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Hand Me my Purse is a production of iHeart
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Podcasts. So
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I was perusing
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Lourne Hill's websites,
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is what I said, but I meant to
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say interwebs and found
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an old Instagram
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post of my own
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and it is actually from
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jo Leone is
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the author of the post. The author
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of the post, and at the top of
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the post, I wrote, let me put my glasses
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on. At the top
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of the post, I wrote a note to myself
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from myself, and jo Leone
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wrote, I wish for you a healing love. I
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wish for you a peaceful love, a true love,
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a revolutionary love, a
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rejuvenating love, a prosperous
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love, a holy love, an
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intentional love and effortless
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love, an extraordinary love,
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a joyful love, a cosmic
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love, a prophetic love
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for always. And
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I loved it, and
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I love when Facebook remind
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you excuse my voices a little squeaky,
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remind you of things that you
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have said before you have posted, because
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it kind of takes you back to a certain time
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and remind you of who
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you were, what you wanted, what you thought about,
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and it kind of levels your helps
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you to balance some things out or get into alignment.
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So I'm glad for that, and
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I wish that for you too. As a matter of
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fact, I definitely
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do for always.
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I can't see the patter of it.
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Okay, what's up, y'all? Welcome to hand me
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my purse to podcast. I am Me Me Walker,
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and I will be here forever hosts each and every
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single time you tune into this podcast. So go
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ahead and get comfortable. Get yourself
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a glass of your favorite beverage, whether
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that's a Ka soda with a splash
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of grapefruit juice, a nice
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cold bottle of doctor pepper that you put
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in the freezer for about twenty minutes so
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it has some ice chips in it, or just
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a hot cup of black coffee.
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Go light yourself a candle, some incense, or
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burn some sage, and just get ready
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to chill out and have yourself a good time,
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because it's time to have yourself a good
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time. What's
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our friends? And ken, it's me me, Resident Auntie
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Supreme here and hand me my purse. And today
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I am actually not sitping on anything.
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Let me tell you why. Actually in
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this moment, I'm not. About ten
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minutes ago, I drank some
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tea that I had sitting on my nightstand.
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Because it's really late.
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It's really really late, and I couldn't sleep,
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So I said, let me get up and be productive
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other than laying in the bed and
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scrolling on the internet. Let
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me get up and do something productive. So I got
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up and I said, let me just record how
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about that?
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And I did just drink some.
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Tea in it was a lavender
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and camerameal probiotics tea.
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And I also had a raspberry
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leaf tea bag in there, because
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sometimes when you're a girl, you need to drink raspberry
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leaf tea because it's helpful.
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Let me tell you what it's good for ladies.
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So let me just say this. It is very,
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very helpful for women.
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It is.
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Antioxidants. It helps with your digestion
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and digestive support. It
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says here we'll relieve mouth ulcers,
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sore throats, and gum disease, alleviates
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inflammatory conditions, minstrel
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cramping, and water retention. That's
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why I drink it. Also, I drink
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it because
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it's supposed to help with balancing your
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hormones. It's
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great to drink during your menstrual
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cycle. Of course
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we're hormonal balance, but it
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is it
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has some properties that help with blood clotting,
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so you may bruise a lot easier,
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which sucks because I fail the other day
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and my leg is all bruised up. But
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it's really good for helping the balancing helped,
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excuse me, helping to balance your hormones,
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and it has tons of antioxidants
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and it says here it also may help to lower
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the risk of developing cardiovascular
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disease. So all
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I think it's great to drink. So
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that's what I was drinking on
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some hot tea a few minutes
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ago, and doesn't
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sound that exciting, but you know when it's your time.
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Also, I've read that it helps with
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paramient apauzle menstrual
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flow. So ladies, do
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your research. Look up red raspberry
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leaf tea. If you're pregnant,
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you probably shouldn't drink it. It's supposed
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to help with childbirth. But talk to your
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doctor. Don't be listening to me, because we'll
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do I didn't I know, I don't know shit. I'm
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just telling you what I drink, and we know I
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ain't pregnant, but not be
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We know I ain't pregnant, so just
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do your own research. But that's what I was
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sipping on. Now, what were you
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sipping on? Is really the question? So
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friends then came forward today's jam.
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I chose this song because I
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have been in a really weird, weird state,
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and I'm kind of in a state where
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I feel a little stuck. You know, Sister is in a
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very strange space lately.
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Mother's Day is coming and that's always a humdinger
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for me. And it's a period of time where I
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have to actively focus on being strategic
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around taking care of my mental health, like
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I have to really work hard. I
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got some life things happening, some health things
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happening. Listen, sis, I just got some shit
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happening. Okay, And when times
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like this come, and especially with the conversation
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that I've been having excuse
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me with my guests for this episode.
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In the previous episode a
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lower author Arthur, excuse
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me, where we are talking about death, grief,
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mortality, and also joyful
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living and being intentional and living a full
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life.
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It was just interesting because I'm usually the one
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who is talking about joy and being intentional,
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but this time I got to listen and
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to absorb, and it got me to thinking. You
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know, I just was thinking a
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lot. Jesus Jesus.
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Anyway, let me focus before I go
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off on a tangent. Anyway,
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this was part two of our conversation, and afterwards
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I was led to just think about, you know,
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just talking about grief and death. I
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started thinking about some of the people who are
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no longer here that would help
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me when I was going through times like this.
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And so the song that I chose a song that my grandfather
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used to always play when I would come to his house when
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he lived in this particular apartment, and
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he would sit by the window and play songs for me,
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and he was singing, and you know, we
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would talk about music, and he would remind
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me of when I sang on our family reunion cruise
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and I won the karaoke competition because
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contrary to popular belief, I can
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actually sing, and he would tell me
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that I sing. He
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would always say this that I sing at
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Last by Edda James, way better
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than Beyonce did for the Obamas, which I
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thought was hilarious. But
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I chose this song because he would play it over and
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over and over and over and over, and every
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time I hear it, I think of him, and it is
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I say a little prayer for you by.
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I'm Gonna try another cry.
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I Say a Little Prayer for You by Aretha Franklin
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and.
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A lot of people have covered this song.
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But you know, nobody does it like uh Re
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Read because she's the original Queen Bee.
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And so the words of this song are
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really beautiful and it's about love. But for
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me, it's about
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my connection to my biggest cheerleader in
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the oh. I got a women, give
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me a second, I'd be right back. Okay,
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I just had to get myself together for a second before
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I fell apart on this microphone.
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So anyway, I was saying that
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this song is about for
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me, it connects me or it takes me back
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to spending time with or brings
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back memories of you know, my
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number one cheerleader is the biggest cheerleader that
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I've ever had in the entire world ever
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in the history of people who supported me in any
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way and in everything that I did. And that's
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my Grandpap Chops. And I
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always make the joke that, you know, like
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I could poop in the middle of the street and he would be
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like, you know, you know
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whatever my nickname that he called me,
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which was sometimes it was Red because he would confuse
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me with my aunt, my grandmother. He I guess
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he figured he called them red, he might as well
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call me red. I don't know why, because
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we're not the same complexion. But whatever, he'd
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be like, you know, red or you know another
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name. He would call me by my middle name. You
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shouldn't have did that, you know. But we're gonna
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clean it up, and then we're gonna go and it's
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gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay. It
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doesn't matter what I did. By
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the end of the conversation, it was okay, or
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he would tell me it was fine that I did it. And
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his birthday is coming up, so I decided
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to choose this song to celebrate him early and
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because I miss him a.
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Lot, So enjoy
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this song.
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My favorite part of the song is
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the way it starts, and it says from
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Oh, this is a lot fucking harder
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than I thought it would be. Give
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me a second,
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listen. I
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told you whole I got a lot on me. I ain't making
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this shit up now, Jesus,
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Jesus, Jesus. So anyway,
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I think I was saying that My favorite part about
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the song is that the way the song
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starts and it started out starts out with her
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saying, from the moment I wake
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up, before I put on my makeup, I say a little prayer
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for you. And to me, praying
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for somebody is the highest form of
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showing love or to
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express love for someone, To pray for someone,
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to ask God to help them
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or to bless them, or to cover them, or to protect
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them or to heal them. I love that.
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So anyway,
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enjoy the song, and of course they'll link to the songs
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in the show notes. You know the drill,
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it'll be there. Go listen to it, and go listen
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to it, because I'm sure you've listened to the song
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many times before. But go
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listen to it and really listen to the
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words and
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listen to how beautiful it
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is. And then, you know what, let's
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just go ahead and get this party starter because I'm
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over here falling apart at
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the scenes. Let's go ahead
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and get this.
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Party starter.
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Busting. Why
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there's a light I feel like you
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bring to this kind of work, a
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sunshine if you will, that you bring to it
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that people may not think
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about or see when they think about people
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leaving this realm or
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themselves leaving this room. But there's something
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beautiful about the work that you do.
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And when I reflect, because
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I'm telling you, in this process, I've done
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a lot of reflecting. And when I think about my
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grandmother leaving all of the little things
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like combing her hair and you
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know, lotioning her feet or
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yeah, all of those little things, or pulling
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the nurse outside because she was being my grandma
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was being mean to her and you know, saying
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please, you know she is having a hard
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day.
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Just all of those little things.
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When I think back to them
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now, like they were such beautiful
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moments that of course I'm never going
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to get to experience it again, but I'm
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so grateful that I was able to experience
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them.
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Yeah, I'm also really grateful for your presence
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while you were experiencing them, you know, to
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be able to think back on those times that you
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were brushing your hair or.
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You were present. Here we go, I told you what's
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coming.
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I'm glad they're here, you know what I mean, Let them
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out, Let them out, let them out.
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But being able to be present
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for the little moments when our people are
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dying, it's the last bit, the tangible
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bit that we'll have of them. And so when
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people are always asking for advice about what WOU
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do I do when I'm caregiving somebody or somebody's
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getting close to the end of life. My encouragement
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is always to stay asked present in your body as
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possible, because presence in the body
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means I can be present for this thing that's happening,
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and the little things that are that are
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happening are the things that will have to hold onto after
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they die. So I try to encourage
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presence as much as possible. And I'm glad to hear that
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you did.
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I did, Thank you. I appreciate that.
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That's interesting that you say that. I
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often wonder and you know, and
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I think about the part of your book where
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I can't think of his name.
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I want to say, his name.
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Is Mike, and he had the wife
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who went to the girl's trip with her
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friends, and yeah, yeah,
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I think about how as
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caregivers we think we know everything
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right, we know what they need, we know what they want.
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They don't know what they want because you know, they're dying, so
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they don't really know we know what is important
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to them. It was really lovely
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to hear like him open up and talk to
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you about like how he felt
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and what he
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wanted, not versus what she wanted
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for him, but you know what I mean, in contrast to
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what she wanted for him. What is
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there a common thread that
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you find when people are
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in the process of leaving
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when it comes to like things that they want or
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things that they want to experience, or what
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they want to feel, what they want
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to eat, and not necessarily
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exact foods that they want to eat, but what are
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some of the things that you find that
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they that are important to them to experiences
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in that time going through the process.
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I think many of us associate
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like bucket list stuff or things that
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people might want when they're dying with like the big
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things, right like the things that they didn't get to
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do when they were dying. One of the questions
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that I often ask is what is
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still undone in your life?
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And that question.
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Gives a lot of responses, and it's a question all of us can
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ask ourselves right now because that's
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loaded.
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What is still undone? What do you what
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must you do?
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What must you do?
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And the answers are rarely
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about going to see the Mona Lisa
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or not that kissing their motherland for the
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first time.
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It's rarely about that. It's more about having.
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Spent more time with somebody that they loved, or
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apologizing to somebody, or
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you know, speaking truth with somebody else, or
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gaining their hands in the soil one last time.
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It has a lot less to do with the big things that we
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think that it does, which is why the
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practice the presence that I was talking about before is
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so important because it allows us to be
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like present with this really wild
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experience of life that we have that people
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who are leaving it seem to be so much more keenly
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aware of.
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You see what I'm saying.
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No, I get it, I get it. I get it.
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So it's just it's the little things. It's the little
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things. It's little things.
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Sometimes it's like foods from childhood,
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or the smell of something, or
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they want to hear their song. It's often
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in the sensory experience, but the minute
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things about living.
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I get that. That makes sense.
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So, and it's funny as
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you say that, I think about
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like I said, I feel like
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I've been very reflective in the process
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of like.
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Experience in this book.
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Not just extremely reflective,
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but what you just said about what
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in your life is Undone.
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Man there's a big one.
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Whoa that that that is? And
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I think that it's
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a beautiful thing for people to, like
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you said, seeing them on Lisa
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or going to an active volcano and watching
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it from a like, all those things are great. But
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will you be able to you know, I'm from Baltimore.
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Will you be able to eat a crab eating a crab cake
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one last time? Hearing
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somebody that you love laugh, you
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know, singing your favorite
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gospel him, or somebody reading your favorite
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Bible verse, or eating a piece of
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candy, or smelling white
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diamonds. And I think that when I think about
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my grandmother.
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Wore white diamonds.
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It's over there on her little table. Her
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little white is sitting on the front on the table.
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But I think that makes me think
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about like right now, me savoring
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like little moments because it's great to go
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on big trips because I like to travel just
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like you do. You are traveling somebody
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and a solo traveler. I love a good solo
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trip. People don't understand that. And I don't have kids
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either, says, And people don't understand when you don't
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want kids, Just leave me the hell alone alone,
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Because maybe I just want to be an auntie
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and good.
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It's fun, it's great. You
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can take it. Being back home.
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Being an auntie is supreme
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living. I can take you back home.
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I can have a lot
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of fun with you. I can give you
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alcohol when you get a little older. Don't
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tell your mom like you can talk to me about your
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boyfriends. Oh, if
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you have a pregnancy scare and you're twenty one,
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you can call me and we can.
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Work through it. Like it, you know what I mean.
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It's like a safe space beyond
18:48
the mom. I'm okay with that, but
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please and thank you. It makes
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me think about
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those small things in my life
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to savor, you know. And big
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trips are fine, and going to brunch
19:03
with your girlfriends is good, and doing
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all these grandiose things are good. But what
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about burning your favorite incense? Oh
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it makes me happy, eating a cherry,
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a green apple, blowpop. Not
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on a regular basis because your teeth will fall out, but like,
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you know, you know, savoring
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those moments, hearing if I could hear
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my grandmother laugh again? What
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like those little things? And it reminds me.
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I'm telling y'all, y'all need to read this book
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because it will
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I mean, if you have any substance in your soul.
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It will make you really stop
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and think, like, what the fuck am I doing
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with my life? Like
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not even versus life, not even up
19:46
against Like what am I doing in my life?
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Because I'm gonna die soon or I'm gonna die
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even eventually, because you know we're all gonna
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die. But in this moment. This is
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another thing Me and my therapist have worked really hard,
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me trying to remain present and not being
20:00
focused on the future because I want
20:02
to control everything. But what
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am I doing right now? It
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this the whole thought of
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dealing with mortality is all about
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being in the present right right,
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And people forget that, you know, they
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think it's something like big out there or something big
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that we got to do, and it's like, no, it's right here. Dying
20:23
also happens in an ordinary moment, still
20:25
just living small
20:28
moments. But I think people forget,
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Like when you die, you did like it's
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like it's it's done for you, ye
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like and I know that is a little harsh,
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but like it's done for you, Like at that
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point it's about everybody else around
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you trying to put the pieces back
20:44
together, but like your part is done
20:46
and maybe if you believe in reincarnation,
20:48
maybe you'll come back and get to do it all over again.
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If that, if you and I
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wouldn't want to come back as a human right now though
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not the way this work.
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You would No, No, I said, I'm good.
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No, Yeah, this world sucks bringing
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back as a butterfly or something, or a hippopotamus.
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They have a good time.
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But I love that this
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book has really helped me
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to really focus on like
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what are you doing? Like what are you doing
21:15
to ensure that the life you live
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is a life filled with joy, a life
21:20
filled with the things that you want to do,
21:22
A life filled with substance
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and not substance in the in the
21:28
terms of like productivity. You know, Black
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women love to be busy, don't we. I'm
21:32
booked them busy. VI you
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tired?
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Yeah, laying down? I'm sitting down.
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Nap time. Yes, even if you don't
21:40
go to sleep, it's still nap time, lay down
21:42
time. But I love
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that this book brought
21:47
me to that space because it's not a space that I
21:49
have ever been in, because who I don't really think
21:51
about my own mortality until now.
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How do you? And I mean you kind of talked
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about it when you talked about self care in
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the process, But like, where
22:04
do you think that you gathered
22:07
or developed the emotional resilience
22:10
to do this kind of work.
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I think I've been building it for a long time,
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and I also think that many.
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Of us have it.
22:17
It's just I practice.
22:19
Mine quite often for
22:22
people to want to become death doulas.
22:24
I think we make effective death dollas
22:26
when we are comfortable and emotional depth,
22:29
and most often that means that I've become
22:32
made mind my friends, you know, I'm
22:34
familiar with them.
22:35
I try not to shun some.
22:38
I try to get as comfortable with
22:40
my shame as I am with my joy.
22:42
Is to allow, you know, all things
22:45
to exist. Part of the reason I
22:47
named the book briefly perfectly human is
22:49
not only that as a result of being human, that
22:51
means that will die, but it also to
22:54
give ourselves like the free range
22:56
to like feel this human thing, to
22:58
feel what it's like to be in about and to
23:00
have rage and to have like
23:03
silence and to have awe
23:05
and to have anger and vitriol and
23:08
judgment and all those things.
23:09
That's all makes us very human.
23:11
And so the emotional resilience is
23:13
getting comfortable with like the full gamut
23:16
of the human experience to me, like.
23:19
You know, many things can be true at the same time.
23:22
Yea, yes, Yeah.
23:24
Do you feel like sometimes because I know I
23:27
know a lot of people who are overthinkers meeting
23:29
one of them, do you feel like sometimes
23:32
people overthink or overprocess
23:36
loss in
23:39
the sense that like
23:43
in that moment, like when that person leaves,
23:45
do you think that they tend
23:47
to create how
23:51
do I say this, like create more of a
23:53
narrative around the loss instead
23:55
of just realizing like the person
23:58
died because it was their time to die.
24:00
Yes, I do think.
24:01
People want to assign all types of different
24:03
meaning to it when it happens. Death
24:06
is you know, people die and a lot
24:08
of fucked up ways.
24:09
Slately, it's okay, I curse girl
24:13
checked earlier. Oh, just checking.
24:14
Okay, great, Auntie's
24:17
cussed.
24:18
M Mommies don't curse.
24:20
But Auntie, Auntie, Auntie, nephew,
24:23
I'm just cursing, cursing curson.
24:24
Okay. Yeah.
24:25
So I was saying that people
24:27
are dying in all types of fucked up ways, and
24:30
and it's important that we
24:32
try not to assign too much meaning to
24:34
the wave of the death. Occurs, unless, of course
24:37
it's happening in ways that are
24:39
flying in the face of justice and like,
24:42
you know, honoring the human But the
24:44
stories that people make up around it sometimes
24:46
can be really detrimental because they make
24:48
so much meaning around it that ends up creating
24:50
a lot of suffering for them.
24:52
Oh yeah, I'm going to make sure
24:54
that my aunt listens to this episode.
24:58
There was something that happened when and my
25:00
grandmother passed away, and
25:03
and not that you don't want,
25:06
you know, justice to be served if something was
25:08
wrong, or you know, if you feel
25:10
like something was undone. I just
25:12
remember having a conversation with my aunt saying
25:14
that like God was ready, it
25:17
was her time, last time it is,
25:20
yeah, and so you going
25:23
through and you know, if you want to write
25:25
a letter and if you want to sue somebody
25:27
and do all of these things, this is recreating
25:30
the trauma for you over and over and over
25:33
of your mother's passing when
25:35
realistically, like she was tired.
25:38
And God said, you know what, she tired.
25:40
Let me go ahead and take my baby out of here because
25:42
this is too much for her. And
25:45
it could have been me being selfish. I remember
25:48
my aunt called me and was like what do you think about,
25:51
you know, like pressing the issue
25:54
about you know, this happening. And I
25:56
was like, I think that if it's something that you want
25:58
to do, you know, I support you in doing it, but
26:00
I don't want any parts of it because I think I
26:03
knew that this is just going to
26:05
retrigger us over and over and over and over and
26:07
over. And we already have so much
26:09
to deal with and it's so much
26:11
pain, and it's so heavy, and we're trying
26:13
to navigate this new normal,
26:16
if you will, this is just going to re
26:18
traumatize us over and over and over and over.
26:21
And I don't think that she ended up going
26:24
through with it, And I don't know if
26:26
she notices realizes this, but I think
26:28
that her spirit is
26:30
much more better off without doing it,
26:33
because it is just retraumatizing yourself
26:35
over and over. Can be for sure,
26:37
there is an element called reprocessing
26:40
where in grief people do just run
26:42
over the thing over and over and over again in their heads.
26:45
And I think for some people it can be supportive
26:47
as they like try to hang onto the little bits
26:50
of how Sabiity died. I think sometimes
26:52
people also hang on to those things
26:54
that they thought were less than what the person deserved,
26:57
because it allows them a way to still stay connected
26:59
in some capacity. You know, It's
27:01
like, if I'm not angry anymore, did I care or
27:03
does it matter?
27:04
It still matters. You can let it go, and
27:06
also you can stay angrief. This is what you need
27:08
in order to still feel like out
27:11
with them, and I'm down for them, and you.
27:12
Know, yeah, but
27:15
you don't think that it is. And
27:18
I guess I'm feeling where you're I
27:22
don't want to like judge and not
27:24
to be judgmental, but wouldn't
27:27
it be best for our own
27:30
like spirits to find other ways
27:32
to honor them in that
27:34
way?
27:36
I think that other people come to grief a lot of different
27:38
ways, and I've seen so much of it,
27:41
you know. I've seen the people that are just out
27:43
for blood after somebody dies, even
27:45
though what I heard sounds like a very
27:47
normal process to me. They're not at hospices
27:50
and people for morphine and they
27:52
think that the morphine kill them, and they're just trying
27:54
to get people.
27:56
And it all looks to me like an expression of grief.
27:58
Yeah, and all great to me, is valid, even
28:01
the expressions I don't ratter understand because there's
28:03
a lot of them that I don't understand.
28:05
But I'm like, you're grieving, ouch.
28:07
Can you direct it toward the thing that actually hurts
28:09
and not at me, not at this person or you
28:11
know, I would imagine you that you deal with that a
28:14
lot like Okay, so
28:16
can you tell us about like one time
28:18
where that happened where the person that
28:21
after your client had because
28:23
who is the client? The client is the person who
28:25
is actually leaving, not the family
28:28
member who.
28:29
Right, It depends, Okay, it
28:31
depends. Sometimes the client is a family member.
28:34
Sometimes a family member has calls for support
28:36
with their person who's dying.
28:37
Okay, yeah, and there's yeah,
28:40
go ahead. I'm sorry.
28:41
Well, I was going to say that there's cerly been times
28:43
when people have been in their grief
28:45
angry at me or throwing
28:48
some energy my way one way or another. There
28:50
was also a son who kept
28:52
asking me out insistently, and don't
28:54
get me wrong, I know I am fly And
28:57
at the same time, I was like, you were trying to find a way.
28:59
To just stay close to this person who
29:01
died through thinking that this is going to be the thing.
29:03
This ain't it, Like it's not for you anyway, But
29:05
this ain't it, But there's been anger.
29:08
There was one son
29:10
of a client who also reacted
29:12
in a lot of anger toward me, thinking that I maybe
29:15
hastened his mother's death. But she
29:18
was getting paid medication and they
29:21
gave her morphine nearing the end of her life, and
29:23
he sedated her, which allowed her to die.
29:25
But he thought that the sedation is what eventually
29:27
killed her and that the morphine killed her. And
29:30
I was I was giving you know, some information
29:33
for them to consider, and they considered
29:35
to give her more, and he thought it was my fault.
29:38
Yeah, okay, this is grief. He's grieving,
29:41
and how do you deal with that?
29:42
You touch the door jam and you go home
29:45
and take your band and eat your chips.
29:47
Yeah, and eat my chips and maybe have a little
29:49
tequila.
29:50
Okay, heyn is wrong. Repisado
29:53
or nail reposado.
29:55
Every day
29:58
straight up to not even a lemon or a line.
30:00
Just what's your favorite tequila?
30:03
Okay, there's
30:06
so. I had a friend
30:08
of mine on the show. She had actually been to
30:10
prison. She was a teacher and actually
30:13
a special administrator, and she had been
30:15
to prison until we talked about that, and
30:17
she I had one at her
30:20
house, and I want to say it
30:22
was. I was just telling somebody about
30:24
it the other day and I can't think about it.
30:26
But two,
30:30
I don't know what the hell it's called.
30:31
But if I think it, absolutely
30:33
and if necessary, I'll email it to you. Because
30:36
it was so smooth. Like
30:38
it was so smooth. I
30:40
don't see how people drink things like casamigos
30:43
Like that is not even right.
30:46
It's wrong to drink. It's bad for
30:48
you. I'd rather drink Patron than to drink
30:50
cass. I
30:53
have a question, as a black woman in
30:55
this field, are there any like
30:58
unique perspective, active,
31:01
or just insights that you may bring
31:03
to end of life care and support
31:06
As a black woman as a system, what do
31:08
you bring to this whole process that maybe
31:11
another person could not bring.
31:13
Well for servers, I think because of the intersections
31:16
of my identity, it's much easier for me
31:18
to honor the intersections of other people's identities.
31:20
Absolutely.
31:21
I've heard way too many people say things like
31:23
race doesn't matter and how we die, and I think that is
31:25
utter and complete bullshit, because
31:27
when I'm supporting somebody at the end of life,
31:29
I'm honoring the totality of their lived experience
31:32
for all. It was not just the experiences
31:34
I'm down with or understand or can identify
31:36
with who they actually were.
31:38
That means how they showed up in life. That
31:40
means that I have to look at their.
31:42
Whole thing, their entire thing, including
31:44
their race, including their gender, gender
31:46
expression, sexual identity, like all
31:49
those things go into ability, disability,
31:51
all everything, everything is going
31:53
into it.
31:54
And it's much easier, I think, for me to.
31:56
Be aware of other people's because
31:58
I sit in this position and as opposed
32:00
to all the white people who over the years have told me that
32:03
it doesn't matter, or they try
32:05
to lump everybody
32:07
in together or provide
32:09
like the same care for everybody. One
32:12
minor example and my DULA training program,
32:15
I had learned about dry shampoo.
32:17
They said that you see a dry shampoo to
32:19
wash the hair of the deceased.
32:21
It was the very first.
32:22
Time I'd heard about dry shampoo in my life.
32:24
I was shocked, in aunt, what is this? And
32:26
they explained it to me, and I thought, y'all
32:29
better not put any dry shampoo in my locks
32:31
and my hair. It will go in there and it will never come
32:33
out.
32:33
And it'll never come out, and then you'll be dead
32:35
in your afterlife whatever you believe.
32:37
With powder in your hair.
32:39
Looking like it, ash, she had a mess. Yes, that's
32:41
not what I'm trying to do.
32:42
Because what if.
32:43
There's no place for you to dye your locks when
32:45
you get there?
32:45
Thank you? Then what as she had
32:47
a mess?
32:48
Now? And so I thought, well,
32:50
this is clearly a situation where we
32:52
have not considered everybody's hair.
32:54
We haven't considered everybody.
32:57
They say, this is how you do it, and I was
32:59
like, I can't be it for everybody?
33:01
What else is available?
33:02
So that's a minor thing, but it shows up in so many
33:04
other different ways, you know, cultures
33:07
and customs and rituals, and you
33:09
know, just even calling my elderly clients
33:12
miss or miss or don't start with their first
33:14
name. You know, like it's a tiny
33:16
things that show respect, but are also markers of
33:18
culture that I am privy
33:20
to that a lot of other people don't even know it's
33:22
an issue or something.
33:23
To consider, right.
33:36
I get that that makes sense, And I
33:38
could see people
33:41
trying to box it all in
33:43
and say it doesn't really matter, and
33:46
yeah, no matter how that works, it
33:48
yeah absolutely matters. And I
33:51
know as a black woman, of course, I'm biased,
33:53
but black women are superheroes,
33:56
not superheroes that are here to save everybody.
33:58
That's not our job. No, I'll
34:00
say we are.
34:03
We're like at the X Men. You
34:06
know we have we have a lot of powers, great
34:09
powers, not necessarily
34:11
the Magneto X Men, but the you
34:14
know, we have a lot of great
34:17
powers. And also to be able
34:19
to just see people for who they are because
34:21
of how we are treated,
34:23
how we are seen. And so I
34:25
get that. Are there any cultural or oh
34:28
in that tequila is called el tasorro al
34:31
tisoro? Yeah, write
34:33
some as delicious And she
34:36
is so funny. She uh lived
34:39
in Mexico City or in Mexico
34:41
and she like went to all
34:43
these tequila tastings when she was in her early
34:45
twenties. And so I'm gonna go ahead
34:48
and say that she probably knows what she's talking about
34:50
because she's knee deep in the tequila
34:52
game.
34:53
It's so delicious, Like it's really good.
34:55
Write it down, it's good. Can
34:58
you discuss or can you think of any cultural
35:00
or spiritual rituals
35:02
or beliefs that you have that
35:05
you have found meaningful
35:08
or helpful when you are supporting
35:10
people through this process that
35:14
you Alua bring to the table.
35:17
I think one thing that I bring, which
35:19
is perhaps the most supportive, is
35:21
the absence of it, at least externally,
35:25
because when I am as
35:27
blank of a slate as possible,
35:30
and I don't mean that doesn't mean that I come with my
35:32
trauma and my pain and my history and my
35:34
blackness and everything else. Rather it
35:36
means that I can allow people to
35:38
have their experience and share with me what
35:40
they believe to help them weed through
35:42
it.
35:42
That's what's most supportive. Okay.
35:45
You know.
35:45
Also, I think just naming it what
35:48
I see it as and not using euphemisms
35:50
or not cauching it any terms that highlight
35:54
what my belief system is. Like
35:56
I don't say transition or past away
35:58
and I say dead or die on
36:00
purpose.
36:00
Listen, just straight straight from the hip.
36:03
Just keep it what it is, keep it one hundred
36:05
all the time. Because it also just
36:07
keeps things neutral enough so that people can put
36:10
what they believe into the pot and I can help them start
36:12
and keep something out of themselves.
36:14
I did that.
36:15
I love that. I've never thought about that, and
36:17
of course, you know, me, being the reflective
36:20
person I am, I'm thinking about, like what do I
36:22
say. I definitely said a
36:24
transition a lot during this conversation,
36:26
I've said leaving a lot, and
36:29
that is probably based in my own drama and
36:31
my own grief process and the
36:34
where I am now in the grieving process.
36:38
That is interesting. That is I
36:40
probably could never do that. I
36:43
don't think that I could do.
36:44
Your work is one. I'd be in there crying like
36:46
a fuck. That's okay, I do
36:48
to people. I do too.
36:50
And can I tell you a story, a quick one,
36:53
as I think we.
36:54
Ran out of time.
36:55
A while back, I was with a
36:57
client and her sister and
37:00
they were not elderly, they were
37:02
close enough in age. They were black, and
37:05
I felt very identified with them. And you know,
37:07
you always hear that that's not what you're supposed to do.
37:09
And I certainly changed the students that I work with that
37:11
perhaps people that you feel closely biographically
37:14
associated to you probably shouldn't be working with because
37:17
he had to separate the space between
37:19
the two of you.
37:19
Absolutely, client was dying,
37:21
her sister was there. I'm boohooing because
37:24
the sister is crying because I'm thinking about
37:26
my own sister dying. All right, I'd
37:28
excused myself for a while, came back. I still
37:30
couldn't get it together, so we wrapped up the visit and I
37:32
went home.
37:33
Then I felt awful, like look at me.
37:35
I meant to create and hold
37:37
this container and I collapsed directly
37:39
into it. Oh awful, like
37:41
maybe I'm not cut out for this. I don't know if I
37:43
can do this anymore like this. A few
37:46
days later, sister calls to tell me how
37:48
grateful she was that I showed some emotion
37:50
and some humanness because doctors
37:52
and other people had been coming into the home, they'd
37:54
been coming into the hospital, and they would come,
37:57
they do their.
37:57
Job, and they'd leave.
37:58
And she said that it was a first time that she felt
38:01
that her sister's death matter to somebody.
38:05
I get that, if that makes sense, Not
38:07
that really, because I would be falling out crying,
38:10
not you know. Do you want me
38:12
to go get something for you? Like, oh
38:14
my gosh, what am I gonna do? Do you want me to go get y'all
38:16
some rolls or something? Because do you want
38:18
me to find somebody to make some meatballs? Because
38:21
like black people got to have meatballs. I have
38:23
to think you need some rice something. I
38:26
think the last question or the last
38:28
few questions I have is I
38:32
want to know if there are any experiences
38:35
or lessons that you have learned in
38:37
this process that have helped you, like
38:40
on your own journey to self
38:43
love or your own not necessarily self love,
38:45
but your own like mental health
38:47
journey.
38:48
Like what has.
38:50
Doing this work done for you and
38:54
your own mental health?
38:55
It was, like we were talking about earlier, just giving
38:58
myself the grace to how to
38:59
like to be who I am,
39:01
you know, and to have the difficult experiences
39:04
I've tried to tidy myself for so long,
39:07
and to not be.
39:08
Frustrated and lawyer outfits when
39:11
you want to dress like Betsy Betsy
39:14
Johnson exactly got to dressed like Boston
39:17
Legal exactly.
39:18
That's not for me. That's not for me.
39:20
I can get anxious, That's okay, it's
39:22
a new thing that I'm discovering about myself.
39:25
But I'm allowing myself the grace to like be human,
39:27
to like have a full range of emotions
39:30
and have just like a full experience
39:33
here.
39:33
I think there any freedom in that. There's so much
39:35
freedom in it.
39:36
There's so much full freedom in that. Absolutely,
39:40
And what the grace giving
39:43
yourself the grace to
39:46
be human, to be human, And
39:48
what did you say?
39:49
You said for a long time, you for a long time,
39:51
I'm tidied or I tried to keep in little boxers
39:53
and wouldn't allow people to see all parts of me. And
39:56
now I'm like, well, it helps
39:58
that I'm in this really beautiful relationship that holds
40:00
a lot of space for me to be the full gamut of who
40:02
I am. But it also allows me to be the fullest
40:05
of who I am all the time. And that
40:07
that is a that's a there's a lot of freedom, and
40:09
that too in a relationship.
40:11
You in a relationship like, yeah, I gotta
40:13
because you love the love I do, and
40:18
I love that.
40:20
I swear to God, I feel like I know you.
40:23
I do, I do, I did. The
40:26
last thing I want to ask is what advice
40:28
would you give to any of my friends
40:30
and kid that are trying to understand
40:33
or have a deeper understanding
40:36
of self and acceptance, one
40:39
in the loss of grief and in their
40:41
own I'm sorry, one in the face of
40:43
grief, grief and loss, but also
40:46
in understanding their own mortality.
40:49
Oh, they're kind of they're the same, which
40:52
is the concept. And you'll hear me say this one
40:54
hundred times, but Grace. You know, there's
40:56
a reason I call the business going with grace. Grace,
40:59
Grace. This thing is hard, and we're all doing
41:01
the best that we can most of the time. And
41:04
sitting on the precipice and knowing that you're about
41:06
to lose somebody that you care a lot about is difficult.
41:09
And you might experience yourself in a lot of ways
41:11
that you're not comfortable with or haven't met yet. You
41:13
might meet a new version of yourself and that's okay too.
41:16
Grief does have the capacity to crack
41:18
us open and where a new
41:21
sense of self can emerge. And so to
41:23
stay patient with you and your process.
41:25
And grief is a lifelong experience.
41:28
It's a lifelong experience. It never
41:30
goes away, It doesn't go anywhere. Just learn
41:32
how to integrate it differently. You learn how to move
41:35
with it. But it doesn't go anywhere.
41:36
It just evolves.
41:37
It feels like yeah, afferent things,
41:40
yeah, yeah, into different things. I'm
41:42
trying to think of it like a
41:45
butterfly that lives forever that maybe
41:47
changes like it may be a monarch
41:49
at first, and then it turns into the little
41:52
white ones and then it turns into the pretty
41:54
blue ones, and it just evolves over time
41:57
because it doesn't go away. And I think
41:59
that initially I thought that oh by now I
42:01
would be okay.
42:02
No, that's not how it works. That's
42:05
not how it works.
42:05
It's been ten years since my brother in law died, ten
42:08
years and I was thinking about them recently.
42:10
And I choked up. Pete Peter.
42:12
Yeah, listen, I'm here with them
42:15
with me, and I'm either we are
42:17
friends. We went to school together. You
42:20
lived in Bethesda, maybe I lived up the street.
42:23
I am a part of the Arthur family.
42:25
I know what's going on.
42:26
Okay, we are here.
42:28
I want to say thank you so much for
42:32
being on hand me my purse
42:34
with me today. I want you to tell people how they can find
42:36
you, Doude. This is
42:38
your time to do your plug and sometimes for black
42:41
women, we have a really fucking hard
42:43
time, you know, doing that, but
42:45
like it's your turn. I want you to tell people
42:47
to find you on social media and they better
42:49
follow you and subscribe and do all the things
42:52
or I'm going to beat them up. I'm
42:54
not because I don't really like to fight. I haven't benefied
42:56
since I was twelve, but I will find somebody
42:58
up if I have to. You know what I'm saying, easy,
43:01
no problem, it wouldn't.
43:02
Be a problem.
43:02
No problem.
43:03
And I'm big too, No problem. I
43:05
am big. I'm a big girl. Yeah, I'm
43:08
a big lady. Like I'm
43:10
going down without a fight. Yeah.
43:12
No. One of my coworkers is so funny. He
43:14
has a white van and I was like, I don't
43:16
you know this van is kind of making me uncomfortable.
43:19
He said, you better be careful.
43:20
I said, if you get me in that white van, something
43:23
as big as and I pointed to
43:25
another co worker's gonna come out of my nose. I said,
43:27
Cause, fat ladies, you.
43:28
Ain't get me in there. If I get in there, it's
43:30
fight choice. I'm gonna fuck you up on the
43:33
way in the van.
43:34
You say I should have left this big bitch alone,
43:36
because I'm gonna try to kill.
43:38
You on the way to you taking me to the Dan
43:40
sure kidnapp defense. Absolutely.
43:43
How can the people find you and tell them one more time?
43:46
The name of the book. The name of the book is briefly
43:48
perfectly human.
43:50
Go to your independent bookstores and find
43:52
it, please, because those are folks that
43:54
are working real hard to make their dreams come true as
43:56
well, So please go to an independent
43:59
bookstore.
44:00
Muscle to Amazon to get it. You
44:02
can find it on audio as well if you'd
44:04
like to hear me talk it out to you.
44:07
I recommend you
44:10
do both because she is a black woman
44:12
and we want to support her.
44:14
Because I'm definitely going to buy the.
44:16
Written copy, but I definitely
44:20
recommend if you want the fullness of
44:22
the experience of the
44:25
book to listen to it.
44:28
Yeah, yeah, listen to it.
44:29
Listen to it reading taking my sentences because
44:31
I worked really hard to craft them.
44:33
You can find me also at Goingwithgrace
44:36
dot com.
44:37
It is our business website
44:39
where you'll find a number of courses and offerings
44:42
and meditations and journaling
44:44
experiences for you to work
44:46
with your mortality, to sink
44:48
into grief, to work with the experience
44:50
of grief, and if you like to learn how to support
44:52
other people through death and dying and grief and
44:55
loss as well.
44:56
Awesome.
44:57
Can they find you on social media or you're not really social
44:59
media.
45:00
Definitely going with Grace with underscores
45:02
between the words, because otherwise you'll end up at some yellow
45:05
lab in Kentucky. If that is not not it and
45:08
then also MEA loves life.
45:11
Okay, yeah, I love that.
45:13
It's true. I love that well.
45:16
I enjoyed this.
45:17
And I told you I feel like I know you and
45:20
that you know I knew Peter,
45:23
and I know your niece and you and your niece have the same
45:25
birthday.
45:26
If I'm telling you, I feel like it.
45:28
Your parents about all
45:30
of the things, everything, all of the things.
45:32
I appreciate you taking your time on your
45:35
West Coast time out with
45:38
this East Coast girl with a West Coast spirit.
45:40
And I wish you all of the best.
45:43
And I'm definitely gonna go to going
45:45
with Grace dot com and see
45:47
what kind of resources you have. And I'm going to share
45:49
it with every fucking
45:51
person in my family because we are all
45:53
dealing with a lot of grief. We have
45:56
had a lot of grief over the past I would say decade.
45:58
And I'm going to suggest to them we have a
46:00
family wellness call. I'm going to suggest to them that
46:03
they all go on and see if there's something there
46:05
that touches
46:08
them or that they feel like that they can connect
46:10
you. So thank you so much, a Lua, thank you, I appreciate
46:13
you. The tequila is called El Tasorro
46:15
I wrote it down. Absolutely, have
46:17
some have a shot. Have a shot
46:19
from my grandma.
46:20
What's her name, Shirley, Charley,
46:23
Miss Shirley. I absolutely will, absolutely.
46:25
And thank you so much again, and congratulations
46:28
on your new relationship.
46:30
Thank you.
46:30
And if you get married, invite me because I will. I'll
46:32
show up.
46:33
I trust you and obvious there
46:35
too.
46:35
Absolutely, thank you so much. All right, okay,
47:00
all right, so friends, and can today's
47:04
question? I like
47:06
this because this person was
47:08
real simple. A lot
47:10
of the few of the questions that I've been having coming
47:12
in haven't been as long
47:15
and drawn out and dramatic. They've been simple questions
47:17
actually, which I like. And
47:19
so but I do love the drama. Don't get it fucked
47:22
up. I love the drama. So anyway, this question says,
47:24
mem when it comes to romantic relationships
47:27
and love, do you believe it is true
47:29
that you can actually love two
47:31
people at the same time? And
47:34
that is from Kenesha from
47:36
Cleveland, Ohio who
47:40
This is tricky because most
47:44
people are gonna say no, But
47:48
personally, I think that that is complete
47:50
and utter. I
47:54
feel like love is love
47:59
in its purest form, when
48:01
it's real, when it's true love
48:05
cannot be bound that
48:08
way. And as
48:11
I've gotten older and
48:15
spent a lot of time, you
48:18
know, paying attention to relationships
48:21
and patterns and societal
48:24
norms, and you know, just
48:26
maturing and talking
48:28
to God about what love is and getting
48:30
the understanding of what love is and experiencing
48:33
love in all different forms.
48:37
Love cannot have
48:40
limits and walls and ceilings. Love
48:42
is free. Love is without
48:45
form. It's amorphous, and that
48:47
is what the beauty of love is. True love. It's
48:51
without restriction. And we are constantly
48:53
trying to put or place
48:56
restrictions on love and
48:58
to give love a form, but we can't because
49:02
it's love is free.
49:04
Love is Love is like wind.
49:08
Love is like the ocean is deep and shallow.
49:10
It's dark, and it's clear, as black,
49:12
as blue as greens. Brown
49:16
is green, you know. In other words, like you
49:19
can't put a restriction on it. Water
49:21
is water. Even if
49:23
it freezes, it's still water. Heat or
49:26
the sun is gonna melt it and it's just gonna be
49:28
water again. So I just think
49:30
that if
49:32
your love is true and
49:36
it's pure, that's
49:38
the thing. If it's pure love
49:43
that doesn't have what's
49:47
the word I'm looking for? If
49:49
it's love without an agenda, love
49:53
without an ulterior motive, then
49:55
it's free. It doesn't
49:57
take form. And they're over
50:00
strictions that you can put on it. You can't
50:02
restrict or contain the air
50:05
or the wind. So and
50:08
if you can and there's some kind of wind
50:10
restrictor or wind container that
50:13
some tech person made, like
50:16
okay, whatever, you know what
50:18
I mean. But I definitely
50:20
believe that you can love two people at once. As
50:22
they say, two things can be true
50:25
at the same time. So
50:29
and I know because I've loved two people at the
50:31
same time.
50:32
I have.
50:35
But the difference is that love
50:39
is also actionable, so
50:42
you know, ultimately love
50:44
is is it's
50:48
not just a feeling. There
50:51
are actions that go along with the
50:53
feelings. There are the experiences
50:55
that you create as a result of your feelings.
50:58
So I just think that you you you
51:02
can love two people because love
51:04
is not a corset. You know, you
51:07
can put a corset around love. It's not a muffin
51:10
top. So I definitely
51:12
believe that Kanisha, you can love
51:15
two people at the same time, you can love three people at
51:18
the same time. You
51:20
know, why not, Like, how do
51:22
you stop it? How do you stop love. How
51:26
do you stop loving somebody, like
51:30
unless you are intentionally removing
51:32
yourself from them, And even
51:34
if you do remove them from your life, and like,
51:37
if you really love them, do you ever stop
51:41
loving them? Because I'd be really honest. My
51:44
high school boyfriend, may
51:46
he rest in peace. I
51:48
still love him, and he's not
51:51
even alive anymore. I
51:53
still love him.
51:56
I do.
51:58
If I've ever loved you, I still love you because
52:02
I really really loved you. Now, if
52:05
I didn't love you and I just liked you, or
52:07
I lusted for you, or you
52:11
know, if it wasn't
52:13
pure, raw
52:18
true love, then I don't
52:20
care like whatever. But if I love
52:22
you, I love you forever, and that goes from
52:24
my friends, my family.
52:26
I ain't got to talk to you no more for
52:29
me to still love you. There
52:31
are several people that
52:33
I don't engage with anymore, and
52:37
they are friends and or family, and
52:39
I still love them and I will love them until
52:41
the day that life is no more. But
52:47
I ain't got to have them around me. I
52:51
still love them though, So Yes, Kenisia
52:54
from Cleveland, Ohio, I do believe that you
52:57
can love two people at once.
52:58
Now, what you do with that love is a different story.
53:02
That's where it gets.
53:03
Tricky, because if you're
53:05
married and you love
53:07
your wife or your husband and you
53:11
are in love with somebody else, you
53:14
know, that's where you got to figure that out.
53:16
What does that look like for you? What
53:20
does that look like for your relationships both
53:23
of them? And if
53:25
you're married, you got a wife or husband and you got
53:27
somebody else, and then you start loving somebody
53:29
else, that gets tricky, and that's
53:31
where the intentional action comes
53:34
in. But
53:37
love is not bound. Love can't be bound,
53:39
so you can't stop it. That's
53:43
just what I think.
53:44
But what do I know?
53:51
Friends? Again, for today's we Got to Do Better segment,
53:53
I'm just gonna keep it on trend and I'm gonna
53:55
keep it on trend for the rest of season
53:58
four, which is where we are. And
54:01
I'm going to pull from my
54:04
new favorite book, Black Liturgies
54:07
by Cole Arthur Riley,
54:10
who is a black woman in her thirties and
54:12
she is an
54:14
amazing human being. But this
54:18
excerpteer is
54:21
the benediction prayer from
54:23
the chapter on Joy, and
54:26
it says, be at peace,
54:30
May you access the fullness
54:32
of a joy that allows for both an
54:35
interior solemnity
54:38
and levity. May
54:40
you learn to be at rest with yourself,
54:43
able to access a piece that carries
54:46
memory but isn't chained.
54:48
To the past.
54:50
And may you laugh, allowing
54:53
the mystery of joy to steady you always
54:56
and keep you from despair. Amen,
55:00
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, I
55:03
read that to you one more time, one
55:05
time for the one time, because this
55:08
is all in my chest. Okay,
55:10
excuse me trying to get something
55:12
in my eye. And again
55:15
this is a benediction prayer from the chapter
55:17
on Joy be
55:20
at Peace. May you access
55:23
the fullness of a joy that allows for both an
55:25
interior solemnity and a
55:28
levity. May you learn to be at
55:30
rest with yourself, able
55:32
to access a piece that carries memory
55:34
but isn't chained to the past.
55:37
And may you laugh, allowing
55:40
the mystery of joy to steady you always
55:43
and keep you from despair.
55:46
A men ah
55:50
shay.
55:51
And so it is so.
56:01
Present in the first thing I want to do is say thank you
56:03
to God first, because God is supreme
56:05
and I recognize and appreciate the grace that God
56:08
extends to me every single day
56:10
of my black ass life. I
56:13
want to say thank you to my people, to my folks,
56:15
to each and every one of you that's been rocking with
56:18
me since the first day, the first
56:20
sound, the first trailer, March
56:23
the first of twenty twenty, first
56:25
first verse, verse, the first, the first, the first, one
56:27
one one one, one one one. Thank
56:30
you, thank you, and thank you again. I appreciate
56:33
you for being here. And even if you weren't
56:35
here on March the first of twenty twenty and you just
56:37
started listening today, whatever
56:40
today is, I am grateful
56:42
for you and I appreciate you either
56:45
way you cut it up. I'm thankful
56:47
for my family, my friends, my friends, and ken all
56:49
of my supporters however you support
56:52
me, and of course, most importantly,
56:54
every single one of you guys that are out there listening.
56:57
I love y'all so much and it is
56:59
nothing short of an honor or privilege and
57:01
a blessing.
57:03
And you know what else, it is a lesson
57:06
for me.
57:06
To share my time and my energy with you, especially
57:08
if you keep coming back to share
57:11
your time and your energy with me. And
57:13
I look forward to the next time that we get to do this
57:15
with one another, which will be next
57:18
Tuesday. Now
57:20
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