1:22

All right, so welcome back to It's

1:24

Still Happening podcast y'all. this

1:26

will be interesting. I

1:29

mean, what episode isn't, let's be honest. For

1:32

those of you who are listening to the

1:34

regular audio recorded podcast,

1:37

you don't know, but I will tell you, I'm

1:39

also video recording this episode

1:41

for the first time and it's going

1:43

up on YouTube. So if you like

1:46

to experience podcasts

1:48

with seeing the person, which

1:51

is basically like, I don't know.

1:54

Visual podcast and then head over

1:56

to my YouTube channel. I'll leave

1:58

the link in the show notes so

2:00

you can actually watch me. Swing

2:03

in my outdoor office chair,

2:06

as I'm looking out into the jungle and

2:08

enjoying the warm breeze

2:10

of South Florida's weather in

2:13

this episode. So, if you guys don't

2:15

know, and if you're listening in real time, you will

2:17

know that I took a week off just

2:19

to reflect on our first month back to

2:21

this season, this final season of

2:23

its Still Happening podcast. And I

2:25

really enjoyed taking a little bit of pause

2:27

to look at not just the data.

2:30

Of the podcast, but also

2:33

what all I have to say. There's

2:35

so many different topics that we're covering,

2:38

that it was just beautiful to go back and actually listen

2:40

to the episodes myself.

2:43

if you ever, you know, notice like

2:45

in season one and season two, I think I mentioned that I never

2:47

go back and listen to the podcast, but this

2:50

time I did. And. And

2:52

listening to that, I just was like, oh my God, we have to talk

2:54

about something that I haven't talked about

2:56

in a while. So, that's what this episode

2:59

is all about. So

3:01

in last episode, I walked

3:03

y'all through. If you did not listen to it, I

3:05

highly suggest that you go back and do. I

3:08

talked about the different phases of

3:11

the healing and the empowerment journey that

3:13

I know every woman goes through.

3:15

Like I have not met a

3:17

woman who has not moved through these different phases

3:19

of empowerment, growth, self-development,

3:22

self-acceptance. and the reason

3:24

I was so inspired to even document

3:27

that and share it is one,

3:29

it's a big component of my upcoming book,

3:31

paths to Freedom. And

3:33

also I keep hearing

3:35

and seeing people talking about

3:37

how hard it is to break generational

3:40

patterns, how hard it is to create the life of

3:42

their dreams, how lonely they feel doing

3:44

life differently than their mothers,

3:46

their sisters, their aunties, their fathers,

3:48

their family members, essentially. And I was like,

3:50

gosh, this whole like, loneliness,

3:53

belonging, fear of being.

3:55

Left behind or leaving people behind

3:58

because you're choosing to create

4:00

the life that's aligned with your souls calling,

4:02

and that brings all the juice and the blessings

4:04

and the joy back into, or

4:06

into your family, your lineage at a different

4:08

level. And so I was like, gosh, like we really

4:10

need to outline this whole situation.

4:12

And in that episode, like I don't, I'm not

4:15

gonna recap the whole episode for y'all, so you should definitely go

4:17

back and listen to it. But, And one

4:19

of the biggest insights, uh, I've witnessed

4:21

in my life and also in my clients, is that the

4:23

beginning of that journey most

4:26

times is either,

4:28

um, I

4:31

wanna say fueled by, inspired

4:33

by, or even hindered by money,

4:36

right? Either you have the money

4:38

already and you're like, you know what? I love

4:40

my career, or I've been loving my career, but

4:42

I feel very unfi. And

4:45

because I have some savings, cuz I do have a good

4:47

job or I do have a trust or I do have family

4:49

support, I can go and explore.

4:51

I can start signing up for therapy. I

4:54

can go on a sabbatical, on a trip, I

4:56

can go on a women's retreat, um,

4:58

I can start exploring my spirituality,

5:01

you know, things like that because you already have the financial

5:03

support. Oftentimes it's

5:05

also that, lack of finances

5:08

is what's making you be like, you know what? I wanna

5:10

become an entrepreneur. I need to make more

5:12

money. I'm tired of this dead end job.

5:14

Or feeling like I have to negotiate for

5:16

raises or feeling like as soon as I make

5:18

money it goes out. But there's a lot about

5:21

our identity, our path of healing, our

5:23

path of freedom that is centered

5:25

around our relationship to money, receiving

5:27

it, having it, holding it, enjoying it, and changing our

5:29

relationship. And so, in

5:31

that episode, I talked a lot about that, especially at the beginning

5:34

of my journey and my career. And

5:36

I wanna go deeper into this today

5:38

because again, I also have talked

5:40

about in a previous episode how many people

5:43

have said, oh Ash, I found your work.

5:45

Or I know someone who worked with you and it was life changing

5:48

and it was so amazing, but I can't

5:50

afford to work with you right now. Or, But

5:52

if I pay for working with you right now,

5:54

I'm afraid I won't have enough money for other things

5:56

that I need and want, or whatever the story may

5:58

be. And I've definitely personally

6:00

been there. I have paid payment plans

6:02

to work with some of my most amazing elders

6:04

and teachers and mentors. I've paid in full

6:07

for things. I've had to, you

6:09

know, oh, pay half now and half

6:11

later I've had to do other things. So I

6:13

have a whole episode devoted to that. If you didn't

6:15

listen to it about, think it was episode 21

6:18

or 20. Go back

6:20

and check that out. But in this, I wanna

6:22

go deeper into our relationship with

6:24

money because it is such a crucial experience

6:27

of the woman who's becoming the empowered

6:29

woman, who's breaking generational patterns, who's

6:31

creating what she really wants to see in her life,

6:34

and is the first in her family to

6:36

do it in a long time as I am. And as I

6:38

assume that you also. Are.

6:41

So the journey of being

6:43

resourced financially, emotionally,

6:45

mentally, and community like

6:47

resource is not something that we can,

6:50

skip over or ignore. And a lot of times

6:52

we're self resourcing and other times we do

6:54

need to resource externally,

6:57

especially as it relates to money.

7:00

So this episode, the Money

7:02

audit is all about that,

7:05

and I will tell you, I

7:07

feel a lot of things about money. I have a lot of opinions

7:09

about money. but what I know

7:12

for sure is that all

7:15

of us, it doesn't matter what your relationship

7:17

to money looks like. It doesn't matter what your

7:19

relationship with money, how

7:21

it's looked in your family. this is

7:23

an ongoing relat. To

7:26

the energy of abundance, to the energy of currency,

7:29

to the energy of provision in

7:31

many different ways, right? So

7:33

in fact, as I was doing some research and reflecting

7:36

over all the things I know about money and what I wanna share with you,

7:39

I was actually listening to a podcast episode

7:41

of a woman who I really like so much

7:43

so that I got her book,

7:45

as an audio book and listened to it and loved

7:48

it and I loved how clean and like straight

7:50

to the point it was. And then, I actually

7:52

went and bought the physical book cause I just wanted to have the

7:54

physical, I'm more of a physical book person,

7:56

but. Sometimes, you know, you just wanna

7:58

get through the audio and audio books

8:00

are so easy to do that with. so anyway,

8:02

I bought the audio book, I bought the real book,

8:04

and then, I was thinking about something that she was

8:07

saying and it, it really

8:09

teed up this conversation around money

8:11

and even our relationship to work.

8:13

And when I started looking at

8:15

like, her platform and like digging into

8:17

a little bit more of like who she is, there was something that

8:19

really stood out to me and I know it's gonna resonate. But

8:22

in it, she was talking about how hard

8:24

she's worked to get to where she is and

8:26

how proud she is of that. she

8:28

was talking about how, you know, she's a bestselling

8:31

author, which she is. She's got like a

8:33

billboard in New York Times and. Amazing

8:36

things that she's done with her life, but over and over and over

8:38

again, whenever she tells her story about her books

8:40

and her life, she talks about how hard she

8:42

worked and how she came from a single parent home

8:44

and, you know, she worked her butt

8:46

off and nothing has been, given to her.

8:48

It's all been earned. And

8:51

you know, I get it. I came from a single family

8:53

home and. She also talked about

8:55

how like, yeah, she's no stranger to

8:57

having a work ethic and so many people want things

8:59

without putting in the work, which let me tell you, my

9:02

own mother reminds me of that. There's a lot of people

9:04

who have come to me or found

9:06

me on the internet who really admire what I do,

9:08

but they don't see all the things that go into

9:11

it. Even people that I've hired. Externally

9:13

as a client or even as just seeing me

9:15

online, they're like, oh my God, and I loved your email sequence

9:17

and I loved your videos, and, but then when it's

9:19

like time to actually work in the business, they're

9:22

like, oh my God, you make it look so easy.

9:24

Or your team's made it look so easy. How do you guys

9:26

work like this? Again, we don't work really

9:28

hard, but I'll get back to that in a second.

9:30

I'll ask, get back on this. and like

9:32

a year ago, if I would

9:34

have came across this particular author's

9:36

platform and listened to

9:39

what she was saying about working hard and coming

9:41

from a background and like putting your all

9:43

into it, and I wouldn't even use the word like grind,

9:46

but just like in it, you

9:48

know what I mean? Like in it, I know how to make something happen.

9:50

For my effort, I would've been.

9:54

Nodding my head, I would've been like

9:56

a man, sister with my hands. You know

9:58

what I mean? Like, because again, I do

10:00

come from a lineage of hardworking women.

10:02

I do come from people

10:04

who appreciated putting in the

10:06

work in order to receive what you want

10:08

or to create what you want. doing like

10:10

this makes me think of Doggett from orange as

10:12

the new black, right? Like praise God.

10:15

Yes. Hard work. Amen. You know? But

10:18

today I am not doing that. I'm not

10:20

celebrating the hard work. Um, and I'm not

10:22

shaming her. Anybody else who, is

10:24

still putting their

10:26

work ethic on a ped. Like,

10:29

because I worked hard, I'm gonna keep centering

10:31

my hard work. I'm just not doing that

10:33

anymore and I wanna talk about that in the

10:35

context of receiving money. I

10:38

don't wanna work hard anymore. I don't wanna overwork

10:41

hard to receive money

10:43

ever again in my life. I walked

10:45

away from that in my career and

10:48

I am now transforming that in

10:50

my. And

10:53

again, that does not mean to say we don't appreciate

10:55

the effort that we put in and what it has created

10:58

in our lives, but what I know for sure

11:00

is that the effort and

11:02

the work that I did in the past

11:04

to get me where I want it to go is not going

11:06

to get me to where I want to go next.

11:09

Right. My next evolution is not work

11:11

ethic. It actually is about trust

11:13

and allowing right, and collaboration

11:16

and believing, and more about the energetics

11:18

and the alignment than pure

11:21

strength and. now that does not

11:23

mean that I don't show up in ways that are considered.

11:25

Work, like obviously I wrote the script,

11:28

the things that I wanted to cover in this episode,

11:30

you know, I had to set up and like, look at how I wanted

11:32

to do my outdoor office for this particular,

11:35

video episode. And you

11:37

have to do things like check your bookkeeping and

11:39

like, you know, write things,

11:41

talk to your team about things like, yes, there is work,

11:44

but those like late nights,

11:46

it's never. Pushing,

11:48

grinding, giving your all being depleted.

11:51

again, constantly looking for something to solve.

11:54

It's just a no for me. And

11:56

what I've started to see over and over again is

11:58

that there is a synonymous relationship

12:00

again, because I truly believe it's because

12:02

we're American. I'm American. Some of you listening

12:05

may not be, but the Western

12:07

approach to money

12:09

only comes from hard work is a spell

12:12

that's over us. Now,

12:15

I'm not saying you can just lay on your back and

12:17

be lazy and have no creativity

12:19

or no doing anything.

12:22

Just be a couch potato and you're gonna have bku,

12:24

thousands of dollars falling into your bank account. Obviously

12:26

not. But there is an in-between

12:29

here that when you're in a aligned

12:31

action and you're doing things out of creativity,

12:33

out of love, outta inspiration, outta curiosity,

12:36

out of, bringing two things

12:38

together to make something. You

12:40

can say innovation, right? That

12:43

that is the wellspring of

12:45

receiving the finance

12:47

and the meaning in your life that you want to

12:49

receive, as opposed to it being from,

12:52

I worked hard and now I get to receive money. So,

12:55

it's a no to me to being, you know,

12:57

breaking your back to receive money. I'm

12:59

not forcing, I'm not struggling. I'm not

13:01

sweating, I'm not pushing, I'm no longer coercing

13:05

or trying to do anything. Anymore.

13:08

I am going back to

13:11

being straight up ash in

13:14

my creativity, in my essence, and allowing

13:16

that to be the driver

13:18

of my business. And that's like a very

13:20

radical thing to say. Like, really,

13:22

we've got like Kim Kardashian, what a year ago

13:24

was like, what? What was that interview that

13:26

got. Like so much pushback and like

13:29

ridicule where she was like, work hard,

13:31

tell them to get off their asses and work hard or

13:33

whatever. And it, everyone was like flipping out.

13:36

I mean, I, there's so many to unpack,

13:38

so much to unpack in that too, cuz it's like,

13:40

yeah, there's a lot of people who don't want to

13:43

sacrifice the things that are necessary

13:45

in order to receive something, but at the same time,

13:47

there's a lot of people who are working very, very hard and not

13:49

receiving what they want and what they deserve. So

13:51

it's not really about effort, it is about

13:54

aligned action to. As

13:57

I said, I come from women who have worked

13:59

really hard, who found a way. My

14:01

fiance gave me like the worst

14:03

compliment ever once

14:06

where he was like, you always work hard,

14:08

you never give up. And I was like, oh

14:10

my God, bro, but I want to stop

14:12

working hard. Like I don't want to keep going.

14:15

but it's true, like sometimes we are celebrating

14:18

our resiliency and,

14:21

we're celebrating, stuff that depletes us. We're celebrating

14:23

stuff that actually isn't good for us.

14:25

In fact, I wish I would've came to this conclusion

14:27

in my life and in my business three years

14:29

ago, you know, that I could do less

14:32

in a more inspired, authentic, loving,

14:34

easeful way, and I would receive everything

14:36

that I want still, you know, as

14:39

opposed to having to deplete myself

14:41

again, having adrenal

14:43

fatigue, feeling uninspired,

14:46

like we can cut that. Cycle.

14:49

Right, and that is an inherited cycle, by

14:51

the way. That is an ancestral cycle of survival

14:54

of wounds, right, of if

14:56

I work hard, then I get to receive. I get to

14:58

receive no matter what I do, how I

15:00

do it, and the energy that I do it in, and

15:02

the energy that I am cultivating in myself

15:05

is what allows me to be more magnetic and

15:07

more aligned and more prosperous, and more

15:09

abundant and more attractive to

15:11

any and everything that I want. Whether that is money.

15:14

A particular relationship, an opportunity,

15:16

new friends, whatever it

15:18

might be. Right? Even your

15:20

body. I think there was a science scientific

15:23

experiment that showed like, The

15:25

energy of positivity helped people like

15:27

burn more calories and get aligned to

15:29

their weight loss goals faster, as opposed

15:31

to like being negative and beating yourself up

15:34

and like feeling like you have to keep running

15:36

on the treadmill and you have to do all the things.

15:38

You could be doing all the things, but if

15:40

your mind, body, energy spirit connection

15:42

isn't there, the body won't let go. Right?

15:45

The body also won't receive, so

15:47

yeah. It's a big, bold statement, but

15:49

I absolutely mean it and I'm glad that

15:51

I'm saying it because I wanna give you permission to explore

15:54

if this is a shift that you also

15:57

need to actually be making, not

15:59

just liking the posts on social

16:01

media. Again, I'm not trying to shit on us

16:03

or you know, not social media, but I do

16:05

feel like we are consuming so much information

16:08

in quotes and ideas, but are

16:10

struggling to step into

16:12

it, apply it, or embody it in our real lives,

16:15

which is what I'm here for. So

16:18

hard work has gotten me very, very, very far

16:20

in my past. It's gotten me to where I am today,

16:24

arguably, but truthfully. but

16:26

it is not what's going to get me to my next

16:28

level in life. It's not gonna get me to the lifestyle

16:30

that I am now creating. the next

16:33

challenge, if you will, of how I want to exist

16:35

in this world. It just isn't, it isn't about the effort,

16:38

but I do believe the beginning of our. Do

16:40

require something like that. Like in order

16:43

to break through those spells and those patterns

16:45

of, a stagnation, you have to

16:47

apply some effort, but then

16:49

as soon as you do apply effort and you understand

16:52

what you're capable of, we need to move into the

16:54

trusting and the allowing

16:56

and the beingness. So

17:00

what is gonna get me to my next level alignment?

17:03

Being open, staying. Never

17:07

leaving myself emphasis on that last

17:09

one because if there's anything I have learned

17:11

about myself in this

17:13

journey, and I'm talking about like right now,

17:15

relearning again, deepening, and the understanding

17:18

and the wisdom here is that, I

17:20

used to leave myself abandon myself

17:23

every time when it came to

17:25

money. And it didn't look

17:27

like it externally. Like my energetic

17:29

vibration is very wealthy. People

17:31

meet me and already think I'm a multimillionaire.

17:33

I'm not yet, right? or when

17:36

I'm out around men or they're attracted

17:38

to me, they would always be like, oh man, she's different.

17:40

She's like high end. She's gonna be a tough one. She's

17:42

high maintenance, or whatever it might be. However,

17:45

internally I would

17:47

feel empty de. Scarce,

17:51

like nervous. Like if I don't show

17:53

up a certain way, I will not receive

17:55

the money. If I don't stay on top of myself,

17:57

that man is going to take advantage of me, right?

17:59

And we'll get into relationships and men

18:01

and healing ancestral patterns

18:03

around the masculine and men on another episode.

18:07

But it was always this like abandonment of

18:09

myself, abandonment of my heart, abandonment

18:11

of my trust, abandonment of my actual desires

18:13

relating to money. just. Leaving

18:16

myself like, let me give you an example.

18:19

I remember sitting down

18:22

doing some work one night and

18:24

I needed to stop. Like it was time for me to

18:26

hydrate. It was time for me to eat. It

18:28

was time for me to stretch my body. It was time for me to go

18:30

out on a walk, sh let go of the work

18:32

for the day and come back to myself

18:35

and be with me, and that was not happening.

18:37

My mind kept saying like, screaming.

18:41

Stop working. Stop doing.

18:43

Like, come back to me. Come

18:45

back to your body. Come back to this moment.

18:48

And I just couldn't do it. I just couldn't.

18:50

I was just like, wait five more minutes. Like five more minutes.

18:52

I had given all my energy and all my time

18:55

to the work, to

18:57

the business at the time and didn't see it. And I'm

18:59

like, bitch, you have to go to the bathroom. Like you have

19:01

to pee. Like you need to feed

19:04

yourself. You need to take care of yourself.

19:06

And here you are trying to squeeze another 32

19:08

minutes of. Right. And next thing you know, it

19:10

goes an hour. So I have completely

19:12

depleted myself, walked away

19:14

from myself, not cared about myself

19:17

in the name of work, in the name

19:19

of business of money, receiving

19:21

money, and I just don't do

19:23

that anymore. You know, and this,

19:26

again, from like a behavioral perspective,

19:28

you can say, set a timer, take a break.

19:31

Set your day up for blocks and make sure

19:33

you block in for lunch. Like all of those tactical,

19:35

tangible behavior change habit

19:37

trackers, that's cool and it'll help you

19:40

become aware of your habits. But

19:42

if your wound, if your deep ancestral

19:45

programming, if your deepest belief

19:47

system in your own life and in your

19:49

whole lineage is that you

19:51

will only receive money by being present

19:53

and hardworking in your work. Changes

19:57

are only surface level because energetically

20:00

and embedded in your whole being is

20:02

that you are not gonna be wealthy without effort.

20:05

So we have to go and heal and transform that

20:07

energetic and that belief in order to

20:09

change your relationship to work, in order to change your

20:11

relationship to money. So some of

20:13

these money mindset programs and things

20:15

like that, Our money mindset

20:17

gurus, and I'm not gonna knock them, they're helping

20:19

you affirm what you want with money, but

20:22

they're not usually looking at all the different

20:24

ways you can receive money or changing your relationship

20:26

with the work so that you can receive money in

20:28

any way. Right? You're like just focused on

20:30

the money, but there's a whole relationship of

20:32

working and money that we have in this,

20:34

in our Western society, especially in this country,

20:36

in the United States. So, This

20:40

is what I'm teaching and guiding the women inside

20:42

of Elevate Mastermind. It's my six

20:44

slash nine month. You have an option, um,

20:47

mastermind that I hold every single year,

20:49

and it's really amazing to see how your

20:52

desires money, for

20:54

example, are so interconnected

20:56

to other, and embedded to other survival

20:58

mechanisms, things that you didn't even imagine.

21:01

Like, do I even believe I can hold on

21:03

to money and hold money? What does it mean to be the first

21:05

woman in my family who is a millionaire, you know,

21:07

in a long ass. but

21:09

this is also what I'm teaching inside

21:11

of the old money course. So

21:14

a lot of you have asked me over the years

21:16

if I would ever teach about money, if I would ever

21:18

teach about currency, abundance

21:20

and building generational wealth. And I was like,

21:22

eh, I don't know. Like it's always.

21:25

A component of the work that we do when I do

21:27

ancestral healing work. And when you're working

21:29

on creating the life that you want, we always talk about money

21:31

and scarcity and looking at your relationship

21:34

and patterns to those things. So I didn't ever think

21:36

about having a separate course

21:38

for it, like a, you know, a specific, a la

21:40

carte, but it just feels right now

21:42

to have it. So I'm calling it the old money course.

21:45

And it's such a good name, right? Because we're literally

21:48

talking about your old money

21:50

patterns, not just your own, but those

21:52

that you've inherited from your family. We're

21:54

looking at how you can create old

21:56

money. Money that lasts long money

21:59

that is abundant, that's staying around

22:01

you, that is sticking to your

22:03

life, your business, that you can invest and

22:05

do things with and feel proud of, and have

22:07

a loving, present relationship with instead

22:09

of a fearful. and I think it's gonna

22:11

be a really amazing course. If you're interested

22:13

in that, definitely click the link in the show

22:16

notes and get on the wait list. Um, let

22:18

me know you're interested in it, and you'll be the first to be notified.

22:21

And if you're ready to explore right

22:23

now, I highly recommend

22:25

signing up for. The money

22:27

audit. So the money audit

22:29

is only 27 bucks, but it's a

22:31

beautiful guided masterclass where I

22:33

take you through looking at your current

22:35

relationship to money

22:38

and working and start to shift

22:40

that, or at least bring your awareness to

22:42

your relationship to money and working.

22:45

So it's called the money audit. The link is in

22:47

the show notes, and I highly recommend

22:49

you signing up for it. We've already had about

22:52

40 people go through it, and I just released

22:54

it last month. Um, so I think it's gonna

22:56

be a really fun one for you to explore. Okay,

23:00

so what I most desire

23:02

as it relates to work in money, right?

23:04

Especially if you are at the beginning of your

23:06

healing, growth, woman empowerment,

23:09

whole life transformation journey, or

23:11

you're just deepening in it. It never stops.

23:13

Right? we desire to

23:16

have that fine balance between

23:18

effort and allowing. That's

23:20

literally it. I'm not saying

23:22

that we wanna do nothing and receive all the

23:24

money in the world. Like I think a lot of us would get bored

23:27

with that. I think a lot of us enjoy working

23:29

because we enjoy creating, we enjoy, it's

23:31

part of our personality, it's part of our identity,

23:33

right? But the way that we've been

23:35

taught to work, to receive money and

23:37

the way that we've been shown to effort and

23:40

deplete and struggle and strain.

23:42

Have these hard and high expectations. It's

23:45

not serving us, it's actually hurting us in

23:47

general, but especially as women,

23:49

it's just not that beautiful, illustrious,

23:52

passionate, fun yumminess

23:54

where when you receive the money on top of

23:57

creating in that energy, it feels so good. And

24:00

one of my favorite examples of this

24:02

is um, I remember I was doing a relaunch

24:04

of Finding Your Freedom, which is one of my signature

24:06

program. And I just didn't wanna launch

24:08

it and offer it the way that I did before,

24:11

like in the past. And I was like, gosh, like I just

24:13

feel really bored. And I was like, but I also

24:15

need the money and I also wanna see this program

24:17

get to more people. Cause I think at that time

24:19

we'd run it three times and we were moving on

24:21

the fourth time, fourth or fifth time running the program.

24:24

And I was like, okay, like. What's

24:27

the creative, fun way that I could

24:29

like create this launch? Right.

24:31

And I, at the time, I think I only had like one or

24:33

two, team members. One was a VA

24:35

assistant and one was a social media production, manager,

24:37

creator, person. And so,

24:39

um, I had heard about like private podcasts

24:42

and I was like, oh, that might, that might be fun. Like

24:44

what if I taught everything that's in

24:46

the course in this private

24:48

podcast and kind of guided people through

24:50

what it's like to be in the course. Like, I don't

24:52

know. That feels exciting. Like, it feels like

24:55

an intimate, cozy

24:58

sister girl chat, training,

25:00

teaching. Right. And it didn't

25:02

feel like work. Like I created this private

25:04

podcast at about a week's time.

25:07

Launched it with a couple of social media posts,

25:10

let the private podcast run for

25:12

another five days and brought in like $25,000.

25:15

You know, like it wasn't about

25:18

this effort and this pushing to produce,

25:20

it was, wow, I've never done this before.

25:22

I, I'm intrigued by it. It's a creative

25:25

process. I had to like, go to YouTube

25:27

University and learn how to edit a podcast

25:29

and like, what's the, um, software

25:31

I could do. Like I did it all free. I found like one of those

25:34

Free music license things

25:36

and like signed up and it was really fun. It was just

25:38

like a fun experience and I truly believe that it

25:40

was through that aligned, inspirational energy

25:43

of creating that offering and creating the

25:45

portal in which the money could come through. But

25:47

it was the energy of how I created that portal,

25:49

right? Like the private podcast. Energy,

25:51

my enthusiasm for it, my excitement

25:53

for it, that allowed people to be attracted

25:56

to this offer that allowed it to penetrate

25:58

through the noise and bring in that money in

26:00

such a quick amount of time. Right? It never

26:02

felt like effort. It never felt like pushing.

26:04

And so this whole thing of

26:06

like, I need to make

26:09

the money in order to have the spaciousness

26:11

or I need to, um, figure

26:14

out how to make money in a way that I love, we.

26:17

Look at our relationship to work in order

26:19

to really get into this and

26:21

our relationship to work is way deeper

26:24

than just a, a career

26:26

or a degree, or, you

26:28

know, what we see or what we believed is from

26:30

our roots. It truly is. Um,

26:32

and it's one of the hardest things that I've ever had to do because

26:34

again, I used to have a lot of pride in working

26:37

hard and receiving a lots of money, and

26:39

now I have a lot of joy in

26:41

working. Beautiful,

26:44

inspiring, joyful,

26:46

you know, explorational, explorational,

26:49

I'm making up words now. That's how good I feel anyway.

26:54

I trust money to come. It always

26:56

does. I believe that I can

26:58

beat myself and share my wisdom,

27:00

and it attracts the opportunities that I desire

27:02

and that I am aligned for because

27:04

I'm in alignment the way that I'm creating

27:07

everywhere I go, everything I do. Portal

27:10

and an opportunity to receive money. It's

27:12

a bat signal to money to come my

27:14

way in the ways that it's rightful for me

27:16

and the people that I'm called to serve and inspire

27:19

and support. I ask for

27:21

what I desire and I feel

27:23

that I deserve like that.

27:25

Alone is a big

27:27

deal. I'm not asking for,

27:30

and this is a tip for you. A lot of

27:32

us are just asking for money just for the sake

27:34

of like to pay a bill

27:36

or to pay an. Or

27:38

asking for large sons of money because it would make us

27:40

feel safe. But when we get down into

27:42

healing our relationship with money and

27:44

work, but healing our relationship with money is

27:46

so much more than that. Like we need to be clear

27:48

about how much money we want and need and for

27:50

what reasons. And it can be beyond

27:53

just paying for an expense. It could be beyond

27:55

just, I won't have to worry, like

27:57

I want money in my life at all times because it's a

27:59

blessing to me. It's a blessing to people who are around. It

28:02

provides for a lifestyle that is regenerative

28:04

and abundant and overflowing, and that means that I'm

28:06

free to move around and share my goodness

28:09

without restriction. Like that feeling

28:11

is completely different too. I no longer

28:13

have to worry about my bills, you know what I mean? Like

28:16

when we go through the money audit, it's helping

28:18

you to really reframe and get into

28:20

the energetics of what you desire in your relationship

28:23

to resource and provision. so

28:26

yeah, asking for what you, desire and what you

28:28

feel you deserve. That alone,

28:30

like it, it'll kick up all your stuff, like worthiness.

28:33

Things like, what do I deserve? I

28:35

know I deserve to be able to be my full,

28:37

authentic, generous, blissful

28:39

self without ever having to worry. That's

28:42

what I believe, and that's what I know I deserve, and I want

28:44

you to have the same thing. And

28:46

I manage my energy accordingly

28:48

around what I am cultivating

28:51

in my life financially and experientially,

28:54

right? I'm not looking to have all these energy

28:56

leaks that are the antithesis,

28:59

right, or sabotage what I'm actually

29:01

cultivating in my life around money

29:03

and freedom. That's

29:06

another gem. Anything.

29:09

Anything I touch turns to gold. This is one of my favorite

29:12

affirmations that I'm giving that to you, and it's a

29:14

very personal one. I even

29:16

had a vision board, like I wanna say like four years

29:18

ago, that had this woman like touching something

29:20

and it was turning to gold. It's one of my favorite

29:23

sayings, I think about the

29:25

ease of being in creative

29:27

energy so that it creates

29:31

beauty anywhere

29:33

I go, anything that I do makes that

29:35

experience that much more beautiful. I

29:38

mean, that's a recipe for abundance. If you ask

29:40

me and you can't ask me,

29:44

here are some things that I no longer do as it relates

29:47

to my relationship to money. I

29:49

don't need to demand it. I do not beg for

29:51

it. I don't demand it. I don't chase

29:54

unpaid payments. Some of you who are listening to

29:56

this podcast, I'm calling you out

29:58

with Love Owe money to me. But if you

30:00

notice, I have not asked for it because

30:03

I trust that it's coming when it's gonna come, whether it's from

30:05

you or from somewhere else. That's just how it is.

30:08

I, I've noticed a lot of people, particularly

30:10

in the self-help and development, industries

30:12

are like, you signed a contract and like da,

30:14

da, da da, da, and they're like chasing people down.

30:17

And I was like, you know what? It's super shitty when people

30:19

do not keep a. And

30:22

they don't address it. But

30:24

I would rather you, and this is just

30:26

spiritual hygiene, and for my own piece,

30:28

I'd rather you deal with your deficit

30:31

of not paying something and not keeping your word

30:33

and how that's cycling through your

30:35

life over and over and over again. And I release

30:37

attachment, so that is no longer my energetic

30:39

vibration. Can you imagine what would happen

30:42

if I believed that every. Coming

30:45

to my business with lapses on a payment or

30:47

wouldn't pay me. And I was just working like, that

30:49

is like a cancer. It is. It

30:51

is a cancer. It is, um, something that

30:53

will eat up all of your abundance if you're in that

30:55

fear and then you'll keep attracting people who

30:57

do that. So, and this

30:59

is not to shame anyone cuz you know, again, we've all had

31:01

moments where we couldn't afford something, but we really wanted

31:03

to work with someone and or hard times

31:05

have come or like lost our jobs or I don't

31:07

know, global pandemic happens. Global

31:10

pandemic, right? But. Being

31:13

able to address your debts

31:15

and be honest about where you are and know that

31:17

you've never forgotten about it, is

31:20

a very powerful thing. Whether you pay it

31:22

five days later, five weeks later, five

31:24

months or five years, who cares, right? But

31:27

owning it is very important. And as a provider

31:29

and a healer, and a space holder, and a guide, and an

31:31

inspirational muse, when that happens,

31:33

I'm just like, all right, something. It'll

31:37

come to me, whatever way it needs to and let go of

31:39

it and move on. So permission to do that. Cause

31:41

I know sometimes that when you're an entrepreneur

31:44

or you're a business owner, or even when you loan

31:46

money or something to friends and when they don't pay you back,

31:48

it doesn't feel good, you know, and you start to question yourself

31:50

and your abundance around that. Um,

31:53

I always believe that there's more where that came from

31:55

or where it didn't come from. Right. There's always,

31:57

my money does not come and neither does yours

32:00

come through. Only one avenue or

32:02

one. I'll

32:04

do an episode on that. That's a really good one. Okay.

32:07

I treat my money with respect and appreciation

32:09

and trust, but I do not white

32:12

knuckle it. Oh my goodness. I,

32:14

I can tell you the number of my clients who have been like,

32:16

I was so afraid to pay you, and then

32:18

I realize I really did wanna pay you and I enjoyed

32:20

paying you, which is one of my favorite mantras,

32:22

that everyone who pays me enjoys to pay me and enjoys

32:25

working with me. but they. That

32:28

experience of knowing that I deeply

32:30

wanted to work with you and that it would feel great

32:32

to pay you, but still being afraid to

32:34

do it was an opportunity

32:37

to open up and look at what my real relationship

32:39

to money is like. I didn't realize

32:41

that Ash, and again, that ends up being like a

32:44

launching point of our intimate work

32:46

together, that in whatever else they came into

32:48

the container for. Look

32:51

at how your relationship to money already

32:53

is. Are you like hesitating, even though

32:55

you have the money to pay for something, are

32:57

you looking at what you will not have

33:00

if you spend money on something or invest in yourself

33:02

in a certain way instead of looking at what you're gonna gain,

33:05

that's gonna let you know about your consciousness and the energetic

33:07

vibration of your relationship with money

33:09

right off the bat? Right? So

33:11

while I don't white knuckle it, I also don't just

33:13

go around spending it in ways that tells

33:15

money that I take it for granted. Like I deeply

33:18

appreciate money. I'm like, Ugh, I'm

33:20

so glad that you're here again. Like, how would you

33:22

like for me to spend you? I actually have conversations with my

33:24

money like that. Like how would you like to be spent? How

33:26

would you like to circulate in my life and in the

33:28

lives of people who are connected to me by

33:30

way of their services, their. You

33:32

know, and I let money talk back to me

33:34

and tell me, and I tell money what I think I want

33:36

for it, and I show money the buckets that I want it

33:38

to go into my life and savings and taxes

33:40

and so on and so forth. So it's actually

33:43

quite fun in my opinion. so

33:45

here are three things I want you to know as we

33:47

get ready to wrap up this episode. There

33:49

are three reasons why your

33:51

money situation isn't what you desire

33:53

it to. And of course there's many

33:56

hundreds, millions of different narratives,

33:58

but it always comes down to these three

34:01

things in my opinion. One is

34:03

you're not aligned or expressed

34:06

in your power, in your purpose, and in

34:08

your calling. So you're not doing your soul

34:10

aligned work. You don't really love what you're

34:12

doing for a living. It's not aligned with your energetic

34:14

blueprint and who you're truly called to be,

34:17

and that will create a clog

34:19

in you receiving money abundantly

34:21

and easily. Arguably

34:24

we could say you're disconnected with who you truly

34:26

are, because I truly believe when we're our, authentic

34:28

selves, we do

34:31

things that are authentic and align with us

34:33

as an occupation, and therefore

34:35

money flows to us very easily. So

34:37

look at that. Number two, you're

34:39

allowing your childhood ancestral

34:42

and cultural. And

34:44

programs to dictate how, when

34:46

and what you receive as it relates

34:48

to money. So this is those

34:50

things that's like, oh, my mom always

34:52

said that money is the root of all evil.

34:55

Or I realize everybody in my culture,

34:57

my race, if we're black, you know, we always

34:59

struggle with money or we don't know money or,

35:02

a woman can't be trusted with money.

35:04

cuz my dad or my boyfriend or my husband

35:06

or my brothers or whoever always

35:08

had it and. Whatever

35:11

it might be. Oh, I'm young and now, so if I have a lot of

35:13

money, I'll squander it away

35:15

and just blow it. Oh, I'm old,

35:17

and so I don't have a lot of time to get money. Like whatever

35:19

these stories are, they

35:22

are. What's stopping you from attracting and receiving

35:24

money? The

35:26

third thing is you're completely disconnected

35:28

from the true essence and energy of money

35:30

and need to rekindle a sacred relationship

35:32

with it. You just don't even

35:35

intimately know what money is.

35:37

Sure. We've had it in our wallet. Sure.

35:39

We've had it in our debit cards, our credit cards,

35:41

but you haven't actually connected to the energetics

35:43

of money and understand how it talks, how it moves,

35:46

how it likes to be appreciated, like it is an entity.

35:49

Just like when you go to a home and you're looking

35:51

for an apartment and you're feeling into the

35:53

energy of the home, not just how it looks,

35:55

not just the location, not just the price point,

35:57

but you're looking. energetically?

35:59

Am I aligned with this place? Is it a place

36:01

that wants to hold me? Do I see myself

36:04

growing and evolving in this place? This

36:06

is it, or it is not it. Same

36:08

way you go through that experience is similarly

36:11

to money. What would it feel like to get

36:13

that raise? Like what does money

36:15

feel like to me? How does money

36:17

want to feel? Like to me, how does money talk to me?

36:20

Like getting intimate with the

36:22

energetics of money and for what

36:24

it is itself is huge. I'll

36:27

tell you guys this. When I was moving from

36:29

the states to Southeast Asia,

36:31

I had to attune to the energetics of the money,

36:34

not just that $1 was

36:36

a million ria. Is

36:39

that how it was? I think it was, I think it was

36:42

one US dollar was a million rubia anyway.

36:44

it wasn't just the conversions. Like most

36:46

times we just focus on that, what is the actual

36:49

monetary currency conversion? And let

36:51

me do the math really quickly to understand how to use

36:53

this money. But we never feel into the energetics

36:56

of how this money wants to be expressed. Is

36:58

it happy, is it sad? Is it oppressed? Is it

37:00

like, What is the energetics of the money? I know

37:02

it sounds weird in hello woo woo, but if you

37:04

sit down and hold a dollar in your hand,

37:07

or a 50 bucks in your hand, or a hundred dollars bill

37:09

in your hand, or even just look at your bank

37:11

account and what you have in there and tune

37:13

into the energetics of that money, you

37:15

will receive a lot of information.

37:17

Trust me. Oftentimes

37:20

it's all three of these. You're disconnected

37:22

to what you're really called to do and who you truly are.

37:24

You've got a whole bunch of ancestral family,

37:26

cultural wounds, baggage beliefs,

37:28

limiting things running around, and

37:31

you're disconnected to money. So those are the three

37:33

areas of exploration, healing,

37:35

overcoming growth, deciding

37:38

what is gonna be true for you

37:40

in those areas that will transform your relationship

37:43

to and with. Okay,

37:46

this feels good for now.

37:49

I know that we're moving further into,

37:52

this recession and

37:54

I think that's a reason why I feel called

37:56

to talk about money, teach about money, share

37:58

stories about money. cuz everyone

38:00

seems to be on this weird pause, but

38:04

I want to leave you with this thought. Those

38:07

who receive the most in changing.

38:10

Like massive moments of change

38:13

as we're in again right now are

38:15

always those who are willing to face

38:17

and transmute their greatest fears

38:20

into opportunities and into

38:22

opportunities that they desire and they deserve.

38:25

Let me say that again. The people who

38:27

receive the most, who grow, who

38:29

gain, who expand, who bust

38:32

through barriers and create new things and become

38:34

very abundant during changing

38:36

times, are the people who.

38:39

Willing to face and transmute their

38:42

greatest fears into opportunities.

38:45

So I wanna leave you with

38:48

that. If you are feeling restricted

38:51

and tight and fearful

38:53

about your money or about what's happening in the world,

38:56

even if you don't wanna admit it, even if it's like a subtle

38:58

frequency. Face that deal

39:00

with it. Climb on in if you

39:02

wanna explore that. The money audit is

39:05

in the show notes. I would

39:07

love to have you go through this. It's about. I

39:09

think it's 60 minutes of me guiding

39:11

you through the audit process. It's

39:13

a very powerful, and so far

39:16

everyone who's gone through it has reported back that it's been life

39:18

changing for them. So go ahead and sign

39:20

up for that. I'd love to have you inside. In

39:22

the meantime, have a fantastic

39:24

day, wherever you are. I'm so

39:26

glad that you tune into this episode. It's

39:28

still happening. Whether you are listening to

39:30

the podcast or watching me on the

39:32

YouTubes, lots of love to you.