I've been on a long hard road, trying to find God. In 2007, after a brutal battle with cancer, I was in recovery from drug addiction (ya, life is shitty sometimes, for all of us) and introduced to the 12-steps of A.A., where I was told to find a God "of my own understanding". . . to make a long story short, that took me down a long, winding road that eventually led me to the cross, many years later.