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And you're just, you know, you're just worried about feeding your family and
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paying your bills and all that other stuff. But then you get to a place where you're financially secure and you're like,
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oh, my God, where did that weed come from?
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I see that weed on my. Oh, my God. I've got it. Like you start really concentrating
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on your grass. You start really concentrating.
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You're like, I was so broke. And then I found some weed.
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I didn't completely understand. No. Oh, you're thinking weed weed.
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Well. I meant like weeds in my garden or weeds on my.
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Yes. I got with you eventually. Okay. I did it.
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Music.
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I know politics bore you, but I feel like a hypocrite talking to you and your racist friend.
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And now it's time for my racist friend. A time for reflection.
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A time for joy.
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For laughter. For tears. I'm Don Griffin.
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And I'm Amy McKeese. And we're talking about the messy parts of relationships
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that help us grow together. There, we did it all. So sit back and relax.
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I think you need a second career as like an NPR guy. Oh, you think so?
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Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. You just have to stop in the middle of sentences.
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Don Griffin was a realtor.
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Oh, my God. I always feel so much smarter after listening to NPR.
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Do you? Yeah, I really do. Maybe I should try doing that.
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It's been a long time. It's relaxing, especially on a Saturday and a Sunday.
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And it's funny. Some of it's funny. Some of it's, what's the one?
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Wait, wait, don't tell me. Wait, wait, don't tell me. I think that's hilarious.
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And then Hidden Brain. I do like the Hidden Brain.
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I listen to the podcast. We always hear someone from high school at the end that heard- What?
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Yes, it's Jennifer Munson is the technical person or something for the hidden brain.
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Isn't that cool? Yeah. First time I heard it, I was like, Jennifer Munson.
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Is that like Bloomington Jennifer Munson?
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And so I like sent her a message. I was like, hey, that's pretty cool.
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And she's like, thank you. So anyway. You know, it seems like things come up a lot at once.
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But it seems like one that I keep hearing is boundaries.
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Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries. In what respect? In the respect of creating
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boundaries for the space?
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See, I'd only thought of boundaries in one way until we had that first conversation.
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About boundaries how did you think of them before
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that hey don you don't
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have many but you don't have enough boundaries you don't have you know
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you either overstep your boundaries or let too many people mostly let too many
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people in that shouldn't be in your space yeah so boundaries in that respect
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and now and but this new version of boundaries that i'm hearing in boundaries
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is It is creating boundaries, creating a space where people can actually be comfortable in speaking truth and that kind of thing.
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So the term boundaries is a positive now for me.
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Yeah, I think it can be positive. Yeah. We're talking about coming into work
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and being happy to see people. If you can say, oh, this is something that I need, or scoot over,
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or whatever it is that you need to say to be comfortable, then you can actually
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enjoy being around other people.
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You pick out three cards. It's like a tarot card reading. Yeah.
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Okay. Now you have to put them out so we can see them.
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Okay, so what am I doing here? The one in the middle is the problem,
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and the two around it are information about that.
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Is that really how that works? I just made it up. I thought I understood these
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cards, and now it's a game. When you play with tarot cards and stuff, you can do stuff like that.
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Yeah, see, I've never done that. Relational movement. I don't think that's anything we've ever talked about.
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You know, we've talked about the one true thing, right? Right.
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And when I think of the one true thing, I think of being able to say something
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that's true for you and that allows for movement in the relationship.
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Right. So it doesn't like box the other person into a corner by saying that
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stupid and relational movement.
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I think of as being able to move within the relationship or the relationship itself moving.
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Is this advanced this whole this concept you think this is advanced you gotta
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get the other step down before we can talk about this. When we've been doing our RCT in practice stuff, we've started,
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we've sort of based everything that we do in the central relational paradox,
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which is the idea that you really need relationships.
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And so in order to stay in the relationships, because you've been hurt,
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because of things you've learned along the way, you hide parts of yourself that
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you've decided are too risky to share.
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And then the paradox is you don't get the relationship. because you're hiding parts of yourself.
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We've used that as a starting place. And then all of these other things sort
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of come out of that pretty naturally.
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I've also heard people teach relational cultural theory by starting with the
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context where it emerged, you know, that it was,
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a group of women talking about their experience
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as therapists in a world
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where they were trained mostly by men who were pathologizing things that were
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you know traditionally thought of as things women do like tending to relationships
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or caring too much you know stuff like that so.
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I've heard it that way and when you start there then a lot of these other ideas
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sort of emerge differently but i i don't know that i guess what i'm saying is
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i don't know that there's advanced.
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I think there's some that are a little bit heady.
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Since we've been talking about this, should I read it? Do you want to read it? Yeah.
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Okay. Relational movement. Relationships are dynamic processes. They are always in movement toward either
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better connection or increasing disconnection.
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That shows that it can go either way. Yes. Which is nice.
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It's, hey, things, if we do this, things are going to get better because sometimes they can't.
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Right. Then you feel bad because you thought, I did the thing.
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Why didn't it get better? Why didn't it get better? Okay. So this is good.
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With a flow of mutual empathy, participants in a relationship move toward more
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connection, changing the relationship to make room for expansion.
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Yeah. So the mutual empathy is the big piece there. But this is what I wrote
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about empathy. We're talking about mutual empathy in the relational movement.
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Empathy is a paradox, a sense of sameness and a sense of the particulars of others.
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Although you are joining, you are aware that you are being affected by the other.
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It involves emotion and cognition.
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It isn't just having the same experience.
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It's about sharing your experience of empathy. And at that moment, no one feels alone.
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And then underneath that, I wrote, isolation is one of the primary causes of human suffering.
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Anyway, I really liked that because there's lots of talk now about empathy and
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like, what does empathy mean? Like the difference between empathy and sympathy and the difference between
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empathy and compassion. And how do you have empathy for someone without being so swept away by their
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experience that you're not helpful? And I liked that because because what she was saying there is that you are joining
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and you are experiencing what that person is experiencing while simultaneously
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being aware of your own experience and who you are.
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I like that the whole there needs to be shared empathy.
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Uh-huh. For relational movement. For relational movement.
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If we're talking, you know, if we're talking about being a good ally.
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Okay. Good ally, no matter what. But that group is not asking you to be a hero.
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Right. Right? Yes, just to listen.
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Just to listen, but also the relationship grows when we have mutual empathy.
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Mm-hmm. When we're all in it. Does that make sense? Yeah, when we're in it together.
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When we're in it together. And mutuality is one of my favorite words,
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because the idea that we're both being moved by each other and experiencing
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moving the other person. Mm-hmm.
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Because whether or not we know it, just because it's not happening to me and
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it's happening to you, we're both suffering because as a community,
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we're not moving together. The only way we can get there, utopia, if that ever exists, but the only way
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we can actually get there is if we get together, we have to get there together.
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Part of what makes us have these rigid boundaries and not have relational movement
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is a fear of experiencing that suffering.
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Like, you don't want to open yourself up. You don't want to look at that person
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that's trying to talk to you when you're walking down the street because it's uncomfortable at best.
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But also, it's a reminder that kind of suffering is right there,
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right in front of you as a part of your community.
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So then you get sort of rigid. I hate where this is going. I'm going to tell you why. Why?
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Because it makes me look inside myself in a different way, the way we're talking.
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Like, Daryl Davis, the whole idea of him befriending racists and KKK members
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and Grand Dragons, it always bugged me.
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I have a dislike for that concept.
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You know what I mean? I just have a dislike for liking anybody that is about hate.
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So this conversation that we're talking about, if we're really digging into it, he's kind of right.
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What you're talking about, the person that's suffering on the sidelines that
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I'm trying to ignore, it's the racist.
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Somehow their hatred for others,
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there is something deep inside of that person that That is hurting,
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that needs them to find other people to be subpar for them to keep living,
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for them not to see the darkness that's in their head.
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They need to believe these things.
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I follow you. I hate to follow it that way, but if we are.
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I follow you. And I think that RCT has something useful to add to that particular conversation,
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which is that relational cultural theory looks at power in a relationship as well.
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And so when you're talking about the KKK specifically,
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you're talking about a group of white people who had power and who were terrified
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of losing power and abused their power to take the terror out of them and put
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it on other people. Sure. So RCT is not saying empathize with their use of power.
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RCT is saying you can empathize with fear. You can be like, wow,
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that person's really scared.
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And you can insist. And that's where that's where boundaries come in. Right.
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Because me saying, sure, go ahead and have a racist barbecue in my front yard.
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That's OK with me.
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I want to be friendly. Apparently, yes.
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Right. I don't have to do that. You don't have to do that. You can say,
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I understand that you're scared.
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Here's some resources. And I'm not going to engage in a conversation that is this hurtful.
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And then and then you can move. But but that still involves seeing the person.
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Okay. And for the record, I was talking about seeing unhoused people.
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I know you were. Okay. I know exactly what you were saying.
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But then when you were talking about someone that's hurting and us and trying to ignore it. Yeah.
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It's a different type of hurt, but it's.
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They're scary and they're scared. They're both. They're a little bit of both. Yeah.
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But the con game is that whatever has been going badly for them. Mm-hmm.
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It's all about foreigners. It's all about black people. It's all about Jewish
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people. It's all about women. It's all about trans.
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It's all about. It's not about them. Someone is convincing them, not just Trump, but other people are convincing
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them that the people who are actually making their lives worse have convinced them that it's about us.
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And it's not that we're taking the jobs that we're taking. And so then when
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there's that much fear, then there's not relational movement.
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It gives us the opportunity to reach out to create this movement that we can
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either connect or it doesn't work and we can then disconnect.
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Connect you can look through the building and find some lovely
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circles that kevin has drawn about
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the cycle of connecting disconnecting reconnecting and that it is normal in
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most relationships you can go back you could to disconnect yes so it's not a
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complete like you don't write anyone you're not you don't have you don't have
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to you can say what you're doing hurts me.
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I'm not going to engage with it. I care about you.
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And I'm open to discussing this down the line when you can meet my needs for
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safety in this conversation. You know what? I just now have a great idea.
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You could take this, put it on some t-shirts, the whole image,
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and sell these right before Thanksgiving so that people can wear them when And they go home.
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Many other people are going to be wearing their, I drink 28 mil water a day. Ask me how.
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I'm just saying this will let people go into the holidays thinking, okay, I can do this.
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I'm going to reach back out to my uncle or my granddad or whatever. Right.
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And if it doesn't work out, I can go let it go. So maybe come back 12 months.
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Maybe it's going to be 24 months. But I don't know. A lot of people can actually use this advice.
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Yes. Yes, I think so. I think like the opposite of movement is stuck, right?
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And stuck is not a place anyone wants to be.
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Yet if you write too many people off.
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Isolation is the glue that holds oppression in place.
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There you go. that means we're not talking to each other and nothing gets changed,
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because no new ideas are coming forward.
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Hmm. See, Kevin, we got there. We actually started to, we actually talked about something. We did.
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What were the other cards? Okay. Let's see what else we got.
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The relational movement is our center when I'm putting it right there.
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We have calm and we have guilt.
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Oh, interesting. Dang. Yeah, I know. I like guilt. Do you?
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Yeah, I do. I'm weird that way, but I like guilt because I think it can help you do better.
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At least the way it makes sense to me is to separate it out from shame.
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Guilt being, wow, I did a shitty thing.
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I'm going to try not to do that again, or I'm going to try to make it right.
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I'm going to learn from this experience. But shame is more, I'm ashamed of the basic essence of who I am and think that I'm unlovable.
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Okay yeah i see how you have separated the
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guilt from the the shame that's okay you
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want me to read this whole thing you can if you kind of just said everything
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did i say everything that's not there yeah i mean you wrote this so right predictable
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yes okay guilt is a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense or
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wrong whether real or imagined is often associated associated with discrete
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acts of transgression or violations of standards.
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By contrast, shame is a sense of being inherently unworthy of connection and can be immobilizing.
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So I can feel guilty when I learn that a phrase I've been saying turns out to hurt people.
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Like lots of phrases that you and I have, I'm sure, said over the years,
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and then come to a place where we're like, oh, we don't use that.
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Term anymore. And I can feel guilty about it.
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And then I can do better. Or I can realize that assumptions that I was holding
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are steeped in like our own history of racism that I couldn't even see until
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I started really looking at it. I think it's entirely reasonable to feel
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guilty about that and then to push myself
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to learn more and to do better and that's that's
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to me great yeah but if
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i someone who thinks i could
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never be racist i could
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never be any bad things things
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and then you say hey Amy
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that phrase it's derived
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from this racist thing and I
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can't quite line that up in my head
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with my idea that I can never be racist and then
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I fall into this like spiral of shame where I'm
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like oh my god I'm I'm unworthy of being in community because I can't even do
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this right or you're like that isn't racist you're a jerk for calling me a racist
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and then you protect yourself from that spiral of shame by being really rigid.
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So guilt is pretty big being able to accept guilt but not shame yes is really
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big in growth I think so. Yeah.
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One to hurt the other person or hurt anybody that's listening.
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When we learn about it, we're going to try to make it right.
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Be like, hey, we screwed up. Mm hmm. To do that, we have you have to be open to criticism, open to hearing.
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Yeah. That which is hard. Damn, I'm wrong.
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Yeah. And that's really hard. Like, and I would say, like, in in therapy,
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it's both like essential for therapy to go well, is that like the client has
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to be able to say, oh, you got that wrong or I can't learn and then do better.
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But also i have to be open to whoa
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when i said that i really like i
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said something and i saw that person's face change
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and it's clear that what i said hurt
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and i don't even exactly know why but
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i am i am here and i am ready to learn instead
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of being like oh you misinterpreted me that's not what i
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meant be like wow that hurt let's work
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on repair see see you're
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a genius that is not that was not the conclusion i was gonna read anus yeah
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so how how does guilt connect to relational movement it allows for movement
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whereas shame gets you rigid and down yeah you're able to move Yeah.
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Oh, yeah. I mean, to paraphrase the author of this card, which is by contrast,
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shame is a sense of being inherently unworthy of connection and can be immobilizing.
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Yeah. Who wrote that? I don't know.
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All right. So the other card was calm.
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Do you want to tell us what calm? I can because Calm is a part of like a set
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of cards that goes, they all go with the book Wired to Connect by Amy Banks.
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Okay. I highly recommend this book. I like it because it's accessible.
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And takes some mental health ideas and operationalizes them so that you can feel better, really.
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So she has the, like, pathways of the brain that lead to feeling better,
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and it's called the CARE system, and the C stands for calm, the A stands for accepted,
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the R stands for resonance, and the E stands for energy.
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So this is the CALM card, which is the C in CARE.
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And the calm part is being able to experience a sense of calm that you can get
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from the people who are growth fostering relationships in your life.
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So the story that I think of in her book is of someone going to a Christmas
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party and they didn't want to go.
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It's like a work party and they're like, oh, I don't want to go. I don't like anybody.
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It's a new job. I feel like I don't fit in yet. and they're at the party and
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they're looking around and everyone they see, they're like, see,
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Don's looking at me funny and nobody wants to talk to me. And this is so uncomfortable.
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And then they see the one person at work that they've really made a strong connection with.
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You see someone that you know likes you, that you know you like,
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that has this calming influence on you.
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And suddenly the rest of the people don't look as scary or mean.
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It doesn't look like they're They're talking about you. It looks like they're just people, too.
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And then it's easier to it's easier for relational movement.
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What if you start to notice that other people, they're not connecting?
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They haven't connected yet. And you become that person. Yeah.
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That makes that start to make those connections with those people that are feeling alone.
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Mm hmm. And we actually did an interview with, at the time, he was a sixth grader,
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I think, or a seventh grader on like, we were doing the SIFTs,
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where you like try to get at the implicit skills that people have that they
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can't really describe because they do them so well, but it just is sort of natural.
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And his skill was
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basically what you just described and the
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example that he gave was if i
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were on the school playground and a new
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kid came up that looked like he didn't know anyone what would
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i do i'm getting goosebumps just thinking about it
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was so dear yeah so yeah you could
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become that person is my point yeah actually
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i love that all right do you want me to read this or no i mean you you kind
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of said everything i mean i'll read it anyway so that i can at least have a
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part i need a part to play if i if not i'm just here making i'm just here for eye candy.
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Okay. As used in the care system, calm is a feeling present when your brain senses you're safe.
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When we are able to experience safety, we have fuller access to healing.
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That's pretty deep. Well, it is. And it makes me think about having the conversations
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about racism and what can make those conversations feel, how we could create
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safety in those conversations,
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because those are risky, inherently risky conversations.
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So how do we create a sense of safety? Yeah, if you don't feel safe,
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you're not going to put yourself out there. Mm-hmm. Yeah.
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When we are able to experience safety, we have fuller access to healing.
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Mm-hmm. I'm sorry. It's just, it's good.
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It's a good sentence. Well, and it's so important. Like during our last summit,
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when Amy, like every single like little breakout session we had,
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someone would bring in like a case study and be like, so Amy,
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this thing happened and this, and this was really hard.
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And her answer was almost always, okay, wait, walk it back.
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How do we create a safe place for this person?
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What does this person need to feel safe?
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Music.
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This episode of My Racist Friend is a production of the Bloomington Center for
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Connection, an organization using relational cultural theory to promote social
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change through connection. This conversation between Don Griffin Jr. and Amy McKeese, LCSW,
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took place on March 11, 2024 in Bloomington, Indiana, and was edited for this
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podcast by Kevin McKeese. Theme music lovingly sampled from Your Racist Friend by They Might Be Giants.
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Follow Bloomington Center for Connection on Facebook and other social media platforms.
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Asteroids huh with more lakes and even prettier like breathtakingly beautiful
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and every store is full of like doors it's got a lot of door stores,
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door county is that what you were doing yes i was my god.
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