(07:39):And that's when I kind of realized, like if I have to steal from a drug dealer that I'm actually sleeping with and I just, I pretty sure I, if you can overdose on cocaine, I did. And I didn't go to the hospital. I instead left and, and I felt that here's the thing is that I felt justified when I stole it from him because he owed me money. And what, how, how did I punish him by doing all of it and pretty much giving myself a heart attack. I crashed, landed into my dad's life again, you know, and he was, you know, he'd been waiting for me and he had 25 years of sobriety. Yeah. So he knew exactly how to deal with me. And I wanted to put myself into a treatment center and we'd been, I've been battling with painkiller addiction for probably a good six years since I'd started accruing a ton of injuries from martial arts. (17:23) Cause I don't want to say it's necessarily that I'm fighting anything, but I will fight for my sobriety 100% because I'm fighting for my life and I need to hold onto my sobriety by any means necessary. And I don't necessarily want to fight anymore, but I'm willing to fight for that. So absolutely. And you know, just showing up, you know what I mean? Like that's all you have to do. That's what my coaches would say. You don't feel good today. I don't give a shit. You just show up. We don't know how it's going to go. But the fact that you showed up, you know what I mean? When you go to a fight, you better show the fuck up. And that's what you gotta do every single day in your sobriety sometimes multiple times a day.(35:02):So I like to have tea, caffeine, free tea. And then I like to like to listen to a podcast or like to read a book. And then I try and put my phone down for like 45 minutes before I actually fall asleep and I just drink my tea, read my book or listen to like an audiobook or podcast or something. And then, I go to sleep. And I'm not perfect at that. I knew that about four out of seven days a week. There are some days in the week where I, I fall asleep watching Netflix or something. And then my morning routine, I like to wake up. I like to put on right now I've changed my morning routine since this pandemic. I used to listen to a podcast first thing in the morning, but now I listen to like ETS Eric Thomas's motivational podcast, or I'll listen to like, like a confidence boost, like music while I'm taking a shower and then I'll sit and meditate for about five, 10 minutes and then I'll pray and get on with my day. And again, I do that about four of the seven days a week. I'm not perfect at it, but I try and have that consistency on what I'm doing. I love that.
(43:27):Yeah, yeah, absolutely. Fuck. We are some lucky motherfuckers right here. You know, if you say you're, your last fight, you knew it was your last fight and you were walking to the octagon and the little girl or boy or person, whatever, wanted a piece of advice that you were going to get for them on the way to your last fight and they want it and you want it to impact that little girl or a little person or the younger version of you. What do you think you would tell that person?
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