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is so interesting, it's criminal. I
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intend to be the toughest mayor on crime
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this city has ever seen. It's
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New York in the 1980s and 90s. A
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city overrun by violent crime. A
3:14
tough mayor needs tough cops. And
3:17
no cop is tougher than
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Detective Louis Scarcella. Scourish!
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Jump out. I run over
3:25
him. He goes for a gun. I
3:27
grab him and I knock him to
3:30
the ground. There's no feeling
3:32
like it in the world. You
3:34
know you're doing good for good people. Putting
3:36
bad guys away. Scarcella's
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beat? Brooklyn. It was the
3:41
murder capital of the world. I would leave
3:43
work at night and hear the shots of
3:45
my next homicide. a
4:00
legit job when he was
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arrested for murder. Here comes Detective Lorsch
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Are you crazy? I've never made no confession.
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Derek Hamilton, another Brooklyn man,
4:15
was also arrested for murder. In
4:20
prison, Derek and Shabaka
4:22
make a discovery. I
4:35
think that moment helped change the
4:37
course of New York City legal
4:39
history. I eat, slept, and
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shit law. In the prison
4:43
law library, they founded a law firm.
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Look, man, this is our team right here. We're
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gonna work these cases and we're gonna get out.
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They target one cop, Detective
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Louis Scarcella. Got himself.
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They found an ally in a New
5:00
York Times reporter named
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Francis Frenchy Robles. And
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he says, I know a lot of cases
5:07
in Brooklyn of wrongful convictions. A lot of
5:09
them are the same cop. And
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his name is Louis Scarcella.
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Oh, boom, you know, that's
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when I fell out of my chair. I'm
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Steve Fishman. And I'm Dax
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Devlin-Rose. Welcome to The
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Burt. We're gonna take
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you on a journey into the belly of the
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beast. We're already guilty
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and we're gonna get away with it unless he
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closes the case. They've
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characterized him as this sort
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of diabolical, corrupt cop. Just
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totally not possible. He
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puts his arms around me and
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he says, we both know who this guy
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is. We both know this guilty. They
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are absolutely committed to
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vindicating themselves and they
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continue to do it.
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Dark, dear. day after
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dark day for decades. You
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don't have any partners to this. You're
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illegal. You're holding it in faith.
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I am the protector of these people.
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I am the guardian that they need.
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All the blame here was being put on Scarcella.
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Scarcella is not the criminal justice system. And
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everyone talks, even Detective
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Scarcella, who's ducked the press
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for years. And I
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really, really truly want
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the people to know
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me. I
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don't know if it's ever going to happen. Yes,
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it will. The burden of
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It is also a place where a
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as security. Security needs
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so dangerous. My
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friend Penny Morris, who you
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know more likely as Miss
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a victim of home invasion. The
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burglars must have brought a step
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her refrigerator. Hell, they even
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cleaned out her underwear drawer. Penny
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herself and her special needs
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you so much Season! Real danger.
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Welcome to Human Monsters! This.
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Episode was adapted from
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the memoir Broken, the
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most shocking childhood story
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ever told an inspirational
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author who survived it
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by Shy Keenan. Shy.
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Is the second child is
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Jennifer an only child of
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Frederick Wooten born Karen and
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she was born in Nineteen
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Sixty three. Jennifer in Frederick
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were financially unstable and did
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a lot of couch surfing
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during shies early years. They
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stayed with family, friends, or
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whoever was generous enough to
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let them stay. Eventually, this
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became tiresome for all who
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hosted. Them And they settled in
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an apartment beneath that of shies
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and to. Jennifer
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and Frederick where habitual offenders
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of petty crime mostly theft.
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They would leave shy alone
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at home, even when she
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was an instant while they
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went out stealing and spending
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the proceeds of stealing. Not
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only did they neglect their
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care of baby Karen, but
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they seldom intended to their
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house. duties, and soon
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the house grew foul with
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clutter and filth. It
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attracted pests like cockroaches.
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It acquired an odor that was
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so pungent it brought water to
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the eyes. They
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would leave the radio on when they went
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out. The electricity generator
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was coin-operated, and after a
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few hours of radio play,
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the apartment would be plunged
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into darkness. When
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her parents returned, they were usually
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drunk and or high. It
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was the swinging sixties, and they
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were swinging like a motherfucker. They
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parented at their convenience,
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much to the inconvenience of their
10:47
child. They must
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not have been aware that baby
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Karen had a painful skin condition
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with a tapestry of red bleeding
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sores covering 60% of
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her body. She was
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underweight and frequently distressed
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by her lot in life, without
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even knowing it was amoral. She
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was left to fend for
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herself on a urine-soaked cot,
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with the cockroaches that crawled
11:16
over her body as her
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only companions. The
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diapers went unchanged for
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24 hours at a time. She
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starved for hours once the
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bottles were sucked dry. Jennifer
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and Fred wouldn't allow visitors
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in their apartment, so nobody
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knew how grossly inappropriate it
11:39
was for child rearing. One
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night, their neighboring relative Violet
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heard baby Karen's weeping after
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the radio grew quiet. She
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broke into the apartment and
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discovered, to her horror, the
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appalling conditions in which Karen
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had been living. Violet,
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and other relatives intervened. Karen,
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Jennifer, and Frederick were plucked
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out of the apartment. Karen
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was seen by a doctor for the
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first time since she was born. Her
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skin condition was treated and cured.
12:14
A couple known as
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the wall bridges monitored the situation
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and even took care of Karen
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in their own home from time
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to time. During
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one such visit, Jennifer and
12:28
Frederick planned and executed the
12:30
robbery of a gas station.
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It didn't go as planned and
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Jennifer was nearly charged and convicted.
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She had sex with the arresting
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officer and avoided prosecution due to
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his corruption. He
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got her pregnant and she
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manipulated or, shall we say,
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blackmailed him into giving
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her money. Otherwise, she would
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have reported their encounter. This
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was how Karen's sister Denise
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was born. Jennifer
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decided to deter Frederick out of her
13:03
life. What she
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wanted most now was social
13:07
housing or what is referred
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to in England as council
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housing. She appealed
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to the wall bridges to help
13:16
her with it. She claimed to
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have found Jesus or at least
13:20
she appeared sincere enough for them
13:22
to fall for it. As
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a result, they endorsed her
13:27
application for council housing. The
13:30
application was approved. They
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were living in the best council
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housing tax dollars could afford. Frederick
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was working. Jennifer was stealing.
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The neglect of their children
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continued as before. During
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one of her parents' fights,
13:48
Jennifer told Frederick she didn't
13:50
love him and soon after
13:52
he was kicked out. While
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he was leaving, Frederick accidentally
13:57
set fire to the house.
14:00
When the firemen arrived, one child
14:02
was missing from the house. Karen
14:05
was found in a locked wardrobe.
14:08
She was frightened but
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otherwise unscathed. The
14:13
house was mostly just smoke damaged.
14:16
Now that Fred was gone,
14:18
Jennifer's source of income was
14:20
government benefits and the proceeds
14:23
of crime. All she
14:25
wanted out of life was the house like
14:27
the one she was living in. The
14:29
children were just a burden she
14:32
wanted to offload. Once
14:34
again, she went to the wall bridges with
14:37
her hand out. She told
14:39
them she was poor, abandoned
14:41
by Fred, and overwhelmed by
14:43
the demands of childcare. They
14:46
weren't quite so sympathetic this time around. They
14:49
told her to stick it out and
14:51
find a way to cope. Jennifer
14:53
was enraged by what she
14:55
considered to be betrayal on
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their part and she never
15:00
forgave them. Soon
15:02
she and her children were
15:04
bouncing from apartment to house,
15:06
showing up at meal time
15:08
at the homes of relatives
15:10
and friends. They ate
15:13
others food and she let her
15:15
children run wild in their domiciles.
15:18
She was a professional parasite. A
15:23
pivotal moment in Karen's childhood
15:25
came when Jennifer met Stanley
15:28
Claridge. He had
15:30
been a foster child and
15:32
was considered strange even as
15:34
a child. He was adopted
15:36
by an uncle and aunt at the age
15:38
of 10 because nobody else wanted
15:40
him. It was a
15:43
pity-based adoption. He said
15:45
his siblings hated him, though
15:47
that was true of pretty much everybody
15:49
with whom he came in contact. He
15:53
had no friends and claimed to
15:55
have been sexually abused in his
15:57
home, though he says he enjoyed
15:59
the encounters because he was
16:01
at least receiving attention. He
16:05
said that a male adult
16:07
perpetrated the abuse and that
16:09
sometimes they would abuse other
16:11
children as a duo. He
16:14
never admitted to both things at the same
16:16
time. He said he was shy in the
16:18
company of women and was
16:20
far more comfortable in the presence
16:22
of much younger boys. Others
16:25
interpreted it simply as
16:27
homosexuality, much to his
16:29
relief, though it was
16:31
a misinterpretation since he was really
16:34
a pedophile. Back
16:36
then homosexuality and pedophilia
16:38
were viewed by the
16:40
government as equally perverted
16:42
and immoral. Nevertheless
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Stanley found the status of homosexual
16:48
far more appealing than
16:50
that of pedophile. Stanley's
16:54
adoptive mother was concerned
16:56
about his sexual behavior so
16:58
she had him enlist in the army to
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make a man out of him. He
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worked as a cooks assistant and
17:05
bottle washer during his time in
17:08
the service. The
17:10
patriarchal environment of military culture
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was not enough to purge
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Stanley of his appetite for
17:17
young male flesh and
17:19
he frequently brought home young
17:21
men when he was on
17:23
leave. His adoptive mother
17:25
Nancy forced Stanley into
17:28
a loveless heterosexual marriage.
17:31
He had two children with his wife. He
17:33
and his wife were soon divorced. He
17:36
was a physically abusive alcoholic and
17:39
somehow was awarded full custody
17:41
of his two children after
17:43
the mother abandoned them
17:46
all. One of
17:48
them eventually went to live
17:50
in another country but his
17:53
daughter Roma lived with Stanley.
17:55
In 1965 Stanley was a laborer and
17:58
lived in a three-bedroom Row
18:00
House. Stanley was
18:02
prone to dishonesty and exaggeration,
18:04
especially when it came to
18:07
his financial and social status.
18:10
It was this tendency to
18:12
sell himself as more worthy
18:14
as a mate than he
18:17
was that attracted Jennifer. She
18:20
had no use for anybody she couldn't
18:22
use, and he claimed
18:24
to have much that she could squeeze
18:26
out of him. To their
18:29
surprise, Jennifer and Stanley were already
18:32
part of a network. Jennifer's
18:34
brother Ken was married to
18:37
Pat Claridge, who was Stanley's
18:39
cousin and the daughter
18:41
of their grandparents. Jennifer
18:43
met Stanley at a family gathering,
18:45
and she believed every word he
18:47
told her, every lie
18:49
he told her, didn't question a
18:52
single word. Jennifer
18:54
became determined to get her
18:56
hooks into Stanley by any
18:58
means necessary. She
19:00
was 20 years old, and her children
19:03
were under four. Stanley
19:05
was 37 years old. Jennifer
19:08
heard about Stanley's quirks, but
19:11
she was blinded by the
19:13
pound signs in her eyes.
19:16
She was also focused on the
19:18
cleaning lady and the nanny he
19:20
promised her. The
19:22
nanny would be his daughter Roma.
19:26
Stanley was still unsure of
19:28
himself around women, and Jennifer
19:30
decided she would unleash the
19:32
power of her feminine allure
19:35
to seduce him into taking
19:37
her on as his companion.
19:40
She observed that the less
19:42
interest she showed, the more
19:44
determined he became to engage
19:46
with her. Stanley
19:48
was more excited to meet her little
19:51
girls. Excited is
19:53
actually semantically inadequate
19:56
to describe how thrilled he was.
19:59
He was over the fucking moon. Before
20:02
he met them, he wouldn't stop pestering
20:04
her about meeting them. He wanted
20:07
to know when it would be. He was
20:09
like a child in the backseat of a
20:11
car asking, Are we there yet? A child's
20:15
excitement first thing Christmas
20:17
morning didn't compare. Unlike
20:21
many step-parents who dread the
20:23
potential drama that emerges in
20:25
the home environment of a
20:28
blended family, Stanley couldn't
20:30
wait to do all he could for
20:32
the girls. He wanted
20:34
to cook for them, bathe them,
20:38
put them to bed. He
20:40
hadn't even met them and already he
20:42
wanted to play the role of surrogate
20:44
father. Did I mention
20:47
that he wanted to bathe them? Roma
20:50
was not nearly as pleased as
20:52
her father about her new family
20:54
arrangement. Stanley didn't tolerate
20:57
her objections and would send her
20:59
to her mother's home if she
21:01
voiced her opposition. He also made
21:04
her into the household's unpaid slave.
21:08
Jennifer sure was disappointed by
21:10
Stanley's home. It wasn't much
21:12
better than where she and the girls had
21:14
been living. His job
21:17
wasn't much more impressive either. He
21:20
was a manual laborer, blue
21:22
collar. People dreamed
21:24
of the life he promised her and
21:27
she found out much to her
21:29
dismay that it hadn't escalated beyond
21:31
the dream stage for him either.
21:35
Despite her disappointment, she packed herself
21:38
and the girls up and they moved
21:40
to London where they began to live
21:42
with Stanley. He was
21:44
so keen on caring for the girls
21:46
and Jennifer was freed up to do
21:48
as she pleased once she was
21:51
relieved of those duties. So now
21:53
Karen's fate was sealed.
22:00
Every calls her first encounter with Stanley,
22:02
who she often referred to as,
22:05
shiny head, because he was
22:07
bald. The first time we
22:09
all went to visit shiny head at his
22:11
home stands out clearly
22:13
in my mind. I
22:15
remember we were all in his living room
22:18
when he picked me up and sat me on
22:20
his lap. As I
22:22
was sitting on his lap, his
22:25
hands slipped up my dress
22:28
and I remember a sharp, searing
22:31
pain in my bottom. I
22:35
yelped and squirmed, trying
22:37
to get off his lap, but
22:39
the dark haired lady looked angry
22:42
and told me to be nice to my
22:44
new daddy. I
22:46
knew I didn't want the dark haired lady to
22:48
be angry, so I sat still.
22:52
Shiny head seemed nice and
22:54
friendly, although I didn't like
22:56
how his scratchy face hurt
22:58
mine or how hard
23:00
he held me on his lap and
23:03
how sitting there made my
23:05
bum sore. I
23:07
didn't really know him, but I
23:09
knew enough to do as I was told, so
23:12
that's what I did. Soon
23:15
after these initial impressions, little
23:17
Karen, her mother and sister
23:19
moved into Stanley's house. Aside
23:22
from Stanley and his daughter, another
23:25
man would occupy the house, a
23:27
man she found to be rather malevolent.
23:31
Shy recalled another unsettling situation
23:34
from these early days. Just
23:38
a few weeks after we'd moved in
23:40
with shiny head, when I
23:42
was three or four, I remember being
23:44
in a darkened room and
23:47
lying naked on a table that seemed
23:49
a long way from the ground. A
23:52
harsh, bright light kept flashing in
23:55
my eyes, making them
23:57
sting in water. of
24:00
faces in the room, but I didn't know
24:02
who they belonged to. A strange
24:05
clicking sound always followed the
24:07
flashing light, and
24:10
I remember feeling cold and
24:12
worried. Then I saw
24:14
shiny head and the new dark-haired
24:16
face walking around the table,
24:19
looking down at me. Suddenly,
24:23
flashing white and blue lights
24:25
exploded in my head, followed
24:27
by the most excruciating,
24:30
searing pain coming from my
24:32
lower body. I
24:35
felt winded and couldn't breathe.
24:38
I started to scream as the
24:40
pain shot through me. My
24:43
eyes were shut tight, and
24:45
I sobbed when I could breathe enough
24:47
to do so. I
24:50
opened my eyes to see what
24:52
the faces were doing and saw
24:54
through my tears that shiny
24:56
head was directly above me, moving
25:00
up and down. I
25:02
realized that shiny head down
25:05
meant less pain, so I tried to
25:07
move away from the shiny head up
25:11
movement. It was
25:13
then that I realized that I was
25:15
unable to move my arms. I
25:18
didn't know why or how. I
25:20
just knew I couldn't move them at all. My
25:23
legs, too, were being
25:25
squashed by shiny head, and
25:28
I felt unable to fight or move,
25:31
so I stopped trying. When
25:34
the movement eventually stopped and
25:36
I caught my breath, I
25:38
screamed. Shiny head
25:40
punched me hard across the side of
25:43
my head. He
25:45
did it again and again.
25:47
I saw the
25:49
bright lights in my head every time
25:51
shiny head hit me on it, and
25:54
I started to understand that the flashing
25:56
lights in my head meant that
25:58
pain was never far away. behind. I
26:01
was too shocked to make another sound. I
26:04
was trying to catch my breath when
26:06
the movement very quickly started again,
26:09
only now it was the dark haired
26:12
face. The pain was the
26:14
same. It burned
26:16
its way through my lower body. But
26:19
this time I felt like I needed to poo. I
26:22
couldn't feel my legs anymore and
26:24
was sure that I was pooing.
26:27
I could smell it and I could
26:29
feel it. I tried
26:31
to look down to see but the dark
26:34
haired face kept trying to put his mouth
26:36
over mine which was making it
26:38
even harder to breathe. I
26:41
tried to stay still and quiet
26:44
and waited for it to stop. The
26:46
next thing I knew I was in
26:48
the kitchen in the tin bath. Shiny
26:51
head and the dark haired face
26:53
were standing near to me. They
26:56
looked very tall. My
26:58
bottom felt raw. I
27:00
was cold and my body was
27:03
juddering with shock. Sitting
27:05
naked in the bath with the
27:07
top of my body above the water. I felt
27:10
so vulnerable and all
27:12
I could think was that I didn't want
27:15
to be naked in front of them ever
27:17
again. The bath
27:19
water was tepid and making
27:21
me colder but it felt like
27:23
a cover so I sank
27:25
down into it shivering
27:27
and whimpering. Shiny
27:30
head rubbed what felt like liquid
27:32
fire all over me inside
27:35
and outside of my very sore
27:37
body. I started
27:39
to cry but shiny head just
27:41
said you need to
27:43
make sure you're clean all over. I couldn't
27:47
have known then but this was
27:49
the first of many of shiny head's infamous
27:52
and much feared tin
27:54
baths. When
27:56
it was finally finished and I
27:58
was dressed again I
28:00
went up to my room and curled
28:02
into a tight ball on
28:05
my bed and quietly sobbed
28:07
to myself. For
28:09
ages after, I walked
28:12
around like a zombie, dazed
28:14
and distressed. I
28:17
was suddenly snapped out of it when
28:19
I found my little sister, Denise, naked
28:22
and sobbing uncontrollably in the
28:24
loft. Her blonde
28:26
hair was sticking to her face,
28:29
which was wet with tears. She
28:32
was unable to speak, but
28:35
she didn't need to because I
28:37
knew instinctively that what had happened
28:39
to me had happened to her.
28:42
I don't know what I thought other than that
28:45
I understood, so I hugged her
28:48
and dressed her and sat with
28:50
her till she was calmer. I
28:54
felt angry. I didn't want
28:56
anyone to hurt her, and I
28:58
just wanted to make her feel better. So
29:01
I started pulling faces and pretending
29:03
to fall asleep, leaning
29:05
on my bended elbow, slipping
29:08
off and falling face down
29:10
onto the mattress. She
29:12
suddenly stopped crying and started
29:15
to quietly giggle. The
29:17
more she giggled, the harder I
29:19
tried to make her. It
29:22
made us both feel better. It
29:24
always did. The
29:28
preceding scenario happened frequently
29:30
in Shai's childhood. Not
29:33
only does she remember being
29:35
raped by Stanley and his
29:37
accomplice, but she remembers
29:39
being savagely beaten in the
29:42
nude in the loft. He
29:45
whipped her with his belt on
29:47
the backside and legs. It
29:49
happened all over the house, but he was
29:51
most fond of beating her in the loft.
29:54
If she resisted going to the loft,
29:56
the beatings would only be prolonged,
29:59
and escalate in aggression and
30:02
brutality. He had
30:04
a vindictive streak in him. He
30:07
would tell her that if she resisted
30:09
being beaten about the buttocks, he
30:12
would be forced to attack the rest
30:14
of her body. Either
30:17
way, torture was guaranteed
30:19
in the House of Claridge.
30:25
The House's appearance was dingy
30:27
and aesthetically bereft. Its
30:30
domestic culture was morally
30:32
squalid, sleazy, and
30:35
unsavory. She once
30:37
walked in on Stanley
30:39
as his dark-haired lackey
30:41
performed fellatio on him.
30:43
The dark-haired beast shot her
30:46
the evil eye. If
30:48
he had been a Star Wars
30:50
character, the irises of his eyes
30:52
would have been yellow. Pure,
30:55
concentrated, unminigated
30:58
evil was embodied in
31:00
both men, and there
31:02
they were, exchanging
31:05
bodily fluids as if feeding
31:07
on each other's life forces.
31:13
Unfortunately, the stink-eye didn't represent
31:15
the be-all and end-all of
31:17
abuse the dark-haired one had
31:19
in store for Karen. As
31:23
shy recalls, the
31:25
dark-haired face caught me alone
31:27
and took me to play at the bottom
31:29
of the garden. He
31:32
took me into the shed and closed
31:34
the door. Suddenly, he
31:36
pushed me against the shed wall and
31:39
roughly grabbed my hands above my
31:41
head, lifting me so
31:43
that my feet couldn't feel the floor.
31:47
Then he used his pee-thing to
31:49
make the pain in my bottom and
31:52
stomach start all over
31:54
again. The blue and white
31:56
flashing lights returned. He
31:58
seemed angry at me. for
32:01
seeing him with shiny head
32:03
and started calling me names
32:05
like Dirty Girl and Little
32:07
Tarte. After that,
32:09
he took me to the shed a lot,
32:12
and every time he did, he made
32:14
me feel like I wanted to
32:16
poo. One time I
32:18
pooed on him by accident, and
32:21
he punched me in my bottom till
32:23
I screamed out for Mum. She
32:26
didn't come. She
32:28
was often out, or maybe she
32:30
just couldn't hear me, but he
32:33
stopped when I wouldn't stop screaming
32:35
and let me run into the house. I
32:38
didn't understand what was happening to me. I
32:41
didn't even have a name for
32:43
it besides horrible and
32:45
pain. I just knew
32:47
I wanted it to stop. Jennifer
32:52
was more than happy to upload
32:54
the responsibility for the care of
32:56
her children to Stanley and his
32:58
Sith apprentice. As
33:00
Chi put it, my mother
33:02
had always been an absent parent,
33:05
but when we moved into shiny head's house,
33:08
her appearances became less and
33:10
less frequent. I soon
33:12
realized that it was pointless to call
33:14
out for my mother when the faces
33:16
hurt me. It achieved
33:19
nothing. No matter how hard I
33:21
cried or screamed, she
33:23
never once came. So,
33:29
Stanley and his toady raped and
33:32
beat little Karen. Her
33:34
stepsister, Roma, didn't do any
33:36
of the same, but she
33:38
did verbally abuse her, calling
33:40
her things like smelly and
33:42
stupid. She told Karen
33:44
that nobody loved her, especially
33:47
not her. Karen and
33:49
Roma had never even been formally
33:51
introduced. Roma was an
33:54
animated part of the scenery and,
33:57
from a psychological standpoint, and
33:59
I eyesore. She
34:02
was convinced that Karen and Denise
34:04
were there to steal her father.
34:07
If only they had told her they never
34:09
wanted him in the first place. Speaking
34:13
of Roma, she found other ways
34:15
to make Karen and Denise miserable.
34:18
She was forced to do all the
34:20
cooking, and her culinary
34:22
efforts kept the antacid
34:24
industry in business. She
34:27
was forced to babysit the girls constantly,
34:30
beginning at the age of 10, when
34:32
they moved in. If
34:35
she ever complained, Jennifer would beat
34:37
her viciously and then order a
34:39
hit on her when Stanley got
34:41
home. Roma had
34:43
been her father's little princess,
34:46
until Karen and Denise moved in. Karen
34:49
didn't like being Stanley's favorite because
34:52
that meant being raped, but
34:54
it wasn't something she could address when
34:56
she spoke to Roma. The
35:01
abuse became more frequent
35:03
and incremental in its
35:05
injuriousness. To quote Shai,
35:09
By the time I was five in
35:11
1968, there seemed
35:14
to be more and more faces making
35:16
the pain and the horrible
35:18
happen. There was a new
35:20
dark haired face, hairy face,
35:23
stinky face, angry
35:25
face, red face,
35:27
pain face, big
35:29
head face, and spitty face.
35:33
Some would have the machine that
35:35
made the strange clicking sound when
35:37
the light flashed. I
35:40
was sure I once heard
35:42
Shinyhead call it a paranoid
35:44
camera. They would never
35:46
let me see what the paranoid camera
35:48
did, but I never liked it, because
35:51
it made my eyes sting. Sometimes
35:53
I would see red stuff running between
35:56
my legs, or coming from my nose
35:58
when I touched it. It
36:00
made me scared. I didn't know
36:02
what it was. Eventually, I
36:04
came to understand that the red
36:06
stuff was blood. And
36:09
all I knew about blood was that
36:11
it was meant to stay on the
36:14
inside, or you die. I
36:17
hated what the faces were doing to me. It
36:20
hurt so much. I couldn't
36:22
physically stop them. I tried
36:24
struggling. I tried screaming.
36:27
I tried to run away, but nothing
36:29
I knew of worked. Once
36:31
I'd tried all that, I would
36:33
just close my eyes and cry. But
36:36
even that didn't help. It just
36:38
made some of the faces angrier. Some
36:41
would just smack me silent. Others
36:44
would tell me to stop crying, open
36:47
my eyes, and look at the paranoid
36:49
camera, yelling at me for
36:51
spoiling their pictures. Others
36:54
would want me to look at them, but
36:56
I didn't want to see their faces, or
36:59
what they were doing. So I
37:01
learnt to keep my eyes wide
37:03
open and not cry, but
37:05
blur them out. I
37:08
learnt to stay as still
37:10
as I could and just pray for it
37:12
to be over soon. After
37:14
a while, though, even staying
37:17
still and quiet with my eyes open
37:19
didn't help. I realized it
37:21
just made some of the faces think
37:23
that I liked or wanted what they
37:26
were doing, and then
37:28
it seemed like it went on forever. Saying
37:31
no, complaining, holding my
37:34
breath, fake sleeping or
37:36
unconsciousness also seemed
37:38
to make them think I liked or
37:40
wanted it more. It
37:42
was so confusing. They would constantly be
37:44
telling me that I liked what they
37:47
were doing and that I wanted it
37:50
when I was absolutely sure
37:52
that I didn't. I
37:54
remember sitting in my room thinking, why do
37:57
they keep asking me if I like it?
38:00
And I tell them all the time that I
38:02
don't. I say
38:04
no, but they just say yes, I
38:06
do. They swear it's
38:08
my fault and that I'm
38:10
making them do this to me. Am
38:13
I making them do it? I'd
38:15
curl up into a ball on the floor, under
38:17
the bed, and rack my
38:20
brains. I'd spend hours trying
38:22
to figure out how I made them do
38:24
it so I could just make them
38:26
stop. One morning, I was
38:29
hiding in one of the tiny back
38:31
bedrooms when Shiny Head came in with
38:34
a dark-haired face, sat
38:36
me up in the bed, and took
38:38
off my clothes. Shiny
38:41
Head then grabbed hold of my head
38:43
and put his pee thing in my mouth. He
38:46
pushed it in and out of my mouth
38:49
so hard that I started to gag. He
38:52
stopped after a while and put my
38:54
hand around his pee thing. Next,
38:57
he put his hand around mine, squeezing
39:00
it really hard and jiggling it up
39:02
and down. The dark-haired
39:04
face then grabbed my head and some
39:07
of my hair and started to try
39:09
to put his pee thing in my
39:11
mouth. I started to cry
39:13
and squeezed my lips together
39:15
tight. This made
39:18
him pinch my face until I cried
39:20
out loud. He demanded
39:22
that I open my mouth properly. Shiny
39:25
Head said it would be over quicker if
39:28
I just did as I was told. So
39:31
I opened my mouth and the
39:33
dark-haired face pushed his pee thing into
39:35
it. He pushed it
39:37
so hard and so suddenly that
39:40
I threw up a bit and
39:42
couldn't stop crying no matter how
39:44
much I tried. He
39:46
was hurting me, but he didn't
39:49
stop till he squirted hot liquid
39:51
all over me. It
39:53
tasted horrible and I started
39:55
vomiting in earnest as
39:58
I was bent over choking and
40:00
retching, shiny head was
40:02
grumbling at me for spoiling it,
40:05
but was still jiggling my hand. Then
40:08
he squirted his hot liquid all over
40:10
the back of my head and shoulders
40:12
as I was throwing up. When
40:14
it was over, I grabbed my
40:17
clothes, rushed downstairs to
40:19
the toilet, and carried
40:21
on retching and throwing up nothing
40:24
for ages. My
40:26
mouth felt dirty and I washed it
40:28
out over and over. My
40:31
neck and face were throbbing and
40:34
my jaw was visibly bruised. I
40:37
sank down onto the floor. No
40:39
tears came this time. I
40:42
was too shocked to cry as
40:44
I literally sat there for hours. I
40:48
had a bruise on my face and
40:50
my whip was split, and later, when
40:52
I winced at the salty food Roma
40:54
had just given us, she
40:57
just shrugged and said, not
40:59
to worry, it'll be a pig's
41:01
foot in the morning. Heron
41:05
awaited the morning with dread and
41:07
nausea. The
41:10
abuse was far from over, as Shai tells
41:13
it. Over the
41:15
following months, things went from
41:17
bad to worse. The
41:19
faces came to me more often, making
41:22
me do more and more terrible things.
41:26
Every time they lay on top of me
41:28
and make me do the horrible, it
41:30
made me soar all over again. Afterwards,
41:34
pee and poo would just come
41:36
out of me whenever it wanted
41:38
to. When I was walking,
41:41
getting up or bending,
41:43
and it would make me feel
41:45
bad because I was being dirty, just
41:47
like the faces told me I was.
41:50
Sometimes after the horrible, Blood
41:53
would come out as well as pee
41:55
and poo, which frightened me and made
41:57
me cry even more, but shiny had.
42:00
Would get angry. Insane. Fucking dirty
42:02
tart. It's your own fault for
42:04
moving about too much and not
42:07
helping when I'm in the fucking
42:09
mood. Just. Shut up
42:11
and get on with it. If you
42:14
just kept still and listen to what
42:16
you're being told, than things wouldn't get
42:18
like that would they would have. You
42:20
gotta make a fuss for making everyone
42:23
do it the fucking hard way. You
42:25
bring it on yourself, don't you. One
42:29
time I remember crying and
42:31
resisting because I didn't want
42:33
to put Harry Thesis P
42:35
thing in my mouth. It
42:37
smelt, bad taste in bed
42:39
and heads ruff, bits of
42:41
skins stuck on it. He
42:44
was making me gag and I
42:46
was trying not to do it
42:48
but Shiny had took hold of
42:50
my head and made me do
42:52
it properly. My mouth and neck
42:54
were sore for ages after from
42:56
where he did squeezed me. But
42:58
as Shiny has said, it was
43:01
me making this happen I was
43:03
making the saddened me so much
43:05
that I can't remember a time
43:07
when I wasn't sore in my
43:09
pee and poo places or times
43:11
when my body didn't hurt. Somewhere.
43:15
I was getting really frightened because
43:17
small ruff tags of Skyn we're
43:19
now growing on my hands and
43:22
in my mouth. Once
43:24
when roma caught me inspecting
43:26
the inside of my mouth
43:28
in the mirror, she told
43:30
me their baby pigs seat
43:32
waiting to grow up. I
43:35
completely freaked out and spend weeks trying
43:37
to rub those things off me. Shy.
43:44
Witnessed similar abuse happened to
43:47
the other girls. She caught
43:49
Stanley's dark haired friends raping
43:51
Roma. Stanley appeared
43:53
behind care and as she
43:56
watched in horror. She
43:58
noted that he was more. The
44:00
deleted then horrified by the
44:02
fact that his friend was
44:04
defiling his daughter. Stanley
44:07
then forced Karen to give him
44:09
a hand job. Care
44:11
ran to the bathroom immediately
44:14
afterwards and scrubbed your hands
44:16
and mouth wrong for hours.
44:19
The horror that occurred in
44:22
this household was no east
44:24
rooted in sexual abuse. As
44:27
shy recalled, The tap
44:29
we all used only gave cold
44:32
water at first. Then. It
44:34
got hotter and hotter until
44:36
it was unbearable. So I
44:38
asked Roma for some cooler
44:40
water to rinse out my
44:42
mouth. She. Didn't know why
44:44
I wanted to rinse out my
44:46
mouth. She picked up the kettle
44:48
and poured what she thought was
44:50
cold water into my mouth. I
44:53
screamed in agony as the skin
44:55
peeled off my chin, neck, and
44:57
arm. Roma was mortified
44:59
and screamed and terrified. Horror
45:01
My house of pain brought
45:03
shiny head and Jennifer rushing
45:05
to the kitchen. What the
45:07
fuck is going on He
45:09
roared. I was on
45:11
the floor and shocked pain and Roma
45:14
was screaming the she thought the water
45:16
was cold. The fact was,
45:18
the kettle always sat there with cold
45:21
water in it and we all often
45:23
drank from it. Roma.
45:25
Really didn't do it on purpose, but
45:27
Jennifer beat her as though she had.
45:30
She grabbed Romas hair and pulled
45:32
it out in bleeding clumps. I
45:35
tried to tell mom but I
45:37
couldn't speak. I. Never got
45:39
the feeling that mom or Shiny
45:41
Head state any as is to
45:43
protect me. They seemed more angry
45:45
that we were taking up their
45:47
time. Caring
45:50
was taken to the hospital or
45:52
rare occurrence while she was growing
45:54
up. Well
45:56
cure was healing from the
45:58
cuts and burns. Stanley
46:00
in his accomplices continued to
46:03
rape her throughout the process,
46:05
piling trauma on top of
46:07
trauma. A
46:12
traumatic upbringing can lead to
46:14
internal physical distress, which can
46:16
manifest as things like irritable
46:19
bowel syndrome and chronic bed
46:21
wetting. Karen began
46:23
wetting the bed regularly and she
46:26
was punished by being put in
46:28
a tin bath tub. Whether the
46:30
water was scolding, really hot or
46:33
icy cold summer for Skyn would
46:35
be torn off on the sides.
46:37
Stanley would soap up his hands
46:40
and violate her clean, scrubbing her
46:42
all over including an invasive said
46:44
no and anal digging. He would
46:47
sometimes play it off like he
46:49
was an accident, but eventually he
46:51
would without. His penis and
46:53
maker suck or jerk him
46:56
off, and that was, of
46:58
course, entirely intentional. And
47:01
naturally it didn't help to complain
47:03
because he could and would make
47:05
it worse. Subsequently,
47:08
her sister was dragged into it,
47:11
and this Karen could not abide
47:13
to quote shy. One
47:15
night I was in the tub
47:17
with my sister behind me and
47:19
I was facing the other way.
47:21
Shiny head was washing out my
47:23
poop place with his fingers when
47:25
I heard my sister crying. I
47:27
wriggled away from his fingers and
47:29
turned round to see him trying
47:31
to make her suck his p.
47:35
I was horrified I remember
47:37
thinking, "Please, good offer you're
47:39
hurting her, how can I
47:41
stop him what do I
47:43
do please don't make her?"
47:46
Please. Stop it. She.
47:48
Doesn't want to. I
47:51
stepped towards shiny had moved her
47:53
away and started giggling is piecing
47:55
and putting it in my mouth.
47:58
All by myself. She
48:00
went upstairs. I stayed for
48:02
a long time making everything
48:04
sore. When shiny head was
48:07
finished, he smiled at me. It
48:09
was the first time he had
48:11
ever seen really pleased with me.
48:13
after the horrible he said I
48:15
did good at that. If I
48:17
did it as nice as that
48:19
again, I could have a new
48:22
darling. That. Was as big as
48:24
me. I didn't really
48:26
want to darling. I just wanted
48:28
to see my sister so I
48:30
thanked him and ran upstairs to
48:32
find her. Down
48:37
and in he still could not
48:39
find comfort and empathy in their
48:41
mother. As Shy recounted. We
48:44
always wanted mum. The. Mom
48:47
wasn't around. We never questioned
48:49
why or did more than
48:51
wonder where she was. Even
48:54
when she was home, she didn't speak
48:56
to me anyway. Most of the time
48:58
she would say she didn't hear me
49:01
or couldn't understand me. Mum didn't like
49:03
me to talk to her or touch
49:05
her. When I tried to talk to
49:07
her, she couldn't really hear me. I
49:10
remember trying to climb up on
49:12
to her lap for a hug
49:14
or she'd always push me away.
49:17
Or not the hugging kind she'd
49:19
say. As she moved me away.
49:22
One time when she said this to
49:24
me, I remember thinking. But. She
49:26
hugs everyone else. And she
49:28
can hear them when they talk to her. I
49:31
decided to see if talking really
49:33
wowed to her would work any
49:36
better. She suddenly got very angry
49:38
with me and hit me on
49:40
the side of the head with
49:42
their shoe until blood started to
49:44
trickled from my ear, down my
49:46
neck. When she saw I was
49:48
bleeding she got scared and told
49:50
me in an urgent voice. You.
49:54
Must have been your ear when you
49:56
fell down just then. I
49:58
looked up at her. Not. understanding.
50:02
She said even more frantically. It
50:04
was an accident, wasn't it? I
50:07
knew that wasn't true, but I
50:09
didn't want to make her angrier,
50:11
so I agreed. And she
50:14
calmed down. Care
50:18
was taken to a doctor for
50:20
a second time. He had many
50:22
questions for Jennifer. He
50:25
wanted to know why Karen rocked
50:27
back and forth compulsively. He
50:30
wanted to know why she spoke in
50:32
a monotone voice. He
50:34
wanted to know why she wasn't in
50:36
school. He want
50:38
to know why she had never
50:40
been to school. He
50:43
wanted to know why she had
50:45
a bruise on her ear. Normal
50:51
see was integrated into the
50:53
lives of the three girls.
50:56
They were eating more. They
50:58
acquired more clothing. They weren't
51:00
beaten as much since the
51:02
telltale signs like bruises and
51:05
scars would likely attract the
51:07
attention of social workers and
51:09
other mandated reporters. School
51:12
was a much needed a haven
51:14
for Karen. She wasn't beaten and
51:17
raped by the adults at school.
51:19
Despite all that, she was frequently
51:21
sent home because she was always
51:23
waiting herself. Late
51:28
in the Claridge house was chaotic.
51:30
There was no set routine except
51:32
when the girls went to school.
51:34
The only thing that Karen could
51:36
count on was was she referred
51:39
to as the horrible. If
51:41
one of them targeted her sister, she
51:43
would move Denise out of the way
51:45
and take the hit for her. She
51:48
couldn't bear to hear her cry. Stanley
51:54
had relatives that took a liking
51:56
to care and and her sister.
51:58
they treated her. Well, and
52:00
she enjoyed having them over.
52:03
Aside from Roma, Karen and
52:05
Denise were the closest they
52:07
had grandchildren. Her stepparent donor
52:09
even proposed the idea of
52:11
carrying spending a weekend with
52:13
them at their house. Stanley
52:16
didn't like this idea. It's
52:18
pure speculation, but perhaps he
52:20
was nervous. Karen with reports
52:22
all the abuse and neglect
52:24
she suffered under his roof.
52:28
The night donor and her husband
52:30
ten offered to take care and
52:32
for the weekend Stanley came into
52:34
Karen's room to be serviced. Karen
52:37
made a pitch for his consent
52:39
to enter go to Donna and
52:42
Tens place to quote shy. That
52:45
night when I was in my
52:47
bed and Stanley came in for
52:49
his jiggle, I was still fantasizing
52:51
about how wonderful it would be
52:54
to spend a whole weekend was
52:56
And pat Uncle Ten and Donor
52:58
Stanley lifted the sheets and I
53:00
felt the match for his seat
53:03
down. I didn't
53:05
want to jiggle and
53:07
kept resisting. Eventually, Stanley
53:09
whispered gruffly. What's.
53:12
Up with you. I crossed
53:14
my fingers for good luck and asked
53:16
him can I go and stay with
53:18
and pat. Stanley. Said
53:20
what do you want to go there
53:22
for? Because I love
53:24
them. I could see
53:27
in the half light of the bedroom
53:29
the stanley looked a bit worried. Then
53:32
he explained. We. Don't Love
53:34
You. I. Love you. And
53:36
I love you the way you want me to.
53:39
I didn't understand what he meant so
53:42
I asked him. Remember
53:44
that time when you sucked me
53:46
in the tin Bass all by
53:48
yourself? I nodded, hoping he
53:50
could see me in the dim light.
53:53
He said, well, I never asked
53:55
you to do that did I.
53:58
you wanted to do it So
54:00
you chose the way all by yourself." Then
54:04
his voice got very low and
54:06
serious as he added, "'What
54:09
you do to me is between you and
54:11
me. What you do
54:13
with the others is not of my business,
54:15
is it? I won't tell if
54:17
you won't. I'm only doing what you
54:19
like. And if you tell other
54:21
people, they won't understand you like
54:23
I do. They will
54:26
call you a dirty girl and lock
54:28
you away. Do you want
54:30
that? Do you want them
54:32
to call you a dirty girl? Do
54:34
you want them to take you away for
54:36
being dirty?' The
54:39
thought terrified me. I
54:41
had visions of prison cells and
54:43
being far away from my sister.
54:46
I shook my head firmly and said, no."
54:50
Then his voice got a bit nicer as he
54:52
said, "'What we do is
54:54
our secret. I'll help
54:56
make sure that no one ever finds
54:59
out what you're really like. And
55:01
make sure no one takes you away
55:03
for it. I'm your dad. I'll
55:06
protect you. And I'll
55:08
think about Pat and Ken.'" One
55:13
day Karen decided to tell her mother
55:15
about what Stanley was doing to her
55:18
in hopes that she would intervene on her
55:20
behalf. As shy tells it,
55:23
I stood by her bed and even
55:25
though I was really scared, I blurted
55:28
out, I have a secret. This
55:31
made her turn towards me. She
55:34
said slowly, What do
55:36
you mean? I took
55:38
a deep breath and repeated, Mom,
55:42
I have a secret. She
55:44
looked at me funnily with
55:46
her head sort of on one
55:48
side and her eyes went
55:50
a bit narrow. Then
55:52
she said, What secret?
55:56
I said, I wasn't allowed to say. She
55:59
said, I had... To tell her. I
56:03
suck. Dad's piecing nj go
56:05
it. Her
56:08
face changed. She looked straight
56:10
at me and said in
56:12
a quiet low voice I
56:14
had never heard before. Say
56:17
that again. I
56:20
started to cry because I was saying
56:22
the words out loud, but she just
56:24
couldn't seem to here with me. She.
56:28
Looked angrier than I had ever seen
56:30
her before. She pushed back
56:32
the bed covers and sat on the edge
56:35
of the bed. I
56:37
was getting very frightened. So
56:39
I closed my eyes and waited
56:41
for the bright lights in pain
56:43
to start. With my
56:45
eyes closed I stood in
56:47
weighted by nothing happened. No
56:50
lights. No pain,
56:53
just silence. Then
56:55
I sold her Shake Me and she
56:58
said. Loudly Now.
57:01
Say it again. I
57:04
opened my eyes and said. He
57:06
makes me giggle and suck his piecing.
57:10
What does jiggle mean? I
57:13
didn't have the words so I moved my
57:15
hand to show her. As
57:17
she just went mad. She
57:20
flew off the bed, grabbed
57:22
me and we were downstairs
57:24
and the moment she screamed
57:26
for Roma who ran the
57:28
in from outside. Mom
57:30
told her to stay there with me
57:32
in the back living room. Then
57:35
ran out of the house roma
57:37
started saying what have you done
57:40
What has he said? Why is
57:42
your mother angry at me. I
57:45
began to cry. Shut up Said
57:47
roma. Just tell me what you
57:49
told her. for
57:52
some reason and without ever
57:54
understanding why i stopped crying
57:56
and started laughing roma hit
57:58
the roof All I could think
58:00
was, how can I shut up and
58:02
tell you something at the same time? Roma
58:05
looked scared, though, so
58:07
I stopped laughing and tried to listen to what
58:10
she was saying. But she
58:12
was shouting so fast that I couldn't make
58:14
out the words. Eventually
58:17
Mum came roaring back into the house. Mum
58:20
made us all stand in a row in
58:22
front of the living room, fire. We
58:25
were facing her and she paced up and down
58:27
in front of us. What's
58:30
been going on? Mum said, looking
58:32
at each of us in turn. We
58:35
were trying not to cry, but we were
58:37
getting more scared. We
58:40
looked at each other and we knew what
58:42
she meant, but we didn't
58:44
know all the words and we were
58:46
just too scared to say anything anyway.
58:49
Denise sat down on the floor,
58:52
sobbing, and I knelt down
58:54
to help her. Suddenly
58:56
Stanley stormed into the room. Denise
59:00
went quiet and I stood
59:02
up to get ready for the pain and bright
59:04
lights. He was
59:06
wild-eyed and his face was all
59:08
white and angry looking. Why
59:11
the hell have I been called home
59:14
from work in the middle of the
59:16
fucking day? He snarled. Nobody
59:19
answered. Denise stood
59:21
up again. We
59:23
didn't know where to look. Everyone
59:25
seemed so cross. When
59:29
Mum said to Stanley, our
59:31
Karen says, you've been making
59:34
them jiggle and suck
59:36
your pee thing. Then
59:39
she made a motion with her hand. Stanley
59:42
roared. What the fuck is
59:44
going on here? What's fucking
59:47
being said? I'm hardly ever
59:49
here, so how can I do anything?
59:52
She's a lying dirty bitch. How
59:54
can I do anything like that if I'm
59:57
hardly ever here? I
59:59
thought. I'm not talking about when
1:00:01
you're not here. I'm talking about
1:00:03
when you are." He
1:00:05
kept going on and they screamed at one
1:00:07
another for ages. As
1:00:10
we stood there, looking at the
1:00:12
ground and sneaking glances at each
1:00:14
other, Mums screamed, Why
1:00:17
would she say such a thing? Stanley
1:00:20
said, I don't fucking know.
1:00:22
She's your lying mongrel, not
1:00:24
mine. I felt
1:00:26
Denise standing next to me shaking
1:00:28
and we had both already wet
1:00:31
ourselves. Stanley
1:00:33
glared at them, then suddenly shouted,
1:00:36
fucking asked them then. Mum
1:00:38
turned to us and said, Well, is it
1:00:41
true? Is he
1:00:43
making you do those things? I
1:00:47
looked at Roma and Denise and
1:00:49
waited for someone to tell Mum all about
1:00:52
the horrible. I thought
1:00:54
that everything would change and
1:00:56
Mum would make him stop, but
1:00:59
they wouldn't meet my eye. They
1:01:02
were frightened and visibly shaking from head
1:01:04
to toe. Mum repeated
1:01:06
much more loudly now, Tell
1:01:09
me now, is he making
1:01:11
you do what Karen said? They
1:01:14
looked at each other and cried, No. So
1:01:19
nothing is happening. Mum asked,
1:01:21
her voice becoming shrill. Faces
1:01:25
turned toward the floor. They
1:01:27
stammered that they didn't know what I was
1:01:29
talking about. I felt
1:01:31
like a vice was gripping my chest. I
1:01:34
was so shocked that I couldn't make a
1:01:36
sound. Nobody
1:01:38
had hit me, but it felt like a
1:01:41
big hard kick in my chest. How
1:01:44
could they say that nothing was happening? Nobody
1:01:47
was pacing around now, triumphantly
1:01:50
screaming. See, I
1:01:52
told you so. It's her,
1:01:54
the dirty lime bitch. Someone's
1:01:57
been teaching her bad habits. It's
1:02:00
not fucking me. I
1:02:02
try and stop her if she starts on
1:02:04
me. I've got you. Why
1:02:07
would I want to do anything like that for? I
1:02:10
couldn't believe this was happening. I
1:02:12
felt like I was going to be sick. I
1:02:15
knew Roma didn't know what was happening
1:02:17
to us, as she was never there,
1:02:19
and I had never seen shiny head
1:02:21
do the horrible to her. So
1:02:24
I kind of understood why she had said no.
1:02:28
But even so, knowing everything
1:02:30
we knew, I was devastated
1:02:32
that Denise had not backed me up.
1:02:35
Then, suddenly, the bright lights
1:02:37
came, as Mum kicked me
1:02:39
across the living room. She
1:02:41
screamed at Stanley to take the others
1:02:44
upstairs. They all ran out of the
1:02:46
room. Mum rounded
1:02:48
in on me, her arms
1:02:50
and feet flailing. You're
1:02:52
fucking me up. You're nothing but
1:02:54
a dirty lying bitch. How
1:02:56
dare you try to still stand away
1:02:59
from me, you dirty bitch. You
1:03:01
needed to be taught a lesson. She
1:03:04
stripped my clothes off me and dragged
1:03:06
me sobbing across the living room floor
1:03:09
and into the kitchen. Tears
1:03:11
streamed down my face as she
1:03:14
yanked me by the arm across
1:03:16
the carpet, burning my legs. I'm
1:03:20
not lying, Mum. I'm not lying, I
1:03:22
screamed. Mum spin
1:03:24
around and shouted, I'm
1:03:26
going to wash that filthy mouth of yours
1:03:28
out. She grabbed me by
1:03:30
the neck, pried my lips apart,
1:03:32
and poured the stuff that Roma
1:03:35
used to wash the toilet down
1:03:37
my throat. It
1:03:39
stung and burnt my lips. My
1:03:42
tongue felt swollen and too large
1:03:44
for my mouth. I
1:03:47
screamed and pleaded with her to
1:03:49
stop. She said I
1:03:52
was a dirty girl and I needed to
1:03:54
be cleaned. Then she
1:03:56
washed my mouth out and my pee
1:03:58
in poo places. When
1:04:00
she'd finished, I lay lifeless on
1:04:03
the kitchen floor. Everything
1:04:05
felt burnt and red raw.
1:04:09
Mom was still screaming at me, If you ever
1:04:11
speak a word to me again, it will
1:04:13
be your fucking last. Then
1:04:16
she grabbed my hair and thrust her
1:04:18
face into mine. You
1:04:20
must never ever talk about
1:04:22
any of this to anyone ever again.
1:04:24
Do you hear me? Still
1:04:27
lying on the floor, I whimpered.
1:04:29
Okay, please stop now. I won't
1:04:31
tell. You're
1:04:33
still talking. I told you not to talk,
1:04:36
she screamed. Whack! She
1:04:39
hit me hard across the cheek. Stop,
1:04:41
please, Mom, stop, I cried out
1:04:43
in pain. Clutching
1:04:45
my swollen face. Whack! I
1:04:48
yelped, unable to stop myself
1:04:50
from crying out. Mom
1:04:53
hit me until I fell asleep. I'm
1:04:55
not sure how long I was asleep. It
1:04:58
could have been hours or days. But
1:05:01
when I woke up, everything had
1:05:03
changed again. Roma
1:05:05
and Denise had gone to stay with
1:05:07
relatives. Mom was nowhere to
1:05:10
be seen and I was all alone
1:05:12
with Stanley. That night,
1:05:14
when I went to bed, I heard
1:05:16
the door creak open. A
1:05:18
shaft of light fell across the floor.
1:05:22
Stanley whispered, are
1:05:24
you awake? I
1:05:26
didn't answer. It didn't
1:05:29
matter if I was or not. Hi
1:05:33
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1:05:35
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1:05:37
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1:05:39
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1:05:42
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1:05:44
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1:05:46
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1:05:48
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1:05:50
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1:05:52
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1:05:57
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1:05:59
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1:07:00
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1:07:03
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1:07:05
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1:07:07
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1:07:15
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1:07:17
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1:07:28
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listening. Karen
1:07:56
was left to heal in silence and
1:07:58
isolation. She didn't go to to school.
1:08:01
Nobody helped mend her injuries. She
1:08:03
was no longer allowed to speak to her sister.
1:08:07
Stanley now had carte blanche to do
1:08:09
whatever he wanted to Karen, and
1:08:12
nobody would do anything about it. The
1:08:14
only silver linings were that she didn't
1:08:16
see Stanley's friends for a time, and
1:08:19
she didn't have to eat Roma's food. Her
1:08:23
mother wouldn't speak to her. She
1:08:25
would only communicate with Karen through
1:08:27
an intermediary. Her mother
1:08:29
was seldom at home anyway. She
1:08:32
was usually out stealing, shopping,
1:08:34
playing bingo, and making the rounds
1:08:37
with local men as the town
1:08:39
pump. The only time she
1:08:41
took her daughters out with her was
1:08:43
when she would enlist them as accomplices
1:08:45
in shoplifting. She would
1:08:48
hide stolen items in their clothing. Her
1:08:51
mother would put her in a baby
1:08:53
carriage at the age of five because
1:08:55
she could steal more merchandise that way.
1:09:01
One day Karen's father showed up in the
1:09:03
neighborhood. They had a loving
1:09:05
reunion. He asked her where she
1:09:07
was living with her mother. When
1:09:09
he went to Stanley's house, Jennifer beat
1:09:11
him until he was bleeding. She bragged
1:09:14
about it to Stanley afterwards. He
1:09:17
said that he would kill Frederick if
1:09:19
he ever darkened his door again. On
1:09:25
another occasion when Karen and Frederick
1:09:27
reunited, he explained why he
1:09:29
gave her the nickname, Shy. He
1:09:31
said it was because in every photograph
1:09:33
she posed for, she tilted
1:09:36
her head off to the side bashfully.
1:09:39
She had to sneak around to visit
1:09:41
with her father because she was afraid
1:09:43
that Stanley would literally kill him. Frederick
1:09:46
was still in love with Jennifer and
1:09:48
missed her to the point that he
1:09:50
would break down in tears. Once
1:09:53
when Stanley caught Frederick with Karen in
1:09:55
his car, Stanley beat him up
1:09:57
and sent Karen back to the house. Here
1:10:00
in wasn't beaten that night. Stanley came
1:10:02
in only to get a hand job.
1:10:09
Karen. Learn some hard lessons about
1:10:11
the deviant moral code of the
1:10:13
House of Claridge. I
1:10:15
had learned that when we shopped
1:10:17
with Mom it was called shopping,
1:10:20
but if we shopped on our
1:10:22
own, that was called stealing. Smack.
1:10:26
I learnt that when I got beaten
1:10:28
there was called a punishment but if
1:10:30
I hit back there was cold and
1:10:33
naughty. Smack. Smack.
1:10:36
I learned that when Mom and
1:10:38
Stanley told lies, stat was called
1:10:40
the truth. But if I told
1:10:42
a lie, that was bad. Smacked
1:10:45
smack smack. On
1:10:47
the say he said I could
1:10:49
lie in which case it wasn't
1:10:51
alive. it was a secret. Which.
1:10:54
If you tell you will
1:10:56
get smacked. Learning by smack
1:10:58
was hard and confusing but
1:11:00
it was the least of
1:11:03
our worries. Karen
1:11:07
hoped an anticipated their Frederick would
1:11:09
show up and liberate her and
1:11:12
Denise from the horrors of life.
1:11:14
And Stanley says the line at
1:11:16
the end of that long dark
1:11:19
tunnel closed like an iris. As
1:11:21
she explained. One.
1:11:23
Memory of this time stands out above all
1:11:26
the others. Indeed, it will stay with me
1:11:28
for the rest of my life. Stanley.
1:11:31
I kept me home from school
1:11:33
yet again. He was in the
1:11:35
sitting room with me, pestering me
1:11:37
to do the horrible. I've
1:11:39
got tummy ache I lied clutching
1:11:42
my stomach. Stop fucking
1:11:44
me about when I'm in the
1:11:46
mood. It's your tummy ache, not
1:11:48
mine. Anyway, I won't be long.
1:11:51
I shouted know and managed to
1:11:53
squirm free of his hands as
1:11:55
they pour that me. Stanley's
1:11:58
patients snapped. And I
1:12:00
saw sudden flash of real anger.
1:12:03
He grabbed me roughly in pinned
1:12:05
my arms down to the sofa,
1:12:08
His face looming above me. I
1:12:10
could smells breath. He. Was
1:12:12
bitter and rancid. When.
1:12:14
He spoke, I could see the
1:12:16
yellow stains on his teeth. He
1:12:18
said I'm your father and you
1:12:20
will do what I tell you
1:12:22
to. Before a good stop myself
1:12:24
I blurted out you're not my
1:12:26
father, My father is taking us
1:12:28
away from here. I told him
1:12:31
you know. Stanley.
1:12:33
Laughed and said he didn't give a
1:12:35
shit about all that and hurled me
1:12:37
off the sofa and across the room.
1:12:40
I didn't cry even though it
1:12:43
hurt. I stayed where I'd fallen,
1:12:45
knowing better than to try and
1:12:47
move. I watched as Stanley team
1:12:50
towards me. He knelt down and
1:12:52
snarled into my face, your father.
1:12:55
Your fucking father, Your father
1:12:57
and taken any one anywhere.
1:12:59
Your father's dead. I
1:13:02
froze. Fear coursing through my
1:13:04
body. I knew what did
1:13:06
meant I knew you were buried
1:13:08
in the ground and everyone who
1:13:11
loved you are miss You
1:13:13
couldn't see or talk to
1:13:15
you anymore. I was petrified.
1:13:17
I screamed know is not your
1:13:19
life You're lying. Still,
1:13:22
Laughed again. I'm telling you
1:13:24
you stupid cow, he's dead.
1:13:27
Than I did something I'd
1:13:30
never done before. I launched
1:13:32
myself at Stanley, started punching
1:13:34
his face and was screaming
1:13:36
no, no, no, Stanley
1:13:38
seemed startled at first but then
1:13:40
smacked me back and told me
1:13:43
to calm down, but I just
1:13:45
couldn't He finally slapped me hard
1:13:47
enough to stop me hitting him.
1:13:49
Stanley said look care and he
1:13:52
never fucking loved you Anyway, he
1:13:54
was nothing but trouble. He's dead
1:13:56
now by use. Still got me
1:13:58
and your mom. So
1:14:00
just calm yourself down. Fear
1:14:03
has given me courage. I looked
1:14:05
Stanley in the eye and said
1:14:07
in a cold low voice that
1:14:10
didn't sound like mine. You
1:14:12
killed him as the train station. He
1:14:15
said. Know. I fucked and
1:14:18
never. He died in a car
1:14:20
accident. He killed his fucking self.
1:14:23
I didn't know what to since I
1:14:26
just wanted Stanley to stop saying my
1:14:28
father was dead. As said,
1:14:31
I. Want and pat. I
1:14:33
knew that she'd tell me the
1:14:36
truth her and can have gone
1:14:38
abroad with the army so you
1:14:40
can forget about all that nonsense.
1:14:42
Or broad. I
1:14:45
repeated dumb moines. I
1:14:47
felt overwhelmed. I'd lost
1:14:49
everyone who could help me and
1:14:51
there was no one else to
1:14:53
turn to. Now I just sat
1:14:55
there and whimpered over and over.
1:14:57
My father's Not Dead. Tears
1:15:00
were streaming down my cheeks, but
1:15:03
I wasn't making a crying sound.
1:15:05
Stanley shrugged and said. I've
1:15:08
told you before. He's no
1:15:10
fucking good and you're better off
1:15:12
without him. And you're not to
1:15:14
talk to your mom about him
1:15:17
ever. Unless you want
1:15:19
the belt. Got it? I
1:15:21
just nodded. I. Had nothing more
1:15:23
to say about anything or anyone. Said.
1:15:26
No more words and no more
1:15:28
sounds to make. I just
1:15:30
wanted the world to stop. Mum
1:15:33
suddenly came into the room. I
1:15:35
looked street at her. But
1:15:38
she wouldn't look at me. She never
1:15:40
did. Then they started
1:15:42
arguing. She didn't seem upset that
1:15:45
my father was dead, just angry
1:15:47
at me for knowing about it.
1:15:49
I stayed sitting on the floor
1:15:52
in silence. Mom asked stanley, have
1:15:54
you told her he died in
1:15:56
a car accident in London. He
1:15:59
said. had, Mom glanced in
1:16:01
my direction. Why is she
1:16:04
just sitting there rocking? She
1:16:06
hit me when I told her about it, so
1:16:08
I had to calm her down with a little
1:16:10
smack. Mom replied,
1:16:13
well, remember to mind her
1:16:15
head. She paused,
1:16:17
then she said, it's
1:16:19
not normal this rocking. She's doing my
1:16:21
head in. Tell her
1:16:23
to stop it or go to her room. Stanley
1:16:27
said, yeah, she should
1:16:29
be crying, but you know what she's
1:16:31
like. Just ignore her. I
1:16:34
could barely hear them anymore. I
1:16:36
was locked in my own thoughts. Despair
1:16:38
rushed in on me as I realized
1:16:41
I was completely and utterly
1:16:44
alone. My father had
1:16:46
gone, Aunt Pat and
1:16:48
Uncle Ken had gone, and
1:16:50
my sister was drifting further and further away
1:16:53
from me. I had never
1:16:55
felt a loneliness quite so profound as
1:16:57
this. After a while,
1:16:59
I went upstairs to my room
1:17:01
and sat on my bed, rocking
1:17:04
silently and replaying
1:17:06
everything that had just gone on.
1:17:09
I kept turning over in my head
1:17:11
the words that he had said, that
1:17:13
I should be crying. I realized
1:17:16
then that he wanted me
1:17:18
to cry. It was
1:17:20
almost as if he liked
1:17:22
seeing me upset. This realization
1:17:24
stirred something new in me.
1:17:27
For the first time, I felt
1:17:29
defiance rise inside me,
1:17:32
an anger that I'd never experienced.
1:17:35
And in that moment, I
1:17:37
made myself a promise. I
1:17:40
would never cry for Stanley ever again.
1:17:48
1969, just months before the Manson Family murdered
1:17:50
all those people in cold blood, Jennifer
1:17:53
and Stanley announced to the kids
1:17:55
that they were getting married, and
1:17:58
Stanley would adopt the girl. rather
1:18:02
ominously, Stanley declared to
1:18:04
Karen, the day of the wedding,
1:18:07
I'm your real daddy now. He
1:18:10
followed up by raping her. Jennifer
1:18:16
favored Denise, dolling her up and
1:18:19
parading her around as if she
1:18:21
had won a child beauty pageant.
1:18:24
If Denise was caught playing with Karen, she
1:18:27
would be admonished for it. Karen
1:18:29
was ignored and abused by
1:18:32
Jennifer. Karen
1:18:37
experienced poor eyesight for years due
1:18:39
to all the blows that rained
1:18:42
down on her head by Jennifer
1:18:44
and Stanley. She also experienced some
1:18:46
hearing loss. The
1:18:49
eyesight cleared up eventually. Other
1:18:51
children at school thought she was stuck up
1:18:54
because she didn't address what they were saying
1:18:56
to her. After a while,
1:18:58
she was marginalized. Karen
1:19:04
believed what Stanley told her about how
1:19:06
she was dirty. She
1:19:08
was afraid that if she told
1:19:10
outsiders about the abuse, they too
1:19:13
would believe she was a dirty
1:19:15
person. So she kept it
1:19:17
to herself. Karen recalled
1:19:19
how her home was no haven.
1:19:23
Home was a dark, painful,
1:19:25
lonely place. I
1:19:27
was missing my father and wanted to
1:19:29
see him, to say sorry for killing
1:19:31
him, but I wasn't allowed
1:19:33
to talk about him. That was okay
1:19:36
though, because I was getting really
1:19:38
good at not talking about all kinds of
1:19:40
things. She
1:19:43
especially didn't allow herself to
1:19:45
cry. She didn't want
1:19:47
to give Stanley the satisfaction. Even
1:19:51
at the age of six, she could tell he
1:19:53
was a sadist. Karen
1:19:56
Kept her promise to herself to never
1:19:58
cry whenever she could. The family and put
1:20:01
it is tortures upon her. In
1:20:03
fact, she retreated into a
1:20:06
shell almost entirely. She became
1:20:08
belligerent and recalcitrant towards him.
1:20:11
He went ballistic beating her
1:20:13
black and blue and screaming
1:20:16
at her to call him
1:20:18
father or it's colloquial equivalent.
1:20:22
She called him shiny had
1:20:24
once accidentally it was a
1:20:26
slip but free of regret.
1:20:32
At one point Jennifer was called
1:20:34
the Care and School to be
1:20:37
asked about why care and was
1:20:39
so frequently absent. She
1:20:41
certainly wasn't going to tell school
1:20:43
officials that Karen was being kept
1:20:45
home from school so her stepfather
1:20:48
could beat and rape her. And
1:20:50
investigation must have been in the
1:20:52
works for Jennifer announced to Karen's
1:20:54
that they were going to move.
1:20:58
They moved to Mercy Side and
1:21:00
their new address was close to
1:21:03
that of Karen's and Pat development
1:21:05
tear. It was very excited about.
1:21:08
She was eight years old. The
1:21:14
abuse happened at the same
1:21:16
frequency, though there weren't as
1:21:18
many offenders at this point.
1:21:20
It was primarily Stanley and
1:21:22
occasionally a man named Ridge.
1:21:25
Jennifer still took care with her
1:21:27
when she shoplifted. Karen had become
1:21:30
a highly skilled cease and it
1:21:32
was the only way she could
1:21:35
win her mother's approval. Her mother
1:21:37
didn't express the approval in a
1:21:39
verbal or tactile way, she merely
1:21:42
just kept taking her along. Kind
1:21:44
of like how your boss express
1:21:47
his appreciation for your work by
1:21:49
not firing you. jennifer
1:21:54
moved the girls to another apartment
1:21:57
one that was in poor condition
1:21:59
of cold water flat with
1:22:01
an outhouse for a restroom.
1:22:04
It smelled foul and
1:22:06
its appearance was just as off-putting.
1:22:11
Karen began to weaponize silence
1:22:13
because she knew the adults
1:22:16
hated it, especially Stanley. To
1:22:19
quote Karen, silence
1:22:21
had become a defense mechanism.
1:22:24
Stanley could beat me black and blue
1:22:26
and he could do any horrible thing to me and
1:22:29
I could just lay or stay there, still
1:22:32
and quiet, till he was done. Sometimes
1:22:35
he used to hit me extra just to
1:22:37
see if he could make me cry. And
1:22:39
sometimes I nearly did. It
1:22:42
drove him up the wall when he couldn't get
1:22:44
me to but crying was the
1:22:46
one thing I could control, that
1:22:48
he could not. So, no
1:22:51
matter what he did, I would
1:22:53
save the tears for later when I was
1:22:55
on my own. Stanley
1:23:00
figured out that one way to
1:23:03
manipulate Karen was to threaten to
1:23:05
abuse Denise, as Shai
1:23:07
recounted. I was the
1:23:09
main focus of Stanley's horrible attention at this
1:23:11
point in time. He would ask
1:23:13
me to come over to him and I'd
1:23:16
have to do as he said. If
1:23:18
I refused, he would look
1:23:20
at me with his cold blue eyes
1:23:22
and say, where's our
1:23:24
Denise then, Karen? Even
1:23:27
writing those words sends a shiver through
1:23:29
me. He knew exactly how
1:23:31
to get me to do what he wanted. Looking
1:23:34
after my little sister was more
1:23:36
important to me than anything. And
1:23:38
he knew this about me and took full
1:23:41
advantage of it. I was
1:23:43
aware he was manipulating me at these times
1:23:46
but I felt powerless. So I
1:23:48
would just take a big breath and go to
1:23:50
him every time. We
1:23:52
knew without ever saying the words out
1:23:54
loud to each other that
1:23:57
we hated the horrible. We
1:23:59
didn't like it. it and we wished it wasn't
1:24:01
happening, but we had no idea how to
1:24:03
make it stop. Still,
1:24:07
he found other ways to strong arm
1:24:09
her into submitting to his abuse. As
1:24:12
Shy noted, as
1:24:14
I grew older, Stanley's twisted
1:24:16
mind managed to find even more
1:24:18
inventive ways to get me to
1:24:20
do the horrible. I
1:24:22
had to do it to get anything I wanted
1:24:25
or needed in life. To
1:24:27
eat, go to school, get
1:24:30
dressed, breathe in and
1:24:32
out. Everything any
1:24:34
normal child took for granted was
1:24:36
used against me as a means
1:24:38
to manipulate me into doing the
1:24:40
horrible. He used
1:24:42
it like a currency. Do
1:24:44
the horrible and you can play with your
1:24:46
sister. Do the horrible and you
1:24:49
can sleep. What was more,
1:24:51
the punishment for not doing it.
1:26:03
They moved yet again when
1:26:05
a new house became available on the other
1:26:07
side of town. It was
1:26:09
a council house with three bedrooms.
1:26:12
It was a family house and
1:26:15
they could only move in with three
1:26:17
children so Roma was pulled out of
1:26:19
boarding school. Karen
1:26:22
was dreading this. She didn't
1:26:24
want to move so far away from
1:26:26
Pat, Ken and Dona. Their
1:26:28
home had been her only solace. Now
1:26:32
there would be no place where
1:26:34
she could find relief from a
1:26:36
daily life that offered little more
1:26:38
than torture and neglect. It
1:26:45
occurred to Karen that her mother
1:26:47
didn't know about the sexual abuse. Stanley
1:26:50
never referred to it in Jennifer's
1:26:52
presence and he never initiated
1:26:54
it when she was home. Once
1:26:57
she was out of the house, he would
1:26:59
say something to the effect of, I'm
1:27:02
in the mood. He
1:27:05
did do it while she was home
1:27:07
but it generated so little noise that
1:27:09
it never attracted her attention. Considering
1:27:13
this, Karen came up with
1:27:15
the idea of making noise during the
1:27:17
act. This she
1:27:19
did but instead of alerting her mother to
1:27:21
what was going on, all
1:27:23
it accomplished was that
1:27:26
it misled Stanley into believing
1:27:28
that Karen was aroused by
1:27:30
the activity. This
1:27:32
excited him and subsequent
1:27:34
to that incident, he expected
1:27:36
more of that kind of
1:27:38
reaction and the
1:27:41
incidents of sexual abuse
1:27:43
were prolonged beyond their
1:27:45
previous parameters. They
1:27:47
also happened more often. It
1:27:50
led to him blaming her
1:27:53
more than ever for allegedly
1:27:55
tempting him because he deluded
1:27:57
himself into thinking she had
1:28:00
orgasms. Stanley
1:28:05
got hired to drive a lorry or
1:28:07
a delivery truck. Karen
1:28:09
Seldom went to school after that because
1:28:11
he was often taking her with him
1:28:14
in the truck. Of
1:28:16
course, she was not serving
1:28:18
a professional apprenticeship. He
1:28:20
would usually sexually abuse her in the
1:28:22
lorry. He raped her nearly every day.
1:28:25
He would even drop
1:28:27
her off at friends houses. Some
1:28:29
of them would go as far
1:28:31
as to take still photos or
1:28:33
videos of her, wherein she
1:28:35
would be raped by them, and it
1:28:38
would be visually documented. She
1:28:41
withdrew into herself more and more as
1:28:44
time went on. Stanley
1:28:49
got a thrill out of watching
1:28:51
other men rape Karen. As
1:28:54
noted by Shai, Stanley
1:28:56
got a sadistic pleasure out of
1:28:58
me doing the horrible with someone
1:29:00
else because it seemed to
1:29:03
prove to him that I was the
1:29:05
dirty one, which was always
1:29:07
his argument to make me do it
1:29:09
when I didn't want to, which
1:29:11
was always. Stanley told
1:29:13
me that I was a dirty girl and
1:29:16
that he was stopping me from
1:29:19
being caught for being naughty, dirty,
1:29:21
bad. He said he
1:29:23
was protecting me because he didn't want
1:29:25
social services to put me in care.
1:29:28
As a nine-year-old, I just accepted
1:29:30
this. I hated
1:29:33
this new stuff called Vaseline,
1:29:35
which Stanley secretly called
1:29:38
wet, as in put
1:29:40
some wet on it. I
1:29:43
hated being woken from my
1:29:45
sleep with him already hurting
1:29:47
my pee and poo places,
1:29:50
even with the wet. I
1:29:52
hated bath time, bedtime, getting
1:29:54
up time, daytime,
1:29:58
all the time, really. I
1:30:01
hated the night visits the most. with
1:32:00
wrath and before she
1:32:03
knew it she was punching and
1:32:05
slapping Stanley. She was
1:32:07
not normally a violent person but
1:32:09
even she had her limits. After
1:32:12
striking him she ejected from the lorry
1:32:14
and ran away. He tried
1:32:17
running after her but he was
1:32:19
a middle-aged smoker and could not
1:32:21
match her youthful energy. Karen
1:32:27
ran a long distance down a country
1:32:29
road. Just when she had
1:32:31
reached a point of freedom Stanley
1:32:33
jumped out from some bushes and beat
1:32:36
her black and blue. He claimed
1:32:38
he was beating her to teach
1:32:41
her a lesson to ensure her
1:32:43
safety or some shit. Stanley
1:32:48
and his friends weren't the
1:32:50
only sources of sexual abuse
1:32:52
in Karen's life. It seemed
1:32:54
that wherever she went that
1:32:56
kind of evil lurked. There
1:33:00
was a man named Steve in the
1:33:02
neighborhood who rewarded children with sweets
1:33:04
if they went to the store
1:33:06
and bought his newspapers for him.
1:33:10
It seemed perfectly innocent at first
1:33:13
but one day Karen got a
1:33:15
painful glimpse of this man's dark
1:33:17
side. She tells the
1:33:19
story best. One
1:33:21
time when I went to see Nanny Scott Steve
1:33:24
was standing in his doorway. As
1:33:27
I passed he asked me in. I
1:33:30
stepped inside all excited because I thought that
1:33:32
he was going to ask me to go
1:33:34
to the shop. Before I
1:33:36
knew what was happening though Steve
1:33:39
had grabbed me by the back of
1:33:41
the neck and pushed me
1:33:43
into his bedroom. His
1:33:45
hand felt like a vice taking
1:33:47
my breath away and I
1:33:49
yelped in pain. The
1:33:52
next thing I knew I was naked
1:33:55
face down on his bed and
1:33:58
squeezing my eyes shut height,
1:34:00
to block out the horror of what was happening
1:34:03
to me. He
1:34:05
hurt me for ages. I
1:34:07
didn't fight, even though he was
1:34:10
hurting me. I just
1:34:12
lay as still as I could, praying
1:34:14
to anyone who might be listening for
1:34:16
it to end. No
1:34:18
one was listening. I
1:34:21
lay there for an eternity until
1:34:23
he finally pushed himself off me
1:34:25
and wheezed. Who will
1:34:27
make us a cup of tea, will you? I
1:34:30
staggered to the kitchen, to who
1:34:33
stunned to speak, and
1:34:35
my hands trembled as I poured out
1:34:37
his tea. When I
1:34:39
returned, he grunted, Do you
1:34:42
want paper money or sweets? I
1:34:45
remember thinking I had never had
1:34:47
paper money. I remember
1:34:49
thinking I had never had paper money of
1:34:51
my own before, so I agreed to
1:34:54
take that. He smiled
1:34:56
like we were friends again. Now
1:34:59
don't go telling anyone about our
1:35:02
arrangements, will you? I
1:35:04
shook my head. Promise
1:35:07
me now? I
1:35:09
won't tell anyone. I'm used to
1:35:11
it, I said. This
1:35:13
seemed to please him even more. He
1:35:17
patted me on the bum with his bony
1:35:19
hand and told me to go. I
1:35:22
left and ran across to the toilet
1:35:24
at Nanny Scott's flat. By
1:35:27
this point in my life, I
1:35:29
was so used to the horrible
1:35:31
happening every time I met new
1:35:33
men that I simply accepted that
1:35:36
it was going to happen. I
1:35:38
didn't encourage it or initiate
1:35:40
it, but I did
1:35:43
always expect it. I
1:35:45
felt that I couldn't do anything to change
1:35:47
or alter it. I might as
1:35:49
well just accept it. It had
1:35:51
become something I thought all men would do
1:35:53
to me, and although
1:35:55
I knew that it didn't happen to
1:35:57
everyone, Dona never had to do the horrible
1:35:59
thing. I believed
1:36:01
that it would always happen to me. I
1:36:05
still hated it, but at least with
1:36:07
Steve, I was given sweets
1:36:09
or paper money. I thought
1:36:12
I was lucky, as with
1:36:14
Stanley, I didn't get anything. I
1:36:17
would take my sweets and rush
1:36:19
off to Lissau Beach to
1:36:21
recover and eat my sweets. Karen
1:36:24
got used to constituting herself for
1:36:27
Steve, and she didn't tell anyone
1:36:29
about what they were engaged in
1:36:31
at his house. One
1:36:36
day when Karen went to Steve's house,
1:36:38
she was horrified all over again by
1:36:40
what she saw. As
1:36:42
she tells it, I
1:36:44
went in and, to my horror,
1:36:47
saw that he was on the bed doing the
1:36:49
horrible to someone else. I couldn't
1:36:51
believe it. I thought I was the
1:36:53
only one he did that to. As
1:36:56
I edged closer, I realized
1:36:59
that he was on top of my baby sister.
1:37:02
I felt sick. Denise
1:37:05
was undressed, crying, and
1:37:08
had blood on her legs. I
1:37:10
went mental. I knew they knew each other,
1:37:13
but I did not even consider that
1:37:15
he would dare to hurt my baby
1:37:17
sister. And besides, I
1:37:19
had already done the horrible. The
1:37:21
realization that it was happening to my
1:37:24
little sister sent me into a blind
1:37:26
rage. Without a second
1:37:28
thought, I rushed to the
1:37:30
kitchen, picked up a big pan, and
1:37:32
flew back to the bedroom. Then,
1:37:36
with every single ounce of strength like
1:37:38
a muster, I smacked him right
1:37:40
across the head with it. He
1:37:42
was so shocked he didn't even try to
1:37:44
stop me as I pounded his head. A
1:37:47
word per smack. Get.
1:37:50
Smack. Off. Smack.
1:37:53
My. Smack. Sister.
1:37:57
Smack. I finally
1:37:59
hit him hard enough. to get him off my
1:38:01
sister and long enough to get us
1:38:03
out of there." On
1:38:07
the way home, Karen and Denise decided
1:38:09
they would tell their mother about what
1:38:12
happened to Denise. To
1:38:14
their surprise, their mother believed them
1:38:17
and flew into a rage. She
1:38:19
took them to a hospital. The
1:38:23
girls were examined by doctors
1:38:26
who inspected their genitalia for
1:38:28
evidence of sexual assault. Soon
1:38:30
police officers were questioning the girls.
1:38:34
This last point was confusing for
1:38:36
Karen because Stanley and Steve and
1:38:38
their ilk led her to
1:38:41
believe that such treatment was normal, acceptable,
1:38:44
and, in her case, well deserved.
1:38:48
For the first time in Karen's
1:38:50
life, she was told that the
1:38:52
kind of thing that Steve did
1:38:54
to her and Denise was called
1:38:57
child abuse. And
1:38:59
people went to prison for it. Karen
1:39:02
was informed that Steve was
1:39:04
put behind bars. Social
1:39:11
workers took an interest in the lives of
1:39:13
Karen and Denise and wanted to
1:39:15
know why they were not attending classes at
1:39:17
school. Now Stanley could
1:39:19
no longer take her on his rape
1:39:22
runs. Stanley
1:39:24
coached Karen so that she wouldn't
1:39:26
disclose the abuse. He
1:39:28
convinced her that she, too,
1:39:30
would be considered dirty and
1:39:33
immoral if the sexual abuse
1:39:35
was uncovered so she
1:39:37
didn't disclose the abuse during the interviews.
1:39:41
Police told Karen that adults were
1:39:43
not allowed to touch her sex
1:39:45
organs or in
1:39:47
any other sexual way. Stanley
1:39:50
insisted he had a special right
1:39:53
to do so because he was
1:39:55
her adoptive father. One
1:40:01
day a social worker visited their home. Before
1:40:04
meeting her, it occurred to Karen that
1:40:06
she could get Stanley and his abuse
1:40:08
out of her life simply
1:40:10
by telling the social worker what was going
1:40:12
on. The social
1:40:15
workers started with small talk,
1:40:17
like how Karen liked school,
1:40:20
that sort of thing. Karen
1:40:22
could hardly abide all that when
1:40:24
she had such important business to
1:40:26
deal with. So she came right out with
1:40:28
it. Stanley makes me
1:40:30
suck his penis. Both
1:40:33
Stanley and Mrs. Potter, the social worker,
1:40:36
were shocked. Mrs.
1:40:38
Potter said, Karen,
1:40:42
what did you just say? Mrs.
1:40:44
Potter turned to Stanley and said, Stanley,
1:40:48
is that true? Stanley
1:40:51
didn't voice his objection verbally,
1:40:53
not right away, anyway. He
1:40:56
shook his head. He sighed. He
1:40:59
stood and looked Mrs. Potter in
1:41:01
the eye. He said, It's
1:41:04
kind of true, but not the way she
1:41:06
says it. Mrs.
1:41:08
Potter said nothing to this as
1:41:11
she digested the intel. Stanley
1:41:14
continued, She keeps
1:41:16
pushing herself on to me, trying
1:41:18
to force me into letting her suck
1:41:21
me off. I've tried
1:41:23
to stop her, but didn't always
1:41:25
manage it. She nearly got
1:41:27
me a couple of times. He
1:41:30
said he would welcome her assistance in
1:41:33
dealing with Karen's insatiable
1:41:35
sexual appetite. Mrs.
1:41:38
Potter couldn't have been less helpful.
1:41:41
Karen, is it true? Have
1:41:44
you been trying to force yourself
1:41:46
on your father's privates with your
1:41:49
mouth? Her
1:41:51
tone changed. It was admonishing,
1:41:54
as if she believed Stanley, and
1:41:56
it appeared that she did. She
1:41:59
certainly wasn't fulfilling her own goals. her
1:42:01
role as a mandated reporter. Karen
1:42:04
said, no I haven't. He makes
1:42:06
me do it. He knows
1:42:08
he does. Mrs. Potter
1:42:10
said, that's not what your
1:42:12
father tells us. He's
1:42:14
not my father. Stanley said,
1:42:17
that's what she always says. She's
1:42:19
just saying this to punish me.
1:42:22
She just hates me because I'm not
1:42:24
her real father. Her real father tried
1:42:27
to kill her. Then he
1:42:29
killed himself, gassed his
1:42:31
self to death in a car
1:42:33
a few years back. Fun
1:42:36
fact, Frederick did neither
1:42:38
of those things. Stanley
1:42:41
had more psychobabble for Mrs.
1:42:44
Potter. The only one
1:42:46
who abused her was him, that
1:42:48
nutter father of hers. And
1:42:51
she's just blaming me for it because
1:42:53
she doesn't like me. Mrs. Wahlbridge,
1:42:55
she's a friend of the family, knows
1:42:58
all about it. She's been
1:43:00
trying to help us get Karen's
1:43:03
sexual urges under control. But
1:43:05
we're not sure what to do about it. It's
1:43:08
like she's out of control. Mrs.
1:43:11
Potter's proposal on how
1:43:13
to handle Karen's alleged
1:43:15
hyper sexuality was
1:43:18
to wear extra clothing and take
1:43:20
cold baths. Karen
1:43:23
was so stunned by the things Stanley
1:43:25
said to Mrs. Potter that she
1:43:28
barely felt the vicious beating he
1:43:30
unleashed upon her that night. Karen
1:43:36
developed a rash on her backside
1:43:38
that was exceedingly itchy. Jennifer
1:43:41
took her to a doctor for treatment. He
1:43:45
diagnosed it as a symptom
1:43:47
of a sexually transmitted
1:43:50
disease. He
1:43:52
included this data in her file
1:43:54
and contacted Mrs. Potter about it
1:43:57
since it was clear that a child of
1:43:59
about nine years old could
1:44:01
only acquire such a condition from
1:44:04
being sexually abused by an adult.
1:44:08
Social services decided the best way
1:44:10
to rein in Karen's nymphomania was
1:44:13
to send her to a
1:44:15
boarding school for girls. Hence,
1:44:17
she was sent to St.
1:44:19
Mary's Convent Catholic School. Such
1:44:23
girls would dread attending school
1:44:26
in such a draconian religious
1:44:28
environment. Whether or
1:44:30
not the nuns wrapped the girls on
1:44:32
the knuckles with rulers, it
1:44:35
was better than being raped by Stanley
1:44:37
and his pitot posse. Karen
1:44:41
acted out and questioned the
1:44:43
Christian orthodoxy nonetheless, and
1:44:46
she was soon expelled. She
1:44:48
was driven to the home of her
1:44:50
nanny and grandpa, Walbridge. There
1:44:53
she resided in a shed and
1:44:55
used a bucket for latrine. She
1:44:58
spent her days doing chores. Nanny
1:45:01
Walbridge was a real hard ass. Karen
1:45:04
was not to speak unless spoken to. She
1:45:07
was never to remove all her clothes
1:45:09
for any reason. Karen
1:45:12
couldn't go anywhere without permission. She
1:45:14
couldn't do anything without permission. It
1:45:17
was like reform school, except she was
1:45:19
the only inmate. She
1:45:22
was required to wash three times
1:45:24
a day in the icy cold
1:45:26
water of a stream nearby. Nanny
1:45:29
Walbridge smacked her when she
1:45:32
spoke without permission and when
1:45:34
she used profanity. There
1:45:37
was no light in the shed when Nanny
1:45:39
Walbridge left her alone in there. Relief
1:45:43
and kindness came from grandpa
1:45:45
Walbridge. He would bring her food
1:45:47
and tea. He
1:45:49
brought her a lamp for light and
1:45:51
a blanket for warmth. She
1:45:54
was also greatly relieved when he didn't
1:45:56
rape her. She finally
1:45:59
got to experience it. what it's like
1:46:01
when a man shows you love
1:46:03
and kindness instead of taking advantage
1:46:05
of you and abusing you. One
1:46:11
day Karen enlightened Nanny Walbridge on
1:46:13
the nature of her relationship with
1:46:15
Stanley. You've
1:46:18
got to believe me. I didn't do it. He
1:46:20
blames me for it, but it's not me. Honestly,
1:46:23
it's not me. I don't know
1:46:25
how to make him or any
1:46:28
of them stop. I
1:46:30
just want them to stop. I know
1:46:32
I make them bad, but I don't know how.
1:46:35
All of a sudden Nanny had stopped smacking
1:46:37
me. Her face had gone
1:46:39
white. Grandpa
1:46:42
stepped in from outside. Nanny
1:46:44
stared at me. She
1:46:46
still had a strange look on her
1:46:49
face and said she begged
1:46:51
my pardon. I didn't
1:46:53
know what she meant, but I realized I
1:46:55
had said too much. So
1:46:57
I just gazed at the floor
1:47:00
and shrugged my shoulders as
1:47:02
she begged my pardon some more. I
1:47:05
kept quiet and she told me in a
1:47:07
soft voice to go to my room and
1:47:09
wait to be called. I
1:47:11
nodded and left. As I
1:47:14
walked around to my room in the tool
1:47:16
shed and passed under
1:47:18
the train windows, I could
1:47:20
hear Nanny and Grandpa talking. Nanny
1:47:23
sounded really shocked and
1:47:25
Grandpa was saying, You
1:47:28
should never have smacked her like that, Vera.
1:47:30
She's only a young girl and clearly
1:47:33
very disturbed. She's
1:47:35
very young to be talking this way. I
1:47:38
don't fully understand what's going on, but
1:47:41
it's clear the child needs our help. Grandpa's
1:47:45
voice was very serious as he
1:47:47
said. They are
1:47:49
not words from a child's mouth, Vera.
1:47:52
The child was terrified. I think
1:47:55
there's something very wrong here. Nanny
1:47:59
said, I've got a
1:48:01
horrible feeling that Stanley and Jennifer
1:48:03
haven't been entirely honest with us.
1:48:06
We're going to have to tread very carefully.
1:48:10
The child swears blind that
1:48:12
she isn't doing anything wrong,
1:48:15
that it's Stanley who's doing things
1:48:17
to her. I
1:48:19
just don't know what to believe." Her
1:48:22
voice was trembling. Grandpa
1:48:25
said, I agree, she
1:48:28
sounds honest, but frightened.
1:48:31
Have you noticed how much she rocks? Later
1:48:38
Grandpa knocked on the door to the shed.
1:48:41
His countenance was grave, he
1:48:43
said. I know
1:48:45
some things we need to talk about Karen, but
1:48:48
there is plenty of time for that. For
1:48:51
now, let's get on with the chores.
1:48:57
After establishing what duties Karen would
1:48:59
have to carry out, Grandpa
1:49:01
said, now, I know there
1:49:05
are some other things you might like to talk
1:49:07
about, but there is no rush.
1:49:10
Karen said, like what?
1:49:14
Well, like anything
1:49:16
that is worrying you. I'm
1:49:20
worried about my sister and about
1:49:22
when I will have to do something with you.
1:49:26
This threw Grandpa for a loop. Once
1:49:29
he regained his composure, he said,
1:49:33
your sister is fine. As
1:49:36
for the other thing, well, there
1:49:39
will be none of that sort of thing in this place.
1:49:42
Good grief, certainly not. I
1:49:46
recall the tidal wave
1:49:48
of emotion that overtook her in
1:49:51
that moment. On
1:49:53
hearing this, I flung
1:49:55
my arms around him and gave him
1:49:57
a massive hug. I
1:50:00
even let out a little cry. I
1:50:02
couldn't help myself. I felt so
1:50:05
relieved and so delighted
1:50:07
at the same time. He
1:50:10
hugged me back for a second and then
1:50:12
pushed me away. He
1:50:15
seemed awkward and blustery. He
1:50:17
said, okay now, that's enough of all
1:50:20
that. We'll talk about how
1:50:22
you can overcome these. He
1:50:25
paused, looking like he was
1:50:27
a little lost for words. Problems
1:50:31
of yours, another time. For
1:50:33
now, let's get started with
1:50:35
the chores. I
1:50:38
didn't know what he meant about my problems, but
1:50:40
I was so happy that he had said I
1:50:42
wouldn't have to do any horrible. After
1:50:45
this, I would have
1:50:47
walked across hot coals for
1:50:49
grandpa as I could
1:50:51
just sense he was my friend. He
1:50:54
knew about things and was very
1:50:56
wise. He even heard
1:50:58
me cry and he still liked me.
1:51:01
He was never angry with me and
1:51:04
was very fair, plus no
1:51:06
horrible. For the first time
1:51:08
in my life, I felt
1:51:10
like I finally had a life to live
1:51:12
in a safe home. One
1:51:18
day Karen overheard a conversation
1:51:20
between Nanny and grandpa. Nanny
1:51:23
said, what are you
1:51:25
saying? After
1:51:27
her pause, grandpa said, from
1:51:31
what I've seen of her and
1:51:33
the concerns she has, I
1:51:36
believe that she's telling the truth. It
1:51:38
sounds like it really isn't Karen
1:51:41
who's initiating these things, it's
1:51:43
Stanley. You
1:51:45
will agree that she
1:51:47
hasn't exhibited any sexualized
1:51:50
behavior around us. Indeed,
1:51:53
she is almost over proper. She
1:51:55
is by no means stupid or
1:51:58
unteachable. She is extremely, extremely intelligent
1:52:00
and learns faster than anyone I
1:52:02
have ever taught. She
1:52:05
has no more special needs than
1:52:07
you or I, Vera. All
1:52:10
this time, we've been led to believe
1:52:12
that she is the delinquent one, but
1:52:15
I rather think we've been misled." Nanny
1:52:19
said, Do you mean
1:52:21
you think that all these things that
1:52:23
are happening to her, that she doesn't
1:52:25
want them to happen? You
1:52:28
mean she's being forced? That's
1:52:31
exactly what I'm saying. Good
1:52:34
grief, Percy. Percy
1:52:36
said, We're going
1:52:38
to have to help her manage him, Vera.
1:52:41
She can't be left to cope with things on
1:52:43
her own. One
1:52:48
day, Percy told Karen that she
1:52:50
was an innocent victim of someone
1:52:52
else's transgressions. He said, It
1:52:56
seems certain people have tried very
1:52:58
hard to convince you that this
1:53:01
badness you speak of is your
1:53:03
fault, but the truth is, it's
1:53:06
not. I know you
1:53:08
hide yourself behind that fuss you sometimes
1:53:11
make, but you are
1:53:13
a very kind little girl, and
1:53:15
I think others, less
1:53:17
kind, see this in you
1:53:20
and take advantage. I
1:53:22
think you know very well the difference
1:53:24
between right and wrong. You
1:53:27
should have a little more faith in what you
1:53:29
think and stop looking to
1:53:31
others to decide your mind for you.
1:53:34
I certainly trust you to make the right
1:53:37
choice. I feel sorry
1:53:39
that you don't trust yourself a little more. Do
1:53:42
you understand? Karen
1:53:44
understood, but still she asked him,
1:53:48
How do you stop someone from making you
1:53:50
do things that you don't want to do?
1:53:54
What sort of things? Just
1:53:57
things. Are these
1:53:59
the things? that give you
1:54:01
sad thoughts? Yes,
1:54:05
I hope that one day you will
1:54:07
trust me enough to speak to me about them, but
1:54:10
until then you should know
1:54:12
that nobody is allowed to make you
1:54:14
do something you know is wrong, and
1:54:17
that you should at least try going
1:54:20
down to the stream. By
1:54:23
going to the stream he referred to a practice
1:54:25
of washing her face
1:54:28
as a psychological ritual to
1:54:30
cleanse herself of the bad
1:54:32
thoughts that were making her
1:54:34
feel anxious and depressed. She
1:54:37
tried it with some success. She
1:54:40
could never bring herself to tell Percy what
1:54:42
Stanley had done to her because
1:54:44
she knew it would disturb him and
1:54:46
she didn't like to see him upset.
1:54:50
Vera became gentler and more empathetic
1:54:52
in her dealings with Karen. She
1:54:55
didn't hit her anymore and was not as
1:54:58
harsh in her speech. Karen
1:55:03
was required to spend a weekend
1:55:05
with her family. She
1:55:08
didn't want to go and dreaded
1:55:10
the occasion, though she
1:55:12
was looking forward to seeing Denise. Though
1:55:16
no physical or sexual abuse occurred
1:55:18
during the weekend, their household
1:55:20
looked like a photograph out
1:55:23
of a social work textbook. It
1:55:26
was cluttered and filthy. Soiled
1:55:28
laundry lay about the floors.
1:55:32
Karen kept herself occupied by doing
1:55:34
so much of the cleaning that
1:55:36
was long overdue. Jennifer
1:55:39
mostly just spoke to her when
1:55:41
she asked her to go to
1:55:43
a social services office. She
1:55:45
stood to lose some of her stipend
1:55:48
because she hadn't been able to prove
1:55:50
to them that Karen was a special
1:55:52
needs child since she was away at
1:55:54
the wall bridges house. Karen
1:55:57
agreed to do it and to react
1:55:59
to every question with silence
1:56:01
and befuddlement, so
1:56:04
that the social worker would
1:56:06
think she was legitimately developmentally
1:56:08
delayed. It worked,
1:56:10
and Jennifer was approved for more
1:56:12
money. Once that was
1:56:15
sorted out, she didn't speak
1:56:17
to Karen again that weekend. Mercifully,
1:56:21
Stanley spent the entire weekend working on
1:56:23
his car. He barely
1:56:25
spoke to or made eye contact with
1:56:28
Karen. She was still worried
1:56:30
that he would abuse her. He
1:56:32
didn't, and she was greatly
1:56:34
relieved as she was driven back to
1:56:36
the Wall Bridge's home. Karen
1:56:43
had another visit at her mother's
1:56:45
house scheduled. When she
1:56:47
arrived, her mother was arguing
1:56:49
with a social worker because
1:56:51
Karen had not been living
1:56:53
there full time, and Jennifer
1:56:55
would not receive full benefits
1:56:57
for Karen if she were
1:56:59
not residing there and not
1:57:01
demonstrative of special needs characteristics.
1:57:04
Jennifer demanded full benefits, but
1:57:07
the social worker didn't budge.
1:57:10
And after she left, Jennifer went
1:57:12
ballistic, launching into a full-out
1:57:14
assault on Karen. She
1:57:16
threw a small metal box at her
1:57:19
face, which left a cut. Karen's
1:57:22
lip was left bleeding, her
1:57:24
legs were bruised, and
1:57:28
she had a headache from all the
1:57:30
blows to her cranium. Afterwards,
1:57:34
Jennifer called up Manny and Grandpa
1:57:36
Wall Bridge and sweet-talked them into
1:57:38
letting Karen live with her full
1:57:40
time, sounding nothing
1:57:42
like the psycho-hose beast she
1:57:44
was when she beat on
1:57:46
Karen. She managed to
1:57:49
talk them into it. Karen
1:57:51
was more devastated by this than by
1:57:54
the beating because she came to love
1:57:56
living with the Wall Bridge's. Now
1:57:58
it was back to hell on. on Earth, with
1:58:01
all the abuse and neglect she had
1:58:03
endured for so many years. Sure
1:58:10
enough, Karen's first night back,
1:58:12
Stanley snuck into her room
1:58:14
and demanded oral sex. The
1:58:17
very thought of such a thing
1:58:20
made her nauseous, and she resisted
1:58:22
strenuously. He criticized
1:58:24
her for being so well-spoken, a
1:58:27
characteristic she developed at the wall
1:58:29
bridges with their guidance. He
1:58:31
said, talk proper. None
1:58:33
of that snooty old bollocks will
1:58:36
work with me, so get
1:58:38
on with it. I don't give
1:58:40
a shit what you think. I
1:58:42
ain't got all night. If
1:58:45
you're gonna start all this again, I'll take
1:58:47
me fucking belt to you. She
1:58:50
finally did what he demanded of her just to
1:58:52
get it over with. The
1:58:57
shroud had been shifted back into
1:58:59
place. Her
1:59:05
mother was the same thief and con
1:59:07
artist she had always been. She
1:59:10
once left the children on the steps of
1:59:12
the social services building, claiming she couldn't take
1:59:15
care of them. She
1:59:17
contacted a reporter for a newspaper
1:59:19
to publicize the fact that social
1:59:21
services wouldn't give her more money,
1:59:24
despite having a special needs child.
1:59:27
Speaking of special needs, Karen
1:59:29
was enrolled at a local special
1:59:31
needs school, but she felt no
1:59:33
more at home there than she
1:59:36
did at a standard elementary school.
1:59:39
Stanley continued to sneak into hers and
1:59:42
Denise's room at night. When
1:59:44
he attempted to abuse Denise, Karen
1:59:46
would shift over and take her place
1:59:49
to protect her little sister from what she
1:59:51
had had to suffer through. Karen
1:59:55
eventually found new hiding places for
1:59:58
both her and her sister. and
2:00:00
Stanley seldom found them there. Karen
2:00:04
began to frustrate Stanley.
2:00:07
When she didn't find ways to avoid the
2:00:09
abuse, she no longer responded
2:00:11
to the violence. He introduced the tactic
2:00:13
of threatening to report her to social
2:00:16
services and have her taken away. He
2:00:19
would say some things of the effective, if
2:00:21
you don't get on with it, I'll
2:00:24
call the social and tell them
2:00:26
what a filthy little slut you
2:00:28
are. Stanley
2:00:30
became quite reckless in his
2:00:32
pursuit of sexual gratification with
2:00:34
Karen. When she
2:00:36
was 11 years old, she was
2:00:38
admitted to the intensive care unit
2:00:40
to receive treatment for a sexually
2:00:43
transmitted disease. Strangely, none
2:00:45
of the staff were particularly
2:00:47
concerned that such a young
2:00:49
girl would have contracted an
2:00:51
illness of that nature. During
2:00:54
her stay, she had what appeared to be
2:00:56
an especially heavy period.
2:00:59
It turned out to be a miscarriage.
2:01:02
In fact, she would have two more miscarriages
2:01:04
by the time she turned 14. And again, not one
2:01:09
doctor ever considered that
2:01:11
this was unusual, irregular
2:01:15
even. 11 years old, 12 years
2:01:19
old, miscarriages, STDs,
2:01:23
no alarm bells, no red flags,
2:01:26
none. It was
2:01:29
also in her 11th year that she
2:01:32
woke up one night retching. Stanley
2:01:34
stuck his penis in her mouth while she
2:01:37
was sleeping. He was
2:01:39
holding her head in place by the ears.
2:01:42
He held her head so firmly it
2:01:44
hurt. She tried to wriggle
2:01:46
herself free, but he was too
2:01:48
strong for her. Suddenly,
2:01:51
a figure appeared behind him. It
2:01:53
was Jennifer. Karen was
2:01:56
overjoyed to find that her mother
2:01:58
caught Stanley red-handed. When
2:02:00
he heard her, he gesticulated like
2:02:02
he was wrestling Karen down to
2:02:04
the bed in an effort to
2:02:06
depict her as the aggressor. He
2:02:09
dug his elbow into her chest to the
2:02:11
point where she cried out in pain. He
2:02:14
began to throw her around the
2:02:16
room, claiming she was fighting him.
2:02:20
Jennifer walked further into the room and said,
2:02:23
What's going on here? Stanley
2:02:25
said, I don't know. I think
2:02:28
she's having an epileptic fit. Jennifer
2:02:31
ran over and joined in the
2:02:33
effort to restrain Karen. She
2:02:35
said to Stanley, You hold her arms.
2:02:37
I'll get her legs. Stanley
2:02:40
pulled up his fly and then
2:02:42
joined in the effort to bring
2:02:45
Karen's so-called seizure under control. Karen
2:02:48
soon realized that Jennifer knew what
2:02:51
Stanley was doing to her and
2:02:53
didn't care. As Shy put
2:02:55
it, she must have
2:02:57
seen what he had been doing, but
2:03:00
she'd chosen to ignore it. It
2:03:02
was the most crushing blow. I couldn't
2:03:05
believe it. What
2:03:07
kind of mother was she? What
2:03:10
had I done to make her hate me so much?
2:03:13
Any shred of hope I had that Mom was
2:03:15
going to save me and
2:03:17
protect me disintegrated in
2:03:20
that instant? Somehow,
2:03:22
it was clearly easier for her to
2:03:24
pretend that she was ignorant of what
2:03:26
he was doing. She
2:03:29
helped Stanley to hold me down, playing
2:03:32
along with the charade that I was
2:03:34
having a fit. They
2:03:37
called 999 and reported that Karen
2:03:39
was having a seizure and needed
2:03:42
an ambulance. She
2:03:44
was taken to hospital. Jennifer
2:03:46
told the doctors that she was special
2:03:49
needs and was now an epileptic. The
2:03:52
doctors didn't question it. No
2:03:55
MRI. No consultation
2:03:57
with a neurologist. No
2:03:59
critical treatment. thinking. She
2:04:02
was injected with a sedative and
2:04:04
passed out. Karen
2:04:08
woke up in another hospital, this
2:04:11
time a psychiatric care institution.
2:04:14
Stanley picked up Karen when it was time
2:04:16
for her to be discharged. The
2:04:19
doctor gave Stanley a prescription for
2:04:21
the same sedative that knocked her
2:04:23
out. He was delighted.
2:04:26
When he put it in his pocket, Karen
2:04:28
knew that the horrible was about
2:04:30
to take on a more sinister
2:04:32
dimension. Karen
2:04:37
didn't attend school for the next few
2:04:39
months. She lay in
2:04:42
bed and drifted in and out of
2:04:44
consciousness as Stanley helped himself
2:04:46
to her body. It
2:04:49
wasn't just at her house. Stanley
2:04:51
took her to trailer parks
2:04:53
and other men's homes. Her
2:04:56
life was composed of vignettes
2:04:58
of rape and being carried
2:05:00
around like a ventriloquist
2:05:02
dummy. When
2:05:08
day Karen managed to run away,
2:05:10
she heard a boy's voice behind
2:05:12
her calling her name. When
2:05:14
she turned around, he threw a
2:05:17
brick at her face. Aside
2:05:19
from being immensely painful and
2:05:21
knocked one of her teeth out, Stanley
2:05:24
and Jennifer didn't take her to a
2:05:26
dentist until months later. He insisted
2:05:29
on knowing why they delayed the visit
2:05:31
for so long. Jennifer
2:05:33
screamed at him and
2:05:35
they never went to that dentist again. They
2:05:39
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2:05:41
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2:05:43
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2:05:45
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Speedwagon's airplane made an unannounced,
2:08:03
middle-of-the-night landing. This is my friend Kyle
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McLaughlin, the star of Twin Peaks. And
2:08:08
he's telling me about how he discovered a
2:08:10
real-life Twin Peaks in rural North Carolina, not
2:08:12
far from where he filmed Blue Velvet. What
2:08:14
was on the plane was copious amounts of
2:08:17
drugs coming in from South America. Supposedly
2:08:19
Pablo Escobar went looking for other
2:08:21
spots? Quiet, out-of-the-way places to bring
2:08:24
in his cocaine. My
2:08:28
name is Joshua Davis, and I'm an investigative
2:08:31
reporter. Kyle and I
2:08:33
talk all the time about the strange things we
2:08:35
come across, but nothing was quite as strange as
2:08:37
what we found in Varnam Town, North Carolina. There's
2:08:40
crooked cops, brother against brother. Everyone's got
2:08:43
a story to tell, but does the
2:08:45
truth even exist? Welcome
2:08:47
to Varnam Town. Varnam
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Town is available wherever you listen to
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podcasts. Stanley's
2:08:56
trafficking of
2:08:58
Karen took on a whole new configuration. He
2:09:01
would drop her off at the docks, where men
2:09:03
took her in the ships, and
2:09:06
chained her foot to a metallic bed. They
2:09:10
would film and photograph each other, raping and molesting
2:09:13
her. They became irate when she didn't smile.
2:09:18
They would shout something to the effect of, Smile!
2:09:22
Stop hiding your face. Come on, you're famous.
2:09:24
Pictures of you are like gold dust. Everyone
2:09:28
wants them. You're a big product in the black market.
2:09:32
A top seller. Come on, give us a smile. They
2:09:36
thought this kind of talk would make her feel special,
2:09:38
but it only made her feel more exploited
2:09:40
and ashamed. She
2:09:43
would stare into the lens of the cameras,
2:09:45
hoping, that someone on the other
2:09:47
end would pick up on her distress and
2:09:52
possess the moral scruples to take action to
2:09:54
help her. Naturally, unless police
2:10:00
or Scotland Yard were to
2:10:02
discover those materials, nobody
2:10:04
with a heart would ever
2:10:06
expose themselves to such content.
2:10:11
One particular incident stands out, to
2:10:13
quote Shai, I
2:10:16
recall going to sleep in my own bed,
2:10:19
drugged to the nines, then
2:10:21
dreaming that I was somewhere else and
2:10:24
trying to fight these men off, who
2:10:26
were raping me one after another. Then
2:10:29
as I started to wake up, I
2:10:31
began to realize, it was
2:10:33
true, I was in
2:10:35
a strange room, hidden away somewhere,
2:10:38
I don't know if it was on the ship or
2:10:41
the caravan site, they
2:10:43
were hurting me so much I could
2:10:45
hardly breathe. I
2:10:48
started to fight like I had never fought
2:10:50
before, and the next thing I knew,
2:10:52
I woke up in a field, miles
2:10:55
from anywhere, mostly naked,
2:10:58
covered in bruises and blood. My
2:11:01
head aching like never before, a bit
2:11:05
of my skull was sticking up under my
2:11:07
skin, everything looked blurry,
2:11:09
and I was so cold, all I
2:11:12
wanted to do was fall asleep. I
2:11:15
was overwhelmed by tiredness, and
2:11:18
felt incredibly heavy and
2:11:20
lethargic. The
2:11:22
voice in my head said, get up
2:11:24
and start walking, otherwise you're going
2:11:27
to die. I
2:11:29
managed to haul myself up and began to
2:11:31
walk, though I had to
2:11:33
practically drag myself. Eventually,
2:11:36
a car stopped, and
2:11:38
the kindly driver gave me a lift home.
2:11:42
When I finally got back, the
2:11:44
others seemed surprised to see me,
2:11:47
as when I was left anywhere, I
2:11:50
was usually gone for a while. Once
2:11:52
I was left for four weeks,
2:11:54
and only knew that I'd been
2:11:56
gone that long, because I'd missed
2:11:58
Bonfire Night. Everyone
2:12:01
had simply assumed I'd been put into
2:12:03
care again. Stanley
2:12:06
reassured the driver, who was very
2:12:08
concerned about me, that I was
2:12:11
fine, just a bit mental and
2:12:13
special needs. Don't worry,
2:12:15
we'll look after her from here, he
2:12:17
said, putting his arm round my shoulder.
2:12:20
The moment the driver had left, Stanley
2:12:22
roared, fucking great. Now
2:12:25
you've put him off. What's wrong
2:12:27
with you? Have you just behaved
2:12:30
yourself? Things wouldn't turn out like
2:12:32
this, would they? I
2:12:34
was too dazed and shattered to respond.
2:12:37
Besides, I'd long ago
2:12:39
learnt that I was powerless to stop
2:12:41
bad things happening to me. Some
2:12:44
time later, because I was in such
2:12:46
a state and my vision was so
2:12:48
bad, Mom took me to
2:12:51
hospital and told the doctors that I'd
2:12:53
fallen off a swing. As
2:12:55
usual, they swallowed her story
2:12:57
and, after treating me, told
2:13:00
her that I had a fractured skull
2:13:02
and needed to rest at home in
2:13:05
the dark. It took
2:13:07
me many months to regain my sight.
2:13:10
Even though I was trying to recover, Stanley
2:13:12
never left me alone. The
2:13:15
drugs had already made me vulnerable, but
2:13:17
now I was even more so. Stanley
2:13:20
took full advantage of my weakened
2:13:23
defenses. I began
2:13:25
to understand that the drugs were
2:13:27
giving Stanley more power and making
2:13:29
everything worse. And
2:13:31
I just had to find a way
2:13:33
to stop taking them. I became so
2:13:35
desperate to stop what was happening that
2:13:37
I started to pretend to take the
2:13:39
tablets, squirreling them in the
2:13:42
side of my mouth, then
2:13:44
spitting them out when no one was
2:13:46
looking. Slowly, my head
2:13:48
started to clear and I woke
2:13:51
from my drug-fueled nightmare to the
2:13:53
very real horror that was now
2:13:55
my life. The
2:13:58
sexual abuse continued and worsened
2:14:00
in intensity and frequency.
2:14:06
Stanley bought a flock of budgies,
2:14:08
which became a neighborhood attraction for
2:14:10
the local children. Naturally,
2:14:12
there was nothing wholesome about it.
2:14:15
He just wanted to become a victim magnet,
2:14:18
and this tactic was very effective.
2:14:25
One day Karen's aunt Pat paid a visit.
2:14:28
Karen was so ecstatic about seeing her, she
2:14:30
almost tripped over her own feet, descending
2:14:33
the stairs. She
2:14:35
was happy to see her, but was
2:14:37
also anxious to tell an outsider what
2:14:39
Stanley was doing. She said,
2:14:42
Oh, Aunt Pat, please stop Stanley
2:14:45
from giving me any more tablets.
2:14:47
I'm not epileptic. Honestly,
2:14:49
I'm not. I can't wake
2:14:51
up properly. Please tell
2:14:54
him, Aunt Pat. Tell him to stop. Pat
2:14:58
became enraged. She
2:15:00
shouted at Stanley and Jennifer, saying, what
2:15:02
in God's name do you think you're playing
2:15:04
at Stanley? Jennifer, I'm
2:15:07
told she hasn't been out of bed for
2:15:09
months. She's not going to school,
2:15:12
and you know she's no more bloody epileptic
2:15:14
than I am. Why
2:15:16
are you giving her these tablets? You
2:15:19
can't give a child these sort of tablets.
2:15:22
I'm reporting you. What are you
2:15:24
doing to her? Stanley
2:15:26
was really caught off guard and began
2:15:29
to stutter, saying he was
2:15:31
only following doctors' orders. He
2:15:33
said, maybe you're right, though, Pat.
2:15:35
Maybe the doctors have got it wrong.
2:15:38
In fact, I'll tell them
2:15:40
so at the very next case meeting
2:15:42
at the hospital. Jennifer
2:15:44
was also skittish. She said, I don't
2:15:48
know what's been happening, Pat. I've
2:15:50
been so ill, and Stanley's been taking
2:15:52
care of everything. As
2:15:55
best he can. He's a
2:15:57
good man. Pat
2:15:59
wasn't buying it. She knew
2:16:01
Jennifer had no credibility whatsoever. She
2:16:04
said, You're well enough
2:16:06
to go to the bingo all the bloody time.
2:16:08
So don't give me all that rubbish, Jennifer.
2:16:11
Pat knew where the bottle of tablets was.
2:16:14
She grabbed them and flushed them down
2:16:16
the toilet. When she returned,
2:16:18
she said, That's it, Stanley.
2:16:21
You give her no more tablets. Do you hear
2:16:23
me? Yes,
2:16:26
Pat. If
2:16:28
I find out anyone's knocking her about
2:16:30
or giving her any more drugs, they
2:16:33
will have me to deal with. Do
2:16:35
you understand? Yes,
2:16:38
Pat. Why won't
2:16:40
you give her a break? All
2:16:43
Stanley could do was shrug. He
2:16:46
was so intimidated. He said,
2:16:48
You don't know what she's like. She's
2:16:51
a little fucking bastard, always
2:16:53
getting into trouble everywhere she goes.
2:16:56
She steals and she tells lies just
2:16:58
to try to get me into trouble
2:17:01
all the fucking time. Pat
2:17:03
wasn't buying what he was selling. She
2:17:06
screamed at him. She has nothing
2:17:08
like that with anyone else. We've
2:17:11
had her stay with us and she's as
2:17:13
good as gold. Everyone says
2:17:15
she is very shy, but she
2:17:17
doesn't lie or steal from them
2:17:20
or us. You're always
2:17:22
picking on her. She doesn't do
2:17:24
all the things you say. So why are
2:17:26
you so hard on her? But
2:17:29
she's very clever, Pat. She
2:17:31
knows how to be good around others.
2:17:34
There's something wrong with her head.
2:17:37
She's a little bitch. She gives
2:17:39
people the silent treatment and
2:17:41
it winds them up and she don't do as
2:17:44
she's told. Pat
2:17:46
said, No, she
2:17:48
doesn't. Jennifer
2:17:51
resumed her pitch as a put
2:17:53
upon victim beset by illness. I've
2:17:56
been so ill, Pat. I can't
2:17:58
always know what she's doing. but
2:18:00
I'm sure she's got something wrong with her head.
2:18:03
She's special needs. You
2:18:05
know she can't even read or write properly.
2:18:08
She's so naughty they can't
2:18:10
even teach her. Just ask
2:18:13
the school." Pat was apoplectic.
2:18:16
"'Listen to you. We've been telling you
2:18:18
for years that she couldn't hear or
2:18:20
see you properly. She's not
2:18:22
thick, but you're always keeping
2:18:24
her off school. No
2:18:26
wonder she can't understand what they're saying to
2:18:29
her. And she can
2:18:31
read. Watch this.' Pat
2:18:33
turned to Karen. Karen, sweetheart, read
2:18:36
this for me. She
2:18:38
passed a newspaper to Karen. Karen
2:18:40
read a portion of an article on the
2:18:42
front page. Pat turned
2:18:45
back to Jennifer. "'See? She
2:18:47
can bloody well read.' She
2:18:49
asked Karen what the word
2:18:51
construct means. And she
2:18:53
said it means to build. She pointed
2:18:55
this out as a means to prove
2:18:57
that Karen was intelligent. In
2:19:01
a comparably softer voice, she said to
2:19:03
Karen, "'Karen, sweetheart, Uncle
2:19:06
Ken will be here soon to
2:19:08
say hello. Can you go
2:19:10
and sit in the dining room and watch out
2:19:12
for him? And let me have a
2:19:14
chat with your mom and dad.' While
2:19:20
Karen was out of the room, Pat
2:19:22
told Jennifer and Stanley that she was
2:19:24
going out to a store momentarily. Jennifer
2:19:31
and Stanley talked to each other while Pat was
2:19:33
out. Karen eavesdropped from
2:19:35
another room. She
2:19:38
will never forget that exchange. Jennifer
2:19:40
started with, "'I told
2:19:43
you not to smack that little twat so
2:19:45
much. Now look what you've done.'
2:19:48
She gets on my fucking nerves. Mine
2:19:51
too. She makes my skin
2:19:53
crawl. But if she's not
2:19:55
here, they won't pay us.
2:19:58
She don't know when to keep." her fucking
2:20:00
trap shut, that one. Why
2:20:03
don't you just stick her back in the nut house?
2:20:06
Because there's nothing wrong with her. Well,
2:20:09
make something wrong with her, for
2:20:12
fuck's sakes. We'll have to tell
2:20:14
them all, we're moving again, or
2:20:17
people are gonna start sniffing around. Fucking
2:20:20
hell. See what she does
2:20:22
to us all the fucking time? I
2:20:24
fucking hate her. We should
2:20:26
have let Fred fucking kill her. We
2:20:29
wouldn't have all this bother, would
2:20:31
we? No, I know. You know
2:20:33
I can't stand her, but leave her
2:20:35
alone for a bit. I'll come up
2:20:37
with something. Shy
2:20:40
reflected on how the dialogue made her feel
2:20:42
at the time. I
2:20:44
fell back against the wall as if someone
2:20:47
had just punched me in the face. My
2:20:50
own mother truly hated me
2:20:53
and wanted me gone. Despite
2:20:56
everything, I loved my
2:20:58
mother and even though I suspected
2:21:00
she didn't love me back, I
2:21:03
never realized just how much
2:21:05
she despised me. Pat
2:21:12
and the company of Ken showed up. He
2:21:15
approached Karen and hugged her. He
2:21:17
asked her if she was okay. She
2:21:19
gave him her best plastic smile and
2:21:22
said, I am now.
2:21:24
He said,
2:21:26
wait there sweetheart, let
2:21:28
me go talk with the others. She
2:21:34
eavesdropped on Ken's conversation with Jennifer
2:21:37
and Stanley. At one point, she
2:21:39
heard Ken say, why
2:21:42
don't you just let me and Pat adopt
2:21:44
her? You're always saying you
2:21:46
will, why don't you? Karen
2:21:49
was so elated by this, she
2:21:51
screamed out the word yes before
2:21:53
she could think to contain herself.
2:21:56
Stanley heard her loud and clear and shouted,
2:21:59
go away. Anyway, Pat
2:22:01
said, no, let her in. It's
2:22:03
about her anyway. Karen
2:22:05
went into the living room. Jennifer
2:22:07
and Stanley were furious. Jennifer
2:22:10
could have burned a hole through Karen's
2:22:13
face. She was glaring at her
2:22:15
with so much malice. Jennifer
2:22:18
said to Karen, Pat and
2:22:20
Ken want to know if you
2:22:23
would like to go and live with them for good.
2:22:26
They want to adopt you. What
2:22:28
do you think about that? Karen
2:22:30
didn't have to think about it. She
2:22:32
said, I'd love it. I promise
2:22:35
I'll be good. I wouldn't be far away.
2:22:37
I would come back to see everyone. I would
2:22:39
do good at school. I would do
2:22:42
everything they told me to do. I
2:22:44
won't talk unless I'm talked to. I,
2:22:46
Jennifer, cut her off. Well, it looks
2:22:48
like she wouldn't mind. Jennifer
2:22:51
wasn't at all concerned that she may
2:22:54
never see her daughter, her own flesh
2:22:56
and blood, ever again. She
2:22:59
said, yes, all right. If that's
2:23:01
what everyone wants, I can't see why
2:23:03
not. Stanley
2:23:06
wasn't nearly as nonchalant about it.
2:23:08
He said, it can't be today. I'll
2:23:11
sort a few things out and do it later this
2:23:13
week. Karen
2:23:15
was thrilled and hugged Ken and
2:23:17
Pat. Karen thanked
2:23:20
Jennifer and Stanley. Jennifer
2:23:22
said, that's all right. Now go wash
2:23:24
your face and let us talk for a bit.
2:23:31
That night, Stanley cornered Karen
2:23:33
and said, now listen to
2:23:35
me good. If you want
2:23:37
to move in with Pat and Ken, you
2:23:40
got to promise me you'll never go
2:23:42
telling your stories. It's
2:23:44
our secret. Got it? Karen
2:23:47
agreed to these terms. He
2:23:49
said, off to bed and
2:23:51
no messing about. No
2:23:54
messing about? That was rich.
2:23:57
He made sure to squeeze one last
2:23:59
session. of the horrible inn that
2:24:01
night before Karen went to sleep.
2:24:08
Karen's new life with Ken and Pat was
2:24:11
not to be. She found
2:24:13
out in the middle of the night why
2:24:15
Stanley wanted to keep Karen behind for a
2:24:17
few more days before letting her move to
2:24:20
Pat's house. As Karen recounted,
2:24:23
I was violently dragged out of bed by
2:24:25
a load of strangers. It
2:24:27
was dark and I couldn't see who they were. Were
2:24:30
they the men from the shipyard? Or
2:24:33
was it the police coming to put me
2:24:35
in prison for being naughty, dirty, bad? I
2:24:39
kicked and fought, but then I heard Stanley
2:24:41
and Mum telling me to stop. So
2:24:43
I kept still as they carried me out of the house
2:24:46
and into a waiting van. My
2:24:49
heart was pounding in my ears. I
2:24:51
begged them to tell me who they were.
2:24:55
What are you doing? I cried. Where
2:24:57
are you taking me? What's going on? They
2:25:00
wouldn't answer me. When we were in
2:25:02
the back of the van, I saw one
2:25:04
of the strangers was a lady. I
2:25:07
cried, what's happening? The lady
2:25:09
said, because of what you did
2:25:11
to your sister, you are going
2:25:13
to be taken to a secure mental ward.
2:25:17
I didn't do anything. I cried, completely
2:25:20
bewildered. Ask
2:25:22
her. We don't need
2:25:24
to ask her. Your
2:25:26
parents have told us that you stabbed
2:25:28
her. They also told
2:25:30
me that you haven't been taking your
2:25:32
medication. And
2:25:34
somehow, I was asleep before
2:25:37
I knew it. No
2:25:40
one visited Karen. None
2:25:42
of the GPs, psychiatrists, or
2:25:45
social workers questioned what
2:25:47
Jennifer and Stanley told them.
2:25:50
They didn't even confirm whether
2:25:52
or not Karen stabbed her
2:25:55
sister, which, as far as
2:25:57
allegations went, was fundamentally ludicrous.
2:26:03
When Karen was returned to her mother and
2:26:05
Stanley's home, Denise was shocked
2:26:07
to hear that Karen was accused
2:26:09
of stabbing her. That
2:26:12
very day, Jennifer told Karen that
2:26:15
Pat and Ken had decided against
2:26:17
adopting her after hearing about the
2:26:19
stabbing and that they no longer
2:26:22
loved her. She was
2:26:24
as devastated about this news as
2:26:26
she was to find out they
2:26:28
weren't adopting her. Though
2:26:34
nowadays social workers are always
2:26:36
encouraged to believe the children
2:26:38
under their care when it
2:26:40
comes to allegations of abuse,
2:26:43
the social workers who attended
2:26:45
to Karen's affairs believed Stanley
2:26:47
and Jennifer, seeing them as
2:26:49
victims of a recalcitrant and
2:26:51
sexually voracious child. On
2:26:55
one occasion, when Karen was taken to
2:26:57
the docks, she was gang-raped
2:27:00
and wound up in the intensive care
2:27:02
unit of a hospital being treated for
2:27:04
a sexually transmitted disease
2:27:07
yet again. The
2:27:09
staff were concerned this time that she was
2:27:12
only a child, concerned until
2:27:14
her social worker arrived and
2:27:16
told them what an
2:27:18
insolent and depraved child she
2:27:20
was. After
2:27:22
that, the staff's medical treatment
2:27:25
was perfunctory and their bedside
2:27:27
manner devoid of respect and
2:27:29
compassion. Karen was
2:27:32
sometimes placed in foster homes. In
2:27:34
eight out of ten such homes, she
2:27:37
was sexually abused. Sometimes
2:27:39
she was placed in the same kind of
2:27:41
institutions where Jimmy Savile abused
2:27:43
children, though she has not named
2:27:45
him as an offender. She
2:27:48
would bear witness as other children
2:27:50
in these institutions were abused. One
2:27:57
day when Karen was sent to one of the
2:27:59
units, They called Stanley and
2:28:01
Jennifer in for a meeting. They
2:28:04
explained to them their conclusion about
2:28:06
Karen's behavior. They told them
2:28:08
it was fine. They
2:28:10
decided that something else might be
2:28:12
behind her transgressive behavior. Something
2:28:14
besides being the demon seed she
2:28:17
was purported to be by them.
2:28:21
Stanley was asked why she was
2:28:23
so unhappy. He
2:28:25
called Karen a tart and
2:28:27
claimed she was an epileptic. I
2:28:31
am an epileptic and I
2:28:33
can assure you that a
2:28:35
seizure disorder makes no impact
2:28:37
on the subject's sexual behavior
2:28:39
and or output. Karen
2:28:43
suspected that Stanley was going to
2:28:45
maneuver his way into getting another
2:28:48
prescription for the tablets. All
2:28:50
the rage Karen had been bottling up
2:28:52
for months was ignited by
2:28:54
this and she leapt at him. She
2:28:57
punched and scratched his face. She
2:29:00
screamed at him, commanding him to tell
2:29:02
the truth. She shouted, tell them what
2:29:04
you really do. Jennifer said
2:29:07
in a calm and measured voice, come
2:29:09
on now Karen. She
2:29:12
turned to the social workers and said, I think
2:29:15
that's quite enough. Karen is
2:29:17
clearly very upset and all this
2:29:19
is making her worse. You're
2:29:21
distressing her. Anyone can see that.
2:29:25
Jennifer had Karen discharged that
2:29:27
very day, saying the
2:29:29
staff were upsetting Karen too much. She
2:29:32
said they were all going to move
2:29:35
to a district called Runcorn and
2:29:37
she would be treated in hospital there.
2:29:41
When they got home, Stanley
2:29:43
beat Karen savagely, saying, you're
2:29:45
getting me into trouble. She
2:29:48
just lay there and let the
2:29:50
beating run its course. She
2:29:53
spent the next few weeks in her bedroom. Not
2:30:00
only did the trafficking not stop at
2:30:02
that time, but to a limited
2:30:04
degree, Karen took a
2:30:06
proprietary approach. She knew
2:30:09
where the regulars were and if she wanted
2:30:11
money, she would approach
2:30:13
the client's independent of Stanley's
2:30:15
involvement. It was a temporary
2:30:17
pursuit, though. She realized
2:30:19
that by selling herself to pedophiles,
2:30:21
she would be no better than
2:30:23
what Stanley said she was, i.e.
2:30:26
a dirty slut. It
2:30:29
was at that moment when she decided
2:30:31
she would not pursue prostitution
2:30:33
as a money-making venture on
2:30:35
her own anymore. Karen
2:30:41
was still in and out of institutions. If
2:30:44
ever Denise told her she needed
2:30:46
her help, like with Stanley, Karen
2:30:48
wouldn't hesitate to return home to
2:30:50
protect her, even if it
2:30:52
meant escaping. While
2:30:55
in residential care, Stanley would
2:30:57
write letters to Karen that
2:31:00
were salacious in content and
2:31:02
lurid in description. They
2:31:04
would go something like, hello
2:31:06
Karen, how are you? Look
2:31:09
Karen, when you're sucking
2:31:11
things, it's no good
2:31:13
using your teeth. You
2:31:15
want to start thinking about what
2:31:17
you're doing, like otherwise it's no
2:31:19
good. Your sister does it
2:31:22
proper now, so it's time you started
2:31:24
thinking on. Karen
2:31:26
only read the letters as a means
2:31:28
to monitor the situation at home. That
2:31:32
way she could keep abreast of what
2:31:34
was happening in Denise's life. Jennifer
2:31:38
had a stroke which left the
2:31:40
left half of her body paralyzed.
2:31:43
It left her vulnerable, weak and helpless.
2:31:45
Karen helped her as she recovered in
2:31:48
hopes that it would bond them together
2:31:51
and her mother might transform
2:31:53
from the hateful, exploitative, abusive
2:31:55
bitch she had been. Unfortunately,
2:32:00
She reverted back to her old
2:32:02
self once she overcame the symptoms
2:32:04
of her stroke. Karen
2:32:09
decided one last time to tell her
2:32:11
mother that she was being sexually abused
2:32:13
by Stanley. When she
2:32:15
entered the room, Stanley was sitting
2:32:18
by Jennifer. Karen just came
2:32:20
right out with it. Mom,
2:32:23
Stanley still makes me suck his penis.
2:32:27
And I am not the only one. By
2:32:30
not the only one, she meant
2:32:32
not only her sister, but many other
2:32:34
children in the neighborhood. Stanley
2:32:37
wept off the couch and punched
2:32:39
Karen. Karen was
2:32:42
shocked when Jennifer got up and jumped
2:32:44
on Stanley's back. She shouted,
2:32:46
why can't you just leave them alone? As
2:32:50
Karen digested this, Stanley
2:32:52
begged Jennifer to let him explain.
2:32:55
Denise ran into the room. Jennifer
2:32:57
pointed at Stanley and said to her, is it
2:33:00
true? Is he making you
2:33:02
do this? Denise nodded
2:33:04
yes. Jennifer attacked
2:33:06
Stanley, punching him all the way out
2:33:08
the front door. She slammed it
2:33:11
in his face. Jennifer
2:33:13
asked Denise and Karen dozens
2:33:16
of questions. As Stanley
2:33:18
begged to be let in, he
2:33:20
asked her to give him five minutes
2:33:23
to explain himself. Jennifer
2:33:25
said, fuck off. You promised
2:33:27
to lay off them. Eventually
2:33:30
he wore her down and she let him in.
2:33:33
She sent the girls upstairs and she had
2:33:35
a talk with Stanley. The
2:33:41
next morning, Karen woke to the sound of the
2:33:43
doorbell ringing. When the door
2:33:45
was opened, someone said, good morning.
2:33:48
We are here to collect Karen. We
2:33:51
are from social services. Karen
2:33:54
was sent to a reformatory school for
2:33:56
girls. Once more, Stanley
2:33:58
convinced Jennifer to leave. that he
2:34:01
was the victim. Jennifer
2:34:06
died of a second stroke. The
2:34:09
day of the funeral, a wake was held
2:34:11
at the house. That
2:34:13
evening, Stanley and his perverted friend
2:34:15
Frank tag-teamed Karen in
2:34:17
her room. Frank
2:34:20
shoved a beer bottle into her rectum.
2:34:23
When she didn't respond, having
2:34:25
become so jaded after years of
2:34:28
sexual abuse, he became
2:34:30
resentful and shoved it into her
2:34:32
harder. However, there was only
2:34:34
so much she could take, and
2:34:36
she slammed her buttocks against the wall, smashing
2:34:39
the exposed end of the bottle
2:34:42
into pieces. Frank
2:34:44
still held what remained of the bottle. He
2:34:47
got up and fled. Stanley
2:34:50
was outraged. He screamed, What
2:34:53
have you got to be like that? Go
2:34:55
sort yourself out, you mad bitch. As
2:34:58
Karen dressed, her anus bled.
2:35:02
She shot Stanley a look that scared him
2:35:04
a little. He said, What's
2:35:06
the matter with you then? What
2:35:09
you looking at me like that for? Karen
2:35:11
said, If you
2:35:14
ever touch me or my sister again, I
2:35:17
will kill you. What
2:35:19
you being like that for? Go sort yourself
2:35:21
out. Put a pad on it or something.
2:35:25
You're getting yourself in the right mess. Karen
2:35:30
said, That's the last time
2:35:32
you touch us, or I will kill you. Do
2:35:35
you understand? Stanley
2:35:37
said, You're off your fucking head you
2:35:40
are. Why don't you fuck off back to school?
2:35:46
That's the last time you touch us, or
2:35:49
I will kill you in your sleep. Okay,
2:35:53
okay, just calm down. You
2:35:55
didn't seem that upset. I thought
2:35:57
it would be alright. Okay,
2:36:00
I was wrong. I won't do it again.
2:36:02
Just calm down One
2:36:06
day while Karen was supposed to be
2:36:08
examined for injuries the doctor at
2:36:10
her school Sexually assaulted her
2:36:13
She went to the police to report him But
2:36:16
he was well connected and retrieved her
2:36:18
at the police station where
2:36:20
he brought her back to the residential school
2:36:22
a few
2:36:28
days later a Potentially pivotal moment
2:36:30
happened that could have changed the
2:36:32
trajectory of her life if
2:36:35
only she hadn't been so jaded and disillusioned
2:36:37
by life in her words
2:36:39
a Few days later while
2:36:42
playing in the school swimming pool. I was
2:36:44
approached by three men and a woman They
2:36:47
walked up to me very briskly Announced
2:36:50
that they were from the police and
2:36:52
then after a few bland
2:36:54
questions one of the men asked
2:36:56
very matter-of-factly Have
2:36:58
you been having sex with your father? Stanley
2:37:01
Claridge I Was
2:37:03
completely taken aback by his approach Why
2:37:06
weren't they asking whether Stanley had been
2:37:09
abusing me not whether or not I
2:37:11
had had sex with him Nothing
2:37:14
made sense to me and
2:37:16
their confrontational demeanor immediately put
2:37:18
me on my guard Experience
2:37:21
had taught me that telling the truth
2:37:23
didn't help I Thought
2:37:26
every time I opened my mouth things
2:37:28
just get ten times worse. So I
2:37:30
didn't respond The man
2:37:32
asked me again. I Stared
2:37:35
at him for ages then said in
2:37:37
a flat voice That's
2:37:39
for me to know and you to find out He
2:37:42
looked put out and said look
2:37:45
sweetheart. We know you're upset because
2:37:47
your mom's just died But
2:37:50
your father has already told us everything and
2:37:52
we just want to chat with you. I
2:37:56
Look straight in his eyes and
2:37:58
said I'm not your sweetheart He's
2:38:00
not my father, and if
2:38:03
he's already told you, then you don't need
2:38:05
me to tell you. Now
2:38:07
leave me alone." They
2:38:10
walked away, the blankness
2:38:12
that had haunted me since mom's
2:38:14
death washed over me. Little
2:38:17
did I know, after all my
2:38:20
years of trying to make myself heard, this
2:38:22
was the closest I'd ever been to getting
2:38:25
Stanley stopped. One
2:38:31
day Karen was taken to magistrate
2:38:33
court. It turned out that
2:38:35
the doctor who sexually abused her,
2:38:37
John Marshall, diverted accountability
2:38:40
for the sexual abuse to
2:38:43
Stanley. Marshall had
2:38:45
read Stanley's sexually explicit letters to
2:38:47
Karen and submitted them to
2:38:49
police as evidence. Stanley
2:38:51
was arrested and charged. With
2:38:55
no warning or preparation, Karen
2:38:57
appeared as a witness in court. A
2:39:00
prosecutor said to her during the trial,
2:39:03
Stanley tells the court that he
2:39:05
has been abusing you in a
2:39:07
sexual way for some years now.
2:39:10
Do you understand? Karen nodded.
2:39:15
Do you agree with this? Karen
2:39:18
said nothing. The
2:39:20
prosecutor continued, Social
2:39:23
Services have been keeping a file on you since
2:39:25
you have been in their care, and
2:39:28
the courts have asked your social workers
2:39:30
to write a report from this file
2:39:33
to tell us more about you, which
2:39:35
you are not permitted to see because
2:39:37
of your age and sensitivity. Do
2:39:39
you understand? Karen
2:39:42
nodded. The
2:39:44
prosecutor went on to characterize
2:39:46
Stanley's abuse of Karen as
2:39:48
a quote, terrible crime end
2:39:50
quote. Stanley's attorney
2:39:52
said, yes, it is
2:39:54
a terrible crime and my
2:39:56
client, Mr. Claridge admits
2:39:58
it. but there
2:40:01
were mitigating circumstances. Karen
2:40:03
is a tease who sexually
2:40:06
forced herself onto Mr. Claridge.
2:40:09
He has repeatedly tried to stop her,
2:40:12
but has been unable to. The
2:40:14
problem, I'm afraid, is
2:40:16
Karen. When
2:40:18
Karen isn't at home, Stanley,
2:40:21
despite having a bad back,
2:40:23
is a loving, devoted father
2:40:25
to his daughters and committed
2:40:27
himself to caring full-time for
2:40:29
a sick wife, whom
2:40:31
he recently lost. Karen's
2:40:34
sister says that she has never been
2:40:36
abused by him and agrees
2:40:38
that whatever is happening is Karen's
2:40:41
fault, as do social
2:40:43
services, whose report
2:40:45
fully supports Mr. Claridge's
2:40:47
statement of mitigation. As
2:40:51
before, everybody looked at
2:40:53
Karen as if she were the
2:40:56
succubus of Stanley Claridge's waking hours,
2:40:59
a she-devil tempting Stanley
2:41:01
into depravity. Stanley
2:41:04
was nevertheless charged with indecent
2:41:07
assault for forcing Karen into
2:41:09
performing oral sex on him.
2:41:12
He was sentenced to three years
2:41:16
of probation. He
2:41:19
was sent back to live alone
2:41:22
with Denise while Karen went back
2:41:24
to live in an institution supervised
2:41:26
by John Marshall. Shai
2:41:32
ran away to London. After
2:41:34
spending some time homeless and fraternizing
2:41:36
with the criminal element, she
2:41:39
was mentored by a man who was
2:41:41
an expert in writing bad checks. Before
2:41:44
long, she mastered the art of forgery
2:41:46
in her own right and
2:41:49
elevated herself financially, getting
2:41:51
an apartment, a car,
2:41:53
and enjoying many luxuries
2:41:55
with stolen money and
2:41:57
merchandise. However,
2:42:01
at some point, the police figured
2:42:03
out who she was after a
2:42:05
life of identity theft, and
2:42:07
she was taken into custody. She
2:42:09
was placed back into residential care,
2:42:11
where she was abused once more.
2:42:17
Karen escaped and went to Stanley's house to
2:42:20
see if Denise was okay. She
2:42:22
was told by Roma and Stanley that
2:42:24
Denise hated her, but she
2:42:26
decided she wanted to find out from Denise
2:42:29
herself if this was true. Using
2:42:32
a cue they worked out together, Karen waited
2:42:34
for Denise to show up on the street,
2:42:36
and she did. After
2:42:38
Denise cried for a while, she updated shy
2:42:41
on what had been going on at the
2:42:43
house since she was gone. Kaz,
2:42:46
it's all got worse. There
2:42:48
are other children now, lots of
2:42:50
them. Everyone's kids are being
2:42:52
got at. There's kids all
2:42:55
over the house. I've tried to
2:42:57
stop him, but I can't. And Denise
2:43:00
began to cry again. Having
2:43:02
gotten that out of her system, she said, he told
2:43:05
me to tell you I hated you. He
2:43:07
told me to say that I never wanted to
2:43:09
hear from you again. He told
2:43:11
us to say it was your fault,
2:43:14
and he said that if I ever spoke to you again,
2:43:16
I'd be killed and buried
2:43:19
on Biddy Hill with the others.
2:43:22
He's making it up, Denise. He
2:43:25
wouldn't have the guts to do it. He
2:43:28
made me say nothing had ever happened. I
2:43:31
never hated you, Kaz. You know
2:43:33
that, don't you? I missed you.
2:43:36
I thought you were dead for ages. Shy
2:43:39
broke down what Stanley told
2:43:41
Denise about the person Karen
2:43:43
had supposedly become since she
2:43:46
ran away. She explained that Stanley
2:43:48
had been telling everyone that I was an
2:43:51
international, junky drug mule
2:43:53
who had just murdered
2:43:55
a police officer in
2:43:57
an undercover prostitution sting.
2:44:00
gone bad. He claimed
2:44:02
I was on the FBI's most
2:44:04
wanted list and the whole
2:44:06
country was looking for me. The
2:44:09
stories were so ridiculous that I
2:44:11
couldn't help but laugh. She
2:44:15
told Shai that with their mother out
2:44:17
of the picture, Stanley was not only
2:44:19
raping her more often, but
2:44:21
he was downright battering her. It was
2:44:24
a lot to take in, especially
2:44:26
when Denise told her she
2:44:28
attempted suicide. Like
2:44:30
Karen, Denise approached mandated reporters
2:44:32
in hopes that they would
2:44:34
take action on her behalf.
2:44:37
She wasn't quite so fortunate, as
2:44:40
Denise put it. I've told
2:44:42
my teachers and a social worker, like
2:44:44
you told me to, but they won't
2:44:47
do anything about it. It's
2:44:49
like they don't believe me, or
2:44:51
they do, but they think it's my fault.
2:44:56
At one point, Karen was in
2:44:58
such a rage about the abuse
2:45:00
that Stanley continued to inflict on
2:45:02
Denise and the other children she
2:45:04
stormed into his house. After
2:45:06
a half-naked boy left his bedroom,
2:45:08
she beat Stanley black and blue.
2:45:11
She said afterwards, I
2:45:13
told you what would happen if you touched
2:45:15
them again. Oh,
2:45:17
I know, I know, Kaz. Look,
2:45:20
I'm sorry. Calm down. I
2:45:23
can explain. I've missed your mom
2:45:25
since she died, you know. You know what
2:45:27
the others are like. They just won't leave
2:45:29
me alone. And
2:45:31
you know our Denise, she lies
2:45:33
about everything, and she only does it
2:45:35
with me when she wants something. Would
2:45:39
you like some Vaseline with that bullshit,
2:45:42
you lying, slippery piece
2:45:44
of shit? You
2:45:46
couldn't even let me say goodbye to
2:45:48
mom without turning it into another horror
2:45:51
fest. Listen,
2:45:53
Karen, you didn't even like her, and
2:45:55
she fucking hated you. Who do
2:45:58
you think got me making all those calls
2:46:00
to social services. Go
2:46:04
on. Well, it
2:46:06
was her, wasn't it? She wanted shot
2:46:08
of you, but I was
2:46:10
getting sick of her interfering like... Look
2:46:14
Karen, it wasn't always me,
2:46:16
was it? Be fair, what
2:46:19
about the times you used to do it without
2:46:21
me even asking? It wasn't just
2:46:23
me. All the fellas
2:46:25
liked you, but not your
2:46:27
mom. You would have been sent away
2:46:29
long ago if it weren't for me
2:46:31
fighting to let you stay. Really,
2:46:34
Dad? Why? He went
2:46:38
on to tell her everything Denise had
2:46:40
said and blamed her mother for what
2:46:42
happened because she hated her. He said,
2:46:45
I think she got a bit
2:46:47
jealous of me and you, like, but
2:46:50
what could I do? We had what
2:46:52
we had together. What am I gonna
2:46:54
do? I couldn't leave your mom.
2:46:57
She was ill, like, and she needed me.
2:47:00
I loved you all equally, but
2:47:02
she was getting on my nerves.
2:47:05
She couldn't do anything anymore. I
2:47:08
wasn't getting any more benefits to look
2:47:10
after her full-time and I
2:47:12
was having to feed her out of my money,
2:47:15
clean her shitty arse, and
2:47:18
carry her to the bathroom all the fucking
2:47:20
time, like, and
2:47:22
me with my back. It
2:47:25
was doing my head in. She
2:47:27
was a pain in the fucking arse, wasn't
2:47:30
she, Kaz? Lying,
2:47:32
Karen said. That's
2:47:35
why I did it. After
2:47:37
a pause, she said, why?
2:47:39
What did you do? It was
2:47:43
kinder in the long run. She had no
2:47:45
life. They said she would be dead in
2:47:47
a month anyway, and she
2:47:50
was like a fucking vegetable. So I
2:47:52
just popped over Billy Rainbows, then came
2:47:54
back and called the doctors. She
2:47:57
was peaceful, like she didn't
2:47:59
feel no pain. Not
2:48:02
only had he not convinced Karen that
2:48:04
all this was true, but she became
2:48:07
infuriated upon realizing that he was lying
2:48:09
to her. She attacked
2:48:11
him once again, screaming at
2:48:13
him, punching and ticking him.
2:48:19
Shai was determined to tell as many
2:48:21
people as possible about the sexual abuse.
2:48:24
She told parents in the neighborhood. Their
2:48:27
idea of taking action was
2:48:29
to forbid their children from going to Stanley's
2:48:31
house. Other
2:48:33
than that, they seemed to take the
2:48:35
allegations with a grain of salt. Social
2:48:38
workers had Karen arrested for
2:48:40
making false allegations, and even
2:48:42
the police, who initially took
2:48:44
her seriously, dismissed the
2:48:47
accusations. She admitted
2:48:49
to the social workers that she
2:48:51
had supported herself in London through
2:48:54
fraudulent activity, and they suggested
2:48:56
to the police that she be charged. After
2:48:59
a few victims denied claims of being
2:49:01
abused, nobody believed what
2:49:03
Karen said about the matter. She
2:49:06
was soon remanded to a girl's
2:49:09
reformatory, though she eventually
2:49:11
escaped after being sexually
2:49:13
abused there. Karen
2:49:19
was heading towards the bottom of a
2:49:21
downward spiral. To quote Shai,
2:49:25
I ran straight to a family member's house,
2:49:27
knocked on the door, and pleaded with them
2:49:29
to use their bathroom. They refused
2:49:32
to let me in. I begged,
2:49:34
but they turned me away. They
2:49:36
said, you're nothing but
2:49:38
trouble, you. Causing, bother,
2:49:41
wherever you go. Go on,
2:49:43
piss off. The
2:49:45
door slammed. Afterwards,
2:49:48
I stood in the street outside, oblivious
2:49:50
to the rain that was falling all around
2:49:53
me. I had run
2:49:55
out of options, used everything
2:49:57
I had, and still got
2:49:59
nowhere. It was growing dark,
2:50:02
and I had nowhere to go, and no
2:50:04
one to turn to. In
2:50:07
desperation, I found myself
2:50:09
on top of a fifteen-story block of
2:50:12
flats, ready to put an end to
2:50:14
it all. I just
2:50:16
knew it was time. I
2:50:18
stood on top of the flats and
2:50:21
gazed at Birkenhead, which was
2:50:23
spread out before me. No
2:50:25
matter where I looked, I was
2:50:27
reminded of one horrible memory
2:50:29
or another. Parks,
2:50:32
housing estates, docks,
2:50:35
streets. Everywhere
2:50:38
made me cringe and recoil.
2:50:41
I felt the world was slowing down. The
2:50:45
voice inside my head was saying, When
2:50:48
you jump, you mustn't look. It'll
2:50:51
make it worse. Don't
2:50:54
do it while things are slowed down, or
2:50:56
it will seem like forever. For
2:51:00
an instant, I thought about whether
2:51:02
it was the right thing to do. But
2:51:05
the voice said, Oh yes,
2:51:08
there's no way back from here. I
2:51:12
knew no one would mourn my death. I
2:51:14
was more alone now than I'd ever been,
2:51:16
and I'd run out of
2:51:18
fight. I was oblivious to
2:51:20
the cold, wintry night air or
2:51:23
the wind that was cutting through me. And
2:51:26
though there was still plenty of traffic
2:51:28
making its noise, I
2:51:31
couldn't hear a sound outside of what was going
2:51:33
on in my own head. I
2:51:36
had told everyone everything, and
2:51:38
nothing had changed. Somehow
2:51:41
I had always believed that the victims would
2:51:43
all come together and help
2:51:45
each other stop Stanley and his
2:51:48
friends, and the police
2:51:50
would do the rest. But
2:51:52
then, nothing was ever like I thought
2:51:54
it would be. I
2:51:56
think I watched too much TV. Why
2:52:00
should I be made to stay trapped inside
2:52:02
this hell, forced
2:52:04
to watch these monsters destroy
2:52:07
every single child whom fate
2:52:09
had brought their way? Stanley
2:52:13
had us all by the throats. There
2:52:16
wasn't anything any of us could do
2:52:18
individually, and we somehow couldn't
2:52:20
do it together. There
2:52:22
was nothing to do but jump. Hello?
2:52:26
Hello? Please, for God's sake, please
2:52:28
don't move. My name is Gwyn.
2:52:31
Can we talk? Can we just talk? A
2:52:34
voice startled me. I
2:52:37
thought, no, we can't fucking talk.
2:52:40
Can't you see I'm busy? But
2:52:43
I said nothing. I turned
2:52:45
slightly to my left to see
2:52:47
a young, anxious-looking policeman standing on
2:52:49
the next ledge over to me.
2:52:52
To me, the police were just uniformed
2:52:55
people who had forced me back
2:52:57
to hell by car. But
2:52:59
as I looked up at this
2:53:01
poor young, freezing policeman, teetering
2:53:04
on the ledge near me, I
2:53:07
could hear in his voice that he just wanted to
2:53:09
help me. Unfortunately,
2:53:11
he didn't know he was already
2:53:14
talking to a corpse. I
2:53:17
just hadn't been buried yet. I
2:53:20
turned my head away from him and looked
2:53:22
back down at Birkenhead. Through
2:53:25
tear-blurred eyes, I
2:53:27
suddenly became aware of all
2:53:30
the fire trucks, ambulances, police
2:53:33
and reporters gathering at the foot of
2:53:35
the flats. Oh shit!
2:53:39
This is not what I wanted. I
2:53:41
was disoriented and frightened by all
2:53:43
the different lights flashing on and
2:53:45
off. I started to
2:53:47
take in just how far down it was
2:53:50
from here and how very near the edge
2:53:52
I was. I didn't
2:53:54
want people to watch me die. I
2:53:56
wanted to be alone. I
2:53:59
wanted to think. I
2:54:01
took a big breath and sat down
2:54:03
quickly, making everyone, particularly
2:54:06
Glyn, gasp. Glyn
2:54:10
was talking to me, reassuring me. I
2:54:13
couldn't take in his words, but
2:54:15
as I looked into his eyes and
2:54:17
saw the desperation there, I
2:54:20
suddenly felt very sorry for him. He
2:54:23
looked worried and confused. Everything
2:54:26
seemed very clear to me. I
2:54:28
hated Karen's past life and
2:54:31
was deeply afraid of what fate had
2:54:33
in store for her future. I
2:54:36
hated her present life and thought it
2:54:38
was unbearable, so killing Karen
2:54:40
was the only answer I could see. Right
2:54:43
then, that voice I hear said,
2:54:46
you don't have to kill yourself to say
2:54:48
goodbye to Karen. I
2:54:51
took a moment to think about this, and
2:54:54
in what seemed like an eternity, I
2:54:57
made my choice. I
2:54:59
stayed sitting down on the ledge, but
2:55:02
mentally, I stood up
2:55:04
and leapt off the building with my
2:55:06
eyes tight closed. As
2:55:09
I did so, I said farewell to
2:55:11
Karen forever. There
2:55:14
was no pain, no sudden impact,
2:55:17
just total blankness. Karen
2:55:20
was dead, and whoever lived here
2:55:22
now was currently out.
2:55:26
Goodbye Karen, rest in peace.
2:55:32
Shai was led away. Shortly
2:55:35
after being taken back to the
2:55:37
reformatory, she was charged for all
2:55:39
the fraud-related crimes she committed. Before
2:55:46
court date, Shai's lawyer reviewed
2:55:48
her social services file and
2:55:50
said, these people hate
2:55:52
you, I've never seen a report like it.
2:55:56
According to him, the outlook was
2:55:58
incredibly grim. I'm
2:56:00
not so sure we're going to be able to keep you out
2:56:02
of prison. In fact, I
2:56:04
don't think there's a chance, not in light
2:56:07
of this report." Though
2:56:10
the judge was sympathetic to her at
2:56:12
first, declaring her a very misguided 15-year-old
2:56:15
girl, after he read
2:56:17
the social services report, he sent
2:56:19
her to prison to, quote, calm
2:56:21
down, end quote. He
2:56:24
sentenced her to six months to
2:56:26
two years in prison. Her
2:56:29
heart barely skipped a beat. She
2:56:31
was used to her life being shitty. How
2:56:34
much worse could prison be than
2:56:36
being raped and trafficked every day?
2:56:41
Shai was informed while in prison that
2:56:43
she was unlikely to be released after
2:56:46
six months, because even though
2:56:48
she had become a model prisoner, there
2:56:50
was nowhere she could be placed. That
2:56:53
is, unless she was willing to
2:56:55
go live with Stanley again. You
2:56:57
heard it right, folks. Her
2:56:59
two options were to stay in
2:57:02
prison or go live with her abuser.
2:57:05
She chose Stanley's house, but was
2:57:07
already devising an escape plan. Her
2:57:11
escape route came in the form of a
2:57:13
man she met as a pen pal. He
2:57:16
asked her to marry him when
2:57:18
their relationship was barely beyond infancy.
2:57:21
She accepted his proposal without thinking
2:57:23
twice. They soon moved
2:57:26
to Germany. Just
2:57:28
a year into marriage, she moved back to London
2:57:30
to live on her own. She
2:57:33
didn't feel the freedom of starting anew. She
2:57:35
felt like her life was over. With
2:57:41
her position as a young woman with a
2:57:43
fresh new start in life, she purchased a
2:57:45
motor bike and became a courier. It
2:57:48
was enough to sustain her financially, and she
2:57:50
got an apartment of her own. After
2:57:55
all she had gone through, she
2:57:57
suffered an internal struggle as she made her
2:57:59
way through outside world, as
2:58:01
Shai put it. When
2:58:03
you've been through as much as I had,
2:58:05
though, starting over isn't as
2:58:08
easy as it sounds. With
2:58:10
no anchor, I couldn't see myself in
2:58:13
my past, my present or
2:58:15
my future. I was like
2:58:17
another person, trapped inside the
2:58:19
shattered remains of an old human
2:58:22
being, trying to make
2:58:24
all the broken parts work and survive
2:58:26
day to day. I
2:58:28
was like a human ghost
2:58:30
ship, drifting on a wild
2:58:32
and treacherous sea, with
2:58:34
the hull ripped away and nothing
2:58:36
left inside of it. For
2:58:38
so long, I lived in a
2:58:40
world where people had been unable
2:58:43
to believe what Stanley really was.
2:58:45
Even those people who said that they believed
2:58:48
me, still blamed me and
2:58:50
accused me of being the cause. It
2:58:53
was as though when they looked at me,
2:58:55
they saw Stanley for what he really was
2:58:57
and hated me for it. Some
2:59:00
social workers had said they were sure I
2:59:02
was going to be a monster, and
2:59:05
so I would spend endless unhappy
2:59:07
years waiting for that sodding monster
2:59:10
to appear in me. When
2:59:13
it never materialized, I hated them
2:59:15
for putting that stupid idea inside
2:59:17
my young head. I wasted a few
2:59:19
more years resenting the time
2:59:21
I had lost waiting for it,
2:59:24
until I learned to stop doing that as
2:59:26
well. They had found
2:59:28
it so easy to see some imaginary
2:59:30
monster inside me, but could
2:59:32
not see Stanley for the monster
2:59:35
he was. It would
2:59:37
take me many years to come to terms
2:59:39
with this, and a lot
2:59:41
longer to let it go. Society
2:59:43
hated and feared Stanley's crimes,
2:59:47
but because they did, they discriminated
2:59:49
against me. I wasn't
2:59:52
just a child victim of mental,
2:59:54
physical and sexual abuse. I
2:59:56
was also poor and orphaned,
2:59:59
Had been in.
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