So I have been lying to my parents about going to college for a while now and every time I think about telling them the truth it feels like my whole life would be ruined, the stability of it. As I am typing this I have come a long way in understanding that fear and as well as gaining the subtle strength to tell them. It also amaze me to hear this recording back and realize the deference in mentality I had back then and what I have now so I am truly grateful to the past me for doing this recordings so I can look back on them and reflect. I also hope that these will help you in anyway possible because I know that seeing others struggle through the same issues that I have always helped. 

P.S. Don't you dare stop being you cute, you can't but don't even try