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Hey their listeners. For this bonus
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episode, we wanted to reach out to an expert,
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someone who knows a thing or two about what adoptees
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experience when they reach out to their birth
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family, or what happens when someone
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finds out they're adopted later in life, like
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Steve Patterson. Then our
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producer Kate Mischkin taught with doctor Amanda
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Baten, a licensed psychologist in New
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York City who's worked with adoptees, adoptive
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families, and has adopted ourself. We
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were lucky to sit down with them.
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This is chapter twelve, Doctor
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Amanda Beten on adoption. Just
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to start out, would you mind telling us who you are
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and what kind of work you do.
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My name's Amanda Beten. I'm a licensed
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psychologist in New York City, and
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I'm also a professor at
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Montclair State University, where I also serve
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as the doctoral program director. At
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Montclair State, we train future
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counselors, and in the doctoral program
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we train counselor educators, those who are
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going to be professors. Training future counselors,
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it's very matter. And then in my practice,
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I have a clinical practice in New York where
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I work with primarily adult
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adoptees and adoptive families.
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I'm wondering if you're if you're open to telling
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me a little bit about how your own experience
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has informed your practice.
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I think you know, having grown up as a
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transracial international adoptee
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myself, of course, I understand
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a lot of the struggles. I know what they look like at
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various points. I've been working
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with adoptees for over twenty five years.
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I have a lot of stories, a lot of histories
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that people have shared that some
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of which overlap with mine and some which
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diverge completely. I try
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to make sure that I have very good sense
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of what's my history and what's
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theirs, not to confuse them,
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but I definitely can see that there's
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a lot of shared experiences. I shared history
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of how adoptees have
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an internal message
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system that they might use to themselves
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about what it means to be adopted. For
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kids and adolescents can be hard to articulate,
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so some of what I do is really helping
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them find words to explain
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their experience and to normalize
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it, to recognize it. They weren't the only ones who
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had that experience, and
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therefore it can be very
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empowering to recognize like there's a real community
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out there that can share some of
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this.
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I was wondering if just something we could start
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out with. Is some reasons
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adoptees seek out therapy in general?
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Oh sure, I think everyone
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is always looking to understand themselves a little
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bit better, looking for support
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when things might get a little challenging or tough.
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The adults that I see primarily have
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come for various reasons. Sometimes it's the
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traditional reasons we understand is different
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kinds of mood disorders like depression or
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anxiety, But a lot of it's about identity.
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Understanding themselves is people
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of color understanding themselves as adopted
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people. Many
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of them have been in therapy with other clinicians
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who don't have adoption backgrounds, and
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so in many of those cases,
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they might say that person was
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supportive and kind, but maybe didn't quite
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understand the nuances of
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adoption, or they
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felt they had to teach them so
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much that it wasn't as helpful as they wanted
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it to be. And more recently, sometimes
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it's also about connections with you
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know, relationship issues, romantic
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kinds of relationships, friendships
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and relationships with adoptive family
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members and birth family searches. Those are
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all different reasons that people
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might seek therapy.
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And so I just want to clarify, for the most part, you're talking
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to folks who have been adopted.
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You're not necessarily talking to the adoptive
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families.
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I do work with some adoptive families,
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so whenever I'm working with adult adoptees,
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at times we'll find it might be very useful
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for them to have session where they bring
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in their parents. We're working
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on them developing agency to be
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able to express what they want, and me
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to serve in the role of helping improve
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communication, help the adopted
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person advocate for themselves, help
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interpret some of the things that the
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parents may struggle to understand because they
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didn't live it in the same way.
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What's a big misconception about adoption.
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I think the most common misconception is
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that people think they understand what adoption
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is because they've heard stories
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and seen movies. Almost
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all Disney movies have an adoption theme
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of some sort. So these arcs
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tell these stories I think that can
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problematize adoption and also
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make it seem so rainbows
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and flowers and stars like it's so wonderful
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all the time. And the fact is
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adoptions complex and the issues
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are complex. So a lot of times
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I think people think if a child's
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been adopted, that they're lucky, that
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they should be grateful, that the
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adoptive parents have done a wonderful thing,
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that they're do gooders, and
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look what a wonderful life they've been given. Those
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kinds of things I think come into play
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a lot because it
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calls into question motives
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for adopting. It calls into question things
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like how an adoptee's supposed to process
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and think about their experience. That
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can make it hard, because if they
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have this message that they should never complain
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and never be unhappy and never grieve anything
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that's related to their adoption, then
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that is going to become a big barrier in
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the relationship they have with their families
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and in their own processing and
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navigating of the feelings that come with adoption.
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I want to travel back in time a little bit,
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to the nineteen seventies. That's kind of where the sort
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that we're focused on takes
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place. In our story. This man
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didn't know that he was adopted to very late
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in life. He stumbled upon a
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Manila envelope with the name he was assigned at
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birth, but really didn't ask any
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further questions, and finally, when
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his adoptive father died in twenty
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nineteen, he started kind of unpacking.
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So I was wondering, you know, back in the seventies,
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how common was that for adopted
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children to not be told that they were adopted
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and to have kept it a secret.
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I wish I could tell you explicitly,
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because again, we don't have numbers on these kinds
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of things. We would not be able
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to estimate who's telling and who's not telling.
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I can say, though, that it still.
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Happens, and why do you think that happens.
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I think that there's a lot of answers to
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that, and they're
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somewhat individual to the parent to
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some degree. But I think the standard
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answers people give are that they
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want the adopted person to understand
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it fully, they don't know when
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a good time is to tell them. They
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think it will upset them and make them feel
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less part of the family. These
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are all kind of common
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answers, but I also think that
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there's a lot of fear
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involved, a fear that the child
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may not feel part of the family. They may have questions,
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they may want to reach out and find
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birth family. There's an attempt
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to if you pretend that
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we're all biologically related, then
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we'll all pretend and everything will be the same.
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I think that some folks might
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frame it as having protected the child, when
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we know that's not always the sole motivator
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or necessarily an accurate
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explanation. I've actually worked
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with a person once who
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had suspected for many years that
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they were adopted and had been
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looking into this for years, and there had been
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denials and denials and denials from the
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adoptive parents, and
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the person finally confronted the parent
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and said, look, I'm about to do this DNA test.
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It's going to come out, so
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here's your chance to tell me. And this this
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person was in their fifties at the time. The
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adoptive parents still refused, and
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of course the DNA test proved
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it, and they finally had
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to have the conversation. Ultimately, I
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don't know if they actually had a logical stream
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of thought around how this might
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play out or not, but they
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had been locked into this narrative for over
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fifty years.
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I canmuchure it's hard to break that after fifty years
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telling the same story based on
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your experience and your expertise,
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when is a good time to tell a kid.
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That's a great question. And we have a lot of colleagues
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who do adoption research as
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well, and one of them who's quite
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well known in the field, David Brezinski, had sent
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two independent researchers to me to
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say, hey, maybe Amanda
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will do this study with you, because they
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were both what they called late discovery
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adoptees LDAs, and
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so they came to me with this idea
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and I was entruy. So
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what we did was we did a survey
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to look at the impact
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of when you found out you were
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adopted, and the
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results were very compelling. What
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we basically found out was that if
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an adopted person has a memory
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of finding out they were adopted, then
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that's already a little late for them.
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They've already experienced some distress.
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So we looked at whether distress, satisfaction
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with life, and coping
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mechanisms how they all impacted
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this. But if you account for the coping
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mechanisms that people have, adults have more coping
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mechanisms, that the impact
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of finding out that you're adopted
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after the age of three gradually increases.
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The older you get, the more distress.
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So what it meant to me was
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that memory really
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sits in people's minds. In my role
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as a faculty member, I teach a course
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on multicultural counseling, and
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when I do bring in adoption into
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the course, I do a little quiz
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for them and I ask them at
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what age do they think a child should
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be told they're adopted. What's fascinated
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me about it is that there was this
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range. There's always a few
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students who say immediately at birth, as soon
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as you can, but there's far more
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who say five, eight, fifteen,
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eighteen or never, which
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really surprised me. And then my explanation
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my response to them would be, so I
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don't think a child needs to understand
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all of the complexity of adoption to understand
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that they were born in someone else's body
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and that there's another family out
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there. And if
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you wait until they're three, five,
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ten, how many times have you had to
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lie to your child? Most
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of the LDAs they often talk
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about the awareness that they'd been betrayed
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and lied to. It's much harder to
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keep these secrets, and we
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know secrets have a way of coming out often,
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so we try and help
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families recognize that if
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you can't be honest with your child
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about their history, you're going
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to create wedges from the very beginning
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that's going to make it hard to have just
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an honest relationship with them.
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Okay, So, in general, how do late
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discovery adoptees differ from other adoptees.
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Well, I think the difference is more in they
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have a late start. One
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of the things we struggled with when designing the
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study was
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how we wanted to define late, and our
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study finding showed that, yeah, four
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is already a little late. So I
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think that the difference will depend to
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some degree on when they find out. Because
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the person that you're doing this
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podcast about, he's just
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now identifying as an adopted
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person and now just diving
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into that world and has maybe changing
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all the things he's had to think about who he
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was and where he came from.
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Whereas adoptees who've known
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forever have had
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a head start in that. That doesn't mean they've
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always gotten there or done the work or
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had effective progress with it,
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but they've had the opportunities in some
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cases to join adoption communities,
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to be with other adopted people
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to start incorporating
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that into their identity from a very early
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age. And the challenge
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is not being able to incorporate that into your identity
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means it may feel
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like your identity has to alter drastically
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from what you thought it was. And
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knowing that there's this other family out there
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who may or may not have ever
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wanted to reconnect
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or something like that can
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throw people into a tail spin.
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In your experience, how typical is it
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for an adopt you to discover that they were adopted, you
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know, finding paperwork or some other way,
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but to not raise it with their adoptive
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parents.
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I think that there's definitely communication
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problems in all families, and
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I think that some folks are
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more willing to have those challenging
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and difficult conversations than others. Someone
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who has not had a practice of that
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and maybe more unwilling.
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To do it.
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And sometimes people want to close the door on something
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that doesn't fit into their narrative.
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Yeah, two people in this story is that
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they knew and they just didn't want to rock the boat. They didn't want
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to hurt their adoptive
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parents' feelings.
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That goes with the grateful narrative
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too. Who am I to question and
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challenge them? I don't want to rock the boat.
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Maybe I don't want to deal with it either, or
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maybe I like pretending because
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bringing that up is going to change a lot,
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and it's going to force some change
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and a lot of times, as
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humans, we avoid discomfort, we
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avoid change, and
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that's where denial comes into play
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a lot.
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So I'm wondering if that's something we would recommend. Seeking
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out records and finding a birth family.
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Great question. I never say
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that one answer fits for everyone. Back
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in the seventies and eighties, even
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the nineties, the prevailing
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perspective was that any adopted
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person who wanted to find their birth parents
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probably was dysfunctional in
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some way, unhappy with their
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families, had some issues.
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Now the tables
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have turned completely and
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the perspective is if you don't want to find your
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birth families, then you must be in denial
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or something like that. So there's a lot of pressure
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either way. Adoptees are all pathologize
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and they can't win completely. But
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I don't think there's a blanket yes or
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no. I think the individual needs to really
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think about what they want from that, whether they're
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ready for it. I highly
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recommend therapy counseling
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for someone who's considering it, because
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I've worked with lots of adoptees who
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went in with this mission to do
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the detective work and find the birth family
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and then had no idea what they wanted
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to do with that relationship or how to approach it,
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and it became challenging and painful
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for both sides because here
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the birth family thinks, oh, they want
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to know me and want to connect, but they're withdrawing
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and they're withholding, and it's very confusing.
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The communication is challenging. So
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anyone who's an LDA would benefit
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from finding community, and
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if they're able to and willing to get
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some therapy from someone who understands
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this experience, it can be very
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beneficial to them.
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So once you go on that journey and
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you find your birth mother
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and she can't answer all your
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questions, I wonder how that might impact your sense
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of self.
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I think that you know, when you do
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find a birth family member, you're
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never going to have all your questions answered. You
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know, even when you're born to your
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parents, they can't answer everything.
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There's some mystery that's always going to be involved.
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But the sense of self is
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sometimes how we make a sense of
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what we're hearing. Sometimes
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adoptees make their
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interpretation of the relinquishment
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is about them. They think it's
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some deficit they have or
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some punishment for themselves, when
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in fact, most relinquishments
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are about the problems that the birth
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parents are having. Yeah, and
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these are adult problems. When you
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go into a union, it's going to be hard
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because there are back
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and white answers.
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And I wonder if we can talk about the adoptive
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parents a little bit. I can imagine might be a challenging
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time for an adoptive parent when their child is seeking out the
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birth parents and siblings they never knew they had. I'm
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wondering what kind of feelings this might bring up
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for adoptive parents.
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I'm guessing they would feel frustrated
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that they had to reveal the truth, maybe
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they never intended to, or maybe they feel
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some shame about it. I
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think a lot of adoptive parents who keep these
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secrets don't come and present for therapy.
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They may not be willing to confront what's
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happening. One of the reasons
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that they may have decided to keep this secret
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has been their own insecurity
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about their status as parents,
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as rightful parents, as true
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parents, and so I would
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guess that it would raise a lot of those
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issues again for them. I've heard
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many adoptive parents say they didn't want to share
17:56
their child, they want to erase
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the idea that birth parents even exist,
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And in those cases we
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could say with fair certainty
18:06
that those adoptive parents have not worked
18:09
through their own issues
18:11
around deciding to adopt.
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What suggestions might you have
18:18
for someone who wants to find the courage to
18:21
say they'd like to get to know their birth
18:23
family, but doesn't necessarily
18:25
want to disappoint their adoptive
18:27
parents or hurt someone's feelings.
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I'd say that therapy can be a good
18:33
start, because sometimes
18:35
with the work of a solid therapist,
18:38
they can help them find the words, and
18:41
sometimes the therapists can even help navigate
18:44
that discussion. Whenever
18:46
you come against something that feels like a
18:48
barrier, what often
18:51
helps is to empathize with the other
18:53
perspective and then try and inform
18:55
that perspective. So what
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I might suggest someone
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do is empathize
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with their parents' fears and
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their anxieties and insecurities,
19:07
because they may feel that
19:10
they're going to lose their child, or
19:12
something's going to shift and change
19:15
for the worse without recognizing
19:17
that it often can shift for the better
19:19
if they can stay open and engaged
19:22
in loving about it. There's
19:25
a lot of documentaries that exist, a
19:27
lot of movies that exist that
19:29
can be a great conversation starters,
19:32
where then you can talk about this process
19:35
and how these parents, Why were
19:37
those parents so engaged in this search? How
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were they able to make sense that you know, that
19:41
can give that opportunity
19:44
to have some of those discussions that they
19:46
may struggle bringing up themselves.
19:51
In that vein. What are some things that people
19:53
within the orbit of the adoptee, you know,
19:55
everyone in their life, what can they do to help the
19:57
adoptee and support them.
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I think that it can be helpful to
20:03
listen, certainly without a
20:05
ton of advice giving. I think
20:07
the advice giving can often be
20:11
well meaning, but can
20:13
sometimes reinforce
20:16
a lot of the stereotypes about adoption,
20:19
and a lot of advice giving often
20:21
recreates some of the microaggressions
20:23
that exist. Like for
20:26
example, one of the adoption microaggressions be
20:28
named was the phantom birth parents,
20:31
and that's this idea of trying to make
20:33
them disappear, where the birth
20:35
parents are supposed to go off and not think
20:37
about this. Again, if everyone just does their role,
20:40
then everything will be fine. And it doesn't really work
20:42
that way, And there's a lot
20:45
of adult adoptee communities out there that
20:47
can be supportive. I
20:50
would say for this person, the big
20:52
challenge a lot of times is for
20:55
them not to get stuck in their
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anger and to keep moving through
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it and to get the support to move through it.
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Because what we see is someone
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who's struggling with making
21:07
sense of their identity or something getting stuck
21:09
in that and not making any movement.
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Then yeah, I
21:14
can definitely see that there's something you
21:16
wish people knew about adoption that
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you've gleaned from your work.
21:22
I guess I would say I wish that people would
21:25
recognize that adoptees aren't
21:27
all damaged, that we're not all the same, that
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there's just as much diversity
21:33
among us as there is in
21:35
any other group, and that
21:38
it's not a sexy narrative to put in every movie,
21:40
in every book, even though
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it seems to be a very compelling one to
21:44
put in every
21:47
time I'm watching a show. I'm like, op, yep, there's another
21:49
one. And so
21:51
the point where my family lasts because we
21:54
see you any show that's not
21:56
at all connected to
21:58
an adoption story, that narrative
22:00
still makes its way in as
22:03
a quick and dirty way to explain why
22:05
someone would turn this way or turn that.
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Way, or you know, yeah,
22:10
as a narrator to face in some sort of way.
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It really is, and I guess I wish if
22:16
they're going to use that that they do it
22:18
with real education about it and
22:21
with real caution, because it
22:23
does contribute to the stereotypes
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and the stigma.
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Doctor Rianton, thank you so much for taking the time to talk to me.
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This is this is great, no.
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Problem, glad to be here.
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Thank you so much to doctor Amanda Baden for taking
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the time to share insight. We'll
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have some links to her work in the episode description.
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Her website is doctor Amandabaden
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dot com.
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Hello, John Doe has and original productions by
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Revelations Entertainment in association
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with First and Life Productions. From
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Revelation. Our executive producers
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are Morgan Freeman and James Younger From
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First to Life. Lindsay Moreno is
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the executive producer our producing
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partner is neo on Home Media. It was
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written and produced by Kate Michigan. Our
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editor is Katherine Saint Louis. She is
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also nei on Home Media's executive editor.
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Our executive producer is Sherah Morris. Our
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development producer is Ian Lindsay. Our
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associate producer is Rufaro
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Faith Maser. Rural sound design
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and mixing by Scott Summerville. Theme
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and original music composed by Jesse Pearlstein.
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Additional music came from Epidemic Sound in
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Blue Dot Sessions. Frendall Faulton
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is our fact checker. Our production manager
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is Samantha Allison from my Heart
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Media. Dylan Fagan as our executive producer.
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Special thanks to Adelia Ruben at ne On
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Hume and Carrie Lieberman and Will Pearson
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at iHeartMedia. I'm Todd Matthews.
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You can learn more about name us at NamUs dot
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com. The number for the National
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Center for Missing Exploited Children's Call Center
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is one eight hundred the loss That's
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one eight hundred eight four three five
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six seven eight. The National
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Sexual Assault hot Line from the Rate Abuse
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and Incest National Network is one
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