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M Hi.
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I'm Chelsea Clinton, and this is in fact
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a podcast about why public health matters
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even when we're not in a pandemic. Today,
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we look at what happens when healthcare gets
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politicized. We've seen a lot of
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that over the last year, with the conversation around
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mask wearing, social distancing, and getting
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vaccinated becoming more fraught by the day,
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and we'll dive into all of that on the season
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of the podcast. But long
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before COVID, there was already a political
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battle happening around one of the most personal health decisions
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there is whether when and
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how to become a parent, which
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brings us to reproductive rights into planned
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parenthood. You've probably heard of
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Planned Parenthood there in the headlines a lot,
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often unfortunately because of another
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attempt to defund the organization. But
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on this episode, I want to go beyond the headlines.
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I want to talk about the healthcare provider that one
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in five women in the United States has been to
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at some point in her life. It offers
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everything from breast exams to HIV screenings,
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to save in legal abortion, and provide
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sex education to millions of people every
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year. I also want to talk about
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the lessons we can learn from the fight to protect reproductive
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rights and how we can apply those lessons to other
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public health issues like confronting a pandemic.
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So today I'll be talking with Dr Kleen mc
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nicholas, chief medical officer of Plan Parenthood
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in the St. Louis region in southwest Missouri.
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Also here from author, actor and director
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Ambrea Tamblin about her personal story. But
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first I'm talking with Planned parent and president
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Alexis McGill Johnson. Alexis
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officially took the helm of the organization in June. She
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has been an activist for years, working on issues
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of social, racial and reproductive justice.
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I'm so glad to sit down with her for a
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conversation about the moment we're in and where
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we're headed. So,
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Alexis, thank you so much for being with us today,
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and I think it would be just helpful
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to start with how you first got involved
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with Plan Parenthood. I actually
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was not reproductive justice
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or reproductive rights activists for the great
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majority of my life. And I found
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myself one day in New York City walking down
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towards Spring Street, which is right in the middle
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of Cash neighborhood, and so ho and
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I looked up and I saw this billboard that
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had this adorable little black girl's face on
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it, and I just instinctively looked up to figure out
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what she was trying to sell. You know. I got
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closer and I saw the words, and
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the words said the most dangerous
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place for an African American is
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in the womb, and it just piste
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me off. I just could not get
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the notion that black women's
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sexual reproductive health choices were,
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you know, essentially damned if we do, damned if we don't.
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And I got so angry about it. I couldn't
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stop talking about it. And I ended up at a
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dinner party with Cecil Richards, who's
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the former president of Flint Parenthood,
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and I just kept pestering her about this billboard,
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and I said, you need to do something about this.
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This is on your watch. You need to do something about this.
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And she's like, um, you need to do
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something this and she recruited
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me in that conversation into the
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movement. Can you talk a little bit
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about how you're taking that moment
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of outrage that you clearly still feel from
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all those years ago and soho and helping
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people understand that reproductive
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rights are racial justice issue.
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Yeah, absolutely. I mean, look, racism is
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a public health crisis. When people talk
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about systemic racism, what they're talking about
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is the intersection of a lot
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of systems that marginalize people
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of color, that create disparate
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impact, but also disparate access to
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experiences in healthcare. So it
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could be everything from the transportation
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system to you know, where hospitals
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are located, to quality
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of care that is provided. All
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of these ways ladder up to
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separate and unequal systems of healthcare.
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And there are areas in this country, as you
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know, where your healthcare is literally determined
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by your zip code. I think that
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what this year or this last year
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has demonstrated very clearly under
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COVID is that the people
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who were most impacted, the people who were defined
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as essential workers, the people who
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even right now are struggling to get
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in a line to get a vaccine, are
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more likely to be people of color,
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low income communities. And that
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to me is the work the
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kind of safety net, of the safety net for
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communities that really don't have access
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to quality healthcare. And I think
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one of the most galling things
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that we've seen over the last year how
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in some states politicians have exploited
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this moment to try to further restrict
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access to the reproductive
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healthcare that every woman in our country
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should have access to. Can
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you just talk a bit about how you've
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responded to that as an organization, but
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also how you've supported your providers
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and your patients, for whom this isn't
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just political rhetoric, it's it
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is deeply personal. COVID
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gave us a real peak behind
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the curtain to at a world
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without ROW would look like we saw
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it at the beginning of the pandemic. Politicians
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across the country, particularly those hostile
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to sexual and reproductive health, we're using
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the pandemic as a cover to limit access
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to abortion. And what we saw
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was not people not seeking access to abortion
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and sexual reproductive healthcare. We saw people,
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in fact, getting in their cars and driving fifteen
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hours from Texas to Colorado because
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they were seeking what they needed to live
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full and free lives. We
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know that without ROW,
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roughly twenty five million women are going
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to be in states with restrictions
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who might not have access, and so
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the work that we've had to do as
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an organization with our partners has
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had to think about what does the infrastructure look
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like how do we support the travel,
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help do we support through telehealth? Where
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will the fights be as we move into
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our contentious state legislative season
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to ensure that the majority of people
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who support access to sexual rebuctive healthcare
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aren't ordered by a vocal minority.
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I do want to talk about stigma because one
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of the ways that we have found
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to be effective in combating stigma
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is through sharing stories. So are there any
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stories you would like to share of planned
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parenthood patients over the time that maybe have really
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stayed with you. Yeah. I mean
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back when we were flying, I remember
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getting stuck at the Washington d
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C. Airport. You know, when it rains, you can
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be stuck on a tarmac for hours and hours
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waiting to take off. And I
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happened to be sitting next to this woman
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who was walking me through all of
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what was happening because she happened to be an aerospace
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engineer. I probably chatted her up for a
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good two hours, and finally she turned to me
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and she's like, well, what do you do? And
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I said, you know, I'm probad of the planned
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parenthood and she was like, oh
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my god, that's amazing. And
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then we kind of went on. We took off
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thirty minutes later. I said, thank you so much
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for explaining what was happening
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in the air. I can't wait to tell my daughter's about you
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and how exciting a career in aerospace
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engineering could be. And she said, well,
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thank you, because if it hadn't been for the abortion
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I had at twenty two, I would not be an
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aerospace engineer. And
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it was a moment of just her
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normalizing and experience she had
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in college, an experience that she knew
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a choice she need she need to make in order to
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become the person that she wanted to be.
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Those are the stories that I hear often through
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plant parenthood, or when I talk about the work
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and I talk about the mission Alexa's. I
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think part of the work you
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have to do is in some ways the
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outcome of us not having
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age appropriate, consistent sexual
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and reproductive health education in schools.
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Education is probably the number one thing that people
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come to pland parenthood for around
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understanding their bodies and sexual
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education. I think we also find
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that parents are grappling without
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the access in science based
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curriculum around sexual reproductive
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healthcare in our education system
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is apparent myself of young girls. It
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has been really important in addition
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to reinforcing the needs for
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sex education, to also reinforce
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the core value of freedom
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and what self determination means
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and what bodily autonomy really means.
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My ten year old asked to to dye
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our hair a couple of years ago, and
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you know, in a school, wearing uniforms,
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and wanted to differentiate herself. And I was completely
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like, no, We're not dying
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our hair. That's not happening. And her
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response was, but you always tell
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me my body is my own, My hair is my body,
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It is my own. And I couldn't
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argue with that, right, I mean, because those
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are the values and the lessons that we are trying
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to build, and that's what we were trying to inculcate
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through you know, the sex education work that we
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offer throughout the Federation, as well as the kinds
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of policies that we have championing across the country.
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So did she dye her hair? She did
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magenta magenta. I
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wanted to paint the walls
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of my childhood bedroom
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alternating shades of
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pink and purple. I had this image, Alexis
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that I was going to have like a kind of pink to purple
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rainbow, and my mother just
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said, no, I mean it
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was it was definitive. There was no space
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for any compromise. And I
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wish that I had gone the hair
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route because I think she probably
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would have supported that. So
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please tell your daughter, I have some you
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know, decades belated envy.
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We'll be right back to stay with us. I
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think one of the challenges
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I would imagine at this moment Alexis is
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that while there is hope
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kind of embedded in the new administration
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of President Biden vice President Harris
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for more robust
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public health and health care access
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and hopefully the protection of
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access to safe and legal abortion
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actually being expanded, we also
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now are confronting a conservative
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majority on the Supreme Court and
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a number of governors who
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right now are working to restrict
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access to safe, legal
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abortion. How do you talk
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about the mix of hope
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and yet also caution and the
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need to be able to push towards expanding
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health care access while also preventing
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the dismantling of health
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care access, including through prim parentet
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How do you balance that In talking with
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with supporters, First of
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all, the the the amount of damage that was
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done over the last four years,
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the harms that we have to undo over the last
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ten years. We do have a tremendous
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amount of work to get to a
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HIDE repeal, and alexis I'm
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so sorry to interrupt, but before we go on, could
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you just remind folks about what the High Amendment
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is. The High Amendment is a policy
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that bars people who depend on medicaid
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from accessing abortion, and so
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it is typically attached to budget
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bills as a way to energize
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anti abortion constituencies, and
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the impact of it is that
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disproportionately low income people, people
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of color, people who are more likely to be
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systematically barred from healthcare, transgender
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communities, non binary people, young people, they
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are not able to use their
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health insurance to access safe and legal
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abortion. So HIDE, I think,
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as a as a moral issue as
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much as a lived experience issue,
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is very critical for us to take
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on along with the Biden Harris administration,
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to make sure that we find a way to repeal
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it in this moment where we
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have more people paying attention to public health than
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probably ever before because of the COVID
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nineteen pandemic. What's the one
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thing that you wish people understood
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about reproductive and sexual health?
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Than about planned parenthood. I
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want people to see and understand that planned parenthood
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is a critical part of the public health
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infrastructure. That by being
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part of a public health infrastructure, it
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means we are fighting for health care for all and
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we are there literally as a safety
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net. Plan parenthood for
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me, is about fighting for freedom.
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That when you are able to control your own body,
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it gives you the capacity to
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imagine where you want your future to
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be and who you want to be in that future. Many
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years ago, I was on a panel in which
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I said I wish that my grandmother
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had been able to go to planned parenthood. Now
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that got manipulated
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by the anti choice activists to claim
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that I wish that my grandmother had aborted
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my mother, and that I clearly
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was so self loathing that I wish I'd never
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inborn. And of course
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what I meant was that for my grandmother, who had
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had to start working to support
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herself before her fourteenth birthday, when
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she got her first period, there was no one there to help
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explain what was happening to her
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body. When she later
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shared with me how boys
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had touched her in ways that made her feel very
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uncomfortable and unsafe when she was in high
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school, because she was a really vulnerable
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young woman, um living in someone else's
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home, helping to take care of their children, to just be
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able to support herself and have the chance to kind
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of pursue her own education. What,
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of course I meant was I wish there had been somewhere
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safe for her to go to ask questions
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about what was happening to her body,
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to feel like she had agency over
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what was happening to her body, to have the
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tools to say no to
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people who are making her feel uncomfortable
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and unsafe, because that
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is fundamentally what I think every
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person should have in our country. And
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I'm incredibly grateful that Planned
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Parenthood exists, and incredibly grateful
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to you, Alexis, for your leadership and for
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your time today. Thank you so very
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much, Thank you so much for sharing that with
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me, and thank you for having me. Alexis
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McGill Johnson is the President and CEO
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of Planned Parenthood Federation of America.
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On any given day, there's a lot of debate about
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reproductive rights happening in Congress, state
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legislatures, and across the courts, but
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the most profound conversations about this issue
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are taking place at clinics across the country between
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healthcare providers and their patients. These
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conversations aren't about scoring political
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points, about science, medicine
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and public health and the day to day reality
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of people's lives. And I think about some of
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what I've experienced when I was a kid and people would
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yell at me about my parents positions on choice, or
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these days when people yell at me on Twitter, I
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think about just how much all of that
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pales in comparison to what doctors like Clean
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McNicholas experien It's every day she
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worked her planned parenthood of Missouri, the
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state where politicians have worked really hard
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to limit access to abortion care, and
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yet every day she provides healthcare,
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including abortion, to patients who are making the decisions
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they know are right for them and their families. I'm
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incredibly grateful that she could be with us to talk
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about her important work. So
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Dr McNicholas, thank you so much
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for being with us today. Thank you so
15:25
much, Chelsea. If you're bringing this
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topic to your listeners, and
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so Dr mc nicholas, could you just describe
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what you do in your job for anyone who might
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be listening who has only
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heard of planned parenthood when
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it's uttered as a curse instead
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of as a place where anyone can
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go to access any care that
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they might need. Just can you tell
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us a little bit about about your job. One
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of the great things about planned Parenthood is the
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diversity of services
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that it provides. Yes, it
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most certainly provides abortion care, and it's
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to do that, but it also provides a
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breath of different sexual reproductive
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health access and services, things
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like breast exams in annual
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wellness exams, prevention of
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HIV through services
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like PREP. Many affiliates also
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provide services to transgender communities,
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affirming gender through hormone therapy.
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There are so many things that planned Parenthood
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provides to the community that go beyond
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abortion. But I think true to our
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core, we recognize that abortion
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is healthcare. It is part of
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the reality that pregnant capable
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folks across their lifespan will
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encounter in some way, shape or form.
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And if I have learned one thing over my time
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as an O, B, G, I, N, it is that everybody
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has an opinion about abortion until
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they face the possibility of needing one.
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And it's at that point that they really
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think about what do they believe right
16:56
what do they deserve access to in
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a way that talking points and
17:00
political pundance can't really inform.
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Can you just talk about what it's
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like to be a doctor working
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at a state where the political leadership
17:10
clearly has very different values and a
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very different approach. You know, Missouri
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is one example of many states across
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this country where we have just
17:19
one clinic left that provides
17:22
abortion. And although we talk
17:24
about the promise of ROW, and for many
17:26
people, even those who support abortion
17:28
access, they don't actually understand
17:31
what it means to have the
17:33
reality of ROW be actualized.
17:35
Right If you can't pay for your abortion, if
17:38
you can't figure out how to have your children cared
17:40
for while you travel hundreds of miles,
17:42
and in Missouri that means multiple times,
17:45
then ROW means nothing to you. And
17:47
that's the reality for so many people
17:49
across this country, not just in Missouri. I
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have to tell you, and I started my ob du in
17:54
residency, although I knew that abortion
17:56
would be part of the care that I provided, I
17:59
really envisioned my career as
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a O B G, I N who practiced
18:04
a broad spectrum of
18:06
of services and that abortion was just
18:08
one of those things. But I
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never really envisioned myself in
18:12
the space I am now. It really was
18:15
through experience with politicians
18:18
in Missouri that I came to
18:20
this space, and I came to this space
18:23
as I realized with bill
18:25
after bill, regulation after regulation,
18:27
committee hearing after committee hearing, that
18:30
the voices being heard had nothing to
18:32
do with medicine, had nothing to do
18:35
with the people who are accessing
18:37
the care, who need the care, And it really
18:39
felt like an insult to my medical
18:41
degree and that of my colleagues that
18:44
we spend this time and in this
18:46
country money to get educated,
18:49
to be able to give of ourselves and that talent
18:51
to help the community be more healthy.
18:54
Yet it is a completely separate
18:57
system with largely
18:59
no medical background, with no
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public health degree or education
19:04
that is driving public health policy.
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And so for me that became an inflection
19:09
point. It became important for me to then step
19:11
into the arena of public policy
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and to be a voice for people who need this
19:16
care. You know, we don't ask
19:18
people having colonoscopies to go to the
19:20
capital and talk about why they deserve access
19:23
to a colonoscopy, But somehow
19:25
we've gotten to this point where we are
19:27
asking and demanding and in some
19:29
ways feel like we need people to talk
19:32
about their abortion to justify
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access for that very basic
19:37
and routine health care for your patients.
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Do they see these choices that
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they're considering, or if
19:45
they do decide to terminate
19:48
pregnancy, do they see any
19:50
aspect of that experience as political
19:53
or is it mainly the politicians who
19:55
see it as a political issue. You
19:57
know, the interesting thing is those who are affected
19:59
the most by these regulations in laws
20:02
are those who are already disproportionately
20:05
marginalized, who are already facing
20:07
so many barriers in their life. And the
20:09
truth is, once they decide
20:11
that pregnancy and parenting
20:13
are expanding their family is not right for them
20:16
today, they jump
20:18
through hoop after hoop and they attempt
20:20
to do whatever they can to be able to access
20:22
that care. You know, folks
20:25
who access abortion span
20:27
the spectrum. There are religious folks,
20:30
there are black and brown and white folks.
20:32
There are young folks and older folks. There
20:35
are Republicans and Democrats
20:37
and independence all who have abortions.
20:40
And I will say this for folks
20:42
who are not accustomed to being
20:44
marginalized, who are not accustomed
20:46
to being told what they can
20:48
and cannot have and how they have it, the
20:51
level of indignation
20:54
and anger they have when they
20:56
find out that no, they can't have their procedure
20:58
today, they have to come back another day and know
21:01
your insurance won't pay for it. That
21:03
is something that unfortunately now we have
21:05
to fix in the voting booth. And did
21:07
you think about this when you were voting
21:10
last time? Again, it goes back to having
21:12
that personal experience, having
21:14
empathy, having thought about what this
21:16
could mean for you if you ever were
21:19
in that situation. Do
21:22
you see echoes of
21:24
the debates in Missouri or
21:26
around the country around how to navigate
21:29
COVID nineteen to what you have
21:31
navigated yourself as a doctor and as
21:34
an abortion provider. You
21:36
know, it's such a great question. My
21:38
wife is an I see you doctor, and so
21:40
she has been on the front lines of the COVID
21:42
pandemic since it started. And
21:45
one of the things that very early on became
21:48
clear to me is that the
21:50
politicization of COVID in
21:52
the pandemic response and now vaccine
21:55
distribution, the groundwork for that
21:57
response was laid and facilitated
22:00
by what we allowed to happen
22:02
in the reproductive health policy world. We
22:04
allowed legislators and regulators
22:07
to go unchecked, nobody
22:10
questioning the truthfulness
22:12
of the things they were saying and the laws that they were
22:14
passing and the rules that they were enforcing,
22:16
And so they desensitized an entire
22:19
community of people around
22:21
public health, and that laid the groundwork
22:23
for where we are today. So it's
22:26
not surprising to me and to my colleagues
22:28
with one regulation, with one politician,
22:31
with one sentence sort of dissuading
22:33
people about the truth and the reality
22:36
of a public health crisis. It
22:38
didn't happen overnight, you know, It's been happening
22:40
since nine three. They
22:43
have been feeding these lies
22:45
and helping folks to
22:47
slowly get to a point where they don't trust
22:50
medicine and science. And although
22:53
it was ignored for a long time because
22:55
it was just abortion, just abortion,
22:57
just abortion, and nobody wanted to be involved
22:59
in a controversial discussion. The
23:02
consequences, though, are now an
23:04
entire health care system that is on its
23:06
knees because we allowed
23:10
constant lying and changing the narrative
23:12
around public health. I think that is
23:14
such a powerful and important point.
23:17
We live in, you know, a first world country
23:19
where our state and our federal government
23:22
should be helping to protect our public
23:24
health. But they're not, and that's
23:26
no different than when somebody is seeking pregnancy
23:29
care. We're
23:33
taking a quick break. Stay with us.
23:44
Could you just reflect on the different first
23:47
conversations you have with patients
23:49
who come to you to maybe
23:52
share a decision they've already made as they're
23:54
trying to decide whether or not having
23:57
an abortion is the right decision for them.
23:59
What those conversations
24:01
like, you know, I'm thinking actually
24:03
of a patient we just saw who chose
24:06
to terminate her pregnancy for a number
24:08
of reasons, but was incredibly
24:11
sad about the judgment and the shame
24:13
that she felt from who she thought
24:15
should be her support system.
24:18
As abortion providers, as
24:20
folks who interact with people going through
24:22
this process, I think actually the science
24:24
and the medicine is quite easy. The procedure
24:27
is not difficult. The thing we
24:29
spend the most time with and the thing
24:31
we developed the most in our training, is
24:33
the ability to sit with patients and provide
24:36
that space. Most of them just need
24:39
a empathetic and compassionate
24:41
ear and someone to reaffirm
24:43
that choosing to end up pregnancy
24:46
doesn't make them a bad mom. One of
24:48
the things I often say to people as they're
24:50
leaving the procedure room or leaving
24:52
the clinic is be kind to yourself. And
24:55
unfortunately, you know, the stigma around abortion
24:58
doesn't allow people to put those
25:00
things in the front of their their head. You
25:02
know, it's folks who have
25:05
overcome substance use disorders,
25:07
who are finally on the right path,
25:10
who have been cleaned for maybe a
25:12
week, maybe three months, maybe three
25:14
years, but who see this pregnancy
25:16
as a real threat to the success
25:18
of their sobriety and their ability to
25:21
parent the kids they have. I think
25:23
of another woman who, just days
25:25
before finding out she was pregnant, was also
25:27
diagnosed with metastatic melanoma,
25:30
and she shared how this
25:33
procedure will allow her to then
25:36
get treatment and maybe be around
25:38
to care for her one year old in five years.
25:40
I mean, these are the stories we hear day in and day
25:43
out, and I want to be clear, there is no good
25:45
abortion or bad abortion. Every abortion
25:48
is the right decision for the people who make
25:50
it. And it's pretty rare that people
25:52
come in not having that
25:54
decision made already, not already knowing.
25:57
But what is less common
26:00
and is people feeling comfortable
26:02
and confident in that decision because
26:04
of the world around them, and what
26:07
we do is just provide that reassurance
26:09
to people that they are good people. Good
26:11
people have abortions, And
26:14
I think, Colleen, it's especially important
26:17
that, as you said, that this is
26:19
not uncommon, and that many
26:22
of the women who make this choice are
26:25
making this choice for the children that
26:27
they already have. If we
26:29
are going to have
26:32
an opinion, I hope that it certainly
26:34
comes from a place of empathy,
26:36
but also informed by
26:38
the reality represented by
26:41
the thousands of women that you've cared for and
26:43
the many, many, many thousands
26:45
millions of women for whom this has been
26:47
part of their lives. The
26:50
reality is is there are many ways where
26:52
we could address some of these issues
26:55
right. Drivers of the
26:57
need for abortion include things
26:59
like economic make in financial insecurity.
27:01
Yet we struggle as a community to
27:03
believe and to execute on a livable
27:06
wage, being able to carry
27:08
a pregnancy safely, and
27:11
to maintain your health throughout that requires
27:13
health insurance. But we can't
27:15
quite get to a place where we believe everybody
27:18
deserves access to basic
27:20
health care to keep them healthy.
27:22
If you live in a place where
27:25
your housing is transitional, the
27:27
thought of expanding
27:29
your family seems inconceivable.
27:32
So there are ways that policymakers could
27:34
do something to help reduce folks
27:37
need for abortion care. Abortion
27:39
won't ever go away, but gosh,
27:42
if we could fix some issues around housing,
27:44
insecurity and equal pay
27:46
a livable wage, and by gosh,
27:48
I'm not sure that fifteen is even
27:51
a livable wage, and we can't quite get
27:53
there. So there are many things that we
27:55
could do to address some of
27:57
the need for abortion. But
27:59
you know, the hypocrisy of those who
28:01
really want to do away with abortion is
28:04
that they're also not willing to entertain any of those
28:06
things. Could you just reflect
28:09
kind of on how the work
28:11
you do comes with the consequence
28:13
of greater risk for you and
28:15
your loved ones, how
28:18
you live with that risk, how you
28:20
manage it honestly, but don't let it overwhelm
28:23
you or undermine your work. You
28:25
know. How how we manage that risk is
28:28
different for everybody. And what I will
28:30
say though, at the core, is that
28:32
if at some point folks feel
28:35
like the risk is not manageable,
28:37
it is appropriate for them to step back.
28:39
You know, sometimes for those of us
28:41
in the movement, we are so committed
28:44
to access into the work
28:46
that sometimes we lose sight
28:48
of the fact that we are real people and we have real
28:50
kids. I have a ten year old little
28:53
guy, and and certainly we are
28:55
always reassessing that risk. We
28:57
take some very basic precautions. We have
28:59
cameras in security systems, and certainly
29:02
our organizations, Planned Parenthood, the National
29:04
Abortion Federation have teams of
29:06
security folks who are keeping an eye on
29:08
us, and we're appreciative that. But
29:11
you know, honestly, I wake up every
29:13
day knowing that I'm doing the right thing,
29:15
that I have in my core a
29:17
true belief that this work is important
29:21
and that risk is worth assuming,
29:23
to continue to live by my values, and
29:26
to know that at the end of the day,
29:28
I am on the right side of history. Every
29:31
person should be able to make what are
29:33
the right and best decisions for themselves
29:35
and their families. And I hope that every
29:38
person is lucky enough
29:40
to have healthcare providers
29:43
like Dr McNicholas in their
29:45
own lives. So thank you so much for
29:47
your time today. Thank you. Dr
29:51
Killeen McNicholas is the chief medical officer
29:53
of Planned Parenthood of the St. Louis Region in southwest
29:56
Missouri. It's
30:00
one thing to talk about the decision to end a pregnancy
30:02
and the abstract it's another thing to actually
30:04
make that decision. So for
30:06
today's episode, I reached out to my friend Amber
30:08
Tamblin. In addition to be an author,
30:11
actor, and director, she's also
30:13
a fierce advocate for every woman's right
30:15
to make her own health care decisions. She's
30:18
been incredibly brave and generous
30:20
in talking about her personal experiences
30:23
as someone who has had an abortion, as someone who's
30:25
had a miscarriage, and as someone who
30:27
is now a mom. I'm just so honored
30:30
Amber could join us to talk about all of this
30:32
and more so for
30:34
this episode about choice, We've
30:36
talked to the president of Planned Parenthood
30:39
Plan Parenthood, doctor, and I'm
30:41
so thankful to have this chance to talk with
30:43
you because you just have been so open about
30:46
your personal story, and I hope you could share
30:48
that with us today.
30:50
Yeah, of course, So I think before I
30:52
tell you the end of the story, I have to tell you
30:54
the beginning in the middle of the story, because those
30:57
two things really inform the
30:59
choice that I may, which was to terminate
31:01
a pregnancy and to have an abortion. I'm
31:03
thirty seven now and I've been acting
31:06
since i was ten years old. Between
31:08
the age of ten and about
31:10
twenty five or twenty six, I
31:13
had gone from being on a soap opera as
31:15
a child. When other kids were going
31:18
to school and then after school they were
31:20
going to get to go to McDonald's or get to go hang out
31:22
at a friend's house. I was going across
31:24
town to the ABC Studio lot to
31:26
go shoot a TV show. And
31:28
around my mid twenties, I really
31:31
had quite a deep existential
31:33
crisis and had to examine
31:37
all the ways in which I felt very
31:39
detached from my choices
31:41
in my life and my ability to choose
31:44
whether or not I wanted to be an actress. You know,
31:46
people would always interview me and say
31:48
how old were you when you do you wanted to be an actress?
31:51
And I used to just answer that question like a robot
31:53
and say, well, it all started when I was doing
31:55
a school play. YadA, YadA, YadA. But around
31:57
my mid twenties I really started to really
32:00
lies that when you're a child,
32:02
you don't really make that choice. Parents
32:05
make that choice for you, Adults around you
32:07
make that choice for you. I've done
32:09
it for so long I hadn't had a moment to
32:11
stop and think, do I want to
32:13
do this? Is this the life that I want?
32:16
Around my mid twenties, I also was
32:18
struggling a bit with some addiction
32:21
issues with drinking a fair amount.
32:24
I couldn't do auditions anymore. I
32:26
was really bad at them, and then when I failed,
32:28
I went into spirals
32:30
of deep, dark depression. So
32:33
right around this time I had just gotten married
32:35
and a few months after I found out I was pregnant.
32:38
It paralyzed me. It
32:40
was not the feeling I wanted to feel. It
32:43
was not the way that I wanted that experience
32:46
to happen. My greatest
32:48
fear in the world was that if I had not
32:50
done some of the work on myself, if
32:52
I had not severed that
32:55
old version of a
32:57
young girl who was just an object for
33:00
a living for twenty years, who
33:02
knew she had so much more to offer
33:04
the world, but that the world didn't know that yet,
33:07
what kind of parent would I become? What kind
33:09
of mother would I be to bringing
33:11
a young child into the world? Would I harbor
33:14
resentment against that child because
33:16
that child was going to inevitably have the childhood
33:19
I didn't get to have. How would I feel in
33:21
this sort of crucial moment
33:24
between these two lives. If suddenly
33:26
this other life that I was hoping to have one
33:29
as a director and a writer and a
33:31
producer and and an actor,
33:33
like to be able to do all of those things together, maybe
33:36
I wasn't gonna be able to have any of those things with
33:38
a child, because oftentimes, and
33:40
everything I had ever seen from women in my family
33:43
was that women harbored the burden of
33:45
child care and raising children.
33:48
How is that going to change my life? So I made
33:50
that decision, and it was very difficult
33:53
for my husband. I was
33:55
sad because I loved him and I had just gotten
33:57
married, and in my head, I thought, this
33:59
is what you're supposed to do, right. I have money
34:01
in the bank, I own a house, I
34:04
have an incredible husband. What's wrong
34:06
with me? What the hell is wrong with
34:08
me? Why is this what I want? I
34:11
know that I made the right choice in
34:13
that moment, at that time in my life, and I also
34:15
know that now that I am a mother, and
34:17
I feel like I'm a pretty incredible mother
34:20
for a lot of reasons, and a lot
34:22
of those reasons have to do with those choices
34:24
that I make. Thank you
34:27
for sharing the beginning and
34:29
in the middle of your story, as well
34:31
as the choices that you've made
34:34
and for doing so so bravely.
34:37
When did you decide to share the
34:39
story of terminating
34:41
a pregnancy, and also why
34:43
you knew that was the right choice for you
34:45
to make at that moment in time. I'm
34:48
a storyteller through my body, so I'm
34:50
very connected to my body
34:53
and how it speaks and what it says. And
34:56
I remember that the sort of a
34:58
few weeks after we
35:00
had found out that I was pregnant, I remember
35:04
hearing my body so loudly
35:06
saying, this is not the time,
35:09
This is not good for you. And
35:11
if it's not good for you, it will not be good
35:13
for that child. So I made the choice.
35:16
So we talked about it, and I made the choice. So
35:18
I shared that story in my last
35:20
book that I wrote, which was called Era of Ignition,
35:23
Coming of Age in a Time of Rage and Revolution,
35:26
which sort of has looked at the last four
35:28
years of American life and
35:30
what it's been like for women and this sort of condensed,
35:33
palpable change that has taken place all
35:35
throughout the country. So I share it
35:37
in the very opening pages of that book,
35:39
mostly because I didn't want to bury
35:41
it inside, like a treasure to be found.
35:44
I wanted it to feel normal and
35:47
real and for people to understand
35:49
that that was, in that moment
35:51
freeing for me. And what
35:53
it allowed me to do when that happened
35:56
is that it allowed me to say, I have chosen
35:59
life. Actually I chose my life. I
36:01
chose my life, which is not something I
36:03
had ever really done before, because, as I
36:05
said, I was always used to just being
36:07
an object for a living. So for me, I
36:10
did choose life in that moment, and
36:12
I wanted that to be expressed in the writing
36:14
of that book. I wanted people to know that
36:17
every woman has a different story and a different
36:19
experience with terminating a pregnancy.
36:21
For some women, it is an absolute
36:24
relief, It is a sense of freedom,
36:26
it is a sense of choosing themselves. For
36:28
other women, it's extremely painful.
36:31
I know I have several friends that have experienced
36:33
that, having determinated a wanted pregnancy,
36:35
that they didn't want to have to terminate the
36:38
pain that that brings you,
36:40
and I think ember one of the many misconceptions
36:42
around women who make the choice
36:44
determinated pregnancy is how most of the
36:46
women are already mothers or
36:48
will become mothers and
36:51
I'm curious if, after the air of
36:53
ignition and you sharing your story publicly,
36:55
did you have people who reached out to you to share
36:57
their stories or who shared that you helped
37:01
them tell their stories to their kids maybe
37:03
or to others in their lives. Yes,
37:06
I did. I'm not speaking out of turn with this because
37:08
I asked her if it was okay if I shared it. But my
37:10
mother actually told me that before I
37:12
was born, she had terminated a pregnancy
37:15
because she had no money. She was completely
37:17
broke and terrified. She
37:20
and my father weren't even married yet. My dad was
37:22
like a struggling artist at that point, so
37:24
my mom shared that with me. I think
37:26
I was quite surprised by
37:29
the outpouring of
37:31
people reaching out, commenting of stories
37:34
written about it. Talked about being pregnant
37:36
with fetuses that were incompatible with
37:38
life, which basically means there's no possibility
37:41
that fetus will turn into a child
37:43
and live, and making that choice, and the pain
37:45
of that choice. I talked to other women
37:48
who talked about, you know, even though they had not been
37:50
child actors or had my experience, had
37:52
their own similar experiences of feeling
37:55
robbed of their life and unready and
37:57
terrified for what kind of parents they might
37:59
become. So I was really quite taken
38:02
aback in a great way and humbled
38:04
to read so many stories.
38:07
We're living now in this year where
38:11
we're on track to see the highest
38:13
number of abortion restrictions enacted
38:16
by state legislatures and signed by their governors
38:19
across the country since Ruby Wade
38:21
first of effect decades ago. How
38:24
do you feel knowing that is happening,
38:27
and what do you think those
38:29
of us who believe it's really important
38:31
that women be able to make the best choices for themselves
38:33
and their families can be doing to try
38:36
to support women who are living in
38:38
states where that isn't what their legislators
38:40
and governors believe. There is a
38:43
stomach fear of the power that
38:45
women can wield naturally, and
38:48
I think that's why we're seeing so many of
38:50
these laws. These laws are also deeply
38:53
classist and racist. Yes, wealthy
38:55
white women have always had choices, that
38:57
is correct, and so they are not accounting for
39:00
the millions of women, low income women,
39:02
and women who do not have access to childcare,
39:05
let alone the ability to terminate
39:07
a pregnancy, and they think that is enough
39:10
to stop women for making that choice.
39:12
But if we've learned anything from
39:15
history, no amount of laws
39:17
are going to stop women from
39:19
choosing the right choice for their body.
39:22
I think if it got worse and worse, women
39:24
are going to continue to fight harder
39:26
and go further underground with their choices
39:29
the way that they had to before. Roe v. Wade.
39:32
I think it's a reminder to all of us
39:34
too that we have to continue
39:36
fighting. That we can't look just to presidential
39:39
elections as the thing we fight
39:41
for in that particular year, because
39:43
that's the fancy thing we want to fight for in
39:45
the moment. We have to remember that the
39:47
fight is happening around us all the time.
39:49
It's happening with voter registration right now
39:51
and so many different states. It
39:54
has always been happening against women's
39:56
bodies, the weaponizing of
39:58
us, of our choices, of our health care, all
40:01
of it has always been here. So this
40:03
fight is not something that's new. These
40:06
types of laws are not something that's
40:08
new. I think about perseverance
40:11
a lot. We can't think of this
40:13
as something that is going to go away for
40:15
a while and that we can just rest and
40:18
rest on our laurels and come back later and
40:20
fight again. It needs to be talked
40:22
about at all times, it needs to be
40:24
destigmatized at all times. The
40:26
more you can hear those personal stories,
40:29
the more the Megan McCain's out
40:31
there, who you know I'm friendly with, but
40:33
who believes ardently, ardently
40:36
pro life, Even though I cannot
40:38
imagine Megan in a situation
40:40
in which she had a fetus incompatible
40:43
with life, what choice she would make in that
40:45
moment until it's happened to you,
40:47
You don't know until you've been that woman.
40:50
You can't say what a woman should or should
40:52
not do until you've had that experience.
40:55
You just have no right. Amber,
40:58
Thank you so much for everything.
41:01
Thank you for everything. Such a pleasure.
41:03
Thanks for having me. Chelsea
41:09
amber Tambland's most recent book is Era of
41:11
Ignition, Coming of Age during a
41:13
time of rage and revolution. When
41:16
a deeply personal health issue becomes politicized,
41:19
the result is often disastrous,
41:21
disastrous for patience, and disastrous
41:24
for public health or at large. And as we heard
41:26
today, the consequence is almost always
41:28
fall hardest on people living in poverty,
41:31
people of color. And I
41:33
don't know about you, but I find it really
41:35
frustrating, especially during a pandemic,
41:38
to hear that yet another room full of mostly
41:40
white, mostly male politicians
41:43
has voted to make it even harder for
41:45
women to get the health care they need. Thankfully,
41:48
though, there are many ways
41:50
to channel that frustration into action. For
41:52
starters, we can support organizations
41:55
like Planned Parenthood and other organizations
41:58
doing the work to help protect payations
42:00
and protect reproductive rights. And
42:02
we know that we can't stop there. We need to
42:04
make our voices heard by registering to vote
42:06
and turning out for every election.
42:09
I know that with an ondes lot of laws like the one that
42:11
we've seen this year, it can be easy to
42:14
get discouraged. But thankfully,
42:16
the majority of people in this country support
42:18
reproductive rights and believe that a portion should
42:21
remain safe and legal. So
42:23
we have to keep speaking out, we have to keep
42:25
showing up, and we have to keep having conversations
42:27
like these about why it's so important
42:30
to protect access to reproductive healthcare for
42:32
everyone. Thanks for listening,
42:35
and we'll see you next week. In
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