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to Nobody Told Me. I'm Laura
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Owens and I'm Jan Black. And
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joining us on this episode is
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Helena D'Abala, author of the new
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book, Craig's List Confessional, a collection
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of secrets from anonymous strangers. And
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since 2014, Helena
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has been meeting people on Craig's List
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and documenting their stories. And even
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just from that, we are so excited to talk
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with you. You must have so many amazing things
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that you've learned about people and humanity in general.
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So thank you so much for joining us. Thank
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you so much for having me. And I'm
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very excited to talk about the stories in
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this book. Let's start out with your background.
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You were an immigrant to the US who
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became a lawyer and then found that that
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wasn't fulfilling. And you found a
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very interesting way to try and seek fulfillment. Talk
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to us a little bit about that. It wasn't
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just swimming or picking up a hobby. Yeah. So
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I came to this country when I was
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not even 12, barely 12 years old.
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And I came from Albania with
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my mom. We sought political asylum
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here. And the first
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few months, I would say probably
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even a year after we immigrated
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to this country, were very, very difficult
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in that my mom, who was a
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former family medicine doctor, and
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my dad, who joined us later,
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who was an ambassador, they both
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took on jobs that that were
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quite challenging in
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order to make ends meet. And so my mom
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and I actually ended up cleaning houses for a
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long while, just to kind
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of make a little bit of money. And
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that was my first foray into this world,
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or rather this idea that things
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look different from the outside than
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they actually are from the inside.
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This duplicity, this acting that we
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tend to do, performance,
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I should say, when
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portraying ourselves to the outside world. And
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I think that's also where some of
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my sensitivity to that came from. And
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my parents were very, very pragmatic in
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light of all of these big
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sacrifices that they'd made for
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me to be able to go to school and have
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a good life. They wanted me to
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do something that was kind of easy and
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safe. And so law school had always been
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on the horizon. And I went to undergrad,
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I got a full ride, I graduated
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Phi Beta Kappa from GW, and
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they were thrilled. They
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couldn't have asked for anything more. They're like, absolutely, you
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have to go to law school. And so that had
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become a self-fulfilling prophecy where I thought, okay, now I
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have to. And I never stopped to question, will
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this make me happy? Is this what I wanna do with
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my life? So I did go to law
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school and I graduated when I was 24 and
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got my first job and realized,
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okay, I'm saddled with thousands of
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dollars of student loan debt. And
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I don't like this job, but I'm
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stuck because I have bills to pay
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and responsibilities to my parents. And
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that was a very sad place to be
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because I had to pretend that I wasn't
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feeling all of these things and that everything
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was fine and that I was
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thrilled to have this job and this opportunity. So
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golden handcuffs, so to speak, in the
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sense that you get everything that you've
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ever wanted and then you realize, I
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can't take a different path here because
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I've put so much time and
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money invested already into this being my
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reality. And that's where really
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it started. The facade that I
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portrayed to the world started cracking a little
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bit, and I started realizing this isn't making
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me happy. I need to do something else.
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And so how did the Craigslist
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Confessional Project begin? Washington,
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D.C. is a very special city in
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that there's this juxtaposition there of people
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who have an immense amount of money
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and power and homelessness.
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It's unfortunately quite a common problem
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there. And there was a
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homeless man who panhandled right in front of my
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office building every day. His name
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was Joe. And Joe and I had kind of
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built a relationship, I would say. We would talk
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every so often. I'd bring him lunch from Capitol
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Hill or buy him a sandwich or bring him
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a soda or something. But it wasn't really a
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deep connection. I didn't know him well. And
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then one day I was caught
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up in my own world and I passed him by
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and I didn't have anything to give him. And
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he called after me and he asked if I was upset
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with him. And that
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was a heartbreaking question to see how
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much was riding on our relationship for
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him. He was relying on me for food.
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And so I stopped to talk to him
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and we shared a sandwich.
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And I realized I'd been kind of doing the
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same thing that other people do with homelessness. Most
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other people do with homelessness, which is that it's
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really hard to come face to face with
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somebody's sadness, palpable and very visible sadness.
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And so most people tend to kind
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of revert their eyes and look the
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other way. And by
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placating him with food and not really
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seeing the humanity in him and stopping to
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recognize and have this conversation with him, I'd
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been doing the same thing. So
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we stopped and we talked that day and I
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kind of asked him about his life and asked
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him a lot of questions that I'd been subconsciously
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processing for a while, which is, you know, what
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do you do when it's cold outside? What do
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you do when you don't get food? What do you
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do when you don't get a shelter place? What
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do you do if your stuff gets stolen when you're in the
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shelter, which happened a lot, he told me. So
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we had this conversation. And then I kind
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of opened up too about my own life and what
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I'd been going through, where I'd
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come from and the whole
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immigration experience. And it felt
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really refreshingly real. It felt
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like this real connection that I hadn't had
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with another human being in a really long
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time. And so I went back
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to my office and went back to work and
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I kept thinking back to this conversation and thinking,
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what happened? What happened? Why
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is this sticking with me? And I realized it was
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the first time I'd been honest with somebody in a
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long time. And so I
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kept, that's where I started thinking, how do
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I do this again? I want to have
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this conversation. I want to have all of
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my conversations like this. I want to talk
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to everybody this way in this honest and
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raw and unguarded way. And that's
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where the idea for the ad came where
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Craigslist was ubiquitous in DC. Everybody
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used it. Personal section
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was thriving. So I
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posted an ad and I said, tell
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me about yourself was the subject. And
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I offered to listen to anything that
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people didn't feel that they could share
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with anybody else anonymously and for free.
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Quick send or post. And
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then the next morning I checked my inbox
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and it was just pages of
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replies. Did you initially think that you
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were going to meet up with these people in person
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or were you going to just have them share their
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story with you via email or on the phone? Because
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it seems kind of... I always
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intended for sure, for sure risky,
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but I always intended to meet with people
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in person because I thought that that would
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be the closest way to
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replicate in what had happened with Joe, you know,
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just sitting across from another human being and just
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looking them in the eye and having that
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human connection. And I thought, you can't have
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that by having somebody send you an email.
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You can't really have that through the phone.
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So the intention had always been to meet
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them in person. I
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feel like this happens with so many things where
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before you have a chance to overthink it, it
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gets away from you and you post it. And
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then when I saw the replies, I was like,
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oh, this I guess... wasn't just a
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fluke, this is people are
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taking me up on this. And I think if I
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had maybe had a chance to think it true and
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say, this is Craigslist, this is scary, what are you
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thinking, maybe you shouldn't do this, it
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might've, you know, I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't
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be having this conversation. So I think a lot
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of it came from this like fortuitous
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inability to think five million steps ahead
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on my own part in that particular
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moment and just doing it because I
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didn't think that much would come from
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it. And I was happily wrong. And
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what were some of the responses that
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you got in that initial bunch? What
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did people want to confess to you,
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to talk to you about, to get off their
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shoulders? I mean, this
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was six years ago now. So I can't
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tell you for the people that I didn't meet
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and what people were kind of sending in by
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email, but I do remember from
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that initial ad
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that I got two responses that I
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ended up meeting with. And one of
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them was Sarah and her story is
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in the book. Sarah was in her
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40s, I wanna say at the time, and she
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wanted to, she'd been a heroin addict, her
9:07
whole adult life essentially. And she wanted
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to share the roots of that, where
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that had started from her childhood trauma. And
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she was also a mom, she was a
9:17
parent. So she wanted to talk about how
9:19
that had affected her as a mom
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and how it affected the relationship that she was
9:23
trying to rebuild with her sons. And when
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I met her, she had been clean and sober
9:29
for a long while, but it was
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very kind of evident that
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the sadness and trauma of those years still
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lingered on her. So that was the first
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meeting I ever did from that ad. And
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it was during my lunch hour. So I had
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put in several hours of work. I'd
9:46
set up this appointment, I show up at the
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Starbucks, I'm waiting and I'm sitting outside. I
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remember I was wearing a white dress. It
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was so hot. And
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like it is right now in New York
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City, I don't know what the weather is
9:59
like with you guys, but it was... It
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was so hot, I was sweating. I'm looking
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around nervously because I hadn't had the good
10:05
sense to ask, what are you gonna be
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wearing? How will I recognize you? So I'm
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just kind of looking around at everybody that's
10:11
in my periphery. And I have
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this fear that she's not going to show and I'm
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starting to talk to myself, say this is ridiculous, of
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course she's not gonna show. You set up the sat
10:20
on Craigslist, like what were you thinking? And
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then I see this lady, she's across the
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street and she's walking, but she's kind of
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limping a little bit. And I lost
10:30
eyes with her and I had this thought. It was
10:32
an idiot, I said, that's her. I
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knew it, I knew it because she was kind of
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having the same feelings I could tell her. She's like,
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I'm meeting somebody off a breakfast. What
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have I done? What am I thinking? And
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so she walked up to me and
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I said, hi, you know, and her
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name and she said yes.
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And she explained that she'd bought new
10:51
shoes for the occasion. They
10:54
had been digging into her heel and she
10:56
had blisters because she'd walked from
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the Metro. And so we went to
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a nearby park and had
11:03
this lunchtime conversation. And
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I went back to work that day and I
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realized, okay, this is something,
11:10
I need to keep doing this. And
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I also very quickly realized I gave
11:14
myself 45 minutes and this
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not even close to what I need to
11:18
really, to
11:21
make everybody feel comfortable and not make them feel
11:24
rushed that I have to go somewhere. So
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I kept some lunchtime meetings, but then
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I started moving most after work and
11:30
the weekends. And then it started taking
11:33
over all of my
11:35
free time. And then I started realizing,
11:37
I love this, what I'm doing and
11:39
the people I'm meeting and the stories
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I'm listening to. And I don't love
11:43
what I'm doing. So why am I
11:45
placing priority on my nine
11:47
to five when really it should be
11:49
on this thing
11:52
that I've just kind
11:54
of haphazardly discovered. And
11:56
I decided to quit my job, which
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I did. I put my loan. on deferral, started
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up a credit card, made this financial plan
12:03
in my head of how I was going
12:05
to make all this money, quote unquote, that
12:07
I had saved last for a year, which
12:10
of course went out the window like two
12:12
weeks in. But yeah. So
12:16
I made this whole plan and I quit
12:19
my job and then I immediately regretted it
12:21
and started crying, called my boyfriend at the
12:23
time on the phone, who's now my husband,
12:25
and started crying to him on the phone
12:28
about, oh my gosh, I actually did it.
12:30
And he was like, no, this is what you wanted. And I
12:32
think that you owe it to the idea, you
12:34
owe it to the people that you met with to see
12:36
this through. And
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I gave myself that one year. And of
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course, here we are six years later. When
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you met with people and they told you
12:45
their story and rid
12:47
themselves of their burdens, do you
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think that they did that with
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the intention of then making
12:53
positive changes in their life? Or do you
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think they just wanted to have somebody listen
12:58
to them? I think
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that's a really good question. And I don't think anybody
13:02
has quite ever asked it that way. No,
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I don't think that people saw this as
13:07
a fresh start or a way to
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leave behind their old lives and start anew
13:11
or to get better or anything of that
13:14
sort. I
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think people just, you
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know, I think at the very end of the day,
13:21
this is about being heard. And
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I think people need to be heard.
13:25
They don't need back
13:29
and forth conversations about what they should do
13:31
and how they should change the way that
13:33
they're approaching something or a cousin that you
13:35
had once that went through the same thing.
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No, they kind of just need somebody to sit
13:39
there and nod and maybe reach out a hand
13:42
every once in a while and say, I'm so
13:44
sorry, you went through that or just
13:46
kind of listen and care about the story that
13:48
they're sharing. They want to feel that it's that
13:51
somebody is born witness to this life that they've
13:53
lived or this trauma they've gone through, the sadness
13:56
or whatever or loss or whatever it is that
13:58
they may be sharing about. I
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don't think they do it with the
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intention of, yeah, this will be this
14:04
groundbreaking thing. I think they just
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want somebody to listen to them. They
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don't want judgment. Yeah, they don't want judgment.
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And I think it's very sad because it's
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so telling about what's lacking in our society
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today is this ability to
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share something and unburden of yourself, something
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that is your own truth without fearing
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that somebody else is going to look
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at them differently or judge them or
14:26
think less of them. Or
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God knows if I tell somebody this, the world
14:31
might end as I know it. There's
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this huge burden on us to
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portray ourselves as everything's
14:38
great, everything's wonderful. And
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our whole online persona is
14:42
built around that, about the portrayal
14:45
of these perfect lives, these filtered
14:47
lives that we lead. And I
14:49
think we really are buying into
14:51
that so much that it's creating
14:54
this dissonance between our internal realities
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and our external
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roles. So yeah,
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I think people were just looking to just
15:03
have somebody listen to their lives. What
15:06
advice would you have for somebody then who's
15:08
maybe portraying themselves to be somebody they're
15:11
not behind closed doors as they are on
15:13
social media and they feel
15:16
like they are just
15:18
feeling depressed and anxious and really
15:21
struggling with things, especially right now. If they
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don't have somebody like you who will listen
15:25
to them, what should they do? I
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think the way
15:30
that I like to visualize it is kind
15:32
of like a constellation of stars where you
15:35
look up and unless you know how these
15:37
stars are connected, it just looks like a
15:39
random smattering of dots in the sky. And
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I think with people, it's kind of
15:44
the same thing where unless you reach out
15:46
and you tell somebody what you're going through,
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you'll never know if that person is a
15:52
kindred spirit.
15:54
You'll never know if that person can reflect
15:56
back to you a sort of understanding of
15:59
what you're going through. through. And I think
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that by reaching out and sharing these stories
16:03
about what life is like
16:05
for us, truthfully, what we're doing
16:07
is not really separating ourselves, it's
16:10
connecting ourselves on the basis of
16:12
things that are more important than,
16:14
you know, what's going on
16:16
on social media and hashtags and filters.
16:18
It's on the basis of reality, and
16:20
there's nothing new under the sun. So
16:23
you won't find that, you know, it's
16:25
entirely singular, your own path or that,
16:28
you know, you are the only person
16:30
to ever ever gone something like this,
16:32
it's much more likely that you'll find,
16:35
hey, here's somebody who gets it, who
16:37
understands what I've gone through, because they went
16:39
through something similar. And I'm hoping that what
16:41
this will do is engender that
16:43
understanding of how important it is to
16:45
listen to one another and suspend that
16:48
judgment and extend empathy, unconditional empathy, and
16:50
want to understand each other, and want
16:52
to understand where the person comes from,
16:55
what informs them, what are their lives
16:57
about? Like, what makes them tick? What
16:59
are they passionate about? I think these
17:02
are the things that help us build
17:04
real connections and friendships. So you
17:06
quit your job, and you continued
17:09
to have these meetings with people that
17:11
you'd met through Craigslist. And
17:13
you also developed a website as a result
17:15
of that. Tell us more about the website
17:18
and also about how many people you've met
17:20
up with over the years to listen to
17:22
their problems. So
17:24
craigslistconfessional.com is the website.
17:26
And so in six
17:30
years, I've met, I stopped counting after
17:32
a while, but I've met with well
17:34
over 300 people. And ultimately, what I
17:36
kept hearing
17:40
what was reflected back was the
17:42
sense of, so this
17:44
is what has happened to me now what,
17:47
and there was the now what was
17:49
kind of followed with this hope of,
17:52
okay, maybe what I went through can
17:54
help somebody else, maybe it wasn't all
17:56
in vain. And so short,
18:00
Shortly after I started listening, and I'm
18:02
talking months, not years, shortly after I
18:04
started listening, I started compiling
18:06
notes, obviously, with the permission of
18:08
the subjects and the people that
18:10
I was meeting with, compiling notes
18:12
about the stories that they were
18:14
sharing with the hopes of anonymously
18:16
one day writing about what they
18:18
had shared so that they could
18:20
find that kindred spirit, that constellation
18:22
I was talking about earlier, of
18:26
somebody whose story who might be going
18:28
through something similar. And so with the
18:30
permission, I started writing these stories. And it
18:32
was, I believe, almost
18:34
two years, if not longer than that,
18:37
as me just solo listening and doing
18:39
nothing else, just taking notes and meeting
18:41
with people. And then one
18:43
day, and I have to mention, I had
18:45
not told my parents that this is what
18:47
I was doing. So for about a year,
18:49
they were under the impression that
18:51
I was still lobbying. That
18:54
was very nice. But
18:59
yeah, so we, my husband
19:01
and I moved to New York, and I took that
19:03
opportunity to tell them, guys,
19:06
this is what I've been doing for about
19:08
a year. And that
19:10
really changed everything
19:12
in that my mom was hugely
19:14
disappointed, but my dad just stopped
19:16
talking to me altogether. And that
19:18
lasted for quite a while. And
19:20
this disappointment and the upsetness
19:22
was really palpable. We just couldn't understand why
19:24
I would do this and why I would
19:27
waste a ton of money on school and
19:29
time and not do anything with it. You
19:31
know, very kind of traditional conservative and their
19:34
thoughts about you went to school for this,
19:36
so this is what you must do. And
19:40
then I think that that really
19:42
put a little bit of pressure that
19:44
had not existed before to
19:47
make good on this promise of finding these
19:49
kindred spirits for these stories. So I approached
19:51
an editor at Quartz and I said, this
19:53
is what I've been doing. Would you mind
19:55
if I shared my story with your audience?
19:58
And he said, sure. wrote about what
20:00
it was like to be a Craigslist listener for
20:03
a year and to just do that
20:05
day in and day out with
20:07
no breaks for a whole year to meet
20:09
people off of Craigslist and to listen about
20:11
stories they'd never shared before and That
20:14
was such a wildly I think
20:17
people identified with it so much and
20:21
I approached him afterwards about sharing some
20:23
of these stories on courts and he
20:25
said sure let's give it a try
20:27
Which is what we ended up doing
20:29
and that column ran for over two
20:31
years on courts so
20:34
it was very clear
20:36
from the responses that I got from
20:38
people who reached out after reading these
20:40
stories that What I had
20:42
suspected all along which is that these types
20:44
of stories and issues bond us in a
20:47
shared reality was was
20:49
actually happening and so There
20:51
was a community I think that came from
20:55
From this but it took a long while
20:57
to get there Were there any themes that
20:59
you found in people stories that surprised
21:01
you maybe about what kind of struggles they
21:03
were going through? Nothing
21:07
surprising, but I think that
21:09
it's because I've heard it so many
21:12
times that now that now there's Almost
21:17
The lesson learned here is that as
21:19
I was saying there's really nothing new
21:21
under the Sun So even though the
21:24
details around something might be slightly different
21:26
or tweaked from person to person I
21:29
think the feelings that we all share are Universal
21:33
so there might be somebody who's
21:35
sharing something about addiction and The
21:38
another person sharing something about addiction with
21:40
a family member an experience that they've
21:43
had that's slightly different from that So
21:45
there's a little bit of variability But
21:47
ultimately you find that there are
21:49
absolutely themes that people everybody goes
21:52
through loss Everybody goes through issues
21:54
with their family whether it be
21:56
communication or something of that sort
21:58
and relationships and marriage or
22:00
children, etc. Right? So there are
22:02
these baskets, if you would, or
22:04
themes that, you know, people's stories kind
22:07
of easily fall within. But it also,
22:09
I don't think, helps to categorize too
22:11
much because you don't want to kind
22:13
of rob it from that individuality of
22:15
somebody's story that they're sharing. How
22:19
has it impacted you emotionally
22:21
to hear these stories
22:23
about suffering and, you
22:26
know, trauma that people have gone through? This
22:29
has been the hardest
22:31
thing I have ever done in my life.
22:33
And that I think the reason is
22:35
that, I mean, besides just obviously
22:38
the obvious fact
22:40
that listening to sad stories day
22:43
in and day out makes it hard
22:45
to see the silver lining. I think
22:49
ultimately what I come away
22:51
with is the fact that
22:55
just not being able
22:57
to step back a little bit
23:00
and take that emotional break
23:02
when it's necessary is a hard lesson
23:04
that I had to learn. So I
23:06
think that I maybe about
23:09
a few months in started feeling that
23:11
I needed to do this because people
23:13
were relying on me to do this.
23:16
And I felt very responsible and very personally
23:18
invested in people's stories that they were sharing.
23:20
And I was cheering for them and I
23:23
wanted everything to be great
23:25
and every story to have a happy
23:27
ending. And then you ultimately realize that's
23:29
not life. Life doesn't always have a
23:32
happy ending and people are reaching out
23:34
to a stranger on Craigslist. So they're
23:36
not going to be sharing, you know,
23:38
how great their day was yesterday. And
23:40
if they do, that's really the anomaly
23:43
here. But that's okay. I think ultimately
23:45
once I started kind of balancing things
23:47
out and learned that there was a
23:49
natural rhythm to kind of learn to
23:51
sense when I needed to take a
23:54
break, I ultimately found
23:56
that balance and got to a place
23:58
where it wasn't
24:00
so overwhelming. But honestly, it's taken
24:02
a very long time to do
24:04
the balance, to step all the
24:06
way back and see that even
24:08
though these stories aren't about happy
24:10
things that have happened to people,
24:13
when you look at them in
24:15
summation, it's absolutely about the strength
24:17
of the human spirit, right? It's
24:19
all of the people who have
24:21
lived to tell their own stories.
24:24
And it's so inspirational to
24:26
be looking back now six years out
24:28
and to see how
24:30
positive of an experience this has
24:33
been overall. You
24:35
don't keep in touch with most of the people that
24:37
you talked to. Was that something that you
24:39
decided to do originally or did that just
24:42
come about along the way? Because how could
24:44
you possibly keep in touch with so many
24:46
people? I think
24:48
originally the idea was I'm not going to
24:50
keep in touch with anybody because I didn't
24:52
want to build a relationship. Meaning, I think
24:55
once you start getting to know somebody, there
24:58
are implicit expectations that are built
25:00
from that. And I didn't want people to think, well,
25:02
I can't tell her this because I'm going to see
25:04
her tomorrow. I'm going to talk to her again. Or
25:06
what if she judges me? I didn't
25:09
want that sense of expectation. I wanted
25:11
this to be as far of a
25:13
departure from therapy as possible. Meaning, we're
25:16
not doctor patient.
25:18
We're friend-friend. You
25:21
know, it's anonymous. You're not paying me. We
25:23
don't have an ongoing relationship. So I wanted
25:26
this to be something that people could fully
25:28
take advantage of, that anonymous aspect of it
25:30
especially. So I didn't want
25:32
to say, hey, I expect for a
25:34
relationship to come out of this. That
25:37
said, I don't think most people wanted
25:39
that. So we were totally
25:41
on the same page in that regard.
25:43
But there were exceptions, as you mentioned.
25:46
And not very many. I
25:48
think there's only been four or so people
25:50
that I keep in touch with on a
25:53
regular basis from Craigslist Confessional. But those
25:56
relationships are surprisingly
25:59
enough. Some of the strongest winds
26:01
and most important ones to me. So there
26:03
are people who stories are shared and a
26:06
spark that are. My friends. Why
26:09
not have become I should say my
26:11
friends Not you know originally with my
26:13
friends Br Br Why do you think
26:15
we will confide sayings to a stranger
26:17
that we wouldn't confide to to other
26:19
people cause I heard someone say one
26:21
time will tell people varies secret things
26:23
about our lives if we're sitting next
26:25
to him on an airplane and we
26:27
figure we're never going to see him
26:29
again and the strike up a conversation
26:31
and you find yourself revealing something that
26:33
you may be Haven't told your spouse
26:35
or your best friend or anything. Why
26:37
do you think. That happens.
26:40
I. See and not the anonymity is
26:42
what's to draw. I think that
26:44
idea of. I'll never
26:46
see this person again. Would y have to
26:48
lose hate to say and need to get
26:51
this off my chest? I'm just gonna do
26:53
it. I'm going to say it on. and
26:55
you don't have that with somebody that you
26:57
know well or that you know intimately. And
26:59
not only that, but I think people who
27:01
are totally invested in the long term in
27:03
your life. Those are people who are most
27:05
likely to want to jump in and give
27:07
you advice and sage and also to just
27:09
bring their own narratives in their own experiences
27:12
into this and say hey, this is what
27:14
I think you should do. Where's that stranger.
27:16
On an airplane as like I guess this guy
27:18
wants it's on the but it's like I'm gonna
27:20
sit here and listen and I think said for
27:22
here is what we need we need the guy
27:25
who just sits there and listens and nods occasionally
27:27
and says okay you know and and maybe. You.
27:30
Fi and that acceptance or you
27:32
find that catharsis and having finally
27:34
told your story in your piece.
27:36
it's just so much harder when
27:38
or strings attached to do that
27:40
because of that fear of judgment
27:42
that we talked about earlier where
27:45
you don't want that proceed, don't
27:47
want have registered that. Fleeting
27:49
look have something in their face were
27:51
oh what would change their what happened
27:53
Is this person looking at me differently
27:55
now because I've shared this oh I
27:57
should have said anything we don't want.
28:00
Regret either. A There's always
28:02
this fear. Of somebody
28:04
that we know well of their
28:06
the way that they've looked at
28:08
as of this, this persona that
28:10
we've curated over such a long
28:13
time of building that relationship showing
28:15
the cracks of them perfection. You
28:17
know there's so much pressure these days
28:19
to just. Be. Perfect.
28:22
There's so many people who write books and
28:24
talk about becoming better speakers that not a
28:26
sunny who talk about being goodness as such
28:29
we know is very important and you seems
28:31
you have mastered that as much as a
28:33
person can someone is why would you have
28:35
for the average person who is listening to
28:37
our show who says you know I want
28:40
people to feel like they can talk to
28:42
me, can find me and I can be
28:44
a resource for them. Just a hearing. Their
28:46
story. You know, I think it's
28:49
my main take away, his to minimize myself
28:51
as an audience. Meaning I'm not there to
28:53
reflect my own narrative in my own experiences.
28:55
I'm not there to tell them about how
28:57
something I went through a similar i'm not
28:59
there under six them and tell them about
29:01
how they could do better or what I
29:03
would do in there. And if
29:05
I were in their shoes and just
29:07
there to listen and so knowing those
29:09
boundaries, I think it's important to stay
29:11
within the confines of that and create
29:14
that space. For somebody feels free.
29:16
That. The. Biggest share these
29:18
things and not feel they're sharing their
29:20
time with somebody else, are showing their
29:22
attention that somebody else and I think
29:25
most leaks. You know as somebody feels
29:27
that you're listening because you have to
29:29
or that you know you have something
29:31
else to do right after the see.
29:33
gotta go Or if they feel that
29:35
on you know maybe you're not so
29:37
interested in and would be Has to
29:39
say you kind of lost them. So
29:41
it really is about building as much
29:43
of a constable space for them to
29:45
feel comfortable to share that with you.
29:48
as possible no means asking questions it's
29:50
not all passivity right it's asking questions
29:52
that show the wanna understand why the
29:54
person feels this way and where they
29:56
come from and what they've gone through
29:58
and actual those respects were the fact
30:00
that they're a human being that's lived
30:03
through this. So even if you
30:05
find somebody sharing a story that's so totally
30:07
different from anything you could possibly
30:09
imagine, you have to bridge that
30:11
gap. You have to ask those questions that show
30:14
that you want to understand them better. So
30:16
in a nutshell, ask good questions and minimize
30:18
yourself as an audience. Don't let them see
30:20
you, your wheels moving and thinking about what
30:22
am I gonna ask them next or how
30:24
am I gonna respond to this? It's not
30:27
really about you. The spotlight is on them.
30:30
Helena, our show is called Nobody Told Me
30:32
and we always ask our guests, what
30:34
is your Nobody Told Me
30:36
lesson? So what is it that you've
30:38
learned about listening or about going with
30:40
your heart as far as your career
30:42
is concerned or about life or whatever
30:45
it might be that you maybe had
30:47
to learn the hard way but that
30:49
you'd like to pass on to somebody
30:51
else? This
30:55
is such a wonderful question. I think that
30:57
my answer would have to be, I started
30:59
down this road looking for myself
31:01
and somebody else, looking for somebody that had
31:03
gone through something similar that could reflect back
31:06
that knowledge of, hey, you're not alone, I
31:08
get what you've been through and I see
31:10
you, I see you, who you really are
31:13
and not just this person that you're
31:15
pretending to be. I wanted that so
31:18
desperately. I wanted that connection so
31:20
desperately and so I kept looking for
31:22
somebody else to show that to
31:24
me, to really reach out in a way that
31:26
felt real and
31:29
nobody told me I would find it in
31:31
everyone. So yeah. Oh,
31:36
it's beautiful. How can people connect with
31:38
you and learn more about the book? You
31:41
can go to craigslistconfessional.com and
31:44
there are about a million addresses where you can
31:46
reach out to me. I'm still listening. So if
31:48
you have a story that you wanna share or
31:50
you just get something off your chest, I'm
31:53
at halenaatcraigslistconfessional.com. Wow,
31:56
wow. Well, Helena, thank you so much for
31:58
joining us. This has been really, really, really, really... really insightful
32:00
and just a wonderful peek into
32:03
the lives of other people. Thank
32:05
you so much for having me on. This has been a pleasure. Our
32:09
thanks to Helena De Ibala. Again
32:11
her book is called Craigslist
32:13
Confessional, a collection of secrets
32:15
from anonymous strangers. And again
32:17
her website is craigslistconfessional.com. I'm
32:19
Jan Black. And I'm Laura
32:21
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32:24
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