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Welcome to Live Free Ride Free,
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where we talk to people who have lived
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self-actualized lives on their own
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terms, and find out how they
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How to live our best lives, find
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Rupert Isaacson. New York Times bestselling
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Welcome back to Live Free
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Ride Free. It's all about self actualization.
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And we've got somebody pretty
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self actualized Kansas Caridine.
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Should I say Caridine or Caridine?
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It's actually Caridine.
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Caridine. Good job I asked. Those
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of you like me who are 5, 000
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years old or so remember
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growing up with the
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series Kung Fu. At least you
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especially do if you're a Brit. And
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and I think also if you're American and what
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sort of cult that was and David
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Carradine, who was the obviously the star of
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that coming out of a, of a, of
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an acting family. Well, his
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daughter Kansas has taken
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a self actualized journey, which
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I think is unusual particularly
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for coming out of a background
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like that. And I think it's one we can all learn from.
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I think it's one that. We can all
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get some mentorship from I know I certainly
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can so I'm not gonna preamble too much
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I'm just gonna say that I I first
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met Kansas About
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four or 500 years ago, I think it was in
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the early 2009
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or 10, we were both at
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a place in Northern California where
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there was a sort of equine assisted thing
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going on. And we had
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a brief conversation in which I picked
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up a fallen deer antler, which I still have in this
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house. So every time I see that fallen deer
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antler, I'm like, Kansas caridina. Yes, I remember.
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And always had this sort of feeling that we would end
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up talking more. And
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then. Through the, his
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eminence, Warwick Schiller we met
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again in San Antonio last year at the
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last summit and in a raucous
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bar in the hotel, managed
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to work out the intention
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to chat further. So here we are. So
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Kansas, thank you very, very much for making
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the time. I know the listeners have a big treat
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in store. Can you tell
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us in brief who you are?
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Oh, I think that question for
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anybody is so interesting because who we are
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exists in so many different domains, so many
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different levels. I'm a mother 1st
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and foremost to be 2 beautiful daughters.
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I have been largely identified in the question
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industry and when people ask, what
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do you do? I just get to say, I ride horses.
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I have been blessed to be able to,
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have horses be threaded and woven throughout
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my life. When I was 11
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years old, I decided to
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leave home, the home that you referenced
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to was really in Hollywood,
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like in the thick of it, and everything that
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you could imagine that is associated with 1980s
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Hollywood, and I moved out when
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I was in grade six. And
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followed my nose into the horse
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world deeply, and then lived in a really
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authentic California
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horse ranch that was steeped in kind
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of cow horse tradition. And
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the family that cared for
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that particular organization became my
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foster family. So I often refer to them
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as my cowboy family or my foster family because
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I stayed there until I was
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18 years old. That's the Riata
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Ranch, correct?
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Correct. Yeah, we had a ranch.
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Tell us about that. And you say grade six. For those
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of us who are, who are Brits and Europeans
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and can't think in those terms, how old
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was that?
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I was 11. Okay. 11
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years old. Yeah. And when I made the negotiation
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and I did, I really negotiated
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and I said, I'm going to go move into this horse
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ranch and I'm going to leave. And I had,
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this is 1 of those blessings that comes and
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we have different experience in life
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that we could say are traumatic.
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And instead of that post traumatic stress, it was
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really a post traumatic growth. That
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gave me the independence to move
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along and say, Oh yeah, I can go move
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here and I can make that choice. And I moved
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in with a different family. I had already bounced
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around quite a bit.
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What made you think? Oh
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my gosh, aged 11. Absolutely
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gut feeling. I can trust this family. I can,
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I can make that sort of a effectively
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self actualized decision at that age.
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What, what was going on with you
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that you felt you not only had that confidence, but
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also that discernment.
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Certainly. I mean, I think again, there's so
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many answers to that. There
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is definitely a lot of intuition. And
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the intuition without thinking, without
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questioning, without insecurity and self
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doubt that comes with kind
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of, as we get older, we attach stories
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and we get a little bit more in our mind and we, and
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we hesitate. But intuitively
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I had gone there for horse for a two
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week horse camp. And
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initially I had just fallen in
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love with the lifestyle with The horses
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with living and breathing and living on a ranch that
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is attractive enough to,
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to, to grab any
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11 year old girl. I think who
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has a passion for horses. And so to
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wake up and we had probably 40 head
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of horses on the ranch at the time, you
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know, over a dozen different trick riding horses and just
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kind of a legacy. It was totally a dream
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world. The, I showed up in my britches
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and hat and helmet. And the first thing that
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we did is put on swimsuits and
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ride the horses bareback through the river. And
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then spend all night in tennis shoes, practicing
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to stand up on horses or run beside them
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and really feel that blend. And so
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anyway, it was all extremely alluring.
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But the decision to move in with them is that they
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had created what I would say, a
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field of safety and security
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that was a reliable energetic imprint
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that I was attracted to that stability.
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And truly what I was seeking at that time
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was just grounding and stability and it was so
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wholesome and to have foster
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parents who are basically a generation
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older, so they were really still connected
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to, we could say the old ways
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there was something in my soul that really felt
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drawn to that. And so I was following
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again, something that's really beyond the mind,
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just this intuitive impulse.
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It's
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not every girl, though,
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who would have grown up in,
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as you say, 1980s Hollywood with all the sort
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of excess that one associates with that,
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who would necessarily have been able to tap into.
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Her intuition to that degree, even
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after, you know, a two week
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magical camp I guess what I'm fishing
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for is a lot of people say I
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wish I was more in touch with my intuition. And
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obviously we know that children generally
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are, and then it's sort of, you know, we
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told that we need to separate from it as we
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get older, but it. It doesn't
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sound like 1980s Hollywood was necessarily
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fantastic training ground for trusting
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one's intuition, or was it? And
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were your family actually A
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family that despite all
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the Hollywoodness actually taught you
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how to foster intuition to some degree
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or did it come from somewhere else? What do you think?
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I honestly think it came from
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somewhere else and something that had been cultivated
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deep perhaps beyond different beyond
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this birth without a doubt
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because there was not a lot of interaction.
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I think growing up with. Artists who
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have a different assigning to
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heart and meaning that being in the field
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is definitely something. So there was always music
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around and there's always the desire
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to, to follow your heart
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in terms of being assigned with artistry.
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There was a certain amount of Eastern influences
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as well as, you know, my father
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was involved in some projects that
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worked with indigenous people and Native American
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church and things like that. I didn't know that. Okay.
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Yeah, so that was around the
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AIM, the original, like, American Indian
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movement that was taking place in the 70s
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as well. But there was not a
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lot, you know, the pendulum swings
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both ways in generations, and so
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I think my parents generation was extremely
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conservative and very controlling, and
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therefore they were very liberal to me,
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and so there was not a lot of, of,
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of teaching. Mentorship, it
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was just kind of, all right, we'll let you grow
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like a wild a seed
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in, in a field and just let you be.
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And, and perhaps that in and of itself allowed
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me to tap into my intuitive
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impulses because I didn't have a lot of restrictions
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that being said, I was seeking
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more form and boundaries, which is
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what I actually appreciated about having
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a German foster father. Okay, we
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had a very organized, you know, clean running ship
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at the, at the stables that appealed to
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me on many different dimensions. And
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then at the same time, I would say that, you
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know. Also, when you're around somewhat
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of a chaotic environment, then
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you start to rely a little bit
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more on the awareness and perceptions
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of safety and be more present
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to it. And so, since that was switched
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on to me at a very early age I think
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that made me aware of environments
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that where I felt safe and secure
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or environments that I wanted to move
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away from. And so, hence that Riding
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stable this it was truly a sanctuary
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and it had again the resonance
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of security and stability that I was attracted
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and drawn to
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do you have siblings and did they
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display the same degree of precocious
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intuition or is it
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just you? I was raised
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pretty much as an only child, so my
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siblings were quite a bit older and raised
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in different homes, so we didn't
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spend that much time together at all. And they're
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artists as well, and we have wonderful
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time together because we're quite iconoclast
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or magnet. We're not your average conservative
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type of people at all. My sister
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and my brother both are, we're,
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we're all pretty eclectic but
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not because we were under the same household.
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Okay, so you,
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now you said that the couple
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that were running the Riata Ranch at that time,
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that the the male half of the couple was
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German. What was a German
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doing being running a trick riding ranch
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in California at that time?
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What was their story?
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How did that? It's an amazing story
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and if I ever meet a screenwriter one day
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that can help me put it out it's just fabulous,
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but You know, he was actually
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from North Dakota and was
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raised on Will James Storytelling
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books. So the old Westerns always wanted to be a cowboy
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and at 12 years old ended up hopping on a train
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Thinking that he was going straight to Arizona,
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which is where Western life, and he ended
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up in Hollywood as the stable
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boy for Will Rogers, who was the
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biggest movie star at the time. And, you
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know, slept in the, in the mangers of the horses
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and end up becoming you know, a rider
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and some of the sale yards, because he was a really good rider.
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Very good horseman because German
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father would hook teams together and for
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plowing fields and things like that and brought that
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tradition. In
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a very that lineage was really established.
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So when he brought it to Hollywood, he was actually
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doubling Jennifer Jones and do a little
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the sun as well as Elizabeth Taylor in national
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velvet. And then he always wanted to be a cowboy,
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so he quit the Hollywood thing himself and
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ended up in this small town about
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3 hours north. And
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he was a calf roper, but
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he had a car accident that quit
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his rodeo career. And because
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he couldn't, find a way to basically
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pay the bills for his young family. Somebody
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said, well, why don't you teach a couple lessons to my kids?
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And that four students in the first
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year grew into a hundred students. And
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there was a thriving, it was just destiny
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created this crisis. And he became
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a mentor to over, over,
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I want to say over 3000 students between
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the 50s, 60s, 70s. And then I joined
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at the end of the 80s. And where did
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the
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trick riding come from with this?
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He was always introducing lots of
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multidisciplinary masters to
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come in and teach the kids. So there was a lot of
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rain, cow, horse, and then, you know, rodeo.
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And then somebody came who knew some trick writing, you
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know, they did Rosenbach writing and Roman
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writing. And then the trick writing team became
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a demonstration team. And in
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the late seventies, it just got a lot of attention
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until there was a pivot and
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that became the exclusive offering in
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the eighties. And then. Currently today, that
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team still exists in a different incarnation,
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but it's still going. What's the name of the team
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now? It's still the Riata
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Ranch Cowboy Girls. Yeah, trick
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riding and trick roping. There's a famous
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old Hollywood cowboy named Monty
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Montana who brought ropes into
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the program And so then we started doing the trick roping
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and really I always explain it's it's such
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an ancient art There's not many people who have ever
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seen trick riding before much less know about
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it. And so it's wonderful
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that it's that's one place where it can kind
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of be nourished and And then it helped
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me later on, since being involved
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with Cavalia, find my path really
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into the circus world and the performing arts, this kind
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of vaudevillian entertainment.
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Absolutely. So, so talk us through
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you, you find yourself at the on
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this two week horse camp, you're
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introduced to this wonderful world. You're
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ready. Horses are already clearly
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in your blood. And you
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then make this decision to Basically
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move in and sort of be a daughter and,
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you know, become a trip rider. You
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are 11 when this happens. You
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then go out and become a performer, a
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public performer, sort of full time performer. At
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what
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age? Well,
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I mean, I was doing the highest
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level shows at 12,
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13. So it started early. And
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then maintained, I mean, we had done everything
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from, you know, Super Bowl, halftimes and
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49er games to World
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Equestrian Games and Aquitana and all of those
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Cheval Passion, which is in Avignon, France,
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with a young Lorenzo, Lorenzo was there
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and Fred and Magalie who ended up hiring me with
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Cavalia were also there performing at the, at
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that event. So, yeah,
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it started early, which is
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which is a blessing in and of itself. I mean, I
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had a significant amount of burnout
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early on because I'd already done so many things
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and had been pushed to a very high level.
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And at the same time, I also
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didn't have the same type of striving.
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Like, I need to prove this. I really want to be able to
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get to this next level because it
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was It had already been attained, you
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know, quite early on. So my
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I guess my natural magnetism
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to still be in work with horses without was
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with a true love and
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a true desire. It was not because I expected
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it to bring me some sort of other means. And
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this is also the gift of growing up, you know, around
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celebrity and fame is because
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I saw really the impermanence of
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it. And it was never something
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that I had to strive for. I
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was just really following what. What
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what felt nourishing on a soul
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level, you know, the desire to be with horses
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and find that unity and have that
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relationship, which was much more the
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reason that's the rub.
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So you, but you talk about burnout and
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you're talking about burnout very young. How
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old were you in this first
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of perhaps more than one burnout and what
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burned you out?
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Yeah, so, there was definitely a
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significant amount of pressure and inflexibility.
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So, all the 7 years through
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school and through secondary school, there was no option
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to do other things. I had some other
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passions and interests, and to
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be fair, I should say I was allowed to do you
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know, kind of mock trial debate
15:53
certain plays and things like that. But I wanted
15:55
to focus And get really deep
15:57
into musical theater and focus a lot
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more on singing and voice.
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And that was not allowed
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because my commitments with the writing team
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or so big. So that was
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kind of the 1st teenage angst
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that I think I experienced. And
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then by the time I was 18, I
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really pulled back. And
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had to find my own way and I didn't
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want to be introduced as David
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Carradine's daughter anymore. I did not
16:24
want to be wearing just, you know, the
16:26
red, white and blue because I'd been doing that for so
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long and kind of this Americana role.
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And so. I actually ended up
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handling a love for the mountains
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and spending a lot of time up in Alpine
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environments and more, you know, Yosemite
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and the Sierra's here where we live living
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up in ski areas and following
16:46
that passion and still doing
16:48
some shows from time to time. And
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then it wasn't until I came back into
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Los Angeles and started going more into
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the stunt world, actually coming back
16:58
into horses full time, but I was
17:00
burnt out to the point that horses were, that
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had become just a job and
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there was not so much like the joy
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and the love behind it. And when I was
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cast for Cavalia, I had already
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auditioned and was hired before I'd
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ever seen the show. And the first time that I
17:15
saw the show, I was just weeping and weeping
17:17
and weeping because it was so beautiful and I couldn't
17:19
believe that I was a part of something that
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really was much more in alignment with my core values
17:24
than being in rodeo. So I've never gone back. I
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appreciate my rodeo roots. I appreciate
17:29
everything that it taught me. And I love a lot of things about
17:31
Western culture. But I haven't done a
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rodeo since, since I was 18.
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What year were you hired at Cavalia?
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2004.
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So it's been 20
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years,
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right? So, and I think, I think that was
17:45
the show that I saw. I saw it in Dallas
17:48
that year and I remember also
17:50
being absolutely gobsmacked because,
17:52
you know, I'd seen beautiful equestrian
17:55
spectacles before and so on. So they're
17:57
always, they're always amazing. But there, I remember
17:59
that there was a quality to that particular
18:01
show. And I also remember, I,
18:04
We, in our preamble, where it said that I also, like
18:06
you, lived in Quebec. We'll get there later.
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And I remember I was around in Quebec when Cirque
18:11
du Soleil first began, and I remember
18:13
going to a few of the early shows. And
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when it was still something very, very new and
18:19
being blown away. And then when
18:21
that connection came with horses thinking, Oh my
18:23
gosh, this is, this is that absolute
18:26
nexus of art and passion
18:29
and excellence. So it's, it's,
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it's interesting to me. What.
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What do you think was the,
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because that, that show had
18:41
a particular, I didn't see any further
18:44
Cavalia shows. I think I almost didn't want
18:46
to because I, I
18:48
felt that if it wasn't quite
18:50
that magical again, it would
18:52
disappoint me, you know? And, and, and so
18:55
I wanted to remain with an, and I remember watching Frederick
18:57
Pignon Magali doing. Taking
19:01
liberty to a whole other thing
19:04
that none of us had seen before and
19:06
the trick riding being astonishing and mixed
19:08
with humor and storytelling and just,
19:11
just great. What do you
19:13
think was going on that you ended
19:15
up in the right place at the right time there?
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Because, you know, I,
19:20
I know lots of people who've been in trick riding
19:23
teams, good trick riding teams and that sort of thing. And
19:25
they're all very accomplished, but this
19:27
was something else. This was something special. It almost felt
19:29
like there was something almost a bit occult
19:31
or supernatural at work there. What took
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us through your experience?
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Yeah, I mean, I always feel like there was, it was
19:39
a ceremony. And at the time I had already
19:41
been attracted to Being
19:44
engaged in sacred
19:47
relationship and being engaged
19:49
in really meaningful ceremony and indigenous
19:52
ceremonies and was really wanting
19:54
to align myself with things that
19:56
had more of an impact
20:00
in ways that work
20:03
on the non physical domain,
20:06
but have really an energetic. Ripple
20:09
effect, if that makes sense. So
20:12
at the time I was living in Los Angeles and
20:14
when I became hired for Cavalia and saw that
20:16
I was again attracted to the resonance
20:19
and this is something we'll get to heart math at some point,
20:21
but I started to notice when we're attracted to energy
20:24
where it's like there's a magnetism there that
20:26
draws us in and there's a shared resonance. So we're really
20:28
attracted to frequency and the frequency
20:30
that Fred and Magalie would choose. So, yeah.
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Authentically experienced on your own,
20:35
there was a way that they had this respect
20:38
with horses that at the time was
20:40
not widely broadcast. It's not
20:42
that it didn't exist. And I think
20:44
I heard you speaking about you know,
20:46
those who are living a self actualized
20:48
life that not not necessarily are celebrities.
20:51
You know, everybody is there undiscovered.
20:54
There's some of the greatest work has said that before.
20:56
There's some of the greatest horse trainers. We don't know they're in,
20:58
they're in doing their amazing stuff.
21:01
Yeah, exactly. But
21:04
this was an opportunity that it was widely broadcast.
21:06
And since I was already, you know, a
21:09
stage performer and a question artist for
21:11
so many years, I recognized that
21:13
right along as right. Quickly
21:16
as being exceptional and unique
21:18
and special, and if you gather
21:20
2000 people under that big top every
21:22
night, which we would tease, it can make
21:24
its own weather as it is. Like, there's something about the geometry
21:27
of that particular big top everywhere.
21:29
We went, you know, that we have would
21:31
have the craziest storms. You know,
21:34
Quebec City had a hurricane, which it never should
21:36
have had. Sedona or Sedona or Scott
21:38
still was flooding, so there was something about
21:41
the ceremony of 2000
21:43
people coming in to witness love
21:46
between interspecies.
21:48
In this case, it was equine and human.
21:51
And the storytelling behind it was really.
21:53
Touching in with that, which is ancient.
21:56
So there was something about the tracking internally
21:58
that you feel on a soul level. There was
22:00
no words and the storytelling was very
22:03
subtle. So it allowed you to go into
22:05
this dream, like, almost shamanic
22:07
kind of state. And it was the first
22:09
time that people were truly witnessing
22:12
compassion. On stage
22:14
at a large scale, because what
22:16
people would remark about, we didn't really have
22:19
language for it then, but we were watching
22:21
Fred Pignon and Magalie be
22:23
compassionate to the horses when they made
22:25
quote unquote mistakes, because it
22:28
was really feeling and flowing
22:30
with instead of following
22:32
a hard line of, okay, this is how you execute.
22:34
And this is the definition of success. So
22:37
all of a sudden we stumbled upon it.
22:39
This, it was like opening Pandora's box
22:41
or opening Alice in Wonderland's you
22:43
know, falling down the rabbit hole into a
22:45
world that was really trying to strive for the ideals
22:48
of compassion and right relationship
22:51
before they were even becoming common in our,
22:53
in our language. Well, you,
22:55
I mean,
22:55
you talk about ceremony and
22:58
feeling a sense of that, were you thinking in those terms
23:00
at that? age. And if
23:03
so, where did you get that from? Because
23:05
you by then were, as
23:07
you say, a very choreographed performer. And
23:10
okay, yes, your, your
23:12
parents have been a bit around the
23:15
American Indian movement and Native American
23:17
church and so on, but you've broken away from
23:19
that environment. So, so where
23:23
out of this highly choreographed Sort
23:25
of, as you say, Americana type,
23:28
red, white, and blue type show. Where
23:30
were you getting these ideas about ceremony and compassion?
23:33
I mean, I honestly think a lot of it has to
23:35
do with the privilege of being raised
23:38
in California. And Southern
23:40
California is a pretty progressive place. And so coming
23:42
back home I decided
23:44
It was a very specific,
23:46
pivotal moment, to be honest. I moved back to
23:49
Los Angeles in 2001, right after September
23:51
11th. And somebody said, hey,
23:53
I can get you a job serving tables. You just
23:55
moved to L. A. at a really fancy. She,
23:57
she rest sushi restaurant on sunset
23:59
Boulevard and it would have been an
24:01
easy thing. So I showed up in line. Excuse
24:04
me. And there was all of these. Professionals
24:08
and people who not likely with families
24:10
and whatnot with attached cases
24:12
and suits and they were all trying
24:14
to get a line because everything, you know, there's been all
24:16
these massive layoffs and we were in a huge
24:19
recession now and I took
24:21
1, look at that line. And I was like, I don't need to do this.
24:23
I don't need this job that bad. And I ended
24:25
up working for a crystal lady for like,
24:27
300 dollars a week in Santa Monica. And she was
24:30
an energetic healer
24:32
medium and. We worked with crystals
24:35
and that was the first time.
24:37
I
24:39
was genuinely
24:43
already seek a spiritual seeker,
24:45
you know, hungry and ravenous for everything that
24:47
I could read about spirituality. About,
24:50
you know, at the time it was really anything
24:52
that kind of new age and really
24:55
it's ancient wisdom. It's, it's the occult,
24:57
it's esoteric wisdom. And
24:59
so ravenous and, and all
25:01
of that kind of feeding that desire
25:04
I was looking at I can't remember the name of it, but
25:06
it was like a mind, body, spirit magazine that was
25:08
quite popular and there was an advertisement in
25:10
it and that's what I answered. And,
25:12
you know, when you go to an interview and they ask you for
25:14
your birth date with the time so that
25:16
they can do your astrology in order to get the job, it
25:19
was that kind of a thing, you know, 20 years
25:21
ago. And
25:23
at the same time, I had also can't
25:25
really remember how those contacts I just
25:28
was setting out the intention that I wanted
25:30
to work again in native communities.
25:33
And so I was involved in different long
25:35
dances with women's circles as well
25:37
as with the, the Shumash nation here
25:39
in Southern California, which is part of, you know,
25:41
my roots and I guess I'm missing
25:44
a really big piece, which yeah. Even though I
25:46
haven't done any DNA testing, I
25:48
was told my whole life, my grandmother
25:50
was from the reservation in Oklahoma. And
25:52
so my mother's grandmother is
25:55
Native American. We don't know which
25:57
reservation is a lot of reservations in
25:59
Oklahoma. We don't know any of those stories.
26:01
We just know that she came from Oklahoma, ended
26:04
up in Texas, and then married my
26:06
great grandfather and ended up in Southern California.
26:08
And this was something that was hidden from our
26:11
history because my
26:14
mother's maternal side of the family was embarrassed
26:16
by it. And so, you
26:18
know, there's something called Mongolian spots, which is an imprint
26:20
that happens. It's like Appaloosa imprint on
26:23
like a birthmark that I have.
26:25
And so I was always told that, but there was really
26:27
no support. It is it's around
26:30
like, the sacrum. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. On
26:32
your bum. Basically a little when
26:34
you're a baby, and then they kind of, you know, fade
26:37
out. So I
26:39
had always been connected to that.
26:41
Internally, not because there was a
26:43
lot of external influence
26:46
and so I was seeking out to be
26:48
a part of ceremony and had started doing,
26:50
you know, sweat lodges and I ended up
26:52
going to South Dakota and
26:54
spending time with, those that are actually outside
26:56
of the reservation, because they haven't signed the treaty in Lakota
26:59
homes, is different than, you know, being
27:01
on Pine Ridge, but had always
27:03
wanted to give back in any sort of way,
27:05
as well as learn to be more
27:07
in alignment with the natural world. Was
27:10
that
27:10
happening, was that happening during the same time that you were
27:12
riding with the Riata Ranch, or was this
27:14
in that, in the interim period?
27:17
Correct. It was during that interim period. So you
27:19
went, you went actively out looking for this stuff? Right before
27:21
I came to Kivalya. Right. Absolutely.
27:23
Yeah. Now, for the point
27:25
that I will laugh about this because,
27:28
you know, there's certain ways that you're supposed
27:30
to follow. You know, trying
27:33
to get work, for example, in Los Angeles, you're
27:35
supposed to stay in town and follow the momentum
27:38
and I would maybe get a little breadcrumb and
27:40
that would kind of sustain me for a while. And then I would leave
27:42
town and then I would go to North
27:44
Dakota and go spend time with native people
27:46
or, you know, end up out and
27:48
in You
27:50
know, my manager couldn't get a hold of me because I
27:52
was checked out and hiking up
27:54
in, in, in the wilderness somewhere. So
27:57
I was not a very good actor.
27:59
Right. Well, but hold on where we,
28:01
where we left you was, in Santa Monica
28:03
at a crystal shop. And now
28:05
suddenly you've got a manager and you're
28:08
doing some Hollywood jobs. So what happened
28:10
there? You, you decided
28:12
actually. Yeah.
28:14
I mean, it all just kind of unfolded. I
28:16
had moved down there to spend some time because
28:18
there was a certain amount of encouragement
28:21
to be a part of the family business and the family
28:23
legacy. And so
28:26
I was, you know, taking acting classes
28:28
and was going out on some auditions and my dad
28:30
would tease, you know, cause I would. He's
28:33
like, wow, you're about in a thousand. Everything you go out on, you've
28:35
been booking. But my, my heart
28:37
wasn't in it. And so I was always trying
28:39
to, was
28:40
this straight up acting or was this also
28:42
riding?
28:43
So it ended up taking
28:46
both sides. So yes, there
28:48
was some straight up acting and that was always kind of like
28:50
the desire for You know, the family
28:53
encouragement, but I, when
28:55
I was visiting with a A livestock
28:58
contractor, he had worked
29:00
with my grandfather. He had worked with my dad
29:02
and all my uncles and he
29:04
said, oh, you went to be at a ranch. You sure can ride.
29:07
I've got some work for you. And so
29:09
my 1st job we're actually, you
29:11
know, for the screen actor skill. We're doing stunt work. I
29:15
did both and then there's always, they're always to
29:17
have that judgment of like, well, you can't do both.
29:20
You can either do the stunt world or you can do
29:22
be really focused on being a serious
29:24
actor. So again, those
29:26
were like the, you're, you're
29:28
in an artistic artistic environment and
29:30
already you have these constructs that society
29:32
wants to put on you. You can't do it this way in that
29:34
way. And I care
29:38
for such labels.
29:40
Quick rewind. You'd said that one of the reasons
29:42
that you burned out was that you, there were some other things
29:44
you wanted to explore, including singing in
29:46
musical theatre. Well that's acting.
29:48
And there you are in Hollywood. So, had
29:51
you lost the desire for that by then?
29:54
Yeah, because I realized That
29:56
I mean, I enjoyed performing
29:58
and I enjoyed being on the live stage,
30:00
which is why when Cavalia came along, it was really
30:03
easy to join the circus, basically
30:06
it's a little bit of a different texture as opposed to being
30:08
on set. And so,
30:11
you know, and then there was a time
30:14
when after I had been on the show for some. For a while,
30:16
for a few years or something. My dad gave me, you
30:18
know, when I teased one of those left handed comments of,
30:21
you know, what you're doing is actually kind of cool. Like,
30:24
Josh thinks, you know, after all these years.
30:27
Yeah. Parental encouragement is an interesting
30:29
thing. We've all got fun stories
30:31
that way. I wanted to ask you though you,
30:34
you were reaching out also at this interim
30:36
time before Kivala, I want to get back to Kivala in a minute,
30:38
but you said you were going up to North
30:40
Dakota, spending time with Lakota,
30:43
going to spend time with the Chumash, who for those
30:45
listeners who don't know, the Native American
30:48
world, that's the, that's the tribe that is sort
30:50
of the most prevalent in the California
30:52
that we think of as California, that sort of strip
30:55
that goes up from Los Angeles North.
30:57
I think that was really interesting. But what a lot of listeners
30:59
might not know particularly listeners from
31:01
the UK and so forth, is that
31:04
that's not an easy world to penetrate. I've spent
31:07
various bits of my life in and
31:09
around bits of Native America as
31:11
well. And it's, it's not, it's, you
31:14
know, it's not necessarily
31:16
a very inclusive world because of, you
31:18
know, the history and the trauma and so on. And
31:20
particularly The Lakota and
31:23
particularly the Chumash. I just happened
31:25
to know that. How did you, what
31:27
was different for you that you could penetrate
31:30
those worlds so easily?
31:32
Because it's not
31:33
easy. It's
31:37
true. I think what's coming to my
31:39
mind first and foremost is the
31:41
value that My mentors
31:44
from Riata Ranch being more traditional
31:47
and teaching the value of silence and
31:49
teaching the value of respect to elders
31:52
and teaching the value of humility and
31:55
deep listening and that sense of cultivated
31:58
presence all
32:00
of those things that I showed up with There's
32:04
like an energetic key signature
32:07
that allows again, it's
32:09
about establishing safety. Do
32:11
we trust this person? Can their mind be quiet
32:14
to receive information? And
32:17
so the aspects of, of, of humility
32:20
and respect I find were
32:23
certainly part of the portals
32:26
and really remaining authentic. I mean,
32:29
I used to always say I prefer to be around
32:31
the horses in,
32:33
in Hollywood because you
32:35
can't Be fake
32:38
around horses. You
32:40
have to be authentic. And
32:42
there's obviously a lot of smoke and mirrors that
32:44
take place with regards to the Westerns
32:46
and Hollywood and things like that. An actor will
32:48
show up and be like, yeah, I can ride. And very quickly,
32:50
it will be discovered that that was a lie. But
32:53
by and large. The horses
32:55
were teaching me about being authentic
32:58
and carrying that authenticity
33:00
with me. It's, it's something that you can,
33:03
you know, there's a, there's a, it's a palpable,
33:06
Oh, for sure. And I think within
33:08
what you were doing with that level of trip
33:10
riding, I grew up in Leicestershire,
33:14
partly in the UK, which is the heavy, heavy
33:16
fox hunting. It's team chasing,
33:18
steeple chasing, point to point, cross
33:20
country riding, whether, you know, the fences are bananas
33:22
and you can't see on the other side of them
33:25
and you just get, everyone's getting mangled
33:27
around you all the time and you
33:29
have to trust your life to the horse and
33:32
you, you, you can't. As
33:34
you say, sharp and authentically, and I think all
33:38
the people I know who, who trick write like that. It's,
33:40
it's the same that, that the trust
33:44
it's insane, but the,
33:46
the entry
33:49
I'm, I'm hopping on this, the
33:51
entry into the Native American world that
33:53
must have come through relationships. These
33:56
things usually come through human relationships.
33:58
Was there a particular mentor or set of mentors
34:01
who helped you go
34:04
in? And could you just talk a little
34:06
bit about those relationships?
34:09
Certainly. And I will say one
34:12
of the things that I was always present to is I
34:14
think early on I decided
34:16
I really didn't want my my
34:18
name to be At
34:21
the forefront of an introduction, because
34:23
I didn't want it to color people's experience and
34:25
I didn't want it to give me access that
34:27
I wouldn't have earned authentically
34:31
on my own. And
34:34
so I would, you know, have this name Kansas
34:36
and I would often just, you know, this is Kansas
34:38
and I would know people for years before they ever even knew
34:40
my last name. Yeah. And it's, it's been
34:43
very useful at times.
34:45
And I think my, my genuine
34:48
introduction into the you know, Schumach community,
34:51
there's a particular elder named choice slow.
34:53
Who's still with us, and
34:57
I was honored to have his
35:00
instruction. As well
35:02
as there was a woman nearby as well
35:05
named red branch and then another
35:07
from that tribe named my wall and
35:09
they knew of my connection with horses. They
35:12
knew of, I think my sincerity to
35:14
seek and understand and just to listen and to learn.
35:17
And so, spending time with understanding
35:20
the listening and, and connection
35:23
to the,
35:25
the birds, those that fly, those that crawl,
35:27
the four legged, the two legged, and the inter species
35:29
relations. It was the first time that I
35:32
understood that there's
35:34
really, I mean, there's many worlds existing
35:36
side by side, but that there are
35:38
certain Members of the community,
35:41
for example, that wouldn't get in cars,
35:43
because that type of movement is,
35:47
it disturbs your perception
35:49
of movement when you can have
35:52
more stillness you know, choice low
35:54
would mention oftentimes that there's 3 beyonds,
35:56
beyond, beyond, beyond, and
35:58
that when we think that we're going
36:01
to this getting behind the meaning
36:03
behind something, there's still many more layers
36:06
even to that yet. So,
36:09
I always, I think with all my teachers,
36:11
I always want to move in just like I did
36:13
when I was 11. There was something inside
36:15
that when I see mastery
36:18
or recognize that type of
36:20
information, there's that
36:22
willingness to really sit at the feet of
36:25
the master. And
36:27
recently, I was thinking that watching Kung Fu,
36:30
there's this discipleship,
36:32
guru disciple relationship that is
36:34
depicted. And I thought, wow, that
36:36
was imprinted on me at such a young age. And it's
36:38
something that I really, I really
36:40
love apprenticeship. I think there's a real
36:42
healthy human experience
36:45
within that. That's just something that I've been coded
36:47
for. So I really like to work with math masters
36:49
and really surrender my own
36:52
idea of, of superiority.
36:55
Like, I don't know what I don't know, so please
36:57
there's been many opportunities where I could share
36:59
something, but if I'm sharing, then I'm not able
37:01
to receive. So go ahead.
37:03
So you, you, you mentioned a master
37:05
a mentor, Choi Slow, right? Choi Slow?
37:07
Have I said it correctly?
37:10
How did you, how'd you meet him? And
37:14
yeah, because it's, again, it's,
37:16
you don't just waltz up and down
37:18
Venice beach running into Chumash
37:21
elders. So what was the process?
37:25
So, he was living up in a
37:28
a small camp,
37:30
I would say, up behind Ojai,
37:33
and I was introduced to him by
37:35
Maewu, who's also Chumash, and
37:38
it was at a time when I had decided I didn't
37:40
want to be assigned to traditional
37:43
holidays, so this was actually the time
37:45
when Americans are having Thanksgiving
37:48
and I decided that I would rather
37:50
be involved in something that was, you know,
37:52
meaningful. And I was invited to go
37:55
up and spend time at this camp
37:57
and. Choice low was staying
38:00
there had been there for, I
38:02
believe, many, you know, weeks and months, even though
38:04
the reservation is
38:07
several miles away. It was distance.
38:09
And they were, there was some efforts
38:11
to be able to create another kind
38:13
of community outside. If, you know,
38:16
within indigenous communities, there's. This
38:18
is a minus is to 2 functions happening
38:21
in the reservation. Right? And so, oftentimes
38:23
there's, there's a necessity to have
38:25
kind of a satellite location
38:28
and this other place. Just
38:30
the region was really connected to the land and it's very close
38:32
to where I'm born. And so, we
38:34
were, there was no other intention.
38:37
Other than really just sitting and being in presence
38:40
and specifically the medicine, like
38:42
understanding the, the animal
38:44
medicine and the different clans
38:46
is what I was really I guess, being educated
38:48
about. So it was talking a lot about the nature
38:51
of each. We would call it like
38:53
a totem animal and how they send
38:55
messages to each of the clans. And
38:57
at the time Troy Slough was very connected
38:59
to, to the birds. And
39:02
now that I'm talking about it, I'm remembering
39:04
there was discussion about like the Phoenix
39:06
birds and my daughter's name is Phoenix. And
39:09
I never really made the connection until now that we're
39:11
talking that he spoke a lot about.
39:13
Phoenix's and he spoke a lot about the regenerative
39:16
nature of a lot of these birds and
39:18
their spirits that humans don't
39:20
always see exactly what they're contributing
39:23
to in the spirit world. But it's interesting
39:25
now that I, I share that with you that my
39:27
daughter her name. I really feel
39:29
like I didn't choose the name. It just
39:31
came through like, Oh, her soul's name is Phoenix.
39:34
And so, you know, my mentorship
39:36
was really brief, but the
39:38
time with Choi he,
39:40
it ended up coming full circle because he actually
39:43
performed, I would say the last rites
39:45
at my father's funeral. And so he
39:47
came with some other members from
39:49
the Chumash nation and they
39:52
were there for the last moments when we
39:54
were putting the earth onto my father's
39:56
grave. Did your father know them?
40:00
No, okay. No, he never was
40:02
introduced. I would have liked to but
40:04
it just didn't happen. But I asked
40:06
them to if they would
40:08
do me the honor to be there. And
40:10
many people came up afterward and said, thank you.
40:12
That is what we needed foreclosure.
40:14
That is what we really felt was
40:16
the, the most meaningful moment
40:19
of that particular ceremony.
40:22
Is that that area, the Ojai
40:24
area is that where you sort of grew
40:26
up?
40:28
No, I grew up in really the Santa
40:30
Monica mountains. So just a bit more south.
40:32
Okay. So yeah, I was born in Santa Monica and
40:34
then, you know, around Hollywood. And
40:37
the reason I'm asking is again, not
40:39
every listener. Is coming
40:42
out of the American context or,
40:44
you know, knows that geography, but again, so for
40:46
those listeners who, who don't know that
40:49
there's a strip of coastal hills that goes
40:51
up the sort of California coastal
40:53
hills and they, they, they go from
40:55
more or less just a bit north
40:58
of Los Angeles. Up to
41:01
behind San Francisco, and
41:04
it's a particular landscape. I
41:06
lived, you know, so being a bit nomadic,
41:08
I lived for a while in where
41:11
Berkeley and Oakland meet, and so I
41:13
fell in love with those hills.
41:15
There is a magic
41:17
to that landscape of these
41:20
rounded, grassy, high
41:23
hills, almost small mountains in some cases,
41:25
which are green in one season
41:28
and Golden brown in another season with these
41:30
evergreen oak trees that snake up
41:32
and then it's it up the valleys and it's it's
41:35
something rather unique. But it
41:37
goes on for sort of hundreds of miles of this strip.
41:39
And so I just want listeners to picture.
41:43
In their mind that that
41:45
is when you mentioned oh, hi. Oh,
41:47
hi is probably one of the most beautiful
41:49
bits of an already sort
41:51
of universally beautiful landscape
41:55
in this way. Did you just
41:57
before we go to Cavalia and and your
41:59
performance there and what came after that?
42:02
Can you describe as a child
42:05
of those hills and then,
42:08
as you say, first growing up in the sort
42:10
of Santa Monica disconnected from the nature
42:12
while still surrounded. Because
42:15
everything that surrounds Los Angeles is very beautiful.
42:18
And then connecting.
42:21
Can you just describe
42:24
But people who might be driving their car in New
42:26
Zealand or Manchester or New
42:28
York or wherever, or Zimbabwe, you know, who are listening
42:30
to this. Just, can you, can you describe
42:33
any moments where you really
42:36
were brought into the occult connection
42:38
with an already occult landscape? And just,
42:41
just, just, just put us there. Talk
42:44
us through that. A lot of people have never had these
42:46
experiences.
42:47
Certainly, certainly. I mean, I was
42:49
just speaking with a naturalist when I was down
42:51
in Patagonia about and asking
42:54
and inquiring, you know, what was your imprint
42:56
of. Being in one with nature,
42:58
being really immersed in nature as a child,
43:01
because obviously, you know, those people that
43:03
are still protecting endemic species
43:05
and things like that. It's, it's so far beyond
43:07
what I believe I'm, I'm doing. But
43:10
1 of the things that stands
43:12
really clear is, my
43:14
parents were living on the beach when I was
43:16
very small. And so I spent a lot of
43:18
time in and on
43:20
the ocean. And the beauty
43:23
of having a very free childhood
43:25
is that there was no sense
43:27
of urgency or a schedule,
43:30
but everything in terms of time, I was just able
43:32
to spend hours and hours in the sand and
43:35
hours you know, looking at starfish
43:37
and the little sand crabs
43:39
that I would Pick up and let them run through my
43:41
fingers and the Pacific Ocean here
43:43
is a little bit colder. But to me,
43:45
and with the, the hot summers
43:47
that we have in Southern California, Southern
43:49
California really has a desert landscape. It's
43:52
very much like Mexico. So
43:54
many introduced species for the landscaping,
43:57
but as you described, the oaks are truly
44:00
the signature of the oaks and the sycamore trees,
44:02
which have these beautiful kind of white
44:05
marbled. Trunks
44:07
and these very wide 5 pointed
44:09
leaves. And so I remember as a child
44:12
really being activated
44:15
and fixated by the
44:17
earth by the fennel,
44:19
which would grow wild by the trunks of
44:21
the trees and the bark of the oaks and the sycamores.
44:24
And then there was there is, there's
44:26
a lot of sandstone here. And as you mentioned,
44:29
kind of steep hills and cliffs, and
44:31
there's a lot of fossils in there as well as quartz
44:33
and things like that. And I went to somewhat of an
44:35
alternative kindergarten here in,
44:38
in, in LA, and we would cross
44:40
this little creek and it's really a desert.
44:42
So it's hardly much, much water down here. So
44:44
a little bit of a stream of water was just
44:47
it was like Eden. And it
44:49
was something that anybody else would look at and not
44:52
even take a second glance, but for a
44:54
little child growing up in the desert,
44:56
this little stream of water was just so
44:59
magical. And I would cross this little
45:01
stream and I would go to the side and I would actually
45:03
play with the quartz crystals and things
45:05
like this, and really having the
45:07
time to just be absorbed deeply.
45:10
I just feel like. The, the wind,
45:12
we're famous for the Santa Ana winds.
45:15
My name Kansas actually means child of the south
45:17
wind. So there's something about the
45:19
wind in my in my blueprint. It,
45:21
it, for me, it's invigorating. It
45:23
feels the ones that come from the warm
45:26
south. It's a very feminine wind.
45:29
And then you hear the, the
45:31
wind moving through the trees and. It
45:33
was, it was as though nature was
45:36
still really breathing very deeply
45:38
through all of my cells even
45:40
though I went to regular public
45:42
school, I trusted nature and trusted horses
45:45
and had a very deep relationship with
45:47
them, even before I
45:49
trusted humans, I would say, and
45:52
now when I come back to California, because it's, it It
45:54
is so deeply encoded in myself.
45:57
I, I still pay homage
45:59
to these sandstone. There's these huge
46:01
rock formations, you know, like Eagle Rock is
46:03
one of them. There's Chumash painted cave,
46:06
cave. The Chumash people were actually
46:08
a matriarchal society because the life here
46:10
was so abundant. There was
46:12
enough food. There was enough you know,
46:14
both from the seafood that, That came
46:16
from the ocean. It was a a temperate climate.
46:18
So there wasn't the same type of warring
46:21
society that we're familiar with the
46:23
association with Plains Indians, the
46:25
matriarchal society out here in the Chumash
46:27
was very, very balanced. And it was
46:29
through working with them that I also was able
46:31
to learn more of the storytelling
46:33
out in a place called Point Conception,
46:36
which is the far. Farthest
46:38
western point of California. And
46:40
I had spent some time out there and then
46:42
learned that that was the place that where they believe the
46:44
souls would leave Turtle
46:46
Island, that that was the jumping
46:49
off point. And so,
46:51
you know, my husband is a geologist
46:54
and he'll always tell me the science behind stone.
46:56
And to me, it kind of demystifies
46:59
thing. It's like you, when you said that you
47:01
didn't want to watch Cavalia again,
47:04
because it might take away that initial imprint. And
47:06
for me as well, I prefer the creation stories.
47:09
And when I was in the Lakota Nation,
47:11
I learned some of the star stories about,
47:13
you know, the Pleiades, seven sisters, one
47:16
Six sisters, one whose back was turned,
47:18
and it was only years later that it
47:20
was realized that they've known these
47:22
stories for centuries, but
47:25
with modern instrumentation, we can see that there is a dark
47:27
star there in the Pleiades constellation.
47:29
So all of that, to me, you
47:31
know, the preservation of our creation
47:33
stories, and as you travel around
47:36
and read them all, you see the similarities
47:39
that to me is what it is to be human.
47:43
We're about to go into Cavalia,
47:46
but there you are with the Chumash.
47:48
And they're introducing you to bird
47:50
medicine in details.
47:54
Can you give us a
47:57
moment, a story an experience
48:02
of being shown that medicine? Can
48:05
you share something with us?
48:11
Yeah, I mean, what's coming to mind is my
48:14
personal struggle at that time is I really felt
48:16
like I wanted to contribute more and
48:18
I didn't know how, and I just
48:21
wanted to contribute and be
48:23
a servant to Mother Earth. And
48:26
my life seems so superficial
48:28
and meaningless at the time. So those
48:32
present knew that that was part of my heart's
48:34
inquiry. And
48:37
in just sitting and sharing
48:40
I think there was tobacco, but
48:42
there was nothing else in terms of,
48:45
you know, plant medicine being offered. We would, I
48:47
was taught how to properly harvest sage
48:50
with respect to not hurting the plant
48:52
and. To pick very quickly and
48:54
make sure that we do it at the right time of
48:56
day and having that respect and honoring
48:58
for the plant kingdom. And as we sat
49:00
down and we would burn sage and sitting in a
49:02
very simple kind of, you
49:05
know, shed with a lot of. Wings
49:07
of birds around and talons of different
49:10
birds. And I was taught
49:12
how to groom the feathers. So
49:14
I was given an eagle feather and
49:16
the care that you bring all of
49:18
the part of the plumage back into
49:21
alignment, even now, anytime I find a feather,
49:23
I'll always spend time, you know, grooming
49:25
it because the feather itself is an instrument
49:28
for medicine to be able to clear the
49:30
etheric field. And
49:32
in this inquiry that I had, we had stayed up
49:35
most of the night, and then
49:37
I was taken outside and
49:39
shown, here is your answer.
49:42
My answer was really, how can I be of service?
49:44
And the sky had exploded,
49:46
and this is just behind Ojai,
49:49
but the sky had exploded into a
49:51
sunrise that was so deep and
49:53
pink and orange that
49:56
it was, in my opinion,
49:59
the pointing
50:02
of, The, you are
50:05
always on the path, you can never be off the path,
50:07
and to just surrender this idea
50:10
of a particular right way
50:13
of being of service, just to continue to
50:15
show up and allow yourself to be open
50:17
and flow with that. That's the language
50:19
that I'm giving it to it now. But
50:22
so much of our teachings and so much of that is experiential.
50:24
It's really beyond language. And
50:27
then very soon after is
50:29
when I had the audition to go to
50:31
Cavalia and even
50:33
though it seemed like I was chasing
50:36
after a dangling carrot, there was something
50:38
about being a part of that company, that cast
50:41
that really felt like it was on point
50:43
and in alignment with a service
50:45
oriented mission. And although
50:47
it was hard to let go of my.
50:50
Connection to land and the,
50:53
some of the alliances and relationships that I had made,
50:55
I ended up dropping everything and
50:58
never looking back and just putting
51:00
myself fully into that next
51:02
transition. It was like, everything
51:04
was being prepared to step me into that next
51:06
transition that was. definitely
51:09
more public and it was more, there
51:11
was more rigor involved because I had a schedule
51:14
and we had to show up six days
51:16
a week and completely give over your entire
51:18
life to that. Whereas before I
51:20
was, I was very I was very, very
51:22
free for those few years right
51:24
before I became. Contractually
51:27
involved.
51:27
How did the, how did the audition happen
51:29
for
51:30
Cavalia? I
51:32
was contacted by my colleague
51:35
from Riata Ranch, and she
51:37
said that she didn't have anybody
51:39
else who was of age, and I was already over 18,
51:42
so I could audition. Was I interested? And
51:44
Because the Riata Ranch is famous for having
51:47
truck riders, right? When Fred and Magalie
51:49
were in town, one of the first riders that
51:51
they had had actually got injured. She broke her leg. They
51:53
needed another girl. So they started asking
51:55
around and if, you know, if you ask
51:58
anybody in California where to find a truck rider, everybody's
52:00
going to point you to Riata Ranch. And
52:02
so I actually went up to Berkeley if you spent time in
52:04
the Bay Area. The
52:07
set was the Cavalia tent was
52:09
set up there. I got,
52:11
we brought a saddle. I
52:13
was introduced to a horse. I did
52:15
a back bend, which
52:18
is for those who don't know, it's a full bridge
52:20
on a horse running at full speed that
52:23
I didn't know, which was nothing to me
52:25
at the time. And I look back and I think that's kind of
52:27
funny. And then some Cossack
52:29
drags where you hang upside down and some vaults and
52:31
things like this. And I met Fred
52:33
and Magalie Delgado, Fred Pignon and
52:35
Magalie Delgado, and we Joked
52:38
a bit because I had spent that time in
52:40
Avignon as well for Cheval Passion
52:42
that we thought, oh, we had seen each other. We'd been
52:44
performing in the same show. But then I went home
52:46
and I didn't hear anything for a long time. And it was the longest
52:49
two weeks of my life because I was still
52:51
soul searching and still seeking meaning.
52:54
And then when I got the call to join,
52:57
it was it just started this
52:59
waterfall effect of momentum that everything
53:01
snowballed and my life
53:03
took a trajectory that, that
53:06
everything else has been really governed by since
53:08
then.
53:09
Well, okay. So for those, for those,
53:11
again, for those listeners who don't know what Cavalia
53:14
is, was. And,
53:17
but who have seen perhaps equestrian
53:20
spectacles, equestrian spectaculars.
53:23
I live in Germany. We have one that travels
53:25
every year called it's now called Cavaluna. It used
53:27
to be called Apache. It's fantastic. I
53:29
know, I know the people who. put
53:32
together some of the classical teams. It's wonderful.
53:36
I hate to say it. It's not quite
53:38
as wonderful as that first
53:41
Cavalia show. There was
53:43
some magic there. I want to ask you
53:45
about that, that you said that there was an element
53:47
of ceremony to it. You said
53:49
that also that you felt there was an element of service.
53:52
That wasn't, I have to say, apparent to
53:54
me. When I saw the show, I just
53:56
saw something that was Art in
53:58
its purest form, so
54:02
it was, that was
54:04
very moving. So was
54:06
the element of service just
54:09
the bringing of joy, which
54:11
that show definitely got? Or was there, are
54:14
you, was there some other element
54:16
of service
54:16
there? My way of defining
54:19
service is also that when
54:22
we are willing to give
54:24
that much of ourselves for
54:27
other. So that's bringing joy without
54:29
a doubt. But also when we
54:31
look at the horses, you know, some
54:33
later on in life, when I met Ariana and
54:35
you and I both met in that kind of equine, therapeutic
54:38
context, I questioned
54:40
bringing horses into any stall
54:43
environment or any structured environment and
54:46
then through my own self inquiry
54:48
and meditations and whatnot, I realized that they
54:50
are performing a tremendous act of service
54:53
in allowing themselves to be in
54:56
that ceremony. Going into
54:58
urban environments and giving
55:00
those people from cities, just
55:02
a little bit of a picture of what it
55:04
was like, or what it can be like, again,
55:07
at the highest octave of experience of
55:09
right relationship between horse and
55:11
man or interspecies relationship. So
55:13
there could be an idea of, like, I
55:15
don't want to be involved in this because X,
55:18
Y, Z, so you really have
55:20
to be willing to. Surrender.
55:22
Okay. I'm going to give my entire
55:25
life because
55:28
there's nothing else when you show up
55:30
at eight in the morning and you finish near to
55:32
midnight every night, six days a week.
55:35
And you're definitely not there for the money and
55:37
you're not there for even the glamour because it's
55:39
really part of a company, which
55:41
is different than it's like when you go to a Cirque du Soleil
55:43
show, can you name anybody who was in it? Hmm.
55:47
It's a different experience. You're there for
55:49
the sake of the whole and
55:51
it was wonderful to be around you know, Fred
55:53
and I felt so blessed
55:56
obviously to be in that environment. So I,
55:58
I know that I was getting a lot out of it, but
56:00
when I look back on it, you know, I,
56:02
I always was trying to
56:04
make sure that I could find ways that
56:06
it was of service. So the other
56:09
piece that came in. Okay. And
56:11
I'm a bit, I was a bit naughty, like you talked about
56:13
me being naughty earlier on I
56:16
was giving away tickets oftentimes
56:19
to my friends, like my Lakota
56:21
friends, and to anybody
56:23
who works with different nonprofits and things like that, because
56:25
we often had empty seats, and
56:28
they, our ticket sales would be low. And
56:30
so I was always trying to find ways
56:32
to share that joy with others who
56:35
wouldn't be able to pay for it because
56:37
it was an exclusive event. It's very much assigned
56:39
with elitism, as is the entire equestrian
56:42
world. And so, part
56:44
of my little way of contributing
56:46
was making sure that, you know, Choi and
56:49
some of the Shumash friends were able to come
56:51
as well as Lakota friends. And then around
56:53
the world, because I was with that company for so long.
56:56
There was a lot of nonprofits that I was
56:58
able to, to get into see that.
57:00
And basically these are people who have given
57:02
their whole life to a
57:04
humanitarian causes and they don't
57:06
have enough money to buy four tickets
57:08
to bring their, their kids to come and see that. And
57:11
so this was a way that I was
57:13
just an instrument to help facilitate
57:15
such an experience.
57:17
I think that was I've only met
57:20
Frederic Pinal and Magali
57:23
Delgado a couple of times. I'm hoping
57:25
to have them on the show actually, because I met them at
57:27
Ana last year. And I've gotta
57:29
give them a ring and hope to get them on. And what
57:32
I, what I think I recognize immediately, I,
57:34
I also met them backstage
57:36
at that show that I described, and
57:38
I was immediately struck. Obviously one was
57:40
struck by them on stage. What
57:43
was so interesting is you, you're prepared
57:45
for people to be assholes,
57:48
you know, and I also like you grew
57:50
up all through university. I financed
57:53
myself by riding on film sets. So
57:55
I did that, you know, the endless
57:58
waiting around, but for great money, you
58:00
know, and Then you do something for five
58:02
seconds on a horse and then you know, you can sort of pay
58:04
off your rent. It's wonderful but you
58:06
know, you you you are
58:08
as a you're basically an extra and so you're your lowest
58:10
of the low on that very hierarchical
58:13
food chain that you have in the movie industries
58:15
It's it's for those people who haven't experienced it. It
58:17
is, you know, people
58:20
aren't very nice to each other Basically, there's the you know,
58:22
the power structures are fairly military
58:24
really but I
58:27
And of course, you know, with the horse world and
58:30
the arrogance and snobbery that goes with it and
58:32
I'm sorry, but I spent a lot of time in France
58:34
and the French can be awful with this particularly
58:37
the ones who ride really, really well. And
58:39
as can the Germans, as can the Brits, as can the Americans,
58:41
as can all of us. Right. And I think all of
58:43
us who've. Achieved a certain
58:46
level of equestrian
58:49
mastery in one field or another
58:52
have gone through an asshole phase and I think
58:54
those of us that don't admit it are lying. Because
58:56
it's a painful memory and I think something
58:59
has to bring it because the problem with horses, I think, is
59:01
they give you power when you're
59:03
on a horse or with a horse, you are bigger,
59:05
faster, stronger, more beautiful. All
59:08
of these things, and you can easily forget that
59:10
this power is just being lent to you. And that you're
59:12
really just, you're just a monkey, you know, and as soon as you're
59:14
off that horse, you go back to monkeydom. But
59:16
you know, and all the mythology
59:18
around horses is obviously about freedom, dream,
59:22
empowerment, and so on. And
59:26
so it's, we know what power does to humans, and
59:28
it's impossible not to get seduced by that
59:30
to some degree. But what brings you out on the other side
59:32
of it? And I think. That was immediately
59:34
apparent to me when I met Frédéric Pignon
59:37
and, and and Magali was
59:39
that they had somehow managed to achieve
59:41
this mastery without turning
59:43
into arseholes. And that when
59:45
you, when you met them they
59:47
just engaged with you in this very, very
59:50
sweet and authentic and rather humble way.
59:52
And I remember thinking, how did you
59:55
get There at that
59:57
stage of my life, because I think at that stage of my life,
59:59
I wasn't quite there. I was right at the beginning of my adventure
1:00:01
with autism, just coming out of my adventure
1:00:03
with human rights, my first adventure with
1:00:05
human rights, and I was still struggling with these things.
1:00:07
So it, it, what do you think was
1:00:10
the special quality that those two
1:00:12
brought? Well, where
1:00:14
does it come from? Do you think it's just innate in them? Or
1:00:16
have they did that? Is there some experience that they went through
1:00:19
that I don't know about? Or, you
1:00:21
know, because you must have gone for the audition and gone, Oh my
1:00:23
gosh, these people are like, unlike anyone
1:00:26
else. Who seems to be out there at
1:00:28
that end of the equestrian world. What's
1:00:30
going on with this? What do you think it was?
1:00:33
Certainly, I mean, I think the whole feel and the vibe
1:00:35
of it was just so much more like
1:00:37
I said, compassionate in general. And
1:00:39
back then, Fred was very much
1:00:41
ahead of his, you know, I can't really
1:00:43
pinpoint it. I don't know enough about
1:00:45
Fred's background. I know that his exploration,
1:00:48
you'll find it. If you have them as a guest on the show,
1:00:51
but I know more about his exploration into
1:00:53
Liberty was truly living amongst
1:00:55
and observing how the horses
1:00:57
interacted with each other. And so when he is
1:01:00
on stage, even though he's the trainer, he's
1:01:02
really another stallion with his stallions,
1:01:04
and he just embodies that in
1:01:07
his play. And the
1:01:09
vibe that we had around the company
1:01:12
is everybody truly felt privileged
1:01:14
to be there. Everybody
1:01:17
was so specialized in their own
1:01:20
section sector of mastery. There
1:01:22
was definitely a huge amount of ego and
1:01:24
insecurities that would come up because everybody
1:01:27
wants to retain their,
1:01:29
their, their position and
1:01:31
at the same time, nobody was there to compete with Fred.
1:01:34
Nobody was there to compete with Magalie. Nobody
1:01:36
was there to compete with those people who were,
1:01:38
you know, at the high level of their. Acrobatics
1:01:41
or their Roman writing or their bareback writing
1:01:44
because they had hired all specialists
1:01:46
in their own mastery. There wasn't a lot
1:01:49
of. Competition
1:01:52
in the normal sense, because we all did something so
1:01:54
different and it arose
1:01:56
a little bit in certain group ensembles
1:01:58
and numbers like that. But ultimately, we
1:02:00
were all respected because we were, we
1:02:03
had been in the industry and in the performance world for a really long
1:02:05
time. And so Fred and Magalie gave that
1:02:07
respect. And of course, we had it in.
1:02:09
10 fold for them, and they respected
1:02:12
the horses in such a way. And I think that that created,
1:02:15
they respected the stable hands and
1:02:17
who the grooms were going to be. They really
1:02:19
took consideration to make sure that the people that they
1:02:21
hired to be around the horses were
1:02:23
also of a certain. We could
1:02:25
say compassionate nature. They had a certain character
1:02:27
about them. That was desirable. And so
1:02:29
when there's that much attention to detail to really
1:02:31
create the entire staff and environment,
1:02:34
it really makes a difference. And it's true.
1:02:37
That particular 1st show was quite
1:02:39
unique in that sense. You know, there was a lot
1:02:41
of other that ideals were still,
1:02:43
I would say, at the top of future creative
1:02:46
collaborative efforts, but the
1:02:48
same attention to detail was lacking
1:02:50
when that captain
1:02:52
of the ship mastery was, was
1:02:54
no longer there. And it made sense.
1:02:56
I mean, they spent a good seven years on tour and then wanted
1:02:59
to go back to France.
1:03:00
Yeah. So how long did you spend with CarVal
1:03:03
in the end?
1:03:05
I mean, it, I started in 2004
1:03:07
and I was in China in 2020
1:03:09
putting a show together that was supposed to open there. So
1:03:11
I was with the company off and on for many years
1:03:13
in many different incarnations, whether as I
1:03:15
was hired originally as an artist and
1:03:17
then I had a contract buying and training
1:03:20
the truck riding and Roman riding horses for the show. And
1:03:22
then I would. Come in and out
1:03:24
kind of as a backup. So somebody got injured
1:03:27
and then they call me in and I would be a replacement.
1:03:30
And then I would help adopt horses.
1:03:32
I was involved with shipping horses
1:03:35
overseas from a California
1:03:37
operation, but by and
1:03:39
large, the, the, the, it
1:03:41
spanned 15 years. And
1:03:44
then my husband is a creator with the
1:03:46
show. So when I was, for
1:03:48
example, on extended maternity leaves and taking
1:03:50
care of children and homeschooling, and that was where
1:03:53
I put all of my energy, I was still there
1:03:55
on the tour. And my husband was there
1:03:57
six days a week curating
1:03:59
the artistic vision, basically.
1:04:02
So we were very intrinsically connected.
1:04:05
And
1:04:05
your kids, I presume, grew up with that
1:04:07
as a background.
1:04:09
They did. And the first time that I left tour
1:04:12
was because they weren't learning how to ride. And
1:04:15
I was like, my kids don't know how to ride and here
1:04:17
I am on this horse show. And to be, you
1:04:19
know, the horses, they put so much effort. They
1:04:21
didn't need to pack around kids all the time. I
1:04:23
didn't want to ask that of them. And we
1:04:25
had a lot of hot horses that were too
1:04:27
much for, you know, a three year old, a five year old to
1:04:29
get on. So I, that. Helped
1:04:32
steer me to a different incarnation.
1:04:36
Do you feel that the, because I never saw Cavalli
1:04:38
again after that do you feel that that same
1:04:41
sense of compassion and service
1:04:44
remained? Or do you think it was at a high
1:04:46
point at that? Particular watershed
1:04:49
that I saw what, what described
1:04:52
that's a 15 year trajectory. It's a long time
1:04:54
to keep something like that going in a certain
1:04:56
way because lots of personalities coming in and
1:04:58
out, you know, different incarnations,
1:05:01
different human. So, so just, yeah.
1:05:05
I think it was definitely at a high point. It
1:05:07
was just a magical moment in history
1:05:09
also. And then there
1:05:12
was the attempt to try
1:05:14
and recreate it, but bigger
1:05:17
and bigger is not always better. It
1:05:20
still had the ideals. And I think
1:05:22
everybody who was able to be
1:05:24
a part of that vision felt
1:05:26
truly honored. Because
1:05:28
we had high principles and
1:05:31
it's a human effort to navigate
1:05:34
toward a, a
1:05:36
North star, or just like when you put in your
1:05:38
course and chart a course at sea, it's
1:05:40
not in a straight line, but you're guiding
1:05:43
toward that, that intention
1:05:46
toward that goal toward that higher vision. And
1:05:49
so we all did our best.
1:05:52
In the face of adversity,
1:05:54
but there was magic in the very beginning,
1:05:56
and Fred and Magalie were a part of it. They
1:05:58
were they are wonderful
1:06:00
individuals.
1:06:02
Right, and there must have been a certain amount
1:06:04
of that magic keeping going where you wouldn't have stayed with
1:06:06
it, I presume. Or your husband. Who
1:06:09
I'd also like to have on the show, because he's a very interesting chap.
1:06:12
If he's, if he's, if he's willing. So,
1:06:15
okay. I
1:06:17
want to move ahead a little bit now to
1:06:19
another chapter in your life. So you
1:06:22
then begin to work more in the equine
1:06:24
assisted field. And this
1:06:26
is right about the time that you and I cross
1:06:28
paths. You run into someone called Arianna
1:06:30
Strozzi. Strozzi, I don't know how
1:06:32
she pronounces her Italian American.
1:06:35
She's now, yeah, she's now Mizuchi. Okay.
1:06:38
Or Mizuki, yeah. So Arizana Mizuki.
1:06:40
Mizuki. I want you to tell us about that.
1:06:43
And then from there into heart math. Heart
1:06:45
math is something that I feel everyone should know
1:06:47
about in horseboy method, for example,
1:06:49
when we are doing what we call sensory
1:06:52
work, which just came from the way my
1:06:54
son used to lay on the horses. And it
1:06:56
was clear that his really
1:06:58
agitated behaviors would just go when he
1:07:00
did that, when he was body to body on the horse like
1:07:02
that. And then much, much later after
1:07:04
we'd done it with a bazillion other people
1:07:07
and seen the same result, we talk
1:07:09
to people at heart math and realize, Oh, I see. That
1:07:11
was what was going on with the residents
1:07:13
of fields. But I don't want
1:07:15
to, I think you should talk about this because,
1:07:17
you know, a lot more about it than I do. So
1:07:23
There's something you talked about service, and I read a little
1:07:25
question here. Is self
1:07:27
actualization possible
1:07:31
without service? And I think
1:07:33
that it sounds like you might
1:07:35
have Reached again, another
1:07:38
watershed moment
1:07:40
where your life then, perhaps through your
1:07:42
own children, I don't know, gets taken
1:07:45
in this way towards
1:07:47
a much more obviously service oriented,
1:07:49
um, with autism.
1:07:52
Talk to
1:07:52
us about that. Sure, the conversation
1:07:54
about service is one way to describe
1:07:57
it. And then the other act is, I would say selflessness.
1:08:00
And so when I had children, this
1:08:03
for the first time really reoriented
1:08:05
my entire world externally
1:08:08
to these other beings, as opposed
1:08:10
to internally and just focusing on
1:08:12
myself, my own needs. So for the
1:08:14
first time, what parenting brought me is
1:08:16
the opportunity to know what it was like to at
1:08:18
moments really be truly selfless. Because
1:08:21
it's very rare to find in society
1:08:23
of it, I would say. And
1:08:26
these moments where you really forget your
1:08:28
sense of self. So there's
1:08:30
two aspects of it. It's one is not being selfish
1:08:33
or the absence of conceit, we
1:08:35
could say, but there's also a sense where
1:08:38
your beingness or your your
1:08:40
limited perception of personality
1:08:43
dissolve and you're just thinking
1:08:45
of being involved. In
1:08:47
an act and an action that's caring
1:08:50
for, for other, and it can be caring
1:08:52
for horses. It can be caring for land. It
1:08:54
can be caring for just the energetic
1:08:56
resonance of the planet, which is what we do a lot
1:08:59
in heart math. But really, that
1:09:01
to me is a flow exchanging
1:09:03
going outward. And.
1:09:07
I, I, I find that in my
1:09:09
personal human journey, there
1:09:11
has been one layer
1:09:13
of it or one avenue that
1:09:15
has become more established
1:09:18
or perhaps like I'm looking at it as like the
1:09:20
limbs of a tree and one
1:09:22
branch comes off and then it becomes really strong
1:09:25
and that bow can support a lot more
1:09:27
fruit. And then there's another branch that also becomes
1:09:29
strong and then that bow can also in
1:09:31
turn support fruit that nourishes. And
1:09:34
so there's these different branches
1:09:36
of selflessness or branches of service
1:09:39
that I never thought that I would be able to,
1:09:41
that have continued. It's like, I'm now doing
1:09:44
performances sometimes, but they're
1:09:46
always for nonprofits to
1:09:48
really generate interest, to raise funds
1:09:51
and do fundraising for other charity
1:09:53
organizations. And when
1:09:55
I was able to shift
1:09:57
this very strongly established
1:10:00
pattern of wanting to receive
1:10:02
something from doing a performance. Like I want to meet
1:10:04
my metric of excellence. Then
1:10:07
I would shift that into how can I give,
1:10:09
how can I, I want people to feel joy
1:10:11
and to feel enthusiasm or feel
1:10:13
youthfulness or feel inspiration from
1:10:16
watching this as opposed to I want
1:10:18
to tick my boxes so that I get appreciation
1:10:20
and validation. So when
1:10:22
that. Could shift and that took a long time
1:10:25
again, being a child performer. I wasn't
1:10:27
hip to that in my twenties. I
1:10:30
wasn't trying to transform it then. I didn't understand
1:10:32
it the same way that now it's really
1:10:34
conscious effort so that even before
1:10:36
weeks, months before I start to do
1:10:38
a show, I'm already starting to make
1:10:41
sure that the, the outflow of energy
1:10:43
is really caring for whatever
1:10:45
audience that is. It's going to show up. And
1:10:48
then. My work in the
1:10:50
nonprofit sector, actually, it's
1:10:52
an interesting segue came from
1:10:54
my association with HeartMath, which
1:10:56
I learned Thank you. About over
1:10:58
20 years ago, before I joined Cavalia in
1:11:01
my spiritual seeking, I was actually
1:11:03
at a spiritual teachers gathering
1:11:05
her satsangs. Her name is Gangaji,
1:11:08
and she was a disciple
1:11:10
of an Indian mystic
1:11:12
known as Papaji, who was a direct disciple of Ramana
1:11:15
Maharshi. And so that's that.
1:11:17
that lineage. And that's that
1:11:19
meeting, that fated meeting of self inquiry,
1:11:21
which I'll never forget is where I first learned about
1:11:24
HeartMath. And it was
1:11:26
just kind of being in the vortex
1:11:28
of transformation. You know, this is
1:11:30
when I was still doing this work with the Shumash and
1:11:33
right before I joined Cavalia. Go ahead.
1:11:35
I've just got a question. A lot of people, listeners will
1:11:37
not know what HeartMath is. Please tell
1:11:39
us what is HeartMath?
1:11:43
So, let's see. HeartMath
1:11:45
itself is the name of a, of
1:11:47
an organization that has done a huge
1:11:50
amount of research and the, the
1:11:52
crux of it really started to prove
1:11:55
that our emotions affect our physiology.
1:11:58
So, it began to study the
1:12:02
Heart rate variability, which is really the
1:12:04
beat to beat changes that are emitted from our heart,
1:12:06
which is an electrical organ. And
1:12:08
those subtle fluctuations,
1:12:10
depending on whether we're experiencing a renewing
1:12:13
emotion, such as appreciation,
1:12:15
care, or compassion. And
1:12:17
then what that looks like when we're experiencing
1:12:20
a depleting emotion or a feeling that
1:12:22
is discordant, such as frustration
1:12:25
or anger. And through
1:12:27
the research, the
1:12:29
Institute of HeartMath has been able to
1:12:31
really prove, and we can see
1:12:33
now with spectral analysis, when
1:12:36
we are in a flow state, when
1:12:38
we are in a state
1:12:40
of love and feeling good, really in the zone,
1:12:43
that actually creates an organization
1:12:45
of our physiology. And the term that's
1:12:48
been used now is called coherence. So
1:12:50
when we have that. That coherence, that aligned
1:12:53
state. It's when we have optimal
1:12:55
functioning. It's when there is
1:12:57
an organization. I, I equate
1:13:00
it to a 72 piece
1:13:02
orchestra. It's the conductor that really
1:13:04
maintains the harmony and
1:13:06
can modulate with those Allegro
1:13:08
moments where you increase your speed
1:13:11
or your timing or your rhythm, as
1:13:13
well as those moments that are appropriate
1:13:15
and dynamic to be able to come
1:13:17
into. Quiet state.
1:13:20
So this is a symbolism
1:13:23
for really a healthy nervous system that
1:13:25
can both increase and be alert and
1:13:27
respond to the needs at hand and
1:13:29
then be able to downregulate. And when there's
1:13:32
no threat, no perceived threat, and
1:13:34
when things are calm, your nervous system can go into
1:13:36
a state of rest and digest or
1:13:39
really that expanded state of, of,
1:13:41
of awareness itself. So,
1:13:44
the research that has come out of the Institute of
1:13:46
HeartMath has been often referenced
1:13:49
by equine therapy programs,
1:13:51
as well as other, we
1:13:53
could say kind of quantum healing
1:13:55
modalities throughout the world, because it's starting to prove.
1:13:58
What intuitively we already knew is
1:14:00
that there's an energetic, there's a quantum field that
1:14:02
we're all connected to. We're all broadcasting and
1:14:04
we're all receiving at the same time. So
1:14:07
then when we can start to turn the dial
1:14:09
manually and really have
1:14:12
a manual transmission on our own nervous system,
1:14:14
we can start to decide how
1:14:16
we are showing up in the world, really
1:14:18
how we are, what we want to resonate,
1:14:20
what frequency we really want to be aligned with.
1:14:23
And that's through the discovery of the last.
1:14:25
Two decades what I've been more focused
1:14:27
on and now I see it as
1:14:30
the foundational practice and horsemanship
1:14:32
because once we can attune ourselves, then we can.
1:14:35
Really clear out any of the debris
1:14:38
that might be in the way of communication.
1:14:41
And so to have that clear
1:14:43
dialogue is what helps eliminate
1:14:45
confusion. And then we, we
1:14:47
have those experiences of harmony, both
1:14:50
with our human to human relationships, as well as our
1:14:52
human to animal relationships. And
1:14:55
the inquiry You know,
1:14:57
heart math was very much a part of my life, already
1:14:59
had been for five years
1:15:02
before I started going into the equine therapy. So
1:15:04
when I looked at the horse
1:15:06
as healer modalities,
1:15:09
because it is another shamanic experience. I
1:15:11
saw the, how heart math
1:15:13
was so complimentary, but I didn't really know how
1:15:15
to merge at the time. I didn't really
1:15:18
know how to give it language. And I realized
1:15:20
now that it's kind of been one
1:15:22
of the ways to really prove
1:15:24
with science, what's going on
1:15:26
when we get in the energetic field with the heart, excuse
1:15:29
me, with the horse. So your heart
1:15:31
and my heart are both producing a field that's measurable
1:15:33
at least three to five feet. Secretariat's
1:15:36
heart was. 21 pounds,
1:15:39
so the field that is created and generated
1:15:41
by the horses is so much greater.
1:15:44
And when we step into that, we can have
1:15:47
what's called an entrainment. And
1:15:49
there's that co regulation and that synchronization
1:15:51
together and
1:15:53
that's the beauty of. Being
1:15:56
able to know now why we had
1:15:59
so intimately been connected
1:16:01
with horse medicine is really
1:16:03
what it is, why it's working. And
1:16:05
I don't really care why, but it is kind
1:16:07
of fun to be able to give language to it now. I
1:16:10
would trust it anyway. But
1:16:13
it's good to be able to explain it. Because,
1:16:16
yeah, when one's working with programs and I go
1:16:19
through, you know, before we started working with neuroscientists
1:16:22
and who started looking at what we were doing with horseboy
1:16:25
method and movement method you know, we were always getting
1:16:27
those questions are basically people coming along and say,
1:16:29
well, tell me why this doesn't suck then you
1:16:31
write. Well, you know, it's really good for you. But
1:16:33
then as soon as the neuroscientists started back, I said, like,
1:16:35
well, you know, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
1:16:38
And that sort of ended that one. Nicely
1:16:40
that why doesn't it suck conversation? You
1:16:42
could get onto more interesting conversations So I think
1:16:44
that's you know, one of the great benefits of heart math
1:16:47
just for again for listeners heart math is not
1:16:49
an equestrian thing But a
1:16:51
lot of equestrian people end
1:16:53
up attracted to it
1:16:55
because when you're talking about the electromagnetic
1:16:58
fields of arts, we all know that we
1:17:00
feel really good around those
1:17:02
great big hearts that are pumping in horses.
1:17:04
Why wouldn't we? But it's, it goes
1:17:07
further than that towards other electromagnetic.
1:17:09
Resonances like trees, like
1:17:12
other people, like just
1:17:15
about everything else on the planet, that's putting out energy, which
1:17:18
is
1:17:18
everything. Exactly. The outreach
1:17:20
of the institute has gone to encompass
1:17:23
all of that as well, because in
1:17:26
the study. When we look at
1:17:28
coherence and how we affect each other
1:17:30
there's a lot of, there's another,
1:17:33
our branch of the Institute of HeartMath called the
1:17:35
Global Coherence Initiative. And
1:17:37
now it's really studying our impact
1:17:39
as a collective, as well
1:17:41
as the impact of trees and
1:17:44
on nature and what meditators
1:17:46
can do in different clusters when we're sending care
1:17:49
to a specific situation and how
1:17:51
that is reflected in the Earth's harmonics. There's
1:17:55
just not enough I would
1:17:57
say data or instrumentation yet. We're
1:17:59
just starting to gather all of it to really show
1:18:01
and prove, yes, your energy
1:18:04
makes a difference. And yes, the collective energy
1:18:06
can also have an, have a huge impact. And
1:18:09
so this is a really empowering aspect
1:18:12
because I think a lot of people, and I certainly
1:18:14
have felt this many times, we feel helpless. Whether
1:18:16
it's in the environmental care or whether
1:18:19
it's working with humanitation issues time
1:18:22
and time again, and part of this is like. The really
1:18:24
gathering of stories that your
1:18:26
impact your heart, your coherent
1:18:29
resonance is
1:18:31
an act of service. So
1:18:34
able to maintain coherence is an act of
1:18:36
service. Go ahead. So
1:18:37
people are interested. Presumably then you're saying heart
1:18:39
math is a place that you can go,
1:18:42
whether physically or probably online
1:18:44
these days and get trained.
1:18:48
What did they train you in?
1:18:50
What do they train people in? Do
1:18:52
you come out of it with a hot math
1:18:54
level one practitioner, level
1:18:56
five practitioner? What, what, what does
1:18:59
it look like? What did you do? What
1:19:02
do people generally do? And then how did that take you into
1:19:04
the equine assisted sort of horses medicine,
1:19:06
equestrian therapy, equine therapy?
1:19:09
Whoa. So
1:19:11
there's a couple of different questions in there. I'll answer the
1:19:14
latter first. So what drew me
1:19:16
is synchronicities as with everything.
1:19:18
There's breadcrumbs in life. And a
1:19:20
dear friend of mine had said, you should check out this
1:19:22
person who's doing equine therapy work.
1:19:24
You might find it interesting. And little
1:19:26
did I know that Arianna Strozzi would become
1:19:29
like family. There was just a soul family connection
1:19:31
there. As I mentioned earlier, I moved
1:19:33
in and did the apprenticeship for, for
1:19:36
some time now. I had already
1:19:38
been working with heart math and learning
1:19:40
about it as my own personal tool for self development
1:19:43
and to deal with depression and anxiety.
1:19:47
So, as a younger person, I had more symptoms
1:19:49
of depression. So
1:19:51
you moved in you moved in with Arianna Strozzi
1:19:53
You felt her as you you started an
1:19:55
apprenticeship with her. What apprenticeship did you
1:19:57
start?
1:19:59
I did so really studying
1:20:02
always being drawn to the
1:20:04
horse medicine and because I had already
1:20:06
been introduced to Native
1:20:08
American wisdom and understanding there's plant medicine
1:20:10
and there's The rock people and there's
1:20:13
the medicine from each and every
1:20:15
animal and from the feathers
1:20:18
themselves. So this
1:20:21
exploration, this deep dive, we could say into
1:20:24
the equine therapy world for me
1:20:26
was really assigning meaning to that, which
1:20:28
I had already. Dedicated
1:20:30
so much of my life to, I wanted to find
1:20:32
what really is in the relationship
1:20:35
with the equine. And I went through,
1:20:37
you know, a deep soul inquiry of, can
1:20:40
we ever ride horses again? Is that truly right
1:20:42
relationship? Should they be installed
1:20:44
at all? I had a very difficult.
1:20:47
Judgment about that for some time and
1:20:49
then the way that I rectified it.
1:20:51
What, what, what, what, at what point did
1:20:53
that happen? Because was it just having
1:20:57
horses in stores for seven years going around doing
1:20:59
the show? Because
1:21:01
the horses seemed in Cavale
1:21:03
to be actually full of well being. So,
1:21:05
what, what, what is it, what, what?
1:21:08
So because I had been exposed to horses
1:21:10
almost always being in a work
1:21:12
environment or being in a stable environment,
1:21:15
I had not been around them as much when they
1:21:17
were free and able to live in
1:21:19
a herd and specifically as a family
1:21:21
herd. And that's something that Ariana
1:21:23
showed me. And once I saw it, I was, it
1:21:25
was so compelling. It was so powerful
1:21:28
to see these natural family herds
1:21:30
and to see them all living on very steep
1:21:32
terrain, which we would. Be worried
1:21:34
and be an overcare of our short horses, you
1:21:36
know, so that created such
1:21:39
a. A strong catalyst
1:21:41
within me that I thought, Oh, that's, it
1:21:44
was like throwing out the baby with the bathwater at
1:21:46
the time. That's where my naivete was
1:21:48
is saying, how could I put any
1:21:51
horse in stalls? Look at what they really
1:21:53
belong to be free. And, and at the
1:21:55
same time, I had a vision to
1:21:57
create a show that was.
1:21:59
Really extrovert and
1:22:02
explicit about its ceremonial
1:22:05
aspects where the herd
1:22:07
would be brought in. It would be outside.
1:22:09
It would depict more of a
1:22:12
Native American environment with with
1:22:14
horses. So, because I had that as my, as
1:22:17
my apex of the
1:22:19
experience of being with horses, I.
1:22:22
Had the pendulum swinging this this other way
1:22:25
and then through inquiry and through understanding
1:22:27
and through really deep journaling and inquiry
1:22:30
with the horses. I saw their tremendous
1:22:32
active devotion and service to
1:22:35
be. People will say, well, the horses don't have a choice.
1:22:38
And I believe that on a soul level,
1:22:41
each soul is really being brought into,
1:22:43
relationship with each other, whether it's interspecies
1:22:47
that they do certainly come into that
1:22:49
incarnation, that embodiment and
1:22:51
they go into the cities and they awaken
1:22:54
the hearts of humanity. It's really
1:22:56
no, nothing less than that. And
1:22:59
so I would agree to learn more
1:23:01
about. Yeah, to learn more
1:23:03
about the magic. That's why I was drawn to the equine therapy
1:23:06
work, but I was insecure at the time
1:23:08
and didn't feel like I knew enough or had enough
1:23:10
life experience to really carry and
1:23:12
facilitate on my own and make that the
1:23:14
forefront of my offer. Ariana
1:23:16
to me was such a shaman, you know, how can
1:23:18
you just take a certification for a couple of weeks and
1:23:21
then think that you are going to have
1:23:23
that same magic really.
1:23:25
So I never, I didn't.
1:23:28
Right away, start to make that my, my
1:23:30
offer and I went back into the performance
1:23:32
world, which I knew how, and then I was still using
1:23:35
HeartMath always as my own
1:23:38
really tool for therapy and understanding
1:23:40
how to regulate my own emotional landscape
1:23:44
and I became certified in
1:23:46
HeartMath for, to be a private coach
1:23:48
back in 2011 and
1:23:50
at the time that was the way that you
1:23:52
would offer it was really one on one and
1:23:56
I also didn't do anything with it at that time.
1:23:58
So even though my life externally seemed
1:24:00
like I was, it was glamorous and I was confident and I
1:24:02
can hang and be brave upside down on horses, I
1:24:05
was still. Insecure
1:24:08
and not confident to be
1:24:10
what one might term as. A
1:24:13
spiritual guide or a coach for others. It
1:24:16
took me another 15 years
1:24:18
really to get enough life experience
1:24:20
and to have other shifts
1:24:23
taking PLA in place in my psyche that
1:24:25
I could be rooted enough to really be able to hold
1:24:27
space for others. And that was
1:24:29
just part of like ma the making
1:24:31
of wine or just the, the
1:24:34
curating of ripeness. Yeah. Maturation.
1:24:37
to change about the maturation. Exactly.
1:24:40
And so now since
1:24:42
COVID, I was again, really forced
1:24:44
into a pivot and
1:24:47
I became a HeartMath certified trainer,
1:24:49
which basically means that you can teach
1:24:51
tools, the techniques,
1:24:54
and a lot of it has to start with a foundational
1:24:56
practice that is breathwork and
1:24:59
really understanding that when we Actively
1:25:01
set the intention to co create with our heart
1:25:03
and to breathe into the heart and chest area.
1:25:06
Then that right away begins
1:25:09
to activate the neurons
1:25:11
that exist within our hearts. And
1:25:13
there's a facilitation that
1:25:15
begins to create again that synchronization,
1:25:18
that coherence. And then there's other
1:25:20
tools that build upon that.
1:25:22
And it's really focusing on how to start
1:25:25
to perceive our own somatic
1:25:28
Perceptions or our somatic
1:25:30
feelings as well as being able
1:25:32
to consciously direct our frequency
1:25:34
and being aware of how what
1:25:37
we are, how we are broadcasting, what we
1:25:39
are broadcasting. And then with that,
1:25:41
with that awareness, we, we discuss
1:25:44
about how to make modulations or how to make
1:25:46
attunements and shifts,
1:25:48
okay. You talked about, you just said
1:25:50
something there, you said neurons in your heart. I think
1:25:52
a lot of listeners may
1:25:54
be aware, but perhaps some are not. Just
1:25:56
as a context for that your gut, your
1:25:59
heart and your brain are all composed
1:26:01
of neurons. It used to be thought that
1:26:04
the neurons were just all the preserve
1:26:06
of the brain. It's not true at all. And
1:26:08
it's just, I just wanted to chuck that in there because if someone's
1:26:11
listening to something like this for the first time. What?
1:26:14
Hold on. Neurons in the heart? Yes, indeed.
1:26:16
Heart, brain. So you could argue it's all one brain
1:26:18
or it's three brains or whatever, but that's
1:26:20
why gut feelings, that's why heart feelings, that's why
1:26:23
These things are, you know, as
1:26:25
valid as the intellect, if not more so, and
1:26:27
the intellect without them is limited because
1:26:30
it's not the full thing
1:26:32
happening that the neurons can
1:26:35
offer. Again, also for people
1:26:37
that I should have, I should have also said Ariana
1:26:39
Storzi, now Mizuki, it's that's
1:26:41
the Sky Horse Academy,
1:26:43
right? Why, what,
1:26:46
and I hope to, I'd love to get her on the show actually, what,
1:26:49
what is it about that because,
1:26:51
because, you know, there's been a ton
1:26:53
of equine assisted offerings. There still
1:26:55
are. It's a good thing. You know, there ought to be,
1:26:58
but what was it about that particular one?
1:27:00
Absolutely.
1:27:03
I, these questions that you ask,
1:27:05
ultimately, I go a lot of intuition
1:27:08
and synchronicity. So, you know, it's being
1:27:10
in the right place at the right time, doing the right thing with the
1:27:12
right people for the right reasons, a lot
1:27:14
of rights and alignments. And
1:27:17
I didn't know until I got in there, it was just
1:27:19
a feeling, right? I wrote a letter to Ariana.
1:27:22
She invited me in as soon
1:27:25
as we saw each other. So I was.
1:27:27
As I mentioned a little bit earlier,
1:27:29
a dear friend of mine, he was actually
1:27:32
interested in her partner's book,
1:27:34
where he was teaching Aikido
1:27:37
to military and
1:27:40
when he was looking at this person,
1:27:42
Richard Strozzi Heckler. He
1:27:44
learned about Arianna and how she had a horse ranch with
1:27:46
self development and he said, Oh, you should check it out.
1:27:49
And so when I started to explore, and this is back
1:27:51
in 2008, and I'd already had my first
1:27:53
daughter and I just left the Cavalia
1:27:56
tour for the first time, did have a break back
1:27:58
in California after being all around the world. And
1:28:01
then I went out there and when we met,
1:28:03
it was like, Oh, she, what
1:28:05
the way she describes it as, Oh, we'll
1:28:07
be in the foxhole together. You know, we
1:28:10
have probably many
1:28:12
births together and
1:28:14
there was just, it was family and it still
1:28:16
is. And we're very dear to
1:28:18
each other. And I ended up moving in with
1:28:21
my family. They're living on the ranch for several
1:28:23
years and helping to co facilitate the
1:28:25
programs and really just spending time, you
1:28:27
know, deep. And I always say at the feet
1:28:29
of the master. And to answer your question,
1:28:31
what makes equine guided education
1:28:33
is that model. There's so many different acronyms
1:28:36
and Arianna was at the forefront of
1:28:38
a lot of the, the name building
1:28:40
and all the certification programs that
1:28:43
were being developed at the time. And
1:28:45
she always said, I hope there's a day when there's
1:28:47
an equine guided educator or
1:28:49
an equine assisted facilitator, whatever.
1:28:52
Acronyms you want to use on every corner,
1:28:55
just like you can always find a chiropractor and acupuncturist
1:28:58
that it will really serve the needs and
1:29:01
I just feel really fortunate
1:29:03
to have seen that arc as
1:29:05
we were all in the beginning of it together. So
1:29:07
the difference that I would say,
1:29:10
or the uniqueness is Ariana, it's
1:29:12
not exclusive to horses. It
1:29:14
really is opening up to the entire
1:29:16
natural world and observation. You
1:29:18
will have messages from the wind
1:29:21
and from The rabbit
1:29:23
that comes through and the way that the sun
1:29:26
passes, that's all part of the equine guided
1:29:28
experience, the integration
1:29:30
of equine therapy, really
1:29:32
understanding that that's just the entry point
1:29:35
into being in relationship with the
1:29:37
whole natural world. Right?
1:29:38
Yeah. Yeah. The horses bring us into nature
1:29:40
for sure. What are you doing
1:29:43
with sky horse currently and heart math?
1:29:46
Where is this led you now? As
1:29:48
we speak. You also mentioned that you do
1:29:50
do some performances. What kind of performances are you
1:29:52
doing now? And how's all that integrated?
1:29:55
Sure, I still perform my
1:29:57
lasso, which I can bring my ropes
1:29:59
anywhere, and, you know,
1:30:01
there's actually a name in the Divine
1:30:04
Mothers where she who's holding the rope
1:30:06
of love in her hand. So the rope
1:30:08
of love is the Divine Mother's way of
1:30:11
really connecting all of us. You
1:30:13
know, it's really in spiral movements
1:30:16
that the lasso moves around. So I
1:30:18
still perform lasso with my children and
1:30:20
it'll, I can be hired. Oftentimes
1:30:22
I'm only giving it to charity organizations.
1:30:25
So as part of a fundraiser, that's kind
1:30:27
of been the thing that's happened over the last few years.
1:30:30
And then I haven't had horses because I travel
1:30:32
so much and because I really have devoted a lot
1:30:34
of my life to the spiritual
1:30:37
journey and means
1:30:40
that. I'm always riding for other
1:30:42
people or riding with other people,
1:30:44
and it's a great opportunity because I ride so
1:30:46
many different horses. So I
1:30:48
don't have my own trick riding horses that I perform on,
1:30:51
but last summer I made,
1:30:53
I don't know, three or four Roman, Roman riding
1:30:55
teams at different. Barns
1:30:57
and different stable stables and different causes,
1:31:00
and really the bulk of my work has
1:31:02
now become the EGE
1:31:05
philosophy that's been threaded throughout
1:31:07
everything that I do. So that's equine guided education,
1:31:10
working with skyhorse as a, as
1:31:12
a, an instructor basically. And
1:31:14
I do private coaching as well as group
1:31:16
retreats with integrating the HeartMath
1:31:19
and horsemanship and the equine guided
1:31:22
education philosophy. What
1:31:24
I find. Lately is
1:31:26
a lot of people who want to have a better connection with
1:31:28
their horses are carrying some sort
1:31:30
of residual trauma or residual
1:31:33
guilt or shame that get
1:31:35
it's an impediment to connection. And
1:31:38
so 1 of the 1st things we do is I will guide
1:31:40
people into their hearts and through
1:31:42
some basic breath, working practices
1:31:44
breath, work practices that will help
1:31:46
to open up. A compassionate space.
1:31:49
And that compassionate frequency will
1:31:52
allow for any sort of emotional
1:31:55
residual energy to be spun
1:31:58
off or to be let go of, and just
1:32:00
really create that sacred container, that safe
1:32:02
space. And then the interactions
1:32:04
with the, with their horses can
1:32:06
really take a new form.
1:32:09
They can expand beyond, because
1:32:11
there's not those old patterns or stories
1:32:14
that might be still holding back into
1:32:16
the past. And that really helps,
1:32:18
whether it's working on groundwork,
1:32:21
or wanting to do something with liberty, or
1:32:23
doing mounted exercises, either in dressage,
1:32:25
or in you know, reigning cowhorse, whatever
1:32:27
the desire is. It
1:32:30
doesn't matter, but first rooting
1:32:32
in what is the frequency that
1:32:34
is desired. And then the
1:32:37
discipline or then the technique can be
1:32:39
applied after the attunement has
1:32:41
happened in the vibrational realm.
1:32:43
So. If somebody wants to,
1:32:46
are you, for example, I'm looking at you over Zoom,
1:32:49
and I know you're in California currently, are you
1:32:51
at Skyhorse Ranch now, where are you, and
1:32:53
if somebody wants to come and do these things
1:32:55
with you, where do they, you go into
1:32:57
where they are, or they come to a place
1:32:59
where you are, how
1:33:00
does it work? Yeah. I go
1:33:03
to, to where I'm invited. So
1:33:05
I still have been living this, you know,
1:33:07
circus cowgirl, gypsy life lifestyle.
1:33:10
And so I travel quite a bit. I mean, I did, we haven't
1:33:12
talked about that at all, but I did just come back from the Patagonia
1:33:15
where I spent the last month connecting with the
1:33:17
gaucho horses. And
1:33:19
so that is, has been its own other
1:33:21
amazing shamanic experience. But
1:33:23
I will be at Skyhorse this summer doing
1:33:25
programs with Ariana. There's a few
1:33:28
clinics that'll be throughout California and
1:33:30
then a base out of Canada,
1:33:33
but really wherever there's an invitation
1:33:37
and honestly, it's, it's
1:33:39
much more of following the energy. And
1:33:41
that's also a principle of equine guided education
1:33:43
that in Ariana's apprenticeship,
1:33:45
it was like, where is there energy
1:33:47
and where's there's not. And when there's a flow,
1:33:49
and right now there's been a huge amount of energy,
1:33:51
just bringing me back to my homeland,
1:33:53
back to California, where I've been distanced
1:33:56
from for quite some time. So
1:33:58
I've been coming back and connecting with the land
1:34:00
here and really finding myself
1:34:02
in all kinds of wonderful little neighborhoods
1:34:05
and stables and these. pods,
1:34:07
if you will, these circles of connection,
1:34:10
circles of compassion, and to continue
1:34:12
to just facilitate so that we can
1:34:14
let go of the judgment that we have that gets
1:34:16
in the way and be compassionate for
1:34:18
our own journey. You know, the horses
1:34:20
are so infinitely compassionate.
1:34:23
We make mistakes. We're going to be clumsy.
1:34:25
We're going to do things without proper timing.
1:34:28
And oftentimes just acknowledging
1:34:31
that and allowing people to really rest
1:34:33
in that compassionate latitude, that's
1:34:36
a huge healing in and of itself. And
1:34:38
so my greatest joy is to help facilitate
1:34:40
those moments.
1:34:42
So, Patagonia and
1:34:45
India.
1:34:45
So
1:34:49
last year, you know, we all know, right, that
1:34:51
we're at war, unfortunately, I'm
1:34:54
sitting here in Germany, we're at war, and
1:34:56
it's war is in Europe again. And
1:34:59
it really is. I'm sitting, oh,
1:35:02
just 200 meters from where
1:35:04
there's, I don't know, quite a bunch
1:35:06
of Ukrainian families
1:35:09
and, you know, we know what's going on. And
1:35:11
you found yourself in India
1:35:15
doing something rather extraordinary at
1:35:17
this historic moment last
1:35:21
year. Please talk to us about that. What did you do?
1:35:24
And why, how did you end up
1:35:25
there? So
1:35:27
part of the service oriented
1:35:30
outreach of HeartMath and
1:35:32
specifically with a group called the Heart Ambassadors
1:35:34
that I've been involved with for over a decade
1:35:37
is outreach internationally,
1:35:40
both for helping improve
1:35:43
the status of women, as
1:35:45
well as working to teach
1:35:47
emotional self regulation to children, street
1:35:50
children, and Also teaching sustainable
1:35:52
agriculture. So there's a lot of different avenues
1:35:55
and all of those. Aspects,
1:36:00
all of those projects really came
1:36:02
together for an opportunity to
1:36:05
discuss and to give back for
1:36:07
the G20 that took place in India last
1:36:09
year. So I went along
1:36:11
as the delegate for the FIERA Foundation
1:36:14
and for Heart Ambassadors, we
1:36:18
presented along with my daughter, which was
1:36:20
amazing because it was actually her
1:36:23
inclination that. That we went,
1:36:25
I thought that she was going to be going with a different chaperone
1:36:28
and we couldn't find one. And so I
1:36:30
ended up going along with her. So
1:36:33
the first summit that we attended was
1:36:35
integrated holistic health and teaching about heart
1:36:37
math principles and how that
1:36:40
can actually remove bias that is so present
1:36:42
because a lot of the data that we have is
1:36:44
also very gender biased.
1:36:47
At the same time, being able to have integrated
1:36:50
holistic health to be able to merge
1:36:52
both Western and, you know, Arya
1:36:54
Vedic and other holistic principles
1:36:57
is part of where the conversations
1:36:59
were being steered in that particular
1:37:01
summit. Then we also were participating
1:37:04
in the gender equality summit and.
1:37:07
Creating policy declaration and
1:37:10
across the board, whether it was digital
1:37:12
technology and security, whether it was education
1:37:15
or the net zero targets where we attended the
1:37:18
programs that were in Sikkim, which is
1:37:20
the northern part of India, close to the border of
1:37:22
Nepal, Bhutan and China,
1:37:24
Tibet, every
1:37:27
single sector said
1:37:29
that mental health was at the top of their list
1:37:32
of concern and
1:37:35
One of the things that we were advocating for
1:37:37
was the acknowledgement
1:37:39
for emotional self regulation, both at
1:37:41
the highest levels in government organizations, as
1:37:43
well as the being
1:37:45
at the foundation for education
1:37:48
in schools and employment.
1:37:51
So. It was such a gift
1:37:53
to see how we can,
1:37:56
a lot of people have judgment about the G20
1:37:59
itself and saying that it could be, it's, it can
1:38:01
be deemed as very ineffective. But
1:38:03
what happens there is that you meet other
1:38:05
NGOs, all the other CSOs, the civil service
1:38:07
organizations that gather together who
1:38:10
are doing incredible work, their grassroots
1:38:12
organizations, connecting with them.
1:38:15
Created such a renewed sense of optimism
1:38:17
when you walk away and you see all of
1:38:19
these projects that are happening on the front lines
1:38:22
that in and of itself creates
1:38:24
a resonance because the optimism feeling
1:38:27
that we optimistic feeling that we have that
1:38:29
generates momentum and so the ripple
1:38:31
effect that is we're still feeling
1:38:34
that. From that incredible six
1:38:36
weeks that we ended up spending, I was supposed to be there for two weeks
1:38:38
and we ended up staying for six and traveling
1:38:41
from the southern tip of Kerala,
1:38:43
we were in Delhi, Bhuvaneshwar, as well
1:38:45
as Sikkim for all of the different G20 conferences.
1:38:49
And in that time, is
1:38:51
there a time when you then stand in front of
1:38:55
Biden, Mosey,
1:38:57
Rishi Sunak and say,
1:38:59
listen chaps. I'm going to tell you about this hot
1:39:02
math thing, or is
1:39:04
it more diffused than that? How,
1:39:06
what's the structure of it?
1:39:08
Well, the process is there's a very
1:39:10
long bureaucratic process
1:39:13
of creating policy declaration
1:39:15
because just to give you an idea, when the
1:39:17
G20 took the civil, the CSO
1:39:19
civil service organizations as part of the C20
1:39:22
branch of the G20. And so.
1:39:25
That took place in Indonesia
1:39:27
in 2022. They had,
1:39:29
I think, over 500 NGOs
1:39:32
that came together for it. And that was inclusive
1:39:35
of all of the different working groups. This
1:39:37
year, just for the integrated holistic health in
1:39:39
India, they had over 800 and there's
1:39:41
14 different working groups. So it's a massive
1:39:43
amount of input and data and
1:39:46
contributions and opinions that
1:39:48
everybody is trying to collect and assemble. And
1:39:51
my, extreme deep
1:39:53
bow of respect goes to the organizers
1:39:55
who were able to process. They didn't use
1:39:58
it. Use AI to do this, but to
1:40:00
really go and listen
1:40:02
to the concerns to the suggestions
1:40:05
to the policy declarations to each and every
1:40:07
individual who was there gathered at the table
1:40:09
for the separate working working groups.
1:40:13
So we would gather and have forum, and each person
1:40:15
might get just a minute to speak. And
1:40:17
then we would be crafting policy
1:40:19
declarations, and then it would be whittled down
1:40:22
to another, say, 350 words.
1:40:24
And then white papers could be added,
1:40:27
so supported research papers could be added
1:40:29
as an addendum. But ultimately,
1:40:31
there was a whole policy declaration packet
1:40:33
that G20 leaders
1:40:35
in September, after months of
1:40:38
delegate input, and then editing
1:40:41
processes. And
1:40:43
what did,
1:40:43
what did those leaders do with those
1:40:46
policy declarations that you guys provided
1:40:48
them? Did they use them as toilet paper? Did
1:40:50
they roll joints with them? Did they actually
1:40:53
read them? What did they do with them?
1:40:55
Well, like I said, The end result,
1:40:58
I think humans, we can get quite fixated on.
1:41:00
You have to make a policy. You have to make a change
1:41:02
right now. We want to see this implemented immediately.
1:41:04
And to me, the gathering
1:41:07
of the group is really something to highlight and
1:41:09
focus upon. They were given
1:41:11
the policy packet recommendations,
1:41:13
and then there was certain targets
1:41:17
that they will implement. And
1:41:19
so, for example, by 2025,
1:41:22
it was, we could say, mandated
1:41:25
that. Emotional self regulation, emotional
1:41:28
self regulation tools will be taught
1:41:30
through all government agencies as well
1:41:32
as schools in the G20 countries.
1:41:35
Right? So that's 1 example. The
1:41:38
the. For
1:41:40
example, the disability working group
1:41:43
was bracketed underneath the gender equality.
1:41:45
It was kind of sandwiched in there. And
1:41:48
1 of the changes that we were a part of
1:41:50
is that needs to be its own separate working
1:41:52
group and delegation. And so that
1:41:54
was another win that came out of the 2023
1:41:57
conferences and each time
1:41:59
that everybody gathers, there's small.
1:42:02
Incremental steps toward
1:42:05
really what we all want to see, but
1:42:07
the conversations that happen around it and the
1:42:09
connections that are made, because ultimately
1:42:11
it's the people on the ground that implement. So,
1:42:14
whether or not it comes from the heads of state,
1:42:16
the people on the ground say, oh, this is what's working in my
1:42:18
country. Oh, this is a great program. Let's emulate.
1:42:21
Okay, let's network on this. And then
1:42:23
we start to really see that grow.
1:42:25
And that movement creates, I
1:42:27
would say a larger waterfall
1:42:30
of change than anything coming from
1:42:32
the top down.
1:42:33
Right. And would you say that then the,
1:42:35
the policy recommendations
1:42:37
that are made, is it also way to sub
1:42:39
telegraphing to those
1:42:41
leaders? And of course the apparatus is around those
1:42:43
leaders, which are, as you say, longer
1:42:47
there than any elected official,
1:42:49
you know, the state department will be the state department,
1:42:51
no matter who is in who the president
1:42:53
is currently. British Civil Service will
1:42:55
be the British Civil Service, no matter who happens
1:42:57
to be Prime Minister right now. Is it, is
1:42:59
it signaling to those policy makers,
1:43:02
listen, this is where the zeitgeist is
1:43:04
right now. This is where
1:43:06
people want to go. So
1:43:09
if you don't go this
1:43:11
way, you're sort of going against history. If you go
1:43:13
this way, you're going with the constituency,
1:43:16
and it's evolving this way. So we recommend
1:43:18
that you. Do these things. Is it sort of like
1:43:21
that? Certainly.
1:43:23
I mean, I think like, like I said, with
1:43:25
the fact that mental health came up
1:43:27
at the top of the list for so many. This
1:43:30
was an indisputable concern
1:43:34
that really needed to be addressed.
1:43:37
And so it has more gravity associated
1:43:39
with that.
1:43:41
That's brilliant. Okay. What
1:43:43
was the name of the foundation again? I know
1:43:46
I'm playing devil's advocate, but I think people need
1:43:47
to hear this. Sure. It's
1:43:49
the Fiera Foundation, F Y
1:43:52
E R A Foundation. F Y
1:43:54
E R A. And the Fiera Foundation has also been
1:43:56
involved with the United Nations for quite some
1:43:59
time and speaks on the Who
1:44:01
are they? Commission for the Status of Women. And why are you involved
1:44:03
in them? And it's started,
1:44:05
it's a non profit that began by
1:44:07
my mentor through HeartMath. And
1:44:10
it started out She was working,
1:44:12
her name is Sheva Kaur. And
1:44:15
Sheva Is another person that
1:44:17
you could have on the show is is
1:44:19
amazing. She was
1:44:21
working in Nicaragua during
1:44:23
the war and she
1:44:26
was so impacted by her experience
1:44:28
there that she wanted to be able to give back and started
1:44:31
at 1st, a nonprofit that was. Just
1:44:34
feeding and clothing and bringing
1:44:36
education to rural, mostly
1:44:39
rural street children. And then that expanded
1:44:42
to also creating some sustainable agriculture
1:44:44
programs as well as teaching heart math.
1:44:47
And then that organization
1:44:49
grew to being able to
1:44:52
also have programs in Zimbabwe.
1:44:54
Bringing clean water. There's been
1:44:57
teaching emotional self-regulation to
1:44:59
refugees in different war
1:45:01
torn situations, as well as working
1:45:04
on negotiations between Israel and
1:45:06
Palestine. There's an outreach
1:45:08
that is in California helping those
1:45:10
who've been dealing with disaster from
1:45:13
fires and, and things like that,
1:45:15
and being displaced from climate. Emergencies
1:45:19
and teaching heart math as well. So. If
1:45:22
it makes sense to really bring in
1:45:24
the actual tools of heart math, then
1:45:26
that can come in. But ultimately, we we've
1:45:29
also learned that just having basic
1:45:31
needs, then you can
1:45:33
start to share and teach tools.
1:45:35
So, if the need at the time
1:45:38
is really just providing basic
1:45:40
sustenance or basic education
1:45:42
or basic supplies so that they can go to
1:45:44
school, then that's the means the needs that
1:45:46
are met. So there's many different,
1:45:49
projects that the fear foundation has been involved
1:45:51
in for quite some time.
1:45:52
And the fear foundation was actually originally
1:45:54
sending your daughter and you were going along with
1:45:56
Shafira and then of course got
1:45:58
involved. Why
1:45:59
was it sending your daughter? She as
1:46:01
a youth delegate. Okay. How old
1:46:03
is your daughter? How old was
1:46:05
she then? She's 18. She's 18.
1:46:07
She was 17. Yeah.
1:46:09
So we ended up going, going together.
1:46:11
I haven't traveling so much at the time. I
1:46:13
thought, Oh, I can't, I had just gotten back
1:46:15
into the country, been gone for seven months.
1:46:17
And I thought, I can't leave for India in two weeks.
1:46:20
But I did, and I went for, for
1:46:23
six. So that's part of
1:46:25
just really following my heart
1:46:27
and, and being able
1:46:31
and willing to be of service in that way.
1:46:34
Okay.
1:46:35
So now I happen
1:46:37
to know that you and my
1:46:39
great friend, Warwick Schiller, have been down
1:46:42
more recently in Patagonia and
1:46:45
you've been doing a
1:46:47
very fun and rather crazy adventure down
1:46:49
there that people call the Gaucho Derby.
1:46:54
Why? It's, I know
1:46:56
it's like a 500 mile ride through
1:46:58
Patagonia, which of course anyone would
1:47:00
want to do just for its own sake, because it's an awesome
1:47:02
thing to do. Is it just.
1:47:06
A wealthy, horsey person's
1:47:09
fun month. And there's nothing
1:47:11
wrong with that,
1:47:14
or is it something
1:47:16
else as well? What was going on with that?
1:47:18
Why, why were you going down there and doing that thing?
1:47:22
And tell us about it. What is
1:47:24
the Gaucho Derby? Certainly.
1:47:26
So the Gaucho Derby itself, it's a 500
1:47:28
kilometer track. When
1:47:30
we were there, they decided to explain
1:47:33
to us all the, the truth behind it is it's
1:47:35
not a horse race. It is a
1:47:37
survivalist, orienteering,
1:47:39
mountaineering race. On horses,
1:47:42
self navigated so there is no
1:47:44
real trail. You have GPS points that you
1:47:47
follow along the way. There's 19 of those until
1:47:49
you get to the finish line. It's supposed
1:47:51
to be 500 kilometers, however, work and
1:47:53
I tracked 687. So
1:47:56
that's about 425 miles
1:47:59
and you have 10 days to complete it.
1:48:02
The, the leaders came in, I believe at eight
1:48:04
days, we came in at nine and
1:48:06
then the rest came in at
1:48:07
10. Are you like hundreds of riders strung out
1:48:09
over the same landscape or do you? You all start
1:48:11
at different times in little teams.
1:48:13
How's it go? Well,
1:48:15
we all start off this start line at the same
1:48:17
time. There's not hundreds of writers
1:48:19
from what I understand. There's a couple hundred applicants,
1:48:21
but there's only about 40 writers.
1:48:24
I think we had 38 from several different countries
1:48:27
and everybody converges and has three
1:48:29
days of orientation that include intense
1:48:31
medical briefings. And yeah, Yeah.
1:48:33
Understanding how to work the GPS, as well
1:48:35
as being able to pack all of your equipment on your horses
1:48:38
securely. That was
1:48:40
definitely tested, especially within the 1st
1:48:42
week or 1st few days of riding is invariably
1:48:46
saddle would turn. Horses would go off
1:48:48
and gear would go everywhere. So
1:48:50
arriving early to get all of
1:48:52
that. Dialed in, it
1:48:54
was really useful. So the
1:48:57
reason that I did it, Rupert, is Warwick
1:48:59
had actually invited me or told me about it and
1:49:01
said, Hey, would you be interested in doing this about a year
1:49:03
ago when I ran into him at Aquitana?
1:49:06
And I thought immediately I said, no,
1:49:09
I don't need to put myself in that
1:49:12
either ego trip or
1:49:14
kind of this race that just seems like
1:49:16
an adventure thing. And I don't want to
1:49:18
put myself in a situation where I could compromise
1:49:20
my horse's welfare. That to me
1:49:22
was a big red flag. Then
1:49:25
a year passed. I
1:49:27
like many of us have been modulating
1:49:29
and I think in huge hinge
1:49:32
points and there's just tremendous amount of growth
1:49:34
taking place on the planet right now. And
1:49:37
when I spoke with Warwick about it again, I thought,
1:49:39
gosh, what an interesting, I learned more about the Derby.
1:49:41
I learned more about Stevie Della Hunt, who was
1:49:43
his coach, who's been down there and she's one of the event
1:49:45
organizers. And I thought,
1:49:48
and was really captivated by the horses.
1:49:51
So, he said that somebody dropped
1:49:53
out last minute and if I was interested, I could contact
1:49:55
this other person. Basically
1:49:57
most people. Plan for a year
1:49:59
or more and I had about 6 weeks
1:50:02
to get everything together and I had to get
1:50:04
really clear about why I was doing it. And
1:50:06
number 1 was by far to connect with those horses.
1:50:09
I had heard amazing things about them and
1:50:11
how they have really retained their spirit
1:50:14
and their connection to their
1:50:17
authentic self and their authentic
1:50:19
capabilities of full
1:50:21
Full embodiment of the equine
1:50:24
is just next level. How,
1:50:26
how those horses are so
1:50:29
agile and so adept at
1:50:31
carrying humans on their back across
1:50:33
treacherous landscapes. And
1:50:35
at the same time, I also wanted
1:50:37
to go there to connect with
1:50:39
the land and to really.
1:50:42
I was able to get a first hand experience about the Patagonia
1:50:46
region. It was the only country that I
1:50:48
had our continent that I hadn't really been on
1:50:51
and I know that the Patagonia has
1:50:53
sensitive, delicate, specialized landscape
1:50:56
that I was interested in learning more about
1:50:58
it and seeing what I could do to give back.
1:51:00
I was shocked at how many people did not know
1:51:03
that the Patagonia region was in South America.
1:51:06
That I encountered so
1:51:08
always wanting to bring
1:51:10
that back for education, both to
1:51:13
some of the clients and nonprofits that I work with.
1:51:15
I still work with at risk youth and
1:51:17
different inner city context
1:51:20
and then to be able to
1:51:22
share the wisdom
1:51:24
that I felt. Those were the two reasons
1:51:26
that I wanted to go there, and my
1:51:28
experience was exceeded my expectations
1:51:31
in all ways. I was able
1:51:33
to connect with those
1:51:35
horses and feel, again, I talked
1:51:37
about it at the beginning of our discussion, when
1:51:40
one has safety, the resonance of safety,
1:51:42
when that is present, then you can be of service to
1:51:44
others. And so because I felt really
1:51:46
safe and secure on my horses, I was able to help.
1:51:49
Whether it was just holding another
1:51:51
person's horse, because they needed to reset their saddle
1:51:53
or whether it was giving extra food,
1:51:56
because somebody's resupply bag hadn't shown up
1:51:58
and just offering kind words and guidance
1:52:00
and support and compassion, because
1:52:03
everybody was tested out there. It was really
1:52:05
challenging the weather,
1:52:07
the. Just being on demand all the time.
1:52:09
You're setting up your own tent. You're riding about
1:52:12
10 to 12 hours a day. You
1:52:14
have to draw the number out of hat
1:52:16
for the horse that you get and then go in and catch them.
1:52:19
And none of that is easy. It went
1:52:21
really well for me, and I'm grateful
1:52:23
for that. I had a. Fantastic
1:52:25
experience and just adored every 1 of my horses and
1:52:27
would have brought them back home. And
1:52:30
I also met my growth edge, which
1:52:32
is, in the beginning, I
1:52:34
had also imagined that we might be
1:52:37
able to flow along closer
1:52:39
to the front of the pack and right at
1:52:41
the beginning work and I had decided
1:52:43
that we would stay with each other. And on day 2,
1:52:47
he actually cut a horse out of a fence. And so
1:52:49
that created a little bit of a delay as we were going into a vet
1:52:51
check. So we were held back and
1:52:53
then he cut another horse out of a fence that
1:52:55
got. All 4 legs stuck into
1:52:57
some wires and I was teasing. Oh, I'm just
1:52:59
going to hang around with work while he helps rescue horses.
1:53:02
But he had a horse that came up lame. And so we went all
1:53:04
the way back and there was a certain
1:53:07
amount of disappointment that I had to unpack
1:53:10
because it sure would have been fun
1:53:12
to be up there with some of our other friends. But
1:53:14
as. The universe would create
1:53:17
a perfect situation. We
1:53:19
had no idea that we actually
1:53:22
were all going to meet because it
1:53:24
was, you know, 1 step forward,
1:53:26
2 steps back. You never know how it was going to
1:53:28
happen and how people were going to reconvene. But.
1:53:31
There was, there was definitely an
1:53:34
elasticity to, you know, who the leaders
1:53:36
were and, and what the metric of success
1:53:39
would be and could be. And
1:53:41
as soon, I felt really blessed
1:53:43
that on day 2, I had to shed
1:53:45
that metric of success immediately.
1:53:48
And so then it allowed me to just really be open
1:53:50
and available. The entire experience
1:53:53
because success for me was being
1:53:55
able to be present, being able to have that
1:53:58
security and that connection
1:54:00
with the horses and to stay
1:54:03
safe and complete it while
1:54:05
feeling good and and
1:54:07
in that sense, it was extremely successful
1:54:09
and I adored all of those horses and it
1:54:12
was. Right, good fun as well.
1:54:15
I won't tell anyone about the fun bit. What's
1:54:18
the element of service that you think you're gonna now
1:54:20
you've had your eyes open to this part
1:54:22
of the world? I know that there are, I happen to know, because I'm
1:54:24
involved in the conservation world, so I happen
1:54:27
to know that there are large scale, large,
1:54:29
large scale conservation measures going on down
1:54:31
there. Through, you know, the company Patagonia,
1:54:34
the clothing company, and all sorts of private
1:54:36
philanthropists. But. What, what,
1:54:39
you know, what, what element of service do you
1:54:41
feel is your next chapter now?
1:54:43
It's clearly you've been drawn down there. What,
1:54:46
what's, what's next for you? Are you going to do something down
1:54:48
there? Something
1:54:48
interesting? Well, I would
1:54:50
like to continue to educate. And so
1:54:52
I would really be attracted to bringing groups down there
1:54:55
so that they can see firsthand and learn and understand
1:54:58
the vastness. It's really the undeveloped aspect
1:55:00
of it. And so there's a pristine
1:55:03
quality to the land and that when we are
1:55:05
truly removed from. Both wifi
1:55:07
signals, as well as cities and roads and infrastructures,
1:55:09
because those roads themselves disrupt
1:55:11
migratory patterns, as you know, very well.
1:55:14
There's less development civilization.
1:55:17
So one can experience
1:55:20
a lot of stillness
1:55:23
that is quite rare. I find
1:55:25
in other aspects or in
1:55:27
other places in society. So there's
1:55:30
something to be said for just Being
1:55:32
able to drop in deeply and then
1:55:34
at the same time, there's actual opportunities
1:55:37
for outreach that right now. I
1:55:39
was able to meet somebody who is aligned with that
1:55:41
particular Patagonia conservations where
1:55:43
they're giving back land. So they're buying massive amounts of
1:55:45
land and then giving it back and creating
1:55:47
national park systems. And I saw
1:55:50
some of the land that. Is still
1:55:52
being contested, still
1:55:55
estancias, and there's private ownerships
1:55:57
in between parks, for example, that they want
1:55:59
to conserve. And there's different endemic species
1:56:02
that basically just need funding
1:56:04
to be able to research properly. For example,
1:56:06
there's the hooded grid, which
1:56:08
is a water bird that. I
1:56:11
think it was 40 years ago, they had 5000
1:56:13
and now the numbers are down to like 400 mating pairs.
1:56:16
And part of it is because of a loss of habitat,
1:56:19
not just because of less snow,
1:56:22
which those lagoons create a specific environment,
1:56:24
but also the introduction introduction of
1:56:26
invasive species, the American mink.
1:56:30
That really does a number on the population,
1:56:33
but being able to bring
1:56:35
awareness to that and say, oh, there's things that we can
1:56:37
do. We just need to be able to get more research. We
1:56:39
need to have a little bit more support down
1:56:41
here so that we can, make an impact,
1:56:43
it can happen right now. Right now, a time
1:56:46
is of the essence. And then there was also
1:56:48
another endemic species a type of
1:56:50
chinchilla that has been hunted
1:56:52
both for its fur and for its meat. And
1:56:55
those are also protective in those conservation
1:56:57
lands, which you know, Douglas and
1:56:59
Chris Thompson were very. A Tompkins,
1:57:01
excuse me, we're very instrumental in creating
1:57:04
that particular sanctuary. So,
1:57:07
I have always said, I just want to align
1:57:09
myself to really be an instrument. And if that is just
1:57:12
to be able to create a pathway of
1:57:14
information to start to come back and
1:57:16
then be able to show people firsthand how
1:57:18
they can make an impact. It's about education
1:57:21
and creating educational opportunities.
1:57:23
I had discussions with somebody who was actually
1:57:26
the, secretary of the environment
1:57:28
for the Santa Cruz state and already
1:57:30
has a lot of ideas
1:57:32
to educate the local community,
1:57:35
but just needs some help with, like, developing
1:57:37
apps and being able to create
1:57:40
a kind of the technology to support around it.
1:57:42
So, I'm interested in collaborating with
1:57:44
some of my friends that are in tech to see if we can do
1:57:46
that to help him.
1:57:47
Cool. So you're going to be doing more stuff down there.
1:57:51
I'd like to absolutely sounds like
1:57:53
I just got back like a couple weeks ago.
1:57:55
So, I mean, I
1:57:57
think I came back eight days ago. So this
1:57:59
is very recent.
1:58:01
And you're also doing stuff that's much more close to home.
1:58:03
For example, you know, you sent me a link, which
1:58:05
I'd seen of you doing work
1:58:07
with the Compton Cowboys. Those again, listeners
1:58:09
that don't know what that is. That's an in city
1:58:12
Los Angeles. We all, you know. Straight
1:58:14
out of Compton, et cetera, rap, but
1:58:16
with that comes, of course, inner city
1:58:19
unpleasantnesses. And they have
1:58:21
a long standing equestrian
1:58:23
project there called the Compton Cowboys. I
1:58:25
know you've been involved with them. That's quite
1:58:28
recent. Can you tell us a little bit about that and
1:58:30
that sort of work?
1:58:32
Sure, yeah, it's a friend of mine. Actually,
1:58:34
she has headed up the show jumping
1:58:36
arm of it. And so for
1:58:38
the last 15 years, the
1:58:41
children who's really put
1:58:43
their time into the program and show
1:58:46
a high level of commitment actually
1:58:49
get it and the opportunity to compete
1:58:51
in. Hunter jumper and show jumping
1:58:53
at a very high level because of the
1:58:56
endowment and the donations that have been given
1:58:59
because ultimately, as, as, you know, it's
1:59:01
a very difficult for it to penetrate, even
1:59:03
if you're a middle class and right now to
1:59:05
be able to give that it's an opportunity
1:59:08
to not only create more diversity in it,
1:59:10
but I think anybody can attest there's. There's
1:59:12
a huge amount of self mastery that one
1:59:15
can learn also when being in partnership
1:59:17
with a horse in that powerful and over fences
1:59:19
and in a competitive environment. So
1:59:22
what I've been able to do is spend
1:59:24
some time with both the beginners
1:59:26
down in Compton that are just learning the basics,
1:59:29
just balance and handling and horsemanship and
1:59:31
horse care, as well as those that are
1:59:33
in the, the youth show jumping team
1:59:35
to help them understand about what. Their
1:59:38
energy brings into the interaction
1:59:40
with the horse and to start to perceive
1:59:43
again, a wider
1:59:45
view a bigger picture, if
1:59:48
you will, or a bird's eye view of how
1:59:50
we relate to these species and
1:59:52
how we can. Honor and respect
1:59:54
and treat all of our interactions
1:59:56
with them as sacred. This is really what, what
1:59:58
I do every time I, I interact with anybody
2:00:00
in regards to horses is just help them
2:00:03
remind and cultivate visceral
2:00:05
experiences that they can remember to bring more
2:00:07
sacred sacredness into their interactions.
2:00:10
It's interesting that that's where we started. I mean,
2:00:12
when you were talking about, you know,
2:00:14
Cavalia would show up in the cities.
2:00:17
And I remember, yeah, in Dallas
2:00:19
where, where you guys were performing, it was. Very
2:00:23
much in the city. And we used to do,
2:00:25
and bringing that magic we used to do that a
2:00:27
lot in the early days with Horseboy. We would go
2:00:30
and set up in city parks in
2:00:32
Austin, Texas. And we'd just show up with the horses in a
2:00:34
trailer, show up by a playground, and
2:00:36
the kids would just go, and we'd just start working
2:00:38
with them. Because it was, it was, you know, just
2:00:41
the riding down the street, just. I remember
2:00:43
that when I was a little boy in London, just the appearance
2:00:45
of a horse and you know, reality
2:00:48
of change. So this thing about the shifting
2:00:50
of reality is sort of
2:00:52
where I want to, I
2:00:54
could, I could go on for another hour, but I
2:00:56
know you're tired and I would like to have
2:00:58
you back on because there's actually a lot more I'd like to ask you.
2:01:01
But you're, you're, you're clearly somebody
2:01:03
who has lived. consecutive
2:01:07
and parallel lives. And one of
2:01:09
the questions which
2:01:11
I often get and which
2:01:13
I often hear posed to
2:01:16
people like that is, how do
2:01:18
you find the time? And
2:01:21
one of the, you said something
2:01:23
in our preamble before we hit the record
2:01:25
button. So I just want to have
2:01:28
you speak to this a little bit. And
2:01:30
I loved what you said, it's in a quote, so this
2:01:32
is a quote from Kansas Caroline.
2:01:35
It's, time itself is
2:01:38
up for inquiry. Tell
2:01:42
us, tell us what you mean by that.
2:01:45
Well, I, we,
2:01:47
you and I both have spent a fair bit of
2:01:49
time, Rupert, in Indigenous communities.
2:01:52
And anyone who has will notice that
2:01:55
the Western concept of time
2:01:58
is very fixed and
2:02:00
inflexible. In a way,
2:02:02
and it creates this sense of pressure. It's
2:02:05
also something that I speak to a lot when we're working with horses.
2:02:07
Anytime you start to put this idea of,
2:02:09
Oh, I want to get faster, whether it's in
2:02:11
calf roping or whether I
2:02:13
need to get done because I have a dentist appointment. Those
2:02:15
are both ways that. Time
2:02:18
synthetically dilutes really
2:02:21
the experience or kind of corrodes the
2:02:24
experience of relationship and being present.
2:02:26
It's toxic time, almost, yeah. It creates it,
2:02:29
yeah, it's like there's a pervasive
2:02:31
toxicity that comes into it and
2:02:33
when you spend time with
2:02:36
time, with native people
2:02:38
and in, on the reservations
2:02:41
and with indigenous communities, you
2:02:43
start to realize that time
2:02:46
is. When it feels right,
2:02:48
as opposed to because of a number on
2:02:50
a digital clock or the, when
2:02:52
a hand moves to a particular position
2:02:56
and there's a beauty
2:02:58
to that because with it comes relaxation
2:03:02
and with that relaxation, there's an openness.
2:03:04
We think of it as, like, there's a breath
2:03:06
that decontracts and
2:03:09
when we have that true presence,
2:03:11
awareness, relaxation, it
2:03:13
can create an open
2:03:15
up to other possibilities and.
2:03:18
I find that my relationship with time was different
2:03:20
because being an
2:03:22
artist, you don't have to
2:03:24
clock in, clock out in the same way and
2:03:26
working with horses, I didn't
2:03:28
have to follow a fixed instructor
2:03:31
program where I said, okay, I've got a 30 minute lesson.
2:03:33
Okay. I've got another 30 minute lesson. And it wasn't as
2:03:35
fixed. If I was
2:03:37
working with a horse and everything was accomplished in 15
2:03:40
minutes, then we would
2:03:42
allow that to settle. And if
2:03:44
it took two hours, then that was okay, too.
2:03:46
So being able to have that freedom
2:03:48
is definitely something that comes of
2:03:51
privilege, but it allows
2:03:53
for a different communication to unfold.
2:03:55
And that elegant unfolding also
2:03:57
is present in our lives when we
2:04:00
can slow down. And
2:04:02
my children, I would say, and
2:04:04
being a homeschooling parent,
2:04:07
and being with
2:04:09
them, Child time or horse
2:04:11
time and nature time. It
2:04:14
all just allowed a little bit more of an
2:04:16
expanded space. I chose
2:04:18
deliberately not to engage in a lot of social
2:04:20
media for the last 15 years. I'd
2:04:23
say I chose to then because only
2:04:26
recently in the last two months since the Gaucho
2:04:28
Derby, I have entered on to
2:04:30
it a little bit, but that freed
2:04:32
up a lot of time because I was never
2:04:34
posting. I was never scrolling
2:04:37
on those type of things and
2:04:40
my children, for example, didn't
2:04:42
have phones, like my older daughter
2:04:45
is now 18. She didn't have a phone
2:04:47
at all until she was 16 and
2:04:49
at the time it seemed so So
2:04:52
bizarre, people just really didn't understand it,
2:04:55
but it allowed us to really
2:04:57
drop in deeply with each other and be present with
2:04:59
each other more often. And I
2:05:01
think that that has
2:05:05
Contributed to finding more space
2:05:07
for that, which is meaningful. And
2:05:10
now, when I notice that
2:05:12
rushed energy coming in immediately,
2:05:15
I'll have the reflex to try and create
2:05:17
that decom track, trying to create that
2:05:19
expansion. We shared about
2:05:21
this at the beginning of the call, but there's a friend of mine who works in indigenous
2:05:24
communities in Thailand and the
2:05:26
government was trying to schedule a
2:05:28
tourist a tourist calendar
2:05:31
that would allow them to proceed to observe these
2:05:33
cultural events that were taking place. And so they asked
2:05:35
the elders when they would. When
2:05:38
they could put it on the calendar, basically, to
2:05:40
which they replied, well, there is
2:05:43
no calendar for it. It's not by the moon. It's
2:05:45
just when it's time. It's just when it feels right.
2:05:48
And to, I mean, just imagine that
2:05:50
for a moment, what would it be like to go through
2:05:52
life? And decide
2:05:55
to bring a teaching forward, for
2:05:57
example, when it feels
2:05:59
right, not because the
2:06:01
clock has ticked or because this
2:06:04
is the next thing in the order of a very linear
2:06:06
process. It would create
2:06:08
a whole different experience. And so, the
2:06:11
more that we can find opportunities for going
2:06:13
by feel, As opposed to just
2:06:15
going by, you know, the intellect,
2:06:17
the logic, or this time construct, it
2:06:21
gives us at least a little bit of a balance because, yes,
2:06:23
we do need organization in life. It's
2:06:25
not about, I mentioned earlier this term,
2:06:27
throwing the baby out with the bathwater. It's
2:06:30
about finding the blend, the both and,
2:06:32
but the, The inquiry
2:06:35
of how can I have a different relationship with
2:06:37
time? How can I recognize
2:06:39
and befriend that idea of going
2:06:41
with feel as opposed to the
2:06:44
metric of measurement that is is
2:06:47
relative? Would you
2:06:48
say, would you, is it fair to say that
2:06:50
what you're effectively, one of the things you're effectively
2:06:53
saying is in order to
2:06:55
Create more time to do
2:06:57
more things. You don't
2:07:00
need to speed up. You need to slow down.
2:07:04
I like that That's gonna be the quote
2:07:06
for our call Absolutely.
2:07:09
Absolutely. And that's such
2:07:11
a beautiful, this
2:07:14
is a beautiful statement
2:07:16
for horses because we have
2:07:18
this. Opposing
2:07:22
idea that we need to rush in and
2:07:24
save something, you know, when things get
2:07:27
big and there's an accident and whatnot, we think we
2:07:29
need to rush around and fix it. And it's
2:07:31
opposite. If you feel that need to rush in,
2:07:33
really take that extra pause and
2:07:36
come back and come to a place where we're
2:07:38
responding as opposed to reacting.
2:07:42
Absolutely. Past, present
2:07:45
and future all together at the same time. You
2:07:47
know, this.
2:07:49
I, I, I, well,
2:07:52
in my own equestrian endeavour.
2:07:55
More and more I
2:07:57
don't like to, I try not to use the word
2:07:59
working my horse anymore, you know, I've got to
2:08:01
go work on my flying change, I've got
2:08:03
to go work, it's like, I'm not working, I'm
2:08:06
playing, I'm playing, and
2:08:08
this horse is generously,
2:08:12
you know, playing with me, could
2:08:15
be doing other things. And as
2:08:17
you say, connecting me to nature because
2:08:19
I'm there I am on my horse, so I might
2:08:21
be doing some dressage
2:08:24
thing or something, but then I'm also looking up at the birds
2:08:26
and I'm also noticing how the clouds
2:08:28
go across the sky and I'm thinking about the weather system
2:08:30
that's coming in. And I'd be doing that if I was walking
2:08:32
on the land as well. I like
2:08:35
to be on the horse, so I'm more likely to be
2:08:37
on the land if I'm on the horse. And
2:08:39
it, then I'm going to notice and notice and
2:08:41
notice and notice and notice where
2:08:43
the mice have gone because they leave their
2:08:45
trails in the, in
2:08:48
the sand by the arena and so on. Then you're
2:08:50
thinking mouse, then you're thinking, you know,
2:08:52
insect, then you're thinking. And
2:08:54
it was, it was lovely the other day we
2:08:56
were quote unquote, working
2:08:59
on. Something or
2:09:01
other contact, I think, in a workshop, and
2:09:04
I noticed that several of
2:09:06
the people's attention had strayed
2:09:09
as I was trying to explain something, and I looked,
2:09:11
I said, what are you, what are you looking at down there? They
2:09:13
just found a very early season bumblebee. Who
2:09:16
was out, who'd come out of hibernation
2:09:19
a bit early, and they'd called her Barbara. And
2:09:21
they were trying to, they were trying to make
2:09:23
sure that Barbara didn't get too cold. And I was like, this is
2:09:27
absolutely what we should be doing right
2:09:29
now. Absolutely. You
2:09:31
know, and you could see the horses going, yeah, absolutely. You
2:09:33
should go do that. We'll still be here. Go
2:09:36
attend to that bee. And then
2:09:38
suddenly there was all this metaphor for what is contact,
2:09:40
what is contact, contact is contact with the planet,
2:09:42
contact is, you know, and but, you
2:09:45
know, in my, in a previous incarnation,
2:09:47
I might have gone, Oh, my gosh, these people are paying me to be here. I've
2:09:50
got to deliver this, you know, contact
2:09:52
thing. And. Now
2:09:55
it's much more, well, gosh, no, this is what's
2:09:57
happening right here. The horses
2:09:59
have led us here. This is a wonderful thing. But
2:10:02
really we're just playing. I
2:10:04
feel that playfulness, you know, that all the time
2:10:06
that I've spent living with hunting and gathering
2:10:09
cultures, which is sort of the blueprint of humanity.
2:10:12
It's a supremely playful. way
2:10:15
of existing that they don't
2:10:17
talk about work. You know,
2:10:19
we thought it must be so hard to survive. Yes.
2:10:21
If they've been kicked off their land. Yes. If their resources
2:10:24
have been depleted, sure. But if,
2:10:27
if, if humans are in areas where
2:10:29
the resources are abundant,
2:10:32
which is of course, the entire planet, really,
2:10:34
it's just that, you know, lack of, you know, scarcity
2:10:36
has been created. The original affluent
2:10:39
cultures, you know, there is this time
2:10:42
that we often associate with. material
2:10:46
wealth, because material wealth can buy one
2:10:49
time, but
2:10:51
then, of course, one has to go look after that wealth. And
2:10:53
I suppose you could say a hunter
2:10:55
gatherer has to also conserve their environment,
2:10:58
but that, and that's very joyful work. Is it work?
2:11:00
Is it even work? Why are we, you know, so
2:11:03
we do, are we really born to work
2:11:06
or are we born to play
2:11:09
and explore? Be in relationship.
2:11:11
And that's about it. And
2:11:14
I think you're what you said is time itself
2:11:16
is up for inquiry. Sort
2:11:20
of brought those things into focus for me. So I'm really grateful
2:11:22
you said that.
2:11:27
Yeah, it's it's the ongoing aspects
2:11:30
and the layers. I think of perception
2:11:32
as well. Continue
2:11:35
to unfold and as the veils
2:11:37
go back and you know, there's
2:11:40
different learnings that we'll have maybe had 20
2:11:42
years ago and then they come back and they teach you all
2:11:44
over again. So, in that sense, time
2:11:46
is, is truly here
2:11:48
always and really
2:11:51
making a commitment to staying
2:11:53
as present as we can to not
2:11:56
be stuck in those thoughts
2:11:58
of future anticipation or reactivity
2:12:01
from past imprinting. It
2:12:03
requires a certain amount of awareness
2:12:06
and, and in a way discipline because
2:12:09
there's these well worn grooves of,
2:12:12
well, this is what I always do, or this is where I need to go
2:12:14
down. This is where my thoughts naturally
2:12:16
flow. And then to have
2:12:18
that. Awareness and really
2:12:20
stop that before it starts again.
2:12:23
We can go back to the horse interactions
2:12:25
where people eventually
2:12:28
over time begin to notice what
2:12:30
happens before the change
2:12:34
the signals of communication,
2:12:36
whether it's if you're on the ground and
2:12:38
you're. just getting ready to find out if
2:12:40
you have permission or consent to be able to catch a horse,
2:12:43
just before there's the acceptance
2:12:45
or the actual big movement, there
2:12:47
might be a breath or there might be a change
2:12:49
in the tension around the eye and
2:12:52
starting to recognize all that, and then we could
2:12:54
argue that the imperceptible,
2:12:56
that's just relying off of visual
2:12:58
imagery. There's other things
2:13:01
that are less measurable and More
2:13:03
of the subtle as opposed to the gross that
2:13:06
are around us all the time and that
2:13:08
can only happen when we're really truly present.
2:13:14
What comes through what you're talking about,
2:13:17
everything that you've described, and I've been writing
2:13:19
down, you know, apprenticeship, mentoring
2:13:23
moving in with sitting at the feet of
2:13:25
the master, allowing oneself to
2:13:27
be mentored. This is a. Difficult
2:13:30
thing, you know, for a lot of us service,
2:13:33
what seems
2:13:35
to be synthesized out of those words
2:13:37
is joy. And it seems
2:13:40
to me that, you know, we talk about
2:13:42
self actualization, you know, in this
2:13:44
show, just that, that
2:13:46
was the theme, but really, what is that?
2:13:48
But joy, what is that? But a joyful
2:13:50
life, and it seems that that is what you have
2:13:52
been involved with
2:13:54
really from the get go and that.
2:13:57
Whatever, you
2:14:00
know, dark nights of the soul, you might have gone through from
2:14:02
one incarnation to another incarnation
2:14:06
that seemed, you know, the bringing of
2:14:08
joy, going back to Kabbalah, going back to
2:14:10
that thing you, you, you
2:14:12
were bringing a palpable joy.
2:14:15
Into those communities and it seems that you
2:14:18
have kept right on going with that. Mm
2:14:20
hmm. Well, like you mentioned, there's an evolution
2:14:23
with it. I would definitely say, and I
2:14:25
mean, I could do the Derby with joy.
2:14:28
I had so much joy. It was,
2:14:30
it was almost People were teasing me because
2:14:33
I would just be laughing
2:14:35
my way through all of this. And, and
2:14:38
It's because I met so many
2:14:40
parts of myself that were
2:14:43
fractured and disharmonious and
2:14:45
all of it really had to do with either pleasing
2:14:48
other or being
2:14:50
worried about approval. The
2:14:53
insecurity that comes with
2:14:55
self judgment and self criticism,
2:14:58
which is why the thing that
2:15:00
I find I can really help and
2:15:02
be of service to teach is to
2:15:04
help let go of our judgments
2:15:07
of ourselves and to be more
2:15:09
compassionate to our
2:15:12
fellow earth travelers.
2:15:15
The travel aspect there, you
2:15:17
know, that's I was just flapping my
2:15:19
hands for the listeners that can't see and I did
2:15:21
a little clappy thing. So I got excited
2:15:24
what you were saying that the reason I got excited
2:15:26
was, you know, as you were describing your journey
2:15:29
across Patagonia, of course, what that sounds to me like is
2:15:31
pilgrimage. And
2:15:34
I am
2:15:37
more and more of the
2:15:39
conviction that, because
2:15:41
we are hunter gatherer people,
2:15:44
we're not necessarily nomads in that, hunter gatherers
2:15:46
are more circular nomads, they tend to, as
2:15:49
you know, occupy
2:15:51
different hunting and gathering camps in
2:15:53
a sort of a circular, seasonal
2:15:56
round rather than a, you
2:15:58
know, we just sort of wander aimlessly at
2:16:00
will, that people misunderstand I think what nomadism
2:16:03
is, but. Nonetheless,
2:16:07
it's deeply rooted in us to
2:16:09
move over the land in
2:16:12
deep relationship with it and
2:16:16
It sounds like very much that's what
2:16:18
you did down there and that
2:16:22
I think it's very hard to be a joyful human
2:16:25
if you're not doing that and you don't have to go as far
2:16:28
as Patagonia. You don't have to do
2:16:30
the Mongolia thing that I did or whatever. You don't have
2:16:32
to do that at all. It can be very
2:16:34
much in the backyard. You can, you can go
2:16:36
up in Santa Monica mountains right now. You can go
2:16:38
walk along the beach. You could do,
2:16:40
you could go to your local, you know, if you're sitting in
2:16:43
England. You can go walk
2:16:45
the Ridgeway, the ancient chalk
2:16:47
track going across the, the Connect
2:16:49
Stonehenge and all of these other things. You
2:16:51
can, you, you know, you can drive there and take a train
2:16:53
there and walk up there and walk it for half an
2:16:55
hour, you know? Mm-hmm. The
2:16:57
connection with the ancestors that, that, that the,
2:17:00
the earth is the bones of our ancestors.
2:17:02
It's the dust of, it's the actually died there and
2:17:04
they actually composed of them.
2:17:07
And of course any indigenous person would say, well, yeah,
2:17:09
of course we
2:17:12
divorced ourselves from that in our culture. So
2:17:15
I think. You
2:17:17
know, when I was groping
2:17:20
for what's the value of going into something like
2:17:22
the, the, the Derby?
2:17:25
Well, of course, you, you pilgrimage,
2:17:27
you pilgrimage to another area, one
2:17:30
of the last intact
2:17:32
ecosystems, wild areas of the planet that
2:17:35
could sure use our attention and
2:17:38
help. And by pilgrimaging
2:17:40
there, you'll go into service to it.
2:17:43
So, yeah, I want to say
2:17:45
one thing too. I'm so glad that you
2:17:47
brought that forward that when
2:17:50
I was down there, it also gave me a huge appreciation
2:17:52
for what is in my homeland from
2:17:54
my particular place where I
2:17:56
was set down on this planet. This
2:17:58
is Turtle Island here. I'm
2:18:01
currently in an area that is unceded
2:18:03
land of the Paiute and Washoe people, and
2:18:06
every time I began my online courses
2:18:08
or in person clinics we give
2:18:10
a land acknowledgement. So
2:18:13
the connection to where
2:18:16
you are right now on the planet is
2:18:19
Everything you don't have to
2:18:21
go outside of yourself or outside of your own city.
2:18:24
And part of the beauty of when I was traveling
2:18:27
for work in all of these different in
2:18:29
urban areas is it helped
2:18:31
me find the connection to
2:18:33
nature in a city car park in the
2:18:35
busyness of, you know, the bus
2:18:37
transit and all of that, we don't have
2:18:39
to only be in national parks. It's a
2:18:41
wonderful thing when we have the opportunity, cause it
2:18:43
gives us. different expanded idea of divinity,
2:18:47
but those same
2:18:49
trunks that when I was a little girl
2:18:51
were that were so captivating. Those
2:18:54
are present in many different
2:18:57
urban environments as well. Yeah. How are
2:18:59
the pigeons flying? How are the raccoons?
2:19:03
Flipping across your view at night as you drive.
2:19:05
Absolutely. Absolutely.
2:19:07
How a dandelion can push through the concrete
2:19:10
and has no recollection of being
2:19:12
oppressed. It just reaches
2:19:14
the sun.
2:19:15
It's just. And if it does get oppressed, it doesn't
2:19:18
care. It comes up again. Yeah.
2:19:20
Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. Exactly.
2:19:23
Kansas has been brilliant. Look, I think we should
2:19:26
draw it to a close here, but I, if you would,
2:19:28
I would like you to come back
2:19:30
on, 'cause there's quite a few things more I'd like
2:19:32
to ask you around your work
2:19:36
for people to find you. What are the resources
2:19:38
if people want to study with you, if people want to
2:19:40
do things, can you reel off the websites and
2:19:42
emails
2:19:42
please? Certainly, yes.
2:19:45
So circus cowgirl.com has
2:19:48
the best way to contact me, then circus
2:19:50
and then cowgirl Circus. cowgirl.
2:19:54
com. And there's also a Circus Cowgirl
2:19:56
Facebook page now, which is my
2:19:58
sojourn into social media. And
2:20:01
I'm always available for
2:20:05
one to one on one communication because
2:20:08
for me, what I believe is that the
2:20:11
interaction, like you and I are having the live interaction
2:20:15
is, you know, it's like
2:20:17
a lot of the courses that I do, I don't like to record
2:20:19
them because I feel like it can be taken
2:20:21
flippantly or we can. listen
2:20:23
to the recording without the same amount of
2:20:26
attention that we do in presence than when
2:20:28
we are live interaction. So
2:20:31
being able to have that reach
2:20:33
out, ask me a question, ask me anything,
2:20:35
I really like to be available for both private
2:20:38
one on one coaching or coming out in person
2:20:40
and doing an in person clinic.
2:20:42
And that, you can be people,
2:20:44
if they want to learn more about heart math, if they want to
2:20:46
learn more about the again,
2:20:48
give it the name. Fiera Foundation.
2:20:50
One more time. The Fiera Foundation. F Y E
2:20:53
R A. Fiera. Fiera Foundation. Absolutely.
2:20:56
Please spell it again. F
2:20:58
Y E R A. ERA
2:21:02
Fiera
2:21:03
Fiera Foundation.
2:21:06
And if they want, and it's fiera.org.
2:21:09
Dot
2:21:09
org. Fiera do org.
2:21:11
F-Y-E-R-A, HeartMath
2:21:15
Institute. People want to know more about that. Where
2:21:17
do they go?
2:21:18
That's also heartmath.com or
2:21:20
heartmath.org. There's tons
2:21:23
of resources, peer reviewed
2:21:25
research articles free
2:21:27
educational material, as well
2:21:29
as the more. embodied
2:21:34
courses for certification that are all
2:21:36
available through there.
2:21:38
Okay. Yes. And
2:21:40
then obviously Skyhorse Academy for
2:21:43
Arianna. Mentorship with
2:21:45
Arianna Mazzucchi. Yes, absolutely.
2:21:48
Skyhorse
2:21:49
Academy. Skyhorse Academy. And
2:21:51
then if people want to email you
2:21:53
and set something up with you, they can, they
2:21:55
can just, there's an email on. circuscowgirl.
2:21:58
com.
2:21:59
Yes, you can contact me through the website.
2:22:01
That's the easiest way. Or you can also just
2:22:03
send me an email at info at
2:22:05
circuscowgirl.
2:22:07
com. info at circuscowgirl.
2:22:09
com.
2:22:14
Yes. Thank you so much, Robert.
2:22:16
It's been over a
2:22:18
decade. This, this
2:22:20
conversation has been percolating in the field.
2:22:23
No kidding. I mean, when I first met
2:22:25
you there, there was no Horseboy Method. I was just,
2:22:27
I just published the book and
2:22:29
Made the film about being in Mongolia
2:22:31
with my son and I didn't know
2:22:34
that it was going to take off in this way and that we
2:22:36
were going to create
2:22:38
an equine. Yeah, I, I, I
2:22:41
knew that I wanted to give back and I
2:22:43
knew that I was going to create a place where
2:22:45
I could offer other families
2:22:48
and kids the same chance
2:22:52
for the magic that my son had. Found
2:22:54
but I didn't know it would do what it did and
2:22:57
I remember with you I could tell
2:22:59
at the time that you were also in a slightly liminal
2:23:01
place I think you were you were at
2:23:03
that you had you'd recently left Cavalia
2:23:06
and you were Looking
2:23:08
towards where you were going to go next. It's
2:23:10
Extraordinary now to meet
2:23:12
you say well, you've been up to some
2:23:15
busy shit, haven't you? And
2:23:18
it's joyful shit
2:23:22
It is a lot of joy. Yeah, letting go
2:23:24
of our shit and looking at our shit
2:23:26
and shoveling shit, they're all wonderful ways
2:23:28
to cultivate more joy. That's
2:23:30
true. A few
2:23:31
diapers along the way, yep.
2:23:33
Oh, plenty of those. Lots of,
2:23:35
especially for, yeah, cloth nappies in
2:23:37
my world. Well, yes,
2:23:39
that's hardcore.
2:23:42
That's a podcast in and of itself. All
2:23:45
right. Well, listen, thank you again. If
2:23:47
it's all right with you, I'll be in touch about going
2:23:50
further into some of these themes. And
2:23:53
I don't know if you know, we also have another, another
2:23:55
podcast called Equine Assisted World. So
2:23:58
perhaps you could come on that and talk much
2:24:01
more in depth about
2:24:03
the actual therapies and equine assistive
2:24:05
work that you're doing and others that
2:24:08
we should be aware of. I'll be in touch about
2:24:10
that shortly, probably as soon as I click
2:24:13
end.
2:24:14
Okay. Yeah, no problem. And thank you for
2:24:17
all the service that you're doing and sharing these
2:24:19
ideas and disseminating
2:24:21
information and holding the resonance that you
2:24:23
do for the field. It's wonderful.
2:24:25
Thank you. It's a, it's a conversation I think
2:24:27
we all have benefited
2:24:29
from and want other people to benefit from.
2:24:31
So, you know, it keeps it
2:24:33
live. All right, then
2:24:36
I'm going to hit this dreaded red
2:24:38
button. Is there anything before I hit the dreaded
2:24:40
red button that you? Feel that we
2:24:42
didn't say that you'd like to say.
2:24:44
Oh, I'm so grateful for the time that we've had
2:24:46
and I know that we'll find many more things
2:24:48
to discuss next time.
2:24:50
I'm grateful too. Gratitude is actually
2:24:52
what I'd like to talk about on the next one. So
2:24:55
awesome. All right. Thank you for joining
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