what it is. But so I'm going to tell you a
55:32
story and you're going to tell me if you remember this,
55:34
but I'm going to talk, but let me give you some examples
55:36
of how this works. So the
55:39
trick here and the reason why I say it's tricky
55:41
is because there is a balance
55:43
between making the heroine so ashamed or like
55:45
deploying shame as something
55:48
for the heroine
55:55
to feel to make her
55:57
hate the hero enough that like.
56:00
It is true enemies, right?
56:03
And so that is like, that is the balance that
56:05
you're trying to strike. But very
56:08
often in this, it falls
56:10
into like, oh my
56:12
God, this heroine's like a doormat. And
56:15
like, it's not fun to watch this.
56:17
No. Right? So
56:19
what I'm thinking about, I think
56:21
there are two people, there's one person who
56:24
does this like almost perfectly every time she
56:26
does it and that's Susan Elizabeth Phillips. Every time
56:28
I knew you were going there, right? You
56:32
can't talk about enemies, love is without talking about Ain't
56:34
She Sweet, where Sugar Bath, the setup
56:36
is that Sugar Bath has done a very
56:38
terrible thing. When
56:41
she was a teenager, she
56:44
basically told the staff
56:47
of her small town high school
56:49
that the English teacher, the brand
56:51
new young male English teacher had
56:54
sexually harassed her. It
56:57
was not true. She like,
57:00
he was immediately fired, he left town
57:02
and then he comes back. However,
57:05
many years later, triumphant, he's written like
57:07
a memoir
57:09
slash biography of this small
57:11
town, like a
57:13
Tracy Kidder style book of
57:16
this small town, returns by
57:18
the like home where Sugar
57:20
Bath's family had been
57:22
sort of on high there and
57:25
then like basically hires Sugar
57:27
Bath to be his servant. And
57:31
like, it is like, it is
57:33
hot, the shame that she feels when she's
57:35
like made to like, be
57:38
to like serve the women, the
57:41
girl, the women, the once
57:43
girls now women who went to high school
57:45
with her. It
57:48
is almost impossible to imagine how
57:50
this romance is going to work out, but
57:52
it's Susan Elizabeth Phillips, so it works perfectly.
57:56
And then I think also Susan does this well in
57:58
something like Kiss an Angel. Right like oh
58:01
my god everybody listen. They are apparently
58:03
redoing the whole gorilla enclosure at the
58:05
Brookfield Zoo Where I was
58:07
like I was like I guess I have to read kiss an
58:09
angel again. Sorry everyone. I Mean
58:12
cuz an angel is terrific. You should go listen
58:14
to Jen's episode of learning the tropes about
58:17
kiss an angel It's so
58:19
fun, but it's also another one where
58:21
like shame is really interestingly deployed And
58:25
then there's like a very listen check your content
58:27
warnings I'm not even sure that I like I
58:30
don't even like love recommending this book anymore But
58:32
it is a book where like shame is
58:34
very I think well deployed against an actress
58:37
that is like deeply problematic in a number
58:39
Of ways, but I'm thinking about like Megan
58:41
McKinney's till dawn tames the night like these
58:43
are sort of like very big
58:45
old-school books that do this Here's
58:48
my question for you Jen. Yeah There
58:51
is a romance novel I'm pretty sure it's
58:53
historical This is the
58:55
question for everyone. Yes The
58:57
heroine it's this kind of thing like
59:00
she's basically forced to like be his
59:02
servant she's like Scrubbing
59:04
floors like basically and she keeps
59:07
his basically he keeps saying to
59:09
her like if you admit
59:12
That I've broken you yeah I'll
59:16
it all stops and she
59:18
refuses refuses I'm not gonna
59:20
only read that book but what I get it I
59:22
mean first of all I think I've
59:25
read this book probably in like many
59:27
different forms Yeah, like I think this
59:29
is a very classic old-school romance setup
59:31
Yeah, because it's a way for us
59:33
to like really visualize patriarchy. Yeah, right
59:35
like he is unwilling
59:39
to He knows what he
59:41
is doing to her and he lets
59:43
it happen because she won't admit She
59:45
doesn't like it's a heart of blood
59:48
and ashes. It's the same thing. Yeah,
59:50
right You're telling me I won
59:52
and I'll stop right and so when we
59:54
say like these books are inherently feminist Like not
59:56
to get on my high horse, but here
59:58
I am This is what
1:00:00
I'm talking about. Like this was transcendent in
1:00:03
the 80s. Yeah, like this the 70s
1:00:05
80s and early 90s like this concept
1:00:08
right, we could see Visually
1:00:11
what these heroes were doing and it was a mirror
1:00:13
of what the world does to
1:00:16
women and other marginalized groups, right?
1:00:19
so I Can't think of
1:00:21
it and I can but
1:00:23
I can like see him ultimately break like
1:00:26
yeah fundamentally Right what ends up happening in
1:00:28
these books is it's the hero
1:00:30
who breaks? Yeah, the hero wins are strong
1:00:32
as steel but when
1:00:35
the hero breaks He
1:00:37
breaks because he sees Wow.
1:00:40
Yeah, how what he's done or Like
1:00:43
what he's attempted to do. Hmm. Yeah.
1:00:46
No, I definitely read that book. I
1:00:48
play. Oh, of course so
1:00:50
like I think that where I'm
1:00:52
at here is like when we talk about it, I
1:00:54
mean lovers like That's what
1:00:56
I want. I wanted to feel like Somebody's
1:00:59
gonna break. Well, and I think like
1:01:01
the other thing about books like this
1:01:03
is Like when we
1:01:05
say detector content warning, it's like their
1:01:08
boundary crossing right? like very like not
1:01:10
just in like the content warning way,
1:01:12
but like literally like this is You
1:01:16
really have to see people like fly way
1:01:18
past the point where they should have stopped
1:01:21
Right. I mean, you know You have to like
1:01:23
literally be willing to like be like jamming on
1:01:25
the gas when you should be like just letting
1:01:27
the person go In front of you into the
1:01:29
parking garage, right? Yeah And I
1:01:31
think that that's why like enemies to lovers
1:01:34
when it works is like you really feel
1:01:36
like these people are on the edge Yeah,
1:01:39
right. Like there's something about the way this
1:01:41
works that they're just kind of like We're
1:01:45
you know, here's where I am right at the edge. Now
1:01:47
what right? Yeah So
1:01:50
my last books the
1:01:53
last books that I want to recommend are Contemporary
1:01:58
marriage of convenience, right because
1:02:01
I think that is an example of
1:02:04
a trope that has
1:02:07
higher stakes in
1:02:09
contemporary in many ways than it does in historical.
1:02:11
Like I think in historical it's like, I need
1:02:14
a title, okay, I have a daughter, right? Or
1:02:17
like whatever it is. And we sort
1:02:19
of, we use it so
1:02:21
regularly that it can be done on, you
1:02:24
know, on a full scale, full
1:02:26
spectrum of emotion. But in contemporary,
1:02:28
if you're going to set up a marriage of
1:02:30
convenience, it has to have, it
1:02:33
has to be real, right? Why
1:02:36
on earth would that happen without
1:02:39
there being some sort of really
1:02:41
significant stake? Yeah. So
1:02:44
I want to talk about Angelina M. Lopez's Lush
1:02:46
Money, which I think is a
1:02:48
very good example of how this can work. The
1:02:51
heroine of that book is
1:02:54
a billionaire who, a Latinx
1:02:58
billionaire who has had to like
1:03:00
prove herself at every point in
1:03:02
her life in order to succeed.
1:03:04
She is a self-made billionaire. And
1:03:07
she has decided that she wants
1:03:09
to have a child who she
1:03:12
can pass on like all of her,
1:03:14
you know, money and power and strength
1:03:16
too. But
1:03:19
she would like for that child to never
1:03:21
be questioned on any level. And
1:03:24
so she strikes a deal with
1:03:27
an aging king of
1:03:29
a small European nation. Amazing.
1:03:32
And she's basically like,
1:03:34
I will bail out your
1:03:37
country if, with
1:03:39
my billions, like my billions that easily
1:03:41
cover your gross domestic product, right? If
1:03:46
your son basically
1:03:49
impregnates me, like I need an heir.
1:03:52
We both need an heir. And
1:03:55
he thinks he's going for like a
1:03:57
like first time, like
1:03:59
a first date. And it's actually like
1:04:02
a wedding. And then like, yes, sign the
1:04:04
papers. And then like, there is a sex
1:04:06
scene in this at the very beginning
1:04:08
of this book that feels old school in so
1:04:10
many different ways. And
1:04:13
it just feels like this is a good example
1:04:15
of like, and then they have one year. She's
1:04:17
like, I will divorce you in one year, assuming
1:04:20
that this has taken and we are having
1:04:22
like, I have a child, then
1:04:24
we never have to speak again. And
1:04:26
I will bail out your country. And
1:04:28
you will be a national hero. You
1:04:32
don't get this baby. And like, we
1:04:34
never, this is the deal.
1:04:37
He talked about shame, right? He put
1:04:39
the script on everything because he's like,
1:04:42
what the fuck? Like, this is not how
1:04:44
it's supposed to go. But also his
1:04:46
hands are tied because he wants to
1:04:48
save his country. Yeah.
1:04:51
Who wouldn't? And then exactly,
1:04:53
right? And
1:04:56
then the other one is Naima
1:04:59
Simone's Vows in Name Only.
1:05:02
And I think also there's something to the fact that
1:05:04
both of these books are basically categories.
1:05:08
Yeah. They
1:05:10
really have, they both have, neither of them
1:05:12
are how Lekwun presents, but they both
1:05:14
have very like strong presents feel. Yeah.
1:05:19
And Vows in Name Only, the heroine is her,
1:05:25
like both the heroine and the
1:05:27
hero have basically been blackmailed by
1:05:29
her father to marry. Yeah.
1:05:34
And they don't have, neither of
1:05:36
them have any choice. He's holding
1:05:38
like her trust fund, her like
1:05:40
funds hostage for,
1:05:42
you know, it's Naima. So of course
1:05:44
she's like running a like nonprofit
1:05:46
for something and he won't let her have
1:05:49
the money for it.
1:05:51
But it's essential for like a blossoming community.
1:05:54
And the hero is like trying
1:05:56
to protect his mother from a,
1:05:58
you know, really terrible peace. secret
1:06:00
that if it gets out, we'll change everything.
1:06:02
And so and the her father wants the
1:06:04
heroines father wants access to the heroes like
1:06:06
yeah, high level
1:06:09
community. And
1:06:11
it they are forced to marry,
1:06:14
they both know why they are
1:06:16
in it, but they don't know why
1:06:18
the other one is in it. So
1:06:21
like there's also like a secret here, because
1:06:23
if they again, if they tell each other
1:06:25
the truth, the air is
1:06:28
out of the balloon. Another
1:06:30
place where like, in
1:06:32
the hands of great authors, misunderstandings and
1:06:34
secrets work really well. Yeah, I mean,
1:06:36
because that's the thing. It's like, you
1:06:38
have to trust your enemy or someone you
1:06:40
don't write like with your, your
1:06:43
biggest secret. So I
1:06:45
guess I would say the last enemies to
1:06:47
lovers like bucket for me is and
1:06:50
you mentioned this earlier, like essentially like
1:06:53
family feuding, right? Like we're on two
1:06:55
sides of this, this
1:06:57
family, right? Romeo and
1:06:59
Juliet. Yeah. And the one I was going
1:07:01
to talk about is a but again, I
1:07:03
think like in order for the stakes to
1:07:05
be really high, like you have to kind of believe that
1:07:07
there's some real beef between these
1:07:10
two. And so in
1:07:13
Joanna Wilde's Reapers Motor Club
1:07:15
series, book number three is
1:07:17
called Devil's Game. And what happens is
1:07:20
the daughter from
1:07:23
the like Reapers MC, like her dad is
1:07:25
like the president. So she's like the princess
1:07:27
of the MC in some ways, falls
1:07:30
in love with someone from like another
1:07:32
club who is like their
1:07:35
biggest enemies, right? And
1:07:37
so, you know, not only are they
1:07:39
like sort of falling for each other, like
1:07:41
she's like desperate to get out from like
1:07:43
her, you know, like her
1:07:45
dad is like super overprotective. Her mom
1:07:48
died of cancer when she was younger. So
1:07:51
she's like really kind of been raised alone
1:07:53
by she loves her dad, but she's just
1:07:55
like I want out of this, right? But
1:07:58
her dad is like this wild, wild boy. man I think
1:08:00
I'm like reading the blurb or mind myself right
1:08:02
the last time she had a boyfriend her dad
1:08:04
shot him right
1:08:06
and so like these men want to keep
1:08:09
her dad happy and she is looking for
1:08:11
someone who will kind of like
1:08:13
look past all that like well you know not
1:08:15
treat her like like a
1:08:17
stepping stone to her dad or whatever and
1:08:19
so you know
1:08:21
to find someone who Liam is
1:08:24
but like he's in like the
1:08:27
enemy club so it's like
1:08:29
you know she's really like crossing her dad and
1:08:31
and his will but he's also the only one
1:08:33
who would like doesn't give a shit about her
1:08:35
dad right and it's
1:08:38
ultimately a I think
1:08:40
a really it's a really great it's
1:08:43
a great book in the series because the
1:08:45
rest of the series really focuses on the one
1:08:48
like the Reapers and
1:08:50
then this is one that's kind of
1:08:52
like outside of that world because she
1:08:54
wants outside of that world so badly
1:08:56
and again it's like this question of like who
1:08:59
it who I want so badly
1:09:01
to like get out of the world where
1:09:03
I'm defined by my family and
1:09:06
yet I am who
1:09:08
I am because of my family right like I
1:09:11
think it's like a really compelling again mistakes
1:09:13
are really compelling it's good
1:09:16
when it's done right the
1:09:18
best delicious it's
1:09:20
the best I have to tell you like
1:09:22
I like back to like late night love
1:09:25
I could not believe how good the joke is
1:09:27
like how and how pissed this guy guy right well I'm
1:09:29
gonna read it I'm very excited I
1:09:32
have two on my list now
1:09:34
cuz cuz of this yeah
1:09:37
I'm looking at my list is there anything else we
1:09:39
didn't really talk about any friends to enemies
1:09:42
to lovers no but
1:09:44
you know yeah and that's a
1:09:46
whole nother episode maybe oh and I have like
1:09:49
I have Kate Kate Claiborne's luck of
1:09:51
the draw on here right again sort of
1:09:53
a leg it's not quite enemies to lovers
1:09:55
but it is right the
1:09:58
stakes are incredibly high and He really
1:10:00
hates her. Yeah. Right.
1:10:03
Right. I mean, I think there's
1:10:05
that too. It's that question of like, is there,
1:10:08
can it be done with just one? Yeah,
1:10:10
one of them. And I mean, again, I think Kate
1:10:12
is so talented that yes, it could be done with
1:10:15
just one and that book is proof. Well, but
1:10:17
you know what, why should, what she has is shame. Ah,
1:10:19
there it is. Shame and
1:10:22
fury. Yeah. Together at
1:10:24
last. Listen, shame
1:10:26
and fury together make
1:10:28
a great romance. Yeah, they do. But
1:10:31
you know, professional driver, close
1:10:33
course. Yeah. Because it
1:10:35
really can. That like I
1:10:37
said, shame is real tough to navigate.
1:10:40
One of these I was also thinking
1:10:42
about with the JJ Arias book,
1:10:44
which I
1:10:46
can't remember, of course, the title of already
1:10:48
fighting for control is there's
1:10:50
a hint of like, like
1:10:54
shenanigans, like at one point,
1:10:57
Lola has Carmen's like rental
1:10:59
car towed. And
1:11:01
she's basically like, well, it was
1:11:04
like a car parked illegally. It didn't
1:11:06
have the, and my threshold for like,
1:11:08
that like pranks is really, really
1:11:10
low. And I think like, that's
1:11:13
the other thing. It's like, how are you going to show these
1:11:15
two adults? Like they
1:11:17
have to, there's a point at which they
1:11:19
cannot like go past. You have to really
1:11:21
believe like, like, I really believed like the
1:11:23
car accident part. But like, at some point,
1:11:25
you're kind of like what, you know, how
1:11:27
far is too far? Like if it just
1:11:30
evolves into them pranking each other, which is
1:11:32
why although many people love the worst best
1:11:34
man, some of it was like kind of
1:11:36
pranking to me. And so I
1:11:38
think like, that's like the question too, is like, for
1:11:40
me, I really just want the intensity of
1:11:42
like, we are just so
1:11:45
different and you do not understand like
1:11:47
what? Yeah. You know what
1:11:49
I mean? Like back to like late night love, they
1:11:52
like one on their first or second like
1:11:55
show when they're the head writers, like it
1:11:57
flops and they both know it. And
1:11:59
like it's. just like raises the stakes even higher, now
1:12:01
what are we going to do to make it work? So
1:12:04
here's my question for
1:12:07
you about this. And it just occurred to
1:12:09
me. So maybe it's half baked. It
1:12:12
is half baked. Is it
1:12:14
possible to do enemies to
1:12:17
lovers justice inside a romcom?
1:12:20
I mean, anything can
1:12:22
be done, I'll say. Right? Of course.
1:12:24
But I'm thinking like, because I would
1:12:26
say both Ainshi
1:12:29
Sweet, so when I think about romcoms, I think
1:12:31
of Susan always, Ainshi
1:12:33
Sweet and Kissing Angel obviously both
1:12:36
have funny moments, but they are
1:12:38
not romcoms. So
1:12:40
I mean, I'm thinking about it because I think I think
1:12:42
I could come up with like a really solid list
1:12:45
of books where like the characters are
1:12:47
oil and water, but the book
1:12:50
is a romcom. I'm thinking about something like
1:12:52
dating Dr. Dill. You made me think of
1:12:54
this when you get a prank. Or like
1:12:56
the worst best man, a typical comedy in
1:12:58
the book. Right? So we're a
1:13:00
best man dating Dr. Dill. Those are characters
1:13:02
who don't like each other and are
1:13:05
at each other's throats, but are not enemies.
1:13:07
Yeah. And see, that's what I would argue. Because I was kind
1:13:09
of like, would I put the worst best man on here? And
1:13:12
I was like, no, no, right?
1:13:14
Like it's a romcom and therefore
1:13:16
like the stakes are somewhere different,
1:13:18
maybe. I think words have meaning
1:13:20
and I think enemies. Yeah. Has
1:13:23
a very particular meaning, which
1:13:25
is why I isolated rivals
1:13:28
out of this and why I think
1:13:31
romcom maybe doesn't do it right because
1:13:33
we're not right. But maybe romcom just
1:13:35
can't function as a
1:13:37
proper vehicle for enemies lovers. Because
1:13:41
it's just that's not what it's delivering. That's not the
1:13:43
promise of the premise for the reader. Right. No,
1:13:45
I agree. You want two people who are going to be like
1:13:48
funny and cute and like quirky
1:13:50
and charming. That's
1:13:52
probably not the realm.
1:13:54
Yeah. And of enemies.
1:13:56
And honestly, the books
1:13:58
that have been. called brahm-coms
1:14:01
and enemy slovers largely don't work
1:14:03
for me. And I
1:14:05
think without naming names,
1:14:07
right, I'm not necessarily interested in that.
1:14:10
I think one of the reasons why
1:14:12
is because of that
1:14:14
fundamental form versus
1:14:17
function problem, right?
1:14:19
And so then you're really kind of evaluating
1:14:21
like, well, wait, this is too far or
1:14:23
too hard, or wait, this guy is way
1:14:25
too fucking much, right?
1:14:28
And it's very hard to
1:14:30
kind of match
1:14:32
that, right? So I think
1:14:36
that if the scene
1:14:38
is written for humor, it's
1:14:41
not enemies. Right. Right. Right.
1:14:44
And there's a point at which like something else, I don't
1:14:46
know what it is. We need another word for it. All
1:14:50
right, my friends, read more historicals
1:14:52
and paranormals if you want
1:14:54
enemies lovers, I guess is the answer
1:14:56
here. And
1:15:25
don't forget that if your podcast supports it, you
1:15:27
can click on the chapter title anytime we're talking
1:15:30
about a book and buy the book right
1:15:32
now. Oh, and if
1:15:34
you can think of that book that I
1:15:36
just read about the where the
1:15:38
hero is just waiting for the heroine to break
1:15:40
and she never does and then he breaks instead,
1:15:42
please let me know. I would
1:15:44
like to reread it. Me too. I
1:15:47
like it when many break. The real
1:15:49
enemies to lovers right there. Bam. Exactly.
1:15:53
And also as a reminder, everyone, if
1:15:55
you just stick around right after this
1:15:57
episode, we've got an audio sample of
1:15:59
them. My Dark Desire audiobook
1:16:01
from Parker R. Tintington and
1:16:03
L.J. Shannon. Tinting on my
1:16:06
dark desire. She
1:16:10
licked her lips, scanning my
1:16:12
face, naming unsure herself. Do
1:16:15
you need something else? Your
1:16:18
attention. Your impossible words.
1:16:21
Your sweet pussy. Especially
1:16:23
your sweet pussy. For
1:16:26
you to stop murdering my roses. I
1:16:29
blurted out instead, prying the
1:16:31
shears from her fingers. You have no idea
1:16:33
what you're doing. She
1:16:37
laughed a little. I finished
1:16:39
cleaning the entire place and got bored. Humor
1:16:41
me. I said
1:16:43
nothing. I was, in fact,
1:16:45
humoring her, letting her get
1:16:47
away with things I never would anyone else.
1:16:50
Zach? Zach? Pharaoh
1:16:52
frowned. Do you
1:16:54
want me to touch you? Yes.
1:16:58
No. Jesus, I have no
1:17:00
fucking clue. I
1:17:02
felt like I was regressing, Benjamin
1:17:04
buttoning myself back to high school, where
1:17:07
I didn't know how to think, feel,
1:17:09
or act around girls. I
1:17:12
tossed the shears into a bucket of
1:17:14
fresh roses she'd slithered. You
1:17:17
can touch me, I suppose. Though
1:17:20
the kind of touching I had in
1:17:22
mind wasn't something I necessarily wanted my
1:17:24
immediate family to witness. Her
1:17:27
lips twitched, not quite a smile. Try
1:17:30
again. My nostrils
1:17:32
flared. Please, touch
1:17:35
me. She raised a
1:17:37
brow, clearly amused. Where?
1:17:41
Anywhere. Everywhere. But
1:17:44
I had to keep it SFW,
1:17:46
seeing as Celeste Aye was probably
1:17:48
ready to break out the camcorder
1:17:51
and offer industry tips. Face,
1:17:54
I hissed out, humiliated,
1:17:56
and elated all at once, my
1:17:59
whole body trembled. assembled with the admission. I
1:18:02
want to feel skin on my
1:18:04
face. It would
1:18:06
be the first time since the accident, since
1:18:08
his blood dripped into my eyes, running
1:18:11
down my cheeks like tears. We
1:18:14
stared at each other, and for a moment
1:18:16
the world ceased to exist. Birds
1:18:19
did not chirp. Clouds
1:18:21
did not sail overhead. My mother did
1:18:24
not watch us with her disapproving glare.
1:18:28
Faro's chest moved with a ragged breath.
1:18:30
She set the bucket of flowers down
1:18:32
on the ground, her hands rising up
1:18:34
to my face. Tell
1:18:36
me something to distract you, she
1:18:38
instructed, her smile soft,
1:18:40
her voice silk. Something
1:18:43
about the octopus. I
1:18:45
shut my eyes. It has
1:18:47
three hearts. I
1:18:50
bet it loves big. Her
1:18:52
hands almost reached my face. I could
1:18:55
feel them hovering in front of it.
1:18:57
I stopped breathing altogether, bracing myself for
1:18:59
it. It is
1:19:01
a tragic creature, I
1:19:04
countered, popping one eye open. It
1:19:07
can never love. It
1:19:09
is programmed to consummate its reproductive
1:19:11
purpose, procreate, then
1:19:14
perish right after. It
1:19:16
never stands a chance to live. Couldn't
1:19:19
you call me a kitten, then? Faro
1:19:22
scrunched her nose, looking annoyingly
1:19:24
adorable. I'd even take a
1:19:26
bunny. Kittens
1:19:28
are a generic choice. Bunnies
1:19:31
belong in Huhefner's mansion. I
1:19:34
opened the other eye now, shaking
1:19:36
my head, resolute. You
1:19:38
are an octopus. Smart, sophisticated,
1:19:42
tragic. And
1:19:45
then it happened. Her palms
1:19:47
clasped my face from both
1:19:49
sides, bracketing my cheeks. I
1:19:51
sucked in a breath and slammed my eyes shut.
1:19:54
Her warm, damp skin pressed onto mine.
1:19:57
I forced myself to open my eyes to look
1:19:59
at her. Her nails grazed my
1:20:01
skin, a shudder thundered down
1:20:03
my spine. Look
1:20:06
at me, Zach, she smiled. She
1:20:09
smiled. You can do this. You
1:20:12
can touch. Feel. We
1:20:16
stood in the garden like two
1:20:18
trees, sturdy but fragile, swaying
1:20:20
gently with the wind and I couldn't bear
1:20:23
it, how everything slammed into
1:20:25
me all at once. The
1:20:28
memories, the disgust, and the guilt for
1:20:30
wanting to feel her skin still, even
1:20:32
though my father was dead and I
1:20:35
couldn't even remember his dying words. What
1:20:38
happened to you? She croaked. I
1:20:42
shook my head. I couldn't tell.
1:20:45
Couldn't repeat it from my own ears to hear,
1:20:47
let alone hers. Does
1:20:49
this feel okay? I
1:20:52
thought about it. It
1:20:55
feels good, bad,
1:20:58
complicated, and
1:21:01
that's more than I can ever ask for. Zachary,
1:21:05
mom barked from the balcony, dousing the
1:21:07
moment with ice. You are
1:21:09
late and we are hungry. Feral
1:21:12
unclasped, her hands from my face darting
1:21:15
a step back, her neck flushed. I'll
1:21:17
see you at four. She turned
1:21:20
away from me, picking up the bucket of
1:21:22
roses and scurrying toward the front door. Don't
1:21:25
leave, I croaked, the
1:21:28
voice coming out of nowhere. She
1:21:31
paused but didn't turn to face me. Don't
1:21:34
go, she whispered, and
1:21:36
I didn't know why, but everything felt tragic all
1:21:38
of a sudden, like the
1:21:40
octopus, creating life just to end
1:21:43
her own. Standing
1:21:46
on my heel, feeling the sting of her hands
1:21:48
on my face and knowing I wouldn't try to
1:21:50
scrub it clean of her touch, I made my
1:21:52
way to the balcony. Mom
1:21:54
and I sat on the marble banisters,
1:21:57
staring at me like I'd just landed
1:21:59
in a cornfield. on a spaceship
1:22:01
with a SpongeBob propeller hat on my
1:22:03
head. Perplexed did not
1:22:05
begin to cover it. They
1:22:07
looked like they were having an out-of-body
1:22:09
experience. You should
1:22:11
be careful with the staff, Mom
1:22:13
spoke loud enough for Pharaoh to hear. You
1:22:16
don't want a sexual harassment lawsuit. I
1:22:20
didn't answer. Growing
1:22:22
up, people always told me, so
1:22:25
good you survived. But had
1:22:27
I really survived that crash? I
1:22:29
didn't think I did. I'd lost too
1:22:32
many parts of me that day. Still
1:22:34
I lived without living. After
1:22:37
all, survivors are pros at going through
1:22:39
the motions with the weight of everyone
1:22:41
left behind on their shoulders, and for
1:22:43
twenty-one years, that was my fate.
1:22:47
Until now. I
1:22:49
was making progress, slowly coming
1:22:52
alive. Parts
1:22:54
were too bright, food
1:22:56
oversaturated with taste. But
1:23:00
I was no longer dead inside. And
1:23:03
that frightened me.
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