3:15 She experienced a lot at a very young age. She witnessed her biological Father take a life right in front of her eyes at the age of 5.

“My brokenness started at the age of 5.” I witnessed my biological Father take a life right in front of my eyes at the age of 5...and he was CPD, a Chicago Police Officer.

“He did do time, but he didn’t do enough.” “At the age of 5 it didn’t register to me that I was witnessing MURDER.”

He was violently beating him, swinging him like he was a rag doll across the room. Every blue moon I would see his body hit the wall or hit the floor. I was trying not to see what I was seeing. My stepbrother was 4. “The scene that is probably the most vivid is seeing that last moment of breath.” I remember being in the ambulance and My Pop kept saying “please don’t let me go to jail, please don’t let me go to jail.” As we watched them try to resuscitate my brother. The very next day, my biological “In the first 10 minutes, Brooke doesn’t hold back.

She explains witnessing death in a way that you feel like you’re there with her. She paints the picture so clearly that I couldn’t help but to cry while editing this recording. I felt the emotions as if I had witnessed death myself...Rest In Peace to her Brother. 🙏🏽💙”

10:09 So the very next day, my biological brother and I were in an adoption agency. We got processed and we were put in our first home. You’re already traumatized and it’s like you just keep getting broken down. It’s almost like a toxic man who sees you when you’re vulnerable and wants to break you down a little bit more.

11:40 Brooke talks about her relationship with her Pop before the murder. Torture Tactics - he would shove us under the water until we were at our last breath then he would pick our heads up.

13:40 Experiencing abuse while growing up in foster care. I was raped and molested at 5. My foster Father walked in and walked back out, like nothing happened.

15:30 6-7 years old life turned around! Till this day I still keep in touch with her. Mama Pat! She changed the trajectory of the way my life could’ve gone.

28:18 Her Mom’s Friend calling Brooke out on her trauma. “Something happened to you and you have not spoken about it and it’s hindering your relationship with your step dad and that man is here to help you heal.” Brooke breaks down and tell her Mom she was raped in foster care. “She broke down and cried with me and I think in that moment, I REALLY felt love from my Mom”.

32:59 Brooke’s step Dad ensures her she can trust him and he would never hurt her, regardless of the trauma she experienced as a child. “The way my Step Dad treated me, I was able to trust other men and see clear who doesn’t have good intentions.” “Age 15 was a really big healing year for me.” When she told her Step dad about the podcast she asked was it ok and he said you do whatever you need to do, to heal.

39:42 Moving to Chicago... “it was cut throat!” Dealing with abuse 41:58 I finally got out of the toxic relationship but then I found out I was pregnant. He literally told me “I can’t have a baby with an American girl.”

46:56 “All signs led to, you can’t keep this baby. And I just wanted someone to tell me: you can do this, you’re gonna be fine.” Ladies, I encourage you to listen to my podcast featuring Brooke. Starting at

45:52, in raw detail, with tears, she shares her experience of being pregnant and a man begging her to not keep the baby which led to her having an abortion. I don’t want you to listen for the “tea” but to connect with her through my podcast, as a woman. As a woman who might’ve been through the same thing. As a woman who’s still healing from making a decision she didn’t want to but felt like she HAD to. And yes, we cried behind the scenes, we hugged and we prayed. Healing is a process, sometimes we have to tell our stories and release. Sometimes we have to uncover the things in our life we’ve tried

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