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But the time that you passed out and barfed
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after going to church, do you think that was
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Do you think that was like divine intervention for you?
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The ironic thing would be if that was the voice of
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God. Yes, I mean to me,
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it sounds like it is here
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today on Kesha and the Creepies. We welcome
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sat Vincent. Thank you for
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being on Kesha and the Creepies
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My pleasure. Are you a believer
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in the supernatural. I haven't had
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any like really specific experiences
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personally with the supernatural,
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but I wouldn't necessarily
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want to go in a haunted house.
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I guess I have enough belief in it to be scared
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of certain situations. But
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I think there is like especially with
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people who you have a really strong connection
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to, Like, you know, there's a friend of mine who I
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always know when she's like down,
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yeah, like a twin flamer,
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just a really really close friend. I don't know if that's
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intuition or psychic or just
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human beings really knowing each other,
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but I feel like everyone has that ability to
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to have that closeness and that intimacy
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and maybe even that psychic connection.
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I've tried to believe in God
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a lot of times, and it just doesn't resonate
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with me. It just doesn't, um,
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and not for lack of trying. So
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I wouldn't so but maybe that's just the way
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that like popular culture would conceive of
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a god figure. So I don't. I can't,
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I can't think of I don't necessarily think
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of a you know, oh, if I
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make a Christmas list, I'll you know, I'll
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ask Jesus for what I want, or like the idea that
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you can have a personal relationship. I don't. That
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doesn't really resonate with me. So um.
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But there's so many things we don't I mean,
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crazy physics stuff. There's all kinds
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of things that we don't know and don't understand.
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So I don't necessarily want to say like I
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don't believe it. It's just how I how
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I would couch it, or how I would conceive of it
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frame it. Well.
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I definitely am like in this very
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open, I'm just open to it all.
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Yeah, and in
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that I've had some really weird
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thoughts. So let's see if I'm psychic. This will
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be the test because I'm telling you now, but
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I have a feeling they're
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gonna tell us about like the
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people are going to be open about aliens
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very soon. Yeah,
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and I also have a premonition that the Bachelorette
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Tasia is pregnant. But you probably
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don't know what I'm talking about. Yeah, I know I've
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seen this season, but I'm gonna I'm going
2:53
to check in on that. I just wanted
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on record that I said these
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things before they happened or
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where I'm just fucking batic crazy.
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If I think you're onto something, I
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hope they tell us about the aliens soon. I don't know if you're
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like an alien galp. It
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does seem to me like, well, we
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are life, we are intelligent, because
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sometimes sometimes I like caveat
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but like we've gone to other planets. Why would
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it be so inconceivable that
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there wouldn't be life on other planets
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and people coming to like not
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people, but beings of some sort coming
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to visit. I
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think I saw a spaceship
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like, well, not just one, I think I saw many
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one night, like totally sober,
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no mushrooms involved here, and
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it was like different formations
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when away came back, this
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whole thing so, and
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then I was talking to Demilovado
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randomly. Also had a really
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weird like a
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really intimate experience, and
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like has learned how to summon the aliens,
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and so now I'm on this quest to some
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of them.
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So if you're interested in going out to Joshua
4:12
Tree and trying to summoning aliens, but you have to
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be open hearted about it. Apparently I've
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got the chocolates, dude, So listen, let's
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go. Oh you need something
4:21
to look forward to the new year. I was
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actually thinking back how we met,
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and we
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met at Taylor Swift's house
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at the fourth of July. The
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thing that I actually most
4:37
wanted to ask you from that weekend is
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did you get pranked and
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think you were going to die at some point? Oh?
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My god, No I did
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not, but I heard that you did in a
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really intense way. Yes,
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Like I like read
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about serial killers. I don't know, it's a thing
4:56
I do. I'm not gonna say I'm a fan of them
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because they're work I don't like, but I'm a fan
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of reading about them.
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But so in my mind, thinking like
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a serial killer, I
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was thinking, they're all these beautiful,
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famous, talented people
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at Taylor Swift's house and there's like the
5:17
first floor was like
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supermodels, and the second
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floor was actresses,
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and then I was on the third floor
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with high Am and I'm
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not sure which where you
5:31
were at, but I was on the top floor. So
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I remember there was like scary
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noises and knocking,
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and we barricaded ourselves in the door
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and we were trying to call Taylor and
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she wouldn't answer, And so in my mind
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a serial killer had come into the house
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murdered everybody, and we were like the last
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the last room. And so
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then I go in the bathroom and I all
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the police, yes, yes, yes,
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it's all reading about amazing and
6:05
so I go in the bathroom and I'm
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like, I'm going to be the one. I'm
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the I'm going to be the one that gets out alive
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and like lives to tell the tale of
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this mass murder. And so I'm on
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the phone with the police and they're like where
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are you? And I was like Taylor
6:22
Swift's house and they're
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like, but like where And
6:27
at that point, she had
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like very generously and amazingly
6:32
flown us on her airplane. Yeah,
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we had no idea where we were. We
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didn't know. It's not like we you know, rented
6:39
a Prius and drove there. No
6:42
so I'm like, I think I'm in
6:45
Maine or Rhode Island. You're
6:48
already a chair with the state. And so
6:51
finally they had to call it off because
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I'm so crazy I'm going to like
6:56
fight mode that I was ready
6:58
to be, like I'm to be the one that scales
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down the side of the building and beats the Syria.
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Oh my god, I
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love that was the most
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logical conclusion, was like,
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it's Manson style down there.
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They've written fuck the pigs and
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blood. Yeah, that's
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the only only possible solution.
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I love that. In
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my mind. I've read so much about
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the Manson murders. I used to just kind
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of be obsessed with reading, Like
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I don't know if you've read Helter Skelter, but
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that big, thick book about the
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Manson murders. I just found it like
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so interesting, and
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cults I find really interesting. And
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then like also, white cults always
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get so murdering. Yeah, it's everything
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ends up being a death cult, Like it's a grift
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and then it's a and then it's
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a death cult. You're
7:54
currently just signed up to direct
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that picture of Dorian Gray,
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which I remember reading
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that book in like it
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was required reading. But I
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remember there was a picture
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and there's a man that doesn't age, but I don't
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remember like the beautiful moral story
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underneath it all. Yeah, beautiful is
8:17
one way to put it. It's it's kind of horror.
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There's a beautiful portrait painted
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of him, and then he starts doing all of
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these terrible things, but he stays
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the same age, So it's like it's
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one part of it would be like how far would you go
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for beauty? Um? And then
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um, the it's kind of a
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real real story about shame too.
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And after he's done all these monstrous
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things, he um looks
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at the portrait and the portrait changes
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and what used to be this like beautiful. Um,
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I'm sure if that man it's
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like just this disgusting,
8:53
horrible monster and he destroys the painting
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about it, but anyway, it's
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uh. I really think it's like
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it's scary. It's a scary scary
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book. It sounds scary.
9:05
It sounds scary, and like the way humanity
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is scary.
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Yeah, yeah, we're pretty scary. I
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think we're like the scariest. I think I like
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to talk about the supernatural on here, but I
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also I kind of think people
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are the scariest. Absolutely.
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It's it's crazy that after all of these
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years and like what we think of a civilization,
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we haven't like managed
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to get rid of murder, we haven't
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managed to get rid of rape. But I mean, it's just like
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people have dark impulses
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within them that have to just be figured
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out. I wondered
9:43
that too, because almost in every
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movie up until recently
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and even still some recently, but it's almost
9:50
more taboo there is there
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will just be like a casual rape
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scene or a casual murder scene. In
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my mind, I'm like, is this an urge that
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a lot of people have, is to murder? I
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think that's why I read up on serial killers.
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I wonder that or if we make entertainment
10:09
like that so that we can
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like explore those dark impulses in
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a safe way and not do horrible, horrible
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things to other people. Totally,
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That's why I watched The Real Housewives.
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I don't wanna have
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drama in my life, but I like it
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existing for like
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thirty minutes a night, and it makes me, it makes
10:34
me feel really like, oh yes, I got the
10:36
drama and petty bullshit,
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but it's not in my life. It's not your life. Thank
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God. The last one of those
10:43
I watched would have been the
10:45
woman Ramona when she walks down
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the catwalk and she has the craziest expression
10:49
on her face from the Real Housewives
10:52
of New York, probably like ten years ago.
10:54
I don't know how long it was ago. See
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I haven't I haven't seen New York. I got just an
10:58
insane moment where this woman, um,
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you know, they do a fashion show for someone's fashion
11:04
line, and one of the
11:06
Real housewife gets up and
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and does the runway walk, and
11:12
I mean it's it's like an alien
11:14
told her how to do a runway walk.
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Her eyes get giant,
11:19
she gets this absolutely psychotic
11:21
look on her face and walks down the runway
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and it's just just like, just do
11:26
a dude, just look it up. It's kind
11:28
of wonderful. I
11:30
am laughing because I do that.
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I have this thing I call flipping
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my eyeballs out when I
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like think I'm making a sexy face and
11:40
it's so embarrassing. Oh my god,
11:43
I know exactly what you're talking about. Like
11:45
when you're on like our red carpet or something, you're like,
11:47
just be cool, and then I like flip
11:49
my eyeballs out and try
11:52
to look cool, and then my mom won't be like, why
11:54
do you have to make that stupid face every
11:57
time. I'm like, I don't know, no, And
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you think like at this point we would have it
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down, like we would go, okay, well this is the
12:03
face I make when I do this, and you're
12:06
like, oh, this is my angle. I still have no idea,
12:08
and I somehow do the same thing where I managed
12:11
to get a little nervous and those
12:13
things, the red carpet stuff is uncomfortable
12:16
anyway, because it's a bunch of people yelling
12:18
at you, and while you're trying to like
12:20
screaming lea screaming at you while
12:22
you're trying to look poised. I always end up
12:24
doing this thing where like one eye,
12:26
like one eyelid is heavier
12:29
than the other, and one eye goes just a little
12:31
cock eye, and I look just dour and
12:33
sour. That
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at least sounds cooler. My thing is
12:38
I jiggle my head like this. For
12:40
years, I would watch an
12:42
interview back and I would be going this,
12:45
and I was like, what in the funk am I doing?
12:48
I'm totally unaware that
12:51
I'm jiggling my head back and forth. But I always
12:53
just you seemed like very in control and
12:55
like you knew what you were doing with
12:57
your art and your imagery,
13:00
and like I was just
13:02
even talking to my boyfriend
13:04
about it, and we're both big fans of me, like listen
13:06
to your music all the time, but it
13:08
just seems very intentional
13:11
and on your terms. You were so young
13:13
when you got into the
13:16
biz. I mean you've been writing songs
13:18
and doing this since you were like fourteen
13:21
fifteen am I right, Like, yeah,
13:24
my mom's a songwriter, and so I've
13:26
been writing songs to deal with
13:28
my anxiety and just I just
13:30
always felt like an outsider. So my way
13:32
to handle that was to try to like make
13:35
things funny out of pain,
13:38
so or like make a pretty song
13:40
out of pain, or make like a funny song out
13:42
of pain. That was my way of coping.
13:45
And then after my first
13:48
record came out, it was like all of a
13:50
sudden, my
13:52
ass was hanging out and I never even had the
13:54
time to stop and think like do I want
13:57
this to be like? And
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then had like media
14:02
training, and I
14:04
just remember there were like these rules and I was
14:06
like, Okay, that's just like what it
14:09
is. It's so bizarre. What were the rules
14:11
because I never got media training and I always kind
14:13
of wish I had. But
14:16
but okay, So I mean you
14:18
had like a super massive
14:20
album and all of a sudden, what people don't know
14:22
from the outside, the machine starts
14:25
going and you're just kind
14:27
of trying to hold on for dear life.
14:29
And so you're young. Um,
14:32
you seem like, to me, like an incredibly empowered
14:35
and you know who you are person
14:37
Like. My favorite memory of the
14:40
Taylor party was
14:43
Ed Sheeran was, you know, doing
14:45
his thing. Was very lovely,
14:47
polite music, and then
14:50
you got up and you did this fucking like
14:53
the Germs meets iggy
14:55
pop meets like you turned
14:57
into half a spider into this
14:59
like fucking rad punk rock thing, and I
15:01
was just like, yes, yes,
15:04
thank God, Yes, that
15:06
that's what I want to see. I
15:08
cleared the room out. I was
15:10
there. I was fucking there for it. I was
15:13
so excited to see insanity,
15:16
you know, next to a very lovely
15:18
Ed Sheeran song. You know, it was
15:20
it was like this beautiful private
15:22
concert of like the
15:25
most famous people in the world.
15:28
And then I'm gonna be honest, I
15:30
had a couple of drinks in me, and
15:34
it's just I was like,
15:36
I'm I'm just gonna start yelling
15:38
about having crabs crabs
15:41
you it wasn't a spider thing. It was a crabs thing,
15:43
and you did a kind of a crab walk. It
15:45
was awesome. I'm so happy
15:47
somebody remembers this. I loved it.
15:49
It was my probably my favorite part of the entire
15:52
weekend. And that's what I was. That's when
15:54
I was like, oh man, Cash
15:56
is so fucking cool. Like I like
15:58
this girl. She's sucking down own and
16:00
like the band just kind of like trying to hold
16:02
on for dear life. It was so cool.
16:05
It turned into like it quickly
16:07
devolved into a complete Shi show after
16:10
that, you kicked over the drums. I
16:13
did, I probably did.
16:16
It was a punk show. You turned it into a punk
16:18
show and it was so freaking cool. That was
16:20
like one of my finer performances. I'm happy
16:23
there was one person was still watching. And
16:25
then you introduced me actually to Toby,
16:29
who put me in a ghost
16:31
story ended up being a
16:33
spirit girl, and I love him
16:36
and did you how did you meet him? So?
16:38
Toby is one of my oldest friends, a
16:41
good fucking Texas boy. He
16:44
uh, we played together in the Polyphonic Spree
16:47
back in that was a band that was like
16:49
twenty people in robes on stage, and
16:52
well that's very culty. Yeah,
16:55
yeah, I was never it was never clear
16:57
to me like if it was really
17:00
just really or anything.
17:02
I was just like, cool, I love these songs. I'm here
17:04
to play guitar and have fun. It might have been a
17:06
cult of personality in the sense that you
17:08
know, the the leader was very charismatic
17:11
and had a bunch of friends traveling
17:14
the world with them, like in that way
17:16
we'll see from an outsider, I was like, cool,
17:18
there's a whole cult on stage.
17:21
It just reminded me of going to church when I was
17:23
little, Oh did you grow up in the church?
17:27
Not like one specific
17:30
when I went to Catholic school and then a bunch
17:32
of different kinds of churches, because I kept trying
17:34
to find God in like everything
17:36
you know, and there
17:40
would always be like conditional parts
17:42
that I couldn't understand, and like what you
17:45
were saying, there are just things that we have not figured
17:47
out, Like we're all the
17:49
same, why do we have to like
17:53
break off into different sections and fight
17:55
each other? Like all
17:58
that kind of stuff. For you can't be like,
18:01
I'm from the South, so I was just there
18:04
were just things that never sat right with me. So
18:06
I was in the church, but I was like
18:09
so conflicted and would just cry
18:12
and be like please somebody
18:15
or so whatever God or whatever it
18:17
is, I don't get it.
18:19
Like I am not convinced
18:22
that like dinosaurs
18:24
didn't exist and that
18:27
if someone loves somebody else and
18:30
they both happened to have a
18:33
penis or of vagina, that they're evil.
18:36
Like since I was a little kid, I remember
18:38
just being like, no, it
18:40
would just be somebody on stage yelling. And
18:43
it's crazy what someone on
18:45
stage yelling I can
18:47
do to a person. You think, like, if they're
18:49
just yelling about it, it it must be true.
18:51
Yeah. And then there's like buildings
18:53
dedicated to it and a whole I mean the
18:56
organization around it. You're like, well, God, there must
18:58
be something to this if this many people bill
19:00
are into it. Were
19:02
you in the church growing up? I
19:05
remember kind of the same thing, like trying
19:07
to like find meaning. And my
19:09
family um was either not religious.
19:12
My dad was a like defunct
19:15
Catholic um and
19:18
my mom just kind of went to Unitarian
19:20
church, which is really sweet Oh
19:22
that that's like as hippie, nice
19:25
friendly, come as you are. It's
19:27
it's really sweet. I actually am glad that I
19:30
like, UM, was introduced to a lot
19:32
of kinds of philosophy and theology
19:35
that way that was not dogmatic
19:37
in any way, shape or form. They had basically
19:39
no rules, um, which was nice.
19:43
But I did go for a brief time to a Methodist
19:45
church where everybody
19:48
was very judgy and
19:51
mean, and um,
19:54
I remember I got confirmed.
19:56
So I took the confirmation
19:59
test. I cheat did on it because I didn't
20:01
know jack shit about the Bible. I passed,
20:03
Thank you, Marcia Hamm. And I
20:05
know you have to take a test to be in a
20:08
religion. It was like a coming of age thing. You're
20:10
like maybe eleven or twelve,
20:12
and so anyway, it's like the ceremony where
20:15
you go in and get confirmed and they
20:17
you know, the classes up there and gets to
20:19
stand on the stage and they make a speech whatever,
20:22
and you're like, I went
20:24
down with everybody, we like knelt
20:28
at the front of the altar. And
20:30
then this is reminding me of some
20:32
of the subject matter of your show, the supernatural
20:35
stuff. Um, where I
20:37
sat down, I knelt and
20:39
all of a sudden, I got so dizzy and
20:42
this like voice inside of me was like, this
20:44
is not for you, and I
20:47
uh passed out. My
20:50
parents took me home. I threw up
20:52
and I never went back. Your body revolted,
20:55
My body completely revolted. It said,
20:57
absolutely not. Do you think that was
21:00
Do you think that was like divine intervention for you?
21:03
The ironic thing would be if that was the voice of
21:05
God. Yes, I mean to me,
21:07
it sounds like it is. So
21:10
that's not that's not your path. I am
21:12
personally just kind of
21:14
open. It's one of the reasons I
21:16
wanted to talk to interesting people
21:19
that are cool and interesting.
21:21
It's because I
21:24
find that I make art sometimes
21:27
because I want to have like
21:29
a legacy or impending
21:32
death is always on the horizon. It's
21:34
just kind of like all
21:36
caught up in some sort
21:38
of like spiritual existential crises.
21:42
And I don't know, I guess
21:45
I just like hearing other people's take on why
21:47
you make art. Oh yeah,
21:49
that everything you're saying ring is really true? What
21:52
like, I don't know what else to do me
21:55
neither. I don't know what else. I don't know what
21:57
else am I supposed to do with my life.
21:59
I don't. I I truly have no idea. This
22:02
is the only thing that's like, oh that this
22:04
makes absolute sense to me. Do
22:06
this well, You're so good at it
22:09
that you absolutely should still
22:12
keep just doing that. But for me,
22:15
I almost like hit this wall where I
22:17
was like, for
22:20
me, I was like why am I doing it? And
22:22
then I had to question that, and then
22:24
it took me like in quarantine, what did
22:26
you find? I'm still figuring it out.
22:29
I'm That's what kind of like called
22:31
me to have this podcast. Almost is
22:34
because I started having psychedelic
22:37
slash supernatural kind of experience
22:40
as a result of like psilocybin or anything
22:42
like that or was it sometimes but yeah, sometimes
22:45
sometimes not. Sometimes I would just be meditating
22:48
or have really crazy anxiety with the quarantine
22:51
all of a sudden, like you said, that
22:54
voice spoke to you and you passed
22:56
out. At the Methodist church,
22:58
I had just like a
23:00
couple of weeks in here. I just couldn't stop crying.
23:03
Just the world and just
23:06
everything. It was just like so sad. I was like
23:08
missing my family and
23:11
feeling kind of useless.
23:13
Because when you're an artist, for me,
23:16
I need to live to be inspired
23:19
to write and
23:21
when you can't leave the house, it's a little
23:24
bit harder to have those external
23:26
things. So I think I went internal, but
23:31
I just wasn't that inspired. And
23:33
then all of a sudden, I started getting messages
23:36
kind of from
23:39
I don't know what it is. I really
23:41
think it might be my higher consciousness.
23:44
I don't like the word god, but it could be that.
23:46
It could be the
23:49
universe, whatever you want. It could be fucking aliens.
23:52
I don't know. So I'm just like
23:54
I've talked to an alien
23:56
religious leader, I talked to a wizard.
23:59
I'm just talking to all sorts of people about
24:01
Well, what you're saying about about
24:03
being in quarantine and not being able
24:05
to like live life
24:08
and and not being as inspired as a result.
24:11
That makes so much sense. I
24:13
feel like I was. I've
24:15
been in that position over at various
24:17
points of this quarantine, and
24:20
it's just like, yeah,
24:22
you just have to go subterranean
24:26
because there's nothing like out
24:28
outside. Usually there's like the chaos
24:30
of choice, but we don't have choice
24:33
and so many things right now, and I mean we're
24:35
lucky, like we have a roof of her ahead
24:37
all of that stuff. I just had to start going back
24:40
through my old notes. You
24:42
know, I'm always like taking notes and stuff.
24:44
And you know, I
24:46
walked down the street in New York and there
24:48
was a guy outside of a seven
24:50
eleven singing, um,
24:53
oh what a wonderful morning, Oh
24:55
what a wonderful day. I'm like, that's
24:58
not going to happen. It's
25:00
something like so beautiful and so bizarre,
25:04
just completely accidentally, Like that's not going to
25:06
happen, you know, with just walking
25:10
the tin steps to your kitchen and back to
25:12
the studio or whatever it is. No,
25:15
and so it's hard to kind of find the inspiration
25:17
at least for me. Yeah, no, it's
25:19
harder. It is harder. I agree.
25:22
How has your like experience
25:24
been in this whole thing. It's
25:27
been good. I mean good.
25:30
I mean when it first
25:32
started, I had hella anxiety,
25:34
and then I got into a period of like, oh
25:38
maybe I can do home renovation, and
25:40
then like many many
25:43
bad projects later, like
25:45
bad wallpapering jobs later, I'm like, Okay,
25:48
I should probably just get back to the thing that
25:50
I you know, and better at.
25:52
So it's been peaks and valleys,
25:54
honestly, and it feels like
25:56
some days are really productive,
25:59
and you like we get out of bed with a smile
26:02
on your face and attack the day. And other days
26:04
are just you're
26:06
nothing. You're like a shell, and it's
26:09
hard to motivate to do anything
26:12
A million percent. There's certain
26:14
days where I wake up and I'm like, I'm
26:17
going to talk to you, and then I get
26:19
excited and I put on a fake
26:21
lash and I feel like a person. And
26:25
then there are days that
26:27
I won't get out. I've been wearing this is
26:29
like not necessarily a good thing, but
26:31
I've been wearing men's
26:33
long underwear as pants, and
26:36
it's gotten to the point where like
26:40
it's becoming a problem
26:43
because because I don't
26:45
want to take them off. So then I started
26:48
to go to the grocery store in the long underwear
26:50
pants and
26:52
we're starting to slow
26:54
to get to the point where maybe the long underwear
26:56
pants need to go in
26:59
the track. But they're so comfortable
27:01
though, But
27:05
comfort cash a comfort, I
27:07
mean, dude, yes, But
27:10
I feel like you're a very fabulous
27:12
person. You always look fucking cool. So
27:15
I feel like, and I haven't seen you in
27:17
a picture with with a long
27:20
underwear, but text me a picture, but
27:22
I am like certain
27:24
that you make them look really cool and intentional
27:27
and like, I appreciate.
27:29
I appreciate your faith in me,
27:32
and you're very kind. I
27:34
was watching last night. I had to tell
27:36
you your um short
27:39
the birthday Party. Oh yeah, is
27:42
so it's so funny?
27:45
Oh? Thanks? Is that sick that
27:47
I think it's funny. I
27:49
I intended it as a comedy because I don't
27:51
like horror movies. But I got commissioned
27:54
somehow. I still don't know how they
27:56
asked me, but they did. So. I'm
27:59
sure you're giving
28:01
me money that I don't have to pay back to make
28:03
something. Okay, that's not how it works in the
28:05
music business. Um.
28:08
So I did it. Yeah, and it was so fun. I
28:10
was just trying to make like a dark comedy. It
28:12
was hilarious. Thanks, but yeah,
28:15
it was really fun to make. Everyone listening
28:17
should go watch it on Hulu.
28:19
It's called the XX like Anthology.
28:22
Yeah, horror Anthology. It's
28:24
dark, but it's funny and it's
28:26
like kind of it's like scary,
28:29
but not in like, um,
28:31
not in like a grotesque kind
28:33
of way. Um.
28:36
I'm not a huge fan of like blood
28:38
and guts. I had the weirdest dreams last
28:40
night. I was watching your short
28:43
and then I just was
28:45
like watching a bunch of scary things
28:47
because it's fun to scare
28:50
myself. But then I get really scared
28:52
and have bad dreams. So I had these
28:54
dreams of people just getting like blown up
28:56
into pieces, and I
29:00
I'm not a fan of the violent
29:03
kind of horror. I. Oh, what was I
29:05
going to ask you? Oh, I was going to ask you if you
29:07
have performance dreams where
29:09
like I'm supposed to be on stage in five minutes and
29:11
and I don't have the outfit, the outfit
29:14
hasn't come yet, or like that kind of stuff.
29:16
I have those dreams all the time. But
29:18
that must be like your anxiety. Yeah, yeah,
29:21
that's that's a recurring one of like just
29:23
I'm supposed to be on stage and something
29:27
I don't have something right, I don't know the songs.
29:30
I just I have no like, um,
29:33
no shame anymore. Honestly, that's
29:35
ultimate freedom, no shame,
29:38
ultimate freedom. I think so
29:40
too. I think to be a
29:43
musician you kind of have to, like, at
29:45
least for me, maybe
29:47
it's just a mean thing I have to, like I
29:50
have to just let myself go over the line of
29:52
two stupid. And that's sometimes
29:54
where like the genius lads where like it's
29:57
just too much for sure.
30:00
Yeah, you just have to do you just go
30:02
for it, Like I'm going to jump
30:04
up this building. I'm not sure if I'm gonna land, but
30:07
I'm not sure if I'm gonna like land, not
30:10
in sixty pieces, but I'm
30:12
gonna jump. I feel like that's
30:15
your records. Definitely feel like you
30:17
just go into a whole
30:19
like different planet. I feel like it's
30:22
like time travel when I listen to music.
30:24
Thank you, Bud, it's uh,
30:27
it's do you look back on the
30:29
work that you've done. Very often, I don't like
30:31
once it's done and I've like toward
30:34
it, I don't. I don't like go back and
30:36
listen to stuff. I think probably for the same reason,
30:38
like I'm afraid it won't be good,
30:42
and I just do like,
30:44
oh, I can't deal with it if
30:47
it's um embarrassing, so
30:49
I'll just let it, let it live on
30:51
its own. I definitely
30:53
feel that way. And sometimes when I accidentally
30:56
hear my old music, I won't
30:58
even recognize my voice. WHOA.
31:01
Then I'll see like or I'll hear a
31:04
song I did when I was seventeen
31:06
and be like, oh my god, that's so embarrassing.
31:09
You were just so incredibly brave
31:11
to be so
31:13
young and having
31:16
all those eyes on you. I was like
31:18
thirty something before anybody
31:20
cared. So it's just different,
31:23
you know. No, I just kind of feel
31:25
like, once your first album
31:28
and then you go on the tour cycle and it's like
31:30
tour, make music, put it out,
31:32
tour, and you're on that. It's
31:34
just what you do. It's what you're conditioned to
31:37
do. Then
31:40
all of a sudden, when it came to a pause this year,
31:42
it was the first time I was like, wait, what
31:45
do I like? What would the music be like that? If I
31:48
just made exactly the kind of music I truly
31:50
in my heart like love like I love,
31:53
And I think that's kind of given
31:56
me the like the panic
31:58
attack, because I don't think I'll ever live of up
32:00
to someone like David Byrne.
32:03
Worked with David Byrne, went on tour with him.
32:06
He's like the crazy, craziest
32:09
genius. He's wonderful. I love him so much.
32:12
I mean it seems like I would just I think I would
32:14
be too scared to even like meet
32:17
him. That's just so cool.
32:19
I remained
32:21
scared until even
32:24
after all the touring was over. I mean,
32:27
I don't know how I look back on certain things of
32:29
like, oh my god, I worked
32:32
with David, like that's
32:34
I wish I could relive it. Honestly, I
32:37
wish I could really relive it with less
32:39
um personal turmoil
32:42
and angst and fear, just
32:45
of like the whole process. Yeah,
32:48
and it was so wonderful. It's like there
32:51
are so few, you know, there's not that
32:53
many tours I think I wish I could do again.
32:55
But that's when I really wish I could do again, because
32:58
it was just joyful. What
33:01
do you have tours the you wish you could do again? In
33:03
one conflicting
33:05
things, So in one dimension, everything
33:08
happens for a reason, right, So that's
33:10
like one possibility
33:13
in which case everything led to this
33:15
moment. The good, the bad, the ugly, the really
33:18
fucking embarrassing, all
33:21
of it led to this moment. But
33:24
then I also look back and I'm like, there
33:26
were some really fun moments, especially
33:29
before I
33:31
injured myself. Injured myself really
33:34
bad on stage and what happened. I tore
33:36
my I tore my a c L on stage
33:38
in Dubai, which it was
33:41
not the most fun thing. I'll
33:43
be honest, but I
33:46
didn't know I tore my a c L, so I just
33:48
played. I finished the show. Was the
33:50
adrenaline just so much that you were like, I'm
33:53
chilling, I'm still dancing. Well, yeah,
33:55
but only one leg would work, so every
33:57
time I would like lean on the
34:00
left leg, I would just fall over. So
34:02
all of a sudden, TMZ got
34:04
a video of me falling over and making
34:06
fun of me, and the reviews came in. It's
34:09
like, what a disappointment, And I was like,
34:12
God, damn it, I just finished
34:14
a whole, like ninety minutes show on a leg that
34:16
is not connected. Yeah, layoff
34:19
you that that is a feat. That
34:21
is a feat. No pun intended
34:23
to be able to still perform a
34:26
ninety minute show with
34:28
a bomb mass leg.
34:30
I mean, that's unbelievable.
34:32
You deserve a medal for that ship. I
34:35
at least don't deserve a bad review.
34:37
I wanted to write them a personal note, but
34:39
I was like, don't do that, don't get into the pettiness.
34:42
Like, but I don't know, I'm more excited
34:44
about what is going to happen in the future. Yeah,
34:46
for sure, for sure. I mean,
34:51
well, according to the Wizard, the
34:53
Earth is just trying to tell us something like
34:56
we need to have a better relationship and
34:58
like listen to like the mother
35:01
Earth more, which that resonated with me. And
35:04
after talking to this wizard for two hours, I'm
35:06
now considering looking into paganism
35:08
because it all sounds really lovely. Oh yeah,
35:10
for sure. I mean it seems so like
35:13
just deeply connected to the Earth and like
35:16
honoring the cycles and living
35:18
sort of in accordance with that. Is that I
35:20
might be totally from what
35:22
little I've looked into it, that sounds about right.
35:25
But I definitely am like leaning more towards
35:29
the nurturing of the earth and
35:32
just the everything is oneness.
35:34
I don't know. That's like where my psychedelic
35:38
trips this quarantine
35:40
have led me. I feel you. I mean,
35:42
I look forward to a time
35:44
when the human
35:47
conversation is
35:51
more constructive, like more
35:54
like, oh, I'm listening to you, and I'm
35:56
understanding your point of view, and here's
35:59
my point of view. And let's
36:02
allow for the fact that you know, there's
36:05
like a multitude of experiences
36:07
and twenty
36:09
people will see the same event twenty
36:11
different ways, and like just
36:14
everybody projecting onto everything.
36:16
I just I want there to be like a little
36:19
bit more, um,
36:21
just intelligence and empathy
36:24
and how we talk to each other. Chaos
36:28
is a wonderful distraction
36:31
from having to just be,
36:33
which I'm super guilty of, like loving
36:36
a good like getting distracted
36:38
by whatever. Um.
36:42
But I've never been one that enjoys
36:45
making other people feel bad. That's just
36:47
not my drug of choice.
36:51
UM. So I don't understand that. And
36:54
we're also both songwriters,
36:57
and I feel
37:00
like to be a songwriter you must be emotional.
37:03
So to be emotional, like
37:06
you can just tell in your lyrics that like you
37:09
feel. And so if
37:12
you're not like a sociopath and you're feeling
37:15
feelings and empathize for other
37:17
people, that's a really positive
37:19
thing and it's
37:22
good for the world. It's
37:24
so it's I think music
37:26
is like how
37:29
do I put this without it sounding like the cheesiest
37:31
shit ever. It's like
37:36
interpreting what the earth is
37:39
and like the stars and my whole experience
37:41
here is like vibrating
37:45
on, like the energy level and
37:47
vibrating on. That's the kind of music. I mean, completely
37:50
understand what you're saying, but like your guitar
37:53
tones and stuff, like they make me feel
37:56
deeply so satisfied.
37:58
Oh thanks, O
38:00
there, like you have the not
38:04
to but you have the sexiest
38:06
guitar tones. Thank you. Thanks,
38:11
They're so good. I don't know how you find them.
38:15
I don't who knows. One
38:20
of those crazy mysteries
38:22
about guitar
38:25
is kind of like the
38:28
softer you play, the more tone you get
38:31
in certain ways, Like I don't know, I
38:33
know if I haven't sung for a couple of days,
38:36
like I'm not like in my body
38:38
in a certain way. You know, you just like sing
38:41
and it's it's like from your stomach and you're
38:44
like, oh okay, I'm okay now, Yes,
38:47
it's soothing to me. Like
38:51
when I'm eating something I really like, I'll just
38:53
start singing and not even know I'm doing
38:55
it. Oh. Really, Like
38:57
if I'm just really enjoying myself
39:00
and very strange
39:02
different ways, I'll just be I'll
39:04
start humming if I'm really
39:07
happy. That's what a wonderful
39:09
like expression. I
39:13
have a question about the new stuff that you're making,
39:15
Like what is what
39:17
is the stuff that you're like, Ah, this
39:19
is my fucking vibration. I want to
39:22
run and do this. I'm so excited
39:24
to know what that is. Because I like, I feel like I
39:26
got a taste of
39:30
that like punk spirit.
39:32
It's almost this amalgamation
39:35
of all the kinds of music I like, which would be like
39:38
punk rock and country
39:42
because I'm from the South. And
39:46
then just like I love the Beach Boys and I
39:48
just love like super pop songs, and
39:52
so it's just and I love David
39:54
Byrnon's Talking Heads and also
39:56
David Bowie and Prince and
39:59
I feel like we have some of the similar
40:01
people we look up to, at least from what I read about
40:03
you. Yeah, I mean that's everybody.
40:06
You know what you mentioned country and
40:09
I kind of like a showed country music
40:12
when I was living in Texas and I was like, oh this isn't
40:14
that's this corny or whatever. I've I don't
40:16
know why I was such an idiot, but I
40:19
have gone back and like the songwriting
40:23
in country music. It's
40:26
just everything like it's an air tight
40:28
it's perfect song.
40:32
And you would kill I mean
40:34
all the influences that you're talking about, combining
40:37
them all like you would kill it. I
40:40
just want to try it. I'm scared.
40:42
But if it sucks, then you just
40:44
don't put it out right, Yeah, you don't put it out, and also
40:46
like, it's good that you're scared. It's
40:49
good that you aren't sure what's going to happen.
40:53
I feel like I do weirdly
40:55
well under pressure. I'm not sure if it's just me or
40:57
other people too too, you know, I think some people, But
41:01
do you were better under pressure? No?
41:04
I think the answer is like I can sort of do
41:06
it, but it's not I usually I'm like pretty
41:08
methodical. I guess so boring. Oh
41:10
god, I need Oh no, I that's not boring.
41:12
That's great, I like need chaos.
41:15
That's terribly unhealthy. Oh no,
41:17
it's just like it's just a way. I guess.
41:19
I just like like being scared. I
41:21
think that's like one of the things I've learned
41:24
about myself as all, like watch a terrifying movie
41:27
and be like why did I do that? Have crazy
41:29
dreams, be like, well you did it to
41:31
yourself fit But
41:34
okay, I have like some really like rapid fire
41:36
questions. So if you don't like any of them,
41:38
just you can pass if And when you're a ghost,
41:41
if you become a ghost, how will
41:43
people know it's you? Like, what will be your style
41:45
of hunting? What's your thing you would do I would
41:47
probably move
41:50
people's keys. Oh that's so
41:52
evil. Oh, it's like it's more
41:54
evil than you know, like writing something
41:56
in blood on the wall. Just they think
41:58
they'd put their keys when place and I just I
42:01
hied him next to the zip blocks. That's
42:04
so, that's so dark. These
42:06
dark impulses within the human spirit
42:09
cannot be contained. I think
42:12
I'm gonna pull people's
42:14
socks down in their shoe every time they're
42:16
wearing them. Oh that just Oh
42:19
that's great, Okay, great. Who
42:21
would you haunt? See? This is tricky because
42:23
like I am doing like a malicious
42:26
thing, So I have to haunt somebody who I didn't
42:28
like to hide their keys. I mean, it's not really
42:30
malicious. It's a pretty friendly haunting.
42:33
It's annoying, let's say, annoying,
42:36
bordering on egregious. Um,
42:39
I might haunt my sister. She's always
42:41
losing her keys. That's
42:44
good, watch
42:46
out, sister. Would you prefer to
42:48
be abducted by the aliens that I
42:50
swear to God are coming soon or spend
42:52
a night alone in a truly haunted
42:55
house? I mean, I think it's
42:57
probably wrong to assume that like and
43:00
in life force would have
43:02
a bad intent to humanity,
43:05
like maybe they just like, you
43:07
know, want to give you a massage and
43:09
you know, feed you alien
43:12
food. But I would say the Haunted House
43:14
because I'm you know a lot of people like
43:16
would want to go to the moon or would want to go to Mars,
43:18
Like, I'm fine, I don't
43:20
want to that's
43:23
so weird. You're like my boyfriend he like
43:25
is like, I don't want to go. I
43:28
don't know why I don't want There's there's I think
43:30
you can divide the world into people who like
43:32
I would want to go and people who
43:34
wouldn't, and I'm like, not good, it's
43:37
fine here. So I think that's why
43:39
that's why I would choose the Haunted
43:41
House. That's
43:44
I think. I'm just really impulsive and I would like get
43:46
on a spaceship and then halfway to wherever, I'd
43:48
be like, oh no, where what did I
43:50
do? I think that you're brave and
43:52
cool and that's why you would do it an
43:55
adventurous in a way that I'm not.
43:58
That's not true. You're quite brave and
44:00
adventurous. We adventured to
44:02
Taylor Swift's house together. That was fun.
44:05
That was a fun adventure. Oh
44:08
do you believe in reincarnation. That's
44:11
like a question the answers. I don't
44:13
know. That's always the best answer
44:15
for everything. I mean,
44:17
not no, not no. But I
44:19
don't spend a lot of time thinking like,
44:23
oh, well, that's cool that I didn't do it. Now
44:25
in my next life, I'll get to it, Like I don't. I
44:27
don't know. I believe in reincarnation in the sense
44:29
that like work, work,
44:32
carbon and we'll turn into carbon in
44:34
the life. You know, this sort of chemistry
44:36
aspect of it makes that makes
44:38
perfect sense. Um,
44:41
But I don't speak Yeah, and I believe that it's
44:43
entirely possible
44:46
in a sort of um sole
44:49
form. But I don't spend a lot of time thinking about it.
44:52
That's fair. I spend all my time things.
44:54
See this is really cool. Don't
44:57
do what I do. They
45:00
thank you for coming on my podcast. I'm
45:02
super excited to see
45:06
the movie You're in. My best friend Carrie
45:08
Brownsie and I made a movie called The Nowhere In that
45:10
is coming out this year, and it's a meta documentary
45:13
about me. I play
45:15
myself and also you know St.
45:18
Vincent and then I'm a
45:20
little too boring to make a documentary about
45:22
She tells me to spice things up a little
45:24
bit, and that goes horribly wrong,
45:27
and it turns into sort of like a meta horror
45:30
documentary that sounds amazing
45:33
and fun. I can't
45:35
wait to scare myself and watch it. Follow me
45:37
on Instagram. UM, I
45:40
probably put up a picture like once every two
45:42
and a half to three weeks, so you'll really be
45:44
in for a treat. Follow me on Twitter.
45:47
I'm gonna be saying a lot of problematic things,
45:49
so check me out there.
45:51
Um. I'll be starting
45:54
my TikTok page pretty soon with
45:56
some post modern choreography, which
45:59
I hope we'll go viral. Yeah, and
46:01
thank you so much for listening, and thank you
46:03
so much for being on here. I really appreciate
46:05
it. So good to see you. It's great to see you too. I'm
46:07
really glad you asked me to do it, and I appreciate you taking
46:10
the time. Oh my god, same,
46:13
all right, keep on creeping on
46:15
creeps, all right, see
46:18
us m
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