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I think that the internet takes really basic
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intrinsic desires like to be seen, to be
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heard, to find
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some sort of connection to other
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people. These incredibly basic social desires
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have become exploited in ways that
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a lot of us understand but
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can't necessarily see the extent of
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on an everyday basis. Hey,
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this is Kelly Corrigan. Welcome to Kelly
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Corrigan Wonders. I am so
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psyched today. I have a woman named
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Gia Tolentino with me in conversation. If
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you haven't heard of her, you will.
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She's a 32-year-old intellectual phenom. She writes for
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The New Yorker and came out with her
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first book of essays called Trick Mirror. She's
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part feminist and part radical thinker and part
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cultural critic. I learned of her from my
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husband and when he was reading Trick Mirror,
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he kept poking me in the shoulder and
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saying, wait, wait, wait, you got to hear
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this. We'll be right back with Gia
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Tolentino. This is Kelly Corrigan Wonders.
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in all states and situations. Hi,
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I'm Kelly Corrigan.
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Welcome back to Kelly Corrigan Wonders. I'm
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here today with Gia Tolentino. She's a
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writer for The New Yorker. She's whip
1:59
smart. and her book trick mirror
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is very high on my
2:04
list of recommended readings. Hi,
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how are you? Good, how are
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you? Good, I'm really glad to meet
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you. So you have talked a
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lot about like deep fundamental changes in
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society and also in yourself that
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you've observed in yourself and
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that made you somebody that I
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wanted to talk to about human
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nature. So I'm wondering about the
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relationship between environment and an individual and
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how those two things drive change and
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like kind of who's in charge of
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how people change. Are we in
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charge of it or is the environment just pushing us around?
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I was just rereading
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an Atlantic article about
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those children that were
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left in Romanian orphanages in the 80s where
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like an estimated 170,000 infants and children had
2:53
been consigned to these orphanages.
2:59
They had been left to
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feed themselves in cages
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basically like they would get a bottle
3:06
propped between the bars. They had no
3:08
human contact for almost their
3:10
entire lives and they stopped
3:13
crying completely because they never developed the cause
3:15
and effect that would lead them to think
3:17
that another human would help them, which is
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I think something that we think of as
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being a fundamental human quality. You know I
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mean I just had a baby and it
3:26
is this you know she needs help, she
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cries for it, she sees me, she cries
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louder because she knows I'll get it and
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all throughout the last six months with this
3:34
baby I've been thinking about this question like
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how much were born as who we are.
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She was born with a certain temperament. It
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continues to be that temperament. My parents always
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tell me that I've been the same since
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I was like three but I was reading
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this article the other day and I was
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thinking I don't know that there's so much
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that's so fundamental about who any of us
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are that wouldn't have been utterly destroyed by
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an environment that extreme. It was a reminder
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that maybe
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it's not as fixed as I thought. Do
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you think that our environment, you know,
4:07
vis-a-vis the internet, let's say,
4:09
or reality TV, is
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having a bigger impact
4:14
on us than we even realize? Yeah,
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I think that that is one of
4:20
the most pernicious aspects of
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what Shoshana Zuboff calls surveillance capitalism, which
4:25
is, you know, effectively the economic
4:27
model that the whole internet runs
4:29
on. I mean, one of the things that I
4:32
always think about is the way that
4:35
algorithmic incentives are becoming our deep emotional
4:37
ones in many cases. I mean, QAnon
4:40
exists because a
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handful of social networks have
4:45
been organized around certain
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emotions being incentivized, certain
4:49
types of group
4:51
action being incentivized, certain types
4:54
of compulsion revolving
4:56
around kind of self-determination
4:58
and identity and self-righteousness and
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rage. Like, these are the things that are
5:04
economically fruitful for these companies. This
5:07
is the type of human behavior
5:10
that is reinforced
5:12
over and over again. And then
5:14
you end up with
5:16
people with a really, really, really true, deep
5:19
belief that this is how the world
5:21
is. It becomes a way for people to
5:23
understand the entire world and understand their place
5:26
in it. And that is meaningful. You
5:29
know, it's just formed by
5:31
these completely artificial economic
5:33
incentives. And I
5:35
think that the internet takes really basic intrinsic desires,
5:39
like, to be seen, to be
5:41
heard, to find some sort of connection to
5:43
other people. These incredibly basic
5:46
social desires have become exploited in ways
5:48
that a lot of us understand but
5:52
can't necessarily see the extent of on an
5:54
everyday basis or really see any
5:56
road out. if
6:00
it's the fact that we
6:02
all come into the world with
6:04
this need to connect, and then that
6:06
some set of people aren't naturally finding
6:08
that connection, and then someone offers that
6:11
set of people that opportunity to
6:13
be a part of something larger than
6:15
themselves, which is like the defining feature
6:18
of the human race, right? Like as
6:20
Yuval Harari says, we started as insignificant
6:22
as jellyfish, and 70,000 years later, we're ruling
6:25
the earth, and the way we're doing it is
6:27
that we're flexible, and that
6:30
we can collaborate across massive numbers of
6:32
people who are essentially
6:34
total strangers based
6:36
on this shared fiction. And
6:39
so if that's all the case, if that's
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the absolute seat of our power as
6:43
a species, and then
6:45
something's offering you like something
6:49
that looks like connection, that looks
6:51
like the chance to collaborate and
6:53
coordinate and cooperate and exercise
6:56
these superhuman features
6:59
and desires, that
7:02
thing will win. Right. In
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what ways do you feel manipulated? Right
7:07
now. Like I think specifically,
7:09
I feel most overtly manipulated by the
7:11
way in America, healthcare is tied to
7:14
specific kinds of employment. And
7:17
it's hard for me to imagine what
7:19
kind of choices I might have made if that
7:21
weren't the case. You know, I'm
7:24
in a lucky position right now. But
7:27
I would say that, you know, almost every decision
7:29
I've made in my adult life has been rooted
7:31
in the desire to keep
7:34
myself and people
7:36
I love away from the
7:38
possible economic devastation of sickness.
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That's so interesting to me. That's the last thing
7:43
on earth I thought you were going to say.
7:46
Did you have healthcare growing up? Yes.
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But sometimes
7:52
not. Sometimes the parents couldn't pay
7:55
for it. Yeah, I didn't have healthcare in
7:57
college. And it's
7:59
just something You know they have been
8:01
thinking about in the pandemic because
8:03
you know that the one kind
8:05
of safety net that people have
8:08
against sickness is tried to pass
8:10
Implement Yeah. So. I want to
8:12
talk about an. Identity. And he
8:14
says identity according to have or
8:16
arrow is not something that we
8:18
neatly possess and reveal that something
8:20
we understand through narratives provided to
8:23
us that others. So. I wanna
8:25
Now what is your. Opinion about why we
8:27
tell and retail stories. Why do we
8:29
tell in retail store is is because.
8:32
That is the only
8:34
way. We
8:36
can understand anything about the world
8:38
and is we don't tell stories
8:40
about ourselves and the world around
8:43
us then mean. Effectively
8:45
function in the world like animal. There's
8:48
no other way to situate yourself
8:50
even to say mean, there's there's
8:52
a story. In any
8:54
sentence you could say about.
8:58
Yourself or anything. One
9:01
of the things he said that was super
9:03
interesting was said the. The thought
9:05
of social media like kind of the endless
9:07
school that classes and frontier I as I
9:09
can any. Moment you could be
9:12
bouncing from Syrian refugees to
9:14
assert on sale from J
9:16
Crew to your friends grandmother
9:18
died. And that it.
9:20
Because. Each box is the
9:22
same thing is. You
9:25
could lose the ability to
9:27
separate that. Than off from
9:30
the profound. How
9:32
do you think? Storytelling. This
9:34
super fundamental thing. the human nature and how we
9:36
learn and how we remember not to touch the
9:38
hot stove or go by and I blush where
9:40
the lions waving. How do you think that. Fundamental.
9:45
System. Of communicating information
9:47
and and deciding what's important
9:49
and what's mine is being
9:51
altered or degraded. By.
9:53
Social media. i
9:55
i would guess say it
9:58
is probably insurance you perception
10:02
that scale is
10:04
confusing, right? Like I think
10:08
in moments of sweeping historical tragedy, you
10:14
know, if you stub your toe, it's
10:16
still gonna hurt, right, if someone
10:19
slights you, it's still
10:21
gonna hurt. Like something that I think about a lot
10:25
is how John McPhee, I
10:27
think once put it in one of his books,
10:29
if you measured all of time by the distance
10:31
between your shoulder and the tip of your finger,
10:34
and you sliced off the very, very end
10:36
of your fingernail, you would erase all of
10:38
human existence, right? And that's all of human
10:40
existence, let alone like the mood I woke
10:42
up in this morning, right? And
10:44
yet the mood you woke up in this morning is
10:47
meaningful to you. Yeah, and
10:49
at the time you're in that mood, it
10:51
is your world. And so I
10:53
think that the
10:56
difficulty of extricating the banal from the
10:58
profound and the, you know,
11:00
the personal from the larger context
11:02
of your community or your country
11:04
or your world, I
11:07
think that things that are objectively
11:09
not in proportion to each other
11:11
have probably always seemed proportionate
11:16
as long as people have been telling stories. Like if
11:18
there's a version of this when you're hearing the news
11:20
over the radio, there's a version of this when you're,
11:23
you know, getting little pamphlets distributed off
11:25
the printing press, but I do
11:27
think the internet instantiates
11:30
or exacerbates just the scale and
11:32
the volume and the speed. The
11:35
pandemic has been, you know, yet
11:39
another extremely confounding way to confront this,
11:41
right? I mean, I've had
11:43
the luckiest possible pandemic experience, you know,
11:45
I've gotten paychecks, I've been working at
11:47
home. I've had kind
11:49
of a pandemic of
11:53
like almost transcendent gratitude, I would
11:55
say. And yet early on, especially
11:57
in March and April, you know, I would
11:59
be refreshing. statistics and
12:01
looking at, you know,
12:03
graves being dug on Hearts Island. And
12:06
then I would pick up my banana bread and I
12:08
would be depressed, you know,
12:10
and the banana bread would be the thing that did it. Right.
12:13
Right. And then also, you made
12:15
a point somewhere in Trick Mirror about the
12:20
pain involved in being aware of things that
12:22
you can't do anything about. And
12:25
that, and that, of course,
12:27
it's more apparent to us than ever
12:29
all of the things that are
12:31
going wrong right on around the world
12:35
that we have absolutely no hope
12:37
of having any impact on. And I
12:40
wonder if, like I'm
12:42
an old nonprofit person, I worked for 10 years
12:44
raising money for United Way. And
12:47
you know, there's always this idea about
12:49
like issue fatigue, people become
12:51
immune. And then I had breast cancer in
12:53
my 30s. And I remember the way the
12:55
doctors were talking to me. I was like, what?
12:58
Whoa, like slow down. You are telling me that
13:00
I'm going to be in chemotherapy on Monday. I
13:02
have a one year old and a two year
13:04
old. You are going to have to say that
13:06
a couple more times and a little softer. But
13:09
then you realize that with distance, that's all they
13:11
do all day. Just go from one room to
13:13
the next. They go for 18 women
13:15
all day long. They say you're going to be in chemotherapy on Monday.
13:18
So exposure, press and
13:20
zest and maybe makes it
13:23
harder for us to access the empathy
13:25
that could activate compassion
13:28
and solutions. And
13:30
so if the internet is
13:32
increasing access and exposure, then
13:35
maybe it's decreasing empathy, compassion
13:37
and action. I
13:39
tend to think of this more like the
13:42
particular stage of capitalism that drives this
13:44
iteration of the internet is
13:48
also behind other mechanisms
13:50
of active disempowerment that
13:52
go beyond emotional capacity.
13:54
Anyone that is on the
13:56
internet too much knows the feeling of being
13:59
kind of jumpy. and numb
14:01
and anxious and wanting
14:03
to do something and
14:05
maybe being overwhelmed. And feeling cheap.
14:07
Yeah, sometimes I feel cheap. Yeah,
14:10
exactly. It's like as all
14:12
these civic spaces have shrunk and in actual
14:14
life, as people's free time
14:17
and actual life has shrunk, the internet
14:19
is providing these really cheap substitutes and
14:21
these little intersisies of spare time
14:23
that people do have under these
14:26
current new models of work where
14:29
the workday is essentially unlimited because it was
14:31
on our phone. And if it's not, then
14:34
you can also monetize your spare time by
14:36
picking up groceries for Instacart or being a
14:38
task grab it or driving for Uber. I
14:41
mean, it's like the colonization
14:43
of free time with
14:46
the obligation to produce because of the
14:48
stage of capitalism that we're in with
14:51
everything getting so much more expensive
14:53
and pay not rising to
14:55
pick it up. It
14:59
leaves the internet as this
15:02
substitute for
15:05
the civic life and
15:07
community that we want, but it also, the internet is
15:10
the thing that's also
15:13
driving kind of the colonization of
15:15
the self and the actual
15:18
life. So you talk about
15:20
drugs and religion and certain
15:22
overlaps and then you also talk a little bit about this
15:24
thing. You share this research about enclosed
15:26
cognition. And that
15:28
got me thinking about this idea
15:30
of ourselves as less active
15:32
drivers of our own thoughts and feelings and
15:34
beliefs and actions and more
15:37
like reaction machines to certain
15:39
inputs. So can you just
15:41
start by explaining enclosed cognition? I
15:44
think it makes sense in a
15:46
common sense way where your environment
15:48
and the scripts around the objects
15:50
in your environment determine your
15:52
actual cognitive reactions. Like if you put a
15:55
white coat on someone and tell them that
15:57
it's a scientist coat, they will do slightly
15:59
better on. and like sample math problems.
16:01
But if you put the same coat on the
16:03
person and tell them it's a painter's coat, they'll
16:05
do slightly worse. You know, so
16:07
it's just this basic concept of
16:10
how suggestible we are to
16:13
the scripts that we are given, which I
16:15
think makes instinctive sense, you know? So
16:18
if we're that suggestible, and
16:20
it's really like an outside in
16:22
kind of suggestion, do
16:25
you think happiness is just a chemical reaction?
16:27
And if so, does it matter? I
16:31
don't think happiness is just a chemical reaction at all. I
16:33
think, well, insofar
16:36
as, you know, every thought or
16:38
every emotion or sensation we ever
16:40
feel manifests as a chemical reaction,
16:43
even if you do think of it as a chemical
16:45
reaction, what would
16:48
that change? Well,
16:50
here's where I'm coming from on the
16:52
question partially, is I have this 17
16:54
year old, and she's awfully curious, since
16:56
she was listening to some podcasts
16:59
about neuroscience. And
17:01
it totally changed
17:03
her relationship to her own emotions. In
17:08
the sense that she, as she
17:10
would put it, she said, I'm not such a
17:12
sucker for, like say a
17:14
little wave of anxiety. I
17:16
think, oh, that's just these neurons responding to
17:19
this input, and maybe I had too much
17:21
caffeine or I need to do some jumping
17:23
jacks and like change the neurobiology
17:26
a little bit, like shake off some
17:28
endorphins and get the serotonin. And like,
17:30
she started to think of things almost
17:32
like a soundboard way where you could
17:34
just do these little things that dial
17:36
up and down certain, oh
17:38
yeah, chemical reactions. And the
17:42
idea of looking at it through that frame
17:45
just made, the whole thing was less scary to
17:47
her. It was like, oh, this is just a
17:49
thing that happens before you take a test or
17:51
give a speech in front of your class or
17:53
try out for the next, the varsity team or
17:56
whatever. It is an interesting
17:58
point of view because it... Take
18:00
some of the terror out
18:03
of negative emotions for sure, I think. Mm-hmm.
18:06
You know, it's interesting hearing you talk
18:08
about this. I
18:10
personally process
18:13
my emotions almost completely physically. Almost
18:16
can't not. Like, I actually, this is a
18:18
huge problem for me because I never feel
18:20
stressed, but I have incredibly high blood pressure.
18:23
I would rather feel emotionally stressed and
18:25
not have high blood pressure. But
18:28
I can't. I know that certain circumstances in
18:30
my life have taught me the
18:33
sort of coping mechanism of the repression
18:35
into the physical or something. But it
18:37
also does seem to be a kind
18:40
of semi-innate thing that I've had because
18:42
I've always been very even-tempered. When
18:45
I'm upset, I have always thought of
18:47
it as, okay, here are the levers that you
18:49
should pull. You know, I used
18:51
to have a note under my computer that was
18:53
like, you know, do you need a night to
18:55
yourself getting stoned and listening to music
18:57
and writing? You know, do you need to take a
18:59
really hot shower? Do you need to take an hour-long
19:01
walk? Have you not been in the sun for a
19:03
while? Do you need to go to a concert? Like,
19:05
I very much feel myself as like
19:10
a little bit of a soundboard in that way. I
19:13
also have a 19-year-old, and she's learning how to
19:16
move around her dial such that she
19:18
can be more psychically comfortable in any
19:20
given situation. And I
19:22
feel like watching these two people
19:25
figure themselves out, the machinery of
19:27
themselves, is part
19:30
of what I'm observing growing up
19:32
to be, which is I
19:34
understand better and better and better how I work. I
19:36
know what a day needs to have in it,
19:38
and I know what little notes to leave myself
19:41
under my computer. So the other
19:43
thing that you point out was that, of
19:45
course, there are these lab rats who,
19:48
when the feedback is rare and irregular,
19:50
such that you get on social
19:52
media, let's say, they will keep
19:54
pushing the pressing your
19:56
food dispenser forever and ever and ever. makes
20:00
me feel really anxious in the same
20:02
way that, say, social dilemma
20:04
made me anxious, which is, oh
20:07
my God, this system has
20:09
got us at
20:11
the human nature level. Like,
20:13
it knows exactly how to
20:16
wire this thing for the
20:18
animal that we are. Do you feel
20:20
that way? Yeah. One of the
20:22
things that I try to remember is the internet doesn't
20:24
have to be like this. The
20:26
ways in which, broadly speaking, human
20:28
behavior has been changed by the internet, the
20:32
kind of ontological questions of what exists and how
20:34
do we know it exists and how
20:37
do we know anything, the ways that the
20:40
basic idea of shared knowledge
20:42
has been destroyed, obliterated by
20:45
the internet, by social media.
20:48
It's not an inevitability with the
20:50
internet. It's not an inevitability of
20:52
connection. It's because
20:54
the internet is set up
20:56
along the lines of contemporary
20:58
capitalism where there
21:00
are no guardrails, there
21:03
is no value system
21:05
other than what will create
21:07
the most profit at any
21:10
given time. The internet is
21:12
organized around opposition. It
21:15
profits off opposition and heightened emotion and
21:17
compulsive use. It doesn't have to be
21:19
one like that. Wikipedia is
21:22
non-profit. It doesn't monetize
21:25
aggression, disinformation, compulsive
21:29
use, and people use it in a healthy way.
21:32
If there were even rules about regulating algorithms,
21:35
the internet would look different. The
21:38
system has been set up to work so perfectly
21:43
with our nature. The
21:45
system that's been set up to habituate
21:49
us to constant compulsive use
21:51
of something we mostly dislike.
21:55
That is... It's
22:01
not inevitable, right? We weren't
22:03
created to exploit ourselves in
22:05
this way. This is a
22:08
specific incentive of capitalism
22:14
seeming natural and inevitable
22:17
and final and totalizing.
22:20
Right. It's a specific necessity
22:22
to bring profit out
22:24
of any digital action
22:26
that we take that
22:29
creates this sort of lab rat system of
22:32
irregular and increasingly
22:35
shrinking rewards. It's interesting because
22:37
I have tried in many ways
22:39
to wean myself off of it. The
22:42
thing that existed, it's a pre-internet when I
22:44
was a kid, I
22:46
would read while I was rollerblading. I
22:49
would read every second of the day,
22:52
I wanted input. Like
22:54
everyone did, we would read the shampoo bottles over
22:56
and over in the shower. Like everyone did that.
23:01
I remember I just always wanted
23:03
input. I couldn't sit
23:06
the same way that four-year-olds sit at restaurants
23:08
with their parents with an iPad in front of
23:10
them. We think like, oh my God, the
23:13
internet screen, whatever, tragic. I was doing that
23:15
with my books and if I didn't have
23:17
a book, which we thought was spectacular. Right.
23:19
I would go nuts. I think about that
23:22
desire for stimulation being natural and in a
23:24
lot of ways. Thank
23:28
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23:30
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Hey, welcome back. This is Kelly Corrigan and
24:27
this is Kelly Corrigan-Wenders here with the New
24:29
Yorker's Gia Tolentino, talking
24:31
about human nature. So
24:36
let's talk about, you
24:38
grew up in this Houston mega church that you
24:41
called the Repentagon, which is pretty brilliant. And
24:43
you said that you've been walking away from it pretty much
24:45
as long as you were in it, but that a lot
24:47
of your ideas about what makes a good and
24:49
moral leader are rooted in Christianity. So
24:52
I wanna get a religion
24:54
in general and if you think it will
24:56
always exist for as long as there is man, and
25:00
what you think the roots of its power are for
25:02
good or for evil? Yeah,
25:04
I do think it will always
25:06
exist in some way. Like I
25:08
don't think that certain permutations, like
25:10
I don't think monotheistic religion is
25:13
inevitable, but I do think
25:15
that maybe the most fundamental story we
25:17
end up telling ourselves about being alive
25:19
is that, I mean, it's a
25:21
way to, the
25:24
only way to reckon with existence
25:26
and smallness is
25:30
to think that of
25:32
some sort of purpose and
25:34
to think of some sort
25:37
of power greater than
25:39
you. I think
25:41
it's hard, you
25:43
know, even within the frame of atheism, both
25:46
of those ideas are
25:48
very much in play. And
25:51
I think that, like what
25:53
other narrative do you make out
25:56
of being here other than,
25:58
yeah, there's some. sort of purpose and
26:00
there's some sort of thing that's more powerful than me.
26:04
And that's where you are with it right now. Oh,
26:06
me? Me
26:09
personally? Sure. Yeah,
26:12
I mean, I don't think of, I don't
26:14
believe in like a divine purpose. And
26:17
I think, but I do think
26:19
that there are many things more
26:21
powerful than me. So you
26:23
did a stint in the Peace Corps after
26:26
UVA, and you've got
26:28
TB, tuberculosis, and your hair
26:31
started falling out, and you lived in
26:33
this kind of grueling environment. So
26:35
I wondered for that reason, and
26:37
maybe many others that I don't know, how
26:40
do you think about suffering? Oh, well,
26:43
my experience in the Peace Corps, I would not
26:45
classify that as suffering whatsoever. But
26:48
that is, back to the question of scale,
26:50
that was something that I
26:52
found really difficult just because I did have hard
26:55
times with various things. And
26:59
even as I knew with every fiber
27:01
of my being that whatever, quote
27:03
unquote, hardship I was experiencing, well,
27:07
absolutely minuscule and completely
27:09
ridiculous, given the fact that
27:11
at any second, if I wanted to, I could
27:13
press an eject button and leave and return to
27:15
the land of grocery
27:17
stores and express shipping,
27:20
that was not a sufficient way to talk myself
27:22
out of having a bad day. Right,
27:26
right. But I also wonder about
27:28
what you were witnessing and thinking how hard
27:31
it was to make impact, and
27:33
that very grown-up realization that
27:35
I've had myself, which is I'm
27:40
throwing everything I've got at this little
27:42
problem, and I don't know if
27:45
it's really gonna add up to all that much in the
27:47
end. Yeah, that was, I
27:50
think, my year in the Peace Corps was
27:53
my real education in the
27:55
gap between intention and
27:57
impact, and a real... sort
28:00
of permanent education in how
28:04
kind of all-encompassing systems are
28:06
and how I could spend
28:10
a year of my life trying to
28:12
do something so little.
28:15
Like I tried to be a good teacher and
28:17
I built a little library in this village and
28:19
you know it
28:21
was just so absolutely insignificant compared
28:24
to the global
28:26
historical factors that had made a
28:29
specific village that I was in, what it was
28:31
and the specific conditions for kids
28:34
and for women, what they were and
28:36
there was just absolutely nothing I could
28:38
do to really
28:40
even mitigate it. But
28:43
then it was a lesson in the same thing that you know it's
28:45
like all we have is the kindness
28:47
that we can show on an everyday basis to the
28:49
people around us and that's best on nothing
28:51
and that matters too. You know and also
28:53
the kind of like
28:56
coming to a country with
28:58
this do-gooding energy structured
29:00
around American power, you
29:04
know I left feeling really gross and embarrassed
29:06
about that American power. Yeah. We
29:10
had Melinda Gates on the podcast and it
29:12
would be great for people to listen to that
29:15
vis-a-vis this conversation because she talks a lot about
29:17
coming in there with all your fixed energy and then
29:20
having to sit down on the mat and
29:22
listen and watch and observe and figure
29:24
it out from the
29:26
inside what if anything you
29:29
could do to help
29:31
the system help
29:33
itself. You know like what little measures
29:37
could you take that would last,
29:39
that would stay, that would become
29:41
homegrown in a well. So
29:45
this is kind of a trippy question but I feel
29:47
like you'd be a really good person to like sit
29:49
around a dorm room late at night with and talk
29:51
about this kind of stuff with but
29:53
what experience would you like to give everyone if
29:55
you could give everybody one experience that would make
29:57
the world just better? What
30:00
would it be? Well, you know, my usual
30:02
answer for this is that this is a
30:04
question you get a lot. I can't believe
30:06
I thought I was being so original and
30:08
you're like, well, my typically I think,
30:10
well, no, no. So because I
30:13
have written about drugs and because I
30:15
am kind of openly enthusiastic about psychedelics
30:17
or, you know, drugs in general, you
30:20
know, I don't mean that callously. And
30:22
obviously there are very many cases in which people
30:24
shouldn't use drugs. But I am like kind of
30:26
a very pro responsible, you
30:29
know, individual situational drug use.
30:32
And one of the things that has come up is
30:34
like, do you think that everyone should get
30:37
outside themselves with, you know, experience the
30:39
ego death that comes with tripping? And
30:41
I'm usually like, if it is appropriate,
30:43
absolutely. You know,
30:45
but I think my actual answer to this
30:48
is every person should have the
30:50
experience of being able
30:52
to love somebody and
30:54
being able to receive and
30:56
count on love. You know,
30:59
like I think I think that's absolutely the answer.
31:01
And I was I think
31:04
I was thinking about that vis-a-vis that article
31:06
I was rereading about the, you
31:08
know, this test case of these orphans
31:10
in Romania who were
31:13
robbed of something that we think
31:15
of as an almost instinctive and
31:17
inevitable situation. And
31:21
you know, they were most of those kids
31:23
were never able to form attachments
31:26
because they didn't understand that it was a
31:28
thing that their mind or body could do.
31:31
And that really, you know, like
31:34
a life without that is
31:36
really, really hard to reckon with. So
31:40
this is another one of those trippy late night
31:42
questions, which is what would you genetically alter in
31:44
human beings to make us a better species? And
31:46
the thing I was thinking about so often when
31:48
I was reading Trick Mirror was, like, should
31:51
we be more suspect, like a little
31:53
more skeptical around the horn, like of
31:55
what's being put in front of us and
31:57
also our own quote, Cerebral
32:00
opinions? Well, it's interesting
32:03
still ways in which.
32:07
Believing. Anything and then refusing to believe anything
32:09
in front of us. Are things kind of
32:11
go together right and the new? With
32:13
a conspiracy thinking? And that's exactly what
32:15
it is. It's like it's believing nonsense
32:18
that refusing to believe actual information in
32:20
those reactions are very. Twins.
32:22
I think com. Like.
32:24
It I I don't think that we have. When.
32:27
We have both and access of
32:29
credulous nurse and in excess of
32:32
skepticism right now that I. Am.
32:36
I was thinking about this question because
32:38
so like in Denmark, they offer. Like
32:40
a universal sort of prenatal
32:43
down screening. Two Mothers and
32:45
they have. Essentially.
32:49
There. Are no children born with Down South
32:51
raid and in the I just rather sad
32:53
cause. So taken. With that, yeah, And.
32:56
That is such a complicated thing.
32:58
My instinct was like if I
33:00
had added out the gene that
33:02
causes cancer, something that would save
33:04
people from unnecessary physical suffering. You
33:06
know that I would even begin
33:08
to touch with all of our
33:10
all of our emotional ill. It
33:12
was. Everyone was empathetic that I
33:14
think that. Either
33:16
you take any of those spots
33:19
one one step further. And too hard
33:21
to say standby. Denmark has given Mother's
33:23
the opportunity to. Is this the case
33:25
to be made? At that time marches
33:27
better off with no kids have
33:30
done that. It's it's. really. Confusing.
33:33
It's like all of our. I
33:35
mean all of the things I like about myself. I
33:39
wouldn't want to. Excise
33:41
from a. Nice
33:44
because you know I don't know
33:46
fake as as others to super
33:48
answer can't. In. Our relationship
33:50
between the things that we don't like about
33:52
ourselves on the way that we relate to
33:55
the world, and possibly things that we really
33:57
do like about ourselves or related to those
33:59
other things. Yeah, I mean, I
34:01
definitely think that people's best and
34:03
worst qualities tend to be really
34:05
closely linked closely related Yeah,
34:08
I mean one thing I've thought about a lot over the years
34:10
that comes up is I don't
34:13
I don't have any more idea than I had 20 years
34:15
ago when I first started wondering about deep
34:18
insecurity and where it comes from
34:20
and Everybody knows somebody
34:22
who's who's riddled with it Way
34:25
down in there and they're functioning in the
34:27
world they're operating but it's like an invisible
34:30
crippling that Seems to
34:32
really block everything that we've both agreed is what
34:34
it's all about like to love and be loved
34:37
like it's really hard to Do that if you're
34:39
not really sure you're worth it So
34:41
maybe it would be whatever enables people to love
34:43
and be loved That that's
34:46
what I would want to make sure that everybody had
34:48
sort of been yeah And then but you know,
34:50
it's been but it's back to your first question
34:53
Which is like I think there
34:55
are cruelties that we can enact on each
34:57
other that can remove that genetic ability, right?
35:00
Right, right. That's right. And I I really
35:03
like to believe that it is there to
35:05
begin with Yeah, and that it gets destroyed
35:07
in those cases where you're with adults and
35:09
you think oh my god There's
35:12
there's a hole in you that cannot be filled and
35:15
I think I don't know I don't know what
35:17
your story is well enough to pinpoint it, but
35:19
I don't think I don't know that people are
35:21
born that way It's interesting that
35:23
I think for some people the
35:26
combination of temperament and circumstance
35:29
Weans them towards there's a hole that can never be filled
35:31
this is why I hate the sort of institutions
35:33
of surveillance capitalism so much is because
35:36
they are formalizing a Daily
35:38
hole that can never be filled that
35:41
there is no Facebook
35:44
without it. There's no Instagram without
35:46
it Really no Google without
35:49
it either and that seems such
35:51
a Misuse
35:53
of our freedom. It's
35:55
such a misuse of what
35:58
it is to want to
36:00
be connected to other people, to want to
36:02
be seen as the people we are, to
36:04
be seen as people that are like better
36:06
than we are. It's such
36:09
a misuse of retraining
36:11
people into the idea that there's a hole
36:13
that can never be filled like on a daily basis
36:15
in our pockets and in our faces before we go to
36:17
bed. When I think like most of
36:20
us spend our lives trying
36:24
to remind ourselves that that's not the case,
36:26
right? Right. Yeah, that's interesting.
36:29
So you said that you're an easy target for
36:31
reality TV or a kid who has kind
36:33
of cast yourself through your hat in the
36:35
ring for this funny show and that you
36:37
were happy and ensconced at UVA in the
36:39
Greek system before you went back as a
36:42
journalist to see it differently and more closely
36:44
maybe. And that you have
36:46
liked rather torturous fitness regimes like the
36:48
bar method. And
36:50
most recently that motherhood has brought on
36:52
a total ego death. And
36:54
I'm so knocked out by your
36:57
sort of forever inside outside way
36:59
of being. And I wonder what
37:02
makes you feel like
37:04
totally, completely holistically
37:07
alive. Oh, I love
37:09
this question. I mean, anything.
37:12
I think, okay, the most, like
37:14
I could just rattle it off like being
37:18
in the middle of a crowd at a
37:21
concert, being out dancing at 4am,
37:23
just walking around in the sunshine like
37:25
I was earlier, you know,
37:29
like sitting across a
37:32
table from someone and
37:34
really getting into something
37:36
with them. I
37:39
mean, it's almost easier to answer what doesn't,
37:41
you know, and I think that the things
37:43
that make me feel
37:45
most alive are the things that make
37:48
me feel either extremely small or extremely
37:50
large or both at the same time.
37:53
You know, it's like that. It's this kind of
37:55
feeling when you're like when you're hiking, right? And
37:58
I think that that is the feeling when you're going out dancing. thing.
38:01
It's when you have like kind of an oceanic
38:06
feeling of bigness
38:08
and smallness. And
38:12
that can be triggered by,
38:15
like luckily
38:17
my little pleasure-seeking brain can sign
38:20
but really easily,
38:22
I think. That's such a gift. It is
38:24
such a gift. To be able to tap
38:26
into it, you know? Yeah. And
38:28
we did a podcast with this guy named Dacher Keltner from
38:31
Greater Good Science Center and he's a
38:33
big academic thinker around awe.
38:37
And he talked about the power of kind
38:40
of putting yourself into
38:42
a context where you feel very
38:46
small. Yeah. And
38:49
how weirdly enlarging that can
38:51
be. Okay, last question. You
38:54
said, we've got nothing except our
38:56
small attempts to retain our humanity,
38:58
to act on a model of
39:01
actual selfhood, one that embraces culpability,
39:03
inconsistency, and insignificance. Do you
39:05
think the values are there but we don't really honor
39:07
them with our behavior, that we can't really get our
39:10
behavior to marry up to what our
39:12
values are? I think that
39:14
there are just so many things
39:16
about, so I guess that sentence in
39:18
the book that I wrote that to me,
39:20
like actual selfhood, it feels like smallness. What
39:23
did I say? Inconsistency,
39:25
insignificance, culpability. Yeah, like that's really
39:27
the fundamental thing of what it
39:30
feels like to be alive.
39:33
But I think
39:35
that capitalist individualism and I
39:38
think that selfhood as it
39:40
manifests on the internet, it
39:43
sets up a model of
39:45
selfhood that's the opposite of those things, that
39:47
makes people want to believe
39:50
that they're consistent and glossy
39:52
and righteous and correct and
39:55
that they matter a
39:57
lot. And
40:04
I think that it's
40:06
not something that's wrong with ourselves,
40:08
the tension of the
40:10
one reality and the other desire, like that
40:12
will always be there. But I think
40:14
that it's the specific systems
40:17
that incentivize one end of
40:19
it above all else. Like
40:22
that's what I would want to change, not anything about
40:24
us. Right,
40:27
right. That's great. Thank
40:29
you so much for going there with me,
40:31
for having this big, heady conversation about human
40:33
nature. It's so fun to get to know
40:35
you a little bit. Yeah, thank you so
40:37
much. As
40:42
I'm sure you can tell, I valued every
40:44
minute that I spent with Gia. I
40:46
think she has such a special mind.
40:49
These are my takeaways. One,
40:52
the internet is doing the
40:54
hard work of meeting human
40:57
nature's deepest desires to
40:59
be seen, to be heard, and to connect.
41:02
Two, for a decent percentage
41:04
of the population, picking a job
41:07
is mostly about securing healthcare.
41:10
Three, we are not good at scale.
41:13
We can't really internalize the difference
41:15
between the banal and the profound. Four,
41:19
we think differently depending on what
41:21
we're wearing. Five,
41:24
even-tempered people might also
41:26
have terrible indigestion. Knowing
41:31
yourself comes down to knowing what levers
41:33
to pull in any given mood to
41:35
write your own shit. Smart
41:39
people crave inputs. They
41:41
read while they rollerblade. Eight,
41:44
it is devastatingly hard to make a
41:47
difference. The gap between
41:49
intent and impact can be
41:51
maddening. And yet, small
41:54
kindnesses do matter. And
41:57
nine, people's best and worst
41:59
qualities is The thinking like
42:01
say a teenagers foolish
42:03
persistence and of invincibility
42:05
and their daring. Creative.
42:08
Solutions. I want
42:10
to thank to a talent. He now I want to
42:12
thank the team a colleague, organ wonders that
42:14
seem to Terry and Katie, daisies and a
42:16
courses. In George. And I want
42:19
to thank you the listeners Who Sarah episode.
42:21
And social media. In reading your
42:23
reviews, it's a taste. As I
42:26
said, Kkk members. Have.
42:44
Asked we are conducting surveillance
42:46
gets now you are audience
42:48
better. It won't take long
42:50
and it's easy to visit.
42:52
survey. Cr ask.org
42:55
last seven Hervey
42:57
half years. Into.
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