In this episode Nicoleta explores sexuality and happiness with the author of EXODAI Elizabeth Hendrick, British national living in Tokyo.

Happiness as the 100% contentment with who you are

Starting life in a happy loving family 

Discovering interest in girls at puberty

Fantasies of bondage at the age of 10

Identified as a lesbian at 13

Discomfort within due ingrained religious conditioning

Feeling miserable with own sexuality

Unconsciously attracting dysfunctional relationship 

Hitting the rock bottom at 35

7 years of seeking and self-discovery

How religion and politics shapes our perception of sexual fluidity

The myth that being gay is an abomination before God

Why is BDSM still stigmatised and misunderstood?

How 50 Shades of Grey is not a real representation of BDSM

Theories linking birthing process and BDSM

BDSM as an innate experience

The euphoria in the addiction to torture

Pain as a strong source of arousal in sadomasochism

Sexual (dis)harmony between a BDSM and not non BDSM partners

Fulfilling unmet needs outside of the relationship

The codependency in bending to please the BDSM partner 

In love and tortured by a sadistic Japanese dominatrix

Hardcore BDSM torture to bruises and cuts

The delusion of saving the dominatrix from her demons

The unconscious guilt and shame fuelling self-loathing

When BDSM becomes a vehicle to therapy and healing

Self-awareness that the disconnect over the sexuality led to self-punishment

The symbolism and hidden message of dreaming

Past live regression as a channel to relieve burdening emotions

Coming out from darkness into self-love, gratitude and mindfulness

Sharing the experience in the memoir book EXODAI

Find out more about Elizabeth here: https://exodai.co.uk/

Order the EXODAI book here: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CJDKPZMT