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To even question what you've
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been told is true is incredibly courageous
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. It doesn't always feel like courage
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. What looks like courage to other people , For
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me it feels like survival . This
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is our personal medicine . If I'm surrounded
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by thinkers , by lovers , by
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passion , by integrity , then I really
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do think that I know who I am . There is a piece
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that is indescribable when you're
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being who you are and you're living your purpose
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, When I come to the end of my life and be like I
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didn't live the life I was meant to live , Can
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I be so comfortable in the unknown and
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so comfortable in that uncertainty
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that every version of it is going
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to be okay ? This
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is the Inner Rebel Podcast .
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We are so excited to introduce our
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guest today . We have Christine
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Pride , who is an accomplished
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and talented writer , editor
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and season publishing veteran who
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has held high-profile editorial posts
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at major trade imprints including Double
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Day , broadway , crown
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, hyperion and Simon Schuster
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, and helped publish a range of amazing
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books , including a number of New York
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Times bestsellers . In 2021
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, christine made the transition into being an author
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herself and , alongside her friend
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, joe Piazza , she co-authored the
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hottest book of 2021
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, the bestselling novel We Are Not Like Them
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, which was a Good Morning America Book
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Club pick and listed as a best book
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pick of 2021 by Harper's
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Bazaar and Real Simple . Christine
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is also a freelance editorial consultant
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. She also pens the column Race
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Matters for a cup of Joe , which is so
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good , and Christine and
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Joe are about to release their much-anticipated
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new book , you Were Always Mine , which
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I just had the privilege to read and is
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so , so good , and that hit shelves
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on June 13th next week . Christine
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, through your books and your column
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, i see you as such a catalyst
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for fostering more
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vulnerable , honest and healing
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dialogues about race and
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class identity and relationships
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between friends and families and communities
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, so I want to thank you for the richness
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and generosity of your work
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. We're so honored . We feel really
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excited to have you with us today
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, so thank you for joining us .
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Well , that was quite the intro , and I'm so
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happy to be here And I love having
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these deep , rich , honest
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, vulnerable conversations . I mean , as you
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said , that's why I write , that's why I work
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in publishing , to publish other books
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that foster these kind of conversations , and so
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I'm so excited to have one of them
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with you here today We warn
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Christine that we go deep .
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We do .
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There's no surface level . I'm in a book club
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that we're very serious . It's not like a social
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wine drinking I mean it is also but
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we really read the books and have thorough
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discussions . And I told them we were interviewing you and they're
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like OK , well , we're going to read the book and
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we're going to make the podcast a requirement
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also , and I was like this is so fun
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.
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I love that .
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I know They were so excited They're like , oh my gosh
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, this is such a great you know , and I know you probably
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get that all the time , but it was fun to integrate
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this into a piece of my personal life too 100%
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, And that's the beauty of book clubs I love .
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You said that you have like a serious book club
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which I think you can drink
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the wine and have the snacks and be serious
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too , I like to think . But I love this
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idea that you're gathering
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really to have a meaningful conversation
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about books . And I love book clubs because they
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start about the book but then they ideally
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venture into people's personal
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lives and they can serve
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as a catalyst and a launching point to share
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and talk about the real
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stuff , so to speak , And so I'm
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a big fan of book clubs . for that reason
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, absolutely .
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So , speaking of the real stuff , we ask
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a question to our guests . You
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know , we just read a list of your accomplishments . We
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understand how the world sees you , but
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we're also very curious how you experience
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being yourself . So you can answer this
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any way that you like , but we'd
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like to ask you who are you and
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how is that different from who you
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thought or were told you
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were supposed to be ?
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Oh , we're really going deep , fast
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and really thoughtful , and
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I'm going to answer on the fly
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here . You know that's such an interesting but
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obviously hard question , because I think
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who are you on one
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level is something that's always changing
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right . I mean especially when you think of a
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whole lifetime . I'm about to be 47
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this summer And I
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feel like there's been many iterations
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of who I am . At the same
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time , i feel like as a person
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I've stayed remarkably the same , and
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it's so interesting to me because , especially you
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know , we are not like them . My first book
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with Joe was about a lifelong friendship
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and I have so many friends
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that fall into that category , right , friends
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that I have been close with
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since , you know , first grade , second
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grade and so on , and
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with that you can really have
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kind of a mirror reflection , right
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, have how you're the same or
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different , because you've had somebody to
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witness all those iterations of
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yourself and all the different experiences
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and how they've changed you . And
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so I think it is remarkable that I
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have felt like myself
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, if that makes sense , from
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such a young age , and that has
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not really deviated a lot
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. I've obviously been changed
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and grown by experiences , but I
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feel really lucky in that way that
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who I am , the core of
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who I am , remain the same . I
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don't know if that answers your question , but I would say who
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I am is steady . That would be
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an adjective that I would use
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to describe how I move in the world
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.
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I'm curious what the through line is you
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know throughout your life that helps you connect
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to that sense of who
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you are . What is that experience of being
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you that you identify with
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?
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I think it's a real sense of self
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And again , i think this is something
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that I was sort of lucky to be born
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with . Some of that is innate , that
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you just have some sense of self-possession
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, and I think it's something that my parents
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really nurtured in me as well
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, a confidence to believe in both
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my capabilities and
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you know confidence , but
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also a real concern with
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the outside world , as
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it were . I think one of the things that I've struggled
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with the most in that capacity that I think
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a lot of women won't relate to , is
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this sense of what is expected
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of us as women And I'm as much of a
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you know sort of ingrained people , please
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, or as the next person , right . So
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the idea of I want
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to be guided by what is real and
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right and true for me , but I also
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loathe the idea of anybody being
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upset with me , unhappy with me , disappointed
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in me , and so I think that's
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where that self-possession comes in
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right , where you can weather
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that a little bit better , even
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though those messages are so insidious when they come
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at us . And , like I said , it's really ingrained
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in me . But I have
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that sort of counterbalance
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of really being true
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to what I believe and what I want
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and with such a balance
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throughout life And , i think , honestly , something
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that you get better
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at over time I found
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that , luckily , to be the case
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.
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Yeah , it's one of the great things about Life
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After 40 is you start to care less
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about other people's opinions . But
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it sounds like you've really had to untangle
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that people pleasing or rebel against it
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in order to live more authentically , even though
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your authentic voice feels so innate for you
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. So I'm curious has it been
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age that has helped you navigate
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that , or what are some of the other things that you've
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had to , or that you've called upon in that
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process of being less paralyzed
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by people pleasing ?
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Yeah , I think it's age . I mean , as you said
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, there is a shift that happens . And you
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know , like when you talk to teenagers today and
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you say , oh my God , just wait . And it's
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so condescending And I remember being a teenager
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and I'm like , ah , I mean I felt
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that same way , I think , in my 20s and 30s
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when people would say , when you get to 40 , you're
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not going to care and you're going to be liberated and all the
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things that they tell us . But turns out
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it's true , There is a real
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shift And I think the
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actual shift comes more with this
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idea that it doesn't work
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. I think that's what you realize , right
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, Like you can spend like nine people
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pleasing or contorting yourself
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or trying to measure up or
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chasing these . You know illusions
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of perfection or all the things . But
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if it worked , that might be
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a different story , right , If everybody did that and
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then everybody accomplished all those goals and
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was perfectly happy , we'd keep doing
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it . But I think by the time you get to a point in
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your life you realize
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all the energy that sucks
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up is sort
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of pointless And you don't have that same
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level of energy anymore , frankly . So
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you have to really be clear about where you're
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spending your emotions and your
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time , And I just don't
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have the bandwidth , I think , to do
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that anymore .
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And that's actually a theme that
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runs through the book . It's a struggle for
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a lot of your characters . There's all
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these characters who are hiding aspects
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of their identity or they have a fear of being abandoned
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, right if they're seen for who they really
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are . So , given that there's
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this through line for you of actually feeling quite
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connected to your truth and quite consistently
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authentic , I'm curious why
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this is a theme that you're drawn to in
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your work .
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Yeah , that is so interesting that you say that because
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, especially for our first book , we
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are not like them . Riley
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is our black character and Jen is our
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white character in the book And
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people often asked me
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specifically are you Riley ? Or
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how are you like Riley Are ? people make
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these assumptions . I mean that happens all
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the time , right when writers are writing fiction
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Is the character you , or what parts of
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the character are you ? And to some
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degree with our second book too , with our main
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character , Cinnamon Hance , who's also a black
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woman . I think it's really interesting
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that we created
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characters that are so different
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from us And Riley is so different
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from me , And mainly in the way that you
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describe that Riley has a really hard
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time accessing her emotions
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and talking about her emotions and
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admitting vulnerability And
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she hides behind her
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ambition and her drive to succeed
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and to get to the next level right . For so
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many people It's all about the chase
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, And the same with Cinnamon , the
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main character in our second novel . She
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has a lot of trauma in her past that
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she feels like she'll be judged
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for , And so she doesn't , especially
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as a black woman , right when you fall into the stereotypes
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and tropes of having certain kinds of backgrounds
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, And so she doesn't want
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to reveal those things . And as
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a person living in the world , I
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feel the exact opposite . Right , I'm a
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person . This is why I so support the mission
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of your podcast , Because I'm just a person
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who feels like we have to be honest , We have to be
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vulnerable , We have to live our truth
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. Nothing ever comes from pretending
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I couldn't deny an emotion that came
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over me if I wanted to . I don't understand
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people who can kind of pack things
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away and compartmentalize them . Sometimes
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I wish I could do that , maybe even a little better
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, but it is what it is , And
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so I think I've subconsciously
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really created characters
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that are so different for me but that I want
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to help get
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to an emotional place
11:47
that they feel freer , And that
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has kind of been the arc for
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both of these characters through
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their journeys in the story right To
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get to a point where they can trust more , be more
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open , more in touch And , what's
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fascinating , how that comes
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to be even with out a
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level of direct intention .
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One that sounds like you're using your innate
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natural gift . Sometimes we can't even recognize
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the things that we're so good at And we're like , oh , if
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it comes so naturally to me , could I really even
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make a difference with that thing ? But it sounds like that's exactly
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what you're doing , and I loved
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when you wrote in the epilogue about choosing
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yourself , being clear on what you
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want and trusting your intuition
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, and as I read that I was like these
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are the three things that I think women
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struggle with the most or at
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least in my experience as a coach , and
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that choosing yourself as often
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at the foundation of everything . I'm
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curious how do you navigate choosing yourself and
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being clear on what you want and trusting your intuition
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in your life ?
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It's a daily challenge . I
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mean , i think one thing that really helps
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is community and to have
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people around you that ground
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you . I mean that's been really important
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to me and that is why I wanted to write
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a book about friendship And I mentioned
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that I have a lot of lifelong friends , because
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that's such a force for good
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in people's lives , or it can be
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, and that is a sort
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of checks and balance system for me to
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have people that I trust , who
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can tell me if I'm not
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choosing myself , or who can
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help reflect that back to me
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or when I express an intuition
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and if I'm about to go against it . It's
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like , well , no , you said that You
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felt this way , or remember how you thought this
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about a person or a choice or
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would have you , and I think it's
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really difficult to live life
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in a vacuum and to live
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your life by those three principles that we just talked about
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in a vacuum , and so really
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having people in my life and a partner
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and a family that
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helped me with that has been really
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beneficial .
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Well , I think that's really interesting , because I think
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a lot of reasons why people tend
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to go against
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themselves is for that sense of belonging
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or is to appease others , right ? So
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that speaks , i think , a lot to the quality
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and the kinds of people that you surround yourself
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with And how well you feel known and
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seen by them , that you
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would trust them in that way .
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And that makes a big difference , i think
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, having people that you can be your true self
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around and it's
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not easy to do . And again
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, that is one of the things that came
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up between our two characters , jen
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and Riley , in the first book , where it's
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how intimate and true a
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relationship can you really have if
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you're not bringing your full self to it
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. And these are two women who
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have been lifelong friends , who get to
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their 30s and
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realize because
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of dramatic external circumstances
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but that happens to us right , that realize
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or forced to realize that
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their relationship isn't as close
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as they might have thought it was . And
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I think that happens to a lot
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of us in friendships or
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in family or in marriages right
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, where you go along and you go along and you think you
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have this good relationship and then
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something happens or you just
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kind of internally
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realize that you are not bringing
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your full self into this relationship And that's
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a really hard thing to
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shift , but it's
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the most beneficial
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or impactful things to shift right
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. There's no point at least in my mind
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in being in a relationship
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that is at
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best superficial but at worst
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is damaging to you because you feel like
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you're constantly approaching it
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with a level of pretense , and I think that
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can be really damaging to people . So
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I really try not to
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do that in my life And , if anything , to
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model that so other people don't do that
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.
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Yeah , And I think it's so tricky because you don't
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always know you're doing it . When
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you talked about code switching , which I
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think both Jess and I learned
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about that term for the first time .
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There's an article in Cup of Joe just
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for clarity , christine , as a column
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, race Matters And there is this
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article on code switching , which was a new concept
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for both of us .
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As I was looking into that , i'm like that
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was one of the greatest sources
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of my anxiety . I had pretty
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horrible anxiety for really up
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until my early 30s and I'm 40 now
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And that whole
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principle of I have to be this
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version of me over here in order to
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be loved And I have to be this version over here in
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order to be loved or at least that's what I believe And
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you realize that you mold
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yourself to be this different person throughout your
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life And it's the subconscious thing
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that's happening until you
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start to become aware of the disconnect
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that you feel internally And I fundamentally
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felt like something was wrong with me and
16:48
who I actually was , and that I had
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to do that Because if I was actually
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me , then I would for sure lose
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my sense of love and belonging . And
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so just to bring it back to the
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fact that you have had such solid friendships
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and communities and what a critical component
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that is in life is that feeling of
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I get to be all of me and
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that's actually what you want from me . You
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don't want me to try to be somebody different , but it's so
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hard , it's one of the hardest things .
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Well , Melissa , let me . Am I allowed to ask questions on
17:19
this podcast to switch it around , Of course
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, because I'm so curious .
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No , just kidding Yeah .
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How you sort of broke out of that mold then
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right , because I think that , as you said , it's really
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hard to do and there are a lot of different
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ways that people do that or sort
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of shook into doing that , whether it be a life
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changing experience or therapy or
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a friendship , that makes all the difference . So
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what was ?
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it for you . There's about 9,000
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examples I can give honestly . But one of the
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biggest things that I've done is gotten community
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and intimate groups of
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women So I do masterminds
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that I participated in . I have done
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a lot of sacred feminine work in really
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safe , intimate
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groups of women with trauma informed facilitators
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, where the expectation was that you
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show up vulnerably and instead
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of hiding , and the facilitator knows
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how to hold that container in a way where you actually
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are safe . And doing
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that over the last eight years on
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repeat has allowed me to go deeper and deeper
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and realize that I
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mean some of it is true . I have lost my
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belonging the more that I have become myself . So
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it's not an illusion , it's not like oh , i made that
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whole thing up , it actually happened . So
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forgiving forgiving
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when those things have happened , but also really
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sticking out very purposefully communities where
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that's the norm , and also now I
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facilitate those in my business , and
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so I agree with you wholeheartedly
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that you cannot do it without the mirror of
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other people .
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Yeah , and I think it's interesting that you say that
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in a good point that there's not
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not a cost , right , like I think
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, in terms of being vulnerable and showing up as
18:53
your full self . I mean , we tell people to do
18:55
this and we want them to do it And
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it's still net net . You know a good thing
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, but nothing is 100% good or 100% bad
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. But people should be prepared for the fact that
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, as you say , when you , when you are self-possessed
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and when you show up as your real self , and when
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you are not a people pleaser
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, and when you are willing to put yourself
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first and follow your intuition and all these things
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, there can be collateral
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fallout to that
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and people should be ready
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for that with the understanding that still
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, the benefits outweigh those
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costs .
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Yeah , but I think it's important to be honest about that because I
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don't even think it's . If I think it's , when
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I've yet to find an example of someone that's really
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navigated through this and stepped fully
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into themself that hasn't had some collateral . You
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bring in so much more joy and
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so much more truth and the community that
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you really want to be surrounding you , and
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maybe you have a different partner
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that you call into your life , but I've seen a lot of marriages
19:49
dismantle . I've seen some
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pretty big friendships dismantle . I've had
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two really heartbreaking friendship breakups
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that I've navigated and so I think
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it's . It's almost inevitable , but
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to your point it's . It's worth
20:02
it because who you get to be and who you get to
20:04
be surrounded with on the other side of it is
20:06
it's like I can breathe . I can
20:08
stop pretending . This is so refreshing .
20:10
Cole hardedly agree with that .
20:12
I actually think this is exactly what the book you
20:14
are always mine is about , and
20:16
it was one of the major conversations that
20:18
I took from the book , which is
20:21
the one that the character seemed to be having between
20:23
the systems and social constructs
20:25
that prescribe our identities and our
20:27
sense of self , and how that conflicts with
20:29
our need for love and belonging
20:32
, who we think we need to be in order
20:34
to have that acceptance because of those societal
20:36
narratives , and how those narratives actually
20:38
end up obstructing connection
20:41
. both of the women in the book
20:43
do have to make sacrifices to
20:45
make the choices that are right for themselves
20:48
and lose things as a result of
20:50
that and gain things as a result of that . So
20:53
I'm curious what is the discussion
20:55
that you hope people are having after
20:57
reading this ?
20:58
Exactly that . I mean , we are saddled
21:01
with so many expectations
21:03
, and particularly as women
21:05
, and then you add a layer of how
21:07
you move in the world with regard to your
21:09
race on top of that , right , and how it affects
21:12
things . And what we
21:14
really like to show in our novels
21:16
, both our first book and in this one
21:18
, is what happens when you turn those troops
21:21
on their head right And look at those
21:23
common scenarios from a different
21:26
perspective , right ? So we
21:28
always hear of
21:30
white parents or white mothers
21:32
fostering or adopting
21:34
black children or raising
21:37
black children or brown children , and
21:39
we rarely see the reverse
21:41
or even think about the reverse . So the premise
21:44
in and of itself , at face value
21:46
, whether you read a word of the book or not , i
21:48
think is a provocative premise of what happens
21:51
when a black woman finds
21:53
a white baby and takes this baby
21:55
in , right ? Like that raises thoughts
21:58
and reactions , instinctively
22:01
, right , that are so interesting . But
22:03
the bigger question even is what
22:06
are like responsibilities
22:09
to each other and how do we make decisions
22:11
about what kind of families
22:14
we have that are outside
22:16
the conventional norms ? right
22:18
? You didn't have a two parent
22:21
family with parents
22:23
matched you and you matched your own
22:25
gender , and all the things like
22:28
the quote unquote norms Each
22:30
time you fall outside
22:33
of that very narrow box . There's
22:35
collateral to that And I
22:37
think about that a lot . As a single
22:40
woman well , i'm in a relationship , but
22:42
I still identify
22:45
as a single woman , even in a relationship
22:47
, and a person who has no children
22:49
. I'm outside the box in a
22:51
lot of ways , as our characters are
22:54
, and so it's really interesting
22:56
to look at that perspective of outside the
22:58
box .
22:59
Yeah , and it's so fascinating because most
23:02
people are outside that box .
23:03
I think everyone's outside that box , right . That's the thing
23:05
. It's a ridiculously yeah
23:07
everyone , you're right , not most people .
23:10
Everyone's outside the box , really , yeah .
23:12
Yeah , but I think that's what I mean when I say that . I
23:14
think the question of the book is how
23:17
are we choosing these constructs , these narratives
23:19
, these systems over our
23:22
humanity , you know , over our
23:24
need for simply being
23:26
loved and having connection right
23:29
Now , totally ?
23:30
And also , how do we defy
23:32
expectations in a way , or
23:34
at least to buck up against expectations
23:37
, right That we don't expect
23:39
this scenario , or if a woman gets
23:41
pregnant , we expect her
23:43
to have the baby , or somebody gets married
23:45
, we expect them to stay married
23:48
, no matter what . Or ?
23:49
you know , we have all of these very
23:51
extreme rules .
23:54
I mean , that's really what they come down to Rules
23:57
. Maybe they're unspoken , but they are rules
23:59
in our society about how it should be
24:01
, and anybody that
24:03
falls outside of that is
24:06
wrong . And
24:08
thus it's really hard to
24:10
make choices against those
24:12
expectations . And that's what Cinnamon
24:14
runs up against . Right , she loves this
24:16
baby and she wants
24:19
to help this baby . She
24:21
wants to even help the baby's birth mother without
24:24
giving too much away . But what kind
24:26
of cost does that come
24:28
to her ? What's that gonna
24:30
cost her and is she willing to pay ? it Is
24:33
kind of the driving force of the narrative , but
24:35
that question is applicable in
24:38
a universal sense to us all . And so
24:40
if you ask , what's the question that
24:42
I hope people wrestle with in the book and I
24:44
think that's it What are you
24:46
willing to pay ? What cost
24:49
are you willing to deal with for the love that you want , for
24:51
the life that you want , for the community
24:53
that you want ? as you said , melissa , right To
24:55
get to the other side of whatever
24:57
your crucible is , what
25:00
are you willing to sacrifice along the way ? That's
25:03
a really vital interrogation
25:05
that people have to do on their own lives And
25:07
you can't put your head in the sand , as a
25:09
lot of us try to do , and pretend that we don't
25:11
have to do . That work right .
25:14
You wrote , and I think the same article about
25:16
code switching you wrote who
25:18
do you believe sets the expectations for how
25:20
we can be and why and how do you think
25:22
we can create a world expansive enough
25:24
that we're all allowed to be authentic
25:27
? That is a big question . I
25:29
know that that's really a good question
25:31
for us all to see .
25:32
I'm like why did I ask such a hard question
25:34
?
25:34
Yeah , Pop
25:38
quiz . Where are you sitting
25:40
today with that question ? I
25:42
?
25:42
mean , i'll give you a very recent
25:45
and it's gonna seem trite example
25:47
, but it adds up to something bigger , which
25:49
is , you know , i sent out a mass email
25:51
last night about the book , one
25:53
of those terrible , shameless self promotion
25:56
kind of emails that all authors
25:58
have to do , that it or torture us . And
26:00
I'm such a perfectionist , right , like so I
26:02
had to figure out Mailchimp and all the things . I
26:05
tested the links . I proofread the email like blah
26:07
, blah , blah And the links . None of the links
26:09
in this email work . And it's
26:11
not really my fault , i think it's a Mailchimp issue . But
26:14
I spent the entire morning
26:16
, or good part of it , like spiraling about this , because
26:19
I think those messages
26:21
of perfectionism and
26:23
expectations and being
26:25
accountable to yourself and
26:27
showing up every day and all
26:29
those things seem to coalesce in
26:32
this stupid I will admit
26:34
email situation . But it was about
26:36
so much more than that , right . It's about
26:38
what we can forgive ourselves for and have grace
26:40
for and lower the stakes in
26:43
our lives for , and I think that's what
26:45
we need to do in terms of that big
26:47
question , which is just constantly
26:50
check with
26:52
ourselves about why we're
26:54
having reactions to things and if it is
26:56
something that's externally
26:58
motivated or internally motivated
27:01
, and how we're showing up
27:03
to our work and our relationships
27:06
, and that adds up to me
27:08
to kind of a constant vigilance
27:10
, right . So I could say this morning
27:13
, like what is that about And why
27:15
do I care so much about this And am
27:17
I worried about what people think ? You know I mean all
27:19
of those questions , but they happen
27:22
over and over again , in both little
27:24
ways and email and in big ways
27:26
. You know this relationship isn't working
27:28
And so we just have to really
27:30
stay focused on
27:32
that conversation with ourselves .
27:35
Yeah , well , and I appreciate you just talking about such
27:37
a normal everyday moment . That
27:39
happens when you're actually showing
27:41
up and you're actually putting yourself out
27:44
there and you're doing the thing that scares
27:46
you and you say shamelessly
27:48
, selling yourself . I've been in sales for 18 years
27:50
and helping women embrace
27:53
what enrolling people
27:55
is , versus like forcing your ideas
27:57
on them . But the fact that you've
27:59
achieved on the
28:01
outside such a profound level
28:04
of success I mean
28:06
I shouldn't put in quotes but like as defined
28:08
by a capitalistic , patriarchal society
28:10
you know we get these accolades and we
28:12
have this success and yet we're
28:15
still so human , no matter what we've achieved
28:17
on the outside . And I'm actually curious
28:19
has the pressure that you've
28:21
put on yourself increased now
28:23
that you have had such
28:26
success with your last book and you have a new book coming
28:28
out ? How are you feeling about that ? Is that getting
28:30
worse now that you are more of a public
28:32
figure ?
28:33
Yeah , it's interesting because I've been thinking about this a lot
28:36
and I think the short answer to that question is yes
28:38
, only because it's
28:40
a very different and , i think , an illuminating
28:42
experience , and I'm glad I'm going through
28:44
it . But it's a very different experience
28:47
being sort of front facing
28:49
and public , right . Then it was
28:51
for me as an editor which is what I did for 20
28:54
years before I became an author which is
28:56
, you're sort of hidden behind the scenes and
28:58
you're just rooting for your authors
29:00
, of course , and working so hard on their behalf , but
29:02
you're not the face of anything . You feel ownership
29:04
and connection , but it's not yours
29:07
, right ? And so it's a very different experience
29:09
to put a project out there and
29:11
to be judged about it
29:14
. And I think what I have been struggling with
29:16
in trying to find a balance of is
29:18
we'd wanna tell
29:20
ourselves that we don't care what other people think
29:22
, right , we try to stay off Instagram
29:25
or not compare ourselves to others , or we
29:27
say you're doing your own journey
29:29
and who cares what anybody else is doing , and
29:31
all of those things which I think are healthy
29:34
messages . But then
29:36
you publish a book , and I'm sure there are other
29:38
corollaries , but in my case , you publish
29:40
a book and it really does matter what people
29:42
think , like you can tell yourself it doesn't
29:45
, but it actually
29:47
does right , like , and
29:49
this whole if one person loves
29:51
your book , then that's enough
29:53
is a lovely idea . But it's not
29:55
actually true , because
29:58
you need lots of people to love
30:00
your book right To have a career
30:02
as a writer . And so there is
30:04
that sort of dichotomy that I have
30:07
been struggling with , which is having like a healthy
30:09
sense of holding myself
30:11
and I did the best job that I could , and
30:13
I can't internalize
30:15
so much people's reactions to
30:18
the book and luckily so far they're positive
30:20
, but we'll see versus
30:22
. I have to care about what people
30:24
think but still protect myself worth
30:27
, and that is hard work . It's
30:29
a not easy thing to do .
30:31
Yeah , and I think it's lifelong . The more that you
30:33
step into a higher calling
30:36
, the more that you claim your
30:38
true gifts , the more that you get bold about
30:40
them , the more public facing you are , the
30:43
more that you're not hidden anymore
30:45
, the more that you are at risk of
30:47
other people's opinions really
30:49
hurting you . I mean , i have a lot
30:51
of thoughts on this . It's something that I navigate all
30:54
the time , and I help women navigate is is
30:56
it worth it to you to stay hidden
30:59
and behind the scenes ? What's the
31:01
cost of that ? And never having known
31:03
what it feels like to write
31:05
the book , to use your voice
31:08
, to make the difference that you know you're here to make
31:10
? And a lot of people choose to
31:12
stay hidden or to stay smaller . We call
31:14
it small town Susie in the mastermind that
31:16
I'm a part of is we stay our small town
31:19
Susie because it feels safer . But
31:21
the cost is never knowing what it feels
31:23
like to publish a
31:26
bestselling book and have the controversial
31:28
conversations that you're inviting to the table and change
31:30
the world by using
31:32
your voice . But it's fucking scary
31:35
.
31:36
Yay . I think a lot of people are
31:38
afraid that it won't be a bestselling book , right
31:40
? And what does that mean for them
31:42
? what does that say about them If they actually go after
31:44
their dream and fail and I don't believe in failure
31:47
, but I think the fear of
31:49
what if I'm not all that ? I hope
31:51
that I am .
31:53
Totally . I think it's scary
31:55
and I think it's really scary to do . I think we have
31:57
to make decisions , though , that are
31:59
not based in fear . You know it's one thing
32:01
that if you don't want to be forward-facing
32:04
or you don't want to have , you know it's not for everybody
32:07
and I don't think that's always motivated by fear
32:09
. My sister does not want
32:11
to talk to anyone about anything . She's classic
32:13
introvert and that's fine . It's not like fear is holding
32:15
her back from following her dreams . But
32:18
I think if you are fearful
32:20
in trying to navigate that , which you know , there's
32:22
a certain amount of built-in fear in this process
32:25
. The one thing that's helped me is to
32:27
think about what my goals
32:29
are , and I think if your goal is
32:31
and I tell writers that I coach this if
32:33
your goal is just the external recognition
32:36
, then you're always going to set yourself up for failure
32:38
. If you're writing so people tell you
32:41
you're a good writer , or you're writing
32:43
so that people tell you to get on the
32:45
New York Times bestseller list , that
32:47
is a futile and
32:50
you know kind of cynical goal . You
32:52
have to write because , or
32:54
any sort of art or any life decision that
32:56
you make , you have to pursue
32:58
it because it's intrinsically
33:01
going to make you happy and there's another motivation
33:04
there . So , for example , Joe and I , particularly
33:07
when things got rough between us in terms
33:09
of our collaboration and
33:11
obviously I've been in book publishing long
33:13
enough to know that most books are not a success
33:15
, right , like it's just . Publishing is a brutal industry
33:17
And so I went into it eyes
33:20
wide open in terms of you
33:22
know , i can't do this because of
33:24
the bestseller list or because of XYZ . So
33:27
the goal had to be we want to start
33:29
conversations , like we want people
33:31
to read this book and
33:33
learn something or think about
33:35
something in a different way , and
33:37
so that became our guiding light , like
33:40
if people did that , then we would feel the
33:42
book is a success . I'm unlucky that
33:44
it was , but I think you have to define
33:46
what success is going to look
33:48
like to you , and it can't be
33:50
external , it has to be
33:53
internal and you have to be
33:55
prepared that if it doesn't
33:57
work , it doesn't destroy your self
33:59
worth . Right , like that's what I'm talking about
34:01
, that like protecting that balance . If this
34:04
book sells no copies and the book
34:06
that we have coming out , it sells no copies
34:08
and it gets panned everywhere , i
34:11
will still go on . Live it . You know what I mean . Like
34:14
I still have to go on and have a career . So how do
34:16
I balance that ? And you have to be
34:18
prepared for that outcome . That's just realistic
34:20
And that's part of the work too .
34:23
Yeah , How do you balance it ? I'm curious because
34:25
I think this is really relevant to
34:27
anybody that's chasing a big dream , And before
34:29
you answer , I want to really just reiterate
34:31
the being deeply
34:34
rooted in a bigger . Why is
34:36
so essential ? because you're
34:38
right If we're constantly out here
34:40
and wanting to have the world
34:42
reflect back to us how awesome we are , but it's
34:44
not rooted in anything internal , then
34:46
it always feels empty and you are at
34:49
a high risk of being disappointed
34:51
. So I would love to hear
34:53
how do you balance that ? What happens ? I
34:56
mean , we're going to just assume that this book is a massive
34:58
success . You don't even have to worry about this and
35:00
every book you ever produce is a grand
35:02
slam . You know home run It's probably
35:04
not the right language , but bringing in my softball
35:07
background But what do you
35:09
do ? How do you navigate it ?
35:12
Well from your lips . I
35:14
think that that's where the big why
35:17
comes in . You know , your motivation
35:19
hasn't changed
35:21
, and so I'm not motivated
35:24
necessarily by the book selling
35:26
a million copies or being on the bestseller list
35:28
. I mean that would be nice , but if that's not the motivation
35:31
, then I'm not setting myself up for
35:33
disappointment . That has to be
35:35
icing on the cake . But
35:38
I think a lot of it is perspective
35:40
, and we live in a society where
35:43
everything perfection
35:45
is lauded and everything
35:47
is , you know , go , go , go , go , go
35:49
, achieve , achieve , achieve , achieve , achieve . As
35:51
you said , jessica , like failure is
35:54
something that everybody is just
35:56
petrified of . It's like all the messages
35:58
and all the expectations we've been talking about . It
36:01
is something that takes you actively
36:03
reeling against . So if this book
36:06
is not a success , or I write
36:08
a future book that is not a success , or what
36:10
have you anything in life , even if it's not about the book , if
36:12
the relationship I'm in fails , if I have a
36:14
friendship breakup , whatever , if I send
36:16
another email with broken links ?
36:19
Don't do that . You cannot do that . That's
36:23
the worst .
36:26
But I have to have the perspective
36:28
to ground myself , to say
36:30
that's not the end of the world
36:32
and something that you know can
36:34
help me , even though it sounds really morbid
36:37
and fatalistic but is to think about
36:39
what I will care about
36:41
in 10 years or 15 years or
36:43
20 years , right Or at
36:45
the end . What will any
36:47
of this matter ? What will matter
36:50
or what will , I think , seem so
36:52
huge at the moment but
36:54
will fade away with time ? And
36:57
being conscious about that is
37:00
something I try to do . But this is
37:02
all work in progress kind of thing . I don't want you
37:05
guys or anybody listening to this to think I'm just
37:07
like walking around perfectly confident
37:09
and self-possessed all the time , Like I'm so
37:11
grounded and I'm doing my mindfulness exercises
37:14
and my gratitude journal every morning and all that It's
37:16
work . I just consider it work to try
37:19
to stay in a positive , authentic
37:22
, vulnerable place , And
37:24
it's something that I just try to be really conscious
37:27
about . And I'm not always successful , as
37:29
you know , none of us are but
37:31
I really try every day .
37:33
Had you always wanted to be a writer , or
37:35
was that a new discovery ?
37:36
That was a new discovery . I mean , i've always
37:39
been interested in storytelling
37:41
and I went to journalism school
37:43
where I thought it was going to be a broadcast anchor
37:45
, of all things , which is kind of funny to think about now . And
37:48
then I got into publishing
37:50
at a pretty young age
37:52
and I started as an editorial assistant
37:54
which is how a lot of people
37:56
publishing started and then worked my way up , and
37:59
so I really thought I was going to be an
38:01
editor for the rest of my life . I really
38:03
loved doing it and I felt
38:05
like I was good at it . Especially
38:07
, you know , when you do something a long time in a career
38:10
, the benefit of that is that
38:12
you feel experienced
38:14
and wise , and being a writer
38:16
thrust me into a
38:19
world and an experience that
38:21
I was completely novice at , and I'm
38:23
glad I did it . But I have to tell you it
38:25
is really hard to do something
38:27
completely different after
38:30
40 . Like I mean , just have such a queer
38:32
pivot and to go from kind of
38:34
I'm an expert in doing this
38:36
, i mean by way of doing it for so long
38:39
, to oh my God , this is completely new
38:41
And I don't know how to do this and I have to learn
38:43
on the fly and I have to be
38:46
vulnerable and be willing that I
38:48
don't know how to do this and to learn
38:50
all these new skills
38:53
, which has been
38:55
a gift in and of itself . I have to say , the
38:57
ability to pivot and
38:59
do something new is
39:02
something that I stumbled
39:05
into almost , but
39:07
it's just like a beautiful pivot . I
39:09
think I would have been very happy continuing to be an editor
39:12
, but what I've learned about myself
39:14
and having the opportunity to grow
39:16
and try something different
39:18
even though it's been ups
39:21
and downs , obviously , and terrifying and
39:23
who knows what happens It's a
39:25
much more vulnerable world to work for yourself
39:27
as a writer career-wise , financially
39:30
, you know all those things But I
39:33
think it's still worth it , and
39:35
so I have been telling people
39:37
I mean , this is a continuation of our conversation
39:39
about fear These leaps
39:42
and pivots are terrifying
39:44
, but they can be so worth it , and so I
39:46
just want to be a person who is extolling
39:49
the virtue of doing that , because sometimes
39:51
, if you don't see role models , i mean if you don't
39:53
see right if we don't talk about
39:56
it , then it feels scarier , right
39:58
? So I'm a big proponent
40:00
of taking the leap . I
40:03
really want to encourage people to do that .
40:05
Did you find yourself navigating through fear
40:07
and insecurity at that time
40:09
that you decided to write the book with Joe ?
40:12
For sure . Oh
40:14
my god , it was terrifying It really
40:16
, especially when you work in publishing
40:18
, as I did for so long . You
40:20
know exactly what's happening behind the scenes
40:23
And you've worked with the very best
40:25
people in the entire world in terms
40:27
of the very best writers
40:29
. I worked with Jonathan Latham
40:31
and Colson Whitehead . All these pulled
40:33
surprise winning Nash book award-winning writers
40:36
and such smart editors in the
40:38
business . And then you're putting
40:40
your work out there for them
40:42
to judge it , and that is really
40:45
hard . It's one thing for a stranger in
40:47
Nebraska to read your book you
40:49
might never see that person . It's
40:51
another thing for your boss to read your book . You know and
40:54
have thoughts about it , and so for me
40:56
that was the biggest challenge
40:59
. I didn't realize the emotional
41:01
vulnerability that
41:03
writing involved , and I think it's
41:05
a sort of thing that you don't
41:07
know it until you do it . Really , i mean
41:09
, i've been an editor for so long . I feel kind of
41:12
silly saying that , because of course it's
41:14
hard , but until
41:16
you , like , walk in that shoe where you're showing
41:18
somebody your work , something
41:20
that's personal and come from your
41:22
head and heart and
41:24
involves a certain level of
41:26
judgment of talent , it's really
41:29
really hard , and so I
41:31
think it's made me a better editor
41:33
because I am really sensitive
41:36
to the emotional dimension
41:38
that writing requires
41:41
in a way that I wasn't before
41:43
.
41:44
I'm really interested in the conversation that you were having
41:46
with yourself before taking this leap
41:48
, because a lot of people have
41:50
a desire , but bridging the
41:52
gap between the desire and actually doing the thing
41:55
is a really interesting conversation
41:57
to have , because I'm sure people listening to this
41:59
will be like I have this thing , I have
42:01
this desire or this calling or
42:03
this thing that's pulling me . So
42:06
what was the conversation you were having with
42:08
yourself of I want to make this change
42:10
. I feel ready now
42:12
. What was that that you were like
42:14
? now's the time to do this ? What
42:16
I'm running towards is bigger than the fear
42:19
that I have .
42:20
I think for me it was
42:23
so incremental . I think that's
42:25
what makes it easier . It's not like I went in one day
42:27
and I was like I'm going to quit my
42:29
job and I'm out of
42:32
here and there was sunshine , music
42:34
playing , and then I went to a coffee shop
42:36
and I opened up my laptop and it was like page
42:38
one , the beginning . It
42:47
was much more baby
42:49
steps than that , and so that's what I tell
42:51
people who are writing , but it's applicable to
42:54
whatever you're trying to do is
42:56
figure out how it can be
42:58
a part of your current day to day
43:00
life so that it doesn't feel so drastic
43:02
. So in my case , i still had
43:04
my day job and I was still publishing
43:06
books when Joe and I first started
43:09
talking about writing this project
43:11
together and we
43:13
were like , let's see what happens . So we
43:15
started and we worked . She
43:18
was also very busy . We worked a
43:20
couple hours a week and
43:22
then , okay , there's something here , the momentum
43:24
built , we worked a little
43:27
bit more And that helped both
43:29
of us that we took
43:31
baby steps into this whole process . And
43:34
so if you're thinking about starting a business
43:36
or writing a book or screenplay or
43:38
becoming a life coach or whatever it
43:40
is , i would say think
43:42
about ways that you can make
43:44
this a part of your current life
43:46
and see how it feels , and
43:49
see how you make money and see if
43:51
the momentum builds from there . It's
43:53
the equivalent of I'm the person
43:56
who's dipping into the pool , i'll always get
43:58
into the water , but I'm going to go and put my toe
44:00
in and then I'm going to go
44:02
down the stairs or the ladder And
44:04
there are people out there who do the cannonball . The
44:07
cannonball is scarier , right ? That
44:09
is a riskier proposition . You
44:11
don't know how deep the water is , you don't know how
44:13
cold it is , but in both scenarios
44:16
you end up in the water , right ? So
44:19
I chose the dip end , but the
44:21
water was great .
44:22
So here we are . To me it speaks to trusting
44:24
the natural unfoldment of
44:26
your life . You
44:29
seem to have been really happy where you were
44:31
and then saw , as an opportunity presented
44:33
itself , a moment of expansion
44:36
that you then stepped into .
44:38
You know that's so interesting that you say that , because
44:40
I think that you do make different decisions in
44:43
your life in terms of I'm
44:45
unhappy and so I have to make
44:47
this decision , or I'm in a bad relationship
44:49
and I have to make this decision , or I
44:52
hate this job and I have to make this decision
44:54
, and sometimes we have to do that . That happens
44:56
, but I think it leads to a different
44:59
set of decisions than
45:01
I'm comfortable and
45:04
I'm complacent , or everything is okay
45:07
, but what else can I do to be expansive
45:09
? And we're all going to face those
45:12
different scenarios right I mean
45:14
, both of them are kind of unavoidable by
45:17
thinking really proactively
45:19
and I think thoughtfully about what
45:21
those motivations are and looking back and
45:23
thinking about how you made different decisions
45:26
and why helps you make different
45:28
decisions , or think through your decisions for the
45:30
future .
45:31
Yeah , i think one of those promotes the toe
45:33
dipping and one of them promotes the cannonball
45:35
.
45:35
Absolutely . There's a time
45:38
for toe dipping and there's a time for
45:40
cannonball .
45:41
There's a time for cannonballing . We ain't T-shirt Yep . Is
45:43
it your time to cannonball ?
45:45
I love that This could probably be a whole
45:48
other hour conversation , but I really love
45:50
and appreciate that you are this constant
45:52
advocate to talk more about the things
45:55
that make us uncomfortable , like race
45:57
, and how to do it vulnerably
45:59
and imperfectly , to embrace the mess . Also
46:02
, i watched you in an interview with Joe talk about
46:04
your own fear of conflict
46:06
when you and Joe were coming to the table and working
46:09
through things and bringing all your personal experiences
46:11
forward that there was this fear of will
46:13
we actually get through this Right ? Will it be
46:15
all perfect ? Will we actually make it to the
46:17
other side , have these conversations and come out
46:20
stronger ? I think that's a
46:22
really big fear for most people is the
46:24
fear of getting it wrong and messing up . I'm
46:27
just curious , before we go , if you can speak
46:29
to why that dialogue is so important
46:32
and how we might be able
46:34
to start breaking down these
46:36
barriers in our friendships and our communities
46:38
. How can we talk to each other more and
46:41
make it safer to talk to each other
46:43
and not be so afraid ?
46:45
I mean it's so fascinating and
46:47
I think I learned a lot switching
46:49
careers . It's interesting because when I say that
46:51
, it seems like a lot of the lessons
46:54
are about career , craft and that
46:56
sort of thing , but a big
46:58
one was dealing with
47:00
conflict . I would not have been
47:02
in this situation making
47:04
a career switch with Joe
47:06
and dealing with this particular set
47:08
of circumstances . It was
47:11
a conflict avoidant
47:13
person , almost pathologically
47:15
so in a way that I probably wouldn't have known or
47:17
admitted before . This situation
47:20
helped me see it . It was a real
47:22
area of opportunity for me that
47:24
, regardless of my career
47:27
, it helped me learn
47:29
a lot about myself and
47:31
how I deal with conflict . That
47:33
is like I said it was hard , but it's been
47:35
a real growth experience
47:37
. We talk a lot about how hard
47:40
it was because a
47:42
lot of people don't see a way
47:44
past that . They feel like once a conversation
47:47
is hard or uncomfortable or
47:50
painful , then
47:52
that spells the end automatically
47:54
of the relationship , of the dialogue
47:57
. I truly would have thought that
47:59
too , actually , before going
48:01
through this . I'm as steeped
48:03
in our polarized culture as everybody
48:06
else and it's so easy to say , well , they don't
48:08
get it , and write off people and
48:10
things . I would have said this
48:12
is a situation , a scenario that can't
48:15
work because we're having so much conflict
48:17
and pushing through
48:19
that , which required me to
48:21
be open and honest and address
48:24
the conflict and be vulnerable
48:26
about why I was upset and
48:28
hear why Joe was upset or
48:30
what points we were having tension
48:32
about , both creatively . Some of
48:34
that was just being co-writers
48:36
, taking race out of the equation , but some
48:39
of that was really hard conversations about race
48:41
, and in both of those
48:43
, the lesson of pushing
48:46
through really made a difference And
48:48
though we're really honest to say , not
48:51
every relationship can be saved , you
48:53
don't have to , as a black person , sit
48:55
down with the president of your local clan
48:57
, you know , and try to have a dialogue . You
49:00
know we're not talking these extremes , but
49:02
there is room in
49:05
our day-to-day interactions and conversations
49:08
to open yourself up more
49:10
, to asking
49:12
questions of other people , that
49:15
open conversations and
49:17
being willing to listen to other people
49:19
, and then , when you disagree about something
49:22
, being honest about why you disagree
49:24
about that , as opposed to shutting down
49:26
, which I think is a lot of people's human
49:28
instinct , and we've seen that
49:30
happen , like we've seen people
49:32
really even
49:34
go back to old friends , where the friendship
49:37
especially at a lot of people post 2016
49:40
that had a lot of politically fractured
49:43
friendships to go or racially
49:45
fractured friendships , and to
49:47
go back and say this
49:50
is what I was feeling and this
49:52
is why this upset me so much
49:54
, and if you could try to understand XYZ
49:57
and vice versa really makes
49:59
a difference , and that doesn't actually even mean that
50:01
that's going to be your best friend
50:03
for life . We're not so
50:05
kumbaya in that way , but
50:07
it is a skill that we all
50:09
have to get better at in terms
50:11
of being able to sit
50:14
with something or situation or feeling between
50:16
two people or group of people or coworkers
50:18
that is uncomfortable , without
50:20
getting defensive , angry or
50:23
shutting down , and that's just like all
50:25
the things we've been talking about in this conversation takes
50:27
practice . I mean , it really does . It's
50:30
something that you can get better at over time
50:32
, but the problem is we don't practice
50:34
.
50:35
It sounds like choosing to be curious over
50:38
needing to be right and
50:40
also knowing that
50:42
it's probably going to be messy You
50:45
probably might get defensive
50:47
and that it's
50:49
about remaining curious or going back
50:51
and repairing and saying you know my
50:54
intention was to really hear you , and
50:56
what I did was I got really defensive . Let's
50:58
try again , because we're not going to nail it , especially
51:00
, like you're saying , we aren't practiced at this
51:02
And it's something that takes a lot of practice to face
51:05
conflict head on versus trying to dance around
51:08
it , and I think most of us would probably
51:10
dance around conflict . It's
51:12
like a blanket statement . It's easier .
51:14
I mean , we're looking for hacks in our life . The shortcut
51:16
is oh well , I'm done with that . Oh well
51:19
, i'm done with that . Oh well , i'm done with that . But I think what
51:21
we're running up against in our personal lives
51:23
and society is that you can't just keep doing that
51:25
. It's not possible , it's
51:28
not sustainable . And there
51:30
are some relationships that
51:32
might not work and that might not be safe
51:34
or healthy for you , and obviously
51:36
everyone is their own judge of what
51:39
that situation is . But
51:41
there are also , on the flip side , some relationships
51:43
that can be expanded or enhanced
51:46
or deep end with
51:48
this kind of openness
51:50
and emotional vulnerability
51:52
, are willing to overcome
51:55
or tolerate some
51:57
discomfort in that process
51:59
. And so it's less about who are you going to
52:01
reach across the aisle to kind
52:03
of thing , for me at least and more about
52:05
who are the people that you
52:07
love and care about . You're willing to
52:10
go there a little bit more , and that's what
52:12
our characters , riley and Jen , had to do . There's
52:14
so much love between them , but
52:16
they had to be willing
52:19
to dig that much deeper and
52:21
be that much more uncomfortable and be that much more
52:23
open . And they
52:25
got to the other side and Joe and I
52:27
, in a case of art imitating
52:29
life or vice versa . We never know . Did
52:32
art imitate life or did life imitate art
52:34
, but either way , we experienced
52:36
that lesson as well .
52:38
I think it goes back to what we were
52:40
saying before , what you wrote about how do you think we
52:42
can create a world expansive enough that we're all allowed
52:44
to be authentic ? And it's actually through
52:47
the dialogue , through the conversations , through
52:49
coming to understanding , that
52:51
I think that is made more
52:53
possible . We need to understand
52:55
each other's lived experiences .
52:58
That's what we really hope our books do
53:00
, which is allow people to have these kind
53:02
of conversations , because sometimes it's hard to just
53:05
go right in with your personal experience
53:07
, but using a book
53:09
or using these , we hope relatable characters
53:12
to say look how they had this conversation
53:15
, or look at this experience , or this
53:17
brought up this feeling for me . I don't
53:19
know why I felt that way . We hope these
53:22
help . We want people to be having
53:24
these hard conversations and we
53:26
hope our books are a vehicle
53:28
to help people do that
53:30
. That's when you say like what's the mission
53:33
, What's the goal ? What would make me happy ? at the
53:35
end of the day , It's less the New York
53:37
Times bestseller list although that would be nice
53:39
and more you know
53:41
. Lots of people feel changed by
53:43
having these conversations . In
53:45
a perfect world , though both , Both .
53:49
We have both , you know we get to have the and
53:51
.
53:51
It was a privilege to talk to you ladies .
53:54
It was such a privilege to talk to you . I just
53:56
want to say to everybody listening to please
53:58
go out and help You
54:01
are always mine Make the top of the
54:03
New York Times bestseller list And
54:06
then also go home and have really
54:08
deep , meaningful conversations about
54:10
it . Yeah , we are
54:13
so honored that you joined
54:15
us today . Your book is so good
54:17
. I feel so lucky that I got
54:19
to read it in advance , and
54:21
I have no doubt that it's going to be hugely
54:24
successful and I'm really thrilled
54:26
about all the good things that are happening for you
54:28
. So thank you for coming and sharing
54:30
with us today .
54:32
Well , it was really truly a treat to
54:34
spend an hour talking to you ladies Today . I talk
54:36
about , you know , moving deep conversations
54:39
. I am honored that you had
54:41
me on and I will come back
54:44
anytime to chat with you guys . This was
54:46
really really great .
54:46
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54:48
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54:59
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