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Welcome to life. Done better. I'm
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your host Julie Young. And today
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I'm talking to Danny Jay Danny
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Jay is an award winning entrepreneur speaker
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podcast host and storyteller as
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the former founder of the sweaty bodies
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an online fitness community. Danny
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Jay discover the most effective method
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for capturing attention and increasing revenue
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sharing personal and brand stories.
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Danny Jay now teaches innovative brands
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and influencers to close more sales
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become better leaders and blow
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up their brands with the irresistible
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power of sharing. He
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also helps thousands of families become
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financially free in our signature course.
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Master your money. I'm
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super interested to talk to Jenny Jay about
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new beginnings and rebuilding yourself.
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You'll be amazed when you hear what
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Danny went through and how she rebuild
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her life over and over
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again. Welcome to the show.
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Danny JAY Oh thank you so much
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for having me. So it's so funny to hear your bio
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you're like yeah that's me. I feel
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like be something better than it really
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is really all right.
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Rachel it's you know it's an accumulation of things
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that you do and you take the highlights rate
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and then you. That's really really
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why invited you because you have so much to share
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and I'm sure you don't talk and think about it daily
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about how you read and how I mean you
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know you obviously you share stories
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daily but sometimes
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we're just amazed me you look back and in retrospect
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like wow that's a lot that's
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cool. Wow. I learned that too.
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I'm competing to get into this because we chatted the other
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day. We have so many similar background stories
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so I'm really read this go Oh
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I know.
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Let's share the three things that we have in common.
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We both enjoy a career in the fitness industry
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too. We both lived in an
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RV and I don't know
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many women that have lived in an RV like
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not just for like a week but you lived
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in an RV for a year right. Yeah
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yeah I lived in RV for two years
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and so I think that's quite remarkable. And you really
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truly enjoyed it. That's what you wanted to do.
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Oh my gosh I loved it. I was there after we got up
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I was telling my boyfriend I'm like she'll be in an RV
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too.
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I know.
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I do want to talk more about that how
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we did that why we chose to do that
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and what it meant in our lives. And number
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three we were both married for
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a decade and her husband's cheated
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on this good topics for new beginnings
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because we both have changed careers
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many times a new partner new
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financial situation. We both had
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it all and lost it all. And everywhere
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in between. And then yeah a lot of moving
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around. So I think we are queens
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of the new beginnings and know
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and and so during this time of quarantine.
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So what have you been up to and
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what have you lost and what have you gained during
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this time.
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Yeah. Gosh Courtney Sheen is so interesting
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and you know like I love all of those things
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living in the RV starting over for
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marriage. I started to just
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joke that maybe that's my whole path and
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life is just to start over again and
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it's interesting because the last couple of years
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I've been a speaker and I've been living out of a suitcase
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for two years they have not had any stable
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home. I was in L.A. from
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right after my marriage ended. So from about mid
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2016 to 2018 I
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ended up getting a speaking gig that kept me
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going. Three months and then another one kept me
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six months and then suddenly I'm speaking and traveling
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a lot. And so it turns
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to you know three months turns into two
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years suddenly and I was starting
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to really get restless
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and the travel and I loved it.
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I mean I will say I feel like this is
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the one time in my life I could do it. You know I was single
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I didn't have anything holding me back. And
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at the same time I was really missing having some kind
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of roots like friendships and you know
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having to look forward to like maybe game night on
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Friday with friends or something like that totally.
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And so early 2020. I
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really wanted to just stay in one place. I started
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dating someone. We kind of met where we
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were both traveling and heading the same
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places at the same time which was ironic. And
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I said it been a place for a month. That's all
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I asked one month. And so we got this
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air BMV from March 1st to 34
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and I was going to have to leave for a speaking gig
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and come back and I did actually have speaking
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gigs after that. April May. And
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the irony was that they ended
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up getting canceled. We started quarantine
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and all of the speaking gigs that I had
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got cut off. So suddenly that's part
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of what I do for a living. I'm tired of my income.
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And that was yeah that was all taken away.
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So I did lose a big
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part of my business by not being able
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to travel and speak but I saw
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a lot of people pivoting and taking in their conferences
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online. So I was still able to do some online
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conferences and at the same
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time help other people build some courses
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in business.
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So this has been a nice time
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to ground and to grow and to educate
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yourself and to really rise to the
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next level.
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You know I found myself saying yes to almost
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everything saying yes to going to parties
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events networking and getting distracted
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from my goal and because
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I wasn't allowed to say yes to any networking
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parties and events.
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It made me focus on what I'm really trying to work
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on.
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That's a really good time to reset and
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what I really enjoyed. You shared on social
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media was fine the Find Your Money Project.
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I was just laughing because I thought it was just so
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funny because I guess there's always resourceful
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ways to find money if it's like you
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know memberships that you cancel or
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you know so you know you don't actually spent more
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than you need to. Or if you
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actually find money as in being resourceful to
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offering a service that you've never offered before.
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Keith explain that a little bit because I think a lot of people
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that are listening I would love to
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have more income they've lost income
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they may have lost their jobs like
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what are some like interesting
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and good ideas to start with.
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Yeah. So it's called Find the money project
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and I actually started this in 2015
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because after the economy crashed
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in 2008 it didn't really hit me Institute
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Poll 2010. And so my ex husband
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and I had a home we ended up we were
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in Las Vegas in the housing market really got hit there.
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We ended up foreclosing on our home filing bankruptcy
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moving in with some friends. I mean I
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was like I don't know how to make money now because
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I was a personal trainer and when
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people are struggling they are going to cut luxuries.
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And so I wasn't get I didn't
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have a lot of clients losing money and
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I was just so desperate. I was googling like
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how to make money how to win a car.
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When I was online all day just like crying
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looking for a job applying for anything.
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Feeling like nobody was hiring.
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And I really felt like the answer to
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all my money problems was just make more money if
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I just made more or if the economy hadn't crashed
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then I would be fine. And
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I realized very quickly that that was not true.
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And what happened after I started to learn these principles
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was I ended up paying off my student loans at
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eighteen thousand dollars left in
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sixty nine days and prior
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to that I had been carrying this balance for
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seven years when I paid that off
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and 69 days. We only had my husband had
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a new job or a salary of thirty five thousand
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a year. So wasn't like we just came into
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a ton of money. It was I learned how to use the
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money that I had and shift my perspective
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and be resourceful and people always think
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that we're it's lack of resources that
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we just need more money we need more people
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to know we need something and it's not lack of
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resources it's a lack of resourcefulness.
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And I realized that there were a lot of things right in front
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of my face that I could have been doing
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that I wasn't doing and I was overlooking. And
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so some of those small things they have people go through find
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them the new project and it's a seven day challenge and
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most people who do that challenge find an average of eighteen
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hundred dollars to twenty two hundred dollars. That's incredible.
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Sometimes I have people come to me and Oh Danny
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this is great but I just need to make more. And I'm like You
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can't do these small things the big
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things are going to come. And so ultimately
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the principle is being faithful
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with what you have. And if you
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are making two thousand dollars
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a month and you're spending twenty five hundred you're
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not really being faithful with that two thousand
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you have. And so one of the things they have people
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do just like I was a trainer if
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I was starting up a new client and have them get
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on the scale take their measurements. So
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the same thing as finances I
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have to print out your bank statements take highlighters
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of my food gas target
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runs wherever your money is going.
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And when we're swiping our debit card we see
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that we know. But until you actually look
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at it on paper and you're like taking the highlighter you
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forget any of this stuff.
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It's a very vulnerable place to show
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your finances actually have to run through
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you know all the time you were swiping
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you like didn't really pay that. Oh God. Again
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you're overspending on things you don't even want
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to acknowledge. But once you have those statements
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printed out. And when you are really
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committed to look it's powerful
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right. Like I really need this
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do I really need to spend that money on that creating
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that overview is super super important
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to be really honest about it till you
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really face it and look at it.
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Those small things end up being really really
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big things and they are the things
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that can really diminish your finances. It's
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a lot of these small things that we just kind of gloss
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over and don't pay attention. And it's
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kind of subconscious. You know Amazon purchases
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Starbucks the five bucks a day food is
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a huge huge one. So the first
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one I have people do is look at everything.
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And the second big thing that people really love
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and hate is I make it a requirement
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to I call it eat all the thing. So you're
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not allowed to go shopping until you eat within your
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home and in your cabinets because most people
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kind of like our closet will go to a closet full
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of clothes literally and we have nothing to wear and
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we do the same thing with our food we open the fridge open
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the cabinets full of stuff but we don't want
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to eat it. And I'm like No you will eat
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every single thing and tell it's gone
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and then go shopping. And when you
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do this you become a way more mindful of what you might
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feel like that was so gross. You're not going to buy it again.
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You bought it. I mean that one time you want a
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body. I mean that one time you wanted to eat it.
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So I'm like I'm making you eat it and
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then you're way more mindful and
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you learn to be resourceful too because
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every time like you know my boyfriend
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opens the fridge he's like oh we've got nothing
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to eat I'm like there's five meals in this what
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are you talking about.
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We don't need to go shopping for two days
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or three. I mean really.
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And he's just like well that's what you know.
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That's what you're good at. But I just don't see it.
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You just whip something up again and it's
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delicious. I think it's really important
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to be so resourceful with these little things
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in life and even with the closet like cleaning
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out the closet. I've moved so
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many times in my life big most small
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moves overseas across the
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country back and forth. I mean you know I've
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minimized my closet
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and I feel like every
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single piece of clothing has
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a purpose or it's going out of the door.
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Well it's so great because right now
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in master money I'm doing a module on your
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environment and one of the modules is on
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your clothing. And I tell people you
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need to get rid of anything that doesn't make you feel that
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if it doesn't fit. If it's two sizes too big and
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you're afraid you're going to gain weight you're reading again or smaller
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you're just hoping you could lose weight get into again get
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rid of it and you could always buy a size
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if you actually lose the weight or gain. And
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I think we we like punish ourselves
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for not being in that size anymore and we want to wear
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it or we're so worried and it's like get
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rid of all that stuff because it just carries an
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energy that you're constantly
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just beating yourself up somehow in your mind.
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And I think that the energy creates more
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abundance and allows you to have more abundance and it creates
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more space. This was kind of a principle
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we had to do in the RV cause there's no space for stuff.
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So we had a rule if we brought in anything
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new we had to get rid of two things and it didn't have to be
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a match. So if I bought a new pair of shoes that it have
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to get rid of two pairs of shoes but I'd have to get
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rid of something an appliance and a shirt or. But
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it was just there wasn't enough to keep
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bringing stuff in. We had to clear out. So
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again I had to be mindful if
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I want this what am I willing to get
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rid of to make space for it. And if
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there was nothing I want to get rid of that I'm like No you know
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I need to I need to decide which one I want more I
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really think we are rewarded when we take
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action sometimes for so many people
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starting over feels like a punishment
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feel like this isn't fair. Like Cobain
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18 happen and you know everything
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was going great and now this is unfair
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that I have to start from scratch a new beginning
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is actually an opportunity to become
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somebody new become something you want
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to be.
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And so that new beginning can feel
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jarring.
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It can feel scary. It can feel like
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I didn't have a plan for this. And
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at the same time you have the opportunity to create
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something brand new and open
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to the possibilities of things being
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way more beautiful and amazing than you ever
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imagined.
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We're back. We're here with Danny J.
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We both lived in an RV.
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It was definitely always a dream to go
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cross-country once in my life but it was
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came at a time that we
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were financially getting sucked
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dry. Like you we weren't hit
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like right away in 2008 but
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more like 2010 the
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European clients were
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starting to hook me less. We
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had a couple of houses cars motorcycles
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very abundant life until
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you know what they say it's like the difference
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between someone who has it all and something someone
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who has nothing is literally three
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months because you you know you can go through your
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savings so quickly when the money is
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not coming in and in the end you have a lot
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of expenses so you feel
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like you're losing everything but maybe
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because you're losing everything you
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make decisions more from your heart
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because you're not scared anymore you're like OK well
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we're losing it all so what are we going to do now.
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Let's do something fun and we
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sold our motorcycles sold our cars
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and then bought an RV. We still don't have
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exactly enough money. We had to borrow
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money to get the RV Indian and
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it was a fantastic like one of the
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best trips of my life. Six weeks going
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from one state to the next so
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we drove from L.A. to keep that through
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Texas Sudeikis Florida and
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then up to New York. At the end of
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the very trip. And I think this is important
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and that's why I'm sharing it. We've never
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been without food. We've never been without you
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know like a roof above our head.
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And at the very end of the trip
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I got a call from my agent in Germany
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and they said Jill you got booked on this job and this
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is the amount of money you're getting a plot like out
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of nowhere and worked with them in the longest
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time and it was the exact amount
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that we owed the person that lend
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us the money for the RV the remaining amount and
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I could not believe it was over the moon happy
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I was like thank you thank you God universe
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this was such a powerful feeling
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as in I have done exactly
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what I wanted to do. This is a dream come
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true. So I think it's an important
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thing to share. Like to know
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when you make when there's a new beginning and you
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can make something great
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out of it but you got to be resourceful and
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you gotta ask So what do I really really truly
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want.
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Because you could have had that opinion you could have been
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like wow the economy sucks and my
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dream was to be a model and an actress and this isn't
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fair to me. And I will say that I felt
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like that at the beginning and when we first
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lost our home in Las Vegas we ended up
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moving to Texas and we got this apartment
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six hundred dollar a month apartment and it was a
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one bedroom. So we had been in a three
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bedroom home three car garage had three cars
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and a motorcycle you know we had all the thing.
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And I remember when we first walked into the apartment
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I walked into the empty apartment and I looked around
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and I was like wow this is all we have.
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And I was just in tears and I felt
16:42
like we just lost everything. And
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I was really disgusted and disappointed with
16:46
myself and I felt like I was never going to come
16:48
out of it. And during
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those two years in that apartment that
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was when I started to shift and learn the
16:55
money stuff and get everything right. And
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then we chose to move into the RV and
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it was such a different scenario.
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So we moved from I want to say about six
17:04
or seven hundred square feet and then we moved
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into an RV that was two or 300 square
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feet. And I remember walking to that RV
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looking around and going oh my gosh we have so much
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stuff. And I was like How can you have
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the same thing walking into heaven imperfect
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thing. This is all we have to walking into the 300
17:19
square feet thing. We have so much.
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And it was just simply a perspective shift and
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realizing that I had everything I needed.
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Like you said I always had been cared for
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I always had a roof over my head always had food and
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I had to learn to trust and trust the
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universe and trust that you know a
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new beginning is actually an opportunity
17:37
to become somebody new
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become something you want to be. I
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used to love back to school like my
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favorite time was beginning of school. My
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mom let up by five outfits we'd had
17:48
one new outfit every day of the week and
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especially going into a new grade level
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right like going into middle school and going
17:54
into high school because then there'll be new people
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that didn't know me and I thought I could just recreate
17:59
myself I can be somebody I knew I could have a new style
18:01
like I was just like a skater last year I could
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just like a proxy here I could try
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on Yeah I could try on different identities
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and so I feel like when we start over we
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get to choose a new identity and
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that's when my husband and I split
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I had the identity of being married
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and being asked and did we and
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I was faced with what do I want.
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New beginnings can be really really tough.
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There can be a lot of tears can be a lot of resistance
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but once you start like lifting the resistance
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and say OK this
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is really scary and I
18:33
don't know where it is going but I trust this
18:35
is for the better. Show me
18:37
how. Like show me why. And you
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know if it was a beautiful conversation
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I had with someone that I would have never met
18:44
before or if I was steered
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into a new direction into my
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rear and I did start a whole new career
18:50
and you know like when I now talk to my ex
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like he doesn't even know this new Jill
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right because he has never seen me in
18:57
that role and he's never seen me
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speak the way I speak because there's so much room
19:01
for me now like I remember you know that my
19:03
friends he said like you're like a whole new person
19:05
I'm like ya. And I'm really like this version
19:08
of me.
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I love that I'm just not in my head
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like crazy because I'm just like yes me too.
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There are so many there's so many things I mean
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I'm definitely a completely different person and
19:18
having no asking questions like What do
19:20
I want where do I want to go. What kind
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of things are still good to me.
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And for a lot of times the
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answer was I don't know I don't know I was like
19:29
panicking and then it was like Let's
19:31
try this let's you know like you get curious
19:34
and I think where it comes down
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to us being really upset and the resistance
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comes from not acknowledging what is
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when we are arguing with reality then
19:43
we're upset. So the facts are
19:46
I'm not married anymore. So instead of sitting there going
19:48
like I wish I was I wish this didn't happen
19:50
what did happen. So now I have to decide
19:52
what am I going to do with that. And so once I got
19:54
out of the place of wishing that it
19:56
happen wishing things were different because they
19:58
were different I you know I have this new reality
20:00
same thing with the economy it happened.
20:03
I can't go back and just keep being angry that
20:05
we lost our home and we had to get rid of everything.
20:08
Now you're going cave what is what's
20:11
happening now and how can I live
20:13
with and thrive and what is the
20:15
new reality how can I create it to
20:17
be something that I enjoy versus trying
20:20
to cling to the past on something I missed because
20:22
the past is gone so so
20:24
too the similarity in our stories really
20:26
are clearing the energy and getting rid
20:28
of the junk grade really
20:30
thinking of life as OK
20:32
you know we're not always getting what we want and
20:35
we don't know always know how things
20:37
evolve but if we can trust.
20:39
I mean it's really trusting and take
20:42
responsibility of cleaning
20:44
up any residue you negative
20:47
energy if it's jealousy
20:49
if it's insecurity if anger
20:51
resentment. If we can look
20:54
it in the eyes and really truly understand
20:56
why it is and then release
20:58
the energy so much room is created
21:01
and that invites what you want to attract
21:03
because when people say I want to be
21:05
listened to more I want to be loved more I want to have
21:07
more money and so all these things that I want
21:10
want want but what do you give. Do
21:12
you match that energy. Like
21:14
it doesn't mean that you you know if you want to be listened
21:16
to do you listen.
21:19
If you want to feel appreciate. Do you show
21:21
your appreciation daily. Yeah
21:24
I think the clearing of the energy is so
21:26
important. Even though it's not something you can
21:28
see but it's something you can feel Yeah
21:31
you read two really great points.
21:33
One is the trust. Right
21:35
after I found out about my husband's affair
21:37
I have a good friend who's a hypnotherapist and I
21:39
was just crying all night and I just
21:41
could. I was so anxious I couldn't eat for
21:43
a week so I called her up and I said I just need
21:46
you to help me do something. So we did the session
21:48
and what came up for me was just rework trust
21:52
trust trust and it's like what
21:54
am I trusting you see some people have
21:57
faith that they're hanging on to like you
21:59
know God that they believe in the universe.
22:01
But ultimately you have
22:03
to trust yourself. Like trust you will be
22:06
able to figure it out. Trust that something
22:08
will come along and you'll have new information that when information
22:10
comes you can make a good decision. And
22:13
trusting yourself is huge and if you practice
22:15
it can be scary especially if something
22:18
was out of your control or maybe you felt like
22:21
how did I not see this coming. I was blindsided
22:23
How can I trust my own gut if I somehow
22:26
missed this a fear happening in front of my
22:28
face and I see that trust
22:30
is is a practice but it's huge. And
22:32
the second is taking responsibility. Taking
22:34
responsibility for whatever
22:36
comes at you. We can all play the victim.
22:39
We can all choose to be in that victim place. But then
22:41
you don't get anywhere out of that. Saying
22:44
that I'm a victim of these circumstances
22:46
we can all feel sorry for you. But then
22:48
what. Know victims only get so far
22:51
and some people will get stuck in identifying
22:53
as the victim. And I think for
22:55
a moment that can feel good but ultimately
22:58
if you want to move on you
23:00
have to let go of that victim my idea
23:02
and take back power and by
23:04
taking that power you'd have to take responsibility.
23:06
Second part of that which was kind of what you
23:08
said as well is like becoming the
23:10
person you want to be. I remember thinking
23:13
I don't want to be a bitter divorced
23:15
woman if I don't want to be that I'm going to have
23:17
to take responsibility and try to be the kind of
23:19
person I do want to be which is loving and
23:21
open and kind and be available
23:23
to all love again not push
23:26
everyone away because I want to say all
23:28
men are cheaters or all men are terrible
23:30
because that's not the case. So
23:32
I think you know those three things really
23:35
can help you move forward but it does take awareness
23:38
and it does take practice.
23:39
It takes some time and I think we get a lot
23:41
of practice in this life because
23:45
it's not going to be a
23:47
first breakup odor for some kids.
23:50
I actually want to go back to that one thing that you said when
23:52
we we talked a few days ago you
23:54
were talking about a time in your life that you worked
23:56
at SeaWorld and I think something
23:59
happened when you were working
24:01
at SeaWorld and you were doing
24:03
backflips or what were you doing.
24:05
I had just graduated college and
24:08
so you know with my fresh degree I
24:10
ran off and joined the circus.
24:12
So you know I was a gymnast
24:14
growing up and I lived in Los Vegas.
24:16
Other performers surface the way those kind
24:18
of thing. So the gymnastics coach and
24:20
I had met some people who were involved in all
24:23
the circus life. So I started doing aerial
24:25
acrobatics and like some conventions and
24:27
things and Vegas found out about an audition for SeaWorld
24:30
and I auditioned for an acrobatic
24:32
job and I got it and I was like You know
24:35
my degree was in physical education.
24:37
I realized they did not want to be a teacher. I loved
24:39
coaching and then acrobatics was so
24:41
fun and so I thought I'm going to take
24:43
this job so I got a job in
24:45
a show called circular mayor. It was not with the dolphins
24:47
it's strictly an acrobatic show but it is in Mission
24:50
Bay and the acrobats.
24:51
We do these kinds of these polls and we jump
24:53
into the water. We swim to the island and we
24:55
do our show like falling into the water there so
24:58
that water is
25:00
very contaminated which I do not know until
25:02
after San Diego Mission
25:05
Bay is really close to Tijuana. There's lots
25:07
of sewage that's been dumped in there and I go through pretty
25:09
well known that it's very contaminated.
25:11
And I ended up waking up one morning
25:14
and I fell out of bed and I just felt
25:16
like my leg was asleep and I was like
25:18
Oh this is you know this is weird.
25:20
Went back to bed and within a few hours
25:22
it just became this excruciating pain. So I had
25:24
a trainer come over too although you have sciatica.
25:27
I was like OK this is painful stuff but
25:30
whatever. Well long story short.
25:32
Within like twelve hours I was unable to
25:34
walk at all and I was in so much pain.
25:36
I had a boyfriend at the time he came over and the door was locked
25:39
and I couldn't go open the door.
25:41
And so I the army crawled to the door like reach
25:43
up to the handle and he just saw me on the ground
25:45
he's like well we got to take you to the hospital.
25:48
Into the hospital they sent me home. They did
25:50
X-rays like everything looks fine and
25:54
gave me pain medicine that wasn't touching
25:56
it. And so he goes I don't know what to do with you I'm sending
25:58
you home dear parents. So
26:00
he got me on a plane put me in a wheelchair
26:03
couldn't walk. Got me on a plane my
26:05
mom picked me up from the wheelchair took me straight
26:07
to the hospital and I ended up staying there for a month.
26:09
And what happened when we got there it was I
26:11
found out that I had one hundred and four femur.
26:14
And they said well if you have a fever
26:16
that high that means there's something else going
26:18
on like it's not sciatica. That's
26:20
not going to give you a fever. And so
26:23
we've been off about three days. I had a doctor
26:25
come in and she said
26:28
Danny you're not going to be able to be an acrobat
26:30
more and we're not sure you're
26:32
going to walk again and you're lucky
26:35
to be alive. All I
26:37
heard was I can't be an acrobat and
26:39
I couldn't go to work. And I was like No
26:41
you need to call my boss I'm supposed to perform on
26:43
Saturday. You know I was just in such
26:45
denial. And so what happened was
26:47
I got a bacterial infection that got in
26:49
my bloodstream gram negative bacteria
26:52
which is basically sepsis. And
26:55
it was into my finger really at joint and
26:57
cut off all the motor neuron a nerve
26:59
in my leg. And so I ended up being
27:01
in the hospital for over a month and
27:03
I thought well once the bacteria is gone I'll be able
27:05
to walk. And that just was not the case. The
27:07
damage was done to my legs and to my nerves.
27:10
And it took about a year or so to walk again. Devastating
27:14
devastating in general
27:16
but then when you are your
27:19
whole identity again is wrapped
27:21
around being an acrobat a
27:23
gymnast physical education and you can't
27:26
physically do anything. I was
27:28
depressed suicidal. I remember thinking Well
27:30
I wish I just wish that it just did kill
27:32
me because now what am I good for.
27:34
And I remember having this thought like I don't
27:37
want to be a handicapped person like that was
27:39
where my brain was and like I can't live
27:41
like this I'm going to be in a wheelchair.
27:43
And what snapped me out
27:45
of it and this was a pretty
27:47
big mac in the face of
27:49
my good friends was
27:52
19 I just got diagnosed with cancer and
27:55
I was out of the hospital she came to visit me at my home
27:58
and I had a walker and I went
28:00
to open the door and she just
28:02
looked at me and she was like Oh my
28:04
God Danny I'm so sorry.
28:07
I can't believe this happened to you it's so unfair.
28:10
And I remember her saying it's so unfair and I was
28:12
like wait you know I knew she
28:14
had cancer and it was terminal like she had liver
28:16
cancer colon cancer like it was had spread all
28:18
over her body and she was
28:20
saying to me that it was unfair and I
28:22
was I remember she left and I felt like
28:24
such a jerk like I'm
28:26
complaining wishing that I was going to die
28:29
and here Kelly is who is going to die.
28:31
She's feeling bad for me.
28:33
And so I made a conscious shift I was like wow
28:35
I need to be grateful and I need
28:37
to be grateful that I'm alive and you
28:39
know I had also been really upset that all of my parents
28:41
thought I was like super independent. I moved out on my
28:43
18th birthday like I'm out of here. I'm
28:45
never coming back. I live in.
28:48
Yes. Living with my parents I'm mad. I
28:50
can't walk they're mad and mad at the world.
28:52
This wasn't my fault. You know all of that
28:54
and I was like wow you know at least
28:56
I have somewhere to go I could be home I could be
28:58
paralyzed and homeless and at least
29:01
they have a chance to live. You know I can't
29:03
walk but at least I have that and so
29:06
I started asking my mom
29:08
to drive me to the gym and I was able
29:10
to just slightly move my right leg so I
29:12
could just barely move it. So I have
29:14
the walker I could lean on the walker with my arms
29:17
with my right leg a little and then I drag to the left.
29:19
So kind of able to move that way and
29:21
I sit on the recumbent bike and just just push my
29:23
legs around and I just knew I didn't want to get
29:25
my muscles atrophied so I just would
29:27
do that for hours. I wrote affirmations
29:30
on these little like bike paths and I put them up on the
29:32
front of the bike. She would say like I can
29:34
walk easily and effortlessly I'm healthy
29:36
and well and things like that which you
29:38
know sometimes affirmations feel like a lie. Because if
29:41
you saw me I was not walking easily and effortlessly
29:43
but I felt like if I could just get myself to believe
29:45
that it's possible then
29:47
maybe I could get my body to start to
29:49
move in that direction. And within
29:51
a year I was walking without any
29:54
detectable link.
29:56
That's incredible. Incredible.
29:59
And so did you. Did you feel any difference
30:01
like daily or weekly or was it like
30:03
after a certain amount of time you went like
30:05
you made a big leap.
30:07
No it was so slow I felt
30:09
so slow. I remember the
30:12
first time I climbed up the stairs so my parents
30:14
had a two story house and I had to stay there and
30:17
there was a day where I'm like I'm going to try the
30:19
stairs and of course the railing I'm just mostly using
30:21
my arms and I'm getting up. I got to the top
30:24
of the stairs and I felt like this immediately
30:26
immediate rush of just feeling so proud of myself
30:28
like I did it. And then
30:31
you know I don't know why our brains do this and then all of a sudden
30:33
I was mad at myself. So I was like wow three
30:35
months ago I could run or
30:38
know hover you I could run three miles and now
30:41
it's a big deal to make it up the stairs but
30:43
I would say probably
30:46
between four and six months things started to progressed
30:49
easier and I started getting more endorphins.
30:52
I'm so proud of you you know that young
30:54
Danny that already decided then
30:56
that she was going to not let
30:58
it destroy her.
31:00
Looking back like the younger Danny
31:03
what would you have told her if
31:05
you can be open to and trust
31:07
that there's bigger things. I would have just
31:09
put my younger self to like there's bigger things
31:12
coming for you don't like this. Don't
31:14
worry about it. I wouldn't have spent so much time
31:17
crying about the things I thought I lost because
31:19
I had so much wanted to see that I had no idea
31:21
that was coming.
31:22
I love that you say that. So I think that's
31:24
a beautiful end of this podcast
31:26
interview. I could talk to you for another hour.
31:29
So I thank you so much Danny
31:31
J. You are wonderful.
31:33
I do feel like you know we live a very similar
31:35
life think it's wonderful to connect with you and
31:38
I hope the listeners enjoyed the magical
31:41
feeling that we created here to thank
31:43
you again. I so appreciate you.
31:45
Thank you so much for having me on the show.
31:47
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31:52
it's.
31:54
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31:56
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31:58
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32:01
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32:03
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32:25
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32:28
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32:30
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