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Hi, Carol,
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She's queen. She's
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getting afraid, so
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just let it flu. No one can
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do with Carol.
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Carol. Well, I am just
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thrilled to be here with Tory DeVito. How
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are you? I'm wonderful. How are
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you? Lovely? Is
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it Chili where you are? Are you in Michigan? I
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am it is? I am in Michigan. I
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was actually just in Nashville. Hi,
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Maria in Nashville. Well, I'm
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considering moving
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to Nashville eventually. Stop. Yes,
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what is making you want to pull the trigger? So many
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people are coming here? I know. Well,
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I'm done with the coasts. I've done
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those, I've done Chicago now, and I'm
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looking for my next city life. Michigan
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is great, but my farm is very
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remote and I'm not ready to be you
1:07
know, ninety yet. So and
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Nashville is a seven hour drive from
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Michigan, so it's like I could drive back and
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forth when I want to. It just seemed perfect.
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Okay, So you actually live the farm
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dream, because my husband and I have this
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farm dream and we've had it forever, and so I
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want to actually talk to you about the farm dream
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where it is like you get the amazing
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farm you have the awesome,
1:30
cozy little house and you live in
1:32
the middle of nature and you're disconnected
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and it's amazing. Is it as amazing as
1:37
it sounds? Or are you ready to see people?
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No, it is. I mean I've
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never spent more than like two three weeks
1:44
at a time here, so this will is
1:47
coming up going to be like my longer stint,
1:49
so I'll let you know after. But I am
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somebody who like, when I need to recharge,
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I can't do it with other people around. I have to
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recharge myself. So the farm, I'm
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so perfect. I wake up so happy and
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like every time I like pull up to my driveway
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there's like deer in the yard
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or I just like I love it
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so much. I really do. I
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bet that's so true because you
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have been on TV basically as long
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as your like adult brain has been
2:18
functioning. Like you started when you're like fifteen,
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right or thirteen? Yeah, well
2:23
I started a fifteen, But like I always say,
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like really really like consistently
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like eighteen, and
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you like grew up going to have
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Thanksgiving with Billy Joel. How your
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life has just been you from
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the start have been with all
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of the people that we put on pedestals,
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like, that's just your life, that's where you start.
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So what is life like to you? Is anything
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possible? Has it always been possible
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because you grew up seeing a life
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of no limitations? Oh that's
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so interesting. Um I never really
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thought of it that way. I
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think maybe. I mean
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definitely in the arts world. It's funny because
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I feel like when you grow wrapped up around
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so much art and music and
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all that kind of stuff, Um,
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it just kind of felt like the natural thing,
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you know. I grew up playing violin, and then I got
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into acting and like and
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then but I remember being
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like twenty two or twenty
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three when they started sending me out on like cop
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roles or doctor roles, and
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I remember like laughing. I was like, I'm
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like, you know, twenty five or whatever. I was like twenty
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six, not old enough to play these roles,
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and people like you actually are. So
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I feel like there's like a maturity and
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you know, like you said, like anything is
3:37
possible. But when it came to like real
3:40
world stuff, I was like med school and
3:42
oh my god, it came even fat like those
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things. I can't even fathom because I don't know
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anybody in my family and my in
3:49
my life who have actually achieved those So
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to me, I put those people on pedestals, you
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know what I mean. I'm like, Wow, how did you do that?
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So fascinating? So who are your parents
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that led this wildlife that you started
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off in this world? So my
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dad is Liberty de Vito. He
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played drums with Billy Joel for thirty years.
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Oh wow, and what a name, Liberty
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de Vito. You're destined for greatness with that
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name, right, the dope name. Um.
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Yeah, he was a drummer. He's
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played with the tons of people, but the
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bulk of his career was with Billy. They met when
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they were like twenty and on
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Long Island and um, so
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they started, you know together from a
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very young age. And then my mom,
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Um, she met Stevie Nicks when she was in her
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twenties and they've been best friends ever
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since. And that's actually how my parents met
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um one summer when Billy
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was not on tour. My dad
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played drums for Stevie on her solo tour
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and so that's how my parents met
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Um and Stevie and my mom are still really
4:53
really close, And Billy and my dad
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did have a falling out, but they since
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rekindled and started speaking again,
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which is so lovely. You know, hey, listen,
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being in a band. I'm married to a musician. He
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has been in a band since he's been thirteen
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with the same guys, and I was thirty and mid thirties.
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Um, and they get along great. But like you, I
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was in a band for seven years. It is
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Oh yeah, it is so hard not to
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have moments where you're like, I
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need so much space from you because I
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literally have been not just doing life with
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you, but like obsessively doing life with you
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because you never get a break. You
5:27
never get a break never, so man
5:30
sence you hear about that all the time. Yeah,
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but I'm glad they're back on the op and up. Yeah.
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What is Stevie Nicks like? Because I freaking
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just think she's one of the most magical,
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amazing, like just creative
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souls that our earth has.
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She's so creative. She embodies
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every piece of her art.
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Do you know what I mean? Like she do you feel that
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reads it? It's her mother,
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father, sister, child, best
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friend like that. She It's funny
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because there's some people like like I took this
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um acting class from this guy
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Larry Moss, who you know coach coaches
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like Hillary Swank and voice don't cry like
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Leonardo DiCaprio all the time, and he's amazing.
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And he's one of those people too that I was watching
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and I was like, oh my god, you
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are acting and like
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like my father, like everything for
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him is music, like he is drums,
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and Stevie is music
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and art and all
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her mysticism. But
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and so I think that it's funny because you say,
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like the sky's the limit, and I did grow
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up believing that. But there was also a part of
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me that saw these people, like
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growing up with my dad, where it was like this
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is who he is. And I
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love acting, I love music, I
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love the arts, but I also love
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being in solitude and I love being in nature, and
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I love so many other things.
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And so I think I was always intimidated growing up
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thinking like, but I'm not just
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the thing that I love, Like I was so envious
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of Like I would look at them and be like, how do you do
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that? Like I'm not all
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you know that, um, but
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you have you have a lot
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a few more loves like they have more
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love. You have a few more in the same way,
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Like, I am envious of people. I always say
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this, people who figure out what they love at a young
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age and like zero in on it and
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focus in on it. I've always been
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so kind of envious of those people because it's
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like you just know where you're pouring yourself
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into. Yeah, And I think my dad
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like saw me dabbling in so many
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things and he was like, my one advice for you is like, don't
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be a jack all trades. Pick something and get great
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at it. And I think that that's amazing
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advice. But what I'm realizing
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for me now, like I have made a career
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that I'm proud of, but I actually don't
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think that worked for me, do you know what I mean? Like,
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I don't. I think I am a jack
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of all trades, and I think that it's okay
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to lean into that. I mean, I would love
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if I was as passionate about one
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thing as they are and that I see because I think it's
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the most beautiful thing. Um, it's
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like having a long you know, when you see
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that old couple that has that seventy
8:03
five year relationship, You're like, oh my god,
8:05
what is that like? Um,
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But that's just not that's just not what
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my life, you know, that's not what my soul
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connected to, you know, Isn't
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it kind of awesome when you get to the age where
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you know what you like and like, you
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know, because I feel like I'm just getting here. I'm
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thirty nine, and I'm like, I'm
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just now starting to really be able
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to let my to know what I like
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and what I don't. It's taken so long
8:30
to like for me to sift through
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everything, and I had to get out there and
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taste and try everything
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that I was curious about just to see if
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it was gonna stick. Did you feel that way?
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Yeah, definitely. Um. And
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and it's funny, I'm thirty eight, so we're like
8:46
the same age and it's the same thing.
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Like I'm finally getting to a place where it's
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like, no, that doesn't serve me,
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Like, no, I'm not into that. No. Yeah,
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yes, that's a big yes for me, you
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know what I mean. And it just makes you go
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through life with such an easier vibe,
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you know than when you were younger. I
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used to be so scared to say no to something
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that felt like an opportunity because I
9:09
was like, well, what if this never comes back around? And
9:11
what if I really love it and I've never tried it, but
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now it's like if it's not like a hell yes
9:16
or a hell no. I have like a few
9:19
things that have come up lately where I don't have a
9:21
clear reading like one way or the other. It's
9:23
like such an amazing thing that's happening,
9:26
but I might not not dying to go, and I'm
9:28
like, what what is it? You know, what are you doing here
9:30
in that situation when you know kind of
9:32
what a hell yes and no is, but there's you're floating
9:34
in between. How do you stift through that? Yeah?
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So it's so funny. Um. I worked with this amazing,
9:39
amazing energy healer named Jana Raptors
9:42
and she taught me and it's such a simple technique.
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I'd like literally when I'm like being in decisive
9:47
like that and I'm like, I could I couldn't?
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You sit down and you like, um,
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close your eyes and you imagine
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what like a hell yes is, right, like
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if it's like puppies or whatever
10:00
it is, and you feel what that feels like in your body,
10:02
and then you imagine what your hell no is
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whatever that is, and so you
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know your body knows and then you imagine
10:09
yourself, whether it's an event you're thinking about,
10:12
you imagine yourself getting in the car and going
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and being at the event and being with all the friends,
10:16
and you might know immediately like oh okay, I can
10:18
feel that's a note, and then you imagine you haven't
10:21
yet. Then you imagine yourself staying at home and not
10:23
going and missing out on it, and your body
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ends up telling you. So sometimes
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I feel like our minds and our brains
10:30
get in the way, and sometimes our body
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knows more than we do and
10:34
we just have to like sink into it. But I
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love that exercise works for me, like without
10:39
fail every time. Really, even if you're kind
10:41
of like totally split in the middle. That's
10:43
that's the only time I use it is when I'm split in
10:45
the middle, because then I like actually like go
10:48
underneath my brain and go into that meditative
10:50
state and go into my body and like and actually
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feel the yes know and feel like what
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it's like to do both options, and
10:57
like I feel like then I can I like
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baud of it and I'm like okay, it's no or like yep,
11:02
I'm going That is such a
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good exercise. Yeah, it's
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so hard and I feel like, do you struggle of that or
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not struggle? But is that something that you bump into
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a lot in your field? Is you have opportunities
11:13
come up and they are like especially maybe like roles
11:15
come up or things to do
11:18
that could really like be a life changer, and you don't
11:20
really know because you don't know how something's
11:22
gonna do, how series or show is going to do
11:24
until it's out there in the world. So is
11:26
that like pressure to know what
11:28
to pick? Are you so into now with your
11:30
gut that like it? You can do it from the soul
11:32
space? Um? It's funny because
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I feel like as an actor, unless you're like
11:37
you know, Brad Pitt or Meryl Streep
11:39
or somebody like, you don't really
11:43
pick per se, do you know what I mean? Because
11:45
you just kind of like grow so much out
11:47
there and see what sticks. Um.
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Now, I do feel like people are writing and creating
11:52
and producing their own content much more,
11:54
which is great. But as
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far as the stuff that I've done so far, I've
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just literally additioned for everything
12:01
and whatever I've gotten, I've done, you
12:03
know what I mean? Like, I mean, if you say there are
12:06
some projects that I've gotten or gotten offered
12:08
that I've turned down. Um,
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but I haven't been able to like handpick
12:14
the actual stuff I've done. I just feel
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like I've been really fortunate and liked, you
12:18
know, most of the most of the stuff I've
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done. Um. But yeah, there's the opportunities
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that come up all the time that I get nervous about. I have one
12:25
this week, and actually they asked me to be on. Um,
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I don't know if you allowed to say this. When is this coming out?
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Probably in like three weeks. Okay,
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I think it's okay. I'm gonna be on Celebrity
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Jeopardy And that is like so
12:38
silly. I've been so
12:40
stressed about it because I'm like, oh my god,
12:42
if I just stay silent out of nerves,
12:44
I'm gonna look ridiculous. If
12:47
I say things that are ridiculous, I'm gonna
12:49
look like a dumbass. I'm like, oh my god, What'll I
12:51
do? What am I doing to myself? Am I going to become
12:53
a bad meme? Like? Oh, should
12:55
I just say screw it and do it? So
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That's where I'm at. But yes, it's it's hard
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to make those decisions all the time. Oh
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my god. Okay, So I went on Celebrity
13:04
Family Feud with my friend Kelly Pickler. Do
13:07
you know Kelly Pickler? Okay,
13:10
So she had a reality show for a while and I was on her
13:12
show with her, and so she was
13:14
asked to be on it and she brought me along with as
13:16
one of her contestants. And I
13:18
said the most embarrassing answer you could ever say,
13:21
which if you're worried about
13:23
your greatest fear, well, I lived your greatest fear.
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Look through it. Yeah, living
13:29
embodiment of getting through
13:31
that. It was it was something
13:33
about sexual positions or something.
13:37
I'm not kidding you, and they
13:39
were saying, like, I
13:41
don't even know what it was, but basically
13:44
I said something about you can do it from
13:46
behind or talking about like or something,
13:49
and it was I think it was the wrong answer
13:51
as well, and so it was just
13:53
like so humilitying. That was like I had, like, you
13:55
know, two questions or what and that
13:57
was it. That's how I like made my debut and
14:00
left it on the table. I wanted
14:02
to die for about two weeks. It's awful,
14:04
I'm sure, but then it's funny, I
14:07
mean exactly, And that's what
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I have to remind myself people want to be entertained, right.
14:11
I'm sure everybody watching love that moment,
14:13
you know, so you've got to laugh along with them.
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And do you kind of feel like you're
14:19
you've put yourself out there and put yourself out there
14:21
and put yourself out there? I mean, you are constantly
14:23
like putting yourself in the
14:25
world, which I commend you for because
14:28
you know, when you're an actor or an artist, your
14:30
brand is yourself and so it
14:32
is so much more personal and it's so
14:34
much more intimate. And yes,
14:37
you are like the product
14:39
or whatever that is doing this job, but
14:41
you are still a human being.
14:44
And so when you put yourself out there
14:46
over and over again, is it hard
14:48
to deal with a criticism or do you get
14:50
to a point where you just know how
14:53
to like get above it because they're
14:56
they're talking about you like they would about a
14:58
shampoo product or something. They feel they that right
15:00
too, because you're putting yourself out there. Do
15:02
is that right? I do feel that? Like? No,
15:05
definitely, I feel like sometimes,
15:08
um, I feel like sometimes
15:10
I even come across a little like, um,
15:13
I'm not guarded is not the word
15:15
A little reserved or like just kind
15:17
of quiet when I first meet people too, because
15:19
I think I am so conditioned to being
15:21
treated like as a shampoo product
15:24
or as like an animal, you
15:26
know what I mean, at the zoo or something that
15:28
you never really know what people's intentions aren't
15:31
um. And I think that that's that makes
15:33
me sad sometimes because I
15:35
do recognize that when I meet a new group
15:38
of people, or if somebody comes up
15:40
to me, my immediate reaction is to kind of like sess
15:42
out the situation and kind of get quiet, which
15:44
I think could come off as you know, not warm
15:46
and open, which I know I am in my heart.
15:49
But um so, yeah,
15:51
that does get hard, and the criticism
15:53
never it
15:56
does get easier, and it doesn't, you know what
15:58
I mean. I feel like it's really hard
16:00
when people just throw stuff out there and
16:03
you want to be like, first of all, you have
16:05
no idea who I am, what I am,
16:07
what I do every day, who I've dated,
16:10
any of those things you think you do. Also,
16:12
I'm a real person, you know what
16:14
I mean. And I just feel fortunate
16:16
because I look at other um
16:19
people online or whatever that
16:21
just get it so much worse. And I'm like, oh,
16:24
and I just think that people forget you
16:26
know, when they're sitting behind their screens and all that stuff,
16:29
that these are real people you're talking about
16:31
or you're critiquing. And art is so
16:33
subjective. So even if you
16:35
you know, didn't like someone's performance, or you
16:37
can't a lot of people can't differentiate between
16:39
your character who you are in real life. And
16:42
it's like, you know what I mean that, you
16:44
know, I can laugh at that a lot
16:46
more now, but sometimes I'll see things and
16:48
I'll be like, ouch, that hurt.
16:51
I know, the viciousness, that's the
16:53
thing. It's like just yeah, I
16:55
know, Well how do you do it? Like, so,
16:58
when you have a moment when you feel down or
17:00
you feel like you're in a moment of like you're
17:02
just you know, just everything is not feeling good.
17:04
It's not maybe you've had some bad people
17:07
are coming at you, or maybe you had a project that
17:09
didn't go like you wanted it to or something like what do you
17:11
do when you're in those moments of disappointment? How
17:13
do you get yourself out of them?
17:15
Um? I kind of sit with it
17:18
for a moment um
17:20
and then I luckily I have a really good support
17:23
team that I know, the certain
17:25
people in my life I have, You know, one
17:27
of my best friends is an actor, and
17:29
she and I've known each other since we were twelve
17:31
years old. He named Ariel
17:33
Keble, and she, you
17:36
know, is really successful and
17:38
I know that she and I have gone through
17:40
so many ups and downs that are very similar,
17:42
and talking to her is always really helpful
17:44
talking to somebody who um
17:47
has been in your situation before and
17:50
it's like, yeah, I know exactly how that feels,
17:52
because then it kind of takes you out of it and it's like,
17:54
this is just part of it, this is what everybody
17:56
goes through. It's not really so much personal
17:59
to me. And it's so helpful if you have
18:01
those objective people that can go like just because
18:03
you didn't get that part, it probably had nothing to do with
18:05
you, or maybe they wanted a blonde, maybe
18:07
they wanted you know what I mean, like who knows
18:10
um. And then also like luckily,
18:12
I have my dad who has gone through a lot of rejection
18:15
in his career, and he has this one
18:18
fan i mean anti fan
18:20
letter that he'll read
18:22
to remind me sometimes of this guy
18:25
just for two pages wrote
18:27
all the reasons he hates my
18:30
dad and wishes he was not living
18:33
anymore, and I have it. Sorry,
18:36
I just lost you this um
18:39
and so he'll read that to me
18:41
sometimes or send it to me to remind me, Like
18:44
everybody goes through this and then we can
18:46
like to hate it. And
18:50
it was the most I'm
18:52
I'm sorry. It
18:54
was the most vicious, horrible
18:58
thing I've ever read. Luckily we
19:00
can all laugh at it together because it
19:02
was so absurd, you know what I mean. But so
19:05
it's just nice to remind yourselves that,
19:08
you know, people's perspectives
19:10
of you or just
19:12
people starts never
19:14
ever ever have anything to do
19:17
with you, right, So true, unch
19:19
somebody in the face, their reaction
19:21
is still on them, how they feel about me
19:24
is still on them, no matter. That is so
19:26
true, and we can't figure it out. Like I
19:28
think about this all the time because I have
19:30
now realized that thirty nine
19:32
years old, how complex my brain is.
19:34
How I sift. We all sift through like
19:37
our childhood wounds, through
19:39
our experiences that have happened to us through
19:41
like are the way we're wired, you know, just all
19:43
these things were sifting through to
19:46
get the reality that we feel as
19:48
our reality. So every person is having
19:50
a totally different experience, even
19:53
if you're in the same experience with them, Like you
19:55
said, so why do we even
19:58
try to figure it out
20:00
and just try to get everyone to think the same. There's
20:02
no way we all are in our own matrix.
20:05
There's no way. I mean, if you think about it too,
20:07
every thought that we have is
20:11
composed from you know, thirty
20:13
eight years of the stuff that I've gone through,
20:16
Right, I think what I think about a certain
20:18
person or a certain reaction or whatever,
20:21
and so how is my How
20:23
could somebody take my thirty eight years of experience
20:26
that they know nothing about personally? That's on
20:28
me right, Yes, so
20:33
you're super intimental. Health it really fast.
20:35
I just wanted for everyone who doesn't know what
20:37
amazing shows Tory has been on. You've been like
20:39
on Chicago, med Onetree Hill, Vampire
20:42
Diaries, plus like a thousand more. You
20:44
were in that movie. I still know what you did last summer.
20:46
I can't. Oh my god, like Cult Classic. That
20:49
was my first movie. Oh my
20:52
was that I was twenty one?
20:54
It was amazing. Um, I
20:56
loved the cast. It was my first movie
20:58
and I thought it was like so cool. We're in Park City,
21:00
Utah, and I remember I had to be in like a
21:02
tank top. The whole time, and it was like cold, and
21:04
I was like, I don't care. I'll stay up all
21:07
night, I'll freeze to death, Like doesn't
21:09
matter. I'm making a movie. And like nowadays
21:11
i'd be like, um, where's my warm up coat, where's
21:14
the heaters? I'm freezing? But
21:16
it was such a blast. Oh my god, I loved
21:19
it. I got to play a punk rock singer, which
21:21
was so Isn't
21:24
that so awesome though, to have that
21:26
moment of just complete just
21:29
excitement about something like being
21:31
in a real movie, like a huge
21:33
and actually now a cult classic movie like you've
21:36
been in some cult classics One Tree Hill, like Vampire
21:38
Diaries, you kind of hit their culte classics streak um.
21:41
But it's like when you have that
21:44
moment what it described, that moment
21:46
when like you actually for the first time
21:49
are living your dream,
21:51
Like that is a big deal, you know, to
21:53
actually realize a big dream.
21:56
That's like what does it feel like too? Like you've had
21:58
this dream, had this dream, had this dream, work towards it,
22:00
got it, and now what's on the what's
22:03
when you got it? And on the other side of having
22:05
the dream come true? It's so funny because I feel
22:07
like when you're in it, you don't even realize that
22:09
you you got it right because you just
22:11
keep moving like one job to the next, one
22:13
job to the next. Um. And
22:15
I think that actually a really big
22:18
moment for me happened recently.
22:21
I was at a diner,
22:24
no like yeah, like a restaurant diner
22:26
in New York with my dad, and the
22:28
waitress was like, Hey, I just wanted to say,
22:30
like, I'm an actor and I really
22:32
want to have like your career, like
22:35
you work consistently, you could still go out,
22:37
You've done this, you've done that. And the way
22:40
she said it to me, and this is not like
22:42
ego related at all, it made
22:44
me step back and go like, oh
22:46
wow, I can take a moment and be proud
22:48
of myself for a second, like I did achieve
22:51
something that I sought out to do,
22:53
like, because I feel like sometimes we get
22:55
so lost, especially in these careers where
22:57
it's like Okay, what's next, what's next? What next,
23:00
that we're afraid to sit back after
23:03
a job and go, okay, let me take
23:05
review and actually sit in this for a moment
23:07
and be grateful for this and take
23:10
it in instead, it's like, oh my god, Okay, I'm
23:12
off this job. Now what am I gonna find that next?
23:14
What? Oh my god, I can't sit still for too
23:16
long. So um, that was a
23:18
really cool moment. And so I think I have
23:20
to remind myself. And yeah, I don't know why
23:23
I hit these, like, you
23:25
know, doing One Tree Hill and Vampire
23:27
Diaries and I did Pretty Little Liars for something, yeah pretty
23:30
Little. I feel like I got
23:32
a cult classic am bit. I
23:35
was like, why did I hit like the scene
23:38
Jack pot Um. So
23:40
I do feel grateful, and I actually almost didn't
23:42
do Pretty Little Liars. A funny story
23:44
because my first series ever
23:46
was on ABC Family and I had
23:48
done One Tree Hill in the c W and I felt
23:50
like everything I had done was so
23:53
team driven, which is great, but I
23:55
would remember being like, okay, like I want to have a woman
23:58
now. Yeah, I was like, I want to do some adult
24:00
content. I have some like adult
24:02
viewers. And so when they called me and they're
24:04
like, they offered you this role on Pretty
24:07
Little Liars and it's gonna be an ABC Family,
24:09
and I was like, I don't want
24:11
to do it. You guys, like I don't want to go
24:13
back on ABC Family, Like I want to move forward
24:16
and they're like, isn't that crazy? That like
24:18
what you dream of for so long?
24:20
Like you what do they say? You're living the life
24:22
you prayed for. And then you get to the point where're like, okay, I'm
24:24
so ready to elevate. Yeah,
24:27
and they're like, I'm telling you. I remember my agent
24:29
was like, I really think you should do this. I think it's
24:31
gonna be something special. And I was like, but
24:34
it's I don't know. I just I have
24:36
anxiety about it. And I remember after
24:38
accepting it, I felt a little sad. I was
24:40
like, I feel like I didn't move
24:42
forward. I'm not like I'm letting myself
24:44
down. And then I was like, oh my god,
24:47
you moron, Like if you wouldn't have taken
24:49
this, like this is such a huge part of
24:51
your career and like it did level
24:54
you up to a different place.
24:56
And I was like, oh my god, I can't believe
24:58
I almost a note of this. What
25:01
is it like being in an ensemble? Because I
25:03
always think that would be so fun, you know,
25:05
Like the original look for me is like Sex in the City
25:07
and Pretty Little Liars. It's kind of
25:09
that same like vibe, like you got the friends,
25:11
it's all about girlfriends and like living this big,
25:14
live, big city life. Like, what is
25:16
it like being and you've been on a lot of ensembles,
25:18
Vampire Diaries, One Tree Hill,
25:20
that's also kind of me, so
25:24
yeah, like a team player, what is it like being
25:26
on these on a cast, like an ensemble cast,
25:29
it's you know, just being completely
25:31
candid. It's equally fun and
25:33
equal parts not so fun sometimes
25:35
because and everybody always says, because I was talking
25:38
to somebody and I was like, you know, the life of an actor
25:40
can be very lonely. You're very transient.
25:42
You're always by yourself. You know, it's
25:44
not like you're traveling with a band whatever. You're
25:47
doing things on your own. And they're like, but what about
25:49
like these ensemble shows. It's like there's
25:51
so many people. And I'm like, yeah, I've always been really
25:54
really like super super
25:56
lucky that I've gotten along with like so
25:58
many of my co stars. I was like, but if you
26:00
look at like actors on an ensemble,
26:03
sure, maybe it looks like it might be
26:05
like a band, but it's a band where everyone wants
26:07
to be the lead singer. Nobody
26:10
wants to do anything else but be the lead singer
26:12
and so it it sometimes
26:14
creates conflict. You know, you have a lot
26:16
of big personalities in
26:19
one space every day all
26:21
the time. Everybody's got their own individual
26:23
publicists, so they're doing their own individual
26:26
press, and everybody's like, well what are you doing?
26:28
What's the oh wow? Like
26:30
comparing like yeah, yeah,
26:33
I've never really played that game fortunately,
26:35
or like you know, I feel like, how can you
26:37
compare yourself to the next person, Like
26:39
even if you were in their body, you
26:42
would take different steps no matter what
26:44
if you look like them. But I've
26:46
seen a lot of little
26:48
feudsinger tips
26:51
and um manipulations.
26:53
But luckily, like I said, I've always
26:55
like I've always found certain friends
26:58
to latch onto at in every project that
27:00
I've done, um that I'm still friends with today.
27:02
So I've always felt pretty lucky. But yeah,
27:05
it's ensemble gasts are
27:07
definitely all the dynamics,
27:09
all the dynamics. What is
27:11
it like when someone becomes the breakout
27:14
star? Like how does that go down? Because
27:16
now, like you said, everyone wants to be the lead singer, so
27:18
but someone always inevitably becomes the
27:20
breakouts the way, so everyone trying
27:23
to get it in the beginning, I think, so,
27:25
yeah, whether people want to admit it or not.
27:27
I think you know what I mean, Like, how can you
27:29
not really if we're being honest
27:31
here, Like you always want
27:34
your You get into this job
27:36
because you know, it's like you
27:38
want to rise to the top, right, Like that's what you
27:40
got into it for. And so um
27:43
yeah, I mean there's a lot of support and love
27:46
and everything, but then you do see those people that
27:48
struggle with not if they didn't become
27:50
you know, you can always you can always see it. You
27:52
can see it before it happens to most
27:55
of the time, you know what I mean. So
27:57
so when someone becomes the breakout star though, and
28:00
everyone was kind of wanting to be that, is there
28:03
the people the way they act change
28:05
or do they or is everyone a good enough professional actor
28:08
that they can like act through their
28:10
real feelings. I feel like it depends
28:12
on the cast, right, I feel like sometimes I've
28:14
seen yes and sometimes I've seen no. It
28:17
depends on the cast. And also when you get these
28:19
team shows. I think what's so difficult about
28:21
these team shows is like they go from
28:23
zero to like uber famous
28:26
really fast. A lot of stuff
28:28
thrown in their face like
28:30
it's it's it's mayhem.
28:33
Um, it's like the Beatle also normally
28:35
very young, do you know what I mean?
28:37
And I think that that makes it more difficult if you take
28:39
a show like Chicago Med. It was
28:42
composed of a bunch of group of adults
28:44
that have been acting for a really long time,
28:46
that love acting for the sake of acting, that don't
28:49
really care you know what,
28:51
you know what's I mean do care, but like don't
28:53
really care about that stuff anymore. And like
28:56
it's not like how you felt about I still know you did
28:58
last summer. It's like a totally different
29:00
feelings. Yes, yes, but your
29:02
but your ratio to how you feel when you started
29:04
on that show to where you were in chicagom so
29:07
different ends of the spectrum totally.
29:10
Um. And so I think that these teen shows are
29:12
hard because you take a bunch of young
29:14
people and you start pitting them against
29:16
each other and start blowing them
29:18
up and making giving them fame and money, and
29:20
sometimes it doesn't turn
29:22
out so well. But how can it? Some of them
29:25
their prefrontal lobes aren't even developed
29:27
yet, you know what I mean? Yes, Team
29:30
fame is crazy. I mean, it's so
29:32
it's such a double edge stored because
29:35
on one hand, it's so exciting. You get
29:37
this life of just like access
29:40
and all the cool stuff, But what is
29:42
actually behind the veil? You have seen
29:45
behind the veil on all levels across
29:47
the board, Like what is behind the veil with
29:50
like what people will consider fame and
29:52
just the pinnacle of success.
29:55
I think what people don't see
29:58
is the work that goes into it. I
30:00
think people don't see the exhaustion that
30:02
goes into it. That sometimes like if somebody
30:05
meets someone and they're like, oh, I met this person
30:07
and they were so rude. I never listened
30:09
to that stuff because I'm like, you have no idea
30:12
the amount out maybe lack of hours
30:14
of sleep they were on that
30:16
they're guarded because maybe they've been taking advantage
30:19
of now, Like you don't know what
30:21
these people are going through. And I think that it's
30:23
like people want to be like, oh, want, want, want,
30:25
because you know, these people are rich and famous
30:28
and there's a lot
30:30
behind the scenes that is you
30:32
feel so you can feel very alienated
30:34
too, you know what I mean, Like, especially
30:37
when you're working all the time as an
30:39
actor. I always say when young actors come up to
30:41
me and they're like what some advice you'd give me. I'm like,
30:43
well, I don't know, but I
30:45
would say, only get into this job
30:47
if you're willing to be the one
30:50
person that can't show up at the wedding, the one person
30:52
that can't go to your best friend's birthday party, the one
30:54
person that maybe can't show up for holidays.
30:56
Like that's gonna be your life. You're
30:59
not gonna be a to be there for people
31:01
the way you want to if you want to have
31:03
the career that you want. You know, you work long,
31:06
long hours, a lot of night shoots, a lot
31:08
of this, and that you're getting flown to different
31:11
places all the time. You're never in the same place.
31:13
You know. You don't just move to l A and stay in l
31:15
A. You moved to l A to leave l A because
31:17
of all the jobs you want to have and um,
31:20
and so you know, I think that's
31:23
what's behind the veil that I think people don't really
31:25
understand. It's like how much
31:27
sacrifice and work goes into it. Have
31:30
your reasons for pursuing
31:33
these loves changed over the years. Definitely?
31:37
Um. I feel like when
31:40
I started getting into I
31:42
had a really hard time on one tree hill. I felt
31:44
like um
31:47
for you know, obviously the me Too movement
31:50
called out you know what happened on One Tree Hill
31:52
a lot um and it was kind
31:54
of like a bit to me. For
31:56
me, it was a bit of a dark set. It
31:58
had a lot of dark enter gee floating
32:00
around it, and I remember getting like really really
32:02
depressed, really and I did find
32:05
really great Like I worked with Joy Lens
32:07
and she was so lovely to
32:09
me and I was so grateful
32:12
that I worked with her, and James Lafferty was really great
32:14
with me too, and like those are the people I worked
32:16
with most so as far as the actors go, Like I got
32:18
to really work with some great people. But there
32:20
was just a really really stressful vibe
32:23
on set. And I remember I was like five,
32:27
and I was like, there's got I have to give myself
32:29
another purpose. Like I love acting, but
32:31
this industry is going to I'm
32:33
going to sink. And you figure
32:36
that out fast. So it's kind of
32:38
a blessing. Yeah, it was a huge
32:40
blessing because I was I was like, all right, this
32:42
is the kind of show that I've been striving
32:45
for and now I'm on it and I'm
32:47
so miserable. So
32:49
I was like I got a volunteer do something, and that's when
32:51
we found like hospice work actually and it gave
32:54
me this like greater purpose and
32:57
I just loved it so much. And then I started
32:59
realizing in like, Okay, I can
33:01
use this industry for the good it
33:03
has. I can you know, not engage
33:06
in the bad act and
33:08
love acting and then use the industry
33:10
for good. And I started realizing like the
33:14
higher my career got, the more I
33:16
had a platform to speak for the things that I actually
33:18
love. So then it made all
33:21
the things that drove me crazy about this career
33:23
more tolerable because you got is like your purpose
33:25
because that had a bigger purpose with it. And
33:28
I don't know how you get through this career
33:30
without having a bigger purpose with it, because
33:32
to me, it just becomes very like so
33:36
ego driven because you're just like in
33:38
this warp of your own like stuff
33:41
all the time. You know what I mean. You got to step
33:44
outside of it, and you're right. I
33:46
feel like you either kind of go one of two ways
33:48
with like big success and you can see
33:50
it play out all the time. It's like you either become
33:53
someone who use it like you're doing uses
33:55
their platform to spread awareness
33:57
and change the world for better or it
33:59
you kind go down the spiral of just like feeding
34:01
that self indulgence that you
34:03
can and it eventually is gonna it's
34:06
gonna not be able to sustain
34:08
anymore, you know absolutely.
34:11
Oh that's so interesting, isn't
34:13
it interesting? Like life? What do
34:15
you think of life now that like this is like what
34:17
it is? What do you what are your views on it? Because you've
34:19
really gotten into mental health and you really
34:22
are such an advocate for so many
34:24
things. I'd love to talk about some of the things
34:26
that you are passionate about because it's
34:28
like that's your your purpose is
34:31
what you are an advocate for. And how
34:33
did that start happening? When okay, yeah, one Tree
34:35
Hill you started realizing I need to like get outside
34:38
myself. When did you really get into like mental
34:40
health? Um?
34:42
I think probably like probably
34:46
like my mid delate
34:48
twenties. Um I
34:50
was just life is so weird, right,
34:52
Like no matter what you believe or
34:55
what faith you have or lack of
34:58
whatever, like nobody can actually
35:00
safe for certain what we're doing here,
35:02
do you know what I mean? And and so sometimes
35:06
like I just tried, like I always try
35:08
to remind myself as cheesy as it
35:10
is, like that old saying like you can
35:12
turn a prison into a palace or a palace
35:14
into a prison, And I feel like it's
35:16
so true. Like every time I'm
35:18
having a bad experience, I
35:20
always remind myself like I am
35:22
the one driving this experience for myself.
35:25
So if I'm miserable right now, what
35:28
experience can I what perspective
35:30
shift can I have to change this experience?
35:32
And life is so weird,
35:35
but yeah, throwing myself
35:37
into the things that I'm passionate about,
35:39
the advocacy. Advocacy work is really
35:41
important to me because I feel like if we're not
35:44
giving back, if we're not helping other
35:46
people, or even
35:49
if we're not reaching out to other people
35:51
to help us, then what really is the
35:53
point of being here? You know what I mean? I
35:55
do. I totally know what you mean, And
35:58
you have to figure out a way for me. It's
36:00
been like, especially this past couple
36:02
of years, I've just been so on
36:04
a hunt for my purpose and I've been all
36:07
over it. Like I know I've been all over it,
36:09
but I've had like a million different career
36:11
things. I've done so many amazing things,
36:14
and like you in a different way. I have totally
36:16
seen behind the veil, Like I know what's
36:18
out there, I know what it is, I know
36:21
the struggles and like the responsibility
36:23
it is to hold the
36:25
status and to put yourself out there. And so
36:28
I just I'm like, what are we doing
36:31
here? You know? And like, what are
36:33
the gifts that I have that I can
36:35
serve others with that also fulfills me?
36:37
And I feel like at the end of the day, that's like what I
36:39
kind of like work on every
36:41
day. It's like, what am I what I feel like I'm good
36:43
at and talented at that actually can fulfill
36:46
my soul, but then really
36:49
serve others. And I feel like that's how I
36:51
kind of move now. Yeah,
36:55
you have to and sometimes to, Like I feel like when
36:57
you're having a bad day or if you're stuck
37:00
in something, the best thing to do
37:02
is put your attention on something else or put
37:04
your attension on someone else you need
37:06
to you more than you know
37:08
than what you're going through. And it's like that's
37:11
the best way to get over
37:13
something. I think, right, what grounds
37:15
you? Oh my
37:18
gosh, um, I feel like nature
37:20
grounds me a lot, solitude
37:22
grounds me a lot. Um
37:24
my family, being around certain
37:27
family members, grounds, boundaries,
37:30
boundaries are also important. Yeah,
37:33
um yeah, those things
37:35
ground me a lot. You're
37:40
so lovely with how you take
37:42
care of things. You are a care of her, you
37:44
take care of hospice, You care
37:46
so much about women's rights, you care so
37:49
much about animal cruelty.
37:51
You are just such a caring person.
37:54
Is that just a huge part of your personality and nurturing
37:56
spirit? Um? I
37:59
guess I mean if
38:01
yeah, yeah, so yeah. I
38:04
have sisters, and I grew up in a really like,
38:06
you know, loving family. We're all really
38:08
close, so it's probably
38:10
a product of that. What's the secret to a
38:12
loving family being
38:15
okay with people's flaws? Because,
38:18
oh my god, families can be challenging,
38:21
you know what I mean, they can be challenging. Um,
38:25
But I find that if you look at you,
38:27
sometimes we don't look at our family as other people, right,
38:29
we look at them as like her dad,
38:31
sister, brother, you know, And
38:33
it's like, no, you're a person, You're a flawed
38:36
and I need to have space for that. Even
38:38
though you know, being around
38:40
my mother, she's my best
38:43
friend, she's my everything, and she
38:45
can also trigger me more than on this
38:47
planet and she knows it. Um,
38:50
that's true love. So that's true
38:52
love. And because we're so close, and so
38:55
I have to remind myself, even at thirty eight
38:57
years old, I have to be like Tori, stop acting like
38:59
you're five, and stop being a little brat. Your mom
39:01
is a human being as well, She's not just
39:03
your mom and have space
39:06
for so How great
39:08
though that you I think that's what you
39:10
said, being okay people's flaws. How great that you can be your
39:12
full self with your family. I think that that's the
39:14
kicker. When you can be your full
39:17
self with anyone like
39:19
I have, like my husband, my I have
39:22
a few people in my life. I love so
39:24
many people, but there's a few people in my life who
39:26
I can fully be myself all
39:29
of it, all the parts that like I feel
39:31
like are ugly and gross too, and like all my
39:33
flaws. I feel like that is really
39:36
that to me is what true love is. True love
39:38
isn't like this like and it can go for like mother
39:40
and parent love, child love, sibling
39:43
love, you know, family love, friend love, you
39:45
know, romantic love, whatever. But it's like when you
39:47
can truly be your
39:50
full self the full spectrum, the good,
39:52
the bad, the ugly all of it. That,
39:54
to me is what like a loving relationship
39:57
is. Yes, und And
40:00
I always said, and I was like, I don't know if this is
40:02
gonna sound weird. I was like, but the day that I
40:04
find somebody that I can be
40:06
the way that I am around my sisters
40:09
and feel like they accept me and love
40:11
me for all that mess
40:13
and craziness and weirdness
40:16
and um awkwardness
40:18
and you know whatever else, that's
40:21
when I know that, like I've
40:23
met the person that I could spend my
40:25
life with and I haven't found that yet. I
40:27
have not found anybody I ever felt comfortable
40:30
enough with to be that
40:33
person around. Well, Tory, good
40:35
for you for waiting for it, because they
40:37
say this is the truth, like who
40:40
you marry determines nine of your
40:42
happiness, and I can vouch for that. I've
40:44
been married now for almost ten years and we've grown
40:46
up together and like I,
40:49
I mean, everyone has their own story, but like, yes,
40:51
we've had some really like moments that were
40:53
really hard, but we've always been able to
40:56
be honest and grow together. And I just think that, like
40:58
that is why I feel like I'm marriage
41:00
will be able to sustain, because like you're saying, if
41:02
you can't be your full self all
41:04
of it, you're gonna you're
41:07
gonna hit this wallet you can't live with anymore
41:09
for a while, because we we have to be able
41:11
to expand and be ourselves and have
41:13
a safeness haven to do that,
41:15
and you need a witness to your life. If you're going to partner
41:18
up with someone who's going to be okay with
41:20
all of it or else, that's not fair to your
41:22
soul. You're suppressing your soul. And you
41:24
know that. So that that just
41:26
means to me, like someone like you who
41:29
is like perfect in every way, like not
41:31
just like beauty and accolades
41:33
and talent and a
41:36
mental awareness and all of it. You have all
41:38
of it, And the fact that you aren't
41:40
partnered up yet to me means that
41:43
your soul is just getting it already
41:46
because you're so dynamite in every
41:48
way that if you were to settle,
41:50
I think you would be disservicing the world.
41:53
Because the union that you will have is going
41:55
to be so powerful because you're going to meet
41:57
someone who's such a match and then y'all can
41:59
be changers together. That is so
42:02
kind. I feel that, Oh
42:04
my god, I love that I really believe
42:07
that with my full self and the
42:09
fact listen to this whenever I get down again,
42:11
just that one part. But I mean you
42:14
know this too, Like you see people
42:16
who just kind of throwing the towel eventually and go for
42:18
a marriage because they want to get married. It's not the
42:20
way to do it. I mean, maybe it can work out, but
42:22
especially someone like you who knows all this,
42:24
you know the soul stuff, you know,
42:27
you know it, and so it's like
42:30
it's just so powerful that you
42:32
have the confidence and the trust
42:34
to wait. Like that's so because you could get married
42:36
tomorrow if you wanted to. And the fact that you're
42:38
not like and you're really trusting
42:41
it. Like I'm excited to follow your life
42:43
for many reasons, but like you're gonna be
42:45
You're a game changer across the board. Thank
42:48
you so much. That's so sweet. Thank you.
42:50
Okay, I'm gonna wrap up because I know you haven't great thing to
42:53
do. But what are you most excited about
42:55
on the horizon when it can be anything, doesn't have to be
42:57
work or whatever, Like what coming up in the next
42:59
year are you? Just like gives
43:01
you the full body tingles. Um.
43:04
I think just kind of what's
43:06
going to be next. I feel like
43:09
I've tied up a lot of I've
43:12
ended. There's been a lot of endings this
43:14
last like a year and a half of
43:16
my life. And now I'm kind
43:18
of like here at the farm,
43:20
like kind of seeing where I want to
43:22
move next, where I want to live next,
43:25
you know what I mean. Just I feel like
43:28
I'm at the start of a new
43:30
beginning and I don't know what it's gonna
43:32
be. So that's that exciting? Yeah?
43:34
It is. Oh man,
43:36
that's exciting because especially
43:39
like when you've been on such a long show leaving Chicago
43:41
mad and like you had such a life and a routine
43:44
and you're with your ensemble, you know your role, YadA, YadA,
43:46
YadA. So now so like
43:48
what does it feel like to be like, you know, kind
43:51
of starting What is that? Like? You're
43:53
you've lived so much now your life is
43:55
so rich of experiences, but
43:57
now here you are a fresh start again. Do
44:00
you have a visualization for how you want it to feel
44:03
this next go round? I? Yes,
44:06
definitely. I think I need to
44:08
Just I really want to do
44:11
things that like really light
44:13
me up, make me feel so good. I
44:15
want to invite people into my life. That make me
44:17
feel so good. I feel like I've always had a habit of
44:20
ignoring red flags because
44:22
you know, being a nurturing person,
44:25
you want to embrace everybody,
44:27
and I feel like I just
44:30
want everything to feel like such a
44:32
guest, do you know what I mean? And also speaking
44:34
to my nose. I feel like sometimes I've
44:37
fallen victim to that of not listening
44:39
to my nose and being like, well I'll
44:41
just do it, or well they
44:43
said this or whatever, and it's like
44:45
no being able to be like, Okay, that's so great
44:47
that that's you, but that doesn't serve me, so
44:49
like cool, all good? Um,
44:53
So yeah, I'm really excited. I'm
44:55
excited about it. That's awesome. You
45:00
feel though, like your thirties were the season that
45:02
you learned what servety and what doesn't and have that confidence.
45:04
We talked about it a little bit in the beginning, so like
45:07
like where you really can, like like you said,
45:09
lean into the full body. Yes, Like I feel like it took
45:11
me the full decade of my thirties to get
45:13
that. Yes, i feel like I'm finally
45:15
like actually fully
45:17
stepping into that now. Like I feel like my
45:20
twenties I cried my way through my twenties,
45:22
same absolute mess,
45:24
hot mess, express making out when everyone
45:27
I could was my twitters, doing any opportunity
45:29
that came my way. Just yes, yes, yes, yes, yes,
45:31
hot mess all the time, hot saying.
45:34
And my thirties, like you said, like you start
45:36
really learning about yourself more, and now
45:38
I feel like, you know, I'm a year and a half
45:41
from forty, and I feel like I'm finally
45:43
like sinking into like who
45:45
I really am, what makes me happy,
45:48
being confident in myself, you
45:50
know, like I've never and I
45:52
love it. So I was when everyone's like, oh my
45:54
god, I'm gonna be thirty, I'm like congratulation
45:58
saying, well, I
46:01
have welcomed every decade with open
46:03
arms. But like I am very
46:05
very intense and so like and I also
46:08
am so much a like a seeker
46:10
of like improvement all the time and learning
46:13
and like like awakening my soul
46:15
constantly that it's annoying. It drives me creat
46:17
I wish I could give myself a freaking break. But
46:20
I and my twenties, like that's where I struggling,
46:22
like eating disorders in constant comparison
46:24
and trying to look a certain way and feeling insecure
46:27
and all that stuff. And I started therapy at
46:29
the end of my twenties because I was like, I am
46:31
not going into the thirties
46:33
with my twenty problems, my twenties
46:36
year old problems, and so like, I really cleaned up
46:38
my eating disorder and all of my thought belief
46:40
around that and worked on origin story
46:42
and started that process. So then my thirties
46:45
were exciting because I was like awaking
46:47
to this new person and then I'm
46:49
kind of like starting to figure out my real like
46:51
my full body yeses and nose and you
46:53
know, just like settling down a lot.
46:56
And now for forties, I'm like, I feel
46:58
like I'm cleaning out so much, like I'm simplifying
47:01
more than ever. Do you feel that just
47:04
like purging everything
47:06
I can, just stripping it down less
47:08
is more all day long, I want
47:11
only full body yeses, and I don't want
47:13
any clutter yes. I always
47:15
say the two keys that I feel like I've
47:17
learned to life are simplicity
47:20
and adaptability. Like
47:22
if you have those two things, like happiness
47:25
follows agreed. And then
47:27
I also think for me, I totally agree
47:29
with that mindset is so important
47:31
to me, which goes to adaptability.
47:33
But like I have, I've had I
47:35
haven't always had simplicity, but I've always been able
47:38
to live very simply. I really have. Like I've
47:40
been able to go fast just growing up and touring
47:42
band life, like you know. But
47:45
mindset has been the biggest for me, Like I
47:47
have had to work on my self talk because
47:49
I didn't realize how much I beat myself up
47:51
all the time and how negative I was. And I
47:53
was in a scarcity mindset a lot.
47:56
So I've had to flip it to like abundance
47:58
and like seeing the like we're talking about
48:00
earlier, Like I am the one who is choosing
48:03
this experience how I'm interpreting it. So I
48:05
gonna make my prison a
48:08
palace or my palace a prison,
48:10
and so I have to I've had to really
48:12
work on that a lot. That's
48:14
awesome. That wasn't natural for me. Did you
48:16
have natural good self? No? I don't think it's
48:19
natural for anyone. I mean unless
48:21
you grew up in like this like zen Buddhist
48:24
home. But I feel like part of being a human
48:26
is having to come over triumph
48:29
over adversity or you know what I mean,
48:31
Like hard times and so I don't think
48:33
that's actually I've never met someone that that was
48:35
natural for. I know who they just wake up happy.
48:37
I feel like Goldie Han maybe, but then I'm like, no, she's
48:39
got she's got to have ship in there, you know
48:41
exactly. Okay, Well, I
48:43
always wrap up with leave your light. What
48:46
do you want people to know? Oh?
48:49
What do I want people to know? Um?
48:52
I want people to know that
48:57
that love always
49:00
triumphs fear, and
49:04
love is all there is. And
49:06
if you really think about it, fear is just an illusion
49:09
because there cannot be fear
49:11
where there is love. There cannot be darker.
49:14
There is light. So lean
49:16
into love. I love that, and
49:18
love is everywhere, So fear
49:21
that's just us living in an
49:23
illusion that we made. I love that, Tory.
49:26
This is such a pleasure. Thank you so much too. I
49:29
hope you men to Nashville, and if you do, please
49:31
reach out. I would. I will for sure,
49:33
I will definitely. Okay, you
49:36
have the best holidays. Thank you too.
49:39
Okay. Bye,
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