0:00

Lady Charmaine, are

0:00

you sure this Shadow Work is

0:03

light work? It looks

0:03

questionable to me.

0:06

It's fine Mx Zephy.

0:08

But what about toxic

0:08

light work?

0:11

Uggh, just grab

0:11

a warm beverage and settle in.

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End scene, just

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misfits!

0:17

Hello beautiful

0:17

misfits! Are you fed up with the

0:20

good vibes only crowd?

0:22

People telling you where to go and how to be present?

0:25

Afraid to make

0:25

your own choices and free to be

0:28

you?

0:29

Feeling just trapped?

0:32

Us too. Join us

0:32

as we turn the light out on

0:35

spirituality and get comfortable

0:35

with the shadows, right now with

0:39

Misfit Mondays.

0:40

Mx Zephy here pronoun

0:40

xe | xem and with me is Lady

0:51

Charmaine pronouns she | hers.

0:51

Today we ask, Who the fuck do

0:57

you think you are? No, really

0:57

stop waging war on yourself and

1:01

others with your need to

1:01

compare. Go ahead and give your

1:05

inner diva a night off and take

1:05

a playdate with your inner

1:08

child. This episode kicks off a

1:08

trilogy of episodes that asks us

1:13

to fuck convention. Step back

1:13

from the way things have always

1:17

been done and find a new path

1:17

that allows you to discover your

1:20

authenticity. And today,

1:20

Charmaine, you and I are going

1:23

to talk about like fucking ego.

1:23

So last week we had Yogi Bryan

1:27

that's Bryan with a "Bry" not a

1:27

"Bri". And Yogi Bryan and us

1:32

chatted about can we chat? Oh,

1:32

we chatted about um, can you

1:36

even say fuck, and so that we're

1:36

just like, yeah, we can say

1:39

this. This is

1:39

We surely fucking can.

1:41

Right. And so today is

1:41

all about ego and fucking the

1:45

ego. So I have a question for

1:45

all you cinephiles out there,

1:50

all you movie buffs. Raise your

1:50

hand if you've ever been

1:53

personally victimized by a

1:53

spiritual Regina George. One of

1:58

her favorite phrases is you

1:58

can't grow and evolve as a

2:01

spiritual being until you

2:01

release your ego. This phrase is

2:06

the nastiest skank bitch I've

2:06

ever met. Do not trust her.

2:13

She's a fugly slut and she's

2:13

going in burn book. And you

2:18

know, your ego is not

2:18

necessarily bad. He goes kind of

2:20

taking on this bit of a bad rap

2:20

and this bad boy image in the

2:24

spiritual community and you

2:24

might be wondering, why and you

2:26

know, Charmaine and I will get

2:26

to that. Um, but also like, take

2:30

a moment to pause to honor that

2:30

a lot of people um, maybe their

2:34

own spiritual teacher, teacher

2:34

trying to figure out all of this

2:37

and make sense of all the

2:37

messages contradictory or not.

2:40

And just affirm letting affirm

2:40

that letting go of your ego,

2:43

isn't it. Um, so what's the ego

2:43

Charmaine, I think I think let's

2:48

start off with you, too, you

2:48

know, just telling us a little

2:50

bit about the ego is,

2:52

Ah, okay, so

2:52

your ego is who you tell

2:58

yourself, yourself, you are.

2:58

This is made up of stories, you

3:03

tell yourself. Your opinions and

3:03

beliefs about who you are in

3:07

this great ocean of

3:07

consciousness that is the

3:10

universe. Problem is, spoiler

3:10

alert, you are but one drop of

3:15

water in that great big ocean.

3:15

And you are deeply, deeply

3:21

connected and unique as fuck

3:21

unique as fuck. So you're not as

3:28

alone as you think, and ego is

3:28

our own mental construct. So in

3:34

when we get into this, it's

3:34

like, ego is Who did you become

3:45

to please others as a child?

3:45

This plays in hugely to your

3:51

ego, and what you believe of

3:51

yourself and you know, how you

3:56

believe in yourself. Be whether

3:56

you are brought up with a

4:01

certain religious background,

4:01

this can play into that piece.

4:08

You know it your birth order,

4:08

you know, are you the strong,

4:13

dominant first child? Or are you

4:13

the, the pampered baby of the

4:18

family? Are you the

4:18

misunderstood and always

4:21

forgotten middle child like

4:21

these little pieces always come

4:24

back into that ego play?

4:26

Oh, and the need and

4:26

the middle child is also needy,

4:28

too. I am that middle child, and

4:28

I am so needy. And a lot of this

4:33

because like the baby gets all

4:33

the attention, and so does the

4:37

older one. And yeah, we are kind

4:37

of forgotten. But we also get

4:40

really, really needy. It shows

4:40

up as narcissism too. Because we

4:47

want to make it all about us

4:47

because well, we didn't feel

4:49

like we got the attention we deserved.

4:51

And I grew up.

4:51

I'm the oldest and so I'm the

4:55

leader. I'm the one who gets

4:55

everybody in line and make sure

4:59

things are done. But now as I'm

4:59

getting older, I'm realizing

5:03

that really is this construct,

5:03

like I was the oldest that was

5:06

like part of my responsibility.

5:06

And that's who I took on as part

5:11

of who I was. And really, I'm

5:11

deep inside, I'm like a soft,

5:17

mushy baby child, like, I want

5:17

someone to cuddle me and pamper

5:24

me and be like, everything's

5:24

gonna be okay. And not be so

5:29

tight. A plus, plus, plus, plus,

5:29

plus, and have everything in

5:32

order all the time. So, as I'm

5:32

tearing down my own ego

5:37

constructs, I'm like, Oh yeah, I guess I do want to

5:39

just wrap up in a warm, fuzzy

5:46

blanket and drink cocoa like I'm

5:46

three. Okay.

5:50

But these are some of the good things why exactly like, I also want to talk about

5:51

why this shows is bad too,

5:55

because that this sounds lovely.

5:55

Like, I really want to curl up

5:58

on the bed right now with a nice

5:58

cup of cocoa. That sounds great.

6:00

Like if that's what ego is

6:00

showing up as like a nice cup of

6:03

cocoa, then fuck yes, I'm all

6:03

for it.

6:07

Well, I think

6:07

too. Something that I'm, I've

6:12

personally dealt with in, in

6:12

recent months, is that when you

6:18

are in a journey, whatever that

6:18

journey that is, it could be a

6:24

spiritual journey, it could be a

6:24

journey through addiction.

6:29

Whatever journey you're on, the

6:29

moment you start to change, and

6:35

choose yourself, people will

6:35

start throwing out the term

6:40

selfish and egotistical. And

6:40

this has happened to me multiple

6:47

times in life, at different

6:47

points, whatever I was dealing

6:52

with, but when I finally started

6:52

to set boundaries, and start

6:57

choosing myself and my own

6:57

happiness, other people are so

7:02

taken back by this and make it

7:02

so much about them that now you

7:07

are labeled as egotistical and

7:07

selfish. And so I think in a lot

7:15

of ways, that's how most of us

7:15

see ego. It's the things people

7:21

tell us not to be. Don't be so

7:21

mouthy. Don't be so liberal,

7:28

don't be so sarcastic, don't be,

7:28

you know, you're too Oh, girls

7:37

all the time, you're too bossy,

7:37

you're too. too emotional. All

7:43

of these things come back to

7:43

what we tell ourselves that we

7:46

are and we shouldn't be. And

7:46

that's not the case. If you're

7:50

an emotional person being

7:50

emotional. I'm an emotional

7:52

person, I will cry, I will yell.

7:52

Now. I'm also emotionally

7:58

intelligent. I do my very

7:58

darndest to keep myself in a

8:05

nice flow state. But I popped my

8:05

top like a motherfreakin

8:12

volcano, sometimes I do, it

8:12

happens. It's not my prettiest

8:16

time. But it happens. It's It's

8:16

rough. And I don't have it all

8:26

together at all.

8:29

And I think that I

8:29

think the thing here like that

8:31

just make that like x, the

8:31

implicit explicit is it sounds

8:37

like this is a lot of people

8:37

telling you who you are, which

8:40

is really limiting, limiting,

8:40

limiting, let me get like my

8:44

lisp out of the way like this is

8:44

a lot of ELLs and M's just words

8:47

in general. But this is

8:47

literally like limiting our

8:50

potential. And it and it's

8:50

cutting us off from knowing who

8:54

we are as a person it's cutting

8:54

off from what our authentic

8:57

story is, and what and how that

8:57

show up and how and who we

9:00

actually can be. And I think

9:00

that's one of the I think that's

9:03

one of the dangers of ego is,

9:03

you know, when people tell us

9:07

who we are, as opposed to us

9:07

paying attention to who we are

9:10

we cut off knowing who we really

9:10

are. And I think the other

9:13

piece, too, is on the other side

9:13

of this is how much are we

9:17

actually listening? Like, you

9:17

know, maybe because our ego

9:22

shows up as a survival

9:22

mechanism. It's really what it

9:24

is, is your ego is a survival

9:24

mechanism and it keeps you

9:27

alive. But I also wonder

9:27

sometimes does ego get in the

9:30

way and cause you to not listen

9:30

to other people, you know,

9:33

giving you some gentle guidance

9:33

and people giving you some

9:35

gentle wisdom to say, hey, maybe

9:35

have you thought about maybe

9:38

doing x thing in this way, as

9:38

opposed to doing it the

9:41

bullheaded way that you've always done it.

9:43

I think that is

9:43

very clear. And, you know, as a

9:48

mother with teenagers, you know,

9:48

right now there's some egos you

9:55

know, I have some young humans

9:55

that are you know, coming into

10:00

their own power and you're

10:00

stepping up to make their own

10:05

decisions. And so, sometimes

10:05

it's hard to, you know, you want

10:12

to redirect them, or you try to

10:12

give them better advice, you

10:17

know, based on my own knowledge

10:17

and experience, like, Hey, have

10:21

you tried this? Have you tried

10:21

that? Oh, no, no, no, no, they

10:25

obviously know better than I do.

10:25

And, and that's a, you know,

10:30

that's an ego piece. And that's

10:30

something that they need to work

10:33

through on their own. And just

10:33

as I had to work through it on

10:38

my own, but it's really about

10:38

you coming to a place of truly

10:45

knowing, you know, this is a

10:45

time for them, to try and make

10:49

mistakes and, and fuck it up if

10:49

they need to, because I'm still

10:53

here as a safety net to help

10:53

them along, if they do fuck it

10:57

up. This is their time, to to,

10:57

to figure out who they are and

11:03

who that ego piece is, in a

11:03

healthy way. I'm giving them

11:08

that and, and not telling them

11:08

who they are, what they need to

11:11

do, or how they need to make a

11:11

decision. So we'll see,

11:16

hopefully, it works out for

11:16

them, you know, I try to give

11:19

them a little more guidance and

11:19

TLC than what I received when I

11:25

was their age. So, you know, I

11:25

don't want them to become young

11:35

adults, and feel like they have

11:35

to hide, because for so many

11:40

years, I I lived behind a facade

11:40

of who I was in this group, and

11:48

who I was in that group and who

11:48

I was in that group, and nobody

11:51

really saw all of me. Nobody

11:51

ever saw all of who I was, nor

11:57

had the information to even put

11:57

those pieces together. And I

12:01

didn't start living fully until

12:01

my late 30s. So, you know, I, I

12:09

hope that in a way, anything

12:09

that I share here, anything I

12:14

share with my children helps.

12:14

And you know if it doesn't,

12:18

well, thanks for listening

12:18

anyway, folks, we appreciate

12:21

you.

12:23

So actually, this is

12:23

this is actually a great what

12:25

you just said is really great

12:25

because I pulled up Eckhart

12:28

Tolle on he wrote this book

12:28

called A New Earth and I love

12:31

this book. But there's a great

12:31

quote in there and I'm gonna

12:34

read it to y'all this because it

12:34

brought it brought this up to me

12:36

cuz I think this is a good place

12:36

because we went a little random

12:40

like we usually do. So I want to

12:40

make sure that we kind of like,

12:44

do a little bit of a recap here.

12:46

Reign me back in. Rein me back in.

12:48

Is that my voice? Lord

12:48

that got a little high. Um,

12:51

anyway, so Eckhart Tolle

12:51

newerth, here's the quote, "Give

12:54

up defining yourself, to

12:54

yourself or to others, you won't

12:58

die, you will come to life. And

12:58

don't be concerned with how

13:02

others define you. When they

13:02

define you. They're limiting

13:05

themselves. So it's their

13:05

problem. Whenever you interact

13:09

with people don't be there

13:09

primarily as a function or a

13:13

role but as the field of

13:13

conscious presence. You can only

13:17

lose something that you have,

13:17

but you cannot lose something

13:21

that you are." That's massive. I

13:21

think there's two big pieces

13:25

here. One is that your potential

13:25

is unlimited. Like your big

13:29

piece of this, like what we

13:29

talked about earlier with, like

13:31

this conscious awareness and the

13:31

drop of then, like just being

13:35

this, you know, but small breath

13:35

in the big exhale, the universe.

13:38

That went real deep, real quick.

13:41

I know.

13:41

Seriously, folks, if you guys

13:43

could see my eyes, they're like,

13:43

as big as saucers right now,

13:46

like, I'm just, there's so much

13:46

to unpack here suddenly, right?

13:51

But, like a bag of holding, I

13:51

was like, Oh, it's just a little

13:55

bag. And then I stuck my hand in

13:55

and I'm like, Holy fuck, there's

13:58

a whole universe in there.

14:01

Well, the other piece to here is I think there's a big piece in here about liberation

14:03

and what liberation looks like

14:05

for you. And this is liberation,

14:05

something that I do a lot,

14:08

working with Black and Pink. And

14:08

what does liberation look like?

14:11

How do you move in a world where

14:11

you feel free? How do you live

14:14

in a world where you don't feel

14:14

limited, where you don't feel

14:17

combined? And I think this is a

14:17

great, great quote to say that,

14:20

you know, you are unlimited. Um,

14:20

you you're this big. You're a

14:24

big breath, and this exhale that

14:24

is the universe. And you're just

14:29

there. You're just you're just

14:29

existing, you're functioning,

14:31

you're moving, you're interacting, you're being, you're engaging relationships

14:32

with yourself, you're engaging

14:35

relationships with others. And

14:35

it's always being, you know, in

14:38

that present moment and making

14:38

sure that that moment is the

14:41

best moment you have because

14:41

tomorrow's already done like

14:44

yesterday's already done,

14:44

tomorrow's not promised. So what

14:46

do you have today? And how are

14:46

you going to lead your life in a

14:49

way that is going to be loving

14:49

that's going to be kind of it's

14:54

going to be gentle with people.

14:54

That felt really deep. Like,

15:01

yeah, like that, that felt a

15:01

little a little out there,

15:07

almost woo woo borderline?

15:08

Oh no, I don't

15:08

even feel like it was woo woo.

15:11

I just feel like it was like so.

15:11

I mean, it was like, hitting the

15:17

nail with Thor's hammers, is

15:17

what it was, it was a spot on.

15:22

And it it, it hit deep, because

15:22

we are so worried about how we

15:30

show up or how we present

15:30

ourselves. And we have this deep

15:37

anxiety. I've dealt with so much

15:37

anxiety in my life because of

15:43

worries about how I would be

15:43

perceived by other people how,

15:48

you know, how I show up to

15:48

something, and how that would

15:52

all play out? That. And I and

15:52

I've been in, you know, a

15:59

corporate business role for a

15:59

long time. But I remember years,

16:02

I can think back now. And I'm in

16:02

these groups of amazing,

16:05

brilliant people. And we're

16:05

having conversations at cocktail

16:09

parties. And I am sitting with

16:09

my napkin and whatever. And I'm

16:16

like, how do I eat this

16:16

properly? How do I do you know,

16:22

if I chime into this

16:22

conversation, how am I going to

16:25

be perceived? I spent more time

16:25

thinking in my own head,

16:28

worrying about this and self

16:28

loathing, you know, like, all

16:33

this like imposter syndrome,

16:33

that I wasn't enough to be there

16:37

to be with these people, that I

16:37

didn't even participate in the

16:40

conversations. I left my

16:40

beautiful light and charm

16:44

outside of the conversation,

16:44

because of all of the crap in my

16:49

own head that was holding me

16:49

back. And you know, all these

16:52

ego pieces telling me like, Oh,

16:52

no, no, no, you can't, you can't

16:57

swear in polite company, they

16:57

won't like you. You can't make

17:04

slightly offhand sexual

17:04

innuendos. They won't like you,

17:09

people, this is who I am. If

17:09

there is an innuendo, I will

17:14

find an endo to put it in. That

17:14

is just the way it is. But then

17:19

I had all these things that held

17:19

me back and told myself like, I

17:22

can't do that, you know what,

17:22

these people are human too. And

17:26

when I started to open up, and I

17:26

started to inject a little in

17:30

conversation, and you make a

17:30

snicker and kind of a overt

17:34

remark that you know. And in the

17:34

right company is fine and not

17:40

the right company without

17:40

consent is sexual harassment.

17:46

But they were my people. You

17:46

know, they got me, they

17:52

understood. They liked

17:52

everything that was just me

17:56

without any of the, my own

17:56

labels and any of my own hang

18:00

ups. So, I don't know.

18:03

One I think to even

18:03

like to you know, let's just

18:06

drop another fucking metaphor in

18:06

here. Because this is where I

18:08

seem to excel, especially.

18:09

You excel at

18:09

metaphor.

18:12

Like metaphor is my

18:12

thing. But in thinking along the

18:14

lines of like, because in

18:14

meditation, we talk about the

18:17

role of the observer. And

18:17

sometimes it doesn't really make

18:19

a lot of sense for a lot of

18:19

people. So let's let's switch

18:22

this like role of the observer

18:22

to thinking about like a puppet

18:25

and a puppet master. And let's

18:25

say that you as yourself is,

18:29

let's say that you are the

18:29

puppet and your ego is the

18:32

puppet master. And until you

18:32

gain control of the ego, and you

18:37

gain control of your life, your

18:37

ego is controlling you. So all

18:40

those things that you feel bad

18:40

about or all those things that

18:44

don't really benefit you, the

18:44

ego is controlling you and

18:47

letting you run your life that

18:47

way. And so in, you know, with

18:50

dealing with like me say fuck

18:50

ego, it's about you, you know,

18:54

being Pinocchio cutting off

18:54

those strings, and then you

18:58

making that ego, your puppet.

18:58

And really enhancing those,

19:01

those traits that that you know,

19:01

make you valuable. Those traits,

19:06

um, that's that allow you to be

19:06

that one piece of the breath

19:10

that's in this exhale the universe, to go back to the earlier one and tie that in. But

19:12

it's a lot of time to flip the

19:15

script on and not letting the

19:15

ego control you but controlling

19:18

your ego and saying, you know,

19:18

this isn't me. These are not the

19:23

traits that make me feel good

19:23

about myself. These are not the

19:26

traits that who I really am,

19:26

this is my ego telling me this

19:29

is who I should be. This is my

19:29

ego commanding me to act in a

19:33

way that doesn't necessarily

19:33

serve my highest good. So how

19:36

can I flip that script, control

19:36

the ego, and be like, you know,

19:39

I can see that all these things

19:39

are happening. I can pause I can

19:43

take a moment and say, This is

19:43

how I want to respond and being

19:46

conscious and being aware of how

19:46

you want to respond in that

19:50

moment and responding in a way

19:50

that's going to serve not only

19:52

your highest good, but you know

19:52

in the relationships around you.

19:56

Because at the end of the day,

19:56

this isn't even about you

19:58

either. This is about you, plus

19:58

others and i think that. I

20:02

think. I know that got a little

20:02

deep and I..

20:08

I didn't realize

20:08

that I needed waders today, like

20:11

all the way up chest waders.

20:11

It's getting deeper and deeper

20:15

in here.

20:15

But i was trying to

20:15

explain it a little easier.

20:20

But it's all

20:20

true that's the thing it's like

20:22

it's it's all true that we get

20:22

into these places with ego. And

20:29

it is about being in control of

20:29

our egos and really knowing who

20:36

we are and when that, you know,

20:36

when we're getting in our own

20:44

way. Oh there's so much. There's

20:44

so much that can go here.

20:52

Well I haven't even

20:52

simpler way to do this. Um you

20:55

know that song by India.Arie, I

20:55

am Light?

20:58

Yes

20:59

So literally this song

20:59

is basically ego. This is about

21:02

ego. This is. So in the song she

21:02

talks about she is light she is

21:06

light and she goes I'm not the

21:06

things my family did. I am not

21:09

the voices in my head I am not

21:09

the pieces of the brokenness

21:12

inside. I'm not the mistakes

21:12

that I've mad made or any of the

21:16

things that's caused me pain.

21:16

I'm not the pieces of the dream

21:19

I left behind. I'm not the color

21:19

of my eyes. I'm not the skin on

21:22

the outside. I'm not my age. I'm

21:22

not my race. My soul inside is

21:26

all light. I am definity,

21:26

divinity defined. I'm a god on

21:30

the inside. I am a star. This

21:30

song is actually on one of our.

21:33

I think it's on both of our

21:33

Spotify playlist because I love

21:37

this song so much. But I think

21:37

this this goes back to that

21:40

heart of ego being you know,

21:40

you're not those darkness,

21:42

you're not those stories that

21:42

you tell yourself that you are

21:46

you're actually light. Um, for

21:46

me, I know that I believe that

21:49

we are all like Stardust, you

21:49

know, and how fucking cool is

21:54

that? That we are all just star

21:54

dust. That we are we are part of

21:57

this cosmic ether. And that we

21:57

all get to share in that. Like,

22:01

and I don't and I think that the

22:01

joy of this is knowing that why

22:07

the fuck would you want to limit

22:07

yourself to all these things

22:10

that aren't that great? Why

22:10

would you not want to be

22:14

Stardust? Why would you not to

22:14

be all these things that serve

22:17

your highest good?

22:18

I know because I

22:18

love glitter and Stardust is

22:21

just the upper echelon of all

22:21

that glitter is

22:27

And alsoo glitter like

22:27

herpes, so it just never goes

22:32

away. I'm pretty sure I have

22:32

glitter that just travels from

22:35

apartment to apartment because

22:35

it never goes away.

22:41

And like Stardust, we just take that shit everywhere. It's so beautiful. I

22:43

think that that's beautiful. I

22:49

don't know if I have anything

22:49

else to say on this topic,

22:52

because I feel like it's just so

22:52

deep. And we need to sit with

22:55

that for a minute.

22:57

Well, I'm gonna do one

22:57

more deep thing because this is

23:02

me. So and I think this is

23:02

actually a perfect way to umm to

23:07

wrap this up. Um, ego tells us

23:07

that we have to hide parts of

23:11

ourselves because we're told

23:11

that it's wrong. We're also

23:14

taught that self care and self

23:14

love is egotistical. And I kinda

23:18

want to leave you with this quote by Audre Lorde. Because Audre Lorde is like my black

23:20

femme godmother, like, she's

23:24

taught me so much about just the

23:24

way the world is. And so, and

23:28

this is actually a really

23:28

popular quote. So you can, you

23:31

know, catch me or, you know,

23:31

indulging myself. But speaking

23:35

of which, "Caring for myself is

23:35

not self indulgence. It is self

23:39

preservation. And that is an act

23:39

of political warfare." Let's add

23:44

this to it. Let's add to this

23:44

also and say that it's also

23:47

spiritual warfare. And are we

23:47

going to win the battle for our

23:50

ego? Sorry, I'm done.

23:56

My god. Catch us

23:56

next week, right here, on Misfit

24:00

Mondays.

24:02

I promise I'm done. I

24:02

tried not to go deep. I tried. I

24:05

really tried.

24:08

Okay, wow,

24:09

We want to do a meditation to try and calm this down a little bit.

24:13

Oh. Oh, yeah, we

24:13

better calm it down. Okay, here

24:18

we go.

24:20

Sorry, folks. If you're listening at home, you might want to pause this. Umm

24:22

listen to this a couple times. I

24:25

didn't mean to get this deep.

24:26

Yeah, you're

24:26

going to have to write Cliff's

24:30

notes on the Patreon for this

24:30

one. Alright, let's take all of

24:37

this energy here and find a

24:37

comfortable seated position. If

24:44

you're able, and it's

24:44

comfortable, you know, get your

24:47

feet flat on the floor here. And

24:47

just have your palms resting a

24:53

palm side up on your thighs. So

24:53

Hands on your thighs, palms side

24:58

up. Let's take a nice, deep

24:58

inhale here and through the

25:05

nose, out to the mouth and in

25:05

through the nose and out through

25:20

the mouth. As we take this time here, let's

25:26

really think about our feet

25:30

grounding into Mother Earth.

25:41

Let's do a quick scan of how

25:41

we're feeling. So let's start at

25:48

the top of our head. And notice

25:48

if there's any tightness or

25:54

tension. I really like to think

25:54

about when I'm scanning energy,

26:05

about the light coming through

26:05

being like a warm honey, and

26:11

kind of caressing along all of

26:11

my mind and my forehead. This

26:20

really consider this war coming

26:20

down across your face allowing

26:26

you to relax. Knowing your job, relax. And

26:32

allow this continue to born to

26:40

come down over your shoulders.

26:40

notices that there's any tension

26:48

that you need to let go and

26:48

allow this honeyed energy to

26:52

just collect that. And down

26:52

through our chest. Let's be

27:08

conscious of anything we hold

27:08

here in our hearts. Anything

27:13

that is no longer serving us,

27:13

especially when it comes to our

27:17

ego. Allow this honeyed energy

27:17

to stick to it and pull it right

27:25

along. Down through our solar

27:25

plexus, in our abdomen, and down

27:38

into our Sacral Chakra right

27:38

here in our hips. And for anyone

27:46

out there like myself who may

27:46

have been a survivor of any type

27:54

of abuse if you were holding on

27:54

to pieces that you're allowing

28:01

into your ego here. If you feel

28:01

comfortable and are ready, allow

28:07

this honeyed energy to collect

28:07

those pieces that are not truly

28:13

a part of you. down into our

28:13

root chakra at the base, where

28:24

we're sitting, let's just allow

28:24

this energy to continue to roll

28:30

over our hips and down our

28:30

thighs and over our knees, our

28:41

shins, our ankle. And let's

28:41

allow that honey energy to just

28:51

roll right into the earth

28:51

through our feet taking with it.

28:56

All these fragments that are no

28:56

longer serving us all these bits

29:01

of ego that are truly ours. Just

29:01

allow Mother Earth to take that

29:10

energy and to transmute it and

29:10

send it back into the universe

29:17

where it belongs. And then go ahead and place your

29:24

hands on your heart here. As you

29:34

breathe I can say I am enough I

29:34

am unique. I am worthy. I am

30:03

loved. Let's ask the universe to

30:03

send back to us any heart

30:33

fragments that we have lost

30:33

along the way. Whether we gave

30:38

them away by choice or by

30:38

circumstance, or even

30:42

unknowingly. And let's ask for clarity not

30:50

only in our heart, but in our

30:56

minds as we work with our own

30:56

egos, so that the veil can be

31:02

lifted and we can truly see who

31:02

we are. That we can step into

31:07

our power and purpose. When you're ready, I invite you

31:19

to just flutter your eyes open

31:24

and give thanks this time and to

31:24

the energy in and around you and

31:32

to the universe, for helping you

31:32

to call back what is for you and

31:38

to remove what isn't. Thank you

31:38

so much for joining us.

31:44

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31:44

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