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I feel like it's got. It's good to have confidence

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in yourself, but also good to have kind of a brace on

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of brace on reality, how's your pussy?

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My pussy? Oh god, Well, this is fun because

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we got We're in New York, as you guys know, uh,

5:13

and so we had the hashtag blizzard

5:15

two thousand and sixteen this

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weekend, which for most New Yorkers means

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you can't do any work, even though our electricity

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was all fine, everything was working, which means

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you're in your house and you can't do work because

5:27

you don't want to. Because you you transport

5:30

yourself back to a time and a place

5:32

where your mom shouts up to you

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in your pink bedroom, no school, Karen,

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and your whole body is excited, and you

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start calling all the hot people you know, and we're like, we're

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gonna get trapped in. And then this is all I wanted. All

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I wanted was to get trapped in this

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weekend. I was so fucking excited. I needed

5:48

a blizzard weekend so badly. I was like,

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this is gonna be great. I'm gonna fuck,

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I'm gonna cook lasagna, and

5:56

I'm going to spend time with those that

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I love to get instead

6:00

instead. Friday, as

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the news reports were coming in, I felt a little tangle

6:05

in my puss puss and I was like, that's

6:08

my friend U T. I A knock

6:10

knock knocking on the door,

6:13

and it

6:16

was foreshadowing. I knew what was going

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to happen. I saw it in my mind. I was

6:20

like, this is what's going to happen. You're

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gonna there's gonna be eight thousand feet

6:24

of snow outside and you're gonna be inside

6:27

with a U T. I. So I called my O

6:29

B G I M. Friday like I got

6:31

I got to their office, like you know, on the phone, like

6:33

thirty minutes before they were closing, because that's when I felt

6:35

the tingle when women

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know that thing, I know that fucking tingle. They

6:40

wouldn't they refuse to give me um

6:43

a prescription without coming

6:45

in to see them, even though I knew a d percent

6:47

what it was and you don't know, yelling body talking

6:50

about fuck uh. And

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I was so satised, like just give me antiboo. It's

6:54

not you can you can't. Like, it's not I'm gonna go

6:56

sell U T I meds on the

6:58

street. You know, it's not. This is

7:00

not something that's an admirable path,

7:03

you know. And I was like, well,

7:05

the blizzer was coming in unreally scared and I didn't even say

7:07

like run up now, like I could have, you know, made

7:10

it probably it was like thirty minutes like

7:12

I I was so upset, and

7:14

they're like, you have to come in on Monday, and I'm like, so

7:16

right there, I saw my my pussy

7:18

flash before my eyes, and I was like, you're gonna be in

7:21

your room with the U T I and

7:23

no lasagna, no lasagnya and

7:26

no fucking so what's

7:28

the point of the blizzard? The blizzard I that I then

7:30

I called God and I was like, cancel the blizzard,

7:33

God, cancel the bliss. I tried to call

7:35

my G I N Chris if I was calling

7:37

John God. I was like, don't

7:39

worry, Corona got this last time. At U T. I

7:42

called them, they just phoned in that medication

7:44

CBS and the woman said

7:46

she would and I I faked that

7:48

pain because I know it well, I wasn't. You

7:51

know. It's really sounded like she had a U T. I to right.

7:55

And then I had my roommate Kristen

7:58

call in heard you, Yeah,

8:00

no, I had. I had three people's

8:02

O, B, G U, I n's working, and

8:05

the only thing that wasn't working with my pussy, and I

8:07

was so fucking mad, and so then of course

8:09

it just it gets worse. I got drunk Friday

8:12

night. That probably exacerbated, but at least I didn't

8:14

feel the pain at the time. And then I

8:16

wake up, so no antibiotics for you

8:18

know, I wake up, and then it

8:21

was it was just a nightmare. So I in a skirt

8:24

and heels. I walk back to my

8:26

apartment because that was you know, somewhere else. I

8:30

took the welcome ride back to my

8:32

own apartment in snow and

8:34

then just took my pants off and

8:36

texted my roommate from the bathroom that I was going

8:38

to be in their crying and being

8:41

for a while. And I even like ran

8:43

out of cistex like anything over the counter.

8:45

And then all the Dwayne reads in New York closed.

8:48

It was like a horror movie. It was like, how

8:50

can we funk over Karin? It was I

8:52

mean, I didn't even think of it like that. And then

8:54

I was just like, you know what, I'm glad this

8:56

happened to me so I couldn't tell my story

8:59

on the Guys podcast.

9:01

You know what if this just happened to this person

9:03

without a podcasting, which doesn't have to suffer in silence.

9:06

But I'm here to take a stand to say we are

9:08

women, we know our bodies, and why are we being disrespected?

9:11

So the I fucking go to the O B G Y N on

9:13

Monday and I go

9:15

in. It's fifty dollars just for me to walk

9:17

through the door, just for me to walk my pretty little tish through

9:19

the door. And then they don't let

9:21

you say like

9:23

I'm like writing on papers, are like what's the problem,

9:25

Like U T I please help? And then I'm sitting I'm like,

9:27

hey, have a U t I. Hi, I'm here. I'm hi

9:30

everyone, I'm pissing and cups. I'm like, we don't even piss

9:33

in the cup because you know what, it's a U t I. I know, I

9:35

don't know. I'm sucking hashtagging U

9:37

t I on Instagram. I'm like, this is a U

9:39

t I. And

9:41

then no Joe. So

9:44

I'm sitting in the office the

9:46

nurses, you know, hey, what are you

9:48

here for? Um I hav a U t I. And the

9:51

medical assistant comes in because they don't even send

9:53

the O b g y N for this ship because the O b g y

9:55

N looked at the paper. She's like, oh, this is probably U t I.

9:57

All the ship into the pharmacy. God,

10:00

are you here, medical assistant. I'm

10:02

like about to take like taking a back to this robe.

10:04

She opens the door and she's just like

10:06

what is it. I'm just like, oh,

10:09

well, my vagina's burning

10:11

and my peace smells weirdness cloudy.

10:13

I'm like, it's a U t I. She go, oh, yeah, it's a U t I.

10:15

Don't need to undress right to the prescription.

10:17

So I'm like, so we all it's

10:20

like twelve angry men, but we all

10:22

know it's a U t I. Like, what are

10:24

we talking about here?

10:28

U t I thing? You got that

10:30

confirmation? Like fucking like plus

10:33

seventy two plus hours they wrote

10:35

me the prescription for

10:37

a U t I. And then I was like, why did I have to

10:39

come in here? It's so hard? And she's

10:41

like, well, it's good that you pissed in there because in the

10:43

cup. You know, she didn't say pissed. She said it's good that you urine

10:46

need in the cup. So we have the urine sample because

10:49

after apparently, like your you

10:51

can start to become immune to the antibiotics

10:53

if you of someone who frequently gets U t I is

10:55

like me and I'm like, okay,

10:58

but what that didn't stop me from

11:00

having a very not fun hashtag

11:02

blizzard. I

11:04

was like, that wasn't mean. I was just like, why did you just?

11:07

No one say you know what, you

11:09

crine? We don't want you to have a

11:12

blizzard two yacht. Yeah

11:14

that's all I wanted. What a bit. It

11:17

was very unpleasant. And then and the joke

11:19

of it was, and I told them this to my roommate just

11:21

ended up finding antibiotics that she had for her

11:23

skin and just fucking prescribing it

11:25

myself. And that one tablet like

11:28

made the pain bearable, thank

11:30

god. And then I got people on my Instagram

11:32

like, just pay a far and after a sax print,

11:34

you don't think I sho that ship.

11:36

I gotta sensitive vagina. All

11:39

the emotions that I lack my vagina

11:41

has. Okay, they're all a lot of emotions.

11:43

They're all built up there. We all pee

11:46

before and after. Well, then I fucking

11:48

I texted, uh, my friend Farah,

11:51

who's I heard for the comic community

11:53

is a u t I expert.

11:55

Oh that's a bummer of a title. And I hope she's

11:57

okay with that and yeah,

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I was like, I need a new plan of attack. But

12:15

it was nice though, because the person I

12:17

was sleeping with like it was a little and not

12:19

insensitive, but he just didn't realize how much pain

12:21

I was in, and so it was a really nice

12:24

opportunity. We actually had a very nice talk

12:26

about it, and he like he had no idea, like how much

12:28

pain I was in. And we had like a really good

12:30

informative talk about it, and he like

12:32

was like, I'm so sorry. I had no idea. I was like,

12:35

and he was like, it was just a U T I. And

12:37

then I was like, and I go

12:40

kiss any other woman with that, just the U T I

12:42

and see how quickly they turn on you. And

12:45

then and then it was great. I feel like I

12:47

taught him something and he was just like, teach me more. And then we

12:49

talked about vaginas the rest of night. It was

12:51

it was like, yeah, so can

12:53

I drop off position or not? No,

12:56

it was it was nice and so

12:58

it was a positive end, but a

13:01

very bad weekend. Oh I'm so sorry.

13:04

So you know what we all we all were struggling.

13:09

The first boyfriend ever had he cheated

13:11

on men. He

13:14

gave me a U T I, but it spread

13:16

to my kidneys, so I had to go to the hospital because

13:18

they had to give me I V S. And I remember

13:20

I called him from the hospital

13:22

phone and I was like, I'm

13:25

in pain. He's like, yeah, I gotta go.

13:27

You breaking up. Sorry. I'm like, oh, you're

13:29

the worst. But be with me forever.

13:32

I feel like you guys just don't understand. So I think it's like

13:34

and instead of like lashing out, I was like, let

13:36

me when I'm not in this pain, just explained

13:38

to you. It's good in irrational way how

13:41

much pain I was feeling because I was like, I know you don't know

13:43

me super well, but I was like, you know me kind

13:45

of well. And I was like, just so you know, if

13:47

I say I'm in excruciating pain, I'm not fucking

13:49

away, Like I have a very

13:52

high threshold for pain, both physical and emotional.

13:54

Yeah, with someone when the email is saying that I thought

13:57

she gave birth naturally and she also had dry

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sockets, she'd rather have give birth

14:01

naturally twelve more times and have dry sockets

14:03

again, I was like, damn, I

14:05

think dry sockets was still worse than the ut A, but the ut

14:08

I was. And also just like the pussy is a very bad place

14:10

to feel uncomfortable. Oh, I know, because it's all

14:12

you're always aware of it. Yeah, you'd be sitting

14:14

in the deli. I mean like, well, my vagina hurts.

14:17

That's the thing that I'm feeling all over and

14:19

you can't hold it because you're not like a four year old

14:21

boy. Well, sometimes when I have U T,

14:23

I s hold hold it. That's what I do. I

14:25

was coping. I was naked on my floor

14:27

holding my my vagina.

14:30

It helps why, I don't know, it's cr I

14:32

don't know. Actually, you know what I did at one point

14:35

to relieve myself with the pain. I went into the shower

14:37

and I masturbated in the shower standing

14:39

off. You masturbated with a U T. I And

14:42

it helped. Because it helped, I was like, I bet

14:44

this will help relieve the pain because it's I mean, it was

14:46

kind of like the sexual version of cutting,

14:48

I guess in a way because it was like, let me feel

14:50

this other sensation just

14:52

so I know what it's like. But it did. It did. And I

14:55

never masturbate standing up or in the shower,

14:57

but I did both of those things. So what

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18:54

amber Rose all right, as you know from the fucking

18:57

title from them, from the thing where it says if

19:00

teaching, you know, the amber Rose

19:02

thing and amber We even want to

19:04

talk to her for a while. She has a big stance on

19:06

slut chaming. She's the founder of

19:08

slut Walk. Yeah, and she's had two

19:11

x is who were very good rappers,

19:14

um that I didn't ask her about because

19:16

I was like, I don't want to be rude, but

19:19

right shitty songs about

19:21

her, right and just because I think you don't

19:23

mention names in the actual context of the podcast.

19:25

So the boyfriend was Kanye

19:27

West, and then her ex husband is with Khalifa.

19:30

Yeah Kanye yeah. So

19:32

uh so there's so many things we want to talk

19:34

to her about. She agreed to do it. We pull

19:37

up to her house on the hills and

19:39

you know it's those houses that are really fancy and they don't

19:41

say the number right at the front of the driveway

19:44

and we pull up and there's a pink jeep

19:46

and a pink car and we're like, I think we're at Amber Rose.

19:48

We're like, we don't need the number. This is

19:51

Amber Roses. That I parked

19:53

on the street because I could not get out the

19:55

driveway. Yeah, it was too hilly. And then

19:57

when I took my suitcase of gear to go up the

20:00

I laugh fell and her amazing,

20:02

beautiful, very good looking assists to help

20:04

us. I was like, thank you, and

20:07

he was just looking at us like this happens. Oh

20:11

damn bitches fall uh. Amber

20:13

is one of those people though, I feel like the

20:16

public likes to hate because it makes

20:18

them seem like better. People like

20:20

shitting on somebody because

20:22

so to elevate yourself. She's

20:24

an example of that, and it fucking

20:26

annoys the ship out of me. And that's why Corn

20:29

and I don't shoot on the Kardashians or other

20:31

public figures that people just like to shoot on. Like

20:34

why I shoot on people I don't like all day long?

20:37

But I mean, there's just no need. If

20:39

they don't need to be shipped, good for you,

20:41

you really doing God's work. You should you should

20:43

set up for the Peace Corps. Yeah,

20:45

but it's like, don't make assumptions about people

20:48

you only see in photos. Either don't

20:50

say anything at all and shut the funk up, or do your

20:52

research and really get to know the person. And I gotta

20:55

say, and that's what we did. Guy, we got some I

20:57

fucking dig her. She was the best. Okay,

20:59

not only is she even a more beautiful in

21:01

person than you thought, she's

21:03

kind, she's intelligent, she's

21:05

not generous with her time, and yeah,

21:08

and just had like a good vibe. She was

21:10

just very peace she was the way she talked.

21:12

I was like, oh, you're so sexy. Yeah, even

21:14

the way you talk, I just want you to like you could pour

21:16

me a cup of tea and be like. But she was cool.

21:18

She didn't walk in like she was. She just walked in and

21:21

I was like, immediately she she initiated

21:24

a hug. She came on the staircase. I

21:26

was like, you don't even know me. How nice is

21:28

that? And I was like, I'm hugging you whether you like it

21:30

or not. It was great. She was

21:32

awesome. This is a really interesting interview because

21:34

I feel like when people talk to her, they

21:37

asked her fucking well, because

21:41

that don't really get inside her head.

21:43

Oh man, we got inside her head. Yeah, that's

21:45

what I was a really I was so

21:48

happy after that interview. It was a

21:50

really fun interview and such a

21:52

wonderful part of our trup to Los Angeles. So

21:55

ladies and gentlemen, please welcome ambar

21:57

Rowse truly

22:04

wait for you to drop in to me.

22:07

I was looking for the reason to get

22:09

out. She wants to win, sucked

22:13

drawn away SEV

22:16

trying not to think a pup with She used

22:18

to tell me take away

22:22

phone to

22:26

myself in the middle, I

22:30

can see there's something we're here

22:32

with am around Hello, knew

22:34

it. You've been warning the interview from so long.

22:37

You're so hot, you're so what's

22:41

on around your waist? It's

22:43

a waist trainer? What are those? I've

22:45

heard of those, um, but I don't know what they

22:47

do. Well, so they make you sweat a

22:49

lot around around your belly

22:53

and they really fucking work.

22:55

Really they really work. Because I'm gonna say,

22:57

I was like, your waist looks great. So people they've

23:00

been training it. Yeah, they shape you.

23:03

Yeah. Oh so they just make

23:05

you sweat in that area. Yeah, So it's

23:08

like it's like it takes like inches off.

23:11

So it's like body sculpting in a way, and you

23:13

can work out in certain ways that make your butt

23:16

or make whatever you want to make a bigger

23:18

or smaller. You have such I

23:20

mean, the most hour glassy

23:22

of hourglass figures I've

23:24

ever seen. Um

23:27

so sluat shaming. You're

23:30

a person that's in the media that talks about

23:32

it a lot. One of the I mean, everyone

23:34

talks about it, but you kind of make it. You're saying like

23:36

a stance on it, which thank you, by

23:38

the way, you're very what what so

23:41

what was your childhood like when you were growing up? Like, how

23:43

did you learn about sex? Kind of want to start in the beat from

23:45

the beginning, How did I learn about seas?

23:48

Um? You know, I was kind of like a late bloomer

23:51

as far as well, not really because

23:53

I was I don't even want to say my age when I lost

23:55

my virginity, but compared to the other girls

23:58

in my neighborhood, I was just to hear store reads

24:00

about like you know, like this girl got

24:02

fingered by this guy and this girl you

24:05

know, um um, this guy

24:07

like eight her out like that was like he

24:09

was never like oral, it was like eight or out

24:12

meant like you ate things off of the

24:14

stomach. I thought I meant like you ate a sandwich

24:16

off a girl's stomach. I'm like, that's not that bad,

24:18

guys, No, But

24:20

I would hear things like that and I'm like eight

24:23

or out what is that?

24:25

That's so like I didn't get it into

24:27

sounds animalistic? Yeah, and it it actually

24:29

made me feel really gross and I was just like you

24:32

you know, because I just wasn't ready for that. And

24:34

then I remember I had a I slept

24:36

over my friend's house and she had an older

24:38

sister and she was like, so

24:41

I got this boyfriends and um

24:44

he wrote me a love letter? Do you guys want to hear

24:46

it? And I was like yeah, sure.

24:49

We were so young, and

24:51

it was just the most disgusting, like

24:54

sexually advanced

24:57

for my age. Like I just couldn't like when I heard

24:59

it, I really like started crying. I called

25:01

my mom. I was like, Mom, I want to come home,

25:03

Like what was it was? So it

25:05

wasn't a love letter, It was not a letter.

25:08

Yeah letter, Yes,

25:10

it was one of those. And I just felt really

25:12

uncomfortable, So like, um,

25:14

yeah, I was just really weird like when I was when I

25:16

was really really young, I don't know for some reason,

25:18

I was just I was very very innocent.

25:21

I was going to say that that innocence you

25:23

kind of feel it draining out of you, and as you

25:25

learn more things. When I first walked stumbled across

25:27

porn and my dad's computer, I was like, no,

25:32

me scared of sex. Did your parents give you

25:34

a sex talk? So did

25:36

you? What about school? Like, did they say anything

25:38

other than sperm egg? No?

25:42

I mean I grew up in Philly. I went to like a really hood

25:44

like elementary school, and um,

25:47

you know, like during health class, like they didn't really

25:49

respect the teacher, so it was always very loud and

25:51

like obnoxious in the classrooms.

25:54

I really didn't learn that you know anything

25:56

about sex until

25:58

you actually did it. Yeah,

26:01

I mean, um,

26:03

it's crazy. I had. There was this guy

26:06

in the neighborhood and um,

26:09

and they called him fagg

26:11

it Frankie that was his name. You

26:13

know, was he gay or they just know he was gay.

26:15

He was an older man and

26:18

he was extremely flamboyant and

26:20

um that was his nickname. His face

26:23

dubbed himself that or yeah he did too. Yeah,

26:27

okay. He was like, yeah, I'm fagging Frankie. Like

26:29

he was like yeah,

26:32

thank you Frankie. Right. So, um,

26:34

but I found out that uh,

26:37

he was HIV positive when I was

26:39

young, and um, he

26:41

wounded up passing away and

26:44

you know what, it really like scared me so

26:47

like I was just like if

26:49

that's when I started researching and I was really

26:51

young, and I was just like, oh my god,

26:53

this is like sexually transmitted

26:55

sex can kill you. That's sex

26:58

can kill you. Can kill yeah,

27:00

sex will kill you. So like even

27:02

like after I lost my virginity, Um,

27:05

I used I know, I knew to use a condom.

27:08

Um, but I was still scared.

27:11

And was it a good first time? Mine wasn't.

27:13

It was with a boyfriend, but I felt so

27:16

gross. I don't know, I felt weird afterwards.

27:19

I felt bad. I felt like I was ready,

27:21

like I wanted to. I really liked him.

27:23

We were like he said he was a

27:26

virgin, but then his brothers and stuff was like he'd

27:28

been sucking, He've been doing this, you

27:30

know. And then um, after

27:33

we had sex, I started

27:35

thinking of faggy Frankie and

27:37

I was just like, you know, and I was just I was

27:39

really really scared. And I was just like, mom,

27:43

I had sex. I want to go get tested.

27:45

Oh that's so responsible.

27:48

Yeah. And I went to my mom and she was like, honey, it's okay.

27:50

She was like, you know, did usual condom? So I

27:52

was like, yeah, I did, but you know,

27:54

knowing what I know now, I'm

27:57

scared, you know, And I've

27:59

always been like like throughout my life. I was just

28:01

like, but your mom is very accepting.

28:03

The first time you had sex, she was

28:05

okay with it absolutely, But and yeah,

28:08

what's that like? My mom was not okay

28:10

with it. Well, my mom is the type of person she would

28:12

always say like, um,

28:15

if you tell me the truth, you won't get in trouble.

28:18

Good good rule. So if I, like, you

28:21

know, uh, skip school that day,

28:24

and she like kind of knew, like she found out,

28:26

she would be like, if you tell me the truth right

28:28

now, you won't get in trouble. Yeah,

28:31

Mom, I didn't go to school today. I'm not gonna

28:34

lie to you. She's like

28:39

she always she always sucks to her work, which which made

28:41

our relationship very close. It creates a huge

28:43

amount of trust. That's wonderful.

28:46

Yeah, because I feel like if if a parent looks on

28:48

their child. Sexuality is something bad or

28:50

negative that fucks the mother fuck up

28:53

for a child. So

28:55

you learned about sex and when When was the first time that

28:57

you remember having like a serious boyfriend of seria,

29:00

relationship or girlfriend? Um,

29:02

are you straight or gay? You're

29:05

not gay. I believe you can love anybody, right,

29:08

Yeah, yeah, I believe you could fall in love with anybody.

29:11

Actually attracted to like different things.

29:13

It's just weird. I was actually atracted to cars.

29:15

I was keeping non human yeah no,

29:18

no, no, but I'm

29:20

actually tracked to this cow. I

29:22

love my dogs, my Frankie,

29:26

but and I totally make out with them all the time

29:29

as to a lot of dogs evers, I get it.

29:32

But um, I forgot what I was saying. Talk

29:34

about your first serious relationship. I

29:37

was my first serious relationship. I was probably

29:39

in the ninth grade. Did

29:42

you fall in love or looking back, You're like,

29:44

no, that wasn't love. It definitely wasn't love.

29:46

Yeah, yeah, it definitely wasn't love. Um,

29:49

but we were together for like we were like

29:51

there, like three years. Yeah. I

29:54

talked a lot about in the night like I have I'm a

29:56

thirty two double day and but it

29:58

was this My tips were this size when I

30:00

was in seventh grade and

30:03

I was not into that, Like I had an experience

30:05

where I wasn't ready to be looked at as sexy

30:09

my body yet because my mind was still like I want

30:11

to wear it too too, you know, and it fun

30:14

It like almost made me hate men

30:16

for like a little bit in eighth and ninth

30:18

grade because of that. Did you feel that

30:21

was your body the way it is now? And I

30:24

fucking so I was very developed. Um,

30:26

I would like walk down the street with my mom

30:29

and guys in like the garages, like the you

30:32

know, like the car GARACKTF like that. They'd

30:34

be like, damn you with

30:36

your mom. I'm with my mom My mom like she's fucking

30:38

thirty, so disrespectful,

30:41

you know. She would go crazy, and um,

30:43

yeah it did. It makes me feel gross. Did

30:46

that affect how far or

30:48

not far you went with boys? Because I was I feel

30:50

like I was a late bloomer, Like I didn't have my first kiss

30:52

until much later in high school. Yeah,

30:55

um, because I was scared. I just did

30:57

like men, the older men who sexualized

30:59

an in thirteen or fourteen year old it

31:02

feels so gross. Gross for

31:04

sure, it was absolutely gross.

31:07

When was the first time that you fell in love,

31:11

like real love? Yeah, that's with my husband,

31:14

well, my soon to be accesssband R. So

31:16

do you think that's the only time that you've been in love?

31:19

Absolutely? How do you know, Like what's

31:21

different? Well, like when you

31:23

really find love, you just know.

31:26

So then you look back on your past relationships

31:29

and you're just like, I love that you

31:32

had total previous people that you love them. But

31:34

but then when you met your soon to be ex husband,

31:36

you knew, like this doesn't compare no

31:39

comparison at all. How

31:41

is when you're falling in love that hard? Like was

31:43

the sex insane? Like that

31:46

means we made a baby? So, but

31:51

like what I want to like, what

31:53

are your do you have any go to moves when

31:56

you're fucking I you know what

31:58

I and I watched porn. I love porn. I'm

32:00

sucking regulars, fucking bed. I'm just like

32:02

get on top, yeah or from behind?

32:05

I'm not you would think I'm more exciting. Three

32:07

things I feel like, yeah, missionary on top,

32:10

imporn? How the woman like the guy sitting

32:12

on the couch and the woman's facing the camera like

32:14

this, you know, like girl I've

32:17

tried that the other day and I was like, this too hard.

32:20

It's like squats. It's not fun,

32:22

you know. Yeah, I don't like it. You

32:24

don't want to feel to burn really

32:26

anywhere during sex, I mean, and then it's just not

32:29

a very comfortable position to like

32:32

try to have an orgasm. Yeah, it's not. It's

32:34

more for like their pleasure to see

32:36

your as bounce up. But

32:38

um, yeah, I don't. I don't personally like that position

32:41

either. That's interesting though, that you had on

32:43

that, because when did you learn or

32:45

maybe you always did to make sex for

32:47

your pleasure and to make sure that you were enjoying

32:49

sex just as much as the man. I

32:52

think a lot of times as women were just so taught

32:54

and like wrapped up in like pleasing the

32:56

man that we don't until our like thirties

32:59

start trying to please our selves. Absolutely,

33:01

I agree with you definitely later

33:03

in life for sure, um,

33:07

I would see, Yeah,

33:11

have you always had orgasms when you had sex with guys

33:14

like from I didn't never coming

33:16

until never really my boyfriend

33:18

now never dam And

33:20

you have to have like you

33:22

have to not give a funk in order to really

33:25

have an orgasm and to not give a

33:27

fuck. You au be close with

33:29

someone, you have to make the craziest

33:31

faces. You just stay

33:33

in that spot and keep doing exactly

33:36

what you're doing. I'm not going to move,

33:40

and my legs are going to be straight as

33:42

funk if I want them to be. It's not going to

33:44

be sexy right now, but this is what I want.

33:47

I feel like it looks like an animal and like a barn

33:49

animal. But you can only do that with

33:51

someone that you're really comfortable with. But do you

33:53

think that that I totally I agree with That's

33:56

how I felt until my my boyfriend now. But I think

33:58

it's because if you are, especially you're a person who

34:00

is so sexualized in the media and

34:03

people are so into how

34:05

you look all the time. Does that

34:07

you think that kind of seeps into your brain when you're

34:10

when you're having sex with the dude, you're like, oh,

34:12

right, this is how you thought i'd be in bed, right, Like this

34:14

is like you have to live up to you like

34:17

the amber rose that everyone else knows you

34:19

as. No, because if

34:21

I'm sleeping with someone, they know me.

34:23

For me, it's not like media

34:27

shit, right, you know what I'm su somebody

34:29

who's like that anyway. Yeah, I'm not going to suck a random

34:31

groupie guy that's like in a city,

34:33

Like, I don't need sex that bad. Do you

34:35

have a lot of dudes that try and to fuck you, like

34:39

like can I have sex with you? Amber? Like, shut up, I'm going

34:41

to cvs for the wrong reasons. Yeah,

34:43

all the time. They just yell out they want to um.

34:47

Well, I see like a lot of comments on social media,

34:50

your Instagram, it must be insane.

34:52

She gives me one chance? It is that man, fuck

34:54

you so crazy? And like you never

34:56

spuned anything? No, if

35:00

I was like stoned one day, don't ever look at

35:02

my d m s because it's just really

35:05

Yeah, I've never gotten a dick

35:08

pick. I get nothing but dicks.

35:10

Like, do people think they're going to send you a picture of their dick

35:12

and then you're gonna be like I've been waiting for

35:14

you, sees this dick?

35:17

Life's gonna change apparently,

35:19

Yeah, I guess they feel that way. Have you

35:22

ever gotten any dick picks that you're like, why

35:24

do you? Why did you send that? You shouldn't

35:26

be proud of that. Yeah, wretched

35:29

dicks. Is there anything you look for in

35:31

a dick? Specifically, like

35:34

I feel like some of you know men have like, oh I like big boobs

35:36

or I like a big butt. Like as far as dicks,

35:39

like, like, is there ever have you ever like a shine

35:41

liked someone and then saw their shiny,

35:44

shiny the ashy

35:47

do people have ash dicks? Um?

35:49

Yeah? So

35:52

crue wait how did you fix

35:54

that? And just it? Um?

35:57

It's I mean listening for a sure,

36:01

make it nice and shiny, make it look

36:03

a you, right,

36:06

Like I don't want a picture

36:08

of like a first of all, I don't personally

36:10

like dick pics. So like if I'm

36:12

talking to someone and they're like,

36:15

here's a dick pic, I'm like, even

36:17

if it's big, it's just like it's not appealing.

36:19

It's like taking a picture of your vagina

36:21

and nothing else. What makes a picture

36:24

a sexy picture is like your body in it,

36:26

your curves, You're notched to that big

36:28

or pussy right, So like I'd rather get

36:30

like a face

36:33

chest and like top of a few

36:37

you know, selfie in the mirror, Like that's

36:39

more appealing to me than just a dick pi. Yeah

36:41

it's weird. I'm like, what are the guys thinking when they

36:43

send this? I don't get what they're

36:46

really gonna floor us with their huge there,

36:48

huge dicks. It's it's not that

36:50

of a deal. So when you start, when you start dating

36:52

someone or starts seeing if you're gonna get

36:55

into a sexual relationship, what are some key things

36:57

that you look for in a partner, like

36:59

a relation ship or just do

37:01

you casually fun? Like do you have fun buddies that you

37:03

know and trust and just well, I

37:06

personally don't. I don't like that

37:08

because I feel like the sex just isn't good.

37:10

If it's like that, there's no like emotional

37:12

connection. Um, not to say

37:14

that I don't do it. Sometimes sometimes

37:17

it's like my homie and it's cool and it's

37:19

a moment and like right

37:22

here, right now. Yeah, it's just like it's like not

37:24

fuck it if we're gonna be homies tomorrow, you know.

37:26

But um,

37:29

but um, as far as relationships,

37:31

you know, I really like a guy that can make

37:33

me laugh. Um. I like

37:35

a guy that's just all around sweetheart.

37:38

I hate cheap men, um

37:41

you know how so like you don't have to yeah,

37:44

I mean that or you know, um

37:48

cheap with like flights and hotels.

37:50

You know, we all travel a lot just stingy

37:53

and like, so no Jewish guys

37:55

for you. I mean, I love Jewish guys,

37:58

but I mean it's just like I

38:01

don't know, I like what I like. I do. I like presents

38:03

for no reason. They never have to be like expensive,

38:06

not all the time anyway, thoughtful

38:09

and EXI ones in there,

38:11

right, but you know, like if you got it, don't

38:13

be fucking cheap. Because I've heard you are talking,

38:16

uh, and you said you primarily date

38:18

people who are famous because

38:21

you have a certain lifestyle and it's you

38:23

you find hard. It's hard to relate to people who don't

38:26

live in a similar lifestyle. Yeah,

38:28

because it's a it's a very difficult lifestyle.

38:30

I mean just especially living in l A,

38:33

dealing with paparazzi. Um,

38:36

not understanding like the social

38:38

media aspect of my job.

38:41

Um and uh, just

38:44

the rumors you know, for me the day a

38:46

regular guy and

38:48

then there's like, um,

38:52

we heard that Amber was working

38:54

with this guy and that guy and that guy on the internet. Famous

38:57

guys like man, they did that same ship to me last

38:59

week. I don't even know that girl. And

39:01

the regular guys like I know you're doing

39:04

this. This is exactly what it is. I'm like, the

39:06

internet is bullshit. Don't believe it.

39:09

I've been in the house of my son all week now,

39:12

you know, So how do you not

39:14

get mad at that bullshit all the time?

39:16

That would piss me off if people were constantly

39:19

I mean, I guess you just ignore it. But when it seeps

39:21

into your life, like in that where your loved ones

39:23

or someone who knows you is gets

39:26

insecure about something they're hearing, that's bullshit

39:28

that I don't Well, that's why. That's why I

39:30

can. I really just try to do you

39:32

guys that understand the lifestyle

39:35

and then understand how I move, you know what I'm

39:37

saying, Like, I don't just um

39:40

walk into the club. I have my security

39:42

going, make sure the tables clean already,

39:45

you know, to find the entrance to get in, make

39:48

sure we're part you know, like it's it's certain, it's

39:50

certain ways that I move. You're

39:52

good at branding yourself to like

39:55

how how how did you get good at that?

39:58

Just living in practice, just

40:00

living it? You know, I don't really

40:02

um like

40:05

all the negative ship I

40:07

was, I kind of just laugh like it doesn't bother me.

40:09

That's the only thing you can do. That's kind of really

40:12

like it really hilarious. I mean

40:14

because some of the ship that people say. I mean, I'm

40:16

sure there's so much hurtful things, but when

40:18

when motherfucker's are just going on the internet making Reddit

40:20

threats, I'm like, you're so fucking sad, dude,

40:23

Like go out in the world. Well,

40:25

the cool thing is that I have like really amazing

40:27

people around me that know who I

40:29

am as a person, so like anything

40:32

negative that can be on the internet, they don't

40:34

even approach me, but they're just like, that's

40:36

not her. But yeah, you know that's

40:39

so irrelevant. It doesn't even matter when

40:41

you when you started your career, did you kind

40:43

of see yourself as not

40:45

just being like a model and whatever,

40:49

like with a larger picture, with the slut walk and

40:51

making a larger impact. Was that always something you had in

40:53

mind or something that just circumstance drove

40:55

you too. Circumstances

40:57

d me to that because I never wanted to be

40:59

fame this, No, you didn't know,

41:02

But what did what when when you're a little girl,

41:04

what did you want to do? I wanted to be a marine

41:06

biologist. I

41:08

mean my whole life, I wanted to swim with whales

41:11

and study whales my whole life. So how

41:13

when did that change go to a

41:15

different path? Um? Well, I

41:19

started dating a very famous guy

41:21

and paparazzi

41:24

just started following me, and I was just like, yeah,

41:27

I'm not famous, so don't follow

41:29

me. This is weird, Like I'm just a normal

41:32

girl that so happened to be dating

41:34

a famous guy. That doesn't make me famous,

41:36

Like just leave me alone. Um.

41:38

But it did. And then it was like all

41:41

right, so and I had this life that

41:43

I don't necessarily want interesting,

41:46

and um, I'm not a singer

41:48

at this At that time, I'm not

41:50

a singer. I'm not an actress. Um

41:54

I don't know how to like live

41:57

like this and not be norm just a normal

41:59

girlfriend South Philly? So how do I live

42:01

this life now? And it was just like

42:03

a huge transition, um

42:06

into like being very secretive and watch

42:09

who I have at the house and like people try

42:11

to steal from me and you

42:13

know, and then it's like it's like

42:15

why are you famous? I'm like I don't know,

42:17

like society

42:20

pushed you into that role like that

42:22

happens so often, and

42:24

then we get mad at you for being famous

42:27

anything. You just walked next to a person.

42:30

I just was with a person and

42:33

um yeah, and and that was it. So

42:35

it was just like, God, it's really out of my hands.

42:37

And then you know, I try to explain to people.

42:42

For me, it's like, all right,

42:44

I got this fame, right, So like

42:46

somebody promoters will come to me and say,

42:48

hey, we'll give you thirty

42:50

thou dollars if you just show up for an hour.

42:53

Do you want to come? So it's like I'm

42:55

supposed to be like, no, I'm not

42:57

famous, so sorry,

43:00

you can keep your money. Your

43:03

money, You're just like And then it's like you

43:05

develop more fans because I'm super nice

43:07

and i'd take the pictures and I'm like cool with everybody,

43:10

and it just grew and grew and grew over the years,

43:13

and I'm just like, I've seen the double

43:15

standards and the quality issues and all

43:17

the fucking bullshit, and I'm like, I

43:20

have an opportunity to do a select walk on

43:22

an entirely different level. That's

43:24

what I'm gonna do now. Just that an idea

43:26

that you created about yourself was their team behind

43:29

that? How did that kind of come about? I Mean

43:31

I know the story, but I just want every want to hear it, okay,

43:33

so um, I uh, I

43:35

don't know, just kind of getting fed up with

43:38

like the bullshit. And

43:40

they would be like, instead

43:42

of saying, oh amber Rose with

43:44

Khalifa's baby mom, Kanye's ex

43:46

girlfriend amber Rose, that was my title.

43:49

You weren't your own person, You're always connected to some

43:51

guy. But they don't do that to men. No,

43:54

they never ever do that to men. And

43:57

I was seeing all this ship and I'm like, man, this is so

43:59

fun ucks. And then I've seen a girl

44:02

on It was a picture on Instagram

44:04

with a girl head on pasties and

44:07

it said still not asking for

44:09

it on her body because she was like her hand in the air.

44:11

Yes, that photo. Love that photo.

44:13

So I saw it and I'm like

44:15

what is this? Like? This is so this girl so

44:17

fucking cool. She had her pubes out like to

44:20

watch. It was so badass, and

44:23

I'm like, who is this girl? So I started doing research, found

44:25

out what a slot walk is. Boom boom boom. Went

44:28

to my people. I'm like, yo, we have

44:30

to do this, and

44:33

uh I worked, I

44:36

mean so hard to

44:38

get that ship done. Um.

44:41

And it's a it's a charity event technically,

44:43

you know, it's under my foundation. I don't make any money

44:45

from that. So it's like I was working and working

44:48

and working and working, not making

44:50

a dollar only because I was so passionate

44:52

about it and I wanted to do it for all

44:55

of us. I mean, hearing you talk

44:57

about those experiences and saying this

44:59

is fucked up. It's not just part of being a

45:01

girl. It's something that we really need to stop

45:04

doing and raise it. The only way you can do it is by

45:06

raising awareness about it. But that's so powerful

45:08

because like when you saw that photo of that girl

45:11

saying still not asking for you, You're like, oh,

45:13

yes, no, that's that's something that I've connected

45:15

to pretty much since I was a teenager,

45:17

but you didn't have the verbiage to

45:20

talk about it, you know. And then seeing that

45:22

it was like I thought about how many times

45:25

I got sexually assaulted, and

45:27

this kind of like blew it off.

45:30

You've been actually sexually assaulted. I mean, who

45:32

had you go through a club? It's

45:35

like like right under,

45:37

grab your ass, grab it, damn girl.

45:40

You know that's like that is getting sexually assaulted.

45:43

And I've gotten sexually assaulted. I

45:45

guess tis well,

45:47

yeah, But and when

45:50

we started doing this podcast. I just thought that that was

45:52

part of being a girl. And then we did, we went current

45:54

and I went up for Halloween this past year in New

45:56

York City and she was a Ronald

45:58

McDonald, like a a female female

46:01

McDonald, but she had this tight yellow

46:03

body suit, and I these

46:05

dudes were just coming up on the street and grabbing

46:07

her ask and I was like, what

46:10

the fuck are you kidding me? She's

46:12

a grown up. It doesn't even matter who did, Like, how

46:15

is that acceptable? It's not still happening?

46:17

Like, I don't I want to. I

46:20

mean, you know, look

46:23

at Bill Cosby right now? What

46:26

is it women two

46:28

around that they're not all fucking

46:31

lying? Okay, that's

46:33

number one. But then I look at post and

46:36

I look at the comments underneath it,

46:38

and it's just like he's a

46:40

saint. These bitches are lying. They

46:42

just want fucking money. Why would they wait twenty

46:44

years later? Let me ask you a question. Let's

46:48

just let's just make an example. Let's

46:50

say that it's

46:53

Barack Obama, right, but we could

46:55

say that his fame is up to par with

46:57

the fame that Bill Cosby

47:00

had in his prime. Right, somebody

47:03

of that stature that has

47:06

a beautiful wife and children and

47:08

such a father figure to like the

47:10

world. Everyone loves him. He's just he's

47:12

so loved. Rapes

47:14

you or sexually assault you?

47:17

Who do you call? Do

47:20

you call your cop friend from the neighborhood.

47:23

Do you call nine one one and say, hey, um,

47:25

yeah, Barack Obama raped me,

47:28

so can someone help me? You

47:31

go to your family. Your family is like,

47:33

listen, we believe you, but no one else

47:35

will. Do you really want to take this burden

47:37

on? Do you really want

47:40

to do this right now? So you even

47:42

though you were raped, it's your burden

47:44

because you were raped. It's your fault

47:47

because you went on a date with someone and you

47:50

decided to say no and they didn't want

47:52

you to say no. You know

47:54

what I'm saying. Yeah, the way society treats

47:56

that, it's so crazy.

47:59

It's so crazy to me, And

48:01

it's like, you know, it's

48:04

just really really sad because I

48:08

feel like I

48:11

feel like the woman that went to her

48:13

family and they're like, look, don't

48:16

do this to us, don't do this to our

48:18

family right now. Just take

48:20

it, keep it with you

48:23

forever, and one day he'll get his day.

48:25

And then a woman comes out and she's like, you know

48:27

what, Bill Cosby did this to me?

48:30

And then the other woman's at home like, oh my god,

48:33

this is my fucking chance. I

48:36

gotta have her back. I

48:38

gotta come out and have her back. Then

48:40

the other woman is seeing this on TV. You

48:43

know what, man, it's been twenty years. This motherfucker

48:45

is gonna get his day. He's gonna

48:48

get it. All these women,

48:50

they don't know each other, they didn't call this

48:52

isn't a conspiracy. They have the same story

48:54

about this very similar story.

48:57

And getting raped is embarrassed

49:00

saying in itself right, because you'll

49:02

instantly feel like shit and you're and then

49:04

you're the raped girl and then rape.

49:07

In this society, we're so often defined

49:10

by an incident like that

49:12

and that's all. That's all people care about anymore. And it's

49:14

like, this is something that happened to me, But this is

49:16

not all This is not all me.

49:19

No one thinks about that moment that you were talking

49:21

about. Okay, I was just raped. Who do I

49:23

call by a person who everyone knows

49:25

and loves and respects. The weight

49:27

Now the weight's on you. It's such fucking

49:30

bullshit. It's so horrible. Could

49:32

you imagine that like in

49:35

his prime, when you're an

49:37

actress, you're a young actress, you're fucking

49:40

stewartist. Yeah, you're stewardest.

49:43

And then it's like, well, you're just the fucking

49:45

stewardest. He can fuck anybody,

49:47

Why would Why would he fuck you? He's married,

49:51

why would he Why would he rape you

49:53

when he can go fuck another bad bitch. I've

49:57

heard that like in

49:59

society, like even with other situations,

50:02

it's like, why would

50:04

he rape you? I mean he can he can have he can

50:07

have a million girls. Why do you think

50:09

we all, like the world or

50:11

the country has that reaction. I don't

50:13

know why. That's why I want to figure out why, because

50:15

it's the mind training or I

50:17

don't know. Society raises

50:20

us to be that way. We

50:22

are beneath men. Yeah,

50:25

it's our fault, that's

50:27

what they tell us. It's kind of like we're always in the way.

50:29

That's why you know with women saying like a sorry sorry

50:31

all the time, it's just like you're always treating yourself

50:33

like you're someone in the way, but you deserve to be here just

50:35

as much as anybody. Times I hear like

50:37

girls are like, if you really want to keep a man, you better

50:39

suck his dick every day. I've

50:42

yeah, I've heard that a lot. I think I

50:45

would never suck somebody's dick

50:47

every day. You know how The meaning that is

50:49

to like be like, shit, it's thick.

50:54

Shit, it's really who o'clock in the afternoon.

50:56

I haven't sucked his dick. Yeah, better, I better go

50:58

started. I gotta go to the You

51:01

should want to suck dick. When you want to suck

51:03

dick, it doesn't have

51:05

to be a chore that's horrible. Well,

51:08

you should naturally come out. If you love someone, they're

51:12

gonna want to eat your bust. If I want to suck that dick, I'm gonna

51:14

suck that dick. I don't want to suck that dick, then go

51:16

go. I don't want you to make me feel like I have to

51:18

suck your dick. Have you ever had a guy that

51:20

you've been with that made you

51:22

feel that way? Yes? How do you

51:24

handle like? I just we'll just be like watching

51:26

a movie on the couch, snuggled up

51:29

and just grab my head

51:31

and it's like, are you fucking

51:34

kidding me? Like it's just such a her

51:36

not because I would have sucked your dick if

51:38

you didn't do that, And that's that's the ironic

51:40

part. It's like, if you fucking treated me with

51:42

respect, I would do things. I would do

51:45

so much more than suck your dick. I would have yeah,

51:49

yeah, maybe i'll play with your balls.

51:51

Well, we'll fucking negotiate. But now you did that move.

51:53

Fuck you get out of my house exactly right.

51:56

Was there a time though, that when you because I remember

51:59

certain moments where I was treated that way by

52:01

boyfriends, mainly in high school, and I was

52:03

like, oh, okay, and I look back, I gets

52:06

so mad at myself for taking it

52:08

and not standing up for myself. Did you have like,

52:10

did you have a moment where you started standing

52:12

up for yourself or were you always

52:14

why I've had those moments where

52:16

it's just like, God, I really don't

52:18

want to sleep with this guy, but I

52:21

kind of took it this far and

52:23

we're both almost naked and

52:26

he has the condom one, al

52:28

Right, fuck it, I'll just do it because

52:30

I feel like I have to. And that's

52:32

why, you know, in my younger years,

52:35

but that's why, like with my slought walk, I talk

52:37

about all that stuff and I say it

52:39

doesn't matter. If you get to that point,

52:42

if you change your mind and you say

52:44

no, it's no, and that's fine.

52:46

You don't have to feel bad about that. You

52:48

don't have to because you're gonna look back like

52:51

us and be like, why the fund

52:53

could I do that? I felt obligated

52:55

at that point, and then you kind of I've

52:58

always felt gross. I feel like why did I me?

53:00

And then you blame yourself and then it's just all this inner

53:03

bullshit going on in your head and it takes

53:05

a while to figure out, like, oh, I don't

53:07

want to suck you right now. Sorry, I know you have a condom on,

53:09

but because if you don't, then you're kind

53:11

of like, oh, you're a tea. It's like, yeah,

53:14

why did you have times when you've been called a

53:16

tease? I am the Queen of I

53:19

am the snuggle trust

53:22

me. When it's like, you know, eleven o'clock

53:25

and even now, I mean, yeah,

53:27

I can't imagine a guy snuggling with you

53:30

on the couch and not trying to pull some

53:32

ship. You

53:34

know. I got a few snuggle buddies and

53:38

they know what it is. Yeah, that's

53:40

good. That's nice to have a guy that it's

53:42

you're there's a little bit of sexual something

53:45

there, but I don't want to suck you. But it's

53:47

like I might want to fuck you. I might,

53:50

I might not, I might

53:52

want to snuggle, I want to watch movie. Do you like to

53:54

initiate or do you like to be more submissive?

53:57

It depends on the guvernment

54:00

on the moment. Yeah, it just has to you know, with

54:02

me, like like I said earlier,

54:04

for me to like have sex with you, it has to

54:07

be like extreme chemistry or

54:09

it's not going to feel good. You

54:11

know. Do you masturbate a lot every

54:15

day? Everybody?

54:17

I'd try to do it every day. Um,

54:20

when I'm when I'm alone, Yeah, the second

54:22

I'm alone in the house and I guess I'm going to masturbate,

54:24

Like it's my first thought because

54:27

like we were saying earlier, when you're with somebody

54:29

that you love and trust so much that you can

54:31

be whatever and you can come with them in bed, it's

54:34

like that. But when I'm by myself, obviously, I'm like

54:36

that all the time. What

54:38

do you very healthy? Yeah?

54:40

It is healthy? Yeah, calming.

54:43

Do you come like I'm one of those people

54:45

when I come, Oh yeah I do. Actually,

54:47

huh so

54:50

uh. Yeah, how do you do you masturbate?

54:52

You use toys? Do you use your hands? Now? I don't

54:54

use toys use I use my hand

54:56

too. But you have some craziest

54:59

nails, right. I don't what you're saying.

55:01

I don't finger myself and that just doesn't feel

55:03

good. Huh huh um yeah,

55:06

I don't know. I was gonna say, I have you ever gotten like nicked

55:08

your there's

55:12

any masturbation? Yeah?

55:14

Do you just like rub your clip? I wish,

55:16

I wish I could. That's all I do and

55:19

I need Yeah,

55:22

I mean yeah, I mean I definitely

55:25

watch porn when I'm masturbate. What kind

55:27

of porn do you like? Um?

55:31

I like big dicks. It

55:34

has to be big if it's a small day

55:36

you type in the search field big. I

55:39

love that the first thing you said was a man related

55:41

though, because so often with porn it's always

55:43

about like, this is the kind of girl, so that I

55:45

look up the girl. That's cool. I when

55:47

I searched for ship, I'm like, I want to chick

55:51

getting red, and so I think that was such an I feel

55:53

like so many times it's about the girl, and that's I love

55:55

that you responded big dick.

55:57

Yeah, I like watching guys jerk off.

56:00

Really that's interesting because it's like there's

56:02

nothing manlier with God just grabbing. It's

56:04

pleasing yourself. Yeah, how do you?

56:07

How do you feel? Though? Sometimes I feel there's like the

56:09

conflict in me between like is

56:11

the girl and the porn enjoying herself? And that

56:13

makes it makes me nervous and

56:15

not able to enjoy myself. Do you ever experience that?

56:18

No? Have you? Do you have any friends

56:20

in the porn industry? My

56:22

friend Bonnie Rotten, Oh, she's

56:25

pregnant now I think that she just had the baby. Yeah.

56:28

Um, I had a lot of porn stars at my slat walk too

56:31

nice because I feel like and and Bonnie

56:34

went up and did a beautiful speech

56:37

because I do feel like as women

56:39

and men, as human we use porn

56:41

at our convenience. And then we kind of talked down

56:43

about porn stars the words you

56:45

jerk off to him and then you call him yeah, and then it's

56:47

just like sucking porn star. But it's just like,

56:49

you know what, it's not my thing,

56:51

it's not your thing, but that's her thing. That's what she wants

56:54

to do, and she's living her life. To the fullest.

56:57

Um, she has an amazing husband, new baby

56:59

now, so I'm certainly it's a very

57:01

necessary thing. Horn is

57:03

very nice love porn and also fucking on

57:05

Cameron doing it well, it's got to be really

57:08

hard. Yeah, if I try to do that,

57:11

maybe, like you're fired. I don't even gonna

57:13

try. You can't even do any positions

57:15

out of the missionary?

57:17

Are you someone like? Do you like do

57:20

you like to I

57:22

watch yourself? I have sex? You've like mirrors

57:24

in your room? Or are you more low key? I

57:26

don't have mirrors in my room? Um?

57:30

You know I yeah,

57:32

I enjoy I enjoy mirrors. If marrors

57:34

at available, when you're in a hotel and

57:37

you look available, that's amazing.

57:39

It's a fun treat, but not an everyday thing. Yeah, okay,

57:42

it's a fun treat. Yeah. I've been in those hotel rooms.

57:44

You look up and there's a mirror on the We're been

57:46

there. Um,

57:49

what's like what? I have so many

57:51

like dumb like girl sleepover questions.

57:54

What's the weirdest where's the weirdest place you've ever

57:56

fucked? Like the like the

57:58

cyber Mountain, that's that's

58:01

mine. Um

58:04

on the front of it was really cool. Now

58:07

when you were sucking on the front of a yacht

58:10

in your head where you like, I am fucking on

58:12

the front of a yard in the rain, it was what,

58:15

yeah, that sounds very romantic though it

58:17

was like it was kind of cold. But

58:19

I was just saying, I don't think I could come because

58:22

I'd be so just stoked that I'm sucking on

58:24

a yacht that I'd be so distracted

58:26

at my pussy be like over here. Now,

58:28

Yeah, it was cool what

58:32

you're doing that. I mean, like, how do you

58:34

make sure people aren't getting photos of you?

58:36

You're you're such a captured

58:38

woman, you know. It was very

58:40

It was very private, and I know as like as a

58:43

public figure. I mean I think we always

58:45

as a not public figures kind

58:47

of question like can you hide

58:49

from the pop rocks if you really want you or will they

58:51

truly track you down? Um? I mean

58:54

I have pink cars, so like, yeah,

58:59

if I dry the black one, it's like I'm a little

59:01

more like chill, but I enjoy my But it's like every

59:03

girl's you know, a pink car,

59:06

flaunt that pink car girl, right, But

59:09

um so when I drive my pain cars, I've

59:11

more I'm more than likely going to get shot by

59:13

the paparazzi. Um. And I know

59:15

that you know that going into it. Yeah, I know

59:17

that. Yeah. Have you ever what's have you ever said,

59:20

like go fund yourself to Papa

59:22

like just I would probably come up with

59:24

a whole slew of shitty lines to say no. I

59:26

don't you know why because they

59:28

that's their job. And it's

59:31

nice of you too, that's very I'm actually really

59:33

cool with all the paparazzi guys.

59:35

Um. You know, I when I see

59:38

them out, I'm like, hey, you know, how's your

59:39

water? You know, like yeah, and you

59:42

know they're like, I amber, you know, thank you for being

59:44

so nice. Can I take a picture with you? They ask

59:46

you. That's nice. They're really really nice

59:48

to me because you know, I try to um.

59:51

I always try to put myself

59:53

in somebody else's shoes. And I'm just like, you know, if

59:56

they get a good shot of me, um

59:58

while I'm out works both of you. It's

1:00:01

it's it's good for you know. They make money,

1:00:03

they make money off of it, and you have

1:00:05

kids, they have families. We do You've

1:00:08

seen the human side of them, Yeah, I do. And they're

1:00:10

and like I said, they're always very nice to me. They don't say

1:00:12

anything disrespectful anymore. Yeah,

1:00:15

I mean, like when I first came on the scene,

1:00:18

why are you following me? This is weird? You

1:00:20

know, like leave me alone because I just didn't. I

1:00:22

didn't understand at that time. But you know,

1:00:25

as years one one, I was just like, this is their

1:00:27

job, you know. And then I would talk to them. They're like,

1:00:29

Amber, were a huge fan of yours.

1:00:31

You know, we love you. You're always so

1:00:33

very humble and you know, and

1:00:36

I'm like, what's your name? You know, like I talked to about

1:00:38

so like anytime I see them, I'm like, oh, I know

1:00:40

them, and I'm like, hey, guys, you know, how

1:00:43

is that? How do you what about when you have your son with

1:00:45

you? That is that that? I don't know,

1:00:47

how was that negotiating? That are figuring that out?

1:00:49

When you first had your had your son um

1:00:53

or did you have to hide I don't know, under

1:00:56

a blanket or some well, who's

1:00:58

the family walking on to the you

1:01:01

know, it's um.

1:01:03

It's it's just it's just a part

1:01:05

of the lifestyle. You know. You just you gotta

1:01:08

if you're mad every day about

1:01:10

it. It's just a part of

1:01:12

the lifestyle. You just gotta get used to it

1:01:14

and just know what it is. Yeah,

1:01:16

you talk a lot about being a very positive person,

1:01:19

and so it seems like there's so many

1:01:21

times in your career when people have tried

1:01:23

to belittle you and say that, you know,

1:01:26

you're just a stripper or you're just kind of

1:01:28

like this hot body. How do you how

1:01:30

have you risen above that so gracefully?

1:01:32

Really? Um well, I just

1:01:34

tell people that, like when I was stripping, it

1:01:37

was the best time in my life. It

1:01:40

was so it was so empowering

1:01:43

and it was just like, um, I got

1:01:45

my tits out and I'm not looking

1:01:47

at any of you guys in a sexual way. I'm

1:01:49

wondering what type of money you have

1:01:52

in your pocket. That's not my only concern.

1:01:54

I don't give a funk about nothing else. So,

1:01:58

um you know, it

1:02:00

was a job and it was it was fucking

1:02:02

fun. It was like I was young, beautiful.

1:02:05

I was friends with all the girls that I worked

1:02:07

with. We all came from different backgrounds

1:02:10

and um we all worked

1:02:12

for different things and it was fucking

1:02:14

cool. And what made you want to start doing that?

1:02:16

Like? Was there? It was a financial reasons

1:02:18

or such. You know, I was young

1:02:21

and I and I do always say this that you

1:02:23

know, it had nothing to

1:02:26

do with my parents. My parents were

1:02:28

amazing. It was a choice that I made

1:02:30

by myself. And um,

1:02:32

I'm so sick of the daddy issues books dad.

1:02:36

My dad is amazing. I had an amazing

1:02:39

dad and amazing mom. It was

1:02:41

my decision to do that, and I did it.

1:02:43

What did your parents know that you were doing

1:02:45

it? Did they? They didn't know at first when

1:02:48

we were like fifteen, right, yeah, I

1:02:50

was very well, that's the misconception

1:02:53

I was. That's when I first tried it,

1:02:55

okay, um, and then I was

1:02:57

like, okay, I'm not doing this because

1:02:59

this is crazy. And it was a really hole

1:03:01

in the wall club. Um,

1:03:03

and I had a fake I d and I just

1:03:06

really wanted money because my neighborhood was the strippers

1:03:08

and drug dealers. Like that's really like all I knew.

1:03:10

And I would see the strippers, Um,

1:03:13

they would have like the coach bags and the cool

1:03:15

Honda accords and like you

1:03:18

know, um, it was just like wow, this is

1:03:20

cool. You know. My all my homies

1:03:23

around the corner like selling crack and ship

1:03:25

they're making a shipload of money. Why don't I be like

1:03:27

one of these girls? And

1:03:29

um, and I did, and I was just like, oh no, I

1:03:31

can't do it. So then I started working, um

1:03:34

with my fake I d at Hooters. I

1:03:37

applied for him. I feel like we've all been there.

1:03:39

Yeah check cashing place right. Um.

1:03:43

But yeah, and then I worked at Hooters. And then I got

1:03:45

my friend Donna taught me had a bartend

1:03:48

um, so like I would like dip and dab. And then

1:03:51

when I turned eighteen again, I worked at a really

1:03:53

reputable club where the guys couldn't touch

1:03:55

you. They had their hands to the side. Um.

1:03:57

And then I learned the game. So I had like this older

1:03:59

woman, which I talked about it in my book How

1:04:02

to Be a Bad Bag That

1:04:04

Um, there was this girl Autumn, her

1:04:06

stage was Autumn, and she, you

1:04:09

know, she taught me the ropes. You know, I was young, and

1:04:11

she was like, listen, there's gonna be a lot of guys

1:04:14

that are going to ask you to do a lot of things for

1:04:16

a lot of money. This is

1:04:18

a job. You keep everything in here.

1:04:20

I'm gonna show you how to do a lap dance. I'm

1:04:23

gonna teach you how to

1:04:25

seduce the money out of a man's pocket,

1:04:28

and you have you don't have to do anything

1:04:30

sexual with anybody, you know.

1:04:32

And I've never been into draws. A lot of my family

1:04:34

members that have like overdoses, so um,

1:04:37

I always stayed away from that. And

1:04:40

um, you know, I learned

1:04:42

how to persuade men to give

1:04:44

me money without having to do

1:04:46

any things. Yeah,

1:04:49

you know. And and that's what stripping is. You know. Porn

1:04:52

is a different thing. Prostitution

1:04:54

is also a different job. All

1:04:57

great services, but they are

1:04:59

jobs. It's like no one, no one

1:05:01

remembers that when it's but stripping

1:05:04

is stripping. You're on stage, you

1:05:06

look beautiful. Um,

1:05:08

you go down, you get your lab dances,

1:05:11

you try to get in the champagne room.

1:05:14

You know, that's like the more

1:05:16

money, the champagne.

1:05:18

I love going to strip clubs. My boyfriend and I go

1:05:20

all the time because I love watching a beautiful woman.

1:05:23

I know that she feels empowered,

1:05:25

and sometimes I can tell when she does and she's like she's

1:05:28

upset and that that's like, okay,

1:05:30

that's a different thing. But I feel like sexy

1:05:32

when I watch a sexy woman get naked

1:05:34

and dance and kind of own it. It's really hot in

1:05:37

the champagne room. Is that just happens

1:05:40

in there? I'm like, do they realize, like

1:05:44

like where, yeah, where I worked at

1:05:46

It's it's kind of like gone bottle service. So

1:05:49

it's like you it's like the club. You

1:05:51

can either be on the dance floor or you can have your

1:05:53

own spot, which your bottle service. That's

1:05:56

what the champagne room is. So it's like

1:05:58

a hundred and fifty per half hour our

1:06:01

um, and you had to buy a bottle in order to

1:06:03

be in there. So it was just more of like an intimate

1:06:05

lap dance and you know, you're

1:06:07

not in a in a room in a lap dance

1:06:09

room, So wouldn't it be like one guy in you

1:06:12

or multiple guys and multiple strippers?

1:06:14

Yeah, it would be that sometimes, or be one

1:06:16

guy that's just like, yeah, I want to take you in the champagne

1:06:18

room. Nice. Yeah, you get a lot

1:06:20

of guys who are like maybe you

1:06:22

can rub my I don't know, or were

1:06:24

they all like note knew what they want? Um,

1:06:28

Because when I go to strip clubs, I see guys

1:06:30

like just like not knowing that how to even talked to the

1:06:32

women, and I'm like, well, I

1:06:34

mean that was like the Bachelor parties, you

1:06:37

know, that's like the weekends when like all

1:06:39

the young guys before

1:06:41

and they were like slapping your ass with one

1:06:43

dollar and You're just like, where's

1:06:45

the older businessman? Right

1:06:52

year old? You talked about your book How to Be

1:06:54

a Bad Bitch, and I know that we

1:06:56

kind of you talk about a lot of mistakes

1:06:59

and things that you did in there, and this podcast

1:07:01

is very much like a what not to do. That's

1:07:03

kind of like we were not experts, and I think boys

1:07:05

that we have had experiences and

1:07:07

we know what not to do. Are there any

1:07:10

regrets or things that you've done that really stick

1:07:12

out in your mind that you've learned huge lessons

1:07:14

from. Um? Yeah, I mean of

1:07:16

course I don't. I don't

1:07:18

regret anything because, UM,

1:07:22

you know, as long as you learn from

1:07:24

your mistakes, you grow as a person. Um.

1:07:27

If you continuously make the same mistakes

1:07:29

over and over again, it's a problem

1:07:31

and you have to you know. I always say, like

1:07:35

if two or

1:07:37

three or four different people that

1:07:39

don't necessarily know each other, or even they

1:07:41

do know each other, they're all telling you the same

1:07:44

thing. That's when you have to analyze

1:07:46

yourself. You know, it's not about

1:07:48

you. Yeah, like not every because you know,

1:07:50

you can sit there and you can be like, man, she's this and

1:07:52

she's that, and she's this, and I'm not doing

1:07:54

nothing wrong. But if everyone

1:07:56

comes up to you and they're just like, yo, you're

1:07:59

doing something thing wrong, you got to

1:08:01

really sit back and be like, hey, you know what, maybe

1:08:03

I am Maybe I need to change as a person, you

1:08:05

know, maybe I need to not do that. Um.

1:08:08

And then if you learn from it, then it's cool.

1:08:10

If you're moving forward, you don't

1:08:13

seem you seem like you don't have a stubborn bone

1:08:15

in your body. I don't know. I'm

1:08:17

the type of person like if we got if

1:08:19

we got an argument, like one minute

1:08:22

later, I'd be like, all, I do understand

1:08:24

what you're saying, and I

1:08:27

feel your side of things, and this

1:08:29

is my side, but I do understand what you're saying, and I really

1:08:31

don't want to argue with too. Oh yeah,

1:08:34

I'm that. I'm I'm a Libra, so I like smooth

1:08:37

things over. Yeah. Yeah, you

1:08:39

have to keep your life balanced if you're a Libra. Yeah.

1:08:42

What when

1:08:44

I watched the recently rewatched the

1:08:46

video of you making this speech at

1:08:48

the slut Walk in l A. And

1:08:51

uh, you were talking about being

1:08:53

with you're you're soon

1:08:55

to be ex husband and how he like fucking wrote

1:08:57

a song about you now that you're just a stripper

1:09:00

and that, and I thought back,

1:09:02

I'm like that fucking that's

1:09:04

gotta hurt so bad, And

1:09:06

how do you? How do you? I

1:09:09

mean, I don't know anything about what happened because

1:09:11

I don't read the tabloids and stuff, So if I'm missing

1:09:14

anything, that's probably information.

1:09:17

Yeah, yeah, but he did write a song about right,

1:09:20

Well, it was just like you know, what

1:09:22

happens is, Um, people get

1:09:25

their feelings hurt. My feelings are hurt.

1:09:27

His feelings are hurt. I mean, we obviously loved

1:09:29

each other so much. We still love each other and

1:09:31

we talk on the phone. Yeah, even when we talk

1:09:33

on the phone now we see each other. It's always like all

1:09:36

right, babe, I love you. I'll talk to you later. You

1:09:38

know, we still really really love

1:09:40

each other. We just can't be together. Um,

1:09:42

we're just not good in a relationship. But

1:09:45

um, I think that I know because

1:09:47

he told me that. You know, it was it

1:09:50

was a very difficult time for him. And

1:09:52

he was very hurt and he apologized

1:09:55

for for saying what he said and it was

1:09:57

wrong and he knew it was wrong, and it really hurt my feelings

1:09:59

because is um, as I said earlier

1:10:02

in this podcast, that he was the

1:10:04

love of my life. That's the only man I ever loved.

1:10:06

So obviously that would hurt um

1:10:09

as far as like, well my ex said before

1:10:11

that, I can give two funks what he said before

1:10:13

that. I mean, that wasn't like I wouldn't shed a tear

1:10:16

over that because it's just fucking so

1:10:18

stupid. Um. But

1:10:21

with Whizz, Yeah, that hurt me. And then

1:10:23

and you could still be like, yeah, I love him, he's the love he

1:10:25

is, see the love of your life? Is that what you say now?

1:10:28

Like yeah, but like the fact that you

1:10:30

don't give a funk like you you don't have

1:10:32

that ego of but you hurt me that

1:10:34

you could say that because that's what you feel, like, I

1:10:36

fucking respect.

1:10:37

I mean,

1:10:39

you know, I just always try to be a very

1:10:41

honest person. Um. I think that's

1:10:43

what makes me really relatable because I

1:10:45

can, you know, even when I first came back say

1:10:48

I never danced, I don't know. I mean I was just

1:10:50

that was Halloween in that picture. I

1:10:52

was just acting like a stripper. You know, I could

1:10:54

have I could have lied about everything and I can

1:10:56

act could lie now and be like whizz

1:10:59

whatever, you know, just big mistake. But

1:11:02

it was like, that's not how you feel. That

1:11:04

would be your pride getting in the way. Yeah, that's corny.

1:11:07

It is very corny. Corny.

1:11:11

Are you someone who believes that there is only one

1:11:13

love of your life? Do you think there could be another?

1:11:15

Yeah? I do, Okay, I definitely. I

1:11:17

mean it's not the end for me. I'm gonna

1:11:20

you know, um right now, probably

1:11:23

not, but um one day

1:11:26

yeah, and then you know, it's it's really

1:11:28

sad to stay. But I feel like your first marriage

1:11:30

you kinda learn a lot,

1:11:33

and then your second marriage, I'm sure is

1:11:36

like, Okay, I'm not going to make those stay mistakes

1:11:38

again, or I'm going to see these signs like

1:11:40

it is going to be different signs,

1:11:43

and the other person like, what have you? What has marriage

1:11:45

taught you? I don't. I want to get married one day

1:11:47

to probably my boyfriend, but I

1:11:49

don't know, like how is it different?

1:11:52

How is marriage different than a relationship?

1:11:54

I've always wondered that because like it's just a document,

1:11:56

but it seems things seem to really change.

1:11:59

It's not. I wouldn't say it's just a document

1:12:01

because you you value

1:12:03

your love to that person before

1:12:06

God and before your family, right,

1:12:08

So it's a true commitment that you're making

1:12:10

to this person. And um, when

1:12:13

you get married, you're like, wow,

1:12:15

this is forever, Like this is I

1:12:17

have like the person that I love so much

1:12:20

that's gonna be with me forever. We're gonna

1:12:22

have so many babies and we're gonna have a happy life

1:12:24

and she's gonna be so fucking dope and we're gonna

1:12:26

get tatted together. And

1:12:28

then it's like it's gone,

1:12:30

and you're just like fuck yeah,

1:12:34

holy sh it. And I was like Staton

1:12:37

House for like six months and just cried

1:12:39

every day and it's just really a horrible

1:12:41

time. But um,

1:12:43

yeah, it sucks. It's really really sucks. And

1:12:46

people put do

1:12:48

you think putting that pressure on a

1:12:50

couple's love, like vowing

1:12:52

and before God, before your family?

1:12:55

Do you think that is good or bad?

1:12:57

I mean, did that would that did that impact it

1:12:59

or would it have gone that way anyway had you not

1:13:01

gone married and stayed together? You know, I'm

1:13:04

I'm not religious. I'm just a very

1:13:06

spiritual person. And I feel like God

1:13:08

does everything for a reason. You

1:13:10

know. I feel like, um,

1:13:13

we were supposed to get married, we were supposed

1:13:16

to have our beautiful son, Sebastian,

1:13:18

and we were supposed

1:13:20

to get a divorce, and this

1:13:23

year has been amazing for us,

1:13:26

um as far as our careers go.

1:13:29

You know, like maybe we couldn't be together to

1:13:33

find out who we really are as people, you

1:13:36

know what I mean, Because maybe if I was still married,

1:13:38

I would have never had my seat walk or I

1:13:40

would have never seen

1:13:42

all the you know, double

1:13:44

standards. I would have never

1:13:46

seen all that. I wouldn't have been as aware

1:13:48

as I am now. And I'm

1:13:51

truly happy that I'm able to help women.

1:13:53

And I wrote my book during this year.

1:13:56

You know, so you never you know, you

1:13:58

never know. God does everything for a reason. Yeah,

1:14:00

now you're wearing your shirt enough us be a slut, do

1:14:02

whatever you want. I love that you were that today. It

1:14:05

was not on purpose. It was so cool that yeah,

1:14:09

convenience. No, there's like two there's

1:14:11

two kind of schools of thought, either like don't

1:14:14

use the word slut at all or reclaim it as

1:14:16

a woman take the power back. Obviously you're

1:14:18

someone who uses the word slut and empowered. What

1:14:21

what how did you make that decision to do it and

1:14:23

how does it make you feel and what does that word mean

1:14:25

to you? Well, I feel like the definition of

1:14:27

a slut is just

1:14:29

a word that men and women use

1:14:32

to make a woman feel bad about her

1:14:34

sexuality. And um,

1:14:38

I referred to myself as a slut. If you look at

1:14:40

my bio on Instagram, I'm a certified

1:14:42

slut and um and

1:14:44

I'm and I'm happy to be that because

1:14:46

I was called a slut when I was still a virgin.

1:14:49

Um, because I was you know, I

1:14:52

had titties and ass and uh,

1:14:55

they assumed because all the boys

1:14:58

liked me that I was doing a lot of things I

1:15:00

wasn't doing at that time. And

1:15:02

now that I'm thirty two years old and I'm

1:15:05

single and I'm a mom, it's like,

1:15:08

for example, if I, um,

1:15:10

if I go out on a dinner date, God,

1:15:14

no, she's sucking him. She's

1:15:16

such a whore. And then it's like, all right, well that didn't work

1:15:18

out, so I'm gonna go on another date this Friday

1:15:20

with somebody else. Oh my

1:15:22

gosh, she's with another guy this week.

1:15:25

Jesus Christ is like, Yo, I'm

1:15:27

dating. I'm human. It's

1:15:29

okay if you want to call me a slept

1:15:32

because of that, I am more

1:15:34

than happy to embrace it. Yeah.

1:15:36

And then that you take the power and then you

1:15:39

make their words not affect you. And then

1:15:41

that means to that person calling you that the

1:15:43

power and it and it worked, it worked. It's taking

1:15:45

the power, yeah, because like we do that with a sense of humor,

1:15:47

like were making something funny or making

1:15:49

something real funked up that happened to you. If you can make

1:15:51

it funny, then you take the power back and

1:15:54

you you're in control of it for sure. Um.

1:15:56

Now you're you're you're such a vision obviously

1:15:58

have a great body, such a vision, and

1:16:00

you are I think that's a great and

1:16:03

that people know you for that and they know that you're

1:16:05

an outspoken person. What are some things that you

1:16:08

wish people knew about you that never

1:16:10

gets talked about publicly? Um,

1:16:14

I don't know. I was so I was

1:16:16

like, I was really excited to come over here,

1:16:18

but I was like, she's so intimidating.

1:16:21

And now that I've talked to you, like you're so fucking sweet.

1:16:24

I feel like people like look at photos of you

1:16:26

and they're like what and they get scared

1:16:28

or something and they're like, she must be a

1:16:30

bit You're not at all. No,

1:16:33

I don't think so either. You're not stubborn

1:16:35

and you're really kind and you're like, what's the worst

1:16:38

quality about you? You You seem awesome. I

1:16:41

mean that's why you know men love me. What

1:16:46

do you like in a relationship? Um?

1:16:50

I guess I would like, I mean I want

1:16:54

a guy that's gonna let me be me and

1:16:56

understand me, understand my movement,

1:16:59

understand who I am as a

1:17:01

person. Um, and don't

1:17:03

put me in a box. You know, Um

1:17:06

what kind of girlfriend are you? Or what

1:17:09

wife? Too? But I'm how are you in a relationship?

1:17:11

Extremely giving? Um? Sometimes

1:17:13

too giving? I I

1:17:16

liked. The thing is that you know, everyone has

1:17:18

a love language, right, So like everything

1:17:20

that I want I give to a guy,

1:17:22

you know what I mean. I'm the type

1:17:25

of girl that like buys.

1:17:27

Like if I'm out and I'm getting myself

1:17:30

something, I'd be like, oh man, I'm gonna get that for my baby,

1:17:32

you know what I mean. Like I'm that type of person.

1:17:34

It's like baby, like I surprised for you. I'm coming home,

1:17:37

you know, I bought you something today, so

1:17:39

um, and then I just you know, I guess

1:17:41

I just want like a partner in crime, someone that's

1:17:44

like into the same ship

1:17:46

that I'm into and like understands my life. Have

1:17:49

you ever been with a guy This

1:17:51

is unrelated, but like who won't go down? He

1:17:53

does an eat girls out? No, you've

1:17:55

never oh nice, he's

1:17:59

never got that far? Who was just lucky. I'm

1:18:01

just saying, like guys always want to give

1:18:03

me head. I don't know this, It's

1:18:07

crazy. All these guys want to lick my puss here,

1:18:10

thank you. I guess it's like we don't

1:18:12

have to do anything else, just that and

1:18:15

I'm like okay, wow,

1:18:17

and they'll just eat you out and then they're like, we

1:18:19

can go to bed if you want. I mean

1:18:21

they don't really. I

1:18:23

don't think. No, I don't think obviously

1:18:26

they will want more, but like it's always like that.

1:18:28

It's just like, God, I would love to taste

1:18:31

you se

1:18:34

yeah, have you ever tasted yourself?

1:18:39

I don't do that. I mean, not like what

1:18:42

this is. If they're like, uh,

1:18:44

if guys like fingering me or like playing with me

1:18:46

and then it's like a moment and then he puts

1:18:48

it in but then puts his finger in my mouth. That's

1:18:50

hot. Yeah right, yeah,

1:18:53

pussy,

1:18:56

I've ever been grossed out? Like if you sucked

1:18:58

his dick and he came in your mouth and he's like to make

1:19:00

out with me. Um,

1:19:03

Now some guys

1:19:05

or gentlemen, Yeah, like you

1:19:08

have a lot of power over month, so maybe

1:19:10

they might not allow that from anyone. But it's like, but

1:19:13

that's the whole thing. Like I you

1:19:15

know, I would ideally

1:19:17

like to be in a relationship with a former

1:19:19

ho.

1:19:22

Yeah. Why is that? Because

1:19:24

you know, I just feel like I'm very,

1:19:26

um, sexually

1:19:29

advanced. Um, I don't want to be with a guy

1:19:31

that doesn't know what he's doing. And

1:19:34

um, you know, being a

1:19:36

former home is good for a relationship

1:19:38

because they've done everything and

1:19:40

they're getting in bed. Yeah, they're good in bed.

1:19:43

They've done everything. There's nothing else that

1:19:45

they're really looking for because they already

1:19:47

fucking did it and it's just like

1:19:49

there's nothing. Yeah, and

1:19:51

it's just like nothing Yeah, nothing wears

1:19:53

them out and it's just it's fun. Have

1:19:56

you ever what's have you ever done? Like?

1:19:59

But stuff with no no,

1:20:02

you never you never look at guy's ass. Whole

1:20:04

fuck no whole Amber

1:20:06

Rose so much fun. Listen

1:20:09

to me, I

1:20:11

don't do do do crumbs?

1:20:14

Do do crumbs? Crumbs?

1:20:17

I mean say that the most

1:20:20

is that the same thing as Dingleberry everything, the same

1:20:22

thing. I mean after he showers

1:20:24

you like you just got off the treadmill, time

1:20:27

to like your butt. Can you listen to me because

1:20:29

I'm that. Me and my

1:20:32

mom just had this conversation

1:20:34

yesterday because

1:20:37

because I got hooked up with this crazy

1:20:39

mansion in Miami or whatever to stay there or whatever,

1:20:41

and it was through my booking agent and

1:20:43

it was his girlfriend or

1:20:46

the girl that he's dating. And I was like, all right,

1:20:48

yo, eater asked for me alright by like

1:20:50

when we were on the phone, And my mom was like, what

1:20:52

said that to you know? I said that to him

1:20:55

because his girlfriend hooked me up with a huge

1:20:57

mansion, So you

1:20:59

do her a salid and eat her as that was yeah,

1:21:02

that was my outro. And I was like, yo, suge,

1:21:04

like eat her ask for me, like she

1:21:07

hooked it up. So my mom

1:21:09

was like, what's up with like people

1:21:11

eating asking just like this new thing and

1:21:14

I'm like, Mom, it's so weird that like

1:21:17

girls are eating guys asses all the

1:21:19

time. Now it's like a new thing, like eating ass.

1:21:21

And she's like, I don't know what's going on

1:21:23

in this world. And I'm like, Mom, I feel

1:21:25

you like it's I'm not

1:21:28

eating. I can't bust of all heirst

1:21:30

of all you got. You've had your ass eat, right,

1:21:33

I mean on numerous occasions, it's

1:21:36

it's different. That's different because

1:21:39

you're your buttholes. You're

1:21:42

just clean that I

1:21:44

feel like guys don't wipe their ass

1:21:46

properly. That's just my thing. And

1:21:49

then started walk for that, the

1:21:51

eating walk. Wipe your ass, gentlemen.

1:21:55

Guys are just not as clean with their private areas.

1:21:57

I just don't believe that. There's a lot of looks

1:21:59

and cranny And then I

1:22:02

would be turned off if a guy's on all fours

1:22:05

and he wants his asked eight and I can't. Well,

1:22:08

now,

1:22:08

I guess

1:22:12

it's think about how like a guy washes dishes

1:22:14

like and then think about that in relation to his ass, like

1:22:17

that's not some jobs exactly,

1:22:19

it's not feminism, Like a guy washes

1:22:22

dishes. I love that ship well, the

1:22:25

dishes are dirtiest fun and

1:22:28

then you look at them and you're like, wow, now I have to rewash

1:22:30

all these dishes exactly. And then it's

1:22:32

and then also that it's smaller, and it's just that's

1:22:35

equivalent to washing their ass. Yes, well

1:22:37

I'm glad. I'm glad we settled back here. Guys

1:22:39

ever even asked you to eat his ass? Is this? I

1:22:42

guess it is a new thing. Maybe I've

1:22:44

never had a guy asked me to eat his ass.

1:22:46

Never. It's a hard question to ask. I would not.

1:22:48

I would be like, excuse you

1:22:52

are you go? Oh?

1:22:55

I hope your future partner is listening right now,

1:22:57

and I hope that's the first it's

1:23:00

not happening. Do you ask guys to eat

1:23:02

your asses? They just eat the as, not really

1:23:04

into it. It's not like it's like people

1:23:07

would want to Yeah, people fours,

1:23:10

um, I'm getting my ass a. But it's never

1:23:13

like I don't like tute it up to

1:23:17

wait, tuned it up, like I think it's

1:23:19

like far no, no, like put your in

1:23:24

it's time, come and get it. But you know,

1:23:26

if it's a moment, it's a moment. But

1:23:28

it's not like I'm

1:23:30

not you're not going to ruin the moment,

1:23:33

but you're not also not going to create the moment

1:23:36

exactly beautiful, you know. I'm

1:23:38

I'm kind of your fingered guys asked, she

1:23:41

really wants you to put something in I

1:23:43

guess, but I took your mom your mom's onto something

1:23:45

because it is some I've been hearing

1:23:47

about it more recently and I started did

1:23:50

it for the first time ever to my boyfriend

1:23:52

now. And he used to date a pretty famous porn

1:23:54

star and he remember

1:23:56

after I ate his ass, he was like, no

1:23:59

one's done that to me. I was like, no one, And

1:24:01

I was like, yeah, there's a first because I was like, oh,

1:24:03

she's probably done every trick in the blood so

1:24:06

proud. So now I'm like, I eat

1:24:08

asked. It's like you're saying,

1:24:10

but his ass, Yeah, you know what I mean. I

1:24:13

gotta like him. I am all for enjoying

1:24:16

sex, um whatever, you're into

1:24:18

this and no judgment zone,

1:24:21

but it's just not my thing. Yeah,

1:24:23

and that's fine. Yeah. I think people,

1:24:25

I think people with sex are so get so worried,

1:24:28

like why don't I like this? Is there something

1:24:30

wrong with me? Am I boring? Am I Vanilla?

1:24:32

But it's just like whatever you like. It's

1:24:35

fine. It's like it's safe and comfortable for all parties

1:24:37

involved. Are you into

1:24:39

like b DSM at all or what's what's

1:24:42

that? Um like like

1:24:44

chains and submissive and stuff.

1:24:48

You know, like you don't do like any violence at all

1:24:50

in yourself. No, I kind of do. It isn't weird.

1:24:52

It's like whatever you're into, what you're into. You seem

1:24:55

like you're like someone who like truly like makes just

1:24:57

passionate love. Like you're like a love maker.

1:24:59

I'm a love maker. Yeah, I'm

1:25:02

into like caressing, Um,

1:25:05

you know the sex you

1:25:07

have a lot of yeah,

1:25:09

a lot of you know. I like to rub, I like to

1:25:11

touch, I like to kiss. I like soft

1:25:14

like tongue kisses and you

1:25:16

know, um, just very like sensual

1:25:20

sex. It's a certain type of sex that

1:25:22

I like, and I

1:25:25

don't. I wouldn't say that. I won't like being

1:25:27

like choked, Well you can't pull my hair, so like choke

1:25:29

getting chokes and stuff like if it's

1:25:32

if it's cute, if it's a moment, then yeah it's

1:25:34

cute. Keep choking only. Yeah, but I'm just

1:25:36

not when you're in the heat something, Yeah, sometimes I can

1:25:39

go down that road and you're like, okay, and that's and that's

1:25:41

fine. But um, you know, I definitely

1:25:43

am I'm a lover. Yeah, your lights

1:25:45

on or lights off? I

1:25:47

mean definitely not pitch

1:25:49

black. No, I don't want to see what you're doing. So many

1:25:52

people you go to turn the lights off and I'm like, no,

1:25:54

I can't. I could you could be. I love

1:25:56

candles. I'm candle girl, So like

1:25:58

if it's whack and then it's just candles,

1:26:01

that's home. Yeah, Like that's sensual. Is

1:26:04

there anything a guy can do in bed

1:26:06

with you that you're like, oh, that's that? You love

1:26:08

that when a guy does, Um, I'm

1:26:11

really really really turns me on in

1:26:14

the bedroom? Is uh,

1:26:16

noises and facial

1:26:19

expressions so you can have

1:26:21

like and

1:26:23

and a really good stroke because you can't

1:26:26

get on top of me like a rabbit and just I

1:26:29

can't. Have you ever had to stop a guy like

1:26:32

yes you take slow?

1:26:35

No, I would say, get off me. This is I don't like it

1:26:38

good. No, I'm serious. Yeah, especially

1:26:42

now, I'm just like, we cannot finish.

1:26:44

This is not it's not gonna work. How do

1:26:46

meniac when you say that? Um?

1:26:48

You know, I try to be nice about

1:26:50

it. I'm never just like you suck, but

1:26:52

it's just like you know what, I'm really I'm just

1:26:54

not ready for this. I'm sorry, because

1:26:57

why would you have bad like having bad sex. I'd

1:26:59

rather have no set. Well, you know what happens with me.

1:27:01

Guys get so scared of me that

1:27:05

they're just like horrible and

1:27:07

do they not real quick? If

1:27:09

you were a guy, I feel like you're in this bed in this sexy

1:27:12

lingerie and this guy is just shaking

1:27:14

and he takes off his jean and

1:27:17

then he just nuts and then he

1:27:19

cries like God, that's

1:27:23

a sketch that I have in my head and it makes

1:27:25

me laugh. Ums,

1:27:28

and you're like it's okay,

1:27:35

Um, no, has

1:27:37

it happened? I feel like yeah,

1:27:41

I mean that makes sense. That's why

1:27:43

I thought. That's why I thought that that's probably happened

1:27:45

to lunch. There's anyone who can make anyone crying bed

1:27:48

well No I mean not no, no, not not like

1:27:50

cry after, but like more so like, um,

1:27:53

you know, I'm not I'm not this type of person

1:27:55

where it's just like I come over and

1:27:57

it's a moment and then we just like fucking.

1:28:00

It's crazy, you know, I'm

1:28:02

gonna make you want me so bad

1:28:05

that you're going to stick it in and come.

1:28:07

It's gonna be like and and that's okay

1:28:09

because I do you like that would be

1:28:12

flattered? Yeah, you know I'm flatter

1:28:14

because we always say compliments to the chef here. Yeah.

1:28:16

And I'm just you know, I'm a seducer. So I

1:28:18

like to seduce throughout the day. Like

1:28:20

it's just like, how do you seduce

1:28:23

throughout the day? It will technicle.

1:28:27

It's the more subtle things, you know. It's

1:28:30

never like um, it's

1:28:32

never like and I talked

1:28:35

did you read my did you read my book book?

1:28:37

I didn't read your book, but I want I like the title

1:28:39

and I love the phrase bad bitch,

1:28:42

and I want to read you. But but I do speak about

1:28:45

seduction that it's never just like

1:28:47

a full on grab or like suck

1:28:50

or like kiss it. It never has to be that

1:28:52

there's certain areas on the body of

1:28:54

a man that you could just touch and rub

1:28:57

that's just he'll instantly get

1:28:59

a hard on where like I

1:29:02

mean even just like his his arms.

1:29:05

You know, like if you if you're just with a guy

1:29:07

and you're just like looking at him and you're just rubbing his arms

1:29:09

and you're caressing his arms or caressing his

1:29:11

leg um. It doesn't

1:29:13

never have to be like a full on because

1:29:16

that's like relaxing and you're like, and

1:29:19

it's and it's a woman's touch, you know,

1:29:21

there's nothing like a woman's touch to a man um.

1:29:24

And uh, it's it's very

1:29:27

like it's very very central. So

1:29:29

yeah, and I feel imagine when

1:29:31

you're doing it, do you feel

1:29:33

like really like powerful

1:29:36

almost not in a bad way, but in a way that I

1:29:38

love. When you're on top of a guy

1:29:40

and he's just like squirming, It's like, yes,

1:29:43

I mean that's I feel like, that's why

1:29:45

I feel like a bad bit. I love that ship. I

1:29:48

love that and and my thing I like

1:29:50

a powerful man and

1:29:52

I like to fucking break him,

1:29:56

like that is the most that is like,

1:29:59

I got this motherfucker's squirm and

1:30:02

this is amazing. That is wonderful.

1:30:05

And you know you're you're very very talented

1:30:07

seducer. I am. Yeah. Even

1:30:09

the way you smoke the cigarette is you like reek sexy

1:30:12

like being Yeah, the way

1:30:14

you talk like you're slower

1:30:16

and more sensual with like how you carry yourself.

1:30:20

That's cool. We're just we're

1:30:22

just going to compliment you. So okay,

1:30:25

thank you so much for talking to

1:30:27

us. No, it's over. Yeah, well we can

1:30:29

keep talking if you want, but I don't want to keep you. We

1:30:32

don't have anything to do. So so are weait?

1:30:34

Yeah, let's have fun? What other Okay

1:30:37

we talked about but stuff. How do

1:30:39

you feel like having a kid has affect your sexuality

1:30:42

at all? No? No, because

1:30:44

I positive or negative? No,

1:30:48

Like have you ever tried You're trying to get it in and

1:30:50

he's like mom, You're like god, damn it. Oh

1:30:53

no, I don't do that, absolutely

1:30:55

not. You always make sure your son's out of the house. So when

1:30:57

my son is home with me, I am SuperM

1:31:00

Like that is just like that's your

1:31:02

focus. And that's why I'm

1:31:04

with my son all day. I cook him dinner, give

1:31:07

him a bath, I put him to bed, and then you

1:31:09

know that's mommy's time to have my social

1:31:11

time. Um, but even

1:31:14

like my son being in the house, I wouldn't

1:31:16

really feel comfortable

1:31:18

like just a piece. If this is like if it's like my

1:31:20

man, then then fine. But

1:31:23

always you know, my mother

1:31:25

was with my stepfather for sixteen years and never heard

1:31:27

them have sex one time.

1:31:30

Never, And my mom always respected me, and I love

1:31:32

her for that because I hear stories about

1:31:34

like I heard my mom fucking

1:31:36

you know my stepdad Gary,

1:31:39

you know, and it was and I'm just like, I could not imagine

1:31:41

that. My mom would never do that. I would never ever

1:31:43

do that to my baby. Never. I've

1:31:45

never heard my parents have sex, thank god. Yeah.

1:31:48

No, no, So, like, are you loud

1:31:50

when you're having sex? You make a lot of noises?

1:31:52

Um, you know, it depends on what's

1:31:54

going on, you

1:31:57

know, do you like what kind of when

1:31:59

you do make noises? Are they what

1:32:01

does it sound like? You're like? What are

1:32:03

you? Do you talk? Are you talking to I do

1:32:06

talk? Yeah,

1:32:09

you know, I mean it really just depends

1:32:12

whatever comes to you at the moment. I never, I

1:32:14

don't want to say that I'm ever like, um,

1:32:20

I don't you know. Sometimes

1:32:22

when I watch porn and

1:32:25

the volumes up because I'm home by myself and I want

1:32:27

to be gross, but um,

1:32:29

you know, sometimes the girls stay certain ship

1:32:32

it's just like, let me just turn

1:32:34

the volume off because it's just like it's

1:32:37

corny. It's

1:32:40

just so corny. It's just like ill.

1:32:42

So I know, I don't say corny

1:32:45

shit, like I don't think cliche shit

1:32:48

in the bedroom. Have you ever gotten I

1:32:50

feel like this has not happened to you, but it has happened

1:32:53

to me. Where you he's saying something it's

1:32:55

really hot and you want to go back with like something even

1:32:57

hotter. You try one up them and then you're like, not,

1:33:01

dick, what damn it? Dick? You

1:33:03

know just you know, yeah,

1:33:07

on top of the morning, dude, nice cock. I

1:33:09

don't know, Like I've said,

1:33:12

it fucking takes me out of it's so hard. I hate it.

1:33:14

I mean because I'm the same way when I watched porn and

1:33:16

the girls making noises are saying things and

1:33:18

I'm like, it's fucking cheesy

1:33:20

and i can't come like it's not it's not gonna

1:33:22

go. Have you ever gotten stuck like watching

1:33:25

like I was watching like a cream pie compilation

1:33:29

and cream pies on

1:33:31

the face. No no, the girl, no,

1:33:33

no, no, cream pies. Like when he comes inside you,

1:33:36

you squeeze it out right, yeah, see

1:33:38

out. But like it was like it was like a gang bang

1:33:41

cream pie situation to squeeze out

1:33:43

yeah, And the

1:33:46

girl was like uh,

1:33:48

she was like, oh yeah, I'm

1:33:50

going to have a baby now, Like,

1:33:53

whoa,

1:33:54

I'm as dry

1:33:56

as the desert. It's

1:33:59

just like baby, I

1:34:02

don't want to talk about that. Don't say

1:34:04

that. I

1:34:07

instantly think of my son and I'm like, oh

1:34:10

yeah, babies, No, don't ever talk

1:34:12

about babies important. Yeah, it's

1:34:14

like babies and parents or things that you just can't

1:34:16

talk about when you're having sex. Otherwise immediately,

1:34:19

how do you Have you ever been having sex and got

1:34:22

a vision of like a family member

1:34:24

in your head and then no, I don't

1:34:26

even say that or something that just but

1:34:29

sometimes things creep into your mind. I'm like, I hate

1:34:31

that. I have to get you not to that's

1:34:34

happening. So

1:34:36

you're totally good at like being in the moment, being focused,

1:34:38

and you know that if you're not, it's not working. But that's

1:34:40

what I said. You know, it has to be

1:34:43

extreme passion and chemistry

1:34:45

or I'm not fucking doing it where there's not even

1:34:47

a chance that anything else besides the person you're fucking

1:34:50

could seep into your mind. Right, Okay, yeah,

1:34:52

good rule. Yeah,

1:34:55

Well, because casual sex is just fucking

1:34:58

is for me. It's like I'm not going to come. I

1:35:00

have no connection with you. It's just

1:35:03

weird. What's the point. It's

1:35:04

why am I giving myself to you? I don't

1:35:06

want to. Yeah, and that's so interesting. I think

1:35:08

a lot of people would think about as a certified slot

1:35:11

that you're having a lot of casual sex. But you're

1:35:13

just a sexual person and the sex you're describing is

1:35:15

super intimate, and I think probably a lot

1:35:17

more intimate than many people who don't people consider

1:35:19

themselves people like who

1:35:22

has been with their partner for years

1:35:24

and are married. Like, it's not that's that you're

1:35:26

The kind of sex you're having seems more intimate than

1:35:29

that. But either way, it's like, well that's

1:35:31

the kind of sex you have. And then but yeah,

1:35:33

like a certain type of sex, like

1:35:35

it can't it can't be regular.

1:35:39

Have you been for no?

1:35:43

I have it sucked in

1:35:45

Atlantic City? Yeah, you're

1:35:47

not into anything anything public or

1:35:49

I can't write. I mean even

1:35:52

even before you are, you know, you

1:35:54

are who you are today. You

1:35:57

know. It's just I

1:36:00

wouldn't say like I would be like I

1:36:02

want to go by

1:36:05

the pool and do this. Um,

1:36:08

it would be more so like it

1:36:11

happened that way, right, It just

1:36:13

so happened that Yeah, the moment came

1:36:15

and you were by the pool and you let it go. Yeah,

1:36:18

okay, yeah, I never Like, I don't

1:36:20

know, is there weird uh

1:36:22

at your level of like Hollywood

1:36:25

and fame and paparazzi and all this all

1:36:27

this bullshit. Is

1:36:29

there like weird sex parties that happened that like

1:36:31

no one else knows about. Well,

1:36:34

I'm sure that there are, like Tom

1:36:36

Cruise has a fucking orgy every other Wednesday

1:36:38

or something. I don't care about specifics,

1:36:40

but does that happen? Or I don't get

1:36:42

invited to those parties? So I don't know why.

1:36:45

I don't know. You're like one of the first people i'd invite.

1:36:47

Yeah, yeah, I don't. I'm personally

1:36:50

like, I don't know. I'm not I'm not really incident,

1:36:52

but um I'm I will tell

1:36:54

you in Hollywood that everybody

1:36:58

is fucking everyone. Really,

1:37:01

it's like theater in high school. Every

1:37:03

Yeah, everybody is fucking everybody.

1:37:05

So like, what kind

1:37:07

of makes that cool is that you develop

1:37:10

connections? Listen, you can't

1:37:12

have you know,

1:37:15

thirty forty people that

1:37:17

are beautiful and successful in

1:37:20

a room and you're not gonna have chemistry

1:37:22

or nobody. You're going to fuck

1:37:24

everybody, you're gonna fucking be like, goddamn

1:37:27

he's hot, Goddamn she's hot.

1:37:30

What's up? Yeah, you know, like it's just

1:37:32

like it's just it's like that, of course. Yeah,

1:37:34

and why maybe you really think about it like that. It's it's just

1:37:37

human nature, absolutely, I mean

1:37:39

I've do. Do you think a lot

1:37:41

more people in that are on the level

1:37:43

of fame and beauty and all that have

1:37:45

open marriages that are married and

1:37:48

they don't I mean, if they do, obviously they don't talk

1:37:50

about it. Maybe it's something they keep private. But

1:37:52

but um, I mean, I mean, I'm

1:37:54

sure if I was at there and my husband

1:37:56

was hot and I was hot, like we should give our hotness

1:37:59

to other people, and it's other people's hotness too,

1:38:01

I'm sure that's extremely normal.

1:38:03

Would you ever be in an open relationship? No,

1:38:08

I wouldn't. If it

1:38:10

got to the point where like we wanted to try

1:38:12

something together, then

1:38:14

I may consider it, um later

1:38:17

in life, but um, not

1:38:19

where it's just like, hey, babe, I just fuck this

1:38:21

hot guy like crazy,

1:38:24

like I'd just be like cool, tell me more. Yeah,

1:38:26

Like that's just weird to be. I don't like that. If

1:38:28

you're in a three way, I have not really

1:38:31

do you want to have a three way? If

1:38:34

I was to have a three way, it would be with two guys.

1:38:37

Yeah, that's a good three way.

1:38:39

That only happened to me once to super

1:38:41

hot guy man. Two pairs of man hands

1:38:44

on you, fucking hot. But

1:38:47

just like bringing another girls likely?

1:38:50

Do you have any Yeah? Have you had any sexual experiences

1:38:52

with women? Oh? My god, disgusting

1:38:55

ship? Like what what disgusting

1:38:57

ship? The face you mean? I was like, where is she gonna

1:38:59

go with that? Like duh du

1:39:02

so many beautiful what

1:39:05

disgusting ship? I mean like not, you

1:39:07

know, like beautifully discussed.

1:39:10

I didn't have girls like shit on me or nothing like that

1:39:13

was my next question. No,

1:39:15

yeah, I've been. I've been with women absolutely, just

1:39:18

you and another woman one on one. Women

1:39:20

are so like just soft and

1:39:22

pretty. Listen, some of the best

1:39:24

orgasms I ever had in my life. Really,

1:39:27

Yeah, what did they do different than the guy didn't

1:39:29

do? Well? I mean, oh my

1:39:31

god, this is really intimate. But I

1:39:34

uh, with women, it's just

1:39:36

like when you like grind

1:39:38

on a woman. You're both naked, you both

1:39:40

got like titties, and like soft

1:39:43

acid, you're just both

1:39:45

wettish ship and it's just like all your juices

1:39:47

are all over each other. Yeah, you're

1:39:50

just grinding, like making out with each

1:39:52

other. It's just beautiful. Yeah

1:39:54

yeah, yeah. I've hooked up with the girl

1:39:56

once and I was like, but I was too in my head about put

1:40:00

the girl that I didn't. But

1:40:02

I like when I watched porn. I love watching girl

1:40:04

and girl what it's like when it

1:40:06

seems like they're way more into that, like the

1:40:08

porn starts, but I like the soft I like the

1:40:11

soft core. Not I don't like

1:40:13

the girls that like strap with their hand

1:40:15

up a girl. No, I don't like that, or like they fingered

1:40:17

them real hard to like fucking like that. I'm

1:40:19

like, it looks like it hurts. You're very

1:40:22

tender, so tender. I

1:40:24

didn't. I mean not that I thought you'd be opposite tender,

1:40:26

but it's like, oh, you're such a tender lover

1:40:29

I am. I'm not gonna

1:40:31

lie. What about anal with you? Like

1:40:33

guys doing anal with you? What are your thoughts

1:40:36

on that? Um? I don't like that.

1:40:39

Do they ask for it the second that they made you

1:40:41

a second that it's the second

1:40:43

that it's established. Never

1:40:47

has a guy ever asked, you know, are

1:40:49

you serious? Never? Wow, I

1:40:51

think I think pussy's fired.

1:40:57

They never asked for good retort.

1:41:00

But I like your asses so beautiful, like

1:41:02

that's why. That's why I thought it would be the first thing to be

1:41:04

like, Yoka have a know with you and not that

1:41:06

that's sweet and charming bird

1:41:08

never never. But I also think people

1:41:11

don't ask you things that are like out of line because

1:41:13

you've you it's very well known that

1:41:15

you are someone who demands respect, and

1:41:18

I think that's super important. But you talked

1:41:20

about like people getting nervous around you and

1:41:22

being like kind of you're an intimidating woman

1:41:25

or people think that you Yeah, they think you and there sweet.

1:41:28

Yeah, you're fucking adorable and sweet? And how

1:41:30

has that affected you in business in life?

1:41:32

And because I feel like it's so often like

1:41:35

if you were to date someone who was doing less well than

1:41:37

you, that's so threatening to a man and a lot

1:41:39

of times that causes the relationship to him. That's

1:41:41

why I usually date famous guys because

1:41:43

it's just, um, it's so annoying, and

1:41:46

I don't want to date anybody that I have to take

1:41:48

care of. Um, I got my own

1:41:51

ship. So I don't need anyone to take care of me either.

1:41:53

I just kind of like need someone that, like, um,

1:41:56

is up to par or has more

1:41:59

because I can't with those insecurities. Such

1:42:01

a turn off, I mean, yeah, no time for that. It's

1:42:04

such a turnoff. Have you have you ever been

1:42:06

with a guy like after after you've

1:42:08

parted from your your husband, that

1:42:11

is, it showed insecurities like that and you

1:42:13

just had to go dude, no, oh yeah all

1:42:15

the time. How does a guy like guy? How

1:42:17

do they act? Are they do they like whine? Do

1:42:20

they complaint or what does that look

1:42:22

like? How do you sniff out the insecurities?

1:42:24

How does it surface in them? Like? How do you? Insecurities

1:42:27

are very loud and confidence is very

1:42:29

quiet. You know, write

1:42:32

that down guys? Yea, um,

1:42:35

but yeah, so insecurities like uh

1:42:38

you know like um,

1:42:42

you know, yeah, like these jeans are like

1:42:44

only twenty dollars but like whatever,

1:42:47

Like it's just I'm like, why why wouldn't you say