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All. Of us have some baggage from our
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past and what do you recognize it or not,
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those past hurts can be buried
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underneath the surface and they're going to come up in? Ways
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that you don't expect today,
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you're going to hear how God redeemed a marriage
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after some hidden pain was revealed
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I'm John Fuller along with my focus
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on the family colleagues. Dr Greg Smalley
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and his wife Erin and, we're going to
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hear now from Dave and Kirsten Samuel
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they went through really dark period
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as couple when Kirsten
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found. Out Dave was addicted to pornography,
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she didn't know that the revelation
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of his in would reminder of some
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past wounds and hurts that she was experiencing
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here's Jim Daly person let. Me ask
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you again exploring the feelings
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that spouse will have. your
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in this anger Come out
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your heart is raging in so
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many directions trust has been broken
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and sense of betrayal I think I'm
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painting the picture pretty well but,
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then you began to deal with your own guilt
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and shame, explain.
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that as a man
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i'm not sure that would be my response
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in week or two I would pray
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get hung up on the you betrayed
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me for a while so
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help me understand how you turn that inwardly
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to say okay I'm. feeling
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guilt and shame now was it about what Yes,
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David done, or was it more
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personal to you?
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It was it was both of those gym,
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honestly, am. What
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opened up in me when?
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dave revealed this was my
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sense The ones that
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I had that have been hiding. For many,
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many years. I'm and they went
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back to my own abuse. The situation
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where had never dealt with. What
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had happened to me as a nine year old child
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in? so They did, was it said, "See,
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you don't have any value" You're not worth
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anything, your unseen. Your
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I'm lovable. It
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could opened up all of this can
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of worms this pandora's box.
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Really, when you set a while ago, the nice
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could not have gone any deeper into your heart,
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I think we all understand that better now,
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yeah. mean that that's
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why they're certainly one of the big
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reasons it, was confirming
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something you had held in your heart for so long.
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i'm not worthy i'm not good enough
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I'm night yeah I'm not I'm not pretty enough
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I'm not good enough I'm not smart enough i'm not
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i'm not lovable and what don't
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matter is what it came to came
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when dave came home and told
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me what the counselor had asked
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him and then he said
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is that how you feel any kids
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the counsellor had also said you have
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wounded her to the core for being Then
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when he came home and said that to me,
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and he said, is this: "How you feel that
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was the first time I was able to say?" That's
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it. That's
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it. You
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have traded me. Therefore,
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don't matter. That's
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where the nice just went in and it just doesn't
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around.
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As you started that restoration process
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did, you believe that there
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was hope for your marriage shall as both
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of the and Dave let's start with you. i
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wanna say yes wanted
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to believe that the time that there was hope
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for the marriage was willing to do whatever
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Needed to do to keep the marriage
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together and, to
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show curse and yes i mean business
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and business am going to rebuild trust and am going
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to The take care of this now,
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can't
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Save for Kirsten a sign
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on the Yeah I mean you're a good weird the offender
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and so I get that and people are screaming then
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right back at us right now and.
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i get back to me but how to
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do then respond In
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terms of hope free emerged, you feel
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it or did you want out? There
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was a part of me that. Absolutely,
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abhors the idea of divorce.
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In I did not want to be a statistic so,
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there was this pride thing that came into place
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for me and I'm stubborn enough says
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that came into play but there was also this
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don't know who you are I'm disgusted by
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you I don't wanna be around you. and
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Yeah, was raised or and. In what?
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Have you in? Then
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in his face after he came back from the counselor.
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Because at that point knew. The
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was serious. If could read it,
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did okay, we've been married for twenty five years,
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could read him pretty well by this point,
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mean obviously not that great because don't
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know.
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When I get the but right but he.
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kept that from the right
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That, but there was at this point there was something
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in his demeanor, there was something in his
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manner that said. He
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serious this time, this is gonna happen
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and that was an inkling of hope
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the other one was when we the very first
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day that within two hours and when
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he made this revelation. Making
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Cathy said to us. This does
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not have to be fatal. That
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with an anchor for me to hold on to.
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That's so interesting is that comment
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in gave you enough of.
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a line of sight yeah suture yeah
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that's amazing
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Greg I really appreciated what Christian's
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friends said about this doesn't have
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to be fatal so. address
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What? You seen, in terms of the work you've done
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with couples, were there has been
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Fernandez, he got often intervenes
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and can restore the love the words
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fatal cause it bright. Eyed totally
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agree that, it doesn't have to be fatal
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because it can be such a turning point,
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point your marriage mean as I look back on the thirty
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years. Of our. marriage your
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that there's been moments to
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wear can now go whoa
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that saying that painful,
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horrible experience that we went through
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that. actually is now is can see the
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turning point turning can see how god use
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that in the doesn't invalidate
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arm minimize the pain I.
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Mean any experience of we've been
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through that, they really became
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attorney point was brutal, it
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was very difficult, in the
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ad is so important to
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believe that. The God can use
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those I'm a tough
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experiences and those really hard
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seasons as turning point to, where
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they really become an opportunity and I think
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that's a part of. The mindset that we have to
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have is that belief to
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think that's the essence of hope we believe
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the gods can use this and it's going to become,
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an opportunity. In our
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relationship in our lives
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as individuals to James one
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to says when troubles, of any kind
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come your way were like is he he's
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not, saying you. And certain types
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of problems come your way but he same
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when troubles of any kind coming away considered
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that's. to be an opportunity him
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in that is so true when air and i
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have faced whatever
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in our marriage It's
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an opportunity I get to learn something
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new about me is individuals,
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so may be issues that have.
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laid Dormant under the surface
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or the just whatever mean get to learn
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something about myself maybe,
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something new about Aaron's aaron's
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or something about our relationship
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that needed to change your adjust
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in some way, in and in believe.
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that yeah i'm a conflict
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of winter Right?
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Look at it and six. years
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i can say me and my still have a million ahmed
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knows that all legal weed whatever
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That's a pretty am and known
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since the statement that Greg does not.
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Okay so you boy can't let go towards complete
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I avoid conflict but now
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is. much as i Really don't wanna do this
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it is much easier for me
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to eventually I'm.
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really walk through that process with
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them because do believe that any
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of these every one of these as an opportunity
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and so if we can hold on to that
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that's the hope going through
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any sort of struggle on marriage that
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god will use that
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In. Please, here is that if
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you are in the middle of this and
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that really, really painful place,
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this is not saying that ghosted minimize
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and blow past it, and you know. Look,
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inward, really get over it, yes,
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that really you know you might be in the middle
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of that painful, painful place and
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you need to set some boundaries and take a. Step
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back, but it's doing
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it with an open heart knowing that
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God can still show up surround,
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yourself with Godly got the people who can
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be that hope for you. We
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will often Sameerah can survive on someone
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else is hope for a season. and
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so surround yourself with people like that
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bit you may be thinking i can't
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just to move through this in know
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that there's gonna be a difference he's it's while
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you can pray for that he can
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surround yourself with people who can speak
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that over you and but it
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may mean gone through some really rough
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hard
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The water here and is
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this month or same
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his divorce and how to step back
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from the brink of divorce so?
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tie all that together greg guess we
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wrap up this episode Then.
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That what you are going through doesn't have
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to be fatal in I know
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just feel the roles in
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just the shaking of the head lady of
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you don't. Know my smalling me a break I
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get it in, in the
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there's a lotta hurt and pain out there in God
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can take every bit of that in crow
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you. Choose individuals. he's
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gonna grow your relationship That's
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not an instant you.
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experience obviously that that's that
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process The point that adventure
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of walking through this pain and
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growing from whatever is gone on for
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that can pay such amazing
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dividends because the thing that desecrate
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grit. In. In all
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of us need grit to really
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to survive thirty forty
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fifty sixty years of marriage, that's
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part of what we need, we need didn't know
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that whatever it. Is that we face we
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can make it because we survived
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member way back when or member five
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years ago I mean, that's the stuff
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that creates gretzky and as in A? Trust
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in each other and in our relationship
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and in our Lord the, that
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we can walk to the stuff we don't have
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to give up here we want encourage
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you to
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Step away from the divorce line,
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to change your thinking, your
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words, your behaviors, and
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to consider getting in touch with us.
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If we can be of along that drink.
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There's a generation waiting
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to see what you're going to and there
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is lot of Fallout if you continue
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on toward divorce, so please, what you're going
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through, isn't to go back to
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Kristen's friend is Greg
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was saying and we want to be of that process.
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If we can we have hope
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restored. We have counsellors.
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You can have free consultation with
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you, and we have Christian's book
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as well choosing way, out all
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of this encouragement and help as and phone call
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away. Eight hundred the litter in the,
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word family were stopped
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by the episode notes you'll see links for, all
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of that the next time we'll hear from
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Deborah for. Later and she's going to
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be, discussing different conflict styles
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sand on behalf of the conflict
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avoidance Greg and here in
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small. any and entire to i am
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john sullivan thanks for listening to date will
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personally family would have regular
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to be gone and a safer listening to the focus
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gone the family marriage podcast
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And I knew my marriage was falling apart. just
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didn't know how to fix it.
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Felt like I would always be alone. Even
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if stayed married at focus
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