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When I notice I'm
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distracting myself is where I
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know that I'm disconnecting from
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myself. And now I look back and
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I'm almost heartbroken because
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I'm like, what that girl was
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going through, to just not be
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able to sit with herself.
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Sometimes we were kind
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of presented with this image of
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self care that they're really
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big grand gestures, but actually
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they can just be really small
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things but something that brings
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you comfort.
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Mental health when it
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comes down to it. It is largely
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how you feel about yourself. And
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once you have that steady
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foundation, you have a concrete
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base that you can come back to
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and know you're going to be
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absolutely fine.
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Hi, Welcome to Let's
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Talk: Mental Health. While we
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get together with different
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people and experts to chat about
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mental health. We all have
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experience mental health
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problems. So on this podcast, we
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explore the topics that can
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I'm your host Bethan Buswell,
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podcasts. Today, we're talking
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about how the relationships with
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ourselves can help or harm our
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mental health, and tips on ways
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to build a healthy relationship
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with you. Here at the Mental
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Health Foundation, we believe
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that investing in healthy
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relationships is important for
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our mental health, and that the
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best place to start is with the
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relationship with you. But we
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also know that we aren't always
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given the tools, education or
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environments in which we can
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learn how to do this or where
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our relationships with ourselves
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can flourish. However, it is
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never too late to start taking
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those steps to get to know you.
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Treat yourself kindly and take
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time to do the things you enjoy
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to protect your mental health.
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So we'll be exploring this and
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more in today's episode. You'll
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be hearing from Anna Archer, who
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is a fitness influencer, who
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shared the ups and downs of her
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relationship with herself with
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her followers. And then next
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you'll hear from Gemma and Quinn
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who are part of the Mental
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Health Foundation Young Leaders.
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They'll share their own personal
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stories about investing in the
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relationships with themselves to
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help their mental health. And
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lastly, you'll hear from Sophie
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Peterman, Programmes Coordinator
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at the Mental Health Foundation,
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who will be telling us about why
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all of these things really
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matter. This podcast is brought
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to you by the Mental Health
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Foundation. It is a space for
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our guests to discuss their
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personal experience and express
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their opinions. Our guests
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opinions are their own and are
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not an official stance with the
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Instagram, and you can also find
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us on Facebook and LinkedIn. And
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now I'm joined by Anna Archer.
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Anna is a 21 year old who is a
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successful content creator,
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podcaster and athlete who
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focuses on fitness, lifestyle
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and mental health. She has just
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completed the London Marathon
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for the Foundation. The reason
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that she chose to take on such a
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tremendous challenge and raise
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money for us is very personal.
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Her mental health has had a
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journey of its own, which she
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talks openly about on a variety
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of different social platforms,
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and her podcast. She chats about
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all areas of her life, eating
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disorders, grief, relationships,
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social media, and more. And
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we're really lucky that she's
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Mental Health podcast today. So
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thank you for joining us, Anna.
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Oh my gosh, thank you.
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This is really exciting. Yeah,
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it's brilliant to have
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you here today. And today, we're
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talking all about the
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relationship with yourself,
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which I know you talk so openly
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to all of your followers about.
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So how has your relationship
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with yourself changed over time?
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So dramatically? Like I
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can't explain. I think the main
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switch was a large section of
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let's say when I was a teenager,
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it was very outward, I was
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people pleasing. I was dressing
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for other people, I was changing
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my body for other people.
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Everything was so externally
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driven... everything. So my
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sense of self was really lost
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because I was doing nothing
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essentially for myself. And then
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going into where I am now. I am
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my number one priority. And in
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not a typical selfish way that
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parents like to say like oh,
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you're being selfish, but yes, I
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am my number one priority and
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everything goes inward. I listen
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to my intuition. I listen to how
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am I doing what does this
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situation feel like for me? Does
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this person feel good? Does this
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relationship feel good? And I
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don't have to say yes to
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everybody. I can have a voice.
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So it has dramatically changed.
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And I like I'm so glad that this
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is the topic of today. Because I
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think it's literally the number
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one thing, when you have that
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sense of self, and you're so
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aligned with it. Does your
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mental health improve?
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Yeah, it's, it's
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incredible to hear how far I
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guess your journey has gone.
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Because it resonates so much. We
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spoke to two young people
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earlier, and Quinn and Gemma,
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and they were saying initially,
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when you've not even got that
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concept of that you it can come
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out in lots of different ways,
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like you were saying. And I
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remember for myself, when I was
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in a work environment that was
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quite focused on how you looked
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or stereotypes of how you
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looked. That was a lot of where
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my identity went into maybe what
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size I was, how I looked, hair
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color, all that kind of thing.
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And hearing how you've gone
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along with your journey in this,
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I think a lot of people will
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probably resonate from, you
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know, where do you even start?
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You know, if you if you don't
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know, where do you even begin
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with that relationship with yourself?
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Yeah, completely, and what
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you said about that, it comes
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out in different ways. And I was
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so unaware, yeah you're so
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unaware, at the time, that you
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don't have a sense of self, and
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that your your mental health is
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bad. You just, you know, even if
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you have depression, you don't
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really know what's going on,
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what's triggering it, what all
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that stuff. I went through an
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eating disorder, anxiety, so
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much stuff, and I really feel
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that you have to go into really
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into the bad days into the bad
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weeks and months, and years. So
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when you come out of it, are you
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able to reflect and it's almost
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like the beauty and not the
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beauty of it, because you can
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gain advice 100%. But you really
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have to let yourself go into
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your bad day and learn it for
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yourself. Yeah. Which I think
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is, is something that I've
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really clocked on. Because
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sometimes I give myself a harsh
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time because oh, I should have
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known this when I was younger.
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Well, I couldn't have and to
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know that we're always trying
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our best is so important.
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Has there been a time
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where you feel like you
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abandoned your relationship with
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yourself?
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Yeah, I have had years of
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if I look back at it now where I
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am now I would say you abandoned
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yourself. But the true true, I
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say lowest moments, I would say
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just before I went into recovery
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for an eating disorder, I can't
7:45
even explain the level of
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distraction that I had to put
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myself through, so that I
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couldn't sit with myself like I
7:56
couldn't even have two seconds
7:58
of myself. And you can now look
7:58
back. And I'm almost heartbroken
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because I'm like what that girl
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was going through, to just not
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be able to sit with herself. At
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this point. It was actually so
8:11
hard because this was actually
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my rising point in my social
8:15
media career. I was growing by
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30,000 followers a month. And
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this was like the six month
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point, I think, or the fifth
8:24
month point, I was earning the
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most money I had ever seen in
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And I imagine as well,
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so many of our listeners, again,
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that month. would connect with what you've
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been through, but also can't
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imagine what the added element
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of it being so public does as
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well. For Mental Health
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Awareness Week in 2019, we
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focused on body image. And quite
8:44
a lot of the people that we
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spoke about, spoke about what
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social media can do when feeling
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so seen all the time. And did
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that kind of add to it?
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Definitely I I think
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what we need to know is our
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mental health should be our
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priority. And I've I think I did
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it in a place of fear to start
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with the day that I went into
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recovery. I put on my social
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media, I will not be on her for
9:12
weeks and I ended up having six
9:12
weeks off. So I went into this
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hibernation mode. I wore the
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baggy clothes so nobody could
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see I completely came off social
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media so nobody had to see my
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body and then it came to a point
9:22
of me having to accept okay,
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this is a new body and then it
9:25
was actually a pressure of
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social media is my job. I have
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contracts. Yeah. I have monthly
9:32
deliverables that this is my
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income and this is an I also had
9:37
a massive fear of if I didn't
9:37
post I would lose my followings
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which I did slightly. Yeah. And
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that was a whole nother journey
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of not attaching myself worth to
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followers. And then going into I
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would actually say this summer,
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only this summer. That's a year
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and a half and I had stages
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where I did show my body more
9:54
normally in summer when I felt
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more confident, but it was only
9:58
until I've done the real therapy
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work, the heavy hardcore stuff
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the self love stuff. Yeah. Am I
10:03
able to be unapologetically
10:08
myself. And knowing that I don't
10:08
have to show my body to social
10:13
media, but knowing I don't have
10:13
to hide and find that balance of
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posting when I want to? Yeah.
10:16
And that's where I found the
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balance.
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So you've spoken a lot
10:21
about what happened before you
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kind of went into recovery and
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how it was kind of coming out.
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But could you go into that in a
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little bit more detail for our
10:32
listeners of what did it look
10:32
like? Or does it look like still
10:36
sometimes to be detached from
10:36
your relationship with yourself?
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I think for me, there is
10:40
it's distraction, when I notice
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I'm distracting myself is where
10:46
I know that I'm disconnecting
10:52
from myself. So before it would
10:52
be weeks, months of distraction
10:58
every day, whether it was over
10:58
exercising, whether that was
11:00
toxic productivity, whether that
11:00
was scrolling on my phone all
11:03
day, it would be very large
11:03
moments of time. They still
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happen, but 10 minutes, an hour,
11:09
sometimes four hours. But the
11:15
difference is I'm able to
11:15
notice. So like, let's give a
11:19
real raw example. Last night, I
11:19
was slightly triggered into
11:22
something. And I didn't realise
11:22
at the time, but I started
11:25
scrolling my phone. And it was
11:25
about two and a half hours
11:29
later. And it's when you're,
11:29
you're not scrolling for fun,
11:32
but like you're scrolling and
11:32
you can't stop and I call it
11:34
autopilot scroll. That's what I
11:34
name it. I don't know whether
11:37
it's a real thing. And for me,
11:37
it's a really big indication
11:40
that I'm not connected with
11:40
myself. And it's really, this is
11:45
like one of the things I've really learned, it's really hard to get off. And sometimes all I
11:47
can do is literally turn my
11:52
phone off and just not even
11:52
move. In that moment. Try to
11:56
take a deep breath, or try to
11:56
like autopilot, go into the
11:59
bathroom, or just move your
11:59
state, maybe try put some music
12:02
on. But that state of
12:02
distraction is a really big
12:05
indication that I'm
12:05
disconnecting with myself. And
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yeah, there's, I think we'll
12:11
talk about it later. But there's
12:13
so many ways that you can
12:13
connect back with yourself. And
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that is the difference in
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whether it lasts a week or
12:18
whether it lasts an hour.
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Is there anything else
12:19
that you'd love to, I guess
12:21
share with our listeners that
12:21
has genuinely helped you -
12:26
something you did something, I
12:26
guess you said to yourself
12:29
that's really helped you when
12:29
you're feeling less connected,
12:31
and everything feels a little
12:31
bit gloomy?
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The thing that has helped
12:34
me the absolute most in this
12:37
journey, which I think everybody
12:37
needs, is therapy. We act so
12:43
much from our heart and a child,
12:43
that when we go back, we go into
12:48
therapy and we understand what
12:48
actually caused us to struggle.
12:53
And why we do certain things,
12:53
why we people please why we
12:57
can't speak up and why we avoid
12:57
conflict and why we thought we
13:00
need to change our body, we're
13:00
able to notice it and pull the
13:04
two situations apart. Okay, this
13:04
present moment of my job
13:08
situation has actually got less
13:08
anxiety and stress attached to
13:13
it and a lot more attached to
13:13
when I felt pressured by my
13:17
parents, so you're able to split
13:17
it up. And then yeah, so I just
13:21
feel like therapy is such an
13:21
amazing thing. And I think one
13:24
thing to understand is, if
13:24
you're struggling, if you're
13:26
struggling mentally, you most
13:26
likely need therapy, even if you
13:30
haven't been through a quote
13:30
unquote, traumatic thing. And I
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think so many people think I've,
13:33
I've spoken to some of my
13:36
followers, and they're like, but
13:36
I haven't had... my parents are
13:40
still together and we have money
13:40
and like I lived in a big house
13:43
and like that doesn't matter. A
13:43
child feels the way they need to
13:48
feel like if you felt abandoned
13:48
as a child, if your mum walked
13:52
out while you were crying,
13:52
that's how you felt, doesn't
13:54
matter if you didn't have a
13:54
death of a parent. And I guess
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that's hard to get through
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sometimes because most of the
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people that are speaking about
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mental health have been through
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a lot like for example me. Like
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rejection from my father then
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lost my father at 17. Sexual
14:07
Abuse, there's been lots of
14:13
different things. So yes, quote,
14:13
unquote, I have that Complex
14:16
PTSD, and I'm able to share a
14:16
lot of the things that helped me
14:20
but for the people that don't
14:20
feel like they've had anything
14:24
wrong with them in their
14:24
childhood. If you're struggling,
14:26
if you've gone through an eating disorder, if you have depression, if you just have a
14:28
lack of self worth - therapy
14:32
will help you
14:33
if our listeners are
14:33
kind of feeling more in that
14:37
disconnected and kind of not not
14:37
feeling that great about the
14:42
relationship with themselves.
14:42
What What would it feel like for
14:46
them, how could they recognise
14:46
when the relationship with
14:49
themselves is better? So what
14:49
what does it feel like to you
14:54
when you are fully connected to
14:54
you?
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I felt like this is such a
14:57
lovely question because I've
15:00
done almost like two years of,
15:00
let's say the work on yourself.
15:04
But the last six months now, I'd
15:04
say four months. And then the
15:09
last month was like, exponential
15:09
growth that I'm now at this
15:14
point where like, I'm so ready
15:14
to answer this question. And the
15:18
first thing is, being able to
15:18
love the present moment, I walk
15:23
down to my local coffee shop
15:23
with my headphones on listening
15:25
to music, literally dancing
15:25
through the street, not caring
15:28
what other people think. And
15:28
those moments of bliss. It is
15:32
what it's all about these
15:32
moments of going somewhere or,
15:36
or doing nothing like being able
15:36
to just lie down and rest. Being
15:41
able to romanticise moments, is
15:41
something like, I used to try
15:46
get through my days, now I'm
15:46
ready for my day, I want to just
15:51
be in the day, I'm not trying to
15:51
think about next month. Or think
15:54
about what's, I'm so like I'm so
15:54
ready to be in the present now,
15:57
which something I definitely
15:57
couldn't used to do. The second
16:01
thing is being able to notice my
16:01
triggers and regulate myself out
16:06
of it. One thing that was one of
16:06
my things, was I couldn't
16:11
regulate myself. So if people
16:11
don't know what regulation
16:15
means, when you're in a
16:15
triggered state, whether that's
16:20
anxious, whether that's
16:20
distracting yourself, whatever.
16:25
That's a dysregulated state, and
16:25
to get yourself out of that,
16:29
regulating are forms of deep
16:29
breaths, for me dancing, for me
16:34
listening to music, shaking your
16:34
body, having a shower, doing
16:37
yoga, like there's lots of
16:37
different ways, and those things
16:40
bring us back to our self. And
16:40
I've, that's one of the things
16:46
it's like, you still get moments
16:46
of these bad ish times we like
16:51
to call it, whether you're lying
16:51
in bed, whether you're
16:53
frustrated with yourself, whether you're angry, like you don't feel amazingly 100% happy,
16:55
which is normal, is to be able
16:59
to notice what I'm in that
16:59
state. get myself out of it,
17:05
then assess what triggered me
17:05
into it. Kind of almost do a
17:10
like a mini healing session of
17:10
like, what do you need to do
17:12
next time? Yeah. Did you not
17:12
speak up about something to your
17:16
housemate? Right? You are
17:16
actually not even next time
17:19
because next time is not even a
17:19
thing when you got them now and
17:21
have a conversation with your
17:21
housemate. So it's like those
17:25
things. And now being in a
17:25
position, it's so beautiful to
17:30
be able to do that to myself to
17:30
have my own back to know that
17:34
I'm not afraid of going into the
17:34
bad days anymore. To the bad
17:37
moments. I don't even think it's
17:37
bad, but it's a very good way to
17:40
explain it. But like I'm not
17:40
scared going in next I know how
17:42
to get myself out of there
17:42
myself.
17:52
Now I'm joined by Gemma
17:52
and Quinn, who are part of the
17:56
Mental Health Foundation Young
17:56
Leaders, the Young Leaders in
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formed the Foundation's work
17:59
with families, children and
18:03
young people. And today, Gemma
18:03
and Quinn are going to talk to
18:06
you about their own relationship
18:06
with themselves. So Hi, Gemma
18:09
and Quinn, and thank you for
18:09
joining us today. And so just
18:14
wanted to start with what might
18:14
feel like quite an obvious
18:18
question, but some of our
18:18
listeners might not have thought
18:20
of themselves. But what does it
18:20
mean to have a relationship with
18:24
yourself? What does that mean to
18:24
each of you?
18:29
I think it's just being
18:29
comfortable in your own company
18:31
and having a safe and enjoyable
18:31
headspace that you can be in
18:35
without being scared or upset or
18:35
anything. And knowing and
18:40
understanding your limits and
18:40
your boundaries. So you know how
18:44
to keep them and how and where
18:44
to put them in place. And just
18:48
being happy and confident with
18:48
the person you are and the body
18:52
you're in and knowing who you
18:52
are as a person. So what you
18:55
like what you dislike, what you
18:55
want in life, what your
18:58
priorities are, things like that.
19:00
I believe that it's about
19:00
the way you treat yourself. It's
19:03
connected to the relationships
19:03
you have with others, the way
19:06
you treat the things around you.
19:06
It's the way you think about
19:09
yourself and whether you can be
19:09
patient if you made a mistake.
19:12
Or if you can stand to be around
19:12
yourself, whether you can look
19:14
at old photos and smile, whether
19:14
you can look at the mirror and
19:17
be happy from what you see on
19:17
the inside because no one knows
19:20
you better than yourself.
19:22
Thanks that's really
19:22
lovely. And how how do you build
19:28
a healthy with relationship with
19:28
yourself what goes into building
19:32
a healthy relationship?
19:34
The way to build a healthy relationship with yourself will vary from person
19:36
to person. There's many
19:39
techniques and doing so. Some
19:39
people use prompts some people
19:42
like journaling some people just
19:42
by writing it down. But the main
19:45
thing is that you want to be
19:45
treating yourself positively.
19:48
What I try and do is what I like
19:48
to call the loopback system.
19:51
This is when you do or think
19:51
something that's unproductive
19:55
and then you're able to stop
19:55
yourself and review the actual
19:57
thought. How did it make you
19:57
feel? how to make others feel?
20:01
what was the main outcome? and
20:01
then you learn from it and can
20:04
change your action so they
20:04
benefit you. The main thing is
20:07
to be able to stop yourself and
20:07
think clearly, you should able
20:10
to rewire your thinking in a
20:10
constructive way.
20:14
I think just having those
20:14
boundaries I mentioned being
20:16
both interpersonal and personal.
20:16
So taking time off when you need
20:20
it, saying no when you need it,
20:20
and doing only as much as you're
20:23
comfortable with, or being able
20:23
to step away from a situation
20:27
that you know is harming you.
20:27
And just generally taking care
20:31
of yourself, like your actual
20:31
body, you know, like health,
20:34
with the healthy, I don't like
20:34
the word healthy - healthy
20:38
foods. Exercise doesn't have to
20:38
be formal, like running or
20:42
anything, just enjoying life.
20:42
Working through any
20:47
insecurities, or anything you
20:47
might dislike about yourself,
20:51
because you need to like
20:51
yourself in order to have a good
20:53
relationship with yourself. And
20:53
just being able to spend time
20:57
with yourself and learn who you
20:57
are.
20:59
And I think that gives
20:59
our listeners lots of like,
21:02
really nice practical things
21:02
that they can do the loopback
21:05
system sounds great, and working
21:05
on those boundaries. So thank
21:09
you for coming with so many
21:09
great ideas. And for you with
21:16
the way that you I guess, talk
21:16
to yourself. Do either of you
21:21
notice the way you speak to
21:21
yourself, are you aware of
21:24
what's going on with your
21:24
internal monologue?
21:28
It really varies,
21:28
sometimes it will be completely
21:31
out of my mind. And I'd be
21:31
feeling really down about
21:33
something like if I was to not
21:33
do well to my standards on a
21:36
test, and I'll be end up beating
21:36
myself up, I'm like, Oh, I can't
21:40
be smarter, you studied so much
21:40
for nothing, then it's like late
21:44
at night, and it's like two
21:44
o'clock in the morning. And I'm
21:46
thinking to myself, wait a
21:46
minute, at least I'm trying, at
21:50
least I'm putting the effort in.
21:50
So it's me finally realising
21:54
that I'm speaking so negatively
21:54
about myself, which is unfair to
21:58
all my effort and my learning.
21:58
And to me, I like to think about
22:02
as if I'm speaking about a best
22:02
friend. I'd never say the sort
22:07
of things about them. So why
22:07
should I say about myself?
22:10
I notice quite very often
22:10
I'm quite an introspective
22:13
person. But it can be difficult
22:13
to change the way you think
22:18
about yourself, you kind of get
22:18
stuck in this habit or the cycle
22:21
of negative self talk. And it
22:21
can really be really difficult
22:25
to break yourself out of that.
22:27
And again, it's lots of,
22:27
I guess, really interesting ways
22:31
that our listeners can think
22:31
about the way that they they
22:35
talk to themselves like, it does
22:35
sound so simple to think about
22:39
speaking to yourself the way you
22:39
would have friends, but we can
22:41
get so stuck in our own minds
22:41
that we can start being mean to
22:45
ourselves before we've even
22:45
realised. So yeah, really,
22:48
really helpful things. And what
22:48
are boundaries you have put in
22:55
place to protect your
22:55
relationship with yourself?
22:59
Mostly habits, kind of
22:59
making sure you have a good
23:03
sleep schedule down having your
23:03
routines that you can rely on
23:06
and fall back on. To prioritise
23:06
yourself and your health, mental
23:10
and physical. Being able to
23:10
leave or extricate yourself from
23:15
toxic environments or friendship
23:15
issues or anything that's you
23:21
realise his hurt harming your
23:21
mental health. Or if you can't
23:24
do that, finding a way to make
23:24
yourself be able to be more
23:29
comfortable with it. I
23:29
personally I don't do something
23:34
like one my boundaries is that I
23:34
don't do intense or focus work
23:38
focused work after dinner time.
23:38
So I kind of let that be my wind
23:41
downtime to make sure that I
23:41
have to have a cutoff point. And
23:48
also just making sure your
23:48
prioritising your relationships
23:51
with other people. So I try to
23:51
reply to my friends as quickly
23:54
as I can and make sure I
23:54
maintain those relationships. So
23:57
it's not, I don't end up feeling
23:57
lonely or any kind of self like
24:05
low self esteem because I
24:05
haven't maintained any of the
24:09
friendships.
24:10
It isn't just about
24:10
having boundaries with yourself
24:14
is about having boundaries with
24:14
other people too. So if you
24:17
notice you have a negative
24:17
relationship with yourself,
24:20
you're probably going to end up
24:20
realising that this may reflect
24:23
in relationships you have with
24:23
others. So you need to sometimes
24:25
have really clear cut boundaries
24:25
with others to, for example,
24:29
other things you won't discuss
24:29
at all with other people, and
24:33
what you're going to do if they
24:33
keep on pushing it. toxic
24:35
relationships come in so many
24:35
shapes and forms but the simple
24:39
rule is, if you end up regularly
24:39
feeling more drained with them
24:42
and dread being with them, more
24:42
often than not, it's not healthy
24:45
and something to try to avoid.
24:45
And then similarly if I noticed
24:49
that I feel even worse talking
24:49
to myself, instead of being able
24:52
to feel content, then that is
24:52
when I know I need to stop, take
24:56
a moment and do something else.
24:56
Most of the time trying to argue
25:00
Myself, right after difficult
25:00
moment will result in disaster,
25:04
listening to music, doing
25:04
something distracting. And
25:06
coming back to it when I'm
25:06
feeling clearer tends to be
25:08
healthier for me, knowing when
25:08
to stop is incredibly important.
25:12
So again, really, really
25:12
interesting answers there's, I
25:17
really liked Gemma that there
25:17
was things that are really
25:20
specific boundaries to you, such
25:20
as like you're saying not doing
25:24
kind of the intense work after
25:24
dinner. And it hopefully can
25:29
show our listeners that
25:29
boundaries can be really
25:31
individual as well, we're all
25:31
different so our boundaries can
25:35
be different. So it's important
25:35
to get to know ourselves to find
25:38
out that and, again, Quinn what
25:38
you were saying with it kind of
25:41
almost feels like that listening
25:41
to your body. If you're around
25:44
someone and you're feeling
25:44
exhausted, then taking that time
25:48
to step away can be a good way
25:48
to invest in the relationship
25:50
with yourself. So have there
25:50
been times when you felt less
25:57
connected to yourself? And how
25:57
does that make you feel?
26:02
This is why knowing when
26:02
to stop is incredibly important.
26:06
Sometimes when things get
26:06
distressing it is easier to
26:09
distract yourself and not focus
26:09
on the problem. When you do
26:12
this, for far too long, the
26:12
problem only continues to grow
26:15
like it's a weight, you're
26:15
holding you back, you start to
26:18
begin to feel like numb, because
26:18
you get desensitised to this
26:23
problem like hanging over shadow
26:23
like your head. So like, it's
26:27
like you're mindlessly watching
26:27
the video in the background. It
26:29
makes me more numb and stressed.
26:29
And it is the spiral of feeling
26:33
worse and worse, and then you
26:33
end up distracting yourself
26:36
more. And then you feel even
26:36
more worse than when you began.
26:38
Personally, I've
26:38
struggled with food and that's
26:43
disrupted my relationship with
26:43
myself a lot. It's almost like
26:47
the lack of nutrients like get
26:47
makes a wall within my head
26:50
space. Your Person is made of
26:50
your mind and your body and you
26:56
can't have a good relationship
26:56
with one without having a good
26:59
relationship with the other. So
26:59
your relationship with your body
27:03
will always spiral back to your
27:03
relationship with your mind. And
27:08
it can make you feel so alone.
27:08
At the end of the day, all you
27:13
have is yourself. And if you
27:13
don't like that person, if you
27:17
don't like being with yourself,
27:17
then it's difficult. And like
27:24
Quinn said, when you're stressed
27:24
out it can you kind of forget
27:28
about yourself, you only focus
27:28
on your work or whatever is
27:32
stressing you out. And you kind
27:32
of lose perspective on
27:35
everything else in the world,
27:35
everything else in your life,
27:38
that it just becomes this one
27:38
sole thing that you're worried
27:41
about. And you get tunnel
27:41
vision. So that can disrupt the
27:45
relationship that you have with yourself as well.
27:47
And I think that leads
27:47
so nicely onto the next
27:50
question, which I think you've
27:50
like answered quite a bit of and
27:53
given us some good examples, but
27:53
But what do you do during those
27:56
times, you know, are the ways
27:56
that you bring yourself back to
28:01
you if you're feeling that
28:01
little bit less connected?
28:04
Something I've been
28:04
trying recently is doing what
28:07
all the self help people on the
28:07
internet try to tell you to do
28:11
meditation. Just noticing your
28:11
thoughts, noticing how you're
28:17
speaking to yourself and
28:17
detaching yourself from them.
28:22
Because you aren't your thoughts. You're not your feelings. You're you're the
28:23
person you are you at your your
28:28
moral beliefs and ethical
28:28
beliefs. Like I said,
28:31
meditation, making sure you've
28:31
got the constants in life. So
28:34
your sleep and your water,
28:34
you're drinking enough water,
28:37
things like that. And then if if
28:37
you're feeling detached from
28:42
yourself, because you're
28:42
overwhelmed or stressed, you've
28:45
got to take breaks, get yourself
28:45
some perspective, doing things
28:49
for pure enjoyment and not work.
28:49
So whatever you like doing, it'd
28:52
be drawing or music or movement
28:52
or anything like that. And just
28:57
making sure you prioritise and
28:57
make room for spending time with
29:02
people you love and making sure
29:02
you spend time with yourself and
29:06
with your thoughts. Like I said,
29:06
You got you aren't your
29:10
thoughts, but you've got to
29:10
learn to live with them. So
29:14
you've got to try and work with
29:14
them and try to make them easier
29:17
to bear.
29:18
What Gemma said about the
29:18
thoughts. It's similar to
29:21
intrusive thoughts, people when
29:21
they have intrusive thoughts,
29:24
they tend to start panicking and
29:24
they build on the spiral of "oh
29:27
my god, I'm a horrible person",
29:27
when the truth is that this is
29:30
just your thoughts, you are not
29:30
your thoughts, but it's kind of
29:33
like you should think of them as
29:33
if you're holding them in a bag
29:35
with you. You should be able to
29:35
think you should like similar
29:38
with your opinions. You should
29:38
be able to change them out. You
29:40
can hold on to them, but they
29:40
are not you. And when I feel
29:44
less connected to myself, I also
29:44
become numb and desensitised.
29:48
It's it's like a blank emotional
29:48
state. So I like to bring myself
29:52
back to Earth. And that tends to
29:52
be through writing actually. So
29:56
I sit down and I type for
29:56
however long I want to until
29:59
everything I'm thinking is on
29:59
the page, just typing
30:01
mindlessly. And then I read
30:01
through it, I can clearly see my
30:04
own thoughts. And that brings
30:04
myself back to me. I can see
30:07
what I'm actually thinking, go
30:07
hey mate, that's no good, and
30:11
then change their way of thinking.
30:12
Thank you guys. And
30:12
lastly, how did you learn to
30:18
create a healthy relationship
30:18
with yourself? And do you feel
30:23
that this is benefited your
30:23
mental health? Have you noticed
30:27
the benefits for your mental health?
30:29
I believe that you never
30:29
stop creating a healthy
30:33
relationship with yourself. You
30:33
can constantly work on it, learn
30:36
how to be more forgiving, learn
30:36
how to enjoy your time with
30:39
yourself and others learn how to
30:39
be independent but still let
30:43
others in. I finally started
30:43
when I was at my lowest point,
30:47
realising that if I did go any
30:47
lower, that would be the point
30:49
of no return. It was like a
30:49
final self reflection. Think
30:53
about the way I saw myself
30:53
instead of who I was. That
30:58
cleared up a lot of issues with
30:58
myself. And since then it was a
31:01
slow climb to feeling better.
31:01
Sometimes I try focusing on
31:04
being grateful. Sometimes I talk
31:04
to my friends for a good time.
31:08
Sometimes I spend time in the
31:08
garden or writing to appreciate
31:10
myself. And that's the main
31:10
thing. Being able to appreciate
31:14
yourself your hard work you've
31:14
been here, I'm still working on
31:17
it. But it definitely has
31:17
benefited my mental health. It
31:20
feels less like a challenge to
31:20
be with myself, but more like a
31:23
time of discovery. Now I can
31:23
look back on myself and smile.
31:26
My answer is the same as
31:26
Quinn's, I first started making
31:32
my relationship, good
31:32
relationship with myself when I
31:35
hit absolute rock bottom, and I
31:35
knew I couldn't be there again.
31:40
And it's still like Quinn said,
31:40
it is still a constant work in
31:43
progress. But I'm still learning
31:43
about how to do it, but as long,
31:49
but I find that as long as I'm
31:49
okay with myself. And as long as
31:53
I'm able to be on my own and not
31:53
feel lonely or upset or struggle
32:01
like I did when I was at my
32:01
lowest point, then I'm going to
32:04
be okay, and I can work through
32:04
whatever I'm going through
32:07
because time never stops.
32:07
Whatever you're stressing about
32:11
will pass, that will, it'll come
32:11
and go. And whatever you're
32:17
really enjoying, that's going to
32:17
come and go as well. So you've
32:22
got to take notice of what
32:22
you're grateful for in life and
32:24
kind of realise that whatever
32:24
you're stressing about, it will
32:28
end at some point and it will,
32:28
you will get past it. But other
32:34
than that, I think as long as
32:34
you trust yourself and find
32:37
things that you enjoy or find
32:37
ways to make yourself happy. So
32:43
maybe going back and thinking
32:43
about what you liked as a kid
32:46
what foods you liked, what
32:46
sports or activities or stupid
32:51
little things that your kid
32:51
brain loves, that you haven't
32:55
done in years can be a really
32:55
great way to start making
32:59
healing your relationship with
32:59
yourself. So I definitely think
33:01
that it's helped my kind of
33:01
mental health generally, because
33:06
I think it is, mental health
33:06
when it comes down to it, is
33:10
largely how you feel about
33:10
yourself and how you feel about
33:15
your kind of body and mind and
33:15
how you are able to be in your
33:20
own company. And once you have
33:20
that steady foundation, once you
33:24
have that constant in your life,
33:24
you can come back to it when
33:28
everything else is changing.
33:28
When everything else is
33:31
overwhelming or stressful, you
33:31
have a concrete base that you
33:36
can come back to and know you're
33:36
going to be absolutely fine.
33:45
So now I'm joined by
33:45
Sophie Peterman, who is Project
33:48
Coordinator for the peer
33:48
education project at the Mental
33:51
Health Foundation. Sophie is
33:51
going to talk to us about why
33:53
having a healthy relationship
33:53
with ourselves is important for
33:56
our mental health. Thanks for
33:56
joining us today. Sophie, it's
34:00
my pleasure. Thank you for
34:00
having me. So first, I just
34:03
wanted to ask, why is investing
34:03
in a relationship with ourselves
34:08
important for our mental health
34:08
and well being.
34:10
I think it's really
34:10
important to invest in our
34:13
relationship with ourselves
34:13
because it helps us become more
34:16
in tune with how we're feeling
34:16
and what our needs are. And we
34:20
can do this mainly actually by
34:20
putting in time to practice self
34:23
care. So this can include doing
34:23
things that we enjoy, or just
34:27
things that bring us comfort and
34:27
by giving ourselves this time to
34:31
do these things. It helps us to
34:31
develop an understanding of what
34:35
our needs are, and how we can
34:35
meet them, which is really
34:38
important supporting our mental
34:38
health and well being. And it's
34:42
really important not just so
34:42
that we have our own toolkits to
34:45
know what works for us and
34:45
supporting our own mental health
34:48
and well being but to know what
34:48
we can say to others so that
34:52
they know how to support us so
34:52
that we can advocate for
34:55
ourselves as well.
34:56
So you mentioned just
34:56
then self care. Some people
35:00
might have heard this a lot or
35:00
seen this a lot on social media.
35:04
Can it be small things? You
35:04
know? Does it have to be a full
35:08
on day out at the spa? Or like
35:08
making big plans with your
35:12
friends? Or can it be? Is there
35:12
little bits of self care that
35:16
someone could try and introduce?
35:18
definitely, I think
35:18
sometimes we're kind of
35:20
presented with this image of
35:20
self care that they're really
35:23
big, grand gestures that you do
35:23
for yourself that involve a lot
35:26
of time or money. But actually,
35:26
they can just be really small
35:29
things, it could even be as
35:29
small as just taking 30 seconds
35:34
to do some mindful breathing to
35:34
help yourself. Or, you know,
35:39
giving yourself that one extra
35:39
hour of sleep in bed, it can be
35:43
really small things, but
35:43
something that brings you
35:46
comfort, and something that
35:46
brings you kind of care and joy.
35:50
Yeah, and that sounds
35:50
really doable. And like you
35:52
said, it's gonna be different to
35:52
each person, isn't it. So it's
35:54
thinking about what small thing
35:54
you could bring in, which kind
35:57
of tells yourself, you're like,
35:57
I guess putting yourself first
36:01
for a small moment of time.
36:02
And I think it's
36:02
important to have ideas for
36:05
yourself of something that can
36:05
be small, something that can fit
36:09
within five minutes, or
36:09
something that can be bigger. So
36:12
you might want to actually
36:12
think, once a month, I'm going
36:15
to have a self care afternoon.
36:15
And I really love walking. So
36:21
actually, I'm going to pick this
36:21
route, or I'm going to pick this
36:23
place to go to and walk around
36:23
it. And actually, that's a bit
36:26
of self care. I know I've got to
36:26
look forward to in two or three
36:29
weeks time.
36:29
And we know that for
36:29
some people, they can find it
36:33
harder than others to connect
36:33
with themselves or check in with
36:37
how they're feeling. I've got a
36:37
friend that wasn't really raised
36:42
on a vocabulary of kind of
36:42
talking about emotions, they
36:47
were raised more on practically
36:47
supporting each other in their
36:50
family. So when it came to
36:50
expressing within friendships
36:54
and things like that, it was so
36:54
hard for them to find the words
36:57
about how they were they were
36:57
even feeling themselves because
37:00
they hadn't grown up practicing
37:00
to talk about it, or tune in to
37:05
how they feel regularly. So is
37:05
there any tips and advice for
37:10
anyone that it feels really new?
37:10
Like? They see people talking
37:15
about it all the time, or they
37:15
might see influencers talking
37:17
about different emotions and
37:17
being really like emotionally
37:22
aware or aware of their mental
37:22
health and they feel so far away
37:25
from that is what what can they
37:25
do to begin, I guess, their
37:29
journey to this?
37:31
Yeah, I think my advice
37:31
would actually be starting
37:33
there, realising that this is a
37:33
journey, it's not something that
37:36
you're going to have that moment
37:36
of, I want to feel more in tune
37:40
with myself and how I feel and
37:40
being able to express my
37:43
feelings and actually being able
37:43
to realise this is something
37:46
that might take time for me and
37:46
something that I'm going to sort
37:48
of work towards. And I think
37:48
when you give yourself the time
37:52
to grow and develop into it,
37:52
you're not putting that pressure
37:55
on it. I think it's you know,
37:55
connecting with yourself isn't
37:57
about having everything figured
37:57
out or knowing exactly who you
38:01
are or what you need. It's about
38:01
finding those ways that we can
38:05
support ourselves and do those
38:05
things for ourselves that are
38:08
going to help us feel comforted.
38:08
And I think starting with
38:10
something small. So this might
38:10
be as simple as brushing your
38:13
teeth every morning. And
38:13
recognising that you've done
38:16
that you've achieved that and
38:16
celebrating that for yourself
38:19
can be a really important part,
38:19
being your own friend and your
38:22
own cheerleader to celebrate the
38:22
small wins and the small moments
38:26
that you have for yourselves is
38:26
really important. I think
38:29
recognising that it's difficult.
38:29
I think actually, that in itself
38:33
is really important to recognise
38:33
that this is challenging. And
38:37
I'm not always going to get this
38:37
right. But one way that you can
38:42
sort of support yourself through
38:42
that, or at least I find that I
38:44
feel supported through it is
38:44
trying to listen to my body. So
38:50
I cry a lot. And actually, it
38:50
really helps me if I am feeling
38:55
that sort of pressure and that feeling within my body that I need to cry. I really try and
38:57
listen to that. And I go and
39:00
find whether it's a quiet space
39:00
on my own, or whether it is a
39:05
person that I trust, and that
39:05
brings me comfort, I try and
39:07
find a space that I can let that
39:07
out. And sometimes I'll have a
39:12
cry. I don't necessarily know
39:12
what the feeling is. And I might
39:16
not understand what it is that's
39:16
making me feel that way. But
39:19
recognising that my body's
39:19
telling me something my body
39:22
feels like it needs a cry. There
39:22
might be some deeper feelings
39:25
going on under here that I maybe
39:25
need to take a minute to either
39:28
write in a journal to see if I
39:28
can figure them out. Maybe I
39:31
need to sit and I need to chat
39:31
with someone whether that's
39:34
going to be helpful to sit with
39:34
someone that I know and chat to
39:37
or whether actually I need
39:37
someone that I don't necessarily
39:40
know that might just have some
39:40
good advice to just try and
39:43
listen to what my body is
39:43
telling me because sometimes it
39:46
knows things before I feel like
39:46
I do.
39:49
I remember speaking to a
39:49
therapist, and I was like I've
39:53
done lots of work on boundaries
39:53
and I don't understand why I'm
39:55
still not further along with it
39:55
and I'm not really able to
39:58
articulate it with others or I
39:58
understand it in myself. And she
40:02
said, to bring it back to the
40:02
body. So I wasn't at that point
40:06
where I could articulate it to
40:06
others, or I could even know
40:09
what they were for me. But when
40:09
I brought it back to listening
40:14
to my body, so is my chest
40:14
getting tight, am I feeling
40:17
anxious and my muscles getting
40:17
tight? When I'm around someone,
40:20
or maybe when I'm pushing myself
40:20
too far - is my body trying to
40:26
tell me I'm burnt out is my body
40:26
trying to tell me that maybe the
40:30
way someone's behaving isn't
40:30
okay for me. And starting with
40:35
that, I could kind of start to
40:35
notice, oh, this is where my
40:40
boundaries lie. And then I could
40:40
move from recognising in my body
40:45
to be able to articulate it to
40:45
myself, and then be able to tell
40:48
others what they were. Is the
40:48
body a really important part of
40:52
that?
40:54
I think stress is a
40:54
really good example we can use
40:56
to understand this. experiences
40:56
that happen in the body, when
41:00
you are experiencing stress
41:00
could be tension in your
41:02
shoulders, your neck, you might
41:02
get headaches, you might have
41:06
funny tummy, you might have all
41:06
of these physical feelings going
41:10
on, that you might be too busy
41:10
or too focused on other things
41:16
to realise that those are stress
41:16
or connect them to your
41:20
experiences and your feelings of
41:20
stress, but actually being able
41:24
to tune in with your body and
41:24
realise, oh, actually, yeah, my
41:27
shoulders are really tense, and
41:27
they're right up by my ears. And
41:30
that's not that's not feeling
41:30
comfortable for me. What's going
41:34
on? Why am I feeling this sort
41:34
of tension, it can help us it
41:39
can almost be sort of the
41:39
beginning of figuring out what's
41:43
actually going on and what's
41:43
perhaps deeper underneath and
41:46
understanding our feelings, and
41:46
then being able to help
41:49
ourselves understand our needs.
41:50
That's really, really
41:50
helpful. And I think you've then
41:53
answered the next question as
41:53
well, which was, you know, how
41:56
can someone work on their
41:56
relationship with their body to
41:59
help their well-being I guess, a
41:59
really good place to start, is
42:03
that noticing those feelings of
42:03
stress that are probably
42:06
familiar to all of us at some
42:06
point in our, in our lives?
42:09
Definitely, I think I
42:09
think there's lots of different
42:12
ways that someone can do it. And
42:12
I think it is about trying
42:16
different things to find what
42:16
works for you, you know, whether
42:19
this is doing some body
42:19
stretches to notice where the
42:24
areas of tension and maybe are
42:24
in your body, whether that is
42:28
trying to do some mindfulness or
42:28
some meditation, to sort of
42:32
figure out how your body is
42:32
feeling. It could be doing some
42:35
physical activity that you're
42:35
quite used to seeing if your
42:38
body feels any different. See,
42:38
if there are sort of changes in
42:40
how you're engaging with the
42:40
activity, it's, it could really
42:43
be lots of different things. And
42:43
it is about finding what works
42:46
for you. But being able to
42:46
connect with your body and check
42:50
in with your body and how it's
42:50
feeling really can help you to
42:54
start figure out figuring out
42:54
the bigger picture.
42:58
Yeah, it's so good. I
42:58
feel like so many things you've
43:01
said today, I'm definitely going
43:01
to go away and practically try
43:03
loads of them. So I definitely
43:03
think there's lots for our
43:06
listeners to do as well. So
43:06
finally, the last question is,
43:10
what is your favorite way to
43:10
invest in the relationship with
43:15
yourself.
43:16
So I try and do this at
43:16
least once a month. And I am one
43:21
of those people that can
43:21
sometimes really value having
43:25
time with myself to invest in
43:25
myself and my relationship with
43:29
myself. And that can feel really
43:29
great. Sometimes other times it
43:32
can feel really uncomfortable
43:32
and awkward. So what I normally
43:37
do is I go for a walk as part of
43:37
what I do, knowing that walking
43:44
and being out with nature is
43:44
something that does help your
43:46
mental health and can improve
43:46
your mood. So I always like to
43:50
do that before I then go and do
43:50
an activity or something for
43:53
myself, because it puts me in a
43:53
better sort of mood. So even if
43:57
I know I might feel a bit
43:57
uncomfortable later, spending
44:00
some time with myself, I've
44:00
already kind of helped myself
44:03
get into a better mood to then
44:03
spend time with myself. And what
44:07
I do is I love reading and I
44:07
love having just a walk around a
44:12
bookshop, picking up books or
44:12
having a short little read of
44:16
all the blurbs and I'll can
44:16
honestly walk around there for
44:19
ages. And then I'll pick a book.
44:19
And I'll go and find a coffee
44:22
shop and I'll get a pastry
44:22
because pastries are lovely, and
44:26
a coffee or hot chocolate. And
44:26
then I just sit and I have my
44:30
treats and I read my book and
44:30
it's time that I know that I'm
44:34
spending with myself and I'm
44:34
investing in myself. But I'm
44:38
also doing things to help myself
44:38
feel less uncomfortable with it.
44:41
So I've done that work before.
44:41
When I'm reading a book I'm not
44:47
sitting with my thoughts I'm
44:47
exploring a different topic or
44:52
another story with other people
44:52
in it so I can feel connection
44:55
to other things whilst I'm
44:55
connecting to myself which can
44:58
help it feel a bit less uncomfy.
45:07
Thank you to Gemma,
45:07
Quinn, Anna and Sophie for
45:10
Mental
45:10
Health. I've been your host
45:14
Bethan Buswell and I hope this
45:14
episode has helped you think
45:17
about your relationship with
45:17
yourself. All of the resources
45:20
we've mentioned in this episode
45:20
are available in the podcast
45:23
notes and on our website. We're
45:23
continuing this conversation
45:26
over on our social channels. If
45:26
you'd like to share your
45:28
thoughts on today's episode,
45:28
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45:31
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45:31
been affected by any of the
45:36
topics that have come up on
45:36
today's episode then, please
45:39
remember that Samaritans are
45:39
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45:42
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45:42
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45:48
you're going through, they're
45:48
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45:51
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45:51
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45:54
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45:54
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45:58
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45:58
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46:04
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46:04
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46:08
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46:08
These are teams of mental health
46:12
care professionals who work with
46:12
people in severe distress. If
46:15
you would like more information
46:15
on where to get support for your
46:18
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46:18
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46:24
remember you and your mental
46:24
health matter. Thank you so much
46:29
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