I've been less than graceful at times when it comes to dealing with my own anger and depression. I used to be a very egotistical prick. I've hurt people, lied to friends, hidden things, acted extremely selfish to get what I want....I've been to jail, I've been jealous, I've compared myself to other people only to come to the conclusion that I'm not good enough or that I'm "less than" them.
I view consciousness like a flashlight in a dark room. What we choose to shine our flashlight on is what we see as "reality" around us. If we stick to looking at the same wall all the time and don't choose to look around the room and see what else is there from time to time we can get stuck in a world of hurt. We don't even realize that the other walls are decorated differently. They may have different art on them, different pictures, memories, or inspiration. If we constantly focus on all of the bad shit going on around us...to the point we think "god" or "the world" is out to get us...we will continue to find more bad shit. It's what we're looking for so it's what we're used to finding.
However if you get outside of yourself for a bit and start to realize that everything in your life is a result of an action YOU'VE taken to get there, you realize things are much more in your control than you thought. The only way thing are going to become different than they are is if you take a step in a different direction than you've ever taken. Takes balls...I know. To become uncomfortable and try something new is scary as shit. But facing that fear is where the beauty comes out from hiding once the lesson is over.
If any of you need help please feel free to reach out.
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I love y'all, and challenge you to live while you're here as your best self. Be proud of yourself, impress yourself. Stop giving a fuck about your past or what people think of you. Do you and do it well. If you don't know what that looks like maybe it's time you try something different everyday from the time you wake up til the time you go to bed. And keep doing it until you notice a difference. Be well - peace
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