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I thought in Little Astronaut, you conveyed
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some really strong feelings about our marriage
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and the pain of childbirth and
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all these things that... I
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remember when I first started sharing those poems, I
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emailed them to you. I emailed
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them as just like, oh, these are some things
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I wrote. And you're like, it's
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good. It hurts, but it's good that you wrote
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them. It was painful. But
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I think that that's good. I really do.
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And I encourage you in the future to
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swing away. You've encouraged me for sure.
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I'm not a person that lets people in.
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So if I am
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communicating something, it's usually pretty layered.
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That is the voice of the
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great poet, J. Hope Stein, aka
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Jen, aka Chloe. Also
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happens to be my wife, often
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creative collaborator. This is a
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really cool episode. We
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talk a lot about poetry, a lot about comedy.
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She published work of her own
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poetry in The New Yorker, The
1:05
New York Times, Poetry International. She
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has her own book called Little
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Astronaut that is coming out on
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audiobook for Mother's Day. It's
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going to be on Libro FM. It's going
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to be on Audible. I
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believe on a lot of those places, you
1:21
can pre-order it now. She
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has a wonderful voice and I'm her
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husband. So I would say that even
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if she didn't have a wonderful voice. But
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she does have a wonderful voice. So it
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leaves me in a little bit of a
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pickle because I have to say
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it. But then also she just... Anyway,
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the point is, you'll see our
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dynamic in this conversation. I compliment
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her a lot and she shoes
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off compliments very deftly. You
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might know also her poems are projected onto
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the screen in my special The
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New One. And we also wrote a book
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together called The New One with
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Poems by J. Hope's Time. The
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tour by the way is going super super well.
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It was kind of a breakthrough week. In
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Tulsa and in Texas I
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actually just sent like a longer form version
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email out if you want to join the
2:12
email list. I regularly send
2:15
little newsletters that I used to call
2:17
my secret public journal out with
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a bunch of sort of jokes and stories about
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Tulsa. In Texas I'm heading
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to the Chicago theater. This week,
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this Friday and Saturday two shows
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are sold out. The third
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show on Saturday night has a
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few tickets left. One of my
2:34
favorite theaters in the world. Then
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I go to Los Angeles for Netflix
2:39
as a joke. I'm gonna be on
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Jimmy Kimmel Live. I'm gonna be also
2:43
on Jon Stewart and Friends at
2:45
the Greek theater. I opened for Jon
2:47
at Meriwether post pavilion many years ago
2:49
and it was pure joy. His fans
2:52
are so smart and such
2:54
comedy nerds. So I'm super psyched for that.
2:57
Then I added a show in Troy, New York. I'll
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be in Rochester. I added
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a fourth and final show in Toronto
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at the Elgin theater which I love.
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I'll be in St. Petersburg, Florida, Miami.
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I just added a second show in
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Westport, Connecticut at the Westport Country Playhouse.
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This is one of the prettiest theaters in the
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country. It's like this little 500 seat theater about
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an hour an hour and a half from New York City
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and it's gorgeous. I mean it's
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just wonderful. I've done shows
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there before and I'm doing some in
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June. The Beacon Theatre
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in New York is sold out. I'll
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be in Atlanta. We added
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a second show in Charlotte. We added a second
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show in Richmond. There's a
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few tickets left in DC. There's
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a fourth and final show. I'll
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be in Niagara Falls. I'll be
3:43
in Sag Harbor. We added a
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second show in Red Bank at
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the Count Basie Center for the
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Arts. I love that theater. In
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the fall, I'll be in Seattle,
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Portland, San Francisco, Oakland, Philadelphia, Minneapolis,
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Madison, Milwaukee, Champaign, Indianapolis, and
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in Arbor, Detroit, Dayton,
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Pittsburgh, Louisville, Nashville, Knoxville,
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Asheville, and Charleston. There will be
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more cities added, but that is
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at this point, I think we're
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at about 45 cities.
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But keep telling me about cities that
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I'm missing. I hear you,
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Kansas City. I hear
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you, Iowa City. I hear you, St.
4:21
Louis. I'm working on it. I think
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we'll get there. We'll make it happen.
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But today on the podcast, I'm
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talking to my wife, Jenny. Jen
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has been a collaborator of mine
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for many years. You can find
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her on Instagram at J. Hopestein.
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That's at J-H-O-P-E-S-T-E-I-N. You
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can link through to her new audio book
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for Mother's Day, A Little Astronaut. You can
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link through to her merch,
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t-shirts, and tote bags and things to
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go along with her Earth
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Day poems. I'm writing to
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you from an island made of plastic merch.
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That's one of a kind. Enjoy my
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conversation with the brilliant J. Hopestein.
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We are here with my beloved wife, Jen
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Firstein, AKA J. Hopestein the Poet.
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Hello, Jen. Hey, baby. How
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you doing? Thanks for having me. Third
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time. Yeah. Third
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visit. Maybe this is the one. Maybe this is
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the one. Which
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is a perfect start to your
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self-deprecating, your signature self-deprecating humor. Thank
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you. That I know all too
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well. People only know you from
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your poetry. You try to break
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my self-deprecating humor and you want me to be more self-loving.
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That is true. We
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want to go on that tangent right away. No,
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sorry. Okay, let's
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circle back to that. Save it for therapy. Yeah,
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save it for therapy. No, no, no. We'll
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keep it for the podcast. I have to
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introduce this. Okay, thanks. So I'm here with my
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wife, Jennifer Hopes-Time, third time
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on the podcast. So I
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think today can be kind of an open-ended episode
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of the podcast because we are, in
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addition to being married, best friends, lovers,
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collaborators, we are always in
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dialogue about our own work.
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So I say I'm always sharing new work with
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you, you're sharing new work with me. Yeah. My
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question for you is, and we'll start with this,
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when you're sharing work, what's your favorite thing to hear
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as feedback? I
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think that for me, if somebody
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who doesn't usually read poetry is
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understanding or enjoying or getting something out of
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my work for a moment or within a
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moment of a poem that I write, it's
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very satisfying because I want
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to write poetry that everybody
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can read, not sort of an academic type
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of poetry, but a type of poetry that
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anybody can read, and someone who might not
7:05
understand poetry can read, and I think that's
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the sort of goal. So if anyone feels
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that when they hear my work, it makes me happy.
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So you like refrigerate or magnet
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poetry? Yeah. Whatever
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makes you feel something, that's what I say. I
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know that there's a lot of different camps within
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poetry, these kind of poets, those kind of poets
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or whatever, and I sort of
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just feel like it doesn't matter, it just matters
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how people are feeling when they hear something. I
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think you and I have that, that's one
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of the many things you and I have in common,
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which is I feel similarly about comedy,
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which is to say, there's some
7:43
schools of thought where people go
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like, well, I only
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like comedy, that's witty, or
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I only like comedy that's
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sophisticated, and I don't
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like stuff that's silly or goofy
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or this or slapstick or physical
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comedy. This is
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a real thing that happened recently. Yeah, this is in relation to
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something in our life. But
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I actually think all
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of the above, I'm interested
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in. That's
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how I feel. I like lowbrow and highbrow at the
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same time in all art forms. I
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always say this, that
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when you and I met, I
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was in a comedy central,
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comedy special universe,
8:34
talk show, comedian, touring as a club
8:36
act. And
8:39
then I dipped my toe. I
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was trying to go in the universe of writing
8:45
a solo show. I'd written a solo show called Sleepwalk
8:48
with me. And it
8:50
wasn't done yet by a long shot, but
8:52
you saw a very early version of it
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at UCB Theater, the original UCB Theater, 26th
8:57
Street under Christides in
8:59
Manhattan. And you were like, you should do that, more of
9:02
that. And I think that as
9:04
I am so deeply in
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love with you, I feel like I'm drawn to,
9:08
I think all of us
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are secretly drawn, whether we realize or not,
9:13
to doing the thing that the
9:15
person we're in love with enjoys most about
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us. You know, all
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of us, it's like a statement, but for me. Well,
9:21
when I met you, you were determined to do
9:23
a one person show. And I just never met
9:25
anybody like that who was like, Oh, yes, hi,
9:27
I'm just I'm going to put a one person
9:29
show on stage next week. Like, I just didn't
9:31
even understand how you were going to do it.
9:33
And the fact that you just did it, you
9:35
just like went up and did it. And
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I just couldn't believe it. I don't know. There's something
9:40
about it. I'll never get
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over. And I was really, you'll truly
9:45
never get over. Never. You'll never get rid of
9:47
me. Never get rid of you or get over
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it. The whole
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get rid of you. Get
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over it. The one, you know, one
9:56
of those things. The whole is strong. But
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I don't know, I'd never seen anybody do anything like
10:02
that. And it really left an impression on me. And
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I just was like, oh, yeah, you should be doing
10:06
that. But that was also just based on getting to
10:08
know you because as I got to know you, you
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would just tell me these stories that were huge red
10:12
flags if you're dating somebody,
10:14
you know, and I put the
10:17
way you were telling them was like, made me
10:19
want to come back for more. And I was
10:21
just like, you should just do that on stage
10:23
because there's like an element of tension there where
10:26
you're just like, I shouldn't really be dating
10:28
this person. But I still
10:30
want to see them
10:33
tomorrow. Maybe they're not
10:35
red flags. Maybe they're beige flags.
10:37
Maybe let the audience decide for
10:39
themselves. I would sort of call them like a
10:41
neon pink. What
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are they? What were they? Well, you
10:47
were just telling me all these stories about how you
10:49
were in relationships and
10:51
all the like how you don't want
10:53
to be in a relationship based on
10:55
these experiences and you would like lay
10:58
out the experiences. I
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would lay out the experiences is the worst part. I
11:04
remember taking you to like a family
11:06
wedding. Like we got
11:08
very serious very quickly. Like we were just like
11:11
inseparable except when we were... I call it in
11:13
love. And
11:15
then I took you to like a family wedding.
11:17
This might be like the last wedding we ever
11:19
went to. It was like the first year we
11:22
met except for we went to Jack's wedding. Jack
11:24
and Margaret's wedding. But it was like a long
11:26
gap. And I think this is the reason why
11:28
because at this wedding we were like dancing and
11:30
you were just like
11:32
this. You were just like in this like
11:34
head space where you were really profoundly realizing
11:36
something that you wanted to communicate. And you
11:39
were like, it's so crazy because I'm like
11:41
so in love with you. I've never loved
11:43
anyone this much in my whole life. It's
11:45
so weird because we're not going to be
11:47
together. Yeah,
11:49
we're just like that. It's just like those kind of red flags. By
11:52
the way, straighten the act. Put
11:55
in the next show. I'm going to put in the next show.
11:57
You are? Can I put it in?
11:59
Sure. Perfect, a bread flag
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example. Yeah, and just, I
12:03
don't know, every time you talked about your
12:05
past relationships, it was in a way, it
12:07
was in a self-deprecating way where you sort
12:09
of understood what you did wrong and
12:12
it was beautiful and thoughtful
12:14
and funny, like your shows, but
12:16
should you marry that person? Yes.
12:21
The way you said yes was
12:24
not convincing. Well, now it's a big yes,
12:26
but like when you first met you, it was not
12:28
a yes. I know this is fun. Even
12:30
the way you said big yes, not
12:33
convincing? I'm happy
12:35
with my choices. Even
12:37
the way you said I'm happy
12:39
with my choices, not convincing? By
12:42
the way, this morning when I took Ina Tsukul,
12:44
I told her I was gonna be on this podcast. I
12:46
was like, what should we talk about? And she was like,
12:48
it's just gonna be like you guys talking at the table
12:51
and this is kind of like what it's like when we
12:53
talk at the table. This is full
12:55
on, exactly us in life.
12:59
Yeah, that's not much of a
13:01
difference, but yeah. Sorry, I was just thinking
13:03
of that. But
13:05
yeah, I'm super happy. I was
13:07
thinking of it because there's times where we just
13:09
sort of declare our love to each other at
13:12
the table. Well, I think this
13:14
is actually kind of a sweet thing about
13:17
us, I think, is when Ina
13:20
was really little, her
13:22
daughter was really little, and she could
13:24
only see from here to here kind of thing. I
13:27
would try to put us together face
13:31
to face, side by side, you and
13:33
I, so that she could
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see in the same frame our heads together
13:38
lovingly. That's right, that's sweet. So
13:40
that's a sweet thing. Yeah. What
13:42
other red flags were by me? So the red flags
13:44
about me were, I
13:47
was talking about past relationships that had failed and all
13:49
the things I had done wrong. And-
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It was literally like going to one of your one
13:54
person shows where it's like a
13:56
full like, here's
13:58
something I did. There was
14:01
the prostitute story that you told
14:04
me our second week dating. Right, that's in the
14:06
new one, yeah. And I
14:08
love that story. Yeah, the Amsterdam story.
14:10
The Amsterdam story. Yeah. And
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that one, I mean, it
14:15
wasn't a red flag. It was just so
14:17
not a thing that you jump out and
14:19
say when you just start getting to know
14:21
someone. Right. So
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I think that you just couldn't
14:26
help telling me. I
14:29
mean, sort of like everything
14:31
that someone would find sort
14:34
of challenging about you as
14:36
a partner. And so you sort of
14:39
got that out of the way, like the first
14:41
month. Sleepwalking. Sleepwalking. Yep.
14:44
Everything. And you
14:46
would just be like, I'm a really complicated guy.
14:49
And I'd be like, oh, and I think a
14:51
lot of people think like on the surface, you're
14:53
just like very agreeable generally.
14:56
And you're just sort of easy to hang with and
14:58
that kind of thing. But you actually are a complicated
15:00
guy. And there is a lot of some
15:03
like things going on underneath the
15:05
surface. And so you
15:07
want more about that. You wanted to let me know
15:09
that really early, I think because I don't
15:12
know, because we just both didn't think it was
15:14
going to last. So you just like told me
15:17
everything. And then I think that
15:19
well, we can talk more about it. But I
15:22
think that in the beginning, it had the effect
15:24
of making me super uncomfortable with thinking of you
15:26
as a long term person that I would be
15:28
with. But I was having a
15:30
great time and I enjoyed my time with you.
15:33
But then in the long term, I was like,
15:35
I said, someone I can really trust because they
15:37
cannot help but say all of
15:39
these things constantly about like their worst
15:41
thoughts, their worst feelings, getting
15:43
to know you with that experience where I
15:46
got to like experience
15:48
this honesty as like
15:50
with stakes with real personal stakes.
15:53
Like real personal stakes because we were about
15:55
to engage on a 20 to 100 year
15:57
relationship. We've
16:01
been together 20 years. Well, you would just be
16:03
like, no, you don't
16:05
understand. I'm a pretty dark person. And
16:08
most people don't think Mike's a dark person. I
16:11
say it like 100 times in my act,
16:13
though. It's the strangest thing I say. I
16:15
just consistently tell people. I literally have a
16:17
joke in my act right now where I
16:19
go, last year Jen said
16:21
to me, I feel like sometimes I
16:23
feel like you're unhappy. And I'm like,
16:25
right. I was never happy. And then
16:28
we met. I fell in love. I'm
16:30
so unhappy. Like I literally say outright,
16:32
like I have a complicated situation. I
16:36
think there's a second emotional situation. I think there's a segment
16:38
of people who think you're sort of happy, go lucky kind
16:40
of person. But what
16:43
shows you something about comedians? Yeah, my
16:45
comedian friends think I'm the stable one.
16:47
I'm like, no, no, I'm not stable. I'm
16:49
just able to show up on time.
16:54
You do show up on time. Yeah, I think my
16:56
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19:32
you read one of your earthy
19:34
poems? Yeah. Earth
19:36
themed poems? Sure. I was gonna read the plastic
19:38
island poem from the plastic thing. I'm
19:42
writing to you from an island made of plastic.
19:46
There's no food here says earth. The
19:48
people keep their nipples on ice, breastfeed
19:51
each other to survive. What
19:53
do your people do to pacify? We
19:56
moved to New York city to be remembered I tell
19:58
earth, but nothing. New York City
20:00
will be remembered. Not a
20:02
freezer full of smuggled Russian
20:04
vodka in a midtown subway tunnel
20:07
bar named Siberia, where fully
20:09
closed and with no touching
20:11
we spend like Neptune, with two
20:13
a.m.s just off work dancing
20:15
girls. Nor the
20:17
flivered light of numbered streets mourning that
20:20
pinkens the towers down the avenue. No
20:23
says earth, certainly not the morning. Not
20:26
a trash can in West Chelsea where I once
20:28
left all the love letters I ever received and
20:30
all the poems I ever wrote. Not
20:33
the vegan place with the garden
20:36
seating or the vegan rats celebrating at
20:38
our feet. Nor
20:41
the dugout canoes of the Lenape crossing the
20:43
Hudson says earth before it
20:45
was called the Hudson for the man
20:48
of Amsterdam and was called Shatmuk for
20:50
its nature, meaning flowing in two directions.
20:54
Not the Lenape people picking berries on Second
20:56
Avenue where there is now a rat and
20:58
a foot. New York
21:00
City is built on schist. Nothing
21:02
you do will amount to a
21:04
petrified ball of dinosaur dung giggles earth
21:07
but we must keep shitting. Limestone
21:09
says earth get yourself a big bed
21:12
of fossil loving limestone and you'll be
21:14
as happy as an imprint
21:16
of a prehistoric clam. And
21:19
the river whispers earth but
21:21
I know what earth is going to say about the
21:23
river. She answers to
21:26
Shatmuk. You
21:28
look like you could use a drink says earth and
21:30
parts her blue blouse to me. Between
21:33
tongue and roofs the bear strip
21:35
nipple rolls. Eye
21:38
swallowing swallowing that great
21:40
swallowing by its lilac
21:42
milk myself gulped. Atrocity
21:45
and sound. Atrocity
21:47
and garbage and song. I'm
21:50
writing to you from an island made of plastic.
21:54
We are capable of great atrocity. We
21:57
are also capable, aren't we, of
22:00
great song. Oh,
22:02
I love that. One of
22:04
the things I like about it so much is, um, it
22:07
reminds me of that book you got me
22:09
called Here, which is a graphic novel, which
22:12
has kind of, it's like a zoom in and
22:14
a zoom out of like, yeah, 50, 50
22:17
million years ago. And then like 1952 and
22:21
then like 2025. And then, yeah, Richard
22:24
Macguire, BC. Yeah, it's a
22:27
graphic novel called Here by Richard Macguire.
22:30
Um, and I was probably
22:32
reading that when I wrote these poems a
22:34
few years ago. And they were definitely influenced.
22:36
It was a really influential book on me.
22:38
And I bought that for you because I
22:40
felt like it was a good time for
22:42
you to read it. But it's
22:44
all about, yeah, it's about just sort
22:47
of living on this planet and all
22:49
the scope of things
22:51
that have happened over time and personal
22:54
from personal loss and different moments that
22:56
we live here to like, yeah,
22:58
like a dinosaur was living in the space that we're
23:00
living in right now. So it's
23:02
a really beautiful book. I always get it for
23:05
people who I feel like are going through a
23:07
tough time. Yeah. Yeah.
23:09
I think like I love this poem.
23:12
I love that book here. I love
23:14
a lot. I love things where people
23:17
are able to zoom into
23:19
the specificity of what's beautiful about
23:21
things and zoom out into
23:25
the idea that we're just
23:28
molecules and dust ultimately.
23:30
Yeah. And I think the other thing I
23:32
was really inspired
23:35
by is there is a mile in
23:37
made of plastic in
23:39
the Pacific Ocean. And it's just like sort
23:41
of like a gyre of just
23:43
like plastic from all over like the world
23:46
that just ends up in this one spot
23:48
just through the tides. And it's pretty massive.
23:50
And I don't know, there was something about
23:52
the metaphor of that that really want that
23:54
I wanted to explore. So I do I
23:56
have like a bunch of poems about it.
24:00
I was pretty obsessed with it for a while. You
24:02
know, when you talk about not a
24:04
freezer full of Russian vodka in a
24:06
midtown subway tunnel bar named Siberia, we're
24:08
fully clothed with no touching, we spun
24:11
like Neptune with 2am just
24:13
off work dancing girls. Like do you take
24:15
that from life? Yes,
24:18
that's a very specific memory I had
24:20
where when I first started working in
24:22
the city, there was this really amazing
24:24
subway bar on the 51st
24:27
street, I think it was the 2-3. Inside
24:31
the subway tunnel, there was like an
24:33
unmarked door. And if you opened it,
24:35
it was just this amazing bar called
24:38
Siberia and they served Russian, cold Russian
24:40
vodka. And it was open all night.
24:42
And so in that
24:44
neighborhood, there are a lot of sort
24:46
of dancing girl peep shows type things.
24:50
And they would get off work at about two in the morning.
24:52
And then they would hit that bar. So we
24:55
would just be dancing there and hanging out. And
24:57
it was just, it was one of
24:59
my favorite New York city experiences,
25:01
I think partially because it was when I
25:03
first moved to New York and it was
25:06
also, I don't know, there's
25:08
something magical about it. I think I
25:10
like the idea of things that feel planetary, but
25:12
also feel very intimate.
25:17
And there's another specific moment
25:21
in that poem, which is about you and I
25:23
going to, I think a dojo, many, many, the
25:25
vegan restaurant with the
25:27
vegan, yeah. So we went there. I mean, this
25:29
was like the first year we were dating and
25:32
I don't even mention what happened that day, but
25:34
it was sort of a volatile time in our
25:36
relationship and specifically like one of the more volatile
25:38
days. But what all, all that
25:40
made it into the poem was, um,
25:44
the rest, the vegan restaurant and the vegan
25:46
rats. So I was
25:48
just playing around with that and pulling
25:50
in some moments in my life that
25:52
felt very vivid to me. Um,
25:54
yeah. What was our
25:56
volatile part of our Relationship with that
25:59
moment? Do You remember? No.
26:01
Idea. Of
26:04
ours were that was actually.
26:07
That was late that day that was of a
26:09
me broke up so I think that was. To
26:11
remember that time we broke up for three months ago.
26:15
So. We broke up before we
26:17
came back together and then decided
26:19
to ultimately get married, but there
26:21
is a break up period for
26:23
three months and that line? celebrity.
26:25
The classic religion is your moment we
26:27
break up or do we get married?
26:29
Yes, So that was that moment and.
26:32
We doubled down. You know I can
26:34
tell you details of you want details my
26:36
he may be embarrassed. Of
26:38
embarrassment and. Hence we got into
26:40
fired after lunch in the East
26:42
Village. You know this is going.
26:45
On another story and then we're.
26:47
In the middle of a sigh is and it's
26:49
pretty. The most embarrassing story and most
26:52
of all and we need mean the
26:54
balls at one point that came out
26:56
sir. Where
26:58
they will never you need me in
27:00
the ball which was kinda crazy I
27:02
never went to die while and before
27:04
sense now on we were the argument
27:07
the street that you see as a
27:09
New Yorker and years her daughter of
27:11
the our ever all the time on
27:13
the senior like whoa there really gone
27:15
through it that was that for us
27:17
and. As lot happened someone walks by
27:19
and the guy or big there
27:21
are some. Of that
27:23
and nearly. And then you are and that's
27:25
really and what you want. In. The
27:28
battle of an emotional that sort of a
27:30
only warm significant other. And for the other.
27:32
One to have a random stranger
27:34
tell them that there are some
27:36
S S and then I And
27:38
then he said. This
27:40
neighborhood is my demographic. Ah, Thursday
27:43
the I did say that I'm
27:45
so embarrassed both of them are
27:47
choosing to put this on air.
27:50
I think this is like the deathly, the lowest
27:52
moment of fire, really. sunset. Think. That around
27:54
lobby will my demographic that day
27:56
reserve and that a zealous. And.
28:00
And then we broke up for three months and
28:02
then we got back together. We
28:04
went and we saw the passenger. Yeah.
28:07
Um, will you read, this is one
28:09
of your earth poems, will you read
28:11
how the sea turned to ammunition? Yeah,
28:14
thanks. How
28:17
the sea turned to ammunition. It
28:21
was a devastating hurricane season, says
28:23
earth, when the AR-15s
28:25
were brought to the shoreline at dusk.
28:29
I saw gunmetal instead of fingers. Humans,
28:32
says earth. I
28:34
saw their silhouettes at dusk. The
28:38
years are defined by fingers, says earth, in
28:40
the grip of a trigger or running
28:42
themselves through hair, then
28:45
refraining from touch. Country
28:48
first shouts President Cheeseburgers
28:51
in an imported business suit declaring
28:53
war on the sea, which was flooding
28:55
the land. It
28:58
was a devastating AR-15 season for
29:01
the sea and the schoolchildren. Gun
29:04
sounds, I heard them. I saw
29:07
their silhouettes at dusk. I
29:10
love that. I
29:13
think for like, for me, the, what I
29:16
get of it all, and I
29:18
think it's the reason I enjoy it, is
29:21
it, to me, it takes these current
29:25
issues, one
29:27
being mass
29:30
shootings, gun violence, and
29:33
combines it with this kind of like ecological
29:36
disaster that we're dealing with, with the
29:39
ocean right now. And it merges
29:41
those two things together, but it
29:43
doesn't. By merging them, it's
29:45
kind of the statement unto itself, as opposed
29:48
to there being a statement
29:50
within it. Yeah,
29:53
I feel like poetry, what's fun
29:55
about it is you can do
29:57
these sort of merging, emerging and
30:00
sort of have one sort of connect to the
30:02
other. And I guess
30:04
the trick is to try to figure out how
30:06
to do that without being overbearing and
30:09
sort of explaining too much
30:11
and just sort of letting the images speak
30:13
for themselves and sort of see what it
30:16
can paint. Yeah,
30:18
I see jokes really similarly. Like
30:20
if I have a joke that
30:23
I can't picture what
30:26
the story is or I can't picture
30:28
what it is, like I always describe
30:31
it as like it doesn't have enough cinema. I
30:35
feel like poetry is kind of similar, right? I
30:38
think so, yeah, it's image-based. It's
30:40
definitely like your ability to use
30:42
an image to sort of convey
30:44
kind of an unexplainable, intangible thing
30:46
that when you're, whatever, if you're
30:49
writing a joke, if you're making
30:52
a painting or a poem, like that
30:54
something larger than you comes
30:57
forth and I don't know, just
30:59
like that expression that
31:01
a human can make is I find it
31:03
endlessly possible. I think. I
31:05
find it endlessly possible. So
31:24
we did a show recently where we
31:26
asked people to ask me questions, like
31:28
a Q and A. One of the questions we get is,
31:31
are you able to veto jokes?
31:33
Yeah, well, it's not like. That include
31:35
you. I don't
31:38
do hard vetoes, I don't think,
31:40
but I definitely think that there's
31:42
been moments in our life where
31:44
it's really like our personal life
31:46
is very complicated and in process
31:49
and sometimes scary, sometimes
31:53
like really hard things are going
31:55
on. And so at those moments,
31:57
I'm usually like. I
32:00
need a little time
32:02
before we even think about
32:05
you talking about this on stage.
32:07
And I think that's hard. Those are really hard
32:09
conversations to have. But
32:12
I don't feel like I give you hard videos. You
32:14
definitely say, oh, here's a joke that is
32:17
this OK? If I
32:19
say this, I feel like I'm usually
32:22
pretty open. But you would say even
32:24
no more. And sometimes I'll just add to it and
32:26
say, well, here's my thoughts about it,
32:28
or here's my side of it. I
32:30
think also when it comes to our daughter, we have
32:34
to be careful because we talked about her a lot
32:36
when she was a baby. But now
32:38
that she's like a person, we have to
32:40
be a little more careful about the ways
32:42
in which we talk about her. I
32:45
think one of the things that is
32:47
helpful about two
32:50
artists, you know, coexisting,
32:52
although there's many challenges to it, but one
32:54
of the things that's the upside is, is
32:57
that often I'll tell you a thing I'm working on and
32:59
you'll say, I remember it this
33:01
way. Or one thing you might want to
33:03
include is this. And
33:05
more often than not, that ends up leading
33:07
down a more fruitful path
33:09
and a more dimensional version of the
33:11
joke and story. Right. That's
33:13
the hope is that it's like a positive. I
33:17
think that there's been a couple of
33:19
times where I've definitely had to be
33:21
like, I really don't
33:23
think that you can talk about
33:25
that on stage right now. And it's painful
33:27
to have to like say it in that
33:29
way because I know that it's sort
33:32
of against our like
33:34
overall agreement as to sort of
33:36
how we exist in the world.
33:40
But for the most part, when
33:42
it's coming to stuff about you and me, I
33:44
think it's sort of a yes and kind of
33:47
thing. I would hope
33:49
that that's your experience of it and
33:51
that it's not veto veto or not
33:53
that you're like stressed to like run
33:55
something by me. I also
33:57
think as like artists, it is important to
33:59
write. down the things you want
34:01
to write down and not to
34:03
not write them down. I think
34:05
there's a difference between writing the material
34:08
and putting it in front of
34:10
people or sharing it. I don't know. I
34:12
think there's like, but I think sometimes if you write the material,
34:14
it might
34:16
lead to another thing and so you can sort
34:19
of get away with it and it won't sort
34:21
of damage the sort of internal
34:23
family thing that we do need
34:25
to protect at certain points. Yeah,
34:28
I think that's true. And I think like I
34:30
always give that piece of advice because one of
34:32
the most common questions I get and I got
34:35
in that Q&A also is how
34:37
do you write about your personal life in
34:39
a way that doesn't hurt the people around
34:41
you or hurt their feelings, et cetera. And
34:44
I have a similar thing, which is like just
34:47
write it all down. And
34:50
then as time goes by and you have distance
34:52
from it, you'll see sort
34:54
of how it shakes out and how you
34:57
could write about it in a way that doesn't
34:59
necessarily hurt anyone's feelings. And
35:02
also like sometimes things can be make their way
35:04
into fiction. I thought in
35:06
Little Astronaut, you conveyed some
35:09
really strong feelings about our marriage and
35:12
the pain of childbirth and all
35:14
these things that... I remember
35:16
when I first started sharing those poems, I like sort
35:18
of emailed them to you or I emailed them
35:20
as just like, oh, these are some things I
35:22
wrote. And you're like, it's
35:25
good. It hurts, but it's good that you
35:27
wrote them. It was painful. But
35:30
I think that that's good. I really do.
35:32
And I encourage you in the future to
35:35
swing away. You've encouraged me for
35:37
sure. I just, I'm not
35:40
a person that lets people in. So if I
35:42
am saying, if
35:44
I am communicating something, it's usually pretty
35:46
layered. And
35:48
it's like through a different character usually. I
35:51
mean, I'm writing poetry because I don't really
35:53
communicate well in other ways. So
35:56
if I communicated well in other ways, I
35:58
would be writing very differently. And I would...
36:00
I wouldn't really need to write poetry
36:02
if I was able to just say things in
36:04
a straight-out way But for whatever reason
36:06
the way I think and the way I communicate
36:08
is more of a looping way Yeah,
36:12
well sometimes when you and I I I'm
36:15
trying to communicate with you. You're like don't
36:17
you realize? Like I
36:19
don't speak like this. I
36:22
write poems I'm
36:24
like right but like at some point like
36:26
we got to figure out like Which
36:30
day is off from school so
36:32
we can go to the museum Yeah,
36:36
you know I mean I do So
36:39
I say all these things that are Negative
36:41
about myself in the show. What
36:43
are the things that are so wonderful about
36:45
me that I'm just missing about myself Okay.
36:49
Well, you're just like like the other day we
36:51
were we dropped our daughter off at a birthday
36:53
party We were walking and you were like I
36:55
just want to say I'm really happy to be
36:57
spending this day with you and like You
36:59
know, we've been married a long time Like nobody
37:01
says that anymore like if I 20
37:04
year like you're just you're still
37:06
very like urgent and self Improving
37:08
in this way as like an
37:11
individual and as a team member
37:13
like in this way that is
37:15
so intense But
37:18
also just so beautiful also
37:20
your you make a lot of mistakes
37:25
This is negative again, I think You
37:32
keep going you just like fumble
37:34
around it's all from improv. Yeah, you fumble
37:36
around the mistakes are the beauty But I've
37:38
got a bit of energy you got to
37:41
find the pattern find the pattern in the
37:43
mistakes They're in lies the humor But
37:45
I think you really want people to say these
37:47
like you made a mistake here you need and
37:49
then you'd be like you Want
37:51
that interaction so deeply whereas I
37:53
think other people are
37:55
like don't Don't
37:57
want to face themselves. I think you really
38:00
are looking for people to help you face
38:02
yourself in this way that I think is really
38:05
beautiful and profound. Like I think if
38:07
anyone has a problem with you, just tell
38:10
them what the issue is.
38:13
Yeah, I think that's true. Yeah. I
38:17
think you're right that most people don't
38:19
want to have any discussion of what
38:21
the conflict is. Most people don't
38:23
want to and you're lying to. You're like, I'm
38:26
confused when people don't want to. I'm
38:28
like, why not? It's
38:31
all, I don't
38:33
know. That stuff's dicey.
38:36
It all roots back to this thing. Chris
38:38
Fleming was here the other day, the comedian,
38:40
great comedian. And
38:44
he's also from suburban Massachusetts and we
38:47
have this thing exact and common, which
38:49
is like we
38:51
grew up in this wildly
38:54
repressed Catholic upbringing where nobody
38:56
talks about anything. And
38:58
me and Chris, I think to some
39:00
degree have in common that we're trying
39:04
to end the cycle on that. Well,
39:07
a lot of people, including myself,
39:10
when some, like you've said to
39:12
me, like, oh, you said this thing that
39:14
upset me yesterday and I'll sort of be
39:16
defensive about it or I'll feel criticized by
39:18
it or I'll feel like, well, 99% of
39:22
everything else I said was amazing. Why
39:24
do we have to harp on this
39:26
1% thing that I didn't do perfectly?
39:28
Sort of like how I experienced it,
39:30
but the way you usually experience it
39:32
is you want
39:34
to dig in and you're
39:36
like, thank you for bringing
39:39
this up. You see it as like
39:41
a sign of interaction, love,
39:43
respect to bring it up, even
39:45
if it's a difficult thing. Whereas
39:48
I feel like I and some other people
39:50
take it as like, let's just keep moving.
39:52
Like 99% of this is working. Well,
39:55
because if we're not growing, aren't we just
39:57
dying? Yeah, Bob
39:59
Dylan. Yes,
40:02
we are. I know I agree with you. I think
40:04
it's a challenge for me in a good way. This
40:08
has been a very productive talk. Thank you. Thank
40:11
you for your challenges. This has been very helpful. The
40:21
last thing we do is working out for a cause. Is
40:23
there a nonprofit that you like to support? I
40:26
want us to do the Children's Hospital in Los
40:28
Angeles. Where Jimmy
40:31
Kimmel and Molly
40:33
McNerney have contributed a
40:35
lot. They do a lot of
40:37
work with the hospital and I feel like I
40:39
want to support them. That's a great one. We'll
40:41
contribute to Children's Hospital Los Angeles and
40:44
we will link to them in the show notes.
40:46
It's a great, great, great organization. Thank
40:49
you, J.Hope. Do I look sleepy? No.
40:54
Do I look sleepy? Thank you for marrying me. Thank
40:57
you for marrying me. How I
40:59
end every interview is. Thank
41:01
you for marrying me and we will link
41:03
to our marriage in the show notes. That's
41:16
going to do it for another
41:18
episode of Working It Out. Little
41:20
Astronaut, the audio book is available
41:22
for pre-order now. Comes out for
41:24
Mother's Day. It'll be on Audible.
41:26
It'll be on libro.fm or anywhere
41:28
where you get audio books. You
41:30
can find Jen on Instagram at
41:32
J.HopeStein. She posts all kinds
41:34
of cool animations related to her poetry. She's
41:37
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41:45
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41:47
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41:50
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41:52
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41:54
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41:56
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41:58
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42:01
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42:03
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